#AND OH IM SO UNWELL

[extravagav]

AND WE JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THIS?!?!?!!????

[rrandomtthings]

Opla cast recreating the vol 11 cover !!

[lixie-phoria]

I'm going to be SICK

[pmpknsoup]

im not a very eloquent person, so bear with me here.

but there is something so raw about being forced to loop with siffrin. a video game is the perfect media for a timeloop story because people who play video games are already used to having to repeat scenes and levels—but now the character you're playing as is ALSO repeating it. i mean like obviously, but like.

theres something about the video game format that really pushes home the absolute loneliness of repeating the same days over and over again. the game forces you to feel the growing insanity along side siffrin, instead of just watching him go through it.

the sound effects during the dialogue really REALLY help push this. you're zoning out through dialogue, because youve heard it so many times before—and then theres a sound effect you dont remember being there before—! but its too late for you to stop and see what it was. you've already missed it, and so has siffrin.

you really get to feel his sanity slipping away because you get it. you might not be spending roughly 24 to 48 hours per loop like he is, but youre still spending at least ten minutes per. and its going to wear on you in the best possible way. so youre just as frazzled as siffrin. so youre right in his shoes and you really feel for him.

you UNDERSTAND why hes losing it because youre hand in hand with him the entire time. in stars and time is so well written im chewing on drywall rn

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i call this one: Deconstructed Franklydear

[ibeewashere]

I genuinely cannot describe how deeply DEVASTATED I am about riz being the only one who can take stress tokens for the others. Yes fig is a protector and will fight endlessly for her friends and I love that about her but there is something about the way riz loves his friends. It’s a more subtle kind of love, but just as relentless and passionate and he will take any burden for the people he cares about and bear the weight of it on his shoulders so they don’t have to deal with it without any hesitation. I am ILL.

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards

I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?

I. Magic Tricks

You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)

But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."

In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.

II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets

This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?

From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.

Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)

2008.

Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible

2009.

Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?

2010.

This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!

2011.

Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards

2012.

This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??

2013.

Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form

2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):

For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one

2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):

The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"

III. Why Does This Matter?

*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs

This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!

There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.

But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(

[potahun]

sorry. im unable to enjoy media seriously for very long (di feisheng calling him 'li lianhua' here is intentional: he respects the li xiangyi death now)

[shittyjakeenglish]

Day 242

Page of Hope: Rise up

[vixenicks]

i hauve covid

[alfazoings]

fiish :33

[taikanyohou]

“Let me ask you something ...” BETWEEN US (2022) - Episode 2.

[the-kestrels-feather]

"just watched TWF 4" Moodboard

[pmpknsoup]

trying to figure out how to spoiler warning on tumblr. but uh

!!IN STARS AND TIME ACT 6 SECRET SPOILERS!!

is that how you do it. hopefully.

ANYWAY it drives me crazy how loop honestly wasnt even TRYING to hide it. if id played start again start again start again before isat...

i would normally rave abt this on my ig story but ig and i have beef rn..

the little things loop says....aughhhh....the "why wouldn't i know you?" the "you can use the royal we" the "having someone to talk to about this is better than going through it alone".

masterful writing. im weak. im going crazy im chewing at the bars of my enclosure i need to explode

[gin-juice-tonic]

exotic birds? that box clearly says pigeons

[brother-emperors]

Cassius Dio, 40.27 (trans. Earnest Cary) / Canto 20, 116-17 of Purgatorio, Dante Alighieri (trans. Durling)