#But bc I'm actually kinda worried what will happen if she's in 'real' need of help and too afraid to ask

[goodbadhabit]

Oh btw just remembered something that happened today

My neighbor (sweet old lady) came to my door, apologised and asked for my help, which lead to the following little interaction

Her: sorry for interrupting but...

Me: sorry?

Her: yes, yes, sorry for

Me: SORRY?

Her: I shouldn't say sorry, right?

Me: not in the slightest, that's what I'm here for

She apologized a couple times again after that and it made me laugh, but I did help her, obviously, her phone just needed some updates and she got all stressed out

I explained (and will probably have to repeat this) that she should never apologize for asking for help and that I'm basically always here if she needs it

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

here's a wild one for y'all. cw for parental death. names have been changed, it is a kinda specific situation but I think only 1 of my family members is on Tumblr so whatever. sorry it got so long, it's a complicated situation and still VERY fresh so my brain is kinda fried lol.

tldr my dad passed away without a will and we want to give his long-distance "side" gf the house he helped her buy. I'm worried she won't be able to afford the mortgage, but don't really want to give her any of the monetary payouts. WIBTA if my brothers and I kept all of the cash?

so late last week (it's Dec 19 as of submitting) my father (60s M) passed away in a sudden car accident on his way to work. I'm (late 20s ftM) his oldest child, I also have a younger brother (mid 20s M) who we'll call Phineas and an even younger half-brother (almost tween, M) who we'll call Aaron.

so I'd describe my dad as a kind and loving but stubborn and stupid man. I would also guess, based on what I know of his love life, that he was polyamorous but didn't realize it due to his conservative Christian upbringing and didn't know it was an option so instead ended up being...well, kinda an adulterer tbh. this isn't to excuse his actual actions bc they were obviously wrong, but is the way the situation reads to me, a polyamorous person.

Dad had a long distance girlfriend (50s??? maybe??? F) on the West Coast (we live near the East Coast), we'll call her Melody. I met her a few years back when he flew Phineas and I with him to visit her. she's a sweet woman from what I know of her. when I got the news of his passing, I was the one who called her to let her know what happened. (which sucked.)

well, what I Didn't know until I was trying to scrape together travel arrangements (I live 5 hours away from Phineas and my dad) was that he also had a Wife (60sF), who we'll call Patricia. (it wasn't a legal marriage, it was "in the eyes of the Lord" as they said, due to legal complications to do with her social security benefits or something. which is why the arrangements for his death fell onto Phineas and I as his adult children. but if he called her his wife then as far as I'm concerned that's what she is.) he didn't really tell me or Phineas about the full nature of their relationship. Phineas found out bc our dad was spending so much time with her that he'd practically moved in w her, put two and two together and asked her to confirm. I never even knew she existed till all this happened. he had told his parents and siblings about her, and they approved of her. we can only speculate why he kept it so quiet to us, she thinks bc of his history with Real Duds that we'd be upset somehow. idk.

so anyway Patricia knew about Melody. my dad was already seeing Melody when he started seeing Patricia. I don't know what he was thinking when he got with Patricia tbh, can't ask him now anyway, but she knew about Melody the whole time. wasn't thrilled about it, constantly told him he needed to tell her the truth and end things, but doesn't truly hold that against Melody herself bc she didn't know.

Melody, however, did not know about Patricia. he was planning to tell her at some point. kept meaning to. still loved her, didn't wanna hurt her, but was also trying to be monogamously committed to Patricia too. he never got around to actually ending things with Melody before he passed, and as far as she knew he was still planning to move out there and get married to her. he even took out a loan to help her pay for her late mother's house, both their names are on the mortgage and deed.

which brings me to my question. my dad didn't seem to have a will (not that we can find anyway), so Phineas and I are the ones in charge of distributing his various belongings and payouts and such. we both agree that we don't have any use for some house across the country, and Melody is already living in it anyway. imo she should just Have It. however, she is also Pretty Poor. I don't know the specifics of her situation (or, really, much about the complications of home ownership?) but I do worry about her ability to continue to pay the mortgage, assuming that's a thing. we're still waiting to hear about all the details and numbers and have somebody who actually knows about that stuff translate it into layman's terms for us non-homeowners (or in Phineas's case, Brand New Homeowner) so we can get a full picture of how all that is going to work legally speaking.

Dad also had life insurance thru his employer. we are still working thru the red tape at his company to figure out who the beneficiary is, the most likely candidate being me as the eldest child. Phineas and I are agreed that we'll at least be splitting most, if not all, the money evenly between us and Aaron. Patricia is INSISTENT that she doesn't want any of it, she wants us kids to keep it bc unlike some of his exes she never cared about his money (he made GOOD money, but still ended up kinda poor due to both being generous to, and having been taken advantage of by, multiple women since my bio mom died. including having to shell out an insane amount of child support for Aaron despite already having a very active role in his life. like he paid more child support than either I or my fiancee even make at our jobs, while also frequently just straight up directly providing for him where he could). because of his income it's looking like a pretty hefty payout.

however, my brother and I are both pretty poor as well. while we don't know the exact amount we're getting, some are speculating a number that, even split 3 ways, would be Life-Changing for us. we're talking 5 figure amounts, more than I or my fiancee make in a year. like we'll still need to work for a living but, for example, it could be a down-payment on a house or a massive safety net for when I'm out of work (I have a steady job but with seasonal unpaid breaks). it could help Phineas afford expensive repairs for the trailer he now owns, which my dad was supposed to help pay for. in the right account with a decent interest rate, it could be tuition for when Aaron goes to college.

I feel like I Should probably toss some of that money Melody's way, esp since I feel so bad that she's getting the one-two punch of finding out her bf died AND also he had a wife she wasn't aware of. but my brothers and I could really use that money as well. I don't know that Phineas wants to send her any, we're saving that conversation for when we know more of the exact numbers. I don't even know how much Dad was paying towards it, or if he even was anymore. plus--and this is kinda a minor detail--but there's kind of a general vibe I'm getting from the Family (ALL 4 of my dad's siblings AND both his parents are somehow still alive) that Melody is kinda...unliked. they love Patricia and were CONSTANTLY frustrated that he was still visiting Melody and frequently sending her money; I get the feeling they viewed her the same as some of his other gold-digging exes so i think maybe sending her Even More Money would look a little weird? like she's already getting full ownership of a house out of the deal. most of them are in agreement that Phineas and I are the ones who get the final say on the bulk of these decisions but they're...a little pushy anyway.

like I said, we don't know what any of the actual numbers look like AT ALL yet, so it might actually be fine. but WIBTA if we just left her the sole homeowner when she couldn't really afford it, and not send her any money? the consensus will probably show up too late to affect our decision but hey, figured the situation would make for a wild ride anyway (or maybe I just feel like that bc it has been for me LOL).

What are these acronyms?

[hornfreaker]

goddd i have 2. talk abt nhw the hive. relationship dynamics and such. theyre rly important 2 me bc they're all some secret third thing but in different ways ok this is a rant made for me and like maybe 2 people. there r some sex dynamics discussed in here but it's like not detailed so w/e

rand aromantic ace-spec but has no words for his identity (he's fuckin 60 or somethin give him a break) the idea of romance makes him want to crawl into a hole and throw up don't come at him with that shit!!! totally down to do typically romantic perceived stuff (say i love you and kiss and hold hands and cuddle) but never in like. a casual domestic partner way yk. he's not using petnames and if he goes out with one of the others he would rather die than call it a date. using the word boyfriends for his relationships makes him want to die. would definitely call himself ace-spec if he knew about labels!!! he could honestly take or leave sex he doesn't care too much either way but he does enjoy it when it happens. almost never actively initiates it but will be annoying at rolan brat-style on the rare occasion he does want it in hopes that someone will pick up what he's putting down (they do!!!). rand and rolan best friends with benefits (the benefits being occasional sex + rand freeloading off rolan's pension and work benefits + understanding each other on an intrinsic level). kian closest thing rand will ever want or have to a conventional boyfriend. down to do some more romantic-ish things w him sometimes. will put himself in kian's hands and say hey i'm having a bad time can you make me stop thinking and kian will oblige without hesitation. becky RIDE OR DIE!!! freeloader solidarity. kinda chip and jay coded in my beautiful mind. would make fun of each other and push each other over in public in front of god and everyone but could and would kill for each other without a moment's hesitation. nothing about them is romantic/sexual but becky could be there while rand and rolan are makin out. she's chill like that

oouhhh rolan........ bisexual disaster........ realized he liked guys soon after leaving for college. after galloway he got paranoid that somehow being a clone since he was 14 is actually was "turned him gay." he's really normal guys dw <3 got over the being bi thing real fast because he had bigger shit to worry about (being a clone!!! parahumans everywhere!!!! everything sucks!!!) feels Something for rand but it's definitely not romance. doesn't know how to describe it. they're cool with their weird situationship and don't need a label for it. DEFINITELY feels romantic feelings towards kian which is perfect bc kian feels the same. only pairing in the polycule u can possibly simply describe as boyfriends (ofc there's.more to it too but they're fine with calling it that)!! physically affectionate and sometimes go on dates if they feel up for it etc. becky..... she ranked higher than him in the queen's little army or w/e so he's constantly reminding himself he doesn't have to do what becky says and she's constantly forcing herself to drop the automatic commander persona around him and they get better at this over the years. extreme bone deep instinctual understanding between these two. they're not even affectionate as friends and they barely talk at each other in a human way. if u saw them out together you would not even think they were friends they're so distant but in reality they're constantly silently communicating and probably know more about each other than they do about themselves. hivemates who could not function without each other!!

kian. ok well hypersexual and bi first of all so jot that down. kinda knew he was queer from a young age and kept it a secret for a while but just kinda rolled with it after he moved to la. NEEDS physical intimacy or he will die. used to be reallyyyyy weird and hesitant about nonsexual physical affection but then he got a lil bit of it after galloway and now he needs to be clinging to someone like at least 80% of the time. loves all three of the others a lot in a romance way and a friend way and just in a general "i would die for you" way. gets that rand would rather die than be boyfriends and is chill with being partners/friends who have sex sometimes. really normal about rand letting him do some kinky shit with him (famously paranoid guy putting himself in ur hands and trusting u not to break him when all u have ever done ur whole life is fuck things up. he's so normal!!). does less kinky shit with rolan but rolan's also down to try a lot of things if kian's doing it.... kian's really normal about this too (guy you've had a crush on since you were teenagers saying hey i want to kiss you can we be boyfriends can we do that is that weird i wanna do that also i have barely had any sex my whole life can we do that too..... kian really normal about intimacy stone!!!) godddd becky. kian likes to be in control in general when it comes to any kind of intimacy but with becky he's going to put his entire being in her palms and say i love you and i trust you. can you take care of me. he is self destructive and lowkey a masochist and he trusts becky to fulfill that part of him that Wants to be hurt in a safe way

becky my girlllll ok i swear im not projecting but she's some flavour of bi too. to me. probably most definitely more attracted to guys but she could fuck w girls if she wanted. lowkey to me i see her as like. a lil sex repulsed after The EventsTM at the tree in galloway. feels like she can't fucking trust herself even tho after a certain point she had about as much agency in what happened as kian did (which is to say!!! fucking none!!!) anyway ok. rand. ride or die friends. they're so easy. friendships are so much easier for her than anything else. he's just a normal fucking guy who she doesn't fuck with and also isn't a bug clone!! literally just some Guy she can be normal friends with!!! she needs that!!!! god does she needs that!!! and she and rolan are like. idk. two halves of a whole in a lot of ways. function together on the field like a well oiled machine with all their silent communication. out of costume it looks like they don't interact much at all but that's because they're basically in each other's heads and don't rly need to interact in any conventional human way. and with kian she is soooo fucking scared. she is so so scared of hurting him all the time. she's is 100% stone (ha) and does not even get undressed the first time she and kian try having sex after galloway. rarely ever takes her pants off and almost never gets off. handles him like glass for years until like after their argument post lagos behemoth attack when she kinda realizes Damn Yeah i don't. think i could hurt him. not more than what's already been done to him. still carries this complex with her for the rest of her life but now has the ability to beat it back with a stick so she can kiss her stupid boyfriend without feeling like the scum of the earth. damn this got long sorry i had a lot of becky thoughts

[11queensupreme11]

Hi,person from the "sweet fever" question!(I recommend u to do a quick read on the fan manga or see a resume so u can understand what I'm talking abt a bit better lol)

I was referring to a succubus womb tatto which can represent female power or something but can also represents other things depending on type of succubus womb tattoo (like one for cum addiction+other thing, one for slave I think,etc)

But I have another question,this situation would remind me of the Hades and Percy pollen situation, so how the yans react to Hades almost doing with Percy TWICE and in one Percy was high on sex pollen? I mean Hades didn't take her virginity but he was CLOSE☠️

omg wait so if character a got the "cum addiction" womb tattoo, they would be given a cum addiction?? and so forth??? omg 🤭 why didn't i learn of this sooner, now i know what kinda fics to search for tonight hehe

NOW I CAN DO YOUR FIRST REQUEST:

I wonder what would happen if Percy got a curse by that bc Aphrodite is TIRED of waiting for something more to happen so Percy's with an insane libido, fever, the temporary succubus womb tatto, etc. I wonder how yans would react and what would happen lol (Unrelated but I love how everyone uses the question things to talk u to just for the "anonymous" thing, I'm one of said followers😭)

(i found these on twitter btw, so im using these ideas for inspo hehe)

so knowing aphrodite, she would pick a tattoo that SPECIFICALLY suits whatever yan she wants percy to end up with (actually, she'd probably switch it up every day so percy can be with ALL of them lmao, more entertainment for her)

beelzebub: COMMAND/REPROGRAM/TRIGGERED for sure 😭 lowkey, he'd be irked at first because he's already been conditioning her and he doesn't need the help of a stupid mark but eventually he starts to... enjoy it 😏 you know he's gonna order her to do the most lewdest things and video tape it so he can enjoy it in the future. and hey, since the mark's only temporary, he could even use the videos for future blackmail! 🤗

poseidon: LESSER. oh poseidon would LOVE this because finally percy starts to listen to him. he'll tell her that humans are awful and they all deserve to die, and she'll believe him. he'll tell her that it's perfectly okay to love your father, and she'll believe him. he'll tell her that it'd be SUCH a great idea for them to marry and have children and she'd believe him. no more needing to worry about his precious daughter getting corrupted by humanity's morals, she's now all his for the taking, yay!!!!

hades: LIBIDO/SWAY/GAZE. this man is horny for his niece so dont be surprised if he has dirty thoughts about her. imagine the horror percy'll feel when she hears her own uncle's impure thoughts about her?? and the horror she'll feel when she realizes she's actually getting TURNED ON by them??? she'll be so humiliated and confused when she suddenly starts touching herself, but its okay because her dear uncle's there to help her 🥺

apollo: CUMDICTION. aphrodite feels sooo bad that percy barely pays attention to him, so she curses her with a mark that makes her absolutely OBSESSED with him (tho to be more specific, his dick). apollo would be so ecstatic that the love of his life is finally reciprocating his love, that he won't even notice the womb mark when he's fucking her! true love 💖

loki: SUFFER/FORLORN. shocker, right lol 😂 he would totally enjoy this because he gets to do all kinds of sexual torture on her, BUT he's surprisingly also the first one who starts to hate the mark. her reactions aren't genuine, he wants the REAL percy, without this annoying mark! he wants percy to fight back and snap at him with her sassy words, not moan and be forced to submit!!!!

AND AS A BONUS: aphrodite would somehow manage to trick the yans into entering a room and throw percy in there with the pheromone mark! pheromone: any man within 30 meters will become aroused and attracted to her. the closer he is, the stronger it gets, and since these yans are already head over heels for her, the effects would be even STRONGER so rip percy's 🐱

[to-know-how-it-ends]

reposting my outsiders exchange fic for @shyaudacity here bc I'm actually quite proud of it: to know how it starts, aka the how Johnny and Dally met fic -- a short story

you can read it on ao3 -- here! https://archiveofourown.org/works/63142117

It was only 3 AM, so at least he wasn’t kicked out in broad daylight this time. The boy guessed he shoulda been a little grateful this time, but his back ached, his face was smarting from a growing purple bruise, and all he wanted was air. His father had pushed him out with the usual “and don’t come back!”

He didn’t know where he was heading. He’d grown real tired of seeing the looks of pity and pain on his friends’ faces when he asked to stay the night. Dumb as it felt, he didn’t want it. He heard his sneakers scraping the sidewalk as he let his feet carry him who knows where, his mother’s yell echoing in his mind and his back stinging from a deep cut that would surely scar.

And don’t come back!

It was all talk, of course. He knew what’d happen if he left too long. His dad liked to pretend he was a good father some of the time, and some of the time, the boy believed it. But it never lasted long. And there was his momma to worry about too, even if she had been doing most of the yelling this time. The rabid look in his father’s eyes, ‘specially when he was all soused, scared him enough that he didn’t want to go too far. Scary as his momma was, not having one was scarier.

Flicking his jacket collar up from the cold and out of habit, he shifted to the inside of the sidewalk so the streetlight wouldn’t catch him. Even at this hour, you gotta be a little smart. He figured after half a day or so it’d be safe enough to go back home, so he’d made his plan to walk around the neighborhood till he tired himself out (a vague plan. he had no idea where he was going, but it wasn’t gonna be the curtises or two-bit’s or back there. not this time. he hated seeing the look of pain on darry’s face as his dad gave johnny a blanket and a bed, telling him he could stay as long as he wanted. he hated how comfortable the couch at two-bit’s felt and hearing two-bit’s momma murmur to her son, “poor kid.” mostly he hated that that face or voice wasn’t coming from his own folks, though he’d never say so).

His eyes trained on the sidewalk in front of him, head down so as not to attract attention, he picked up his pace. A siren sounded in the distance. Maybe he’d head out to the lot, wait out the night there. He had his lighter on him — wouldn’t keep him too warm but it might do a little, maybe i–

“Watch where you’re goin’, kid.”

The boy slammed into something hard, dizzying for a moment, till he got his bearings. Shit. Someone. Not some Soc, please. Not today. He didn’t need this today, please, not today.

“Sor–sorry, my bad,” he hastily muttered, backing slightly away, and making accidental eye contact with another kid who couldn’t of been more than 14 but was real tall, lean, and intimidating, like he had seen things he shouldn’t have seen — not exactly the kinda guy he wanted to run into on a night like this, but not a Soc, neither.

“S’fine,” the other kid said, eyes narrowed, almost instinctively looking away. “Just watch out. There’s a cop who just lost his–– holy shit, you look like hell.”

“You look like hell,” the boy retorted, feeling uncomfortable already. Who even was this guy? People walked around with worse on their face. And this guy looked like he’d been punched in the eye at least five times, so he wasn’t exactly one to talk.

“What the hell run you over?”

“What the hell makes you think you get my business straight?” Looking back, the boy is pretty proud of that one, but then he was genuinely irritated, and regretful he even spoke up. Didn’t even know he had it in him.

The other kid huffed a humorless laugh, cocking his head the way Two-Bit liked to. “Fair enough, kid.” He straightened his jacket, checking his watch and standing under the lamplight, body steady, eyes darting every which where, calculating. He didn’t look nervous, not exactly, just like he was waiting for something to happen.

“Hey, though — you shouldn’t be out here now,” the other kid said, abrupt, his tone firm and even and still.

“And you should be?” (he didn’t even know why he didn’t keep walking. why he kept talking to this weird ass kid. he could’ve kept moving, but he didn’t. don’t ask why, he don’t know why)

“Goddamn cop’s after me,” the other kid admitted, cool as a cucumber. It made the boy’s stomach twist, how calm he was about it.

“What’d you do?” the boy couldn’t help but ask. It was irresistible and he didn’t know why but he had someone talking to him like he wasn’t some kid who got thrown out for the umpteenth time and you know what, it wasn’t so bad.

“Believe it or not, nothing this time,” the other kid laughed bitterly. “Walked outta the gas station with a pack of Kools I bought with cash, owner told the cops I’s stealin’ anyway. You know how it is. Anytime them cops see somebody big and mean and what looks like you and I do… well, you know.”

He did. “Then ain’t you gotta run?”

The other kid laughed again. “I don’t care none. I been to jail before, first time when I was ten,” the kid boasts. “Ain’t nothing on me. Be good to build up my record down here. ‘Sides, and no offense, brother, but you look like you need to run a lot more’n I do.”

“I’m fine.”

“And I’m the queen a’ England. What he do to you?”

“He uh – wait, why am I – he–”

“Drunk? Hit you?” the kid looks a little closer. “Your momma too?”

“How do you—”

“I know, man. I’m sorry.”

“Oh.”

It was quiet, like that, in the lamplight, and it was like they could stand there for a while without saying nothing else. Two beat up kids who weren’t looking for no sympathy, just someone to stand in the lamplight with.

That is, till the sirens came on again, their lights flashing in the distance.

“Shit. I gotta run.”

“Oh – bye, um— bye.”

“Wait, no, dude—” The other kid shuts his eyes tight, then shakes his head, havin' some sort of conversation with himself for a minute. “Come with me, quick.”

“Come with you?”

“You think it matters to them if it’s you or me they nab?”

“I–” But the kid is already dodging into an alleyway.

“You coming, brother?”

“The boy looks at the lights flashing, approaching, and the sirens threatening to bust a hole in his ears and makes a split-second calculation (he never could figure math right) before jumping right into the alleyway with the other kid.

“Good choice, kid.”

“Hey, don’t call me that, you ain’t much older’n me.”

“Okay.”

They pause for a while, then keep walking. “What’s your name, man?” the kid asks.

“Johnny.”

“Dally.”

And that, the boy supposed, was how it starts.

[blush-and-books]

omg can you give me the lowdown on what’s going on in obx4 lol i stopped watching after s2 but i neeed know what’s going on with pope? i heard they killed jj off but what about pope and kiara!! what are they up to??

Oh god okay. So.

OBX4 SPOILERS BELOW THE CUT

Kiara is pretty normal actually nothing happens to her/her family besides the fact that JJ dies. At the beginning of the season, the kids have bought back JJ's home and built their own business and home on it, and Kiara's parents basically turn her away from any kind of support or shelter. Like their daughter comes back from a deadly adventure and they're like we love you but we can't do this right now. In the second half of the season, the city is rezoning property and planning to tear down the pogues' self made home, and Kiara's parents come to a town hall meeting to support her, which feels weird given that they borderline disowned her. Her dad also pushes a cop into the water to keep the cop from shooting and hurting JJ, which also feels weird since her father literally hates JJ, but it is a nice gesture of goodwill and trying to help Kiara. That is, deadass, all that really happens to her, and tbh I need her to have more plot for fucks sake. Cleo even got more plot this season - they bring back Terrance, who was like her surrogate father, and they kill him off too, which gives her a vengeance/emotional motivation plot. Kiara doesn't ever feel like she gets much. Idk. Madison Bailey I love you so much we need to give you more

Pope.... Christ. Okay. First of all I fucking love Pope more than anything, like he might be my favorite pogue. After the town hall meeting regarding rezoning the property and taking the pogues' home away from them, JJ incites a riot (to Starburster by Fontaines DC, so it's a pretty dope start to a riot, but anyways) and they chase him down to a real estate office where the cops surround the property and literally are about to storm the building and shoot him because he went through town shattering storefronts and cars and starting fires. To keep JJ from getting shot, Pope tackles one of the cops, and gets ARRESTED for aggravated assault of a law enforcement officer. His dad is obviously fucking pissed, and the court tells Pope to stay away from his friends. He sneaks time in with Cleo, but basically his dad is like "Cleo will be fine she's tough, you need to stay away from everyone" and they make a deal to have Pope join the mfing MARINES. Because that's the only way to fix him I guess. And then when he's about to ENLIST (I'm sorry this plotline was just so wacky to me), he excuses himself to go to the bathroom and makes a run for it, therefore catching up with the others in whatever plotline they were doing.

Tbh idk what I take more issue with in popes plotline, bc I just didn't like any of what I summarized to you. I know it kinda mirrors s1 when Pope sunk Toppers family boat and JJ went away for him, but idk. It just felt repetitive. And while this is all happening, when we see the other Pogues in their section of the plot, they're never like "wait how is Pope?? He's in jail?? He's on house arrest and hasn't contacted any of us, shouldn't we be worried??" like they have no updates until Cleo is like "lmao he's enlisting in the Marines!!" and they're just like "aww. damn." like they don't do shit about it lol.

However Pope and Cleo are SO CUTE and I love them so much, when they're in Morocco, Cleo gets hurt and she wants to kill the man that killed Terrance but is too injured to do so so Pope does it for her, and idk that's a HUGE act imo, like morally but also just in terms of how much he cares about her and wants to honor her values.

Also you didn't ask but Sarah is pregnant lmao and after revealing her pregnancy they have her fall off a boat in a storm and her and JJ are deadass lost at sea for an entire day, maybe longer. They also don't eat much, I think she has a single apple in like a 48 hr span. They're all dehydrated. So good luck to that baby but like they really should have thought that plotline thru more 😭😭

[fireemblems24]

Scarlet Blaze Ch 13

Someone should've renamed this "backtracking, the plot."

MAIN STORY

I'm actually excited for this chapter because Ferdinand is the most interesting part of it.

Ok, so TWSITD didn't want to avoid unification (which I'm sure they either want or don't care about), but only caused the ruckus to try and take the Empire over.

She's . . . pink. Why is she pink? (some random Empire general)

Is it wrong to see Ferdinand's looks in the future when I see Aegir? Seems like baldness runs in the family. As long as he avoids that mustache . . .

Can someone remind me, did Edelgard not arrest Aegir or not kill him? Or did he run away.

Aegir kinda twisted. Insisting Ferdinand kills him. That's fucked up.

Oh, kk, he escaped. (Aegir)

This is like a giant teaser of what SB could've been if it stuck to Empire and TWSITD stuff and wasn't "Edelgard backtracks: the conquest 2.0 - the boring as fuck version).

MAP/SIDE BATTLES

Can Edelgard just once have a plan for her government before invading all the other nations and getting a lot of innocent people killed (Dorothea said she's still working out what to replace nobles with)

Hunh, I'm impressed. Not going to lie, but Balthus wasn't making a great impression on me, but he's worried that a man he owes a debt too will fall in battle while fighting alongside the enemy. He actually wants to pay the man back and not this get out of jail free card. I like that.

Ashe asked Shez for help restoring Hrym territory. Ashe wants them to have their lives back. I was a dick and said no though bc I could and found that funny.

Fort Mercius has a convenient sneaky point, bc of course it does. Otherwise we'd have to siege warfare which was boring as fuck in real life.

Of course, only Dorothea cares about the hostages. Ferdinand will magically not let it happen. How? Who knows.

SHEZ & MONICA A

Ugh.

Monica keeps track of how many times Edelgard drinks tea, what she eats, when she eats, all her sighs, etc . . .

She needs a restraining order.

Edelgard did the world a favor when she let TWSITD kill Monica.

SHEZ & DOROTHEA B

Nobles gave Shez a tea party after he helped them out, and he doesn't know what to make of it and can't tell if he likes it.

Dorothea ties that to arguing that commoners should get to enjoy all of life's goods. Shez can counterpoint that they don't miss it if they don't know what they're missing.

Dorothea then talks about her love of singing and laments that only rich people get to hear her sing.

This is actually kind of interesting (if it goes there, but I doubt it). Dorothea wants the commoners to enjoy everything the rich get, yet benefits from an organization that raises the prices so high only the rich gets to enjoy her voice. Dorothea could just as easily go sing in taverns or more accessible places, but she doesn't. And because she doesn't she got wealthy and well connected. So she's actively choosing to participate in and benefit from the system that gatekeeps poor people from enjoying things. I don't hate the player, but it will be cool to see if she has some level of self-awareness about this.

SHEZ & EDELGARD A

They talk about how Shez having the same powers as TWSITD helps him identify TWSITD better than anyone else.

Edelgard credits this with her ability to get rid of them in SB (obviously contrasting to Byleth and CF)

So Edelgard had 2 choices: she could either focus on getting rid of TWSITD and sparing her citizens from their cruelty or start a war and choose the later, lamo. Like, imagine looking at your country and seeing that it's corrupted by an insane death cult running experiments on your own citizens and think "yeah, this is solid foundation to rely on for rebuilding a new world and rule over all the other countries." It's so idiotic. TWSITD really hurts Edelgard's writing and this game really exposes that. Which is funny since they likely got invented to shift blame away from her lol.

Shez says he joined Edelgard because the Empire was rich and she complimented him, unlike other nobles (but pretty sure EVERYONE complimented him because self-insert). So the game's got nothing.

SHEZ & HUBERT A

So many Shez supports back-to-back

Hubert scares/surprises Shez, then questions him about TWSITD.

Hubert's upset that they didn't reach out to Shez as an ally, and I can get mad at his mistrust. Def picking that one.

Hubert owns it at least.

He tries to complement Shez, but I'm able to not believe him, so I don't.

Hubert can sense Arval and is concerned about it. Shez doesn't trust Hubert about Arval.

Does that mean Hubert senses Sothis? Or is this a plot-hole? Or can he only sense TWSITD?

SHEZ & CONSTANCE C

Constance is talking his ear off about restoring House Nuvelle by discovering more magic. And Shez is the test subject of her research lol.

Shez refuses and Constance can't comprehend.

Shez suggests she try to establish herself in battle instead. But Constance turns that down.

I think it's because of her night-day thing. Also, I may have seen this support before? I'm not sure.

MERCEDES & LYSITHEA C

Funny, you can only get this support in SB and neither are Black Eagles.

"I'm not a child!!!" vs mothering everyone

Lysithea trained so hard she collapsed and Mercedes took care of her. Lysithea is horrified to learn that she slept too long.

Mercie backed her cookies, because of course she did. And sweets are Lysithea's secret weakness so . . .

Lysithea assumes Mercie has bad intentions. Why is she always so insufferable?

Mercie's cookies are good. Lysithea acts like a complete brat, demanding Mercie train her right now how to make the cookies.

PETRA & CASPAR A

Ok, this one should be better. I love Mercie, but that support had 0 new things in it.

Petra challenges Caspar's father to a duel. Yeah, way more intense than the first one.

And . . . the asshole won't even show up. Or, I guess Caspar stole is before his dad saw it. Petra's pissed. Rightfully so.

Caspar also assumes Petra would just lose. What an ass.

So Petra says she'll just kill Caspar instead.

She takes him down, but won't strike the killing blow.

Petra's upset she lost control of her emotions.

Petra decides to pull back because she's a queen (in secret) and she can't act on her personal feelings.

She doesn't fully understand why she challenged his father to a duel.

Caspar volunteers to let Petra dump her negative emotions about this on Caspar. Petra's not sure she wants a friendship like that, but says she'll give it thought.

I did like that support, but I wish she was allowed to call out the Empire more.

SHEZ & JERITZA A

Jeritza is hunting a cat that raided the pantry because she was injured.

Last time they talked, Shez assumed Jeritza was talking about a person, not a cat.

Jeritza likes cats because he used to have one. And now he wants to own this one. But she dislikes Jeritza.

HUBERT & BERNADETTA C

Bummed this is their only support. They were cute together in House.

Bernadetta is moving boxes of documents around. They're about bandit activity in the area. Hubert's investigating.

He's annoyed at the army's inability to catch them. Bernadetta assumes he's angry with her, but calms down.

Funniest line is Hubert telling her that her persistence often leads to exactly what she's trying to avoid lol. His VA is so good.

Hubert calls them rats. Like Dimitri did lamo.

Hubert is upset they may go back into hiding. Bernadetta sympathizes with the bandits lol.

It inspires Hubert to set something up that would make them come out.

HUBERT & LYSITHEA A

Isn't this the support chain that told us the Imperial army won't eat their veggies? lamo

Lysithea is enjoying sweets. Hubert offers her coffee. She turns it down because it's not sweet. Hubert baits her into drinking it by implying that drinking coffee means you're not a child.

She doesn't like drinking it black, but Hubert tells her that sweeten it up and she may like it.

Lysithea asks Hubert why he's nice to her since he's mean to everyone else. It's because he has a younger sister that Lysithea reminds him of.

Did he have one in Houses? Or did they just pop up when convenient like Edelgard's siblings?

Hubert doesn't tell anyone about the siblings. I wonder if Edelgard knows.

Because he sees her like a little sister, Lysithea accepts it.

MERCEDES & CASPAR C

Hope this goes like - Murder isn't funny, Caspar. It isn't? No. Because he's awful in this route.

No, he's just asking Mercedes about Jeritza because he keeps defeating Caspar in bouts.

So Caspar still being painfully one-note and boring.

Mercedes says he can beat Jeritza with baking. Caspar is confused. Until Mercedes clarifies that Jeritza sucks at baking, so Caspar can beat him at baking.

Caspar's upset bc that doesn't matter to him.

LINHARDT & CONSTANCE A

Linhardt has to ask her a question, but she's in the sunlight. He wants to experiments on crests. Constance is fine with it.

Until she's inside. Then she's upset.

Linhardt is taking advantage of her dual personality, avoiding confident Constance because she's difficult to work with.

Kinda skeevy, Linhardt.

Constance demands more equality. If she helps Linhardt with his research, then he must help with hers.

He's actually interested until he learns she wants to find ways for eyes to emit a golden light, and loses interest.

FERDINAND & LYSITHEA A

Ferdinand is worried about Lysithea's future, specifically throwing away her nobility.

He tried to understand her thought process. She's irritated with him. Honestly, same, I think that may be my issue with Ferdinand. I find him irritating.

Ferdinand uncovered Lysithea's secret. She's understandably upset and wants him to leave it be.

Ferdinand wants a solution, Lysithea's like do you think I haven't tried? And do-do bird is like "take action!" Like, this seems like things not to tell someone terminally ill 101.

Though, he brings up magical research. So this may be different.

He found the research on her and they could use that as a way to solve her problem.

She wants to help.

DOROTHEA & MONICA A

Dorothea is wounded, and Monica is worried that Dorothea will get scars to damage her skin.

Creepy moment when Dorothea asks Monica how she knows she has scars. So does this confirm that Monica peeps on people?

Dorothea hesitates to kill a child in battle.

So Dorothea cannonly killed children. I wonder how every Edel-stan who used that to smear Dimitri feels, lamo.

I wish Dimitri and Dorothea got a support. Both hate killing, but keep doing it anyways.

Monica asks why Dorothea keeps killing people. Dorothea feels too tied to her position to go back.

Dorothea admits she could've been that child in another life. So she has no right to run away and hide when the children the Empire is slaughtering don't have that option.

I know some people take issue with this side to Dorothea, but this is what makes me love her. She's the only one who realizes the brutality her side is forcing on other people, she just believes in the cause enough to keep doing it. That conflict makes her so interesting, and if Edelgad had a more justified cause or well-written government plan, Dorothea may have been in competition for my fav, but man does Edelgard's flimsy reasoning for war and bare-bones ideas make this conflict flat-line a bit.

Then they spend the rest of the support simiping for Edelgard. So, Monica's entire personality. That was interesting for like 3 seconds. So a new record for a Monica support.

PETRA & RAPHAEL B

You know it's bad when I fully expect Raphael to have deeper thoughts than Monica.

Raphael fails to hunt. Petra isn't surprised.

Raphael thinks being a bear will help him hunt rabbits, and is shocked when she tells him bears don't hunt.

Petra says Brigid people hunt with subtleness. But Fodlan people use hounds for hunting, which might suit Raphael better.

Raphael now thinks being a wolf will help him hunt instead of bear. So, yeah, deeper thoughts than Monica is capable of.

MAIN BATTLE

Time to kill the rebels.

Try to make sure hostages don't die.

Monica and Hubert have a fight over who gets to suck on Edelgard's toes after the battle (not literally, but might as well). The only non-grating part of it was Monica calling Hubert a coffin-dweller. Which, I mean, accurate.

Shez is the only one that remembers poor Ferdinand's going to kill his dad, lol. Ferdinand says he's ready though.

Oh, cut scene. Ferdinand and Hubert teaming up on Aegir. Hubert "let's" Ferdinand give the final blow.

So Ferdinand kills his bad. This game likes people killing their families. And I bet Aegir's death will get more sympathy than the actually innocent people Edelgard and co mow down every chapter.

Ferdinand needs a moment.

Edelgard is like, could you choose how to punish the traitors and choose the next Duke. Shockingly, the title goes to his son. So much for merit-based promotions, lamo.

So do we go back to beating up poor people in Faerghus now?

Caspar's like, fighting traitors serving a death cults sucks because they're from the Empire. Let's go kill the innocent people in the Kingdom instead! Because that's fun!

Edelgard still suspects Shez. The vibes for Shez are so different in Faerghus. No one gives a shit about Shez in SB.

Oh, yeah, I forgot I didn't get Byleth in this route, lamo.

Arval feels like a proud parent of Shez, lamo.

xxx

[the-hanged-mans-ghost]

I'm looking for advice/wanna ask something, if anyone has the energy to respond. I want to start this off by saying I'm by no means a 'new' system, I've had dissociative issues and various alters for years, but I was in heavy denial for a long time, and I've only just recently started accepting what I'm a part of. That being said I don't know much about the terminology/how to talk about being a system as I haven't ever really looked into that portion much until recently for obvious reasons. With that in mind, I apologize if I say anything that is incorrect/sounds dumb or if I use an incorrect term.

I've had semi-unreliable communication in general with different alters/fictives in the past; usually there's *some* level of 'communication' even if it's just in the form of emotions/feelings/brief vague thoughts that aren't 'mine', but with specific alters it's been different, there's been better communication/easier communication, etc, and at first this fictive was one of them. I could get responses semi sort of regularly if things were important(it wasn't as dicey as it's been with other alters in the past basically).

This is where a few trigger warnings and context come in ig, TW for mention of animal death, grieving, depression, etc.

So for context at the beginning of December, our dog started acting really sick out of nowhere. This was on top of my depression already acting up because it's winter/I'm broke/I don't socialize enough/I'm having issues with my weight/body appearance, etc. We spend the first 3 days of December, right before my birthday(literally 3 days before) bringing our dog to the vet back and forth, spending literal thousands to give her the medications she needed to maybe have a tiny chance of making it through. She fought her way this long we figured we'd give her the chance to recover instead of putting her down. At the vet during her blood transfusions I had one of the worst episodes/feelings I've ever had related to stress/dissociation. Nothing felt real, I was sick to my stomach, I was swaying so bad I nearly fell when I stood, my head was spinning and I felt like I was going to pass out and throw up simultaneously. I was so out of it my mom (ex nurse) checked my pulse bc she thought I was having another heart episode(I wasn't). The weird thing was I couldn't hear anyone in my head. Usually when I'm really stressed I can hear someone kinda muffled( Usually more emotions/fleeting thoughts kinda communication than actual talking, but usually there's something). I couldn't hear or feel anything from anyone.

Honeybee passed the third night we brought her home, in my mothers arms while my partner and I were downstairs. We went upstairs and said our goodbye's and everyone but me cried. I had this mental barrier of 'I have to be strong' and 'I can't let them see me break down, I have to be there for everyone' on such a strong degree I just stood there and stared. I felt sick and spacey, but I didn't cry, and I felt alone.

It's been a month now and I haven't really heard anything from the headmates I had somewhat ok-ish 'communication' with, and idk, I just.. I don't know what happened? I've been through these things before, but this felt like it hit so much harder, and then followed up by the 'radio silence' so to speak I feel really off about it, and I guess I just wanted to know if anyone's ever experienced something similar? And how they worked through it? I already go to therapy, but my dr isn't a specialist in dissociative disorders by any means, but I could probably talk to her about it, but I'm not sure how much that would do. I mainly just wanted to see if anyone else has a shared experience, or something similar, and if there was a way I could maybe like.. reach out or something? idk, I just worry about them in a way? I saw a post talking about how you're still a valid system even is *list of x things here* and one was along the lines of 'even if you're not communicating well right now' or something and it hit something deep inside me I didn't think it would and I started bawling so??? Idk, any positive advice/opinions would be greatly appreciated..

[manofmanymons]

(Possible spoilers!!) Have you ever thought about how maybe one of the reasons why Kaito gets so upset whenever someone claims to "know" what Miu wants/likes is because that's probably what her stalker did? Claim to know her better than herself/her family?

I think about these siblings and their past a lot lol. I'm so curious how their personalities and their relationship must've been like before the incident. Hope you have a good day!

Yes! It seemed like that guy made a lot of claims about what Miu wanted and how she felt that weren't true but that their parents believed anyway. Seeing as Kaito is generally the one who's more hung up on what happened back then (namely that he didn't notice sooner and stop it), it makes sense that that would be why he overreacts to anything that even slightly reminds him of it. If the last time someone tried to tell him they know what she wants, they were trying to manipulate him into letting them hurt her, he wouldn't exactly be keen on letting anyone else get away with it, even if their intentions are innocent.

On that note, hot take but I think that whole situation is also the reason he gets Weird™️about Takuma asking about what he loves about Miu. Cuz understandably I feel like most people's initial reaction to him saying he's not into his sister seemingly unprovoked is "hey what the fuck?" But like,,,in the context of everything they've been through, I can see how being asked if there's some reason he cares about her so much would read like an accusation to him. Like he was being compared to that guy. I mean, it kinda was a weird question to begin with--why would he need a reason to care about his sister?

Slightly unrelated tangent but I personally always found it weird that the other characters acted like it was weird that he worried about her so much. Like bro that's his baby sister. She's 2 apples tall. Even without the tragic backstory any half-decent brother would be worried alkkfdjak.

Anyways on the note of what they were like in the Before Times, just the other day I was telling one of my friends about how much I love MarineAngemon as a partner for Miu. Bc thinking about how...oh hell I haven't played this game in a MINUTE, I think it was the fake Syakomon(?) that accused her of pretending to like things she hates and hate things she likes + how she loved how cute the amusement park mons were + the way Kaito talks about her I feel like he's not actually being totally delulu about how cute she is. I feel like she probably did act a lot more cutesy but stopped because of Certain Life Events. So having her mega be something very small and very cute but still very strong is Neat, I think. Like she got a piece of her real self back and isn't so afraid of it anymore.

I'm also pretty positive that Kaito's always been a doting loser alfdkja. Like,,,his response to Minoru being worried about him letting Miu boss him around was just "hey how long do you think I've been doing this big brother thing for" lmao. Literally 0 backbone on that boy. As long as it isn't dangerous, Miu gets whatever Miu wants ToT And Miu saying he used to always pat her head wtf why are they so cute.

ALSO I NOTICED THEY BOTH REFER TO TAKING DOWN THE MASTER AS GOING AFTER THE "FINAL BOSS" SO YOU CANNOT TELL ME THEY DIDN'T PLAY A LOT OF VIDEO GAMES TOGETHER. NERDS WHO BOTH USE VIDEO GAME TERMINOLOGY IRL I LOVE THEM.

Anyways thanks for giving me an excuse to talk about Miu and Kaito again, I miss them dearly every day of my life and think about them constantly.

[bongwooder]

idk I guess I could make an official post about it since I've been basically regressing to 12 year old me anyways and she LOVED to overshare on this godforsaken website

click more for ramblings if ur curious! definitely interested in hearing others perspectives since I am very socially isolated rn compared to most people I guess

ever since my ADHD diagnosis and possible autism diagnosis I've just been thinking a LOT about my life including my gender and sexuality. like, ever since my parent's divorce in 2022 I've been unravelling a lot of trauma I didn't even know I had, including how my roommate has helped me realize truly how emotionally neglected I was a child. it is NOT normal for a child to be online essentially 24/7 from ages 8-18. I think I really did some serious damage because my parents were too fucked to bother to check on me and make sure I like... went outside. had friends. showered. basic hygiene etc etc etc and of course I didn't know any better because uuuhhh children need to be TAUGHT things not just yelled at to do it or made fun of for their unknown disability. and I've been going through points of time where I'm MAD. like, PISSED. that my parents let me do that to myself. a little insecure neurodivergent girl searching, yearning, begging for ANYTHING to explain her inability to cope with reality and sensory overload, to socialize and make friends at school, to feel like her life had meaning and that what was not known at the time to be symptoms of her disability weren't just personal failures

so, of course, I feel like the moment I realized I may have a group that would actually accept me as I was, I latched onto it. and that was my beginning identifying as transgender. I've said this before to irl friends, but my thoughts at the time were "well I'm a completely well adjusted intelligent person [child], but I can't seem to get along with my female peers, so I must be a male actually!" but then like... idk why I always failed to realize the boys didn't like me either?? so it's not "girls don't like me because I'm too masculine and boys don't like me because I'm too feminine" it was actually just "no one likes me because I'm autistic"

and it's strange because I feel like the physical dysphoria felt VERY real, hating my chest and my genitals, but also like... I went through puberty kinda early and also bc I was fat I "had" to wear a bra VERY early. so I think I was resenting the sexualization of my body and coping with the fact that boys paid me 0 mind in any sort of dating context when that became relevant. So I think my dysphoria was actually more like dysmorphia?

and I think I only ever "hated pink and girly things" because I so desperately wanted attention from ANYONE, for SOMEONE to ask me what's wrong or why I thought that way, for someone to tell me it's okay to be a girl even though I'm fat and autistic. and it just never happened. and I grieve for that little girl who never felt like she could express herself in fear of what people would think bc she truly had no positive adult figures in her life. and I can't help but feel deep anger for the teachers around me who didn't realize just how deep the damage was, or if they did and told my parents and THEY chose to do nothing, I feel deep anger with them.

I thought maybe if I could just be a boy I didn't have to worry that much about being attractive to boys or being skinny or being pretty. then I could just be myself! and I think that did serve a purpose for its time.

I don't regret identifying as trans or any social transitioning I have already done. I love being Ollie, although I do wonder if another name may suit me better in these times. I know I'll always have an unconventional self expression but I just wonder what it would be like to be an independent adult woman because I've never been that, and I've never had adult women friends that have reached a level of platonic intimacy with me where I can discuss this and explore it with someone who has always lived as a woman! i yearn to decorate my body and dress myself in ways that reveal the the body I am proud to have carry me day by day no matter how large. I yearn to sink into softness and receive love, I don't want to fight for reciprocation. I don't want to be codependent but I just want to feel taken care of for once in my life instead of feeling like I'm crawling and clawing my way through life not knowing where the hell I'm going. I don't even know what womanhood/femininity MEANS but I want to try it! I think I'd enjoy it! do I have permission to try it? am I allowed to enjoy it? I hate that I need to be "brave" and "resilient" just to exist in my fucking body and brain. I resent the poisoned masses for resenting me but I know I know kindness and i know I am beautiful and I know I can provide happiness for others, I'm just also ready to be provided for too from a woman just as strong and beautiful and intelligent and kind and funny

I think I skated my point a little bit but even after saying all this, I don't know if I'll ever feel "cis." i think my life played out how it needed to for me to get here and now. my biggest fear is "coming out as cis" and having everyone who ever doubted my transness or invalidated me (including my own family) tell me "I told you it was a phase" because YEAH, MAYBE IT WAS. but at least I've been actively trying to listen to my body and brain to build the life I think will make me happiest in the context of my consciousness. and I just want to surround myself with people who trust me and know I'm smart and know this is something I think about deeply before projecting

all this to say I have a lot of work to do, and I'm excited to do it, cis or trans

[bellysoupset]

i’ve been acting delulu about the whole wen+vin fight that we all knew was coming up, kinda like completely ignoring it was a thing and all your warnings bc im #notemotionallystrong and i liked pretending it wasn’t gonna happen to cope <3333 BUT AHHHHH after this last fic IM LITERALLY FULL ON SOBBING (IN PUBLIC) WHAT THE FUCKKKK SOUP😭😭😭 you’re so mean (lovingly) 😩 FR IM SO SAD I LOVE MY BABIES SO MUCH THIS IS AWFUL BUT ALSO THE FIGHT WAS SO WELL WRITTEN😭 AND LIKE SO UPSETTING AND UNCOMFY BC OF HOW REAL IT FELT idk how to explain it but it’s like hearing my parents (aka my best friends who’ve been together forever LOL) fight LMAO sobbing 😩😩😩 and also OMG I AUDIBLY GASPED AND HAD TO LOOK AWAY WHEN I READ THE PHONE NOTIFICATIONS THING AND REALISED IT WAS LEO’S TEXT like if there was a terrible way to find out it was THIS 😭😭😭😭😭 BABY GIRL THINKING EVERYONE HAS KNOWN FOR MONTHS???? AND THEN VIN SO DESPERATELY TRYING TO EXPLAIN HIMSELF???? AND JUST TALK??? (a lil too late tho buddy but also I GET IT GOSHHHH) AND THEN BOTH SOBBING GODDDD I CANT I CANT this is so devastating amazing job boo‼️

OMG AND ALSO THE OTHER FICS? i hadn’t commented on them bc i was waiting for this one to react to everything but GODDAMN????? LUKE POOR BUB all feverish spilling everything??? and their reactions🥺🥺🥺🥺 (also side note jon so worried about luke was beautiful and i enjoyed it very much🤭) and OMG leo’s guilt about not noticing the depression symptoms 😩 and the whole thing w bella and kit GOSH I WANT TO PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE HES SUCH AN ASSHOLE‼️

BUT ANYWAYS GOING BACK TO MY BABIES RAAAAAHHHHH I NEED WEN AND VIN TO BE OKAY omfg IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR THIS😭😭 you’re so good at writing angst tho like goddamn i’m still crying and will probably continue to cry about this 😩😭 they need to be okay 🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️ also i know you said you were nervous about luke and wen’s storyline and im SO CURIOUS and excited to read‼️ im sure whatever you choose to do with them is gonna be amazing and you know we all have a beautiful love/hate relationship w angst so i have a feeling we’re gonna eat it up!! (which we will do regardless bc your writing and storytelling is always wonderful!!!)

sending a snotty sobby virtual hug to all my babies and a strong virtual punch to kit <33333

🦦

ANSWERING THIS SO LATE THAT VIN/WENDY ARE BACK TOGETHER I'M SORRYYYY

I'm actually cackling at you acting delulu because I remember I dropped many MANY hints of the Wendy/Vince break up and you were in my inbox completely ignoring them and me thinking "damn, am i being too subtle???"

Its so funny (and terrible) to be answering this late, because I can totally say the things I was nervous about. So ORIGINALLY Vin/Wendy didnt get back together, they actually broke it off for good and Wendy feeling very isolated from her friend group relapsed in her eating disorder.

But then Wendy kinda girl bossed her way into getting back with Vince, which was not planned, AND opened up to Bella, that was also not planned at all. So I scrapped that storyline! I still want to do something with her E.D, I remember I got an ask ages ago that was something like "Wendy refuses to eat because she's feeling queasy, Vince thinks she relapsed and tries to push her, only to have it come back up and he realizes she's actually sick", so I'll probably write that! A more mild version of what I originally had in mind!

And I'm SORRY i'm a terrible person but I'm sooo proud of myself for making you cry in public. I need a blog badge just for that #angster

Love you 🦦!

[cookies-over-yonder]

cookies you've given me too much power by giving me any kind of opening to talk about Glenns gender . let me just say you've brought this upon yourself .

gonna word salad in your ask box about Glenn close <3 also just realized you haven't seen the post I made a bit ago about Glenn being transmasc and amab so I can go over that shit again >:] OK ! so !! in my silly little headcannon , Glenn is amab , but also spends every second of his gay little life fucking with gender . I think in like . his late teens-20s he went by she/her and she was super feminine and she absolutely loved every second of it . I don't think she got any surgeries , but she definitely went on estrogen and I think she probably stays on it even after "detransitioning" . but I think then probably in her later 20s/early 30s she realized she was more of a gnc guy than a girl at that point . so in my oh so humble opinion , bringing my beloved wife Morgan into this , Morgan is a lesbian , please and thank you , no I am not taking further questions (I absolutely am please send me Morgan questions I'm begging you) anyways , so personally I think Glenn was probably fem the entire time her and Morgan were together , i also have many thoughts about Morgan's gender , but were not talking abt her rn <3 anyways ! Glenn ! so methinks that around the time when Nick was born glenn was starting to lean more into the nonbinary side , probably using she/they while Nick was like . 1-4 ish ? and then after that it was they/them for a few years and then after Morgan's death they kinda just ... gave up and decided they didn't need to be bothering so much with gender , he needed to be a good father to his kid . one thing about me is I love thinking about Glenn close , the og repressive guy <3 I think after Morgan's death Glenn didn't really notice all the small joys he dropped because of that . he tried to swipe it all under the rug of just things that happen and obviously it has nothing to do with his spouse's death no-siree :D anyways , after Morgan's death Glenn didnt really let themself find joy in many things . he decided he needed to start becoming at least a little bit more of a "normal parent" . he stopped being comfortable expressing the more feminine parts of themself and it absolutely did not help her through morgans death . methinks Morgan was a lot of the reason Glenn was comfortable experimenting with their gender , and now that she's gone , their feminity just reminds him of her , and as Glenn does , she immediately tries to distance himself as far as possible instead of actually dealing with things <3 I do still think glenn stayed on estrogen bcs they were afraid of change (or at least that's what she tells herself) , and also keeps his hair long . bcs of the rocker vibes (no it's bcs of the transgender spotlight aimed at her constantly) but doesn't really allow themself to dress super feminine , cause they're a dude . honestly . for real . 100% a guy . no girl here . but also . sometimes someone will just see them from the back and ask "ma'am?" and Glenn feels her heart skip a beat bcs *yeah that's me I'm maam* but then instinctively stamps it down with a "nah, but dont worry about it , its chill" i think it probably takes glenn a really long time to be comfortable honestly expressing themself again , but I think eventually she does . it's probably when he gets back with Morgan tho , seeing her again and even before they actually get together honestly . I think they were probably just friends for a while when Morgan was still with Jodie , but even being around her made Glenn more comfortable being herself again <3 Glenn is a very genderqueer to me , I think once they're comfortable wirh themselves again they use all pronouns , but traditionally feminine terms still give them that little jolt of euphoria , even if she's still fine and comfortable with other pronouns as well . there's just nothing to him like wearing a dress and being called pretty , that's all <3

ok i could probably keep going but also my thumbs are tired so that's all for rn , anyways <3 hope you enjoy my silly Glenn rant <3 I love her so much <333

i love this so much!! also i will gladly give you all the power you so desire because i adore reading your rambles!! i'm sorry my response isn't as juicy as this entire ask because i've got a bit of a headache coming on but i want you to know that i really do love your interpretation of glenn's gender ♡

[lovinglin]

I NEED to talk abt this specific song that I've associated with Quirra (Quirrel/Kira) or else I'm gonna GO INSANE. /lh

Ramble under the cut bc it might get a little lengthy (also since I'll be touching on some of the lyrics and explaining it)

OKAY FIRST OFF. The original meaning of the song is a LOT different. So if you know what it means, scrap that real quick bc I'm putting my own spin to it to match Quirra's narrative.

Kira takes place as the singer, "Bruno" is Quirrel of course.

Now, something I just really love abt this song is the fact that- since I imagine Kira as the one singing it, it's super fitting in a way that:

At the start of the song, the singer sounds a little more younger. Voice is a bit high-pitched and pretty youthful, which kinda indicates towards Kira's younger days (not really young-young, but more so young-adult time).

I like thinking it's also the time when she and Quirrel get together yk! They were both young and in-love :) happy couple.

The first half of the lyrics basically show that exactly. Don't think too hard on the meaning and just imagine them both all happy and carefree and lovey dovey.

The next set of the lyrics aren't that too deep either. I just like imagining it with a scenario where Kira just shows Quirrel around the City of Tears and helps him relax/ease his worries.

Kira's a pretty lively gal, and the way the singer sings these lyrics probably shows it!!

Though, I will say that the more the song progresses, the more the singer starts to sound a little older/her voice starts to get a little deeper. I like thinking this hints at Kira growing a little older as well.

This whole section just makes me think abt when the Infection starts happening. Everyone's panicking, everyone's yelling (probably), and the whole Great Plan™️ starts to come into place.

"My mother says that I will surely go to hell." Quirrel @ Monomon, in a way.

"Please be a good man, please say you won't tell." Monomon @ Quirrel.

Kira regarding Quirrel... Quirrel with his nail and able to strike down any foe that he comes across. Quirrel being the only man that was able to love Kira for who she is 🥺😭

Now THIS. This part of the song has me in a DEATH GRIP because the singer suddenly sounds so much more distraught and older and it's just. AUGH. I like thinking it's a sudden time-skip to the actual events of the game.

The time when so much time has passed and they're older and Kira meets Quirrel again, only to be known that he doesn't remember her anymore. ("What happened to your good sense?")

AND THIS. THIS. THIS!!!!!!

"Did you hear about that mother?" Mother in question is Monomon.

"Broke her daughter's legs in two." The daughter in this case is actually her son (in a way), which is Quirrel. And the "breaking her legs in two" part makes me think of how she gave Quirrel her mask and his nail instead.

And said, "It's too dangerous out there to walk, so I had to save you." WHAT IF I FUCKING CRIED (/pos). WHAT IF THIS LINE IS MONOMON @ QUIRREL AND WHAT SHE SAID TO HIM ON WHY SHE GAVE HIM HER MASK AND THE NAIL TO PROTECT HIMSELF RAAAAGHHGHGHGGG

THERE'S MORE I COULD SAY FOR THE LAST FEW LYRICS BUT THIS BECAME LENGTHY AS IT IS. Just know the last few lyrics (that I mentioned here) has me in a DEATH GRIP.

[siriuslysatorusimping]

i got three questions on my mind !!

1. so *does* gojo trust rinko completely then?? i cant imagine he does given geto was literally his one and only best friend who went a different path. so how does he feel about rinko in that sense? and also vice versa with rinko bc she’s got some trauma too

2. do the zenins know that rinko spends time with megumi bc i bet that would piss them off

3. given rinko is a grade 1 and shes going to get hard missions that could end up being too much, does she ever get a mission that ends badly (someone dies or smth to that effect) / how would she react in a situation like that?

MORE HEAVY HITTERS. I love it. Thank you so much sweet anon 💕

I'm loving this!! ��️❤️

Okay, these will eventually all be addressed in the story, so I'm going to try to keep it spoiler free while also answering your questions!! Answers are below the cut!

1.) Does Gojo trust her completely? And vice versa?

Short answer: Eventually he's going to trust her completely. And it's gonna scare the shit outta him. (this is going to be a HUGE piece of their story in the future so I can't reveal too much more)

He already trusts her more than he's trusted a lot of other people because she has a key to his place. She's proven herself a few times already that she's worthy of it and he hasn't even realized how much he actually trusts her yet.

She trusts him very deeply already. The fact that he has respected every single one of her boundaries and let her handle the Zenin's on her own, even when he clearly doesn't want to, has shown her she can trust him. In fact, he already, even just where we are so far in their story, knows more about her than anyone else she knows, with maybe Shoko as an exception. Him learning about Naoya stabbing her was big, because only Shoko knew about that before.👀

(Some of you may have clocked that Shoko knew who her family was before anyone else, how free she was talking about it when it was just the two of them. THAT is a lil easter egg for you.) Because Hime knows there's something, but she doesn't know the extent. Only knows the Zenin's don't like her.

2.) Does the Zenin clan know how much time she spends with Megumi?

Short answer: Not to the extent that she does. But they actually don't care as much as she thinks they would.

They know she spends time with him when he's with Gojo, but they don't realize how much, and she wants to keep it that way to keep them from being able to exploit the relationship. They sure as hell don't know she took him on a fun trip for his birthday.

But they don't care as much as she's afraid they will. Primarily because she isn't any worse than Megumi spending so much time with Gojo and they know they can't exactly stop it. Because Gojo has laid claim to Megumi in a way, they know that touching him means Gojo has free reign to go apeshit on them. And he's made it clear that he will. So as long as Megumi isn't causing them any real trouble, they kinda don't give a fuck.

3.) Does she get jobs that are too much/how does she handle losing someone on a job?

Short answer: Shibuya.

She'll be present during the Shibuya Incident. And she'll also be holding down Kyoto when Geto is releasing his death parade in 2017. Gojo is going to ask her personally to take care of Kyoto for him so that he doesn't need to worry about it.

In this next part, actually, we're going to learn that Rinko has been offered a teaching position at Kyoto Tech. And she'll have some current and former students who fall during the battle against Geto's lil "family"

For those of you who have read the manga, you know what happens in Shibuya and she's going to take it incredibly hard. It's going to break her for a bit. She's going to blame herself for quite a few things that are going to be out of her control. And she's going to feel like fate is cheating her out of her happiness on purpose at one point.

We're going to see her blossom at Shibuya in ways that are heartbreaking and empowering and I'm both not ready for you guys to see it and so excited for you to read about it. She's going to take a lot of the pain she's been holding for her entire life and it's going to fuel her.

I'll give a lil taste of something that happens at Shibuya:

“The only mistake is that you were ever born!” she snarled, launching herself at him now. “You spiteful piece of shit! I’ll kill you-!” Nanami caught her by her waist, yanking her away. “Kurisaki,” he said, his glasses slipping when she fought to get away from him. “Kurisaki-” “Let me kill him, Kento,” she snarled, all the emotions she’d been forcing to stay bottled for the past few hours fueling her rage now. “He’s no good to us anyway.” "Rinko!” Nanami snapped, his eyes now flashing at her. “Get a hold of yourself. We can’t afford to fight among ourselves.” “He isn’t one of ours,” she snarled, elbowing him harshly, pulling a grunt of pain from her friend. “Let me go.”

Couple guesses who she's talking about? I'll give you a hint: it isn't Naoya.

As for regular jobs, she mostly gets solo jobs or she has Nanami, Gojo, or occasionally Hime with her. So they handle them relatively well.

Thank you again for your questions!! I'm loving them 😊😊

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Read Another Level on AO3 :)

[kaoarika]

*facepalm*

Somehow, I saw this coming a few days ago, lol?

Efficient Dating for Single People had been confirmed for a live action thing (?, this is how I find about it EVEN being greenlit? I don't remember it was, though?!). And I'm... I dunno, congrats, Tari that you have a third work being worked on, although I do see this might move forward than whatever the fuck happened with the Favorite Part live action adaptation since 2019.

Like, I don't know what this "this project has been greenlit/confirmed" mean for Korean creators in the absolute. At some point, I'm just used to the fact that at least in this side of the pond, you give your ("original") Naver/LINE webtoon work rights and the one thing you did money for was just in that and that only (in a similar kinda-way, JPN authors go through a similar thing when they sign away rights for a live action adaptation, that's the only money upfront they receive from THAT... at least according to Hideaki Sorachi, from Gintama). I'm far aware that Webtoon US may treat shit to their western creators if they don't make them good money, but I have also read quite worrying revision/afterwords from many Korean creators in the past few years (especially around the pandemic! when their mental health was, uh, no good at all?), as well. If they do money from this, good on them.

The thing is, I wish I knew what was going on with the Favorite Part one. The note that AN*N (also feels quite weird to see them reporting webtoon and other Korean stuff these days. WAY WEIRD) posts does mention "confirmation" rumors of the casting from Efficient Dating, and MAN, I don't remember sh*r from when FP was reported to be greenlit except "fans are expecting this and whats-their-name to be casted".

I am also far well aware that these projects tend to be in development hell for years, and I feel Efficient Dating is much more easily adaptable than FP (this, THIS IS exactly what I was thinking days ago), because with FP, there HAS to be at least a real overweight actress (and actor bc of Hanbyeol's fat self! HECK, they could do smth similar as in Sweet and Sour and casting two different actors that may look similar to each other, even in the voice tone???) to interpret the main role, and I feel it would be a DISSERVICE if they casted a skinny idol or actress and put her in some fat suit and/or making it look she looks fat when she is not, especially since FP is NOT a story of Woojoo finding herself the "light and it making her lose weight for a glow up", it's self-acceptance about yourself as a whole, about the bad, the good, and the ugly, and becoming a better person.

I "read" Efficient Dating when it was serialized (a bit with Google Translate and Lens before it was a full thing incorporated in it and my phone didn't go "lol, nope :)") and the thing about it is that... it plays a little safe. At least for me. Yeah, there's a thing about the FL being realistic in her early 30s and finding a relationship and the like, and the two potential prospects are two opposites of the spectrum (a realistic/stable choice, and a "thrilling" idealistic/non-stable choice)... it doesn't surprise me with whom she decides to, duh. Even though the guys are sweet to her and the like (the only novelty is that, at first, the FL only wants a "relationship first, love later" kind of thing), I mean... it's... a safe story, realistic even.

FP wasn't much more of a romance, but an actual drama with thriller elements (that are a bit all over the place, ngl), and it was interesting seeing how the three protagonists had to deal with small parts of themselves that they hated so much (even though I feel the third one needed much more of an amnesia arc to understand why they were like that). I am one of those people that thinks that the story could be improved if it was adapted into k-drama, except I'm not sure if it being 12-16 eps would be worthy for (and the casting! and getting rid of elements that they SHOULDN'T GET RID OF???)

I dunno, it kinda pisses me off, lmao. For how much I have grown to not like the idea of a drama adaptation of FP, that Efficient Dating was greenlit AND HAS BEEN CONFIRMED with an ongoing casting process... and the FP project has been probably shelved off??? I MEAN, I MEAN. (on one hand, no fatphobic behind the scenes stuff about and for the series, ON THE OTHER HAND, THOUGH????)

*I say "third work", because... apparently? a one shot Tari made in 2015 received an adaptation in the past few years. She also made an adaptation to webtoon for the Playlist web drama "Ending Again", but she is not the main author behind that web drama.

[rookiegenin]

im so creatively struggling rn. in 5th grade i whipped out like 65 chapters of the worst self insert AU ive read in my life and now like 15 years later i feel like a sputtering motor trying to piece together 1 full chapter of a fic i have genuine interest seeing go out into the world.

i'm gonna vomit out my bullet points and i need some god damn sapphics to help me crowdsource a plot

Tenten Tsukuyomi dream expanded + aftermath AU

She/They Tenten X They/Them Hinata Hyuga

Kinda developed mutual crush after sparring when they were younger but being repressed pursue nothing

hinata has been getting marriage bids for a long time and her family expects her to do well for their status and bloodline. comphet ensues.

Tenten, logically, deals with this in a "lol avoidance is the best policy" kind of way. we're talking like post-first-chunin-exams to post-war levels of pining.

Tsukiyomi dream is pretty much the same, just going into more details. Just no Menma, it's too weird to rename only him and this is Tenten's dream

Tenten's love for their weapons. Recognizing her first attempt at crafting a blade among other tools that were probably atomized during the Pain attack. bc nothing in that genjutsu looked like new konoha to me and i want to play w them like dolls

add a bath house scene for. a dash of gay panic bc RtN!Hinata? in a bath house? with this weapon dork? RIP.

actually showing the invasion battle that the episodes literally cut through? tenten didn't even get to fight 😭

yes :) you belong here in the dream :) dont worry abt anything else :))

Can has little a genjutsu romance. as a treat. except jk your kiss having a falling feeling? yeah sorry you actually just fell. from the God Tree. War's over! have fun coping with this it's been like 3 months in that genjutsu world for you 🎉 ily tenten but imma put you through it. and by 'it', i mean the fucking gauntlet.

having to help clean up the battlefield, retrieving dead bc scrolls are lighter than corpses 8) tenten is not a medical ninja but by the end my god she can identify what killed someone at a glance.

get closer to hinata post war, both coping w losing Neji, esp post funeral.

hinata misses him dearly, visits kurenai often to talk about it. shares the comfort of sensei's reassurances with tenten sometimes.

hinata strong internal homophobia AND transphobia

tenten dreams about the tsukuyomi world and feels bad about it in so many ways. neji is very much dead this feels wrong. being near RtN hinata feels bad and weird knowing irl hinata better now.

ino pulls the whole rookie gang together to hang out and just. see eachother. make sure everyone is still breathing because theyre all kind of war torn now yk? just makes tenten sad. neji was so snarky he'd make gatherings more fun for her by muttering snippy little quips.

feel restless after the war, dont want to go on missions and try to relax but so on edge. training helps some.

also coping w the new realities of team gai, starts training longer and harder with lee, because surely going to sleep dead tired and bruised will stop the dreams. surely.

examination of tenten's lack of known clan or family orphanned during the nine tails attack maybe? lord 3rd seems great at not telling the orphans he sponsors shit so probably knows nothing about her parents.

tw substance abuse

weed from those gate chuniin Does Not help, especially not in larger quantities, just get more sad and the dreams more nonsensical. blurring things together until eventually end up drunk in the middle of the night at neji's grave

fucking fist fight hiashi hyuga. SOMEONE has to throw hands w this man.

hinata happens upon the crying mess, takes back to tenten's apt, caring tender moments and drunken softness ensues. gender talk?

real?neji talks to tenten in this dream. scolds them for this bout of self destruction, critiques fighting form, and wraps tenten in a hug. telling her to take care and gives his blessing for the two of them.

wtf do you mean us. whos "you two"-- oh. hhh.. ok

wake up in hinata's arms

with naruto Very unavailable (narusasusaku supremacy), hinata realizing their feelings toward naruto were not romantic but kind of an admiration.. maybe bordering on obsession, with how confident he was. im still workshopping this bit tbh?

tenten goes on a mission w (spins wheel) lee and choji. and is thinking about Other Things

unfocused in combat, falls into a giant chasm or smth idk. lost injured, teammates need to send for tracker ninja.

team 8 :)

tenten comes to on hinata's back to the sound of kiba insisting they let akamaru carry the unconscious ninja. hinata doesnt seem to want to do that. tenten tightens her hold and doesnt feel hinata burning red.

hospital waking up scene, real feelings talk, kiss, the end etc.

gay sex. hinata is really into tenten's abs and tenten is a fan of hinata's fingers 🌚

i dont own the idea so obvi ur allowed to take anything from this list and run with it.