#BEING ALONE DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO BE LONELY [MUSINGS]

[anthromimicry]

forever thinking about how, according to maslow's hierarchy of needs (or simply the self-actualization pyramid) that is basically this motivational theory in psychology that's made up of a five-tier model of human needs, that misao went from being on the third tier in her childhood to reverting back to the first tier currently which is food, water, warmth, and rest.

[ here's a picture of it for reference, y'all ]

so, in other words... she is just trying to survive SO badly right now at this point in her life, that she can not even worry about things like safety or security and especially not friends. and that is UHH... i might, or might not be sobbing right now

[barxlupin]

IC / OOC / General Tags

BEING ALONE DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO BE LONELY [MUSINGS]

I WAS TAUGHT TO WATCH; TO LISTEN; AND TO FIGHT [HEADCANONS]

A FINDER OF LOST SOULS [VISAGE]

THESE KIND OF MYSTERIES ARE ALWAYS THE MOST SATISFYING TO UNPICK [AESTHETICS]

FROM ME TO YOU; THIS IS MY DYING WISH [PLAYLIST]

PERHAPS IT'S THE WORLD THAT NEEDS CHANGING [PSA]

NOW WHERE TO BEGIN? [MEMES & PROMPTS]

DON'T BE THROWN OFF BY OTHER PEOPLE [GALLERY]

WE ARE FREE TO DO ANYTHING AND BE ANYONE [SELF PROMO]

LOOK FOR WHAT'S THERE; NOT WHAT YOU WANT TO BE THERE [PROMO]

YOU'RE A NINCOMPOOP [IC]

I HAVE MY OWN COMPANY [OOC]

IF YOU WANT TO BE HEARD YOU HAVE TO MAKE SOME NOISE [ANSWER]

YOU'LL SEE THE TRUTH SOON ENOUGH [REPLY]

IT'S TIME TO RIGHT SOME WRONGS [CLOSED STARTER]

THERE WILL COME A TIME WHEN YOU HAVE TO MAKE A HARD CHOICE [OPEN STARTER]

SOMETIME YOU MUST DANGLE YOUR FEET IN THE WATER TO ATTRACT THE SHARKS [PLOTTING/SHIPPING CALL]

TRY TO BE EXCITED; NOT DISAPPOINTED; AT THE POSSIBILITIES OF SOMETHING NEW [INBOX/STARTER CALL]

PRIVACY IS THE HIGHEST VIRTUE AND THE ONE MOST FREQUENTLY VIOLATED [DASH COMMENTARY]

DON'T DO IT BECAUSE YOU'RE LOOKING FOR SOMEONE; DO IT BECAUSE YOU'RE LOOKING FOR YOURSELF [DASH GAMES]

PAINT YOUR OWN PICTURES [MUN'S EDITS]

IT'S ALWAYS THERE; JUST LOOK FOR IT [SAVED]

I HOPE THAT THE KIND READER RECOGNISES THIS AS A DESPAIRING ATTEMPT AT HUMOR [CRACK]

VERSE: THE GAME IS AFOOT [MAIN]

VERSE: THE FUTURE IS UP TO US [POST TIMESKIP]

VERSE: THE ENOLA HOLMES MYSTERIES [BSD AU]

[undreaming-fanfiction]

When the Corroded Coffin makes it, Eddie leans into the success completely. He can't really help it, he never thought he'd make it anywhere, wouldn't even have a moderately comfortable life and now he's here, people love him, want him, think he's worth their time. It's intoxicating and he feels like if he slows down for just a second, he'll lose it all.

Steve is supportive, of course he is. It's everything Eddie's ever wanted, success in the world and the most amazing person at home, loving him unconditionally. But Eddie grows more and more frantic about his work, tours, everything. He loves Steve so much, he talks about him in awards ceremonies, in interviews and credits him as his forever muse that he maybe forgets a little that random people who he'll never meet hear more about his love for his boyfriend than Steve himself.

Maybe if he took a moment to think, Eddie would have remembered that Steve was left alone for most of his teenage years, that the love he had was real but distant. That this love always stopped him from asking for more, asking for time spent together, for actions, not words. But he didn't.

After many dinners wrapped in cellophane and tossed in the fridge, postponed dates, hurried goodbye kisses and whispered promises over the phone that never come true, it happens. Steve doesn't blame him, doesn't scream or snap, but Eddie would have preferred if he did. He just calmly tells him that he loves him, will always love Eddie and he can't imagine there being anyone else, but he finally realized that while he's happy for Eddie, he can't live through someone else's dream. He needs, wants more than another empty house and waiting, so much waiting. He kisses Eddie goodbye and whispers, "I'm so happy you managed to break your cycle, Eddie. The crime, poverty...I'm so proud of you. But now I need to break my own."

---

As Steve fully settles in his own apartment almost a year later, heart aching but finally not paralyzed, he turns on the radio and hears a familiar voice, like the sweetest pain. He sings a new song, one that Steve doesn't know.

I painted your room at midnight

So I'd know yesterday was over

I put all your books on the top shelf

Even the one with the four leaf clover

Man, I'm getting older

I took all your pictures off the wall

And wrapped them in a newspaper blanket

I haven't slept in what seems like a century

And now I can barely breathe

Just like a crow chasing the butterfly

Dandelions lost in the summer sky

When you and I were getting high as outer space

I never thought you'd slip away

I guess I was just a little too late

Your words still serenade me

Your lullabies won't let me sleep

I've never heard such a haunting melody

Oh, it's killing me

You know I can barely breathe

Just like a crow chasing the butterfly

Dandelions lost in the summer sky

When you and I were getting high as outer space

I never thought you'd slip away

I guess I was just a little too late

The last soft tones finish and Steve takes a deep breath, shaky and uncertain. He loves his new life, loves what he's doing, studying to save lives, and yet...

It's almost funny. They broke up a year ago, yet Eddie never left him behind. There was no pressure to get back together, no unwanted declarations of love, just...showing. Steve told Eddie that he needed actions, not words, and here he was, for a year, giving Steve the space he needed but always checking in, always making sure Steve was okay.

Eddie's words were his actions and Steve finally understands how to break his own cycle. Being alone doesn't mean he's lonely. Not when Eddie's thoughts never leave him.

Not when he remembers the four leaf clover he scribbled into his textbook.

When he says he always thinks of Steve when seeing dandelions, so bright and comforting, like home.

The nights they spent together, drunk on each other's presence.

And the melody Steve always hummed when he got out of shower.

He reaches for his phone, their careful messages blinking at him, making him wonder how this love can feel so distant yet so real.

I hope your classes are going well, Stevie.

Wayne says hi. He says he'll call you next Tuesday.

I hope you found what you were looking for.

I hope you're happy.

I'm thinking about you, always.

He types something cheesy and ridiculous, but he can't help himself. He just feels loved, seen.

What if I told you that you aren't too late, crow?

His phone dings back almost immediately and he smiles.

[sophieinwonderland]

why do u want to be a system?

like genuinely, do you know truly how much we suffer everyday? yes, we've learned to accept ourselves as a system, and we love it most times, we're like a huge family, but that doesn't mean we don't suffer.

being a system isn't fun, it's not some little game or some hobby or just 'friends in your head!' it's exhausting. it's cruel. it's painful. tell me, how many friends or loved ones have you lost because of your 'system'? how many people have you hurt because of your 'system'? how many nights have you spent awake because of flashbacks? how many days have you spent living in fear and never feeling safe?

alters form to protect, we split to protect, I exist to protect my host and my headmates against the things we face daily. You do not exist (well, correction, you do exist, but only you. you are not plural), you do not exist to protect and love like I do.

theres no way alters can just 'will into exist', that's not the case. tulpamancy is a CLOSED religious practice, one that doesn't even revolve around the idea of being anything close to a system.

please, just stop. you are doing nothing but hurting me and other real systems. i cant force you to do anything, but if you really believe you are a system, seek help. go to therapy. you are probably experiencing some sort of delusion if you think you are a system without trauma.

stop hurting our community, we already experience enough problems and dehumanization, you and other 'endo systems' or whatever are NOT helping. you do nothing but hurt and harm. i hope you get the help you clearly need one day.

From, Mohwee. (It / He / Gore / + Neos, Outsiders SMP)

Obligatory:

Tulpamancy is the Western practice that was coined online.

There is no evidence that I can find of the sprul pa, which tulpamancy draws its etymology from, being a closed practice.

Multiple psychiatrists, anthropologists and other researchers believe that it may be possible for the brain to create multiple autonomous and self-conscious agents outside of DID.

Tulpamancy in particular has been recognized as a psychological phenomenon by researchers at McGill and Stanford University that is being researched as we speak.

The fact that non-DID/OSDD systems exist in no way minimizes what you've gone through or the circumstances that led to your existence.

Invalidating systems and calling them delusional in a community where derealization is so prevalent is extremely gross and dangerous. Please try to do better.

Great, with that out of the way, onto the question.

why do u want to be a system?

yes, we've learned to accept ourselves as a system, and we love it most times, we're like a huge family

And... I actually feel like you've answered your own question there.

For us, I was created accidentally. Mostly. I was made as a muse, and then once I became self-aware, didn't want to leave. I wanted a life. I wanted to share this life and experience the real world.

But for many who are drawn to tulpamancy, they're drawn for the same reason many are drawn to religion. They're lonely. Many have disorders that make it difficult to make connections with others, such as ASD. Others have depression. And tulpamancy offers the companionship of religion without the doctrine and often without the metaphysical beliefs. (Though there is a minority of spiritual tulpamancers too.)

People aren't looking for DID. They're looking for friends who will be with them in their darkest moments. They're looking for head families. They're looking for people to share their lives with in a way that's more intimate and personal than you can have with an external person.

Some may have PTSD and depression like a lot of OSDD/DID systems. But they didn't develop DID or OSDD. When faced with horrible situations that left them scarred, they didn't split. They didn't have the internal support system others did. And when they wake from their nightmares... they're alone.

If people could have the positives of systemhood, the internal companionship, without the DPDR and other harmful side effects, would you not consider that a good thing? Can you really not see why this would be appealing to those who have lived their lives alone?

I have heard so many stories of tulpamancers with depression who were suicidal and whose lives were saved by their tulpas. Systems who may not be alive today if not for the practice.

This is what the tulpamancy community offers. A life-saving practice and the prospect of companions to share your life with.

[sav1ored]

MAIN VERSE BIO : SEASON 6 through SEASON 11 [ OPEN FOR AU IDEAS ALWAYS that can take place further into the past seasons just with Negan in it ]

NOTE : well he was in the season 6 final so it counts. But also in his main verse that MEANS anything ( even au ) can take place in this verse, that is happening all during any of these seasons. But of course, with a twist. I don't really need to further explain what happens throughout these seasons unless you haven't watched the seasons that have Negan. But I will give small details about the different versions of Negan you will all come across.

LEADER OF THE SAVIORS [ VILLAIN ] : But Negan, in the beginning, is the villain in the eyes of Rick & the gang. Leader of the Saviors, his territory is The Sanctuary at the time of his reign. he killed glenn and he killed Abraham rather violently, took daryl in as a prisoner and treated him like a dog. trying to get him to give in and obey. Negan almost reminds me of a dictator [ which really does explain a lot of him wanting control of his own people, and that if they cross lines he punishes them, or kills them ] same with the other communities he's taking over. He does offer protection for them though, as long as they follow him and also give him everything he wants. Does ends up going to war with Rick and his people. ( BUT ALSO AU'S ARE WELCOME. AND I am always down for twisting things around )

PRISONER IN ALEXANDRIA : Negan isn't killed, and instead is being used as an example. almost like being treated as a project. that maybe people like him can change and be among Rick's people. negan's time as a prisoner, in the beginning, drives him insane. being locked up and being alone with his own thoughts. not having anyone to talk to, and when he does it's when they bring him food. he's dismissed a lot of the times. nobody wants him there, they all hate him and want him dead. begins to either not eat, or begins to slowly go insane. he wants death, he wants this torture to end. being locked away with no freedom is the worst time of punishment. begged maggie to kill him, but she let him live, seeing him for the first time in a long time. --- years passed, he's him still ( given little freedom at a time ) but taken back when the work is done for the day. he escaped but did end up coming back. he also helped carol go against the whisperers and even killed Alpha. to earn him a place in Alexandria as promised. helps maggie go against the reapers, and does end up going his own way. ( THOUGH IF WE ARE DOING AN AU.. it doesn't have to end with Negan leaving. but him staying. LIKE I SAID we can change things. )

AFTER PRISON & ALEXANDRIA : He meets annie, yes. but they aren't married and she is not pregnant. [ THIS ALSO DEPENDS ON PLOTTING/ OR IF HE'S ALREADY IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH [ any of my partners muses ] or if we have something worked around it ] but Negan ISN'T MARRIED. HE ISN'T HAVING A BABY with Annie. [ hell maybe even in an au verse he's a lone wolf roaming the forest living in a cabin ] but Negan is so much more than what they made him out to be in season 11. I do see regrets for what he does to glenn, because he has grown. he isn't much of a villain during this time. changing... but also, at the end he is still WHO is he. Negan is still Negan no matter what. He'll still do what he has to do and survive.

HEAVILY AFFILIATED WITH : @w1dowed : ENEMIES TO LOVERS

@grlsavior : DAUGHTER OF NEGAN & LUCILLE @twiicetheheart : SAVES MICHELLE : CRUSH

@carltongrimes : MANIPULATED CARL INTO GOING AGAINST RICK

NOTE 2 : WE DO NOT HAVE TO FOLLOW THE SHOW... I AM ALWAYS DOWN FOR AU IDEAS BETWEEN OUR MUSES !!! So yes main verse, but with a twist of au ideas that WILL take place on here.

[feralreason]

what’s one object that means the world to your muse, to the point that they’d do anything not to lose it ?

Goldie! Goldie is a yellow bunny stuffed animal that William has had since he was itty bitty (they were a "gift from Santa" when he was two or three). Here is a visual:

Goldie has been with William through thick and thin, all the way from New Y.ork to R.eno. In fact, Goldie was the inspiration for S.pring B.onnie ! When alone, William tends to talk to Goldie - a habit he has done since he was small, and refused to give up (after he started getting "too old" for it, he just learned to hide it better). William is very tender-hearted towards the plush, even having come up with "lore" over the years to explain things which would be okay for a stuffed animal, but upsetting for a living thing such as himself (for example, whenever Goldie is hidden, Goldie has the magic abilities to summon toys to preoccupy themselves with so they aren't lonely. Things like that) You can probably guess from this, but William is very very very protective, and secretive about Goldie. It takes A LOT of trust for him to open up to someone about them (to date in the two years I've been writing him, he's only told four, I believe, muses about Goldie). He doesn't want to risk losing them, or being thought of as a dumb crybaby loser who still clings to his childhood toy.

[borreloadsavagedragon]

Chris, Kaito and Shark

omfg I had to do this on my laptop bc mobile tumblr is literally unusable in terms of copy and pasting anything

I tried read more-ing this but it wouldn't let me I'm so sorry if it's giant gdjsaklgjg CHRIS

favorite thing about them: he's hot. jk, not just that, I love that he's loyal, man will go DOWN for the people he cares about, family, friends, he's committed to his bonds, the duel with Mizael when he partners with Michael is so good

least favorite thing about them: as much as I love Chris, not a huge fan of how everything sort of got fixed with one duel, I have the same gripe with Thomas and Ryouga-

favorite line: good question jdsaklg, not sure the way he says "my life points" in the dub is kind of funny-

brOTP: vkai, I call them divorcees without being married because they had so much post divorce energy during the WDC but now they're going to be coworkers and chris also had to just watch kaito go off to the moon to fight a guy who said his dragon was bigger and die so he's taking the keys to the rocket the next time he sees him

OTP: what do you mean Kousei isn't in Zexal canon, yes he is, he's right there genuinely can't think of another pair for him from canon though, there's some dynamics I think could be interesting and have wips for but nothing like romantic

nOTP: romantic vkai.............. see kaito's below for details, it's more to do with him and how I think about kaito-

random headcanon: GEEK. NERD. CLOSET FANBOY. WOULD WEAR GRAPHIC TEES IF HE DIDN'T HAVE AN AESTHETIC. Take this man to see Kozmo films right now!!!!!

unpopular opinion: I don't think I have one outside of the ship preference gjdakl

song i associate with them: none omg, unless I REALLY fixate on a character, I don't usually have songs for them gjdklggd

favorite picture of them: he's very pretty, it's hard to choose one fjdsklg, anytime you can see him wiping hair hair around

KAITO

favorite thing about them: how dare you make me pick one thing when I'm already working on an analysis essay- Kaito's one of those characters to me where you look at them and feel like you've been EXPOSED by this show you're watching so picking one detail is hard I like how accurate he feels to me when it comes to how he's someone who's just so used to being burned by so many people, love how fiercely protective he gets when someone matters to him, love how petty and dramatic he can be too but literally NEVER owning up to it I love that he's straight forward that he's not a good person also, that he sold himself to the devil to do what had to be done and he's tainted, I'm just- He's so god damn good really also lives up to being lonely but absolutely genius

least favorite thing about them: nothing, he's perfect............... but I will beat him up if he continues to hide his physical health from everyone else around him and if he goes to the moon again, it's ok, your dragon is good too

favorite line: this is hard because he has so many good ones because he doesn't know how to talk to people hdskjlaj the only one I can honest to god remember at this very moment is "you're quite the romanticist" because who tf says that to another person

brOTP: Chris and Yuma both come to mind, Chris I've gone over above but Yuma, I love that Kaito's always just in awe of him, just imagining Kaito always picking him up by the scruff constantly

OTP: I have like four ships for Kaito that I rotate out in my brain a lot highkey, the only two I haven't written something for are Galaxymaster and Raven but coming soon, my google docs are INSANE right now I want everything with Mizael to be perfect because MizaKai's just... idk, I love it so god damn much, there is SO MUCH to the two of them, and Shun's just not a muse I'm suuuuper comfortable writing rn but we're trying, I love that Shun actually like... goes back for him, not a lot of people chase Kaito back but Shun immediately ponies up idk, Kaito's pension and insistence for being alone always makes me want to throw new people at him at all times though I LOVE going into depth on Challenge, not even romantically either, their rivalry is so good in that subtle way that they're two steps off from being the same person and it didn't get nearly enough time, shakes fist And the last one is EdoKai omg, Kaito speedrunning his enemies to lovers plot with Edo in Arc V is iconic, took one look at him in the safe house and was like "yeah, we could get married"

nOTP: sweats, vkai in romantic context So... I experience pretty strong RSD, which is rejection sensitivity dysphoria, and their entire friend/mentor breakup backstory sits super wrong with me because of that gdsjagilgdsa I don't want to go too far into details but it hits home Also not huge on Kaito and Vector at all-

random headcanon: I love writing him touch starved......... he's always fully clothed anytime he's near another person, probably from just being ditched or taken away from so many people, so letting someone close physically is a big step.

unpopular opinion: He solos. literally no rival matches him if you were to attempt to scale them in skill, I'm on this hill forever and you can't move me from it <3

song i associate with them: god I have a big playlist just for him gjdasklj, it's hard to pick just one so I gift just two - Hell's Comin' With Me / Poor Man's Poison - "I am the righteous hand of god and I am the devil that you forgot", perfect, glorious - I Don't Want To Be Here Anymore / Rise Against - just... chef's kiss

favorite picture of them: him jumping through the cockpit window of the blimp, it's my mobile banner and sometimes is my Twitter banner lmao

RYOUGA

favorite thing about them: ryouga is another character who just says and does shit with his whole chest and I honestly just love him for that, yes king, keep being stubborn, my cringefail bestie I love that he's just such a little edge lord and a wannabe bad boy but just fails at it gjdkaslj he can fight a whole gang by himself, but he'll do whatever his sister says, he's jumping off cliffs for someone who annoys him, god I love him

least favorite thing about them: ngl, I could complain for hours about how much I hate how him getting his memories of being Nasch was done, but it's also in character because Ryouga is SO UNBELIEVBABLY hot and cold about everything and everyone, love him but I also want to beat him UP

favorite line: god, Ryouga is such a tsundere so all I hear out of his mouth is "it's not like I don't like you or anything", I feel bad I haven't come up with any specific lines for any of them but they're all just dumb boys who can't talk

brOTP: Hellshark and whatever his pair with Durbe is called- Ryouga and Thomas being besties is so weird to me but also like, yeah bickering, kicking each other's asses to hell affectionately, good for them Durbe sweetie I'm so sorry but also you signed up for this

OTP: Sharkbait is up there, Challenge is proooobably my favorite though, like I said above, just love going over what could have been with their entire rivalry, the fact that Ryouga never got his grudge match with Kaito will haunt me forever, even though there's no universe where Ryouga wins jagklds

nOTP: deadass 99% of romantic pairs with Ryouga I'm not too huge on, I wouldn't say any of them are like NOTPs but idk, there's more I don't like or don't really think about than ones I actually do haha

random headcanon: ngl. I've got none I can think of right now gdjasg

unpopular opinion: he's not the rival. guy with a sister he'd do anything to help, former school bully who now practically throws his life away for the protagonist, temporary gang member, temporarily evilness Like his dueling is the first thing his sister saw when she came out of the hospital, just like someone else we know... list goes ON why he's the friend role I also,,, like his name more than his nickname, as you could tell I'm sure

song i associate with them: like what I said for Chris, unless I like FIXATE on a character, I have no songs for them, but I Am My Own Muse by Fall Out Boy comes to mind- Ryouga's playlist is inevitable

favorite picture of them: ANY WHERE HE'S JUST LIKE, FLAYING, he has so many shots of him just being blown over or on the ground, they're SO GOOD

[skell3]

RP Muse: Michael Shelley

Up next is a character I see a -lot- of variation on. Michael is my 'baby' muse... in that he's particularly soft, easy to bully, and a bit clumsy.

Michael's about a year or two before The Great Twisting, roughly. It's a bit difficult to determine timelines (and admittedly, how I've written him has been in that weird time crossover bit I mentioned in Jon's post, so it's all wibbly-wobbly at best.)

Once again, info below the cut and I'll do my best to write him out.

Michael Shelley stands at about 6'1" and has a fairly thin frame, almost slightly underfed though he's quite healthy. He has a couple of freckles and a slight gap in his front teeth he's very self-conscious about. His long blond hair is more wavy than curly, but still holds a couple of ringlets on its own just after a shower and drying it all out. He usually keeps it down if only to hide behind some of it, though when he's very busy working, he will pull it back with a colourful scrunchie.

Michael's eyes are heterochromatic, meaning he has two colours in them. They look fairly blue at first until you look toward the pupils, which blend into almost an aqua-green. He gets a little self-conscious about those, too, and doesn't like to make eye-contact often.

The clothes he really enjoys wearing tend to be vibrant in colour, like a bright yellow jumper or something multicoloured and fun. Michael also really likes floral patterns, so his favourite jumper is an oversize soft lavender with stitched in flowers and a bee making a path around the lower hem of it. It's so long he likes to wear a belt over it and just some fitted jeans, though occasionally oversize also means his hands disappear and he has to be careful with that at work. He was gifted a multicoloured scarf, striped with blue, yellow, and purple bands.

Home life is a little uneasy- Michael has a roommate who isn't particularly nice to him, but they pay the rent on time and usually leave him alone when he is actually home (so long as they don't have guests over). He usually sticks to his room anyway, which has a cool lava lamp, a tv/vcr combo so he can watch movies, a couple of brightly-coloured bean bag chairs, and a lot of blankets and pillows for his bed. There's a lot of posters and pictures and things on his walls, which help make it look a little more home-y for him despite the abrasive environment it's in.

Growing up, Michael was the unfortunate middle child that got a little bit of love early on and then was mostly left to fend for himself when his younger siblings were born. Always having been a quieter child anyway, he picked up on doing things by himself, and doing his best to stay out of trouble (because punishments were particularly harsh). This has made Michael relatively mousey as a person, especially working under Gertrude, but he's a people-pleaser and doesn't think too highly of himself so he does his best to do his job and not cause problems. Because Gertrude also has looked out for him more than once, this makes him particularly loyal and it isn't often that he questions her.

At work, Michael is really good at organizing, cleaning up the office and maintaining files as to Gertrude's specifications. If there isn't anyone in the office, he tugs on headphones and ends up listening to ABBA, Queen, The Beatles, etc.. Very occasionally, someone will walk in on him grooving and the moment he notices, he stops and flusters hard, settling back in to things with the music a lot lower and no dancing. (Honestly, he's so very Lonely-coded, working alone is sometimes the best times for him, though he also doesn't exactly enjoy being alone)

In the timeline I've been writing him in, Michael's BFF at work is the young Elias Bouchard, who works in artefact storage but comes by to bother Michael or avoid work. Otherwise, a lot of the folks who work upstairs tend to pick on Michael about stuff, and he primarily sticks to interacting with only the Archives group. This timeline we also have overlapping with Eric Delano being there, and Michael has a crush (but knows it's never going to happen), and it makes for a lot of flustered moments.

So yeah, this poor baby, so awkward. Hits his head on things a lot (like when he's hiding in a closet to escape Feelings). Eventually he'll get a little bit more spine, but by then it'll be probably 'just the right time' for Gertrude to take him on his last little business trip. He's great for soft scenes, but also awkward tension and maybe a bit of dramatics and anxiety.

[ducknotinarow]

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ ( for Usagi - all verses pls uwu )

| For every "♡" I get I'll give a tip on how to win my muse's heart.

*Since I write a few more usgai's I decided to divide the hears up for each one uwu.

So you have fallen for the rabbit Ronin who has lived a life mostly built on solitude? As someone who spends a great deal alone truth be told he loves companionship and

♡ "Someone of great sword skill would be eye catching."

I will forever love that no matter what Usagi and Leo will always, ALWAYS, fight when they meet friendly or not its gonna happen. Usagi may live in New York (which makes me laugh he just there now XD) Usagi even when assuimng the turtles to be bad couldn't help but point out Leo's own skills. Usagi is a swordsmen first so him complimenting another is a big deal for him to show he notices another's skills.

♡ "Those who stick to their honor"

Usagi, is someone who even against his will, sticks to what he finds and sees as honor. Usagi's honor is his whole being. SO the fact Leo is someone who can understand that and even defend his actions when he had to do as Shredder ordered? And helped him out from the situation? How can't usagi be grateful for someone so thoughtful and kind uwu

♡ "Those who will fight to the end."

See this can go for either turtle he has an eye for uwu Both Leo and Don have shown that no matter the odds or numbers of a fight? They are willing to step up and fight. Usagi has fought along both of them and well let's just say he has gotten heart eyes watching them uwu

♡

"Being a warrior comes with a lot of trails, and I have seen many let their hearts be tainted. So thought who stand to be kind still?"

Usagi can't help but find those who are willing to help others to be very appealing. Usagi world is far more hostile even his closest friend Gen cant fall into temptations of gambling and such so kind heart people do tend to get Usagi's attention the most.

♡ "I tend to find stubbornness annoying but also attractive."

Say what you want but Leo's stubborn ass for sure is what got under Usagi's skin enough to fight with him even when they were on the same side later on. Leo can be head strong himself and stick to his guns like when he got upset about the cliff stuff. But this stubborn side was pretty big asset to beating Jei in the end (so they thought but still) uwu this can also apply towards Jei as well seeing how guys about as stubborn as they come about welllll everything XD Look Usagi can find an appealing and seeing how we have that they dated before? I feel it was what started usagi's attractive uwu

♡ "I do not often spend time around others so I do enjoy company when given."

Yeah boys kind of lonely lets be honest uwu Usagi meets people here and there sure but he doesn't often get to meet others all to much. So he also doesn't get to know others all to much either as it stands. But time spent traveling and such? Yeah that dose allow the chance to talk between destinations and learn about each other. I just feel Like Usagi would be very curious about Leo's world and could see them having talked a lot in their travels uwu.

MM Usagi uwu

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"Well I kind of find Leo funny? What's not to like about that? " Leo is funny if not a little Awkward but it's cute and enduring to Usagi. He likes how Leo can't really lie or stumbles over his words even. It's hard not to find cute to the rabbit, it makes Leo not seem so intimating but its clearly a side Leo means to display but what can he saw Leo's little quirks have captivated him uwu.

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" Leo's very trust worthy "

I haven't posted on Usagi for this verse yet! but I will say Usagi's gonna have trust issues but Leo's just so earnest that its gonna help a long way with getting the rabbit from feeling skittish and needing be on a constant defense around Leo at least.

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Send “Talk about” and a name for my muse to talk about that person || No longer accepting.

@treasurechcst sent: For Adrien. Talk about Plagg! What are your thoughts on him criticizing your love interests? Do you think he's a bad influence on you?

Adrien lets out a heavy sigh at the question, the kind that speaks louder of a thousand words. The sound is heavy with exasperation, but there's no real heat or anger in it. Sure, Plagg annoys him at times, but he is also the reason why his life has taken a sudden turn for the best.

Being Cat Noir can be complicated at times, but he has never felt more alive than he does when wearing the mask. Not to mention that he never feels as lonely as he used to anymore, even when his father forbids to see his friends. He is never alone and, while the Kwami can be a real pain in the neck at times, Adrien is extremely grateful for that.

Also, the cheesy puns and speeches have been growing on him...even if he will never admit that to Plagg because it would be like giving him permission to go crazy with them.

"Let's say that I could do without his constant judging," the teen admits, running a hand on his face. "I know that I'm not...great at handling that sort of situations, but it's not like he's helpful. His isn't constructive criticism. He doesn't even tell me what I should not do. He just sits there and acts like he's some...love expert, when we both know that Kwamis can't feel romantic love."

There's the smallest hint of grievance in his tone as he speaks the last sentence, but it's fleeting.

"Maybe I should threaten to feed him only cheap supermarket cheese, if he keeps that up. Maybe that will shut him up."

Plagg can try and call his bluff if he wants, but Adrien is really serious about that threat.

"As for him being a bad influence...I wouldn't call it that," he goes on, his expression turning pensive for a moment. "I mean, he has been pushing me to be a little more...rebellious, I guess, but...He's right. If I want to live my own life, I must have the chance to make my own choices. And also to make mistakes and learn from them. Even if it won't be what my father wants from me..."

His voice trails off a little as he glances away, the briefest flash of guilt darkening his eyes.

"Plagg is the opposite of a conscience more often than not, but...I think it's what I need to figure out who I want to be."

[thewolfisawake]

RULES: repost, don’t reblog. just pick a muse of yours and fill it out.

MUSE: Balmoral

— basics

▸ is your muse tall/short/average? 

Bal is about average height. He's about 5'9" (~174 cm).

▸ are they okay with their height? 

He has no problem with it. He can reach reasonable amount of things, he's not having folks mess with him because he's a tree nor a stump. Although his height can actually fluctuate with his emotional state but it hasn't acted up in quite a while.

▸ what’s their hair like?

Bal's hair is a darkness that is comparable to the evening sky. So it is more black or blue dependent on the lighting. It gradients down towards an icy blue and then every so faintly is the barest bit of pink. His hair has a little body so it's not flat but it also isn't immensely fluffy. It falls half way down his chest. While he would like to be able to wear it down, he usually can't because of decorum rules or something of the like. So his hair is normally in a long braid, partial braid with the rest down, or a ponytail. All with simple flairs or additions to make it a little less plain but overall still pretty practical.

▸ do they spend a lot of time on their hair/with their grooming?

Not really because he has that 'I woke up like this' sort of thing (the bastard). But he does detangle it so that it causes less problems in his day. Honestly the longest time is usually getting the style working with his circlet or crown. And he has to get that right, unfortunately.

▸ does your muse care about their appearance?

Yes to an extent. As the king he has to appear immaculate since he doesn't want to make the Unseelie look bad. Doubly so since they're thought of as the more slovenly of the Courts to begin with. He also keeps up his looks because it keeps others attention longer and it adds his charisma. But he is the type to get annoyed at having to 'made up' for an extended amount of time.

▸ does your muse care about what others think about them?

Professionally, yes. Personally, no. He keeps a hand on the pulse when it comes to what others think of him. He uses them as indicators of public perception. And it usually means some adjustment somewhere for himself. But as for does it actually hurt his feelings what others think about him? No. He's himself and he's gonna do what he wants so others can kick rocks. Of course he can't always act so brazenly but it's enough to know you probably don't want to mess with him.

— preferences

▸ indoors or outdoors? Outdoors ▸ rain or sunshine? Rain ▸ forest or beach? Forest ▸ precious metals or gems? Precious Metals ▸ flowers or perfumes? Flowers ▸ personality or appearance? Personality ▸ being alone or being in a crowd? Being in a crowd ▸ order or anarchy? Anrachy ▸ painful truths or white lies? White Lies ▸ science or magic? Magic ▸ peace or conflict? Conflict ▸ night or day? Night ▸ dusk or dawn? Dusk ▸ warmth or cold? Warmth ▸ many acquaintances or a few close friends? Many acquaintances ▸ reading or playing a game? Playing a game

— questionnaire

▸ what are some of your muse’s bad habits?

Bal tends to be overly familiar to others. This can mean him being a bit too casual with the diplomat. This can be him putting out half-hearted threats that could be very bad for the land if he acted on them. He also likes to push buttons and instigate to see where things will go and to sometimes push someone to a discomfort they need to face.

▸ has your muse lost anyone close to them? how has it affected them?

Sort of? I will say for now that it was a group of nature spirits/insects. The loss made him driven and to never hesitate.

▸ what are some fond memories your muse has?

A lot of his fond memories are actually after he came to the Unseelie. He tends to feel nostalgic for the patrols that brought him to the surface. And not so lonely patrol nights after Mhoirbheinn joined them.

▸ is it easy for your muse to kill?

It's fairly easy to him. I wouldn't say that he's murder happy but it also isn't off the table with most encounters Bal has had. But that may also be apart of being an Unseelie where power does talk and it is something that gains respect.

▸ what’s it like when your muse breaks down?

Hoo. Boy. How pointed. But generally, there's this spiral of 'why.' He wants to know why it came to this conclusion, what he could've done, if there were certain conditions to this. His mind is racing with no finish line in sight and I'm sure he probably sounds like a madman with his mutterings. There is also an anger and frustration that makes him volatile to be around. Kinda literally as all sorts of magic is sparking off him. But then it eventually simmers down to resolution. That he has either reasoned or brought himself to a conclusion and sticks to it. Almost doubling down on it.

▸ is your muse capable of trusting someone with their life?

Yes. He is capable of doing so. He feels by virtue of his generals, he does trust them with his life. And further than that, he would put his life in Mhoirbheinn's hands with no hesitation.

▸ what’s your muse like when they’re in love?

There is feeling of soft and reprieve from all the noise of life. It is an unmistakable feeling of safety and it is all-encompassing of his senses. He is more forward and sincere to them because it is where there is no boundary and rules to stop him. There is a yearning that he has throughout his mind when it's the public and when alone there is a desire for touch, closeness and presence. As if to soak it all in for them to last until the next time that'd be allow...whenever that is. Balmoral would want to lavish the world to them and would want to give every aspect of himself to them. It can be a lot.

[poppydedicant]

//1 and 10 for the muse development questions! I realised I've been lurking more than I should so remind me to punt something your way eventually lmao

FIRST OF ALL, YES, PLS EVEN IF IT'S JUST TO CHAT, I MISS YOU LOTS!!

such crucial, much questions:

what would completely break your character? For sure, betrayal of those he trusts and being on the verge of dying without the chance of being saved. Due to his past actually mercilessly killing others and having betrayed others, he is used to being on the delivering end of both of those instead of the receiving end so he'd shut down for sure (and get what he deserves but that's another story.)

what was the best thing in your character’s life? Aside from his immortality, he met a little child named Ivvi who saw the potential of him to be a good person rather than his fairytale's villain. He spent lots of moments of gentle bliss with the kid, learning about their perspective of the world, despite them having such a short lifespan.

what was the worst thing in your character’s life? Losing Ivvi and being blamed for that (the one crime he didn't commit) and losing his immortality surely took a harsh toll on him. With both of those did he learn about how finite and cruel life can be, far crueler than he himself. And lonely.

what seemingly insignificant memories stuck with your character? A little night of stargazing and discovering that the humans back at the city also enjoyed subtle things like that. Seeing knights treat their prince and princesses with incredible affection and devotion. His countless deaths and just how painful and cold he felt during them. The smell of food from the distant cities he loved to terrorize.

does your character work so they can support their hobbies or use their hobbies as a way of filling up the time they aren’t working? Use their hobbies as a way of filling up the time they aren't "working." Which means, he uses hobbies when he is very tired or feels terrorized of temporary death, when he wants to be alone, etc.

what is your character reluctant to tell people? He is reluctant to speak about his past and immortality in detail, especially to those who have been kind to him. He also is very reluctant of speaking of the heroes he has crushed with and how they either betrayed him time and time again due to his own cruel nature or how he subsequently ended up being cruel to them. He doesn't want to tell people he is a hopeless romantic, easy to fall in love, fearing they'll use this as a weapon -- fearing he will not be able to defend himself properly from that.

how does your character feel about sex? Popshi loves sex in every universe, especially since he didn't feel safe during it back at his homeworld. He feels in another world, maybe he can be free from possibly waking up at a stake or something similar.

how many friends does your character have? Oh boy, back at his homeworld he only had one (Ivvi) and they died.

how many friends does your character want? He wants so many friends, despite not deserving them.

what would your character make a scene in public about? DYING or pain that could make him think he is dying. He could make a fuss about even other insignificant things like not being able to properly set his twintails, or breaking a nail or the paint of one. Anything and everything he feels inclined to think about, he'll probably scream about, too.

[cwarscars]

🤸‍♀️ - How active is your muse? Do they exercise regularly? Do they do things like yoga? What else do they do to keep fit and active? Are they flexible? Can they do parkour? / if he doesn't do yoga he should

☠ ― 𝑀𝑖𝑠𝑐𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑒𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑆𝑦𝑚𝑏𝑜𝑙 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠.

yes - ! but, a big no on the yoga ( you think man's got the patience for that? ) i headcanon that heid's workout routine is fairly rigorous though almost certainly not what it once was.

when he was a younger man, he grew up on military drills and being constantly active - this turned into a routine of getting up at five am and working straight for an hour or two before readying himself for the day. in his later age / current timeline? eh, not so much. he works out but his routine is much shorter and much more of what he can handle.

he gets up at six am and usually works cardio or weights in his home gym - he slacks much more than he used to when he was younger. he takes more breaks, he chills out. i haven't written the headcanon yet, but i genuinly wanted to write something about heid being a stress eater ( with a penchant for sweet treats! ). he's more-than-a-few-times skipped the end of his workout to grab a donut before work instead. man's got a sweet-tooth.

all in all, he does have a routine and he is a typical 'strongman' when it comes to working out ( he's by no means inactive ), but he defentily isn't as active as he was before the age of 40. he also has a home-swimming pool that he uses some evenings ( usually to unwind in ). everything heid does, i should emphasise, is done in a very lonely way. he works out alone, he swims alone, he drinks alone. his only legitimate friend is president shinra and that's questionable at best.

in terms of flexibility / parkour - he could never. heid's very tradionally strong and he's very balanced ( when he's not drinking, lol ). he fights like a mixture of a samurai and a brawler and rather than dodge an attack, he'll instead tank it then charge. as for yoga - he tried it once ( whilst in therapy as a young, YOUNG guy ) he couldn't do it because he was too impatient and angry ( lol ).

[aerodaltonimperial]

“ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ”  for Magus/Marle, pretty pleeeeease??? :D (imagining Magus is the one saying it, but follow your muse if it says otherwise)

She isn't surprised when she reaches the end of the cape, the thin peninsula that reaches out into the lashing waves; it resembles, in many ways, the spit of land they'd encountered him standing on after the Magic Kingdom had fallen. Perhaps he's drawn to places where the land meets the sea and sky, where the wind might very well devour one whole.

"You're frightening my guards," she says, drawing her shawl closer, even as it's threatened to be ripped from her shoulders. "Is there something you need?"

"Frightening them." Magus laughs, but doesn't turn to face her. "Is that why you're here? Foolish to come alone; I could have been anyone."

"Reports came in of a strange man camped out near the sea, and the description matched you. I took a chance."

"So then you came with purpose. Have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state, then?"

Marle frowns. "I didn't know your state was so miserable. Truth be told, I'm surprised you're even here. I thought you'd be lost in the timestreams by now, trying to find your sister."

"The grand irony, that." Finally, he glances over his shoulder. She can't make out his whole expression, but there are lines of weariness there she hasn't seen before. "No matter which portals I found or which leads I chased, every single Gate led me straight back here to this time. Useless."

"Well, I'm sorry you're stuck here," she tells him. She takes a step closer, one heel crunching down on an errant pebble lodged between clumps of weeds.

He studies her for a long moment, and then, asks, "Why did you come alone?"

"You asked me that already; I've answered."

"No, where is your companion?"

"Ah." Marle reaches his position at the edge and settles down a few hand spans away from him. The dirt is uncomfortable and slanted, at an angle sure to plummet down the sheer cliffside, so she props her boots up, wedging them into the ground to keep her position steady. "Despite constantly being thrown back here, you haven't kept up with events."

"I thought you were to be wed," he says.

"I was," Marle replies, and then, amends, "we were, anyway. But my council was furious and against it, and my father thought me a foolish, naive child."

Magus's mouth turns down a bit, the ghost of displeasure. "Why didn't you fight back? I thought you more than that."

She can't tell if that's a compliment or an insult, and decides to take it as both. "I would have. But as it turns out, having so many against your marriage can pull two people apart."

"He didn't want to fight."

Marle brushes invisible dirt from her skirt. "No, he didn't."

A few moments pass, the wind whipping at her cheeks. Magus shifts, his cloak puddled against the weeds behind him. "You're young."

"That's what my advisors said, too. That I was too young to know what I wanted, to have found something real."

"I didn't mean it like that," he says, narrowing his eyes at her. "I merely meant you're young enough to have more chances in your future."

"Oh." Marle chews on her thumbnail, a nervous habit she picked up ever since the castle had grown colder, quieter, and far more lonely. It's an ache she's become accustomed to after the months apart, though still not one that she enjoys. "Well, I hope you're right. What will you do now that you seem to be stuck here?"

"I don't know." He looks out over the whitecapped waves. "I have nothing in this time."

"Did you honestly have anything in the others?" Marle asks, unable to bite the question back.

He laughs, biting. Harsh. "Heartbreak has made you cruel."

"I'm sorry," she says, and she means it. "It's just..."

"No, you're correct. And no, I didn't, but at least I found purpose. Convictions are in short supply here."

Marle meets his gaze, raises both eyebrows. "I've guards who could benefit from magical training."

"Expecting an attack?"

"I'm the crown heir; I'd be ridiculous not to."

His expression does something she can't define, a twist. "I have no need for sympathy."

"I wasn't aware I was offering any." She stands up, straightening her skirts and her blouse and tugging the shawl tighter once more. "If you change your mind, you know where to find me."

"You're offering me purpose," he says.

"No one can do that but you," she replies. "But if you need a task to assist, then I can find one for you."

He grins, canines flashing, decidedly feral. "You ought to be afraid of me still."

"Janus, I stopped being afraid of you 13,000 years ago." She sweeps away, turning without glancing back, but she isn't worried. He will take her up on the offer, because he is nothing if not driven, and she will welcome her into the castle as though he'd never tried to cut her down four hundreds years earlier.

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Send 💞 for me to describe 5 ways my muse says ‘I love you’ to yours. || accepting

@ladiesofhell sent; 💞 ((Vero for Rick and maybe Keenie platonically to Rick too? X3))

Fingertips brushing against a jawline. Rick admires the beauty that Vero is. Her pink-reddish complexion to the structure of her face. He can't help to gaze into those eyes of hers. It's an intimate touch. So soft that it shows how much he cares without having to say it out loud; something that he's not comfortable with, yet.

Arms loose around a waist, chest pressed against a spine. He wants to be close and her hips are perfect for resting on. The soft feel of her hair against his cheek, smelling her scent. His words are quiet as he speaks to her. A gentler tone that he rarely uses with anyone. For the moment, he relaxes against her, chin on her shoulder -- no matter how much taller she is than him -- if he could, he would wrap himself around her, but only for brief moments.

Chaos and laughs. He doesn't even go looking for it. Not when she's capable of bringing the chaos and finding herself in predicaments. All of which he follows her lead. In other moments, he leads the way -- more-so on galactic adventures. Yet, in Hell, he watches and sticks by her side, adding on and never taking away her spotlight.

Letting her into a world that she probably doesn't know much of. Rick is there to help her along the way. He still protects her, away from the more messier parts of himself. He keeps it light, giving her small doses of what he does --- showing off a gadget or two, bringing her along on all day adventures. Nothing that's dangerous -- always casual, always full of fun. Just excuses to impress her.

Chipping away at the walls he built up. He's known her for a while now. What started off as hot and heavy simmered down to a shining light of blissful feelings. With her specific past and his own, he doesn't want to rush. It's a slow, steady pace full of longing moments and fun. He keeps it light and in the process, he lets her in little by little.

Late night phone calls. Rick is never usually in trouble. At least, not in terms of what he could handle himself. Though, knowing there's a friend, an angelic being that decides to look out for him. He ends up calling when he's alone on those lonely drunk nights. For help, just as he passes out, but in reality; he wants a friend there. To remind him that someone cares and sees the good in him.

Advice that he puts to use. Keenie provides him with thoughtful words. Sure, it may appear as if he doesn't listen. Usually he doesn't. Anyone else could tell him the same thing, so stuck in his own pride he tunes it out, fights against it. With her? He listens. She's insightful, she sounds like she knows. How can he ignore it when every word she speaks means something to him?

Lighthearted eye rolls and playful teasing. He can't say that she's like a sister to him. Two different species of sentient beings and his own lack of expressing such a emotions. Yet, he shows it with annoying her to no end. He purposefully gets in trouble, causing chaos. Only for her to come to the rescue, eventually laughing later on at how angry she gets.

No complaints and vulnerability. In the beginning of their odd friendship, he kept up his complaining, pushing away what he thought was a nuisance. Gradually, it shifts into Rick calling her at any given moment. She's reassurance, security. In his moments of utter self-pity, those embarrassing drunk moments, he allows her to see. Something only his Morty only ever seen. Now, letting her in those moments, too.

Agreeability. It's those days that Rick doesn't mind her presence in the household. How she's eager to help out. Not just him, but his family members. He values that kind heart, appreciates it even. It makes him wonder how he can ever return the favor. Though, he never asks. Instead, he agrees, he doesn't stop her. It's clear she does it for the sake of it and with anyone else, he would deny them that right. However, he doesn't. He sits back and follows her around, accompanying her on whatever she feels like doing.

[tvrningout-archived]

❝ I will love you forever; whatever happens. Till I die and after I die, and when I find my way out of the land of the dead, I’ll drift about forever, all my atoms, till I find you again. ❞ // moon to yu, sick screaming crying. The First Time!

@sociieties | it's about the yearning, the devotion

it's funny. yubari wouldn't consider himself lonely, nor would he say he dislikes being alone. he's always been fine on his own, watching over humans from afar, waking up to peaceful mornings of solitude and quiet. he was never unhappy living that way.

it's funny because now, despite how happily independent yu has been, he can't imagine a morning that doesn't begin with moon. the thought that maybe one day they'll be forced apart actually scares him. he's never had someone to cherish like this, whose very presence both calms his nerves and sets his senses alight, who makes yubari's heart feel more like a fluffy cloud that would float right out of his chest just to be closer to him. he's never had someone he wishes so desperately to never, ever forget, even if it means retaining memories that might hurt.

he may not have that choice, but yubari will keep wishing anyway -- until it comes true.

for someone usually so good with words, yu finds himself at a loss... or maybe it's the fact his throat feels too tight to manage anything that wouldn't embarrass him. either way, he chooses to nuzzle moon's cheek instead, pressing a kiss to his jaw before settling his face in the crook of his neck. he's by no means small as a human, but neither is moon; they're like two perfectly sized puzzle pieces, yubari muses, content to be wrapped around each other beneath the warmth of their bedding.

" i'll wait for you, " he finally murmurs, face still hidden ( how shy he feels, how exposed ). " however long it takes, however many lifetimes, i will always wait for you. "