#I am speed chat-

[lolgamer2309]

I'm so so so afraid of the brothers rn- one of them will die, i am predicting that it's Icarus. Maybe they have to finally die and not cause a reset to get it to a good pleasant ending. ALSO QUIXIS MY GUY, I CARE SO MUCH AND YOU'RE HURT AND I SOB. But we got Rae snapping , but at what cost-

[danwhobrowses]

So there was a Callowmoore question on 4SD which has got people talking and since nobody will ask me about it I'm gonna get it out of my brain anyway.

For someone on 4SD as frequently as Taliesin, Callowmoore questions are rare and I think that partly comes from us fans not wanting to try and steer him but also because his answers tend to be complicated. He's quite plain with other stuff, but a lot also gets offered into interpretation when it comes to Ashton and Fearne.

And granted, we Callowmoores would love for him to pull a Liam and just up and say Ashton has feelings for her, but I think we all know that's not Tal's way; aside from the nuggets of wisdom, killer one-liners and unique homebrews, we tend to love Tal's characters for their actions and expressions, some of which subtle and rewarding to those paying attention. For this reason I have had to mull over this one minute answer for most of my day and figure out what I think he means by it, like blue curtains in a book.

To note though, 'I think' is the operative term, but I also don't believe that Tal has left Callowmoore better or worse by his response.

One of the interesting things I want to point out is that my interpretations are observing the divide between Taliesin's words and his roleplaying; it is not to say that Tal is being dishonest in his answers, but I also see it as the answers are what Ashton thinks and his roleplay is how they feel.

So no, Ashton isn't 'precious' about Fearne wandering off when sleeping beside each other, if she said no or came back safely it wouldn't have bothered them, and it's fair for Ashton to have preferred Fearne to have woke them up. And yet that doesn't deny the reaction Ashton had waking up to find her gone and fearing that she's in danger, and not there to help her; the panic, the anger, the impatience are all clear and instinctive reactions Ashton is having that imply that her being with them is important. They're not precious about Fearne waking up and leaving the bed before they wake, and yet they'll still smile upon waking and finding that she's still there.

The 'Adventurers with Benefits' is one of two comments I can see being used maliciously against shippers, but it's worth reminding that on the last Callowmoore question Tal was asked, he mentioned that Ashton doesn't believe that someone would love them. Ashton feels unlovable, and yet they still ask for intimacy with Fearne, leaning further into their connection but also not pressuring her into commitment. It's also worth pointing out that this is still a slow burn, even Jester questioned whether her feelings for Fjord were legitimate or a romanticized fantasy at one point, and Ashton is not privy to Fearne's feelings for them. Ashton frames it as Adventurers with Benefits because they don't allow themselves to entertain the idea of Fearne reciprocating feelings for them, and yet their impulse to kiss her before absorbing the shard, to frequently engage in physical contact at a growing rate, to playfully steal and share each other's clothing, the desire to defend her from harm or anyone that might have ulterior motives, and to willingly do anything and everything just for her to smile in their direction again, that paints more of a picture than just benefits.

Which finally gets us to Ashton's theory of love. Tal mentions that Ashton believes that love is 'wanting to trust somebody, but not trusting them'. Immediately: No, haters, I don't think this means Ashton doesn't trust Fearne, nor do I think it means that Ashton trusts Fearne so they don't love her. Ashton trusts all the Hells (well, maybe not Braius since they just met), but Fearne is special to them in a different way, they've already platonically said that they loved her when they first were using their titan forms. In addition, this could be an elaboration of the last time Tal brought up Ashton's opinion of Love on the post-shard Callowmoore question: 'love is ignorance and adorableness'. This is another thing that can develop, elaborate and/or change over time, but at the current moment Ashton's interpretation of love can come from environment; Imogen wants to trust Laudna but can't wholly trust her given Delilah, but even Ashton can see that they love each other. Tal also mentioned that Ashton is not very experienced in relationships - which kinda plays into my belief that Ashton and Fearne, while have had relationships, haven't had deep romantic feelings or proper intimacy before, which makes them discovering it with each other more special - so their understanding of love can only exist on what they assume it's like.

And yet what if you reworded the phrase in the same spirit? 'Love is trusting someone wholeheartedly even with nothing to reassure it', there have been many a time something looked to go south and faith was put in another anyway; the shard may be a bad example because it did go wrong but even though the red flags were there Ashton upon completing the process said 'thank you for trusting me', when Fearne took the shard Ashton was a bag full of panic their experience meant they couldn't trust that the shard wouldn't be just as bad for Fearne, and yet they still wanted to trust that Fearne would succeed. Ashton couldn't trust that whenever Fearne was wild shaped, cornered by Otohan, or taken away by Ira on Ruidus that she'd come back safe, and yet still wanted to trust that she would, Ashton couldn't confirm that Fearne wasn't a Doppelganger in Nanna Mori's trust trial - even when FCG and Imogen suspected it was her - and yet they still wanted to trust that it was her. Ashton's view on love may not be entirely right but it's not entirely wrong either, what is blind faith if not ignorant and adorable? Even with their interpretation, Ashton has put plenty of faith in Fearne even when the risk was high.

In conclusion, Ashton's behaviour towards Fearne do often imply a complexity rather than a discrepancy to Tal's 4SD statements, that maybe Ashton's emotions and subconscious are not in sync with their self-doubt driven thoughts, perhaps it is the way Ashton tempers their feelings to try and not get hurt by them or cause Fearne to get hurt by them again. Ashton's apology to her post-shard made a point of noting how she means a lot to them, and how hurting her was one of the worst things they have done, and as they work towards self-improvement and self-discovery, there will likely be a point where self-realisation comes into play too, and they can understand why what they're thinking differs to how they're feeling.

Again, this is all interpretation, speculation and observation, one that like the core statements doesn't add or subtract but fills in some gaps either way. Ashton's feelings are a complicated matter, which is likely why Tal entices and creates such speculation with a complicated answer. Right now Ashton clearly does care for Fearne and share a special relationship that's regrowing after suffering tension, loss and fear, blooming back into trust, joy and comfort, but save 5 Disney Greek Muses backing him up in a Gospel song they're not just gonna out and say they're in love

And Yet...

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ohhhh i am so glad im a gift card hoarder... this mic is so nice and i did not spend a Cent on it...

[merakiui]

Rom com Mafia!Floyd not knowing what to tell batista MC, until...

Floyd: Date.

MC: ....Huh?

Floyd: Let's go on a date.

He is a cowardly eel who is trying so desperately to navigate these newfound feelings. He'll deliver so many flowers to your home to the point where it's excessive. He has a collection of jewelry that so many people have kindly given to him (i.e. he beat them half to death and took it as payment) and he wants to give all of the prettiest, shiniest treasures to you (Jade makes sure he thoroughly washes and cleans the blood and skin off; sometimes the rings are still wrapped around the severed finger, so that has to be disposed of as well). You'll be given lots of very expensive jewelry, so much that it's really overwhelming.

You think Floyd handles his feelings well, but he's actually really awkward when it comes to interacting with you because all of these emotions are so new (and also because morays are cowards at heart). He could be looking so scary, standing in the shadows with a cigarette between his lips, his clothes rumpled and bloodied because he just got into a nasty fight not even ten minutes ago, and the moment you leave to lock up the shop for the night he's quickly hurrying to make himself look more presentable (something he's never cared about before). Floyd is down so horrendously bad that he tries to win you over with riches (all-expenses-paid trips, luxury brand items that he has definitely gotten in not-so-pleasant ways, trying and failing to flirt with the worst pick-up lines ever that it makes him seem so slimy and sleazy). He's failing abysmally.

He whines about his blossoming affections and how nothing seems to work to Jade and Azul whenever the three of them meet up for breakfast or lunch, constantly asking why it feels like his heart gets a hard-on when he's around you. Jade kindly advises Floyd to just be himself when he's in love, but Azul quickly shuts that down because, "Look at him!" and he'll make such a grand, sweeping gesture to indicate Floyd's...Floyd-ness. "He's a criminal! Do you honestly think he'll win anyone over with that sort of history and sloppy manner of dress?"

"He has a big, tender heart," Jade insists with a pleased smile, as if that can excuse everything else.

"And a big dick," Floyd boasts, which sends Azul into another red-faced tizzy. He gets so worked up sometimes. It has the twins grinning in amusement.

"This crass behavior is precisely why the one you seem to adore so much avoids you!"

And yet, even though Azul says that so coldly, he doesn't seem to have much going for him either. And neither does Jade. They are three equally terrible, rizz-less, cowardly men.

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

it's me "do the do" anon. iirc this was requested as "the aftermath to gabriel and v1 Doing It" onstream https://clips.twitch.tv/GleamingVastAsparagusNotLikeThis-IHf87cgI835ScS0h

also while looking for the clip i found... this from one of his turbo overkill streams.

https://clips.twitch.tv/FaithfulUninterestedDuckAliens-deyfSu_ep6uMSMGK (for context i think he's reading off the Official gabe body pillow item description)

Many people think the b in bussy stands for boy, but it actually stands for bot. The more you know! (Cough. someone should request that. Cough)

(Help)

These are good. Very. good.

It will take me a bit to post them cause I need to find the YouTube timestamps as well.

[itstimeforstarwars]

After more than fifteen years as a writer I'm not really super prone to jealousy towards other writers but I do have one friend from the forum days who has been putting out three chapters a day every single day for the last ten years and THAT remains the one hitch in the jealousy-free structure I've built.

[cephiwyrm]

TRI STRINGER BUFF I CAN DIE HAPPY

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

(Saw your 3k followers post, congrats by the way!)

Thinking about that set of posts wherein we were dead but 'came back' as a small moth of sorts. As a consequence, thinking about 3k+ moths swarming Legacy, landing all over him.

We love him, hehe <3

~ The anon who wanted Kaveh but didn't want Baizhu or Ganyu

(hehe thank youuu) oh oh i remember those posts!! they were so cute but also broke my heart ;-;;

at first it was just one moth following him to the ends of Teyvat, perching on his horns and nestling in his fluff. then one turned into two, another little friend showing up like it had always been there, and again into three, and so on and so forth. the moths don't stick around him all the time- usually he has five or six fluttering around him at most- but he knows the rest exist, because they all look unique. it's comforting, in a way, knowing that the tiny creatures aren't frightened of him- helps alleviate his loneliness at times

still, he really wasn't expecting every single moth he's ever met to cluster around and perch on him, flitting around and snuggling into his soft hair. it feels like getting hundreds of little kisses, and his heart aches with familiarity. eventually the moths flutter away, back to their own mothy errands, leaving only one behind- the first moth, the one that started it all. it flies up to him and brushes its wings against his mask before settling on one of his claws, ready to travel wherever Legacy goes

somewhere in the air, hundreds of moths giggle to themselves in delight

[your-local-grinning-cat]

"Hey Chenya. Is the catnip still on you?"

It is not on me.

It is

IN ME!!!!!!!!!

[johnbly]

there is a special place in hell for people who lay on their horn at you when you're being a reasonable and safe driver

[risingsunresistance]

the fact that i'm struggling to get gold in ANY contest tells me that something has changed but every time i try to look up new methods they're the exact same

[mejomonster]

Every time I go on a dating app I feel hopeless -.-

[todayisafridaynight]

I've never stepped into a hot topic in my life because- #indoterlalukonservatis ngl I wanna see what it's like 🚶‍♂️

i aint the slightest clue what that hashtag says BUT if you go into a hot topic nowadays its pretty chill honestly, it's really not that bad and you'll more often than not find anime and videogame merch

[crossingbaranduin]

I am… very sleepy still, haha. Tonight’s either gonna turn into “maybe wake up enough to watch stuff” or “more character analysis text vomit while I put relaxing Nintendo music on”.

[rainbow-arrow]

the timing of miraculous will always boggle me how chat blanc took place on may 2nd, and somehow all of season four and five took place in like three weeks, and also that the couffaines are, by default, geminis

[poisxninthewater]

medieval history exam in two days.. im starting to hallucinate arthur pendragon