#I feel like I already know the outcome ngl

[samwisegamwise]

since I did the Crowley poll..

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[xoxitgirl]

⊹₊ ⋆ seasons results! ⊹ ࣪ ˖

⟡ part one ⟡

so usually I try to write it down from the day i start and document the results from then but I literally forgot lmaoo so heres it broken down into every couple days/every week! ima keep this method tho ngl because its so useful but this is probably gonna be a long post bc i wanna be as raw as possible w ya’ll.

season one: jdnavsthewrld ⋆𐙚 ₊ ˚ ⊹ ♡

overview

so first and foremost—my season is going to be filled with all of my designs blowing up, making hundreds of dollars a week, improving my relationship with my boyfriend, and getting a new charger. I wrote out everything in detail so that way it was easier for me to understand exactly what I want like shipping out orders and stuff in my new car, taking a trip to NY, collaborating with some designers that I really like + meeting some designers as well, having hella photo shoots, etc! so it starts off with me getting a new car, it’s easier for me to process all of my orders and get yarn/make clothing just because I have a more efficient car.

dec 3-10

this week was full of me reminding myself im living in my season and my whole idea is about my buisness blowing up and a new carr so ngl its already blown up a little cause someone posted my skirt but it slowed down and now its picking back up. one thing that I’m trying to remember is that I’m not going to know how good it is to have a lot of sales unless I know what it’s like to have lower sales like understanding the duality of owning a business that not every single day you’re going to have the most ideal amount of sales, but that time to be creative and breathe will definitely lead you to that outcome in the long run. I made 4 sales this week so its definitely making me feel a little like imposter syndrome like this cant be happening blah blah blah but I quickly redirected my thoughts to, “what happens in my season? my business was meant to blow up, this is what I’m meant to be doing.”

dec 11-18

okay I made 6 more sales, when I started I had 25 now I’m at 35 so I feel hella confident because I’m constantly falling asleep doing SATS. I can literally feel all the excitement and anxiety and nerves that come with an abundance of success. I sold my biggest custom order to a new client, this two piece set and a fur skirt so I’m like damn. its only bigger and better from here. another thing I added was me and my boyfriend are getting better and connecting more and I feel like our relationship is definitely growing in a healthier way. I made around $300 this week from my pieces so I cant even be upset if I wanted to (,:

dec 19-25

so okay new updateee I sold another 3 item set so I made another $100 this week, mind you im writing this the 21st so the week’s not even over yet, and I feel hella confident in my season. I finally finished drafting everything thats happening. im also having a lot of fun maintaining that it’s already mine. I literally spend so much time vaunting. I was meant to be a designer. of course I have sales, im that bitch. people loovee my clothes cause who else is doing it like me? literally nobodyy. this is what gets me to feel more confident too, if you’re not reassuring yourself who is yk? and my relationship is sooo goodd 🥺 like its been so peaceful and my bf has been surprising me with pinterest dates and shit like what is my lifee!!

ima come back and update after my moms bday, I always have a routine for the new year which is expelling all old energy. like cleaning my room, donating clothes, i also sage everything, make new sigils, wash my hair and alll my clothes so yeah lol i have a feeling the new energy will be beautiful.

dec 26-jan 2

okay I’ve been learning how to sew and I’ve been getting really really good at it. like making my own pieces by myself—before I used to have my mom help me, but now I actually know how to sew fr. I wanna show y’all so ill insert some things ive made/been making. ngl tho I think ima give it like a week or so more to really saturate my mind because I been listening to this sub by slade and its really been helping but I gotta focus on consistency! so thats really what im focusing on through the 15th so more updates around then!! my goal is to have more posts and get ready for a mini photoshoot.

jan 3-jan 12

jan 4th.. coming up with designs that are exactly what I envision/things that ive never seen knit or done in this style. made my collab post but skeptical about when I should make my collab collection so well see but I feel like the things im making rn are multimillion dollar designs like I can feel it in my core. also about to clean my car out soon to trade my car in for the charger of my dreams, apparently my parents were looking for chargers for monthsss and didn’t tell me cause they wanted to surprise me.. for reference y’all I literally have a charger sub i made 5 months ago and was so in my head about it but now i feel like my mind is fully saturated. every time I drive, it feels like im already in a new car, I imagine it in the driveway. I already have it in the 4d so its beyond mine in the 3d.

jan 7.. omg so update, I literally cleaned my car out today and I’m trading it in on friday like what the fuck is my lifee I knew it would happen but this was the first time where I realy put my foot down and envisioned myself driving the car literally everywhere. I race ppl like im in a charger already lmaoo the planes were bound to align sooner or later!! ill insert how it looks when it gets here yall we might have to order it but this is the first step in my journey—I get my charger, my design acc blows up, and so forth. (;

okay hi guys I made 2 sales recently and I just got my charger, everything literally feels like it’s falling into place and it’s kind of surreal. I think I’m gonna make a part two for my results because this post is getting helllla long but I GOT A 2023 CHARGER STX and tbh I wanted an R/T but the only one I could get was 2015 so im just hella happy I got a brand new car and it looks EXACTLY HOW I WANT—black rims, spoiler, it looks so mean!!! ugh im in love. peep my noface air freshener from my last car (,: and it only has 10 miles yall… I love using seasons so much

next post coming by valentines day! 💋

itgirl ⊹ ࣪ ˖

[eldritch-spouse]

I'm in love with Breg. I require more slitplay with dear Breg to survive 🥺👉👈 How would he react to an S/O who just wants to lay him down and spend a Saturday licking him like a cat?

[This is more torture than bliss for him, ngl.]

You groan, slapping his outer thighs. If Breg keeps moving, this will get much harder than it has to be.

The monster jolts a bit, but otherwise releases another drawn out whine, claws finding purchase on the headboard of your now shared bed. It's wooden, you don't trust him not to ruin it eventually.

" A-Angel... " He calls.

You muffle a snort, continuing to lap at a flushed blue slit, already puffed from constant stimulus. Stopping to kiss it is more of a tease than it is a loving gesture. Breg can cry about it all he wants, considering he was the one that encouraged this in the first place. Dumbass, never thinks a step ahead, does he?

Hips buck upwards again, forcing your tongue inside him against your wishes. This time, you peel back with a frown, flattening your palm against that bulging sheath. The breeder offers you a very flustered, pitiful expression.

" Angel please- Please, c-can I just pull them out? "

"Them" being his cocks. The protrusions that have been more than ready to show themselves practically since this started. You considered it when Breg asked you the same thing several times before. If he pulled out, you could technically still reach his insides, though the reach would be severely limited by his fat pulsing dicks in the way. Plus, he'd start touching himself, the cumbrain can't help it. You should have tied his hands, but one thing you have in common with Breg, is that you're both pretty impulsive.

Maybe it's why this "relationship" has worked out rather well so far?

Alright, tangents aside, it's much better to keep him like this. The monster can't stimulate himself, can't restrict your access, and he's pleading like a filthy mutt in just the way you've come to love from this loser. Ah, and you do have a goal with all this, of course... Beyond just making him squirm for amusement, that is.

You must have taken too long to respond, because Breg makes a sound that reminds you of a sniffle and grits his teeth.

" No. Come on, don't be a little baby, I'm doing this for you! " Lies. " If you want to stop- "

" NO! " He almost lurches forward, though it only results in sliding one of your fingers inside that already sort of stuffed orifice, making the other shudder and gasp. Nonetheless, a cheshire grin spreads on your face. Because Breg would sooner have you torture him than not have your hands on his body. " No, please... It's... I'm so hard it hurts. "

You cackle. It's entirely mean-spirited. " Aww, are you? "

He knows he's being babied and he doesn't care. " Yes! I- It's been... "

Eyes cast to the bedside table. An hour. It's been more or less and hour since you've started this treatment. And the funniest part is that it feels like mere minutes for you. Just Breg writhing on your bed, you working lazily between his long legs, the TV droning on somewhere and the sound of raindrops hitting the window. Really now, could things get any more comfortable?

" You can handle a bit more. " Your digit slips out of that wet cavern, you make sure to cover his slit so his lengths can't push out.

" I really can't. "

There's drool on the corners of his lips, probably from all the times he's snarled and bit his tongue in frustration. He looks pretty like this. Beastly. You figure there's a couple of outcomes for this situation, though none of them put you in real danger.

" You're way too dramatic. "

And back to his slit you dip. One kitten lick at a time, watching clawed toes curl and hearing him cry for more wordlessly. The most recent thing you've been doing that appears to drive Breg nuts is to suck on it. Creating an intense, drooled vacuum around the monster's sheath and humming. You don't even mind it when he basically slaps his pelvis onto your chin, because hearing that guttural, panting growl makes you melt to a puddle. It fades into a tremulous sort of whimper when you pop your lips off, watching the muscle contract around nothing. A couple more instances of this and you're pretty sure Breg is crying.

" Please! Let me out. " Ah yes, your broken record of a boyfriend. " I want that on m- my- "

" Not yet. " You warn, cutting him off when you shove your tiny tongue as far into his entrance as you can.

Breg keens, short, clipped noises that are more akin to depraved animal begging. Immediately, you're able to feel the tips of his cocks, prodding at them experimentally and smiling when the breeder makes a slightly relieved, low moan. Like you've offered him just a taste of what he wants, which you suppose is what you're doing when you try to circle the head of one of his shafts with your tongue.

Claws audibly dragging through wood and a thrashing tail clue you in to the monster's turmoil. He looks down at you with an open-mouthed leer, and you've been around Breg long enough to tell he's debating if he should push your face further against his slit or shove you back so he can pull his dicks free. You however, know better. He won't do anything, because he's too focused on the sensation to think much of anything beyond how good it feels.

It must have been a small eternity for Breg. Maybe half an hour for you. Another hour? Eh, who cares. All you know is that he's a blubbering mess, head tossing this way and that as the monster humorously lies further into the sheets, as if wanting to crawl towards you in his subconscious desperation. He's caked in drool and precum, the mess of fluids spreading on his pelvis, cascading to his ass and thighs before finally pooling on the sheets. Sometimes you'll slurp just because you know the breeder enjoys hearing those gross noises.

" A-Ahn! Fuck fuck ffuh- "

Oh look, he's talking again. Heh.

You don't make a case out of it, he's probably just toeing the line of climax like he has a couple of times before now. What you don't expect however, is for Breg to actually push through. There's a howl that shakes walls, some kind of rumble deep from that wide chest, legs trap you against his might while the monster rolls and bucks.

You're hit with it before you can even register what's happening. Globs of cum oozing and squeezing out of him with more pressure than you expected. Well, there's your answer. So he can come from this alone, and with his cocks inside too... Eitherway, you have no qualms cleaning up after the mess you caused, gentle but never ceasing as you coax more out of the huffing breeder. Breg makes a humorous chorus of overstimulated noises before slumping altogether, making you snicker.

The best part though, has got to be watching his still-spurting girths slowly slip out, wet and sloppy, making Breg's currently hypersensitive slit spasm and the monster curl on himself in a mixture of pain and pleasure.

Pity, you were hoping to keep them in there for a while longer...

[iamthat-iam]

https://www.tumblr.com/iamthat-iam/722021459189432320/why-is-it-hard-to-know-what-i-want-its-hard-to?source=share

I do want to go to uni. Have fun and study. But I'm ngl I also want to attend uni bcus of the usual society norms ig..btw one more question. I have failed my university exam as I, mentioned before. And the uni will start in 2 weeks. On the other hand I have my parents asking me attend the classes to write 2024 med entrance exam from tomorrow. I dont really want to tho. But it seems like the only option now. What should I focus on now? Like I am imagining but that seems to have no effect. I feel like just lying to myself. Idk

"I'm imagining but see no effect, I feel like I'm lying to myself"

You are still convinced that what is happening in the "physical" is real, and that it has to be changed in order for what you want to be real. The Self (consciousness, God) is already aware of all outcomes, including the one where you aced your entrance exams. The ego doesn't even have to know what it is specifically that "you" are studying, the Self Knows that "you" are attending uni and studying something that "you" enjoy. Let whatever happens in the physical, happen, because it is not you nor your business anyway. It is not any more "real" than what you imagine. You say you've been imagining the desired outcome, congratulations you've just experienced the desired outcome! It happened because you experienced it in Consciousness, which is thr only thing that is real. Stop relying on the 5 human senses and stop waiting for things to change in the physical.

[onecantsimply]

Ummm May i request an headcanon for Jack the ripper having sex with his lover,and She's a Virgin??

Feel free to decline of it's make you uncomfortable

Of course you can request that- I wouldn’t be writing NSFW in general if it were uncomfortable to me- But since this is my first time writing of JTR’s NSFW in the form of headcanons, these may be a bit scrambled or a bit short. But still, I hope you enjoy it.

Warnings: NSFW content, Small praise kink

Jack definitely knows you’re a virgin, and he seems rather surprised to have you bring up that you want a child. (Or that you kind of just want to do it. He may be fine either way.) But within that kind of process, Jack wants to take things slow, aligned to both his own and your tastes. Cue him being a body worshipper-

I do kind of think that Jack would be rather a bit nervous though. Knowing him, he may be afraid of hurting you. Mostly by accident since he knows how the Human body can be. Jack would never intentionally hurt you unless he knows you would enjoy it. Even then, he would be hesitant on it until he knows he can step out of those types of boundaries.

Onto handjobs, god is this man kinda bigger than you thought he would be- (Fr fr I looked on Rukia’s interpretation and god damn-) But still, Jack is at least slightly flustered. He’s never really tried this before. Normally, he would be calm in situations he has kind of no knowledge on, but this is entirely different. Especially when it comes to you.

Normally he would have just... gutted someone if they came at him like that. But you’re rather different, so being touched like that, Jack has almost no clue of what to do other than watch as you kind of touch him to your own liking. Either way, it sparks pleasure within him, and is enough to get him more ready and in more calm emotion for a next phase.

Handjobs may have Jack wincing a bit ngl- Depending on if you may know how to actually give someone that kind of thing- But since you’re a virgin we’ll put that as a no and have Jack enjoy it regardless-

Alright, for blowjobs, Jack may get a bit more into it. Depending on how much you can deepthroat, he may thrust in a bit out of reflex. But when he realizes what he’s done, he’ll make a quick apology and keep himself in check. But if it’s alright with you, Jack may just do it a few more times out of his pleasure.

He may be a bit more vocal for it as well. Enjoy those- Additionally to the fact that he may give you some praise if you deepthroat him enough and have him in enough pleasure- Have his head tilted back, his fingers tangled into your hair, and have him holding back his sounds and we’ll see-

Now, onto the actual thing- Jack tends to be more gentle since you’re a virgin. He’ll keep things slow and he may be rather nervous to even insert himself into you. Even if you’re ready to take it, you may have to reassure him. Jack’s just worried of the outcomes. Questions may swarm him, and he may get more nervous.

Please comfort this man and reassure him that you’ll stay with him-

But even so, away from the sudden slight angst, this man happens to enjoy looking into your colors of glee while he pleasures you. You’ve already done so much for him and he could finally repay you in some way. Even if it may not be in a way he kind of fully intended, he’s still glad he has the opportunity. 

Jack happens to enjoy gripping at your hip and shoulder to keep you steady while he’s thrusting into you. Whether you would enjoy being on your back or on your knees, Jack can take either. He may enjoy you being on his lap though. If it has you close to him so that he could mark some hickeys on your neck, he’ll definitely enjoy it- Speaking of hickeys, Jack may not even need to bother searching for it- He may as well just know where it is by default- 

He slightly enjoys hickeys on himself too so give it a try- 

When Jack finishes inside of you, he happens to like making sure you don’t escape his grasp anyhow. He’ll keep you still for a small bit and make sure that his cum is in your womb before finally pulling out and letting you go. 

If you don’t want a kid then he’ll just pull out before he releases. If you want him to release on you, go for it- If you wanna eat his kids, go for it- Lmfao-

[1d1195]

It makes me so sad to know you don’t love Dryer sheets as much anymore :( but like I said I don’t blame you for feeling like this. It definitely felt at times when mean anons would come at you, you had to constantly defend your story and it can be tiring to do that! But I hope that you can learn to appreciate/love them again because in the end writing should be enjoyable!

No I completely get what you mean about you not perceiving your writing being suspenseful! It is coming from your brain so you already like know the outcome so I get it! Kinda hard to explain but I GET the vibe lol

And bestie I’ve has a busy weekend so far but in a fun way! LET ME CATCH YOU UP!!!

Okay so I think I have another cute TA…. NOW HERE ME OUT GIRL!!! So it’s for another PSYC class and this particular TA has been gone for about 2ish weeks bc he’s been in another country the entire time lol BUT he came back this week and he lectured and Sam he’s kinda cute!! Like he’s definitely a bit nerdy but when he speaks his VOICE😩 and he’s obviously so smart but he’s so like “chill” about it that it doesn’t come off as he’s trying time done his smartness if that makes sense! And he has the cutest laugh😩 anyways that was a something lol I feel like wining for having two hot TAs but ngl I’m still longing for my hot ex-professor 😔

And I went to a drag show last night which WAS FUN!!! And today I went to a bunch of record stores for Record store day! It was so fun and I got some records that I’ve been wanting!

How was your week? What’s been something you’ve enjoyed the most in your break? Also HOW ARE YOU MY LOVE?!

Hope you are just so well and relaxing! Miss you! And I love you lots!-💜

I think I still love them, they just felt like a chore to write about toward the end. But now they're a couple and in love so they should be fluffy and fun to write about 😉

I have no doubt you have multiple cute TAs. It'll make class worth going to--although, now that I think about it, when does this round of classes end? Do you take summer classes or will you get to break and enjoy down time? I feel like you've mentioned something about the summer already and I truthfully can't place what you said in my brain. ANYWAY. All your cute TAs and hot professors will just get stored into my files for TA Harry so please keep it coming. I don't think there is anything sexier than a guy being extremely intelligent but not bragging about it nor making you feel like an idiot (personal experience, not trying to call you an idiot 😂😂). AND A CUTE LAUGH I'D BE AT HIS FEET IN THE MIDDLE OF A LECTURE.

WHAT A NICE WEEKEND! What kinds of records did you get? I totally missed the boat on getting back into records. I have my one Harry's House record for target and no where to play it hehehe My week was good! I finished my book early--it turned out to be better about halfway through. It was about three sisters who are witches. Really cool stuff! I think my favorite part of my week was shopping--I got a lot of cute clothes for the spring/summer that I'm hoping I'll feel comfortable in--I've mentioned it before but heat and I don't really mesh so I find it really distressing and difficult to dress in the summer. Topped with some body image issues 🙃 Well anyway--it was a very productive and relaxing week/break! School will be really busy the for the next month and I'm lowkey dreading it. I think I'm going to be writing off schedule a bit in the month of May and beginning of June. I have Ding part 3 ready for tomorrow which I'm excited about 💕

Hope you have a relaxing Sunday and a good start to your week!

xoxo

[hurrakka]

oh man. theoretically in a l4d au luis would've helped develop the green flu yeah? sure it's a naturally occurring virus in l4d canon (maybe. we're not really sure where it comes from cus ceda doesnt say shit but ellis mentions the government using bio-bombs in one of his keith stories so it could be a bioweapon?) but this is an au we can do what we want.

anygays im just imagining leon getting infected. we know better-safe-than-sorry-guy (i call him scout cus his va is the same as scout from tf2) is human when we first find him but experiencing extreme paranoia and some compulsions then a few minutes later he fully turns, going from able to speak and function to choking and growling and fully mutated (either into a hunter, boomer, or smoker) so there's always the possibility of a rapid transformation too. im thinking leon falling behind a bit while theyre walking because he's coughing and chokin and shit n he falls to his knees and luis is all like "bro whats wrong!!" and he gets to watch as leon Turns Before His Eyes. even better if he turns into a hunter cus if you look closely at their models they don't have eyes. we can't be exactly sure what Happens to their eyes when they turn but the two most popular headcanons are both equally brutal-- either Luis has to watch Leon's eyes quite literally melt out of his skull or he gets to watch him claw his own eyes out. Fun!

BUT there's graffiti in one of the safe rooms arguing over how long it actually takes to turn-- whether it's 20 minutes, 2 hours, overnight, or some other wacky chunk of time. so there's also the thought of Leon turning slowly. progressively becoming irritable and irrational and confused and him slipping in and out of conciousness for days until Luis goes to check his temp one day and he fucking Lunges.

and if leon turns and luis makes it out alive imagine the Guilt. he feels awful enough in re4 canon when there's a cure,,, but the green flu mutates too often to develop a proper cure for it. if leon gets infected and he isnt immune then he's just. done. theres nothing that can help him at that point. and luis already feels so goddamn guilty about the millions of people he's killed and now leon's gone too and he cant help but visualize every single person who had somebody ripped from them by his hands.

oh man and if luis has to put leon down? its joever. that man would Never recover. i dont even know if he'd keep trying to survive at that point. maybe just for that shred of hope of developing a cure (even though he knows it'd be damn-near impossible but it's the only thing hes got, dammit) and stopping this whole disaster.

coughs. sorry for the rambling i simply have been obsessed with l4d for going on 12 years now so <3

I had to lay down for a moment bc of the feels and potential outcomes in the event luis lives on while leon well...yeah (thinkin abt how buddy from re damnation would jus turn as well since leon is no longer there and that made me big sad dgkrnekhbfgnjklh) Since the re verse has like morbillion viruses, the green flu existing would be plausible so its just another stonks moment for umbrella lol. But yeah luis would absolutely be devastated. He probably doesnt have the guts to pull the trigger, least he can do is to restrain leon for a while and tries to find whatever humanity he has left in his nonexistent eyes. Tho in my witch!leon hc I think luis may have a chance to keep leon around??? Since witches seem to have the most humanity among the infected (and thats not saying much) he could probs observe him a lil bit without getting eaten right away. It would just be a warm bodies scenario ngl (i just watched that movie recently so this is huge copium dksfghbshgndfh) Honestly Im glad l4d fandom still alive after all these years. That game will always be goated and it was one of my high-school obsessions. I used to do crossover stuff back then and Im back to doing it now. Time rly do be a flat circle

[themadchemist]

I'm really looking forward to playing Baldur's Gate 3.

Like, it's gonna be my first D&D style game and with how long I've been meaning to get into D&D, I'm really excited about it. And the fact that it has so many options that actually affect your gameplay experience seems super fun, but it's also super scary ngl XD

Like, in most games that I played, what you choose doesn't affect the overall outcome of the story and even when it does, there are usually like idk 3 endings at best, so the way they seem to be going with bg3, from what I understand at least, and how your choices affect the story so much and I think even which companions stay with you (I wasn't that focused on what they were saying tbh, was waiting for the "bear scene" XD) , it's already feeling a bit overwhelming. At least, for someone who's so new to the genre.

Again, I like that your actions and choices have consequences, it's fun, exciting but still a bit overwhelming.

Especially when the 2 characters I liked the most seem to be like complete opposites. Although, with the way I'd probably play my character, at least based on how I did in the EA, they're gonna be "a good person", so while this doesn't seem like it's gonna be a problem for Halsin (who I still can't believe that he's actually gonna be romancable, like YESSSSS!!!), Astarion might prove a little more difficult, with how much that stupid wet cat of a man disapproved of my choices XD (I honestly don't remember if I still got him for the romance scene despite that). Like, for once I'm leaning more to the "I can fix him, I can make him better" side because it would just make things easier for me (Because as much as I personally love villains and bad guys, I really can't choose the "bad" options in games even if I want to lol) and it would be good character development for him, some may find it boring but I think it'd be kinda sweet.

This is like my main concern about all the options (silly I know, but I just want all my faves in one playthrough), aside from the "I want to make sure I get a sort of a good ending" thing.

I know the game isn't even out yet and I'm probably over thinking and over complicating things, but I really hope, with how much effort and thought were put into this game, they would've accounted for such a possible playstyle? Especially from how popular Halsin and Astarion seem to be. And if I can romance them together, it would be even better, simply because it'll save me from having to do more than 1 one playthrough XD

I know it's all about replaying the game and choosing all the different options and the rp and how you get certain things based on your race and class and stuff, but I kinda get bored easily if I have to repeat things.

Maaaan, this turned out waaaaaaaay longer than I thought it would be, can you tell that I'm pretty excited about this game? Lol

And please note that I know next to nothing about D&D lore so if anyone knows where I can learn at least the basic stuff, preferably videos, please let me know!!

[xsoulxsilencex]

I was thinking for a while how I should handle my (critical) thoughts on ep 95 on tumblr. And I decided that I will use the tags and simply hide my explanation under "keep reading" so you can choose to continue reading or stop already. Maybe some will end up agreeing with me, others might disagree and think "man, you missed the point/you don't get it" - which is fine.

So what to say about ep 95? Firstly, my opinion hasn't changed after watching it with subs: I didn't cry, I wasn't even really sad which might be weird considering I do like Nishaw and the Velgearians. (and I have cried for or was at least feeling a bit emotional about other death scenes, even in ygo so it's not like I'm just not caring enough or even cold-hearted)

But Idk... them dying didn't affect me and it might be because the "wrong" people were there to see it happen. I know this sounds mean but Asaka and Tazaki over Yudias (and the twins)? Really? And before someone says "well duh, he's not supposed to know so ofc we get nothing of him in that regard" - well, I don't like. I had a feeling from the spoiler summary that they would go down the "we don't want to upset Yudias so lets keep quiet about his comrades dying, we mean well" road and I still can't vibe with that, no matter how good the intention behind it is.

So on one hand, Tazaki can understand the Velgearians' feelings but he also knows that Yudias should know what's going on. And at first he made me believe that he would go back to UTS and tell him the truth - but no, he changes his mind and asks Asaka if she can give him some of her employees to act as the Velgearians for a while which is a pretty meh plan imo.

Asaka's reaction to this is basically mine:

Ngl, for a while, I thought Asaka would stay with her opinion that keeping everything a secret is a bad idea since that's not changing reality and the grief would just be postponed - and I agree with her. But it's not like she's uncaring since you see in her change of expression that it pains her too what's happening but it is how it is.

And then I thought Tazaki might change his opinion even if he still has this dilemma of trying to respect the Velgearians' last wish and letting Yudias know.

So, did Tazaki end up siding with Asaka? Well, we get no answer yet because Nishaw randomly shows up, looking kinda frozen. Asaka goes into explanation mode and exposes herself as a hypocrite:

At least she knows herself that she's hypocritical.

But still, I'm disappointed. I had wished in her not changing her mind even though deep inside, I had this (bad) feeling she's gonna side with Tazaki eventually and say nothing. Because it was the most predictable outcome no matter if she had lost or won. (*side eye at Luge vs Zaion*)

Also: Asaka freezing Nishaw to prevent him from dying feels like coming out of nowhere imo. And if freezing was really her best idea then why didn't she ever think of asking Luge? You know, the guy who can turn people into ice blocks by letting them see his boring manga? (and he can still freeze people despite being transformed into a massage chair iirc) Did she think he would refuse to help her or immediately tell Yudias and co. about her idea? Ngl, I do wonder if Luge's ice would've been better to prevent the death of the Velgearians than whatever Asaka developed since the former is ice made by alien power so it might be stronger than what humans developed. But I guess I will never get an answer for that...

When the duel ends, Tazaki holds a dead Valvelgear close while Asaka can just look at them with sadness. I know that many people got emotional seeing this and here comes my issue that I mentioned earlier in my post: the "wrong" characters witnessed the deaths. I like Tazaki and I'm overall cool with Asaka but no way this duel didn't happen mainly for some "Asana vs Galient" nostalgia similar to Rovian vs Princess Minstrel being a reminder of Romin vs Princess G. Nobody can tell me it wouldn't have been way more devastating to see the episode ending with Yudias or Yuhi holding Valvelgear with a tear-stained face since those two are the ones with the strongest bond with them. Did Tazaki even have scenes with Valvelgear alone before this episode? I honestly can't remember if yes - which is why I feel like they did that scene of Tazaki wanting to feed Valvelgear like a baby at the beginning of the ep + him using Valvelgear as a duel disk (like Yuhi usually does) to show that they have a bond even though it was pretty stupid to use Valvegear when the Velgearians in it are dying aka are already weakened and so shouldn't have been running around and pushing things just to work as a duel disk.

Nishaw was barely there but considering how sad Yudias and co. already looked when hearing about the Dudi people dying, they would've been sad to see him die too ofc.

The episode ends in Yudias and co. being back to MIK, talking with Phaser about the Rush Robot. And the very last scene is Yuga caught on camera. We likely just got Yuga there because he's gonna be the reason for the Yuna vs Manabu rematch.

I'm probably starting to repeat myself but damn... if the episode had actually ended with Yudias knowing what happened to his comrades and Nishaw (and the next ep would go more into his feelings after hearing that) instead... I kinda doubt that ep 96 will give us much focus on him considering the duel match up we get but I really hope that Yudias and the twins getting the sad news told won't be done off screen or in a quick flashback. Come on, I need to see their shocked faces, their tears and potential screams because no way Yuhi will just silently cry. Heck, he might be so mad (and maybe even feeling useless again after he had promised Valvelgear to save them and failed) that either Yuamu or Yudias must bring him back to his senses. I can see Yuamu either "just" looking sad or crying but not in a loud way.

As for Yudias... I think there are two ways he could take the news: He either starts crying and blaming himself for not noticing that his comrades were already dying and be very down (which Asaka and Tazaki wanted to prevent) - or Yudias cries but surprises everyone by not being completely crushed by the news but is still determined to find a way to save (and now also revive) his people. After all, we just know that the Velgearians in Valvelgear are dead. What's with the Velgearians who are still on Velgear? Are they already dead too or still alive? Is anyone even caring to check on them? And there's Dinois, Myuda and Zwijo too ofc.

Speaking of Zwijo: I dislike how he's always gone and in the middle of an arc, he comes back because the plot needs him. Like why can't we get a glimpse of what he's doing in the meantime? Where is he right now? Did he check on Velgear? Did he have contact with Yuga? Did he find something relevant? Is he maybe already too weak to do anything? Why do we always have to wait for such information until he's the focus again? Is it so hard having a duel between some characters and still show on the side what Zwijo's up to? He's the main rival and a freaking Velgearian! His kind is dying and we don't have a freaking clue how he feels about it and where he even is.

So yeah, those were my thoughts on ep 95. Sorry if they sound mostly negative but I really wished the writers had done some different choices there. But let's see how ep 96 and the rest of arc 8 will be...

[siswritesyanderes]

Hey just a random anon poppin' in to say love your fic on Deltarune, ngl at first thought I wouldn't like it had been reading a lot of stuff looking for a good yandere kris as I was craving it but all of them left me disconnected how ironic with your fic title it finally scratched that itch and even allowed me to start reading some other stuff now feeling more connected to the idea of kris

However, don't think I've found one yet that tops your idea of them and the way you write them (I've also only looked on Tumblr so far but with how great yours has been at having me on the edge of my seat I don't know if I'll ever find one that tops you)

And goner! Goner is amazing! I usually end up either just accepting or hating a lot of writers who insert characters that feel like mostly oc material but goner doesn't at all and fits really well with the story (Really impressive tbh cuz sometimes on first readings even when a character isn't the op oc insert and actually plays into the story I can end up feeling eh about them just due to deciding they are but goner just immediately on the first few lines captivated me)

It probably helps that most of it is your interpretation on them since Kris also doesn't have much personality known about them so cause of that nothing feels screaming out of place or wrong instead it reminds me of when I read a lot of au stuff- with fics that feel like their trying to capture the magic of the source material I think I get a lot more critical but your writing in this fic has it's own magic and lore

Like why they're both obsessed! The SOUL is pretty much drug-like and addicting to such a point without their guidance Kris is crippled, this not only creates amazing tension with their weakened state but also really makes you think about if it's actually even good for either of them to pine after the very soul that will take them both over. But as the soul we also have a life not of our own to live, to see, and explore every possibility and every outcome. The reader is almost god-like with resets but an easily chained-up one without a host. Which also creates an understanding of why Kris chooses to put the reader in a cage, limit them and create interest and mystery but also because that feeling of power over something so powerful has to also be somewhat addicting and why they view the soul as wholeheartedly (pun intended) *theirs*

And it also shows how much they're willing to go through to get it back that even while weakened and at every possible disadvantage they still want to risk it all.

And honestly with all of this really do feel like the SOUL in this situation, which may be my favorite part as the main element you do keep in deltarune is that feeling of playing a game. Is there that concern for goner? Yes, but do I also want to see how far goner and kris will go tearing each other apart to see who gets the SOUL? Also yes. Recreates that aspect of deltarune very well including the accurate freak out every person playing games has when the character their playing makes a sudden decision [See goner killing a monster cuz they called them Kris] and it perfectly ties it back into the plot and uses it to make further tension as the SOUL just goes along this new path while Kris is freaking out thinking there have already been resets because of it.

Just? Love? So? Much?

Keep doing what you're doing- I hope my feedback has only influenced you in positive ways- (slightly debated on taking out the more negative aspects where I mentioned things I disliked in other fics and things I hyper-fixated on or possibly misremembered outa fear it would make you change yourself too much- I have no idea what I'm talking about or what makes a story a good story only what makes my brain go brrrrrrr and that's all you should read this as, someone just really over-excited rn- ill probably calm down later)

Wow, thank you so much! This was an absolutely delightful ask/comment! I'm so glad you've been enjoying Verge of Connection so far! It's been very fun to write. 😁

[weaselbeaselpants]

This post isn't about She-Ra and the princesses of Power

Ngl, without seeing it, it seems like half of everyone's takes on She-Ra stems from ppl being lead to believe thru the fandom that Catdora was #relationshipgoals when really it was always supposed to be a romance that grew out of toxicity. And then you all didn't like that outcome/how it written/how it was STILL being touted as relationship goals by the fandom despite the intention of the writing.

Just a guess. I have bad news for everybody though: you really do need to coexist with people who feel kinned to characters you hate or you're never gonna get through the day. And no, not kinned in a SnapeWives sorta way and no not kinned to shit like Humbert Humbert god nojesusCHRIST. I mean characters ppl enjoy and relate to and maybe even want better writing for because they just like angsty, problematic characters and see themselves in. blorbos. I've heard read up on this Catra betch and it seems like a similar problem to be had with the Crystal Gems or even the Diamonds; being a fan of them isn't a problem unless you just straight up stan them like they're real people and they actually never did anything wrong. I'm gonna wager a lot of fans/ex fans/whoever did NOT have any chill about this and that really exaserbated ur already dislike of her and the Catdora pairing, at least a little.

Why someone attaches themselves to certain characters could be an indicator of character, or, more often then not, it just means they like an aspect of said character but have a bad means of handling their emotions over their blorbos.

I for one know, as a fan of my own blorbos and a 'hater' of other people's, that even nuanced-read fan readings can be annoying and ur just not in the mood w it comes to a character you REALLY dislike. It's not a "wrong" take it's just....god do I not wanna hear you spout your love for something that just makes me feel pissy.

Still- you gotta not read every person who likes a bad/badly written character as an immediate threat to you, anymore than the otherside shouldn't see someone who dislikes their blorbo as being "against" them. That's what leads to these nasty fanwars and pro vs anti fandom bs in the first place.

I have a mutual who loves Mysterious Woman from Centaurworld but hates Elktaur/NWK for personal+aesthetic+petty reasons. We get along even if we don't see eye to eye there because, you know, it's FANDOM not an actual indicator of our morals. They know I don't approve of real-life relationships anything like Mysterious Woman and NWKs and I still have merch she made of both characters on my bag at all times.

No one ever said you have to be buddy-buddys with everyone, but as long as it's not serious political disagreements or a matter of shit's that illegal or hate speech, you have to coexist. This is a fandom. You share a fandom. You can have ur anti-tag nooks where you complain about glubshito and you can have ur pro-glubshito tags. Just seriously learn to stop flinging mud and serious accusations/asertations on people's personal lives you don't know.

Suffering just makes you hurt. It doesn't make you smarter or better than anyone else.

[nakanotamu]

I'm pretty surprised they're running the 5 Star Finals again for the end of the year, I really expected it would be Mina or maybe Momo. Not that I thought Maika would still be doing tag belt stuff after this upcoming AphroditE match, but still.

I'm ngl it's still extremely unexciting to me. I wouldn't have wanted Suzu to beat Tam for the belt, and on paper I'd have thought I would be excited for her to beat someone else bc I do really like Suzu, but bc it feels inevitable I'm just... not. So it's like, should it go to Maika then, would that be more exciting? And like, idk maybe, but it feels like such a weird non-arc for the year for her if that's where she ends up. Which I mean, ig that's what happens when nothing leading up to it was booked with intentionality, but idk. It still feels to me like the double title match, they're booking themselves into places with no enjoyable outcome. But they do already have a relationship and stuff they've been doing on and off all year. Maybe if there was something they wanted to do with that and the chance to actually go anywhere with it kept getting pulled away, this could be the chance to do it for real.

This year has been so many threads getting brought up repeatedly, presumably bc people wanted to do something with them, but then not going anywhere or relating to the actual matches bc of the booking. So ig you kind of just have to ignore that stuff won't mesh with the year so far and hope it goes back to mattering moving forward. I know Maika & Suzu can deliver a good standalone match but like, if I'll enjoy the whole story, be emotionally invested, that takes more than that and they have so much ground they need to make back up.

[polar-jake778]

Need to get this off my chest.

In relation to my writing.

(Excuse the polar bear photos being used as text breakers. I hate having this much text in one column.)

I have been faced with the most, i assume to be, relevant of oppositions a writer would find stood before them: the standing of ones confidence.

This being linked into my self esteem will lightly talk on behalf of a rather touchy subject, but one not too scary I hope.

Well, let us start, shall we!

As for my time writing I have always been, lets just say, slightly disadvantaged due to my dyslexia. This means I cannot seem to read what I write. In the instances where I can, which are extremely rare; the reason behind such words are but null in comparison to the time it took to decipher. There have been many times where my writing skills, visually, appear to be representing a different language. Popular for their infamous artistry, I was denoted my skills in the replication of ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics.

Yes, I am not joking. Now, imagine having to sit down in a classroom filled with 30 other people. And for the teacher to utter words of genuine distress. "Peer marking time! Everyone, pass your work to the desk behind you." Not only was I terrified of my work being marked, but of my own ability to comprehend the student I was marking. This was a culmination of two major stressors, all in within the same moment.

With little need to go into detail on the mockery that is foreseen, my self esteem issues were born.

My writing has never been the best because of my dyslexia, and honestly, I hate it. I wish I could truly express the things my head can imagine. I want to make my sci-fi fantasy novel become a reality. I want to write poems that people can comprehend to the fullest.

But now that I have been writing my recent book for nearly a year now I feel the questions of my capability being raised. The confidence behind each word stood upon a cracked foundation. I have been told by many tutors and lecturers alike, my writing dialect is philosophical and complex. They do not think it is due to the dyslexia, rather just the way in which I navigate linguistics as an individual.

On top of the fear of my own intellectual capabilities which is a crap marvel film on its own, I look to my writing and see no true reasoning behind it all. It is like, I do not even know what an apostrophe is anymore. I find myself cornered into newly contextualized instances within my sentence structure that demand a correct outcome. By this I mean that I write so profusely, to the point in which I have difficulty figuring out how to grammatically represent what I wish to depict correctly. And when It comes to getting peer support, I am in utter horror of the events already mentioned transpiring again.

Regarding my literary capabilities, I feel as if I am stuck in a time warp. I am locked in this need to better ones self in every possible way. But I am held by this wall. Not by you, fate, or even surrounding environments. I am held by my own inhibition.

Sorry about the long rant. I needed to get this out. It has been plaguing me.

I doubt anybody will read this. Which, honestly, is in itself a relief. Sometimes the mere thought of people actually caring is enough to deceive the mind, thus provoking action, or even change.

Nevertheless, here is your polar bear!

(Kind of reminds me of Darth Vader ngl)

[lollytea]

Willow remembers that gus taught Hunter the breathing technique (def not for sentimental reasons) and the change of his character from before and after hollow mind must be very shocking (she already knew the place was terrible and Hunter wasn t hiding it at all but just how devastating it must be to see energetic/cocky buddy of yours into homeless scared paranoid mess)

Gus even said Hunter begged them to join "his mission" because of fear of recognition (which i take with a grain of salt since he said it in joking way but Hunter s reaction also makes me think it wasn t that far fetched)

(+luz Has fought belos before)

That s why so much more shaken up willow makes perfect sense and does not mean she s not worried for luz/ready to get her back girl is just more able to collect herself and be more logical

//Hunter finally having people who deeply care about his wellbeing is so heartwarming TT yes yes get more loving friends little guy

YEAH THATS WHAT IM SAYING

I doubt Hunter really went into detail about his experience in the mindscape. I figure what he told the Hexside staff and students was all he said on the matter, just basically explaining the sinister intentions of the Day of Unity and kept his mouth shut about everything else.

So he hasn't told Gus or Willow that if Belos finds him, he will kill him, and has already made an attempt to do so. But they're obviously smart enough to connect the dots. Gus witnessed his panic attack over Belos looking for him, and how he completely froze up in terror over the Belos illusion.

I'm sure Hunter's fear has been obvious even after the Hexside incident and I'm sure Willow has noticed. Coupled with Gus updating her on how Hunter acted in the labyrinth, she's most definitely going to note how he goes completely still when the name Belos is so much as mentioned. She knows Hunter is not telling them everything but that's okay. She can gather the basics on her own.

Under no circumstances can Hunter be returned to Belos. That would be very very VERY bad. Willow has decided this and is very firm on the matter.

I always felt like Hunter "begging" Willow and Gus to come with him on the Amity mission was a very underrated moment. I don't see a lot of people talking about just what it says about Hunter's character and his relationship with Willow and Gus. Since when does Hunter admit that he needs help? Since when does Hunter ask for it? And the biggest kicker is that he's asking to be protected. He knows Willow and Gus are two of the strongest witches he's ever met. He feels safe around them and he trusts that they won't let anything bad happen to them. He's putting his life in their hands. That's pretty big of Hunter ngl.

And obviously Gus teases him over it a bit and it's unknown if he really did "beg" but he asked. He wanted them there with him and that says a lot. And no matter how much they joked about it, it's clear by the end of the episode that Willow and Gus took their job as Hunter's protectors deathly seriously.

When Willow stormed on to that airship, she was absolutely berating herself like "I was supposed to keep him safe. He asked me to keep him safe. He trusted me to keep him safe. I didn't-"

Luz is very good at bouncing back from dangerous situations and Willow knows her friend. She's brave, she's clever, she's resourceful and she made the decision to so this and Willow believes in her judgement. They have every intention of going to save her but Willow knows she can take care of herself until they get there. But if it had been Hunter, the outcome would have been much much different. He would have frozen up. He wouldn't have been able to fight back. It would have been the point of no return.

[brookheimer]

honestly as someone who's had a kid pregnancy and motherhood def changed me and forced me to reconcile w upbringing and heal childhood trauma/stop generational trauma. I feel for shiv tho bc what mother role models has she got or even friends who have kids ??? the roys dont even have a Cool Aunt figure. i really hope its not like "shiv doesnt wanna be in the running anymore shes a mother now"

but i can see her priorities changing and her focusing on herself/retreating inwards idk just rambling !!

oh man if they pull the “shiv doesn’t wanna be ceo she’s a mother now” card i will brain them with fucking hammers fr. like i am nooottttt arguing for that in the mf SLIGHTEST i just want shiv to keep being shiv, keep being angry and machiavellian and ambitious and manipulative and aggressive and all of that, but also to be allowed to let herself love or want a family or whatever if she so desires!! like that’s the whole point, i don’t want it to be another Motherhood Vs Career thingy aka symbolically Woman Vs Man bc that’s so reductive and frustrating and people r much more complex than that and it’s not like oh you get an abortion you have officially chosen career/masculinity oh you have a kid you have officially chosen family/femininity like that’s not how real people, real lives, work! so yeah no if they do that, jesse armstrong will be receiving a VERY strongly worded letter . to say the least

but no like i completely agree!!! and this is such a helpful perspective too like… people are acting like pregnancy is just a tool to devalue women or rob them of autonomy which is so bizarre because there are so many incredibly wonderful strong powerful autonomous women who are pregnant or have kids or want kids, just there are so many incredibly wonderful strong powerful autonomous women who don’t!!! there’s just so much pressure on both ends of the spectrum especially considering where you’re coming from, you really just have to do what’s right for you! because, like, you don’t stop being a person when you become a mother. allllll your old shit is still present but as you said it also doesn’t, like, freeze in time — you can grow and heal and live your own life! motherhood isn’t innately an end to freedom or personhood or autonomy. like, i’m saying this as someone who can’t really imagine having kids so i’m not some pronatalist weirdo like some ppl clearly think i am, but pregnancy is just another development in life sometimes, and life keeps going and so do you! it’s not like you have to stop and hand Living down to your kid once you have one. and as you said there’s a lot of healing possible in it too!

that being said i literally cannot picture shiv as a mother but i also think that’s because she can’t picture herself as a mother — even if she and tom had kids, she’d hand tom a baby bjorn and go curse at someone on the phone (which is actually incredibly fucking relatable for yours truly, ngl). she hasn’t had any good female role models (or male, but the male role models have taught her to hate the female ones who already sucked to begin with) like her relationship with caroline is devastating and fascinating and i so so so want to see more of it. and like i’m not saying shiv has to or should become a mother or anything, just that i think pregnancy kind of forces her to step back and remember that holy shit she’s her own person outside of a waystar puppet so who the fuck is that person gonna be? like. i just want to see her having to come to terms w that and think ab herself outside of the context of waystar, even (almost especially) if it leads her to make no changes in her life whatsoever! it’s not the actual outcome of the pregnancy plotline i’m excited for but the potential it holds for exploration of shiv’s interiority which is something she’s so far been pretty allergic to exploring

anyways i’m rambling too lolol but yes super cool to get a take on this from someone who’s actually, ya know. been pregnant? and had a kid? and yeah if they like change her character as a result and turn her into Mom Mode <3 i’m shooting someone. but it’s a little silly to think that they will — people have said time and time again that jesse’s guiding thesis is that people don’t really change. so if shiv ends up having a come to jesus motherhood anti-ambition moment i will literally eat my hat like that’s just unimaginable to me for this show so i think it’ll just be a vehicle for character exploration rather than a catalyst for Immense Sudden Change

[atlasira]

Just started S2E1 and while the Trespian court is very corrupt and shady… ngl they kinda have a point. NOT in how they’ve been ruling over the common folk, but regarding the queen’s behavior so far.

Like, I definitely sympathize with Ellaire wanting to find out what’s going on in the kingdom, and not trusting the council to be honest. And she actually did good!! She accomplished a lot in very little time!

Her Departure

However, the council is absolutely right in that the way she went about things was extremely irresponsible. She just became the queen and, without any regard for her new duties, left the castle behind. She was gone for several days and the court had no idea where she ran off to, when/if she’d return, and what they were supposed to do in the meantime. There were kings and queens from other kingdoms currently “in her care” and she literally just ditched them. She’s lucky they didn’t feel disrespected, despite it being very improper.

While it’s sad, I’m not that surprised the court interpreted Ellaire’s absence as an abdication. I mean, she literally ran away — yes, with the intention to return, but as the queen she can’t just sneak off whenever she wants to like that. She was no longer a princess with lots of free time, she had become a queen with vital obligations.

Her “Solutions”

Not to mention that her solutions, while nice, did feel a bit… idealistic. When she was “on tour”, she banked a LOT on her privileged position. “When I return to my throne, I’ll be able to fix this, and fix that, and tweak this, and tweak that” etc. Those were some big promises to make, despite her inability to comprehend the political mess she left behind.

And like most people, I agree taxes suck, but Ellaire’s solution to overtaxation being ZERO taxes was pretty silly. When done fairly, taxes do serve a purpose in helping out a territory. Plus I do agree that she should’ve at least waited to get back to court before spreading word about it. She essentially made a promise she had no idea if she’d be able to keep. And a broken promise is worse than no promise at all.

Like, overtaxation is disgusting and definitely needed to be fixed, but the way she went about it was just so hasty. I’m American, and if the President randomly came to my town, shouted in the streets “hey everyone no more taxes ever! :D” and then immediately got impeached, I’d think they were nothing but an idiot (no offense Ellaire, I still love you!)

They Were Right

It really hurts to admit it, but the council was right. Ellaire’s behavior SCREAMS she was not ready to be Queen. I can’t remember the exact line of dialogue, but in S1 a character asked how she thought the court would react when she returned. The fact she believed she’d be the equivalent of “just grounded for a week” was insane. I didn’t know what the exact consequences would be, but “grounded”???? God I love her and think she’s so cool, but one of her biggest flaws is that she’s been spoiled her entire life and it SHOWS.

Further Into Season 2

While I think Ellaire definitely dropped the ball here, I believe this massive failure will be a life lesson. She has to know her actions have consequences and that being an effective ruler requires a lot more than just good intentions. Since the story is already on its 3rd season, I’m sure a lot of people have already seen her develop. I haven’t yet and this post is me just brainstorming.

But I do believe this rock-bottom-outcome will have the effect of also being an important tool. That she will learn from this and develop into the effective, just, and responsible queen Trespia needs.