#I am jealous

[greyskyflowers]

I like the idea that, I've seen mentioned a few times and love it, the boys turn into those little orb things when they're like completely, if they were human they would have passed out, exhausted.

I imagine a soft glow, warm to hold, about the size of an orange, a little weight to it and it doesn't float but drops to the floor and rolls like a ball ~

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It really isn't surprising after everything with hell, Esther, and Niko, that Edwin shifts.

He looks exhausted, and Charles still sees him terrifed and bloody in Hell when he closes his eyes, swaying a little bit where he stands listening to Crystal, and Charles knows what's going to happen before it happens.

The softly glowing orb doesn't even have a chance to drop before Charles snatches it, carefully tucking it away in his coat. It's a warm, little weight against his side.

He loves Crystal, Edwin does too even though he huffs about it, but she doesn't need to see Edwin like this. No one needs to see Edwin like this. The thought of it feels like calling attention to an open wound, advertising a vulnerable spot for someone to exploit or further hurt.

Thankfully, they're all finally free to go home. He doesn't like the idea of leaving Crystal but there's a growing itch to get back home and she shoves him towards the mirror and tells him she's meet up with them later.

Neither Charles or Edwin like being out when one of them is like this.

The first few time it happened, Charles hadn't really thought about it too much. And it happened a lot those first years after his death. He often overdid it, everything going fuzzy before going dark, and then he'd wake up, usually pressed against Edwin's side on the little couch. He always woke up on or next to Edwin and it'd been startling the first few times but he always wakes up comfortable now, no rush to get up.

The first time Edwin shifted in front of Charles, he panicked. Refused to let go of him until, after what seemed like days, Edwin shifted back. Still relaxed enough that he hadn't immediately shoved himself off Charle's lap and he hadn't fought the hug too hard either.

He's only see Edwin like that a few times but to be on the other side of it, he understands why Edwin always relaxes when Charles shifts back. It's a powerful and terrifying feeling, to hold something so small and vulnerable and know it's the most important person in the world to you.

As he got to know Edwin more, Charles had the horrible realization that Edwin had been in Hell for over 70 years and surely he must have been exhausted plenty of times when down there. What happened to him when he shifted?

Charles didn't know what Hell looked like or what really happened down there but he pictured the little orb rolling around on the floor, being kicked, or someone finding other ways to hurt it. He had finally asked, so worked up he hadn't even thought about if Edwin would want to talk about, because he needed to know.

He'd gotten a gentle look from Edwin and an answer.

While he was absolutely exhausted in hell, he never shifted. Hell takes a lot of things away and the relief of sleep or unconsciousness is one of them.

So, honestly, Edwin had lasted longer than Charles thought he would. He half expected that he'd have to lunge for the orb as soon as they fell back through the door from Hell.

Thinking too much about Hell and Esther makes him a nasty mix of furious and terrified, so he forces himself to focus on the present.

He holds Edwin closer his chest as he sinks onto the couch. He's emotionally exhausted and in the silence of everything, finally has a moment to think about the love confession on the stairs of hell.

He doesn't know what to do with that liar but he was right when he told Edwin they had forever to figure it out.

He lays out on the couch, feet hanging off the far end and his head on the armrest, the orb on his chest and his hands almost petting at it. Holding it like this means that when Edwin shifts back he'll be sprawled over Charles, something that will probably have him flustered and immediately trying to get up and off.

Charles hopes he's sleepy and comfortable when he changes back though, that he just settles there without over thinking it.

Just the two of them existing together in the same space.

[loser-otaku-girl]

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[inkonparchment]

"capcom should remake this game" "capcom should continue that storyline" capcom should tell us re6 Leon's lip combo

[xxkittenkissesxx]

Me going through all of my emotions seeing so many of you girlies seeing Bad Omens😭 jk you know I love you guys hehe. Hoping I get to see them sometime next year🤞🏻

All I'm asking for is for maybe ERRA & Bad Omens to tour together.

[trennoandgreggo]

pretteeyyy

[aahanna]

Not my sister sending me concert pics from Adele. I want to be there so badly!

[rainbowd00dles]

My husband has a body like Wymack (bit older). 💙

I've said this before to someone else who said something similar, but you're so lucky because that's such a good body type, and you get to be with that like all the time. i'm not jealous AT ALL

[scarefox]

random things Pavel said within a few minutes

[medievalanchoress]

[deathlooksgoodonyou-if]

the concept of moles being an idea of where your lover had kissed you the most in the past life is cute. very cute. until i started counting the number of moles i have. am i... a whore in my past life

LMAOOO 😭😭😭

no, you just had too much love to give. Or maybe your past lover(s) just loved every inch of you.

[autisticlancemcclain]

You need to come visit my hometown we have the world's only Curious George store

WHAT

[loser-otaku-girl]

I hate being jealous yet im jealous 24/7

[tjisntnice]

I wanna be a jellyfish so bad bro. just float around chillin, stinging anyone who gets to close

I already do that

[tomatossauces]

The fact that this group of 5-10 year olds are cooler than I could ever be is my thirteenth reason.

[rubbish78]

ashnikko: a little historical reenactment for the end of my birthday week

[ghost-of-you]

I just wanna get back to us 'cause we used to have more...