#I hate myself/lh

[ey3dye]

please, PLEASE just hear me out, PLEASE—

AUUUGHHHHH 😭😭😭😭

[lynn-tged-posting]

it's ok javier nothing wrong with that

from this

[necrotic-nephilim]

i personally have very complicated feelings on the Gotham Knights video game and the routes it takes with characterization. i think it has a charm to it and it goes in an interesting direction with everyone (especially within the confides of the plot of the game) but it does have certain moments that veer painfully fanon for me. (such as: the dialogue where Tim drinks too much coffee) it's an interesting story for what it is but i don't view it comics-based for characterization and therefore don't care to interact with it much for like. fanfic purposes.

that *said* though. i do have to give the game some kind of credit for giving one of the top five JayTim moments that lives rent free in my mind. every since i played the game, the cutscene lives in my mind daily. it's the specific cutscene where Jason and Tim are arguing about whether or not Jason's non-lethal bullets are too dangerous for the field, and the argument leads to TIm *standing in front of the target* Jason is shooting and telling Jason to shoot him. it lives rent free for me. i never stop thinking about this.

the absolute certainty Tim has that he is in no danger standing in front of Jason, who has a loaded gun pointed at his face. the way Jason *hesitates* for just a moment before lowering the gun. he thinks about it for just a second. Gotham Knights JayTim seem to get along very well and can rely on each other, but Jason still clearly holds a bitterness about his death and Tim that flickers through in some lines of dialogue under the guise of jokes. especially since this game deals *heavily* with concepts of Pit Madness causing an altered state of consciousness, i think it's believable that occasionally, Jason fights the urge to fight and hurt Tim for the feeling of being replaced.

i like their tension so much in this canon. they get along but you can *tell* Tim is afraid of addressing Jason's trauma or even addressing Jason head-on, and Jason leans into spooking Tim about it. which isn't very comics feeling in their dynamic, but it is an interesting way to place their dynamic if you're playing with a more timid Tim who's newer to the role of Robin. (which he seems to be in-game) he really doesn't want to offend Jason, or worse, piss him off. but he'll still face Jason head on for things like this, while completely aware of what Jason could be capable of.

and Jason seems very protective of Tim and respecting Tim as a Robin in typical Jason fashion. if Tim pushes, Jason *will* relent. he knows this is a kid who's proved himself and should be treated with equal respect, sometimes even more than Dick and Babs do in-game.

so for all that to culminate in Tim stepping in front of Jason's loaded gun that he *knows* is on the edge of being too dangerous, just to force Jason to listen? it's the most unhinged way Tim could've gotten his point across in this scene. he was literally daring Jason to hurt him and playing with a very dangerous fire. but he did it anyway bc he believed he could make Jason heel just at the thought of hurting Tim. and he was *right*. they're gay and i'm feral ty.

[youling-the-ghost]

No but imagine you're Mark for a minute. You live with your alcoholic father, your father who blames you for your mother's death, your mother who died because your father was drunk driving. And yet you're the one who shouldered the burden.

You grow up like this. That's fine, you tell yourself, because what else can you say?

You meet this wonderful woman. Her name is Suzanne (or is it Clarissa?) and she makes you feel whole again, like your guilt and trauma are nothing more than the past. After everything, you see a ray of light shining through.

And so you propose, wanting to spend the rest of your life with this wonderful woman. But just as you're on one knee with the ring in your hand, your girlfriend casts you aside and answers a phone call. This isn't the first time she's done this.

You call the engagement off, but you still want things to heal (how could you not?) and so you try. You try again to heal your relationship, because you love her and you want to make things right. But she does it again. She brushes off your feelings and makes you feel like you're no more than a sewer rat, scurrying from bin to bin and hiding in the walls. And to rub salt on the wound, when you try to express yourself, she calls you hotheaded and dismisses your feelings.

Like damn, Mark was just going through it the entire longform.

[waywardmillennial]

Ryan: The rem pod actually has a very small radius. I believe it's five to six inches. Shane: Can you set the radius on that thing? Ryan: You can extend the range but it doesn't go that far. But for the human hand in particular it's like five to six inches. Shane: Yeah, you gotta be pretty close to it. Ryan: They have rem pod 2.0 now though. Shane: Tell me - what?! Ryan: You know how many inches you can get close to that? Shane: How many inches? Ryan: Seven inches. But let me tell you more about the rem pod. Shane: Lucky. [both laughing] Ryan: It's seven inches. But, once again, let's talk about the rem pod now. Shane: Ryan, I want you to look directly at the camera, and I want people to caption this of you saying, 'It's seven inches.' Ryan: It's seven inches. [more laughing] Ryan: Yeah, it is a small-ish range for the rem pod.

Ghost Files Debrief - Live on Watcher TV, May 23, 2025

[rustedleopard]

Monsters are made up of "Love, Hope, and Compassion," but I see it as a metaphor for their society as a whole. The Underground society is more peaceful, due to much less competition than humans, most likely due to less access to resources, which most likely contributed to cooperation.

Perhaps because of this, their scientific and technological progress has slowed down (the closure of Steamworks and the dismissal of all engineers. And the opening of a scientific complex with ONE scientist.) although because of the magic, they probably don't need that much technology...

As I said, their society is becoming more peaceful and monsters are just more inclined to cooperate. For them, murder is an unthinkable act (remember when Ed joked "that now he is with the wind," Martlet was shocked by these words.) Perhaps the monsters have built a kind of utopia within a limited framework

Even if the monsters broke the barrier and killed all the people, many people didn't like this result very much.

(Starlo rummages through a garbage dump and finds a VHS tape of Saving Private Ryan and takes it to his gang's house to show everyone, thinking it's about cowboys;)

P.S. This is the result of my brainstorming, which I decided to share with you.

I find it interesting that people think that monsters are made of "love, hope, and compassion" when the book from the Snowdin Librarby states:

Love, hope, compassion... This is what people say monster SOULs are made of.

But the absolute nature of "SOUL" is unknown.

After all, humans have proven their SOULs don't need these things to exist. - Book 6 (from the left) in Snowdin Library

Note that it doesn't state that monster SOULs are 100% confirmed to be made of "love, hope, and compassion;" it's just what they're said to be made out of (by monsters, so this conclusion is of course going to be biased) but what monster/human SOULs are actually made of is unknown. Love and hope and compassion are things that both humans and monsters need to live though. A monster denied these things will Fall Down because, being composed of magic, their dispositions are weaker than humans and they rely heavily on their SOULs/emotional state to sustain their being.

But humans have physical bodies that aren't linked so closely to the state of their SOUL. A human will certainly not die without love and compassion and hope, but that doesn't mean that they'll remain the same. Take what Frisk turns into over the course of a No Mercy Run (and I suppose I can throw Clover in here as well, even though they're from a fan-game). They become worse, warping into violent beings that are unrecognizable as human (Frisk)/unrecognizable as their former self (Clover). It's not a literal death of the person but more of a figurative death of the self.

Or look at Flowey: former monster, now SOULless being who's become so detached from his own emotions that love and compassion feel foreign to him. He's not dying from a lack of those feelings, but the person he used to be died over time + hundreds of Resets and Reloads and he's turned malevolent. He's able to recognize himself in Frisk when they finish a No Mercy Run in the Ruins ("Hahaha... You're not really human, are you? No. You're empty inside. Just like me."). This is the closest that you will likely get to seeing what a monster could become without love, hope, and compassion without Falling Down because Asriel exists in the physical body of a flower that is sustained by DT. And here he is drawing a comparison between himself and an exceptionally cruel human, proving that humans and monsters aren't so different from each other in the matters of the SOUL.

Tl;dr, personally I don't think that monsters are made of love, hope, and compassion like they claim to be. They still bully each other. They still hurt each other. They still want to go to war against humanity* and bring about the death of humankind. That doesn't sound loving and compassionate to me. They're peaceful beings and a large part of that is because of their magical physiology that relies on them feeling good in order to exist + they're all crammed under a mountain that practically forces cooperation with one another (you're stuck with your community whether you like it or not so you might as well get along). But that doesn't make them perfect.

And I have no clue how Starlo mistakes Saving Private Ryan for a cowboy movie from the title alone, but rest assured that I doubt that the Five making it through a war movie. Or any sort of movie that's excessively violent (unless it's a western and the violence is depicted in a more glorifying way but even they have their limits). They're LARPers, entertainers, not fighters.

*Though this fixation on destroying humanity seems more like monsters focusing on some nebulous goal that comes with their freedom than actually wanting the death of the human race, judging by how quickly they give up the War as soon as the Barrier is broken. Monster society is peaceful, crimes in the Underground are of the petty variety like theft. They lack the disposition for violence, judging by how so many of them aren't actually attacking Frisk/Clover but are instead communicating via magic which is perceived as an attack by humans--and those few monsters that are attacking for real can be dissuaded with the proper ACTs. I'd imagine that because monsters are so divorced from violence, they don't truly understand the suffering that comes with it; had they been plunged into actual war, they wouldn't have lasted long.

[bastardcherub]

having a horny blog as main is terrible bc it means that even if I’m NOT horny, I fucking become horny from using this god damn app

[sunnysidesevenup]

I don’t have the mental energy to draw or write this rn but please imagine a scenario in which Fellow and Tilly are shopping at a mall or smth and then some NRC students see them and hatch a grand plan to “warn Ernesto’s poor date about him scamming them”. Please it would be so funny. Tilly snatching their wallets while he plays along like “oh nooo how could you do this to me? I trusted you!!!” and actively trying not to laugh his ass off at them calling Fellow “Ernesto”

[antiendovents]

i just wanna make another post addressing the whole issue of the vent that told pro endos to kill themselves (link to original post here, link to response / explanation post here)

I just wanted to say that one; I do not condone harassment or telling people to actually kill themselves (I mentioned this in the tags of the original post but I'm not sure if I made it clear enough), by that I mean I don't support people actually going to pro endo blogs and telling them they should kill themselves and stuff. But, I also do not support harassing people for "thought crimes". Sure, it's not the nicest thing to wish death upon those you hate, but as someone with NPD who does this quite frequently in my head I kind of understand it. And I'd rather that person come here to vent their frustrations than say actually go around telling people to do it. You get me?

Two; this is a vent blog, made for frustration at it's core. We made this blog because endos made us mad. They made us frustrated and upset and hurt. So we made this blog for us and other anti endos to vent their anger about it, and that's what we'll allow. We have said multiple times we do not condone harassment nor do we condone actually telling people to kill themselves, but if you wish to come here and vent about it and about how you feel then you are welcome to do so.

And finally, about the delusional statement; I don't agree with that either. I don't believe delusional should be used as an insult but I feel it's important to recognise that they likely didn't mean it in that way or maybe didn't even know it was a insult.

I don't know, I'm not them and I can't comment on their actions or why they did what they did, but I can comment on why I posted it, which is because well, that's what this blog is made for. I'm sorry if you were hurt by their words, I can promise I didn't intend to hurt others, but this is a vent blog and while yes I do like to keep some things light hearted here it's also important to understand that well. As I've said. It's a vent blog.

[twodiamondhoes]

Just saw someone posting abt Ernest Hemingway and the way I had to physically restrain myself from going "I know where he's buried if you want to yell at him in person"

[vividly-vermillion]

Whoa https://www.tumblr.com/vividly-vermillion/786146154698129408/nysanya I always thought you were straight since you talk about your boyfriend /gen

Happy pride!!

Thank you my love and happy pride month to you too!! 🥹♥️

But yeah, if I had to put a label on my sexuality it would probably be pansexual / demisexual bc I really don't care what's in someone's pants if the feelings are there 🙂‍↕️

I still struggle with putting a label on it tho. Up until 2 years ago I thought I was straight and it was kinda normal to also look at female body parts and be like mhmhm I could take a bite out of that.... until my friend laughed and was like "yeah girl. You might want to rethink your sexuality because that is NOT what a straight girly would say"

So I'm living as whatever because I can't imagine doing anything with anyone since I'm in love with my partner and my partner alone.

[theyworm]

i promised myself i'd never get jealous over a f/o but man is it getting hard

[ihearnocomplaints]

I realise that I’m stubborn when it comes to new media. New games and stuff that people get into. I prefer the classics and I guess maybe I’m a little scared to like something other than what I’ve attached myself to. I feel a little jaded, maybe? Like, new media feels like it will be cringe or childish or something.

And then I sit here like. What??? You are literally obsessed with these characters from a cringy/childish game or whatever. Like I AM the cringe I’m afraid to indulge in. Security Breach was new media at some point. And I realise, while I’m open minded, I don’t want to understand. I’ve become just as bad as some people I know. And that’s dumb.

I was skeptical about getting into pressure but I heard that fish man once and immediately started to gain interest in it.

I suppose it may be an autistic thing for me? I’m not judgemental toward people who enjoy it or get into these new things, like I’ve said. I just think I need to be more open to new experiences and accept that I don’t have to define myself by these characters I’ve loved for so long. That I can set aside these guys to indulge in other things. I should just be me. I need to open myself up to new things instead of immediately assuming I won’t like it based on what little information I have.

That said, I don’t exactly have time to get into new things. So that’s a whole other hurdle I have to jump as well.

[ersatz-introspective]

how was the bear vs man trend the thing that taught me that what happened to me was cocsa. what kind of twisted world

[rabbitology]

i am not the biggest fan of tonetags a lot of the time