#HOPEFULLY some of it can be helpful tho!!

[jet-teeth]

Have some Viggen Vibes ..while I try to piece some other stuff together from the endless pile of half-baked concepts in the art folder... "Oops, all WIPS" really is the current state of Everything right now haha

[yardsards]

living in america is literally just like. yeah i could probably benefit from inpatient mental health services but honestly the resulting medical bills would just make me want to kill myself even more

[lrdvyke]

all verses are up, finally. my carrd is complete

[senselessalchemist]

non-major NSFW talk about working in IVF/ART below (... so maybe it's SFW in context? 🤔)

new to the world of helping people have babies thru Science and it strikes me as so fuckin weird that right now despite everything it still takes the same old bullshit to make a new human. tbf there may be technologies that I'm unaware of being developed or whatever but from what I know you still gotta use a pair of gametes to make a new tiny person. cant get around it. have never seen the word "masturbation" on so many medical forms but you need those dang sperm and that's often the easiest way to get them!

I think it's just the juxtaposition of the efficient/professional/reserved medical stuff and the messy realities of biology vis a vis sexual reproduction. come in a cup and bring it in to our lab, we're doing an icsi, make sure all your info is properly written on the label, we need at least two unique identifiers for all samples. (This is probably not unique, similar stuff must happen with like the majority of medical disciplines. you try to make it dry and clinical but the biology is always there, just kinda being nasty and probably goopy. Lots of slime in biology.)

* shrugs * also probably just because it's all new to me. I did microbial ecology in a nonhuman context and this is a very different scene, obviously. humans is all the same, tho, they still don't read the instructions fully even when they are paying out of pocket for incredibly expensive procedures and I'm like you didnt have your signature notarized (like it told you explicitly to do on the form) so I cant accept this consent for something you want done tomorrow. It's just like dealing with students not reading questions fully on exams. Feels like home

... sorry for so much jizz talk. Part of it is that I don't think most medical clinics have a room dedicated to manual pleasure (door closed all the time, please) - which is also just so stupidly funny to me. like I get it, it makes sense, it's probably generally evolutionarily sound to incentivize reproduction with something enjoyable but everything has been recontextualized for me recently and I cant help but just kinda laugh at it sometimes

(I promise I am so professional at work and that I'm not laughing at specific people when I think about this... more just the broad concept of ""Life"" and what it takes to propagate it. Because like in the end we're all just these weird colonies of cooperating bits and pieces, doing all this chemical nonsense that involves a lot of kind of disgusting stuff... and yet we try to pretend that we're beyond or above it. This is not to say anything about, I dunno, some weird concept of like biological absolutism or whatever, I'm not trying to say that we are solely defined by our bodies, but just that there are fundamental biological processes we all share and sometimes it feels silly when those get ignored or euphemized or treated as abhorrent and uncouth)

[izzy-b-hands]

Put on Train to Busan to distract myself in between phone calls to med offices (successful ones! for once!) and.

i forgot abt the end. It always makes me cry, but watching it after a family visit and thinking abt all of That Sort of Stuff

I'm a wreck lmao

[akkivee]

tho i will say!!! honobono being the antithesis of bonds by treating people as playthings and the tobari bros consistently causing trouble in various territories tells me it really is intentional that we have characters set in homies and hoods and it’d be neat to see if any of that comes to light in the tracks lol

[daz4i]

anxiety attacking me as usual. this time looking at the other events in the con and going "oh god oh fuck these sound so interesting oh my god some of these are actual professionals talking about their expertise oh- OH NO THEY THINK I'M A PROFESSIONAL TOO I'M GONNA BE SO DISAPPOINTING" etc etc. spiraling even tho this one is completely illogical. like yeah some of them are professionals but most are just random ppl who signed up. i know a few of them who are significantly younger than me too and are just doing this to have fun. i'm good i'm good (<- shaking in panic rn)

[angeltrapz]

I am. exhausted today (uh. emeto warning in the tags but its very briefly mentioned)

[mysunshine-youremoonlight]

vaniiii ehe hiya :3 umm we got a system sideblog if yer interested in seein more of us... but ummmm hiya !!!! i missed ya n im glad t' see ya... do ya got any advice fer copin wit' lack of attention from an fp.... we're okay but if ya got anythin it might be helpful for us :33 ehe i love yaaaa -🪴

MIIIIIKAAAAA!!!!!!!!! i missed u guys </3 i would love to see more of u tho i miss you guys when you're not around... although i guess technically you are since you said we're mutuals but skdghds

ough. tbh i've been pretty lucky insofar that i haven't had a lotta issues with that... but in my experience usually if i gotta be left alone for awhile distracting myself helps a lot? like. go down a wikipedia rabbit hole, or do a puzzle, or play a game you get super invested in. just something to focus on so you don't end up in your own head kinda thing yanno??? otherwise don't feel bad to just. ask for attention? like. it's not illegal to have human desires. and as long as your fp isn't busy or something they probably don't mind talking with you a lil :3 although idk for sure i know everyone has different relationships with their fp so ^^; do not listen to me if you know it'll cause you harm/strife/etc :< also naps. bc those pass the time reaaaaal quick. its like a lifehack. feeling bad? take a nap. you'll either feel amazing after or like you got smacked in the face with a trout ! oh and also like. doing schoolwork or smth productive maybe? thats not really fun tho so dskghds maybe pick up a kinda time-consuming hobby like crochet or cross-stitch or something where you can use that to distract yourself and have something to do with your hands :3?

but if its like. ur Already Feeling Bad i recommend like. watching a movie/tv show/etc that you really like or getting a Little Treat(tm) or something :3 curl up with a cozy blanket and drink some hot cocoa or tea or something !! its not like. a sure-fire fix. but i find the combo of distraction + comfort media + Little Treat tends to make you feel at least a lil better :3 also if it gets Very Bad just like. destroy some old school work you don't need or somethin. tearing papers to shreds is sooooooo fun. make sure u don't accidentally rip up something you need though skjghds it helps to calm down a lil and then you can work on relaxing a little more !! its not like. guaranteed. but sometimes gettin some of the destructive urges out helps

ily2 mika <3 i would die for u btw /lh

[toastsnaffler]

fun sunday afternoon plans my dbt workbook arrived + I have a lecture on adhd + seasonal affective disorder to watch that I signed up for a while ago. maybe either of those will tell me how to survive this winter without killing myself 👍

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt my bndori ocs again... I need to draw them more I love them all sm

[hoodieseasoned]

I've had this hermitcraft au idea absolutely infesting my brain for about a week now and normally with these things i just let them pass NOT because i don't want to write them but i just never have the energy for it

today, i sat down for the first time in like, maybe a year and wrote for like almost three hours straight,, tbh it was mostly just bullet points to frame out how i want to do this but i also ?? managed some short ??? scenes and dialogue ???????

i dont want to be overconfident bc there's still a big big chance I'll abadon this thing soon after i run out of energy but man,, it is pretty damn nice to be writing again

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

indefinite hiatus from tumblr [where 'indefinite' does not mean 'forever', merely 'a week? two weeks? a month? who even knows at this point']

still be available for DMs for a bit at least, but I'll not be checking my notifications or dash. tag me if you want me to see something in ??? time :)

love y'all

[sysig]

Huh, what does this auto-thumbnail remind me of-

Oh

[diabeticgirl4]

Hhh scraping and clawing my way thru exu calamity and it's kinda frustrating how. Everybody loves it so much?? And it's def much better than the other exu's but I'm just having heavy brainrot for c3 specifically and I want to get back to the main characters and plot!! Don't get me wrong I'm super enjoying brennan as a dm and everyone having fun but I just feel bad bc I'm not enjoying it as much as I feel I should and I'm just. Not attached to these characters or whatever plot happens bc it's all in the past and I'm assuming they all die anyways so I'm just having a hard time w it. :<

[sorikkung]

lmfao if i tallied up all the wips of future chapters and more importantly, the discarded wips of chapters/scenes i decided to rewrite? my word count for fic on this acc would maybe not double but at least increase by 50% SDFKHJSKDFH