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I'm on chpt20 and I want to study SQQ like a bug. My man is flushed, hair down, robes literally falling off his shoulders, LBH on his lap playing with his hair and kissing him... and he finally cottons on to the fact that maybe this isn't how you have a platonic and important discussion. Enforces it for all of five seconds at which point LBH starts massaging his waist and SQQ is back to being like "yeah this is fine and normal". Amazing. Can't believe he insults the IQ of SQH's characters.
#Shen 'the pot' Qingqiu meet Shang 'the kettle' Qinghua - fucking morons#svsss#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#bingqiu#sqq#lbh#honestly thought i'd be finishing bk3 today i was so ready to devour the last hundred pages after work today#and then i slammed face first into this mental image and was completely derailed#mxtx you can't keep being the funniest mfer out there it makes it so hard to read without needing to stop and draw#i seriously cannot BELIEVE this#this would not be a slowburn for anyone OTHER than sqq i'm so angry#i read the bit where lbh is so overwhelmed he buries his face into sqq's lapels and had a moment of#''gee that's so cute i may need to stop and draw this... NO BE STRONG KEEP READING this is cute but the conversation is#too interesting to stop now!!'' i said with all the naivety of someone who doesn't realize how ridiculous sqq is about to become#Bene Finish This Book Tomorrow Without Being Derailed Challenge#my art#i know in my picture lbh is not massaging his waist but the visual shorthand didn't translate quite as easily as a shoulder massage#for silly cartoony pictures like this broad strokes tend to work better than strict accuracy... hence the paraphrasing :P
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Neverwinter Saga is the best
#Artemis is just so fucking funny#his sarcasm... his eternal dour face#somehow cracks the best jokes out of all the characters#what a pathetic freak#Neverwinter Saga was AMAZING absolutely in my top books ever...#gonna have The Companions finished in 30 pages and then its Night of the Hunter time babeyyyyy!!!!!!!!!#legend of drizzt#artemis entreri#drizzt do'urden#amber gristle o'maul#afafrenfere#my art#digital art#dungeons and dragons#dnd#forgotten realms#man this is such a good example of “never trust what people say” because I've seen such horrible things about the Neverwinter books#back when I started reading LoD so I was scared of getting to them... thinking I'd struggle#but like????? They were incredible. Deeply emotional. Funny. The story was SO good
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Why were you so disappointed by Rhythm of War?
This has been sitting in my askbox for years. I've taken several cracks at answering, only to get frustrated with the subject matter and burn myself out every time. I didn't like Rhythm of War. More than that, I didn't like it in a way that tainted my enjoyment of the entire series. And despite what it may seem, I don't actually enjoy discussing things which I don't like. I always want to talk from a place of good faith. Which is why now that my feelings towards the series are a little more positive, I think I can finally answer this.
I'm going to try to stay away from specific plotpoints and story beats for this post, because my goal isn't to nitpick (if for no other reason than it would take a week to write this post), I'm just looking to talk about my overall impressions. I think that might mean the only spoilers here will be structural? idk, if you haven't read Rhythm of War yourself then you should probably do that before looking for other people's opinions anyway.
I liked Way of Kings when I first read it. I didn't love it at the time, but I liked it. Certainly enough to keep reading once I'd finished. One thing that made me a bit uncomfy, however, was the war against the Parshendi. They were this unknowable enemy which the book was not interested in knowing. An inhuman army. Their main purpose was to kill Kaladin's friends, or else be killed by Dalinar's armies. And yet the Parshendi, and the parshmen in the form of Shen, did show hints of personhood. And so it bothered me how Dalinar spoke so casually about how the Alethi had decimated their numbers, how the others used the war as a means to amass wealth and power. (It didn't bother me in a "this is a bad book" way but in a "these characters are bad people" way.)
One of my foibles as a reader is that when a book is very clearly treating one side of a conflict with more humanity, I tend to be a bit predisposed towards the other to account for that. And with the Alethi clearly being the invading party and superior military force, there was also some underdog favoritism. I didn't really like how the book treated the Parshendi. This is to say that going forward, the singers would be more important to me than any other through line.
So imagine my delight at reading Words of Radiance and meeting Eshonai, one of the Parshendi, who even gets her own point of view sections! They were no longer being treated as a faceless mass, we were getting to see things from their perspective as well. And it became plain to see the damage the Alethi had done to them. I couldn't really bring myself to root for Dalinar or really any of the humans against the listeners. I couldn't even bring myself to like most of these characters. I still enjoyed the book but once it became clear there wouldn't be a peaceful conclusion, let's just say that I wouldn't have wept for Dalinar and Adolin if Szeth had managed to off them. Like everyone in the book, I assumed that going forward all the parshmen would be turned into evil voidbringers in the everstorm and that the listeners were mostly dead. Except for Rlain, and Eshonai because I'd read or been told that book 4 would be Eshonai's book and thus had assumed she was fine. (Oathbringer spoilers, she was not fine.) So ultimately it was still a bit of a downer way to end the book.
So imagine my delight at reading Oathbringer, where for the first time singers were being treated as people, full and real people, and where the human characters could no longer ignore or dismiss them. We met Khen and the others, common singers who were sympathetic and just wanted freedom from bondage. We see Venli grapple with the loss of her home. We see Leshwi and Moash connecting with and understanding one another. We learn of a history where singers were the original inhabitants of the planet. Parallel to this, Dalinar is having a truly excellent character arc about confronting one's past actions and acknowledging them to move forward and do better. I loved Oathbringer, for some years it was my favorite book, and I was excited as hell to see what came next. At the time, it seemed to me that there is a clear direction the story is going. Two books about needless war, and then a third where the main cast is forced to acknowledge the personhood of their enemies. This was so cool, all of my feelings from the previous installments were being validated, the characters were going to have to face what they've done in the past and outgrow their militaristic mindsets, I was so sure of that.
Imagine my disappointment when that does not even remotely resemble the direction the story went in Rhythm of War. RoW presented a clear, straightforward “us vs. them" narrative, where every character was totally fine with killing singers. Characters aligned with the singers were either flattened into wholly evil versions of themselves (Moash) or were expected to turn on their side in favor of the humans (Venli.) Because clearly there was no reason good people would be on the side that's all former slaves trying to stay free. Maybe there's some sort of accord or understanding between Navani and Raboniel that I might have found meaningful if the seeds of mutual understanding weren't already there in Oathbringer and then apparently ignored for a year by all the characters.
I have a lot of issues with how the listeners are handled in these books. (Here's some elaboration.) Following OB, I had thought that all my concerns were going to be addressed. Following RoW, I knew they never would be.
Which is my main complaint, because that's the thread that matters most to me in this series.
I have a lot of other Things as well. Gonna just talk about a few big ones.
One outsized source of disappointment that may seem a little petty, and which probably is, is that I felt mislead by the premise of the book. It had been announced that this book would center Venli and Eshonai, and I was unbelievably hyped for that. That did not really turn out to be the case. The purpose for their backstory chapters felt less about exploring them as people and contextualizing their arcs, and more about filling in gaps of world history. In the main plot, Venli was a POV character and she certainly played a role, but honestly not a very important one overall. To me she felt like a side character in her own book. I don't think it's controversial to say that the main character of RoW was Navani. A lot of people really like Navani and are happy about that. Unfortunately I'm not one of those people, and I found it all the more difficult to enjoy her when it felt like it was coming at the expense of some of my favorite characters.
This particular gripe somewhat comes down to preference, obviously everyone prefers to read about characters they like more than those they don't, and it can go both ways. (For instance, on a craft/technical level RoW is probably the superior book to W&T, but I liked the latter a lot more because of my stupidly outsized attachment to Szeth and Nale.) But I do think there's something of a real criticism in how the book would rather focus on the feelings of a queen rather than those of a genocide survivor, and how the former's are given significantly more weight and import. It ties in with my main criticism, I think.
And then there's how human/human racism had also been wholly cast aside as a plot point. Jasnah fixed slavery so that's resolved, and the only person who still cares about structural racism is the evil bad bad evil villain Moash/Vyre, who is now wholly irredeemable and who you're allowed to totally write off because he's sold his soul to Odium. I've already talked a lot about this. Other people have already talked about this, probably better than me. The writing was actually on the wall for me in OB, but again, RoW was when I fully accepted that this was never going to be addressed.
There's something else that probably deserves its own discussion rather than being quickly tacked on at the end here, but here we are. This book changed how the series approaches war.
In WoK, war was very clearly portrayed as a bad and inglorious thing. It was brutal, it was painful, those at the bottom died cruelly and unceremoniously and pointlessly while those at the top turned a profit. Every day was a new horror. The enemy were never evil, they were always just more people forced to go through the same thing. Through the next couple books, it felt to me that even if the characters had accepted war as necessary, there was still a tragedy to it. Conversely, in RoW (and W&T) war is basically a series of boss battles, in between which our protagonists can kill dozens of footsoldiers with barely a thought in the same way WoK had criticized.
Final note on all this, it sucks how we have no perspectives from the former-slaves-singers demographic. Those guys are really thrown under the bus, and seemingly get no self-determination now or ever. It was a glaring problem to me in RoW. Conscripted and enslaved humans and singers probably have just as much ground to form mutual understanding as a fused and a queen. (In fact they already had. In Oathbringer.)
In essence, RoW disappointed me because it left me with the distinct impression that none of the series's most important through lines (well, most important to me) were going to be resolved well. I liked W&T, but I haven't revised my opinion very much about the overall handling of these topics across the series. Maybe one of the reasons I was able to enjoy W&T so much more was because I no longer had such high expectations.
#sorry i sorta need to get this stuff off my chest to unpack my feelings about the series.#i hope posting this out of the blue doesn't come across as too mean spirited. my sensitivity reader DID sign off on it.#(that is a joke. although i do let my sister look over any 1000+ word posts ahead of time. and i would respect any disapproval from her.#but normally she just tells me i'm allowed to be more forceful in my opinions without qualifying them or apologizing all the time. pfff.#the reason i've been hesitant to write any especially spoilery w&t meta is mostly because she hasn't read it yet.)#discourse#asks#hey anon if you're still here after all these years. thank you.#at the time i was kinda fishing for an ask like this bc i wanted to vent but it felt mean to do so unprompted#of course this was still really hard to write. mostly because every time i tried i completely spiraled.#the version of this post that was sitting in my drafts was honestly a lot better than this one. in basically every way. except.#except it was nearly the same length and all i'd gotten to was the oathbringer paragraph#below which was a stupidly thorough outline of my itemized complaints#you KNOW i don't care about brevity but my god that would have taken forever to write and finish#and i did not want to spend that sort of time with a book i didn't like. which i would have had to do to get all my planned citations#sorry past self. you were clearly writing from a place of much more passion and that made your work better than mine. and yet.#so as i said. i'm only writing this bc i now like the series enough to talk about it again. sincerely not trying to be a hater.#side note: if any of you have thoughts/opinions about the shift in the way war is used in these books. i would love to hear them. lets chat
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oh captive prince?? what are your thoughts on it, because i’m hesitant to read it because the reviews are pretty polar from what i’ve seen
I think you'll have to check back in once I've finished the series. I've finished book 1, and it's very much set-up for the rest of the trilogy. Establishing important people, important relationships and conflicts, etc.
So at this point it could go either way. I'll have to see how it plays out. Book 1 itself was fine, but you can just tell it's primary purpose is to lead into something more; evaluating it now feels disingenuous, like i'm missing a huge part of the picture
i shall keep you all updated and give thorough thoughts :)
#captive prince#quil's queries#nonsie#also i lied to you all yesterday i totally could've finished the book last night#i did not have 60 pages left. more like 10#my book has both erasmus' bonus story and parts of the beginning of book 2#so i sat down to read the last 60 pages and see what final turns there'd be only to learn i'd already read everything important and it was#just final details and dramatic endings#anyways. i've gotten my hands on book two (digitally checked out from the library)#we shall see how fast i read
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This is probably the wrong way to do it, but the only way I can get ready for Lent is to take what Chesterton might call a Robinson Crusoe approach. I'm going to go without certain things during Lent, so I get excited to enjoy the things I'll have, especially if it's something I don't appreciate enough during the months when I'm not fasting. Like, I give up sweets during Lent, so now's the time to get excited about pretzels. I'm giving up my phone, so it's time to get excited about other things I can do with my free time. Stuff like that.
#catholic things#lent#really feeling this because i'm giving up ebooks for lent#which is going to be a MAJOR sacrifice#because ebooks were always a huge part of previous lents with social media fasts#this year i decided that ebooks means i still spend a lot of time looking at my phone#so i've got to give up that too#(i did buy myself three kate stradling books)#(which is kind of cheating)#(but the heir and the spare has become such a strong lenten tradition)#(that i'd probably give up on the ebook fast right away if i didn't have it on hand)#(and i always finish reading that book by wanting to read more of hers)#(so i bought two fairy tale novellas too)#(i can justify it because i've read those books so many times)#(that i feel should send some money her way beyond like the 99 cents i spent on the ebooks)#ANYWAY#the point is that i went to put those books on my shelf#and i'm so excited because i have some AMAZING books there#that i usually forget about in the quest to find the next thing#so i'm excited to dive into the unread books#(though i'm also in a mood to reread all the things so i may wind up doing that)#also this is still a major sacrifice because i won't have books on hand at all times like with ebooks
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Sharing the sketch for March
welp I didn't finish this before the end of the month but I made some good progress. I draw terraces so quickly when in the sketch stage, then I go into rendering and have to redraw the same terrace 10 times because the perspective looks wrong.
please enjoy my barely sketched in skydancer as well lol
#scribbles in the wind#I finished a 1000 piece puzzle went for a hike finished an entire book played lots of games with my partner played ping pong#and somehow still had enough time to draw#this was a good weekend for relaxing and my hobbies#I'm actually farther along than the image implies but I'd like to keep some surprise for the finished piece lol
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Lifted || 04/27/2025
#today was not and continues to not be perfect—HOWEVER— I am so very grateful for this afternoon#we went to mass and it was the first time I'd gone to church where i actually felt light afterwards#like i felt actually blessed after the service idk how else to explain it#all i know is i stepped out of there feeling like the heavy weight on my shoulders got lifted away#and as per tradition: after mass me my sister and her bf walked for about 15mins to grandma's grave to visit her#she delivered with this RIDICULOUSLY GORGEOUS sunset 😍😍😍#i had said out loud—just wishful thinking cuz i know it's not gonna happen—i said “i miss being able to be away from the house and watch#the sun set from start to finish. it had been a long while since i last got to do that.“#but i think grandma heard because as it turned out no Grab driver was accepting our booking so we couldn't go home#not until it was fully dark and the stars had come out. i just thought that was so sweet 💛#oh! and i wore a dress today and it has POCKETS!!! (Pockets In Her Dress by Matt Walden starts playing)#(of course i still wore my Fuckass White Converse with the dress cuz. duh. i am nothing if not on brand)#Sunset Hoe™#mandatory sunset photo at Rolling Hills
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i wanna make an insta account to talk about my writing but idk if my parents would let me :(
#bc once i finish the 50 billion drafts of this book#im gonna publish it#self publish through amazon likely#but no ones gonna read it if they dont know abt it#plus writing is such a big part of who i am#if i did i would tell u guys :3#idk if i'd use my real name or eun#either way idk#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH'#eunoia annoys '♡'
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the universe keeps telling me to read dead poets society and I'm trying so hard to ween it off because i have 4 books still needing to be read but my next line-up of books are SO MUCH MORE FUN ,, AUGHHH
#the cons of being a reader#okay look in my defense i technically COULD get these books but also I'd feel guilty the entire time#i bought classics in my last batch and as much as i love them I can't bring myself to read them atm because it requires a lot of brain power#like trying to translate the book of frankenstein is more work than necessary for me#and I've been procrastinating on finishing jekyll and hyde still ALTHOUGH WAY EASIER TO READ i just cba 💀#do i wanna buy books or do i just THINK i wanna buy books ...#kind of wanna buy clothes honestly it's about that time of the year#hmmmmm#book or clothes ... summer fun or summer swag#to be fr my next line up of books is just as boring#(catcher in the rye ; the stranger ; dps ; handmaidens tale )#but they're all reads i wanna get to#I've been on a spree of trying to read popular books because i Don't Read A Lot#it's fun#anyways#rambling to self
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My first attempt at writing that's vaguely like poetry: from a dragon
I am not what you think.
I walk around, awkward limbs and flighty mannerisms, and you think I’m strange. You have no idea how strange you would think I am if you only saw what was underneath.
Underneath, I am a creature of the ocean. Something that could never pass as human, and no longer wants to. Saltwater rushes through my veins in secret, silent to everyone but me. To me, it’s a roaring sound of the waves that I have never seen except for within my soul. It yearns to dissolve into the ocean like it could long ago, but for now those days are over and I am hidden underneath skin and muscle.
Underneath, there are wings; fins; antlers. They ache to tear from my back, through my skull. Nonetheless, they stay hidden for me, safe in the silence. Protected like I protected my kin in a lifetime so close to the surface and yet unreachable. Wrapped in a form that no longer coils around them like a serpent, but keeps them hidden from predators well enough I suppose.
I suppose.
I accept my form reluctantly and do what I can to make it mine. I shape it to feel better when I discover my gender, and when I can’t shape it to fit my true self I cover it in things that feel a little more like home. A little more draconic. A little more like the ocean that I never have seen, but feel homesick for anyway.
I do find joy in being in this body, at least. Out there, there are others. Angels working minimum wage, dragons sitting on a park bench, wolves buying groceries. We hide, but we do so to be free. We walk through crowds, and no one notices our scales and fur and feathers. But we do. We see each other, even if from miles away, and we see what’s underneath.
And underneath, none of us are what you think.
(Tags for side commentary/context)
#not looking for even constructive criticism since this is literally my first ever writing that isn't fiction or just a vague ramble#at least the first that I finished#I'm not calling it poetry bc that feels too fancy#this is a ramble that's shaped like poetry#because I'm such an open book type of person to the point that some people have called me “so brave for being open” about things#which I still genuinely don't understand bc bro I'm just talking about being autistic and queer and shit like if you had issues with that#I would tell you to fight me#but that aside#it's become an issue that I can't talk about my otherkinity irl to most people#like it'd be unsafe and all that jazz#so this was sort of about that#and sort of just a general exploration of my draconity for fun#and sort of a shoutout to the otherkin community for making me feel normal about it#bc otherwise I'd feel like a freak and be miserable right about now#otherkin#alterhuman#nonhuman#dragonkin#otherkin blog#otherkinity#therian#otherkin community#amphitere kin#it feels too dramatic or smth but that's just the tone I write this type of shit in so???? ehhhh fuck it#I'm not looking to make GOOD writing#I'm looking to write that's it#(also I'm not fishing for compliments in the slightest I'm legit writing that down so my ADHD ass remembers to not judge my writing later)#not sure if i should tag a tw but like#body horror tw#? I think?
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some leaders I've somehow never drawn before
#leopardstar#rowanstar#blackstar#riverclan#shadowclan#my art#well. never might not be true bc i probably drew leopard and black at some point in the decade+ i've been reading these books#but i haven't drawn them since learning to draw cats and starting this blog lol#ugh blackstar took me so long to finish. i kept restarting over and over. in the end the best one was a doodle i'd made at work#so i just took a picture of that and used it as my sketch#he's rounder faced than i picture him but i ain't doing it again!#anyway i'm still waiting for my library to get a copy of star. which btw is a title which is a pain in the ass to search#i had to filter out every book not by erin hunter and even then it was like. the twelfth result#this arc is good but has such bad book titles lol#i've had this problem with most asc books but not usually to this degree
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#yeah so i'm reading the 430k sequel to that other fic and having a GREAT time.#one of my favorite books in high school was Kalahari by Jessica Khoury- same deal.#weird virus infecting the local flora and fauna and slowly encroaching upon the humans who are trying to solve the mystery-#-before it causes mass biological destruction? hell yeah.#this is also why I need to read Annihilation. it's not the same but it seems similar enough that i'd really like it.#I couldn't watch the movie but I think the book would be fine.#it's also sooort of why I like house MD? but again I struggle with the visual aspect of it so I've been on a house break lately.#House also tends to trigger my emetophobia really badly 😭#anyways. i'm going to finish this fic and then get back to all the other things I need to get done#and I know I have friends whose fics I need to get around to/continue as well! have not forgotten#but I did need a few days of 'read 2 longfics for several hours so that your brain is not in the real world with your problems' moment.#the problems did not go away but I am coming back to them with a renewed sense of invigoration. refilling my HP bar.
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i've been thinking about house of leaves + the denial of tragedy consuming the narrative. delial, the vulture and the little girl photo, kevin carter's suicide. navy and truant who keep on living despite the odds. the burning of the book and the tape ending and then continuing. something itches my brain along those lines.
#once i finish my waco thing i'd like to read the bang bang club to learn more about carter and the space he occupied#will probably get through the dorothy allison book i have ordered in between as a bit of a palette cleanser#i haven't read her yet but i am excited to! and it's a rather short one#mcfly.txt
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wow i wrote fan fiction today??? and am maybe in the mood to write some more of it???
#this wip is kicking my ass#it's such slow going but it's going to be so good when it's finished i promise!!!#i kind of want to work on something smaller in the meantime so if you guys want to send small prompts i'd love to take them?#OH remember that title meme? where y'all would come up with random titles for fanfic and then i'd write the plot/a snippet?#those were so fun#i feel like i've been neglecting my writing lately and i miss it#about#text#destiel#delete#i went to a book launch for a friend of a friend recently and amidst all the wonderful feelings was just this overwhelming thought of:#wow. i should be writing.
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it's been six months since i posted a to do list
where the hell have you been, roo.
WHAT U GOTTA DO IN JANUARY
edit daybreak
queenmaker - post ch 24
queenmaker - writing
nevermore - ch 25
see no evil (railway fic)
cold summer (unfair fic)
birdcage (original) - final chapter
OTHER?? STUFF??
tgbyb - planned chapters
leave - part 2
FNF fic - 8/10 chapters
hymn of babylon (original)
all that is good/holy (original) - prologue
what the water brought (original)
she of the garden (original)
#gettin all fancy with links and all in here#keeps kicked me into this#it's a motivation thing#anyway this isn't actually bad#the thing about two months off is that it really clears out your writing list#throw away all my big ideas this is what i'm doing#also i'd like to point out that nevermore is nearly at the end of the miroh arc! i did it!#now i have to figure out what happens in yellow wood but it's fine everything is fine#and yes i did write a chapter of queenmaker three months ago and never post it#and yes all 25 chapters of daybreak were finished in september and never posted#and YES i did start two 10k fics in the last week of december instead of posting any of the content i'm sitting on#AND#YES#i DID WRITE A BOOK IN OCTOBER#it's my least favourite thing i've ever written which is why the ending isn't done but semantics#what the water brought has a full plot and is ready to go and will be much better so#it's midnight that's it from me#time to see if i finish nevermore before i fall asleep#wip list#roo writes#oh and keeps i left haw for you to put on your list#make sure it's there
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tease tidbit tuesday💀
tagged by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @daffi-990 @fortheloveofbuddie @disasterbuckdiaz @hoodie-buck 💖
hi! so, yesterday I randomly opened the doc with the buddie death cast au - which is a fic I started writing last summer on vacation and never got back to it but then made progress lol it's gonna be MCD, which i know is not everyone's thing so feel free to ignore this 🤣 it's basically buddie in the universe of the "they both die at the end"/"the first to die at the end" books so it's gonna be sad, sorry lol (I never even read mcd, idk why i'm writing this but this idea just wants to be written i guess haha) gotta put this weird mood I've been in lately to good use and finally write this 🤣 not sure if I'm happy with this snippet, but it all needs editing, the first two snippets were written on my phone and haven't been edited yet lol
I posted two snippets so far, gonna link them both snippet 1 | snippet 2
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“Is all of this clear, Eddie?” she asks in the end.
“Yeah, sure, whatever.” he says shortly. He should've just hung up immediately. Or cancel this stupid subscription after Shannon died. Sometimes he wonders if maybe people who get the calls and coincidentally get into accidents, for example, just give up and refuse to fight because they think it’s their time. Not like Shannon could do much, her injuries were too severe when they got there, but the point stands. Maybe they get more reckless, thinking it doesn’t matter anyway.
There’s a short pause on the line, but then Jane speaks up again, her tone softer, more sympathy seeping through.
“I know it’s not easy to accept, if you’d like some help with that, on out website you can find therapists and grief counselors specializing in-”
“Listen.” Eddie interrupts. He’s spent enough time in therapy. He’s not doing it on his supposedly last day. “I know it’s all bullshit. I don’t care. You said what you had to say, I listened, for whatever reason.” he rolls his eyes. He really should’ve hung up, or not answered at all. “Is this conversation over yet?” he asks and is met with another moment of silence. She’s probably wondering what everyone else always is: why is he even spending money on this if he doesn’t believe. He has an answer ready to go, but that’s not what she asks.
“Can I ask you a question?” she says quieter, whispering, probably not allowed to go too much off-script.
“Sure, why not.” he shrugs. He’s wide awake now, anyway, he’s not in a hurry. Not like he’s dying anytime soon.
“If it was your last day, how would you spend it? You don’t have to answer, just think about it.” she adds quickly, her tone much softer and gentler now. Eddie’s mind immediately supplies a picture of Christopher and Buck, just a casual hang-out, like usual, maybe going to the movies, or the aquarium, or the planetarium, something fun for his kid. And later a gathering with the rest of their family, maybe a barbecue at Bobby and Athena’s, with Maddie and Chim, and Hen and Karen, all their kids, just everyone having fun together. Yeah, that’d be a perfect day. “There’s no harm in spending today just like this, if possible. Just in case.” Jane adds, still whispering. He doesn’t tell her that’s more or less his plan, anyway, for the evening after his 12-hour shift. During which nothing will happen to him, because Death-Cast doesn’t know shit. “Well, lastly, Eddie,” Jane’s voice is back at normal-volume, tone strictly professional but sympathetic, as she recites the end of her script, “on behalf of everyone here at Death-Cast, we’re so sorry to lose you. Live this day to the fullest.”
Eddie hangs up without a word.
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#tease tidbit tuesday#death cast buddie au#buddie wip#buddie fic#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#angst#buddie angst#mcd#i don't know how yet but eddie will die in this one bc apparently ive been in the mood to break my own heart lmao#i wanted to say maybe i'd share smth happier tomorrow but i don't think i have any happy wips im actively working on rn???#there are happy wips in general but im not really in the mood/inspired for those rn#ran out of happy when i finished the natalia fic i guess lol#who even am i lmao what's with all the angst and sad im usually all about fluff 🤣#(gonna share some more of alive shannon tomorrow!)#btw if you haven't read the books and have questions hmu but also i'll try to make everything clear in the fic lol#but also SO recommend the books they're so good and so sad and I think about them like at least once a week (the prequel wrecked me)
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