#But this is how I feel

[hacked-by-jake]

I'm sitting outside. It's slightly windy. Not much. Perfect amount for me. And it gives fresh and clear air. I have music. And my thoughts are circling about moonvale of course. So I just want to leave a couple of spontaneous words. Just letting out what I think and feel at the moment.

I'm sorry, Everbyte. I'm sorry for all the hate. And I'm sorry for the amount of people being disappointed in your work. Because, well, there's still this little sprikle of hope in me. Of hope and disbelief. I'm thinking about Duskwood and what you created with it. I'm thinking about all the love we felt through Duskwood. You could see the effort you put into it. We saw the improvements and amazing ideas. Good plots over and over again. New ideas every single time. The quality was already amazing, in my eyes. Sure, some little bugs here and there, but nothing huge. Nothing bothering.

But all this. All things we saw in Duskwood. It made us believe you care about the fans. It made us feel like you hear us, as you said once. It made us feel so happy because it looked as if you're really doing this game for us.

And this.. My brain refuses to believe you really just want our money. My brain refuses to believe that you did, what you did in Moonvale, on purpose. My brain wants to believe that you never meant to make us feel this way.

My brain wants to believe that it all made sense to you, and that there was nothing wrong with it, that it was harmless in your eyes. In your world.

And because my head wants to believe in the good, my heart hurts to see how much negativity you get. My heart hurts to see the hate. And the critism.

But sadly, even if it hurts, sadly it's necessary at the moment to share constructive feedback about it.

But even that must be incredibly stressful, because there are thousands, tens of thousands of people who are currently pointing their fingers at you. And that must be hard. Even horrible. Awful.

As I said, my brain refuses to believe all this only happened because you didn't care about your community and you only cared about and wanted our money. I still have hopes.

And I want to belive you had the same love for Moonvale as you had for Duskwood. If I imagine.. You let your new baby out into the world with the hope of making people happy... And as answers there's nothing but negativity in any way. I have no idea how this must be. And I'm incredibly sorry for it.

And even if I'm completely wrong. Even if you really just wanted money, even then I still feel bad for you about the amount of people looking at you. Even then, although you would deserve it in this case, even then I would still feel bad for you. Empathy is an interesting thing. And parasocial "relationships" as well.

We see what we want to see. But I'm sure, in Duskwood, during Duskwood, we saw who you really are. Because there was no hint of what we saw in Moonvale. How could you fake what we saw in Duskwood?

I wish it wouldn't be the case. But you deserve critism for it. Normal criticism, of course. No hate or insultings. But feedback is needed. In our eyes.

And I just hope that there will be a solution. I hope the situation will improve. I hope so, so much.

Duskwood saved me in so many ways. And it's the truth. Not just a saying or anything. It did. And it gave me so much.

Maybe we completely got everything wrong. Maybe we understood some things wrong.

I just hope that a lot of criticism will be noticed and reflected and that you will find a solution. Because I simply think.. I'm sure we all want to play Moonvale. We all want another amazing game from you. Because Duskwood was an incredible game. A game we loved. And we also want to love Moonvale.

In my eyes, there's so much potential. And I really hope in the next episodes we will see more of it. And less worrying about money.

Of course it's your game. Do whatever you want. And if that's the path you want to take, go for it.

But I really want to say, you have an amazing Community behind you. And if there will be improvements and some changes, I'm sure we all will still be by your side. And we all will support you. This time, gladly. And not because we had to in order to play.

I'm sad. I'm desperate. I'm confused and overwhelmed. And..

I'm sorry.

For everyone. For Everbyte. And for all of us.

I'm sorry about this situation...

[paranormaltheatrekid]

My headcanon is that Hatchetfield is plagued by constant storms. Wind, rain, thunder, lightning, etc.

[transrevolutions]

honestly not a fan of the fact that jane prentiss was given dermatillomania (compulsive skin picking disorder) especially seeing as she's the only canon character with it. as someone who's had it my entire life I constantly struggle with being seen as disgusting/unclean/gross, and to have the one character who has it be literally infested with the physical manifestation of rot and disease is. not exactly empowering.

also the implications of jane's dermatillomania somehow foreshadowing/contributing to her becoming a corruption avatar are similarly uncomfortable. dermatillomania is a legitimate actual condition that has the potential to be quite debilitating, not just a "bad habit" that exists to allow authors to code characters as icky nasty.

[pinkeoni]

Believe it or not and no matter how underwritten it may be I do prefer to ship a girl with the girl she has a crush on over a straight girl

[m4rs-ex3]

this is gonna hit when season 7 comes out

[jaysgirlx]

kleo's psa announcement!!

i'm gonna say smth guys and you may not like it but i would prefer that if you are an 18+ account and you really don't want minors on your page then please stay off my page unless we're mutuals or you don't allow -17.

i feel like if you don't want minors on your page you shouldn't be interacting with them. don't get me wrong i love getting likes and reblogs and seeing y'all's comments but i don't want to click on your page just to see you're an 18+ page who doesn't want to interact with minors yet you interacted with my page.

i can understand stand if you happen to just come across my work and not know my age but if you really don't want to interact with minors i feel like that is something you check. and yes this is targeted because there were a couple accounts doing this recently and one account in particular pissed me off. this shit goes both ways guys, i'm not counting down the days until i'm 18, i'm just trying to write for fun. some of the stuff i write is 16+ but if you feel it should be 18+ feel free to click off my page and block me. you don't have to interact with me or my works.

i also don't mind if we interact on a side blog that sfw but if you don't want minors on your page i'd prefer you stay away from interacting my content. if we're mutuals and you don't mind me reading your works or interacting that's fine. y'all can check who i follow i'd you want i'll make it open to everyone because i don't follow any mdni accounts at all. of i've ever interacted with an 18+ work it's probably because it was from my mutuals or it was rebloged by a mutual and not labeled.

anyways that's all i gotta say for now, but if those accounts continue, i'm going to have to start blocking people which isn't fun for me guys. and feel free to comment your opinions on this because I've been thinking about this for days and it's really been bugging me a lot. toodles :)

[lu-cia-lu-nacy]

Okay, so... I've been holding onto this for a long time, & I really want to get it off my chest.

So I attended a con years ago with my SO. I was feeling particularly anxious & unwell, so I basically stayed mute the entire day. When I found out Greg Cipes would be there, I got super excited because I love Beast Boy from the Teen Titans cartoon of the 00s, Mikey is my fave ninja turtle, & he's done a couple other roles I enjoyed.

When we got in line, I wrote a message to my SO saying how I was so nervous that I don't think I would be able to speak to Cipes. He sympathized & said he'd try to explain in a roundabout way why I wasn't talking. I sincerely appreciated his effort & agreed to the plan.

I finally got up to meet Cipes, & my SO goes onto say on my behalf, "Hey, this is Lucia, & she's a big fan of your work as BB & Mikey!" I smiled at Cipes, who gave me a confused look and a forced half smile as he said, "Does Lucia...talk?"

I felt my face grow hot, & any word I tried to say to explain myself got caught in my throat. I started to panic, but my SO luckily swooped in to say, "Uh, she does, it's just a little hard for her today! Can we take a photo with you?" Cipes awkwardly got close to me for a photo, scribbled hurriedly in the notebook I brought for him to sign, then nodded a goodbye.

After that, I couldn't handle the rest of the con and asked my SO if we could leave early, so we did.

I look back on that moment years later and I feel so many different emotions: embarrassed, confusion, and...a bit betrayed. Those words really cut me deep. "Does Lucia talk?" It made me feel like a freak, like he was already judging me.

He didn't have to say anything. My SO already introduced me. He could have just said, "Hey, Tina, thanks for being a fan! Want a photo?" But he looked me right in the face & asked as if I wasn't there about my ability to talk. He made no effort to hide his appalment, which made the blow hit twice as hard.

As someone that can go mute depending on how stressed/anxious I am, that really hurt me. If I could control my speech during times of stress, I would in a heartbeat. But it doesn't work like that for me. The fact that Cipes was visibly put off by a fan being unable to communicate in the "typical way" made me feel so...small, alone. Like I lost an ally - someone that I thought would understand.

To this day, I can't watch 00s Teen Titans, or TMNT 2012, or hear his voice in any capacity without cringing. My heart sinks even when I see the character Beast Boy because I'm instantly reminded of how alienated I felt when I met a voice actor that I thought was cool, funny, and understanding.

Growing up with 00s Teen Titans, Beast Boy was my favorite character, & I always got so excited when I saw him on screen. That excitement carried over when I heard Cipes' voice in other TV shows that I loved. It felt like I knew him, & I always imagined how cool it would be to meet him in real life. Well, look how that turned out.

I don't want to outright call Cipes an ableist...but his actions toward me felt ableist. It felt like the same stern judgment and disgust that I felt when teachers would chastise me for not sitting still, or forgetting to do my homework for the hundredth time (ADHD). Or when my boss would begrudgingly wish me well after yet another episode caused me to be too weak/physically incapable of coming into work (absent seizures & dysautonomia). It felt like the same apathetic, annoyed, "why are you like this" judgment that I would receive whenever a disability of mine rendered me less than perfect. And the last person I expected to feel that from was Greg Cipes.

I guess this is why they say you should never meet your heroes.

[maudiemoods]

I remember them being shipped in your AU and was surprised, but people also need to remember that not everyone sees them as brothers. Just bc you do does not mean the person who ships them is gross!

Yayyy I agree 🥹 I was really worried to post anything about their relationships between my aus because I know people have their own opinion. I do think I should have said something earlier though. I wish I had eeee

[chateaunoirsims]

I wake up in the morning and I think about gojo satoru. I brush my teeth and I’m thinking about gojo satoru. I’m taking an exam that probably determines the course of my career but I’m still thinking about gojo satoru. I go to sleep thinking about GOJO SATORU. Everything in my head is about gojo satoru. That’s all.

[calkale]

Okay dead reckoning spoilers ahead ill put a cut just in case also if you like the movie maybe don’t read either 👀😬 but if you do please read the whole thing or at least the last paragraph because that in my opinion is the most important thing i have to say

Before i say anything i know im in the wrong here, i have a really personal issue with the movie that i dont feel comfortable sharing but its one of the names used A LOT in the movie, so that definitely plays a part in my opinion whether i like it or not. That being said, usually i can ignore stuff like that, ive done it with other movies but there was nothing else to grasp my attention so i got stuck on things like that.

Also wanna say this first because i feel like it explains why i hate a lot of the things i do. I could really be reaching here but i think they’re trying to set up hayley as the new face of these movies and dead reckoning part 2 is gonna be the end for tom. She was the main character, Ethan was not. She was a part of 2 stunts out of the 3 big ones in the movie and Toms solo stunt (the cliff jump) was maybe a minute of the movie and correct me if im wrong but thats never happened before, Toms always had a big stunt thats just him that takes up a good, MEMORABLE, chunk of the movie, and that just wasnt in this.

I didn’t like it at all. Up until the airport i loved the movie, i really liked the way it was shot, i liked the mi1 callbacks, i really liked ethan and ilsa and everything was good, i could ignore the AI plot (which i knew i wasnt gonna like going into it i hate AI villains) and just watch the movie but after the airport i started to not like the movie anymore. During the fiat car chase i realized i was gonna really not gonna like the movie. That was one of the three big stunts of the movie and i hated it, it just felt really rushed and there were so many characters who i didnt know and didnt know why they were there, WHICH IS OKAY i love not knowing things thats part of my brand im all about that but it just did not work here, sometimes not knowing anything about character works and other times it doesnt.

I dont remember a lot from the middle chunk of the movie, i wasnt enjoying it but trust me i was trying. Not even benji and luther made the movie enjoyable and to top it all off ilsa died and im getting mad again but that was one of the worst deaths i think ive seen. If shes not actually dead then thank god but also im sorry mcq but awful writing unless something got cut because she was free? She was dead? There was no bounty on her head anymore, that was why she “died” at the start of the movie and correct me if im wrong but she really didnt need to be in Venice with her face showing either. It really feels like she just died so hayley could be in the spotlight with ethan and there were too many characters so they had to get rid of her along with benji and luther who arent dead but may as well be with their 10 minutes of screen time.

But all of this i can look past, i dont like the plot? whatever, thats not why i, personally, watch mission impossible movies, i watch for the stunts, i wanna see tom cruise do some crazy shit but i didnt even get that. Im really mad about the lack of stunts in this movie i feel insane idk if anyone else is complaining about this but i didnt like a single one of them. Im so let down and i hate that im so upset over something like this but i am. Thats the promise thats being made when you go see these movies and in my opinion they didn’t deliver. All the fighting was really good i loved the fight in that tight alleyway with ethan and paris but i hated the car chase, the cliff jump could’ve been better? i dont even know what to say about that one tbh, and the train, ohhhhhh the train, i dont even wanna talk about the train, i was trying so hard to like it i wanted it to redeem the whole movie for me but it just didnt, i feel so bad but it didnt and im so disappointed.

[she-wears-glasses]

I can’t see it.

I can’t see that you like me more than just an acquaintance. Some say that you like me more than that. Honestly I’m sure most people around us can tell I definitely like you. In the past whenever a guy liked me others could see it; but I never could. I still can’t. Even after all this time I still can’t. You don’t appear nervous or shy to me. At all. In fact anytime I speak to you, talking to you isn’t awkward at all. Everything is easy when I’m with you. I could ask you anything and you’d give me an answer with no awkwardness. I never feel uncomfortable with you. Nervous yes, awkward never. I could tell you my whole life story if I wanted to and I believe you would never judge me or look at me differently and I NEVER feel that way with anyone. You make me feel at ease with life. I don’t feel like you give me giant bombs and expect me to help you, or take care of you compared to most people; who take advantage of it. Yet it only makes me want to help you and care for you more.

You have me under a

spell

just by being yourself and

I can’t help but

fall

under it.

Hoping you’ll catch me.

[the-crim-rat]

the endless debate of should i get rid of all my art supply and give up and pursue a career in like accounting or did i just not get enough sleep last night

[dudeshusband]

i have the constant impression that either everyone 1. forgot how long I've worked here; or 2. thinks I'm an idiot.

they're constantly telling me how to do things and what to do when i often know both.

if it were only my supervisor, I'd completely understand. however, I've had people who've been working here less time than i have doing this to me.

if any of these people talked to me otherwise, I'd be like "hey, they're just trying to be nice" but they don't. I'm an awkward addition to a fairly tight knit team. everyone who's been hired has hit it off with everyone but i can't. i honestly think part of it is because I'm the only one doesn't speak spanish (which is understandable). the other part is probably because I'm bad at getting people to like me.

[death-rebirth-senshi]

Real gays care more about and relate more to the third female character treated like shit by the narrative idc

[somebodylovesyougcv]

this is so mcwexler

[thecommanderzoe-a]

so i put on my big girl pants and watched it.

i didnt hate it

but i do think parts were rushed

but i also think if they done it in 20 minute episodes it wouldn’t of had the same impact

i sobbed so much and i think the lead up was important for that. 

im not mad at it

and i dont think they done hanji dirty

her giving erwin grief straight away had me laughing through my tears