#1.0 Throwback

[flodaya]

I know we bring this back every couple months but how the fuck did they get away with this kind of boyfriend behavior I will never understand

[gotzzy]

They are hot and they know it 😍😍

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[xtrablak674]

[Originally posted on Live Journal on Wednesday, May 17th 2000 at 12:43am, edited for clarity]

When you first walk into my apartment it smells tart. I know exactly what it is, but it still feels foreign. Its the chemical reaction that this neutralizer had to the paint peeler I am using, I have burned some incense to rectify the problem. It's 12:13am and I have just returned back from the movie, and other then the entire cast of The Best Man being in it, I enjoyed it.

Now I am chilling eating a butterscotch krimpet kake by TastyKake, my fingers still a little sticky with pineapple juice from the fruit I stopped and picked up after the movie. On my list of to-do's this evening other then doing this journal entry, which I really hope is going to help me find my writing voice again. I have to finish my application to the White Institute, I think I have completed it. I am happy with it as I can get with it and pleased this time I actually completed it. YEAH!

Anastasia is waiting patiently at my left, looking for an opportunity to jump on my lap. Since I am going to be on the computer for a bit I am opening tabs for my online friends, including johncamlive, christiangrantham.com, keithcam, and Pecsjockcam to whom even though I think he hates my guts I still watch religiously. I am an obsessive voyeur, but I guess its more interesting living other peoples lives then your own. (mental note: go back and make the links live of those site you mentioned)

Anyway, I am stuffing myself of this kake you would think I have never seen food before, and its not like my waistline need it. UGH! I have to send Jeff an email about the gym and his being my personal trainer. I really need to do some exercise other then pointing and clicking the mouse and tickling the keyboard. Too bad you can't get exercise thru you fingers cause if you did I would be such good shape :)

I have so much going on I don't know what to write about and what not to, I guess I should just continue stream of conscious until I am pooped and will do something else. I wish I could say I was horny, but I am not, I have really had NO sex drive lately, I don't know what that is all about, maybe its a good thing. There is one guy I have sex drive for and thats Tony the guy I am dating. He seems to be the only one who can get me horny or get me thinking about sex. Which is upsetting to me cause then it feels like I am committing more to him and I don't sort of want to. (mental note, put picture of Tony in journal)(mental note: begin researching new web host)

But anyway, I guess part of it is I spend so much time alone, which in away I enjoy since I don't like too much drama, but in other ways it gets a little tired, and I sometimes need outside stimulation other then the controlled environment of my DSL-jacked in all-the-time internet connection.

I am chilly let me put on a jacket, hold on...

Anyway....

So much is goin on with leaving kbp [kirshenbaum bond & partners] and all... its a little anti-climatic cause I won't let anyone do any big "to do" about me leaving, I am not trying to go out like that, I just want to be out, you know what I am saying I have been at the agency like goin on 4 years and its just time to get out in creation.

Its not goin to be easy and I know that the same kind of dysfunction that I got away with at kbp I am not going to be able to get away with at SFI, and I know it, and they are paying me nice cheddar so I can't be acting up... Well I can act up a little bit...

I have to speak briefly on my protégé Rob McFarland who I am leaving to the sharks, its so funny how your life can have so many mirrors about it. Rob is like a mirror to Choan my younger brother, who I am now not speaking to after his threatening me and disrespecting me over the phone, a kind of behavior I will not tolerate.

Anyway, Mr. McFarland (thats how I always refer to him) was telling me today he was so upset with me for leaving that he could punch me, which I just find so amusing. Rob like Choan is younger then me, Rob by 4 years at least compared to the two of Chaon, same general complexion as Choan paper-bag tan brown, and hot tempered. I do hope Rob will work on his temper and his anger, he has so much in him to give. I am hardly one to talk, I am quite overdue for some therapy myself, but I just hope he will be able to work well with the next people he has too. It was a blessing to both of us to work together, his being straight and my being the queerest thing since polyester. It made for a good challenge.

I actually had doubts about whether I could work with him or not, cause he was so straight and obviously homophobic (just like Choan) But his work was very tight, which allowed me to accept his learning curve... :) I am very happy to have hired him and to allow him the voice to get a better initial offer then what I offered, the boy has got skills he just needs to focus and he will do just fine.

I hope they will challenge him more then they did me. But time will tell. I think I should wrap up cause this is a long as entry and my fingers are getting tired and I do want to wrap up a few things, like checking the IMDB for the cast list of Love and Basketball and compare it to the one for The Best Man both of which Spike Lee was the producer for...anyway till next time. Peace&Blessings

[Wow, this is twenty four years ago! #NoWords The thing that was most surprising in revisiting this entry is the fact that I deliberately hired a homophobic assistant. It speaks to how clearly I prioritized my obligations to my race over those of my sexual identity. If I recall, I think I had a huge part in the final decision of who would be working under me, and I knew that it would be someone Black. I think I also wanted to pay forward the opportunity I was given having this corporate America job, which can be a very hard space for folks of color to thrive in.

I am blown away that Mr. McFarland thought it was remotely appropriate to threaten violence towards me in the work place, but as I recount at the time I was conflating my professional relationship with the personal relationship of my younger sibling. This is probably why I gave him a huge berth to basically be rude and inappropriate.

The other thing I actually like in this post is the nuance and detail. I am talking about the smells in the room, the taste of the food also the asides about other tasks I need to do. I was hoping to find my voice and I think my voice is very evident in the way that I recorded my feelings that evening. It feels like a time machine trip to that moment in my past where my life was in turmoil as I was leaving the security of one position and taking a risk on the dot-com era career jumping.

My gamble would ultimately not pay off, me being let go with basically the entire staff of the New York office. But this would lead me to my next journey which was me running my own branded website and identity materials firm.

A couple of explanatory commas, The William Alanson White Institute was an institution for training psychoanalysts and psychotherapists which also offers general psychotherapy and psychoanalysis. It is located in New York City, United States, on the Upper West Side, in the Clara Thompson building. It was founded as a protest against the mainstream of American psychoanalytic thought, which was thought to be sterile, dogmatic, and constrictive by the psychoanalysts who founded the institute. - via Wikipedia

I would soon thereafter start therapy with Dr. Anita close by in Park Slope. The therapy ultimately ended because in the corporate world I had such antagonistic relationships with whyte women, that I didn't really think I could find healing with a person who idealized for all intensive purposes my mortal enemy.

During Internet 1.0 webcam sites were very very popular along with reality TV shows like Big Brother, watching other people lives twenty-four hours a day every day was just huge. I was caught up in this trend preferring to watch other queer people, sometimes having multiple window open at a time. I have so many screen-grabs from this period, where it wasn't streaming video but more a refreshing picture every few seconds.

Twenty four years ago I had no idea what would become of this journal I was keeping. I don't even think I could visualize my future-self well enough to know if I would appreciate these missives or not. But I do, continually I am always proud of my past-self and the very good decisions I have made, I am not always saying the results were ideal, but the essence of the intention always shines through.

Photo by Brown Estate]

[suiyoubis]

wednesday campanella — napoléon

[spidermaninlove]

Throwback to TZ (Tomdaya 1.0) shopping at Home Depot (circa May 2018)

[free-boundsoul]

Kinda an unhinged thought but I kinda laugh at Echo in my head when we get the rare Ivan throwback

Echo talking about the Cost of us getting to romance Gavin came with losing Yandere Ivan and yet every once in a while I still get a dose of gaslighting and manipulation and I still get to enjoy Gavin and know that Baby 2.0 gets freedom and Ivan gets better without Vega's influence and gets back together with Baby 1.0? I get to have my cake and eat it too

[not-so-rosyyy]

Now give us some sour flashbacks from 1.0

idk what a sour flashback is anon or if they ever had one that we know of, but I'll give you this:

a throwback to the time when Noon's dad still loved him very much 😥 /lh

[flodaya]

they’ve become locals at northridge just like london

i mean they've both spent a lot of time in northridge since 2017, so them being locals there isnt really new but still :(

lets post some northrdige 1.0 throwbacks because why not

[gotzzy]

SECOND HALF - 2023 PREDICTIONS

One month vacation on the Mediterranean (mainly Croatia and Greece)

Nikki and Claire will meet somewhere and we will have photo proof

one of the brothers will admit that Noon is very good dog and that he and tessa get along very well

Z magazine cover

TZ will appear at the Beyonce concert

hot TZ pictures from LA

TZ will watch a tennis match together and we will have a lot of pictures

Tom will attend both Challengers and Dune premiere

June 1st Z will post a cute picture for Tom's birthday

September 1st Tom will post a cute picture for Z's birthday

someone will spill juicy tea about TZ

T will announce a new project which is a romcom

Z will star in a horror film

On the press tour, Z will say how much she wants to become a mother

Amanda will spill some tea from tcr set when Z was with them

Tom will post a picture of Z with a cute caption

Tom will appear on one of Claire's ig lives to help her sell stones because her business is failing and Tom is a good salesman so he can save her.

we will finally see the design of Tom's signet ring

8k kissing pics on the beach

Z in London again

Rachel finally cut Tom's hair

Tom and Z announced together Spider-man 4

euphoria and sam levinson cancelled

Tom will spill the tea from 1.0 during the tcr press

we will get TZ in jerseys 2.0 ("Holland" on both jerseys)

we will see other parts of Tom's house

Tom and Z will go on romantic getaway somewhere in LA to celebrate T's birthday

Z will post a story - watching TCR and she will praise him

Tom will again talk about his imaginary daughter

Z will talk about her London life

some random fan will post a throwback picture of them when they were in the caribbean

‼️‼️‼️I made this for entertainment purposes please don't judge me, thank you.‼️‼️‼️

[firstshowing]

A black & white version of the exceptional Godzilla: Minus One will be released soon. Godzilla -1.0/C arrives in Japanese cinemas on January 12th, 2024. A throwback to the initial 1954 Gojira movie which was originally in B&W. Take a closer look at the new trailer here: https://onfs.net/4aq7UL

[thelittlefanpire]

snowbell

by thelittlefanpire

The 100 | Blake Siblings + Braven | Snow White AU | Girl!Bellamy | TROPED

Inspired by the Qualifying Round of Madness 1.0 & Round 1 of Throwback @troped-fanfic-challenge || Theme: Canonverse | Character: Bellamy Blake | Tropes: Fairy Tale AU + Good Guy as a Villian/Villian as a Good Guy + Non-linear storytelling + Dæmons AU

A canonverse retelling of Snow White.

[a series of unfinished fics—24/50]

[rosethornewrites]

Hi new Tumblr followers.

Some of you may have found me via the random poll that went viral. This is largely a fandom-related blog with occasional posts about life, the universe, and everything. Sometimes social or political issues.

If you didn’t notice from my Tumblr bio thingie, I’m 39yo enbie queer, have been writing fanfiction since the late 90s, was a professor until December when I quit due to department toxicity and burnout, and I advocate on queer rights/issues/history, disability, anti-racism, anti-capitalist, etc. issues. I’ve previously been involved in protests, particularly when I was more able-bodied. I am a published poet, recently was involved in developing an academic textbook involving the Holocaust, and am generally active in literary communities beyond fandom. I warn you, I also like to randomly quote Hamlet at inappropriate moments.

Fandom-wise, I’ve written mostly for Yu Yu Hakusho, Slayers, Pandora Hearts, Miraculous Ladybug, Mo Dao Zu Shi/The Untamed and a smattering of other fandoms. I mostly write in the MDZS/Untamed fandom now. I used to participate in Kinkmemes on LiveJournal, including helping to run a small one for the Slayers fandom. In the 2000s I ran a small Yu Yu Hakusho fanfiction contest. I helped judge several other contests, as well. I used to RP a lot, as well. I often beta read for friends, though I don’t do it on any large scale as I don’t want to.

I don’t tend to share my IRL info based on a prior fandom’s wannabe-BNF creeper’s henchpeople threatening to dox me. Not that it matters since I’m currently unemployed by choice and necessity.

I like Tumblr as a throwback to the relative intimacy of blogging in Internet 1.0, where even in anonymity there’s more connection than through modern social media, which seems largely comprised of screaming into the void with the dubious pleasure of going viral as the only goal and “reward.” In other words, I’m internet old and crotchety.

I previously went “viral” when I posted about murmurings that Fanfiction.Net might go away, and wound up deleting that post because the notifs were driving me crazy. I also had a random post about a class get featured on a FB group, and was accused of being racist toward white people for simply using the word “colonialism.” As in “English was spread to many places via colonialism and thus has many dialects, none of them more valid than any other.”

The only saving grace to this poll going viral is the fact that it’ll be over in a few more days. I’m not really sure what about this poll tickled so many people into sharing, but from many of the tags it seems to be the fact that it brought up childhood memories and nostalgia for a lot of people. Likely the fact that it was done without the capitalist push to buy something added to the appeal.

Anyhoo, welcome.

[wildflowerswildhorses]

Rewatching old SVU episodes gave me an idea.

What if they continued to have Beverly D'Angelo play Defense Attorney Rebecca Balthus instead making a whole new character, Serafina Carisi? As in, Balthus is actually her maiden name she uses for work, but her real name is Rebecca Carisi.

And she was one of the reasons why her son wanted to become a lawyer. That being said, she never told him about the cases she worked on and going up against SVU at times in the past. Rollins wouldn't have any knowledge of this upon meeting her boyfriend's mother whom already loved her and her daughters before meeting. Whom is now a retired lawyer.

Now imagine this scenario, Stabler and Carisi get into an accident and are at the hospital. Stabler is mostly fine, it's Carisi they're more worried about. Liv and Fin are consoling a worried Rollins when his mother arrives. Rollins runs into her arms for comfort, while Stabler, Liv and Fin are deers caught in headlights upon recognizing who the woman is. And they are even more shocked at the fact that Carisi is the son of the defense lawyer they used to go at it back in the day!

Talk about a PLOT TWIST!! A throwback to 1.0 SVU

Man, that would have been something

[thesplintering]

Throwback FPS “Dread Templar” Now Available on PC

Throwback FPS “Dread Templar” Now Available on PC | #gaming #Steam #retrogaming #pcgaming #RetroGames

Remember, remember the 13th of… Friday… erm, this isn’t working…. Fulqrum Publishing has officially launched the 1.0 version of Dread Templar for PC via Steam, GOG and the Epic Games Store. Created by the one-man developer at T19 Games, Dread Templar is a first-person shooter inspired by its classic 90s forebears – most obviously Doom. The game puts players in a fast-paced, demon-infested…

[not-so-rosyyy]

Can we get some cute throwbacks from 1.0 please 🥹

remember that one weekend in 2017 when Z was filming The Greatest Showman in New York, and Tom (along with Haz and Jacob) went there to visit and they stayed at her apartment?

then when a fan encountered him on the streets, he told them he was in NYC "to visit his girlfriend"...

afterwhich, he was seen on set of Z's Covergirl photoshoot...

and then later on, they watched a movie together and was spotted by fans...

...like they really did all of this and still had the audacity to gaslight everyone including 1.0 whistleblower Skai's momma into believing they were strictly just friends 😭 you gotta respect the commitment to the bit lmao

[flodaya]

A little piece of tea from the HOCO era that is often overlooked is the video that Zs music producer friend Carmen shared of a small listening session of Zs unreleased 2nd album at her place in Atlanta. Joining Carmen and Z were only Tom and Haz and Tom and Z were seated next to each other on a couch while Haz and Carmen were seated on different chairs and Z was goofing around performing to her songs. Interesting that no other castmate was present at that listening party, particularly because Tom was the busiest of all of them and had very limited down time

all these 1.0 throwbacks are not good for my mental stability

but yeah i remember that, i also remember how there was an empty seat right in front of her but miss had to step over the fucking table just so she could sit down next to tom lmao

oh if anyone has a link to that video i will give you my firstborn