#ALSO TY AGAIN FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT i appreciate it ;w;

[cann1ballistic]

Hello!!!

I just wanted to say I’m a fan of your art!!! Both here and on twitter!!! Unfortunately I’ve never said anything before, I also don’t follow you on twitter because of the antis. It’s also why I’m dropping an anonymous ask instead of showing my account.

I’ve watched the trolls movies before but the third movie was what got me into looking for art and fiction cause I wanted to see more of Branch and his family. And new official content takes a long time to come out, so I decided to look for more content online since there are many artists and writers that are always creating more content!!! Sometimes it’s even better than the official stuff 😂!!! I was looking for more stories about Branch and his brothers growing up together and stuff like that, more family centered stuff.

I was however, a little surprised with the Trolls fandom base because of the antis, I’ve been reading and seeing art from different fandoms for many years now and so far, at least for me, I’ve never seen such intense anti pro shippers. In fact, I’ve never quite understood what the word meant before, I thought it had to do with problematic ships, which I thought had to do with shipping for example heroes and villains or if two people have a big age difference.

I never even realized that incest was part of it. In all the fandoms I’ve read stories that include incest before magic or technology or natural biology, etc solved all the problems. Same with age differences, some characters would be aged up. Villains would turn out to have tragic backstories or one of the supposed good guys was tricking the protagonist. And I never noticed people being overly vocal about it. I mean I knew there were antis out there but it never got out of hand. An example of that, at least for me, was the Harry Potter fandom, I never had problems with antis or feared being blocked by certain artists because of what I read or who I followed.

But with the Trolls fan base some artists are very vocal about it. If a certain artist sees that you follow a pro shipper artist or if they see you comment on any of their art or if you say anything about the subject that they don’t like you are immediately blocked!!!

And twitter isn’t very private, everyone can see who you follow, your likes, retweets, your comments, etc and that makes it super easy for the antis to block you immediately!!! To avoid that, any pro shipper art I like I bookmark it, since that is the only thing other people on twitter can’t see. I don’t leave comments or like the art, cause I know if any of the antis find out about it they will block you, screenshot your account and tell everyone to avoid and block you cause you are a pro shipper or neutral. And I really don’t know what a neutral is!!! I’m guess it’s someone that doesn’t care either way, I think?

The antis will also talk shit about you behind your back!!! I also don’t leave comments on the stories on AO3 and I’ve considered making a second twitter account so that I can follow the pro shipping artists from the Trolls fandom I like in peace but!!! I’m so paranoid about the fact that the antis will discover my original account somehow that I haven’t done it!!! Here on tumblr you can at least keep your likes and who you follow private.

There are so many amazing Trolls artists out there, unfortunately they are for the most part very outspoken antis, at least from what I’ve seen.

Sorry!!! I’m venting a little here, it’s just… for the longest time I was ok with whatever showed up in front of me, story and art wise. For me it didn’t matter the pairing or anything else as long as the story was interesting!!! I’ve read stories where the only thing in common with the cannon content was the names and appearances of the characters everything else was completely different and I was fine with it because the story was super interesting!!! And there’s also the fact that it’s FICTION!!! Just because you are ok with what people write or draw doesn’t mean you’re ok with it in real life!!! I mean there are authors out there that write horror, gore and murder mysteries but that doesn’t mean that they want to actually kill some in real life!!!

The Trolls antis got me so out of sorts that I actually had the balls (metaphorically speaking) to ask my psychologist if it was ok to like this sort of stuff!!! And I told them about the antis, liking stuff like incest art and stories, the whole just because you are ok with it in fiction doesn’t mean that you’re ok with it in real life, etc!!! And they agreed with me!!! Told me that I shouldn’t worry about it and that some people just take somethings to seriously!!!

So… Again sorry for venting, but I wanted to share my experience and opinion with you.

I also want to say that you and all the other artists and writers that are ok with pro shipping should keep producing your amazing content and ignore all those nasty antis!!! Cause you are amazing!!!

So please keep up the amazing work!!! And don’t let anyone get you down!!!

Thank you for the encouragement, i appreciate it! To be honest i’ve become so jaded over this topic in general that it’s nice to be reminded that there are people online who do in fact enjoy fandom more than starting slapfights lol (not scolding you for talking about it of course, feel free to vent!)

my own rant below the cut lol

I’ve found that a lot of fandoms with audiences who skew to the younger side tend to be the most combative, so it checks out that you’ve found the Trolls fandom to be like this. A stark example that i’ve seen is the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle fandom, specifically around the Rise of the TMNT series, which came out in….2018, i think? (i didn’t get into it til 2022 so idk) BUT fans have been shipping the brothers together in that fandom since the 80s and largely nobody bat an eye until Rise happened, and brought a lot of the younger crowd into it. NOW, suddenly it’s Too Far to ship characters that have been shipped since before most of the new fandom members were born 💀

a lot of these younger fans had the misfortune of coming into fandom around the same time that a lot of TERFs and other conservative types were getting REALLY vocal on here around 2015-2018; of course, they grow up into really conservative types who spread the same nonsensical rhetoric to those younger than them, and so on and so forth.

i cannot emphasize enough that NO fandoms were like this (on a wide scale) pre-2015. this is coming from my perspective as someone who had VERY vanilla tastes for most of my fandom career…the fact that the term proship even exists is a testament to how much fandom has changed; proship is a term that popped up as a reaction to people using Anti Shipper as a way to tout their fandom activism (derogatory) & purity politics.

(being Neutral, btw, means basically nothing afaik because being Proship means that you mind your business, and people who are neutral just say that they mind their business and want nothing to do with the entire argument. Antis call them pros and pros also call them pros so idk how it’s even useful as a label 🤷‍♀️)

ALSO I FEEL THAT SELF DOUBT!! talking to your therapist was a good idea though, it’s good to get a reality check when you need it, haha. I had a moment several years back where i was questioning why i, as an adult, was into a fandom whose target audience was teenagers, before i realized that it’s not that deep and you can do what you want forever lmao

I would love nothing more than to dismiss the entire pro vs anti argument if i’m honest, but i can’t ignore the real life abuse that comes from it. I understand why you’d be afraid to be public with your opinions; especially on a garbage website like twitter, where reporting accounts only ever seems to work for the wrong people 🫠

The best way to do fandom has always been and continues to be to find your group of friends and be insane with them. (AND TO BLOCK LIBERALLY!) I hope you can find some people to chill with 🫂

[lotus-pear]

YAAAAAYYYY ITS FINALLY HERE!!! ty guys sm again for 5k i rly appreciate it <3

rules and guidelines under the cut!

rules and due date (i've never done this before so bear w me ok!!):

-due date will be march 1st! i will accept entries a few days late dw i'm nor ur professor or smth BUT I WOULD RLY PREFER IF U GET IT DONE BY THEN (just dm me if u need more time)

-pls tag ur finished piece under #lotuspear5kdtiys and dont forget to mention my user @lotus-pear! if i neglect to reblog ur piece then pls lmk even though that probably won't happen bc i'll be checking that tag every day for new entries👹

-pls don't trace the art.. i'll be really sad if u do that :(((( if u need help at all w the posing or hands then shoot me an ask or weed ur way into my dms bc ik this is kind of a complicated piece

-anyone can participate!! u don't have to be following me or anything and it's fine if we've never interacted before

-colors and expression are completely flexible and i'd even encourage playing around w it since the final product isn't meant to mimic my style. if u can then pls try to keep the pose relatively similar although i don't mind if it's changed a little bit. whatever is most comfortable to u as the artist.

-if u guys want to see the piece without any shading or rendering then pls dm me, ik it might be easier for some ppl to just see the bare sketch or the lineart w base colors

prizes🤩 (ik this is what u guys are rly after /j):

-alr so ik everybody's all like "well what's in this for me🤨" oh my god if u would just let me explain 😐 i'll be choosing three winners and two honorable mentions amongst all the contestants

-the top three winners get a follow (yea ok kinda sucky but wtv) AND they get to commission a fully rendered piece from me of a single character of their choice for free >:) (i'll discuss the details w the winners in two months)

-the two runner ups will also get a follow from me AND they get to commission a sketch of a single character from me (again, i'll discuss what this entails in further detail when the honorable mentions are selected in two months)

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ermmm yea i think thats it for now i'll come back and edit the post if i feel the need to add anything.. HAVE FUN GUYS I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT U GUYS DO🫶🏼🫶🏼

[lawsvalentine]

IM BACK ! <3 if i could please request ace and L, Q, and W please? ty for hosting this event and congrats again ! :3 💗

Portgas D. Ace Fluff Alphabet

• L, Q, W •

Cee’s Note: thank you my love 🤧🤧 you’re so sweet

L = Love (how do they show you they love you?)

Ace’s love language can be either acts of service or words of affirmation

Ace is very generous when it comes to the people he loves. We see how selfless he is in the series

He will do anything for you even risking his own well being just to make sure you are safe and taken cared of

He is also very expressive with his feelings towards you

He has grown since how he was as a child from being very cynical to being more expressive with his gratitude and feelings for his loved ones

You have helped him as well and he will always tell you how much he loves and appreciate you

Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time

with you?)

I imagine Ace being very adventurous so he loves to take you on these grand adventures

He wants to experience everything with you and wants to see the world with you

Ace also loves taking naps with you especially after a big meal shdhd

W = Warrior (how do they feel about you fighting?

Would they fight for you, beside you, etc?)

Ace would be very supportive of you and encourage you to be the best fighter you can be

He actually finds it pretty hot shdhdj

He will definitely help you by training with you

However, despite knowing that you are more than capable to defend yourself there are times when he fears he may lose you so he might step in and fight for you

Don’t be too hard on him 🥺 he just loves you sm and would be devastated if something happened to you

[leossmoonn]

Lucky [Stefan Salvatore]

masterlist 

pairing - stefan salvatore x fem, human!reader

type - fluff, light smut

note / request “okay i have one, how about stefan gets super drink and is making super suggestive jokes on the reader and is flirting w her and she has to take care of him?” since stefan is a vampire i figured the side affects of being drunk would be different for him. he’s not so much like tired and can’t-walk-straight drunk, he’s more i’m-very-horny-and-annoying type of drunk lol. also i apologise if this isn’t very good. i was really excited to write this but it didn’t come together like i hoped. anyways, enjoy!

 summary - you take care of your boyfriend, stefan, when he gets drunk at a party

warnings / includes - language, mention of alcohol and anxiety, vomiting, very suggestive and flirty content, lots of kissing and making out, stefan being a cranky and cheeky little shit lol. this takes place after klaus has stefan become the rippahhh 

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*gif isn’t mine*

When Caroline called you, you didn’t think anything of it. You just thought that she was calling to try and convince you to come to the party at The Grill for the fifth time. When she started shouting at you about Stefan was when you started to get worried. 

“What did you say, Care?” You asked. It was hard to hear her over the music in the background. 

“One second!” Caroline exclaimed. 

You waited a few moments before Caroline spoke again. There was no sound in the background this time. 

“Sorry, I had to go outside,” she apologised. “It’s alright. Um, what’d you say about Stefan?” You asked. 

“He’s drunk and he needs you to come and pick him up,” she explained. 

“Oh,” you frowned. “Well, why can’t you drive him home?” “Trust me, we’ve tried, but…. but he only wants you.”

You couldn’t stop the smile that was spreading across your face. “Oh, really?”

“Well, duh. You’re his girlfriend,” Caroline chuckled. 

“Right, right,” you nodded. You got up from your kitchen table, shutting your textbooks and putting them away. “Well, I’ll be over soon.” “Okay, thank you. Also, brace yourself for when you see him. Drunk Stefan is fun, crazy Stefan,” Caroline warned. 

You chuckled and went to put your shoes on. “I bet he’s not that bad.”

“Oh, you’ll be surprised. Anyways, I’ll see you soon,” Caroline said. 

“See ya,” you hung up the call. You set your phone dying, tying your sneakers. You grabbed your jacket and car keys, about to make your way to your car, but your mom stopped you. 

“You going to the party?” She asked. “Um, not exactly,” you started. “Stefan needs to be picked up.”

“Oh, why? Is he okay?” Your mom crossed her arms over her chest. 

“Yeah, he’s just had a little too much to drink,” you explained. 

“Hm, alright. Well, if you need any help, call me. I know how drunk, horny teenage boys can be,” she chuckled. 

“He’s not like that, Mom,” you shook your head. “I know, I know, but you never know,” she tsked. 

You gave her a small smile, “I’ll see you later.”

“Text me if you’re staying over at his place!” She reminded. 

You nodded in reply and opened the garage door, stepping out and heading to your car. You drove to The Grill, your anxiety spiking as you thought of what Caroline meant. You had known Stefan for almost three years and had been dating him for five months, but you had never seen him drunk. Sure, you’ve seen him tipsy because all Damon and he did for fun was drink, but he always kept his ground. You hoped Caroline was just overreacting. 

You parked in the parking lot of The Grill, hopping out of your car and entering the restaurant. You were met with eardrum-rupturing music and the scent of sweat and alcohol. You smiled and greeted a few friendly faces before looking for Stefan. As you walked through the ground, a hand grabbed your forearm. This caused you to jump and spin around your heel, holding up your fist in defense. 

“Whoa, calm down. It’s just me,” Jeremy chuckled. 

“Oh,” you chuckled and put your fist down, relaxing your body. “Sorry, you just never know.”

“No worries. I take it you’re here for Stefan?” Jeremy asked. “You are correct, Jer,” you nodded. 

“He’s playing pool,” he said, leading you over to the back of the room where the rest of your friends were. 

You furrowed your brows as Stefan looked pretty normal and relaxed. He actually looked like he was having fun for once. Just as you began to think Caroline was exaggerating, Stefan then drank three shots at once and jumped on top of the pool table. 

“O-Oh,” you gasped, your eyes widening in surprise. 

“Yep,” Jeremy sighed. He then went in front of you, giving you an encouraging, sarcastic smile. “Have fun!” Jeremy then fled the scene, walking over to a table of girls. 

You rolled your eyes and looked back at Stefan, sucking in a breath as you saw Damon and Caroline struggling to get him off the table. You decided that you should go up and help them. 

“Oh, thank God!” Caroline exclaimed as you walked over. 

“Hey,” you smiled at them. You looked up at Stefan, giving him a soft, caring smile. “Hey, you.”

Stefan looked down, grinning from ear-to-ear once he saw you. “Y/n! You’re here!” He jumped down from the pool table, engulfing you in a tight hug. 

You let out an ‘oof’ as you were pulled flush against him. You wrapped your arms round him nonetheless and hugged him back, burying your face into his neck. Your eyes fluttered close as you breathed in his scent. It masked the smell of the sweaty, intoxicated teens that surrounded you two. Stefan pulled away after a few moments, his eyes meeting yours.

“You look so pretty,” he muttered, his hands coming up to cup each sides of your face. 

You smiled, “Thank you. Now, c’mon, I’m here to take you home.”

His head started to shake furiously. “No, no. Let’s stay. Let’s party. Let’s have fun.” As he said the last few words, one of his hands went from your face to your waist. He gripped your side, pulling you impossibly closer. As his hand stayed cupping your cheek, his head dove down to your neck where he started to kiss the area under your ear. 

You gasped softly, your eyes fluttering close as him kissing your neck made your skin tingle. You put your hands on his chest, though, pushing him back slightly. You looked him straight in the eyes, letting him know that you didn’t come to play. 

“We can have fun at home.”

“No, we’re just gonna go to bed,” he whined. “And would that be so bad?” You chuckled. 

“Yes because you look so fuckable right now,” he growled. He hooked his fingers in your belt loops, pulling you close to him once again. Your hips met and you gasped as you felt his hard on through his jeans press just next to your core. 

“Stefan,” you protested. He looked up at you with big, green, innocent eyes. “Something wrong, sweetheart?”

Heat rose up your neck and you felt like the whole room was watching you. You definitely knew all your friends were. 

“We’re in public. We can’t do this,” you shook your head. 

“Let’s go somewhere more private then,” he muttered. 

Before you could speak, he took you in his arms and sped you out of the restaurant. Your back hit your car once you stopped.

“Sorry, did hurt you?” Stefan asked, concerned eyes looking over you. 

“Not, but-” you started, but Stefan cut you ooff by kissing you. 

You melted into him, kissing him back with the same amount of need and passion. Your hands went up to his hair, entangling your fingers in his soft locks. Meanwhile, Stefan’s hands roamed your body. His left hand went down to your ass as his right slid under your top, running the pads of his fingers across your skin. He gripped your ass as his fingers went up higher to your bra.

“U-Oh, Stefan,” you gasped in-between kisses. 

“I missed you tonight,” he mumbled against your lips. 

“I missed you, too, but you’re drunk. We can’t do this. Especially not against my car,” you sighed, pulling back from him once again. 

He frowned, “But you’re so pretty. I just want to kiss all over your beautiful body.”

You let out a breathy laugh, trying to slow your racing heart. All the sweet talk and kissing made you very flustered. “Thank you, Stefan. I appreciate it, I really do, but you’re drunk.”

“I can smell your arousal though,” he stated, his fingers coming down your bra to your legs. He ran his fingers over the front of your jeans, pressing down just ever-so-slightly. 

“A-Ah!” You squealed. Stefan gave you a satisfied smirk as he pressed down further. More wetness pooled between your legs as he was pressing down on your clit. 

“See? Now, tell me you don’t want to do anything.”

You looked him in the eyes, your pupils dilated and full of lust. It took everything in you to shake your head. Because as good as it felt to have his hands on you, you knew that having drunk sex with him was not the best idea. 

“I do, but,” you said sternly, “Not right now.”

Stefan hands fell to his side immediately. He stepped away from you, “Then what do you want to do right now?” 

“Get you home and in bed,” you stated, reaching for your keys that was in your pocket. 

“But that’s so boring! Can we at least, like, make out?” “Nope,” you shook your head. 

“When did you ever get so mean,” he pouted. You rolled your eyes with a smile, “I am not mean. I’m being responsible.” “Being responsible is boring!” He objected. “That’s not what sober Stefan would say,” you remarked, turning to open the door. 

“Yeah, sober me is boring.”

“And it’s my favourite you,” you smiled, opening the car door. Before Stefan would say anything, you shoved him inside. 

“Rough, huh?” Stefan gave you a cheeky smile. 

You gave him a long eye roll, shutting the door and walking over to the driver’s side. You stepped in and started your car, ignoring Stefan’s burning stare. 

“Why are you ignoring me?” “Because I know you’re gonna try to butter me up and convince me to have sex in this car,” you explained. 

Stefan scoffed, “Pfft, what! I would never ever do that.”

“Sure you wouldn’t, lover boy,” you retorted as you started up the car. 

Stefan set his hand on your thigh as you started driving. You didn’t move it as this was something he did every car ride whether you were driving or he was, but once he started to inch his fingers up your leg was when you knew you had to say something.  

“Stefan,” you wanted. “Yes, honey?” Stefan asked innocently, stopping his hand immediately. 

You rolled your eyes with a small smile. You could not believe the games he was playing. 

“Nothing,” you muttered, paying attention to the road as you turned into the gates of Stefan’s house.  

Stefan grinned as he knew that you would let him get away with anything. As long as it wasn’t actual sex, of course. You both knew a little teasing never hurt anybody, and you both definitely knew you liked it, too. You parked at the entrance, getting out and walking to Stefan’s side. You opened the door, holding your arm out like chivalrous men did on dates. 

“Here you are, m’lady,” you grinned. Stefan’s rolled his eyes, “Ha. Ha. Very funny.” 

“Oh, I know.” 

You held his hand as you walked to his door, unlocking it and stepping inside. 

“I’m going to get some water for you and me, go upstairs and get changed,” you directed.  “Yes, ma’am,” he smirked, slapping your ass as you walked by him. 

You turned to him, scoffing and giving him a glare. He winked at you and made his way to the stairs. You shook your head with a flustered smile, going to the kitchen and getting a few water bottles. You got out your phone and texted your mom that you were staying the night. You then climbed up the stairs, entering his room and getting even more flustered once you saw him in his bed, the only clothing on him was grey sweats. 

“Like what you see?” Stefan teased, putting his hands under his head so his biceps were flexed.  

“Very much,” you nodded, walking over to him and setting the water bottles down on the nightstand that was next to his bed. 

Stefan put his hand on your waist, pulling you to sit on the bed. You complied and sat down next to his legs, putting your hands on his chest and tracing patterns over his abs. 

“You’re so beautiful,” Stefan marvelled at you. His hands went up to your cheek, his thumb running over your cheekbone. You smiled and nuzzled into his hand, looking at him through your lashes.  

“And you seem to be a lot more sober now,” you commented.

“Yeah, well, vampires sober up fast,” he shrugged. “Oh, is that so?” You asked 

“Yep,” he grinned proudly. “So you don’t have a headache or anything?” You wondered. 

His smile faltered and he averted his gaze from you. You chuckled, “Thought so.” You grabbed a water bottle, opening it and putting it up to his lips. 

“Here, drink this. I’ll get you some Tylenol,” you said, beginning to sit up. 

“I’ll be fine,” he waved his headache off. “Stefan,” you frowned, “I know you’re immune to sickness and death and whatnot, but that doesn’t mean you’re immune to headaches.”

“I’m serious, I’ll be fine. Stop worrying so-” He stopped speaking, closing his mouth immediately. He made a sour face, his eyes widening. 

“About to throw up?” You guessed. He nodded his head furiously, putting his hand up to cover his mouth. 

“Let’s get you to the bathroom,” you pulled him up, walking him across the hall to the bathroom. You both dropped to your knees and Stefan immediately started to vomit. 

You cringed, but rubbed his back nonetheless. “There you go. Get it all out.” Your hand went up to his hair and you twirled his hero hair in-between your fingers. You put your forehead against his temple, kissing his cheek to comfort him. 

After a few minutes of him throwing his guts up, he threw his head back and groaned. “I’m so sorry you had to see that.”

“Don’t apologise. It’s all part of being drunk,” you kissed him on the cheek again. You then got up, pulling him up with you. 

“Let’s get you cleaned up, yeah?” You hummed, walking him to the sink. 

“Yeah, okay,” he nodded. 

You looked up at him, running your fingers through his hair. Throwing up had taken a lot of his energy, and now he was all worn-out. He went to grab his toothbrush, but missed by a few millimeters. 

“Why don’t I do it for you,” you stated more than suggested. 

“No, no. You’ve done enough tonight, take a break,” he shook his head. 

You smiled, “It’s okay. I like taking care of you. It’s kind of my job as your girlfriend, after all.”

He smiled sheepishly. “Yeah, I guess.”

You nodded and hummed in reply, turning him around so his back was against the sink. You took his toothbrush and and squirted toothpaste on it, stepping in front of Stefan and holding it up. 

“Open wide,” you sang. Stefan followed your orders and your stuck the toothbrush in his mouth, beginning to circle over the left side of his mouth. 

Stefan’s arm went around your waist, pulling you closer to him lazily. You smiled as your hips met his. You leaned into him, switching the sides of his mouth that you were brushing after a minute. 

“Alright, time to spit,” you ordered. 

Stefan turned around, spitting the out the foamy toothpaste. He hung his head low to get some water to swish in his mouth to get the remaining toothpaste out. He sat back up and you put his toothbrush back on the sink. You grabbed a towel and wet it to wipe off the excess toothpaste that was on the corners of Stefan’s mouth. 

You straightened back up and went in front of Stefan, running the towel over his lips. You moved slowly, your eyes roaming his face. He looked so handsome, even when he was sweaty and slightly disoriented from just throwing up. Your eyes wandered up to his, his green eyes stared at yours back. The deep, unwavering eye contact both made you two flustered and nervous. Butterflies swarmed in your stomach while the tips of Stefan’s ears turned pink. 

You lowered the towel, placing it back onto the sink counter. Your eyes never left Stefan’s as you did so. Shivers ran up your spine as Stefan’s hand snaked up to the small of your back. He pulled your chest closer to his, leaving little to no room between your lips and his. 

“I thought you were all tired and tame,” you muttered, your eyes flickering down to his lips and back up to his eyes. 

“I’m never tired and definitely never tame when I’m around you,” he whispered, leaning in. 

You hummed in reply, fluttering your eyes close as you leaned up to kiss him. You wrapped your hands around his neck, taking a fist full of his hair and twirling it. You kissed him slowly and gently, each of you taking your time to savour the feeling and taste of the kiss. 

You pulled away after a few moments, setting your forehead against his. You licked your lips, staring into Stefan’s green eyes. 

“Let’s get you into bed,” you whispered. 

Stefan shook his head, a coy smile playing on his lips. Before you could scold and protest, he lifted you up from your waist and ran over to the bed. He threw you down, climbing on top of you. 

“Stefan!” You giggled. “What?” He asked. 

“We have to go to bed,” you said. “We are in bed,” he gestured to the pillows. 

You rolled your eyes, “Stop being a wise ass. You’re still drunk, whether you want to admit it or not.”

“I’m half-drunk,” he shrugged. “Really? That’s the best you could do?” You snorted. 

“You know me, anything to be able to have sex with you,” he grinned. 

“Mhm, well, nothing can sway me and you know it.” Stefan looked into your eyes, studying you for a little. He knew that no matter how much kissing, touching, sweet-talking he did, you wouldn’t give in. He decided to give up and cuddle, which was honestly what he needed after a long, tiring night. He got off of you, laying on his back. 

“Seems like you’re learning,” you remarked. 

“Well, I know that if I’m good, I’ll get a reward later,” he quipped. 

You chuckled, turning around so now your face was met with his. You propped yourself on your elbow, putting a hand on his chest. 

“You’re lucky, you know?” You said. 

“Yeah,” he sighed with a smile, “I know.” “Yeah, well, so am I,” you smiled, moving closer to him. You gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and laid back down on your back. 

Stefan rolled over and he laid his head on your chest, wrapping his arms around your middle. You smiled contently and ran your fingers through his hair, massaging his scalp. 

“Thanks for taking care of me,” Stefan mumbled. 

“No problem. I love you,” you said. 

“I love you, too,” he sighed, closing his eyes and falling asleep. 

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[astralaffairs]

w/ midnight approaching i j wanna let yall know that this blog was genuinely the best part of my 2020. it's been a hellish year, but getting to meet & know writers like @deja-you (girl ur writing has a SPECIAL place in my heart istg. i know we don't talk much but ur presence on this site and on ur blog makes my life a lil brighter. even if the feeling isn't mutual i think of u as a good friend 💞❣) @daveeddiggsit (an actual ray of sunshine 🥺) @iknowthekoolaidflavor @wreakhavoconmacroissantdiggs @tinywhim & @biafbunny all of whose works ive been reading for as long as (or longer than) ive been writing for this fandom has been so incredible and heart warming <3 ur all such damn sweethearts and ilu

& then there have been the new mutuals that have popped up and brightened my life like @commandersmiley @braidedchallah @ramp-it-up & @moondustmemories @summerofsnowflakes @raiseaglasstothefourofus (i know we don't chat much but ilu all sm 🥺)

& @id-do-it-for-free-babe @peoniarose @ohsoverykeri-blog (idk where the hyphens go in ur url ill fix it later) & @cloudynblw

then there's @einfachniemand who literally hypes me more than ANYONE else and is probably the most supportive person on this entire goddamn site ❣💕 i would give u the world if i could but alas i do not have that kind of power

and @youunravelme whose asks and notifs MAKE MY ENTIRE LIFE. u don't even know and i can't explain bruh i get like 80% of my serotonin from getting notifs from u and hearing ur thoughts in my inbox. it's the absolute best. u have made my 2020 like 80% better. i can't emphasize this enough you make me so happy.

and maybe (just maybe) im abt to mention @tinywhim again who is absolutely the kindest most gracious person alive i swear 🥺 also she wrote my absolute outright favorite thom fic that i have ever read (and yes, i have read quite a number of them since 2016) and im now enamored w demon!thom

and ofc @the-lost-marauder 🥰🥰 as much as i adore every single one of my followers and mutuals, ur by far one of my favorite ppl to hear from on this site. your thanksgiving ball oneshot is still one of my favorite things to read on here and u have absolutely excellent energy. i feel like we'd probably vibe irl (also pls more secret relationship vp!thom content!!! pl ease !!!!!! i need it asap)

and yes im abt to mention @deja-you again bc she's such a fucking sweetheart. the literal embodiment of sunshine and cotton candy. idk what else there is to say here u just have the purest vibes i feel like ur the type of person to save a cat from a tree or have a bird land on ur shoulder. u just have that energy 🥺💫 then again you outright broke my heart w foreign affairs so idk i might have to retract all that 😤

& special s/o to @fentinatalin for having shitty taste in men. that's all.

jk jk ily natalie 🤧❣ have i ever told u that when u hmu on ig i almost didn't dm u back bc it gave me anxiety and i thought you'd think i was uncool on main??? anyway im glad i did hit u back bc ur a ridiculously excellent friend and i frequently forget ive only known u for a couple months???? i realized recently that ive picked up some of ur texting habits and idk how to feel abt it . anyway ily thanks for existing

also mega shoutout to @maniacmichele bc ik i haven't answered ur graph theory ask but that's bc ive been watching math yt videos to try and dissect it until i can figure out wtf it all means. ur smart as shit and i am in awe of ur math brain ty for taking the time to explain that graph theory thing bc i have spent literal hours nerding out over it

also to @marioverthere bc i know we don't talk much anymore (FUCK time zones) but meeting you and getting the chance to know u literally made me so happy (also ur the reason i started staying current w/ the hk protests so ty ao much for making me aware of that darling)

and to @softclowninghours for having THE PUREST energy. u probably give excellent hugs i can just feel it. i just know it.

and then all my anons w ur lil emojis and signatures, who i love and cherish -- i won't try to list all of u bc i WILL forget some and im not tryna do u like that but some honorable mentions:

🐥 anon, for being like half the reason i ever touch my draft of lobsterback (ur my motivation, inspiration, muse, etc. thanks honey)

🍬 anon, for being absolutely fucking adorable and an enormous sweetheart

🐺 anon, for being friendly as hell and also kinda fucking hilarious. ur asks always make me smile

💙🖤 anon, for being so so so damn kind and supportive all the fucking time (ily)

there are so many people and blogs and anons that have made an impression on me this year, so believe me when i say this is very, very, VERY incomplete; if we've ever talked, or you've sent me an ask, or you've ever interacted with my post, you deserve a spot up here so pls forgive me for having 3 neurons and not remembering to mention u as i hastily write this post

literally though i love and appreciate every single one of you so much. this sounds like a huge platitude but i don't know how else to say it because there are genuine thousands of u who id list if i had more time or energy. you're all excellent. thank you so much for being alive at the same time as me.

also s/o to disney and lin for releasing the obc tape bc fr thats the only reason this fandom came back to life

+ also HUGE shoutout to the person who venmoed me ten bucks for the fotp smut. i don't have ur tumblr @ since u sent everything on anon but yk who you are; your generosity means the world to me and i hope the smut lived up to ur hopes and expectations

++ also the anon who encouraged me to actually write my art museum au 😌❣ ik it isn't up yet but ive been loving it so much and i hope u like it when it drops

[thebtswritersclub]

Happy Birthday Aditi!!!!

The BTS Writers Club is here to wish our lovely admin, @ditttiii a very happy birthday! Here’s all the messages we’ve collected, from admins and members alike for Aditi day (January 14)!

Aditi! Happy Birthday! Thank you so much for being an amazing Admin. The network would not be the same without you and all that you do. I mean, just look at the layout! You do so much for us and it’s 1000% appreciated. We’re so lucky to have you! Thank you for being with us from the start and being there to help everything grow. You’re such a valued and loved member and a wonderful friend. I love you so much. Even though this past year was an absolute garbage fire, I hope that next year will be much better. You’re going to do amazing things and I can’t wait to see them! 

- Love, Eva @aroseforyoongi

 PS: Please share more pictures of your puppy

Happy birthday, Adi!!  Babe, you're an amazing person, a marvelous woman and an awesome friend. I wish you the best things in the world, that's what you deserve nothing less. I can't thank you enough for your love and support, always. Know that you'll always have in me a friend and a hype woman. Congratulations, Queen! 

- Danna @unoriginal-username15432

Aditi! Though we have only known one another for a chunk of a year, I can safely say that you are one of the best people I could have met in 2020 and I am so glad I did! I think you have so much to offer the world in both intelligence and charm and you will go so far! Keep your head up through 2021 and never let anyone tell you you cannot do whatever you set your mind to. Keep writing and relaxing and enjoying life. Also, please remember to rest and sleep! Happy Birthday!!! 

- Dean @eternalseokjin

Happy Birthday Aditi! You're so sweet and kind and I hope you have a great birthday!!!

- Donna @untaemedqueen 

Aditi

I hope you have an amazing birthday. You deserve one. You’re so wonderful, sweet, hardworking, intelligent, caring, encouraging, talented, pretty... I could go on forever. In short, you’re awesome & held in high regard. Thank you for being you & thank yo for being a vital part of BTS Writers Club & its admin team. You’re an html goddess & a goddess of kindness and looks. Your presence brightens my day & I look forward to all of our conversations.

So, to BTS Writers Clubs’ resident Goddess, Happy Birthday! 

- Lillia @moccahobi

Hello, luv 

I remember the first time we talked. I had come to you asking for advice because I was thinking about posting on tumblr, and somehow we ended up talking for hours that day. Ever since then, you have been such an amazing and precious friend to me, and I am so incredibly glad that I decided to come out of my shell that day. I am so thankful for everything about you and our friendship, and also for you quite literally dragging me into this net to meet so many other lovely people I have the pleasure of calling my friends as well. I wish you all the best, today and every other day, and never forget that I love you very much! 

- Keri @kerikaaria

happy birthday dearest aditi! i hope that you have the happiest, most wonderful, most magical birthday ever! you deserve everything good and more! sending you all of the love, hugs, and good vibes i can offer!

- Carese @honeyj00ns

Adiiiiii ily!! my lovely waifuuu!!! you work so hard and are so nice!! i married right  keep doing what you love and remember to treat yo'self!!!!

- Dae @birbdae

Lovely! It's your birthday and I would be remiss not to let you know that you are so loved and so appreciated! I hope you have an amazing day with those you love (especially Toto), and get something you were hoping for, be that quality time or a nice gift! Happy Birthday Aditi!

- Day @baepsaetan

Aditi, my love, my darling, my honey, ily. You’re such a good friend and a good wine bibi, i love u muchly and appreciate u. I’d like to thank u from the bottom of my heart for being there for me when i needed u, ty for helping me with my writing and helping me be happy, you truly are the best and there’s only one u. Keep shining u star. Keep being u, you literally are so cute and adorable and pretty like words can’t even describe how amazing u are, happy birthday to u ma love, i hope u have the greatest day bc u deserve it! I can’t offer u a hug rn but i can give u a virtual hug (sending u the biggest virtual hug) i hope it sent!  

- Ellie, signing off w a big big kiss for u @jungkooksbroski

Happy Birthday Aditi!  I hope all your birthday wishes come true on your special day! You have such a hardworking and vivacious personality, it's no wonder why I admire you a lot  I'm glad I can call you a friend of mine and I only want nothing but the best for you

- Gwen @prettyboongi

happy birthday aditi! although we haven't talked all that much, i'm glad to have met you through the net! you are such a caring and loving person and i hope you have the best birthday today and many more amazing birthdays! thank you for being you and happy birthday!

- Ivory @sunkissedjk

Aditi, you have the sweetest soul  and the kindest heart, I love our chats and how helpful you are. You've given me so much confidence, right from the get go. You never stop believing in people and will bend over backwards to help them, even when you're ill. You're so freaking talented, honestly, I just can't praise you enough. Happy birthday my lovely hareem queen, hope you have the best day!

- Ley @pars-ley

Aditi! The beautiful, amazing angel! I'm so glad I have gotten to know you through this net and I'm excited to get to know you better. Thank you for always being available to read my crap and for creating amazing works of fiction. You are one of a kind and the world is so lucky to have you in it! Happy birthday

- Mars @joheun-saram​

Hey Diti Darling, Apparently it's your birthday. Haps Borth! Ok, I know I give you hard time whenever we talk but that's because I am just a big nervous and confused mess all the time. We don't even talk that much. Even with that, I love you very much, as a chaotic sister. I just love seeing your name around. Every interaction I have with you is precious no matter how confused I come out of it. You are so sweet and so loving. I hope that you keep that light and keep growing. May this next year that approaches you is a fruitful one and bring you happiness in what ways that it can. Look up, smile bright.

-Your ever worried brother, Nep. :33 @dawndrms

lovely adi!! i'm so lucky to have met you this summer, because i'm pretty sure you're one of the first desi writers i met on tumblr  i love seeing all your posts on my dash, you're really such a sunshine and happy pill on dumblr and i wish more people saw that. your style of writing is so so so enchanting, something i wish everyone would read. in the net, you're a ray of light on everyone and i can tell that bring you so much energy and liveliness wherever you go. have a lovely birthday aditi appi, and to many more!!

- Noor @papillonsgf

Happy birthday Aditi!! I want to say a massive thank you for everything you do for the net to make it what it is. you are so friendly and helpful, you really make everyone feel so at home there! I'm so happy to have joined and met you. I hope you have a great day because you deserve it xx

- Ru @btsmosphere

Hey Aditi! I just wanted to say, happy birthday from the bottom of my heart! You've made being in here so special, helping me with everything I needed! I remember the first person to say Hello to me in the net was you! You were also the one who told me I was accepted! Your really special to me! So is your hate for Mee6 Thank you so much for everything! I wanted to give you something special for your birthday so I'll be posting Transvaal Daisies very soon! Once again, thank you for everything

- Tailia @namyoongles

Hi Aditi!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday  I love how sincere and enthusiastic you are and how you’re always hyping us and all our ideas and i hppe your birthday matches how awesome you are

- Tanooki @crystaljins

Happy Birthday lovely Aditi! I hope this year brings a ton of happiness, positive growth, success and prosperity! I’m so happy we got to meet over this net. I love love LOVE gushing about Bollywood movies and Indian music with you and I absolutely love how supportive and helpful and kind you are.  You are awesome, beautiful and just so lovely! I’m so happy that we get to celebrate your birthday together (relatively) and I’m wishing you all the best today and onwards! Cheering you on! Happy Birthday! 

- Yours, Triv @purpletigertaetae

We love you, Aditi! Have an amazing birthday!!!!

All graphics and pictures used made with buckets of love by @kerikaaria

[orange-waterfalls]

Reader w/wings hc's p.2: lesser- known egos/egos i just didn’t wanna put in the last one

ty @fancybootm for the request!

A/N: IT’S BEEN A WHOLE ASS MONTH SINCE I GOT THIS I AM SO FUCKING SORRY. school is suck. anyways. my brain convinced itself that I had to have the same amount of egos in this one as the last one so shit's long again. I had a bit of trouble but scrounged up enough of them. uhhh I don't... we don't really know a lot? about the personalities of these ones? so I just went with what I thought. for Heistiplier, I like to think Mark in AHWM and ADWM is a completely separate person from Actor. Like until we get to the Actor timeline he is a separate person altogether. Night Guard Mark is like mark from the fnaf musical because i can and fuck you. the egos are very random and from many lesser known videos so uh. you might not know all of them. I didn’t even know all of them at first. some of these fuckers annoy me to no end so I had to make them more likable for my own sanity cjfufydy. I only skimmed through after I wrote so it might suck lol. Uh rated T for cursing. Mentions of religion and mental health. Enjoy!

Y/N(reader) w/ wings headcanons p.2

Ed Edgar saw you as a profiting opportunity.

Bastard only uses you for commercials at first

Wings sell shit, don’t they? Kids are into wings these days?

One day you get pissed and just punch him

He respects you after that…

He’s very loud, of course, and your ears tend to be sensitive

He tries to quiet down when he sees you make a face

It’s difficult because that… that’s just his normal volume

He talks about his son sometimes. Not to you specifically

He gets sad… you still don’t completely understand what happened.

Sometimes it feels like he doesn’t either

You instinctively wrap your wings around him for Safety and Comfort

He is a MAN who DOES NOT CRY but goddammit, he was close 

He enjoys your company

The Silver Shepherd thought he was gonna rescue you

He’s a superhero, he HAS to save you, right?

Nah, you’re the one saving him more often than not

He tries not to be jealous, but goddamn

Your wings are just. So big. And pretty

He’ll complain to you about his girlfriend “cheating” on him

You know the bullshit he pulls, but you listen because why not

He appreciates that you at least pay a little bit of attention

He doesn’t do a whole lot of hero work, but he usually brings you along

Just for a bit of extra support

More often than not, you’re doing most of the work

You let him believe he did something, though

You boost his very low ego, and so you get along

Derek Derekson was a little bitch

Also saw you as a profiting opportunity

Yelled sometimes when you messed up

You took deep breaths and tried to stay calm the first few times

Then you snapped, calling him a variety of... words...

He stopped yelling at you, but not much else changed

You got along well with Eric, and he appreciated you for that

He does care about his only living son, at least a little

You two don’t… talk a lot

He’ll watch you from afar, occasionally

You constantly encourage him to TALK TO HIS CHILD and GO TO THERAPY

You still don’t like him, and he feels the same way

But he’s… trying

Randall Voorhees thought you were badass

He wasn’t as used to magic and weird shit as the others

You were absolutely awesome to him

He’d never seen an angel before!

Even though he didn’t really KNOW that you were an angel

He just assumed and refused to change his mind

Harder to hide you wings in crowded cities, like where he lives

You spend a lot of your time with him cooped up in his apartment

He felt bad, so he rents a mountain cabin up in Albany whenever you visit

You two ski and snowboard look me in the eyes and tell me the bitch isn’t a snowboarder

He’s a construction worker, so he’s usually busy

You visit him on his lunch break sometimes.

The other workers claim to see you, but he’ll always deny it

He buys a pizza whenever you visit and you eat it together

You two are so cute it’s sickening

Yandereplier claimed you as their new senpai

They saw you, you had wings, you were nice

And now you are Senpai

You aren’t sure why you get a weird feeling whenever they call you this

Luckily, you don’t have many friends, at least none that they could kill…

They showed you their weapon collection to impress you

You were scared and also impressed

They take you to a cherry blossom tree near their house

You talk and hang out and eat lunch

They don’t call you senpai anymore and they talk to you normally

And you no longer stare at the blood on their uniform

Night Guard Mark prayed you wouldn’t try to kill him

He might have PTSD from Freddy Fazbear’s

Those animatronics left a mark…

It took a little while for him to trust you not to harm him

When he did, HOO BOY is he a chatterbox

He has so many theories about the Freddy Fazbear’s Pizza Chain

Dark’s told you not to talk about the actual lore. It might break his spirit

You get very worried sometimes

He looks like that one picture of Charlie Day. You know the one.

Sometimes he gets panic attacks

You wrap him in a cocoon of your limbs and wings to ground him

He likes you for that

You hang out, playing games and watching movies. No horror. Absolutely NONE

You can handle him, and he likes you

Dr. Plier was curious about you

He wondered how you felt about… everything

He asked if you were ok one day and you broke down

He felt guilty and bought you ice cream

He sees you as a sort of… psychological experiment

Like he asks you very strange and slightly personal questions

Ok, very personal, but he’s a therapist, what can you do

He eventually stopped the interrogation and talked to you normally

You get along fine, but it’s kind of the same situation as Dr. Iplier

Chef Iplier wasn’t really all that phased

You were surprised by this because… well… wings

But he just… treats you normal, for the most part.

Sometimes he’ll pet your wings, but only if you let him

He loves how soft your feathers are

He doesn’t make that his entire perception of you

It’s a nice change of pace

He tries to cook for you sometimes, but uh. It doesn’t go well

You’re still confused as to how someone can set a glass of water on fire

You mostly just order take out

You hang out like normal people

Which neither of you are, but you’re both fine with that

Paranormal Investigator Mark is obsessed with figuring you out

Nearly had a panic attack when he first saw you

He wanted to prove the supernatural exists, but he didn’t have a lot of evidence before

And then your mystical-ass came along

Like the Jims, he tried to get pictures, and they all ended up blurry

He threw a fit over it, and you felt kinda bad

You tried to take the picture yourself but it came out the same

He gave up after a while

He info dumps about paranormal stuff to you

It can last from 5 minutes to 5 hours

You do pay attention though, and that makes him happy

He takes you on investigations sometimes

You don’t do much except break shit with those giant wings of yours

He stopped taking you on investigations

Cooliplier is not sure what to think

You have wings! Great! There’s absolutely nothing he can do about that

Not the most normal, but not the weirdest either

He tends to put on a tough-guy persona around new people

You were a lil intimidated

Then you became friends and mans did a full 180 around you

Went from “Your daughter calls me daddy too” to “I’ll have her home by 9 sir”

His personality is sort of a mix of the two

Catch you both screaming the lyrics to Mr. Brightside at 12:00 am

Took you to a mosh pit once

You got kicked out cause of the wings

He felt bad, but you had fun

He teaches you how to dance and roller skate

You also go for rides on his motorcycle

Once you just started flying while he was driving and it was the most fun shit ever

You’re “buds”, as he often tells you

Goopiplier likes you a lot

They like having another not-completely-human creature to talk to

I mean, some of the others aren’t exactly human…

But they’re not the best conversationalists…

Then again, neither is goop.

They mention the Dark Gods ONCE and suddenly no one wants to talk to them…

But you do!! Yay!!!

You mostly just hang out, do whatever

Watch movies, play games, or just talk

They like to draw you

They’re not very good, but you keep them all anyways

Sometimes they do… rituals. While you’re around

You are… a little scared, but that’s okay!

You have sleepovers and act like teenagers

You mock the others and then giggle, getting louder as you go

They’re not that funny, but you had to be there

Elder Jeremiah is terrified of you

He nearly pissed his pants when he saw you

He thought he was finally going to have to pay for his sins

He started crying, and you panicked

Why the FUCK was this 20-something-year-old well-dressed man crying at you???

He dropped his bike and fell to his fucking knees and begged for forgiveness

You felt very uncomfortable with the whole situation

You told him to get up bc he was dirtying up his pants

He eventually stopped crying and you told him you were not an angel

Also not a demon, as you said when he asked

He avoids you, mostly, still thinking you’re gonna drag him down to hell

He stopped the uh. The stealing since you came around

He will hang around/with you sometimes to see if you “reveal your true form”

You haven’t yet, and never will, BUT WHEN YOU DO, HE’LL BE THERE

He does think you’re very nice, though

Preistiplier thinks you’re an angel sent to assist him

He is doing holy work, it only makes sense that He would send a helper

He was disappointed, to say the least

He then came to the conclusion that you lost your memory of being an angel

You couldn’t exactly dispute it, since you don’t remember

So, he takes you on hunts

You don’t do much except make a bunch of fucking NOISE with your WINGS

He’d hoped you’d smite the demons

Or at least scare them, but they know you’re not an angel

He still takes you on hunts because, he’d never admit it, but he… gets scared

You promised not to tell a soul

You confess your sins to him sometimes

They’re usually not what he considers sins, but he listens anyways

He thinks you are a good person, and he enjoys conversations with you

Heistiplier was just normal around you

Well… as normal as he can be

You’d enjoy his company a lot more if he didn’t have such a god complex

You still like him a lot

He likes you too

Even if you did refuse to rob a bank with him

He’s a very… exciting person

Though you don’t really want to be around him when he gets upset

The entire world literally seems to revolve around what he does

He’s a drama queen, and completely feral

It’s worrying at times

You two are normal friends

Playing video games, watching youtube, etc. etc.

You listen to his stories and wonder how he's not dead yet

But you can admit, he's really fucking funny

[alolan-colress]

I am not into the franchise and know nothing about him but I sure understand how you could fall for Eugen. Esp in your style. 👀

Call me a non-fan simp. Just from the sideline thanks to you. Use this message to gush about him or the franchise if ya want.

AHH TYVM ANON IM SO GLAD I GOT U TO APPRECIATE HIM, ty for the chance to talk about eugen in detail!!! 😈

ok so these are some of his info which ive gathered/observed myself from the game so far!!!

-he’s got both SR and SSR versions (and a summer alt!), wields a rifle as his weapon and earth is his element in-game

-he is 50 years old!! also stands at 5’9 (i honestly thought he’d be any taller than that hdjdhjfjf) and according to his official info he likes sweets!!! how about that 😳💕💕 he also enjoys fishing, which i guess is natural for him as he was born into a floating isle w lots of scenic beaches/body of water

-dad/peepaw figure to MC’s airship crew haha except for his actual daughter bc he’s got some Family Issues going on TM (thats another story for another day though but like he’s trying to work it out again!! which im glad for that part (honestly why are the dad characters i seem to have as faves got some sort of family problems helpppp) )

-he’s just bright all around and got a gentle smile (WHICH I LOVE SO MUCH PLSPLS and everytime his in-game sprite does it i just go bask in a little gay moment). Very good at giving advice n encouraging his crew during dire moments. but he’s got a lot going on behind that personality of his 🥲

-bonus: he’s VERY good buddies with jin and soriz who are fellow Big n Strong middle-aged men (both are playable too!). they’re basically my fave group from the whole game i just LOVE their dynamic and teamwork sm, lots of entertaining scenes esp in their side stories 💙💙💙

there’s sm i have yet to learn about eugen tbh since im not even halfway yet into the main story 😭 (but ive already spoiled myself on some parts out of my own decision bc im an idyot who will dig any lore for their faves 😔💕)

that’s all i can share for now i don’t wanna make this longer HDKDHFJKF but yes in conclusion: EUGEN GBF I CARE U SM i would love to have his hand in marriage /lh

[pandapupremade]

Sympathy

SHIP: Negaduck x Flim (as told by Darkwing Duck himself)

WORDS: 753

WARNINGS: vague mentions of injury/hospitals

A/N: hi guys I wrote a negaflim thing but like. from the perspective of Drake Mallard (aka Darkwing Duck) bc I think it was funner this way. Reblogs appreciated, i didnt rly check for errors or even reread it I jsut. went for it. also bc I was writing from Drake’s perspective it was a lot of fun to pretend like I was writing for an episode of the show or something

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    It was shocking, really - maybe more shocking than I'd ever seen before. If anyone had told me it happened, I wouldn't have believed them, and don't even think I'd let them finish such an absurd theory about a masked terror of crimson twilight such as Negaduck...But here we were! Negaduck, of all cruel cohorts of malice, was being a...Well, er, I think he'd hate it if I called him a hero, but he certainly acted pretty courageous out there...Though admittedly, the trouble was his fault to begin with, so I can't give the pesky perpetrator of pure pillaging too much credit for his own problems! Yep, yep, he's rotten to the bone...

    But he still saved someone's life that day.

    I walked into the hospital room to see the darker cladded figure sitting in a chair beside a white sheeted bed. In the bed was a flamingo - feathers burned, bandages secure - and the figure concerned over their well-being was not even looking over as I entered. I wondered, for a moment, if he even knew I was there.

    "Come to mock me?" mumbled the villain after a moment, "Yeah, go for it. I don't have anymore answer for Dirtwing Duck than I did the other losers."

    "Losers?" I blinked. "O-Oh, you mean the Fearsome Five- er, four -"

   "I meant the dimwits who couldn't even be bothered to follow orders!" Now he looked over, and with a glare, and my hair stood on end. His teeth, which were sharp for whatever evil reason I never looked into, were bared at me. But...Then he looked back at the flamingo character. I relaxed only slightly.

    Silence again.

    "...Well, erm. Ahem, I'd best let you get back to it then, hm?" I bit my bottom beak and avoided looking at him. "I'll catch you around..."

    No reply. I stealthy slipped out of the room, but this was not the end of the tale. I may not be a person to participate in eavesdropping on a normal, harmless hospital visit...But nothing was harmless when it came to Negaduck. With the help of Launchpad, I'd just get into the vents! No biggie!

    "Eerrr, I dunno, D.W." Launchpad apparently felt it was quite a biggie, and scratched his head. "Should you really be snoopin' on them? Is that really super heroic of you to intervene with someone's love life?"

   "Yes!" I exclaimed with frustration, tying a rope to my waist. "And DON'T call it a love life! If ANYONE loved Negaduck, they must be deranged...Now let's get in these conveniently sized vents and get this over with!"

    "Whatever you say, D.W," Launchpad shrugged, and helped me up into a vent opening. I barely fit! If only Gosalyn was here...No, she'd probably be against eavesdropping too - or maybe she'd encourage it. Never knew WHAT to expect with that bundle of duckling joy...But crawling along, trying to keep my grunts to a minimum, I found the - hopefully - correct room with Negaduck inside...And peered down into the room.

     He hadn't moved an inch...What a dastardly deed indeed! All right, well, maybe it wasn't so dastardly. He looked different than I'd seen him before...Okay, yeah, same fetching hat and cape - not as fetching as yours truly's, of course ...And the hat was off, placed on the side of his chat...But he looked normal. Evilly so...And yet something felt off about the look in his eyes.

    Was it hatred? Malice? Cunningness? Wit? Or was it...softness? Either way, I don't think even he knew. But then ....

   "Mmh...N...Negaduck?" The flamingo was waking up. Her eyes fluttered and she winced. "W-what are you...Where..."

   He hesitated visibly. "Relax, Flim. You're safe."

   "...I-I...what happened?"

   "...I messed up, that's what happened." He pinched his temple a bit, shaking his head. Still, he reached for his hat. "You're safe. That's what matters."

   "W...wait..."

   Was he getting up? He hadn't budged from that chair in days! But Flim, whom I expertly deduced was the flamingo here, gently reached to grab his coat sleeve. He blinked at them. "...What?"

    "...Y-you saved me...Th-Thank you..."  I don't think I'll ever forget Negaduck's eyes widening at those words. But he left - out the door, not with a weapon's blast or something. He just...left....Just as shocking as him helping this flamingo, he was shockingly shutting them out after all this...Well, I'd just have to be the judge of that!

   Maybe Launchpad was onto something here...You know, the whole "Love" thing....Eh, I guess it's not my business. Darkwing Duck has better things to do than review a romantic comedy!

[psychedelic-ink]

Come Undone

Request: “Can I get a scenario with a love triangle Fuego x fem!reader x William?”

Genre: Mild angst

Word Count: 2,246

A/N: I was actually going to end this with it forming in to a polly relationship but you didn’t ask for it sooooo this ended up longer and more angsty than I anticipated. I hope you enjoy this ! Have a lovely day ^^ 

The first time you met William was during a mission you went on with your captain Fuegoleon Vermillion by your side. You were chasing down a hooligan who dared to terrorize a family of royal blood, Fuegoleon yelled out for you to slow down but you weren’t going to let the criminal escape. 

Unfortunately for you, the criminal ambushed you with his friends, tying you up to a tree as they gloated about their victory. You sneered at them knowing well that soon your captain would be by your side. The main criminal your were chasing, who’s name you later heard was Peter, kneeled down in front of you with a wicked smile plastered on his face. 

“How could someone from the crimson lions be so dumb?”

You wrinkled your nose when his breath hit your face. Not shying away from the preparator you glare at him. He seemed annoyed by this as he took a handful of your hair and slammed your head against the tree trunk. You hissed at the pain but said nothing. 

“Let’s see how long you can stay confident, bitch.” 

“Fuck off.” 

He let go of your hair. Your blood froze when he licked his lips, you raised an eyebrow. You could only imagine what vile things he was thinking but it frightened you nonetheless. With a week attempt you try to free yourself from your bonds, you felt the rope digging into your skin as your heart raced in your chest. If only you could get rid of that rope. 

Peter placed his hand on your chin, he pushed your head up revealing the soft skin on your neck. Your face was as emotionless as a wall but your body gave your emotions away as you start to sweat. Just as he leaned forward, you hear the bodies falling to the ground. Soon enough with the corner of your eye, you see a figure of a man. 

“Now, that’s no way to treat someone.”

The voice was soft and kind. This was the first time you heard such a soft voice and you were curious to whom it belonged to you. Peter turned around with a growl. Finally being free from his grip, you look at who your savior was. It was a man with bright purple eyes, and a gold blue mask. He gave you a reassuring smile and you were sure as hell you had a dumbfounded look on your face. The man’s grimoire was shining next to him. 

Peter’s green grimoire was also shining next to him, his back was turned to you and you really wanted to be of some use. But much to your surprise the fight is over in the blink of an eye. You didn’t really understood what happened, the only think you saw was the branched of the tree you were tied to reaching out towards the criminal and hitting him in the head. The masked man bind him with a spell and walked towards you. 

“Are you okay?”  he asked as he kneeled behind you. He untied you and you shot him a grateful smile. You rub the rope marks on your wrist hissing at the pain. 

As the observant person that he is, the mystery man opened his palm and you gingerly placed your hand in to his. He glanced at your red marks and you swear you could see a hint of anger in his violet eyes. He mumbled a spell and tiny heart shaped leaves spurted out your wrists. Your eyes widened and for a moment you panic but as the pain faded so does your panic. He released your wrist and for a short moment you watched the leaves dry out and fall off as the mark faded. 

“Thank you.” you breathed out. You open your mouth once again with the sole purpose of asking his name, but quickly shush yourself when you hear your captain’s voice.

“Y/N , are you okay?”

You turned to Fuegoleon, his eyes traveled down from your face to your wrists, he raised an eyebrow when he saw the leaves then he looked to the side to see the thugs binded with branches. Finally, he saw the masked man that was standing right behind you. You know your captain knew the man when he let out a soft smile. 

“Captain Vangeance,” 

Captain? What?

“I see you helped my careless subornatine, thank you.” 

Your mouth hangs open as you stood between the two , apparently, captains. Your eyes lock on to William for a second, you notice the yellow robe with the emblem of the Golden Dawn??? Your heart raced as you felt butterflies storming in your stomach. Like he read your mind, suddenly William locked his eyes on to yours, he smiled. 

“It was a pleasure.” 

Ever since the captain of the Golden Dawn rescued you, you’ve been a bit of an airhead. You couldn't concentrate and Fuegoleon was furious with you 24/7. The captain was already mad at you for getting caught that day. You knew he was mad because he cared. In the end you appreciated the captain doting over you. 

Fuegoleon has been an important part of your life for so long. He had helped you become who you were today and you were grateful. The reason you were so out of it was because you were confused. You were pretty positive that Fuegoleon knew that you had feelings for him but he never spoke about it. Now suddenly William was all you could think about for nearly a week. 

You walk out to the garden only to find Fuegoleon sitting there. Quietly you sat down next to him. His eyes were closed and it looked like he was meditating. Your heart sped up .What was going on with you?

“Is your current state because of William?”

You’re startled by hearing the captain’s deep voice, then when his question finally reached your brain your mouth went dry. 

“W-What?”

“I saw him today at the meeting. He wanted me to give you this.”

Fuegoleon opened his eyes. Only now you saw that he was holding an unopened letter. Without saying anything he placed the letter in your lap. You don’t know what to think and you look at the piece of paper as it was poisoned. Your shoulders relax when you hear Fuegoleon chuckling at your state.

“Don’t act so surprised,” he said finally looking at you. “It’s not that surprising that he wishes to talk to you.” then he took in a deep breath. “After all, you are a pleasure to be around.”

“What?”

At this point you just felt like an old record repeating itself. You never heard Fuegoleon sounding so hurt before, you also never heard him telling you that you were a pleasure to be around. You wanted to hug him, hold his hand or anything that would allow you to feel the heat of his skin. But at the same time you were happy to be hearing from Captain William again. You could still remember the kindness in his eyes and the softness of his voice. 

“I’m sorry to confuse you,” he spoke. “I always knew how you felt about me and I now know that those feelings have shifted towards Will-” 

“No!” you suddenly blurted out. Fuegoleon’s eyes widened with your sudden outburst. “I-I mean yes.” you held your head between your hands. “I mean it’s true that I have feelings towards William but I also still have feelings towards you.” 

Your heart melted when you saw him smile. You placed your hand on top of his, your smile faded when he pulled his hand away. You look at him with confusion. 

“I’m the captain of the squad you’re in.” he shook his head. “If you have feelings for William I encourage you to read the letter.”

“But-”

“Let me make this clear,” Fuegoleon stood up. You shivered when he looked down to you, locking his eyes on to yours. You never saw those eyes look at you with such anger. Even if you knew that anger wasn’t directed towards you it still made the hair behind the back of your neck stood up. “You and I will never happen.”

It felt like someone shoved their hand in to your chest and pulled out your beating heart. Your whole body trembled at the force of his voice. Before you could process what he was saying tears trickled down your face. Your hand went to your face, feeling the wetness of your cheek. Fuegoleon was taken aback by your reaction and it seemed like he regretted how he handled the situation. But you knew he wouldn’t say anything. He wouldn’t take back what he said because it was true. In his own mind he was helping you, forcing you away towards someone who he knew would make you happy. You knew your time was up when he looked away. 

“Sorry for bothering you.” you manage to say, your voice trembling horribly. 

Letter in hand, tears continuing to stream down your face you went to your room as quickly as possible. 

It’s been a month since your heart break and William wrapping up your wounds. 

In the end you went up and confessed William everything on your first get together. He already knew that you were sad, so he wasn’t that surprised. William never rushed you, he listened and understood your dilemma and how you felt. He was supportive through everything, Fuegoleon giving you the silent treatment, your confusion about your feelings… everything. 

You really fell for William. At this point he was your everything and you had no idea what you would do without him. There wasn’t a bad bone in his body. After you officially told him that you wanted to be together, his expression was like you had offered him the most amazing thing possible. You also told him that you wanted to tell Fuegoleon for two reasons, the first one being your unresolved feelings and the latter being that he was your captain. 

But your talk had to wait due to the spring ball that would be thrown for the royals and nobles of the kingdom. William had already invited you a week ago and you had agreed to go with him. The fact that you were going to be with stuck up royals wasn’t a fun thought but being with William was worth it. 

The only thing you hadn’t put in to the equation was that Fuegoleon, being a royal, would also be there. You froze up when you saw him, William following your gaze filled with horror saw the captain of the crimson lions. He took your hand and squeezed it. His warm hand was enough to calm you down. William leaned towards your ear. You shivered when you felt his warm breath ghosting over your ear. 

“Don’t worry I’m with you. Let’s go say hello.”

You feel your stomach sink down when William took the lead, pulling you towards Fuegoleon. You knew he just wanted to be polite and it wasn’t like Fuegoleon would get mad. He did push you towards William in the first place. 

Your mouth went dry when Fuegoleon saw the both of you walking towards him. This doesn’t fazes him and his lips form a warm smile, a smile you hadn’t seen in a while. 

“Good to see you William,” Fuegoleon said and then pointed his wine glass towards you. “And you too y/n.” 

“Good to see you too,” William replied, taking charge. “ Are you enjoying yourself?”

You wanted to die. You felt too awkward to be in the middle of such a conversation. You didn’t even listen to Fuegoleon’s reply, you space out until William gently nudged you forward. You look at him with utter terror when you watch him leave you. You target your glare towards his back. He was going to get an earful from you when this party was over.  

“William said he had to talk to Julius.”

Fuegoleon’s voice snapped you out of the scenario of you strangling William. You turn to him, you were surprised to see that he was still smiling. Even so, you could still see the cracks in his facade. His eyes gave it all away. 

“Are you happy y/n?”

“Yes.” you replied. You swallowed the knot in your throat. Since when it was so hard to talk to him. Fuegoleon took in a deep breath. 

“I’m glad to hear that. I knew the two of you would be happy.”

“Are you?”

“Am I, what?”

“Happy?”

You noticed that the corner of his lips quivered. He thought for a while, taking a sip from his red wine. 

“I’m happy that you’re happy.”    

Well, you certainly wasn’t expecting that. Your lips broke out in to a smile. You knew that Fuegoleon would never tell you that he regretted his choices or maybe he didn’t, who knows? The only thing you knew was that it was hard for him to see you with someone else, and it was hard for you to keep away knowing that he did,in fact, had feelings for you. But the both of you had to bury those feelings down deep, you loved William and you wouldn’t dare to do anything to jeopardize your relationship with him. 

Fuegoleon had made his choice to let you go. It was time you did the same. 

[gingywritesimagines]

Twin Trouble

Title: Twin Trouble

Fandom: Newsies

Pairing: Mike x fem!reader

Request: “Is there anyway you could write a Mike or Ike x Fem!Reader? Maybe something a bit fluffy? There’s really not much with the twins out there but they’re such cuties. Sorry for the lack of context to the request, I’m drawing a blank on plot ideas at the moment.” - W anon

Description: You and Mike have been dating for a while and the newsies see this as an opportunity to prank you with his twin brother. Unfortunately for them, you’re the one person who can tell the two boys apart.

Warnings: pranks (?), language, overuse of commas as per usual

A/N: this is based off of my prior experience with dating someone who has a twin, except it’s a bit more cheerful… and it actually has a happy ending. Also, I agree completely, the lack of Mike and Ike content is gross. Enjoy!

It had been just a few months since you and your favourite newsie had started going out. Mike had sold you papers every morning since before you could remember. You two became friends very quickly, and one day Mike realized that his feelings for you were much stronger than friendship. It took him a whole year to work up the courage to ask you out to dinner (with encouragement from his brother, Ike, the only other newsie who knew about you two). The way his face lit up when you said yes, after all that time of pining, proved just how relieved and how happy he was. Now, most people would assume that that glow had only lasted until the end of the date, but all these months later and Mike’s smile was still as bright as the sun. You were finally his girl and he couldn’t be happier, especially since you got along so well with Ike when he’d first introduced you two. However, the more evident this joy was, the more Mike’s fellow newsies got suspicious. He still hadn’t told anyone other than Ike about you, and the other boys were all very perplexed as to why their friend was so much more cheerful than usual. They knew the only way they were going to get answers was to ask his brother, so a few of them launched a plan.

Racetrack woke up early that morning, sneaking over to Mike’s bunk and tying all of his clothes together before moving to get himself ready. As the boys woke one by one, Mike noticed the state his clothes were in and grumbled- it was going to take him forever to untie them and get to the circulation gate. Ike offered to help his brother, but after a quick you’s can’t both afford to lose a day’s pay speech from Jack, he joined the other newsies in filing out of the lodging house and into the streets of Manhattan. As they reached the gates of The World, Race started to snicker.

“What’s so funny, Racer?”

“I tied Mike’s clothes together.” the blonde giggled.

Ike’s eyes widened, but he wasn’t quite sure why he was surprised- this was Racetrack Higgins after all, “Wait, what?”

“I tied his clothes together.” Race repeated, “I’s needed to talk to ya alone so I messed with his stuff to give us alone time to talk.”

Romeo piped up, arching an eyebrow, “Ya couldn’t just ask ‘im to talk?”

Albert stepped forward, shaking his head, “That was the plan, but Race had other ideas.”

“The plan?” Ike asked.

Elmer nodded from his spot ahead of them, “Ya brother’s been actin’ funny, Ike. We wanna know why.”

Ike realized what they were talking about almost immediately, and he hoped that wasn’t evident on his face as he tried to lie his way out of the situation, “Funny? Mike ain’t actin’ funny. What’re ya talkin’ about?”

“Wait, Mike’s been acting funny? I didn’t notice anything.” 

The boys all turned to see Davey standing behind them, a confused look on his face and his little brother Les at his heels.

Most of the boys muttered their hellos to the Jacobs brothers, but Race just rolled his eyes, “You’s tellin’ me you ain’t noticed Mike smilin’ all dopey while lookin’ at nothin’?”

“Or his face lightin’ up like the fourth a’ July no matter what’s happenin’?” Albert added. 

“Or him mutterin’ to himself all the time? Or him disappearin’ once sellin’s over for hours and comin’ back lookin’ like he just won the lottery?” Elmer pressed.

“Wait.” Davey put his hands up and thought for a moment, “Mike’s been doing all that?”

“Yes, he has.” Jack confirmed, ushering the boys through the gate since the Delanceys had just unlocked it, “Has been for tha past few months.”

“Months?” Davey gulped, “Gee, I- I never noticed.”

“Yeah, well, you don’t spend as much time with ‘im as we do.” Jack shrugged. nudging Ike, “So you gonna tell us why or not?”

Ike gulped as he contemplated his options; on one hand, he knew Mike had a reason for not telling the boys about you, and he had trusted Ike with the secret of your relationship- he couldn’t betray his brother’s trust. On the other hand, though, Mike never really said that it was a secret, and he never made Ike promise not to tell anyone. Before Ike could make a decision, however, Davey spoke up again. 

“Well, I’m not certain, but it sound to me like Mike is acting this way because of a girl.”

Ike froze as the other newsies whirled around at Davey’s statement.

“What did you just say?”

“I think Mike might be in love.”

The boys turned from Davey to Ike, waiting to see what he had to say. Ike simply sighed, “If he finds out I told you’s about his girlfriend, he’s gonna kill me.”

There was a pause in the conversation before a single voice cried out, “His WHAT?!”

Ike spent his day selling with Race, telling him everything and selling as much as he could while Race ran off to tell the other boys. Being the last one at the circulation gate, Mike didn’t get to leave with his brother and ended up selling with Crutchie- who was kind enough to sit on a wagon and wait for him to arrive. It took all of five minutes for Mike to convince Crutchie to sell at his usual selling spot; he wasn’t about to miss out on seeing you just because Race thought he was funny (and yes, he knew it was Race. Who else would tie all his clothes together?). This new position allowed Crutchie to get some extra information on you that Race and the other boys couldn’t- such as how Mike’s face molded into pure bliss as you approached, and exactly what you looked like as you skipped towards him.

“Mikey!” You greeted, beaming as you threw your arms around his neck.

“Hiya, gorgeous!” Mike beamed back, his arms wrapped happily around your waist.

“I missed you!“ you giggled, handing him a small basket, “My mother made you these, in case you get hungry during selling.”

“Snickerdoodles!”

“Just for you! So, how’s the headline today?”

Mike chuckled, shaking his head, “I already told you, baby, headlines don’t sell papes-”

Before he could finish, a loud voice pierced through the air, “IKE!!”

Both Crutchie and Mike turned around in confusion to see Ike, Racetrack, and about 15 other newsies marching their way.

Ike stepped forward, gesturing accusingly at his brother, “Ike, what the hell is you doin’ with my girl?”

Mike stared, still very much confused, “What? I’m Mike, you’re Ike, and she’s my girl.”

“Ike, don’t be ridiculous, she’s my girl. Right, babe?”

You glanced between the two brothers, completely confused, “Ike, what are you doing? What are you talking about?”

Albert stepped around them, gesturing to Ike, “Your boyfriend here is worried that his brother is stealin’ you from him.”

“But that’s not my boyfriend.” You shook your head, pointing at Mike, “That’s my boyfriend. I can tell; his dimples are more subtle. Plus he’s got that cute button nose.”

You poked Mike’s nose, giggling as he smiled and blushed at your actions. The rest of the boys gawked at the scene, completely stunned.

“You’s can tell them apart?” Race muttered in shock.

You nodded, “Well, of course! It’s not that hard; Ike’s dimples are more profound, Mike has more of a button nose, Ike tends to wear more blues while Mike normally wears browns and reds, and their hairlines are totally different-“

As you rambled on, the newsies stared at you like you were speaking Chinese at high-speed. The boys had lived with Mike and Ike for years but they’ve never been able to tell the two apart, and here you were- a girl who’d been dating Mike for only a few months- getting telling them apart down to a science. It was so easy for you, and as you explained it, the boys wondered how they’d never noticed these things before. While the other boys stared in shock, Mike looked at you with more love and adoration than he knew was possible. He knew you could tell him and Ike apart, but he never knew you’d noticed all those little things about him. He watched as your face lit up with love at every new detail you mentioned and he could tell that you not only noticed the little things, but they were part of why you fell in love with him. His heart was so full from these discoveries that he almost burst. He couldn’t wait until your rambling was over, Mike just had to show you how much he appreciated this.

“Plus, they both have very different tastes; Ike prefers chocolate chip cookies, but my Mikey just loves snickerd-”

Before you could even finish your sentence, Mike grabbed your waist and gently pulled you closer, trying to squeeze every ounce of love and appreciation he had for you into a single kiss. You, of course, didn’t hesitate to kiss him back, cradling the back of his neck in one hand. The other newsies smiled, happy that Mike had found someone that he loved so deeply, and disappointed with themselves for trying to mess with that. All in all, it was a moment of pure peace and happiness... or it was until Racetrack piped up from his spot between Specs and JoJo, eliciting laughter from everyone present:

“Alright, alright, get a room!”

Taglist: @berry-kitten-paws @tina20213 @fandomsneverdie14 @mcoomcoo

[chivalin]

February Week 8 - April Week 18: Appreciating Other Content Creators Recs (SWTOR)

It has been ages since the last one but since today is “May the Fourth be with you” and swtor fan appreciation day, I decided to pour all my efforts into making this.

I have to apologize though as the comments on these are not as lengthy as in the previous ones but I really wanted to publish this today and also finally get caught up with the recs posts :P. But know that even if your name or work isn’t in here, I still absolutely adore everything I have appreciated in the past!

But anyway, for those new to this, here’s the intro from the very first recs post that explains everything perfectly:

I promised in my New Year’s resolution to spread more positiveness around towards other content creators out there. So -  - here are some of my favorite creators, fics, art and other things - - that I want to appreciate once more. You can find more cool stuff in my Art Appreciation Blog dedicated solely for appreciating others’ contents.

Basically I just want to spread some positiveness around because as a content creator myself, I know how much joy and encouragement even one show of appreciation can bring into people’s lives :)

*

ART

@starryevening - Sith Apprentice

The style is very pleasing to the eye in this and the colors are absolutely fantastic! Everything is so vibrant which makes this such an eye catcher, and I especially love the hair and face so much!

@mirielsart - Revan & Malak

Not exactly full on swtor art, but hey, it’s close enough and I just couldn’t pass by this without including it! The style makes me weep and everything else about this is superb too from the coloring to the poses that end up creating such a strong, emotive piece!

@aspyforthethrone - Sass // Gev // Hunter & Theron & Ewanh

All the characters have been captured perfectly and the style (and the clothes, can’t forget them because, daaamn!) in these is absolutely golden too! I highly enjoy the easily recognizable expressions, and the mood of these pieces is just stunning, especially in the Gev piece!

@tracinyad - Nino

The style is very pleasing and I just love how the face looks! The coloring is superb, I love the blue so much, and I especially love how the hair has been done!

@erinmccomics - OC Fight Week Duel Comic

This comic is absolutely hilarious and I just love how the action moves fluidly from one panel to another! The expressions are also so freaking awesome, making this such a fantastic piece!

@sirenofvathraki - Header Edits

Daaamn, these edits are ridiculously good and it’s such a joy to look at them! Seriously, I absolutely love how these look as the color scheme, composition and practically everything is just so spot on!

@aredheelmahariel - Togruta

This is an absolutely stunning piece that I can’t just seem to drag my eyes away from! The coloring is mesmerizing and I’m so in awe because of it, and damn that gaze is so hypnotizing too!

@skullinacowboyhat - Miraluka Druid // Togruta Monk

I absolutely adore these designs so much as the coloring is superb in both of them and- damn, I just love these so much, alright?? They feel very real and immediately catch my interest whenever I see them!

@dottiechan - Togruta Codzhekel // Togruta Codzhekel Digital

This rec post wouldn’t be complete if I didn’t include these fabulous pieces because my sweet Togruta is in them! I can’t sing praises enough of how much I love both of these and they do Codzhekel more than enough justice, leaving me happily weeping away because of pure awesomeness! (Ty so much once again for doing these <33)

@popiell - Pureblood Natjana // Sith Pureblood/Mirialan Hybrid

Same as above as the first one has my dear Nat in it and she looks absolutely stunning! I love the style in both of these so, so much and can’t help but to just marvel the pure talent and skill that has made it possible to create these pieces! (Also, ty so much once again for doing Nat <33)

@windwyrm - Firebrand Kaliyo

This is such an interesting and very well done piece that I’m definitely in awe! I absolutely love the colors and how perfectly all the different elements work together to create such an interesting and breathtaking piece!

@dingoat - Scourge & Jedi Knight // Torian & Jedi Knight Fight Scene // Torian & Jedi Knight Hug

Such amazing pieces of work that never fail to tell a story on their own! I absolutely love the mood, composition and coloring (aaaand, practically everything, haha) in all of these and I can honestly say that these pieces are just flawless and pure perfection!

@spindlewit - Jedi Consular

The design of this Consular is so pleasing that I can’t help but smile widely whenever I lay my eyes on it! The outfit is superbly done and I really like all the three poses, and I also have to mention how much I just adore the coloring!

@sssamson - Theron & Imperial Agent // Vector Outfit Meme // Torian Outfit Meme

I absolutely adore all of these and their styles so much! They’re so pleasing and interesting to look at and I just love the connection in the first pic while the outfits in the last two are superbly done, not to mention I just adore the top hat wearing killik with Vector!

@viridanlegacy - Metal Fashion Imperial Toons

This is the greatest thing my Finnish eyes have ever laid their gaze on, haha! I absolutely love the design of these characters and the poses are so well executed too, making this piece pure perfection!

@redosjenny - “New Top Nerd”

I adore the expressions and the good, casual mood in this so much! The colors are pleasantly vibrant and it definitely tells a story on its own which is always such a good thing!

@semper-draca - Tarot Card Gimrizh (nsfw for nudity and blood)

This is a very powerful piece of art that is just an absolutely delight to observe! I love all the details and symbolism, and this definitely such a flawless and very well-thought-out piece!

@painedting - Ziost & Sith Inquisitor

The mood in this is ridiculously powerful and I absolutely love how this has been colored too! The face is very well done and damn, the look in those eyes nearly sends shivers down my spine because it’s so intense!

@claudela - Pureblood Outfit Meme (nsfw-ish for mostly bare upper body)

This is- I don’t even have words to describe how awesome this is! Seriously, the outfit is so on point and DAMN THAT CHARACTER is amazingly done and I definitely love how vibrant the colors are!

FIC

@aly-the-writer - Rest (Arcann/Male Jedi Consular)

The style is really fluid and sucks you right in the moment you start reading! I quite adore the chemistry between these characters and how smooth their interactions are, creating such a delightful piece!

@lesabear - Malicineve & Temperamental Astromech // Vharmir & Down Time w/ Theron

Oh man, I can’t praise enough how well the first-person narratives are executed absolutely flawlessly in these fics! They also have such a pleasant, easy to follow paces and the characterizations and humor are very well done too!

@keldae - Phobia (Theron Shan/Female Jedi Knight)

The style in this is so catching and pleasant to read that it makes you devour the fic before you even realize what has happened! The pace flows smoothly from one paragraph to another and I just love the interactions between all the characters!

@talonfics - The Depths of Surrender (Kaliyo Djannis/Female Imperial Agent)

I really, really enjoy this as it’s well-written and the chemistry between the characters is superb! I just love the style and all the cool bits that can be found in here, like the one where they’re kissing in the end!

@fer8girl - Eyes on You (OC/OC) // I Never Mean to Hurt You // Charmed (Torian Cadera/Female Bounty Hunter)

All of these are such enjoyable and delightful reads, I can’t praise them enough! The style is absolutely fluid and I definitely got sucked in because the telling and characters are so interestingly told!

@nerf-burger - A Massage (Felix Iresso/Female Jedi Consular)

Such a sweetly awesome and well-written piece that I can’t help but be in awe! The interactions between the characters are really natural and I just utterly love how Felix is portrayed and how supportive he is!

@cinlat - Forced R&R (Theron/Vector/Female Imperial Agent)

Oh my god, I absolutely love this! The chemistry is so on point between everyone and I have to admit that I definitely fell in love with this pairing while reading this!

@tishinada - Patience (Andronikos Revel/Female Sith Inquisitor)

This has such and excellent style and telling that it’s an absolute joy to read! Andronikos’ portrayal is superb, and I just love the interactions and observations between these two!

@cavalier-life - Caught in a Storm (Theron Shan/Arcann/Female Sith Warrior)

Such an interesting and lovely poly ship that I definitely grew invested in while reading this! The pacing is really nice and smoothly flowing, making this so easy and delightful to read!

@kunoichi-ume - Starships in the Night (Vector Hyllus/Female Bounty Hunter)// 30 Days of Domestic Fluff (Torian Cadera/Female Jedi Knight)

I absolutely love both of these! They’re such superbly written pieces that also have amazing chemistry between all the characters! The style is really great and I have to admit that these being not so common pairings makes me love them even more!

@sassheliosazuras - Snuggling Cat // Jackass Inibri-cat

I just can’t leave these out from here because animals are such a soft spot of mine, especially if they want to snuggle or are the embodiment of Inibri, haha! Seriously though, I enjoy both of these immensely and they make me so happy whenever I even think about them!

@lordviridis - Welcome to Dromund Kaas

Oh maaaaaan, I witnessed this fic being made and know what’s going to happen in it and it’s *so* good that I can’t praise this enough! Such intricate telling and pleasant style, not to mention that I just adore Aleena because she’s such a good character!  

[dboliklover]

Q and A Session!

Thank you, everyone, for sending in your questions! We will now answer them! Italic is Mod Roza, while bolded is Mod Azusa! Everything is under the cut for those who would like to skip!

Question 1; HI! /can I ask how old you are?/how long have you had this blog?/do you have a favorite rp account(other than this one lol)?/how is school/work going? Thank you for all your hard work!!

Mod Roza; Hi! I’m fifteen, but my birthday is on the 17th of November, so I’ll be sixteen soon! We’ve had this blog for a few months now, but I forgot the exact date ^^’ No, I do not have a favourite RP or headcanon blog, but I do enjoy a handful of all types of different fandoms. I also do roleplays on my email, so if anyone would like to discuss a roleplay with me, please PM me on my personal blog: Daughter_of_the_gods Or click here!  As for school, it’s good. I’m hella busy though! I have my mock GCSE’s starting next weeks until the second week of December so I won’t be able to post for a while unless it’s announcements! Sorry! And thank you! We appreciate it, and we appreciate all of you! <3 Mod Azusa; Hello! Let’s just say I’m older than fourteen but less than twenty :’)My birthday is the 14th of January! Like Roza said, we’ve had this blog for a few months now. I’m sure if one of us looked back in our private messages we could find the exact date. I’m pretty sure it was before school started though!Hmm. I don’t exactly have a favourite rp account, but I do have one of my own! I rp either through discord or via email, so feel free to send me a message on my personal (naiis-blr) if it interests you! School is going pretty well! All of my class averages are at 70%+, which is great! I have final exams for this semester in January though ;~; Question 2; Can I ask both Mods, what encourages you to start writing a prompt/scenario? Like do you pick ones that interests you the most?      

Mod Roza; Hmm, what encourages me? Well, usually what’s been in the ask the longest! But if I’m having writer’s block, I’d choose something easier for me to do, and eventually come back to the other one after I’ve gotten more ideas!I especially love the more unusual ones! Mod Azusa; A good question! I tend to start with ones that have been in the ask box for the longest, or ones that I know I’ll be able to power through and get out straight away! If there’s none that interest me, I pick a random one and work through it. All of the asks that follow the rules get answered; no matter how much we don’t want to do them!

Question 3; This is an ask for both of mods!! What are some of your favorite bands/singers? Mod Roza; Hmm, I love ALL kinds of music (Except for dubstep and heavy metal) Here’s some of my favourite bands and singers though!

-Lauren Aquilina

-Vocaloid

-BTS (Kpop)

-VIXX (Kpop)

-Jula (Polish singer

-)Ed Sheeran

-Anna Jantar (Polish singer) 

Feel free to PM me on my Personal blog if you’d like to discuss more music with me!:

Mod Azusa;

I really love anything country and to do with vocaloid! I love songs like Dark Wood Circus and The Servant of Evil series. Some of my favourite country songs are Love me Like You Do, Canadian Girls and Being Down The House!

Question 4; This is a question for both mods again if its alright!!! What are your favorite diabois?

Mod Roza;

I’m a 110% a slut for three of them. I call them my “Unholy trio” THis consists of Ruki, Kou and Subaru. These three are my weakness and I cannot choose between them. I love them all. So my “favourite” is the whole unholy trio.

Mod Azusa;

Ruki is my favourite diaboy

fight me. Question 4; this is a question for both mods, What made you guys start wanting to write for dialovers? and did you guys make this blog together or one of you just ended up joining it after a while lmao

Mod Roza;

It was a joined thing! If I recall correctly, Mod Azusa wanted to make a DBL blog (After I successfully dragged her down to DiaHell, y’all are welcome for the fact I converted Mod A into one of us and added such a talented writer as them into our DiaHell ranks XD) but after I suggested having a headcanon blog, and we agreed to do it together from the beginning! It was super difficult to get noticed in the Community at the start, but now we’ve E X P LO D E D  Please Keep in mind I have a horrible memory and Mod Azusa most likely remembers it better than I.

Mod Azusa;

I had originally started this blog as a fan blog! After talking with Mod Roza, we both decided to turn it into a headcanon blog. It’s a good way to get writing skills while doing something you enjoy!

Question 5; ask for both mods, what's your favorite disney movie?

Mod Roza; My favourite Disney movie? That’s a hard one! Hm, I gotta say I like Mulan a lot, because she’s badass, but then again I also adore Tangled, too! Mod Azusa; Favourite movie hands down is Aladdin. Jasmine is best princess 10/10 .

Question 6; ask for both mods, do you have any pets? if so explain their personality? Thanks

Mod Roza; Yesssssssssssssssssssss My baby Tiger. (He’s a cat called Tiger and NOT an actual Tiger (Low-key wish he was tho)) Tiger is a huuuuge cat that I’m pretty sure is as big as an actual big-cat cub and he’s fluffy af and a huge asshole but he’s the most lovable asshole ever. He is very cuddly when he feels like it, but he drools a lot and recently he started cuddling my head and licked my eye which was G R O S S. But I love him so much and he’s my precious child. Mod Azusa; Hey! I used to have two pets; a German Shepard husky mix and a calico cat. My dog’s name was Elvis and my cat’s name was Tails ^^. We sadly had to put them both down due to various illnesses, but I was able to be with them for about nine years or so. Question 7; for both mods, what was the first thing you guys ever wrote? do you think its good and is it still online or in a notebook? Lmaooo- Mod Roza; I mean, i was probably like, 3 when I first wrote something?? But I think you mean what’s the first /original/ thing I have written, and I will tell you that yes, I still have it and unfortunately yes, it’s online. It’s the cringiest thing ever and I hate how awful 12-year-old-me was at writing. If anyone is wondering I wrote “jelsa” fanfics. Jelsa being the ship for Jack Frost and Elsa. Are you cringing yet? XD Mod Azusa; Oh man. The first thing I ever /actually/ wrote was an attack on titan fanfiction about two years ago. I still have it on my google drive, and it makes me cringe to even look at it. It was a summer project that I was writing with an online friend- we never did finish it, but I read it over every once in awhile to see how much I’ve grown as a writer. Question 8; nyello, i wanna ask both of yees, Which dialovers boy(or boys) do you have the hardest time writing for? ty Mod Roza; Reiji. Without a doubt I can’t do that King of Savageness. He’s soo hard to write for I literally DIE whenever I write him.  As for Mukami’s, Yuma is hardest to do for me. Mod Azusa; I think the hardest diaboy for me personally to write is probably Yuma. He’s a very hard character to nail, and I’ve spent quite some time browsing and replaying the games just to get another look at his quite abstract personality. I do try my best to keep him as in character and realistic as possible! Question 9; hi! sorry if this has been asked before, what made you guys interested in diabolik lovers? like how did you find out about it? (this is a question for both mods btw!) Mod Roza; Oooooh Gods….I’ve been in DiaHell for YEARS. Like, I don’t even remember HOW I got into this hell. But Here I am~Tbh I think I google something like “Romance animes” or “Supernatural animes” and found a list and it caught my eye??? Idk anymore RIp.((I got Mod Azusa into DBL y’all are welcome. Like Otome is the thing me and her originally linked and connected to and now we’re great friends b/c of otome.)) Mod Azusa; I originally got into diabolik lovers because of Mod Roza! She introduced me to it, so I have her to thank for bringing me into the community. I have a great love for otome games, and so I began playing the diabolik lovers series shortly after watching the anime. Roza and I watched it together, and there were quite a few… choice words exchanged on my part towards anime!yui. Question 10; i have an ask for both mods XD, whats the creepiest thing thats ever happened to you? Mod Roza; Gods, where do I begin? I guess the time when (TRIGGER WARNING: Hitting on underage girls) I was at my uncle’s name-day party ((Slavic thing)), and there was this guy in his mid 30’s there, he seemed pretty cool at first, until he tried to hit on me later in the night, when I had admittedly a little too much to drink (It was a family party.) and I was tipsy, he danced w/ me (Which isn’t considered creepy in Slavic countries, but he danced w/ me in a slow, romantic manner and it was V uncomfortable!) And the straw was when he kissed me neck and called me his “little lady” I pushed him the fuck away and sat on the stairs, too scared to tell anyone and i felt V disgusted and filthy.He ended up w/ my Uncle beating the SHIT outta him though, and he ran the fuck out the house after that. But it to this day scarred me. Mod Azusa; ooo. I don’t tend to have creepy things happen to be very often (i’ve gotten used to quite a bit of it). I can’t recall exactly a time when I’ve been creeped out, but things that go bump in the night can cause uneasiness. I get frightened more often than creeped out. Thank you all so much! I hope you enjoyed this Question and Answer session! We hope to do more of these in the future. Have a great day everyone!

[eventlawyer77-blog]

Steal Alert: 48% off J. Crew through 12/5

NOBODY MOVE. J. Crew’s website seems stable. For now. And that wasn’t the case on Black Friday – Cyber Monday. And while this deal isn’t quite as good (2% less of a discount, not as much stock), you guys have sent in a few tips about this one, so… off we go with some picks. Fingers crossed their servers don’t burst into flames. Big thanks to John P. for the tip!

Check out the close up of that knit. English wool from Moon Mills. Looks like a super high quality alternative to their Lambswool chore jacket which has long since sold out. The year of the sweater jacket (or the swacket) continues to be strong.

Just over ninety bucks for a vintage-inspired, but still highly functional, gore-tex waterproof boot? That seems oddly good. Breathable too thanks to that gore-tex.

Navy (on the left) has plenty of sizes left, while the forest green is scattered at best. That deep red cabernet color? Long gone. New Year’s Eve is fast approaching.

Gloves are a lot like sunglasses. Some of us can hold onto them without trouble, others leave them in every train, cab, plane, Airbnb, etc… that we step into. If it was socially acceptable, some of us might start tying strings to our gloves like we had with our mittens when we were six years old.

A classic OCBD that comes in a true slim fit and is made from American grown Supima cotton. Tons of colors to pick from. Yes, they’re made overseas, but the reviews are solid. Are there cheaper OCBD options out there? Absolutely. But not many now that they’re half off.

The bluchers of their new Italian Leather collection. Goodyear welted. One fifty-five. Not bad for a basic shoe that’s about the shoe-iest shoe to ever shoe.

Four color options. Basically the same sweater (at least it looks to be from here?) but one is considered to be heathered, and the other is donegal. Beats me.

These always make the annual best sportcoats of fall post and for good reason. Softer tweed than what you might be envisioning. Less construction too. Half lined. Shown above is a 40R on 5’10″/ 185. Full review here.

Solid on one side, micro windowpane (check?) on the other. All cashmere.

Unisex. A great gift for the gear lugging dude (or yourself,) or, something for the lady in your life. As someone who carries in a briefcase, a duffel bag (gym = early AM for me), and sometimes a tote (products to review and or giveaway to you guys…) I can appreciate something like this.

A favorite that was out of stock at one point during the Black Friday – Cyber Monday corridor. Extremely well reviewed. And not some dinky thing either. 17 1/2″H x 26″W x 9 1/4″D = over four thousand cubic inches of space. So, it has room. Seems to go out of stock a lot.

A basic that you’ve got to admit is at a pretty solid price. Merino wool + nylon blend. Lots of colors.

J. Crew’s take on the classic Peacoat, now down for around Army/Navy surplus store prices. And these can compete with the real thing. Good wool, a bit of insulation, those hand warmer pockets are a huge benefit, and it’s slightly longer than far too many peacoats that chop the tail short.

It has to be said again. Micro dots (not big blobby cartoon polka dots), are a great way to break away from the tyranny of stripes. Made in their secret wash, stretch fabric.

I don’t know how the leather quality is on these things. Just one review so far, and it’s encouraging, but know that in the past J. Crew has been a little hit or miss on leather accessories.

A less expensive version of the all leather option. Less leather will do that.

More of a classic fit. I’m guessing any fisherman worth his salt would smack you upside the head with a mackerel if you asked if he had ever worn skinny jeans. And while fisherman probably don’t shop at J. Crew, J. Crew has nailed the traditional Aran Fisherman’s sweater look here. 100% wool. Has a Hemingway look about it.

ORRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr… There’s this. Not bad for an all wool, classic cable, not-quite-fisherman’s sweater from their upgraded Wallace and Barnes line.  For being such a simple piece, this thing has a lot of potential.

A lot of brands push solid cashmere scarfs this time of year. And that’s fine and understandable. But it doesn’t take much of a pattern to set a scarf apart. And here’s the proof.

Speaking of small details that can set something apart, check out that stitch. All cashmere once again.

A cotton, 3 season (or year-round if you live in a warm climate) classic. One of the better reviewed items from J. Crew’s line up. Also available in blue.

What do you call a wool, colorblocked bomber? That’d be a letterman jacket. No letters necessary here either. Also available in a burgundy option.

Yes you can find cords for less (see GAP), but some of you are pretty tied to J. Crew’s pant fits. All three fits available here. Lots of colors to pick from. Cotton with a bit of elastane for stretch.

No lining here except for the sleeves. A little less stuffy compared to a traditional, hard shouldered, gold buttoned navy blazer. Full review here. Just the “galvanized iron” shade left with any size selection.

Big fan of J. Crew’s merino cardigans. Nice material, available in classic or slim fit, and unlike much of the competition, there’s a good sized placket here. Thin cardigan plackets can look a little feminine sometimes. Just wish they made them in more colors. You can have it in any color you’d like… as long as it’s navy.

Cotton canvas body, and unzips/unfurls so you can get your suit or jackets (and shoes and what not) to and fro while minimizing creasing and wrinkling risks. Yes, the zippers weren’t designed the best (read the reviews) but attaching a couple of pulls should solve that problem. And most bags like this will run you a heck of a lot more money.

The J. Crew 48% off lots of full price & sale stuff code 48HOURS is set to expire 12/5/18. 

Source: https://dappered.com/2018/12/steal-alert-48-off-j-crew-through-12-5/

[freeselfeducation]

I’m a poet so I wrote it in & then technology made sure no one “poked” it. Since—poof—disappears! In a strange new atmosphere where “parents” can be safe again? I appreciate the interest of one person TODAY. At MCA. Head injury, TBI/PCS with PTSD is no big deal when I win back divinity since they had to get real with me to feel what I reject—hypocrisy. Does poetry scare ya? Why I double dog dare ya to deflect that convo about a classroom for my kids ONE more time & this time, I won’t stare at ya. What is memory? What we hear. What we see. Documenting a stupified face looking back at me & the words were, “it’s your tone Ms...” but the trick is, that stupid expression is me/mine. Ugh. Next time I’ll find that perfect rhyme.

Lesson : never make a situation about educational discrimination & cognitive/physical & yes, sexual (an investigation that really didn’t follow policy) safety about one’s tone. Like eva.

No gag order & my only warder is bystander abuse on replay like a crank recorder & why PROJECT ONE (out of 25) is to officially resign from education online after I report what I found, the query always stigma bound of How To Stop the Rewind of voices saying COPE. No. Change the law since I reported abuse/neglect, lost my license, but I have great hope. Ptsd is “p”ics, “t”ouches, “s”ounds disordered, so I ordered it & that is why I now describe all their lies, my ptsd brain recorded IT❣️

Lesson : one’s ignorance can be the very thing to set them free. Two parents ask the principal to change the grading scale & my evaluation on him goes missing... leave ED. This isn’t your strength, dude.

I write “IT” here. I shared this site, for the first time in years. But freeeducation is safest, my determination to create is to elevate all who have helped me regain that teacher identity! Seriously! If I can teach myself anything then what’s the point of being a teacher who will always dream 🍎❣️ Not knowing what I wrote (that’s short term memory loss) & the “IT,” since I refuse to sit with these shittiest shits because my body gave out & after 6 years, I can’t handle it! Oh no 😬 but wait. Stop. Regroup. Demand—make the body move—then command since TODAY, shaking, dizzy, stiff & an immediate sense of how many people are in this space—get away from “IT”—call it out as fear—now groove—say, “u get outta here!” When you FACE IT, it can never adhere if you are crystal clear.

GIVE MY STUDENTS A CLASSROOM IS CLEAR TO ME.

Check time ✅ & I WILL NOT BE going tonight to the place of violence since decided to write [this] & next week, I can always try it —or not—already scared to share. How can I give it a go if I can’t get to that spot? An open mic night since creating a safe artistic space to learn work & play in is my only goal, hanging around too many adult play pens so start that pen. Deal with triggers. Write, go figure. It’s all full circle w 6 0 6 1 4. Someone breaking a silence & didn’t know then, but now, it did remove more violence since this admin is not just childish, but greed personified & oh the ways they lied & lied & lies.

Lesson : if you take federal money, do not violate IDEA (google it) & if you make up a story to ADA about pullout/pushin sercuves, it reveals NO KNOWLEDGE of your students’ rights. How can this person stand up for them?

In a nutshell,

Let’s encourage self-expression in a variety of hands-on & performance art ways. It’s possibly to include daily practice in self-assessment & self-regulation through modeling. Include biology/anatomy & the dialectic/the aesthetic as essential foundation skills. I witnessed things I can’t forget, uncomfortably numb about what exactly I was going to do about it after the principal walked out of a room when violence exploded during my evaluation thus showing me everything about basic stupidity (I had to return his laptop to him) & why I will always support debating ethics, intriducung psychology in the form of abnormal personality (insecure, lonely, inadequate) & creative problem solving 🙄 🌈❣️...that darkness is artless & with no outlet, it’s starkness KILLS CHILDREN’S FUTURES & not just my students. What do you think happens if ‘lil kids who self-harm & harm others never learn self-control? They become stats.

Education is Victimology & special education is intrinsic motivation + learning behavioralist, don’t forget.

T-note 🍎 took 72 minutes to write & tech blew up first written piece (took 37 mins) w 0 memory of what I wrote. (1st go & let it go) That’s the uj. Also, 3 audio flows to support physiological increase of symptoms w 100% awareness & ability to manage “flare-up.” Verbal ✅ Tech ✅ under 5 mins? ✅

ALL THESE WORDS INSPIRED BY a pic : THE END ✅❣️

TY J

[refinery29]

Heya, this is great! Positivity within the trans community is v important & encouraging body positivity is too! What is your advice on dealing w/ body/gender dysphoria in positive ways? And, what advice would you give to someone attending their first gender clinic appointments? E.g. dealing w/the anxiety, pressure, fear? Also, is it normal to be afraid of mentioning my mental health & history in these appointment in fear of rejection of treatment for not being 'mentally well enough'? Ty!!

I received a lot of questions about how to deal with body dysphoria. People mentioned things they felt they couldn’t do or couldn’t stop doing as a result of body dysphoria, such as eat in health ways, stop cutting themselves, and others. I genuinely feel for each of you, as body dysphoria affected me seriously earlier in my life. I also turned to things that I felt I needed at the time to get myself through, though I knew they weren’t ultimately helping me to live how I wanted.

Over time, I have gotten to the point that my body dysphoria is mild. Since we don’t have much research on how to treat body dysphoria, I’ll share what has personally worked for me, though I imagine some of these things will be a better fit for some than others. So please, don’t read these as the things I think you or anyone else should do, but just as what I can share about what helped me.

a.       Focusing on what I love about my body

It is easy to get caught up thinking about the things I feel dysphoric about, especially on a day when someone misgenders me or I’m in a funk for some other reason. But I do best when I ask myself to reflect on all of the things I am grateful for about my body. This could be its ability to run, hike and ride a bike, my relative health, or aspects of my body I do like (I have great eyelashes, by the way :P )

b.      Distancing from cultural expectations

People of ALL genders (including cisgender folks) are subjected to really damaging messages about certain bodies being “good,” “bad,” “masculine,” and “feminine.” For pretty much everyone it is helpful to compare yourself to real life people rather than the inaccurate media images we are brainwashed into thinking of as being attainable. For cisgender men, they benefit from evaluating themselves in reference to real life men. For cisgender women, they benefit from having a reference group of cisgender women. For myself though, I run into trouble when I compare myself to cisgender anyone. Instead it has been crucial to look at my body in the context of other trans and nb people. Come to find out I think there are many super attractive trans and nb people out there who wouldn’t fit the cis-norms. I value their bodies and think they are beautiful though they don’t fit what I have been taught by the media to find attractive. This helps me appreciate the attractiveness of my own body, not because it approximates a man’s body, but exactly because it does not - it is beautiful in its trans-ness.

c.       Partners who affirmed my body

I will admit it has been very helpful to have partners who find my body attractive exactly as it is. Some have seen my body as much more attractive than I generally do, and this helps me appreciate my body in a new way.

d.      Transition

When I say transition, I mean two things. First, getting to a point in my life where I am surrounded mainly by people who treat me in a way consistent with my gender identity, “socially transitioning,” has helped me be less concerned with what my body looks like, and more accepting of aspects that might not be exactly as I would have chosen. In addition though, personally, physically transitioning with hormones and surgery was immensely helpful in decreasing my body dysphoria.

Again, these are just things that come to mind from my own personal experience. As I alluded to above though, I can’t say I don’t experience any body dysphoria. So when I do experience this, what do I do? Well, I am generally able to find a means to help me cope in the moment with those feelings, knowing the intensity will pass. We all have our own healthy ways of coping that we develop. For me some tops include journaling about my thoughts/feelings, going for a walk, run, or bike ride, taking a hot shower, or hanging out with my parrot :) If anyone wants to explore their own coping skills more, I have a chapter on this in my book, The Gender Quest Workbook.

Okay, finally, with regards to your appointment. First, congrats on taking this exciting step! It is very normal to feel some anxiety. I want you to know though that any therapist who is qualified to work in this area should know that having some mental health issues is not any reason to hold you back from accessing medical transition services, as long as those issues are “reasonably well controlled.” In other words, if you’re seeing someone worth their salt, you don’t need to have a clean bill of mental health to begin transition. If you were in crisis on the other hand, they might want to work with you first to get things more stabilized before helping you start a physical transition. So ideally you find a psychologist who is qualified in this area and you can not only be honest with them, but also expect that they will support you through the process. My advice would be if they don’t seem like they are up to this task, then find someone else. You deserve someone who can actually be supportive. Finally, you should also know that it is becoming more common (though certainly more true in urban liberal areas) that people can get access to things like hormones from doctors who practice under an “informed consent model” without having any letter from a psychologist at all. Best wishes for your journey!