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yousaytomato · 4 months

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Current phone: £200, has lasted 4 years

Phone I'm considering: £800, so logically will last 16 years

#this is the only way the price makes sense #feeling stupid and guilty about considering spending that much #because like. you can buy a smart phone for £70 and it's probably FINE #and the expensive ones dont even come with a case or a screen protector or a charger plug or a head phone jack.#or a headphone jack adaptor.#like it's so shit #but also. i use that thang for like 6 hours a day #its my most used object. apart from my bed maybe ??#so in that way getting something good that will (hopefully) last is justifiable #but i shouldn't have to justify it anyway because im an adult and i work and i save a lot #and it's a one time purchase for like. hopefully 5 years lol #16 if im lucky #and cozy lives is only going up #woes of emily

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guinevereslancelot · 2 months

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not to be ungrateful but i don't get paid enough at my job lol

#the problem with jobs that people do bc they love the work is that it doesn't pay well and you will be overworked to death #genuinely couldn't quit bc i love the kids too much already but 15 an hour is....not ideal tbh....#how am i supposed to make future plans in these conditions #i cant ask for a raise ive only worked here 3 months but ugh #the only reason i got hired is i finally broke my rule abt the minimum hourly rate i was willing to accept #i applied to the two 14-16 an hour jobs and used the one i already accepted to get this one to gove me 15 instead of 14 #but that's still not a lot tbh #need to buy an oven since we havent had a working one since january #and i keep gping ok next time i get paid i will buy an oven #and it hasnt happened yet #and i need.....17k to invest in starting my own business and i will not see a return on that for a very long time 😭#and i have no idea where that money will be coming from lol #fortunately its not that time sensitive except it kind of needs to happen in the next year or two probably but idk #if i dont do what i need to do idk what will happen but i think the issue will become more expensive but also maybe less expensive #but also uglier and make my neighbors mad #but i have no choice but to wait bc i have no money for that lol #anyway #17k is my immediate expense but i also need to come up with the money to eventually buy my parents house somehow #and i dont even make enough to pay the mortgage 😭#fortunately i dont need to do that for a long time but...eventually #anywayssss #how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions #i do love working with kids but jts hard work and all my coworkers are petty and hate eachother so its a lot #and i dont make enough money to live fr #im so lucky i live w my parents bc nobody at my job makes enough to live on their own lol #also the sheep that are supposed to be clearing brush got sick and went back to their farm and they're not coming back this year at all #so we need to brush hog it #or contract another farm #im not sure if its even safe w their poop all over the place snd im not getting any communication from the farmers #but it lowkey might be better to get our own sheep but thats so much work i dont want to think abt doing livestock

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2bu · 11 months

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i wish we collectively could have an honest, open discussion about how unfriendly rp spaces still are to people of colour even if they are lead by people of colour, or well-meaning whites.

like, idk, there's still like antiblack events/scenes/dialogues that take place or biases towards white/white passing characters. this doesn' even begin to cover the cliquey nature of rp spaces as is and again, how biased people are and can be even if they claim otherwise. you could have the most open, friendliest space in the world, sure, but even then, they'd still be guilty of at least either: petty gossip or snobbish rpers who think they and the characters they portray (original or canon) are better than you and yours, or hell, just cliquey, exclusionary behaviour.

also, too, usually (i've experienced this myself a lot), if you're a person of colour in an rp space, 9/10 people who are not the same race as you will do just about anything to get your approval with portrayals/creations of characters solely to appease you and not because they have a desire to branch out or challenge themselves to make a character or portray a character that's nothing like them.

#ducky.txt #i don't like rp as much anymore and i still maintain that i was right to leave the space when i was a teenager #because like imo nothing has changed #it just genuinely hasn't #in my experience in the last what? fucking... 3-4 years? it hasn't changed #and i'd been rping since i was 10 on warrior cats forums/rp sites #i stopped at 16 in the msa fandom because the people there were fucking diabolical abusive racist assholes #like. ough / neg #honestly laughs i don't? rp at all anymore to be quite frank #i just headcanon with like holo carlton and randy if im lucky #because like. getting back into the rp space is just not something im sure i can handle anymore and its a hobby that's brought me nothing #but misery most of my life #and usually a lot of rpers make this their sole hobby which also just causes tons of issues if they get crazy about it which they do #literally it's just always been this way! as much as i love oc interactions im not sure i have the heart for it anymore.#been let down and hurt too many times!

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autism-corner · 1 year

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despite loving being trans i always do long to having boy teenage years/upbringing. But. im also autistic. i think that even if i was AMAB i wouldnt have gotten that classic boy life. that realization both deepens the grief yet relieves the feeling because i know that that wouldnt have been me anyway.

#its weird longing for something that others can get so easily. so naturally. wanting something they dont even think about.#its not meant for me.#in all of my teenage life i get half a year of that living as a guy. and only at school. i have to make do.#its hard looking at people younger than me that are already on HRT or have even had surgeries. the world seems so unfair because im not at.#... that point yet. but i know that i have to be gratefull aswell. some people discover theyre trans way later than i did. i imagine that..#... aswell long for what i have. knowing im trans at 16 and living in a country with fairly good trans care (although the waiting lists...#...are hell). im lucky. i know that. yet. sometimes the pain hits harder than the delights. i want to be happy for people on HRT. for...#... people that easily pass. but they remind me of everything i dont have yet.#i need to remember that deep down were all the same. i dont have it the best nor is my situation the worst. its just something thats...#... unfortunately a huge part of my life.#anyway. rant done. im excited to be an out trans guy in uni.#i need to stop thinking help.#its not bringing anything good rn :/#YAY transgenderism 6=w=9 #sillyposting

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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feeling better now I spent like 2 hours browsing fragrantica and found samples of a few intriguing ones on lucky scent + it's my payday tomorrow so I'm going to treat myself to that :3

#so desperate to find smth with a good tomato vine note so i can always have her around... i miss the tomato soap i used to have soooo bad #every time i hydrolyse oil at work (like. weekly) it torments me bc fresh out of a 16 hr incubation it has this lush green tomato smell #so im reminded of it super often..... anyway im still working thru these fancy deodorant balms i got gifted and the most recent one-#has a tomato note its rly gorgeous i think possibly my fave of them so far. might see if i can get a bigger tube of it hmm #ive been using a harsher black pepper/vetiver one bc i need smth stronger in this sweaty weather but forgot how effective the balms are #and how yummy and subtle they smell.. wouldnt it be nice to smell like that all the time ahh..#but yes ill wait in case my roomie wants any samples too so we can split shipping. summer of me smelling nice <3 #also gonna try the demeter tomato one n maybe dirt or earthworm too..not sure id use them alone as perfume but maybe to stim #lucky scent doesnt have them tho sadly.. but i shall find elsewhere #i would LOVE a summer fragrance that was kind of loamy/earthy like rich wet soil but with buddleia notes. but i cant find anything-#in that kinda area on fragrantica sadly. just very specific nostalgic smell for me probably my top 5 smells ever #most stuff w buddleia is super floral n has so many other notes that throw me off from the description #ANYWAY.. i need to sleeeep #goodnight <3 #.diaries

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hjemne · 11 months

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Anyway I saw an academic article from 2011 with Goncharov in the title today and I think I blacked out for a bit

#i cant be expected to write about racinian tragedy after that #vast amounts of stimulants are going to get me thru the next 36 where ive got to pull 2 essays out my ass somehow #if im lucky ill get to sleep #its 36 hours of which 16 'should' be sleep since its night now #rambles

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sadlazzle · 11 months

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i think i might wait until the new mh dolls at smyths go live n then buy all three cause i feel bad still :(

#i thought id feel better when i woke up but. i did not #im jst rlly going thru it right now #im having a lot of revelations i suppose #n im like. im realising things i didn’t want to be true but they are #and it’s all kind of hitting me rlly fucking hard #n im frightened and confused and i have so much to work out #i just. realising ive been trapped and controlled on purpose essentially my whole life #and having a breakdown at 16 was a result of all of that #and i have no idea how to exist without these people who’ve kept me #and having to now play a very careful game of planning and building up #without any of them noticing that anything is amiss #im just lucky i have my dad. cause he gets it and he’s trying so hard to help me break this cycle and be free #im so grateful for my dad. i honestly don’t think id still be here if i didn’t have him #like i don’t really have any friends. i don’t have anyone but my dad #and i don’t really know how to make friends. but i want to #because at the end of the day. as hard as it is to realise and admit #i don’t deserve to have been isolated. i don’t deserve to be alone and have no one #i deserve to be free and happy and everything that comes with that #plum.txt

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the-kipsabian · 8 months

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i always just like surprising people by saying im not a native english speaker lmao

#most often people are just like 'wait for real' like lmao yeah #ive just been taught and been studying since third grade. most things i consume are in english with or without subtitles #ive improved a shit ton of my hearing comprehension purely due to years of wrestling ngl #and yeah ive been reading and writing fics in english for aboutttttt 15? 16? years. so that helps too #not to toot my own horn i know im incredibly lucky to have this especially in our school system for free and shit #but yeah. its just always fun to me when people are very confused about it #ofc im not perfect. but ive been told its hard to tell most of the time lol #night is an absolute mess on main #i will still google words im unsure about. i cant tell the difference between breath and breathe no matter how hard i try to learn #like said im not perfect. im just confusing without the clarification lmao

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fagdykebassboy · 9 months

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only 26 hours left in this season omg

#and junior year drops in uhhhhhh 4 DAYS.#ok i got this. I got this.#i can get like at least 2 more hours tonight and like 6 more tomorrow at least.#thats still gonna be like 16-18 hours i need to watch in 2-3 days so like 6 hours a day If Im Lucky.#yeah im not gonna finish it in time but i’ll only be like. A Day behind. Thats fineeeeeeee

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lovely-mirai · 1 year

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man, i knew that sif would close on march 31st 16:00 jst, but it just closed on me at 16:00, when i live in the eastern united states

FUCK

#i was planning on recording my album when i got home from school #i guess this is a big fuck you if your timezone reaches 16:00 #at least i got to screenshot my transfer so i can get to miracle live in 2 weeks #and im lucky that i dont have to wait longer because i dont have a global account #love live school idol festival #llsif

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epsigone · 1 year

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ok wait the first half of season 17 is way funnier than i remembered it being

#(i'm talking about rvb i doubt anyone's surprised)#honestly i didn't remember much about 15-17 before rewatching and yeah it may not be the best trilogy/arc but it's def got its moments #and tbh i always liked temple #16 is the weakest but i think 17 pulls it all together better than i remember and i enjoyed it more than i expected to #ok so i didn't finish zero as it was coming out but im gonna try and watch it all this time #and then prob go back and rewatch 9 and 10 and prob parts of 8-10 because i love them a lot #GENUINELY THO 17 made me laugh a lot maybe i rewatch the first half of that season again too lol #i have had a lot of Thoughts this rewatch you should all be lucky i'm not spamming you with random text posts daily #(but maybe i round them up and write them down at some point anyway. i esp have a lot of Thoughts and Feelings about Wash. who doesn't tho)

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lonesome--hunter · 1 year

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I feel like a piece of me is gone.

#ive dreaded this day since chewy was a puppy #he gave me almost 16 years #im so lucky i had so much time with him #but it fucking hurts so bad

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boomingsmile · 1 year

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who gave sharp the audacity to be so kind, loving, sweetest person. D:< no amount of words i can put up will ever be able to contain the vibe he has; i desperately need a drink with him and i dont even drink and he doesn't even exist!

#smiletalks #ipeak #that man...............#that man instantly turns any of my ideas into a therapy session; hang on i wrote a fic in tags again #im working on a fic and it has 4.4k words chap where it's just him and mc talking through some ministry related topics #she s been down lately because interrogations took a toll on her despite not leaving a slightest shadow on her marks #sharp isnt pleased she used studying as a method for coping with everything #and it didnt escape him mc didnt want to think farther than her owls or rather the day she will leave the school for the summer break #WHICH HAD CAULDRON OF THE PROBLEMS POTION OF ITS OWN #tldr; mc is an incredibility tough for her age but crucially inexperienced to hold up the pressure put on her #and the amount of decision making #gurl is tired #let her sleep bring back the happy-go-lucky kid she used to be #WRITING FICS IN THE TAGS AGAIN.#idc ill keep on so sharp is wlling to save the day #“She might have grown up faster than her peers -- which shouldn't at all matter for her inner child still enjoys pumpkin fizz and snidgets”#“Although her penchant for brandy worries me. Why would a 16 years old young witch need so much?.. DOES SHE SMUGGLE UNDER MY WATCH. PEEVES?#“nvm turned out she has a granian somewhere; evidently it was stolen by poachers and kept in misery until taken into her care.”#“Also the reason her shoulder was dislocated a couple of weeks ago; *dares not mention he needed its hair; gets it for birthday as a gift*”#*doesnt know what to do absolutely flustered and loosing it but thanking mc she sent a package rather than handed it after class*#*or hed refused it or talked a way out of such a convenience*#*FAVORS MUST REPAY*#*his turn of not accepting refusals now*#“Always a pleasure to have students with high standards for discipline. Although. In her case -- someone needs to keep an eye on her.”#“We had a talk. Talks. We needed to be sure we'd pestered each other enough with 'silly questions for obvious answers' as she had put it.”#“I am up for the responsibility; her inverted sense of danger makes her jump at your presence Matilda I am so sorry I couldn't fix it in --#“-- in a few months. I truly mean an apology but neither of us should worry atm as her summer has been delegated to Mrs Sweeting.”#“I won 30 btw. Oh. Ask Dinah. Or Mirabel. I'm not disclosing until you know full details but I do wonder what were your suggestions.”#“........Thinking on it now how miserable I'd become should she chosen your nephew. Seeing is believing; she put up quite a play.”#“Until she blew everything up like an erumpent but I wouldn't say more. So.”

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bitchthefuck1 · 1 year

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Turned 23 like two weeks ago and now I can't wear heels for more than 10 minutes without getting knee pain. It's all downhill from here.

#my knees haven't been the same since The War (backpacking trip when i was 16)#i get heartburn if i sleep on an empty stomach and my neck hurts for 2 days if i turn it wrong. my brain hasn't even finished developing #yet and my body is already falling apart #im like 99% kidding here aging is a gift and im incredibly lucky #...could do with better knees tho #i am serious tho i know an unfortunate number of families who have lost someone under the age of 25 in the last few years (actually visited #one of their graves today coincidentally) so like. im serious about aging being a gift.#this got a little away from me but anyway

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occasionalficwriter · 2 years

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im trying to make a list of my favorite song but its literally all of them

#faith in the future #on my second listen #im just gonna say which ones are not my favorites #lucky again chicago #common people saturdays #sbwawc ttwlg #so 6/16 #i like those but the other 10 are my favs #sibwawc might be my least favorite #the favorite is tba

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feeling-kinda-sad-ngl · 2 days

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after the scam the bank was like here is the money you lost so u can use it meanwhile we do our investigation and yesterday i got paid 800~ had to give 400 for my car and guess where the other 400 went

THE BANK TOOK IT BACK TODAY LIKE WHAT ? YOU HADDD TO DO IT RN??? i have 3 dollars rn 🏌🏼‍♂️

i'm waiting for the letter to get here about their final verdict because if they took it back then that means they were like yeah no not our responsibility, that was alllll you

and i dont even wanna tell my parents because then that means we go back to the cops to file the report (we had gone at first to see if there was anything to be done but they said they had to wait to see what the bank did) which wont do shit for the money either

and i really dont wanna deal with any of it again i just wanted to be freeee from it all but i guess thats too much to ask for lol

ill probably just take the loss and move on, expensive lesson learned

#its fine right 😀 its only 16 days until my next paycheck 😀 tbh im lucky i didnt get gas ibthought about filling my tank but i was like noo #i can wait a little longer and i mean yeah now i cant but at least im not left in the negatives woohoooo :'p #des is tired

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