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lalachat · 7 months

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"And there you were..."

Author's note: Good lord did i have a lot to say in this chapter. I hope my writing is still okay and is cohesive enough... I feel like i am missing small points i made in other chapters, but as Hannah Montana once said, nobody's perfect! I'm doing my best with what has been going on in my life. I recently had to drop one of my college classes because it was getting to the point of me not being able to pass the class. Life tip: don't be a full time college student with 2 part time jobs(technically 3 if my summer job contacts me to come into work on a random weekday) or it'll catch up to you... shit's stressful maine😭 Anyways, like always enjoy the chapter!!! She's a biggen💅🏻

Summary: After being slut shamed for something you and Lucien did in the past, you decide to run straight to his house to let him know of his mate's behavior. Little did you both know that it only would make things worse, but hey, screw it right?! Or so you both thought...

This is for all my Lucien girlies❤️

Warnings: profanity, steamy make-out sesh (you're welcome<3), cock-blocked lol, slight violence

Word Count: ≈ 4,556

Chapter 6: "Hold your tits!"

And there you were in his house again but this time looking like you were going to scorch Prythian. You didn’t even have the energy to respond to his witty remarks. “Something really bad must have happened,” he thought. As he looked over you for any signs of injury, he couldn’t help but think about Elain.

Elain had lost control of her emotions and sent them full blaring at him, and yet you’re in his living room looking just as pissed off during the time of Elain’s relay. Then the realization hit him that something must have happened between you two. Would his bond with Elain cause him to take her side or would his close relationship with you rule over all? He was going to have to tread very lightly in the conversation that was about to come to light.

“You want to know who pissed in my wine? Your mate Lucien, that’s who! And mine, but mainly your mate!” You say with a bitter tone as you cross your arms and legs to lean against the wall.

“I see, guess I have been too much of a ladies' man if I have both of you this hot headed over me.” He smirked at you still trying to break your anger with humor. It didn’t work, it went right over your head. Lucien frowned.

“How can she stand there and make all these accusations about me being a slut for fucking you without hearing the explanation of it being before y’alls bond?! SHE IS RIDICULOUS!” you exclaim.

“She called you what? Are we talking about the same Elain right now?” Lucien stood there in shock.

“She called me a slut Lucien! Said that me having sex with you is the reason I have no mate, not realizing that she is the reason I don’t have one! She keeps him from me! Hell, I tried so hard to open the bond with Az in our argument, but I am still met with nothing but a big fat wall of nothing!” You slumped down.

“Let me set one thing straight y/n! Whatever she tried to pin against you is not true!” he grabs both of your hands reassuringly. “Azriel will hopefully come around one day, I am sorry it hasn’t happened yet...” he kisses the tops of your hands. However, little does he know that you are slowly losing faith in your bond ever being complete.

Lucien then looks up at you confused. “Wait how did she even find out about our previous sexual relationship?” Lucien asked.

“I let it slip to Mor at Rita’s and then Mor let it slip to the girls during girls' night, and then everyone asked about the rumor...” you admitted.

“Huh, I see.” He started rubbing his temples trying to ease his distress. His mate knows about you two, she just doesn’t know it was before they even met. Is this knowledge going to change his chances with Elain? A moment of silence passes between you, before Lucien’s face lights up.

“And what did you say about the rumor?” he smirked at you mischievously. He knew the rumor, he just wanted to hear you say it.

“Lucien why does what I said matter?”

“Because y/n, I want to know if you think I fuck with the fire in my veins?” His hands slowly trace up the sides of your arms. “Did I fuck you good enough for you to confirm that rumor?” He left an open-mouth kiss on your neck. “Or do I need to remind you?” He places another kiss onto your neck only firmer.

“Lu-” you sighed at the feeling of his lips on your neck, “Lucien what are you doing? You shouldn't be doing this right now....” He wasn’t listening to you as he sucked on the sweet part of your neck as you exposed more of your neck to him.

“Y/n you are telling me two different things right now. Your mouth says to stop but your body wants me to keep going, so which one is it doll?” He looked at you with hooded eyes, hands resting on your covered thighs after tracing your arms.

“Why does that information matter right now Lucien? You need to stop this.” You look at him with desire, completely contradicting your statement.

“Because y/n, they're upset at our previous relations a long time ago. I say fuck it and truly give them something to be upset about now.”

You both looked at each other. Tension was slowly building up between you two with every second of silence. Tension that has been building since the moment you two saw each other at Rita’s. Tension that has built up from all these years without each other. Tensions that were begging to be cut, begging to be relieved. Both of you were going through all the consequences that this could put you both in, but consequences be damned, this was worth it.

Neither of you had bothered hiding your growing scents of arousal. Your face was mere inches away from his. You could feel his hot breath against your face, and he stared down at you with desire, hands still resting on your thighs. You looked up at him and thought he was worth the risk. Whatever karma this would cause, bring it on, because his hands against your thighs was clouding all rationality in your head.

“Ah fuck it!” you say.

In an instant your lips were on Lucien’s in a searing hot needy kiss. His hands gripping at your thighs as your mouths fought for dominance. Your hands finding a home in Lucien’s hair and started pulling slightly, earning you a low groan. Your thighs clenched together which Lucien felt. He chuckled and decided to focus his heat on his hands, heating them up against your thighs. Your mouth broke away from his from the desirable feeling, “shit-”

“You like my hot hands all over you, hm?”

“Gods yes!” as you place your hands on top of his and teasingly guide them up your hips, to your waist, and stopping them just under your chest. His hands growing hotter from his desire on your sudden placement as both of your eyes locked and darkened.

“Such a fucking slut for my heat,” he said as his hands grew a mind of their own and started exploring every inch your breasts. His eyes followed every movement they made. You decided to remove your fingers from his hair and delicately trace them down his clothed back making him tremble slightly. This made you smirk. He is just as much of a slut for your touch as you were for his.

His lips were back on yours with pure dominance, making your desire grow even more as his hands never left your chest. You moaned into his mouth as you decided to be bold and reach under his shirt to scratch his bare back. His muscles tensed at every touch knowing they would leave marks. His musk grew at the thought.

Your mouths are moving more in sync than you have ever felt before. It was like both of you knew what each other was going to do next, but what you both did not know was the sudden loud knock on his front door. You both groaned in annoyance.

“Are you fucking kidding me?! This better be good!” Lucien said in frustration as he removed his swollen lips from yours. He looked at you for a second, his gaze softened as he placed a sweet kiss back on your lips saying, “this isn’t over.”

He smirked and turned towards his door fixing his hair, clothes, and evident boner on the way. You giggled as you hid from the door’s gaze fixing your own appearance. The knock was heard again but this time more boisterous as if whoever was behind it was losing patience.

“Good lord, get a hold of your tits! I am coming!” As he opened the door you heard Lucien gasp. “Shadowsinger, to what do I owe the pleasure?” He bowed jokingly.

“Where is she?” Azriel asked in annoyance.

“Where is who exactly?” Lucien asked dumbfounded as he rose from his bow.

“Oh, don’t play dumb with me Lucien, you know who I am talking about. Now... Where. Is. She?!” Lucien stiffened; he was asking for you. He was not about to give you away to him after you and Elain’s argument, because he knew Azriel would take you back to the Townhouse. You and Elain needed time to cool off, he was not about to let you get called anymore names tonight.

“She’s not here.” Lucien said protectively as he slightly closed the door stopping his gaze from searching inside. Azriel picking up on it.

“That is fucking bullshit! I know she is here. Step aside Lucien or I’ll-”

“Or you will what Azriel? You and I both know I am not scared of you!” Lucien growled. Azriel chuckled.

“I knew you would protect your little play th-" Lucien’s nostrils flared as he took in a sharp inhale at Azriel’s intended vocabulary.

“Careful how you finish that sentence Azriel.” Lucien threatened.

“What? I smell her all over you! Protecting her is pathetic when you have your mate, Lucien!” Azriel crossed his arms across his chest aloof to the fact Lucien was about to snap.

In a second Lucien's hand balled into a fist and decked Azriel straight in the nose. You heard the contact from where you were standing in Lucien’s living room.

“AH! YOU FUCKING DICK!” Azriel screamed as he grabbed his nose to try and ease the pain.

“Say something like that again Az, I fucking dare you.” Lucien snarled.

Gods Lucien protecting you was hot, but no matter how hot he might be, your bond was overbearing you. You ran to the door, past Lucien, and straight to Azriel. You looked him over and gods was his nose a mess. Lucien had got him good. You looked back at Lucien who looked like he was about to light on fire. You glared at him for getting physical.

“He fucking deserved it...” Lucien said as he looked at you shaking his hand off from the impact.

You were now standing in between the two most loved males in your life right now, unsure on what to do. Do you give into the need to protect your mate, even after everything he has done, or do you give in to the male who has shown you nothing but support even though he has a mate. Not sure what to do, you decide to play both sides and ask a question everyone wanted to know.

“Azriel why are you even here?” Trying to bury the feeling of wanting to reach out to him to comfort him, you step to stand beside Lucien. Hands slightly brushing against each other, his hands still hot from your previous moment.

“To find you.” He rubbed his nose. “Elain is on a rampage trying to get to you knowing that you had run here to him.” He pointed his head in Lucien’s direction.

So, he came here not for you, but for Elain to try and make her feel better by taking you out of her mate's home.

“I am not going back there to make that bitch feel better!” You felt Lucien stiffen at your words for Elain.

“You have to y/n! Look all feelings aside, she won’t calm down. I have tried. Feyre has tried. Nesta has tried, but nothing is working. You need to come back to the townhouse now before shit gets worse!” He looks at you with pleading eyes. Gods he truly cared for Elain, didn’t he? You felt tears prick your eyes. Why couldn’t he care for you this way and not Elain?

“I am not going back there to get name called again for something that I did before their bond even snapped!” Azriel's gaze softened at your words, not by a lot, but you could see the realization hit him that Elain had gone too far earlier. Lucien finally decided to speak.

“If y/n returning to the townhouse means Elain calming down, she can go but you must take me with her. I will not stand aside and let y/n bear the burden alone for something we both did.” Wanting his mate to feel better but in a way he knows he can protect you at the same time. Lucien looked towards Az for an answer.

“I don’t think you coming would be a good idea.” Azriel deadpanned, now seeping back into his usual closed off self.

“Why? Because you’re scared that maybe the only thing that could potentially help Elain calm down is him? You’re just being jealous that it wasn’t you... set aside your pride for once Azriel and let him come with me,” you said. Azriel thought through your words, and you could tell he wasn’t going to budge. You grabbed Lucien’s hand because what you were about to say was going to hurt you a lot emotionally.

“Do not think about it for the sake of myself, but for the sake of Elain, Az...” Your tears finally spilled from your eyes as you saw Azriel’s face lighten up at the thought of it potentially helping Elain. Not even sparing a thought that returning there would only make you feel worse. Lucien’s hand tightened around yours as he thought the thought Azriel had failed to see. You smiled up at him as he mouthed, “it will be okay,” as his thumb traced the back of your hand in comfort.

“Fine. For the sake of Elain, you can both come.” Azriel takes off into the sky as you and Lucien look at each other worried.

“Y/n, everything will be okay,” he smiled at you. “I won't let anyone else shame you for something we both did in the past. It’s my turn to take on the burden. Don’t let Azriel’s behavior towards Elain stop you from trying to peruse the bond, or you’ll end up like a sorry sucker like me.” He chuckled.

You laughed at his self-defeating comment as you said, “Thank you, Lu... let’s hope you can calm the raging seer because it was not pretty earlier.” You warned.

“Yeah, let’s hope for once in her life she actually needs me for something...” He rolled his eyes not believing that this is the moment he is needed for. All this time without her and he's the last option when he should be the first. Gods, Lucien couldn’t help the bubbling anger trying to surface itself that he was her last resort, but his mate needs him! He was not about to ruin this chance for himself, as he grabs your hand and winnows you both to the Townhouse.

As you reached the front door at the Townhouse you saw Azriel landing beside you and Lucien.

“Oh, would you look at that,” Lucien looks at his imaginary watch, “just on time shadow singer!” He smirks.

“I don’t have time for your wit right now Lucien, we have better things to do. Come on.” Azriel said annoyed and walked straight into the house not even bothering to see if you were following him.

“Guess we need to follow grumpy pants over there,” You teased as Lucien laughed.

“Y/n I heard that!!” Azriel said over his shoulder only making you and Lucien laugh even louder. You both decided it was best to follow him now that you and Lucien were walking a fine line on Azriel losing his patience.

You can already hear the arguing as soon as you both catch up to Azriel. Lucien has suddenly gone cold as he hears his mate’s voice for the first time in a while. You heard his heartbeat quicken, from nerves or from longing you couldn’t tell.

“Lucien if you don’t get ahold of yourself, she is going to walk all over you! Deep breaths, I will be with you the entire time,” you smile at him.

“What if she sees me and kicks me out? What if my presence makes it worse?” Lucien was starting to panic, all he wanted was to see her and protect you from any more name calling, but this situation was just too stressful for him. Everything was relying on him calming down Elain! How can he do that when he has practically been shunned out of her life. You looked at him, clearly reading his thoughts.

“Lucien look at me,” his gaze is hazy as he glances towards you, “you are her mate! If anyone can get through to her it’s you! Not Azriel! YOU! Do not doubt your ability as her mate for a second!” You smiled at him, and you squeezed his hand gently.

“What would a male like me do without you?” He laughed as he squeezed your hand back.

“I don’t know, probably be a really lonely sorry sucker,” you shrugged your shoulders as you teased him. You have known Lucien for so long that you have picked up the best way to calm him is banter. He chuckled and kept your hand in his as he finished following behind Az.

Azriel glanced behind him to hear y’all’s exchange after he heard his name. He couldn’t help but see him and Elain in you and Lucien. Did you two like each other? He almost felt jealous, which is weird for him. The last time he felt this way was when you left Rita’s with him. What was going on with him recently?! He was going to have to investigate this for Elain’s sake... or maybe his, so he can stop this unknown and unsettling feeling that has been slowly eating at him.

“Would you two stop flirting and get a move on? They're in the library which is right around the corner,” Az said annoyed.

You and Lucien rolled your eyes playfully before you both feared the worst as you reached the entrance to the library. Elain’s rampage is evident as you hear her through the door.

“Oh, boy here we go again,” you said.

“Remember what I told you earlier y/n, I won't hesitate to fire back,” Azriel glared.

Lucien stepped in front of you and threatened, “I won't hesitate to set your balls aflame if you talk to her like that again!” You peered behind Lucien’s back and stuck your middle finger up at Az. He rolled his eyes as he opened the door letting you and Lucien walk in first.

As you walked in you saw Elain in the center of the room, pacing. Cassian and Nesta took the nearest couch. You saw Feyre and Rhys on the loveseat next to Cassaian and Nesta. Both couples are taking turns trying to ease Elain, but obviously it is not working otherwise you wouldn’t be here. Amren and Mor were sitting by the fireplace drinking from their glasses of wine in annoyance at the situation they had to deal with. Gods, you wish you could join them, they had the right idea...

“I knew you had run to him! First you fuck him and now you think you can go to him for comfort?! You are not his mate y/n!” Elain’s head snapped in your direction as you both came in. She hadn’t even bothered to acknowledge Lucien.

“Yeah, I may not be his mate, but you don’t get to call yourself that after all the shit you have been putting him through!” You raised your voice to match hers. “You are nothing but a dead-beat mate who does not deserve someone like Lucien!”

“Funny, the mother seems to think I do...” Elain snarked back.

“So then fucking act like it! Stop throwing yourself a pity party and finally realize what the mother gave you!” You point at Lucien. “He. Is. A. Good. Male! What is the issue?”

“The issue is you have fucked him, touched him, kissed him!” Elain argued back.

“Mother above Elain, I am not a disease! Grow the fuck up-” you sneered back.

Everyone in the room could tell this was not going to get any better if they kept letting you two talk. Everyone soon looked towards the two males at the entrance begging for them to do something and step in.

Lucien and Azriel were on top of it as soon as they saw everyone looking at them. Lucien was the one to step in front of you, blocking your view from Elain. His hands gripped your shoulders slightly pushing you back. Azriel was doing the same thing for Elain, only she was more resilient.

“HOLY SHIT AZ! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FACE?!” Cassian boomed as everyone saw the lingering bruise on Azriel's nose..

“You can thank Lucien for that...” Az deadpanned as Lucien smirked. Everyone’s faces almost seemed surprised by the fact that Lucien had gotten physical with Azriel and had no bruise of his own.

“It wouldn’t have happened if he didn’t insult y/n.” He shrugged.

“You did that to protect her?!” Elain was screaming in Azriel’s arms. Lucien looked at you with an apologetic look before he turned to face his mate.

“Elain,” the sound of her name coming from his mouth had her frozen, “talk to me. No more screaming, no more yelling, just tell me your point of view on what’s going on. Okay?” he asked sweetly. Gods the dexterity of this male.

“She-” Elain had started to cry, “How could you sleep with someone Lucien?! Especially with someone like her when I am your mate?” You tensed, gods she was still on the petty bullshit.

“Someone like her, is an amazing female, but you wouldn’t know that because you are too blinded by the fact we slept together!” Lucien explained calmly.

“Is that so wrong of me to think when I come home to the girls wanting to know all the details of the autumn male rumor that she has learned from you?” Her voice was starting to rise as tears flowed down her cheeks. Lucien took a couple steps towards her, but Azriel was still holding her back afraid things would get ugly if he let her go. You were left standing alone.

“Elain listen to me, I don’t know what you heard but y/n and I’s previous sexual relations were before I even met you...” Lucien said reassuringly.

“No! You are lying! That can’t be true-” Elain said in disbelief as the wave of guilt hit her as she looked at you for confirmation.

“You would have known that if you had just let me talk instead of slut shaming me...” you sassed her. Lucien and Azriel glared at you as if saying your sass wasn’t needed right now. You huffed.

Lucien took the last couple of steps towards her and closed the distance between them as he grabbed one of her hands. This was now paining you to watch. Both of the most adored males in your life comforting Elain as you stood by yourself.

“Elain it is true, y/n and I slept together before our bond was even put in place... If you need, I will put my mental shields down and let Rhys prove it to you!” He rubbed the back of her hand.

“Hey, don’t drag me into this! I don’t want to see that; I believe him Elain! Please don’t make me do that.” Rhys begged.

Elain looked at him in sympathy, “I won’t make you do that.”

“Thank fuck,” Rhys sighed. You giggled at him as you thought to yourself that it would be a good way to show the girls the rumor. As if Rhys heard your thought, he glared at you. His voice was now in your head saying, “Don’t let them know that! I truly don’t want to see that image of you two.” His face grimaced making you giggle again. Feyre glanced at you two and looked at Rhys questioningly. You could tell they were now talking through the bond.

Elain glanced down at Lucien’s hand caressing hers. “I am sorry to have made you come all this way for something like this... I should have let y/n explain herself. I'm sorry Lucien..” She says embarrassed. Azriel took this as the queue to let her go knowing she was fine now. He was angry that Lucien was able to calm her, part of him wanted him to fail so he could get another chance. He finally stepped away from the two.

“It is alright Elain; the bond makes us do crazy things sometimes.” He smiled at her, and she actually giggled at him. He wiped away a couple of her tears, and you could see her lean into his touch. Both smiling at each other lovingly.

Fuck this was too much for you. You saw first-hand how much Lucien cared for Elain and it hurt, maybe he did still have a chance... You and Elain still had to work out the words you two threw at each other in anger, but you couldn’t do that now. Not with the overwhelming feeling of seeing Lucien hopeful again. Maybe you were being dramatic, but you seriously couldn’t look at them anymore. Seeing him hopeful again reminded you that this crush of yours was not right.

You began to not think straight. Seeking Lucien's attention and teasing him only led him away from wanting to fight for their bond. All for what? Because Az didn’t notice you?! Gods what were you even doing. You were turning into Elain... All of your threats to her were now hypocritical. Just like the wave of guilt hitting Elain earlier, yours had just come crashing down. As you realized you still stood alone, you quietly excused yourself from the room. Everyone looked at each other confused.

“I should go see what’s wrong with-” Lucien had tried to leave Elain’s grip, but she only squeezed his hand.

“Don’t go. I need you, Lucien. I finally feel at peace after hours of torment.” Elain pleaded.

“You do?” Lucien looked down at her, face red as his hair, as she nodded.

“Please stay with me for a while longer?” she asked nervously.

“Anything for you,” as he placed a chaste kiss atop her hand.

However, you were not out of the library yet as you saw their last exchange before you ran down the hall. Tears stained your face as you continued to run to the other side of the house, needing to get as far away as possible. Little did you know someone else needed to escape that situation just as much as you did. He excused himself as he followed you down the hallway, using your urgent departure as an escape for himself to leave the room.

Lucien couldn’t help but grovel that he had chosen Elain over you as he watched Az chase after you. That should be him doing that but instead he was here with his mate. Maybe this was for the better? Having both of your mates in this situation could be useful he hoped. For now, he was going to try and enjoy all the time Elain was willing to give him before she kicked him back out of her life for Azriel. He will have to apologize for his behavior later, but like he said earlier, the bond can make someone do stupid things.

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persieee-yoohoo · 1 year

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Easy to Love, Easier to Betray (Part 2)

Pair: Tarquin x Reader

Word Count: 3.3k

Warnings: maybe ooc?, smut (I attempted gender neutral stuff), language

Summary: You had never been to the Summer Court before, but Rhysand finally gave in to your incessant bothering and brought you along with Amren and Feyre. Unaware of the real reason behind the Night Court's visit, you played your unknown role well and got along with Tarquin a little too easily. When the truth is revealed and people are betrayed, will anything be enough to bring two people back together? (Sort-of retelling of the Summer Court visit for half of the Book of Breathings and several events that followed.)

Note: this is my first time writing smut, so sorry it if it is complete ass, ;D

Also available: ao3

Read Part 1: Here

You kept your promise the following day, not wanting to disappoint Tarquin or even yourself. The liquid courage from the bottle of wine you'd consumed the night before had long-since faded, but the phantom heat of Tarquin's breath on your neck kept you from backing down from the opportunity to get to know the High Lord more. Your nerves caused you to take a few extra minutes that morning to get ready, which meant you missed the spread of breakfast that was most likely getting picked over by your Night Court company, but you wanted to look perfect.

There was no doubt that Tarquin seemed to want you as much as you wanted him, from the heated stares that seared your body and the desperate words that he'd scribbled on paper the previous night, but still you worried. He was a High Lord, despite how much he was teased for his age, and you were a spy. So many things could go wrong, but a sensual voice in the back of your mind reminded you that so many things could go right too.

“Going on a date?” Rhysand practically pounced on you the minute you stepped out of your room, his teasing mood overly compensating for the flash of disappointment that darkened his purple eyes for just a moment. He was dressed in his statement black with a feline smirk adorning his face as he sent a wink your way. “I knew something like this would happen.”

“I'm not sure I know what you're talking about. I don't have a date. I—” You gulped, knowing that any effort to lie would just be lost on your High Lord. He knew you long enough to see right past the bullshit, and you'd given him access to your mind too many times to think that this instance would be any different. “Tarquin requested my company for the day after our meeting. Is that a crime?”

“No,” Rhysand's grin only seemed to widen at your confession, “of course it isn't a crime. I hope you both enjoy yourselves. Besides, it'll give me a chance to get back in dear Feyre's good graces. She's upset with me, if you didn't know.” Well, that explains the disappointment.

As if she'd been listening in, a loud crash was heard from the room Feyre was still hiding in, and you both quickly found yourselves heading to the meeting room.

“Feyre was right.”

Tarquin quickly took notice of the gold jewelry adorning your body, the many rings, the layered body chains, and guided you to one of his court's treasure troves. The tour had been meant for Feyre, but Rhysand had whisked her away before she could even politely deny the offer once their talk of armadas and sailing had concluded. With your plan to already be Tarquin's for the day, you easily stepped in her place. The fae seemed so proud of himself at discerning an interest of yours that you didn't have to heart to explain that you only stepped out of your room that day dripping in jewelry for his enjoyment rather than your own.

As you stood in the center of the room, full of valuables beyond your belief, facing Tarquin while you held a box containing a necklace of black diamonds, you could almost swear that you felt a light tug deep within your chest. It was subtle, and you almost ignored it if the male opposite you hadn't twitched as if he himself also felt it. Tarquin wasn't facing you, but he looked over his broad shoulder to where you stood and assessed what you were holding. If Tarquin didn't deem the faint feeling as something worth talking about, then you wouldn't mention it either.

“What was Feyre right about? We've spoken about a great deal of things,” the male spoke as if Feyre was the last thing on his mind while in your presence, especially as he made his way to you. The closer Tarquin got, the smaller the room felt around you. You suddenly felt crowded by all the jewels and treasures, with nowhere to escape as Tarquin's broad body loomed over you. His height and stature made you scoff, but your breath hitched as a warm chuckle escaped Tarquin's lips. “Have I rendered you speechless already?”

Exhaling a long breath, you met his gaze before you spoke, “she told you that it would be easy to fall in love with you.”

“And you agree?” His fingers teased the ends of your hair, pulling at the strands only slightly enough to earn a gasp from you.

You didn't know if you wanted to respond. It would be so easy to give in, almost effortless, but that just meant it would be near impossible to pull yourself back.

Tarquin took your silence in and brought your focus back to him as his thumb and forefinger captured your chin. He kept you there, searching your eyes for what you truly wanted. “Y/N, answer me. Do you agree?”

“Yes.”

Relief caused Tarquin's shoulders to sag, but he was still standing strong as he thought out his next move. Slowly slotting his lips against yours, Tarquin gave one final chance to back away, to stop yourself from regretting this— him. His lips were as warm as the heated air of his court, and you didn't mind getting burned by them as you deepened the kiss. You both continued your sensuous dance of lips and teeth, and it was clear who was leading and who was following.

Tarquin could kiss you however he wanted to if it meant he continued to hold you up by the strong hands that had sneaked around your waist after they abandoned their gentle hold at your face. You never wanted to drown in the sea, but there in that moment with him trailing kisses from the corner of your mouth down to the sweet spot between your neck and shoulder, you wanted to drown in the ocean of power that lurked beneath the heated skin of the Summer High Lord. Tarquin had bewitched you with his kisses, surrendered you with his gentle nips, and commanded you with his soothing licks across the marks he made on your exposed skin.

His presence surrounded you, blocking out any thoughts you had about the pricelessness of the objects that were scattered around you and filling your head only with thoughts of him. “Pick anything here, and it's yours.”

Tarquin had only pulled away from your skin for a moment, long enough to say his peace before he continued his exploration across your upper body. It was maddening, and it took tremendous strength to form together a proper response that wasn't just moans and gasps from your enjoyment.

“Are you trying to buy my affections with jewelry?” Your voice was breathy as you scanned whatever part of the room you could from where you stood with your arms clinging to Tarquin's back and your knees threatening to buckle beneath you. “I have no need for more jewelry, but you might win the affections of my female friends with what you have hoarded here.” Always working, always scheming, Rhysand would be proud.

“Just the females? What would Rhysand fall for?” As your High Lord's name fell from Tarquin's lips, you gently pushed him away. Your lips were bruised and your body was buzzing with remnant electricity from your shared heated moment, but Rhysand's name and the change in topics tampered your needy mood.

“If you give in to Feyre's fancies, he'll be sure to follow.” Even a small distance between you had your thoughts becoming your own again. You no longer ached to be one with Tarquin, but a tether deep within you longed for something similar as it continued to grow taught. “The Cursebreaker has sway over him, but I'm sure you were already aware.”

“Fine,” Tarquin huffed, coming down from the desirous high that was building between you and playing the part of a High Lord once again. “I'll let you humor me. What should I gift Rhys' emissary?”

“This,” You drop the necklace of black diamonds that you had picked up again after being dropped onto the floor in the heat of the moment into his grasp, and cross your arms over your chest. You looked at his chin rather than his eyes as you continued, “she'll love it, and it might be enough to have her lobby for an alliance with you.”

“You wouldn't lobby one for me? Even after the intimate moment we've just shared?” Once more, Tarquin's free hand found your chin and pulled your focus to his own eyes. “That doesn't seem like the rumors I've heard about the Night Court. I thought seduction was how you lot found the higher ground to get what you want?”

“I don't mix business with pleasure, Tarquin. If one is what you want, then you'll forfeit the other.” You couldn't help but think that this is what Rhysand wanted from your presence on the trip. A distraction for the untested High Lord of the Sumer Court so his plot could unfurl without a hitch. It was never as simple as your old friend giving into your desire to visit a new court, and you were a fool to believe that for even a second. “Tarquin—”

“Good.”

“Good?”

“I pick pleasure.” Tarquin would have begged if that would've been what you needed to desire him the way he desired you. He would've dropped to his knees, which was quite a feat for the strong High Lord he needed everyone to believe he was. “I want pleasure, if you want it as well.”

It killed you not to let Tarquin in on your thoughts about why this budding relationship played right into Rhysand's hands, but you couldn't be bothered to as Tarquin guided you into another kiss and pulled you to the ground right in the middle of the treasure trove.

“I do.”

Tarquin took his time undressing you, first following your body from head to toe with his eyes, and then using his hands to strip you bare at an agonizingly slow pace. With the careful touches and gentle glances he gave you as more fabric came off, it was hard not to let your sighs come across as impatient rather than blissful. You needed him, and it was getting harder to ignore the heat pooling deep in your belly or the way your lower body visibly reacted to Tarquin.

Where other lovers might have teased you for your eagerness to be pressed against the cool floor under the weight of another's body, Tarquin only smiled. He enjoyed watching you squirm for more, for him to stop wasting precious time and just fuck you already.

“Tar—” His name was lost on the tip of your tongue as a whine ripped from somewhere deep in your throat. The frustration you were feeling, and hoping to warn the High Lord about, was replaced by immediate pleasure when Tarquin pressed a hand between your thighs.

You struggled to buck your hips against his hand for more friction, but Tarquin was already pressing down on your lower stomach to keep you flushed with the ground. He was in control, and you couldn't even arch your back off the ground to slide your chest against his.

This was torture, you thought.

“I'm not going to rush this, my little pearl.” Nudging your legs apart, Tarquin settled himself lower on your body between your thighs. His hands remained where they were, one pressed against your belly and the other cupping your aching sex. The parts of his skin that you could see stretched over his muscle enticingly and you tried again to buck up against him.

“I'm the only one naked. It puts me at a disadvantage.” You spoke around another whine as Tarquin slowly dragged his tongue against the aching spot that you needed him the most. With his head dipped to hover just above your hips, you reached with your fingers just enough to thread them through the high lord's white hair. With the long tresses of his hair caught between your fingers, you pulled against his roots to get him to reach your stare.

Tarquin obeyed your summons, moaning deeply as his half-lidded eyes lazily met yours. His tongue was still resting against your body in a sinful way, but he paused his ministrations to give you the attention you had pointedly called for.

“Strip,” Your demand began as a whisper, the noise almost caught in your throat at the sight of him, but you persevered. “I want to see you like how you see me.”

“Say please, pearl.”

“Please.”

Even though you asked for it, even though it was what you wanted, you hated every moment that Tarquin was disconnected from your body as he leaned back into a kneeling position on the floor. With the room lit by warm faelight, Tarquin had a golden halo of light casted around his body's silhouette. The sight was godly, especially as he shrugged off his clothes and bared his naked body to you. Tarquin was beautiful, and you would've told it to him over and over if he didn't take your breath away by reaching one of his strong hands down his body to stroke himself several times before crawling back over you.

“Are we even now?” His voice was like a caress and you shivered beneath him. You still had no words, so you only nodded as your cheeks flamed beneath his gaze.

Rather than going back to your waiting sex, Tarquin settled for pressing his body flush with yours. His wicked mouth was curved in a smirk and he was no longer the same High Lord you met the other day. Gone was the look of unease that had tried to hide behind a mask of shaken confidence, replaced by utter cockiness.

“I can feel you practically dripping against me. Tell me what you want. Beg for it.”

With no unnecessary fabric separating your warm bodies, you intimately felt every inch of skin that pressed against you. Still though, it wasn't enough for you. You need friction, you needed movement.

And if Tarquin wasn't going to give it to you, then you would take it for yourself.

You weren't Azriel's spy for nothing, you had the necessary skillset that the job demanded from you. With a brief moment to rally your strength, you forced Tarquin to the ground as you followed his movements by rolling on top of him. The look of surprise that had his eyes widening and mouth slightly agape was quickly replaced by a look of failing restraint as your ass began grinding against his stiff erection beneath you.

“I'm not in the mood for games, either you fuck me or I'll go find someone that will.” It was an empty threat. You wouldn't go find someone else. If anything, you'd just retreat to your own temporary room and take care of the dull ache between your legs yourself, but Tarquin didn't need to know that.

“Oh, is that right? I better do something about that then.” Tarquin brought his ebony fingers to your pouting lips and coaxed you into taking two digits into the warmth of your mouth with teasing coos. “That's it…good pet.”

Once his fingers were sufficiently covered in your spit, he pulled them from your mouth and trailed them down your body until he got to your waiting entrance.

Tarquin worked one finger into you, making quick work of opening you up little by little before he added another. He needed you to be ready to take him, to handle that pleasurable stretch that would slingshot you to ecstasy. To silence the moans that were being dragged from your throat as he scissored his digits deep within you, you leaned down and lost yourself in a heated kiss with the High Lord. You'd barely even begun, and you were already beginning to come undone around his experienced fingers. “Tarquin, I'm ready…just hurry up already.”

A dark laugh struck you right in the core as he leaned back on his supporting arm to look you over as you sat above him, riding his hand, desperate for more.

“Just remember, pearl, you asked for this.” Tarquin guided you off of his fingers and lap just so he could reposition you on the floor. You felt the bite of the cool floor beneath your naked body as your lover laid you out on your elbows and knees.

Your knees were kept spread apart by his own positioned between you, and your upper body arched as you felt light kisses trail from your neck down to the lower dip of your back. The brief intimacy was the only gentleness you were allowed before Tarquin thrusted back into you, picking an unforgiving pace that had you reaching for anything to steady you on the ground but coming up empty.

A strong hand found purchase on your fleshy hip, digging into the soft, glistening skin as another pressed your back into a deeper arch that gave him a better angle to drive into you from behind. His deep groans and your gasping breaths were the only noises that filled the treasure trove, and the smell of your sins mixed together amongst the jewels and other riches.

The two of you created a symphony, an orchestra made from two people, an untested High Lord and a gullible spy. Every time Tarquin's body snapped against yours, a moan was drawn from your slack mouth, and every time you clenched around Tarquin's cock, a quiver passed over his tense body. It was a game of call and response, and every response increased in intensity and volume the closer you both got to finding a tandem release. The lewd echoing of skin against skin was drowned by the guttural noises being pulled from one another.

“Tarquin— I'm..ah fuck.. I'm so close.” You tried reaching beneath your body to reach the point between your thighs that ached almost painfully, but Tarquin beat you there. The hand that had stabilized his frantic movements as he was pounding away into you snaked around to your front where he knew he would be able to drive you over the edge almost immediately.

“Come with me. Say my name, let your dirty fucking mouth scream my name for everyone to hear.” Though he whispered his words quietly against your ear, his breath tickling the sensitive skin there, you heard every word. Tarquin's pacing seemed erratic now, no clear pattern being followed as he rutted against you.

You screamed out Tarquin's name as you splintered around his dick, his swift fingers relentlessly elongating the high that made you drunk on him. His release quickly followed your own, his hips slamming into you once more before stilling completely.

“Fuck, Y/N,” his voice was hoarse and he collapsed against your back to recover from the intensity of the orgasm you coaxed out of him.

Even as he stayed seated within you, his hilt flush against your rear, evidence of both of your releases trailed down your thighs and onto the floor beneath you. The two of you may have to take a few minutes to recover from that blinding high, but then you'd have to wear about cleaning the mess beneath you to erase any trace of your animalistic actions from the treasure trove.

And after that, you'd have to somehow face the members of both his inner court and your own, and deal with the consequences of your actions, whatever they may be.

#tarquin #tarquin x reader #tarquin/reader #tarquin x you #tarquin/you #acotar #acowar #acomaf #a court of thorns and roses

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Csm Chapter 151 not so early analysis

Late cause of bullshit.

This guy Miri is genuinely so fucking cooked if he grew up with internet his brain would be absolutely fried by twitter he's so fucking gullible I can not believe it this guy.

I'm more interesting in finding out what Whip thinks is going on. Because as far as we've been told and shown Miri is right about their goal here being to stop the death devil from doing whatever shes going to do. But Whip seems to think theres some true reason beyond that, that Miri doesn't get. It's possible their goal is just to bring back chainsaw man for no reason at all- like just to have him there.

Oh wow okay uhmmmmmmm geeeeez look ah wow ahem woo ahem okay maybe uhhh maybe I get barem fans okay just a little bit uhhhhh hmmm moving on

This whole scene was great because Barems moving like a fucking Zombie he totally could've entered his hybrid state here because he still has enough strength left to get up and walk over to Nayuta and fucking choke her out but he chose to stay in human form to prove a point. He's fucking scary as shit here. Barem does this little monolog about being a Makima fanboy but honestly I doubt he's right. Barem is SCARY here imagine being like 8 years old and this motherfucker gets up after being shot a dozen fucking times and he just starts walking towards you like a fucking zombie that is SCARY Nayuta is absolutely intimidated by this dude. Plus as far as I remember there hasn't really been an instance of devil powers sticking around after the devil dies they just seem to reset to 0 each time a devil dies.

The fact they've been keeping Fumiko alive this whole time really does just go to confirm my thoughts that she's going to end up playing an important role in this final saga/arc of part 2.

We finally enter the end game. I've said it in previous posts but we're fucking here now. We have maybe 1-2 arcs left in part 2 before we reach the end of it. I don't know for sure whats going to happen to Denji next chapter but I doubt it'll be good. The transformation is so low key it almost feels like its incomplete. Like the real chainsaw man has yet to appear. It possible due to the fear of chainsaw man around the world spiking due to the fire devil's contracts going off, Denji is about to go berserk as the black chainsaw man because aside from Nayuta he has nothing left. But there is one question I can answer.

He's laughing about the 3 week break see you guys in 2024

#chainsaw man #csm #denji hayakawa #barem bridge #nayuta #csm 151 #chainsaw man 151

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↬𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢 | 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙, 𝙹𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚣𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚢 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑

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"Okay. First I'll show you around campus cause we have like an hour before classes start."

Jimin is always so kind and considerate. He's beautiful inside-out. That's why I chose him to be the closest person to me besides my family. He's like the older brother I never had.

It's not like I haven't met other good people and friends or anything, it's just that nobody could make me trust them as much as I trust him. So I kinda drifted apart from everyone from throughout my school life. Almost everyone went to different universities and colleges as well so there wasn't any reason for me to keep in touch with my classmates in the first place.

Suddenly Jimin's previous words struck me.

"Wait, what?! A whole hour? Why are we here so early then? And you were insisting we'd be late as well like my mother did! Did you and her have this whole thing planned to wake me up an hour earlier so that I can see around? Cause she's the one who told me what time to set my alarm at! And I don't care if I'm gonna get lost! And I'm telling you if this was a plan I'm going to pluck your eyes out. And that would be too much of a hustle on my very first day!"

SMACK

He slaps me at the back of my head.

"Ow- What was that for?!" I pout and rub the back of my head even though the slap wasn't nearly hard enough. He always makes sure he's gentle with me.

"Idiot! Do you really think I'd plan something like that? I was awaken by my own mother as well so I didn't realize what time it was until it was too late. What kind of friend do you take me for huh? Plus if we didn't have time for me to show you around you'd be late anyway seeing as you'd surely gotten lost, dumbo."

"Well, you can't blame me. I know you already. You'd do anything to tease me and it's not like it'd be the first time you planned something behind my back-"

"Oh hush already. It's clear what has happened here. Our moms planned this behind both our backs. So kindly put a sock in it and let me show you around."

"Tsk, fine you tyrant. Oh, I'm so going to make a huge deal out of this. I could have slept one hour extra! You know what an extra hour of sleep can do to me?" I pout even more than before. I'm honestly pissed cause sleep is something sacred to me that I can't get easily.

"If it'll make you stop whining like a 5 y/o then I'll complain about it as well, so it doesn't happen again. So stop arguing with me about it please. Also, don't you always go on about how you're a legal adult now and stuff? So deal with it 'miss grown up'." Well, touché. That Park Jimin and his good comebacks. I choose not to talk back further and follow his lead with an exasperated gush of air leaving my lips. Tsk, I hate it when I can't argue back with him.

Jimin has my hand in his, walking down some aisles as he takes his time to explain where some important classes are, which according to his words I'd definitely be needing to pin point.

What seems like half an hour of walking about campus goes by surprisingly not painfully, the reason probably being the fact that Jimin is my tour guide. Now we have come to a halt outside of the cafeteria as he tries to fish something from his back pocket which I'm assuming is his phone.

"Uh, why did we stop here? I desperately need a heavy dose of caffeine Jiminie, come on!"

I try to pull him inside but he instead stops me in my tracks, pulling me back to my previous place all while he's successful at getting his cellphone out to reply to some texts.

"Shush beautiful, I've got you covered."

I blink in confusion and open my mouth to protest but he shushes me once more as he texts away using only his one hand seeing as he refuses to let go of mine.

"Okay, who made you the shush master?"

Rolling his eyes at me, Jimin simply awaits for my silence before tucking his phone back in his pocket and speaking up.

"Now if you've had enough, behave cause I want you to meet some very important people."

"Who?"

He drags me by the hand inside the cafeteria, not even making the effort to answer my question. This boy needs to stop dragging me around like I'm some kind of potato sack.

"Curiosity killed the cat." He says that with a mischievous smile. Should I be scared? Whenever Jimin has that particular smile plastered across his face, he's planning something fishy. But since it's not like I have a choice for now I'll just follow.

We seaze in our tracks once more as a group of boys head in our direction.

Well hope in humanity has been restored for me. I've never seen such good looking guys all in one place, totally out of my league too. My mind goes blank. I've been battling with Jimin's beauty for years before I became somewhat used to facing him without reducing years of beating from my poor heart, especially after he went through puberty and came out victorious. But now, face to face with such good looks gathered all in one place I'm starting to question what life is once again as I feel like my heart won't be functioning well if they choose to further linger around us.

Okay, I should calm my tits. I think I'm actually drooling right now.

"Guys! Hey!"

Wait. No. He did not just call out to them. Are these boys the important people I'm supposed to meet? If I knew that I'd have dressed better or maybe applied some make up so that my face wouldn't have have the colour of a corpse.

They see him and speed up their walking. Kill me now or I'll have a stroke I swear. Feels like I've never been in the presence of men before. Well you can't blame me, I certainly haven't been in the presence of godly looking creatures like them. I hastily attempt to fix my unruly curls and look somewhat presentable. Seriously if someone looks our way I'm definitely ruining the picture.

"Hey Jiminie."

Jiminie? I thought only I called him that. Oh wait.. Might they be those friends of his he'd never stop talking about from the day we first met? I beg the whole universe to be them. They look so much different than their childhood pictures Jimin has showed me before, their glow up is insane. Who knew that Jimin would have hidden these rare specimens from me?

"Hyung! Guys! How've you been? Haven't seen you in a while all of you."

I'm actually speechless. It is them. Now if my heart stops beating I'll at least go in bliss.

"Well we just met again at the front gate. We actually haven't seen each other in a long time as well. You know we all kinda came back from our individual vacations a few days ago like you, so we've only talked on the phone when we had our video call a few days ago."

"I see. Well now we can all catch up with each other, we'll be living together so we have all the time we want. Oh by the way, I have gathered the last of my stuff so I can move in today." He says and wraps his one arm casually over the shoulder of the older male.

"Finally!" The other boys all smiled as they exchanged hugs and hand shakes, greeting each other heartily. God-striking beauty is the least I can say about this group before me as I watch their interaction taking place right before my lucky eyes.

Meanwhile I'm just standing here looking at them in awe like some tourist admiring statues at a museum. I'm totally mesmerized by them. And together with Jimin they make a highly hazardous sight. How to have a heart attack 101: 'Look at Jimin's group of friends for more than 5 seconds'. Why am I even standing this close to them? I shouldn't be entitled to. Now all of my self confidence has left the building.

Being lost in my own world I stare into oblivion but I'm pulled back by Jimin suddenly shaking my arm.

"Y/N. Y/N! Are you even listening?" I feel another light tug on my shoulder and blink a few times.

I snap out of my thoughts and turn my head only to see seven beautiful pair of eyes staring at me. And I blush profoundly. Great.

"Ohh yeah. Sorry. I was just a little distracted I guess, haha." I akwardly laugh at myself before covering the dry sound by clearing my throat. Shoot me. Shoot me now. I must be looking like a complete dork.

"Right, well then let me introduce you to my bros. Guys this is my very best 'female' friend Y/N who you all know by now. She's a freshman as well. Y/N, I finally present to you Seokjin hyung, Yoongi hyung, Hoseok hyung, Namjoon hyung, Taehyung and Jungkook."

"Uh, nice to meet you all." I subtly raise my hand to wave in a form of a greeting which in all honesty would look painful from a third point of view. I also don't forget to stutter and say my line in a squeaky voice adding more points to my score of 'wanting to burry myself alive moments' of today. Has all my feminine charm nullified by these boys? What kind of sorcery is this? It's Jimin's power multiplied!

"Oh you're a freshman too, just like our Jungkookie. It's so nice to finally meet you. Jiminie has talked a lot about you!"

The one who's now speaking to me despite me having a man repellent in effect at the moment, whose name is Namjoon if I'm not mistaken, has the cutest pair dimples adorning his smiling cheeks, giving a boyish charm to his bulky exterior.

"Oh has he really? All good stuff I hope."

"Heh, of course all good don't you worry. It's so good to finally see you in the flesh. All we've ever seen are photos of you which, if I'm being honest, do you no justice." The one called Seokjin takes my hand and raises it to his lips, planting a soft kiss on the back of it. Did he just compliment me? The version of me before him? I'm dead.

He's seriously good looking. Like, really good looking like, model material good looking. A crimson blush must have adorned my whole face by now but I attempt to pull myself together, all the while I catch out of the corner of my eye Jimin glaring at Seokjin shortly after his action of nobility. Yet he chooses to purse his lips together in a tight line and not comment on it.

"Ahem, likewise! Though, I'm sorry but Jimin has only shown me pictures of you guys when you were little so I couldn't really recognize you from the get go. He's told me a whole lot, but never shown me a recent photo your faces, so I'm a little at a disadvantage here I guess."

"Really? What, were we like a surprise or something Jimin? Or were you ashamed of your friends you little brat? Hmm even if that's the case, no worries love. You'll have all the time in the world to get to know us very well." Does that sound a bit suggestive or what? Whatever, with a face like that he can imply anything he wants.

"I just didn't think it was necessary to show her your ugly faces hyung." Seokjin turns to Jimin and flicks his forehead to which Jimin responds with a loud 'ouch' and I snort in amusement along with the rest of the boys. They surely have interesting dynamics.

"Hehe, Jin hyung's right, we all want to get to know you as well. Jimin has always bragged about you so we were really curious to meet you face to face. Hey, by the way, do you want to see an elephant?"

"A what?" I blink in confusion, thinking it might be some kind of inside joke I'm not aware of or something. As if on queue the grinning boy raises his left sleeve and pinches the skin between two little moles on his arm creating an imaginary shape of an elephant's face.

"I- wha- pffft!" I'm at a complete loss for words at the bizarre yet adorable situation unfolding before me and I can't help but snort, quickly covering my mouth so as to not sound like I'm offending him. It's just that it's such a cutely dumb joke.

"God Tae stop being weird, the poor girl just met us." Though Yoongi -I think that's he's name- says that to probably help me out, I don't really mind Taehyung at all, his apparent weirdness is frankly endearing. But when he tries to complain the older boy slaps him at the back of his head seemingly gently. Huh, I like him too. He seems savage and blunt. He'll be my new spirit animal for sure.

"Sorry about him. He tends to be like that but he means no harm so you'll just have to get used to it. I'm really glad to meet you though. If anyone bothers you make sure to let me know ok? Everyone in this campus kinda fears me so just use my name and you'll most likely have people at your feet." He smirks in confidence and if I was a cartoon my eyes would have turned into stars.

His feline eyes are so sharp giving off the feeling that they could read your very soul with just one look. Another amazing quality. I'll tell him to teach me his ways at some point.

"Err, thank you Yoongi, that might be the best thing anyone has ever offered me so I'll definitely keep that in mind. Don't complain though if I have you cleaning up after me in the future, you can't take it back now. And it's a pleasure to meet you too." I smile cheekily at him trying my best to sound as cool as him.

"Hey. I'm Jungkook, it's so nice to meet you in person Y/N." Jungkook, who's at my age greets me a little shyly, the placement of his palm at the back of neck betraying him. What strikes me about this boy in not only his handsome face but also how sweet he sounds, projecting a gentle nature that resembles Jimin's. The latter has mentioned many times before that the youngest of their group possesses the kindest of hearts and just by looking in his big sparky eyes I can totally back that.

Nonetheless, as I now take a better look at him, his muscles are bigger than my future and his tattoos give him a bad boy exterior which I can't lie, suits him as well. Yet his eyes are almost baby-like, a duality that can be dangerous for the faint hearted, including myself.

Sigh, I'm already going nuts due to these boys. Shit, I need to regain some of my ground.

"Hello Jungkook! Jimin had told me so much about you and since we're in the same year, let's hang out and look out for each other." I offer him my hand politely and he shakes it as a smile forms on his lips making his cute bunny teeth show. Goodness he's gorgeous.

"Oh, s-sure! Of course we should! I'm a man after all, so you can count on me." He flexes his muscles a bit and I think I'm actually drooling. Hmm, maybe that's his own kind of mating call. Should I reciprocate it maybe..? Okay stop Y/N! What is actually wrong with me? Am I this thirsty?

"Uh-huh, yeah sure Kook. You're a man, pfft. More like an oversized Easter bunny." Jimin snorts and rolls his eyes.

They all laugh, teasing the younger boy and I can't hold my chuckles in either. They sure look like they share an amazing bond. It's admirable and I do hope I can bond with them too after I successfully plant the seeds of friendship between us.

"Hey hey, stop laughing, I'm being serious! Y/N don't listen to them, okay? I'm a man of my word."

"Ok ok Jungkook, I believe you. Even if you do look like an oversized, albeit hot, Easter bunny you're still way bigger than me so I'll be counting on you. But you know you can count on me as well, it should work both ways since we'll be friends." I pat his shoulder, already feeling closer to him. His eyes turn even bigger for a second before he clears his throat and peers at me for a moment.

"Oh uh, ahem, here! Jimin hyung told me to get you this." A little blush creeps up on his smooth skin as he hands me a large cup of Starbucks coffee and I swear I can see a halo forming over his head, courtesy of Jimin of course.

"Oh my, thank you so much, you're a star Jungkook!" I receive the coffee from him and take a sip, happier now that I find it's black, exactly how I prefer it. I pat Jungkook's head in gratitude before turning to my best friend not being able to see the maknae's reaction.

"And of course thank you too Jiminie, you're my life saver!" I reach up to place a little peck on his cheek to which he smiles brightly and rubs my back in circles.

"You're welcome beautiful. You didn't think I'd leave you like that, did you?" To answer his question I turn my head sideways quickly making him chuckle at my vigorous denial.

"Ahem. Well Y/N, as you can probably tell Jimin hyung has already assigned me as your personal bodyguard. He wouldn't stop calling me all summer to remind me again and again that I'll have to chase away every possible threat towards you. I swear, he was acting like an overprotective mother." The robust boy smiles slyly, taking his revenge as Jimin told him off. Hehe, he seems like such a tease. I already love him.

"Oh I can totally back that up! Jiminie wouldn't stop pestering poor Kook and had him memorize a list of duties and a strict protocol he has to follow around you." Hoseok shakes his as he pats the maknae's shoulders morally supporting him making the rest agree.

"Hey! Y'all making me sound like I put Kook through a military training camp. Y/N, pay their words no heed, they're actually tripping. I've only mentioned it like, once or twice."

Before I could answer and voice out my doubts, cause I know how Jimin can be, Taehyung beats me to it.

"Right.. Sure, keep telling yourself that if it makes you feel better Jiminie." Then out of nowhere they both start bickering back and forth making me speechless as to how quickly they broke out an argument and thank goodness Namjoon immediately swoops in to tell them off for being immature.

"Ahem, well either way I've already accepted the role so no worries Y/N. I've endured extensive training for this!"

I can only giggle at Jungkook pumping up his chest and deepening his voice to look more manly which only makes him look cuter. Sure he's muscular but his adorable face makes it hard for me to not coo at him.

Overall, they are such a funny and sweet group, their interactions and divergence of characters creating a unique overture of interactions between them. At least that's what I'm sensing from this first impression of them which makes me look forward to getting to know them even more in depth.

After a while of talking and making fun of each other, Jimin interrupts our little get-to-know-each-other session.

"Hey guys, I hate to interrupt this beautiful family meeting but it's almost time for class. We have to get going now. Junkookie I'm leaving Y/N in your care so don't disappoint me." Jimin makes the 'I'll be watching you' gesture, while Jungkook rolls his eyes and to me. Before walking away he offers one last reassuring smile and squeeze of my hand. He doesn't fail to whisper 'you'll do great' in my ear before heading towards the opposite direction with Hoseok and Taehyung who also bit the rest of us goodbye for now. Frankly, now that I met them all, my nervousness levels are reduced to almost zero.

"You can count on me hyung!" Jungkook yells at Jimin while saluting him in a military way making everyone laugh.

"So, err, hey Y/N, what are you majoring in?" He asks while peering at me with those doe eyes of his.

"Music and performance. You?"

"Sweet, we are in the same majors! That means we'll have the same classes. Ah, I'm so glad we're classmates. That way I won't have to go through the pain of talking to others."

"Are you inside my mind or something? I just thought about the very same thing! I too am so glad we share the same mood. We shall head to class while proudly ignoring everyone else!" I snort and lift my head up decisively.

"Aye aye captain, lead the way! Guys we'll meet later." He goes along with my joke before waving at the rest.

"Sure. Have a great time little ones." Seokjin, the eldest, waves back and I catch him winking at me. Sigh. He's so handsome I wanna pluck my eyes out so my lonely ass won't look at him and cry internally cause he must surely have a girlfriend. More likely I'd be surprised unless all of them did. Well all except Jimin. I'm still baffled as to why he's been single for like two years now.

Ahh.. The first day of uni life has yet to begin, but I've already gone through a whiplash.

I shake the intrusive thoughts off and quickly wave to the three remaining boys before we head to our respective classes. I think I Namjoon with Yoongi leave together, Seokjin goes on by himself and of course myself along with Jungkook start making our way down one of the aisles Jimin walked me through previously, never ceasing our very indulging conversations.

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OK OK OK SO MY BRAIN HAS BEEN GOING INSANE ABOUT AMICUS CURIAE SO I NEED TO RAMBLE ABOUT IT!!!!

Spoilers for the fic under the cut (duh), link to read it is here, goooo do that!!!

OK SO. The main conflict am i right

Right now we are in a fluff sweet spot where most of the teams are on friendly terms and the main 6 aren't in conflict. However considering what the author has posted to their TD blog recently, it's definitly not staying that way.

Hell even in the current chapters it's probably not staying that way, considering Courtney's 100% caught on that there's something going on between Noah and Alejandro, and in return Alejandro's detected Courtney's crush for Emma.

So yeah! Im predicting that's gonna be the cause of the big rift that happends between the best friends; both of their feelings are going to get in the way of the win eventually in a big way. Maybe Courtney will get distracted by Emma or Alejandro's going to try to keep the Pros in the game in a way that handicaps the Best Friends for the challenge, and it'll blow up in their face, and past events are gonna be brought up and they're gonna get HURT.

I think Courtney's main reasons for being annoyed at Alejandro and Noah's friendship (outside of Courtney would like to win thanks) is her wanting Alejandro to not get hurt; Noah's already betrayed him (from his perspective), she wouldn't want him getting stabbed in the back again. I dout he'd do that, but Courtney doesn't know that!

Also whenever she'll figure out it's romantic, she's certaintly going to discourage Alejandro to go for it during the show. Dating on Reality TV is not a good idea, they both have negative experiences with it, Courtney especially. Neither would want to go through that again, so conflict arising from it makes sense.

Also also, Courtney might be afraid of losing Alejandro,,, she's lost friends due to relationship drama in the past, hell she's still struggling with the after-effects of her trust being broken so many times. So seeing Alejandro be genuine with someone else? Yeah she's not gonna react well. Im basing this off the line "Alejandro's supposed to only be genuine with her" Because it says ALOT. To me.

This is 100% aromantic projection hour but Societytm constantly pushes romantic relationships as more important than platonic ones, an impression reinforced in media and especially tabloids - Courtney and Alejandro have already been mistaken for a couple in this fic by one of the main characters due to their closeness - so i wouldn't be shocked if either had internalised this and fears losing their one actual friend because they're crushing on someone else.

I don't think Alejandro's expressed much derision for Courtney's crush on Emma yet? So im not sure the conflict on his end would come from that. I think his main issue is trying to push himself too much out of a sense of obligation to be performing at his best all the time (especially now at the final 8 teams and non elimination rounds being pretty random so far) + his guilt over previous performances in challenges. It's 100% going to bite him or Courtney (because i dout she doesn't have similar over working tendencies) in the ass in a MAJOR way in an upcoming challenge. That and their respective competitiveness is probably gonna hurt them in a major way.

FINAL NOTE: I have no fucking clue how this can happen if the final POV's not Courtney but it would be so fucking cool if the closing lines of Amicus Curiae were a parallel to the "This is a terrible idea" that Courtney kept repeating in chapter 1, you know bring it full circle and stuff.

God this post is long

#cheese posting #amicus curiae #oh god i accidentally published this because my phone was being stupid #string cheesing #alenoah #courtnemma #courtemma #td alejandro #td courtney

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The Curse of Oenone (Leo Valdez xFem!Oc)

A/N: I'll take a break to focus on the actual book I'm writing, but don't worry, I promise the final book will be the best one of all. See you in August! -Danny Words: 2,203 Series' Masterlist Previous Chapter // Next Book Listen to: 'I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For' -by U2

LXIII: Which Boss Do I Have to Fight to Get Some Validation Around Here?

She knows all the people in this room, but the way she thinks about them, and how they interact with her now that she's physically different, is kind of off.

"We talked to Apollo," Ara starts explaining. "He said Gaia reawakened the Python, keeping the Oracle of Delphi prisoner—that's why Rachel can't see anything now."

Ella the harpy, Tyson, and Rachel will leave with the Romans, they'll try to rewrite the Sibylline books, which is why Ara called for a meeting.

"But Gaia is permanently asleep now," Will reasons. "That means Dad can kill the Python now!"

Ara grimaces. "But your father angered Zeus. We might not see him a while, or worse—"

"Wait, if we stop getting prophecies, that's completely alright," Nyssa replies. She's the counselor for Cabin Nine because Jake refused to step back in. "We lost two great inventors already, and it's not like Hephaestus goes out of his way to have tons of kids, our numbers are thinning—"

"I'm perfectly aware of it, Nyssa, thank you." Ara silences the girl. "But we should be worried about Apollo."

"Why? No more prophecies means peace!" Percy argues.

Ara gives him a look. "No more prophecies means we'll face our future problems blindly, and trust me, there will be problems. We've been stripped of our advantage, and that's not all that worries me."

"What is?" Piper asks reluctantly.

"Zeus will punish Apollo for his delulus of greatness, and he has a special way of humiliating Apollo... I'm pretty sure he'll use it again."

Will's face loses color. "That's terrible news! We could be left powerless! Our whole cabin!"

"I'm aware of that too," Ara sighs. "If this doesn't end well, you might lose them forever..."

"Hold on, time out," Percy intervenes. "I'm lost."

Annabeth explains. "Zeus once punished Apollo by stripping him of his godly status. He turned into a mortal, and was forced to do a series of trials until Zeus considered he'd humbled him enough."

Jason looks concerned. "What could've happened if he'd failed those trials?"

"He would've died, most likely," Ara says. "None of his descendants would've kept their powers, maybe. Some traits at best, whatever they could've learned in training, but stuff like—"

"Magic healing, music powers, perfect aim, the light..." Will shudders. "All gone."

"Your job is important," Ara turns to Rachel and Ella. "The books have information concerning what's next, maybe it'll tell us if we need to prepare in case Apollo's absence causes another conflict in Olympus. We mustn't get too comfortable in our peace."

She scans the room and sees the campers' good mood dying before her eyes. Ara's expression turns guilty, but she keeps going.

"Keep your eyes open. Apollo might reach out to any of us, he could show up at camp and have no memory of who he is—Gods, he might not even look like himself at all! But balance is needed whether we like it or not, if you find him, bring him to me."

No one is happy with her lecture, but Ara ends the meeting and sends the group of Romans away. Nico approaches her and nudges her arm. "You didn't need us after all. You kept them under control the whole time."

She smiles a little. "I thought they would fight me more on it."

"You're too scary now, but don't worry," Jason grins. "You'll get used to being almighty."

Almighty raises her myth.

What if that line was about her as much as it was about the sword? She's powerful nowadays, but hardly a myth. She would need to become history for that, and her death doesn't feel any closer.

"Ara?"

"Hmm?" She gives a start.

"I said, can you do me a favor now?" Nico asks, his eyes fixed on the Big House's entrance. "Stay near."

Ara is intrigued, she follows him out and sees what he'd been staring at from inside. "Hey, guys," Percy smiles at them. "Annabeth just told me some good news!"

"We're going to spend our senior year together," Annabeth beams, "here in New York. And after graduation—"

"College in New Rome!" Percy punches the air. "Four years with no monsters to fight, no battles, no stupid prophecies. Just me and Annabeth, getting our degrees, hanging out at cafés, enjoying California—"

"And after that..." Annabeth smiles sweetly at the boy. "Well, Reyna and Frank said we could live in New Rome as long as we like."

"That's great," Nico says, sounding genuine. "I'm staying too, here at Camp Half-Blood."

"What?" Ara looks at him with shock.

"Awesome!" Percy exclaims.

"So," Nico clears his throat, "since we're going to be spending at least a year seeing each other at camp, I think I should clear the air."

Percy hesitates. "What do you mean?"

"For a long time, I had a crush on you." Nico shrugs. "I just wanted you to know."

Percy looks at the boy blankly. "You—"

"Yeah. You're a great person. But I'm over that," he smiles a bit. "I'm happy for you guys."

"You... so you mean—"

"Right."

"Wait," Percy frowns. "So you mean—"

"Right. But it's cool. We're cool. I mean, I see now... you're cute, but you're not my type."

Ara snorts, not believing her ears.

"I'm not your type..." Percy blinks. "Wait. So—"

"This is gonna take a while," Ara guides Nico away with amusement.

The boy snickers. "See you around, Percy. Annabeth."

If that isn't surreal enough, Annabeth and Nico high-five, and then the boy openly smiles at Ara and pats her shoulder. Even if it's a closed smile, it's enough to bewild her. Nico makes his way down the porch steps and shouts at someone to wait for him. Will Solace, out of all people. Almost immediately, both boys glow in the same bright yellow light.

"Holy shit," Ara breathes.

"Huh," Lily says, coming out of nowhere. "Yeah, I can see it."

Ara jumps. "Gods, Lily, stop doing that!" She lowers her voice with confusion. "Did you see that, though?"

"What?" Annabeth grins at the girls. "Don't tell me you couldn't tell! I'm sure you were the first to find out!"

Ara looks at her smiling. "Yeah, what an idiot, right? But no, I meant..." She hesitates, it's still not her place to tell others what she just saw. "Nevermind. You know where Reyna is?"

"Talking to Piper by the lake," Lily responds. "Need me to come along?"

"Nah, it's fine, I gotta feed Pollo anyway," Ara shows her a lighthearted smile before walking away. "Go waste time with your elf."

"Don't call him that!"

"Don't forget Mom picks us up in an hour!" Percy shouts, coming out of his dazzled state.

"There you are!" Ara finds Reyna and Piper. "Ready to go?"

"Yes. Again, thank you for letting us stretch our stay."

"You're always welcome here," Piper says. "If you need to take a break, get away... you've got Frank now—he could assume more responsibility for a while. It might do you good to make some time for yourself, when nobody is going to be looking at you as praetor."

"Would I be expected to sing that odd song about how Grandma puts on her armor?"

"Not unless you really want to," Piper grins. "But we might have to ban you from capture the flag. I have a feeling you could go against the entire camp solo and still beat us."

"I'll consider the offer. Thank you." Reyna pauses. "I wonder... You two are children of Venus. I mean Aphrodite. Perhaps—perhaps you could explain something your mother said."

Piper and Ara share a look, and the younger girl crosses her arms. "Go ahead."

"Once in Charleston, Venus told me something. She said: You will not find love where you wish or where you hope. No demigod shall heal your heart. I—I have struggled with that for..."

The answer comes easily to Ara. "Don't have to be scared. Love is a vast concept and its fulfillment comes in many forms, rarely is it ever another human. Before Leo, love would come to me by helping people and not dating. It really is in the most random places."

"You are an incredible person," Piper adds. "And you have friends, sometimes that's even better than a partner."

"I can attest to that," Ara nods, then adds playfully. "But if you ever feel like giving dating a try, I'm available until my boyfriend comes back from the dead."

Reyna stares at her. "I can't tell if you're being serious."

"This is a special offer with a deadline," Ara retorts half-joking. "I find you frustratingly attractive."

Reyna laughs and Ara feels like she just accomplished a great deed. She perks up at the sound but then something hits her across the face. The girl groans and looks around in confusion. "What the..."

Ara looks down and it takes her a moment to understand what she's seeing. She picks up the item and Piper gasps. "Is that—?"

"Oh my gods," Ara's hands are shaking. "Oh, gods! What do I do?"

"What is that?" Reyna asks.

"That's Leo's!" Piper says. "It fell from the sky!"

Ara feels like maybe she should sit down before she opens it, but her impatience gets the best of her and she opens the scroll with trembling, clumsy fingers.

"Hey, guys!" Leo's tiny projection comes out of the scroll. Ara makes a bizarre noise with her throat and holds tighter onto it, unable to look away. Reyna and Piper get closer."Sorry to leave you like that. Bad news: I died. Good news: I got better! I had to help my bud Cal. We're taking Festus to—"

The image glitches and Ara shakes the scroll impatiently.

"Back as soon as—"

More glitching and static.

"Cook tacos when—"

More static.

"¡Vaya con queso! Love ya!"

The scroll turns off and Ara gets angry. "That's it?!"

"Leo's alive!" Piper hugs her. "It worked!"

"Smart," Reyna hums approvingly. "Seems like our date will never come to be, Strategus."

Ara twists the scroll in her hands. "An entire freaking week where we both almost died and all he has to say is Vaya con queso?" She's fuming. "Well, good for his bud Cal! I hope they bring me a shirt from whatever stupid countries they visit on their super fun holiday away from everyone else!"

Piper steps back. "I should get Lily."

"I should leave," Reyna says promptly.

The girls hurry away while also spreading the news about Leo. Soon enough, Ara is surrounded by an eager crowd that wants to hear the message. Ara plays it back, glaring at the projection.

Lily sees her expression and nudges Nico, both taking her away from the congratulating crowd that calls her boyfriend cool and intelligent before she can kill them.

Steam is practically coming out of Ara's ears. She's forgotten all about her duties, her hurt ego stops her from thinking clearly while she paces around her room.

"Look at the bright side, Queen B, he'll be back soon and you won't mope for months like with Percy!"

"Hey! It wasn't my fault!"

"No one's saying that," Annabeth replies, pinching the bridge of her nose.

Ara keeps throwing her tantrum. "This is the same boy that used to send me weekly scrolls to my apartment to tell me I looked pretty in a dream he had—and now I get nothing!"

"For all we know that 'Love ya!' in the end might've been just for you," Nico pokes fun at her.

"I'm gonna strangle you," Ara warns him.

"Dude, why are you angry? He broke the curse!" Lily insists. She had to catch up quickly with Annabeth's help to understand the full context of what was happening.

"I'm happy but I'm angry that he kicked me out of the ship like I was getting on the way, and now he's taking his sweet time to talk to me!" Ara glares at the pinboard in front of her, packed with pictures of the boy. "Ugh, look at this! Oh, you should've seen the way I cried for him—Ugh, I hate him!"

The group shares a roguish look. They know Ara can't handle big emotions, especially when it comes to Leo, so right now she's fighting to regulate herself. But if Leo doesn't get there fast, Ara's high will suffocate her until it knocks her down and leaves her unable to get out of bed.

"Birdy," Percy approaches and places a hand on her shoulder. "Leo's probably saving his romantic speech for when he sees you in person. He knows you love it when he makes a show out of it."

"The scroll was a perfect opportunity to show off," Ara argues with a pout, but she's calming down.

"Yeah, but he had no way of knowing you would be the one to get it and have it slap you across the face," Nico replies. "Besides, you know he worships the ground you walk on—What's the big deal?"

Ara takes a deep breath, gathering her thoughts. "The big deal is that the curse is broken," Her fingers skim the picture of him in the bunker's platform, smiling big while showing a thumbs up to the camera. "And he's traveling with a goddess whose sole purpose is to tempt men so they stay with her..."

"Hey, Calypso isn't like that," Percy tries to defend the girl's honor, but Annabeth pulls him back and shakes her head, now is not the time to try and reason with a frightened Ara.

"You're saying you don't trust Leo?" Lily questions with disbelief.

"I'm saying I have no way to contact him, and if something happens mid-journey, or Apollo shows up and I'm not here..." Ara scowls at the drawing of the Argo II in the middle of her pinboard. "Without the oracles here to guide us, anything can happen."

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You’re so real for being open about preferring death to pregnancy… I feel so deranged for thinking that way sometimes because even hearing someone say the word “pregnant” or seeing someone in that state makes me want to remove my skin with a potato peeler… On one hand, I wish I didn’t have this fear (at least, not to this severity) because it causes me near-constant irrational stress, but I also feel like it protects me from harm. Thanks for being a voice for people like us.

honestly i know there are sooo many more people like us out there. just know you aren't crazy or insane or anything for feeling this way. i have been begging my doctors to let me get my tubes tied or get a bisalp since i've been 13 and it'll be almost 10 years of asking them and only this year at 23 did i find someone who would do it with no questions asked, i'm just waiting to save up money for the part my insurance won't cover. if abortion was illegal i think i would rather kill myself than have anyone touch me ever again and abortion being up in the air is the entire reason why i don't have sex. pregnancy and childbirth and raising a child is literally more terrifying to me than death and like. tornadoes. and i was stuck outside in a tornado and have gone through near death experiences bcos of previous suicide attempts. having experienced both of those things, which are the other 2 in my top 3 biggest fears, pregnancy/childbirth still wins by a mile. i hope u can find someone who will help u get sterilization if that's the route u choose, and i hope that i make u feel seen and understood and that your anxiety doesn't always plague u 🫶🏻 i'm on birth control that i take religiously at the exact same time every morning on the dot and it is continuous with no placebo pills for as long as i can possibly take it for the rest of my life until i get my surgery, and i dont have sex, and im STILL terrified that somehow it will happen and i won't notice it until it's too late and then my life is over

#>#askbox

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[BSTS] Christmas 2023 ‘Hark the Herald’ Event Story - Part 1

Prologue

-alleyway-

ran: Wassup, Sotetsu.

sotetsu: It's not often that you call me out, what do you want?

ran: Isn't it obvious when we're meetin' in a place like this? I'd like ya to introduce me to a little friend of yours. One that’ll tell ya anythin’ as long as ya pay up.

sotetsu: You want me to find you a hookup?

ran: No! Naughty ain't ya. Who I want ya to introduce me to is one of ya work partners. Someone who knows their stuff and is nearby would be good.

sotetsu: ...Ohh, I get it now. You want me to introduce you to someone that knows the details behind that bombing incident that happened recently, right?

ran: So ya knew after all. Yep, that's what I'm after. If ya cooperate with me I'll pay up the fee myself too.

sotetsu: Don't talk like we don't know each other. We're coworkers aren't we? I wouldn't want to take money from you.

ran: Ew gross, what are ya scheming?

sotetsu: I can introduce you, sure, but in return what I want is... For you to introduce me to the person that's backing you.

ran: What?

ran: ....... (serious)

sotetsu: Hey now that reaction wasn't very like you. Come to think of it, is the reason you're out here searching for the culprit yourself because you made a mistake?

ran: ...I was just waitin’ for the right moment to delve into it.

sotetsu: No need to glare at me like that cause I hit the nail on the head. I can tell you're getting anxious about it. A fair amount of time has passed since that incident, so the fact you're still interested in it now and even asking me for help says something. At a stalemate are you?

ran: Tch…

sotetsu: So, what'll it be? An introduction for an introduction, its a pretty even deal is it not?

ran: ....... (serious)

sotetsu: Not accepting or withdrawing huh? In that case, how about we do this. The upcoming Christmas show is planned to be a Team K solo show, so let's make it a versus against Team B instead. If you win then I'll introduce you to my guy at a discount price. But if K win, then you'll accept my previous condition.

ran: Since it's meant to be a K solo doesn't that give ya an advantage?

sotetsu: It can't be helped that a small advantage like that is in play.

ran: Stingy~ Fine whatever, it makes things simpler. I'll bite.

sotetsu: I'll come up with a good excuse for the versus to happen. Make sure you play along with me.

-sotetsu leaves, street, night-

sotetsu: Looks like things are gonna get interesting.

—end

Chapter 1

-starless office-

saki: Excuse me.

unei: There's no time left, we need to decide the event program that will be held alongside the Christmas performance today!

ginsei: I know... But no ideas are coming to mind. We need to make sure it's something even better than last years...

sotetsu: Why not just crack open some party poppers?

ran: Bleh that's so lazy.

ginsei: Don't interrupt us, Ran. Hmm...

ran: Oh, Nee-chan's here! Welcome!

ginsei: Oh, welcome, Princess. Sorry I didn't notice you come in.

saki: It's fine, don't mind me. You all look like you're in the middle of something.

-kongou walks in-

kongou: Could I have a moment? I just wanted to confirm our stock for the Christmas period... Wait, huh? Where's Kei?

unei: He had something important that he needed to attend to today so he's absent. I'll look at it for you.

sotetsu: .......

kongou: Thanks, I wanted to make sure we stock up on some extra cake ingredients...

sotetsu: ...Say, why don't we make the Christmas event plan something to do with food?

ginsei: Like?

sotetsu: How about a pie fight? It'll be a blast. You're going to be ordering a mountain's worth of cream either way right? It's the perfect opportunity.

ginsei: You're joking right?

kongou: Wait a moment, an event like that... Food should not be treated in such a way.

sotetsu: In other parts of the world they hold things like tomato throwing festivals and cheese rolling festivals. There's even champagne fights, why not bring that sorta energy to the store?

kongou: Bring it here? No way... I refuse to make a pie for the purpose of throwing it at people.

sotetsu: So you're saying you won't cooperate with this store's event?

kongou: I cook food for the guests to enjoy, not to just mess around with.

sotetsu: I see, if you're not going to budge then I have no choice... If that's how it's gonna be, let's make it a versus.

kongou: What?

ran: ....!

sotetsu: The Christmas show will be a versus between Kongou and I. If I win then after the closing show we'll have a pie fight.

ginsei: Hey, Sotetsu! Don't go deciding everything yourself!

sotetsu: Weren't you just stressing over the fact we have no special program? Why not liven the show up with a versus. Oh right, Team B have been all over the place lately, haven't they? Maybe you're too busy sorting out your internal affairs.

ran: What was that? Don't act like ya have anythin' to do with us, back off.

sotetsu: You interfered with our planning first with your own comment earlier.

ran: Bastard... Ya think I can just stay quiet after ya provoke me like that? Bring it on. Kongou, let's accept this fight.

kongou: Ran! Don't just decide that before we've discussed it with our team...

unei: Um, so... The upcoming show will be a versus between Team K and Team B then!?

sotetsu: Yep, that’s how it is. We better get the promotional material ready quickly to make it in time.

unei: I just placed an order for the flyers earlier too! I'll have to make a correction right away!

-unei runs off-

kongou: How did things turn out this way...?

ginsei: What should I do...

ran: Sotetsu, ya bastard.

sotetsu: If you have a problem then tell it to me on the stage.

saki: (Things have gotten out of hand...)

—end

Chapter 2

-break room-

kei: Rejected.

ginsei: I thought so.

kei: There is no point even considering an event such as that.

kongou: Agreed, thank goodness.

saki: (Well that was expected...)

unei: U-um about that... Sorry but I've already had the flyers changed. The versus has been announced on our website too, all of the guests already know about it...

kei: ...... (annoyed sigh)

unei: I-I'm sorry! If I didn't place the order right away they wouldn't have gotten here in time, so...!

kei: ...It cannot be helped now. It's sudden, but we shall proceed with the versus performance.

kongou: If you say so then... ok. I'll let Mizuki and the others know.

saki: (So the versus really is going ahead...)

kei: After the closing show, the winning team will present their choice of special menu to the guests. If Team K win, we will have a champagne tower. In the case that Team B win, you must also decide on what you'd like. You got that, Kongou?

kongou: Yeah. I'll talk to my team about it and let you know. I'll be going now then.

-kongou leaves-

kei: We shall also be holding a team meeting henceforth. Gather everyone.

ginsei: Y-yes!

-ginsei leaves-

unei: I'll get back to work as well!

-unei leaves-

kei: (sighs)

saki: Um, I'm sorry Kei-san... I was there during the versus discussion but wasn't able to stop them...

kei: There is nothing in which you need to apologise for. Rather, it is I who must apologise for the fact you had to see such an unsightly mess.

saki: Oh no, it's ok...

kei: Things have taken an unexpected turn, but we shall make the best of it. I vow to you that you'll enjoy this year's Christmas Eve from the bottom of your heart. Please look forward to it.

—end

SideA Chapter 1

-rehearsal room-

kei: —Due to these aforementioned circumstances, our performance has been hastily changed to be a versus against Team B.

yakou: I had heard it would be a versus, but that was the last reason I was expecting…

yoshino: No matter how you look at it that was mean of you, Sotetsu.

sotetsu: It's not like I expected things to go this far either though? I didn't know the conversation would end up going that way.

yoshino: You're the one who egged him on though. It's not good to do that.

sotetsu: I only got involved because Ginsei was standing around struggling to come up with any good ideas.

ginsei: I'm sorry... This is all my fault...

gui: It's Ginsei's fault that we're fighting against B?

yoshino: No it's Sotetsu's fault, Gui.

yakou: There's no way we can throw pies around... That's not something you do in front of guests. I agree with Kongou, maybe I should go to their side.

sotetsu: You're all really having a go at me huh. Shouldn't we all be working together as one and aiming for victory? C'mon we're all friends aren't we?

yoshino: (sighs)

kei: Setting aside your sarcastic remarks, the fact this is now a versus obviously means that we shall take victory.

ginsei: Yes. It was originally meant to be our solo performance after all, there's no way we'll lose. I'm relieved that thanks to Kei stepping in we don't have to worry about the pie fight anymore at least.

yakou: If we win we'll be having a champagne tower right?

ginsei: I wouldn't expect any less from Kei, its flashy and fitting of Team K.

yakou: Mm...

yoshino: Is something the matter, Yakou?

yakou: Champagne is pricey so, I'm worried about the budget... Plus there are guests who dislike alcohol, so how will we cater to them?

gui: There are drinks that look similar to champagne and have no alcohol in them.

yoshino: Oh true, if we use that then anyone can drink it. It's a good idea.

yakou: That could work. I'll discuss it with Unei-kun later. Thanks, Gui.

kei: It's time, rehearsal starts now. Work hard to each improve your abilities upon the stage.

—end

SideB Chapter 1

-rehearsal room-

hinata: What, you're having a versus performance!? Are you for real! And to think Kongou was the one who started it. Hey did you get into a fight or something?

kongou: Ngh....

lico: Shut up already. As if Kongou would do that. Sigh... Why'd it suddenly become a versus, I had things planned y'know.

kongou: I'm sorry for doing something selfish, Lico. You too, Mizuki, I should have spoken to you first.

mizuki: I don’t care about that. Your fight is our fight.

lico: I heard Ran was present too though.

heath: Ran was?

lico: You fanned the flames, didn't you?

ran: What? Kongou and our team were bein’ made fun of right in front of my face. I couldn't just sit back n’ let us be looked down on, sorry—!

lico: Sigh... Well whatever, it's already been decided.

heath: ......

mizuki: Yeah, course we'd accept that fight! Let's fuck em up, you good to go, Heath?

heath: Yeah... I have an idea for the song. It means we get to perform more too, let's do it.

hinata: Aw, I'm so jelly. Hey hey, versus’ have a winner and a loser right? What do you get if we win?

kongou: After the closing show the winning team will treat the guests to their choice of special menu. If K win they said they'll be doing a champagne tower.

hinata: Champagne tower?? Hahah what the hell that's so funny!

mizuki: What even is that?

-hinata looks up a pic on his phone and shows mizuki-

hinata: It looks like this, you stack a bunch of glasses up and pour champagne over them. They do them at host clubs to celebrate and stuff.

mizuki: Huh.

ran: You've probably seen em before right Lico? I doubt ya were ever asked to do one though!

lico: Excuse me? Of course I've done them before.

kongou: If we win we should do something that's just as flashy...

mizuki: Drinks are boring! We should have meat, a massive hunk of meat!

ran: Meat sounds good! I'm on team meat!

kongou: Got it, then our special menu will be a showy meat dish.

—end

SideA Chapter 1 extra

-behind starless, evening-

sotetsu: ...... (smoking)

-kei walks up-

kei: Sotetsu.

sotetsu: Hm? Oh, rare to see you out here. What do you want?

kei: Regarding this versus, what exactly is your aim?

sotetsu: Woah where's this coming from? What do you mean?

kei: Whilst it's true that you enjoy to jest, it’s also a fact you value that which brings you benefit. The reasoning that led to this versus was sloppy, but I don't believe it was merely done on a whim. To go as far as to get the store involved, what is it that you're scheming?

sotetsu: Nothing gets passed you huh. Well since you've got that much figured out already I'll fill you in. It's as you thought, due to some unavoidable circumstances I had to make the show a versus.

kei: And what are these circumstances?

sotetsu: It's a very personal matter. In fact it has nothing to do with the store whatsoever. Or Saki. It doesn't even involve Kongou.

kei: ...... (considering)

sotetsu: How was that? You more relaxed now?

kei: I understand for the most part.

sotetsu: Good good, then—

kei: However, if your conduct interferes with us any more than this then prepare to make a sacrifice of equal worth. If your actions impact the store further then you shall not be pardoned. That is all.

-kei leaves-

sotetsu: Meaning I'm one step away from suffering his wrath huh?

—end

SideB Chapter 1 extra

-starless kitchen-

ran: Hey, Kongou. Ya got a moment?

kongou: Oh Ran, you were still here?

ran: I have somethin' I need to say to ya.

kongou: What is it? Is this about our special menu?

ran: No, it's about the versus. I'm sorry! It's all because I said somethin' unnecessary.

kongou: ......

ran: I wanted to at least apologise.

kongou: Ah... No it's ok, it's nothing that you need to apologise for. I was the one who started it after all, so don't worry about it.

ran: No, I wouldn't say ya did...

heath: You started it, didn't you, Ran?

kongou: Heath.

heath: Ran's colour looked obscured.

ran: Ah... So ya did notice then Heath.

kongou: Huh? Did you do something, Ran?

ran: Well some stuff just happened here an' there with Sotetsu! So it's more like you're the one who got mixed up in this, Kongou.

kongou: Oh...

ran: I'm seriously sorry!

kongou: So that's what's going on. I had been wondering why you were acting strangely docile.

ran: I know that I'm bein' selfish, but this is somethin' that I really had to go ahead with.

kongou: Well, if you've got your reasons then I won't pry... However I'd appreciate you giving me a heads up next time.

heath: I've caused you all a lot of trouble up until now as well. So if it's something that you need to do, then I'm on your side.

ran: Thank ya, both of you! Kongou, I'll make sure to repay this debt to you in full. If you ever pick a fight with someone let me know! We can beat the crap outta them together!

kongou: Ah... Sure, but I don’t have any plans like that…

—end

To Part 2

#bsts team b #bsts team k #bsts main story #bsts translation

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penname-artist · 4 months

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I went through my own personal memory lane today.

As far as I know, you can't get to them anymore, now that my old DeviantArt is deactivated and destroyed, but I dug through the physical drawings I'd posted to that site from 2015 through to 2022 or so.

About half of them are ponies (I was a brony freak, man, don't ask), and the rest where all kinds of things. Original projects, characters, doodles, animals, zentangles, fan works of other materials.

A few things I forgot I'd kept. One I didn't have the heart to look at. The roads of memories have two sides: the nostalgic, and the haunting.

And yet despite that, I'm again faced with this really weird sort of look-back. For probably the first time in my life, I feel entirely disconnected from this era. It seems so far away now. Even though it hasn't been that many years, it's still been so many seasons. So many parts. So many chapters of my life that have gone past this time capsule of colored history.

The things that happened then, they changed me. CoVid was, of course, one facet of the insanity. 2020 was not kind to any of us. But for me, that time struck me for a very different reason. A much more personal reason, that I'm continuing to uncover parts of in therapy today.

None of us are perfect people. None of us have clean slates. We've all done things poorly, embarrassingly, wrongly, and with guilt or shame that it was not just. That doesn't justify the bad, but it does help us forgive ourselves, when we know we're not the only people that screwed up.

I left my previous account, and my old name, for a personal reason. A reason relating to identity, to everything I was and everything I wanted to become, that had been shattered by the reality of what I was doing. What I was causing, who I was hurting.

From each small step I'd taken since that moment in time that the door had been shut, I began to disconnect from it. I cut my hair. I changed my name. I dived further into another fandom. I got a tattoo. I broke off a toxic relationship. And then several more, down the line. I worked on myself. I explored the mental health world, found a therapist and a medication setup that works for now. Made peace with the mistakes I'd made. Moved forward, however slowly.

Now, in just a few months I'll be passing the four year benchmark of when it happened. And I feel as though I don't know the girl I remember, sitting at her desk staring blankly at a note she didn't expect. The beginning of a long, long line of mistakes and problems and struggles and pain. I still remember her, but I don't know her. I was her. But I'm not, now.

But I know that I used to be. And it used to all be different. And though it'll never go back to that time, it'll never come back to those days, they're still here, preserved in a piece of paper with every pencil stroke.

It's a funny feeling, nostalgia.

#disney planes #disneyplanes #planes fire and rescue #disney planes 2 #dusty crophopper #a bunch of personal mumbo jumbo cuz hey its been a little while #personal post

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thelazyhermits · 7 months

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Now that Book 7 has reached the ENG server, I wanna start making summary posts about it like how I did with the previous books. Just like what I did with Book 6, I'll make a summary post per book part as each part gets released since that'll save me from having to make one ridiculously large post, and it'll be easier to cover everything if I just write about a set amount of chapters at a time.

So underneath the cut you'll find a summary of Book 7 Part 1 and how it goes with my Yuu ^^

For starters, I wanna share that I went back and made a slight change to the end of the Book 6 Part 2 post. Rather than have Yuu talk with Mickey the night she moves back into Ramshackle, I want that conversation to happen right before the start of Book 7.

I did this cause I want there to be plenty of free time between the two books to squeeze in some game events, and I don't want Yuu worrying about Diasomnia during that time, although, of course, that worry will still be lingering in the back of her mind since six Overblots have happened by this point, and she finds it highly unlikely that Diasomnia will be spared.

Anyway, so my version of Book 7 starts with Yuu having that chat with Mickey, and he tells her about seeing Silver in his dream room.

This puts Yuu on edge since when she thinks of Silver she thinks of his dorm, the only dorm that has yet to have a reported Overblot.

Even though nothing worrisome has happened regarding Overblots since Idia's OB, Yuu figures that was all just the calm before the storm, because that would be just her luck.

By this point in the story line, Yuu's pretty paranoid thanks to dealing with six OBs in the span of less than a year, so at this point, she can't be as optimistic/hopeful as she was in the past.

That's why, after her chat with Mickey, Yuu has a hard time going to sleep that night, because she's afraid she'll start dreaming about Maleficent as well as Malleus's childhood memories since those dreams will confirm that Malleus's OB is on the horizon.

Eventually, her exhaustion wins out in the end, and she falls asleep. Unfortunately, just as she had feared, she has a dream about Maleficent, the same dream that's shown in the first chapter of Book 7.

Yuu also sees a memory of Malleus as a child, and it breaks her heart to see him because he looks so lonely in the memory.

That's not all that she sees, however. Just after she sees that memory, her Quirk suddenly activates and proceeds to reveal to her that Lilia will be dropping out of NRC due to his weakening magic.

Upon seeing this vision, which is of the Diafam's canon lunchtime conversation, Yuu immediately realizes this is the trigger for Malleus's future OB, because she knows how much Malleus loves/treasures Lilia.

Plus, she also understands how much Malleus hates being alone/left behind, so of course, it's something like this that will eventually send him over the edge.

Around the time her vision ends, Yuu wakes up thanks to her internal alarm clock.

For several minutes, Yuu doesn't move because all she can do is sit there as she tries to come to terms with everything she saw while she was dreaming.

Yuu is noticeably rattled, for good reason, since all these signs keep pointing toward Malleus eventually Overblotting.

Unlike the previous six guys who Overblotted, Yuu is super close/good friends with Malleus by the time of his OB, and he's also one of the first friends she made at NRC.

(She was acquainted with/friends-of-sorts with the others before they Overblotted, sans Riddle, whom she really didn't start properly interacting with until after his OB, but she didn't really become close friends with them until after their OBs.)

That's why Malleus's OB has the strongest emotional impact on her out of all of them, and the fact that he's the last of them makes it all the worse since, by this point, Yuu has gone through a lot emotionally/mentally thanks to the previous OBs.

Which is why Yuu needs to take a moment to put herself together before she finally starts getting ready for her morning jog with Jack.

During this time, Yuu decides to play the day by ear since, while she's almost certain the situation with Lilia that she saw while she was dreaming was a vision, not just a dream, she'd like some kind of evidence to support her theory before she starts panicking.

(When Yuu has a vision while she's sleeping, she has a difficult time sometimes telling the difference between a dream and a vision, and she also has no way of knowing when the events of a vision will happen if she receives them while she's sleeping.)

Regardless of whether or not she had a vision, Yuu knows for certain now that Malleus will OB thanks to those other dreams she had, so for now, she thinks that she just needs to do her best to keep a cool head and start strategizing.

Of course, that's easier said than done, considering just how serious a situation she's dealing with.

That's why, despite her putting on her best poker face, Jack notices that Yuu is stressed when they're running together, although it's more because he can smell her stress than see it.

However, Jack isn't the type to force someone to talk about their feelings, so he just gruffly but kindly tells her in his own way that if something is bothering her she can talk to him, which leads to her giving him a big hug, much to his embarrassment.

Since she's not quite ready to talk about what's on her mind, Yuu doesn't talk to Jack about it right then and there, but she promises that she will if the stress becomes too much for her to bear alone.

The next of Yuu's sons to notice something's off with her is Sebek whom she encounters along with Malleus and Silver in front of Great Seven Statues like in canon.

While Yuu hadn't run off to see them like her game counterpart, she did find herself unconsciously stopping and staring at Maleficent's statue when she and Grim were walking past it while on the way to school, which led to things playing out similar to how they do in canon, although there's no freak out about Yuu's nickname for Malleus from Sebek since he found out about that not long after Book 5's events.

Upon encountering Yuu, Sebek immediately notices that Yuu looks exhausted, more so in her eyes than her face since she did her best to hide the bags underneath her eyes with the makeup she got from Vil.

In typical Sebek fashion, he gets all up in her personal space and starts reprimanding her for allowing herself to be in such poor condition while in the presence of the Great Lord Malleus Draconia.

Yuu, of course, can tell Sebek is just worried about her but can't be honest when he's got witnesses present/a reputation to uphold, so rather than take any of his scolding to heart, she gives him a kiss on the cheek and thanks him for worrying about her before assuring him that she's fine, just lacking a little sleep.

Unsurprisingly, Sebek gets incredibly flustered and profusely denies being worried while an exasperated Silver chides him for being too loud and for not being more honest about his feelings, which leads to Sebek directing his irritation at Silver lol

Meanwhile, Malleus is just amused by this not so unusual turn of events. During this time, like in the game, he asks Yuu if she has any questions about the Thorn Fairy, considering she had been studying her statue earlier.

When Malleus mentions being quite knowledgeable about Maleficent, Yuu decides to ask him if, in the past, the Thorn Fairy was ever not invited to a big event.

She quickly adds that she had a strange dream along those lines, which is why she had been so focused on the statue.

Much to her surprise, Malleus confirms that there was one occasion when the Thorn Fairy wasn't invited to a princess's birthday, so he assumes Yuu must have either read about that or heard someone else talk about it in the past and had just forgotten about it until she had that unusual dream.

(Silver mentions this occasion in the game during a chat, so while it's not mentioned in the main story, it's apparently canon that the Thorn Fairy didn't get invited to a princess's birthday like in the movie.)

Yuu is surprised by this revelation since it was that event that led to Maleficent getting the Disney villain treatment, yet somehow, in this world, she's highly revered. Is it because everyone felt she was in the right for trying to kill the princess, or did she not actually try to do anything to the princess in this world?

Once again, Yuu finds herself wondering if the events from the Disney movies she watched as a child are connected to TW's world history and they just got hidden/misconstrued for the sake of the Great Seven's currently great reputations.

Since coming to TW, Yuu has been getting mixed signals on that end, so she really has no idea what's the truth and what's a lie when it comes to the Great Seven, much to her great frustration.

While Yuu is lost in thought, Sebek is going on a tirade similar to canon about how he can't believe anyone could have ever been so disrespectful to the Thorn Fairy.

Meanwhile, Malleus says it's not terribly surprising to him since it's easy for him to image that people feared her to that degree, considering how powerful she was.

Around that time, Lilia makes his appearance, like in canon, and Yuu is immediately suspicious cause he rarely ever runs around like this since teleporting is so much easier. Plus, he normally never passes up an opportunity to suddenly pop up before her and scare her with his typical jump-scare.

Perhaps the dream she had last night was a vision after all and one of the very near future....

Doing her best to remain calm, Yuu decides to continue with her day, with the plan of talking to Lilia after school since she feels the sooner she warns him about Malleus's impending OB, the better.

During the hours leading up to lunch, Yuu does her best to remain focused on her lessons and tries to temporarily forget about the Diasomnia situation.

For the most part, she succeeds with that endeavor, but Ace/Deuce are worried about her since they know something's off.

That's why, in typical Ace fashion, when all the first years are later eating lunch together, sans Sebek who's with the rest of the Diafam, Ace bluntly tells Yuu to come clean already and puts her on the spot since he knows that's the best way to get her to talk.

While Yuu knows Ace is only doing this cause he's worried, she still gets exasperated by his actions. Meanwhile, most of her other sons scold Ace for his lack of delicacy, with Grim adding this is why he'll never be popular with women, much to Ace's annoyance lol

Ortho also asks Yuu to tell them what's worrying her since she's always helping them when they need it, and he thinks it's only fair that they return the favor. Plus, he doesn't like seeing her struggle on her own.

Since Yuu can't possibly tell Ortho "no", especially when it's obvious that all her sons are worried about her, she decides to tell them about the dreams she had last night and how she's certain that means Malleus will OB.

Naturally, there's a lot of panic on the guys' end, and it takes a lot of effort to get them all to calm down so as to not attract any unwanted attention.

Ortho is quick to volunteer to tell Idia to see if there's anything the Shroud brothers can do to prevent Malleus's OB. They'll start researching and gathering data and comparing it to everything that was gathered on the other OB boys back in Book 6.

Regrettably, that's about all that can be done right now aside from Yuu personally talking to Lilia and trying to convince him to not cut himself out of his family's life since it's entirely possible an OB can be prevented if she hasn't had a vision about it, although she can't bring herself to be too hopeful.

The rest of her sons promise to pass this info along to their dorm leaders since it would be for the best if everyone's in the know, which is why Yuu intends to later text Jamil since she knows he'd also want to know.

Another thing that gets discussed is Mickey's existence because, after the discussion of Malleus's future OB, Grim brings up how Yuu abruptly woke him up last night, claiming she saw something in the mirror, which was originally what he thought the reason for her lack of sleep was, ergo he thought she was being a scaredy-cat and seeing things which led to her staying awake.

This leads to Yuu getting some concerned looks and raised eyebrows thrown her way, so she decides she might as well also tell them about Mickey since she did get that picture of him before the events of Book 6, which proves she's not out of her mind like she had first thought lol

Everyone is naturally very shocked when she tells them about Mickey and shows the picture of him that she took, which she's been keeping in her bag on the off chance she ever decided to have this discussion with someone since she'd obviously need evidence to ensure no one thought she was crazy.

Ace is quick to ask why the hell she never said anything sooner to which she reluctantly explains that Mickey is a cartoon character in her world, so for the sake of her sanity, she was reluctant to talk to anyone about him lol 😂

Thankfully, once everyone gets over the shock caused by that bombshell, Yuu's sons are more understanding since honestly if the roles were reversed they all think they'd also be reluctant to talk, especially since last night she confirmed that only she can actually see Mickey.

During this time, like in canon, Ortho talks about how the mirror could be a portal to another world just cause it somehow meets the right requirements.

He finds it especially intriguing that it connects to a world of a fictional character from Yuu's world since it makes him wonder if Mickey's world and Yuu's world are somehow connected. He also wonders if that connection is why only they can see each other when Mickey's dreams lead to him showing up in her mirror.

While Ortho is reeling off theories, he also at one point says that it's possible the answers they've been looking for behind Yuu's sudden appearance in TW might be answered by researching what's going on with Mickey.

With noticeable excitement, Ortho says that, if they figure out the mystery behind Mickey, they may be able to figure out the mystery behind how Yuu ended up in TW, which in turn could lead to them figuring out how they can make sure Yuu can stay in TW.

(By this point, Yuu has made it apparent that she doesn't want to return to her world, so instead, the main concern is that she'll eventually get forced back against her will. Yuu's biggest worry is that one day she'll just abruptly be sent back home, similar to how she suddenly ended up in TW.

Obviously, nobody wants this to happen, which is why Ortho is excited that there's now a possible lead they can follow since, up until this point, they've had no idea why Yuu was suddenly brought to TW and how it all happened with the Dark Mirror.)

Everyone else also get excited about this news, Yuu especially, since there's nothing she'd love more than a solid confirmation that she can stay in her new home for the rest of her life.

That's why, like in canon, everyone makes plans for sleeping in shifts at Ramshackle in hopes of talking to Mickey again and getting info from him, even Jack, who in typical tsundere fashion, says he just doesn't want anyone complaining about him not contributing rather than because he actually wants to help Yuu out, much to Yuu's amusement.

Ortho also wants to get Sebek involved in this plan since his fae knowledge should be helpful for their research/investigation. Since Yuu is the best at getting Sebek to agree to things, she agrees to be the one to talk to him since no one else wants that job lol

Around that time, the first year gang hears Sebek raise his voice, and things play out like they do in canon, with the only thing different being that Yuu realizes she's seeing the events of last night's vision play out.

Even if she can't hear any of the Diasomnia guys other than Sebek, Yuu knows exactly what's going on since everything is the same as her vision, such as their expressions, posture, etc.

Upon seeing how uneasy Yuu now looks, everyone at her table adopts similar expressions since she had told them about her vision from last night.

Immediately, Ortho begins subtly doing data scans on Malleus, as if expecting to detect blot accumulation this early on, although he says this data will still be useful even if such signs aren't found.

After Lilia eventually takes his leave with Sebek and Silver like in canon, the weather outside takes a turn for the worse, which Yuu confirms is happening cause of Malleus since it's obvious he's in a bad mood now, which further puts the majority of her sons on edge.

Just as she's wondering if she should approach Malleus in hopes of offering him some comfort, Yuu suddenly gets a chill down her spine, and at the same time, an alarmed Ortho reports that he's noticed signs of blot accumulation in the data he's receiving from Malleus, much to the distress of everyone else.

Yuu quickly calms them down and reveals that this has happened with some of the other OB boys in the past. They didn't OB immediately after this happened with each of them, so she doesn't think the same will happen with Malleus.

(I like the idea of Yuu being sensitive to blot accumulation when it happens in relation to Overblots. While she didn't get this feeling with all the OB boys since she wasn't around all of them when they had those moments of blot accumulation that are shown in canon, it happened with a few of them, but with Vil mostly due to her being around him so much during the month leading up to the SDC/VDC.)

Ortho confirms that theory since it would take a much larger amount of blot accumulation to affect someone like Malleus. Right now, the readings are something along the lines of what you'd see after a normal mage finishes using their magic for a practice battle/exercise.

However, that said, he still wants to talk to his brother as soon as he can since this is obviously just the beginning of things to come with Malleus.

While Ortho flies off to go see his brother, Yuu decides to go to the Diasomnia dorm to talk to Lilia because she won't have to worry about Malleus possibly overhearing this conversation if she does it now.

Plus, it'd make her feel better if she hurried up and told Lilia what's going to happen since he plays such a critical role in how things are supposed to play out with Malleus's OB.

That's why, rather than head to class with the others, Yuu heads for the Diasomnia dorm. Thankfully, she's able to get inside the dorm without any issue since there aren't guards during the day when it's a school day.

Once inside the dorm, Yuu quickly makes her way to Lilia's dormroom, which is where she finds him, Sebek, and Silver.

(She arrives after Silver finds the acorn bracelet and ring but before the conversation about Lilia's weapon.)

Upon seeing Yuu completely drenched thanks to the rain caused by Malleus and out of breath, the guys immediately approach her out of concern, and Sebek quickly uses his magic to dry her off, all the while scolding her for not being more careful/taking better care of her health.

His scolding gets cut off mid-way when Sebek realizes, after finally getting a good look at Yuu's face, that she's currently shaking, not because she got cold because of the rain, but because she's upset, which leads to him becoming further worried about her since it's rare for Yuu to get upset like this.

Meanwhile, Silver is gently rubbing her back, asking what's wrong/what happened/if there's anything they can get for her.

Despite her best intentions, Yuu let her emotions get the better of her while she was running to the Diasomnia dorm, which is why her poker face is no longer in effect and why she needs to take a moment to collect herself.

All the while, Lilia remains strangely quiet and is studying Yuu closely, obviously sensing that something serious is going on, although he refrains from questioning her like the other two boys.

Once she collects herself, Yuu weakly pleads for Lilia to reconsider taking himself completely out of Malleus and the others' lives, much to his and the others' surprise.

Yuu understands that Lilia can't control losing his magic, but where he ends up after leaving NRC is definitely something he should be able to control, so she pleads for him to not leave Malleus alone since he still needs Lilia.

To prove that, she finally tells them about her dreams from last night and how Ortho detected slight blot accumulation from Malleus just before she came here, which naturally Silver and Sebek find highly concerning, although Sebek, of course, finds it hard to believe that his beloved liege could ever Overblot.

Lilia is more calm about this news since he also finds it so hard to believe that Malleus of all people would OB. Plus, as Ortho said, it wasn't a serious level of blot accumulation, so he doesn't want everyone to get too worked up prematurely.

That said, Lilia also doesn't want to just dismiss Yuu's valid concerns, especially considering all of her experience with the other OBs that happened on campus.

Which is why Lilia promises Yuu that he'll give this matter a lot of thought since he can't leave Malleus in good conscience if there is a chance of him Overblotting cause of his departure, much to the relief of Yuu, Silver, and Sebek.

In the meantime, Lilia wants Silver and Sebek to keep a closer eye than usual on Malleus, just to be on the safe side, which, of course, the knights are more than willing to do.

He also asks them to go on ahead to class without him and Yuu since he thinks Yuu should take a moment to rest at their dorm before returning to class, and he thinks it's best that he stay and keep an eye on her.

There was some hesitancy on Sebek/Silver's end since they're both also worried about Yuu, but since they're also worried about Malleus, they decided it's best to return to school and leave Yuu to Lilia.

Once the two boys leave, Lilia offers to make her some tea, but Yuu quickly volunteers to do it since there's really no telling what Lilia will put in the tea, like with his cooking lol

After Yuu uses the Diasomnia dorm's kitchen to make some tea for herself and also grabs some tomato juice for Lilia while she's there, they both settle down in the lounge, and for a while, all they do is quietly drink their beverages.

Yuu eventually breaks the silence when she asks Lilia why he had decided to so abruptly pull himself away from his family. She knows the excuses he provided in her vision weren't the real reason for this decision.

Lilia reminds Yuu a lot of herself in that they both value family very highly. That's why she finds his recent behavior so suspicious since the Lilia she knows would want to be with his family for as long as possible. He wouldn't suddenly just decide to move across the planet, just cause he wants to make the most of his retirement.

Because nothing makes him happier than his family, just as nothing makes Yuu happier than being with her sons/friends at NRC.

It's obvious to Yuu that Lilia is actively avoiding his family for a reason, but for the life of her, she can't figure out why.

When Lilia goes a while without responding, Yuu assumes he won't give her the answers she's seeking, which is why she's surprised when he quietly confesses that he just doesn't want the boys to see him in a state that's even more pathetic than his current one.

Lilia knows his time is almost at an end, and things will only go further downhill from here. It won't be a pretty sight, which is why he wants to spare Malleus and the others from having to see it.

Even though in the back of her mind Yuu had been wondering if Lilia losing his magic meant he would also soon lose his life, she's still devastated to have that confirmed by him since she had been hoping that somehow he could still live a good while longer without his magic despite knowing he's been around for many centuries.

Despite her best efforts, Yuu can't stop herself from crying, having hit her limit after everything she has learned since last night.

As she's crying, she tells Lilia that he's unfair for trying to run off and die on his own like that. That won't make anyone happy, including himself.

There's no way he won't be miserable having to spend the rest of his life on his own, so he's essentially punishing everyone for the sake of his pride.

Lilia pulls her into a hug to comfort her. Seeing her in her current state, he can't bring himself to try to deny her words since he doesn't want to lie to her.

When Lilia remains silent, Yuu points out that he's really ignorant when it comes to how important he is to his family. How he misses that when he notices pretty much everything else is beyond her.

She asks him to at least try trusting her words, even if it's just for Malleus's sake, since she knows she'll need his help to save Malleus, and this is a crucial part of that process.

Lilia tells her that he does trust her since he's come to see her as a part of his little family as well. Despite how hard her words are to believe, he never for a second doubted her or thought she was lying.

That's why he promises that he'll keep things from getting out of hand with Malleus. He'll have a proper talk with Malleus and do whatever he can to ensure Malleus doesn't OB.

There's obviously nothing Lilia can do about leaving NRC, but he'll try to see about making changes to his plans following his departure in hopes that that'll improve the situation since he can't head for his original destination knowing that there's a possibility of Malleus Overblotting during his absence since he'll be too far away to help, which is the last thing he wants.

In the meantime, while Lilia is figuring things out, he tells Yuu to leave everything involving Malleus to him since he doesn't want her putting any more burdens on her shoulders when she's already gone through more than enough.

Yuu can tell that Lilia is genuinely worried about her, and despite being so used to having to fix things, she would like to leave this matter to him, especially since she thinks he would be able to do more good for Malleus than her.

Now, that's not to say she won't do anything. She would instead just focus her efforts on more simple things like talking to Malleus whenever she gets the chance and doing little things to cheer him up if he ever looks as if he needs a pick-me-up.

Plus, if she leaves Malleus's situation to Lilia, she can focus her full attention on the Mickey situation, which her instincts are telling her is equally important, especially considering Mickey has somehow seen Silver at some point.

(This is the one thing she hasn't told anyone about since she doesn't want to put Silver on the spot, but if she fails to get any answers from Mickey in the near future, she does intend to question Silver in hopes that he'll be able to make sense of Mickey's claim of having seen him before.)

That's why Yuu agrees to let Lilia handle this matter, much to his relief, although she insists on him keeping her updated and telling her if anything happens that she could help with.

After their chat and once Yuu has fully calmed down, they both return to classes since Yuu doesn't want to cause Grim, Ace, and Deuce further worry. Of course, they still worry in the end cause her eyes are red from crying.

For the rest of the day, ADeuce and Grim stick close to Yuu out of worry, so ADeuce are naturally the first ones to volunteer to stay the night at Ramshackle for the sake of Mickey research.

Things proceed like in canon with the quartet working on study guides provided by Riddle since this is meant to be a "study session".

Yuu is honestly grateful for the study guide since it gives her something productive to do and keeps her from being consumed by her thoughts, although dealing with Grim's whining isn't very fun lol

Eventually, the boys call it a night when midnight rolls around without any signs of Mickey showing up, which Yuu had expected since he's never shown up two nights in a row before.

Before she can go to bed like her sons quickly do, Yuu happens to look outside and notices the firefly-like lights that always mean Malleus is around.

Unable to pass up a chance to see him, especially after recent events, Yuu quickly hurries outside and releases a loud startled squeal once outside due to how freezing it is.

Upon hearing her, Malleus finally notices that he's making it snow and quickly fixes the weather since Yuu was shivering like crazy due to being bad with cold weather.

Like in canon, Malleus tells Yuu about what happened when he was a kid and how Lilia fixed the situation after he froze everything.

His story both warms and breaks her heart since it's nice to see how much Malleus cares about Lilia, but at the same time, it just makes recent events all the more painful to think about.

After he finishes reminiscing, Malleus asks why Yuu is up at such a late hour. Was she planning on going on a stroll like him?

Thinking it might help Malleus's situation if she asks for his help/"invites" him into the situation, Yuu tells him about the situation with Mickey and how she and her sons are investigating Mickey and the mirror in hopes of getting some answers.

Malleus finds the situation rather intriguing, so he agrees to give the matter some thought and promises to share any information he comes up with that he thinks may prove to be useful.

Yuu perks up upon hearing that since she's hoping that having something to think about/work on will help Malleus keep from dwelling too much on Lilia's situation.

Little did Yuu know that she'd eventually come to greatly regret ever telling Malleus about Mickey and the mirror.

#fortune in twisted wonderland

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I don't know how to say this. I especially don't know how to say this when all available words regularly leak out my ears when I'm stressed or tired or both or neither. Um. So.

It'll take me a little while to write this, I imagine, and I won't be "back" here properly, whatever that means, until I write and post it.

Sexuality is a funny ol thing, and I'm not fully certain where I fit with it.

Most of that uncertainty comes from - not in knowing what I think, or want, really, but in not knowing if I can have that, safely for me.

I don't think I can, in person. I don't think it's in the least sensible, for me.

It probably sounds,, odd, given how much of myself I share here, and given the usual,, way things go.

I don't know how other people feel or experience,, life, everything, I only know what I do. And I don't know what I don't know, either.

But I think, generally, based on previous experience but very little practical evidence, really, that anything in person would be,, too much for me. It wouldn't be an exciting level of intense, it would be a panic-inducing level of intense. Probably. And I don't know how I'd react to that, without having experienced it. I do know how I react to some things - crowds, and fireworks, and like club music type - and I know that my reaction is not always clear to other people, and I know I can't always articulate what's going on in my head, I can't always "make the words go", I can't always explain myself and I tend, in the situations I know cause me stress, to stand stock-still until whatever it is stops, cry if it's really bad, or if I can then I'll cry and clench my jaw and keep walking until I'm away, if I can, if I can make myself move. And, I don't think I could make myself speak or move, if I was in that situation and overwhelmed, with something that isn't just a situation happening and rather a person who,, maybe hasn't expectations of things happening, but there is nonetheless still things happening.

Anything I have done in person has been. Very small, and a very long time ago, and while I was very drunk. It was good, but I'm not sure that I could do anything larger, any time soon if ever, and I'm certainly not getting drunk ever again, even if it does take the edge off my brain - because it takes the edge off my brain, and I'm not doing anything that I would need that for.

If that makes sense at all.

It's easier and safer, all round, to. Avoid that.

People say you have to leave your comfort zone, but my comfort zone is there for a reason, y'know? It's a good reason, and I'd like to keep to that reason.

I know myself, I'd like to stay myself.

I like it here, I do, it's a good place to be, it helps to have somewhere and someone/s to talk to. Y'know.

The conversations (and 'conversations') I've had, they're just as much for me as something in person might be, given I can't and don't want something in person.

I do say, fair often, honestly, it shows something of me to say it, but I do anyway - imagine it's my hands on you, I'm imagining your hands on me - y'know, I imagine that's something fair standard in this situation, where whoever is miles or a world away, y'know

It's true, true as anything I say, and I've never been a liar, that I'd want that, that I'd like that - I just don't think I can have that, in person, without such high levels of trust that I don't think are possible enough to outweigh my,, issues with all of it.

It's taken me a long time to recognise that this is. Not shame at feeling this way, really, not shame at being queer, at wanting anything - it's not, it just presents in a similar way, if you see what I mean? But there is some shame wrapped up in it - not in wanting it, the way that's I imagine more common, but in wanting it and not being able to have it, the way "normal people" do, in person.

Wanting it and talking about it - I should imagine some people would say it's only talking, tho it's not any "only" for me, really - that's all I can have, that's all I want, anything more scares the very bones of me, and will not be happening.

Everything I've said has been truth, I hope I've been clear - everything I've said in reply or in DMs has been truth - I am imagining that, I do want that, this is good - because I can do this, over such a distance - it's the distance that makes it easier to do, because while I want hands on me, I couldn't cope with hands on me, do you follow? And it being over text is also good, because I've got words there, when I can't say them aloud, do you see?

Sometimes it's been for not amazing reasons - anything since say January is from a good place, I'm in a far better place now, physically and mentally, than I was before then - if you want more information, I was grieving two grandparents at once, and dealing with Not somehow having lost most of my family due to being trans, and moving house, all at once. So while as I say all I've said has been truth, I was doing things in 2023 for reasons that,, were not sensible. I was doing too much, because to be frank, in hindsight, I wanted to feel good and wanted so that I stopped feeling so bad. I did feel good, but it's not the sort of feeling good I'd like to continue - same as I deleted all my old photos because they came from that sort of place, in favour of things that are from a better place for me, you know? I explained that in another post I think.

I have been in a better place since January, everything I've done since then has been from that better place.

It's tricky, some, I guess, sometimes, because I can be switchy - I explained that in another post, too, a bit, how easily I can turn from one to another, and how I don't sometimes know how to manage that, when I know someone wants something else from me - that hasn't happened while talking with anyone, but it is something that needs to be known of, so I can feel comfortable in mentioning it, if it were to ever.

Not to put anyone out or off or whathaveyou, I just want to make myself as clear as I'm able to. I hope I have done.

I'll not be really around until next week, but I'm likely to see if anyone sends me anything, y'know, to let you know. I just mightn't answer just yet 🤍🩵💚

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