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petrichara · 4 months

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I wonder how much of our parents we know through knowing ourselves. I wonder how much of ourselves we think are our own and were first born in our parents. I wonder, even in death, what I still learn about my father.

#memory is immortality love is immortality #gone and dead are used synonymously but they are not the same #he is dead but not gone #when I go to work I tell the kids the jokes he told me and I hear them passed along like strings of life like I’m weaving a person #they laugh and he is almost there #I exist and he is almost here #so I am sad for a while but not forever because my eyes are most his when they’re smiling #and he is dead but not gone #grief

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greencarnation · 7 months

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eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed?#mine

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mustasekittens · 24 days

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congratulations christopher!

self indulgent near-future in which when christopher graduates high school buck n eddie take hiim to hawaii to celebrate and they all have a nice vacation over here. friend n i were brainrotting it a bit and we decided buck definitely hyperfixated on hawaii and stuff (history, nature, geography, mythology, etc)

#buddie #christopher diaz #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 abc #mustasekittens #i still struggle drawing all 3 of them its a nightmare #anyways gavin is getting really tall and i thought it would be kinda funny if he was almost taller than eddie once he's an adult #my friend and i expanded on buck's hawaii hyperfixation so there's def gonna be a short comic to follow this up LOL #the lei christopher is wearing is called a maile lei #theyre usually worn by men but anyone can wear a maile :]#maile lei are usually worn at grads/proms/weddings or just cuz!#buddie are married at this point. (wink wink. bucks ring. wink)#i shouldve made buck more sunburned #idk if people even read tags this far but anyways more little details #also idk smth smth buck wearing yellow eddie wearing blue n chris wearing green (although not exactly) bc theyre a weird blended family #the brand of shirts the 3 of them r wearing is called sig zane and its a local (fancy) aloha wear brand here! its based in hilo!!#my local friend who's from big island brought it up to me and i remembered it existed #i see people wear sig zane all the time here on oahu but i am so shit at remembering names. that is extended to clothing brands LMFAO #what i mean by fancy aloha wear i mean these fucking shirts cost upwards of $130-145 EACH.#and they are fucking BEAUTIFUL.#i did take some liberties with the designs for the 3 of them tho #buck and christopher's are almost directly referencing existing designs from their catalogue while i smplified one for eddie's #christopher's is an ulu (breadfruit) pattern and i kinda ate that ngl #i was originally gonna just use some stamp brushes i found on the csp asset store but they looked so tacky i just decided to draw them LOL #anyways enjoy this self indulgent stupid stuff who cares anymore

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crowfromfoggyforest · 4 months

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Has Hazbin Hotel made anyone else forget about heteronormativity?

Oh of course these two characters are dating. And of course one of them has a pathetic crush on this other character. Oh, they're all men? I really haven't even thought about that.

I mean, they're a moth, a tv and a deer, does their gender really matter?

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uhbasicallyjustmilex · 1 year

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it does something incomprehensible to my little writer’s soul whenever alex articulates a phenomenon of the writing process i’ve always picked up on and then goes on to describe it in exactly the same way

#when i first heard him say this when i was watching the interview i legit had to pause the video for a moment #because it was like he’d actually taken my words straight out of my mouth #literally for years i’ve been fascinated by the little timeless pocket between dusk and dawn where there’s so much freedom #to explore creativity uninhibited and unobserved and without fear of consequence #the way it allows you to create things almost as if they don’t really exist #or like the rest of the world doesn’t #and the magic of that freedom #like if you create things on the cusp of dreams it’s almost as if they don’t count #they’re liberated from any usual self doubt or self criticism that invades the imaginative space during the daylight #why am i making myself sound like a creative vampire 😭#i’m going to stop rambling in the tags now sorry #i fear absolutely none of this makes sense #kudos to anyone who’s read the whole way through this #the gist of what i’m trying to say is that it’s such a special feeling when someone whose writing you adore and connect to so much #puts into words elements of the process that have always resonated with you #and this is just one example too #right i’m going to stop rambling now #but one last thing before i go #on a more superficial note: can we appreciate how softly spoken and soft fluffy haired he is here?? 🥺#alex turner #humbug era #arctic monkeys #alex vid #lulu posts

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izel-scribbles · 23 days

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more oc doodles (from a different storyline than the last one)

he is, as the kids say, "babygirl"

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dollsuguru · 3 months

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starting my curator!geto fic officially now! <3

#really want it to sound artistic bc obvi he’s an artist/art curator so i HOPE that comes through 😭#also finally got the name of the fic down! i was lamenting for ages bc i couldn’t think of anything that was art-inspired #and then i listened to a song and in the lyrics… There It Was… shining like a beacon of light <3 #(funny bc the name has ‘shadow’ in it)#also by alter-ego you’ll see what i mean once i write more of the fic i promise that part will make sense 😭#kenjaku exists in this fic almost like an Entity he’s not actually a person in this fic #it’s a no-curses au! just wanted to play w different facets of suguru’s personality is all :3 #why aren’t tags saving #oh now you save you bitch.#ANYWAYS.#editing me here: i’m already reworking this intro so it’s more descriptive and less choppy #but it’s hard bc i wanna use a bunch of descriptors but i don’t want it to be CLUNKY 😭 intro is beating my ASS rn #kenjaku has me against the ropes 😩🫦#ignore the lipbite or don’t… but omfg… maybe I’M the tortured artist 😳😳😳 suguru step aside #double edit: the newer vision is so much better omfg i’m kinda gagged…#snippets #personal

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arcanemadman · 8 months

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Netflixvania fans will hate Mariacard because one's 16 and the other's an adult after shipping and continuing to ship Trephacard, which has a teenager shipped with two adults

EDIT: Okay I know this isn't obvious but it needs to be said, Netflix Maria uses the design of 12 year old Maria, but she's actually 16. SOTN Maria is 17, which makes her a year older than Netflix Maria. If there was a 5 year time skip in the show, that would make Maria 21.

#castlevania #castlevania netflix #castlevania games #Maria Renard #Alucard #Adrien Fahrenheit Tepes #trevor belmont #sypha belnades #like seriously #even if Lisa and Drac got busy immediately he's be like 18 at most and thats after sleeping for a year #and in the games as soon as the four beat his dad up (friendly reminder that Grant exists) he goes to sleep until symphony of the night #SYPHA CALLS HIM A TEENAGER IN AN ADULTS BODY #I'm basically feeling there's a double standard in the fanbase here #it's hot when it's a guy but its gross when its a gal #or maybe it's just an excuse to bash fans of the game #“how DARE they pair these two together” they say about what has been the most popular castlevania pairing for the past 26 years #god I don't even give a shit about shipping stuff #I'm just sick of Netflixvania fans gate keeping the series #Castlevania is almost 40 years old for crying out loud #you're the new kids #there are people in their 40's and 50's that played these games as a child #I'm so tired man #I hate those bastards that cried “WOKE?!?!” that poisoned the well for the rest of us #I just want to watch an adaptation of Castlevania #why is that too much to ask #rant over #I'm going to bed

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theoryofwhatnow · 4 months

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crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot.#the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film)#I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there.#Essentially i was confused about *the game*#and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks)#Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.)#the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie)#and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing.#Alex finds another boy and so it begins.#Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it.#start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

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captainhysunstuff · 1 year

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Light heads to meet L at the pick-up point for their date and is met with a surprise. Another more frustrating surprise was finding out that Sayu had followed him. She briefly meets “Hideki Ryuga,” and has her suspicions all but confirmed as far as she knows. With the delay over, they drive off to officially begin the date.

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#drawn by me #my fanart #my fancomic #Death Note #The Chain #lawlight #Light Yagami #Sachiko Yagami #Sayu Yagami #L #yeah a vehicle and helmets are what held this installment up #and it's just a transition chapter lol sorry #objects and vehicles are the bane of my existence #the bike is based on the 2006 Suzuki Katana 750 #I looked up 2006 motorcycles and found that one; it looks similar to Wedy's so I decided to give L one too~#I almost had him borrow Wedy's but let him have his own instead #I've had an indulgent motor bike-riding L and him driving Light around for a long time~#I like to think that he can drive a lot of stuff except cars for whatever reason (boats; bikes; aircraft; but not a normal car)#of course bringing that vision to reality was a real challenge but there it is!#honestly he's probably more fitting on a moped but I let him be cooler here #the helmets are very very loosely based and combined on a couple of different helmets I saw #Sayu's meeting with him is brief; the scene was originally gonna include Sachiko instead but scrapped it #I may do that eventually anyways~. Mama Yagami's gotta embarrass Light in front of L too~#the bike was a enough; simple backgrounds it is

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sneez · 3 months

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some posters for conrad veidt films with my cat mole edited in in mspaint

#i have been watching. A Lot of conrad veidt films recently #the man who laughs is now one of my favourite ever films ive watched it three times in the past few weeks and i cry violently every time #i love all of them though hes so much fun to watch and so lovely i wish i could have met him #also hes like the best actor who has ever existed and im a homosexual so can you blame me #anyway ive been having fun putting mole on the posters. shes a star :)#i havent talked about her much here but my life basically revolves around mole she is my world 4 ever #i wish you all could meet her she is very small and old and i adore her with every part of my being #i hope you are all doing well friends i am very almost on holiday (yippee) so will hopefully be around more often #yippee 2 #ghost post #id in alt text by the way i thought it made more sense for a post like this

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pochapal · 5 months

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this being the first theory battler has lampshaded and discarded as a joke is making me extremely 👁

#umineko liveblog #like. everything else has been taken seriously even when it's stupid #but this is outright dismissed the second it's mentioned. surely not..........#ough but wait. the possibility of the captive beatrice falling pregnant is rather high #and there are several plausible scenarios with which a hidden child could work #i mean if we go full cliche then the answer here is that nanjo somehow helped beatrice hide the child #making him like double compromised with kinzo. almost like a moral stalemate even #also given the date the mansion was built we can assume this kid would be in their early/mid 30s present day #only known candidate on rokkenjima who fits the criteria would be rosa but that doesn't really makes sense #either that or gohda is a good 10-15 years younger than you'd think he is #but then i'm thinking about the ushiromiya shannon stuff and wondering if there isn't an orphanage link #not that shannon's the beatrice child because she's 15 years too young for that #but perhaps the kid was concealed in the orphanage and this is where the furniture stuff comes in?#every single servant kid is less than human unless they prove themselves to be a worthy substitute for the lost child #and the abuse comes from the fact that they also bear the brunt of kinzo's rage at this kid for having slipped out of his grasp #and of course none of the servant children can ever compare to kinzo's ideal so the cycle perpetuates forever #furniture in that they're being punished for not innately being an ushiromiya successor #this also feeds into the beatrice/kinzo becoming stuff too at a slightly different angle #the children are brought on expected to carry fragments of both beatrice and kinzo and tormented when they fail to do so #meanwhile i genuinely think if a beatrice kid existed they would presently be extremely far removed from rokkenjima #like some random well adjusted adult who knows very little of their origins #meaning that even if kinzo ever found this person they too would not be a fitting ushiromiya successor #yeah i think there might be some potential for this kind of theory

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moe-broey · 2 months

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Textpost redraw that only works in a modern setting, so. I gave them silly outfits (and a little bit of lore!)

Some zoom ins on the illusts!

And Lore

Moe is like. A SHUT-IN shut-in. So in any modern setting that isn't "Hey wanna visit my hometown for a sec (events so far have followed canon at least loosely)", it would have to meet Alfonse under Extremely Specific Circumstances.

And finally! Textpost under cut!

#fire emblem #feh #I PUT. SO MUCH LOVE INTO THIS ACTUALLY IT'S INSANE. ESP FOR A TEXTPOST REDRAW LMFAOOO #the vision was so clear to me though. the vibe of the post (struggling). a catastrophic fall from grace.#the idea of alfonse venting about almost losing a social interaction. a performance slipping.#a setting where he isn't performing at all now. there is nothing to perform here bc moe. well.#also the visual. i am imagining a very specific nostalgic shitass swingset in my mind.#one that doesn't exist anymore actually bc they rebuilt it (probably for the best.) but that thing #would leave rust on your hands and arms and leave your ass blue. it sucked but it was awesome #the rust marks don't show up as clearly here unfortunately LMFAO so i had to point em out.#ALSO. I AM ACTUALLY SO INSANE ABOUT THEIR OUTFITS ACTUALLY. bc BOTH of them are hiding #alfonse is trying to blend in. pass as normal. moe is trying to distract you. but also desperately trying to communicate Something.#like do you wanna be seen or not little buddy (the answer is Yes.)#back to alfonse like if not 'normal' then at least 'put together'. will suffice. i think he's also beginning to loosen up here too tho #like. so at the beginning of it that he isn't Really LMFAOO but. he painted his nails black. just to try it.#it was also so fun to freehand the patterns... camo and argyle (the socks) (hardly noticeable but that's the intent!)#'beginning to loosen up' actually i think he's just starting to fall apart.#fe alfonse #moe tag #summoner oc #my art #my comics

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bi4bisamjess · 2 years

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fav thing about modern day dd comics and the show: both still operate as if Hell’s Kitchen remains to be the organized crime hellscape-of-a-place-to-live-in neighborhood of the 1960s. like hate to break it to you but baby it’s gentrified now. mr murdock doesn’t have anything to fight other than like bird scooters and overpriced coffee shops tbh

#comics aren’t going for realism Ik I’m just a snob who thinks it’s funny #ada.txt #dd #daredevil posting #okay reasonably the show exists in the post avengers universe where the city was almost destroyed #and the comics are just like that I mean can I blame them #Stan Lee in 1964: he’s a blind lawyer in one of the worst neighborhoods! he fights organized crime with his ninja skills!#present day dd: look dude I’m literally j beating up people for rent money it’s so goddamn expensive here nowadays #this doesn’t make sense oopsie #matt murdock #daredevil #daredevil comics #netflix daredevil #she hulk #karen page #foggy nelson #hells kitchen #elektra natchios #mattfoggy

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fisheito · 10 months

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Resting body temperature headcanons based on pure speculation

#nu carnival #no i didn't put them at their proper heights they are all just existing randomly #yakumo is an icicle because i want him to be i need him to be #but does he technically go in the middle?? bc someone says “endothermic temperature regulation”#and yakumo will respond “who is that”#how can rei and Dante be similar resting temps but one is almost dead and the other has the energy to fight at the slightest provocation #i don't know #none of this is science #maybe Edmond got his baseline down after his desert training lol #something something muscles higher metabolism than fat something differing temperatures something #edmonds fat thighs are the only thing keeping him from heat stroke #kuya needs everything to be a crisp 17.6 degrees Celsius for optimal comfort #i don't even know why quincy is the king Master heat radiator 6000 #i have no evidence #just a feeling #this entire scale was sparked by the lingering idea that yakumo would enjoy using quincy as a personal heater #they started this #as soon as i finished this i started changing my mind on everyone #gOOD THING temperature isn't a forever one time value----- huh---!!!!!#garu reminds me of those tiny dogs u hold and they're just somehow so warm and their lil hearts beat so fast and you're just wondering #how yall keeping cool under all that fur??? i need to get u some watermelons to lie on #the clan's all here!

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saccharinerose · 9 months

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Wdym Neuvillette knows that he could achieve full dragonhood AND stop the prophecy + save the people of Fontaine if he, as the Dragon Sovereign of Water, had the authority over the element returned to him but bc, according to him, the Archon (aka Furina) would need to "disappear" for that, he's like nah we gotta find a different solution to the prophecy.

#saccha's thoughts #gi #4.1 spoilers #genshin 4.1 spoilers #genshin 4.2 leaks #genshin 4.2 speculation #for the tags down below #they bicker but he cares for her so dearly...#i am so excited to learn more about their history #it HAS to be revealed in 4.2 at least #4.2 leaks/speculation from here on #there have been leaks about Furina 'no longer being an archon' after 4.2 #i almost think she's actually going to do it #forfeit her position as archon to return elemental authority to the sovereign and openly defy celestia by doing that #which is why she is no longer considered 'an archon'#bc the position of 'hydro archon' would literally no longer exist #if so absolute fucking girlboss move #go queen commit some blasphemy

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