#Beauty without question
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Ladybug and Chat Noir hosting a podcast where they're going to interview Adrien Agreste and so Adrien has to enlist Félix to pretend to be him and Félix gets to just. Make fun of Adrien to his face and to a national audience. Chat Noir keeps arguing with Félix’s Adrien about his own opinions so the next day all the news is about how much everyone thinks Chat Noir hates Adrien Agreste
#I just think Félix making fun of Adrien right in front of him#while Adrien can't do anything to combat it without revealing his identity is funny#ladybug's like 'we have a question from a fan: chat noir and adrien both pun a lot! can you tell us your reasons for why?'#and chat noir has a whole beautiful thoughtful response to it#and then they flip to félix who is like. 'im mentally ill'#miraculous ladybug
5K notes
·
View notes
Text
Sebastian and that thing called "Faith"
Writing this bc I remembered another moment in which I grew to love Sebastian
He has such complete faith in his master, he trusts Ciel's ability and resolve. The entire cricket match, Sebastian was only supporting from the sidelines, but it was Ciel who took the podium, instructed the team, and used wicked strategies to win the game.
It's like saying: "If my Young Master says he'll win, then he will."
He doesn't even have any doubt, he already has a uniform prepared for Ciel's victory.
I was reminded of it when I encountered these panels, which occured after Ciel declared that he will take back the title "Earl Ciel Phantomhive":
It seems dressing Ciel in finery is Sebastian's love language. His unwavering show of support. (After all, an indication of Sebastian's absence is represented by Ciel looking unkempt)
This whole time while the household was running from the law and are hiding with Lau, Sebastian was mostly silent and contemplative, only thinking of how to protect and survive, and Ciel was really quiet too. No doubt Sebastian was in a state of limbo as well
It seems he was waiting for Ciels command. I believe he'd even acquiesce with running away like a coward, even if it would prolong Ciel's revenge. Perhaps he was already forlornly imagining how his master would undoubtedly still thrive in another part of the world.
After the Reunion, instead of shocking his master back to his senses like in GWA, Sebastian patiently waited for Ciel's next move. When his master is decisive anew, he welcomed it with open arms. He is learning. Becoming more attuned to his master's emotions perhaps, becoming more sensitive
And then this happens: a gorgeous parallel to Chapter 2, the first instance of Ciel reaffirming his identity as "Ciel Phantomhive"
Their initial plan at the moment was to escape the country. I was almost afraid that Ciel would be too affected to fight his brother, but once again he shows his ridiculous mental strength.
This is surely another moment of Sebastian regaining his faith in his master. In fact, gaining moreso.
With all this in mind, I like to think that Sebastian buying expensive clothes for Ciel, even though Ciel was stripped of rank, riches, and title... It's like saying once again:
"You told me you would win, so naturally, I prepared for the occasion."
Ugh the parallels. Ugh the faith and devotion. UGH the character development, the respect he has for this boy.


Rereading the Blue Memory arc, the contrast between early contract and present Sebastian is so palpable. Could you even imagine??? The difference is a chasm. That demon is so whipped.
At first he was like "lol 'Earl Ciel' Phantomhive 🙄🤭😒"
And now he's like "Earl Ciel Phantomhive 🧎♂️🧎♂️🧎♂️🤲🤲✨✨"
Examining holistically, after everything they've been through, it seems something has shifted. It seems something previously considered "unattainable" has grown in Sebastian.
In the Indian Butler arc, many months prior, Sebastian claimed that "Faith" born out of love and devotion for another person is impossible for demons to achieve.

Sebastian... Boy, I have news for you.
Likewise, when Sebastian says he'll do something, Ciel's response is "if Sebastian says he'll do it, then it will happen. This is a statement of fact."

(this is from the musical, but I like to think of "noncanon" parts of Kuro to be extensions of their characters. There are numerous moments in the manga and anime where Ciel's trust in Sebastian's abilities are showcased but this is the one that came to mind at this moment)
So the sentiment is very much mutual.
#im sorry if someone already said this like half a decade ago i just really like the fact that Sebastian without question just trusts that#his master would win. so much so that he just preemptively orders new clothes to commemorate it all 😭😭😭#kuroshitsuji#kuroshitsuji musical#black butler#bb observations#bb manga#weston arc#blue memory arc#blue revenge arc#curry arc#the most beautiful death in the world the musical#sebaciel#m'posts
178 notes
·
View notes
Text
it’s already june here but it’s mermay in Most Places still, so here’s some several-years-post-canon codfather
#.png#empires smp#empires s1#the codfather#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#fanart#no id#i am frequently lost on how to describe my own art#artistic nudity#because well. his scales cover everything but he Is technically naked lol#i like to think he went back to get the cod mask at some point#or made a new one#a few years after canon#because he felt weird without it#i was gonna say he felt naked without it but it’s literally the only thing he’s wearing#anyways .#we don’t need to question the beautiful and intricate headcanons that exist in my mind. look at this fish man
443 notes
·
View notes
Text
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THEY'RE ACTUALLY TALKING, WITHOUT FIGHTING EACH OTHER OR SCREAMING INSULTS
#it's so beautiful#this is my favorite sskk joint mission#they're actually acting like partners here#they're opening up and being completely honest with one another#the fact that aku's asking those questions so calmy#without insulting him or using rashomon#and atsushi is actually answering his questions in his own way#aku's genuinely curious about atsushi#it took them just a few near death experience to actually talk#i'm so proud of them#sobbing and tearing up#i love them#i love sskk so fucking much#that's progress y'all#they're partners your honor#SSKK#SHIN SOUKOKU#SSKK S3#BSD S3#BSD#BUNGO STRAY DOGS#ryuunosuke akutagawa#atsushi nakajima
260 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think part of my problem is i lived with my best friend for two years of my life and have been searching for the same feeling of joy & acceptance & support ever since
#like I’ve sat down and had a think about it and the times I’ve felt the least lonely in the last 5+ years are when my roommates were close#friends I could pray with/laugh with/cry with/unmask with#something something you can’t keep trying to go back somewhere that doesn’t exist anymore you need to go forward#but the only way I can see myself thriving is if I can live with people/someone who feel(s) like home#and I know that can come with time and you meet new people and make new friends and settle down somewhere and slowly build yourself a life#but how do you do that without dying along the way#and I’m here in this new state and I’m trying to be content but there’s the very real possibility everything is going to change *again*#later this year and I just. I’m done I want it all to be over I want to get to find someone and commit my life to them and get to know we’r#we’re gonna figure it out together#and bitterness is so tempting right now bc unless God heals & transforms & really really surprises me#(all of which He CAN do but I just have never thought that was His desire for me); unless that happens I will probably be alone for the#rest of my life#and I can write essays on the importance of platonic friendships and how good and beautiful it is to value them but that grows weaker and#weaker the older you get the more all your friends seek marriage and find their other halves and you’re still. just. There#it’s nearly midnight and I should write a poem instead of processing in the tags of a post but really I may just go to bed#I’m so glad I have a phone call and prayer group to look forward to tomorrow#and the Bible study tonight was good <3 some things were hard about it but my soul was comforted#and I may have even more questions but at the very least right now I know God is Love#and that is the bottom line of any answer that I seek#….which I guess maybe loops back to the processing too. I know He is love I know He’s supposed to be sufficient#so what do you do when that doesn’t FEEL like enough#God I believe help my unbelief. please#elle rambles#[y]#/p
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
I am slowly reading all of @keycarabiner ‘s work on ao3 and it’s ruining my LIFE YOUR WRITING MAKES ME FEEL INSANE.
THIS is a scene from their fic ‘Storge’, this fucking. Sick snapshot of a camp halfblood au with Aphrodite kid Steve, and…. Mysterious Eddie…. OOOOO THE DRAMA
#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#I love the drama of a Percy Jackson au#Steve’s distance from his parents is so spicy when it has this layer of like#pride. and sadness at being abandoned#him having to question all his relationships#and how he could finally have true friends at camp halfblood without fear?#but ALSO. NOT BEING ABLE TO RELY ON HIS ‘CHARISMA’#AND EDDIE.#Eddie the banished Eddie the freak#obsessed#also key if you’re reading this#I want to eat your brain#your writing is beautiful
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
Whenever I see the Beast on Disney villain merch of any kind, I wanna bite someone. Like, tell me you completely missed the themes of Beauty and the Beast 1991 without telling me you missed the themes of Beauty and the Beast 1991.
#daily life with blue#beauty and the beast 1991#beauty and the beast#oh but he's a mean guy to start with therefore calling him a villain is totally okay#fucking no he's the goddamn love interest#the whole point of his character is that he grows and becomes a better man#than the ACTUAL villain of the story who's a misogynistic blood knight who wants to destroy anything#that doesn't fit within his narrow views of how the world should be#there's an entire fucking song in the show about how the townsfolk think the beast is evil because he's a big scary looking monster#when the real monster is the town golden boy that they all follow without question even after he's done a bunch of reprehensible shit#i get that no one has any media literacy anymore and characters have to be perfect or be immediately labeled as problematic#but COME ON#we are not falling for the same bullshit a bunch of provincial french peasants fell for right?!
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
randomly amusing moment (to me) from The Princess Royal ep 40:
Qin Zhen Zhen arrives: your highness!!!!!!
Li Rong: oh hey girl
Qin Zhen Zhen: 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
Pei Wenxuan, who i believe did not even receive a hello: ...
#i just do find it a lil funny#that the lady that PWX couldnt forget in the orig timeline#and thus accidentally torpedoed his marriage#in life 2 was like lol yeah it was actually my decision to end our engagement#then got the whole Li Rong experience#and developed a huge girl crush#super devoted and thinks LR is the best#life 2 QZZ would stab PWX without question if LR told her to#(she would just trust there was a good reason)#and i think that's beautiful#cdrama#the princess royal
35 notes
·
View notes
Text

A d m i r e
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
These gifs have 100,000 downloads on some APPS
#gay pride#lgbtq community#gay shit#lgb without the t#lgbt pride#questioning#gay artists#bros#gay bros#big brother#bro culture#american art#america moment#american men#hot dudes#so hot and sexy#sex and relationships#sexy art#sexy and beautiful#mens rights#masculine#married man#married life#married men#gay marriage#marriage#heteronormativity#bisexual#gay men#gay love
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
why are you, as an adult in 2024, still hung up on reylo. why are you still mocking the shippers. why do you believe yourself to be superior only because you dislike a stupid ship from a fucking space fairytale. girl (gnc) get a grip
#it's ridiculous. this ship is... stupidly cliché. like if you know fandoms at all#you could easily guess why people would be into it. hello?? have you tried to watch tfa without your hate-on-kyle-ron goggles?#did you watch their scenes together? you don't have to like something to recognize the hints#hell. at the time i didn't really like jonerys but i realized they were going to be a thing when i read agot in 2011#like folks. it's been nearly TEN LONG YEARS. let it go. LET IT FUCKING GOOOO#and for the lucy/cooper shippers out there who think reylos are (again) delusional when they compare the two ships:#no. *you* are being delusional only because you think reylo is unsexy and uncool (which is your right to think btw. obv)#if you can't see why someone would like both of these pairings for similar reasons... idk what to say honestly#people compared it to hannigram... honestly. again i see why they would appeal to anyone who's into both ships#i really do. but... unpopular opinion (since i'm more of a clannibal fan than i could ever be of reylo):#they are more similar to reylo than will/hannibal. there i said it#i'm not talking about the writing (admittedly the quality of it was questionable). i'm talking about tropes#never mind that imo the ghoul is more akin to vader than kylo but whatever#hannibal is an unapologetic kind of villain. he's not gonna have a redemption arc and that's okay#cooper is an antivillain who used to be a good man and became a disfigured cruel bastard. a parody of himself#lucy is him. him before the bombs dropped before he discovered the person he trusted the most wanted to commit genocide#nice. moral. polite. infused with the Good Old American Values™. he's basically her dark side#all of this is very hannigram/clannibal. i'm not denying it at all#but what'll likely happen is that lucy's actions will have a positive influence on the ghoul and remind him of what it means to be a man#and that's way more reylo-like. sorry.#beauty&thebeast/villain with some hidden good in him+morally righteous heroine/enemies to lovers etc.#i mean. hello??..... having said that. i'm not so much of a reylo shipper anymore and tbh never was. i really liked it at the time#but i was never fond of the st era. my fav characters are vader and leia and revan from the old eu. just saying#*and* it's also not impossible lucy gets darker with the ghoul as her traveling companion. in fact i wouldn't dislike it at all#if done well i mean#but i would still like for people to be intellectually honest and less puerile. god knows i have my notps#but i really don't give a fuck about the shippers. good for them i guess? i have better taste lmao but that's heavily subjective#val rambles in the tags#val speaks#txt
31 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hello love how are you?
I miss the actors au, so i have a promt for you if thats okay.
Thena and Gil are casted in an action/romance movie where their characters have a lot of tension and have to flirt a lot, so their tension in real life gets real high and they kinda start flitring with the other but they are just "friends".
As always thank you for your works 🩷🤍
"You ready?" he asked her, his weapon in hand.
She gave him a look over her shoulder, raising a finely plucked eyebrow. "Are you going to ask me that every time?"
He gave her look right back to her, though, both of them grinning at the exchange. "Well, I believe in words of assurance. Doesn't that help set the mood or something?"
She tested the doorknob, preparing to charge in with him. "Are you asking me as your partner or as a woman?"
He pressed his back to the wall with her. He wasn't nearly as entertained by it as she was. "I'm asking if you're sure about this."
She was surprised by his sudden hesitance. "You think we aren't there yet?"
"I mean dinner is one thing, but taking down this whole compound just us?"
"I knew you had commitment issues."
"You think everyone has commitment issues."
She rolled her eyes at him. "If you can't do this, then fine, I'll take care of it myself-"
He stopped her from going in alone, his hand holding hers back. He moved closer, even, his arm around her and his face nose to nose with hers. "You'll never have to take care of anything alone so long as I'm here. Whether you think we're there or not."
The clip faded out and the audience applauded obligingly. Some was politely directed by the teleprompters and some was genuine enthusiasm. The movie did seem fun and light, with well paced action, based on the snippet presented.
Gil and Thena laughed at the scene chosen, as if they hadn't already seen it countless times during their press tour.
"That was a clip from your latest--I'm already excited," the host of the show exclaimed, leaning back in her chair. "I feel like we haven't seen you guys take on anything this light in a while."
Gil and Thena shared a look. It was always funny for them to do press and receive notes on how their careers were going. Whether they were working on something together or apart, they were spending almost all their time together anyway.
"Well, Thena had her more serious biopic, which swept awards season," Gilgamesh began, openly inviting the audience to shower her with adulation. He clapped as well, chuckling as she ducked her head and played with her hair in a moment of shyness.
"You see why I can't do press with him all the time? I can't take it," she laughed in good nature, spreading her time between the host and the audience. "He's too much."
"It's so sweet how close you are, though," the host beamed, dancing the line between innocent commentary and probing at something more. "I feel like it's not always the case."
"We are lucky," Thena agreed, looking at Gil again with a full smile. Her makeup done for the show made her seem to glow under the lights, from the blush in her cheeks to the colour on her lips. "I can't imagine how insufferable it would be if I didn't like him."
"Well, it'd be pretty hard, if that clip was anything to go by!"
She was somewhat luring them into something--saying something, admitting something.
"Is it hard to get into a character like the ones in this film, or do you find it easier because you already get along so well?"
Thena met the eyes of their host. She was good at her job; the audience was ooh-ing and ah-ing at all the right times. She kept her smile even, though, resting her cheek in her hand. "Well, movies like this one often focus more on the action and the humour than the characters. But we're lucky our writers actually have quite a fun story buried within the scenes."
"It was nice to be able to really play around with the characters and how they interacted and that would, in turn, influence how we played a scene or how we would allude to something that would come into play further down the line," Gilgamesh answered. It was a very practised, media coach approved answer. It really didn't say all that much, but it sounded like he was saying a lot.
"Now, just tell me," the hostess got a devious smirk on her face. "Are you flirting like that the whole movie?"
Thena resisted the urge to roll her eyes, much like her character for the summer blockbuster. "Would you call that flirting?"
Gil laughed beside her, their eyes drawn together and away from the third party on stage with them. "I think that's just how they talk to each other."
"It's natural for them," Thena joined in his laughter. "They get up, go to work, see each other in the elevator-"
"She says 'fuck you', he says 'how hard'?" Gilgamesh joked, which had both he and Thena laughing, as well as the audience in stitches. He made a sheepish face to the camera, "sorry, sorry, forgot you'll have to bleep that."
Thena shrugged one shoulder, "it's not rated R, we can have one truly good profanity."
"Yeah, and you got it," he pointed out, recalling the exact scene in which her character gets the privilege of saying the coveted once-per-movie-F-bomb. "It's a big one, too."
She gave him a look before purring, "not as big as you, baby."
The audience laughed again. Gil and Thena both leaned in their seats, losing themselves in the mirth of it all. The hostess was banging on the table.
She wiped a tear from her eye, picking up her coffee mug only to tip it upside down. "It's okay, there's no coffee in here."
The audience continued to laugh.
"How did you even get any work done like this?"
"Is it really work if you do what you love?" Gilgamesh chuckled, trying to calm his laughter and appear at least somewhat professional. He tugged at the lapel of his suit jacket, although he didn't button it closed. He looked at Thena again. "Wouldn't you agree?"
She made a face; Sprite got her mischievous side from Thena, but neither would ever admit it. "I think they do each other all the time, yes."
The audience roared with laughter again. Thena attempted to hide her completely open laughter with a hand in front of her mouth. Under the cover of it, she whispered to him, "sorry, but that one was too good to pass up."
"Takes one to know one," he whispered back to her.
"Okay, okay, okay," the hostess held her hand up, signalling the audience to cool it and drawing her guests' attentions back to her. "Cool it, kids--leave some room for jesus, 'kay?"
Thena and Gil both chuckled, but they had indeed gravitated closer and closer through the course of their banter. Their thighs were touching.
"Thena," the two women traded grins and raised eyebrows. "First, I have to know where you get your eyebrows done, because you're putting me to shame."
She was funny, Thena conceded. She liked her delivery and her genuine charisma. "It's all my stylist team, I assure you."
"Second," she held up a finger. "Did you write your own dialogue for this movie or what?--you're killin' me, here. You know how hard it is to get your own network show? I'm supposed to be the funny one."
The audience applauded again, the energy in the room still high.
Gil joined in. "She's always been funny--I keep telling people."
"No one believes you," she shook her head at him. They were ignoring their host again and getting lost in the fun of trading little jokes. She toyed with some of her hair, winding it around her finger.
He shook his head, capturing the lock of hair for himself. "That's what happens when you're pretty and talented, people think the rest of your resume is fake."
"Is there anything you can't do?" the host asked, partly for the info and partly so as not to let her own show get away from her again.
"Plenty," Thena looked back at her again, although it had to be said that Gilgamesh was still toying with her hair. "Cooking is top of the list."
"That's okay," the host jumped on the opportunity to bring up more inside info. "I hear he's a master chef all his own."
"It's true."
"It is not."
"It most certainly is," Thena cut him off, tipping her head in his direction again. He tossed her hair over her shoulder but she didn't let it distract her. "He's an amazing home cook."
The host pouted, leaning her chin into her palm with her elbow on top of her desk. "I'm jealous."
Thena nodded at her. "We had a break during filming, while we were changing location and our crew was doing the real heavy lifting work. And the day we were back on set, Gilgamesh brought everyone a little bundle of cookies he had made."
"For everyone?!"
Thena nodded again, confirming the other woman's shock. "He baked at least three hundred cookies so he could give them to everyone in the cast and crew. They were in cute little bundles, tied with ribbon and everything."
"Okay," Gil huffed, blushing modestly.
"Look," Thena pointed at the screen, where the showrunners were pulling up a picture taken and posted on social media. "Isn't it cute?"
The hostess dropped her jaw in the audiences direction. They were being well fed this segment. "Okay, I didn't think there was anything you couldn't do, but now it's him too?!"
Thena raised both her brows at him and crossed her arms with a smirk. "No, there is absolutely nothing he cannot do."
He rolled his eyes, still playing up his bashfulness. He raised his arm up onto the back of the couch, somewhat around Thena's shoulders. His fingers toyed with the fluttery sleeve of her dress. "Except get you to stop, apparently."
"Okay," the hostess tapped the desk, signalling the closing of their time. She turned to the frontmost camera while the other two turned to cover her other angles. "We are gonna take a quick break, and when we come back, the lovebirds here will have some insider info on release dates and we'll even have some questions from our viewers!"
The cameras pulled out and the band played until sound was done rolling. Gil and Thena waved to the audience, as well as the 'audience' at home through the cameras.
"That was amazing, you guys are nailing it," their hostess addressed them openly as her team came scurrying in to retouch her hair and makeup in their brief commercial spot. "Keep up the fun, flirty vibes when we come back, okay?"
Gil and Thena looked at each other. The hostess was further engulfed in assistants and scrip producers and coffee gophers swarming her for their brief five minute window to do their jobs.
"Flirting?" Thena voiced aloud, to which Gil also shrugged. "I wouldn't call it that."
"No," he scoffed in agreement with her. "We're just making friendly conversation. And you're totally killing the audience--just admit you're funny."
She scoffed at him this time, her arms still crossed, him still playing with the sleeve of her dress. "I admit nothing. If anything, you are bringing it out in me. And she's quite humorous."
Gil just chuckled, adjusting himself to fully sit sideways on the couch, since this was the position he would be in for the rest of the interview anyway. He abandoned the dress sleeve and found her stray curl of blonde to play with again. "You're funnier."
And they said they weren't flirting.
#Thenamesh Actors AU#an oldie but a goodie!!!#thank you so much for the ask my dear I hope you like it!#I wanted the vibes to be immaculate#Thena is well trained on how to seem fun and personable#and she and Gil definitely got into character for these roles#ie flirting and making dirty jokes nonstop#the hostess is like guys please this is my show eyes up here#it's giving Kathryn Hahn hosting for Jimmy Kimmel Live#anyway the interview continues#they've received questions from viewers through instagram and such#Gil and Thena answer the questions professionally#for the most part#but everyone online is just like is this publicity or a relationship announcement video???#there are memes online within minutes#'they look like a youtube couple announcing their pregnancy'#'this is how your parents look when they tell you they're going on vacation without you'#'like what are they even that close for???'#Sprite sees all of it and likes every comment like that#much to Thena's distress#and of course the movie PR is just like okay great free advertising for us#they knew their leads#they knew they already had insane chemistry on and off screen#and Gil and Thena got to film in a beautiful vacation spot all summer everyone wins#except for Sprite who stepped foot into the sun for ten minutes and got baked like a lobster
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
im someone who stuggles not to let his curiosity and drive sometimes (often) cross over into an overwhelming and maladaptive need for answers, for explanation, for certainty. someone who, historically, sees making art as a primarily intellectual exercise. this is not inherently a bad thing, we all have our temperaments and this kind of attention can be a strength. but, you know that artist who makes a painting, and then only wants to show it while explaining it to you? thats me, sometimes, more often than i like. every story i used to write had another hundred page document behind it, explicating every single choice -- often i would simply read that, instead of ever actually write the story itself. the explanation precedes everything. the answers alone are the experience.
david lynch's work and philosphy has been and is a vital foothold in my efforts to learn to love the questions as our breath. learn to appreciate intuition and dreams, trust them instead of fear them. learn to see that the world has so much confusing, uncertain, strange beauty, that can be terrifying but turns sublime when you cease rejecting it from fear. when you embrace the unknown and dont try to immediately & anxiously explicate it all away, a whole new world opens up to you. that you need the darkness in order to dream, and you need dreams in order to live fully immersed in what the world has to offer. a foothold in learning to be okay with abstraction, with imperfect subjectivity, with uncertainty. to know it is not anthitetical to truth and meaning. know that to skillfully make ideas come alive into a work *is* to rationally pin them down, but that you cannot lose sight of the intuition they were born as.
his artistic intuition reminds me of what i need to have -- the trust and humility for experiencing the inexplicable and understanding that to be enough. a devotion to ideas and their realisation. a balancing force, for my endless inquiry -- to not forget to live the question in my the search for an answer. to allow some thing to go without clear or universal explanation, allow for some things to remain unresolved, allow for others to have that be their resolution. it's why his work equal parts captivates me and disturbs me -- i am very bad at this. but feel in my heart a need to get better at it. to be a better artist, a better thinker, a better searcher, a better person. you need to feel it, intuitively, quiet your endless noisy need for an answer and simply let it fill you up, let it resonate intuitively, and find in that how life makes sense to you and you alone. mediation, mindfulness, humility to sit with abstraction without trying to pin it down. more and more i try to understand this. some things don't need to make perfect sense. some things dont need answers, or their answers are not the point. some things dont need anything but to be experienced as they enter you -- like dreams do. that can lead you to the answer, and that can also be enough in itself. that can be just an intrinsic value in being alive to experience it. and so often, it is all in conversation with the search for joy. it's why he feels so captivating, so unique, so tremendously alive. why people use the word "visionary" when talking about him. because he knew how to use his medium in all the potential he could see, so that it let you live in the strangeness and questions. he understood them as sublime, he understood them as enough, he understood them as a joy. he understood them as beautiful. and his memory will remind me to do the same; always to seek the space to dream.
#(in dreams / oh in dreams / the snake will find its tail)#i am! a guy! who likes! answers!!#someone who resolves his fear of monsters in the closet by picking up a flashlight and brazenly throwing open the door!!#but at my worst i am also extremely anxious and thus avoidant!!#so i will resolve my fear of monsters in the closet by opening the doors wide and then simply pretending to see whats inside#searching for answers without the bravery to sit with questions#this makes me worse!! it makes me worse!!!!#thank you david lynch for reminding me over and over again that the way to stop being afraid of the dark#is to not stop at all#but instead embrace that disquiet. open the closet door wide as it will get. turn off the flashlight#and simply sit in front of it#observing -- simply observing -- whatever shapes emerge#letting them fill you up#and then doing something with them#also... man#lynch is one of the few things my mom and i almost completely agree on and could connect through#despite everything i feel like she gets this necessity for humility and curiosity and quieting down your need for answers#and not to get overshary on the tumblrs but it is a source of friction at times#because of my me and like. the abuse. i dont want someone whose failure of self knowledge gave me cptsd to tell me i should *think less*#but idk it's precious that through lynch we find a common ground in which to agree about it#i think i get what she was trying to tell me a little better now. or maybe what she would've liked to be trying to tell me#idk tldr i had a violent childhood where nothing made sense and everything was scary so now i struggle not to be desperate for#certainty and knowledge as protection. and the way i always found that was through art and philosophy so. yeah.#lynchs work helps me like... calm down a bit about that and do it better#to learn to love the strange and the confusing and the disquieting not see it always as a threat#to sit in the dark and see it for what it is. painful and beautiful. tender and hard. its deeply relieving. its good#hole in the world dude im gonna miss him really bad all i can feel rn is sadness gratitude and joy#forever in dreams#david lynch#mine
8 notes
·
View notes
Text

Ahhh, over two days of my year, and I only wish it was more. I’m sure next year will hold more days of my life well spent listening to skilled artists tell incredible stories. Worlds Beyond Number is not only my favourite story and characters, but it’s also my favourite sound design and soundtrack. Can’t wait for more!
#genuinely the best podcast I’ve ever listened to without question#it’s just beautiful#worlds beyond number#wbn#wbn pod#wbn: www#wwwo#aabria iyengar#erika ishii#brennan lee muligan#lou wilson#taylor moore
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
i would really appreciate it if i didn't have a brain that thought torturing me was a helpful response to being scared of us. im your copilot stop fucking tazing me you dick
#good fucking god. im going to crawl out of bed now that was all so pointless#what they never tell you about mental illness is what a massive waste of your time it is. jfc you stupid asshole#i hate you intrusive thoughts i hate you i hate you i hate you. die.#all the rest of it too tbh but those in particular. haunted by the knowledge that i will never be able to fight my limbic system or whateve#like brass knuckle fucking bike chain with the lock on bat with nails in it etc. absolutely sick of that guy idc how sympathetic he is#that motherfucker needs to pay for what he's done to me and im not joking even a little bit#ugh im going to go distract myself with something stupid now. whatever#edit im adding in some of the good things that happened today bc it was actually good and i feel better now :v#we got our first proper snow of the season so i got to go walk around in that. twas beautiful and my dogs were very cute#the last couple of times it snowed here i was too depressed/burnt out/whatever to like. go have fun in it#and it's our first snow w hoagie obviously (and maybe his first snow bc he's like. 1 y/o)#im still on break and ive been vaguely if not very un-vaguely tormented by the prospect of registering for classes#even though i think they start in like. 2 days.#combined w the need to do like. a comedically large amount of dishes. like nothing to eat on for days bc of my ass amounts#am i registered for classes? no. but im working on the unforseen obstacle in question and i feel better bc of that#waiting on an email feels a lot comfier than sitting on smth very urgent without knowing its exact deadline (<- too scared to look) unable#to bring yourself to do it yknow? and the dishes got done. small miracles#like today was good my brain just ambushed me again
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
why do you call asougi mr handsome?
because hes the most handsome man in all of england!! obviously!! ive never been to japan so either theyre hiding all the really pretty people over there or he is also the most handsome man in all of japan! both of those options are good options so im not worried...
have you looked at him. hes... hes just stunning!!! his hair is so soft and silky and this beautiful shade of dark grey that goes all bronze-brown in sunlight, which should be impossible but its not because he does it!!
he has these really pretty gray eyes, too... ive gotten to see them sparkle when he gets his hands on a cool sword and to compare it to starlight would not be incorrect!!
his voice is very pleasing to listen to, its a bit rough and a bit unlike most people so its super distinctive, and he could make really dry law sound interesting just by reading it out loud. his singing is even better... nice and tenor and a little untrained but thats what makes it good!!!
also his usual court uniform is almost criminally tight and i know thats because mr pretty prosecutor just insists on it but wow. wow. it is probly impossible not to notice his physique when hes wearing that!!! and of course if youve ever seen him move hes so fluid... poetry in motion. dancing or sparring, doesnt matter, he makes it look like its the only thing youre supposed to do with your physical body.
also hes very warm to the touch and smells like fresh pennyroyal and it is unfairly nice. no one told me that until i got to dance with him myself, because our mutual friends might just be evil, but it is important that you know this because it is the cherry on top.
i mean really!! its a miracle i ever stay standing when hes around, hes so handsome i get all weak in the knees. youd figure being around him more would make me get used to it!! and youd be wrong!!!
it is unfair that any man could be so handsome, and yet he is!!! it makes me happy, though. that someone does exist that is that handsome. that sort of beauty should always exist and im glad it exists in someone i know!!
#answers!#pixie questions!#mr handsome#and before anyone questions me!!#it is not just because hes japanese. i have met other japanese people before and they dont always have the same effect#mr beautiful defense does!#mr genshin did not!! he might have without the mustache but he had that so. no points for him.#wonder if he went back to japan...? he didnt say goodbye anyway. that was rude of him!
12 notes
·
View notes