#Finally got to a point where I'm happy with how it looks! Hopefully lining the hair doesn't have too many changes too hahaha

[drfrogphd]

Mikan wip!

[eustasskidagenda]

hello!! ^^ this is my first time requesting, so hopefully i'm doing this correctly :;

can I request a trafalgar law/reader hurt to comfort oneshot, where the two of them get into a really big argument or fight and reader decides to leave him alone for a long time, so THAT eventually leads to some problems between the two and Law has to make things right??

(basically reader gives law the silent treatment, and law is too prideful to admit his wrongs)

thank you in advance!!! I've really enjoyed reading your kid works, so i'd be happy to see more of your writing :)

☆Trafalgar Law x Reader giving him the silent treatment after an argument 

Hello dear anon, don't worry, you did it perfectly and thank you so much for your request. I had a lot of fun writing it and I hope it will match your expectation. Enjoy our dear emo boy!

CW : g/n reader, hurt&comfort, Law is bad at express how he feels, let me know if I forgot something

WC : around 2,000 words, whoops, I love Law way too much, I got carried away

Law is not a man of many words. That's the less you can tell. Always quiet about his plans, sometimes, you still struggle to understand what's going on in this beautiful mind. Usually, you just deal with it, supporting him as much as you can. But today, it's too much to handle. He is perpetually busy all day and night, and sometimes the bed is cold, and you know he didn't sleep with you. It hurts. You just have the feeling to carry on with this relationship alone. 

"We need to talk, Law." Busy with probably another shenanigan you don't know about, he totally ignores you and continues to read his newspaper. Again. Heavy-hearted, you close your eyes and clench your firsts. You can't step back and always try to round the corners. "Law", you insist. He finally drops the newspaper. "What, y/n-ya?" He asks, annoyed by the interruption. 

"Honestly, lately… I feel totally sidelined. You're always focused on your plans I don't nothing about, or busy with your patients. And it hurts" Law looks surprised by your words. Usually, you're more the one trying to smooth the things and trying to be super-comprehensive, because you do love Law, and you know he had been through a lot. Supporting him is the least you can do. But what about you? Your emotions? 

"I've not neglected you, y/n-ya. I'm just busy." Yes. That's the whole point. "You're always busy. If you don't need me anymore, just say it," you snarls, anger slowly heating your chest and burning your cheeks. Communication is maybe the key, but it's a struggle to communicate with someone as reserved as Law. The worst? You know he loves you. He's just… an aloof. Always distrustful. "Answer me," your voice is shaky from both anger and distress. " I have things to do, y/n-ya. Don't act like a child. I still feel the same way about you, and you know. " 

Maybe it's true, but you don't believe him anymore. You don't even remember the last time you kissed that sweet lips on him. And the feeling of his fingers entwined with yours, when you redraw the lines of his tattoos, cuddling with him in bed. How can you feel the absence of someone you see every day? "I miss you," you confess. "But I'm right here. With you. I need to get those things done, so please be patient." Why can't he understand? With that unreadable face, he's still sitting on his chair. What's going on his mind? "What things, then?" He sighs. "I can't tell." 

No. It's enough. Now, you're mad. "Stop pushing me away! I miss you. Do you realize the absurdity of missing someone I can see every day? It's been four days since we last slept together! This morning, you didn't kiss me! You're always taking me for granted and I feel like I'm transparent!" At last, you manage to get a response from him. He removes his hat, runs his hand through his hair, and his eyes darken as your anger is about to explode. "Can you not be patient? I need to… finish what I'm working on. "

No.

Not this time.

He has already stated that too many times before. Before Dressrosa. Before Wano. You already waited way too long. Even for someone as patient as you, it's too much. " I'm tired," you confess, the voice which with emotions. "It can't keep going like this. Why am I always the second choice for you?"

Maybe it's because you always give everything you have to him. Supporting him, regardless of what. You had to break his armor several times to get closer to him, despite his distant and detached personality. The moment he finally confessed about his past was beautiful. The nights you spend together, simply talking about your lives, goals, and dreams, are rooted in your heart. A warm memory of two souls bonding and finding comfort through words and confession. Now, everything is just fading away. And you hate how angry and confused you sound, when Law is just as calm as always. Does he even notice what you just said? You can't tell.

"You don't even answer me. Such a shame to be named heart pirates when you don't even have one." you explodes, shouting the words.

"I don’t think it's the right time to talk about this because you're too emotional y/n-ya. "

"And you're too logical!"

The saying goes that opposites attract, but you're not so certain anymore. 

"I'm just so fucking done!" Now, you're screaming and Law growls, "Shh, don't yell, everyone will hear us," he says, caring way too much about his privacy. "I don't care! Just say something! " He looks so tired, with his usual dark rings under his eyes. "Leave me or not, but do something because I'm so done with this shit. I'm the only one trying to communicate and make things right!"

You slam the door of his small office with anger and tears prickling at the corner of your eyes. He doesn't follow you. He remains confined, choking on his own pride. He probably thinks you will be back soon, as always after an argument. But not this time. You're really done. It's his time to make some efforts, to prove that he actually cares about you and your relationship. 

At the diner, he doesn't show up. During the night either. It's not easy to distance yourself from him. But you will not change your mind. After three days, he finally starts to realize that you will not come after him. 

Why aren't you bringing him his morning coffee, massaging his tensed shoulders, and spreading your stupid concealer under his eyes? All those small actions you always do to lighten his burden as a captain… damn, he never felt that lonely. But what can he do now? How can he fix the mess he made?

The Polar Tang's ambiance is as cold as a winter island after a week. Everybody noticed the huge tensions between you and the Law. The captain is irritable, barking orders at everyone and looking for you everywhere, but you're just hiding from him. He's exhausted by this situation. He's starting to understand what you said: he misses you, even if you're here. 

It's becoming too much for his tortured soul after 10 straight days. The pain in his heart is unbearable. In reality, he feels like a child he never had the chance to be: terrified, lost and alone. Are you going to leave him too? Why is everyone around him always dying or disappearing? Is it always his fault? Now, he feels miserable, almost crying alone in his office. He can't even focus when Bepo asks him to bandage a small wound he just made. His hair is messy because he runs his hands through it too much. Law sighs heavily. His nerves completely fading away as he struggles to bandage Bepo. Why the hell is he crying over a poor bandage? 

He's exhausted. Physically and mentally. An he misses you. Deeply. He understands everything you said that day. He understands how you have felt lately and it's a horrible sensation. You didn't deserve the way he pushed you away from everything. He misses the warmth of your body, the passion in your sweet kisses, and your hands redrawing his chest tattoo. 

He needs to make things right. 

In this situation, what Corazon would have done? 

Probably running after you after slamming the door, falling miserably on the ground, and crying pathetically with an ugly nose running. Law frowns. But at this point, he's so desperate that he wouldn't mind crawling and begging for your forgiveness. He stumbles out of his office, tired, and looks for you. How can you hide on such a small ship? "Have you seen y/n?" He asks to everyone and they all they say no. Are they lying? Where have you gone? Did something happen to you? Poor Law is so stressed right now, more than usual. He spent the entire day looking for you and failed. Is it too late? Have you just left? Without a goodbye? No. It can't be. He needs to see, kiss, and hug you. Just one more time, just one last time. Even if feels that he doesn't deserve you. 

He slams the door of the bedroom you used to share with brutal force. As he takes off his hat before laying on the mattress, he sighs and an idea crosses his mind. But he's afraid. Because if his plan is not working, it will mean you have already left the Polar Tang. For good. Hands shaking, he finally moves his fingers and mutters, 'room, shambles'. Your plushie disappears as you suddenly pop on the bed. 

Oh, thank god, you didn't leave. "Y/n-ya" he whispers, his voice thick with emotions. 

Your heart is pounding as you remain silent. Ten days. Bepo, Shachi, and Penguin helped you hide from Law for ten days straight. Giving him the silent treatment was a difficult choice and all you can hope for is that it actually worked. "I'm not a man of many words," he confesses. "But I do love you. I'm sorry for always pushing you away, please forgive me. It's just that... I need to keep you out of trouble. If you don't know my current plan for now, it's safer. " For someone as quiet as him, he's talking a lot. But still not enough."I think I've taken you for granted, but I want to be there for you. Please, let me stay by your side. Don't leave me, please." He almost begs, his voice thick with emotions. 

His gentle touch on your cheek almost melts you.  You missed those beautiful, smooth hands on your face. You get closer, enjoying the warm heat heating up your chest. "You're so beautiful", he whispers. He looks so genuinely innocent, discovering again all the small details of your face. What has he done to be so fortunate in love? Does he only deserve you? You can tell that he's not even sure as he waits for your answer, trying to hide the slight shaking in his movements. 

"I love you, Law." You gently assure him by kissing the tattoos on his fingers. As the solace embraces his heart, Law is melting inside.

He didn't lose you. It's not too late. "I know you're not good at words, so I won't ask for much. What you just said is already perfect. Thank you for confessing to me. I know it's hard for you to open up." you reassure him. "What should I do, y/n-ya? How can I show you that I care about you? I won't repeat this situation twice." His eyes are now shining with pure determination. "Just the small things you used to do before. Sleeping with me, giving me a hello and a goodnight kiss... you remember that? Our routines." Law nods, probably taking mental note. "I have to kiss you twenty times." You raise an eyebrow confusedly. "Why?" 

He shrugs. "It's been ten days since I last saw you. And I'm supposed to kiss you all mornings and evenings." He's so serious right now, you can't help but burst out laughing. He's not joking at all. God, you love this nerd so much. The confusion on his face is even more hilarious. " I love you," you sigh between two laughs. "Why are you laughing? Am I wrong?" That man is so smart, cold and logical, but with love… he's just a mess. A beautiful mess. The one you will always love and cherish. "You're so adorable."

And now, he's blushing. How dare you call him adorable? "Just come here," he sighs, grabs your hips, and sits you on his laps. His lips are sealed to yours, and he kisses you. Twenty times. And he's counting. Every kiss is filled with passion, love, unspoken emotions, and sweet promises. 

And, as always when you're together in the same bed, you end up redrawing the tattoos on his chest. As you gently caress his skin, he falls asleep, the tension finally leaving his face. You cradle your head against his chest. His heart is slowly beating, and he looks so calm right now. 

You are here with him, and his tortured mind can finally get some sleep.

[pink-amethyst-tarot]

What to expect in love in 2024

take a deep breath, chose one of the images (or more than one, if you feel called), and go to your pile

You know what is best for you, only you can truly decide your future

P I L E 1 ~ P I L E 2 ~ P I L E 3

Pile 1

Death, Nine of Wands, Queen of Pentacles (Reversed), The Hanged One, Page of Wands

Bottom of the Deck: Seven of Cups

There is a relationship that you have been in that has caused you a lot of distress for a very long time (for some, it may have been years), but I am seeing that relationship coming to an end. I think that it may be because of someone's infidelity and not feeling like you are yourself when in this relationship. I kind of feel myself letting out a sigh of relief. I've been there, I was at a point where, I had already mentally and emotionally checked out of the relationship, so when it was over and I finally got away, I just felt relieved. It's like you have felt trapped with this person for so long, feeling trapped, but now you are on a journey to a new life, with bigger and better things for you. You have a so many opportunities now that this relationship is over. This is your year to find who you are again and get to know yourself. I'm rooting for you, and I think it's going to be such a healing year for you.

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Pile 2

Six of Swords, Eight of Cups, The Emperor, The Hanged One, Page of Wands

Bottom of The Deck: Two of Cups

I wrote a song that I love very much because I know it's a song that I wrote for my soulmate (I haven't met them yet but hopefully soon). "I walked a long road, not knowing it lead to you". That's the line of my song that comes to mind when I look at your cards. You both have done so much to become better for yourselves and for each other, whether that was a conscious effort or not. You have had to leave so many things and people behind and you have your heart broken over and over again. In the coming year, you are going to meet your person and all of that will have been worth it. When you meet your person, you will see that everything that you have been through, every lesson that you have had to learn, was for a reason and you will see that it was all worth it. This person is mature and understanding so you don't have to worry about them not seeing you; not understanding you. This person gets you more than you can comprehend. You will let go of your old ideas of what love is and what love can be when it comes to yourself. This person wants to make long-term plans with you. They want to write letters to you and spend hours talking to you on the phone. This person can't wait to fall in love with you. Please know that this person wants to marry you and after like the third date, they will have the ring picked out! I hope that doesn't scare you. I'm just so sure that it's you. It couldn't be anyone else because no one else could be this perfect.

Channeled Song: my song isn't uploaded anywhere so I can't post it but another song I can add is Dear Soulmate by Laufey

Dear, Soulmate, do you think of me cause I do // Do you have blue eyes? Or are they brown like mine? // Do you have a sister, too? // Dear Soulmate, one day I'll give this song to you // Dear Soulmate, I can't wait to fall in love with you //

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Pile 3

Queen of Wands, Nine of Pentacles, Knight of Wands, Seven of Wands, Six of Pentacles

Bottom of the Deck: Two of Pentacles

I'm getting that you are so happy being single and independent! You do well on your own and you like what you have accomplished since you have been single. You're worried that if you get into something serious, you will fall out of balance in your life. I think that may come from a past relationship that was not fulfilling to you and that person may have weighed you down in a lot of ways. There is someone who is coming in (and they are coming in fast, might I say) and they aren't what you are afraid of. They will actually help you maintain that balance that you've cultivated in your life as they mold your life with theirs. You're being called to not fight this or to push this person away. This person is very giving and they just want to give you all of their love.

Channeled Song: Silver Springs by Fleetwood Mac

time cast its spell on you // but you won't forget me // I know I could have love you // but you would not let me// I'll follow you down to the sound of my voice will haunts you // you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you//

I feel like this song is an omen, pretty much saying to not mess this up. Don't be such a guarded person that you keep the good ones out, too.

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LEGAL DISCLAIMER: FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY. THESE READINGS ARE FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY. no guarantees are implied. These readings are not a substitute or replacement for any professional help or services. My readings are not a substitute for any form of professional legal, medical/psychiatric, relationship, religious/spiritual or financial/ business advice nor consultations. You should always see a professional legal/trained adviser for help in any matter. I am not responsible for any decisions/ actions you take.

[marshallpupfan]

Marshall Merchandise Update!

Ha ha... Walmart made a liar out of me. I was there not even a week or two ago, and they had no Jungle Pups toys, whatsoever. I stopped in today, and look at what they're finally stocking on their shelves! The selection was quite small, however. They just had the Deluxe Elephant vehicle, the Marshall & Skye set, and the Chase & Tracker set. For the usual-sized vehicles, they only had Rubble's and no one else's.

You know, when the Mighty Movie toys slowly trickled in, I recall my stores only got Rubble at first, too. What's up with that? It's like they expect his merch to fly off shelves, so they always stock it first. I wonder how true that is...?

The "Deluxe Elephant Vehicle" is certainly the star attraction this time around. Unless I'm mistaken, Marshall's the only one to get one of these larger vehicles, so way to go, spotted one! To be honest, outside of Tracker, I'd say he might've had the second-biggest presence in Jungle Pups, which after season 9, I was very glad to see.

...Which makes it all the more a shame that Nickelodeon USA shoved all of the episodes out in less than a week here. I really wish they'd taken their time with this subseries. :(

In any case, this thing's trunk is supposed to launch plastic water balls (three are included), which is pretty neat. You can place the unused ones in that tube on top, and I believe you can press a button somewhere to release a little latch to have the next water ball roll into place to get launched. There's also a container on the back where you can store them. The driver's seat has the usual clip so the Marshall figurine won't fall out, though I sometimes dread using those, as I'm always afraid it might scratch the paint on the figurine. 😅

Overall, I'd say it's pretty cool! Hopefully the kids will like it, too.

Next, the "Marshall, Skye & Elephant" set. As I mentioned before, there's another set just like this, except it has Chase, Tracker and a tiger. Admittedly, I wish they'd included Chase and Marshall together. Skye fans would've been happy with Tracker, right? lol

Similar to the vehicle above, the elephant also launches a projectile, although this one's more of a splat of water. Also, I compared the two figurines of Marshall, and they're virtually identical... save for his pup pack being yellow and there's less silver paint. They didn't always used to do that, but I think, ever since the pandemic, they've been cutting costs by just using the same mold and painting them a little differently. I'm not sure how to feel about that. 😅

That's it for the Jungle Pups toys for now. Marshall also has a smaller, more traditionally-sized vehicle, but my Walmart didn't get any in yet. Naturally, I hope to add that at some point... and any mini-figurines, plush dolls and/or True Metals, if they end up making any. Currently, I've no idea if those are coming or not. No doubt the Jungle Pups line of merchandise won't be as big as what came before it.

But while this is all I have to show of Jungle Pups... I've got one more item recently that I'm especially happy to finally own!

Behold! A Christmas ornament of Marshall's hat! As some of you might remember, or if you recall the Daily Marshall Pic I posted last Christmas (click here to see it again, as I hand-drew the strand and animated the lights myself and I'm still rather proud of it), the TV series actually featured this ornament in one of its episodes! Season 7's "Pups Save a Bah-Humdinger", to be precise (which aired back in 2020). They made some of them into actual ornament soon after, and I've been trying to get a hold of one for a few years now.

...However, they only ever showed up on Amazon, and they only sold Marshall's ornament in a set with Chase and Skye's ornaments (pic below). I kept hoping they'd sell them separately, so I waited and waited for them to show up either in stores or on Ebay. Strangely, no such luck. The only option was Amazon.

However, over time, the price started to drop more and more. They started around $23, and they recently dropped to around $12. I figured why not finally go for it, especially since a relative of mine was able to get me free shipping through her Prime membership. I wasn't sure if I was going to get the one I was looking for, as a review stated that when they bought the set, the only got one. Fortunately, they sent me all three, so that made me happy.

...Except they used bubble wrap to ship them, and Marshall's ornament arrived broken. The part on top, with the yellow ball and mistletoe (?), had snapped off, due to it being rather thin and all. Still, a little super glue fixed it right up, so it's practically good as new. It's disappointing that happened, but hey, I'm glad I finally have it. :)

And that's all for now! Geez, I didn't mean to type so much in this post. I'm a bit long-winded, huh? Ha, I guess I don't know the meaning of the word "brevity". To wrap things up, hopefully my stores will get the other vehicles in soon enough, and anything else of Jungle Pups that's yet to come. I'll let you all know what I find!

[laurfilijames]

Finally replying back to your reblog😂😂I’ve literally reread it any chance I get!!! I can’t believe you had to use another device🙉 and here I was thinking there wasnt much to it🤓

Imma skip to the old hag comment: girl when I tell you it took everything in me to keep it classy and only mention them once💀 my petty side was ready to come out and be like “for the people in the back…this is their way of communicating” Everytime they had that silent conversation 😗 And you know I will always get it!!!😌💅🏾

I’m so glad you love my little intro to the podcast🤧 I haven’t decided if I’m gonna change it to fit the fall vibes bc I like the look of the champagne glasses🥹

You did a phenomenal job with keeping it from feeling spiteful!!! You can tell that he’s very confident in our relationship, in us, and himself to the point where it’s like what’s there to be jealous of. He knows that we’ll always come home to him, that our heart belongs to him and vice versa so there’s no need for the green eyed monster to make an appearance🙂‍↔️ And if someone didn’t get that *cough* *cough* you reiterate that thought which I loved a lot😍

Omggg I’ll frame the gold star and hang it on my wall🤩 I was gonna say i put your fic under a microscope but honestly it just comes naturally😂

You did a wonderful job getting the emphasis across!!

Give us all the cheesiness pleaseeeee😩 I appreciate the non-verbal communication so much!!! You can tell that there are times where they feel so much that it’s hard to describe it in words so being able to translate that into other forms of communication is important to them🥹

You including your best friends in your stories is so cuteeee🙉 it was either Bess or Jenny and Jenny sounds a lot nicer😌💗 omg I love that🤣

Again gimme all the cliche☺️ nothing is unrealistic as long as you’re with a person who is interested in keeping the romance alive😌 yesss because no one can tell you how to write your story😤

When I tell you I have not stopped thinking about the dip scene🙉🙉 I joke with my best friend about needing us to go back to Nashville so I can get my line dance on and bump into the love of my life😩 hopefully I can find a man that’s got moves like Will😍

Fucking Will outside was all I could think about 😂 plus he would just look so pretty with his chest heaving, skin flushed in a soft pink hue and a fucked out expression on his face🤭🥵

Now that I’ve found my groove I’m gonna go back to the first four chapters and re-reblog them at some point🤭 honestly you don’t have to thank me!!! You sharing your reactions to my comments is more than enough🥹💗✨ I love you too Laurie☺️🙂‍↔️🌸

You reread it any chance you get???? 😭😭😭😭 Rayyyyyy I can't even believe this!! And yeah, your prolific comments almost always require me to use a second device to easily keep track of all your notes while I'm replying!! I love it so much and can't thank you enough!!

🤣 I appreciate you being in my corner with all of that nonsense with the anon. There's times I still go over it in my head but it's done and hopefully they have a better understanding to how and why I'm writing this relationship how I am.

I'm a huge Prosecco fan so I'm happy to keep on with the glasses but also happy to change it to a warm cup of something if you'd prefer! 🥂☕️ I'm just so giddy that you treat these comments and discussions like a podcast 🥹💗

Thank you for loving the cheesiness/romantic side of things now that the angst is through! I know people love drama so I've been fretting that they won't enjoy it as much now but I can't keep doing that to them or myself 🤣 WILL NEEDS TO BE HAPPY!!!!

I am obsessed with you going to Nashville and bumping into a strong, kind cowboy while line dancing yessssssssss!!! I'm manifesting this to happen so hard!!! 🤠 (and may he look like Riley Green 🙏🥵)

Anddddd now my mind is buzzing over your description of Will post-fuck outside 🫠🫠🫠 I really need to sneak this in and will try my best to!

You're going to go back and re-reblog the first chapters?!?!? Ray!!! You do not need to do that but I love you so dearly for being this invested in my story that you want to continue to share it 🥹😭💗 I'm seriously going to run out of ways to thank you!

[tea-earl-grey]

Get to Know Me!

tagged by @lostyesterday (thanks for the tag <333)

Last song: based on my phone – Everything's Here And Nothing's Lost by Snow Patrol but technically my last song is about two lines from Intros & Narrators by Bastille which i've been listening to on repeat for a few days while editing my Janeway fanvid.

Favorite color: purple!

Currently watching: just finished watching Only Murders in the Building which i enjoyed more than i thought i would since i'm not a huge fan of murder mysteries but it's fun! also the musical numbers in s3 slapped and i'm looking forward to the rest of s4.

Last movie: i genuinely have no idea, i haven't been watching a lot of movies lately so it might be Star Trek 2009??? which i rewatched over a month ago i think.

Sweet/spicy/savory: currently sweet because i'm currently eating some freshly baked chocolate chip cookies :)

Relationship status: single and happy.

Current obsessions: (glances around) i mean you're on this blog so i think you can put two and two together here. aside from Star Trek & Doctor Who, i've been getting back into cross stitching which hopefully won't absolutely fuck up my hands this time (i mean... they will, i'm just trying to be better about only doing it for an hour a day and wearing my elbow brace & compression gloves)

Last thing I googled: "best toasters" ok. so earlier today i fucked up my toaster beyond belief and i do need to tell the story now because it's still absolutely baffling to me. (under the cut because uh. it got long.)

tagging: any of my mutuals! sorry i'm so bad at tag games.

toaster story:

i was having a late lunch (toast with some leftovers) and sliced my bread a bit too thin (not a big deal, happens all the time, right? right?) i popped the toast up a little early because i didn't want it to get burnt but it got stuck. not a problem. i'll get some (non metal) tongs. whoops! it fell out of the little toast cage because of how thin it is and now it's more stuck. okay well i'll unplug the toaster and just turn it upside down. nope. it somehow falls to the bottom where the crumb tray is. ok well i'll just flip it back around, take out the crumb tray and it's fine, right? i flip it around and the toast is simply not visible anymore. "well that's weird," i say, "surely if i shake it some more, it'll come out, right?" it did not. i start to question whether the bread is even in there anymore because where could it go???? before spotting it with my flashlight and seeing that it somehow migrated to the wall between the food/toaster part of the toaster and the circuitry part of the toaster. i have no idea how it happened but it should be easy to free it if i just undo the screws that attach the bottom panel of the toaster and i can do a good deep clean of everything. i take five screws out, no problem and it's starting to pry off. i get to the last screw and... it's completely stripped. i have a pretty comprehensive toolbox with one of those multi-piece screwdrivers that has like 50 different heads. usually with stripped screws, you can find something that sorta works well enough to get it out but nope. nothing even close to fitting. at this point i decide to text my mom the situation because surely i was missing something obvious. my mom comes over laughing a bit at me because i'm known for overlooking easy solutions and surely it's not possible to fuck up making toast this much. it was. another hour passes and we definitely can't get out the screw without destroying the toaster and we haven't been able to shake the toast out. any sane person would probably just think that maybe the $30 toaster had served its purpose and is a lost cause. but a new strategy emerged! we managed to shake the bread to the unscrewed side of the toaster and could pry it open about three quarters of an inch. the bread somehow managed to get behind a circuit board so we just needed to be able to navigate it around and theoretically pull it out. after a few attempts, i finally managed to grab hold of the bread (that was somehow still entirely intact?) with my weirdly skinny fingers and i pulled it out victorious! however we did completely bend the plastic base that we were prying up and during a brief test to see if the toaster still worked it definitely started to smell like burning electronics so. rip. but we got the bread out just to prove we could!! and frankly i think i would have had too much of a grudge against that toaster to keep using it even if it did work.

so yeah. therefore googling "best toasters".

[randomidiocyncrazies]

Gwitch s2 e4: The Cycle of Sin

I'm glad Miorine is back with Earth House and Suletta! She's so happy :3

It's really unsettling when Suletta says she'll do whatever Prospera asks of her, even kill using gundams, though she's obviously troubled by this line of questioning. She can't get out of the cult mindset on her own, but hopefully she'll have slightly more doubt going forward...

Also, I'm so glad Mio doesn't get mad *at* her—rather, she gets mad *for* her and confronts the true source of the problem. She's not stupid and knows first hand how manipulative Prospera is, so it's good that she doesn't blame Suletta for it.

It's chilling that Prospera literally does not think of Suletta as anything but a tool in her revenge/for her 'real' daughter during her confrontation with Miorine, and the whole "hee hee do you want to have your way with her next?" is soooo gross

I'm curious about where the Space Assembly League plot is going, and I'm slightly worried that 8 eps will not be enough to wrap Witch from Mercury's story up and have a satisfying ending? There are quite a lot of plot points that need to be resolved, and while the show has a quick pace idk if they can address all those in a satisfying manner.

It's interesting that they cut to Felsi at that point of the couch duo's conversation. It seems to imply that Felsi will be gunning for the Holder title herself, and with how many times Suletta talks about how she hasn't lost a duel yet, it's foreshadowing that Suletta *will* lose. I've seen speculation that Miorine orchestrates to have another Holder in order to make Suletta a less attractive tool to Prospera and to get the backing of one of the big three—if that pans out, it might also add an obstacle on the Mio/Suletta romance that they can overcome together.

Also, Felsi already felt excluded by Lauda and Petra's closeness last ep, and this time only Lauda and Petra got to reunite with Guel, so Felsi might be doing what she can for Jeturk Heavy Machinery using the skills she has with very limited information. I'm looking forward to see how her character develops in future episodes.

I hope Guel doesn't do anything dumb, his family and team needs him. Jeturk Heavy Machinery's reputation is dragged through the mud, they're going bankrupt, the Group and stakeholders need an explanation for why Jeturk MS were piloted by the terrorists, and there's an upcoming election for a new Benenit Group president, so Guel is coming back to a volatile situation. Also, the fact that Guel accidentally killed his father will come out eventually—I'm scared about what will happen to the brothers when that gets revealed... And on the same note, Shaddiq's involvement in the terrorist attack will also get revealed eventually, maybe even during the election for the Benerit Group's next president (PLEASE).

Sabina being confirmed Earthian implies that all the girls in Shaddiq's squad are Earthians, or has Earthian heritage like him—my guess is that they all came from the same orphanage, or at the very least Shaddiq and Sabina did. Their group is an interesting look into how marginalized groups wield power & status once they've been (conditionally) accepted into the privileged group, and how they don't necessarily treat others within the marginalized group they were once part of with any more sympathy/kindness. Or like, they still treat Nika and Sophie+Norea like pawns in their grand scheme, despite their grand goal of redistributing the power dynamics.

Sabina's adoption by Grassley also suggests interesting CSR practices within Grassley—Shaddiq's adoptive dad was shocked and dismayed by the events of the prologue, so I guess he and his company adopt Earthian children to "make up for it"? Since Vanadis Institute was working with an Earthian company. It's also possibly a critique on international adoption practices, where the adoptive parents see their children's native culture as inferior and has a savior complex about it.

(Also, we finally see one (1) dude in Shaddiq's faction, and he looks quite a lot older than Shaddiq, so I wonder what his deal is. We also see Shaddiq's faction is the weakest within Grassley, but they seem convinced they'll come out on top quickly, so I'm guessing they got blackmail on hand. They should damn well hope none of their own skeletons get dragged out at inopportune moments lol.)

I'm looking forward to the Benerit Group president arc—Shaddiq is extremely confident, but I'm equally confident that he'll get his smug ass kicked. He wrote Miorine off as a contender and doesn't seem to be aware of Guel's return, so he's deffo getting blindsided by at least one of them.

I also can't help but notice Peil doesn't seem to be pushing for their own contender in this ep—it fits their practice re: enhanced clones, in that they'll let someone else be the face (i.e. the Group's president) and pull strings from the shadows. Since El5n is unable to steal Ariel's secrets, they might back Miorine as president in an attempt to get at them, or even just because Mio isn't directly affiliated with one of the other big three, so them backing her gives them leverage further down the road—she'll owe them, and they don't have to contend with the pressures of Mio's own company; a Grassley candidate will have to answer to Grassley's interest first, and likewise for a Jeturk candidate. Gundam Inc. is a tiny company with little ability to push back against one of the big three, so by corporate logic Miorine 'has to' put them first.

On the subject of Peil, Belmeria talking about how she had no choice but to make enhanced clones on Peil's payroll in front of an enhanced clone whose life was fucked over because of the procedure she helped develop sure was a dumbass move—I understand that the Vanadis massacre was traumatizing and she needed to survive, but ngl I was rooting for El5n during their confrontation. And the clones are a foil to Suletta in terms of their lack of agency/autonomy—Suletta is raised to be blindly obedient through Prospera's fake care for Suletta's well-being, while the clones are not given any care and directly threatened with death for any perceived failures or refusals of compliance... but both Prospera and the Peil company sees them as nothing more but disposable tools. If given the chance, the clones will bite back, but someone who was brainwashed like Suletta would struggle a lot more with turning against their abusers.

Eri's confrontation with El5n is quite interesting: I assumed she let El4n pilot her because he was with Suletta and got her okay to do so. However, Miorine did not get Suletta's consent to pilot Ariel, but she emerged fine from the experience. Likewise, El5n did not get Suletta's consent to pilot Ariel, but unlike Miorine, he ended up violently rejected. IMO either Eri can tell that El5n intends to snoop around and uncover her secrets (Miorine didn't have that intent), or the reaction is because of El5n's enhanced Parmet sensitivity/data storm resistance (which Mio most likely lacks), or a combination of both. So far the only people who saw Eri were El4n, Sophie and El5n, all of whom are gundam pilots, and Eri/Ariel says "mom can't hear my voice" in the novella, suggesting that you have to have a certain level of Permet sensitivity(?) to communicate with her, and that maybe she only acts defensively if someone with the required Permet level who she doesn't trust is in the picture? idk if she can forcibly override the Permet scores of someone who is not receptive (connected to the GUND format), which might be why Miorine was okay back in the first ep.

the sentiment of "ends doesn't justify the means" has come up at least twice this ep, and I hope it will be more nuanced than how it's usually portrayed in most media—yanno, the kind of thing where it's like "the oppressed radical group has a good point! quick, make them so evil that the moderate course of action is the only morally justifiable one by comparison" etc etc.

Also I hope the power dynamics and structures will have a meaningful change at the end of the show, instead of "dw the right person is the supreme overlord now, so everything's gonna be okay" that a lot of stories default to. It's easy to criticize and replace a person in power; it's hard to criticize and change an oppressive system that perpetuates inequality and the suffering of minorities/the disadvantaged. the former is a superficial easy fix with no real substance, while the latter is meaningful but takes skill to write about. I'm... optimistic but cautious about Okouchi Ichirou's abilities—I've heard decent things about Code Geass, but I was personally disappointed by the ending of Sk8 (hopefully season 2 will be better?), and I've heard his endgame plots can be very divisive.

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

I’ve never read moby dick in my entire life but seeing you post about it so much made me want to give it a try! any warnings before I go into it? :D

oh my god gbskxjs okay first of all im honored that my mad posting has had this effect :DD!! you are so powerful for this, genuinely 💙💙

and secondly YEAH ok i can absolutely give some warnings!!!! this answer got long tho so I'm gonna put it under the cut 🐳💙

Firstly: the main thing most people struggle with in Moby Dick (myself included) is how utterly rambley the narrator is.

there WILL be pages upon chapters at a time where he simply Cannot get to the point, which is frustrating!!! something that helped me to keep in mind, though, is that Ishmael is doing that on purpose to avoid having to relive his trauma. It helped me to think of his whale rants as either a friend infodumping, or a desperate plea for the story to stop repeating.

if that doesn't help, you can always look up a summary for a chapter to see if there's any plot you'll miss by skipping it lmao

The Racism. This is a novel written by a white man in the early 1800s. There is some bullshit in this.

Although Melville does try to be conscious abt race and stereotypes, and has a very diverse cast, he still majorly fucks up. He regularly refers to several major characters as "s*vage", uses outdated terminology for Black people, throws out all sorts of shitty descriptors for folks, and rarely lets the characters of color speak for themselves. It's important to be aware of that going in.

This one is a weird dichotomy though, bc like. on one hand. all of that is infuriating. but on the other hand, the love interest of the narrator is literally a Pasifika man who is a gorgeous character that undercuts a ton of stereotypes and is allowed to be a nuanced person with a life that exists outside of the white characters. There's several characters of color who get to be People and have nuanced experiences and vibrant lives!! Pip and Tashtego and arguably Ahab himself are all fascinatingly nuanced folks that are not entirely bound by stereotypes!!

However comma, there's also an entire character who isn't allowed to exist outside of "evil zoroastrian stereotype" so hgbbjggbngmdhhf. it's a whole thing. Be aware of it.

Animal death — this is a book about whaling gbsjfjjf

Seriously though a significant portion of the book is dedicated to violently killing and then harvesting the corpses of whales. It does get sad! Some whales are killed more brutally than others. There is gore.

Rope violence/strangulation

This is just a safe one to mention. Lots of shit goes wrong with the rigging/harpoon lines in the book. Several characters are seriously injured or killed directly due to this.

Suicidal themes/tragedy

The first chapter literally starts off the book with this gbskfjwjd but it is a present theme throughout, and especially in regards to the final tragedy. A significant portion of the story involves characters thinking that they have no choices left but to die.

In tandem with that, this book is a tragedy. Like a "everybody dies" kind of tragedy. Do not go into this story thinking that you're getting a happy ending out of it LMAO. there's love and joy and good times within the story, but it ultimately ends in tragedy.

This is a long ass post, but hopefully it's thorough enough to give you answers!!! On the more uplifting side: I did have a fantastic time reading this. The characters are all super compelling, the queer rep is incredible for the time, the narrative is truly awesome, and it genuinely left a huge impact on me. It definitely earns its place as a masterpiece of American literature imo.

I will also note that if you would prefer to engage with an adaptation of MobyDick that is not narratively racist to its characters, generally more accessible, and also gorgeous, I will always recommend @pocketsizedquasar 's Moby Dick (Or, The Webcomic)! It is, as of yet, unfinished, but they're currently releasing pages weekly, and it's what got me to read the book in the first place. There's a ton of heart here.

But yea thanks for reading this long ass ramble, and definitely do whatever you need to keep yourself safe! 💙💙💙 happy reading if you choose to!!! :D 🐳

[ananke-xiii]

On Supernatural, getting what you want and the power of stories

I'm writing this post on the spur of the moment and I'm not exactly sure what my real point is, but I felt the urge to share my thougths with... well, I would say with someone, if by someone we mean any possible tumblr users that might stumble on my ramble.

It's all started after I've finished watching Supernatural and, among the many things that this show has made me think about more deeply, there is one that has just stuck with me and I can't seem to shake it off.

This thing is the idea that you can't get what you want. It's my own personal feeling, it might be the case that the show left you with something else, hopefully more positive. In my case, though, I was left dumbfounded after my discovery that the story I was passionately following for the past few months reached no catharsis.

Let's take Mary Winchester.

Mary: since life is about getting what you want? (from s12x12)

I'm sorry but when I heard this line my heart sunk a little. Her character starts off as a trope (the fridged woman that sets the action into motion), then gets back into the play in a fascinating way just to be literally erased from the face of earth. The show can tell us that she's happy in Heaven but this is not reassuring at all and doesn't change the tragedy inherent in her character.

The we have Dean Winchester, of course.

Pamela: How come you only want what you can't have? (from s14x10)

In this scene we are in Dean's "dream life" and yet, even there it doesn't seem possible for him to get what he wants. Why is that so?

Finally, we have Cas.

Cas: The one thing I want, it's something I know I can't have. (s15x19)

This was so hard to watch. I mean, not only does he want just ONE thing, but he also knows (or think of knowing which is the same for the audience as we don't know exactly what he wants), that by default he cannot have it. On top of that, because of the deal with the Empty, Cas had to actively choose between happiness and LIFE: it's just atrocious.

These characters, like many others on this show, were killed off without reaching the end of their becoming. Or, worse, the completion of their becoming was death.

So this got me thinking.

First of all, as far as storytelling is concerned, we as a collective have taken death too literally. Writing this in a silly post about frigging SUPERNATURAL where characters have died and come back countless of times seems CRAZY but hear me out.

There are two immensely powerful things that are intrinsically connected to the image of thread: stories and Destiny. They both inevitably lead to an ending. But death is not a fucking ending!

And it's precisely because of that, among all shows, Supernatural was THE perfect show that could have finally showed&told us this truth.

Think about it: we do not need to end stories with death. In the stories we have the incredible power to show death figuratively. So, for instance, a character that goes through their becoming can come out the other side both very much alive AND very much dead, because their past SELF has died. It's called metamorphosis, look it up!

In a story (and I would argue in life but I don't want to get too philosphical here) death is just a step in the process, it doesn't have to equate with the literal ending.

So why are we scary of this? Because it's frigging frightening!!! And exicting!!! And revolutionary!!! And I think we should start telling stories where people get what they want, become what they want and yes, a "self of them" dies in the process but this is good!!! It should be celebrated!!! And this death doesn't need to be literal/physical, more specifically this is a kind of death that doesn't cut off the becoming but enables it.

Stories are power. If we can't get what we want in our stories where does this leave us? No, I won't accept that. I think people are starting to realize this, too. We don't want silly stupid stories with silly stupid happy endings (and I would argue that, symbolically speaking, marriage is a form of death, too, but I digress). We want powerful stories vouching for the possibility of transformation, of catharsis, of getting what we want.

(so unfridge Cas, Mary and Dean, please)

[rhapsodyred-writes]

How about "Don't stop doing what you love." with Ghost from like a mother figure type reader?

Thanks for the ask, I enjoyed writing it!

Ghost was frustrated. This wasn't the first time Lillianna had told him that tea parties were for girls, but every other time he had them anyway. That was because, after the first time, someone came along who told him tea parties were for everyone! And he liked that idea so much that he started having them. But then Lillianna found out somehow and had to make a point to ruin his fun, again and again and again. At this point, he was tempted to throw out all his tea party stuff and the "girl" gendered toys, just to get Lillianna off his back. The thought made him sad, but if it would get him some peace from someone who hated fun so much, maybe it would be worth it.

You walked in right in the middle of him throwing out everything that could be considered girly. Well, "throwing out" was a strong phrase. He was putting it all in a big black garbage bag, but he fully intended to donate all his toys.

"Ghost?" You asked, and he could hear the worry in your tone. "What are you doing?"

For a second or two, he considered lying, but...he just couldn't lie to you.

"I'm getting rid of my girly stuff." His words came out sharper than intended, and he wasn't all that surprised when you sat down on the floor next to him.

"Do you want to tell me why?" You asked.

He didn't really want to, but at the same time, you were one of the people he trusted most in this world. You deserved it.

"Lillianna." That single word was firm as he tossed a doll haphazardly into the bag before silently apologizing to it.

You sighed, all the indication he needed to know that you had at least an idea of where this was going.

"You know Lillianna isn't the boss of you," You said, your tone soft, even as he could see the tension behind your eyes.

"I know." He sighed. "I'm just so tired of her telling me some of the stuff I like is for girls only." He found something very interesting on the carpet to focus his attention on. "I thought maybe, if I got rid of my girly stuff, then she'd leave me alone."

"That might work, yeah." Your tone was sad, and Ghost didn't want to look up at you. "But would it make you happy?"

"No..." He didn't need to think about it. He knew he'd hate it. It was a poor trade-off for a little peace.

"I also know," You continued, and he finally looked up to see you smiling slightly. "That if you keep doing what you're doing, do you know who's going to be most upset about it?"

Ghost tilted his head a little to the side. "Lillianna?"

"Exactly! If you throw out the things you love, it's the same as telling Lillianna she's right. But," Your smile was growing as you continued. "If you keep your things and keep having tea parties, eventually she'll realize she can't push you around anymore."

"You mean she'll leave me alone?"

"Hopefully." You leaned forward and smoothed his hair down. "You might have to hold tight for a little longer though, my little silver lining."

Ghost grinned at the nickname and leaned forward to hug you tightly. "Thanks."

"Anytime," You hummed. "Don't prioritize other people's biases above your own wants and needs. And above all else, don't stop doing what you love."

[tendiaries]

all i want for christmas is you

what is the purpose of concerts? i ask the crowd in a seinfield-esque way and wait for the feedback of a couple chuckles before continuing.

no, because, you pay a lot of money, stand somewhere for hours while deafening loud song plays and you see a handful of people on a platform. just people, normal people. and that's it. the crowd hopefully laughs a bit on this part, but probably not, as this is not very funny for reasons of it not being a joke.

there's a chance you're gonna be going through the experience surrounded by people you've picked fights with on twitter. most of them are complete strangers, just standing there with you looking at the same people. and realizing they're just people. and then it's over. nothing changes.

this is the bottom line of the mental gymnastics i've been using as an exercise routine ever since the end of 2019. it's gone through a few revisions and ended up here, and i think there's not much else we could improve on. this is, after all, me rationalizing concerts to the point of rendering them meaningless.

concerts are meaningless. that's what i keep trying to tell myself, unconvinced, but something's gotta give at some point.

i recognize that as far as being in countries that are not part of the "world" where "world tours" take place, i'm pretty lucky. i'm in the only country where we know for certain people stop by when they're touring this otherworldly continent (if they plan on performing a full concert, and not 5 songs in a festival that proceeds to get cancelled). and i'm in the only state where we know for certain people stop by when they come over to this country far removed from the world they tour. not the same city, but i can save up my 15 dollars for the trip, and i'm in a place where i can save 15 dollars. lucky

i remember pretty clearly in 2019 when the dates started being released, one new date every day, and how hopeful i was that i'd get the announcement i wanted. except one day, after the united states and europe were packed full, there was no new post. but that's ok! they do second legs of tours! so it's fine. it's tour > comeback > second leg, and chances are, if they're touring outside of the world, with the size of this country the odds are in your favor! and then that tour was postponed for two years.

they announce concerts in their country and i look up flight tickets. it's not unaffordable, but would put a strain on my finances for a while (this country is not part of the world so the conversion between world and non-world currencies is not great), but it's manageable. the problem is that we're not sure it's safe, if it's gonna get cancelled last minute, if the countries are gonna lock down again. but things are looking up so there'll definitely be a second leg announced now!

on the week of the LA concerts i mute "coming back", which i believe i still have muted to this day. i don't really check through my list of 60 muted words related to concerts (it works fairly well!). i found it a little hard to believe that there was going to be another world world tour announced before non-world got anything. for my well being (since the exercise hadn't reached its final form) i decided it was for a festival or two and for north-american promotions. it was not

the end of 2021 was particularly harsh in that regard. people were. honestly. insane. and insufferable about seeing the tour after two years. all of the concerts had streams on twitter, and people who lived in the world world were happy. i considered leaving. it was better than seeing people who had so much i wanted complain about the minor inconveniences of what they had. it's a difficult equation to make. i once heard someone say that there was a study somewhere that diminishing your annoyance improves your life more than augmenting your happiness, so according to this, leaving a thing i loved but hurt me was better than staying for the happiness it provided. i stayed then because i'm stubborn, a little stupid, and because those people who are just people who stand on platforms whom i've come to love cannot possibly improve my life by being removed from it. with them i would in one way or another let go of other people who i see on the same ground level as me, though the ground they stand on is notoriously part of the world and mine is not (this analogy sounds very self-victimizing but i just thought it was so funny and now i'm too invested in it to stop)

from the beginning of 2022 i thought that maybe if i could be In the world at the same time as the higher-ground-level people i'd be restricted on twitter a few less times (it's three so far! they were all because of this whole thing!). so some things were put in motion, but you see, i've never been In the world, which makes everything a bit harder. the main character of the world and a lot of its minor players are not very interested in letting non-world people get in, lest they enjoy too much the possibility of not being crushed by them economically and i guess spiritually and decide to stay a while. it's good thinking!! a lot of them would! a lot of them do! but to ask to just go for a quick visit and come back it demands a lot of time (which i didn't know about and therefore didn't have enough of) and a lot of money (which i don't have a lot of, but knew about). i did have a ticket to be ground level (pretty good ground level!) to see the higher-ground-level people. i know my luck well enough to never have really trusted this would lead me to being In the world at the same time as the people i wanted to see on the platforms blasting sounds that would make my tinnitus worse for a day or two, so although there was some upset it was manageable.

when i got that golden ticket i told a handful of people, a bit embarrassed of the fact that it seemed reckless to an extent, the ticket itself was almost a month's salary, not to mention transportation and all the other little things you need to stay alive and healthy and safe both in the world and outside. i also feel like the world people have no idea how it feels like, so i don't feel like the expense to see normal people, absolutely fucking normal people, for two hours standing on the platform, seems justifiable to them. i really don't know, but i've also come to realize recently that i have a tendency to think the worst of people, which i'm trying to change. to half of them i never told that it fell through, but i guess they picked up on it anyway.

the thing about the golden ticket is that i had admission for one, for one day. but when i saw other normal people getting their tickets, no one seemed happy with anything they got. some wanted seats from where they could see the platform better, some wanted to wave at the platform people from ground level but behind a glass panel (spooky). that doesn't help make concerts make any more sense. if everyone is unhappy doing something you'd spend a significant portion of your yearly earnings to do while paying only an insignificant fraction of it, it starts to seem pointless. most of the people i know had enough admission tickets in total in 2022 to compose anywhere from 1 to 3% days spent with normal people worsening their earsight from the platform

statistically, every time non-world is not part of the world in "world tour", the chances of it being part of it soon go up by a little bit (again, i'm lucky that i'm in a very likely spot amongst the unlikely), but it's the bus paradox a little bit. actually it has nothing to do with the bus paradox. you just wait because there's nothing else to do (although you did check the flight prices for many places that are not punishing you for living in the non-world by preventing you from visiting it, and you did consider taking a loan that's roughly enough to buy a brand new car just so you could've gone somewhere and watched something and you deeply regret not doing it in hindsight. which is a bit crazy)

so now they're leaving the main character of the world soon, but not before announcing the supporting cast will also be graced with the presence of these normal people. and that's fine because everyone knew it, and i did the equation again only recently, before the first world had its tour, and decided to stay once again. ah! that's the bus paradox. that i could leave now because there's nothing happening and then there'll be less annoyance, or i can wait a bit longer and take the bus i've craved for three years, which has the most comfortable seats, the best route, and all of the people on board give you a sense of belonging because they're all going to exactly the same place as you, for their slightly different and not any shallower nor deeper reasons, and they say when you get off this bus something within you might be different for the better (only applicable if ridden few times)

and that's precisely the issue now. that this particular bus has been ridden so many times by everyone around you that riding it once (non-worlders are not lucky enough to have more than one ride available) starts seeming like too little too late. there's something about the thought of people saying they're happy for me because i'm finally gonna have this thing i wanted for so long, when they all had it so many times that they had room to complain about it, that just makes it feel all the more pointless. it's weird to embark on something that is life changing when it's life changing to no one else. it feels like it's too much made out of nothing. so that's where we started, i'm not sure what the bus is for anymore, and i'm embarrassed of the fact that i want to ride it so bad, and that it would mean so much to me, and that i can only ride it once. maybe. if it comes. i'm embarrassed of how i can quote every single person who voiced a complaint about their rides because i ruminated it for so long, as to why they felt that i was the right person they wanted to share it with while seeing me just standing by the bus stop unsure if there even is a line that stops by here

i also had to sit with the thought that maybe i'm a bad person, because of course my friends would be happy for me and they're honest, and of course they wanna share their life with me and i should be grateful. but (and this is not about concerts or buses or people anymore) at some point the frustrations of those who have so little have to be enough justification for not constantly carrying the positivity and good sportsmanship that is demanded of them. that is to say, i'm unfortunately never unaware of the fact of how little i have, and how it softens the impact of all that i can't have because i'm so used to making it into something else, into concerts are pointless, and puts everything that i want on a sort of pedestal.

so i feel i'm not really unreasonable. it's hard to believe in unreasonability when i've had to toy around with this thought so much to find some angle through which i'm not so ugly on the inside

concerts are pointless. that has yet to keep me from looking up flight prices and putting numbers on the annoyance equation

[thedavesnews]

4D

If life is a board game shelf this is the chess year right? All the pieces are laid out and it's time to make some moves. So many years have just been a trading of pawns that the few pieces left have to lead to a checkmate right? H.G Wells says Chess is a curse on man so what do I know.

40 is a reflection year because it's a milestone that seems like it makes or breaks people. I'm not sure if I want this to be half or over halfway. Don't take this the wrong way but those final years just seem awful. I'm sure I will look at them and hope I keep getting one more day when 80 comes. When you're young 40 looks old. When you're 40 you wonder how you even got here. Hopefully the stupidity of youthful decisions are haunting. My only regret at this point in life is the fast food. That was a mistake. Every other decision I made led me to this moment and for that I couldn't be more thankful. I'm happy and I'm loved. That's a pretty amazing gift.

So do I write a retrospective, introspective or futurespective (I made up a word)? For the past couple of weeks I thought about what should go here. Maybe we talk about the plans that can fill the next 40 years. This will assume I do not win the lottery, obviously I will but for the sake of this discussion we leave that out.

First, we can start with the obvious. Sometime this summer I begin training for the Dopey. Dave is doing a marathon after turning 40. Got to start somewhere right? My feed is flooding me with 2 big topics since I signed up (thanks Facebook) are marathon registrations and Paris. If my training goes well and things stay in line I might sign up for a marathon in Europe (probably Paris). It's a major long shot but combining those things you love can really bring out the best in yourself.

Honestly, the biggest shock for me in 40 years is my love of France, specifically Paris. I would have never predicted that. I focused so much time and energy into Spanish and that culture, hell mi cumpleaños es CINCO DE MAYO. Learning French has been difficult and from what I've read others who speak English and Spanish have the same issues. Spanish speaks all the letters which isn't the case for a lot of French words. But the language is self is very pretty. The city of Paris is very enchanting. If I ever have the opportunity to live there I'm taking it. After 40 years, it's time to explore!

I've recently starting letting AI help me with some thought processes and, while I know it's just a parrot of words at this point, it's still impressive just how much use it can give all of us. Wonder how AI would have written this? Here's an excerpt....

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Dave's Reflections: Embracing 40 and Beyond

So, here I am – on the brink of turning the big 4-0. It's a milestone that comes with its fair share of mixed emotions. As I countdown the days to this momentous occasion, I can't help but pause and reflect on the journey that has brought me here.

Turning 40 isn't just about adding another digit to my age; it's about taking stock of where I've been and where I'm headed. It's a time to look back on the highs and lows, the triumphs and challenges, and to celebrate the person I've become.

When I hit that milestone "purchase" button on life, I couldn't help but wonder – why have I done this to myself? But as I approach 40, I realize that every decision, every challenge, has led me to this point. It's a culmination of experiences that have shaped me, challenged me, and ultimately made me who I am today.

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I was impressed with the amount of information that it was willing to write for me based off my last 3 posts. The generic versions without my writing style applied just about being 40 were honestly a bit depressing and sterile.

AI can be super helpful...just don't let it write your blog.

-Dave

You're never too old to be young.

[look-at-the-soul]

Hi! Gossip girl here❤️❤️ I hope you're doing well! ❤️❤️ I'm so sorry it took me so long to respond to your last response! I saw it but it was right around the time my college got busy with exams and final papers and stuff (went pretty well yeah!) but now I'm on break and have to chance to get back! Plus then my anxiety go the better of me  again for a bit there so I'm trying ti get back to it! But I hope you had a good Holidays and a good New Year!!

And also I did get to read the drunk Tommy story "Drunk on You" and it was so cute and made me laugh😂😂 Especially the part with the Ibble Dibble game! I didn't know that was a real game and looked it up😂 I loved that story! 

And yeah I'm not able to write when there's too much noise, I get distracted pretty easily and the idea of people I like live with finding out about it just makes me nervous for some reason even though I know they probably won't care too much😂 I have gotten to write more only I got stuck on the michael fic I was doing and started something else and then got stuck on that😅 But I also feel really bad that I haven't actually posted anything in months and I know I have things some people want me to continue but I go to write them and get stuck😅 I think I want to start doing stuff again but I may easy myself in with like headcannons where I can bullet point it out. 

And oh you've been reading Alfie stuff! That's cool! There really are some good writes for him! Every now and then I'll get on an Alfie kick and got through the tags with him just reading stuff😂😂 Truth be told I'm kinda on a Morpheus kick right now? From Sandman, have you seen that show? It's pretty good!

I have been on here for a while I guess but for the longest time I didn't post any stories just small things (and even that took a while) and I also still majorly interacted in anon. I think I've had longer interactions with some people as an anon going back and forth than I have as my account😅😅. Even though all my interactions have been good! Hopefully I'll fix that one day! 

And I actually haven't seen the new version of gossip girl, I actually haven't finished the original yet I should probably go back and do that😂 have you seen it? 

But yeah! I'm so sorry it took me so long to respond back! I hope you're doing well and your new year is going great!!!

Xoxo gossip girl❤️

Hi GG! Missed you around! I was wondering how you were doing, but I’m happy to hear your exams went well, yay for the good notes!!! :) hopefully you will continue like that.

Please forgive for taking so long… how did your break go? It’s been hectic days between reading and writing…. But I always enjoy getting your messages, I peo,Isela I won’t take so long to reply next.

Oh I hope your anxiety is gone (I know it comes like waves…), try to take deep breaths and take it easy on yourself.

I’m glad to hear you read that one! It was fun to write, I didn’t know about that game either, but I love adding those elements into the stories, think it adds a nice touch or make them different.. 

Yeah, I know that feeling 😊 like mmm nope haha… oh! Please tell me how are both stories going? Did you manage to get out from the writers block? If you need/want to share ideas back and forth, I’m sure you can figure something out;) you know, recently I reblogged a post that said something like that idea you’re doubting, turn it into a Drabble, a small story, straight to the point it doesn’t have to be a 28 part series… and it’s been encouraging me to write more, sometimes I feel like, what’s the point? Is it worth it? And then boom something magic happens, and I get little “signals” that gives me the fuel to keep doing it, so the main point is… write that story! 🥰 I really like those bullet points, sometimes it’s a great resource for an idea, or a small line… (I hope you do share some of that)

Yes, I mean I’ve just read a few Alfie stories, but he’s such a rich character, I was watching this cene the other day when he says his classic Shalom Arfur, and man… he knows how to turns heads haha 

Yeah? I’ve seen a reboot or two,but I haven’t seen the series, what is it about? RecentlyI haven’t been to the movies much or either watching movies at home, I just saw Peacock, the movie Cillian did and I’m still wondering why he didn’t get an Oscar for that role, (or breakfast on Pluto for the matter), he shaved his freaking eyebrows!!! And going back to series, I still need to watch the final part for Virgin River, writing has been consuming most of time recently and some days I feel like I do nothing lol

Mhmm I wonder if I know you… it’s alright,if you want to keep interacting under the anon cap, that’s just fine by me, whatever makes you feel comfortable ☺️to be honest with you, I started just like that, commenting on anon, but then I realized I needed to keep up with the stories I was following so I made my blog, super scared at first to start posting my own stories, wondering if anyone would be interested to read, but along the way I’ve learned a lot of things, I think I’ve grown in so many aspects and I hope you do give yourself the opportunity to share your talent ❤️ I mean, what do you have to lose? 

I’m a little apprehensive with second parts, so no I haven’t seen it, I mean look at what happened to sex and the city? 😩 but revisiting the original GG show might be a good idea! I wonder if it’s in any platform… 

Thank you so much for reaching out, sorry I don’t have a lot of news for you, I just found two lovely local cafés I’m visiting sometimes to write and I enjoy so much that time, there alone with ideas flowing and a nice cup of coffee, maybe you could use that to keep writing as well? Or whatever works better for you (but I’m always suggesting coffee lol), but I can share I’m writing for Emmett, Robert Fischer, Jonathan crane and my usual series, would you like to see something in particular?

Are you reading something these days?

I hope your days have been better than mine, and your positivity surely brings a smile to my face 

Can’t wait to hear from you! Lots of love GG xx

[iwadori]

So I'm reading your works and I love them !! I was thinking of requesting some kind of drabble or whatever you like, about a female reader who has thick thighs and is somewhat plump and is in love with Tsukishima but he makes a comment about the food and she feels bad and when she meets Bokuto in the boot camp Bokuto is too cute and attentive to her asking for her number and a date. If you don't feel comfortable with this, just ignore it and good luck with your blog. Sorry my english is bad<3

When they make you insecure PT 5 (tsukishima,bokuto)

Part One Part Two  Part Three Part Four  Part Five Part 6

Word Count: 2.6K

Genre: Angst to Fluff

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Tsukishima

You and Tsukishima have been dating in your first year (as you both went to the same middle school together.)

You were in love with Tsukishima, you always have been to be honest, but once you became officially boyfriend and girlfriend your feelings amplified.

But recently, Tsukishima hasn’t been so nice.  

“Y/N we’re going on another training camp at Nekoma” Hinata exclaimed running up to you, as you leaning against Tsukishima “and you get to come too this time!”

You recently became the new trainee manager as the third-year manager, Kikyoko, is going to graduate. Tsukishima acted as if you being around all the time in practice was the worst thing in the world, but Yamagucchi always assured you that ‘Tsukki’ was just joking.

“Oh well that’s fun...” you say entertaining Hinata’s excitement. You were kind of excited to go to the training camp too, as it was in Tokyo after all. You were always a big fan of volleyball as your dad used to play for the national team and you were planning to play on the girls team this year but you felt that you didn’t have the body for it (which was obviously not true.)

Hinata kept on rambling on before Tsukishima insulted him. “Gosh Kei, you don’t have to be so rude.” you complained, he slightly nudged you off of him and put on his headphones showing you that he was not in a good mood.

You let the rest of the practice continue, making notes of things and basically being Kiyoko’s shadow. As it ended, you waited outside for Tsukishima to walk home with you, but one of the guys told you he left 5 minutes ago. You knew there was no point of chasing after him so you just walked on your own, making you sigh in defeat.

Tsukishima was what you would describe as hot and cold. Some days he was fine a ‘perfect gentlemen’ but other days, days like this Tsukishima was just Tsukishima.  

When you got home, you decided to watch matches of all the other schools just to get some insight. You were watching a Fukarodani V Nekoma match from a few years ago and something caught your eye, well someone did to be more specific. A beefy, bicolour haired boy who was hooting like an owl was mesmerizing to watch.

You saw that his name was Bokuto Koutarou which triggered your next actions, which were to internet stalk him. You learned that he was the captain of the team and the team’s ace and the 5th ace in the country which piqued your interest in the boy even more.

‘This is going to be an exciting training camp’ you think to yourself before going to sleep.

`Kiyoko gave you an itinerary of all the things you should bring, since you weren’t going to be joining in any of the matches you were reminded to bring things that would keep entertained.  

You get to the bus at the crack of dawn, ready to be driven to Tokyo. Hinata and Kageyama were already arguing (let’s pretend that they didn’t have to do the retakes in the test) Tanaka and Nishinoya were being loud, and the rest of the members were already asleep. You wanted to sit next to Tsukishima but when you were about to sit down, he put his carryon bag in the seat next to him.

The bus ride was around 4-5 hours, and you spent your time reading and sleeping. Daichi got the loudmouths to calm down making the bus ride more tolerable. You suffered from slight motion sickness but you powered through.

When you arrived there, you saw all the other teams and their buses too. You felt a bit overwhelmed, seeing these tall boys just crowd around an entrance way. But too your surprise, noticing your slight anxiousness, Tsukishima grabbed your hand in a hand-hold.  

The Nekoma coach, explained how the day would pan out and where each team would be residing for the week. There was a lot of commotion getting everyone settled, Hinata and Nishinoya were basically bouncing off of the wall commenting on all the people and the place and how they’re going to ‘crush the competition.’  

You could tell that when the other teams were looking at Karasuno they were all staring at Kiyoko. Inquisitive about how there wasn’t only one girl manager but there was two. As you were walking your eyes locked with Bokuto Koutarou’s making yours widen, you blush and turn your head quickly.  

What you didn’t know was, after your small interaction, Bokuto elbowed Akaashi and said “Akaaashi AKKAAASHI, did ya see that? did ya?” he was flying with happiness “That girl from Karasuno smiled at me. She’s really pretty.”

“I think she’s from Karasuno” Akaashi said “So maybe you’ll see her around”

Bokuto stared off in the direction you were walking in “Yeah, hopefully.”

The first day, everyone got settled in and then the teams went straight into games. There were two different gyms and today, in gym 1, you were watching Karasuno V Nekoma. (By the way I literally don’t remember the teams at the training camp besides Nekoma, Karasuno and Fukarodani.) The game was very back a point each team making point after point, you already knew of Nekoma’s captain, Kuroo Testurou and the setter Kenma, you’ve actually played games with Kenma online before so you were fairly acquainted with him already.

The games ended and it was now dinner time, the canteen was packed with all the boys rushing to line up for the food. You waited at the back of the line, not really caring about when you got your food. Suddenly, you felt a tap on your shoulder and you looked over to see Boktuo,  

“Hi.” he said “I’m Bok-”

“Bokuto Koutarou!” You finished “I'm a big fan..” you cringed immediately at your excitement ‘pull it together Y/N’ you scold yourself.

“Oh well hi, I’m glad you know who I am” he said “and may I ask for your name?”  

“Oh I’m Y/N L/N” you say with a slight blush “I'm the trainee manager from Karasuno.”  

“Cool! Well I hope to see you aro-” he starts  

“Y/N, I’ve been looking all over for you, I already got your food for you.” Tsukishima said pulling at your arm a bit harshly, dragging you over to a table with the Karasuno team.

“Gosh Tsukki, no need to be so harsh” you say rubbing at your wrist, he didn’t apologize and just started eating his food.  

You look down at your plate and see the small portion that Tsukki got for you. The Karasuno bunch was being loud, as they usually are, so when you whisper “Tsukki what the fuck is this” whilst nudging him in the side, he didn’t hear you (or atleast he pretended he didn’t.) You tried again but a little louder saying, “Tsukishima what the fuck is this.” you realised you said it a bit too loud as the whole Karasuno table stopped their conversations to look over at the slight commontion you caused.

“What do you mean Y/N?” he said with a slight smirk on his face.

“I mean what’s with the portion size of a bird that you gave me?” you ask getting upset “Do you really think im that big?”

“Well, you could start eating less that’s for sure.” he said earning gasps from you and some of the people sitting at the table “Y/N let's face it, you eat like a pig and you look like an elephant, me making your food portion smaller is the least I could do.”  

By now you had tears in your eyes, Tsukishima was a dick. You knew this, everybody knew this to be honest, yet you still loved him. He wasn’t like this in middle school, yes he was a bit snarky and rude (but wasn’t every middle schooler?) High school Tsukishima was like a completely different person. As much as you wanted to run away and hide, you knew you couldn’t.  

So you stood up and said “Tsukishima, I’ve spent 3 years loving and pining after you, because I thought you were this great guy, but turns out you’re a huge asshole” you start making some of the people listening in smile in laughter “Tsukishima, I’ve hated this past year dating you, you’ve been such a huge dick and I’m finally stopping you. I can’t do this anymore. I won’t.” You start making your way to exit before finally saying “Oh and by the way I’m not the pig here, you are... oh and I’m breaking up with you.” You left, hearing a few laughs and some claps behind you.

You felt relieved, like the massive cloud that’s been over your head is finally gone. You went to the gym since you knew it was empty and picked up a ball to just throw it around a bit. After a while of ‘de-stressing,’ you hear someone else enter the gym.

“Oh I didn’t know you’d be here.” said Bokuto  

“Well here I am,” you say awkwardly “I can leave if you want me too, I know this is for actual volleyball players.”

“No no it’s fine you can definitely stay, in fact do you mind setting for me?” he asks  

“Sure, of course I don’t mind” you reply, excited you get to play with someone.  You haven’t played in ages, you always begged Tsukishima to just throw a ball around with you but he never did.  

You set to Boktuo a lot, with him always asking for ‘another one’ everytime he spiked the ball. Eventually, you were tired of setting and wanted to spike. You originally was a spiker to begin with taking after your dad. Thats why you took a liking to Bokuto in the first place cause he reminded you of the joys you had when watching your father play.

Bokuto set a ball to you and you spiked it with great strength and accuracy smiling at the burning feeling you felt in your palm.  

“Woahh” Bokuto shouted going towards you in amazement “Where did you learn how to spike like that?”

“From my dad, I don’t know if you heard of him before but my dad’s name is D/N L/N...?” you say

“D/N L/N, Y/N he is my idol!” he shouted again “I want to be just like him.”

“I think you can, I see a lot of similarites in the way you both play.” you say

“Really! And you’ve seen me play before..?” he asks

“Yeah, I watched some of your games before coming here... you’re really good” you shyly admit.

“Wow.”

You and Bokuto spend the rest of your time, talking about volleyball you’re interests, things you have in common, your likes and dislikes. Talking to Bokuto was refreshing, he didn’t randomly insult you or make snide comments about your weight or your looks. He just genuinely looked happy to be there talking to you, unlike Tsukishima.  

Seeing your change in mood, Bokuto stops talking and asks “are you alright? I forgot to ask earlier, but I saw what happened in the canteen and I hope you’re okay.”  

“Yeah I’m fine, it’s just things with me and Tsukishima reached a breaking point, I guess...” you say sniffling a bit talking about it “But it’s fine now I’ve broken up with him and I feel better already.”

“So you’re saying your single...?” he asked blushing a bit

“Yeah I guess I am...” you smile blushing also.  

“Okay great...well I hope this isn’t too forward after everything happened with Tsukki and all but...” he starts “but would you like to go on a date with me?”

“Who me?” you ask as if you weren’t the only other person in the room

“No the volleyball” he responds sarcastically “Of course you Y/N.”  

“Are you sure, cause to be honest Bokuto you’re a really good-looking guy” you say making him smile widely “so I think you need someone to match your level in attractiveness” you look down and his smile drops.

“What do you mean?” he asks before realising all the stuff Tsukishima said about you “Y/N you’re beautiful, your face, your body just you.” you blush at his words “when I first saw you when you were walking past us in the entrance way the first thing I thought and said about you was “Akaashi who is that girl she’s beautiful.””  

“Really?” you ask with disbelief

“Mhm” he nods excitedly “So will you go on a date with me?”  

“I guess so...” you say a bit unsure

“HEY HEY HEY!” he exclaims “I gotta go tell akaashi!” he runs out of the gym in a hurry making you laugh, but he comes back to give you a quick unexpected kiss on the cheek making you smile.

You checked your phone for the time realising that you’ve been with Bokuto for 3 hours and you knew that everyone would be going to sleep now. As you are the manager you slept seperately from the rest of the team but before you went to your sleeping quaters you went to Karasunos.  

“Y/N where have you been? We’ve been worried about you.” asked yammagucchi  

“It’s fine yams don’t worry about it, guys” you say catching everyones attention “I just wanted to apologise to you for my outburst at dinner, it wasn’t my intention to cause a scence.”

“It’s fine Y/N” said sugawara “He definitely deserved it.”

“Yeah as your marvellous senpai we gave him a good telling off” said Tanaka and Nishinoya  making you chuckle.  

“Okay well thanks guys, I’m going to sleep goodnight.”

“Wait Y/N can I speak with you.” asked Tsukishima gesturing to outside the room

“Umm sure” you respond following him into the corridor.

“I just want to say I’m sorry for the things I’ve said and done over the past year and how I’ve been a terrible boyfriend, you don’t deserve that. So, I’m sorry.”  

“I can’t say I can forgive you yet.” you say making Tsukishima look sad “but maybe with effort from you we can become friends possibly?”  

“Just friends?” he said with hope in voice thinking that you could be something more.

“Just friends.” you repeated and confirmed “Besides I have been asked on a date”  

“With who?”  

“None of your business stingyshima” you mock the nickname that Hinata calls him making him scowl and you smile “Goodnight.”

After Bokuto’s confession and Tsukishima’s apology, the rest of the training camp went off without a hitch. In your breaks and lunchtimes, you got to know more about Bokuto and with Kuroo’s help you even got to sneak out to actually go on your date. You sometimes even went to practice with them getting to show off your skills, with Bokuto cheering you on and complimenting you every single time.  

Tsukishima kept his distance for the most part, and kept the snarky comments about you and Bokuto to himself (even though he was dying to say them.) You eventually fully forgave Tsukishima in your 3rd year but you definitely weren’t as close as you used to be. Tsukishima’s comments and actions did affect you for a while however with the help of your loving boyfriend, you were reminded how beautiful you are no matter what weight, shape or height you were.

You and Bokuto stayed together, you made sure to come to every one of his games and when you introduced him to your dad he fainted on sight. Your dad and Bokuto got along, and became very close friends, Bokuto always came to him for advice (especially volleyball advice.) You loved Bokuto and he definitely loved you too.

AN: I hope you liked it, since I didn’t want to make it too similar too the Atsumu insecure one. And I feel like it dragged out a bit but got rushed in the endd....but oh well...

[14dayswithyou]

Hi Sai! Very sorry in advance if this is this is way too fangirly. Just wanted to thank you, because I just played 14 Days With You's demo and was blown away. The time consistency is maybe a bit wonky on some scenes, but otherwise everything is absolutely brilliant, and I haven't been this hyped by a demo in quite a while.I really enjoy MC's narration being as bubbly and chatty as it is, it gives both the game and the character a lot of flavour (my favourite touch is MC often being afraid(1/?)

of creeping on /Ren/. It's hilarious).As for Ren himself… He's written to be perfect to the point where it's almost meta, and, oh no it definitely works. As a goshdang adult with years of yandere tropes under my belt, I'm ashamed of being this receptive to what he's putting out, but he's just. so. fascinating? The dedication, the carefully-crafted façade and sudden personality whiplashes, the versatility and quick recoveries, the vulnerability, both "real" and "fake"… (2/? )

I'm entirely too weak to this guy, send help. Despite being curious about the genre, there haven't been many yandere-type characters I've outright /loved/ over the years, but now I'm like "Ah. So THIS is how it feels". Whoops. (Also: well-written, engaging smut you want to read more of? What is this sorcery???) And now I’m torn. I'm very much obsessed and would like to see more of this.. But simultaneously I want to tell you to take all the time you need! In the meantime, here're some (3/?)

In the meantime, here're some questions, so that this ast is not entirely gushing: 1- Are you planning the final game to be free or paid? Asking because I'm 100% ready to support this level of quality entertainment. 2- Will you be releasing the game day-by-day or once all is done? Thank you so much for your hard work! <3 Very much looking forward to what you have in store next.

pov: you’re me crying on the floor because this ask wAS WAY TOO SWEET??????? AAaaAAAAAaaaAAAAaaAAAA

Firstly, thank you so much for leaving such a heartfelt message. I am beyond happy to hear that you enjoyed the demo, and your high praise for the game means the world to me!! ;v;

I’m also always interested in learning about other people’s introspection of Ren, so seeing your interpretation of him has honestly got me like “yes!! that’s exactly the vibe I was going for when writing him!” — so I’m glad I was able to convey his little quirks and mannerisms well enough within the game =w=

Also, you mentioned the time consistency being a bit wonky during some scenes, so I’d just like to quickly clarify that I had to cut some scenes short due to the time restraints I placed on myself when making the game. I wasn’t able to finish the sprites for some of the other characters you meet in the original 2017 demo, so I ended up cutting out the dialog and replacing it with like, three lines of text lmao ^^’ I’ll have the sprites and dialog restored by the time I release Day 2, so hopefully you won’t be stuck with those short scenes for long... ^^ (But if I misunderstood what you were saying, then please let me know and I’ll work on fixing the issue!)

As for your questions; right now I’m content with releasing the full game for free on itch.io, but I might look into setting up a patreon/kickstarter as a means for funding any potential game expediencies (voice acting, foley sounds, BGM licences, etc.). However I much prefer if people showed their support through conveying genuine interest in the game, rather than throwing money at me — especially since there are other people and places that deserve it waaay more than I do! ;v;

As for your second question; I have plans for releasing the game on a day-by-day basis until I reach Day 7/the halfway point (so I can take in everyone’s concerns, feedback, and reactions as I go along), before finishing the game entirely and releasing it to the public :)

But wahhhh, thanks again for sending such a heartfelt ask!! I’m genuinely still floored and speechless (despite the wall of text I just threw at you) but I appreciate your words and support so much!! <3

[teddy-yandere]

Hi... Yes as you said your blog seems erase requests, I've sent it before. Please tell me if it's ok keep sending to you.

I'm gonna make this one. As you ask for Sabito request. I love him...

Sabito X Fem Reader

In AU where he doesn't die, and the darling is training with him and Makomo. At first he seems ignore her being hard on about her performance with harsh words, showing his indifference towards her to the point to make her cry. And this keeping going until she feels that's enough and shout at him showing a new side of her personality. And Sabito it's shocked, but with slowly he feels something growing inside of him. And he found himself falling on his knees... If possible I would like some romance in the end. You can added whatever you feel like, Yandere, dark themes or else...

If this ask it's not what you are looking for you can delete.

Thanks writer, take care of yourself and stay healthy.

- Harsh Words -

⚠️WARNING⚠️ will contain dark themes

A/N = I am sorry if this wasn’t exactly what you wanted , I kinda went in my own trail , and wasn’t paying attention to anything I was writing. I did not proof read this so sorry for any grammar mistakes . Enjoy !

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★ You had recently become a official me ever if the Demon Slayer corps , and you were very excited about it. In fact , as soon as you passed the final selection , you ran home to your master Sakonji to tell him the amazing news.

★ Sakonji was very proud of you. As soon as you went to bed that night , he got in contact with Sabito , and asked him if he would let you train under him for a little while. That way you can safely gain the experience of a good swordsman. Sabito was very hesitant , but eventually agreed. You had heard Sakonji mention Sabito , and Makomo a couple of times before , but never worried to much about them.

★ Oh how you wished you would have said no to working under Sabito.

★ Turns out that Sabito can be very demanding over you. Sabito never meant for his behavior to come off as rude , but he could help but worry for you ever time you went on a mission by yourself. He knew that his feeling for you could never be exposed to anyone , not even his closest friend , Makomo.

★ Makomo always tried to defend you whenever Sabito would go off on you. Sabito would only insult you if he felt like you might be in danger. He would say stuff like = “ Let me come with you in this mission , you are far to weak to defeat this demon alone”.

★ One time however, Sabito crossed the line , he accidentally said some really mean stuff about your appearance. He originally said it because he was upset that you were going on a date with Giyuu. You blew up on him , and started cussing him out ( like a badass )

★ He doesn’t know why , but he like that you were expressing yourself to him. Most people don’t know , but Sabito can sometimes be a little worshipper. From then on , he started to do everything in his power to get a little reaction out of you!

★ He also found himself thinking about you every time he was about to fall asleep.

★ This was when he started becoming more , and more obsessed with you

★ Be aide he was starting to get more obsessed with you , he started to fantasize about you. He would start to randomly daydream about kidnapping you , and having you all to himself. He knew it was selfish , but he just could not help it.

★ So he snapped

★ One day , you started to act very snarky towards him during training. He took that opportunity, and walked up to you , and knocked you out. You never saw that coming. He then took your body , and walked home , humming a sweet tune. He couldn’t wait for you to wake up. Hopefully, his little God / Goddess will be just has happy with him , as he is with them.

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Thanks for reading Darling !! <3

Feel free to request any character you want. I write for all genders. If you don’t tell me what gender you want then I will just make it gender nuetural. I write for many different fandoms such as:

• Demon Slayer

• Haikyuu

• Attack on Titan

• My Hero Academia

• Death Note

• Jujutsu Kaisan

• * Toilet - Bound Hanako - Kun

Thanks for reading Darling !! <3