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glandesk · 1 year

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I hope you enjoy the above image. I entered some text into an AI image generator to "make" it.

and now, a story:

In 2019, I began working on a solar energy array to be installed on a property in Queens NY. The site was being developed as a low-income retirement community, and the developer was interested in adding a renewable energy system to the project.

The Brooklyn-based solar install company I was working for was selected to be the installer because the developer had an existing relationship with the solar company. But the developer didn’t want to run the solar scope, instead they made us be a subcontractor to the GC for all the work at the site.

This meant that the solar work had to be performed in compliance with the GC’s rules and requirements, as well as their obligations to all other parties in the Prime agreement.

Turns out there was a tinsy bit of federal HUD money funding the project (in addition to private equity and a couple big banks) which meant the project was subject to a whole raft of federal regulations, including Davis-Bacon prevailing wage requirements. (D-B PW)

Now, the solar company and I had experience with PW jobs, but not like this.

The GC’s labor compliance department had someone onsite every day tracking our guys clocking in and out, watching them take their breaks, and noting the various tasks they were performing.

Our payroll people had to submit certified payroll reports to the GC’s labor compliance people every week (we actually had to go from biweekly payroll to weekly for the whole company, because of this project).

Halfway through the install, we received a notice that some of the guys were doing work that fell under the ironworker classification in the D-B PW rates schedule.

What?!

The labor people thought they were doing the best job they could do in classifying the tasks they were seeing. Our guys spent 2 weeks bolting L-feet and aluminum extruded solar racking rail to the roof decking. Because the hardware was called “rail”, the labor people decided that our guys had to be paid like ironworkers.

This “opinion” and the resulting math meant that our crew of 5, working 8 hrs days, should have been paid $78 per hr, not $52. Suddenly, we had $10,000 in exposure to the GC related to labor underpayment. The GC was going to withhold this amount from payment to us for scope completed, unless we paid our guys the proper amount.

Well, we set about to correct the perception that ironworker was the correct classification.

This took a lot of research into the minutiae of the D-B PW regs, and more that a ridiculous amount of explanation about what solar rail is and how it is installed.

While we were able to make 'ironworker' go away, we weren’t in the clear. These classification issues and the related exposures would persist throughout the project.

Following Mechanical Completion, and on our way to Substantial, we got some bad news.

We had been paying our electricians $62 per hr for the work on the DC side of the inverters:

- Opening pallets, moving modules, bolting them to the racking, connecting the MC4s, terminating homerun wires, wire management, etc.

Labor compliance sent a notice that the proper rate for electricians was $116 per hr.

This was a $53,000 problem.

Turns out that in NYC, the union (Local 3 IBEW) had an agreement with the city to define solar install work on the DC side. They had amended the collective bargaining agreement with the NYC DOL in the last couple of years. The text defined the work and determined the proper rate was to be $62 per hr. That was the rate we were using.

But the federal DOL didn’t recognize this classification. In the D-B PW classification list, they only have one bucket for “Electrician”, and the rate is $116.

We were using the wrong PW rate schedule. The one we had always used in NYC wasn’t valid here. We had bid the project with a labor cost assuming NYC PW rates.

We went back to the contract documents, and sure enough, there was an exhibit that called out the Federal PW schedule.

This was a big problem.

We told the GC about the local PW rate, and why we were “underpaying” our guys. The GC realized the pain we were in, and offered to poke around to see if there was something that could be done. The GC told some contacts they had in the housing department in NYC.

The amazing housing people on Gold Street in NYC said they would support us in a petition to the Federal DOL to look at the situation and request a formal decision on the proper rate for this work.

We prepared the proper paperwork, and a letter outlining the situation. We even supplied, as an exhibit, the Local 3 amendment to the CBA that defines the solar install work and gives the rate.

Our letter basically said, “Hey DOL, there are over 250,000 people working in solar in the USA, and you don’t have a labor classification for the work they do. This labor rate for Electrician that you have covers all kinds of complicated work where knowledge of code is critical and the workers need training in using specialty tools. Solar is kinda more like putting sheets of plywood down on rafters and then running extension cords. It seems reasonable to take the position that you should recognize this other type of work as distinct and assign it a reasonable rate. Look, even the IBEW here in NYC acknowledges this. They already picked a rate. Can we pay our guys that number? “

The DOL wrote back, “Nope.”

We appealed.

They took another look at the situation and reported back. At this point, the project was almost done, and the GC was holding onto a lot of money that was requested in our G702 payment applications.

I have read that letter the DOL sent dozens of times (it is written in English), and I still do not understand their reasoning. But they did declare that they performed a work task analysis and evaluated the market conditions for similar comparable tasks in the trades. They even interviewed reps at the relevant unions to help constrain the range for the proper rate.

They arrived to a rate that complied with the federal rules related to how DOL runs this kind of analysis. They said we had to pay our people $84 per hr.

This wasn’t $57 per hr, and so we still had an underpayment issue. But it made the $53,000 problem into a $21,000 one.

Our contacts at NYC housing said this was a huge victory and we should be really proud of ourselves.

So now, whenever we bid a PW project in NYC, we ask to see the rate schedule, and we triple check to see if it is NYC PW rates, or Federal rates.

When it is Federal rates, we price our elec labor at $84 per hour ( we like living on the edge).

Then we get the notice of underpayment halfway through the project, with the citation that D-B PW says electricians should get $116 per hr.

Then we initiate a rate classification inquiry to the DOL, and we submit the letter we got from DOL in 2022 as an exhibit. “Hey, remember when you did a study on this exact matter and arrived to $84 per hr?” So far, it has worked out in our favor a couple times.

Our crew loves working on those jobs.

Sometimes, I wonder what the difference is between open shop rates, and local PW rates, and federal rates for other geographies.

I even once suggested to SEIA that they investigate this. Maybe in Southern California or Georgia or Illinois the difference between the federal D-B PW rate for electricians isn’t so high as in NYC. But maybe it is high enough that petitioning the DOL to make a bucket for solar installation would result in a few of millions of dollars in labor cost savings across dozens of projects. Reducing project costs by that kind of money would increase the amount of solar installed every year in this county.

I guess there just aren’t that many projects elsewhere in the states that are subject to federal D-B PW rates. Oh well.

Which brings me to “photovolfaic”

The original letter we got from DOL responding to our rate classification inquiry contained this typo in the critical section naming the Proposed Classification. The second letter from them referred to the first, so they used the same term. All subsequent letters and official correspondence from DOL have referred to the proposed classification as:

“Electrician-Solar Photovolfaic Systems”

( I guarantee that our original SF-1444 form sent to DOL contained the proper spelling in the field for “Proposed Classification Title”. )

I once called my contact at DOL to try to attempt to correct the misspelling, while being humble about “photovolfaic” being an unfamiliar term to me. She was firm that I needed to honor the classification defined by DOL and referenced in their letters.

Therefore, I have preserved the use of the term as they spelled it in every following letter.

It’s pretty silly. But my engagement with them requires me to be deferential. The power differential in this relationship has me perpetuating their error.

I fear that this matter will escalate to some senior labor official in the White House and we will end up catching a clip of Joe Biden on CNN talking about growth in “photovolfaics”.

Anyway, my co-workers and I joke that it is actually a real word, traceable back to Olde Englisċ, perhaps originating in a draft manuscript by Chaucer.

This idea became an image in my head that I couldn’t shake. So, I URL’ed over to an AI image generator and now I have this memento of the hundreds of hours I have spent dancing with the DOL about how much to pay the guys who lay the glass.

I hope you like it. Have a sunny day

#old timey aesthetic #solar energy

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phantomtutor · 2 years

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circus-witch · 6 years

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Working on the 2019 grimoire challenge (discovered it late, this is part of me blasting through the first two weeks of January). I really like how this turned out (the bit scribbled out is just my maiden name) @2019grimoirecchallenge

#2019 grimoire challenge #2019 gc week 2 #grimoire #title page #astrology #palmistry

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thepatchworkcrow · 6 years

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Week 2′s Thursday prompt (I’m moving ahead because I have free time) is “Start a page for the deity or deities you worship, if you do...”

Since beginning my pagan path about thirteen years ago, I’ve worked with a number of deities: the Wiccan God and Goddess, Brighid, Cerridwen, The Morrigan, Gofannon the Smith, Manannan MacLir, etc. Usually, my working with them is brief. They seem to come into my life to offer a lesson and then disappear again into the mists.

Though I’ve worked with a number of gods and goddesses since beginning my path, two of them have remained with me throughout that time, taking up various masks before identifying themselves. It is a personal choice not to name them here, as my names for them are personal to my path.

The first is my Hunter God. He was known by me as Green Man when I first began my journey. For a time I thought him to be Herne the Hunter. He has been many things to me: forest guardian, bringer of vegetation, fearsome hunter, vampire, king of all that is dark untamable and wild, lover, mentor, face in the trees, leader of the Wylde Hunt, lord of fae... He appears to me either: clad in tartans and furs, woad paint over a scarred physique, hair in braids, horned and wearing a cloak of dark feathers; or as a shadowy trickster, all darkness and finery, thin lips over sharp teeth, dark eyes that watch your pulse and every nervous movement. The latter is rarer- usually when he has some harsher lesson to bring forth. On my altar, I have statues of horned figures and collections of feathers, bones, bits of wood and things from the forests. I leave him offerings of wine or ale and poetry. I dedicate my archery practice, my drumming, and my walks in the woods to him and listen for his hounds and horn from the northwest.

The second is my moon goddess, Lady of the Lantern. For a summer, I struggled to identify her, finding traces of her in the stories of Hel, Arianrhod, Cerridwen, Persephone- and yet, she was none of those goddesses. She appears to me clad in deep starry blues and silver. She bears a blue lantern and a scythe made of a birch branch and a shining silver crescent moon. I have long held a fascination with the moon and stars, and had a difficult time connecting with a goddess as I did my Hunter God. Recently she has come to me: a washer at the ford, a light in the darkness, mother of death, strange, mysterious, beautiful and half shrouded. On her side of my altar I have a blue lantern to mimic the one she carries. I leave offerings of star-like crystals, black feathers, and candle light. She has been my guiding light through some very troubling times since graduating.

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marindram · 3 years

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full transcription of Marin's blog from Omega Mart!

huge thanks to @b0chelly for recording a scroll-through, which i typed this out from. (and warning for Omega Mart lore/story spoilers. second half is in reblog)

Marinknows.best

Location: Seven Monolith Village

Last Login: 12/31/2019

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About me: I love listening to music and glitter

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June 26, 2018

Happy Birthday to meeeeeeeeee!

So 14 feels way different than 13. For real. I think it's because I was expecting 13 to feel different, but sometimes when you expect something it turns out the opposite ya know?

Plus, 13 is like, "I'm new to being a teenager!!"

14 is more like, "I'm becoming the person I want to be." At least that's how I want it to be. I wanted to start this blog as a record of all that.

I should ask Did you guys feel the same way when you turned 13 and 14?

But probably nobody's gonna read this because I'm just a weirdo in the weird dessert. I mean, I know my best friend Jesse is reading this (hi Jesse). Besides her, crickets.

But yeah, if you are reading this and you don't know me - I live in Seven Monolith Village, a teensy tiny town that you've only heard of if you're into aliens or homesteading. And I'm literally stuck. As in, I'm physically unable to leave. My first memories are of all the adults in my life (Charlie, my great-uncle/father-figure - Rose, my what? Roommate? Mother-figure? Pseudo-aunt? All of the above? and my mom, Cecelia. who doesn't live here) telling me that for some reason, there's something wrong with me that makes it so I can't leave a certain radius of where we live. I got older and thought that they were just exaggerating to keep me safe, but then last year I tried. And it was, let's just say not good.

Anyway. That part of my life sucks, but not everything sucks. This year is all about Marin Dram 2.0. Not new, but definitely improved.

And maybe someday, somehow somebody will read this and care about what I have to say. Somebodies, even. Until then, this is Marin Dram signing off and sending my lame contemplations into the void!

July 1, 2018

Things I Want To Do Before I Turn 20 (and some of these will never happen like are literally unable to happen but JUST LET ME DREAM

1. Kiss someone (who???)

2. Meet HTB (kiss him) (jk he would never) (plus meeting him would be enough)

3. Go to Paris

4. Go to Rome (or somewhere cooler in Italy, look up where is the best pasta???)

5. Go to Greenland (why not???)

6. Go to New York City

7. Go to LA (with a dream and my cardigan lol)

8. Go to the Grand Canyon (this isn't mine, but 9, Jesse is sitting right here and she went to the GC when we were 12 and she's like blah blah blah it's my favorite place in the world and you'll love it. I'm doing this so she'll shut up.

9. Live in a normal house with normal rooms → ideally 12 of them: living room AND TV room, kitchen, dining room, 3 bathrooms, 3 bedrooms, study/library.

-plus an upstairs downstairs

-I'm willing to compromise on the number of rooms as long as there's more than ONE for TWO PEOPLE and I got my own

-plus an upstairs/downstairs

-I'm willing to compromise on the number of rooms as long as there's more than ONE for TWO PEOPLE and I get my own room with an actual door. Very into doors.

10. Go to a mall (Jesse says there's a bunch of bonkers ones in Vegas)

11. Make friends who aren't Jesse (no offense, Jesse)

12. Get Cecelia (my "mom") to teach me about business stuff so I can open my own cool coffeeshop/bookstore someday

13. Learn to drive (ask Charlie to teach me, he's obsessed with his truck) (Jesse says she can teach me because she's Little Miss Mechanic and thinks she knows everything about cars but news flash Jesse: you're you get than me)

14. Figure out my signature style- like I want people to send me pictures of things and be like "this just screamed Marin" and for that to be true

15. Liquid eyeliner??

16. I'm stopping here because I just read over all this and want to die/cry because easily 3/4 of these are literally impossible?

17. Kill me

18. Bye

19. Lololol Charlie just came in and I was complaining about this, not being able to leave and stuff, etc and he said that I should visit new places by... reading books?? And I mean I like to read. But dude. That's the dumbest thing I've ever head.

July 30, 2018

Okay so this is what I want my life to look like:

I want a pink room. Not just pink... P I N K. Cool pink wallpaper (floral? jacquard??), pink carpet, lots of pink flowers everywhere, a four-poster bed with a pink silk canopy, lots of cool pink throw pillows. Like, so pink that

people think I'm being sarcastic! Oh, and BOOKS. Floor-to-ceiling bookcases, and some of the shelves have, like, STUFF on them that isn't books, like gifts people gave me, or things I've collected on my JOURNEYS. You know, normal stuff that people who live on normal places and do normal things have.

If I lived in in this room, it'd be in awhite three-story house at the end of a cul-de-sac (did you know "culs-de-sac" is the plural? Not "cul-de-sacs"? crazy) and I'd wear very classic girly clothes and my hair would always do what I wanted it to. It'd be one of those towns that people call small, but it's actually a city. just one with a kinda small, cozy feeling. Somewhere that gets cold enough to wear cute jackets but not so cold I have to to like, shovel my driveway. Not a non-place with like 100 people where you can't even go outside without going crazy.

August 2nd, 2018

I guess I should explain where I live, for all my avid fans out there! (lol) (hello??)

So like... I don't live on Earth. At least, not the Earth you think of when you think of EARTH. I live in some some weird off-brand version of Earth called the Forked Earth where there are aliens and magic wells of magic energy and everything is MAGIC but like the crappy kind of magic, where the sun never fully rises and some goo called "runoff" has made everything wacky and oh yeah, my mom is responsible for that and everyone here hates her!! LOL

Also, I can't leave! Like, literally can't! Rose says I'm a "special child of Source" and that's why but that LITERALLY explains tells me nothing, in fact it just raises further questions that no one can seem to answer! AHHHHHHHHHH

Anyway, the last time I tried to leave I felt. When I try to leave I feel like I'm being pulled back by something, like you know those old cartoons where someone's on stage doing something dumb and then someone offstage pulls them away with a giant shepard's crook? It felt like that, and when I opened my eyes I was back in 7 Monolith Village. UGH.

I know this sounds crazy!!!!! But believe me when I say that I am the least crazy person here. Also, """here""" is C R A Z Y. Runoff has made everything the bad kind of psychedelic and then people here actually DRINK IT! Not only do I not DRINK THE STUFF THAT HAS MADE THE WORLD INSANE, I also do not talk to aliens (or whatever Nula are) like Rose or believe crazy conspiracy theories like Charlie, so I believe that qualifies me as the most normal person in the Forked Earth, thank you for this honor, I accept this award with humility and grace!

September 4, 2018

I had the weirdest dream last night?? I was swimming in a pool full of cereal, and when I came up for air, my mom was pouring milk on my head like she was rinsing my hair. She had her hand over my face like I was a little kid and she was shielding me from soap getting in my eyes.

Anyway I have no idea what it's supposed to mean. I went to bed hungry and I need to take a shower? Lol

October 16, 2018

I was trying to hide this entry from Jesse, but JESSE IS A NOSY PERSON. She says that blogs are for readers, and if I wanted something to be private then I should "Just write in a fucking notebook and hide it under your bed like a normal person, Marin." I'm allowed to have secrets!! Anyway, I'm making her a freaking playlist, that's why I wouldn't tell her what I was writing about. but EVEN STILL! I'm allowed to have secrets!! But I have this blog because I wanna get my feelings out, I wanna see everything in my head typed out all nice in a way that doesn't make it look insane. You know? I don't know who I'm asking.) Because, it's not like I go to a normal school or have a normal life where I'm surrounded by normal people I can talk to. No one knows about me! I'm trapped in this crazy place and This blog is my only outlet to the world outside. I KNOW that's heavy but it's true! The point is: Jesse's birthday is coming up. The central consistent thing in pretty much my whole life is sharing headphones with her and listening to music. The soundtrack to my entire existence is her. I wish I had money and could buy her the best presents of all time, but I can make her the best playlist of all time. I want it to be so good it feels like magic. I want her to think I'm magic. I had another dream the other night. I don't remember much, just glitter. I must be crafting too much. Or looking at festival makeup tutorials. Or both.

November 12, 2018

WARNING- Weird thoughts ahead, lol.

I can never tell which feelings are normal, and which are me being a giant weirdo. But for as long as I can remember, I've had this feeling like every part of my body that's possible to have a ribbon tied around it, has a ribbon tied around it. It's so weird. I can't see the other end of the ribbons - how far they go. where they're attached, nothing. And sometimes it's fine, because sometimes I can hardly feel them. I can forget about them for days at a time, weeks, months if I'm lucky. But then other times I can feel them like, pulling at me. It's freaking spooky, to have something pulling at you from somewhere you can't see. I can't tell if it's pulling me toward whatever it is? Or if it's trying to warn me? Or if I'm just insane??

Does that make sense? Does anybody else feel that way? (she asks into the void)

So idk I guess this ribbons-feeling is why I'm really careful all the time. Like I'm just a careful person. Charlie tried to give me a hard time about it, and I can't be like "I don't wanna pull back in the ribbons too hard without realizing it and wreck something!" because he'd be like "WTF Marin, do we need to get you help?" But also, more and more, I want to be the opposite of careful. I want to take a pair of comically oversized scissors and cut the ribbons into so many pieces that nobody can even tell what they are any more.

I don't know why I'm such a freak, only that I am. I don't know why I can't leave 7 Monolith, only that I can't. But there must be a reason, even if I can't see it, and I feel like it makes sense that the ribbons-feeling is part of that reason, right?

There's just a lot.

January 15, 2019

Happy new year! Lol I forgot to write on the actual first day of 2019, but OH WELL!

I got this new glitter nail polish, thanks to the monthly makeup subscription box my "mom" sends me as an outlet for her abandonment guilt. It has like, every color glitter imaginable without quite reading as "rainbow" which is fine just not really what I was in the mood for and it's vaguely halographic and shifts into all these different colors depending on the light. I'm obsessed. Anyway.

I was putting on another layer because I chipped it like 20 minutes into wearing it, and all of a sudden I had this feeling like I recognized the glitter? Like I felt this thing way deep in my gut and for a minute I couldn't breathe. It's the closest thing I've felt to how books and movies make Christmas look. Like I was home, with family, cookies and cider and all that stuff. Familiar and safe. I almost didn't recognize that feeling. And it came from the nail polish. How weird is that.

I mean, I don't want to make it sound like I've had this awful Charles Dickens childhood - Rose and Charlie are the best ever and always there for me and I love them a lot. But things never feel like...home. You know?

My mom always says this cryptic stuff about how I'm "special" and I wanna strangle her because I'm not, but you try getting my mom to stop doing anything she wants to do. Rose told me once that one day, I would "lead the charge into a new era of existence and access" because I'm "of the Source" and I was like uhhhh okay?? Charlie mostly treats me pretty normal, except when I ask him questions about our family. my mom or any Dram. He knows that I want to know more about them and he's my only real entrypoint, but apparently he's like the black sheep of that whole family. He and my mom were close way back right before I was born, but now whenever she comes to visit he barely even looks at her.

So that's to say: nobody tells me anything, ever.

January 16, 2019

Okay this is so weird. I wrote that entry yesterday about glitter and then last night I dreamed about glitter. Then I woke up with purple glitter in my bed?? Like not a lot, so at first I thought it was from my nail polish, but it was just a handful of purely purple glitter that looks nothing like my nail polish. SO WEIRD!!!!!!

February 14, 2019

Rose has an old book full of "ye olde" style fairy tales, and I flipped through it for the first time in forever today.

Not so weirdly, I've always been drawn to the story of Rapunzel.

Rapunzel couldn't leave the tower, or else she'd break her neck and die.

Same.

February 19, 2019

I was reading this article the other day in one of the teen magazines my "mom" gets me a subscription to and it was all about body positivity, which is great, but it was basically just like "wear a crop top if you wannna wear a crop top! it doesn't matter what size you are! You go, girl!" And like, sure. Yes. I am all for that. But doesn't it seem like there are some steps missing in there? Like, I can physically put on a crop top and wear it outside. But how do I convince myself that everybody isn't looking at me and making fun of me in their minds? How do I unlearn the last almost-fifteen years? How do I get actually positive about my body, not just put on a crop top and fight the urge to cry all day?

It's the same thing like when my mom sends me brochures from the CEO camp she ten when she was my age (her dad started the camp for her, which is an insane thing just by itself, but she did all the work, which is even more insane) and she's like "Marin, you lack direction for your life" and I'm like, cool mom. Yeah. I can see that. What I can't see is how to get there from here.

March 2, 2019

This is what I want my life to look like, volume 2:

The walls of my room are covered in Polaroids of me and my friends. There are lots of mirrors in all kinds of shapes. hearts and moons and stars. There's a record player and a lot of vintage records by Billie Holiday and Lena Horne and Peggy Lee and Nina Simone. And Christmas lights! Everywhere! Lots of of pink and purple Christmas lights everywhere.

If I lived in this room, I'd have so many friends and be part of so many clubs. My best friend would have a collection of vintage cameras, and every place we go to that has a photo booth, we'd get photos taken. Every time I'd look at myself in one of those mirrors, I'd feel happy at what I see and never weird or sad. (Jesse hates taking pictures, so even when I actually do normal stuff with her there's no evidence. What even is a life supposed to be without evidence? That's not an actual question you need to answer Jesse, it's just a question)

Anyway, if I lived in this kind of room, my mom would probably be like, an art history professor at a liberal arts college. That's how come everything looks so cool, because I would know stuff about art. My mom and I would love to try new recipes together. We get each other new cookbooks for every special occasion, and right now we're working out way through a Moroccan one. Moroccan Mondays.

In actuality, there's a dust storm happening outside and my eyes sting.

March 9, 2019

Here's what I'm obsessed with lately.

Can. You. EVEN???

February 3, 2020

Omg I totally forgot this blog existed!!

I lost the password and instead of just resetting it I got in one of my super stubborn moods (Taurus moon lol) and just kept putting in guesses and jokes on me, it locked me out. Anyway, that's a boring story.

But my friend Ximena is really good at hacking and stuff, so she got me back in. Yeah you read that right - I have friends. Obviously a lot has happened since my last post. Ximena moved out here a couple months ago (X's family used to live here but they moved away a while ago) and she introduced me to Lora who I sorta-not-really already knew, and Jesse and I have been hanging out with them a ton. Jesse kind of more than me. Which is fine!!

Anyway I'm 15 now? If I lived somewhere normal I'd be psyched about almost being 16, because I'd get a car and have a Sweet Sixteen and eat a huge PINK cake, but I don't!

February 16, 2020

I read this fanfic the other night that was written in the second person so everything was like "you." "you're doing this" etc you know?

So... You go to a drive-in movie with Heartthrob Boy, and he spills soda on you by accident. And you take off your shirt ( you have a tank top on, don't worry) to clean it up, bit you're still all sticky and self-conscious about being sticky and HTB like... used his tongue to get it off??? AAHHHHH I'M DISGUSTING

but also I wonder if a boy will ever touch any part of me with his tongue

March 2, 2020

Hi I don't know if you heard but I have friends :)))

March 15, 2020

I think I'm so into painting my nails and doing my hair because those are things that always fit. I don't have to worry about places not carrying about a size 8, or places that carry XLs but when you read the measurements they're actually size 8s too and it's like jesus if that's an XL what am I

My "mom" was confused why I needed new pants because mine still look new, but I showed her the thigh holes and she was like "that's a weird place for a hole, how did that happen" and I realized that when your legs are a certain size, you just don't know about thigh rub and what it does to clothes. Pants could just last for years.

No matter what, I can paint my nails with a different color nail polish on every finger, and I can always do a braid crown. And I know I'm cute as hell, etc, so this is not a Marin Needs to Learn to Love Herself thing. It's just an UGH thing

April 17, 2020

So Rose does all these Source experiments on plants and flowers and stuff. Tbh, it's just one if those things I hardly even register anymore because it's just always there. She's explained to me a million times what Source is/does/means, but the way Rose explains things sometimes is just a LOT to take in and she refers to me as a "child of Source" but I kinda figure that's like "child of God" right? What else would that mean?

But anyway, it's really annoying because dried flowers are a part of my new aesthetic and I pinned a bunch of them up on my wall but I woke up this morning to a freaking jungle of very alive flowers. I freaked out. on Rose, and she Rose said she didn't do it and I was like WELL THEN WHO DID and she said that I did??

Which like. Obviously that doesn't make sense. I asked her what she meant and She just shook her head and said " It's happening. We should have known" which is some horror movie shit that she refused to elaborate on. I love to feel safe and normal!!

Or maybe it's not a horror movie at all. But maybe it's a superhero movie? Maybe there's some kind of origin story I don't know about yet, and all of this will be worth it once I figure out my powers. I wonder what my costume will look like. Lol.

April 23, 2020

Is it possible to die from longing? I know that sounds melodramatic, but I'm also kinda serious?? Because it seems like one of those things that could fester and get infected and kill you. It's like when you fall down and bang up your knee, and you need to put a band-aid on the scrape for a while, but THEN you need to air it out - but how do you know when you're supposed to do each one of those things? And if you do either one too much, your knee gets infected. What if I smother my heart with band-aids for too long and it gets infected? This isn't about anybody. I just keep having these dreams about someone I never expected to have dreams about and they're so intense that they keep leaking into my life and I wonder if I need to do something about them.

May 2, 2020

So Jesse's gotten really into metal music, and I tried to get her to play me something since, AS PREVIOUSLY ESTABLISHED, that's what we've literally ALWAYS DONE with music and each other, and she kinda looked at Ximena out of the corner of her eye and said like "I don't think it's really your thing" And it was the meanest thing anybody's ever said to me.

So later I looked up Zenion, the band she was talking about, and I listened to every single fucking song they've ever recorded turned up as loud as it could go with my own headphones that are better than hers anyway, and I loved it. And I didn't love it just because she said I wouldn't. I loved it because it was loud and weird and wild and when I listened to it it made me feel like it's not crazy when so feel stuff so hard it's like my heart's gonna vibrate out of my body. And I would have told Jesse all this and we could have shared it, but I guess she thinks just because I like HTB and glitter and stuff, I don't have the capacity for anything else.

She clearly doesn't know me at all. So much for any kind of whatever, why would she ever want to kiss someone she clearly sees as like a stupid baby.

May 7, 2020

The dreams are getting weirder and they're happening more. I'm getting scared to go to sleep. Not that the dreams are always scary (they almost never are, or not scary like in a typically scary horror movie way). I mean, I've only ever been me. I don't know what other peoples' dreams are like.

The other night in one I was jumping on a trampoline, which is something I've never done in real life. I told Rose about it when I woke up, and she said "do you even know how to jump on a trampoline?" and I said "Rose, it's not like riding a bike. You don't have to learn. You just jump." and then we got into this whole thing about how some things we just know, and jumping's one of them, and how that's so weird. Sometimes I really like talking to Rose about stuff.

May 19, 2020

So, it's prom season in the real world. If I lived somewhere normal, my prom dress would be pink with lots of tulle and silk flowers at the shoulders, and it would fit perfectly and trying in dresses would be fun and not anxiety-inducing.

But since there are only like 10 teenagers currently in 7MV, were not having a homecoming. Cool.

May 27, 2020

So, mom came to visit this weekend, and I asked her about her prom. She was Typical Cecelia at first, very "Prom is a waste of time and money, Marin. It's a night when lesser people play dress-up to engage with their aspirations of grandeur." And I was like eyeroll forever and just stopped talking. BUT THEN she actually talked to me like a human being. She was like, "I actually didn't go to my prom" and when I asked her why she said that she didn't have a date, and was very self-conscious about it. I almost passed out at her admitting that she's ever been anything less than perfect.

(gonna continue this in reblog)

#omega mart #marin dram #omega mart lore

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Repost: Ask on Taeyung Smoking and BTS Outgrowing their Idol Image

Anonymous: Hi, BPP! I am a baby ARMY (2 years) and I thought there would be harsher reaction to V caught smoking, but I feel relieved there's not. Do you think ARMYs are getting calmer/accepting/not judging? I mean I am still confused by the fact we do not know who their real life partners are (as a western fan it was so weird for me, although I understand it could be dangerous for a said partners). Or is it BTS that has already outgrown an "idol" image, although I think they were never ones... And that is why I adore them so much.

Hi Anon,

Lol at “ARMYs getting calmer/accepting/not judging”.

I have something to say about your perception of ARMY after spending ~2 years in the fandom but we’ll get to that later. (I’m guessing you’re from Dynamite era, but wouldn’t that make you at least pre-school ARMY by now? How do these terms work?)

I think it’s a bad idea to try to use reactions to Tae’s smoking pics as a gauge for how “ARMYs” behaviors have evolved, because many things about the reveal on Saturday/Sunday/Monday were unique and not comparable to any other previous ‘scandal’ for the boys. My personal opinion is that nothing about ARMYs reaction to those pics was unusual at all - contrary to perhaps popular opinion, the core of the fandom has largely treated BTS members as independent adults who can drink, smoke, fuck, eat/diet within reason, lol.

Here are some things that influenced dominant reactions:

The Grammys: A lot of ARMYs were focused on the Grammys and knew that as this is k-pop, there would be someone who would try to create controversy from any angle. So (1) ARMYs were mostly distracted with the Grammys, (2) they were also prepared to not let anything sour this moment for the boys.

The source: As Tae’s pics were obviously taken by a sassaeng, it was easy to discourage spreading it or giving it much attention on that basis alone.

Tae’s smoking is old news: A lot of people in the fandom have known for a long time that Tae vapes and smokes. It’s been all over Korean forums for years, and on the international side, well…

Both photos showing Tae’s vape pens are from 2019 and the first time I saw a mention of him smoking an actual cigarette was in 2020. So this is something a lot of ARMYs knew but didn’t think was a big deal and either downplayed or ignored.

Solo stans were occupied, but opposing fandoms were not: I’m not sure if you notice, but the people who typically freak out about controversies for BTS members are usually from other fandoms or multis/mantis with overlaps with BTS solo stans. This is something that happened in 2019 with jikook’s 'controversies’ with women (Jimin in the Paris pub and Jungkook casually backhugging a woman). It was Exols, blinks, and a few multis that were moots with Tae akgaes / solo stans that were in GCs that started the hashtags and created all the noise. Also in late 2021 with Tae’s 'controversy’ of visiting a museum where a woman he knows happened to be present, it was jikook akgaes / solo stans and shippers that spread those photos along with hate and sensationalist language. And with Jimin’s 'controversy’, also in late 2021, of another woman who happened to be in LA while the boys were there, this happened literally two weeks after Jimin akgaes had stirred up controversy for Tae (the museum photos), so it was no surprise when ARMYs noticed it was mostly Tae akgaes and taekook shippers spreading the rumors for Jimin. In every case, people from other fandoms and multis were at the center of that mess. The very same thing happened with Tae’s smoking pics, except in this case, solo stans were also largely pre-occupied with the Grammys. They were too busy screenshotting 'locals’ praising their idols and otherwise just drumming up hype. The people who wanted to create a scandal out of those pics were obvious and on Sunday you could search up “Tae smoking” on twitter and see tweets from blinks with 30K likes and everyone from Onces to Stays to Shawols to NCTzens in the quotes hyping it up lmao. It would’ve gained traction if solo stans weren’t also busy, but they were, so by Monday ARMYs had gotten some of the primary accounts suspended.

Now, about solo stans, these are the people who are extremely sensitive to the perception of their preferred idol. These are the people now trying to say the pics are edited, saying that Tae doesn’t and can’t possibly smoke, and otherwise reaching all the way past Timbuktu to preserve his 'pure’ image. A lot of ARMYs, by contrast, were reminding people (from other fandoms who thought there was a scandal here) that Taehyung is a 26 year old man in a country where roughly 40% of men smoke. It’s primarily solos and diet solos who are committed to keeping the 'idol images’ for their faves, though this particular scandal is kinda weird because a lot of idols are known smokers.

One other factor I can’t ignore is the subject: Tae - I’m under no illusions that if it was Jungkook or Jimin caught smoking, it would have been a bigger deal. Taehyung has the most solo stans out of all the members, so this also controls for the sort of negative news that gains traction for him, but also the sort that gains traction for members considered to be his competition by his solos i.e. Jimin and Jungkook.

There are more diet solo stans who are masquerading as ARMYs, than the fandom is willing to admit (to its own detriment) and I think Taehyung in particular has a lot of fans like this. Anyone going 'I hate company stans’ or is a hardcore Taekook shipper, is someone I’d put in that category.

I’d say BTS has been outgrowing their 'idol image’ since 2018 when they started to assert themselves more as artists who cannot be pigeonholed into the k-pop category, and they've also done this in more subtle ways such as how Jimin first got tattoos that were still considered to be taboo, followed by Jungkook who got a full sleeve of tattoos in the following years. Again, it was solo stans and people from other fandoms who tried to make those things a scandal, but the core of the fandom supported BTS members in all these choices. Jin is practically 30 years old, and (because of the pandemic) BTS members spent the longest time they’ve lived apart for the first time in 2020 and 2021 which allowed them time to personally explore all sorts of things (Jimin and Namjoon’s weverse interviews come to mind), and I’m curious to see if we’ll have more individuality in their new album that’s supposed to signify a 'new era’. A lot of older ARMYs are still the core of the fanbase, are growing up with the band as well, and have generally always treated the boys as people who have agency and can make their own choices.

You mentioned BTS dating and how the fandom could respond to that but that’s a whole can of worms that probably deserves its own post. (Cause I’ve seen some major delulus who really think they have a chance with these guys from the most unexpected parts of the fandom). So if you’re curious about that in particular, please send me an ask.

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Now, this is unconnected to anything in this post, but there are real horrifying things happening in the world right now. Yesterday, some of the poorest and most vulnerable people in Ukraine, in the small town of Kramatorsk, were forced to start evacuating. Russians butchered everyone from toddlers to grandpas in Bucha, and now my friend is on her way to Kramatorsk to assist with last minute evacuations there. These are people who have no money, no resources, no plans, but are forced to leave all they know just to try to avoid certain death. If you’re able to donate but haven’t yet for any reason, please consider donating to humanitarian efforts in Ukraine. If you’re in a country with a strong parliamentary system, please consider reaching out to your representatives to put more pressure on Russia and do more to support Ukraine. If you’d like to do this through ARMY resources, a link is here.

Originally posted: April 6th, 2022 8:58am

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changebydjo · 4 years

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IMPORTANT - PLEASE READ

so i’ve put off writing this for a long, long time, and it’ll be painful for me to make this post but at this point i feel like it needs to be done. someone within the liz fandom has been lying, gaslighting and manipulating me as well as many others, both online and offline, and after getting proof on everything (plus their lack of remorse) has prompted me to write this.

this is about gil perez, aka @unrated-g, and one of his irl friends, kim @kimbus-the-whimbus, to a lesser extent, but mostly gil. since 2016 - nearly 5 years now - he’s been lying that he’s best friends with liz gillies. i’m gonna put a read more because it’s a long, insane, and ridiculous thing that happened, but please read all of it and know how serious this is, as well as all the damage this man has done.

i met gil through tumblr in 2018 - he had been replying my posts since before that, but early 2018 is when i followed him and started chatting with him casually. over time, i noticed that he would reblog posts about liz and in the tags he would seem to be talking to her or referencing her, but not by her name - instead he would call her “goblin”. he would mention things that “goblin” liked or behind the scenes on dynasty stuff, and after a few weeks of noticing this and chatting with him about dynasty/liz, i ended up asking him if he was friends with liz/knew her personally because of the way he spoke about her. he confirmed to me that he knew her, she was one of his best friends, and he “didn’t expect” anyone to pick up on it. he told me to keep it private and i agreed, obviously, because i had no reason to not trust him, and i know that liz values her privacy.

it’s important to note that liz does NOT follow him or any of his accounts from her verified twitter or instagram accounts - instead, he said she had an “extremely private” encrypted tumblr account that could only be seen by people she follows/white listed. he was one of them. her blog would not show up for anyone else, and they met through tumblr in 2016 (even though he said she followed him back in 2010 and he didn’t realize until 6 years later) through their mutual love for uncharted, and bonded over playing uncharted 4 multiplayer together. it’s also important to note that liz has had 2 tumblr accounts since 2010, both of which she has abandoned, and he said that her private tumblr is separate from those two. she also was friends with him (according to him) through PSN, where they would play ps4 games together, and all of his text convos with her are from that app:

(^ “liz’s” PSN account)

throughout all of 2018, we would text on a regular basis and started becoming good friends. he was extremely kind, always willing to be there for me, and listened to me about not only fandom stuff but also my irl problems. he also became friends with my friend group, who were also in the liz fandom, and it was really nice for a while. in october of 2018, gil said he went to HHN with liz and matt in LA, and for xmas of 2018, he said he spent it with liz - both in LA and in NJ, which is what she typically does to spend her holidays with her family and friends. her pale blue eyes cover was also for him, according to gil, because he asked for her to cover it specifically and she did just for him.

gil would also occasionally stream for friends, and sometimes liz would show up:

beginning of 2019 is when gil and i started getting much closer - we started playing games together (mostly mario kart, at the beginning) and talking through voice chat. he would talk about liz and personal things about her/her life or dynasty, and he always willingly supplied that information himself - i never asked for it, i wasn’t friends with him to get information on liz or have an “in” with her. chatting with him made me feel good and happy and important to him, and i realized i started having feelings for him - which i told him about in april 2019. he said he wasn’t sure exactly how he felt but he thought he might feel the same, the only really complicated part (besides the fact that this was long distance/not irl) was that he also had a really deep crush on liz, someone who was his best friend/ultimate celeb crush. he was really like in love with her, even though he said he tried to suppress it. anyways, after me admitting that to him, our friendship started to develop into something more. we weren’t ever in an official relationship, but things were definitely not strictly platonic with us. we went from chatting once every week or two to almost every single night for 3-6 hours per night for MONTHS. throughout that time, our relationship became sexual, too, and my feelings for him just continued to get deeper and deeper.

this continues throughout the rest of 2019, and then new years 2020, everything just...goes to shit asap. gil got really distant with me with no explanation, i felt like all the affection he was showing me and the kind things he would say to me, as well as our bonding time when we would chat together, was just ripped away unexpectedly. i constantly asked what was wrong and what was happening, and told him how i feel, and i got no real response besides just being tired/non-sociable, etc. (which, for the record, is completely understandable, but it was such a huge 180 in behavior that it worried me and things never went back to normal after that). in addition to that, kim (who was mentioned at the beginning of this post) is one of his best friends irl, as well as his on again/off again ex (according to him). anyways, there were posts that she had made that indicated to them not being exes and instead still together - or at the very least not platonic - which crushed me when i found out, because until that point i had no reason not to trust him. i told him about it though, and how it hurt me because my feelings were so deep for him at that point i felt that i loved him, and he told me they weren’t together. this isn’t really necessary for the liz stuff of this post, but it’s important for context for how hurt and on edge i was already feeling before things got worse.

we would still chat maybe a few times a week, but nothing like it used to be, and i was happy we would even chat at all, even though things felt so weird and different and off, and no matter what i did, i couldn’t fix it. as 2020 started going on, and this continued, his friendship with liz started making me feel extremely uncomfortable. knowing that he had the weird boundaries with his ex, plus whatever was going on with me and him, AND that he was in love with liz?? it was unsettling. i felt like i couldn’t compare, because it’s *liz gillies*, someone i obviously love and idolize and look up to. and she was up on a pedestal for him, even though he said that he never tried to treat liz differently than his other close friends just bc of who she was, but that wasn’t true. anything that she said or did, he agreed with 100%, and would defend it. when he and i would chat, and i would mention something about dynasty that bothered me, he would talk about what liz’s thoughts were on it and how she felt and that she was right to feel that way and it made me feel awful. this happened on multiple occasions throughout various topics, from dynasty to fandom stuff to liz’s friendships/relationships, etc. no matter what, to gil, liz was always right and he always had an explanation for anything that happened. the way he would describe liz and the thing he said about her made me see her in a completely different light - she was not the same liz that she presented herself as, at least in gil’s eyes.

he would always talk about how amazing liz was to him and how she did so much for him, such as buying him gifts, supporting his art, etc. this was hurtful to hear because i was doing the exact same things for him, as well as our group of friends: we had been buying his art (not only the art prints but the ACTUAL original copies), sending him gifts or money for gifts, supporting him and his art on social media, as well as just being a genuine friend to him. he never appreciated or thanked us the way that he thanked liz; none of us ever compared to her, even though we were doing the exact same thing for him that he said liz was doing, as well. it made me feel like no matter what i did, or how supportive i was, i was never enough.

we also had a discord with gil, that involved him, me, and my friends sarah, hope, amanda, and dom. within this discord, it’s worth noting that gil was the only man there, and would talk about liz and his friendship with her there, unprompted. we never asked for info, he volunteered everything willingly, and we all kind of glossed over it at the time because we weren’t friends with him for liz or any of that.

(the screenshot gil linked in the gc is what “liz’s” private encrypted blog looks like on his dash. please note the edit post button in the bottom right of the screenshot.)

another important thing about his friendship with liz/being in love with her: he has this specific kink (which i don’t want to say what it is for privacy reasons) and he said that liz was engaging in this kink herself, and that he was jealous of liz’s bf/wishes he could engage in it with liz, etc. i wasn’t into this kink before talking to him but because i had liked him so much at the time, and i was slightly jealous that he wanted it with liz, i thought that i could indulge in it for him. it was something that i was not physically or mentally prepared for/able to make happen, and it really caused an impact on me, and he just...didn’t care. at all.

anyways: this stuff continues, then around summer 2020, my friend sarah reached out to him. she (and my friends, along with me) were starting to distrust the things gil was saying about liz, since it went completely against what liz would say herself. she would say she only plays the sims 3 on her computer - he would say she was a huge gamer and played the sims 4 on ps4, along with minecraft, uncharted, the last of us, horizon zero dawn, etc. he would say that liz and maddison brown (her dynasty co-star) played ACNH with him and quickly got to 5 stars - liz said in a zach sang interview that she didn’t play animal crossing. every time something didn’t add up, his excuse was that liz was lying for her privacy. she didn’t follow gil on any verified social media accounts in case “people harassed him” over being friends with her. so sarah texted him that she needed to talk to him about the liz stuff, because there was evidence it wasn’t true, and he denied all of it. he firmly stuck to his story, and sarah gave him multiple chances over several days to come clean and he wouldn’t. she asked for simple pieces of proof that he could give her, and he wouldn’t besides fake screenshots of her “private blog”:

he told me afterwards that if it comes between his friendship with liz or sarah’s, he’s picking liz - end of story. his and sarah’s friendship was done after that because of his decision. he blamed sarah for “ruining” liz and maddison’s friendship because of her asking for proof, and made her out to be the bad one in that situation. he ended up deleting the discord gc after this happened, with all of his screenshots/”info” as liz as well (we got screenshots of things before he deleted it though, much more that’s shown in this post).

about a month later, my friend léa also confronted him about it. gil had told her some things about liz’s “reaction” to meeting léa in paris, and at the time, it had made the experience more special for her. once she realized it was all lies, though, it really hurt her - he altered that special experience for her and twisted it into something that wasn’t real. he had the same reaction to léa’s conversation as he did to sarah’s, and he refused to tell the truth. their friendship was done with after, as well, along with a few other people from the liz fandom. i was the only one who stayed friends with him after that, and that was because i was closest with him and still trying to see if i could fix things with him. i was still naively believing that he would treat me okay again, he would make me feel important instead of always a backup option, that he wanted me again.

but of course that never happened. he continued to ignore me, talk to me less and less, and would subtweet me on his private account. after he stopped being friends with sarah and léa and everyone blocked him except for me, i was the only follower on his private account, as well as being the only person he followed there. gil, though, kept saying that liz had a “private twitter” where she would talk to him on his private account. he also said that he had “merged twitter accounts” into one, which was his private, which messed up his account and wouldn’t show who he was replying to, quote rts, or that he was following them, which - if you have a twitter, you KNOW none of that can actually happen. but it was his excuse to constantly subtweet me and my friends for not believing him, to maintain his story, AND to have convos with “liz” on there that only i could see, where he made it sound like he was talking shit about me to her. it was extremely manipulative and served no purpose except to fuck with me, because he knew that i was the only one seeing those tweets and knew i was already struggling with not knowing what to believe. here’s some of them:

(you can very clearly see that i’m the only follower/following on that account, the number is at literally 1, and he STILL was acting like he was talking to someone else and that other people were following him.)

now comes jan. 2021!! WE GOT DEFINITE PROOF THAT IT WAS ALL LIES. from multiple people. one of liz’s close best friends (that gil included in his stories about her, saying that he met them) said that they don’t know who gil is, have never met him, and it’s best for us all to block him for our own safety. a co-worker of liz’s (who was, again, included in gil’s lies, that he hung out with them multiple times, played games with them online, and bought him gifts) said that not only had they never met gil, but EVERYTHING he said about them was untrue. they even listed the inaccuracies he would say about them, such as gil taking photos of them at things like the SWT, and they confirmed who actually took the photo. they said that “none of it is fucking true” and that gil is a narcissistic liar, and also encouraged us to block him for our own safety.

i confronted gil myself about this a few weeks ago, and he continued to maintain his story that everyone’s lying to protect his privacy - even though we know for sure that wasn’t the case. he FINALLY owned up to it to me only once he saw i had proof and he was caught, and his reason for doing it was “he was bored”. he said he was sorry but he wasn’t truly apologetic - he either didn’t fully realize the scope of how hurtful his lies and manipulations were, or he just didn’t care, but the bottom line is that he always chose his fantasy of liz over his actual friends. around this time, once he knew he was caught, he also deactivated his private account, but brought it back a week or so later, with all of the subtweets and tweets about liz being deleted. all of the unverified accounts that were supposed to be liz - the tumblr account, psn, twitch, etc. - were all fake and made by him, so he could make it seem more real.

even if he WAS telling the truth about being friends with liz, he still would have completely violated her privacy by the amount of “secret” things he told all of us - from her kinks/sex life, to work life, to very personal things that he claims happened to her. knowing it’s all fake though, and he made up an entire personality and life for liz that doesn’t exist??? it’s insane.

now the part with kim - she’s known gil irl for over 10 years, and has tweeted about liz all the time, about how “good” liz is to her because of gil, and that she’s the one who encouraged him to talk to her. she brags about it constantly, even though none of it is real. she also tweeted multiple times throughout 2018-2019 about how gil “finally deserves to meet liz in person”, even though gil said he met liz irl back in 2017 or so - AND that she came to texas, where he lives, to meet him and his friends. when asked about her tweets, he said that kim’s account was “messed up” and her tweets weren’t “tweeted at the right time”. one of my friends reached out to tell her and show her the proof of gil lying, because gil has been lying to her and other people irl too, and instead she mocked us, belittled us, and chose not to believe a group of women coming to her about a 30 year old (!!) man manipulating us. gil said that kim was “aware of it all being a lie for years now” to me, but i think that was another lie, that he’s STILL lying to her about it. if not, then that means that kim was also lying for many years about knowing liz too, and used it to make us all the butt of her joke, so. so much for her being an “empath” and wanting to help people but anyways!!

the last screenshot is of her subtweeting us and implying that everyone involved with liz is lying for her and gil’s privacy, even though we have proof that that simply isn’t true.

i’m sorry for how long this is, but i need people to understand how serious this is. he’s been lying for 5 YEARS now about knowing liz - about her “accidentally sending nudes” to him, that gil is one of her best friends and he would’ve been at her wedding, that she’s a huge gamer who plays with him - all of it. it’s all lies. he created a fantasy version of liz that doesn’t exist, and incorporated into his real life, his friendships both online and off, and made it his entire personality. he’s not sorry about what he’s done - as i’m writing this, he’s still on tumblr, talking in the tags to “liz” again, because he’d rather uphold his fantasy life where he’s best friends with liz when in reality, she has no idea he even exists. and if she did, i’m certain that she would be disgusted with what he’s done. he lied about her, oversexualized her, used his kinks on her which was brought onto me - someone he knew that was vulnerable and had feelings for him, manipulated people into trying to believe his lies, gaslit people to make them unable to tell what was true and what was fake, and had absolutely zero respect for any of us. he even listened to me cry to him on the phone MULTIPLE times about how insecure and worthless i felt to him compared to liz, and he didn’t do ANYTHING about it. he sat there and listened to me cry, knowing he could own up to his lie, and he chose not to. he’s not sorry about what he’s done, and he’s going to continue to spread his lies. please block him. i can’t express how much he’s hurt me, the therapy that i need to have because of him, how much he’s hurt my friends and how little he respects women in general tbh. he always tried to come off as “one of the good guys” but now i know he’s harmful and not to be trusted. he even tried to separate me from my friends, and make it seem like they’re the ones making this situation even harder for him. i’ve tried so, so many times to get through to him, waiting to see if he’d change or show some remorse or anything, but after over a year of this i don’t think he will, and it genuinely hurts me to know that. BLOCK HIM.

#important #signal boost #long post #liz gillies #elizabeth gillies #so liz fandom ppl can see

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ppangjae · 4 years

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interview tag game!

tagged by: @nctsworld

tagging: @sehunniepot @smoll-tangerine @jeongvision @jaedore @lebrookestore @danishmiilk @ncteaxhoe and everyone else who wants to! i’ve completely blanked out it’s like 5am pls bear with me

name: alexa (alex for short wink wonk)

pronouns: she/her/hers

star sign: pisces

height: 5’7 (i finally checked after a doctor’s appointment — i am indeed 5′7)

time: rn... 5:02 am EST

birthday: march 12 uwu

nationality: filipino-canadian

favorite bands/groups: bts, nct, exo, red velvet, epik high, the whole dpr gang gang, uhHHhhh i suddenly cannot think dkjhfskdjh but honestly i listen to everything except country music so that should explain a lot

favorite solo artists: oof if we’re talking s.k soloists: iu, chungha, sunmi, hyuna, jessi, SAM KIM, and a LOT of khh and krnb artists but if we’re talking like outside of s.k solosists: jacob collier, daniel caesar, sza, kiana lede, frank ocean, H.E.R, the weeknd, rex orange county, and there’s just... a lot to unpack so i hope this shows you what kind of music i’m generally into

song stuck in your head: telepatía by kali uchis

last movie you watched: one week friends! sighs kento yamazaki... what a refined man

last show you watched: idk probably some filipino drama but listen filipino dramas are on some next level intense family drama shit and it really just shoots your blood pressure up so ever since then i’ve just.. no <3 ALSO now that i think about it, the last legitimate show i watched was probably alice in borderland which was in december-january kjsdhfkjshd so it’s been a while

when i created my blog: oof december 2019 it’s been 2 years

last thing i googled: i shit you not... it was ‘skrrrt corvette corvette’ don’t come at me

other blogs: a really old blog of mine is still up on tumblr but has been neglected LMAO it’s @rkiverse but my side blog is @ppangjaes and my fic rec blog is @ppangrecs

why i chose my url: (ppang = bread) + (jaehyun condensed = jae) = ppangjae

# people i follow: oof 413

# followers: eeeee we recently hit 2k so i’m just uwu i love u guys so much

# hours of sleep: LISTEN my chaotic gc can back me up on this but ever since i got my puppers i’ve been sleeping really early and waking up early so from 9-3 that’s a solid 6 hours of sleep but BEFORE i got my puppers i had a questionable and confusing sleep schedule — we love consistency

lucky #: 3, 9, 12, 7, 1, uhHHhh i think that’s it

instruments: i used to play the piano until i was like 12, i played clarinet for a good 3 years.. stan talent jk i wish i never quit piano i truly regret that now as a 22 year old

currently wearing: a very oversized shirt and a pair of biker shorts

dream job: i’d love to be an obgyn but that’s a very hard dream to reach so something with gynecology studies or lab research

dream trip: japan, s.k, greece, italy, honestly all of europe

favorite food: ahhhh my mom’s meals point on period

favorite song: hideaway by jacob collier it truly takes you to a different world

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: marvel ohohohohohoho, also harry potter, and uhhhHHHhh that’s pretty much it oop

#alex.txt #thank u cee for the tag uwu #ily

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golfingpositives · 3 years

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It’s been a crazy few weeks for me… I ended up coming 2nd placed on the leaderboard at the English Disabled Open and off the back of that was selected to play for the South of England DGA Disabled Golf Team at the Belfry winning both the pairs 3&2 and the singles 5&4 including a birdie on the Derby and a birdie on the Brabazon. What an amazing year it’s been and can’t wait to get back on with the European Disabled Golf Tour next season and see what comes next in my journey, just 8 years ago I couldn’t lift a knife and fork, 5 years rehabilitation and only 3 years of competitive golf… in those 3 years I’ve won the DGA at Mannings Heath, Bicester Open, The Players Championship, The Donny Valley Cup, represented England against Wales, represented the South of England 2 times, had a 3rd place finish at the Southern Disability Open & East Anglia Open plus many runner up OOM finishes and been the DGA UK no1 in 2019 before having more surgery. Played 2 English Opens for Golfers with Disabilities and came mid table and 2nd place Runner Up 2021. With Ealing GC coming up on Monday in the Disabled golf Association; I’m not letting the very probable need for more surgery get to me, I’ll take it as it comes and come back stronger. #headupnexttackle

#golfaddict #golfer #golfing #golfingpositives #golf #disabled #abilitynotdisability #disabled golfer #golfers #golflife #sports #headupnexttackle #health & fitness

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thepatchworkcrow · 6 years

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What the Heck IS Magic, Anyway?

I’m going to do my writing for the #2019GrimoireChallenge just directly on my blog for the time being (I didn’t want to stick these in the middle of my OBOD course work). But anyway! The first research/journal prompt for Week 2 was Magic: what it is and how it works.

The answer to this will literally differ vastly depending upon who you talk to. So for sake of not ruffling feathers, etc. etc. this is my gnosis of the above topic.

Magic is, to put it most simply, the act of changing, attuning or manifesting something within one’s self, the world, or the web of fate and circumstance.

Now, I know that doesn’t really seem very simple at all, but stick with me for a few more paragraphs. Magic, for me, can be sort of split up as thus: the magic of life/being/awe, the magic of working change within one’s self-which can be accomplished in a number of ways, and the magic of working change in the web of fate/circumstance/etc.

The first is those moments that are magic- looking up and being taken aback by an inky sky full of stars, the way a cold wind hits you as it rips over the bay dragging a storm behind it, the way a song can make the hair on your arms or neck stand on end, or the gentle peace and awareness of wind whispering through the trees. This also applies to the magic of creating, of giving life to inspiration as it strikes us. Creating art, music, poetry, prose, gardens, literal LIFE, all of those things are magic, and they aren’t thought out spells or carefully constructed rituals, they are just the parts of life that make our lives feel, well, lively.

The second, working magic within one’s self is identifying parts of the self that need improvement, love, healing, expression, whatever, and giving them what they need in order to become more full, healthy, and grounded people. You can accomplish this with spells and rituals- by all means, those things are powerful psychological tools that help us to mentally make the shifts we need in order to actually make the changes we need in our life. This can be brought about through meditation and visualization, or through the very very mundane act of sitting down, goal setting, and getting your shit together. It’s self-alchemy, and in many ways I think it’s more important than the third type of magic.

Working magic to affect the world about me, change the web of fate, etc. is what most people usually think about when they think about spells and rituals. We raise energy and focus in order to will positive (or negative perhaps) outcomes into being. Spells work by utilizing tools: herbs, crystals, candles, etc. which energetically align with our desires, and help us to focus our intentions.

Magic in the second and third instance operates on the idea that like attracts like, if we are positive and put out our intention, the Universe will provide us with just that. If we focus on becoming a better, healthier person, and put energy into taking the steps to accomplish that, we become better, healthier people. It’s a matter of creating the changes first on a small level- in our minds, and then sending the energy out into the universe, like a ripple in a pond which (hopefully) affects the change we want to occur.

#magic #witchcraft #2019 gc #2019 gc week 2 #2019 grimoire challenge week 2 #january week 2 #2019 gc january week 2 #patch-workcrow #druidry #druid #spells #spellcraft #what is magic #pagan #paganism

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renorasims · 5 years

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Hiya!

So its been pretty quiet these past few weeks over here, as some of you might have noticed. Here’s a small update under the cut on what I’m up to these days, if you like to know!

I already mentioned it shortly a 2 weeks ago, we bought a new home (a few weeks ago) after looking for a new one for lots of years. Which of course is a joyous event especially since i’ve been in a toxic relationship with one of my neighbors due to their chihuahua’s causing lots of noise through the entire day/night.

It does mean that besides my work, personal life and this blog/patreon I have another extra thingy to take care of. Which means I won’t be as active is a before, I will however keep on creating and releasing CC here and Patreon in the meantime. But temporarily won’t be around for other stuff unfortunately.

Now, a less joyous event is my anxiety which isn’t in a good place atm. While I was preparing to create content for DU (CC and GC posts) I got so overwhelmed by everything both work, personal and sims/blog stuff, I suffered a major panic attack. I take full responsibility for my own partaking in this; I should’ve stepped away sooner from the pressure of keeping up with my Patreon, GC posts, etc. If that wasn’t bad enough I also suffered a nasty flu after that. All this ended up in me being literally scared shitless for my own PC/Blog, etc. I felt so insecure about everything; my cc, the looks of my posts, uggh every damn thing on my Tumblr/Patreon. Feeling so insignificant which sparked the voices in my head (yes, I have “voices” in my head) kicked me down to a level where I basically believed it was would be better to just disappear from the community, etc. Which is of course not true (i think) but those voices can be quite persuasive.

It made me super sad because this blog/creating cc is such an outlet for me when i’m having stress or feeling depressed. The realization that it became something that caused depressed/stressed thoughts rather than joy was a pretty big hit. Luckily, I was able to slowly get back to my PC and into creating turning it around back to a fun hobby once again. Courtesy to some lovely people at Patreon who send me encouraging words during this time.

Now... I’m super super sorry that i’m that behind on ask messages again. Just know I read them all and keep them close! <333 I will respond to them as soon as i’m able to do so. Mostly private for now because of anxiety reasons.

Custom Content I will still be making new CC and will also try to update some of mine that was broken with the latest patch. I’m currently working on a big project to celebrate the 250 patron’s milestone I hit 1,5 months back and hopefully can finish it before the end of 2019. I might have to take a small break all together once i’m going to move. If that’s indeed the case, I will notify you guys over here and on Patreon beforehand + pause billing for a month if need be! But looking at the schedule now I might be able to just keep going.

Lots of love,

Renora.

#not feeling comfortable to clog everyone's dash with a big *ss post atm #normally i wouldn't think twice about it #XD #since i don't do it that often #non-sims #ohh well a little sims related stuff too

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bsbear · 4 years

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Hey there Bear! NN here (not a troll, don't smack me lol). I finally got on here after going away a while (blame @more for abandoning us lol), scrolled all the way down and say your note asking me to share some insight relating to NBY's pop score as a recurrent single. Sorry but this isn't my thing, it'd best be answered by CWA. But I took a look at the BB Country Airplay charts and holy moly, NBY moved back UP from #7 last week to #6 this week. Its also remained at #44 on Hot100.

2) GC's path on BB Airplay while on Top 10 went (10-8-7-6-4-3-2-1-1-3-7-7-8-RC). NBY though has gone (10-8-4-3-2-1-1-3-3-4-4-5-5-7-6). Even if it goes recurrent next week, this will mean NBY has spent 15 weeks Top 10 Airplay chart vs GC's 13 weeks, and most of NBY's time was spent post #1 while GC spent more time making its way up to #1. Does this even matter, you ask? Actually it does, because radio+sales+streaming all affect the overall BB Hot 100 chart.

3) GC was of course a monster sales and streaming hit for Blake and also did well on radio. So good that GC made #53 on the BB Year End Hot 100 Singles 2019. The only country songs that did better were #35 Speechless, #46 Combs' BC and #52 MW's WG. GitUp was close at #56. 6 other country songs made the YE list but were bottom 20. The way NBY has been performing on the Airplay/Hot 100 means ALL the predictions happening on Pulse forum now has NBY locked for a spot on the YE Hot 100 Singles 2020.

4) If that does happen (ie NBY gets a good spot on the YE Hot 100 2020 chart) then there is a corresponding good chance that Blake will also rank well on the BB YE Hot 100 Artists chart (he was #53 in 2019 and #82 in 2018). Even better is if Gwen also gets ranked accordingly as she is a full duet voice on the song. So OK, I didnt answer your question but as you can tell, just give me a poke and i can go off on a tangent all day long lol. You take care, Bear!! NN out.

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Hey NunberNerd,

Welcome and sorry for the delay in posting your information. Took a break from social media.

So posting this now lol. Better late than never hahahhaa.

Will be happy to post information if you would like to share more and I will promise to be more prompt next time.

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theorypaperweight · 6 years

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Camila Cabello: Pap Pics and Stunting, a Year in Review

This chronicles most (if not all) of the instances where Camila was publicly papped from January 2018 - February 2019 (time of publication). This does not include any fan pictures or those from social media (i.e. Instagram, Twitter, etc.).

Prior to 2018, Camila has only truly been papped a handful of times. However, the frequency in which she has been snapped has grown significantly compared to the previous 6 years (2012-17) she has been in the industry.

(Note: The pap pics in 2018 began to surface in February, weeks after her debut album was released).

* = Days CC and MH are photographed together.

Feb 1st, 2018: Tokyo, Japan (Tokyo Narita Airport). Article 1.

Photo credits: Splash News (Vogue).

CC arriving at Tokyo Narita Airport.

Tokyo Narita Airport is the airport in Tokyo which deals with a majority of Tokyo's international flights.

Feb. 9th, 2018: Cabo, Mexico (beach)*. Article 2.

Photo credits: Backgrid (E!News).

These were the first public pictures of CC and MH together, they were published exclusively by E!News and featured them on a beach in Cabo.

The photos were snapped with photo credits given to Backgrid, a known celebrity pap agency or "celebrity news agency" as they call themselves. Backgrid has also snapped pictures of a number of other celebrities in Cabo in 2018 as well including Scott Disick, Guiliana Rancic, Gwyneth Paltrow, Ciara, and Heidi Klum which were all published in gossip magazines/sites (i.e. US Weekly, OK, & E!News).

Feb. 15th, 2018: London, UK. Article 3.

Photo credits: Backgrid (JustJared).

CC leaving her hotel in London after announcing her first solo tour.

Feb. 20th, 2018: London, UK (London Fashion Week). Article 4.

Photo credits: Getty Images (Vogue).

Feb. 26th, 2018: LAX 1 (airport)*. Article 5.1, Article 5.2 (video).

Photo credits: Perez/X17online (DailyMail).

In the second pap pic of the pair as they walked through LAX, again a location known to have paps more so then any other airport in the states.

In fact, in order to allow celebrities and business professionals to evade paps, avoid public terminals, and make better use of their time LAX has invested hundreds of millions of dollars in a private terminal as well as VIP services to ensure privacy and efficiency (Source 1: LAX Private Terminal, Source 2: United Airlines partners with LAX private terminal, Source 3: Delta provides anti-pap VIP service, Source 4: American Airlines partners with private helicopter service Flyblade).

Mar. 14th, 2018: LAX 2 (airport). Article 6.1, Article 6.2 (video).

Photo credits: Backgrid USA (JustJared); X17online.

CC posing in LAX for paps Part I.

Note: Sinu can also be seen with CC in the video although she isn't shown in the article.

Apr. 8th, 2018: LAX 3 (airport). Article 7.1, Article 7.2, Article 7.3 (video).

Photo credits: Backgrid USA (JustJaredJr), starzfly/Bauer-Griffin/GC Images (Billboard); X17online.

CC (and Sinu) posing in LAX for paps Part II. There are 2 sets of photos posted from this day however, the second set (non-Backgrid) were the more popular ones which made the rounds on various news and gossip sites.

Apr. 17th, 2018: West Hollywood, CA. Article 8.

Photo credits: The Image Direct (DailyMail).

CC and Sinuhe out to lunch in West Hollywood.

Apr. 18th, 2018: LAX 4 (airport). Article 9.

Photo credits: Backgrid (Vogue).

May 23rd, 2018: Beverly Hills, CA. Article 10.

Photo credits: Backgrid (TMZ)

CC and Sinu spotted post-hospitalization following the Billboard Music Awards.

June 8th, 2018: Manchester, UK. Article 11.1, Article 11.2.

Photo credits: Eammon and James Clarke (Manchester Evening News), INSTAR (JustJaredJr).

CC shopping in Manchester city centre with her mother Sinu.

June 19th, 2018: Paris, France (NRJ radio station). Article 12.

Photo credits: Backgrid (JustJared).

CC heading into NRJ radio station.

June 25th, 2018: Barcelona, Spain (airport)*. Article 13.1, Article 13.2.

Photo credits: Backgrid USA/Backgrid (JustJared, Metro).

The third pap pic of the pair overall, second set of the pair snapped by Backgrid.

Note: CC's family were also present. They were all seen walking together, taking selfies, and kissing in CC and MH's case. CC and Sofi also posed for paps.

June 26th, 2018: Barcelona, Spain (park)*. Article 14.

Photo credits: Backgrid (E!News).

The fourth time papped as a pair, third set of photos taken by Backgrid as a pair abroad.

Note: This features the photos of CC on MH's lap on a park bench sitting next to Sinu and kissing. CC also goes down a slide with MH waiting at the bottom. Very reminiscent of 2016 Hiddleswift (HS 1.1, HS 1.2) or March 2018 Nick Jonas.

July 25th, 2018: LA/Pacific Palisades, CA (L'Oreal event)*. Article 15.

Photo credits: Backgrid (DailyMail).

CC and MH leaving the L'Oreal X Camila launch party for the "Havana" makeup collection.

(This photo is the 1/2 featured with MH which is work related.)

Note: Sinu and Sofi are also partially snapped in photos from the article.

October 2nd, 2018: Venice Beach, California. Article 16.1, Article 16.2.

Photo credits: Backgrid (JustJared), (DailyMail)*.

Photos were taken of CC, MH, and Sinu strolling through Venice Beach.

October 15th, 2018: Sao Paulo, Brazil. Article 17.

Photo credits: Backgrid USA (JustJared), (DailyMail).

CC leaving a restaurant in Sao Paulo.

November 26th, 2018: Los Angeles, CA. Article 18.

Photos Credits: Backgrid USA (JustJared Jr.).

CC was snapped on the set of a music video.

December 6th, 2018: New York City, NY (Mastercard commercial)*. Article 19.1, Article 19.2, Article 19.3.

Photo Credits: Robert O'Neil/SplashNewsOnline; Backgrid USA, SplashNewsOnline (Just Jared, Just JaredJr.).

Photos of CC were taken during a shoot for a Mastercard commercial CC was filming. Prior to the shoot CC and MH were snapped strolling to a breakfast date in the DailyMail article although no photos of the date were presented in the article. Both Just Jared/Just Jared Jr. articles omitted details or photos of CC and MH together although the photos within the articles did mention the commerical she was filming and show moments from the shoot.

(This photo is the 1/2 featured with MH which is work related.)

January 31st, 2019: Hollywood, California (ArcLight movie theater)*. Article 20.1, Article 20.2, Article 20.3, Article 20.4.

Photo Credits: Roger/BACKGRID (DailyMail); Backgrid USA, SplashNewsOnline (JustJared, JustJaredJr.); Bauer-Griffin/SplashNews.com (E!News).

CC and MH snapped leaving a movie theater.

February 12th, 2019: LAX 5 (airport)*. Article 21.1, Article 21.2, Article 21.3, Article 21.4, Article 21.5 (video).

Photo Credits: Backgrid USA/BackGrid (JustJared, JustJaredJr; DailyMail; HollywoodLife); X17online.

CC and MH snapped at LAX only 2 days after the 2019 Grammys.

Note: In the video Sinu can be seen coming out of the vehicle with CC and MH at the airport, but immediately circles to the far left away from CC, MH, and their security guard opting to walk behind 2 paps and out of frame of the pictures instead.

The Rundown:

Total photo credits (21): Backgrid (16), X17online (4; first airport photos of CC and MH, 4 airport videos, all at LAX), SplashNews/SplashNewsOnline (3), Bauer-Griffin (2), Getty Images, starflyz, GC Images, The Image Direct, Eammon and James Clarke, and INSTAR.

Backgrid was credited for 16/21 of the days CC was papped from 2018 - February 2019.

The 5 days Backgrid was not given credit for any photos occurred between February 1st, 2018 - June 8th, 2018, from then through February 2019 Backgrid has had photo credits on every day CC has been papped.

7/21 of the days CC was photographed were in airports, of those 5/7 occurred at LAX. (Note: Despite frequent travels to NYC and Miami CC has not been papped once in 2018 flying into or out of JFK, LaGuardia, or MIA. In fact, the last time she appears to have been papped at any of these airports was LaGuardia in December 2014 with Dinah.)

Backgrid was the only ones who got pictures of CC 11/21 of the days and of those 5/11 included MH.

Backgrid was also given credit for 8/9 of the couple photos.

Also worth mentioning: 10/21 days CC was seen with a family member. 5/10 of those days also included MH, 4 were from June 25th, 2018 - October 2nd, 2018 and were the only 4 days CC was papped during that time period.

The news sites which consistently publish photos are the Daily Mail and Just Jared/Just Jared Jr with special recognition to E!News, rarely do other sites publish any photos.

Bonus link: Taylor Swift has also given exclusives to certain pap agencies for her PR relationships/bearding stunts. Namely The Image Direct for Hiddleston and Backgrid currently with Alwyn. Worth noting that CC and Taylor are friends and former tour mates.

#camila cabello #pr #camren

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imchick · 4 years

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November 24, 2019, the most magical day of my life. ❤

Okay! Hard part is over! 😛 I don’t really like being the center of attention and all. You might say it’s the same since everyone will still be looking at us the entire time. But, with the other half, the reception — people are more relaxed. Everyone will be dancing, talking to each other, singing and eating their hearts out! So, less judging and critical eyes on us. 😀

Our Reception was held at Aquila Crystal Palace. It’s about 30 – 40 minutes from our Ceremony. We had time to relax and just talk to each other in the car on the way there. Mind you, we were still with our bride & groom assistants.

To give you a preview – here’s what it looked like. ❤

BUT BUT BUT! Before we get to that, let’s go back to the start. Shall we? While we were taking our post-nup pictorial, we prepared welcome snacks and drinks for our guests!

Our supplier for this Gabrielle’s Appetizer. We prepared 200 mini sandwiches (cucumber & kani, chicken salad, tuna salad, egg & bacon), 150 mini burgers (chicken and beef), 200 crostinis (gorgonzola bacon, goat cheese & fig ham, prosciutto & brie, smoked salmon) and 2 gallons of cucumber lemonade

I’m so happy to be hearing good feedback from our guests! Their favorites? the mini burgers! But before they can eat, they will pass by our Signages!

I’m proud to say that I designed all the layouts, with the help of my husband, of course. ❤ We decided to maintain the theme of our invitation – White Marble is such a classic and classy design. Aside from the welcome signage, I wanted to add a little extra! – An Infographic of our love story. ❤

While others are eating or taking a photo in our photobooth, we also prepared some games before everything starts!

I personally created a Word Search Game with Startbucks GC for their prizes! I devised a personalized puzzle with words that have roles or connected to our relationship. For instance – Management Trainee (we were both Management Trainees in a bank. This is how we met) 😀 Everything is so much more special when it is personalized. Do you agree?

Before they officially enter the reception area, I also insisted that I wanted a signage for their Seating Arrangement:

I’m definitely proud of this! I’m a huge, huge fan of F.R.I.E.N.D.S! I insisted to insert the friends theme in our seating arrangement! The heading is The One Where We got Married (just like how all their titles are worded). ❤ I also named our tables with all the memorable lines / quirks of the series such as Pivot, Big Fat Goalie, How you Doin and etc.

I also asked our host to ask our guests whether they know what theme our seating arrangement is. I prepared a FRIENDS themed prize also, which I bought online (a Friends Door Keychain).

The One thing that will welcome our guests upon entering the place is our Animated Monogram.

At first, I wanted a White Background with Gold font for our names. But our coordinator pointed out that I may not be seen if the background is also white. 😛 So, we decided to switch to Dark Green, still in line with our theme. ❤

Okay! So when we arrived at the scene, it’s time for our make-up retouch and time to fill our stomach with the incredible feast we chose for our guest. ❤ It was really delicious. While we were having our early dinner, there’s another game inside the reception: TRIVIA GAME where we gave out bags of chocolates for every correct answer. Some of the questions were: First movie together, Who said I love you first, Term of Enderament, Favorite Series Marathon food. (Some of the answers to the questions were posted in our Infographic) 😀 Clever. Huh?

Initally, we wanted the Fireworks at the end of the program. But we were also hesitant to schedule it after since it was Sunday and our guests might leave early.

Proven! Guests really do enjoy the fireworks! It also elevates your event! ❤ After the fireworks, guests were asked to return to their seats for the Grand Entrance. 😛

Our Bridal Squad were introduced in the tune of Dura by Daddy Yankee. while our Groom Squad danced to Boneless by Steve Aoki.

As you can see, our male squad is definitely more coordinated with Matt Stefanina dance moves. Hence, they won the challenge of who’s better. 😛

Followed by the entrance of our esteemed entourage, our Prenup / Save the Date Video was shown to all of our guests.

And our Grand Entrance in the tune of Good Life by One Republic, inspired by our Wedding Hashtag of #itsJANNAbeaJUDElife transalated as It’s gonna be a good life.

TIP: Please please be witty enough to think of your own wedding hashtags! One, it’s simply fun. Two, it will encourage your guests to use your hashtag. Three, you’ll have an easier time in collating pictures and videos related to your event if it’s clear that YOU are the only ones using it instead of #JudeandJannaforever or #JudeandJanna2019. Maximize the power of hashtag!

For our Grand Entrance, we decided to use our Indoor Fireworks (which is not shown in the photo) plus this heart shaped confetti free of charge from our Coordinator. ❤

Followed quickly by our entrance, we gave a bit of our opening remarks to our family, friends and loved ones who celebrated with us.

Our first ever dance as a married couple is in the tune of Say you won’t let go by James Arthur. 🙂 This is also the song I was singing to when he proposed. ❤ This song is really special. ❤ Again, there were Indoor Fireworks and confetti as well.

Wedding Traditions followed such as Cake Cutting and Wine Toasting!

Our 3 tier carrot cake is designed with pure white with gold highlights with huge floral appliques. It’s so good! I’m actually sad that we forgot that it was in our ref.

The wine that we toasted is free from our package with Aquila Crystal Palace. If I remember it correctly, it was not hard because I finished it instantly. ❤

My sister, one of the Matrons of Honor started the speech followed by my Brother in law and finally, my Best friend ended the speeches by inviting everyone to offer a toast for our marriage. ❤

After the long speeches, it’s time for the most awaited time of our guests! Dinner time. ❤ The cousins of my groom, Seth and Yohan led the prayer.

While the guests were eating or in line to get their food, some of the music that we chose to be played are the following: The way you look tonight, Collide, The last time, if I ain’t got you, Everything, Perfect and Close to you among others.

Well, you know how this goes already. . . . . before they can even line up to the buffet, they all have to take a picture with us. ❤ Here are some of them.

While eating, another batch of Speeches coming from our Principal Sponsors.

Principal Sponsor speeches! We had to choose one from each of our side. My God mother, sister of my father gave a speech while it was a Family friend from the Groom’s side. After the speeches, a couple of games again — which is the second best game! Minute to Win It – Wedding edition. ❤

So we filmed a one time, one shot games of: Segregate it, Pingpong Ball, Shoot the Ball etc. Each table have to guess who won whether it’s the Bride and the Groom! Everyone turned out to be competitive at this part. ❤

After an interactive game, it’s the Parent Dances!

We decided to dance simultaneously to the tune of You are so Beautiful by Joe Cocker. 😀 I was scaring my dad and reminding him of their speech! 😛 while I think my mother in law is having the best time dancing with his son. ❤

After a bit serious of dances, it’s fuckin time for another game! Another game? We can never miss out on Single’s Game! To get the suspicion out of their minds, our host called them like they are about to receive a prize.

Men are lined up in front – a music is played and whoever dances the right move first gets to seat down! The following music were played – Watch me whip, Soulja Boy, Teach me How to Dougie, Gangnam, Level Up, Stayin Alive, Thriller and Can’t Touch this.

Then whoever doesn’t dance, will remain in front and the ladies will start searching for the safety pin. The lady who doesn’t find a single pin, loses. ❤

The losers of both games, or rather the last man and woman standing wins a Starbucks GC which they can use to go on their ‘date’ – a little matchmaker doesn’t lose its touch on weddings!

It’s my husband’s colleague and one of my closes high school friend! ❤ And after this fun game, our host now calls on both of our parent’s for the wise words.

It’s the Welcome to the Family speech! It’s such a cliche but really overwhelming. It warms your heart, right? I felt really happy to hear it goes both ways. ❤ I have no better way of saying this but it felt really good.

Before the night is over, we prepared some awards to be given to our guests.

Cool Tito Award (right picture) and Fab Tita Award where we award the Best Dressed one – we gave them Wine and a Tefal Pan. ❤ We also awarded Dressed to Kill (Upper Right) for the Best Dressed Millenial and we gave them a 6-pack beers and a Make Up Kit. Lastly, we gave out a Grand Prize (Lower Right) for the best picture and handed them a powerbank.

Then we played our On Site Photo and our Save the Date Video. ❤

Look at our faces!! ❤ Our Photo Team is led by TJ of Timoteo Photo and our SDE was created by Mac by Stories by Supermac! Extremely in awe, hearts bursting with joy and overwhelmed with gratitude and love. ❤

Before our night ends, we said our Thank yous and invited them for a night full of dancing and drinking!

Look at our ceiling treatment filled with an all white embellishments and gold highlights and black draping to make our ceiling pop out! ❤

The night ends as mentioned, with drinking and dancing! ❤ ❤ ❤

Our last picture before our guests go back to Manila! First up, my colleagues!

My brother and his girlfriend before they fled out of the scene. 😛 Haha. Next? Our Wedding Buddies, one week apart and now, we’re all married. ❤

I always come in threes, Don’t I? And Of course, My Bestfriends since High School.

It always put a smile on my face when I see my friends from different groups come together like this. 🙂

And before this day ends, I need a picture with my husband. ❤

I love you so much, husband! ❤ ❤ It’s been five months and it’s still the Best Day of My Life. ❤

EVERYDAY: Our Wedding (Reception) November 24, 2019, the most magical day of my life. ❤ Okay! Hard part is over! 😛 I don't really like being the center of attention and all.

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