#I cant even finish the other wips I started months ago!!!!!!

[moralina]

When his lips feel better touching yours

JJ Maybank x reader

A/n: felt like writing something, jj was the perfect option. Kinda inspired by what i used to do as a kid. I loved ants, now I'm slightly scared of them :,)

Warnings: i wrote this very fast and didn't proofread. Bad english probably. Can be read as gender neutral!

"What're you doin'?" JJ asked before crouching beside you, his right hand touching the grass.

"Careful!" You exclaimed quietly while you shoved his hand away. Eyes not meeting his but rather watching the ground before you, intently.

He kept his eyes on you, occasionally looking at the little ants making their organized line back to the large tree in front of John B's house. Your hands fiddled with some leafs, ripping them every so often and placing them near some random ant.

JJ smiled when he heard your hum of appreciation when one of them took the leaf. After a moment of silence you decided to speak again

"I'm helping them." You stated, voice sweet and low, as if you spoke any louder you could scare the ants.

"What?" You moved to look at him, careful not to step on any of the little insects. His expression carried confusion but his eyes still transmitted the same feelings they had just seconds ago.

Appreciation.

He couldn't help himself but appreciate every aspect of you. Your pretty eyes, pretty hair, your cute lips that he really, really wanted to kiss right now, and also the calming sensation you carried with you everywhere.

"The ants," you interrupted his thoughts once again "i was helping them with the leafs."

You said it so casually and sweetly he couldn't hold himself back, and with and swift motion his lips were touching yours. JJ could taste the strawberry lipstick you put on this morning, his favorite. You reciprocated the action immediately, being so used to his spontaneous acts of affection.

"What was this?" You asked after the kiss ended, his hands holding your hips, trying to keep you both balanced.

"Nothing." He smiled and pecked your now swore lips, this time quickly but with the same love and adoration as the last "you're just so goddamn cute."

A/n: kinda frustrating that i have so many wips and cant finish any of them. I started one eddie blurb for christmas like 2 months ago and it's not finished yet 😭 and then something with steve that i just kept adding more stuff and now i dont even know if it makes dense anymore. Then i have many others that i started and left untouched since 😤

[hearteyesmcgarrett]

WIP Year in Review

Number of WIPs Begun this Year: 45 (including finished ones) that are actually more than just ideas or notes. Add like 4 that exist only in note format

Number of WIPs Finished this Year: 44! I dont post things unless im done with them lmao (I WROTE 44 FICS THIS YEAR???? HOLY SHIT)

Longest-Running WIP: again, i dont post things unless ive finished them so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ if we count series though, i'm (theoretically) going to write more stargate kinkmeme fills, and that series is 8 works deep and was started back in July. I wanna write more anxious danny stuff too but that series was started years ago (I did add to it this year tho!)

Newest WIP: unnamed nick/monroe grimm fic inspired by a work i like. will theoretically be finished and posted eventually

Most Worked on WIP: I guess we'd have to go back to the kinkmeme series bc I finally finished whumptober earlier this month

Favorite WIP: honestly the kinkmeme has been a blast but im excited to add more to my anxious danny series. mcdanno will always have a special place in my heart

Favorite Completed Work: oh man this is tough!!! If i had to choose, I'd probably say You're the reason I dont want the world to end. it was written for the SGA server birthday bash, follows mcshep over the course of the series, and is the longest oneshot ive ever written. its different than my other works and was fun to do

WIP You're Most Excited to Finish: okay i havent even technically started it, but damn do i wanna create my Thunder Road mcshep series!!!

WIP You're Not Sure You'll Finish: will i ever write the SGA hockey AU???? your guess is as good as mine

WIP Resolution for 2024: write and finish the goddamn thunder road series. now that I'm done with whumptober maybe ill actually have the time and energy to write it.

I just wanna say a massive thank you to @spurious for tagging me in these every week even though i almost never actually participated lmao. joining the gaggle of sga writers on here has genuinely changed my life! i love you all dearly and you aggressively snapped me out of a 2.5 year writing drought. Ive had an absolute blast writing this year and i still cant believe i get to chat with folks whose work I ADORE <3 i can't wait to see what 2024 brings all of us and our ao3 accounts

[eomma-jpeg]

for the ask game, sorry if these have already been asked!

8, 10, 14, 17, 25, 27+28 :)

8. if you had to write a sequel to a fic, you’d write one for…

i already answered this, but what a shame! it is my college au and this first "book" is gonna be about the vashmeryl relationship coming to fruition, and the sequel will be them working through some loooong time trauma and issues, but together !

10. what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

oh months, certainly. i have wips and drafts rn that are just sitting.... waiting for me to return LOL

i try to go back and finish the chunks i have and not leave them like,,, halfway done, but i do have a vashmeryl wip i started.... over a year ago? and still have not finished it lol

14. where do you get your inspiration?

honestly from other media i watch. i'm currently planning out a trigun dancer au and i was motivated because of Strictly Ballroom, a silly Baz Lurhman movie (please watch it the romance is so cute and it takes itself so seriously)

also from my friends !!! @squid789 is such a good person to bounce ideas off of and has inspired (i stole her ideas) a few aus

17. talk about your writing and editing process

so... ideally i do what i did for in the meadow where I wrote and wrote and wrote,,, and then just constantly went over chapters with edits and rewrites until it was time to post.

with itm i was always at least 3 chapters ahead and had the time to go back and check through chapters, make sure everything flowed well, ensure continuity... but with my newer works it hasn't been like that.

I have good grammar and spelling in general and i also use The Internet to write on so it gets spell checked, but i don't take nearly as much time to edit my work as i'd like to anymore

im a sleepy teacher who just wants to post her fanfiction T-T

25. besides writing, what are your other hobbies?

alright!

so i love doing embroidery. im currently working on a cross stitch project that has been very relaxing

i love to sing. i cannot express to yall how much i love singing. it is seriously my favorite thing to do. i love music and expressing my feelings through song. i lovvvvvvvvvvve to sing (im pretty good too hehe)

i sew and draw (SOMETIMES) and i cook. i do a lot of things! i love to explore just various arts and crafts

27. your favorite part of the writing process

i just love creating. i love putting ideas on the page and getting the content that i want... because i love the writing of others (and i do apologize) but there is always something that isn't for me

but thats because it wasn't written for me!! it was written for the author

and thats why i write,,,, because i want something specific

and i love romance and it gives me the power to make my blorbos kiss >:)

28. your least favorite part of the writing process

putting the ideas on the page T-T

im a bit stuck right now with what a shame mostly because i keep doubting myself WHOOPS

but its so hard when i cant decide with idea will be best

IMPORTANT LACE ADVICE: it doesn't matter what idea you get down, just get something down. once you have something down, you can change it or decide if you even still want it. the hurdle is getting the idea down!

thanks goo !!!!

[thewriting-corner]

Introduction To My WIPs

Helloo! I just took a ginger shot and multivitamin in the hopes that I do not get a cold right before the free week I plan to use to get all my uni work done, and my brain is fired up lol. ANYWAY, the other day I got a DM asking about TSLBTY and it hit me that despite all the promo I did for TSLBTY, I still never really talked about it 🤔 so here I am ranting to you about the only healthy loves in my life: the wips (or whips, if you will). Have fun, ig? And it goes without saying to please not steal any of these ideas. Be decent

The Sun Leads Back To You

This is my main project at the moment, and has been my source of therapy for a year now. I restarted the current version in April 2022 when I began getting really bad anxiety attacks again and my mental health was ✨on the ground✨ because how else would I cope lol. I hereby present you with a synopsis 🫶🏼

When on vacation with her family in Guanacaste, Costa Rica, Sofía Barrera finds her almost-boyfriend kissing another girl. In an attempt to make him jealous, she asks a random stranger to kiss her. Eager to make her ex even more crazy, she enlists the help of British tourist Thomas Woods to fake date her.

Thomas Woods doesn’t know what he hates more - the brain melting heat of the Costarrican beach or being forced to spend two weeks with his mother’s fiancé and his brand new step siblings. Desperate to get away from them, he accepts an offer to fake date Sofía in exchange for one thing: she gets him away from his new family as much as possible.

Their deal slowly unravels when Sofia’s family falls apart, and more than ever she’s convinced that she’s destined to stay at home forever, making sure her parents do not break the way they did seven years ago. Add an ex-boyfriend determined to win her back and the moody, yet charming Thomas, and Sofia’s world is soon to be collapsed.

I’m on it’s 3rd Draft, about to start the 4th and final once my beta readers finish reading it sometime this month. My current plan is to start querying it on June 1 as a birthday present to myself :) This book has meant the world to me and has helped me move on from so many things that it only feels appropriate to begin its new chapter as I leave my final days of teenage writerdom and entire my 🤢 20s. Sofia and Thomas are the products of my greatest flaws and pride, and yet I hope they will eventually find home in readers’ hearts like they’ve done in mine.

Songs I Relate To It: folklore love triangle :) or Last Kiss by Taylor Swift (iykyk)

The Wrath of Chaos [working title]

Now that I’ve gotten the super gross part of the way, I am pleased to announce that once I send out TSLBTY into the query trenches, I plan to reimagine one of my favorite worlds I’ve ever written! I tried querying this book before and it went terribly, BUT the other day I got an idea on how to make this book better and I CANT WAIT to put it to paper. While I have loved having my dearest, slightly depressed Marty on the spotlight, I’ve decided to shine a little bit of light on my favorite character of all time: Chaos. In this new version, he will be aged down and gain his own POV chapters in the book so that finally, he and Marty can be direct mirrors of each other like they were always meant to be.

Song I Relate To It: Carry On - The Score, AWOLNATION (or literally any song by The Score lol I swear their entire discography fits)

The Time Travel Wip

Working Title: The Time Keepers or Daughter of Time

One of the darkest concepts I have ever come up with, the time travel wip is a sci-fi/romance/thriller about a girl so desperate to return home, she accidentally destroys time😃 In the unfortunate experience of outlining, I realized that the plot was WAY too flat and so I need to rethink a lot of the aspects, which is why it’s so down the line of priorities right now. But I’m fine with that! Good books take time, and I’m excited to see what this wip will end up in once I’m a little less tired to think it through again lol

My plan for this one is to restart the outline eventually lol as soon as I can figure out how to up the stakes. Usually I have no issue with high stakes, but the entire concept of my characters being lost through time made it really hard to keep up with what they have to lose since it’s so difficult to remember the order of events even though it’s written down haha. Definitely my most ambitious project so far, which is why I have no issue taking my time with it. I’ve rushed through these wips in the past, and I’ve come to learn that a quick project will never be worth more than a well done one.

Song I Relate To It: End Game - Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Future

[crybaby-bkg]

I hateeeee hate hate hate it when I write a one shot and finish it on a certain note bc I don’t plan on nor desire to expand it or write more…….and then someone……..comments a brilliant fucking idea that could turn into another part and it’s SO FUCKING good that I literally have to write another part or else I’ll die -_-

[hello-yue-here]

thank you @chiptrillino for tagging me in a wip game!

not quite sure what the rules are but based off of your AMAZING POST OF ART WIPS (check it out here yall chip is so talented) ive decided to just share some parts of my writing wips that i rlly like because i cannot draw whatsoever lmao

enjoy some lil snippets hehe

from heart don't stand a chance:

"Zuko couldn’t get over her eyes. She was looking past the camera towards the man who took it. Zuko could see clear as day the love she held for Sokka in her gaze.

It was a perfect moment that Sokka had captured. No wonder held it with him at all times. If someone had looked at Zuko like that, he’d never want to see anything again.

As he took in the photograph, Sokka sat next to him in silence. His hand was clutching the ring around his neck again in his fist, pressing it close to his mouth as he peered over Zuko’s shoulder to look. Zuko turned to him to compliment the picture and saw a sad fondness lingering in his eyes."

this is a scene i wrote a while ago thats gonna appear in a much later chapter. but yeah. more yue angst for you guys im so sorry.

from i love you (and that's all i really know):

"Mister Sokka," a little voice wishpered in his ear as he felt tiny pokes on his cheek, "Wake up Mister Sokka."

"Good morning to you too Izumi," Sokka responded wearily as he rubbed the sleep from his eyes. He looked towards the little girl who was standing on her tippy toes to see over the edge of the bed and poke his face until he rose.

She smiled at him once she realized he was awake.

"Can we have pancakes?" She asked shyly, hiding her mouth just below the edge of the bed as she looked up at him with hopeful eyes.

That look was going to be dangerous for him later on, he could aready tell.

"Sure thing, Izumi, just let me sleep for five more minutes, mkay?" He asked as he shut his eyes again. He was exhausted from last nights events, and the sun had barely risen. How did Zuko do this?"

this is a scene from the next chapter of this fic. so much sokka and izumi bonding you guys are gonna explode hehehe.

from cherry (the mailee fic i wont shut up about that is now a whopping 19 pages):

"Mai never had to guess with Ty Lee. She always knew when Ty Lee was happy about something because she would use an obnoxious amount of exclamation points. She would send gifs of people or cartoons making outlandish expressions whenever she wanted to react to Mai’s text with a specific facial expression. Sometimes Ty Lee would even send voice memos whenever her thoughts became too long, or she got too excited about a story that her fingers couldn’t type as fast as she could speak."

hehe i love mailee.

from yours (the mailee sorority fic that i promise i did not forget about):

"Mai lifted her head off the pillow again and met Zuko’s eyes. She studied his impassive expression, trying to figure out if he was joking or not. He did seem like he missed Mai and Azula, so maybe he did really just want to catch up with them.

But Mai wasn’t going to give up a golden opportunity like this.

“Tell us everything about the boy toy as well and you’ve got yourself a deal,” Mai said.

Zuko rolled his eyes and sighed, “Ugh, fine. And his name is Sokka by the way.”

“Nuance. You also have to wake up Azula.”

“No chance in hell,” Zuko scoffed, “You’re the roommate and her fellow ‘pong princess,’ wake-up duty is all yours.”

“If she murders me, it’s your fault. She’s a bitch when she’s hungover.”

“Whatever you say, Mai,” Zuko grinned before returning back to his phone."

i have decided that zuko is a little shit for this fic and no one can stop me.

from Where'd All the Time Go? (the yuekka fic that i have severe writers block with that i also promis i have not forgotten about):

"“Sokka I really think you need to take a moment and-”

“I am fine Aang, I don’t have time for a feelings talk right now. Right now I need to find the fucking chief of this damn place.” His words came out harsher than he meant, but he didn’t have the time to dwell on that.

Before Sokka could run off again to continue his search, a hand grabbed his arm. One of Arnook’s advisors, Malina, had started dragging him towards the podium.

“Do you not realize how late you are for this Sokka? The ceremony was supposed to begin with your speech nearly an hour ago-” she hissed at him as she pulled him along through the crowd.

“Malina I’m sorry but I really need to speak with Arnook it is urgent-”

“This damn speech of yours is what’s urgent right now Sokka, you can speak with Arnook later but the guests are getting antsy so you need to give your speech right. Now.”

“But-”

“Now.”

Maline shoved Sokka towards the podium and suddenly all eyes were on him. Every guest in attendance had their focus solely on Sokka."

homeboy is stressed in this scene. things are slowly going to shit in this chapter. i promise i will update this before the end of the year. i swear. im so sorry.

from a currently untitled jetko/sukka boiling rock fic:

"“Oh good, you survived after all,” She said in a mocking tone.

Jet didn’t answer. He knew anything he said would be used against him. He didn’t know where he was. He didn’t know what was happening. But he would be damned if he showed that weakness in front of the fire nation.

“I was told you were more talkative than this,” the girl mused. There was something familiar about her, “my informants were very detailed when discussing your little teashop romance.”

I knew it. Jet snarled in his mind, That bastard betrayed me."

i want this fic to be a little darker but idk how good i am at writing darker fics because i love fluff and humor too much. this could be good angst practice for me.

from a toph and sokka fic that i wrote a while back to help me cope w some shit that i dont know if ill ever post:

"“Sokka? Are you still there?” Toph asked, the slightest hint of concern began to slip into their voice

“Tell me a story,” he was trembling. Despite all of his efforts to sound calm, he knew his voice came out trembling and scratchy and pathetic-

“Is everything okay? You don’t sound too hot,” Toph said through the phone.

Breathe, Sokka, breathe. You don’t want them to be worried, you just need to calm down.

“Please, Toph, I just,” he said through shaky breaths that weren’t nearly deep enough for him to be getting enough oxygen, “I just need a distraction. I just need to hear your voice okay?”"

nonbinary toph anyone?

from a 10 things i hate about you kataang and zukka au:

"“What? Something on my face?” the guy asked deadpanned. He rubbed at his scar as if he were wiping off a smudge of mustard, and Aang’s face went pale.

“Stop scaring the sophomores Zuko, this one’s new. He won’t get your… humor… just yet,” Ms. Wu said as she waved Aang off again.

“I’m hurt that you’d imply I’m not funny, Wu. I’m hilarious,” the senior, Zuko, said as he walked past Aang.

Aang let out a sigh of relief knowing that this Zuko guy didn’t seem all that offended by his awkwardness, and darted out of the room."

zuko is a little shit part 2. the amount of sarcasm i have dripping off of heath ledger zuko is glorious. let zuko be a little shit. i havent added to this in months but when i finish some of my other wips i cant wait to get back to this.

i have more wips and drafts saved but none of them have anything juicy or funny or interesting yet because all of them are like less than three pages so far

but yeah, heres a good chunk of sneaky peakys from my wips!

I hope you liked them!

anyone who wants to do this can totally go for it. imma tag @ambykinns @lumities and @flowers-inthepieshop (only if you all want too!!) because this was fun :)

[youweremyridehome]

rules: tag 9 people you want to know better. ooh, thanks for the tag @urban-sith !!!

favorite colors: default answer is "either orange or purple", *although* i also rly rly like egg-yolk yellow and mustard yellow

currently reading: re-reading the locked tomb (gtn) but i will be reading Alice Isn't Dead after im done with that

last song: i dont discover/look for new music quite as much as i used so ive been mostly replaying jessie ware, tame impala, and gotye. the latest new song i kept listening to over and over was probably either Remember Where You Are or Adore You off of jessies 2020 album What's Your Pleasure?

last series: it dawns on me ive been listening to podcasts for so long now that i cant even remember the last time i watched a series jdghksjjgf (other than dimension20 but not 100% that counts?). OH, WAIT, in the summer i watched that polish show on netflix, Sexify !!! it was genuinely very good and i recommend it !!!

last movie: went to see Dune in the cinema !

sweet, savory, or spicy: hhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i think sweet, if i really *had* to pick. but im not 100% sure

currently working on: !!!! i have a bunch of wips for the characters of Dimension20's The Seven. i hope i manage to get my shit together enough to post the finished stuff either before the finale (which is next wednesday D: ) or right after but ive been procrastinating so much D: D: i finished the lineart for all pieces A WEEK AGO and have been putting off colouring (because its hard and im bad at it jdgkysj) and it took me A MONTH to even start with the lineart even though i already had a complete idea for each piece. *also*, i have yet to finish a Gideon the Ninth piece i started waaay back in like, idek, june???? as well as a piece for Venture Maidens' latest campaign (which i started working on in the middle of august when ep2 aired)

tagging: im not gonna tag 9 ppl but i *WILL* tag @mafaldinablabla :D

[omegawolverine]

1, 8 for the writing asks?

1) Tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

okay so ig i have four current projects rn? technically more but i only really count em if i plan on posting the wip soon or they're chaptered fics ig 🤷‍♀️ if its apart of a series of mine then really i dont call it current unless ive already started a draft for the next part, i sideline my series' constantly bc most of the fics are fine to read by themselves anyways uhmmm lol moving on, a mini run down of my current projects:

mellodramattic fic: chaptered piece about mello and matt's relationship thru the years, probably gonna turn it into a series once i finish the main piece bc there's definetly ideas i wanna include that I probably cant in the main story. progress on it is fine ig, I have the next chapter mostly drafted (by hand, i need to type it still) i just update really slow bc it's an old hyperfixation of mine so i really only get bursts of motivation for it every like 3-5 months, sometimes longer. i just really enjoy writing this one bc i can basically make up whatever i want about the characters bc there is very little actual canon material for them and, as a matt kinnie, i have a very specific vision of their lives that ive always wanted to e riu te about and i finally started doing that with this fic. there's a few chapters on ao3 rn, but they arent stellar bc it's old writing lmao. ill link it (and any of these other fics i mention) if anyone asks

bnha chat fic: a mess, has 16 chapters rn, it's a lot of chaos ft a side of me projecting. it has slow updates now bc im out of my bnha hyperfixation, but i still love writing this fic, even if i regret some of my past writing decisions with it. next 2 chapters are half drafted, but idk when ill actually get em out. it's been 8 months since i last updated anyways, so whatever. one of the chapters is chat, the other is actual writing bc ig this fic is technically like a combination of chat and regular fic, but it's mostly chat so 🤷‍♀️

karlnapity wip: i started this fic 6 months ago and just recently started working on it again?? i plan to upload it in the near future but also idk if that will actually happen bc im not actually invested in either karl or sapnaps lore which makes me very uninvested in writing this fic lmao. the wip is kinda banger tho imo, very angsty but it has comfort so its okay.

it chat fic: i know vaguely what i wanna do with the next chapter but i havent uploaded for this bitch in so long its criminal. it's literally just a modern au losers club chat fic, everybody's gay, streddie are in love and that's really the only reason im writing it, plus i made stozier have tiktok clout which i think is too funny of an idea to drop, sue me. also it's a stranger things crossover, but only bc i wanted to make richie and mike twins bc i read a different crossover fic that did the same thing right before writing this and i was brainrotting the fic too hard not to include this twin shit in my own. im unoriginal, what can i say.

8) Is what you like to write the same as what you like to read?

generally, yes, though i think i write more angst than i tend to read? i wouldnt call myself an angst writer at all, but i tend to project and i really like writing emotional spirals or trauma related stuff bc ooooh coping mechanisms babey but it's always paired with comfort whether its immediate or eventual. i also write more chat fics than i read, mostly bc it's a good way for me to write about a hyperfixation without actually having to have good ideas or be very dedicated to the piece, especially bc i hate not finishing chaptered fics, but i tend to do it a lot when i lose a hyperfixation (for example, i have had a 1/? fic in my works for like a year, maybe two, now all bc i stopped hyperfixating on bnha like a week or two after that, and bc it was Real Writing i havent had the energy to update it, meanwhile ive updated the bnha chat fic a few times since losing that hyperfixation bc it's very low effort content) idk i think most of it's the same typa content in the end tho

[aiviloti]

my 2020 fic writer wrap-up!!

this is going to be incredibly long (a total of 1.1k lmao) so imma put a cut here, but basically thank you for being here all throughout my 2020! i appreciate you all very much <3

fav kind of fic to write:

i love writing about mutual pining slow burn process of getting together but i have NEVER WRITTEN ONE IN MY LIFE so i hope to change that in 2021

in 2020 i discovered??? humour??? so i enjoy writing about that and when people tell me i’ve succeeded in making them laugh it’s all 😳😳😳 for me

hardest fic to write but also most proud of:

to write you a song was a fic i struggled with from all of april to june which is very long?? to me??? considering i usually sit down and write things in one seating. fully fleshed ideas don’t usually take me thaaaaaat long to crunch out, but for some reason i struggled bad with this bc I really didn’t know where i was going w it lol

LA LA LAND gets an honorary mention of it’s own simply because it was 44k, and it took me all of july-september, but it’s something i still am proud of! to show how difficult it was to write/plot here’s the spreadsheet i had to use to keep track of the scenes and the chapters djkgfsjdfkjhgd

Shout out to kiroiimye , sweet , sirius and krypt for keeping my sanity intact

easiest fic to write:

this genshin impact fic: The Land Favoured by the Wind but its because ive been thinking about this idea for more than a month lol so the actual writing and editing took me less than 3 hours

there were several others too, bc ideas then to hook themselves to me then refuse to let go fjshlfgdfsg

fav fic to write:

Most definitely this sakuatsu monstrosity here by the name of Miya Atsumu's unwavering love for Sakusa Kiyoomi and an unholy amount of terrible food analogies that should not have the right to Exist lol, I only came up with the idea of Atsumu asking Osamu how to make friends bc I was friendship pining for someone at the time and then proceeded to write the entirety of it in a feverish daze! It’s as of rn my top hit / kudoed / bookmarked fic on ao3 and man, thanks for liking this as much as i did :’D

writing sequence:

i have to write from start to finish lmao i cant move on if the fic isnt chronological? the only exception was la la land bc it was too long and i had help from the spreadsheet so i alr knew where i was going i just had to write it down dfhdsfksfksdfhjg

deleting works:

the only fics i remember deleting are both first chapters of a multichap, bc i dont like having unfinished pieces on ao3, and far less if im not sure if ill finish them/if i dont know where im going w it!

if it’s dark history of shit 15 year old me wrote imma keep it there! it is an archive after all. go on, judge my fics from 5 years ago ahahahaha

best writing advice:

not a general thing and might just apply tome, but i tend to write in very convoluted ways and squish a lot in my sentences, or add to many unnecessary commas, so i received advice recently about being more mindful of the pacing and it’s helped me a lot!

worst writing advice:

none at the top of my head djgfkdsjfh if it’s bs to me i just forget it entirelyyyy

collab:

@actuallyasweetpotato​ (also aforementioned sweet) and i did a thing for bokuaka week!!!! you can find it here:  under my breath and into your scarf

wips:

9 unfinished zine pieces, 3 commissions, 1 exchange piece, about 10 or so other things

fav story of another writer:

favourite things 

manly man falls for manliest man krbk fic!!!

gently, like a winter wind iwaoi birthday fic

sunchaser krbk fic

JUNO atsuhina fic

best review:

dude i cried

and shoutout to tien , sirius for fan art, fan comics, fan animatics of fics ive written, and shoutout to akemiiiii for this song they wrote i am eternaally grateful

worst review:

no negativity today!

prequel/sequel to other people’s fics:

none at the top of my head hm, but if anything probably any of kiro skk stuff 

do i reread my stuff:

yes, but only if they’re old enough for me to go “it’s okay even if i dont like it bc this is old”

published:

hopefully! even though i do take part in zines and i guess they already have been published in a broad sense

fav/least fav chara to write:

no one at the top of my head! it’s instinctive for me to go ahead and think about character motives whenever i come across them, so if i ever write about someone, i usually just put my spin/interpretation of a character in a way that i can comprehend. the pros of this is i can write about many people, and the downside is that these characterisations can come off as out of character to anyone who doesn’t agree w me hehe

deadlines or goals:

if it’s a oneshot that’s under 3k i usually aim to have it done within 24 hours of beginning the fic. even tho i rarely succeed, having that as a goal usually pushes me to get it done faster than i would have if i had no goal altogether! if it’s anything long i aim for 1k a day, tho rn all my deadlines are zine deadlines and on top of that there’s uni, so to say im not stressing about writing would be a lie LOL

fav writers: (am too shy to tag but i swear these people are literal gods)

chonideno (mag): tumblr | twitter | ao3

batman (teesta): twitter | ao3

maplefudge (raei): tumblr | twitter | ao3

trope never written, would like to try:

aforementioned SLOWBURN MUTUAL PINING ANGST W A HAPPY ENDING GETTING TOGETHER!!!

but also royalty au

trope you will never write:

haha loads

how long have you been a writer:

began writing around may of 2014!! it was a horrible piece but im glad i started somewhere

influences:

chonideno/mag is one! maggie stiefvater who wrote the raven boys is also one, among many others

hardest part of writing: 

writing action? writing things that are happening right now, describing people talking, eating

easiest part of writing:

descriptions of people, places, feelings. internal monologues, the like

best part of writing:

sharing how i perceive the world w other people, and discovering other people agree

wip sneak peek:

cw: hanahaki, falling out of love

this was written in a friend’s dms lmao this is why i sound like this

something unique i bring to all my stories

i had a revelation the other day after talking to all my friends and realised i have really pretentious titles

IF YOU’RE HERE

did you know the wc of this thing is 1k words? idk why you stuck through all of that but thank you. i’ll keep writing in 2021, and all the years after that, and i hope i’ll find you doing things you love too :)

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now that i think about it i should actually pretend im writing bc ive been on a bit of a kick this past week (not that yall would notice... i am so bad at Finishing Things)(also i say A Bit Of cause i worked half the days and i get tired) so here’s a list of my current wips and their status. the sheer number of them is a red flag. i should probably do these more often to get me off my ass and pretend i’m a fic writer. ask me about them if you want! lol. in no particular order:

- fairy fic (currently untitled i had an inkling of an idea for the title but i FORGOT IT) - it’s got a start and i keep writing Scenes but since i changed the setting i need to rewrite one of them and i’m dreading making people Meet each other! gerard and mikey are fairies and have a frank who tags along with them and they’ve met ray who is unhappy with the direction of his life and he sorta falls in love 

- vampire fic (currently untitled) - i’m having a bad time with this one i . am having a bad time with this one. i might just write out scenes i was excited about and post those but i didnt make a plot and that was a mistake. so it’s probably going to be abandoned with just those scenes ever seeing the light of day (metaphorically...) what is it? its about vampires. surprise!

- curse breaker fic (currently untitled) - this has a whole plot and i love it. i came up with it one morning while listening to maya the psychic. now i just have to write most of the thing... this one is going chronologically apparently! so there’s still a lot left to write. gerard is a curse breaker. ray has a really sticky curse. yep

- ‘so say goodbye to all my friends, i fell in love with her again’ - I JUST FINISHED THE PLOT OUTLINE this one is again, looking good plot wise. however i keep thinking about it and not actually writing it. first mistake. this is jennifer’s body fic! alternate movie ending! it’s a sequel to ‘darling, tonight could be a beautiful night to die’ but much longer

- rocky horror fic (currently untitled) - this one is actually looking like it will get posted at some point! wow! i’m at a Bump right now but i’ll get past it next time i’m not ace. yeah its pwp whaddya want. polyamory occurs.

- sequel to ‘a motel in the middle of fucking nowhere’ (currently untitled) - this one i think is going to get dumped... it’s been in my drafts for a year and i havent worked on it....

- ‘errare humanum est’ - this has literally been a wip for 5 years so dont expect it anytime soon! it’s dan and phil fanfiction cause i was into them the most 5 years ago when i started it. cyberpunk. very cool. has a plot but i dont have braincells xo

- secret 1 (currently untitled) - it’s going poorly but i want to finish it. again next time i’m not ace it’ll hopefully get picked up. ive been ace for at least 2 months though...

- secret 2 (currently untitled) - going better. still not so great. the main problem is that i actively don’t want to finish it. if i do finish it it will be published anonymously so i will simply not share it <3

- original work - i literally dont even have an outline but i keep daydreaming about their fucked up little town. i came up with the pov character’s name 2 days ago. i need to write an outline bc i still cant figure out who killed the group’s mentor who also doesnt have a name. im deeply in love with these characters and their world though i want to finish this SOMEDAY 

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Anon 1 said: (polyamory)

Hi there! I read a stuckony soulmate identity porn fic a few years back. The team doesn'T know Tonys Iron Man so when you find your soulmate you are unable to lie to them. He learns that Bucky & Steve are his. When Tony is in his armor, Steve says something but tony looks in his direction but thinks of clint's question and is able to lie. Tony doesn't believe in soulmates bc his parents were each others and he watched his mother turn a blind eye to Howard's infidelity since you cant lie to them.

Anon 2 said:

hi ! im looking for a fic i read a while back. it's explicit, and pretty lengthy and modern au i think. basically bucky is steve's assistant, steve's a business man. it starts off with bucky kneeling at steve's desk then to face fucking then to actual sex on steves desk. im trying my best to make it easy to find sorry

Anon sent in Finish What You Started by TheFandomFilms (complete | 133,998 | E)

Anon 3 said:

i just lost a fic. bucky worked at stark industries but got recruited to be an avenger and later reveals he’s enhanced. steve and bucky go on an undercover mission as a married couple in a hydra town

Anon, wayward-lives and shout-out-into-the-void sent in Bucky Barnes: Intelligence Nerd by LilyInTheSnow (WIP | 113,925 | E)

Anon 4 said:

Um I was looking for this fic. It’s Stevebucky and it’s set at a university. Steve is preserum and an art teacher and new so bucky, who is a teacher there, thinks he’s a student and it’s really awkward overall. Bucky’s really worried about having a relationship with a student and a teacher I think even tho Steve’s not a student

Anon 5 said:

Ok so idk if i’ve asked for this before but! i’m looking for a fic where all the avengers are staying at this ski resort? i think? for some reason? everyone’s sleeping in the same room and bucky has a bed and steve’s only in a sleeping bag and he’s so cold, he’s shivering and bucky tells him to come into the bed with him and they do stuff, and then the next morning it turns out tony overheard them and jokes at them for it? sorry if its difficult! thanks!

Anon 6 said:

Hey, I'm looking for a fic I lost, all I can remember is that it's Shrunkyclunks and Steve picks Bucky up at a bar and after they hook-up Steve finds out that Bucky knew who he was the whole time and there's also a bit where Steve reveals he was a sex-worker back in the day. It's a one-shot and I've looked EVERYWHERE and I can't find it. Thanks for the help!

whitewolfbucky sent in sometimes you only get one chance by endofadream (oneshot | 8,159 | E)

Anon 7 said:

UGH I've gone through the tags that I can think of looking for this fic- it's one where, near the end, Bucky sends a letter to like a Dear Abby type-thing where he says that he and Steve are engaged, but they can't settle on a date and Bucky fears that Steve doesn't actually want to marry him. Can y'all help me out?

padmablossom and entigral sent in The Happily-Ever-After Business by mambo (complete | 23520 | T)

Anon 8 said:

hi could u help me find a fic ive lost? all i remember is that bucky was in an unhealthy relationship with pierce (who i think was a mob boss or smthn??) and theres a point when bucky keeps trying to find a job, but pierce gets him secretly fired from everyone after a few months of him working so he cant feel independent? thank u !

stevebuckythyla sent in Heat of the Night* by Kellyscams (complete | 186,509 | M) *underage, /others, abuse (heed the tags)

Anon 9 said:

hiiii there was this fic awhile ago where all the howlies were platonic soulmates and steve and bucky we're together and it was the cutest thing ever but i cant find it anymore... help

dolphinqueen10 and Anon sent in sidereal by girlbookwrm, verbalatte (complete | 67,892 | M)

Anon 10 said:

Hi I’ve been scouring the internet for this fic it’s abo where Steve had a baby (I think a girl) and was pregnant when he went into the ice. He brings Bucky back after the events of TWS and Bucky seems to misunderstand that Steve has someone waiting back at home for him and thinks he’s moved on. There’s a scene I remember where Bucky is essentially like “no way did you leave your kid to go looking for me?” And Steve says it’s their kid sorta thing ...

Anon 11 said: (/others)

hi! i've been looking for this story for ages but i can't find it anywhere. steve and bucky were childhood friends and bucky was in love with steve. it was def mpreg but i can't remember if it was abo as well. at a certain point steve left to go stay with peggy (who was pregnant but has a miscarriage I think). I remember bucky's family was also featured and maybe even sarah. i also think bucky got involved with either rumlow or pierce. sorry if this sounds vague but it's all I remember

dolphinqueen10 sent in Love, Bucky* by ValkyrieGail (WIP | 112,688 | E) *rape/noncon, /others

Anon 12 said:

Hey! I’m looking for a fic where Bucky was a stripper I think and Steve was a cop or detective who went to the club he worked at to ask him some questions about a case. I remember Steve takes him to his apartment I think and Bucky only has like a suitcase of clothes. I also think he goes to eat lunch with Steve one day at the precinct but gets embarrassed because sam is there. Thank you!

Anon 13 said:

I can’t find this fanfic anywhere but basically fury forces Bucky to be an avenger by threatening him and Steve, (who is buff but isn’t enhanced or a superhero) and he thinks the avengers are in on it and is scared of them and then they find out about fury because Steve tells them?

Anon, harratus, angelsbeast, wayward-lives and time-lord-no-more sent in A Matter of Pride(?) by Quarra (complete | 5,918 | M )

paranoiascreams said:

Hi, i've skimmed through possible tags but I still havent found a fic wherein Steve is a single dad who rarely leaves his office unless it's to have dinner with his daughter. And Bucky is the new tutor of Steve's daughter. It's set in maybe Victorian times? Wanda is a maid who held a bit of feelings for Bucky too. 

Anon 14 said:

hey! I was looking for a fic I read a few years ago. All I remember from it was that steve and bucky were on a mission and natasha booked them a room in a love hotel as a joke. Steve thinks bucky wants to go out and grab a girl, but the way he phrased it made bucky think that steve was asking him to have sex. He consents and gets confused when steve starts to leave. They share a bath to not waste water and steve realises bucky consented to him, and then they have some fun

stevebuckythyla sent in My Treat by druxykexy (oneshot | 10,033 | E)

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A Study in Fate teaser

Here’s the first 2200 words of a novel-length fanfic that I’ll finish sometime this year. It’s a WiP on an atypical schedule: At a later date I’ll release the rest of the first chapter, but then I’ll release everything else all at once.

Some authors don’t like if you hassle them to hurry up, but I may find it motivating. I’m going to attempt to get better at answering my asks/comments so feel free to ask me things about this fic, but keep in mind there’s a lot of things I won’t answer. Please be aware that no one cares if you don’t like first person perspective.

Though a big aspect of this story is about how to manage depression, it starts in a relatively dark place and weaves in and out of it. If you can’t handle unresolved distant thoughts of suicide right now, maybe wait until the entire story is posted.

Finally, I am doing okay financially right now, but two of my fandom friends are not. If you’ve ever wanted to give me money, I now have a Patreon. Anything you give me will help me help them.

Description: After the events of The Empty Hearse, Sherlock struggles to figure out who he is now that John no longer seems willing to play a prominent role in his life. As his mind runs in circles trying to parse their relationship and determine who threw John in the bonfire, his world is shattered by an enigmatic visitor: himself, bearing bad news from the future.

Series 3 time travel remix; series 4 compatible.

Tags and warnings: first person present, agonizing slow burn, explicit but romantic, depression, suicidal ideation, NOT FLUFF, self-actualization

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Chapter One - The Curtain Rises

One can’t get far without an organizing principle. Every man needs one drive to which all others are subordinate, a touchstone that seizes him with purpose.

I had one once.

Now I have chips.

Dreadful organizing principle, chips: once you’ve got them, there’s nothing propelling you forward anymore. Have enough of them and you hardly want to move at all. God. I was in the best shape of my life, body and mind, and now I’m turning into Mycroft.

Except Mycroft has already transcended these struggles — or so he claims. Yet again, I’m lagging behind on a path I never wanted to follow. Splendid.

Any moment Mrs Hudson will come out and start chattering away about you. That will set me back the rest of the day, yet I won’t ascend the stairs. Does no part of my mind demand control of my brain stem? I’m meant to be some kind of genius: Any visionary corner of my psyche eager to make something of me? No takers?

No. Life is now nothing more but the wandering of here to there. And thoughts like that are why everyone thinks I’m a baby, so for god’s sake stop.

I am all too stopped.

Depression is a dowsing rod: shows you where to dig. So: Why do I halt here, at the bottom of the stairs? Why can’t I face the only place I’ve ever belonged?

It’s not merely that you don’t live here anymore. Not quite. That would be too easy.

Where are you wandering now, John? You got off work an hour ago. No one's called to alert me you've been kidnapped, so there's one thing I didn't miss today.

Still figuring that out, darling. Off my game. Maybe was never on it. Against my better judgment I let romance rot my mind, and you're the one who's suffered most. But I've recovered from less noble chemical weaknesses than your company. Against all odds I still draw breath. If I make myself do nothing else, I will turn this around. I'll prove you can rely on me.

Any threatening emails? You don't just attempt to incinerate a man and move on. For god's sake, give me something.

Oh. A text. Not a threat; a video from the homeless network. Must have been delayed whilst I was on the tube.

There you are, alive and unwell, and here responds my heart but it's nothing. Mere streets away from me, and nowhere near her flat. Why do you do this, John? Is your phone broken? We could just talk about this. Give me another chance and I swear I won't come on so strong. I was too presumptuous when we last spoke weeks ago. I broke your heart, I'm monstrous; you're no longer fond. I get it.

You're no longer fond, but you're in need of a hit. Which is curious, you realize. You understand how a man would get the impression... But no. I won't presume. Life is boring and I'm dangerous and bless you, you need a hit. Just come get one. I'll pretend I'm managing, I'll find a way to switch on that whole persona for you and you can do your hero worship thing. I won't act desperate.

Just show up, and I will respect your wishes.

Do anything but pensively stop on the sidewalk in front of shops you have no intention of entering. It just screams, I'm distracted! Kidnap me! It's been an age and I know you despise me, but if you keep doing this I'm going to have to conduct surprise drills again.

Maybe you're trying to get kidnapped. I wouldn't put it past you. Maybe it would be charity to send a car around for you to blithely climb into. Do you even think about how that would make Mary feel, John?

Of course, it's me you're thinking about right now. The tension in your posture, the unconscious clenching of your hand, the conflict evident on your face even from this distance: definitely me.

You know, I wasn't the only one who presumed. The papers presumed, the entire British populace presumed, even your sister presumed and surely she'd -- No matter. You've made yourself clear. Just: spare a thought for "the best thing that's ever happened" to you. I've no talent for consoling women on my best days, and I'd hate to see how I'd fare in a worse state than her.

No, I don't know that. I don't know that I love you more than she does. She's never broken your heart.

Oh. Wait, why...? For god's sake, Pilar, why would you approach him? He'll notice.

Well. Can't complain about seeing your eyes more clearly. Not good for my recovery. And there, yes, you've noticed. Paranoia in full swing, hackles raised, and a step forward. 'Can I help you?' in your usual tone that fashions a threat from etiquette.

Not good for my recovery, no. The things you do to my blood, John.

'Got a pound?'

'For someone recording me?' You scoff, narrow your eyes. 'Are you...?'

'Say, aren't you John Watson?' Oh, clever girl. Look at him, pretending he's not pleased to be recognized.

Yet nothing is ever simple with you, John.

'Yeah.' You're either too smart or too suspicious for your own good. (Freud would presume. I'm only saying.) 'Did he...?' You look directly at the camera; at me.

Come on! You assume it’s me? When roaming bands of criminals have set you aflame? Oh here we go, that spark in your eye -- you're going all in:

'Did you put her up to this?'

Oh well.

'Who? What makes you say that, sir?'

'Uh, well he does it all the time.' I don't. 'You know what? Just send it to him.'

'Not sure what you mean, sir.'

'Oh,' you laugh, 'you're not sure what I mean. Stop bloody recording me.'

And that's the end of that.

So. Guess you won't be coming over this week either. Or will you? Are you angry enough to confront me? It's not stalking when it's for your own protection -- just ask my brother, John. God knows he could use the conversation.

I’ve got to find more discreet operatives.

> Next time don't be so obvious.

When did she send this? Ten minutes ago. No, if you were going to come over, you would have arrived by now.

I suppose you’ve already said everything you have to say. But not even a text for stalking, John? I thought we had a connection.

Or we did. Before Moriarty won.

Not your fault. All mine. I underestimated him, failed to foresee the lengths to which he'd go for his insane plan. Didn't realize how many pieces he'd put on the board. Stupid.

A ping:

i thought youd like it? before you whinged you cant hardly see him

It was only supposed to be months, John. Then dozens of pulled threads later and you'd already gone and shacked up with a woman! That's what I get for being thorough.

And not even thorough enough. But if I wasn't thorough enough then neither was MI6, John. If Moriarty still had operatives in London, that's on Mycroft. And me. But definitely on Mycroft.

I don't know. Hate not knowing.

Are we really never going to talk about this? I took down an international crime syndicate for you, and you broke up with me on your blog?

No, no -- sorry. I take full responsibility.

This is ridiculous. I don't know why anyone comes to me to solve their problems. I can't even make it up the stairs.

Ah.

That's it, isn't it? I don’t live up there anymore, either.

Yes. Everyone says you can find Sherlock Holmes just up those stairs, back from the dead and cleverer than ever! Like most things everyone says, it’s not true. I search for him in these rooms daily, and all the evidence points to this: Sherlock Holmes was a character created by John Watson. An exciting story. A fairy tale. (Dare I say a fantasy?)

People will believe anything you tell them, John, and they did. You were so sure I was a hero that even I came to believe it in the end. Now they only keep believing it because I lied. I was never steps ahead, never as infallible as you made me out to be -- and now that you've quit writing me I'll never be anyone at all.

But I'm doing it again. Getting histrionic. I'm not the first nobody to have his heart broken. They all get on with life.

Well: usually. Technically speaking, the most invested ones turn to murder or suicide. On the upside, murder is still in the cards: Assuming I can pull it together long enough to hunt down the appropriate parties, they are murderers and it would be doing the world a favor to murder them right back. In the course of any such investigation there will tend to arise situations in which I would have no choice but to murder them -- or, fortune willing, sacrifice myself so that you may live. Or both! Now that would be a power play: cleanse the board of evil, preserve the king. The ideal way to die may yet fall into my lap.

It's nice to have things to look forward to.

But say it doesn't pan out. Given my recent track record it would be foolish to place undue faith in my forecasting abilities, and after all, I don't know for certain this has anything to do with Moriarty's network. He pulled so many rugs out from under me I'm always half expecting yet another rug. I may grow as paranoid as you, John, with him skulking about in my head. For all I know everyone involved was in Moran's network, and I'm chasing after people who are already in custody. Maybe there's no grand end, no power plays, no relief.

That leaves suicide.

I'm not saying I will, John. I refuse to break your heart again. And it would be no way to honor the lengths to which you've gone to preserve my life. They're mere thoughts. They come and go -- always have, and I always haven't. I'm not going to do it, and if I am, I can always do it later.

But no appealing alternative has revealed itself. Only the obvious path for the invested: live like everyone else, and finally sever myself from aspiring to anything meaningful or exciting. Growing up, they call it.

Freud called it repression, so let's hold off on drastic measures. I made this life work before and I can make it work again.

Of course, that was easy for Freud to say: Being invested in life isn't an exercise in masochism when you have a lifelong companion. Not to be maudlin, John, but I wasn't making it work until you came along. Not truly. You were the gear that made it all click. I couldn't become Sherlock Holmes until you facilitated it.

It felt like the strength you granted me persisted during our years apart, but it's no surprise I drifted off course the moment you weren't at my side. That's not superstitious, John, that’s just a cold fact. You would have caught the little things I didn't. You would have kept my ego in check.

But what's done is done. I'll muster some strength for you. Reinvent myself again. Reorder my mind, keep myself off the needle and the pavement until I tie up these loose ends. Then... who knows.

Maybe someone else will come along.

Well. Feels good to laugh.

I’ve got to get on with it. Life may be a flight of uncarpeted stairs, but I'm sick of being down here.

'Going out, dear? John didn't call, did he?'

Will I always be this damned slow?

I sigh loudly, not that it will make any difference. 'No, and no.' You scowl like you do when I talk about him. 'Just getting in.'

You frown. 'But we were just talking.'

My heart leaps. 'You and John?'

'No, silly.' My heart falls. You tilt your head; smile. 'You and me.'

'You were talking. I was out.'

You shake your head and laugh, a cheery, infuriating tinkle. 'You had quite a lot to--'

'Mrs Hudson.' For god's sake, do not go senile on me. Not one more straw.

'Is it drugs, dear?' Terrible, hushed pity. Everyone always leaps straight to drugs! 'Oh don't get angry, I know all the signs! The nerve of him, putting you in this state. I'd say a few things to him, if only he'd come around once in a--'

Anything has got to be better than this.

'Project much?' The stairs are fine two at a time.

'I need those for my hip!’

'Adjust your dose! You're clearly...’ What?

What in the world?

'That would explain so much,' he says, and the room tilts.

Through the door. There I am. There he is.

Sherlock Holmes.

End notes:

In The Lying Detective, Sherlock tells Faith that chips are “the only perk” of being suicidal. In The Empty Hearse, he was eating chips when Mary told him John had been kidnapped.

John’s most recent blog entry before this story takes place is The Empty Hearse. It’s a mindfuck minefield for poor Sherlock, but we’ll get into that more soon. For now, know it contains this doozy: “Oh, and in other news, I’ve got engaged. But, it’s not something I’m really going to talk about much here. I want to keep some things private. I will say, though, she’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Sorry, Sherlock :)”

I borrowed the name Pilar from Sherlock Holmes and the Baker Street Irregulars: The Fall of the Amazing Zalindas, a novel by Tracy Mack and Michael Citrin. I’ve never read it, mind, it just seems like it wouldn’t be the sort of thing Sherlock would assign to Wiggins, and Wiggins would never be so sloppy.

Sherlock is obsessed with Freud. One Freud reference in The Abominable Bride, which was constructed entirely from Sherlock’s drugged out brain, came from Mycroft, who asked John if he was aware of theories of paranoia. Freud believed paranoid people were closeted homosexuals, heavily insinuating that Sherlock believes John is a closeted homosexual. Freud meta to come later; he’s very important.

Freud was with his wife for 57 years.

“Life is a flight of uncarpeted stairs” is from the poem “Spring” by the early 20th century queer poet Edna St. Vincent Millay. She ended up dying of a heart attack that made her fall down the stairs, which is itself poetic. Though she was a woman, I think it’s realistic Sherlock would know about her: the Casebook notes that Sherlock reads the agony aunt columns in women’s magazines because they contain all of life and are pertinent to his line of work, and in the same spirit I’ve made him familiar with all old famous love letters, for which she’s renowned. We also know Sherlock is familiar with Shakespeare and moved enough to remember entire soliloquies, so there’s no way Sherlock could read “Spring” and not retain some of it — especially as John and Mary had been aiming for a spring wedding, and the poem references April, which is just wrapping up as the fic begins.

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hello!! i saw a little bit ago that you reblogged a post about interaction with fics, and it had me thinking about how you’re my favourite writer on this site but ive never interacted with your fics because im just ridiculously shy. I know this is late because i was just trying to find the energy to send this, but i thought id reach out and talk a tiny bit with you about your fics that i like!! (1/?)

(2/?) my favourite fics of yours are probably protected (I really really love hurt/comfort kinda stuff and also protective characters, this is definitely my favourite from you), why’d you wear that (I love the fluff in this one and the dynamic between the characters, it actually inspired me to do some writing myself), can’t sleep (the fluff in this one makes me feel so warm and comfortable reading it) aand (cont)

(3/?) and blood and water (I like this one because it’s platonic, and even though I love reading your romantic fics because you’re an amazing writer ive always preferred the idea of being best friends with mgk rather than from a romantic perspective)!! i don’t want this message to try and pressure you to write more or to write a specific type of thing, trust me i love everything you write and i understand that it’s difficult to write regularly (don’t.)

(4/4) that was meant to say cont i noticed what autocorrect did at the last moment 😔) and im more than happy just rereading your old fics. if you make more content id love to reach out and talk to you so if i send you any more asks ill use a little lemon to connect them up!! 🍋i hope you have a great day!!

ahh oh my god i am literally speechless! dude what the heck thankyou! i understand how being shy can make you step back from interacting with fics because that totally used to be me, but when i started publishing my writing on here and other sites i realized how i loved receiving comments and constructive criticism so i started doing it more often. if u ever start posting ur writing on here please tag me because id love to read it!

and yeah ur right posting regularly is hard especially in this transitionary period in my life, but i am trying. ive got a few wips ive been working on that ill hopefully get some inspiration to finish. also the fact that you reread my stuff blows my mind! i like binge read my entire masterlist once a month from oldest to newest to see how ive improved and how i can improve (and also because the things i write are like my ultimate daydreams so it doesnt hurt lol) and to think that other people go back to my writing is mind boggling.

i literally love you and i got ur other ask so ill be waiting over here whenever ur ready! thankyou for mentioning the specific fics u love and dont worry im not pressured or anything but knowing my followers' favorite pieces does help when i dont know what to write so truly thankyou from the bottom of my heart. i cant wait to see what u come up with!

[letmeletmetrashyourlove]

Personal Bullshit Below: (AKA, watch Lidi lose her mind) 

I’ve got like 15 WIPs that I have no motivation to finish even though I love the story for them.

I feel shitty that I can’t consistently write good stuff. Some of my stuff gets a lot of notes and some of it doesn’t and I really can't tell what it is about one thing or the other that makes people like it. 

Nobody seems to like my Steve stuff. At all. 

Some of the people who started writing around the same time I did  (or after) have gained so many more followers than I have and I feel like something is wrong with me for people not following. 

I can’t bring myself to write a series. At all. Everybody always wants part two all the time and I’m just not creative enough to come up with enough content for something with multiple chapters. 

And everybody wants a part two and it really hurts because I feel like my story is complete and that it’s good enough and then somebody wants a part two. Like it makes me feel like the original fic wasn’t good enough and people want more to fill the void. 

I see a ton of writers writing thousands of words for chapters for a story that they update several times a week and I just can't do that and I feel so shitty that I cant do that. 

I don’t get any inspiration from so many requests that I get so I end up not writing them and I feel like I’m letting everybody down by not writing them. 

I have requests from months ago that I started but haven’t finished yet and they’re just sitting in my docs untouched and half written. 

Other writers are consistently getting 500+ notes on their stuff and I can't seem to do that either. Let alone the thousands of notes some stuff gets. 

I feel like I work so hard on my fics and I try so hard and it really hurts to see it not get as many notes just because I didn’t write smut or something cliche 

And I work really hard to edit and proofread my work and I see fics with hundreds of more notes than mine with so many typos and grammar issues and it makes me feel stupid for taking all that time to edit because nobody seems to notice anyway. 

And I find myself actively avoiding writing right now which really hurts because I really love writing and I have for years and years but now I just have all this pressure and I feel like I’m not living up to people’s expectations and that people just don’t like what I write anymore and that people only followed me because I was one of the first people to write for Billy and now better people have come along and I don’t get the notes that I used to get. 

And I usually don’t let anons bother me but somebody told me the other day that they want me to post longer stuff bc my shorter stuff is shit. But I can’t bring myself to write longer things right now. I feel like it’s all filler and nothing intersting happens and it doesn’t progress the story. 

I don’t know. I’m just so overwhelmed and I feel sick to my stomach and I’m all anxious and shakey and I’m freaking out and like breaking out in hives from stress and I just UGH. 

I feel so stupid for even posting this but I really need to fucking word vomit this out here because I’ve been bottling it up for a few weeks and I like to try to be open and honest with you. 

[datchu]

taggg

tagged by @avaalone ​, thank!! 

rules: you must answer these 92 statements and tag as many people as you like! 

tagging: @cha-is-tired ​,  @bangtan-paracosm ​, @sus-hukka ​ and @cinnamoongi​ 

THE LAST:

1. drink: water  2. phone call: padre  3. text message: a close friend ( @itzjeilx​ hi i miss u)  4. song you listened to: I think it was New Rules by Dua Lipa  5. time you cried: idk lol  6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: *screams at my dumb 16 yo self*  8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yea 10. been depressed: ;) 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drunk yes but never threw up smh 

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. black even if it’s not a color I KnOW, dark red and forest green 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: yehh 16. fallen out of love: lol u needa fall in love first for that i aint got time for this  17. laughed until you cried: yeh 18. found out someone was talking about you: uuuh nope but it wouldn’t be surprising  19. met someone who changed you: i guess  20. found out who your friends are: p much  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: i don’t have facebook bye 

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: /  23. do you have any pets: had two cats but they passed away a few months ago  24. do you want to change your name: *screeches* 25. what did you do for your last birthday: threw a party and got p much shitfaced it was cool  26. what time did you wake up: 9:30-10 am  27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfics woo p  28. name something you can’t wait for: all my wips for be finished so I can start some projectttt 

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last week

30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my goddamn entire being  31. what are you listening to right now: none  32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: non  33. something that is getting on your nerves: asmr oh my god i cant stand that shit  34. most visited website: tumblr i guess 

35. moles: boi everywhere 

36. marks: everywhe re 

37. childhood dream: like i remember 

38. hair colour: cherry red/ purple depending on the light 39. long or short hair: shORT 40. do you have a crush on someone: nop 41. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and lips i guess  42. piercings: ears, double helix, indus, etc etc  43. blood type: idek  44. nickname: datchu, machin (thANKS @scolopendre​), bro, son, i dont remember 45. relationship status: single 46. zodiac: gemini 47. pronouns: he/him 48. favourite tv show: idk the last one i bingewatched was twd and it was great  49. tattoos: want some but got no idea  50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: nop 52. hair dyed in a different colour : ye 53. sport: dance all the way  55. vacation:  Iceland, Korea, Japan, Peru, idk I just rlly wanna go there  56. pair of trainers: nike air force 1 they’re so good 

MORE GENERAL 57. eating: rice crackers  58. drinking: water 59. i’m about to: read a fanfic bYE 61. waiting for: kim taehyung to smack me across the face  62. want: money 63. get married: no 64. career: lmao  65. hugs or kisses: hugs but at the same time don’t touch me  66. lips or eyes: eyes 67. shorter or taller: taller, i’m short as fuck, please pick me up  68. older or younger: older, but i don’t really care 70. nice arms or nice stomach: arms pls manhandle me and throw me over a bridge  71. sensitive or loud: loud, i’m a real asshole to sensitive ppl whether i want it or not  72. hook up or relationship: both? both.  73. troublemaker or hesitant: trouble maker i wanna fight

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: nope 75. drank hard liquor: yea 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: nop 77. turned someone down: ye 78. sex on the first date: what da te 79. broken someone’s heart: p sure i have (sorry) 80. had your heart broken: nop 81. been arrested: nope 82. cried when someone died: nope 83. fallen for a friend: nop

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: lol  85. miracles: nope 86. love at first sight: nah 87. santa claus: nope 88. kiss on the first date: sure  89. angels: nope

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name: Sacha  91. eye colour: hazel  92. favourite movie: I have a few but Pulp Fiction