#I WANT TO SEE OLDER TC :(

[firedjinni]

hollow knight detail #1,437 that makes my brain whirr like an overheated laptop:

the NPC names and boss titles in hollow knight display in a way that strongly implies they are being written from the knight's perspective -- NPC titles only appear once the NPC tells you their name; boss titles are usually loose descriptors or obvious titles unless you already know them; dream boss titles change in ways reflective of what the player (and by extension the knight) has learned about them; title changes seem to be very rooted in the knight's perspective ('broken vessel' -> 'lost kin' yeah but also shit like 'millibelle' -> 'millibelle the thief') -- and hornet never introduces herself by name.

[teartra]

I just realized!

The epilogue is 3-4 years after the event so The collector is probably around the same age as Luz at the beginning of The Owl House

Assuming The Collector could grow older after being stuck in the in between

[soahbee]

Imagine girls, you know I didn't go to school for a few days because I went to visit my mother (I promised her that I would visit) and during the trip I was completely depressed that I wouldn't be able to see R.

THEN! AHHH I got a message a few hours later and He wrote to me!!! I quote what he wrote:

"Where are you young lady?" SIR EXCUSE MEEE??!! 😭😭

I almost died here and everyone on the train looked stupid when I just grinned like an idiot. lol I wrote to him that I won't be going to school for a few days because I'm visiting my mother and he was so kind, he told me to have fun and take care of myself. AHH I MISS HIM SO BAAAD🥺

[in1-nutshell]

hellooo!! i want to say your blog and writing are so so soooo wonderful! i love it, haha, and buddy became dear for heart x) aaand!! thanks to you I like family fluff even more, it's my comfort zone now!

can i ask about older seeker, who care about skywarp and thundercracker with star? despite canon and w∆r, it's pretty nice to think that they're actually good with each other 🥺

Thank you for the compliments! I'm glad to hear that The Buddy's are leaving such a good impact on people!

Since you did not specify which continuity this was, I assumed you meant by the IDW continuity. If this isn't what you wanted, please let me know.

Now we've had a Human Buddy senior, get ready for Bot Buddy the senior!

Hope you enjoy!

Bot Buddy the Senior Seeker being a parental figure to Thundercracker, Skywarp, and Starscream

IDW

SFW, Platonic, Familial, Cybertronian reader

Buddy was one of the older seekers in the aerial troops.

If fact Buddy was probably the oldest bot in the Decepticon division. But despite being one of the older bots Buddy made it up with being an experienced flyer.

With their results it landed Buddy as one of Satrscream’s right hand assistant /teammate.

This meant that Buddy would be spending a lot of time with the Elite Trine.

“Buddy, reporting for duty, Starscream.”--Buddy

“Finally, someone who has some respect for the future Leader of the Decepticon army.”--Starscream

“Urgh.”--Skywarp

“Great another suck up…”--Thundercracker

“Well, isn’t that a bit ambitious isn’t it Stascream? Maybe not the future leader of the army—”--Buddy

“How dare—”--Starscream

“Don’t interrupt me Kid.”--Buddy

“Kid!?”--Starscream

“Nevermind I like this one.”--Skywarp

“Shush! Both of you!”--Buddy

“I was saying use your position to improve the lives of those who work with you.”--Buddy

“Now why would I do that!”--Starscream

“More kindness you spread the more kindness you’ll receive in the end.”--Buddy

“Buddy you might want to save your energy on that.”--Thundercracker

“Yeah, Screamer here doesn’t do kindness. I don’t think he knows the meaning of the word.”—Skywarp

“Worth a shot.”--Buddy

Enough time the Elite Guard had become too accustomed to the older bot being there all the time. Even after the war the Trine continued to have communication with Buddy.

Starscream wanted Buddy to stay on Cybertron as one of his advisors.

No offense to Rattrap but he isn’t the best bot to always have around. And he refuses to hang out with Windblade anymore than what he has to. Buddy does take time to visit Starscream whenever they are back on Cybertron.

“Screamer?”--Buddy

“Buddy?”--Starscream

“What are you doing?”--Buddy

“Having the mechs repaint your ship.”--Starscream

“Paint my ship?”--Buddy

“Yes, it was looking rather dull. Your ship shouldn’t have to look like that scrapheap.”--Starscream

“This isn’t a way for you to have me stay on Cybertron?”--Buddy

“No…”—Starscream

“Well then since I’m going to be here for a while, what’s going on between you and Windblade?”

“…”--Starscream

Buddy has made their home on Earth. It’s much more peaceful there now that the war is over. Buddy has to schedule meetings with Skywarp as his work has him moving all around with The GI Joe.

Skywarp likes it when Buddy comes over and races them around.

“C’mon Buddy best out of 25?”--Skywarp

“How about we take a breather? I can’t fly like I used to Skywarp.”--Buddy

“Aww! C’mon!”--Skywarp

“How about you tell me about that Rock guy?”--Buddy

“How about we take that breather.”--Skywarp

Buddy has to wait by themselves for a while to see Thundercracker.

9 times out of 10 Buster finds Buddy before Buddy has to try in finding Thundercracker. He gives Buddy a lot of copies of his screenwriting.

“Wow TC! This is a lot of screen writes.”--Buddy

“Yeah! I’m trying to get some of them to be produced soon!”--Thundercracker

“You seem to have a lot of good ideas here. But you might want to go over some of them again. I don’t think human’s have a last name like ‘Boyfriend’.”--Buddy

“I mean you can help me out as my editor. Just as a thought.”--Thundercracker

“Sorry kiddo, not my thing. I am however invested in how this one human having a crush on this other human that sounds suspiciously like Ms. Marrissa Farborne.”--Buddy

“Umm…”--Thundercracker

“And your love interest here kind of reminds me of y—”--Buddy

“HEY! Buster wants to play with you now! Isn’t that right Buster!”--Thundercracker

“Arf!”--Buster

Each seeker tries to keep Buddy longer each visit.

None want Buddy to leave.

Buddy never stays, but they always come back at the end of the day.

[animeyanderelover]

1: Could you please do yandere headcanons for Tanjiro, Muzan, Inosuke, Rengoku and Giyu

2: Yandere headcanons for Meliodas, Ban, King, Gilthunder, Zeldris, Gloxinia and Estarossa

More Seven Deadly Sins stuff. Perfect!

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, manipulation, overprotective behavior, clinginess, touchiness, delusions, stalking, guilt-tripping, sabotage, blackmailing, threatening, abduction, violence, death

Yandere Seven Deadly Sins Hc’s

Meliodas

🐲Whilst Meliodas has certainly mellowed out after his darkest days of being the leader of the Ten Commandments, that doesn't mean that he has become a truly good person. Meliodas is very possessive over his darling and whilst that might not always be obvious because of the smile he keeps on his face and his softer facade, he scares away anyone who can pose a threat to his darling or the relationship he plans to have with them. Additionally to that he is also very protective over his darling, especially if they are a normal citizen. He's witnessed brutality and war and whilst that didn't even bother him a slightest bit during his days as the heir to the demon throne, he has gone through a lot of change and even imagining that you might get harmed in any way manages to fill him with wrath true to the sin he represents. It's just unfortunate that Meliodas overdoes it with his protective feelings which is also to blame on his wish that he's the only one you rely on.

🐲His frankness is one of his most outstanding traits in both verbal and physical matters so Meliodas is very clingy and touchy with his darling. He constantly wants you with him and if his possessiveness gets the better of him, you're forced to endure his extreme affection. You might view him as a bit naive and the other sins certainly tend to think that way about him sometimes too but Meliodas uses a surprising amount of manipulation and guilt-tripping around you to coax you into accepting him and his obsessive antics. He knows how people tend to see him if they don't know who he is and he takes a certain advantage of that image you might have of him since it's quintessential for him to not have you be scared of him the moment you do find out who he really is. He'll also put his foot down quite firmly the moment you do something he doesn't want you to do because despite his excessive doting on you at times. The Sin of Wrath tends to be strict when you don't listen to something he clearly forbids you to do.

🐲His possessive side shows itself strongly in moments of jealousy. As soft and merciful as he might have grown, Meliodas is fully ready to revert back to a bit of the darker aspects of his personality from back then when it comes to you. Thinking about you with someone else makes him feel sick, feels like a stab in his heart since his darling is the most precious thing in his life and his greatest source of happiness. I'd actually credit him as being more possessive than jealous, he just overall dislikes it when someone takes you for themselves and he's left out but he can swallow it down as long as you make up for it later on. Luckily Meliodas tends to be more rational and merciful or it would be a nightmare for you and everyone who causes him to get irked. Meliodas knows his own limits though and if enough is enough he will put himself between you and the other person and tell them very frankly with a bit of a strained smile to leave and in case of them doing something that gets under his skin, he will shoot them a dark glare that would put most people back in their places.

🐲I think TC Meliodas would be a menace, Seven Deadly Sins Meliodas is in comparison softer and more reasonable. That doesn't have to make much of a difference though since he can revert back anytime to his older and far more ruthless self when someone is a threat to his darling. He's capable of expressing extreme rage when someone harms you in which case he will wipe everything in his nearest surroundings to pieces as he turns shortly into the terrifying demon he once was. Admittedly, Meliodas gives someone a very clear warning and by all means, it should be quite obvious judging by the colder look in his eyes that he intends to grow violent if the person he's adressing doesn't heed his warning. If this isn't sufficient enough, Meliodas won't feel guitly for any action he takes after as he believes himself to be in the justified position. He made it painfully clear what would happen if they wouldn't stay away so this is the fault of the by now probably dead or at least terribly wounded person for not listening.

🐲You have it coming one way or another with Meliodas even if the guy prefers to have the impression that you two live together because of mutual desire. You're already spending so much time with him in his tavern together with Hawks because he asks you constantly to help him out and the question if you want to live together with him permanently appears very soon. His face falls shortly when you reject him although he quickly masks this flood of displeasure behind his grinning facade and gives you a nod but he is far from fine. You can reject him the first, the second and maybe even the third time but eventually you won't be able to get his more and more strained smile anymore as a reply and are instead met with a blank face and normally shining green eyes staring at you sternly with a darker gaze. Even if an abduction against your will isn't what he would have preferred, Meliodas will do it if he gains the impression that you do not wish to be with him like he wants to be with you.

🐲If you do work for him in the tavern, you'll probably take the position of the cook. You most likely know firsthand from the abomination he cooks himself and prefer to prepare dishes yourself since they are at least eatable so you might as well save others from consuming whatever he creates from a pan and a pot. Meliodas himself would prefer it if you would stay in the kitchen and away from all the visitors who come to eat, drink and have a good time since it wouldn't do well if he would notice even one of them staring at you or even attempting to flirt with you. Once you have seen behind the mask of the green-eyed male and have realized how terrifying he really is, it's by a long shot too late to escape him anymore. Meliodas, whilst trying to avoid frightening you even more, lets his more scary side slip if you attempt something stupid and one good glare from him is most of the time already enough to cause you to break out in cold sweat.

Ban

🦊Ban is someone who is very passionate, the man decides his course of action after whatever the hell catches his interest at the time. His interest happens to be you for a while where he starts staying in the town where you live to spend time with you, tease you and flirt with you. You don't take it that seriously and quite honestly, neither does Ban at first. What you estimated to be a week or at best two weeks of him staying turns into months though and there is a worrying increase of the tall male monopolizing your time more and more. He's incredibly clingy and always hangs around you, not embarrassed or shy at all to even mingle under your friends who are collectively frightened and amazed by him. His eyes are only on you though as soon as he sees you and he isn't afraid to completely ghost your own friends and ignore them in order to spend more time with you and similar to Meliodas, he's very touchy and affectionate with you.

🦊Ban has gone through some shit in his past already and this has marked him and is the biggest reason for his very overprotective tendencies. He makes a fuss over even the small stuff when it comes to his darling and babies them nearly just as bad as Meliodas tends to do. The thief is nearly just as possessive as he is overprotective, he has no tolerance when it comes to his darling having any other s/o besides him and considering that he is the Sin of Greed, he decides to stay true to this as he is selfish when it comes to his lover. Now, there are moments where he feels a bit guilty for the way he's acting around you and scares others away which mainly happens when he sees how strongly it affects you in which case he tries to hold a bit back. Most of the time he shrugs his clearly obsessed antics easily off though as he deems your safety and the guarantee that you stay with him and love him as more important than any morally right actions.

🦊Considering that this man is almost always a mere two steps away from you and hugs you and smooches you out of nowhere, a lot of misunderstandings are bound to happen which the tall male obviously enjoys. If someone is approaching you, they might want to think twice with the 6'11 immortal man trailing right behind you. He's quite literally your looming shadow and stares with sharp red eyes at anyone who talks to you, especially if they are strangers he doesn't know of yet. If someone starts flirting or intends to ask you out, he won't have any of the bullshit. He's literally pushing you behind him and stares the other person literally and metaphorically down with a smirk on his face. That alone is already quite a bit scary and his condescending comments aren't helping this. Why would his darling want to go out with someone who is already looking like they might piss themselves right now? A coward won't be able to keep you safe and provide for you after all.

🦊Ban sees himself almost as lenient since he threatens people to stay away from you for good if he knows that they cause you stress or torment you in any way. Anything that might harm you physically or emotionally will be removed from your life. Well, except him of course. You only deserve the best after all and Ban is intend on giving you this. His morals are clearly not intact though as Ban is the type who will delude himself into wholeheartedly believing that murdering someone is the right thing to do if they've harmed you and didn't listen to his warning. Your safety and well-being matters more to him than one or two lowly humans lives anyways so he will lock away all possible guilt he will feel when slaughtering them. The closest he will come to actually feeling guilty is if you still react devastated even if whoever he killed hurt you.

🦊He doesn't really have a place to stay when he meets you so it happens more than just once that he invites himself over into your own house and makes himself comfortable like a cat in your place. The thought of having a domestic life with you definitely is on his mind though and that is what leads him to searching for a new place where he can move in with you, hopefully. Ban really wants this to be consensual too since he would feel the closest to being a bad person if he abducts his darling and they would end up being terrified of him which would only hurt both parties in the end. He's often attempting to sweet-talk and coax you into moving in with him as soon as you two are an official couple, promises you to make you happy and take care of you. An abduction might happen if you are either mortally wounded and he gets completely paranoid or you end up wanting to leave him in which case you will be knocked out by him.

🦊Generally talking, Ban hates being strict with you or scaring you in any way since the fearful look in your eyes and the tears that fall hurt him. All he really wants to do is dote on his s/o and adore them with everything he can. He's a superb cook and knows that so he definitely takes pride in the fact that you love his meals so much. Loves to cuddle and kiss the daylight out of you and sometimes he just does it for the sole purpose of flustering and annoying you a bit. He's a huge tease so if he realizes that any of his flirts words result in your face heating up, he will continue with his playful assault although he will stop it if he notices that you're about to ge genuinely angry. His darling is going to be smaller than him in most cases and if the height difference is very big, he'll definitely enjoy it to just randomly pick them up and twirl them around. His darling is his light and he genuinely thinks dying would be better than living without them. He's immortal and his darling most likely is human so Ban will most likely use his blood, essentially the Fountain of Youth, to prolong their life as he is too selfish to let death take them away.

King

🐻The Fairy King Harlequin holds great affection and love for his darling but his biggest problem is that he has such a hard time admitting this. It should be fairly obvious to someone who observes him even for a little bit that he loves his darling dearly and believe me when I tell you that King wants to tell you everything. He has tried in fact multiple times so but every time you look him in the eyes, he gets far too flustered, his face turns pink and his brain suddenly stops functioning as he gets all of a sudden hit by a wave of self-doubts. He gets depressed every time he has failed once again as all he seems to be able to do is just watching over you. He stalks you a lot, is often levitating around somewhere with a soft smile on his face when he watches you going on about your day. When other members of the Seven Deadly Sins point out that he's probably being a bit creepy by watching you as often as he does without you knowing about it, he gets all defensive and denies their words as he claims that he's only watching out for you.

🐻Whilst Meliodas and Ban don't really care for the wrongness of their love, King is someone who slips more into the completely delusional area as he has never considered any of his thoughts or feelings as wrong. He is probably just too overwhelmed to do so, the only thing he knows is that he loves you to death and would do anything to see you smile and be the one who makes you happy. King is very obsessive as all he does is stalking you and by extention of that also watching you a lot. He remembers even small things about you and keeps everything in mind which results in you often receiving anonymous gifts from someone who seems to know which flowers and things you love and prefer. His heart is always pounding in his chest when you show others the gifts and gush about your secret admirer. King grows quite clingy himself once he is your lover although he only does it when you two are alone. He loves being lazy together with his darling and cuddles a lot with them.

🐻King tends to be insecure at times and that is especially bad when he sees his darling with someone. Now he is not someone really possessive and petty as your happiness is from utmost importance to him but he gets particularly anxious when he thinks that you admire the person, be that for their looks and body which would be especially bad for him if he still hasn't developed his wings at that time, or for their charm and courage. All he really can do is stand awkwardly behind you and watch you interacting with them, unaware how and when he can interrupt this conversation. You are bound to notice him at one point as he gets very fidgety. It happens at times that there is a short boost of bluntness and courage when someone flirts with you or asks you out, something he feels only moments later a bit embarrassed about.

🐻King is probably one of the more harmless and merciful Yandere as he is compassionate and, most of the time, very kind. He's maybe only at times a bit too overbearing with his protective feelings which steams from the fact that he lost his sister already once in the past and also wasn't able to protect his forest and all the fairies living in it. Such events are a reason why he lost confidence in himself but it also stirs this slight paranoia that he can't fail you too. He dislikes killing in general but it doesn't mean that he won't do it at all if it's for the sake of protecting his darling and even if he doesn't look like it, King is incredibly strong and underestimating him might turn out to be a deadly mistake. Terrified to traumatize his darling though, he attempts to never let them see or even know when he goes with such drastic violence.

🐻As the Fairy King, it's unavoidable for King to go at one point back to his forest and when that time comes, he's begging his darling to come with him. He wouldn't be able to bear the distance and if you say 'no', he might be upset and saddened to the point of crying a bit. He doesn't want to force you though so he would still accept. He'd be miserable though as soon as he's alone and Gerheade and Elaine realize that and most likely try to get in contact with you and try to convince you to at least visit King to soothe him a bit. By all means, he's not neglecting his duty as the Fairy King but both notice that he's quite depressed and all the other fairies do too so they all most likely support King. When you do come to visit, all fairies end up trying to convince you that staying in here would be wonderful, show you the most beautiful places to let you see how beautiful their home is. If you decide to stay with King in the forest, he'll give you everything he can provide you with out of sheer love and happiness.

🐻His Heart Reading actually makes him quite terrifying since it allows him to read someone's true thoughts and feelings and after awakening his true potential, this ability of his only grows stronger. He feels guilty about invading your privacy though so he often tries to not read anything from you although he won't deny that when he feels insecure or paranoid about something, he might glance a little bit into your thoughts and feelings to ease his worries. He feels a lot of pride every time he sees how amazed you are with his forest and makes sure to always show you the prettiest places. He doesn't like leaving you alone for long but he feels less scared since he knows that people like Gerheade, Elaine and literally every fairy in the forest will always look out for you and protect you if something or someone should threaten you.

Gilthunder

⚡️You certainly do get a lot of jealous looks from other women whenever the handsome knight is walking with you, insists that he helps you in your ordinary and mundane life as much as he can. Be that by buying groceries for you or just walking you home, you just have to ask and the sweet man will help you to the best of his abilities. This daily behavior of his already reveals two of Gilthunder's traits which are his clinginess and his desire to protect his darling. The Holy Knight adores his darling and spends nearly every minute that isn't spend on honing his swordmanship with them. His friends tease him when they catch him spacing out with a dreamy smile on his face as his thoughts wander immediately to his sweet darling and not being able to see his sweetheart for a few days stirs up visible distress inside the man. Due to him not only being a knight but also the lover of you, Gil also sees it as his daily duty to protect you from all potential harm and whilst that doesn't have to escalate, the man is very doting to you just in general.

⚡️Gilthunder is also more or less semi-aware at best. He realizes and acknowledges with a little bit of sadness inside of his heart that you might not see him as your lover yet but is weirdly positive at times that he will be able to charm his way into your heart. This delusional streak is unstable at times though, mainly when he feels a bit down or finds out that there is someone you apparently fancy a lot. He's not looking very threatening and acts in general very sweet around his darling so that can be the potential way for him to eventually manipulate his s/o a lot. I don't think that he is necessarily someone who is fond of actively playing mindgames with you as he hates lying to you unless he thinks that it is needed. What he does is coaxing you into letting him help you a lot though although he respects it when you want to do something alone.

⚡️He knows that a lot of people often ask you what your relationship with the Holy Knight is and he knows just as much that a lot of them believe that he would be a great lover to you. He feels as flattered as proud when he overhears someone talking about how good of a husband he would be for you and he dearly hopes that you, even if just secretly, think the same. He isn't someone to monopolize you or needs to know with whom you spend your time with when he isn't there as he trusts you enough with that. He's probably prone to react jealous when someone is very presistent to get you to talk with them, throws glances at you more than just once or starts flirting with you. He can swallow one or two comments or glances down and ignore it but if someone is very insistent, he starts feeling annoyed. The worst you have seen him is when someone flatters you and courts you even though you already are with him at that time in which case jealousy and disbelief manage to make his blood boil a bit as he storms over with clenched fists.

⚡️He's a kind soul and not likely to kill someone, at least not without a valuable reason. Gilthunder, with his more protective feelings, will still be quite stern and strict as soon as someone does as much as mutter an insult about you. In his eyes his darling deserves all the love and respect and he will go against anyone who will treat his lover differently. If someone already gives him bad vibes, he instantly shields you behind him, especially if he realizes that they make you feel uncomfortable, and does all the talking. Less the type to attack and only defend, even if he should get into a fight he tries to stop the person without killing them although he might be particularly rough with his lightning magic in hopes to have them realize that they just aren't a match for him. Similar to King though just because he doesn't prefer killing doesn't mean that he'll never be capable of doing it. Setting him off by wounding his lover and not even feeling any regret about it, worst case scenario laughing about it, provokes unusual rage inside of him in which case he will deem that person as someone he has to kill.

⚡️Doesn't really strike me as the type who would kidnap his darling which is also partially because of his half-aware tendencies. He is counting himself as lucid enough to know that forcing you into a life with him wouldn't make you happy and might even lead you to despise the man in front of you. Gil's heart most likely would shatter if that were to happen and he wants the delusion in his head where the both of you are a loving and married couple to become true under all means necessary. Considering his sweet and attentive behavior around you and all the attention he showers you with, it isn't even that far stretched to assume that you might accept him and have an almost normal relationship with him. He's most likely loved by your family and by your friends just as much so they would definitely appreciate him as your husband too.

⚡️Gilthunder is almost normal with his behavior, maybe a tad bit too sweet and obsessive but most people just gush over him and the way he treats his darling with such love and such care. When he's first forced to join the Holy Knights, it's his darling who ends up being imprisoned and he has to hunt down the Seven Deadly Sins in order to ensure that no harm comes your way. He feels terrible about this since he admires Meliodas so much but is left with no choice since you might be harmed otherwise which causes him to act even colder and more ruthless. Whenever he has the chance to see you, all he can do is swallow down everything as both of you know that he's being watched although the way he grasps your hand tightly in his own through the grids and the way his thumb brushes over your palm tells you that he's silently telling you that everything will be fine. After Meliodas has freed him, he's breaking down the door to your cell and just embraces you, on the verge of tears after he had to constantly fear for your life and promises you through a lot of sweet kisses that he'll never let anything happen to you again.

Zeldris

◾️Between the two demon brothers, Zeldris seems like the better choice but that doesn’t have to mean incredibly much when we’re talking about Yandere. He’s certainly lucid enough about his own feelings and differently from his older brother, he doesn’t just ignore all of this. Zeldris struggles with that aspect of his emotions and this all is even worse since his darling happens to be a human. He’s well aware that you might not see him in such a good light since he’s a demon even if he is nothing like he used to be during his times in the TC. Zeldris probably refuses to seek you out at first but to his huge shame he ends up finding himself stalking his darling since there is an almost irrational feeling of fear stuck deep inside his core when he doesn’t know what they’re doing at the moment. He shares the same possessive feelings as his brother though and whilst he might be initially not someone who goes out of his way to meet you, he’s sure to remove anyone who dares to court you.

◾️Zeldris is also quite protective of his darling and that is partially fueled because they’re human. Differently from Meliodas, he doesn’t tend to completely underestimate you. He’d be happy if you would rely on him but also respects most of the time that you aren’t a completely weak person either. The younger demon brother finds himself being quite flustered about the aspect of being overly affectionate in front of people and even in private, much to his great dismay. As someone who puts more importance into personal choice and boundary, unlike Meliodas, he isn’t quite as overbearing and exhausting as his brother unless he has a good reason to be. His darling influences him in a good way too as he finds himself turning more open and honest around them although he’ll still lie and manipulate them at times. He tends to give in to his possessive and more entitled side after all.

◾️He’s shown to be rather patient and composed and deep down he’ll deny the emotion of jealousy. He’s rather confident in himself and his abilities, knows that he could eradicate someone within seconds. There’s no need for him to feel threatened or jealous. Precisely because of this he finds himself trying to ignore the small jabs that he feels all over his skin at times when he sees you interacting very closely with someone. He’s never dealt with such a situation before and his older self would have probably just threatened both darling and companion but he won’t do that for now. He certainly feels more antagonistic about such people though, especially if this isn’t a one-time thing and is not above mocking and taunting someone when his patience crumbles. Don’t let it escalate further though since Zeldris will start threatening someone with a dark glare to stay away before dragging you away from them, indifferent to what you want in that moment.

◾️He’s relapsing on his cool side when it comes to you at times seen in his jealous response but nothing could make it more obvious than when his s/o is in danger. Zeldris is rather overprotective as it is already so if someone hurts you or even threatens to do so, that’s basically already a death sentence. He doesn’t take any bullshit at all and is dead serious. Zeldris is additionally someone who doesn’t hold back against his opponents so it’s a guaranteed kill the moment he attacks someone and no one will be able to stop him. Similar to many others, he won’t really feel guilt if he kills someone as he’s categorized them as a threat for you in his mind and for that they have to be gone. If he’s kind enough to give a warning, they should really take it to heart. Well, it’s too late now.

◾️Your personal choice matters but there’s a limit to that when it comes to Zeldris and his possessive personality. To your luck he himself needs time to make that decision for himself when he feels comfortable enough with it as he needs his time to grow fully accustomed to the situation and his feelings. Additionally he is almost a bit hesitant to ask you about it, still worried that you might not want to live permanently together with him which wouldn’t do well for his feelings. He can probably deal with quite a few rejections though as personal choice matters for him and he does attempt to lead a more genuine relationship with you. But that doesn’t mean that this can drag on forever since he will question at one point how much you love him if you keep on saying no. If you leave him or are targeted in any way, Zeldris will also resort to an abduction without as much patience as he normally has.

◾️In a strange way he’s almost a bit endearing when it comes to the relationship. He tries to hide it but it’s obvious that he at times doesn’t know how to deal with you or the relationship. Zeldris keeps his feelings and his attraction, even the relationship, more secretive most of the times so only a few will know. Meliodas is obviously included and loves teasing his younger brother about it. Zeldris grows with time more accustomed to everything though as he learns to fully embrace his feelings, expresses his affection and excitement openly for you. He’d prefer living in a more quiet and peaceful environment with his darling when they decide to live together with him, without too much visitors aside from your family and his own brother. Whilst Zeldris finds himself being more lenient, he can be just as strict and restricting with his darling and that would be the worst when they betray him in any way, shape or form since it took longer for him to accept his own feelings for a human and since he tried to be as understanding and respectful with them as possible.

Gloxinia

🦋Gloxinia is anything but harmless and that is mainly because he holds a deep grudge against your kind due to their betrayal in Stigma and his false belief that his sister was killed by humans. That’s what causes an inner clash of emotions in the former Fairy King as his resentment and his blooming obsession are two polar opposite emotions. He rejects his darling as good as he can but ultimately he can’t settle peacefully unless he knows that they are somewhere near him. His hatred causes him to be surprisingly sadistic though even if he has a rather upbeat personality. It’s like he takes his pain and resentment, all his conflict, out on you. You’re completely isolated from everyone you love as he taunts and mocks you for your weakness, threatens and intimidates you and even uses his Heart Reading against you. You’re not able to keep anything a secret from him thanks to this and he uses this shamelessly to his advantage as he manipulates you. Gloxinia knows that he’s cruel but his deep loathing doesn’t let him act rational.

🦋Eventually he just decides to keep his darling with him as he accepts that he’s too possessive to let them leave him otherwise. It doesn’t mean that he’s going to be nice but having you is enough for him. Any of the other sins are kept away from you though, only Drole is allowed near you as Gloxinia doesn’t trust any of the other demons. Drole seems to note the inner conflict of his friend and the suffering he causes you so he actually attempts to talk to the fairy. Gloxinia rejects his suggestions though as he continues to deny his feelings. Humans killed everything he held dear, he can’t be in love with one. His true emotions sometimes slip out though as he reverts back to his comedic and caring personality where he looks at you as if you’re the prettiest flower in the world, wants to play some childish game like hide and seek with you or plays with your hair, sometimes even asks you if you’d like to do his hair. He backs off and disappears for a while when he snaps out of it though, shocked and flustered with the situation that just unfolded.

🦋Gloxinia hasn’t considered the feeling of jealousy before as he never had such a situation to deal with. Initially he doesn’t believe it to be jealousy either if he should ever catch you with his abilities longing for someone else or thinking of someone in a romantic sense. The heart never lies after all and there is a bitter feeling boiling inside the pit of his stomach, one he doesn’t pay too much attention to at first. When he eventually realizes his own feelings for you, even if he tries to convince himself that it isn’t true, he also learns that he’s in fact terribly jealous of those you fancy, especially if you should have a love interest. That’s when bitterness gets mixed up with a stinging pain that he can’t be the one you long for even if he knows that at this rate you’d never see him as anything else than a monster. At the same time Gloxinia doesn’t want you to know either as he’s paranoid that you’ll betray him and use his kindness just like your kind did 3000 years ago. He won’t risk the same mistake twice.

🦋Gloxinia is almost merciless as he has no problems hurting you, even if not too severely, or others. His sadistic personality since joining the demons shines through in moments like this although luckily they don’t happen too often. He sees no reason to slaughter senselessly due to his darling being almost always with him and no contact besides really him and Drole. He often keeps you in line by telling you what might happen if you ever try to escape him and if you’re smart, you won’t do anything like this. There truly doesn’t appear to be a problem for the fairy at first as he stays true to his words if you do anything like running away in which case he destroys anything around you, even killing. As time passes by, Gloxinia mellows out though and with that comes a more compassionate and caring side of his which, whilst still anything from harmless, is more merciful.

🦋He is part of the TC and for that has no morals left at first. Gloxinia is for that the type to abduct his darling in the earliest stages and it’s terrifying. Even if he looks girlish and not threatening like some of the other Commandments, the difference in power alone has you realizing soon that you can’t run, not to mention his powerful aura that has you breaking out in sweat. The chance to escape is slim, not without him wrecking havoc and knowing that even your feelings and thoughts aren’t safe from him has you falling into despair. You’re either locked up somewhere and guarded by his flower dolls or he spends personally time with you, his black eyes never leaving you. His Spirit Spear Basquias tends to wrap itself around your body if you stray off to far away from his taste. Keeping you out of sight of anyone besides Drole is a conscious choice though as he still dislikes demons even if all of them know of his prisoner at one point.

🦋He reverts back to his old personality with time, especially after meeting the new Fairy King and learning from him. It comes with a lot of guilt for his actions against you though as he truly realizes how terrible he’s been to his darling. He immediately sets them free, apologizes to the best of his abilities even if he knows that this won’t cut it for them. Gloxinia stays in your life though, even if you don’t know it yet as he starts stalking you, unable to fully leave you alone. The fairy is depressed even if he stays cheerful and outgoing when in the company of others. He’s ruined everything for himself by turning to the demon clan and traumatizing you after all. He grows very protective over you now even if that isn’t enough to atone for what he’s done to you, helps you secretly however he can to make your life as easy and good as possible. With nothing holding him back from his feelings now, Gloxinia grows more obsessive though and only time will show if that might end in another drama for you, sweetheart.

Estarossa

🔲Estarossa might appear quite relaxed and even aloof but honestly, he's quite unstable mentally and even if he doesn't show it at first, darling will eventually notice the rather alarming and frightening signs. He's deeply stuck in his obsession and whilst he might deem his s/o initially as weak because they're human, once something has struck him and led him down the road of downfall, he'll simply stop caring. Considering the fact that his Commandment is eating slowly away his mind and he is due to that emotionally and mentally damaged, Estarossa is an individual who is on the more delusional side. It seems just so unbelievable that the son of the Demon King fell in love with a human that it makes only sense in his mind that there lies something more behind that which is why he declares you to be his soulmate of sorts. No comments and pleads can get through him either as he merely labels you as naive and yet unaware that you two are destined to love each other. His delusion of you being his soulmate only drives his possessive attributes on and is one of the times where you start seeing how mentally broken he really is.

🔲Initially a rather composed and quite calm man, as time passes by and his commandment starts eating him away, he grows overly paranoid. Everything that may turn your attention away from him is instantly seen as a threat as he does his best to retrieve your thoughts to him. At times he is excessive to express his love to you, does his best to ignore all your protest and clear signs of displeasure as he starts grasping tighter and tighter onto his delusion that you two are meant to be which is at one point his sole pillar of stableness. Whilst he might initially allow Zeldris to see you and even boasts about you, his soulmate, in front of his brother, at one point only the tall man will be the one to solely see you as he grows more and more unhinged and in return all the more paranoid. He starts becoming incredibly demanding as he grows tired of your refusal and at one point you have to fear for the lives in your village as he starts thinking that you may just grow to accept him if he eradicates everyone who holds you back from the realization that will set you free. That you were destined to love him.

🔲You never really see at first how deeply jealous Estarossa grows to be, or probably has already been, in the beginning. He keeps a calm smile around you, constantly reassures you that he'll protect you and won't let anyone harm you and dotes on you. You yearn for those who are unaware what happened to you, at times lament about the situation you're in yet the male demon seems fairly unbothered by it. Or that's what you at least thought at first. Time passes by and you notice that he seems to spend more time with you, always talks to you or does something to turn your attention back to him when he notices that you're spaced out and with your thoughts somewhere else. At first it's not as bad albeit you perceive it as annoying since he starts invading your private space too much, something he hasn't done before to such an extent. Then it grows worse and worse though until it becomes unbearable for you as Estarossa starts overthinking and becomes highly paranoid.

🔲You know that he kills people as it is and whilst Estarossa is at the beginning, where he still has some screws in the right place, reasonable enough to not confront you with death and his crimes since he sees you as a rather fragile person, the more his mental health deterioates, the more you are confronted with the topic of death. Estarossa grows extremely violent and hostile to about anybody as he can't stop thinking and also feeling irrationally threatened by everyone who is around him when it comes to your affection and admiration. Even Zeldris experiences this at one point as Estarossa accuses him and everyone else of the other Commandments that they plan to steal you away from him. Whether he fears that they might kill you or want to court you is never clear, even to Estarossa, all he believes he knows is that they plan something. He'd do anything at one point to really just have you to himself and grows definitely insane enough to threaten to wipe out the whole town you've lived in if it should "help" you.

🔲The abduction happens before you truly know about anything as Estarossa has merely stalked you before arriving at the conclusion that you two are connected by fate. Honestly, you just label him as a complete and utter crackpot when he approaches you, a complete stranger in your mind, and starts talking something about that you have to come with him. That he has found in you his soulmate and that you must feel something for him too. The vibe he gives you makes you uneasy and puts you off since you clearly see that something is very wrong with the man in front of you but you fear to anger him. A strained smile on your face as you try to excuse yourself, sweat starting to build on your forehead when he starts persistingly following you. You lose it when he grabs you and lifts you up, push him away and want to make a run of it before a hard hit on your head causes you to lose temporarily your consciousness.

🔲If you think that Estarossa was already freaking you out at the beginning, just wait until he starts consuming the other Commandments. You see his sanity withering away in front of your own eyes and the worst is that the more he grows unhinged, the mor he seeks you out for comfort and emotional support. At one point he becomes unpredictable when it involves you even only in the slightest. One moment he might just dote on you and smother you in affection and in the other he's accusing you of planning to cheat on him and leave him. This gets out of control when he starts hurting you, even if only accidentally. He always starts crying as soon as he realized what he has done and everything starts again. It's hell for his darling and it's just as much hell for him but he denies the truth at every second as he clings desperately onto the hope that everything will work out because you two have each other. Meanwhile you pray God for mercy and to free you from this demon. Who'd have known that soon enough you'd really be saved by an angel, only that this angel would be somebody you know all too well...

[vivaldisspring]

Due to popular demand (5 people asked me), I shall tell the story of how I married my TC

LONG READ AHEAD – THIS IS 7 PAGES ON MY WORD DOC

Hi TCC! I’m Anissa, I’m 27 years old, but I’ve had dumb tcs since I was 11 because of whatever the hell is deeply wrong with me. Before I start, I want to point out how very lucky I was to be surrounded by sensible, responsible, righteous adults as I grew up, so that I was never exposed to any danger – and I’m including adults in the tcc, as I was around here when I was a minor as well. I hope, if you are a minor, you understand that my story is a college story, everything happened between adults (and it started when I was 21), and absolutely nothing that I will say here applies to a high school setting. To be completely honest, it is not exactly any advice for a college setting either, as you will see that I have sorely regretted a lot of my actions and they have led to people getting hurt (mostly me). Even when it comes to professor-student relationships, I would still advise you to not act on your crush, or at least wait until you’ve graduated college. Had I done that, I would’ve spared myself a lot of headache. Also, I do believe as you get older, large age gaps get easier to deal with.

PART 1: JAMES (my crush)

I was 18 when I started college as a History major. It was 2015, and due to issues with my family that I’m not going to go into, I was severely depressed. I soon dropped out of college, spent some time away, and returned in 2017 (20 years old) as a Foreign Languages major this time. So, at 20 years old, I was still a freshman, which to me was super embarrassing, but oh well. Mental health first.

That’s when I met James (not his real name). He was a professor at my university, mainly teaching English. (I do not live in an English-speaking country, so English here doesn’t mean literature in English, but rather the actual language – reading, writing and listening skills in English). James was in his mid-thirties back then, I think, had gotten his PhD and a professor job at my university not too long before. The way it happened is, he published on the department’s Facebook page a notice that he needed an assistant to one of the English classes he taught. His only requirement was, the student needed to have finished the course with the highest grade. That was my case, as I had taken that course the previous semester (with a different professor). In my university, when you’re an assistant to a professor in any class, you get credits. I wanted credits, so I emailed him expressing my interest. He said great, come by my office next week at this time, and we can talk about it.

I went to his office as we had agreed, and that’s when I first met him in person. We talked for a bit, I thought he was very nice, and we agreed I would be his assistant in that specific English class. As his assistant, I was present in all of his classes, I helped take attendance, set up the projector, organize the desks/chairs, prepare the assignments, hand them out, grade them if necessary, answer any questions the students might have, etc. It was a Reading Comprehension class, so I also selected texts in English that I thought would be a good fit for him to assign to the students. This meant that we spent a lot of time together and we had a lot of contact outside of class, discussing plans for the course and solving problems that showed up. We would meet earlier than the time the class started, and after the class ended we stayed together for a while too. I didn’t have a crush on him immediately – it developed throughout the semester, because I guess of our growing proximity.

Now, let me tell you. When the crush did develop. I was OBSESSED. It was INSANE. I’d had crushes on teachers before, in middle school and in high school, but NOTHING LIKE THIS. Those crushes paled in comparison; they were reduced to jokes. My crush on James CONSUMED me, mind, body and soul. I don’t think I can stress this enough. I was a MESS – it was so deep, so strong, unlike anything I’d ever felt before. I thought about him every single minute of every single day. I planned every single one of my actions around him. I dressed for him, I got into credit card debt from buying expensive/pretty clothes that might appeal to him, I started a diet so I could lose weight for him (I was the thinnest and unhealthiest I��d ever been during that time), I started doing exercise (I would go jogging for 2 hours straight) also to lose weight, I wore short skirts, I showed cleavage, I put on more makeup than ever in my life. I wrote poems and songs for him, I overanalyzed our interactions and his very micro expressions, every word that he said. Every praise from him was like the highest high from the most powerful drug – the tiniest word of perceived disapproval was enough to render me suicidal. I AM NOT EXAGGERATING. I hesitate to call it a crush. It was an ILLNESS. I stalked this man, I stalked him online (I found out everything I could about him and his friends and family), I stalked him physically (I would wait outside his office, at a reasonable distance, for him to come out - sometimes I would go up to him and talk to him, sometimes I would just walk by him and wave, pretending it was a coincidence we were in the same area, sometimes I would just watch him walk up to his car and drive away. I wrote down his license plate and looked for his car everywhere I went. I found out what neighborhood he lived in, and I used to go there in hopes that I could find out his exact building by checking parking spots for his car, and maybe I could also run into him there?). I found out he had a girlfriend and stalked her too, and I compared myself to her to the point of insanity. I shed literal blood, sweat and tears, I dedicated months of my life to this sick obsession, and this sick obsession ONLY. This was all I had. Guys, I did things I can’t even speak of here, because they were too wrong, too petty, quite frankly too embarrassing to admit even to strangers on Tumblr. That’s how bad it was.

I couldn’t regret it more. I think, being severely depressed, I considered this crush my lifeline, and I poured my soul into it like it could save me from darkness. But it was darkness, it was awful. And the worst thing? James didn’t deserve to have to deal with it. He is actually a good guy. I’m pretty sure he noticed how I felt, but he never once took advantage of it. He kept his distance, kept everything professional and ethical, never made advances, never did anything inappropriate, and reacted to my inappropriate behavior very well. He knew I was depressed, he tried getting me into therapy, but there was only so much he could do.

Looking back, I feel my crush on James as something of a curse. I was cursed with it – and it still lingers to this day, I still feel the pain from having been burned alive by these feelings even though I’ve put out all the flames by now. I’m fine, I’m better, 6 years later I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been… but I still shake at the sight of James. I still feel like I can’t quite breathe, even though I’m happily married now and most of the time it’s like James never existed. If I run into him, I can’t say it’s not a blow.

I hope one day I can get over him completely. I wanted to tell you guys the James story because I don’t want this to be simply a “omg I got married to my tc, if I did it you can do it too!!” kind of post. I don’t want to encourage anyone to go after their tcs like I went after James because it DOES NOT END WELL and I know better than anyone how unhealthy a teacher attachment can be. I still love to hear all about your tcs and your cute interactions with them and I so relate to how you guys feel, the good parts and the bad parts, I’m absolutely not judging anyone and I love this community so much. I even write tc/age gap stories, I’m always looking for books, movies, fanfics, etc. I love the trope, I love it. But I can’t lie to you – this particular experience in 2017 screwed me over hard.

Okay. I hope that was enough of a cautionary tale. Let’s move on.

PART 2: MARK (my husband)

So I was James’s assistant in that class, and then in some others. Whenever possible I would also sign up to be his student in courses he taught. This lasted for all of 2017 (the height of it) and 2018 (got slowly better, he was no longer the center of my universe, but I still loved him).

And in the meantime, I met Mark (also not his real name), another one of my professors. While James was in his mid thirties, Mark was in his late forties (which was older than my preferred age gap). The Foreign Languages major at my university focuses mostly on English, Spanish, and French – while James taught English Comprehension, Mark taught French History (actually the exact course title is more specific, so I’m not going to name it, but it’s basically French History).

Now, remember how I said my first choice of major at the university was History? (I was persuaded to change it, I regret it, let’s not talk about it.) At that point, I was still very much a History nerd, and French History was my jam. You can still go back to my posts about Robespierre (love of my life) from 2013/2014 here on the archive to this very Tumblr account. So needless to say, I knew an awful lot about the French Revolution going into Mark’s course.

Fun fact: the first time I enrolled in one of Mark’s classes, I thought absolutely nothing of him, but I did know one thing – all of the department offices were shared by two professors, and James’s office was shared by Mark. So on the very first day of class with Mark, he (Mark) was like “guys, I forgot some papers I wanted to hand out to you, they’re in my office – would someone be so kind as to hop in there and get them for us?”. (Office was located very close to the classroom) I was a shy student who almost never spoke in class or volunteered for anything, but when I tell you I JUMPED OUT OF MY CHAIR and practically yelled over another student was already offering, I was like “I’LL GO, I’LL GO, DON’T WORRY PROFESSOR, LEAVE IT TO ME”. I knew James would be there because his class had ended just before Mark’s started. Mark thanked me and so off I went, happily. James was indeed there, working on his desk. I knocked on the door, “Hi professor, may I come in? It’s just that Mark asked me to pick up these papers right here, don’t mind me, thank you so much, hope you’re doing well, see you next class?”. It was such a short interaction with James, but it MADE MY FUCKING DAY.

One week later I dropped out of Mark’s course because arriving on time for his class was getting in the way of me spending more time with James after his class.

Yeah. The irony.

I only saw Mark again on the next semester, when I enrolled in his class once more and there was nothing keeping me from finishing the course. We got closer as time went on precisely because none of the other students even really knew who Robespierre was, and I not only knew his name, but all of the names of the main French revolutionaries and the specific radical/moderate groups they were part of, and exactly their role in the start of the French Revolution leading up to their death. I was not new to being the teacher’s pet – most of my professors loved me at that time, so I ended up being an assistant to many professors apart from James, and Mark was only another one of them. I never had a crush on Mark. When I tell you he meant nothing to me, even though we were so close and we got along so well and had so many interesting conversations about the French Revolution – still my obsession with James was deep and I didn’t have eyes for anyone else.

So how did it happen, you ask me?

One day, Mark and I were having such a good conversation, it ended up lasting longer than we anticipated. We were talking, I was walking to the bus stop, he was walking home because he lived so close to the university and he didn’t have a car. He actually rode a bicycle to the university, but that day he just dragged his bicycle with him by his side so we could keep talking. We decided to stop at a food place and grab something to eat. And we kept talking. Conversation just flowed really naturally with us, and it was kind of a relief to not have to overanalyze everything I say and everything he says. I could just talk about History, I could just fangirl over Robespierre (Mark totally gets it, he thinks Robespierre is awesome too), I could just be myself. I didn’t have many friends at the university, no one I could really talk to and just have a good time with, so Mark was a godsend. We ordered food, kept talking, argued over the bill, then resumed heading towards our destinations. I had long passed my usual bus stop, but there were many stops I could go to, so I just decided I’d take the bus on the one closest to Mark’s place.

At this point, there was definitely a vibe already, we were both going out of our way to keep spending time together. I’m not sure what inspired my actions here. Maybe I wanted to forget about James for a while. Maybe I wanted a chance to make James jealous somehow. Maybe I just wanted someone to be into me, since James clearly never would. So I made up an excuse to go up to his apartment. We spent some more time together in his balcony, overlooking the city, and then out of the blue he’s like:

“You know, James broke up with his girlfriend.”

I was SHOCKED. I was SHAKEN TO MY CORE. I swear to God, I wanted to scream, I wanted to jump, I wanted to dance. I was SO HAPPY. But I couldn’t do any of that now, could I? So much was going through my head. How did Mark know about my feelings for James anyway? (Why else would he say that??) Was I so very obvious? Had James mentioned anything to him? What about the vibe between Mark and me? WHAT WAS EVEN GOING ON?!

I tried my best to not let out my hysteria over the news that James and his girlfriend had broken up. I tried to say as nonchalantly as I could:

“Oh, really? What a shame. Why did they break up?”

“She had an abortion, it seems, that he didn’t agree with.”

Guys, I can’t even describe the turmoil inside me. I’ll be honest, it affected me so much I don’t even remember what I said next, or what he said, or the rest of our conversation. The next thing I remember, Mark and I were making out on his couch and then the rest is history.

Okay so. Mark knew I liked James, not him. I knew Mark himself had just gotten out of a difficult relationship – he had lived in France for a while and had been in love with a French woman. When he returned to our country (he had to, because of his job at the university), she came with him, they had plans to get married and have children and everything. But she wasn’t able to adapt to the new culture and to being away from her family, so she broke up with him and went back to France. There, she got back together with her ex, and soon she was pregnant by him. Mark was still grieving that, he was still very much in love with her. So basically, I wasn’t really into Mark, Mark wasn’t really into me – we were both aware of that – and we started something of an ~~affair~~ (sex, it was just sex, friends with benefits at most) having agreed that it would be nothing more, considering our feelings for other people.

And like that, it stayed, for many months. And then, I don’t know. I guess when we were together, it was hard to keep it just sex, because we got along so well. We had so many of the same interests (e.g., French Revolution), and other things we introduced to each other – he got me into so much 80s/90s music, I got him into horror movies. We also found out we both loved Nietzsche, so we started reading Nietzsche together, and it was SO productive. He helped me understand so much of what Nietzsche wrote, that now I consider my readings of Nietzsche when I was 16/17 to have been useless, I didn’t GET IT AT ALL. And (he says) my thoughts on what we were reading helped him deepen his understanding as well. I started spending a lot of time at his apartment, and we just had so much fun! Also the sex was amazing

Eventually, we decided to give it a try. We just made sense for us to date, right? If we were attracted to each other and we were the best of friends, literally what was it about James and French Lady that was so important to keep Mark and I from moving on with our lives? Especially when French Lady was already married to another guy, and James was just not interested in me no matter how hard I tried to be something he might want. It made sense to at least try. So try we did, and you know what? Best decision I ever made.

PART 3: JAMES/MARK (how it ended)

James and I were supposed to work together on a project. It wasn’t a class this time, just a separate academic research project. It was the perfect chance for me, because it would give me even more time to spend with him. But honestly. What was the point? James didn’t want anything with me. This was crystal clear. And I was trying to move on with someone else. The topic of the research wasn’t even something I liked to study (it was no French Revolution!), it was literally just an excuse to spend time with James. And that didn’t seem fair, considering I was dating Mark now. So I decided to drop out of the research project.

But I’m not going to lie to you guys. I still loved James very much, and it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. In fact, it was so hard that I kept putting it off, I kept delaying it, to the point I kind of ghosted James for a little while. I was so paralyzed by the prospect of giving up on him completely. And you don’t ghost someone on a research project, that’s shitty academic behavior. (Mark didn’t know about any of this, by the way. He still doesn’t to this day. I had stopped talking to him about James, because well, awkward, right?)

So one day, I decided it was time. I can’t ghost him any longer. I wrote a James a LONG (!) email, explaining why I had ghosted him (I blamed it on my depression), apologizing profusely for dropping out of the project, complimenting him intensely, and then, finally, asking him if we could maybe meet for coffee one of these days, I would like to give him a hug. Remember, this was a LONG email, and it ended with a question (can we meet in person?). Two days later, I get an answer. I don’t remember it word for word (it hurt me so deeply, I deleted the whole email exchange 5 minutes after reading it), but it was something in the lines of:

“Hi, Anissa. Thanks for explaining. Don’t worry about it, I completely understand. I hope you can get the help you need.

Best regards,

James”

I don’t think I need to explain how painful it was to receive an answer like that, after I had opened up so much to him in long paragraphs, and expressed a desire to see him. And as I got that answer, I started to ask myself why the hell I even wrote such a long email, why the hell I even asked to see him (said I wanted to HUG HIM), when I was dating someone else. In hindsight, that was an asshole move on my part. I guess James thought so too.

I don’t know if James knew about my relationship with Mark. When it comes to James and Mark, the truth is they never got along. I only found out as Mark and I became more intimate and he felt more comfortable confessing that he hates James, always has, and James hates him right back. They both avoided being at the office together. Mark thinks James is stupid, James thinks Mark is arrogant. And since I was Mark’s student, we kept our relationship a secret all along, and I’m sure Mark never told James anything. But who knows? Maybe he found out another way, maybe he guessed it. Maybe he doesn’t know at all, he just answered so coldly because he was angry at me for ghosting him on his project.

Guys. Ever since that email… I never talked to James again. We saw each other from a distance plenty of times at the university, and hell, I even took one of his classes again (it was mandatory, there was no way around it). It was 2020, during the pandemic, so it was all on Zoom, and I never had to say a word to him or show my face on the call. I took the online quizzes, and at the end of the semester I submitted a paper I had written for the final assignment. I received feedback from him saying the paper was excellent. It gave me a little bit of joy, as his praise was does… but also, a little bit of disgust. I know everything that went wrong between me and him was my fault. But I’m only human, and I can’t help it, I resent that email. I resent it a lot. I stopped talking to James partly out of respect for my new boyfriend, partly out of hatred for James and his stupid fucking email that broke my heart into a million pieces.

Flash forward to 2021. Mark and I were better than ever. One day, we’re like, you know what, if we get married we can probably save up on health insurance (I could be included in his health insurance, as his wife, and I was at that point without any health insurance at all). So I told my mom, “by the way mom, Mark and I are getting married for health insurance reasons”. My mom was over the moon and decided to plan the whole wedding. At first we wanted something small, but my mom went crazy and did something bigger than we planned (still small, because pandemic, but bigger than we wanted – there was an actual reception with my closest family and friends, back in my hometown). It was cute. Though I hate the pictures because I look so fat in my wedding dress. Being with Mark, I gained weight again, because he makes me feel loved me whether I’m thin or fat, and quite frankly fat is healthier for me. I still carry the harmful fatphobic feeling of inferiority from back when I was losing weight for James though.

2021 is when I should have graduated, but the truth is that when I had a crush on James, I fucked up a lot of my class schedule (remember how I dropped out of Mark’s class just to be able to spend time with James?) to make it work in favor of my obsession with him. And then the pandemic happened, which delayed my courses even more (we lost a whole semester there). So unfortunately, I only got to graduate last year, 2023, at the old age of 26 (awful, terrible, I hate it, I feel like shit for it, especially because it was my fault, my depression that kept me from college in 2015/2016, my sick obsessive crush that ruined my life in 2017/2018, and it was 2019 when I was able to start healing).

I’ve been married to Mark for 3 years now and it’s been THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE. I’ve never been healthier, physically and mentally, and I love him so much, and we have 2 cats, and I love my cats, and our little family and our little home.

Sometimes I feel guilty that I don’t feel (and never have felt) for Mark what I felt for James. But I think this is a good thing in the end. I think it’s the reason why my relationship with Mark is so good and so healthy. Because what I felt for James was an illness, not love. And I love Mark for who he is as a human being, NOT as a teacher. James was my teacher crush through and through, it was always about his position, his authority, his praise, his reproach, his distance, his inaccessibility – never about his friendship. Because as much as I might want to fool myself sometimes, we never were friends, we were always teacher and teaching assistant.

I’m gonna end it on this note: last month (December 2023), I presented my final paper (a research paper every student has to present in order to get their diploma by my university). For the final paper, most of the professors in the department are present to watch you speak and present your research findings. So that was the last time I saw James – he was there to watch this semester’s graduating class present their papers. He watched me present mine. When I got up on stage, he was sitting directly in front of me, facing me in a way that made it almost hard for us not to stare at each other. I was deeply affected by his presence. I don’t even remember how my presentation went, I was so conscious of James being right there in front of me. When I finished, I was congratulated and complimented and praised by almost every professor in the department, they all had loved my research. All except one. James didn’t say a word to me. I didn’t say a word to him either. At a certain point we were pulled into the same circle of conversation, but we both kept quiet, let other people speak, looked away when our eyes met, and made sure to walk away in opposite directions as soon as possible. I have no idea why he’s being like this, whether he hates me for ghosting, whether he hates me for being with Mark, whether he just doesn’t care about me at all and never has. I just don’t know. I’ve been trying my hardest not to care too.

Anyway. This was a ride. If you made it this far, I LOVE YOU. I may need to go cry now.

[drunkkenobi]

Before Mystery Files braves the algorithm this Friday, thought I’d do a quick check-in with the Watcher viewcounts.

First and foremost, WWW has cooled down a bit. It’s in line with the first six weeks of original WWW eps, Mystic Museum and Soda Pals, and better than the rest. Older eps have cooled off too, although they really did get significant boosts there for awhile. My personal opinion about WWW’s future is that if they get sponsors for it, it may become a travel show (like the Montana episode) but is dependent on their schedule and being sponsored. Still, I will be holding out hope for an Iowa State Fair WWW because it would be a delight to me personally.

As you can see, the second season of Worth a Shot has not blown the doors off. Sad because I liked the changes to the format a lot, bringing in Mari as a co-host, having a couple episodes with a Steven battle. 

New season of TMS is right in line with last year’s, so it’s nice to see it be consistent. Also last year’s got a nice little boost.

Ghost Files continues to do banger numbers every week, particularly the Hobo Hill House finale. Last week it got 81k views, which is almost as much as the new WAS did. 

Mystery Files starts this week! My official prediction is that it will do quite well, but not Ghost Files level. This is based on my BFU viewcounting, where True Crime and SPN were quite equal in viewers until the last couple years when SPN became a more statistical favorite. TC often really popped off based on subject, so I’ll be interested to see if that follows here. 

I’m excited for MF to do well for a few reasons. First, obviously, I want all their series to do well. Second, having seen the premiere on Patreon last week, I can confirm that it’s a very good show with amazing production and it truly feels like a Team Watcher show and not necessarily Team Ryan/Shane/Steven/whoever. It’s very collaborative! And third, because MF is made in-house without travel expenses, the better it does means the more the company can do travel videos or take chances on other creators or new concepts. 

For posterity, as of May 15, 2023, Watcher has 2.53 million subscribers, 274 videos, and 283,468,098 views. That averages to 1.034 million views per video. This is up from 1.018m views per video from December. 

[indecentpause]

Find the Word Tag

@oh-no-another-idea tagged me to find the words stone, brick, iron, and wood! thank!

I'm revisiting The Most Beautiful Puzzle for one last readthrough and check and then it should be ready to start sharing in full!! :D for now have some excerpts :)

stone rock:

[Josselin]’s already primed you on what to look for, but you don’t know who was here last or how long ago or what for. You’re mostly there to drive and make things look convincing. Josselin backtracks to the wall where you parked and drops into a crouch. You try to be useful by overturning rocks and leaves with your cane, but you won’t be able to see anything not immediately obvious, and there’s no way you can crouch or kneel. From the sidewalk, a man calls, “You guys need help with something?” You look up. A guy your age, maybe a few years older. Unassuming. Crew cut brown hair, t-short and jeans, average everything. The only thing that stands out is his shiny black combat boots. “Oh, he just dropped something. Thanks, though!” The guy lingers a moment. You offer a wave, trying to politely tell him he can go on his way. He offers a wave back and moves on.

brick:

[Josselin] sighs and lets go before you can ask him what he’s doing. With a huff, he rubs quick and hard at his shoulder where the officer was touching him. “I was okay,” he says softly. You offer a weak smile. “You’re still okay!” you say, trying to be supportive. “He just needs to get his paperwork in order. It’s technically private property, so they probably have to just make sure everything’s sorted. Josselin leans back against the brick wall of the building, mumbling to himself in annoyance. You join him.

iron:

“Okay, so, what’s this about a baseball bat?” “I keep one under my bed,” he explains again. “I have mitts and baseballs and stuff too, to make it look like it belongs there. Just in case. So it doesn’t look like I was planning to use it as a weapon. But I could get you one, if you wanted. And maybe a tire iron to keep in your car, if you didn’t want a bat there? People keep tire irons in cars, right? I’ve never driven a car.”

wood:

For a moment, things are quiet. Occasionally, you hear the Inspector and Pascal’s feet one the hardwood floor upstairs. Familiar and Grandpa are purring. Crackerjack has fallen asleep under the table. Your phone rings, loud and shrill in the quiet room. All three cats jump and dart under various pieces of furniture. It buzzes on the table and continues to ring a second or two more until you finally grab it. An unknown number. You send the call to voicemail.

tagging @drippingmoon @calicohyde @jezifster @winterandwords @digital-chance @tc-doherty @anoelleart to find the words grey/gray, heavy, bright, and strong/strength

[the-letterbox-archives]

archival file 360190-145[2]

part 2 of the mass oc questionaire! thank you @paeliae-occasionally for the questions; and this time around i'll be using faye, danareth, and sunny!

q1. “would you give away secret information if tortured? be honest.”

faye

“Never! My mind is a steel trap of information, and I wouldn’t give that away for anything!”

danareth

“If someone was torturing me, they’d have far greater concerns than whether or not I broke.”

sunny

“Torture, that’s a cute idea. It doesn’t really work, when you strip away the bells and whistles. If you count lying as breaking, then yes, in an instant! If you mean the truth, well, I think I have enough integrity to keep secrets secret.”

q2. “who could you trust the most with a secret?”

faye

“Daphne, for sure! She’s the best!”

danareth

“Yaromyr, I’ve trusted him with many secrets before, and he has entrusted me in return. Maybe Laszlo, if the situation commands it. He and I may have our… differences… but at the end of the day we both want what’s best for the kingdom.”

sunny

“Darcy Spencer, in a heartbeat! She can do no wrong, I trust that beautiful gift to the world with my life and more.”

q3. “you have been caught somewhere you shouldn’t be! quick, what is your excuse?”

faye

“Oh! Okay, well– who’re you to tell me where I can and can’t go? I’m sick of being told where I can’t go! Who died and put you in charge, hey? I– wait. That’s not an excuse, is it?”

danareth

“This hypothetical is ridiculous, there is almost nowhere I shouldn’t be, least of all somewhere I would be caught. But if I must play along, I would inform them that I have the king’s permission to be wherever I am.”

sunny

“Oh, this one’s happened before… ‘Sorry, Headmaster, I was only here because I heard along the grapevine some scandalous activities are happening around here, and I just had to investigate! What’s a newshawk without a story, Headmaster? No? Okay.’ At least I can think on my feet.”

q4. “how good is your sleep schedule?”

(i will preface by saying none of my characters get enough sleep, by virtue of me creating them)

faye

“Well… At least Daphne’s is worse.”

danareth

“Admittedly, it is… lacking. It isn’t egregiously bad by any means, but I have a lot of work to do. And the amount of times I run into Laszlo when I walk through the palace of a night is almost embarrassing.”

sunny

“Are you a comedian? Even if I was interested in academic success, nobody at Spencer’s has the time to sleep! It’s a bit messed up if you think about it, which is why I often do!”

q5. “do you have any siblings? if so, how good is your relationship?”

faye

“I have an older brother and sister, they’re twins, actually. Yeah, they skipped town a while ago, haven’t heard from them since. It makes sense. But sometimes it hurts to know they don’t wanna reach out.”

danareth

“No. Not anymore, at least.”

sunny

“If I had siblings, they would’ve pried each other apart to get to the top of the pile. Spencer’s isn’t for the faint of heart, you see.”

q6. “what was the toughest time you had to endure while growing up?”

faye

“Pretty much every day, especially before I knew Daphne. It just felt like everyone was against me no matter what. That messes you up, y’know. No wonder I’m like this!”

danareth

“My past is a sordid puzzle of tough times, if I listed them all, we’d be here all day. Be secure in the knowledge that none of it is relevant anymore.”

sunny

“You’re all sob stories, aren’t you? That doesn’t make for good radio. Besides, I don’t think any of my listeners could relate to it.”

np tagging @introchasingstars, @honeybewrites, @ominous-feychild, @the-golden-comet,

@noxxytocin, @moltenwrites, @tc-doherty, @the-ellia-west, @theverumproject,

@thecrazyalchemist, @laylathewordwitch, @dragonedged-if, @leitereads, @autism-purgatory,

@gioiaalbanoart, @drchenquill, @fenmere, @leahnardo-da-veggie, @melpomene-grey,

@yourpenpaldee, @corinneglass, @agirlandherquill, @willtheweaver, @nczaversnick,

@davycoquette, @glassfrogforest, @princeofhags, @wyked-ao3, @fantasy-things-and-such, + open tag!

[goldenamaranthe-blog]

Do you watch or have you watched B99 (brooklyn 99)? I envisioned the following interaction based on the show: Blake seeing a yang tiger cub for the first time Blake: I have Yang for a day and a half and if anything happened to her I would kill everyone here and then myself.

I know the memes of B99 more than the show, and that is one of them! Someone actually commented this very scene in the full fic I made of Baby and the Bees.

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Intern Blake: What do you mean I have to care for a new animal at the Sanctuary? I can barely keep a plant alive. How do you expect me to care for something that's needs active care?

Kali: Because it would be good for you to understand all of the jobs here if you're going to take over the Sanctuary when you're older. (Opens door to delivery room) Sienna, do you have that new arrival for us?

Sienna: Yup! Little tiger cub who's mom got killed by poachers. (Holds up a little blue-eyed tiger cub with ears half folded) Here you go. Folks that found her called her Yang.

Blake: Wait! Sienna! I-I don't- (TigerCub!Yang plops into her arms) Uh...

Sienna: Feeding time. (Tosses bottle)

Blake: (gives TC!Y the bottle)

TigerCub!Yang: (whistles and drinks eagerly)

Blake: (heart melts)

Kali: Well, I suppose if you really don't want to-

Blake: (Holds TC!Y closer as the cub drinks away) No!

The Next Day:

Blake:

[blueywrites]

I was hoping to have this finished today, but alas, it was a bad brain day and it did not happen 🥺️. But I managed to finish the opening scene, so here's a little piece of that to tide you over!

excerpt from music box: a td&tc prequel

It's a silent affair, his arrival, but the new boy next door rolls in with all the beautiful violence of a summer storm. From between your Mama’s gauze curtains, you watch the passenger door of the truck pop open to allow the chaos inside to tumble out in a whirl of thrashing limbs. He is pale and jagged, thin and angular, walking with clenched fists and a strange backward tilt to his upper body. His posture implies that, while his feet may carry him toward the front door, the rest of him wants nothing more than to rebel. And his face— what little you can see of it from this distance— is contorted into a fierce scowl beneath a wild mop of dark cloudlike curls; his red lips are snarled open as if in the midst of a tantrum.

Yet, as Mr. Wayne dwarfs the smaller boy’s roiling shadow, containing his tempestuousness with a guiding hand placed on his shoulder as they mount the porch steps together, you cannot hear him. You hear the creak of the wood under their feet, and you hear the crack of the screen door as it bounces off red clapboard, and you hear the vague rasp of the older man’s voice before the gentle click of the handle closes the red house up again behind them. But the boy does not make a sound.

Strange. 

In your eight-year-old mind, strangeness does not beget caution; it beckons curiosity.

[aajjks]

TC!JK Yn woke up in the morning and felt like shit. Threw up and got changed.

Quite frankly she feels like she should go see a physician. Her state isn't improving at all.

Wait a second! What date is it today? She was supposed to bleed a few days ago, almost 8 days ago. And she's been puking a lot, fatigue, increased breathing rate and heightened smell...

Is she?

They were sleeping together A Lot after all. She wouldn't be surprised if she is in fact pregnant.

It can't be it. She refuses to believe it. It's probably the stress that's delaying her period and yeah that is it.

“I'm sure if I distract myself with work I'll get it. It's just the stress... Yes it is Just because of the stress.”

So she got up and went straight to the head of the helpers and told her that she won't be able to be the Prince's personal maid anymore and would like for someone else to take her place.

““I'll talk to him about this.” She was surprised when the woman actually considered it. Nevertheless, she's happy that she was able to distance herself from him even more.

Jungkook storms back into chambers, he is so pissed

His father doesn’t actually care that he’s in love with someone else and he’s still forcing him to marry the princess. Why doesn’t he care?

He would ruin the princess’s life

If you want her to marry him, he will, but he will make her life a living hell that she will beg him to divorce her, just as he is busy, fuming in anger pacing around his room someone comes in

“Come in!” He groans.

An older lady comes in with a new girl. “Your highness… unfortunately yn, your personal maid has requested that she be dismissed from your service.. this new girl will be replacing her.”

Jungkook rolls his eyes. “What the fuck? FUCK OFF.”

This is your way of punishing him

He doesn’t know what to do anymore.

[andrew-blaze710]

ANDREW-BLAZE710!!!!!!!

@lazboy420 's art blog.

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"It was, it was September. Winds blow, the dead leaves fall. To you, I did surrender. Two weeks, you didn't call. Your life, goes on without me. My life, a losing game. But you should, you should not doubt me. You will remember my name." - Ember Mclain; Remember

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I'm a beginner artist that draws traditionally and digitally.

I draw anything, but I mainly draw Tru3 Cr1m3/Scream characters/Spongebob ../Dumb comedy/Hyperfixations. Feel free to send requests. Images of the charatcters/people you want me to draw are not required, but are apperciated.

My info down below.

I'm transmale, androgynous, androsexual(mlm; in easier terms.) and self diagnosed with autism. I use neo/xenopronouns; ask for them.

I call Andrew Blaze my wife. Get over it.

I turned 14 on August 16th. Meaning I am a minor!! So I won't draw serious nsfw (satire nsfw is fine.)

I'm fine with drawing anime, furries, g0r3 and any ships (unless its minor x legal!!, yuck!! I don't support that.) :33

I censor myself a little to avoid getting termed!

my name is JD[John Doe] or Cooper.

Tc faves: columbine 1999(more or so Dylan Klebold.), andrew blaze <3, alyssa bustamante, jahar tsarnaev, the scream killers/brian draper and torey adamcik, karl pierson, michelle carter, gypsy rose, elliot rodger(uh.. Jack The Ripper, Adolf Hitler, a few older.. Ones..)

I do not and never will condone/idolize what any ms/ss/sk has ever done (I'm not that crazy yet!! 👅👅)

"The only time I ever see her

Is when she's behind me in the mirror

Even from a distance I can hear her

Try to listen, but her whispers make my ears hurt" - Teddy Hyde; Sex with a ghost.

[twin-chains]

TC Zeldas pt 1

(Just some little nicknames and notes for the Zeldas I have so far, including their relationships with their respective Links)

A Link to the Past Zelda

Legend's Zelda is nicknamed Myth. As I mentioned in Legend's profile, Myth is his older half-sister by 4 years making her 26 years old. She's a perfectionist, a bit uptight, and often unsure of herself but also a kind, responsible, and just ruler. Myth ascended the throne around 21 years old and became queen, marrying Cedi of Gamelon and having a daughter nicknamed Luna. Princess Luna would be about 3 years old in the present (making Legend an uncle!!). Myth is fiercely protective of her family and can be quite distrusting of others beyond her kingdom.

Myth and Legend have a weird relationship. Legend grew up outside the castle raised by his uncle while Myth was raised in the palace with the expectation of taking the throne so they already come from different backgrounds yet similar pressures on their shoulders. When they discovered their familial relation, they were surprised and delighted to get to know one another better. It took a little getting used to with the shared telepathic visions but they became decent friends. But they grew apart as Myth became queen and a mother while Legend was returning from Koholint. Or perhaps the estranged siblings never grew close as they thought in the first place and it simply became more evident as time went on. They care about each other, sure, and they wish they were closer but they don’t know how to be closer after all this time.

Myth envisioned this grand idea of how siblings should be including how they should know each other better and spend more time together. And she wants that with Legend but doesn’t know how to initiate that again after years of radio silence between the two siblings. She doesn’t even know if he wants that too or if they prefer their strained relationship as it is. Her and Cedi been sending Legend invitations to palace celebrations and events to start off small but he hasn’t accepted any of them. So for now, she just waits and he’ll make the first move when he’s ready/if he even wants to.

As for Legend, they haven’t told her (or anyone) about what went down in Koholint. He hasn’t even talked to her in-person for non-work related purposes since she got married and he left for Oracle of Seasons. They would often reach out to each other telepathically sometimes during his adventures overseas even though they were both busy with their duties. But once Myth had a daughter to raise on top of everything, their telepathic conversations became less frequent until they stopped completely. Then when Legend came back, he fell into a depression and avoided her, feeling like he couldn’t face yet another person he failed to save (even if things turned out alright in the end for Myth, it still weighs on his conscious). He is a bit disheartened they’ve drifted apart as siblings and tries to rationalize it by assuming Myth is just busy as a queen and a mother now and it’s better if he doesn’t distract her. But really, he just can’t look Myth in the eye without seeing another person he failed, especially since her and Marin look a lot alike too.

Open communication has never been their strong suit. So they both settle for being stilted siblings at best and the queen and her hero at worst. It’s like they would die for each other but couldn’t tell you the other’s favorite color.

BOTW/TOTK Zelda

Ok so I'm actually swapping TOTK Link and Zelda, so Tears will actually be Zelda's nickname from now on because Zelda is filling in for Link (unbeknownst to the rest of the Young Chain). As for Link, I might just call him Wild since that's the commonly accepted fan name for him and Champion is already reserved for the Age of Calamity Link. Might change it later though...

For now, Wild is still the self-sacrificing, bigender (he/she), amnesiac survivalist I envisioned him to be. She’s adjusted better to living a nice life in Hateno but doesn’t hesitate to explore or return to the forests when his heart aches for the call of the wilderness. Wild got some of his memories back and gets one every once in a long while but has since moved on to form new ones. As a side effect, she can still be forgetful at times and relies on the Sheikah Slate to record notes and photos. It even acts as a virtual diary.

But after she completed the dragon tear memories and discovered Dragon Zelda, he was torn with grief and reverence before obsessing over turning Tears into a hylian again. He scoured through old books, Zonai ruins, and even the fallen memories for any way to bring the her princess back. Finally, he stumbled on a forbidden dark ritual that allowed Wild to switch places with Tears. She couldn’t reverse draconification but they could swap their souls and it’d be close enough for Wild. He believes wholeheartedly that Tears deserves to live her life and can do a better job protecting and reconstructing the kingdom than Wild ever could. Her only regret is that she couldn’t propose to Tears like he was planning to, donning the cold silver ring on a chain around his neck instead.

Before TOTK, Wild and Tears were in love and living a domestic life together in Hateno Village. Tears would teach at the local school and work in the old Hateno research lab since Purah moved to what is now Lookout Landing. Wild would slay monsters, do some odd jobs for anyone, and cook delicious meals. Together, they would coordinate reconstruction efforts and aid in the development of New Castletown. And together they would laugh, dance, and hold one another in the night when the nightmares and memories get too much to bear alone. Things were peaceful, Wild was even planning on proposing until the regional phenomena began and malicious forces began stirring in Hyrule Castle.

Tears would wake up in the great sky islands, dazed and confused in the same garb as Wild wore when he performed the ritual. Of course, she didn’t come back quite the same. She retained some dragon-like features that she carefully tries to hide, and she is missing an arm! Later, Tears would discover what her knight had done, what Wild sacrificed for her yet again. She would mourn, not just her lost love, but also this constant cycle of self-sacrifice they find each other in. She would curse Hylia, the goddesses, and whoever she could think of for this cruel twist of fate she can never seem to escape from. But what else can they both do in the face of unsurmountable destiny? Tears wants Wild back but knows that re-performing the ritual would be futile. Instead, she has to finish Wild’s quest and afterward chooses to dedicate herself to her research and science to find a way to bring Wild back permanently without putting herself or her kingdom in jeopardy.

They’re like two star-crossed lovers with bleeding hearts, far too self-sacrificial for their own good. But they’d still do it over and over for the sake of protecting the peace of their kingdom.

Anyway, Tears' redesign is on the way and here's a dragon-y sneak peak:

[servampaddict]

Ch 130

There is like only one thing that really caught my attention in this chapter, and it's the count when he is reviving ildio. I'm sure that you all noticed that his form changed for the 4th time and I thought of 2 ways that can explain it.

1.) The counts form changed after the ritual. We see that when ildio wakes up he sees the count in one form but before hand we clearly see that in lawless's memory tc (the count cause I don't want re-write this a million times) looks very different. If this is the case there is something that doesn't quite add up and it's when hugh(child) sees the count after the older hugh dies, if the child hugh isn't dead yet but the count still looks like this:

But the vessel hasn't been used yet which is why it leads me to believe that it isn't this . But if it I wonder what he count really looks like since he should have changed after completing the first ritual.

2.) The count appears different to different people.

Because tc doesn't decide how he appears, I think it's how people perceive them. He may look strong to ildio because he is strong, and with lawless he may appear to be more fancy because lawless was once a prince. For kuro I think they look more simple because kuro's life was kinda simple, (differently not his death though) and the count doesn't look very crazy the count looks very normal.I don't really know how this would work with the pride. Also the count is always being shown in memories not in real time and when mahiru views kuro's memories they look the way kuro must see the count not how mahiru sees the count. I wonder how other people will see the count.

[dewdropreader]

WIP Folder Tag Game

The lovely @insert-witty-user-name-here has tagged me because she knows the absolutely unhinged amount of WIPs in various stages that I have lol. But I also love sharing them out of context and talking about them because that often motivates me so here we go! And thank you!

Rules: reveal the titles of the documents in your WIP folder and tag as many people as there are documents (or as many people as you want). Let others ask questions about the ones that interest them and post snippets or explain the contents as you see fit!'

I went in rough order from most recently created/worked on to older ones so you can see how at some point I just stopped counting my found family and general “Time Crew” based ideas because I lost track lmao.

Sleeping around untrustworthy people 5+1

Gator Pres Reconciliation

Cat chapter 8

Prayer TC

Collapse TC

God of Outcasts Returning

Found Family- Frost Giants

Hugsssss 5+1

Big Sister Sylvie

Do you have a better plan—(the original Drabble is done and posted but there is a part two WIP in the same doc!)

TC- Ghosts

Found family- Guilt

Freeze- TC

Protective- TC

Birthdays- TC

Love Letters- TC

TC- Restored

TC- Playground

Time Crew Fic 9- Void Road Trip

Touch Starved TC

TC Reassuring

TC Unfairness

A few I have mentioned before ina few tag games like this because some have festered in WIP hell for that long 😅 though I’m not including every single much older one, just a few of my favorites and/or ones that actually have something there to work on! But for any new people/people who didn’t see these!!

Sylvie and Peggy Vs the End of the World

Sylkius Christmas

Loki Found Family 5- Boastful

Found Family 8- Kid and Genderfluidity

TC- Kitchen Sink

And a few I haven’t made documents for but I have little notes made about them in one larger document called “All Loki Ideas” where I compile them and highlight different colors based on if they’re done or in progress or new/untouched ideas and organized by category or ship so if I have a particular person/ship I want to write but no solid idea I can go hunting lol. Some descriptions are all I have and others I just put in the first sentence and there is more!

Loki waking up with a nightmare/panic about Mobius not knowing him, and Mobius helping him calm down and reassuring him that he knows and loves him

Exploring the deep empathy and attempts at understanding Mobius felt when having to go through Loki’s life

Lokius inspired by songs/lyrics (there are lyric snippets and/or actual ideas for most of these if anyone is curious! Also yes there is a lot of Taylor Swift, sue me 😅)

Superman-Taylor Swift

Cardigan-Taylor Swift

Happy endings are stories that haven’t ended yet- mayday parade

London boy- Taylor swift

The man who can’t be moved-the script

When the day met the night- panic at the disco

The joker and the queen- ed sheeran

New Year’s Day- Taylor Swift

Delicate- Taylor swift

I’m yours- the script

Haunted- Taylor swift

Loki having a nightmare about Sylvie (and Mobius?) dying, and having to contend with it

Lokius reunion (this was noted before s2 even came out but hey guess it circled back to being relevant 😭)

Mobius and Loki (and Sylvie?) moving into a home together and having small domestic moments like having a “picnic” on the floor

Drunk Sylkius- Sylvie and Loki drunk and arguing about who’s more hedonistic

Drunk Sylkius- Folksy Dope fan club with sylvie and loki goofing off and praising and gushing over Mobius

B-15 and Sylvie spending time together, sorting out feelings

C-20 and Sylvie growing closer after she is rescued

If any of these are interesting to you, and you want to know more/see a snippet (if one exists!) please let me know, I love rambling about all of these ideas and sometimes talking about them gives more inspiration! 💕

Certainly will double tag some people (and am going to tag the originator in her own game lol bc I also want to see her stuff!) but that’s expected from me!

@insert-witty-user-name-here @starport-seven-five @mirilyawrites @lgwilt @dreamycloud @cha-melodius @blackbirdofasgard @loki-is-my-kink-awakening @nostalgia-tblr @bushs-world @queen-of-meows

And anyone else who would like to share!!