i have so many thoughts and feelings about seth and all of them involve me wide eyed covered in blood screaming crying like HE WAS A TENOR god i’m so sick
girls when seth deserved to live. girls when seth was a tenor. girls when seth wanted to apologize for being such a brute. girls when seth thought of himself as a waste of space. girls when seth never got to be the shadow with his bright future behind him. girls when in another lifetime, they would've loved to watch kevin day and seth gordon fight their way through graduation. girls when seth was a person, a real person, with hopes and dreams and fears, and he was not marked by death, it was just something that happened to him. girls when seth wanted to live
ARE YOU SERIOUS THE MOMENT I TRY TO GET UP AND PRACTICE FOR MUSIC CLASS. I DKNT KNOW EITHER MAN I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK . LLIKE WHAT THE FUCK. ********* IM ***** ****** *** I WILL SEE YOU IN ONE HOUR.
clawing at my own face and ripping out my hair and rolling around in the dirt why did they write edizzy like that why are they LIKE THIS. i havent even ALLOWED myself to ponder ed's "i loved you... best i could" and how he waited until he thought izzy was dead and the last person who loved him had abandoned him to start his murder-suicide mission with the ship because if i let myself think about it its gonna be over for me dude. like you cannot imagine how over it will be for me. something something mitski i'm your man "so when you leave me, i should die. i deserve it, dont i?" something WHAT IF I STARTED SCREAMING AT THE SKY!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
half an hour into lobotomy corporation day 17 and ive unlocked nothing there's entire profile AND gotten its ego gift on one of my strongest soldiers, all while clearing hod's fourth mission with only one diffraction-related causality and spreading snow queen's gift across as many nuggets as possible to maximize efficiency in the days to come.
and then.
i have to reset. because caeru died.
because i gave him child of the universe's regen token at the start of the day and forgot he still had it while sending him to clean up an unrelated abnormality on meltdown level 9.
all while im exactly one fucking PE box away from buying nothing there's ego suit.
You don't understand this isn't even about ability theories rn or analysis on jack shit for me, I can't even think about that coherently yet. This is about the fact that I somehow managed to latch onto a character based on his appearance in the fucking Dead Apple movie years ago and become so deeply obsessed with him and he not only keeps getting restrained (by his own purposful choices) not only has gotten his shit wrecked beautifully multiple times, not only died sexily and dramatically on screen bleeding all over the goddamn place, but now it turns out he can just die multiple times? He can get his shit wrecked and it is not the end? He can keep bleeding out and getting his pathetic ass dragged past the brink and show right back up? Do you understand how many horrible boxes he checks off for me without even having to manipulate canon in my head? What have I done to deserve such enjoyment omfg.