#BUT IM ... UH. THIS IS RLLY.... UMMM

[vamptastic]

Um one thing Abt college in florida is that everyone has been telling me nooooo you don't need to leave the state every college in florida is a liberal haven and nobody will care and Uh turns out they do care a fair amount and its mostly the same environment as high school bc im an engineering major and engineering dudes are fucking awful

[strxwberriiwithchocolate]

uhm so me and my crush may or may not have confessed to eachother….

basically i was at my dt club (he goes too) and one of my male friends comes up to me and tells me that fish told him his crush and that his crushes name starts with a H 😱😱😱 (who could that be i wonder) so i get all embarrassed and overwhelmed and just hide and my friend rose starts laughing her ass off and saying ‘ooooh’ okay and then i just continue with my project (making a wedding dress for a doll from scratch) and go over to the sewing machine to learn how to use it

i turn around and i see fish literally hunting down my male friend (i forgot his codename yk the one dating my girl bff) and i just smile because now ik it’s true.

fast forward to end of the club and i meet up with some of my other close friends and tell them that ‘my crush likes me back omg’ and they went feral

they ran outside to go find him much to my dismay and say ‘FISHHH FISHH H LIKES YOU TOOOOOOOO’ and so i used my loudest voice (pretty loud) and said ‘GUYS SHUT THE FUCK UPPPP’

they start running and i just give up so when i catch up with them i see fish had turned red and my friends were interrogating him. i was so embarrassed so i just say ‘fuck this shit i’m going home’ so i start walking and then my friends just stayed there for a minute even after fish had crossed the road

so i have to run back to get them and i see fish and i just look away and drag my friends with me

so now i’m walking home and texting fish saying ‘i’m so sorry about my friends hope they didn’t embarrass you much’ and i felt rlly bad

he said it’s alright and we just talked a little bit over text

i stop after a while and my friend S is just teasing the shit out of me saying how proud of me she is and how cute we would be together

and when i get home i’m texting my bffs what happened and decide to ask the big question

i texted fish saying ‘uh you have a crush on me right?’ and he said ‘ummm kinda’

he told me how he felt and i decided to just tell him ‘i actually rlly like you but bc we don’t know eachothwr all that well i wanted to wait a bit but my blabbermouth friends made that pretty clear huh?’

we texted for a bit and he told me he’s liked me ever since we started texting and i said ive like him since friday

we both agreed that for now we should just stay as friends and we should just hang out until the time is right

i was like ‘the urge to hug you is too real’ and then we started planning when we would hug (we are friends btw) because we didn’t want my idiot bffs and his friends interfering with it so next week after my club we agreed we would hug goodbye (we’re both delulu asf btw) but that’s so far away

but i’m so inlove with this man rn like i texted him saying ‘byeee xxx’

AND THIS MAN SAYS ‘cya xxx’ OMFG WERE NOT EVEN DATING AND WE ARE STILL HEALTHIER THAN SOME OF THE COUPLES OMG

also i got on that trip and we both agreed that on the way back we could sit next to eachother on the coach

AGAHAGHDNSKJSBSBANMSKFISBWBSB

HELP I READ THE FIRST SENTENCE AND ALMOST SCREAMED?? OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU I KNEW YOU GUYS WERE MEANT TO BE 😍😍 FISHH (<- yalls ship name. I'm so creative aren't i?) 🔛🔝

[osarina]

(uh, this is rlly long im so sorry qwq)

OMG THAT LAST CHAPTER HAD ME FEELING SM CARINA U CANT DO THIS TO ME !!!! LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW PARAGRAPHS IN I HADTA WALK AROUND BC I WAS SO OVERWHELMED I LOVED IT SM !!! N THOSE LAST FEW LINES. DONTDOTHISTOME I S A W THE "BEAST AU COMPLIANT" TAG ON UU IM GONNA SOB MY EYES OUT DURING IT I JUST KNOW !!!

gonna leave some of my fave few lines n my thoughts abt them from this chapter (ok these arent all of em, bc if i put all of em it'd be the whole 50k words of this series SO ITS JUST THIS CHAPTER)

"because how could he possibly belong amongst people who are so unfailingly good that it makes his tainted heart stick out like a sore thumb?"

STOP NO DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEE throughout the whole fic u perfectly captured his thought process n how he denies his own capacity for change n how he HAS changed from when he was 18 BUT THIS LINE MADE ME TEAR UPPPPPP

"He is so completely and irrevocably in love with you that Dazai doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to live in a world without you. The thought alone makes his skin crawl and his chest cave in."

self-explanatory

“Are you calling me ugly?” 

u gorgeous, gorgeous man ilysm yes you look like a rat but i'll swaddle u up in blankets n clean u up

the whole graveyard scene. DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY HELLO

“You were a kid, Osamu. You’re not some incarnate of evil for ending up where you did, you were failed by all of the adults in your life,”

ok nvm crying this hit me like a truck

"Humans cannot live without a heart, so if he’s to give you his, it’s only fair that you give him your own—though realistically, yours has already been his for a long time."

i feel like this mightve been ur fave line, but if it wasnt IT STILL IS MINE BC OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD QWQ

ranpos lil rant was so funny he's literally me frfr

“Yeah… ha, look at us, in jail at the same time! Couple goals, huh?” 

i giggled

PLS READER INVITING EVERYONE JUST TO AVOID GETTING INTERROGATED UMMM RELATABLE LMFAO

these are just some of them BUT JUST IN GENERAL, UR WRITING IS JUST MAGICAL ITS EVERYTHING IVE EVER WANTED TO READ N I LOVELOVELOVEEEE THIS SERIES N ALL UR WORKS (n u /p) SM !!! I CANT WAIT FOR UNREAL UNEARTH, I JUST KNOW IT'LL BE AMAZING !!!

RED HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU NOT TO APOLOGIZE I LITERALLY ADORE YOU IM GOING TO WEEP OMG

honestly the first scene of dazai’s pov was one of my favs to write because it pisses me off so much whenever he’s excluded from the ada panels in the manga fjsjdjsjjd so i NEEDED the opportunity to hit home that that is his FAMILY idc what asagiri says the ada is that boys family and he deserves it 🥹🤞

UGHHHHH STOP BECAUSE WHENEVER I WRITE CANONZAI ITS SO HARD TO KEEP ON THAT THIN LINE OF HIS INABILITY TO ACCEPT HIS OWN GROWTH WHILE ALSO HAVING HIM ACKNOWLEDGING ODA’S LAST WISH FOR HIM SO I REWROTE SO MANY OF HIS POVS SEVERAL TIMES BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WASNT GRASPING IT ALL PROPERLY

the graveyard scene was one of the 3 scenes i started writing for 🥹 i literally was weeping when i finally got to it

AND ALSO THE YOU WERE A KID LINE UGHHHHHHHH BRO when i tell you that’s something that i literally want to scream at him and shake his shoulders like he was FOURTEEN WHEN MORI BROUGHT HIM IN AFTER HIS ATTEMPT !!!!! FOURTEEN !!!!! HE WAS A BABY IT MAKES ME SO SAD WHEN HE FRAMES HIMSELF AS SOME IRREDEEMABLE MONSTER WHEN HE ONLY TURNED OUT THE WAY HE DID BECAUSE HE HAD NO ADULTS IN HIS LIFE SETTING HIM ON THE RIGHT TRACK ugh im gonna weep again i will always be dazai’s #1 defender, i will fight him himself idc he was only a lil baby :’)

oh my god fun fact i actually almost deleted that line about the heart, i don’t even know why like i was rereading it right before i post and i second guessed myself because i was like ‘i don’t think it rlly flows’ but then i decided against removing it because i liked the line in general SO IM WEEPING AGAIB

bro ranpo needs a promotion for real the headaches this man must get because of people not listening to him 💀

HDOSJDJSJDJJD THE COUPLES GOAL LINE WHEN I TELL YOU I SNORTED WRITING IT HELPPPPP I WAS GIGGLING SO HARD

RED ILYSM IM BUNDLING YOU IN THE SOFTEST BLANKETS AND GIVING YOU A FOREHEAD KISS

i’m so excited for unreal unearth like honestly it’s my pride and joy, i’m so pleased with how my beast!dazai characterization has come out so far and i’m hoping everyone else is going to like it too 🥹 if not ill simply die HAHAH JK JK JK no but really i’m so very excited for it

[shininguponthestars]

🍠 🍙 🍘 for the writer asks!

oh lord ok

🍠 How long does it take you to write one of your fics or a chapter/part?

let me check. sun falls was written in a day or two i think but that was years ago so i can’t remember. ummm. i think each entry for taking care of was written in like, a few days up to a week? ive lost my record of harrys bc apparently i reused an old doc, but jakes took 3 days apparently & rogers took 5 or 6. & the walt oneshot was done in a night or two because it was mostly a character study fueled by my godawful flareup. as for what im working on currently uh.

well its been rough. ive had other projects to work on. (+ writing ppl inebriated is HARD) as for active days ive worked on it id say ive spent like 4 or 5 days so far

🍙 Is there a fic you wish had gotten more attention?

honestly the jake one mostly bc i rlly like jake and think it works well as a character study. were ignoring everything else about it rn im in it for the CHARACTERIZATION. but jakes an unpopular character unless ur in The Bubble of ppl who like jake so. shrugs!

im pretty preemptively scared for how my next one will do? because its walt. nobody cares or thinks about walt. but im doing this shit myself ok. ppl will think about that guy by hook or by crook

also not necessarily fic but i wish a few of the phoney related asks on lotd got more eyes on them. guuuys the foreshadowiiiing dont we love roger and jake :( come ooonnnnn lets think abt someone other than dave <- so very silly. i love to think about dave

in general though i am astounded when my shit gets ANY attention whatsoever like i keep finding ppl talking abt my work in the wild and it ASTONISHES me each and every goddamn time. so im happy w anything

🍘 Is there a fic or idea for a fic that you've abandoned?

lets go look at a wonderful place i have dubbed my fic graveyard: my notes app!

most of these go here to die because i write them at 1am and they are illegible. this does not make sense because i also write my fics at 1am but whatever! that first one also may be familiar because it is copy paste smth i said in phonecord.

as for ones i actually started / made it past the drawing board, i had a few for miscellaneous fandoms that i just kind of got performance anxiety on. shoutout my npmd time loop fic you wouldve been so cool. sad im never revisiting that! heres an excerpt from a ypwd one

thanx for the qs ^_^ i loooove 2 ramble. heres my rogersport fics cover page which was bestowed upon me via my darling partner

[kaoharu]

WHY DO ALL THE COOL OTOGES YOU LIKE HAVE TO BE LIKE 50 DOLLARS BROOO IM GONNA SOBBB

okay out of cxm taiali and uh the new one jack jeanne which should i play first. cus i cannot pay 150 rn T^T (college is beating my ass and its literally day 3 and i got sick)

one day tho.... i promise. ... ill play all....

HELP ME IM SORRYY i usually buy otoges when theyre on sale bc theyre so expensive . . . i watch sales like a HAWK dis shit serious /silly

but for which one u shld play first hmhmm . . . i feel like it depends on what ur looking for in a game :0 ? cause like collar x malice is def more story heavy than it is romance to me. like the romance is 100% there but its more sprinkled in as a part of the story circumstances. also some of the bad endings can get. ummm a bit serious

then in taiali its more romance driven but the romance is part of the greater plot. and the story gets kinda heavier in ep3 + epilogue specifically . . . but the characters are all so very good and the over arching plot is just waaahhh

then in jack jeanne its less romance and actually more friendship to be quite honest. like u can read it as romance but it also reads heavily of friendship for most affection events lol. and also the most low stakes bc theyre literally just students putting on plays so LMAO

my two cents will always recommend cxm or taiali tho. i think cxm is a rlly good one to start w in general just cause its liek. a classic to me. but my heart says taiali bc its quite dear to me lmao

[charismaofobedience]

ummm um esora for that character sketch requests? im rlly curious as to how you draw her!!!

Oh esora.... Definitely somewhere along the top of the list of "characters I go completely away from source to sketch" </3....

But yeah uh. Noticeable features not noticeable in the drawing because of the messiness is heterochromia (yellow + green), the fact I usually make her shorter n chubbier than canon and the fact I fully indulge myself in fashion headcanons to transform the girlie into my perfect agejo gyaru + jirai kei fusion.... Hair is also wavier than canon <3

[nerves-nebula]

Ummm so abt tm(n)t Donnie,,, he 100% listens to Soddiken. Like Hansel ( https://youtu.be/2tWO_2xLPiE ) is just him. Also i think Misery Meat is a good Leo song. Im rotating them in my mind

I rlly like their music but unfortunately i had to stop listening bc they use cannibalism as a metaphor for abusive relationships a lot and it started making it so me and raph were #twinning✌️ in the intrusive thoughts department. Anyway they are so special to me<3

*froths at the mouth* d-did you say cannibalism as a metaphor for abuse???? do you have any idea... how normal i am,, about cannibalism as a metaphor,,,

(listened to misery meat) OH YEAH thats that GOOD SHIT. Leo @ splinter for real

(listened to Hansel) oh vibes vibes vibes, at first i wasn't sure where it was going but then i realized and you're uh. well you're right! see thing is i've been pouring a lot of myself into donnie so you've kinda called me out here haha fasdfsdf

tbh i never considered not listening to music that triggered me im just like.. ough spicy music lets go hahahfhsdf. idk, i need constant music so maybe im more of a glutton for punishment in that kinda way.

thanks for the suggestions! also you guys are way smarter than me, abbreviating it to tm(n)t fsdfsdf i didnt even consider that when picking out the tag for it

[theproblemcallednight]

sending you akutagawa and/or bram for character ask game

hii soda!!!

k imma do both cuz im bored :D

ok it got rlly long so it’s under the cut:

akutagawa:

first impressions- tbh i thought he was a weird ass bitch who needed cough drops bc his lil villain cough was making no one but the butterflies scared. like his ability was rlly cool but i didn’t really get him at first. also his name took me ages to pronounce 😭😭

impression now- genuinely one of my fav characters!!! he’s such a guy y’know. a goofy little guy. but i do rlly like his backstory and how he persevered and fought through ever and still was a morally bad person. like i luv seeing characters i adore suffer to hell and back and then finally find some sort of broken peace with themselves. aku allowing himself to value his own wants and needs after fighting atsushi and seeing him grow as a character is just perfect. 10/10 i luv him my blorbo forever <3

favourite moment- anything in wan tbh. i know i just went on a heartfelt rant abt aku but. wan aku is the true star let’s be honest. i mean look at him. just stare into those soulless eyes.

idea for a story- uhhhhh i not very creative gimme a sec… i think him finding himself with a pet would be cool. yknow like he gets attached to some stray cat and then ends up taking it in. and i feel like it would force himself to see that he can be a good person and there is beauty in life. the cat may or may not resemble a certain someone

unpopular opinion- ummm idk rlly? i guess i hc him somewhere or the aro/ace spectrum but i dunno if that’s an u popular opinion

favorite relationship- right so obvi sskk bc i am unoriginal and one with the masses. but. i luv it when chuuya and aku have like a father son relationship. or even when gin and him get to just hang out and chill. i just luv the idea of aku constantly chasing dazais approval and chuuya being like “bitch i fucking raised you the mf left after a year”

fav headcannon- hmmmm prob the hc tha he can’t cook? like he can’t boil water even. i just find it funny that it’s like the one thingy dazai passed down to him. father son duo that can blow up your kitchen in five seconds.

bram:

first impressions- i was so exited when i saw the name bram stoker omg. i haven’t actually read dracula but i’ve heard enough to abt it that ik brams ability would be sick. and god i thought it was so cool. and also the fact that bram was just a shish kebab was sending me and i immediately loved him

impression now- still absolutely in live with him and his character. he’s just like the biggest mood in all of bsd. and his and aya’s relationship is so freaking cute i luv them sm

favourite moment- either when he says he’ll be aya’s knight at the end, or when aya’s like bram what do we do about the apocalypse he’s like “sleep in a hole for a couple centuries.” i would love to sleep in a hole for 200 years every time i had a problem. it would be great.

idea for a story- i think it would be rlly interesting if it was a college and no abilities au and him and mary shelly and adam were besties. like it would be great. they would be the besties fr

unpopular opinion- uh i dunno… i kind of think that he shouldn’t have gotten his body back? at least not when he did? like don’t get me wrong he slayed and saved aya and stuff. but i feel like tbh ere was so much to use with his shish kebab state. i don’t know i think it was underutilized

favourite relationship- oh def bramcraft or lovestoker or whatever it’s called now. bram and lovecraft are ancient yuri and i will die on that hill. they can be eldritch monsters together. and be ancient together. that being said i like kunikifa and bram more platonically. like they become friends through joint custody of aya. and it’s one big happy family

favourite headcannon- oh i don’t know where i saw this but i luv the idea of him using like a cane or mobility aids. for balance probably, but i think it would be so cool for bram to have a cane. he’d look badass with it. best part is he can bonk ppl with it :D

well that got long. but it was rlly fun!!! ty for the ask soda!!!

[honeycombstrawberry]

im rlly praying and hoping for a shirtless + maskless adrian scene next season like pls? pls? pls? ill pay i rlly will like...pls? it can be stupid or something i just want to see i just wanna ummm uh mmm uhm uhh. Um

literally BEGGING!!!!!!! please show us SOME SKIN!!!!!!!!!! he's so big and hot and we only get the OCCASIONAL MASKED SHIRTLESS MOMENT???? KILL ME

[lunaflvms]

I will not hate on the nice blogs and ur moots. currently, I've been hating on random weird blogs abt old women so like uh- and yes change my name to... ummm.... i really dont know... um to #loveranon😹💢 bc yeah we're dating now bc ive learned from my mistakes and like im rlly bored and have no friends so thats why ive been hating on people recently.... but ive changed. so like yeah hi girlfriend😍🥺✨

SLAYYY AND YES NEW NAME 😍😍 HELPP ill be ur friend 😍🙏🙏 aww but if u ever need to talk im here and hi ge eff or be eff idk ur gender 😥 HELP also please do me a favour by ticking kpop shippers off by saying i love their friendship to them or sumn 😥😥😥🤣🤣 i hate kpop fans that ship the idols and are srs about it 😥😥 dont send them hate tho just annoy them 😥😥

[luckyspacerabbit]

im glad to see that you like james bc it means that i follow the right people. one day i went into the me tag and someone was complaining that he was voiced by a nonhispanic white guy (hes not) another day i saw someone complaining that hes sexist (????). i try to google him bc i love him and ppl say that he looks like a gorilla and his character serves no point like :( leave my boy alone

Ohh thats so sad!! I mean everyone is entitled to their opinion but I hate when people tag their character hate in the main tag you know? Like leave the main tag for the people who like the character!

Also this was how I found out he and Iron Bull Dragon Age are voiced by the same VA!! Freddie!!1? Google says he is embracing his Hispanic heritage as you said, but I won’t rlly comment since I’m not of that community and idk if there are criticisms of that or not ♥️

I do not think he’s sexist bruh 🤡 wh BABDKDB— he respects the hell out of the commander what like yeah theres a lot of bioware writing thats products of their time and like i am totally fine w criticism but me personally i don’t think his character is misogynistic at all;; 😐 that sorta sounds like ummm somethin funky 😳 and the gorilla comment is just straight racist uh oh 😳🙄

But I do adore james, he’s an incredible example of like “what’s it like to exist as someone who ‘could’ be commander shepard but know you’ll never be,” he’s the soldier that did everything he knew he was expected of and its because of that that he suffers so much for it, lots of feelings about disillusionment, family service, pressures to be the best and to suffer for it, also so sweet and funny and great charisma to balance out everything thats happening in me3! He makes me feel so grounded and i want the BEST 🥺 for my king <3

[baekybaeky]

Fanfic Writer Tag!

Tagged by: @floraljae niniiiiiiii😘😡

1. What fandoms have you written for (but not currently)?

None!

2. What fandoms are you currently writing for?

only nct hehehehe

3. How long have you been writing for?

I started this june soo not that long!

4. On which platforms do you post your stories?

only on tumblr!

5. What's your favourite genre to write?

fluff with a mixture of angst.

6. Are you a pantser or a planner?

a bit of both? whenever i have an idea i always write it on something (notes, notebook, drafts) then it all starts there. I expand and continue the idea!

7. One shot or multi chapter?

oneshot! but multi chapter is okay too but i prefer oneshot more!

8. What is a perfect length chapter in your opinion ?

ummm either 1.5k-2.5k or 2k-3k.

9. What is your longest published story?

this! oneshot which is 0.5k words but theres something im working on that may or may not be longer🤪

10. which story did you enjoy working on the most?

My first fic which is a jaehyun timestamp!

11. Favourite request you have written and why?

this! haechan fic!

12. Are there reoccurring themes in your stories?

there is a lot of platonic relationship, established relationship and mutual pining.

13. Current number of wips?

i have 4!

14. Three things you have noticed in your writing?

1. I tend to finish requests quickly thats why it ends up a bit rushed(?)

2. My humor is broken

3. and i tend to focus on the reader than the requested idol because i think that i need to show the character that the reader portrays more to make it unique than my other fics.

15. A quote you like from a published story.

"im inlove with the impossibility of us."

16. A quote from an unpublished story.

"I'm praying to God that one day you'll be mine."

17. A space to say something to say to your readers.

uh...yeahhhhh although im new to writing you guys actually like my writing even if its a bit crappy in my eyes hehehehehe also i rlly like the cute messages u guys give me because it boosts my motivation to write hehehehe and im also close to hitting 100 so yeahh lets make it happen.... Iloveyou<3

Tagging: @shotarology @moonbeamsung @taemin-jaemin anyone who wants to do it! (sorry for the bother hehe)

[trivialoveclub]

2020 Year in Review!

hey! i was tagged by the absolute angel that is ⚘ @unefleurofferte ⚘(tysm my love! 💞) for this 2020 tag! first off (even tho it's the middle of january already 🤡) i wanted to wish everyone a happy new year! not to get sappy 💀 but even tho i don't rlly talk/interact that much, it brings me a lot of happiness seeing u guys on my dash 🥺💗 i genuinely am supporting and rooting for you all and i wish u guys all the love and kindness in this new year bc you deserve it babes 💖

Rules: answer the questions about 2020 and tag some people to pass it on!

5 Fav Films You Watched in 2020

🎬 Soul (2020) "Your spark isn't your purpose. That last box fills in when you're ready to come live."

🎬 Onward (2020) "I never had a dad, but I always had you."

🎬 Klaus (2019) "A true selfless act always sparks another."

🎬 Diecisiete (2019) "You think I'd be doing all of this if I had no heart?

Maybe you're trying to get it back."

🎬 East Side Sushi (2014) "You know behind every great restaurant here, there are great latinos, in the back, in the kitchen, hidden. Prepping the food and making you all look good. Well, I don't want to be in the back anymore."

5 Fav TV Shows You Watched In 2020

📺 Like in The Movies (2020) "Do you ever feel like you're not the protagonist of your own story?"

📺 Given (2019) "Do you have anyone you like, Haruki-san? If that person suddenly disappeared from this world, what would you say?"

📺 Banana Fish (2018) "My soul is always with you."

📺 Masterchef Junior (2013-) Not a quote but Gordon Ramsay always says the dishes has "finesse" and now i can't stop saying it in everything 😭

📺 Next in Fashion (2020)

5 Fav Songs You Listened To In 2020

🎶 UGH! : BTS 🎶 "You're allowed to be angry, but bothering someone else's life, I don't like"

🎶 Fuyu No Hanashi : Given 🎶 "Just like the snow that hasn't completely melted in the shade I continue on with these feelings inside of me."

🎶 So Beautiful : DPR Ian 🎶 "My love is turning kinda gray / My heart is looking the other way."

🎶 PSYCHE : Joohoney 🎶 "All of the world pay attention"

🎶 Stay Tonight : Chungha 🎶 "Tell me what you wanna do, run away or stay tonight"

Top 5 Albums of 2020

💿 Map of The Soul 7 : BTS

UGH! ⏯ Black Swan ⏯ Inner Child

💿 Fatal Love : Monsta X

Sorry I'm Not Sorry ⏯ Nobody Else ⏯ Guess Who

💿 Ungodly Hour : Chloe x Halle

ROYL ⏯ Forgive Me ⏯ Lonely

💿 Mixtape [ PSYCHE ] : Joohoney

PSYCHE ⏯ Intro (Ambition) ⏯ DIA

💿 Chromatica : Lady Gaga

Replay ⏯ Sour Candy ⏯ Alice

Top 5 Books You Read in 2020

🤡 🤡 🤡

...i haven't read for fun in years 😔 i used to read a book every single day :(( but! i already have a list of ones i want to read so this year for sure im gonna be that girl again 🤧💅🏼

💌 How did you spend your birthday this year? 💌

uh hahaha 🤡 suddenly i can't read 🤡

well...i had to take my drivers test but i had no idea how to park so i mean obvs i was gonna fail 💀 so i got super anxious and then had a breakdown in the back seat when it was getting closer to my turn 😭 my parents had to reschedule it and take me home. i felt like such a disappointment. so it started off absolutely horrible, fortunately the rest of the day was a lot better but oof 🤪

💌 What was your most memorable day? 💌

i honestly cannot remember anything 😭 it's like one big blur but ummm...probably finishing high school! i felt like i could finally breathe 🥲

💌 What was your most memorable meal you had this year? 💌

hmm...ooo probably when my abuelita made us a bunch of paches de papa 🥺 i ate them for a whole week and i loved it entirely...my heart is pache shaped 🤧💘

💌 Did you find any new hobbies or interests in quarantine? 💌

hmm i don't think i got any new ones but i did get to be reminded again on how much i genuinely enjoy making food and like decorating/personalizing things! ☺💖

💌 What was the last big event/thing you remember doing before covid? 💌

uhhh i honestly can't think of anything? i literally don't go out 🤡 like im in chilling in this quarantine lifestyle bc nothing has changed for me 🤪

💌 5 good/positive things that happened to you in 2020? 💌

🌱 i finally escaped high school! 🎓🎉

🌱 i decided to take a gap year and the burnt out student inside me feels like she can finally exhale

🌱 i can't remember if it was in early 2020 or late 2019 but anyways I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE 😝😝 i honestly...do not know how i got it...i took 15+ minutes to park (as u can see your girl didn't learn her lesson) but bless that man for passing me i hope u have a beautiful life sir 😭💖 however i have not stepped in the driver's seat since then 💋 i refuse 💋

🌱 i honestly would say watching Soul 🥲💗 i've always been obsessed w my meaning and purpose in life and that movie rlly just hit home for me...i think about it everyday and im literally starting to tear up right now so let me just stop 🤪

🌱 hmm honestly just being home 💗 i now have an excuse to stay in all time and that brings me so much peace in my heart 🤧

💌 Biggest messages or lessons learnt from this year? 💌

that there's a lot to live for. and i rlly want to enjoy it? and like w the gap year i still feel guilty and still feel like im wasting time and not being productive (love being a capricorn 🤪) but im trying to not think like that...and the fact that Soul came out and it's whole message is literally like life is beautiful and it's meant to be lived 🥺 it rlly like...set that for me u know...there's so many little things that truly make me excited about life and i want to enjoy it and after those 4 years in high school of constant work and stress and losing my entire mind maybe i actually deserve it 🥲 so um yeah..sjdkajd

💌 And what are you most looking forward to in 2021? 💌

a lot ☺ everything honestly...wow omg that's so weird asjakjd ahhh 😭😭💘 [insert that paul rudd who would have thought not me meme] but i wanna do sm much!! bake and cook and learn to knit! and personalize my clothes and READ! and watch movies and shows! and i'll also be going back to school so i rlllllllllyyyyyyyy want to learn how to manage my time bc my procrastination truly fucked me in the ass in hs 🤡 but yeah im excited ahh! ☺

And We're Done!

oof my memory is so awful i feel like i can't remember anything that happened in 2020 🤡 this ended up being a bit long 💀 so if u made it to the end...thank u for reading...ily 😚💌 besitos for you! 💞

tagging these cuties 💘: @moonlattae @fluorescente @glossierjoon @ardores @star99 @jooniephoria @ahearthrob @catboyjm @yoongidisease @violetmoonlits @koyan @stardustyoongi @7blueside @m1amor @sobsyub @m8nstruck @souheii @1okyos @virgomoon @alevchaan @jihyoist

[neptunebeetle]

UMMM FOR THE CHARACTER THING tricky madcom and steve btb . clown hell =:)

TY WIFEY i love clown hell yayye

Tricky

Sexuality Headcanon: Homosexualest ever. Gay clown <3 mlm n ace too methinks

Gender Headcanon: Trans man xenogender but i dont have anything specific in mind rlly.. he/it n various neopronouns.. maybe ill just *steals your plurgender tricky hc*

A ship I have with said character: Trickjeb is the only ever :)

A BROTP I have with said character: theres several i think.. tricky & hank enemy besties. I think audi & tricky friendship is hilarious and great. Tricky & crackpot horrible gay people friendship <3

A NOTP I have with said character: uhh hm. Im not rlly into tricky/hank idk what its called. Just not for me personally.. frankly im not very much into any other pairing w him LOL

A random headcanon: UHHHHH im bad at this part. Hrm. Well lets see.. i enjoy the hc that the improbability drive shit gave him memory loss bc its so sad and tragic which is not always my forte but… sometimes well yknow. Uhhh i think he’s autistic n doesjt have top surgery andd OH LIKE hes still really fucking smart after the whole zombie clownification . Hes just silly. I like him being super short but i also enjoy interps where hes not hehe

General Opinion over said character: love and so much of it <33 i want to squish him ^_^

Steve

Sexuality Headcanon: GAY homosexul. Men liker 😁

Gender Headcanon: nonbinary as fuckk… he/they

A ship I have with said character: the. Steve & cesare 😏 theyre divorced sometimes but i think theyre in love sorry . Why does cesare call u babygirl

A BROTP I have with said character: steve & penny have such a fun silly dynamic shes so polite to him when the others are like steve wtf BUT ALSO seeing him hang out w tim & billie is fantastic i love friendship. Explodes. Hes weird and they love him

A NOTP I have with said character: uh. IDRK i dont really see him get shipped w anyone much LOL.. im sure theres ones where if they existed id dislike very much lawl

A random headcanon: he changes size for fun. I think hes like tim height or so but he makes himself smaller or bigger just cause. I think he has things wrong with him! Theyre absolutely not human they r clown species. They live in the foodtruck. I dont think they make any profit off the business bc they dont care about money personally like they just dont need it. The job pays generously as a result. Hes adhd :]

General Opinion over said character: hes so fucking shaped and one of the funniest fucking characters ever. Steeeeeve

[blushbi]

asdfghjkl i know it sounds gatekeepy but i dont really trust anime-only inarizaki fans. i've been a fan of the team since the karasuno vs. inarizaki match started in the manga and it was obvious that furudate also really liked the team and worked hard on their dynamics and how it clarified the main philosophies furudate already wrote in the series but explained it more. it was hard being an inarizaki fan back then when no one would really talk about them since everyone was waiting for the nekoma match (but tbh they didn't create much impact until monster's banquet and the hunger speech and the self care and "we don't need memories", and we all wanted karasuno and nekoma to go batshit on each other in an official match and they deserved to go to nationals) and its hard being an inarizaki fan now bc everyone talks about them but thinking that the foxes are just dorks rather than the fact that they were a perfect parallel offense team to karasuno and showed how much karasuno progressed as a team that deserved to play in nationals as much as the powerhouses were (like how much hinata learned because of the ballboy arc, or tanaka overcoming his negative mindset, or the daichi and kita rivalry, or how oikawa and atsumu helped kageyama refine his setting technique because kageyama always sought to improve). now its just team mom kita jokes or s*ngwoo atsumu or stoner suna, basically what the fans were portraying seijoh as well when season 2 aired even though they're more nuanced characters even with how little furudate reveals their personalities. doesn't help that for majority of the match the animation team downplayed inarizaki's antagonism and ferocity as a powerhouse team so much when they had no trouble doing that for seijoh, date tech, shiratorizawa, or nekoma in the cats vs. monkeys episodes. so i'm scared at what the animation team is going to do in the karasuno vs. nekoma match because kenma is such a good antagonist in this match. his vibes were unparalleled when furudate upped the amp for his cunningness to bring down karasuno. plus i don't think season 4 was really well made since they cut out some of karasuno's development as well as players.

holy fucking shit dude um . ive never been an inarizaki fan (nekoma brain go brrrr) but i agree w like everything you said all im wondering is if tumblr killed the ask characters limit because how tf did u fit an entire essay in my inbox 😭😭 anyway yeah u made points uh idrk how to expand off what u said .. i definitely share ur fear of how theyll animate karaneko considering inakara was a flop like u said .... when i think abt it i definitely liked inarizaki better when i read the match than when it aired but also the anime onlies were kinda annoying me sorry it was mostly the twt ppl anyway uh ... i rlly like ur analysis on the antagonism/ferocity of opposing teams bc though theres no villain in hq furudate writes each team very deliberately to bring out whatever theyre trying to bring out from either that team or karasuno themselves for their respective developments and it does get lost in s4 ummm anime onlies if ur reading this pls read the nationals arc from the beginning its so much better and it captures what we all love abt hq so much 🥺 the anime kinda nerfed it so far plot wise

[residentevildash-moved]

Thoughts on uh. Boobs? Or Tacos.

i lobr yhe proper punctuation here i feel like im in court but um well boobs r a normal thing ppl sometimes have & tacos r ummm rlly good i think but only if they dont have bell peppers in them i think bell peppers really overpower all the other flavors & also the flavor itself sux bad