#CRYINGGGGG MY EYES OUT

[emotional-moss]

it’s always “i love you” and never “hey steph…if things were different, would you want to go to homecoming with me? / i’d like that, pete. i’d really like that.”

[clownboymcchucklefuck]

https://youtube.com/shorts/9vYmf0tSmL8?si=ZwVz-eFjUq1ds3aH

OH MY GOD?????

[monkeydlesbian]

this is why i like zoro better bc he dreams of chopper cheering for him after beating sanji. no one else. that’s his little guy fr

[chrisbangs]

chungha's new song nearly making me bawl my eyes out seeing her on stage and shining and singing and being mother of all time like 😭🫶💗 oh my god i'm so happy to see her thriving and once again FUCK mnh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s3 episode 22 thoughts

this episode was SO good. it was funny, it was heartfelt, and it was entertaining. but- and i'm sure you fans who have seen the show before know- something happened that is making me cry.

yes, actual tears! boy, there must be some real serious astrology stuff going on in the world, for actual tears are down my cheeks, something that almost never happens to me in movie and film watching experiences, and this episode did it to me. i usually just get a bit misty and that's the extent of it- even in one breath! but man. apparently i have a weakness.

sigh. we shall get into it, like we do.

reading the episode description: it's loch ness monster-like creature time!! i’ve been eyeballing this episode for a while, it sounds really interesting. a lake trip!! a trip to the lake!! 

we begin, and it is frog time!!! time for a frog!!! an endangered frog!!! dr. farraday is fighting for their rights. oh, he just used the term “frog holocaust” in his talk to this dr. bailey fellow, which is something. serious frog beef going down between these professors, for dr. bailey does not think that dr. farraday's research proves that humans are responsible for the fate of the frogs! how infuriating.

dr. bailey is going back to his car but lost “his beeper” so he’s looking by the lake for it. OH! his beeper meant a pager. i know what a pager is!!!! do not think i am uneducated!!! just never heard it called as such.

he finds the beeper but he is EATEN. by a BEAST!!! while a frog watches. 

if only this was the fate that all people who deny the need to protect the environment met! eaten by a lake beast! how much more just this planet would be...

intro time. and the first time i watched an episode and i heard the theme i started laughing hysterically because i didn’t realize that noise was the x files theme; i had just thought it was a well-known spooky noise used in vines and stuff and then. everything clicked into place. and it was soooo funny. anyway.

road trip to georgia!!!! WITH THE DOGGY!!! mulder calls it “a thing” SO RUDE????

“you wake me up on a saturday morning, tell me to be ready in five minutes, my mother is out of town, all of the dog-sitters are booked, and you know how i feel about kennels” <- help i’m CRYINGGGGG tell him how you feel!!!!

(love that they have already had a conversation on the morality of kennels before)

((but also truly what did he expect 😭😭 and he did all this on a SATURDAY!!!! she ought to have been way meaner!!!))

so he made her leave town with the puppy on a SATURDAY for a missing person’s case… omg do they even get paid overtime???

also mulder is lost which is soooo funny because WHY is he perpetually behind the wheel... he doesn’t have any sense of direction!!!

he makes a stupid pun about the killer being “large” and she straight up asks what he’s leaving out LMAOOO

(he points to a billboard advertising “big blue, the southern serpent) <- “oh, tell me you’re not serious” LMAOOOO

so they’re going to talk to dr. farraday and i think it’s so cute that scully is in some more casual-y clothes. anyway, they’re going over the serious frog beef between him and the victim. farraday does NOT miss dr. bailey’s loser ass... ijbol!!! why should he give a damn for one man when so many species are going extinct!

farraday said “has anyone ever told you two you have a great problem coming to the point?” after mulder asks if any native species attacked humans... lmao he is rude as hell!!!

AND ASKING ABOUT BIG BLUE MADE THINGS WORSE!!! now farraday is going on about how if anything requires real thinking people turn to UFOs and whatnot which is like.... um okay rest assured that if someone is gonna think it’s gonna be mulder. he's gonna think about any and all explanations on a sliding scale of plausibility.

LMAO mulder is being sassy right back while scully screams with her eyes. farraday gets even more pissed and leaves… honestly i’m sorry about the frog population king, but you’re not really winning any friends with influence to help you lobby on behalf of the frogs. or winning any friends at all. 

so mulder and scully and the doggy go to a bait and tackle shop, and the sight of them sharing an umbrella with a dog on a leash healed something in me, something i didn’t know was in need of healing but it was. and they’re reciting the different creatures that live in lakes- apparently scully read about cryptids as a kid!!!! 

she says they’re folk tales and he says “well, how many folktales do you know that can eat a boy scout leader and a biologist?” and she looks soooo annoyed. but then they go in, and he is a proper gentleman and shakes off the umbrella 

at the shop they see a “scale from big blue” and scully says it looks like “a carapace, something from a beetle” which again reminds us that she WAS studying bugs in bio, thank you very much!!

they’re chatting with the dude that sold mulder a map, and he’s talking about his own experience with the creature while wearing a hat that says “show us your bobbers” which is crazy, but we keep going. he claims he heard a cow get eaten by big blue as a kid. and in walks an alleged expert, ansel… whose daddy’s cow was eaten way back then!

ansel is buying more film to someday achieve his dream of catching a picture of the beast and scully looks deeply pained in the background lmaoooo i love her 

someone is putting a worm on a hook in order to fish on the lake. a big one bites!!! a real big one. OH! it’s actually a human body. the fisherman goes and gets the dude from the tackle shop and by proxy our agents.

OH! there is only half a body. they’re bickering on what could have eaten half of a human body while hiding together under an umbrella, and it’s really cute but where is the dog?

the tackle shop man is out in the swampy part near the lake wearing dino-shaped boots to try and make some convincing tracks LMAO. king of the hustle. but something approached him as he gets stuck in the mud!!!! and he is dragged into the dark lake with only a dino boot left behind!

apparently his name was ted. rip ted and your bobber hat and funny boots.

mulder seems to believe that the tracks are legit and tells scully and the dog to watch where they’re walking as to not disturb them (and the dog is named queequeg i’m gonna CRY!!!) 

the sheriff is OFFENDED by mulder’s suggestion to close the lake, because clearly this is just a bunch of drunk people falling overboard!! and then getting run over!! well if that happens as frequently as you seem to think it does, we need to do something regardless of if any beasts are involved.

scully is not buying that the tracks are from a real creature because they did not leave very deep impressions. but the dog yanks her away!!! he’s off investigating the dino boot! the prints may be a hoax, but the blood on the shoe is very real!

cut to some stoners on the lake talking about hallucinogenic toads. he holds a local frog and licks it. but someone interrupts his toad licking session coming back to the surface from a scuba dive?

oh no!! scuba dude is pulled by some sort of creature!!! and his head is removed from his body. well that is not good.

time to locate the head. both of our agents are in fun little jackets, and still bickering over what went down.

ansel the big blue photographer is serenading his camera, preparing for the perfect shot, which he has set up by filling an inner tube with meat. something bubbles beneath it. BUT NO!! it skips the meat on the tube and goes right for him!!!!! he snaps a picture as it gets him!! three attacks in one day!!!!

mulder asks the sheriff again to CLOSE DOWN THE LAKE and he again refuses. scully says it’s inconclusive still, which is echoing the dr. bailey saying about the fate of the frogs being inconclusive!

the sheriff falls in, and out there he brushes into something big. he immediately proclaims that the lake shall be closed down, calls state police, AND wildlife fish and game. well okay that gets results i guess.

they’re examining the photos from ansel, and mulder things that this blurry thing COULD be a tooth. it is very funny.

AWWW the dog needs to go for a walk, and mulder offers to go with her :,) she lifts up her jacket to show her gun, says she’ll be fine, and smiles. STOP I LOVE THEM SO MUCH?????

why is this episode making me emotional with their little lake visit. also something bad is definitely going to happen now. she says goodnight :,)

aww the dog is MAD and she’s talking to him in that kind of voice you reserve for a little creature... but he wants to go into the woods!!

no!!! he runs too fast!!! NO!!!!! WHERE DID HE GO???? HE ISN’T ON THE LEASH????

NO. I CAN’T BEAR TO WATCH SCULLY LOSE HER DOG…. 

oh my gosh, she is sitting in the chair, holding his collar in grief…. she is literally spaced out into another dimension mourning her little friend and mulder is rambling about the lake…. i want to slap him… NOOOO. she asks him to repeat himself because she was so out of it…

(if this doesn’t end with a dog reunion i will drop this dumbass show. BET.)

mulder asks if she can drive a boat. psh can she drive a boat? it’s natural to her bloodline.

she is piloting the boat and he’s telling her where to go, and she’s braver than me because if i lost my dog at this moment i think i would need two weeks to begin to even SORT of get a grasp on reality. 

“i know the difference between expectation and hope. seek and ye shall find, scully” <- this is a genuinely fantastic line said by mulder, but i’m still in dog mourning so we can go analyze that later 

map facts with scully :)

until the monster comes STRAIGHT AT THEM!! i like how she kept asking “what is that, mulder?” because it reminded me of when she kept asking mulder to get the bugs off of her in darkness falls… like the blind hope/faith/desperation that he would hold the answers and have a solution… ohhhgghh

big crash into the boat!!! it is leaking and she picks up the radio and calls a distress signal (another natural feature to a scully) but the boat is FILLING with water!!

mulder gets some life jackets for them and they barely get them on in time as the boat sinks. whew! a conveniently placed rock for them to perch upon is nearby!!!

but there goes the $500 deposit :( 

mulder says to swim and she is GAGGED “in which direction?!” lmaoooo

mulder is unsettled by how dark it is, because you forget these things in a city… and scully says you forget a lot of things in a city; her father taught her to respect nature, because it has no respect for you. or your dog, i guess :(

they both pull out their guns as they hear splashing!!!! mulder whispers that it was big blue, but scully asks “so what if it was?” <- NOOO you took her dog and her deposit, you’ve broken her spirit!!!

mulder says he wants to know because it could revolutionize science, and so many of the things they chase are intangible, but it’s a creature within the confines of a lake, it should be right HERE- and she isn't buying it for a second

she says she saw HIS FUTURE in ansel’s photographs, a man listening only to himself and seeing nonsense; she can’t figure out his motives, and things are approaching angst levels on this rock in the middle of nowhere, but SOMETHING APPROACHES!!!!

it’s a duck. okay so it could be worse!!! he says he’s still tempted to fire and she slams into him LMAOOO 

sleepover on the rock. “hey scully, do you think you could ever cannibalize someone?” <- LDHDMDNSMDNSBBDNSND I’M GENUINELY YELLING LMAOOOOOOO HOLD ON. hold on i need a minute to handle all that. (she gives a thoughtful and scientific response) <- that’s Them. that is their dynamic right there.

“you’ve lost some weight recently, haven’t you?” “yeah i have, thanks for-“ (glare of realization) LMAOOOOOOOO WHAT EVEN IS THIS EPISODE

“poor queequeg” she says, and i’m gonna CRY. but mulder has a better response now to her grief instead of just babbling on about the lake, asks why she chose that name. she shares that was the name of the harpoonist in moby dick, which her father used to read to her from.

and as she says this, she realizes how much mulder is like ahab, “so consumed by your personal vengeance against life, whether it be it’s inherent cruelties or it’s mysteries, that everything takes on a warped significance to fit your megalomaniacal cosmology” <- the words of a girl who was REALLY into a book as a kid and is also experiencing near-death levels of hypothermia and grief

LMAOOOOO HIS RESPONSE IS “scully, are you coming onto me?” yes. now kiss on the rock.

and she keeps going, talking about how his search for the Truth will take down everything he loves, just as it did for Ahab.

OH! he starts talking about how he always wished for a peg leg, even as a kid, and it first it seems like another of his many jokes but he says it’s because maybe then it’s enough to Persist despite the difficulty; without, “you’re actually expected to make something of your life- achieve something, earn a raise, wear a necktie” so perhaps he is the ANTITHESIS of ahab, for with a peg leg he may be more pleased! 

woah. that got deep. i’ll be gnawing on that one for a bit.

THEY BOTH QUOTE A LINE FROM THE BOOK AT THE SAME TIME... STOP I’M GONNA SOB?????

but a splashing approaches… and they draw their guns…. CUT TO A COMMERCIAL BREAK!!!!

it’s dr. farraday??? he says he hopes he’s not INTERRUPTING anything!!! wait so was the shore right there the whole time LMAOOO (silent walk of shame to the shore) BAHAHA

so what is this dude doing out here?? obviously it’s frog science! he’s been breeding the frogs to get their numbers back up. 

mulder is thinking…. if there are fewer frogs for a dinosaur to eat… it would have no choice but to turn to different food sources! (cutscene to serious arguing between mulder and dr. farraday whilst scully watches)

sheriff rolls up!!! another person had their arm bit off, and so he has thirty boats searching that area. but mulder says we have to search THIS cove, where the frogs have been going missing!! he blatantly refuses.

what if it was her little dog that bit the dude’s arm off…

scully politely asks for him to send a few men over and immediately gets results LMAOOO he quietly mumbles “thanks”

but a distant scream is heard!!! it’s dr. farraday!!! they run and find him!! something grabbed his leg and was shaking it. his leg is messed up really bad so scully is tying a tourniquet, and mulder’s running off after the mystery creature…. no self preservation instincts….

so he’s off with a gun and a flashlight chasing the human eating beast…. only to find some frogs. but something is approaching him?? quickly!!! and he’s firing his gun!!!

into a GATOR??? not a fancy lake beast!!

he’s staring out into the water… claiming to be fine. but he said he wanted the monster to be real, that he saw hope in such a possibility. she says there is still hope, that people want to believe, which is why the stories have endured for so long. 

GASP! the minute they leave, we see a big sea beast…

i’m literally so torn because i was CONVINCED the dog was going to come back 😭😭😭 and this episode was so good but WHY did they have to throw that in there… like i can’t even make an objective analysis of how this went because i’m so sad. WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT?!?!

“oh juni there have been lots of human people that die in this series” which i mourned for too! but. i have felt the pain of losing a beloved and innocent creature and i do not wish for it to return and being reminded of its inevitably is not something i wish upon anyone MUCH less dana scully, who has already suffered in mythological levels.

really though, the episode was good. it was genuinely fantastic. it just clearly hit a bit of a nerve with me so i'm not going to do a thoughtful wrap up in the manner i like to think i usually do. but here are the things i liked, beyond the whole aesthetic and mood: bickering, umbrella sharing, scully at the helm, joint quoting of moby dick, deep introspection in the form of projecting onto book characters, cannibalism debates, outlandish creature as a monster of the week, rock sleepover, and fighting over frogs

[milimeters-morales]

okay more pictures I had thoughts about

Starting with these:

This handwriting is diff than how he wrote his name on that scan sheet in so I’m glad I can see his natural handwriting and not the neater one for tests and such, also the 😩 emoji he drew out I’m cryinggggg he’s so silly 😭😭😭 and I loved the little drawings he did in the book too, esp the cute version of the spider and the hearts around the bite!!! His memory is so fucking good too, to be able to remember all the details in the people he’s drawn and a spider he hasn’t seen in a long while (or a few days, idk when he actually drew this part)! Next ! :3

This one is soooo fucking funny to me. Bro can’t stand his ass he really can’t believe this is NYC’s new protector. Miles needed to get charged 50% more for embarrassing himself and by extension me bc I had to defend him here. It is a quick moment with him and Lenny (I think that’s his name?) but I like to think that they know each other, or at least have a friendly relationship for Miles to be so casual about this. If I really wanted to reach, and I do, I would say that he knows it’s Miles lol bc the voice is a dead giveaway.

THIS IS MY FAV PAIR OF PHOTOS TODAY. So I love the squinty then closed eyes, the use of his other powers besides the usual spider-man abilities, AND how he’s using them effectively but ends up indirectly causing a blackout ! Of course this isn’t the way I wanted it to go, I would prefer him being the direct cause in a scenario where maybe he takes the energy or overloads it to the point of a blackout, BUT this was funny, and it was still basically what I really hoped to see! And wasn’t this robot villain super similar to a robot toy either Miles or Ganke had in their dorm room??? can you imagine that the villains have more merch than Miles does and Ganke makes sure to remind him of that 😭😭😭 help

Now listen I think Miles would be ADORABLE. SO PRECIOUS. SO SILLY. with a few hairs actually above his lip. He swears it’s a full on mustache but it looks like he drew it on with eyeliner. Can you imagine how similar he’d look to Aaron when he laughs AND has those few hairs? He’d be ecstatic and would be showing them off to everyone he knows, he’s telling his dad that he’s a man now and can’t be grounded and that his curfew needs to be later, Rio’s probably only egging it on and Jeff is so proud but SO annoyed bc both him and spider-man, by pure coincidence, are starting to act like they’re much more mature and above anything and everybody in the way teenagers are when they reach a milestone, only to still be an anxious teenager underneath the new attitude lol. Also bug eyes :3 you know I love me them bug eyes

And I have no words for this autistic ass smile. “Didn’t know how to smile until I was 8” faceass. “Intelligent young boy but struggling to connect with peers” written on his 3rd grade report card faceass. “Doesn’t get along well with the other boys in class and opts to read instead of participating in recess or class fun” said in the PTC faceass. I don’t even care that this isn’t even his natural smile and he’s rightfully awkward looking here, to me he has been canonically stated to be some form of neurodivergent. Sword slash to the chest. And you’re on fire

[sadistic-kiss]

Wild dream Slap Ass Recap Part 2:

(You will not believe the dream I just experienced this time. THIS is the type of dream I want not the horror dream I had with sukuna ✋😭.)

*Slaps hands together*

I’m but a poor peasant demon child with horns and a tail, trying to help the sick in my neighborhood. I don’t know what happened to my parents but I was being raised by a wise old lady. Demon and angels are of different class. Angels being prestige and just all powerful. Demons used to run rampant in the world killing humans but then the angels saved the people, but ever since then, demons have been treated like shit. We wear collars that cut off our powers and are used as servants. If we try to take the collar off it will sense it and explode our heads 😭.

So here I am going to my job getting paid but a penny. (YES AS A CHILD) My Angel boss is a real arse. He’s super mean to the demons because he can be. It’s acceptable.

Returning home there is this huge ruckus, I see an angel holding a child by his hair swinging him around as he’s yelling and the mother is pleading. I know this child he’s my best friend, so I’m like hey stop that he was just trying to help his sick mother! But old granny grabs me and tells me to be quiet.

“HE STOLE FROM ME!” The angel is yelling. “A precious heirloom!”

While the mother is crying and apologizing, “I will work over time!”

The angel is demanding double for the price of what was stolen and if the mother cannot come up with the money then he will take the child as payment. The heirloom was already returned but of course bully angels. The mother would need to work a whole year to repay that amount of money. And the angel is demanding it by the weekend. So she accepts knowing that she hasn’t a shot but at least she gets to spend time with her son or come up with something.

I go up to her and tell her that I can try to help as much as I can, maybe we could put some money together as a community. But the mother only smiles at me and thanks me. Then returns home with her child, telling him everything will be fine.

At night I hear whispering outside my window and secret chatter. Sticking my head out im like what’s happening? And I see the mother and child wearing cloaks and another individual I of course know. Clearly they are trying to sneak away. When the child sees me he’s like come with u best friend I like you and don’t want to be apart. And I’m like sorry I’m scared. And he told me it’s okay to be scared, mom will protect you.

I still don’t go because I also have wise old grandma. So instead I tell him good luck.

Fast forward…Well let’s just say they ended up not making it. And to make a show to the other demons they killed the mother and boy and nice man in front of us. I was cryinggggg. To which started my villain arc and old grandma was like I got you I was in the war, I learned how to turn off the collars.

Long training arc/years later I am a teenager ready to wreck havoc. I’m apart of a secret group of demons who are tired of this shit grandpa.

We have a plan mapped out. Me and a few others are to infiltrate the main city for the angels as a servants. A human is going to merge with the powerful angel Tengen who gives them a barrier of protection. (Or something like that). They are of course called the star child ✨. See what my brain did there lol. But we have to kill them before they merge. Yes toji is a demon too he’s the main leader of the operation. his wife was killed by an Angel so there’s his hate :).

Anyways this will happen within a few years but we are preparing now. At all cost we must kill whoever the star angel is.

I got put with the snobby angel Gojo and of course Getou was always there 😭. These hoes were ruthless. Gojo looked down on demons with his beautiful stupid blue eyes. At some point he said something that had me snap on him and I punched him in his face 😂 I thought he was going to have me killed but he didn’t (because the Hoe secretly in love with me lol).

So that was a fun time because the sexual tension was at an all time high for whatever reason. And we may have dabbled in some smut but you know I just want to say that was just the part of my brain that just went brr for my daddies BUT the hatred was still there I swear 😭.

*Time skip*

So the day is upon us, the star child is to be merged with Tengen and would you look at that the idiots that I served got put to protect the girl. There’s like this whole plan from the angels to make it seem like there are multiple star children. But something in me tells me that it’s this girl. (It must have been the obvious connection in my brain lol I cheated)

I’m supposed to stay home but Toji finds me and says it’s go time. Toji catches Gojo and getou off guard the same as in the anime and I’m hiding, waiting for my opportunity. So while toji is fighting gojo I sneak and follow getou and Riko.

*Cries*

So I’m the one that kills Riko while they were talking 😂✋ and getou is losing his mind and I’m like “I HOPE YOU FEEL THAT PAIN BECAUSE THATS HOW I FEEL WATCHING MY FRIEND DIE!”

Boom we start fighting and then Toji comes in and is like it’s time to go girl you did good. And he’s about to kill getou but i tell him I’ll do it but I don’t because that’s still my baby I guess XD.

So we leave and that’s what starts the demon and angel war AGAIN.

*Time skip*

It’s complete anarchy. The purge times ten.

Long story short I start to realize we are starting to become the very thing we hated. getou and gojo went on a full fucking rampage trying to find me and kidnapped me only for some there’s a whole lotta hate sex going on like what 😭✋.

Some enemies to lovers business.

I’m going to be so honest I don’t know how we reached peace because toji and the other demons were trying to kill me for being a traitor 😂, but it may have been the fact that I was preggos with a angel demon baby that came out with horns and wings and everyone was like the first demon angel to be born but then that led to more demon angel children appearing like nay! We’ve been in hiding for too long! We want peace and harmony! And it turns out Megumi was one of them and Toji’s wife was an Angel and she actually died shortly after child birth. Like the plot twist was real. And toji was like I didn’t know I had a son. :0?????

*Daddy son hug*

✨Yay happy ending 😌✨

*WHAT ABOUT THE MURDAAAA? WHAT MURDAAAA???! I SAID HAPPY ENDING*

The smut was quite good too. Hmmm yummy threesome with getou and gojo when they were pissed at me… 🌚🌝 kisses brain* thanks for this lovey movie, it may not have been nanami and me on a cruise but I’ll take it.

Also because I’m a hoe I did sleep with Toji and Sukuna too. But if I make this into a story I may or may not put that in it, I dunno. But Sukuna was a demon who onlry wanted to kill angels for fun so you can see how he got problematic …so we had to lock him up inside a human (YUUJIIII~)

Okay back to sleep I go just wanted to type this out before I forget it ✨🖤✨

[bisexualdawnsummers]

fsdkjdafldsf. INCOHERENT SHRIEKING. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

thank u so so much for writing that & esp for setting it w/ them as teens- that's my absolute fave era of themmmmm!!!!!! i'm literally in the process of attempting to write fic of them in college era, (which has some thematic similarities to this sooooo that made it even more awesome to read haha & the added bonus of giving me inspo to continue writing!!)

ANNYWAY u need to know that i had to put my head in my hands twice & throw myself out of my chair onto the floor once while reading this due to Freaking Out!!!!!!! head in hands count:

-once at “Let’s fucking leave.”  bc i literally Forgot that that was the prompt I had submitted because I was already so invested in reading & i also physically gasped when he said that!!!!!

-and again at "He reached up to again wipe the tears from Michael’s cheek, seemingly oblivious to the ones leaking from his own eyes. “Christ, you’re pathetic,”

& then i fell out of my chair @ "Michael read between the lines and understood what he was really saying–he was fluent in Brian Kinney after all: I’m not going anywhere. Not without you. " & almost started cryinggggg bc GODDDD

other lines that generally killed me:

-This was one of those deep, soul-crushing kisses that Brian seemed to dole out on special occasions. 

-Uncle Vic’s shadowed eyes, the pain lurking under his smile like he felt guilty sometimes for still being alive.

tldr that was so freaking good & i love their bestfriendship-bordering-codependency-bordering-truelove which is so strong here <3333

i would beseech you to put it on ao3 (whenever it returns to us :( ) so that i can bookmark it for easily accessible rereading in the future! (totally ur call tho, no pressure!)

omg!!! I am the one freaking out now because this is such wonderful feedback <3

One of the things that is so compelling to me about Brian and Michael is allll the history between them. There is so much to explore and never get bored. The teen era is very special because that's where this incredible connection was first formed, and it's so interesting to me!

One of my fave fics So Come and Dance With Me alternates timelines beteween pre and post series and has a lot of great teen years stuff in it. If you haven't checked it out yet, I can't rec it enough. It's like everything I could ever ask for in a Brikey fic (expect the last chap was never posted, so it's technically a wip, but ends in a good place imo)

And !!!!! at your college era brikey fic!!! I'm so glad that this fic was able to inspire to continue it. I am very excited for that. I hope the writing goes well. Please please please let me know when/if you finish/post it!

I want to thank you again for the prompt. It was so fun writing for them again. It also reminds me that I have a few wips that I should dust off and try to finish at some point.

It looks like ao3 is back up, so I will def post this there. I just need to come up with a title first - if you have any suggestions lmk :)

Thank you again again for the kind words on this fic - it means so so much. I am so happy that you liked it, you have no idea!

[traumxrei-archive]

【 book 6 thoughts ! (3) 】

back at it again ^^ had so much fun laughing bc rook and idia in this chunk of chapters jfksdjfs

part: one, two, three, four / ??

[ spoilers from 6-36 till 6-42 below the cut ! ]

[ about : hunt family's villas ]

lowk sad that they didn't spend more time narrating rookepeyuu's travels together. i'm sure we would've gotten a lot of good banter between them ++ taking a look at the hunt family's villas *eyes emoji*

also. rook being a middle child.....thinking on that.... but also WHEW five siblings, and they call themselves a clan ?? when epel says "the more i learn, the more mysterious you become" i am seconding his words.

[ about : le chasseur d'amour ]

FUCK IM CRYISNFDJSHFJS— i love the way the whole base is scrambling bc !!! omg the base is under attack !!! how could this happen !! and idia pulls up the surveillance feeds and it's this blond frenchman zooming around on a broom introducing himself to the mf OCEAN— (also rook calling vil his "meiyuu" aka sworn friend cryinggggg and sobbingggg)

I STILL CAN'T GET OVER HIM DOING A WHOLE SELF INTRO FOR THE PPL THAT DON'T KNOW HIM !! and then idia n ortho's reactions are so funny for no reason jdfksjf (once again, idia tryna avoid violence and ordering to "secure" rook instead of "removing" him)

[ about : alas... ]

ok rook was the only person whose "defeat" was convincing. the way epel is so bad at acting...and not yuu saying alas of all things to signify their defeat sjkfdsf this is so funnyyy

[ about : rule of the island ]

"the rule of this island is to return the living back to where they came from, alive." that means that they don't intend to hurt people or kill people. and the only beings that are on the island are the staff and probably any phantoms they kept alive for experimentation.

[ about : saving vil's life ]

i'm having such a blast laughing at rook's antics this time sjkfjdf not idia letting them in bc "vil might have a life threatening illness that no one knows about" and "rook might have the medicine he needs" aND HE BRINGS OUT A BAG OF RETINOL AND VIT C SERUM PPPLEASEEEE

idia: y-you're really just giving him skincare ? not trying to help them escape ?

rook: that is right ! as the chasseur d'amour it is my duty to—

idia: it's clearly not worth risking your life over skin creams. like, ever.

[ about : ouchhh ]

ok idia did NOT have to say that about yuu— that just hurt to even read bc we know how yuu's been feeling about themself after all that's happened around them...

[ about : nice ride, idia ]

ok but. why does this

kinda remind me of the batmobile— no but seriously, it looks like something that we should be seeing in book 7 rather than rn,,,the wheels are made out of spinning wheels, and it's in. the shape of a bat/dragon with two horns and red eyes....

[ about : ortho and phantoms ]

ortho....did you just say there's a "bunch of phantoms" under the pillar ???? you mean there's multiple phantoms down there that STYX has frozen. and...the more pressing issue...what does he mean "you wouldn't want to end up like me" ? the whole time he was talking about the phantoms, he was...talking in this very quiet and melancholic tone.... (did ortho get hurt badly by the phantoms ? is that why he's basically a robot now ?)

[ about : direbeast grim !! ]

so. grim is a species called direbeast with a high blot density? or they said he's a mix between direbeast n something else and to me, that reeks of experimentation...but who would do such a thing ? and his blot accumulation spikes and drops unexpectedly....maybe as a direbeast, grim is able to turn blot into a magical energy source ?

and there's traces of a...powerful spell on him ? the fire in his ears being blue isn't just a cute and silly thing and it's signs of a curse ? omg. wait do you think that grim is actually some sort of beast from thousands of years ago that got put to sleep by a powerful spell, and he just woke up now ? all this grim lore makes me wanna know more abt where he came from...

[ about : shroud family curse ]

so their curse is that blot gets incinerated the moment it accumulates within them. so the ancient shrouds led a revolt against the jupiter family using the original phantoms (whatever that means) and thus got cursed + banished to the island of woe. they manage tartarus (phantom prison) and the underworld (phantom graveyard). and they're doing blot research in order to get rid of the phantoms so that they can regain their freedom....wow.

and if they don't have any blot. the curse goes straight to eating up their magic, so they constantly need to be using magic to even live. oh my god. the reason why they gave them that job is bc the phantoms will continue to leak blot into the world even after they're dead. so jupiter family put that curse on the shrouds with every intent of making them like a sponge that can "purify" any blot that escapes. bc if not it'll start affecting the world.

so that's why they're doing blot research :00 !! they're trying to figure out a way to neutralize or reutilize blot bc. the shrouds want to escape. they don't want to keep living in the island of woe, which is why they want to turn the phantoms into an energy source. it would bring them back the honor they had once lost + they don't have to keep living at the island of woe to keep the phantoms in check.

[ about : another ortho ]

okay so. i noticed this before. but ortho was talking about himself in third person in one of the chapters. like "what can ortho do for him" instead of using his usual personal pronoun of "boku". and then idia mentioned "what happened ot ortho when we tried to leave this place". so...i'm assuming that there's two orthos, and that one of them is dead ? or something happened to him ? meanwhile the ortho we know rn also knows about this other ortho, and sees him as an extension, but not entirely, himself. (also take note this is all speculation i do not know if im right or wrong)

okayy we're stopping here for tonight ! when i tell you i laughed so much for this chunk of chapters, i mean it jskfjskf it was a nice contrast from last time, since last time was more tense + sad moments... until next timee

[c-starstuff-man0]

You’ve been gone a couple days 👀 I hope it’s just that life got hectic and not that anything bad happened. *Hugs* come back soon. Miss you 🧡

I’m cryinggggg! I get these weird bouts every now and then where I shut down completely so I haven’t gotten out of bed in three days and this is the first thing I saw today! Thank you! You don’t know how much it means to me! I have tears in my eyes and I don’t have enough emotional capacity to express my gratitude towards you! I love you and thank you for real😘

[queen0fm0nsterz]

TADC stuff!

Already left a comment to this effect but Kinger is just Rascal if she was a guy and swapped the wine for coffee. (Also check out all the stuff on Goosworx's personal channel, some of it is quite LN-esqe)

And as a bonus, have a link to my gratuitous headcanoning about all the crossed out doors HERE

Now onto that new LN3 footage!

The comparison you made between Pretender and Baby is extra interesting now that we know Baby can actually turn off her power, unlike Pretty :( I'm getting more attached to your idea of them becoming friends because of that though :D

The end shows the kids either in the mannequin seamstress' workshop (if you'll remember Noone said it had padded walls), or the CPI (Counties Psychological Institute) and I genuinely don't know which of those two would be worse.

I also might be working on a speculative map of the Spiral based on the tornado/hurricane theory so keep an Eye out for that.

THE KINGER AND LADY COMPARISON I'M CRYINGGGGG

Kinger is Rascal if Rascal was actually a nice person rather than being the world's biggest dickhead (affectionate and loving) /j

About the Monster Baby: I did NOT fucking expect that. It caught me by surprise because I assumed she'd be more similar to the Pretender in that aspect, especially considering her very young age, but it seems that she is more advantaged when it comes to that. The only problem here is her size. All babies have mildly destructive tendencies so a 60 meter tall baby could be an issue😭 I do not envy the people of the Necropolis at all.

Have been looking into the Buddhist references in LN with the help of some friends and (putting aside the gigantic impact this research had for the Ladies lore and for how I see Rascal as a character [I mean this positively]) now I'm wondering if she too is supposed to be some sort of parallel to some Buddhist entity. Maybe a spirit or a god/goddess?

The Necropolis itself does have some... interesting architecture when it comes to that aspect.

(Provided by my friend @chorusofkhonshu who has gone mentally insane with me😊)

I'll have to do some research on that...

THE IDEA OF THE SPIRAL BEING IN A TORNADO IS SO NICE TO ME I LOVE IT SO MUCH... I'll keep an eye out for it!

[eliasbouchardslut]

Girl, unlovable? You? You're literally so hot and so so beautiful and your brain is so huge and you have the best ideas constantly. Your smile is so sweet and your eyes are radiant and your whole being radiates an ethereal and joyous aura. And you have the most interesting interests, like Victorian flower language? That's literally so cool and probably impresses everyone who knows that it's your interest. Your sense of humour is wonderful. You're just all-around such a cool and impressive person and if I may be so bold I think horses of secret admirers are secretly waiting for their chance to make you theirs.

IM CRYINGGGGG oh my love this is so so sweet i highly doubt there's many people out there that want me to be theirs but the fact that you think so has me so so happy :') im going to treasure this ask so much i genuinely cannot thank you enough. its definitely been a really rough few weeks . thank you my sweetheart you are so appreciated

[damn-stark]

AGGHHHH YASSSS I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THISSS. the break through of healing, to see how cherry really has put in the work to heal, and find the strength to live with her trauma and not allow it to win.

i’m so fckn proud of our girls it’s truly so beautiful to see how they’ve really done everything for each other and for both of their healing journeys.

and the sibling nteractions i’m CRYINGGGGG. though they’ve spent majority of their lives apart, seeing them all come together and not letting the lost time get in the way of them now is so beautiful. especially with eric, seeing him find the solace of what real love from family is in his siblings really shows how confident he was in his bond with them.

that’s not even including the sibling banter😭like cherry grew up with her friends and those are her family. but SOMETHING about sibling banter is just DIFFERENTTT. like playful arguments with friends is not taken to heart. but when it comes from a sibling, THEY JUST KNOW HOW TO PISS YOU OFF AND YOU SHOWED THAT PERFECTLY💀💀 on a sadder note though the person i thought of that could pull that out of her in that sibling way was eren. before her brothers, it was eren. and it just made it a little sad to think of but also happy to know that she now has her brothers apart of her life now.

ALSO WHEN YOU DID THE WHOLE GRAVE SCENE I WAS JUST LIKE “this has got to be the most genius writing ever”. because i vividly remember reading back then, when they had the “burial” for cherry thinking she was dead, when she was really stuck in marley, all i could think about was how they were all grieving a version of cherry that wasn’t her anymore. of course they thought she was dead, but in the readers perspective knowing she wasn’t, all i thought of was that when she would end up coming back home, that the cherry coming back was not the one they “buried”.

AND TO CIRCLE BACK TO THAT POINT WHERE PEOPLE GRIEVED HER AND THOUGHT THEY HAD LOST HER. IN A PLACE THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE A MONUMENT FOR ONES DEATH. AS A POINT OF REBIRTH? OR REVIVAL?NOT THE SAME CHERRY BUT A STRONGER ONE. GODDD YOU ARE A GENIUS.

also i would love to see jeans pov of seeing her again when this is done. seeing her after three years. compared to when he last saw her, dark circles, slightly sunken cheeks, lack of color in her face, with no light in her eyes. to now probably having gained her healthy weight back, more rested, blush in her cheeks, color in her face, with a smile that was genuine and not one that was put on for his peace of mind. that shock and lack of reaction given to seeing her must’ve been him really just taking in how, although the three years of them being apart was tough for him to process at first, it really did her some good.

i’m rambling now, but since this will be my 2nd to last time sending my long cherry rant i can’t feel bad😭 thank you author as always. you’ve done such an amazing job delivering the beauty and pain of healing and traumas. and all of the interactions were an absolute joy to witness. see you next cherry thursday, you’re doing a great job! 🍒❣️

Eren put her brothers in her path after he died so they could be apart of her life!!

Thank you really for all your comments! Since we are close to the end I’m really trying to have everything come back full circle, which meant adressing that grave scene and her coming to peace with that fact too

And jean was just a little star struck by Cherrys beauty!

AND IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOUR LAST COMMENTARY, BUT ALSO SAD!! I can’t believe it’s about to end!

[martritzvonmercie]

kyoko for the ask game!

KYOKO MY GIRLLLLLL as much as i literally never talk about kyoko she is LITERALLY one of my top ten characters of all time. like i LOVE her. so i am happy to talk about her!!!

favorite thing about them - it's hard to put this into words but i really like the way that kyoko expresses her kindness, and i find it refreshing. i think oftentimes we are quick to associate kindness with people who express it in a super non-subtle and direct way, but kyoko is someone who i think is an extremely kind person despite the fact that she sometimes comes off as standoffish or cold, and i really love this about her!!

least favorite thing about them - hmmm, i can't think of anything! just like with komaru, i think any flaws that kyoko has add to her character, so i wouldn't say i dislike them at all. i will say i don't like umm. some of her actions in thh chapter 2 but i think that is an issue of the writers not knowing how to handle that situation above all tbh

favorite line - "Hey, Naegi. No matter what happens, don't give up on hope. I shall always be by your side." STARTS CRYINGGGGG

brOTP - kyoko and togami is such a good friendship. they are makoto's biggest supporters and they are besties

OTP - naegiri!!!!!! i love naegiri, it's the most well-written dynamic out of the ships that the games tries to make semi-canon in my opinion. they complete each other in such an important way, and compared to the protagonist x deuteragonist ships in the other two main games, i think naegiri does the best job of developing their dynamic in a convincing way that shows that they have chemistry and a deep connection. they didn't just throw us 50093893 suffocatingly forced romantic scenes and expect us to think it's #RelationshipGoals (side-eyeing saimatsu rn. sorry.)

nOTP - i don't hate any kyoko ships but i will say i'm not a huge fan of celesgiri - sorry!! i think it's pretty aesthetically, but seeing as kyoko is someone who has a really hard time trusting others, it's hard for me to see someone like celeste, who is extremely inauthentic as a person, being a good match for her. i could maybe see this ship if celeste goes through a lot of development, but i just think she clicks a lot more with makoto if you get what i mean!!

random headcanon - kyoko is the most bisexual girl to have ever bisexualed, her and makoto are the ultimate bi4bi couple ever

unpopular opinion - i wouldn't call this opinion unpopular bc i don't think a majority of people feel this way, but it bothers me when people act like kyoko's actions in trial 5 were selfish or unreasonable. the trial was rigged and unfair - someone who did not commit the crime was going to be executed no matter what, and i think it's unfair to say that she should have been willing to put her life on the line to save makoto. it was neither selfish or selfless - it was just a human way to react, and it doesn't mean she didn't care about makoto. also, contrasting this with the sacrifice she makes in dr3 shows the development her relationship with makoto goes through, and that's something i love about her!!

song i associate with them - sorry i don't really have any kyoko songs wauhghghgh

favorite picture of them - i'm a big fan of ramen noodle kyoko

[lostjulys]

ROSWELL....... LAUDNAS BACK..... LAUDNA AND PERCY INTERACTIONS...... IM CRYINGGGGG MY EYES OUT . HOLDING THEM IN MY HANDS SO GENTLY

YEAHHHG OHH MY GODD!!! I'M SO SO SO GLAD YR CAUGHT UP.... GOD. that whole. lauda laudna my beloved... it was SO BAD watching it live & like. the chill that went down my back when she died + having NO idea if she would make it back.... the rest of bh being like NO we are NOT chillwith this we need. More Laudna... laudna percy interactions!!!!! litererally one of my fave episodes this campaign hghgdbfkgf

[novemquadragintillion]

⚠️ ORV chapter 513 and beyond spoilers ⚠️

Can't read because my eyes are teary. just found out what the 'Most Ancient Dream' is.... :'( I'm like Jung Heewon, my heart can't take this. WHY AUTHOR WHYYYY

Update: I finished a few more chapters and now things are better. My eyes teared up of grief and heartbreak and joy 😭 the Most Ancient Dream didn't have to die. The dream simply needed to end. Fictional dreams became reality, and now the Most Ancient Dream's dream of being protected and forgiven is fulfilled 😭😭😭 does that make sense?? Is this what I'm seeing here?? And Dokja never needs to pay a price for the salvation he received.. (which he never had to in the first place!! (｡•́︿•̀｡) cryinggggg)

Can't wait to find out what happens next. KDJ and co. have gone to the next train..