#Help Ridhay

[anditsohappened-blog]

Save Baby Ridhay: A Race Against Time to Fund Life-Saving SMA Treatment

A Parent’s Plea: Help Us Save Our Baby Imagine watching your baby struggle to move, breathe or even lift their tiny arms—knowing that each passing day brings irreversible damage. This is the heartbreaking reality for baby Ridhay and his family. Ridhay is the son of my close college friend, and I personally know this wonderful family. They reside in Vasai, where Ridhay is cared for by his loving…

[lemonteaice]

Senin, n nya nangis

Ya Allah, walaupun rasanya sakit banget. walaupun bikin air mata ngalir terus, aku ridha kok, aku gakpapa ya Allah, tapi maaf ya Allah aku masih nangis terus.

aku gakpapa dengan kalimat2 yg belio lontarkan pagi ini, aku ridha Ya Allah.

Allah, tolong ridhai orangtuaku yaa. tolong sayangi mereka, tolong berikan ketenangan pada mereka, tolong berikan kebahagiaan kepada mereka.

Allah, boleh tidak aku jadi penyebab kedua orangtuaku bahagia. bantu aku ya Allah, bantu aku untuk bisa berbakti kepada orangtuaku, bantu aku untuk bisa menjadi wasilah kebahagiaan mereka, oh Allah bantu aku untuk bisa membanggakan kedua orangtuaku ya.

Allah, please help me:(

Aku cuma punya Engkau, Dzat yang menjadi tumpuan, yang menjadi harapan dan minta pertolongan. Allah, mudahkan jalanku, lancarkan urusanku, mudahkan rezekiku. I trust u, Allah.

[salmaamhaa]

Kenapa yah orang yang berkepentingan itu menyeramkan, kaya punya aura yang akan menghalalkan segala cara meskipun harus mendobrak prinsip ga masalah yang peenting apa yang dia ingin tuju tercapai.

Kadang muak sama keadaan orang jadinya pada ga jujur gitu loh, aduh belum lagi konspirasi-konpirasi makin buat mual, kepala nyeri, ya Allah, dunia ini keras yah? kita kita generasi lemah bisa apa dihadapkan kehidupan yang begitu sulit ini, tiada daya dan upaya melainkan dariMu ya Rabb.

emang sih ngga semuanya harus di utarakan kadang ga perlu juga kita terlalu jujur, tapi ya at leasr jangan rugiin orang thats it. apapun itu semoga kita bisa tetap diberikan petunjuk pada jalan yang Allah Ridhai.

Eh iya perpecahan didalam Islam rumit juga yah? kya ihh males banget kenapa sih orang-orang seneng banget konflik, paling muak itu kalau udah ada yang framming islam yang padahal islam jauh dari apa yang dia paham. eugh kesel juga masih jadi orang yang terombang ambing sok iye di semua jalan. doing nothing feel likes im nothing.

minimal mandi kan yah? wkkwkw

pengen bangen tuang tulisan yang rada terarah dan berfaedah tapi kok belum belum terus yah, apa emang isi kepala gue emang grutu-grutu tak bermutu? iyaa paman mutuuu help mee!

[commanderfloppy]

NPC ask: Ridhais from the Knight of the Thorn quest

In all honesty I haven’t actually done that quest yet (though it’s been on my to-do list).

In my version of the story Damia is the one who has the piece of Caldbolg and is understandably in serious depression mode after the person closest to her dies.

I could definitely see Damia finding Ridhais a bit annoying at first, she just shows up with a piece of Caldbolg and is like ‘we gotta rebuild her’ and damia just wants to left to her depression.

They probably develop some type of comradere once Damia decides to help, but since I don’t really know her personality yet I can’t answer much about their dynamic.

[kerra-and-company]

Maybe you've already touched on this in another post, but Knight of the Thorn quest for Kerra (and bonus for Rhi as well, if you want)

Hi hi!! Sorry it took a sec for me to answer this; I did a Whole Lot Of Driving this weekend (for good reasons! I just had like Zero free time and this is a detailed answer asdlkjfs). But I can answer it now, so let's go! :D

I think the most I've touched on this in another post was when the ask game about what the boss fight for your character would look like--I talked about what the fight against Kerra as one of the Knight-of-the-Thorn echoes would look like. But I haven't actually discussed details for either of their quests beyond that, so:

Kerra

She really hadn't ever planned on taking up the sword at all. Her canon might be different from the regular game canon (in that Trahearne survives the end of HoT), but Caladbolg is still very much broken when she and everyone else reaches "Hearts and Minds".

After Mordremoth's death, Kerra has fulfilled her Wyld Hunt. Aurene hasn't hatched yet, so as far as she knows, she isn't Champion to anyone or anything, and her future is her own. She's in a romantic relationship, she's still the Pact Commander, she's healing from both physical and mental wounds, and she's on shaky terms with both her siblings--Caithe because of everything that happened with the egg, and Trahearne because of the sacrifice she was willing to make.

Her relationship with Caithe starts to mend once Aurene hatches. They're able to sit down and talk, with the extra motivation that Aurene would be much happier if they both got along. Her relationship with Trahearne is on shaky ground for longer than that, but after "A Crack in the Ice", she can't stand that being the case at all for any longer and goes and has (another) long talk with him.

I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I'm not sorry for what I did, and I won't lie and say that I am. I know I don't value myself enough, I know, and I'm trying. I know my flaws and I know my choices, and it may be hypocritical but I hate that you ever thought that dying was all you were worth. I love you, you're my brother, you're here and I'm so glad, and I am so sorry that I hurt you but I will never not be glad that you're alive.

I was already wounded and dying, and I'd made peace with that, but I hadn't made peace with losing you, with losing another sibling. I'd done my job and my duty, and it was never one I wanted, and you still had so much more to do; the safest choice was to let me go. I would never want to be the reason Caithe lost you, Rel lost you, the world lost you. I was angry because I was, and am, afraid; I love you, and you risk so much so often, little sister, and I never wanted you to risk it for me.

That conversation is the catalyst for Kerra reforging Caladbolg--because Trahearne gives it to her. It's not another obligation, it's a weapon for her to protect herself. It's a legacy, to be sure, and she does take on the Knight of the Thorn title, but she is bestowed that title by her brother, not her Mother. It's a concession and an agreement--there will be risk, and there may be sacrifice, but Kerra will never do any of it alone. (And it's another part of Trahearne stepping down from a job he took out of obligation to his Mother and the world by giving up the sword. Protection for one sibling and freedom for the other.)

Kerra still ends up working with Ridhais here--though it's in a slightly different context than canon, the other sylvari still has a pertinent Wyld Hunt to this situation and helps her reforge the sword. She spends time on this quest specifically in-between "A Crack in the Ice" and "The Head of the Snake", so in that time, she's in Maguuma for a bit finding sword pieces (and spending time with Aurene). And the first two parts of the battles of the quest go very similarly to how they do in-game! She fights Riannoc's echo in the swamp, then Trahearne's in the canopy of Maguuma. But the third is different.

She goes to a small homestead in Wayfarer Foothills where a family lives. There are three children, two to three years older than they were last time she was there, and two parents. She greets them and explains why she's there, and though they're bemused (and confused, too), they nod. And they go inside, and they watch the Pact Commander battle an echo of herself, one from a time when she felt small and broken and overwhelmed with grief and self-hatred, outside in the snow.

Kerra carries Caladbolg with her for the rest of the time that she's the commander--through the very end of EoD.

Rhi

When Kerra steps down as commander, it coincides with Rhi really...coming of age, so to speak. They're a big part of a lot of the events in EoD, from the original fight with the Aetherblades to the final battle with the Dragonvoid. They're not quite ready to strike out on their own yet, but they plan to do so within the next year, and Kerra offers Caladbolg to them. It's a passing of the torch--not of the job as commander, Rhi is very young for that responsibility and doesn't want it, but of this weapon meant (perhaps more than most) as a way to protect the one who carries it. And they accept.

Their first two battles mirror their mother's, in the swamp and the jungle. They meet Riannoc for the first time, and he might just be an echo, but he sees an echo of himself in them nonetheless. They see their uncle--younger, from years ago, back when he was a soldier--and he doesn't recognize them, not really, but the look in their eyes is familiar. And they battle their mother's echo, but it's not outside a hut in the snow. They've been inside Sun's Refuge, so they know a bit about Elona, but they've never been to the top of this tower before, with its ring of scorch marks and blasted stone.

This echo of Kerra is from the moment she died, when she was about to lose Aurene, when she was probably the most desperate she's ever been. And she recognizes, when Rhi manages to get through "round one", that she's an echo, because she's the only one of the previous Knights who's been through this specific process of attuning to the sword. She doesn't know who Rhi is, but she tells them that they remind her of someone--maybe a couple someones. And she smiles and tells them they're also entirely someone new.

They carry the sword proudly after that. It follows them onto the deck of a ship a year later--one on the sea, not the air--and they start their own journey of learning about the world.

[queer-as-used-by-tolkien]

I'm picturing Trahearne's non-existent funeral right now.

Just think of all the people who would've been there: and I'm not even talking about the Pact.

Canach would be there, extremely uncomfortable about this whole thing but here to pay his respects anyway.

Izu Steelshrike, Trahearne's tengu smith friend.

Riel Darkwater, who owes her rank to Trahearne's aid.

Ridhais, his bodyguard, crying.

Rytlock, who can't help but respect Trahearne's sacrifice even if Rytlock didn't know him.

Caithe, of course, his sister, letting her emotions out for the first time.

Sayeh, representative of her race, lurking in the shadows but there, even though she paid her oath, because they were friends.

So many people that Trahearne affected during his life. He should've had a funeral, or a memorial, or something, anything other than plain nothing.

[annimarc-a-word]

Spoilers for HoT and LWS3 down below

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Yknow as much as I loved Eir I just couldn't help but feel bitter the whole time during her own funeral??? I felt bad about it cuz I did like her character, but I'm big into rp so I imagine my boy Annimarc would have lowkey felt the same. Anni barely knew Eir, but as a Secondborn he grew with and admired Trahearne and really loved him later on, so did his gf Cora (poly-trammander stuff)

The memorial for Trahearne felt so... lowkey just slapped together to appease his fans to me? No real funeral, just a memorial to him in the Grove and this lady Ridhais tells you it's a part of her Wyld Hunt to help restore Caladbolg and it became more about the ascended Sword than it was about him.

Not to mention first going into the next story phase and there is so little mention of him, and I felt like that was real dirty on the guy who literally STARTED the Pact with us and died to save Tyria. His sacrifice sent out a burst of magic that later gave us Aurene. I don't even know if Aurene knows Trahearne was a part of that and that lowkey makes me emotional when I know that the plant man meant the world to my Commander?

The people we interact with in the next story instances talked about him in passing or merely asked about filling his position as Marshal (Almorra), it was real cold imo

I feel like there should have been a choice between going to the funeral for Eir or Trahearne or something, which in turn impacted your relationships with other characters and gave you more choices in the storyline to tailor your own experience with, especially for two characters who were loved. My mans Trahearne deserved SO much more than his own memorial quest becoming about Caladbolg more than remembering the big guy we lost.

[ohpollenpowder]

Here’s Caladbolg! Before a few changes were made to them, of course, but let’s get into the story bits.

To be honest, they were quite content with being left as they were after Mordremoth. Returned to the Mother Tree briefly and then tenderly taken by the Commander, a beloved friend of their recent wielder, and finally given a chance to rest, as if their own Wild Hunt was finally done. There was no expectations of them...at least until Ridhais showed up, saying that their job wasn’t quite done. After all, the Commander—since parting with Trahearne—had been sort of in a self-destructive marathon? At least in their opinion. And...the journey Ridhais sent them on helped the both of them say goodbye to the dear friend and companion that the Firstborn had been.

Neither of them, however, expected that upon completion of “fixing” Caladbolg...that they would pop out of the blade’s pieces as a fully formed Sylvari from a pod. Complete with memories from all its Wielders and the time they spent with them, Caladbolg was now its own person. The blade it came from was still there, on the ground, yes, but the life that the former thorn of the Pale Tree was no longer there. Instead, Blade of Heroes wanders about along with the Commander as their companion.

[xatskee]

#QuoteOfTheDay (20210515): “Aku ingin mengungkapkan rasa kasihku padamu melalui kata-kata, jadi aku menyebutmu dalam semua doaku.” (Abu Mahira) Jangan meremehkan doa suami-istri yang menikah karena Allah. Allah pasti akan menurunkan pertolongan. Rasulullah ﷺ bersabda, “Ada tiga golongan manusia yang berhak mendapat pertolongan Allah. Yaitu, mujahid fisabilillah, budak yang menebus dirinya supaya merdeka, dan orang yang menikah karena ingin memelihara kehormatannya.” (HR. At-Tirmidzi: 1655) “Ya Allah, jadikanlah mawaddah dan rahmah antara aku dan istriku yang terbaik. Jadikanlah kelembutan dan kesabaran antara aku dan istriku yang paling sempurna. Ya Allah, bahagiakan ia bersamaku dan bahagiakan aku bersamanya, janganlah Kau haramkan aku dari keberadaanya di dunia dan di surga abadi. Dan tunjukkan kami untuk menepati setiap yang Engkau cintai dan ridhai, ya Allah ya Karim.” #Dua #Pray #Express #Love #Married #Allah #Shake #Help #Milad #Wife #LDR Telegram Channel: https://t.me/xQoTD https://www.instagram.com/p/CO3hvrFAClb/?igshid=1ayx2d6fw3dmi

[littledragonsinmyhead-blog]

Crazy GW2 ff-ideaton for self (I’ll forget it all anyway): - Action/adventure - OC investigates Pact fleet destruction/Trahearne’s death years after. - Revenant abilities and HoT PTSR. - The world is bad, worse then in-game. - Being Commander is shit.  - Commader is “the hero Gotham deserves”. - Being everyone else is shit.  - Dysfunctional trammander. - Being “a part of a junge dragon” is shit. 

An ongoing detective/action/adventore story that takes place 10y+ from now.  - OC, for instance a young promising Shining blade exemplar (Who are they? What would they do? First thought - a headstrong tomboy, similar to Korra’s Kuvira). - SBs are preparing for something dramatic (The “enter-the-plane-of-torment-dramatic, but what exactly?).  - OC has their own team. - As they look for the support, they try to reach the remaining members of Dragon’s Watch, who refuse to take part in a suicidal mission for “I wanna get a life” reason. They never refuse to help with advice or intel, but will not accompany the OC. - Anise believes Kerida/Lidia will be a good place to start. That’s how the idea of recruiting the legendary Commander/Dragonslayer comes to life. - Commander is my own Shiro/Dragon/Renegade sylvari revenant because I can.  - Kerida thinks low of the Commander “thinking capabilities”. Recruiting him is spoken of as -a very bad idea- as he is universally considered an unpredictable living doomsday weapon nobody can effectively control. But the situation calls for drastic measures and only few people in Tyria are intense enough. The OC is worried, but also excited.  - Commander is found in Cantha, which has opened its borders by then, and he eerily reminds Shiro Tagachi in both appearance and abilities. Maybe not.  - OC views PC’s revenant skills - tearing thought the Mists - as wounds in the world and is initially frozen with terror. They overcome this feeling with time, but they also realize why nobody wants to deploy the Commander unless they absolutely have to.  - Legends have VUI (like Suicide Squad’s ”Enchantress”. Probable code phrases: Shiro - “Murderer”, Glint - “Here be dragon”, Kalla - “Renegade”, Mallyx - “Unyielding”. No Ventari or Jalis, PC is negative/offensive combatant). OC notices how the commander mutters something in combat, but never hears the exact words. - With time, OC begins to notice small shifts in the PC’s behavior due to legend invocation and can’t help wondering what exactly is left of the dragonslayer’s own persona and why he allowed himself to become what he is - literally an unthinking doomsday weapon.  - Back to DR, the SBs proceed with their preparation. Everyone is obliged to reiterate SB’s vows in the presence of a mesmer - to face their fears/desires, reveal their hidden interests and strengthen their minds. OC believes it is a good idea and everything goes well until - PC kills the inquisiting mesmer in front of witnesses and refuses to explain why. - Lady Meade oversees the process as an extra measure of safety. It seems she may have a clue - but she will never reveal it. - Commander is to be released because of the mission, being the Commander and being universally accepted “bad enough”. OC tries to confront him, but PC’s comments are cryptic - ”I didn’t kill the mesmer” and “we all understood the risks, no exceptions”.  - OC investigates. Something (WHAT WHAT WHAT???) tips them off to find out what “really” happened in Maguuma jungle about 12 years ago. - The official version of the Pact’s First Marshal death is “slightly” different from the truth. The fact that the PC killed him was concealed from the public to save what little remained from the Pact’s positive image. This was PC’s idea, supported by the rest of the high command and the few witnesses. Ridhais, who actually recovered the body, was gently persuaded to keep quiet with a lifelong pension and the Pact’s full support and protection. PC also found the way to make the Pale Tree hide the whole picture. - During the later confrontation with the PC, OC learns he had his own reasons for the many detours during Maguuma campaign and Rata Novus recovery. With the rest of the high command MIA/absent, PC’s priorities were with successful reestablishment of the Pact. In the end it costed him his sanity, earned him the impression of a mindless living weapon but worked well enough. OC is deeply disturbed and disgusted with the knowledge that the Pact was not transparent.  - In Maguuma, OC recovers some letters Trahearne and Commander exchanged during the Zhaitan campaign, as well as Trahearne’s later diary/album of letters that were never sent. OC reads it though and thinks it’s a fake, because it looks like a very unrealistic romance novel. OC tries to investigate who would benefit from compromising the high command, with no success. At some point, OC thinks the discovery has to be published or at least safekept with Priory, truth or not, but decides it can wait. - OC is enrolled in a SB’s mission for “previous effort’. The mission includes: mists, ghosts, sacred vows, runes, rituals, tons of magic. - Blah blah blah - OC and PC meet Trahearne. Each has a very painful discussion with him. - OC learns the second opinion about the Maguuma campain and thinks it looks ugly enough to be glad First Marshal died when he did. If not for the Big Statue and the Big Sacrifice talk, he would be charged with high treason for the fleet destruction, the Commander would be charged with high treason for the desertion (Eir was right!), Pact’s reputation would be ruined, Almorra would never be able to regain control during the White Mantle/Lazarus crisis, DW would be dead or scattered (probably for the best), Aurene would be a weak and sickly hatchling and probably wouldn’t survive. The world would be very different.  - Add some personal background here: OC thinks about small events changing the big picture and realises their own life would be total shit in this different world. Maybe a slave to the White Mantle/bloodstone ghoul? idk, ideas? - OC overhears some of PC and Trahearne’s talk, which is very personal. T describes what it was like to be a part of a jungle dragon. Neither expected the experience would cause PC’s revenant abilities to manifest. OC realises the “wound in the world” description is accurate.   - “Commander, the Pact” was T’s message to himself to preserve self-awareness: something that existed and was important regardless the connection to Dream and Mordremoth. T is partially responsible for Modrem attacks on the Pact camps. T believes he was powerful enough to contain the jungle dragon, but the perspective of living like this was terrifying, so he is grateful for going down as his own man (more or less). T is super-sorry this caused the Commander turning himself into a living weapon. Both say they would wish a different, happier fate for another.  - PC admits Caladbold has its own happy memory about T and he wouldn’t want to end with his mind’s eye image. OC realises a) PC doesn’t believe this conversation is happening, b) why PC could kill the mesmer. They don’t want to check the last part. - Blah blah blah - Back to DR/Cantha, OC hands the recovered letters and notes to PC.  Shorter version: start with PC killing the mesmer. Skip the first part.  I don’t have PoF yet so I don’t know how far madness goes there.  Now the big question: what would the OC be doing outside reading someone else’s correspondence?!! What is the original mission?  What team would they assemble?!! Mind, focus on the important stuff next time plz

[anggrainisss-blog]

IT JUST BEGINNING

Kerusuhan dan distorsi sebenarnya sudah terjadi sejak aku uts. depressed, anxiety, pressure, symptom in uncomfortable zone.  tapi memang benar, tidak ada yang tumbuh di zona yang nyaman. 

Rencana yang sudah kamu susun secara rapi dan detail, itu bukan apa-apa. sebab disana ada yang Maha Berkehendak. Apalah arti timetable mu ketika Dia tidak mengizinkan.

Kala itu, nama dosen pengujiku keluar dan NO! beda dari yang diusulkan. But ini challenge kan? bertemu dengan dosen farmakologi farmakoterapi saat penelitianmu sosyel itu sebuah tantangan karena sebenarnya mereka tidak dekat bahkan kalo nyambung pun dikit.

BUT YANG SANGAT MENGURAS HATI UNTUK PERSIAPAN ADALAH JANJIAN DENGAN DOSEN.

Aku sebenarnya berencana mau awal November aja kali ya biar prepare ku. Tapi ya tapi, aku sudah menyusun rapi seminar proposalku aku jadwal Oktober. OMG! Lakukan apa yang telah kamu rencanakan, rencanakan apa yang akan kamu tulis. Jadi, demi kemaslahatan renstraku tercinta....aku mencoba melangkah.

Kronologi:

1. Pas hari jumat mulai nge WA dosen dan sebenernya ya masih santai-santai. tapi waktu itu aku tetep mikir, kalo aku nggampangin aku nggak akan maju T,T. Jam  ditetapkan jam 8 aja. Pagi asyique masih seger khan ya. Jadi aku bisa kuliah siangnya. Tapi, dosenku ada yang mau cpns. Oke batal

2. Senin datengin dosen unit sebelah untuk minta saran, yaudah jam 11 aja. Oke well. Sudah merasa lancar-lancar aja ya khan. Tapi ternyata dosen yang satu nggak bisa jam 11. Well batal

3. Kemudian aku datengin tuh satu persatu beliaunya, alhamdulillah diputuskan jam 13 , jumat. Oke mulailah mengurus berkas dan peminjaman tempat. ini nggak mudah guys, mana aku sama @zahrotul​ ini jam peminjaman tempatnya mefet sekali jadi. dia selesai aku masuk (awalnya) tapi sepertinya Allah tidak ingin terjadi apa-apa jika jam mepet karena nggak jamin 1 jam semprop langsung selesai. Jadi pembatalan-pembatalan sebelumnya ini bukan tanpa alasan. Allah baik ingin menghindarkanku dari sesuatu yang buruk.

4. Pengurusan berkas juga nggak mudah dan cukup njlimet. Apalagi sekre dekanatnya sedang bertugas ke Bulgaria. plis ini bukan cuma Solo aja yang merem dah sampai. Harus menunggu beliau pulang. But alhamdulillah Allah baik. Peminjaman dan berkas dah oke. Proposal dah diserahin oke.

5. H-3 semprop. undangan baru ku sebar. itu pun nggak  ketemu dosennya. aku naik tangga berkali-kali cuma buat nyari dosen. Dari unit 9 naik ke lantai 2, lalu ke unit 3, naik lantai 2 lalu 3 lalu turun, gitu terus tiap jam demi nyari ibunya, Lalu ke PSPA nengokin dosbing  ternyata sedang keluar kota. THANKS TO MY CHALLENGE. Karena aku bukan orang yang tenang disaat urusan belum selesai. Hari-hari itu kalo diakumulasi aku dah keliling farmasi berkali kali. But aku yakin, semua anak semprop merasakan hal yang sama.

6. H-1 baru bikin PPT. 3 jam sebelumnya baru baca metodologi. ini nih kebiasaanku yang muncul saat semester tua, karena sekarang aku serba deadline semua. ah kenapa aku benci dengan aku sendiri. tapi, rata-rata anak semester tua ini melakukan hal yang sama. Sebenarnya aku sudah mencoba tenang tapi entah, mekanisme tubuhku mengarahkanku hingga ke anxiety yang itu kek nyeri didada hahaha songong. Aku grogi dihari-hari sebelumnya

7. Pas hari H nah keun aku baru serius belajarnya *edan emang, aku dah merasa nggak waras dihari itu* tapi aku malah nggak deg-deg an.Yah the help of Allah is near. Doaku semoga seminar ini menjadi sebuah amalan yang Allah ridhai. *dah merasa gila hari itu*

Yaudah aku cuma baca-baca dan yaudah kalo nanti nggak bisa ya brati aku emang harus banyak belajar.

8. Niat dalam ujian kek gini emang kita membuka diri kita, sampai manakah kita mengetahui segala sesuatunya, apa yang sebenarnya kita bingungkan? Kesalahan kita yang mana? menerima kritik dan bantaian ups. But niatnya baik kok, agar kita semakin mengetahui dan memahami. Jadi NIAT itu penting. Niat sempropku adalah aku ingin orang-orang mencari kesalahanku dan aku menerima kritikan mereka, aku ingin saran dari banyak orang, Intinya membuka diri.

9. Setelah keluar dari ruangan itu. The time comes. Ini dah kaya acara kawinan aja aku keluar disambut orang-orang (ps : bedanya ini aku keluar ruangan sendiri). They hug me and pray for me for what i’ve done.  Aku nggak nyangka people care me a lot. Lebih jauh apa yang aku kira. But this is the way we care to each other ya kheun. So this occasion i would like to say thank you very much. Untuk temen-temen yang sangat peduli denganku. Aku menghargai hal-hal yang kecil orang lakukan ke aku, Apalagi ini, this is the big care...... WELL. Let me say thank you. Semoga doa-doa yang kalian berikan padaku nantinya membalik menjadi doa ke kalian juga. Oh aku nggak bisa menyebutkan satu persatu siapa saja yang menyemangatiku. Makasih vika, mamaq tyrex ku, alipeng, pritil, bu bos, cuaeyo, novi tong tongku, ayuk, alfi, elsong, aidun, piqa, shafira, nyaiku, utami, tasyong, susil, ulin, ulum, GD’s GF, fira, mbok dita, intan, reza, dini, natya, nikeun, wulan, tasha, levin, rien, tami, ina, eka, ipeh, dita, dhity, anis, dora, dan semuanya yang nggak bisa aku sebutin satu persatu. It just beginning. Semua nggak akan berjalan tanpa ridha Allah dan doa-doa dari kalian. Ini baru ujian proposal, terimakasih atas kedatangannya. Semoga penelitian kedepannya kita dikuatkan, diberi kesabaran dan kemudahan oleh Allah. Ini adalah sebuah permulaan, masih sangat awal. Akan banyak rintangan yang tidak mudah didepannya. Ya Allah mudahkanlah urusan kami.  Untuk kalian yang sedang berjuang dan berjumpa dengan masalah-masalah. Sambutlah dengan baik, ajak dia berdiskusi denganmu di zona tidak nyaman. Kepergian masalah itu akan mendewasakan dan memberimu pelajaran baru. Terimakasih semuanya. Selamat berkutat dengan proposal atau penelitian. Barakallah. Jangan menyerah.

Mintalah doa kepada siapapun sebab kamu tidak akan pernah tau doa siapa yang akan dikabulkan.

Jika akhirnya  doa kamu belum dikabulkan, mungkin apa yang kamu capai sekarang adalah doa dari orang-orang yang diam-diam menyebut namamu dalam doanya

oh ya menguras hati dan perasaan karena jadwal sempropku berubah dari jam set 8, jam 8, jam 11, jam 13 lalu H-1 dimajuin dari jam 12.

sekian

[tinasapitri]

Another day without your smile

Another day just passes by

But now i know how much it means

For you to stay right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger

But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer

I want to grow old with you

I want to die lying in your arms

I want to grow old with you

I want to be looking in your eyes

I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do

I want to grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now

It causes me to wonder how

Our love tonight remains so strong

It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger

But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer

I want to grow old with you

I want to die lying in your arms

Things can come and go

I know but

Baby I believe

Something's burning strong between us

Makes it clear to me.... #westlife

....

I am slow at learning my feel. No matter how far is from here, youre very care and faithful to me. You're often helpful to me.

Kamu sosok yang paling sempurna yang pernah ku temui. Tapi kesempurnaan mu menjadi kelemahanku. Seberapa kuat kita ingin bersama tapi semua ini hanya angan angan belaka.

HUJAN....

Aku sangat mengingat, ketika hujan menahan kita untuk pergi dan terjebak lah kita di tengah jalan tepatnya di jembatan. Betapa bosannya lama menanti hujan yang reda, tapi kamu tidak menunjukan kebosannanmu..

Aku sangat mengingat, ketika kesekian kalinya kita harus terjebak hujan yg deras, dan itu tepat ketika kita di Rumah Sakit.

BERLAWANAN....

Dan apa kamu tau, semakin begitu sempurnanya kamu,,,, kamu ttp hnya akan menjadi angan angan ku saja. Andai saja bisa ku sampaikan hal ini padamu, sesungguhnya aku ingin kita bisa bersama sampai waktunya tiba kita dlm 1 ikatan suci yg mulia yg allah swt ridhai....

Kamu sosok yg sangat baik, tapi aku ingin kamu melepas perasaan yg kamu punya terhadapku. Kamu masih bisa mendapat kan sosok wanita yg pantas buat kamu yang lebih segalanya dari aku.

Kamu pantas bahagia, aku tidak ingin terjadi sesuatu yg menimpa kepadamu atau ada hal yg mengancam dirimu.

CINTA ITU PENGORBANAN & KEBOHONGAN

Is this what i want???

Harus kukatakan kepada semua orang yg dekat denganmu, bahwa aku tidak memiliki perasaan apapun terhadap kamu. Termasuk dgn orang yg dekat dengamu, wanita yg Sudah kau anggap kk. Dan itu 1 kebohongan yg trs kulakukan.

Dan waktu berjalan,,,

Semuanya hanya kepura-puraan. Hati ini sebenarnya sakit ketika melihat kmu bersama yg lain. Tapi memang ini yg seharusnya.

I HATE YOU

Berkali kali aku berucap untuk mengakhiri dan menyuruhmu untuk pergi kelain hati. Tapi kamu tetap kekeuh dgn perasaanmu itu. Dan endingnya so sad..

Akhirnya kita benar benar bisa melepas diri, tapi kamu membenci ku. (Andai kamu tau alasan kuat yang sebenarnya, dan hanya aku seorang diri yg memendam alasan besar ini) mungkin suatu saat ketika waktu nya tepat ingin ku sampaikan hal ini, i dare tell you what i really think. setidaknya agar kamu tidak terlalu membenciku.

"I hate u" seperti kata yg terus menghantui. Padahal yg diharapkan kita baik baik saja, kita bisa berteman baik seperti awal kita kenal.

Kamu sempat memaafkan ku, walau itu hanya via WA. Tapi komunikasi terbatas 1 sama lain. Aku sangat menghargai keberadaan wanita yang kini mendampingimu.

.........

.........

I wont' forget your kindness, you are a good guy.

Kamu tidak pernah mengeluh ketika kamu sebenarnya sangat sangat direpotkan karena ulah dan keapesan yang terjadi pada ku, entah saat jarak kita sedang berjauhan atau pun saat kita bersama. Yang ku ingat kamu hanya berkeluh karena melihat badan ku yang makin gemuk.

[xaeneron]

I was talking with a friend about an upcoming page for Closure and it reminded me of this thought I had a while ago, about how silly it is that Ridhais’ dialogue indicates that she doesn’t really know the Commander at all, despite claiming to have served in Orr and Maguuma as Trahearne’s guard.  Although it really is just a continuity thing, it’s funny to imagine that, particularly in Ive’s canon, awkward shy Trahearne very purposefully tries to get Ridhais to go away whenever Ive comes back to the Pact.  Or she’s just that oblivious:

Guest-starring the ever-dependable Devnet who catches absolutely everything.  And will always troll in Ive’s favor.

I’m still laughing about this help

[kerra-and-company]

Hello, for the NPC ask: any thoughts on Ridhais? For any of your characters who did the Knight of the Thorn quest, and bonus for any characters close to Trahearne (since Ridhais is supposedly one of Trahearne's guards for some time).

Ooh, Ridhais! Sure sure!! :)

Kerra's the one who goes through the Knight of the Thorn quest line, and though her canon differs in the sense that Trahearne is still very much alive post-HoT, I do think she would still have worked with Ridhais. And Kerra likes her! It's more of a friendship than any sort of mentor-apprentice thing, but Kerra really appreciates having the chance to help someone else who, like her, thought their Wyld Hunt was one thing and then figured out it was something else.

Rel would definitely know her as well, though they'd have more of a passing friendly recognition of each other early on than a close relationship. I can see them fighting together in Maguuma and becoming closer because of that, though not necessarily in the way of being close friends, just two people who understand each other very well.

[quasarknight]

The Core Concepts of Arcana High

The Avengers - Iron Man by theDURRRRIAN of deviantart

For the past 2 to 2.5 years there's been a particular idea stirring in my head for a while. An idea which as of now has several hundred pages worth of notes and draft write-ups the result of 2 campaign's worth of design. One of the campaigns was uncompleted sadly, yet still brought about several months worth of play. I at first decided to write up an adventure path for Pathfinder for this work, as a four-part series. This took a lot more time than I thought, so I decided to work on various side projects all the while hoping to one day see my magnum opus on the shelves of online storefronts one day (most likely for Pathfinder and 5th Edition). But like Larius Firetongue's School of Sorcery, I figured that drumming up interest over time can be a great idea.

As such, this blog post is the first in a series of revealing Arcana High.

Introduction

Arcana High is a hybrid four-color fantasy and magic school campaign in the vein of

Harry Potter

meets

Teen Titans

in a D&D fantasy world. For those unfamiliar with my earlier posts on the subject, the general idea is that the PCs are adolescent mages who found some magical artifacts. With these powerful relics, they can transform into alternate identities to better fight the forces of evil. All the while they must juggle their public lives as students in a world-renowned magical academy along with keeping the good people of Brancean safe from their ever-growing rogue's gallery of villains.

It was a rather popular itch I've been wanting to scratch for a while, due to the rarity of such play elements in traditional fantasy games and retroclones. When you think about it, the worlds of Dungeons & Dragons can support a pseudo-superhero style of play quite well. You have titanic dragons ravaging cities, foul cults seeking to awaken sealed evils, mad archmages brewing up new and deadly horrors to inflict upon the world, and holy forces bestowing their powers upon worthy mortals. With the preponderance of city-based campaigns and sourcebooks, diversity of adversaries, and the ever-popular appeal towards saving the world, a superhero kind of game with masked vigilantes wielding supernatural powers not for gold but for justice is not only feasible, it can work very, very well!

Major Themes

Four-Color Fantasy:

Masked knights, sorcerers, and druids battle a mad alchemist atop an undead leviathan creation wreaking havoc on a port city. Thieves' Guild goons shake down storefronts and make a quick getaway on charmed manticores. A golem built by the lord-governor to fight crime goes on a  rampage due to interpreting the law in an over-literal fashion. The city's gnomish-designed printing press publishes eye-catching headlines of the PCs' latest exploits and clashes with the aforementioned threats.

A Central City of Adventure:

The city of Brancean is modeled off of the real-world city of Constantinople, the capital of the East Roman Empire and then the Ottomans. As such, it is the focus of most of the setting, akin to what Gotham is to Batman and Metropolis to Superman.  It is a city of history, formed around the foundations of Highstone Academy when Aleria was but a division of independent baronies and tribes. As a principle nexus of an intercontinental trade network, it sees folk from all corners of the world (and some say of the planes). It is home to many wonderful sights, from the Colosseum where one can watch and participate in chariot races and all manner of sports tournaments; a literal Undercity home to drow, dwarves, and other subterranean beings; a 200 foot tall statue of the Goddess of Law and Civilization; and the pre-eminent Highstone Academy, of course!

Mediterranean Style Setting:

The region is known as the Bowl of Levios, dominated by a central sea also called the Sea of Levios. This body of water was home to a great sea serpent of its namesake who ruled the lands as a god-king in times long past. Although in the current era there is debate as to his divinity, there is no question that he left a great mark on the land, and many of the oldest realms are seaside and underwater cities. Here are but a few lands of the Bowl:

the Alerian Empire, home to the cosmopolitan metropolis of Brancean and the world's most famous magical academy.

the Al-Bahri Sultanate, a southern kingdom home to the Ridhai, who sail the seas on the back of island-sized Zaratan turtles.

the city-state of Kremdora, which suffered a devastating cataclysm while fighting an ascendant mage-tyrant and whose domain is now located within a residual anti-magic field.

Bristor, a northwesterly realm of small, independent kingdoms and tribes, home to knights, druids, and berserkers.

Tabiach, a realm of merchant princes and feuding city-states.

Imagine a Venice with merfolk and aquatic elf residents.  Imagine open-air tavernas serving pita bread dips and shish kebab street food to apprentice mages on their way to school . Imagine masked vigilantes fighting a possessed toga-clad statue of a long-dead emperor. Imagine an adventuring company accepting submissions from not just honorable knights and iconic elven archers, but also fair-haired northern reavers and steppe-borne nomads with curved swords. This is the world of Arcana High.

Scaling Powers:

One of the chief mechanical principles of the two Pathfinder campaigns I ran for Arcana High was the use of magical relics. Once belonging to heroes of the distant past, they could transform a wielder into a masked form which the original heroes wore themselves. Aside from the super-genius gadgeteer, most superheroes were not known for carrying around gabs of equipment to act as the primary extension of their abilities.

For that reason, instead of accumulating gold and magic items as a primary campaign concern, I more or less made the relics into scaling magic items for the

"big six" bonuses

(weapon, armor, shield, saving throws, deflection, and natural armor). I also let the PCs choose from a broad array of

relic upgrades

which could be gained once per level. They included things ranging from an elemental energy blast attack to a Green Lantern-style

major creation

spell-like ability of limited duration. Magic items were still a thing in the campaign, and the PCs did have access to a pseudo-Batcave where they could load up on common gear between missions, but with the versatility of relics reliance upon the "Magic Item Christmas Tree" effect was nowhere near as pronounced. Being an all-spellcaster party helped ease things as well, for they are the classes in base Pathfinder which can best replicate a superhero feel.

Conclusion

I have a lot more to say about this dream project of mine, but right now I wanted to focus on the major themes instead of losing my dear readers in layers of lore I already wrote up in various documents.

What aspect of

Arcana High

should I focus on next?  Talk a bit more about the magic school? Perhaps a few figures from the supervillain rogue's gallery? Sample relic powers and abilities?

Feel free to leave your thoughts in the comments!

[queer-as-used-by-tolkien]

Headcanon Time: Ranger Pets feat. Tiffany Commander

Now that new ranger spec is out, I want to talk about my ranger main, Tiffany Commander!

Growing up she never really had much magic of her own, but her companion, a brown bear named Beorn, does, and I headcanon that the shout skill "We Heal As One!" can be fueled by the magic of either the ranger or the animal companion.

I also believe that ranger/animal bonds are magical; it's a two-way mental/spiritual bond. It does have a boundary, though; if you get too far away, you can't sense your companion anymore, but the connection re-activates once you get in range. Through the bond there is limited mental communication (the three ranger hotkeys, for example; attack, return, defend, etc.) and you can get a sense of the other's physical state; are they injured, etc. If your companion has been killed, though, you'll only know because of the signals through the bond that they were injured and then dying and then dead. After that, though, you only get a jumbled, confused signal - no matter how out of range you are. Your connection's been broken, but you're not attuned to anything else. Maybe you'll get glimpses of other ranger signals, but not enough to know really who it is - so if you didn't know your companion was dead you might not know it until you found their body.

Anyway, this hasn't happened to Commander yet, but if it did, she'd be without any magical source of healing. She'd have to carry engi elixirs or something.

For a long time, Tiffany only wielded a greatsword, but she didn't really use the ranger's greatsword skills; in fact, if she were an NPC, the only way you'd be able to tell she was a ranger would be Beorn, because she just uses basic, generic NPC-with-a-sword skills. After her sister, Deborah, died (for realz; not the lost-sister storyline dead, but after that) Tiffany Solestrider began wielding her sister's sword.

When she met Trahearne and changed her last name to Commander, though, she started wielding a longbow, and it quickly became her favored weapon.

After Zhaitan's defeat, Trahearne gave her a Pact longbow and told her it was a symbol of their partnership; Commander wielded it loyally all through Maguuma.

There she encountered druid magic, but Commander couldn't wield it because she had almost no magic of her own. Something within her was responsive to the druid magic, but it wasn't anything she could use or channel.

After the Mordremoth Disaster, Commander couldn't stand the sight of the bow Trahearne had given her and she left it in Fort Trinity. She returned to wielding Deborah's sword until Ridhais approached her about healing Caladbolg.

As a weapon, Caladbolg was more than simply a greatsword; with it came the ranger's more magical greatsword skills; Tiffany Commander, with an affinity for sylvari magic, was capable of limitedly harnessing some of Caladbolg's magic in a fight. Since the bond with Caladbolg was also linked to the Commander's mind/spirit, it was also bonded to Beorn. Same for the bond with Aurene. This triple-bond is what allowed them, after the proper training, to assume Beastmode and merge with each other, despite the Commander's lack of native magic.

But the triple bond was useful for more than just becoming a practicing Soulbeast; Balthazar also didn't just kill the Commander; he also killed Beorn, because why wouldn't he? But it was the companion bond, plus the Caladbolg bond, plus the bond with Aurene that allowed the Commander to bring Beorn back, too. (I've believe that, after the Commander killed the Eater of Souls, she held more than enough magic to revive just herself.)

The bond with Beorn - and the practice Commander had had differentiating herself from Beorn all her life - is also part of what helped her resist Mordremoth. She was more easily able to differentiate between Mordremoth and herself, and of course, later on, the same was true of Jormag. And also, Aurene: we know Aurene can project herself at the Commander and also show the Commander what she's seeing, and probably a few other things besides.

After Balthazar was defeated and Taimi was on her way up to Elona, the Commander told Taimi to please and thank you stop by Fort Trinity and pick up her old bow.

Commander now has her two full weapon sets, greatsword/longbow, and there's no room for more. If she switches to Untamed when the expac drops, that doesn't mean she'll use a hammer (though she might try it out to see what it's like). More than likely, if she switches, it'll mean more lore-thoughts about how she wields Untamed magic. Possibly even a retcon of her Soulbeast status, but I kinda doubt it.

But I like making magic headcanons, so that'll be fun! And please can it have more ranger/pet lore. (But also, I've built up a pretty solid and extensive headcanon - more than what you see here, per the meme - about rangers and I don't want to have to rethink half of that for no reason XD.) I really want more info on Untamed, because it sounds genuinely interesting. We have a healing/support spec and a DPS spec, I'm interested to find out more about this new one.