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#I just can’t be serious can I now???
glendover · 7 months
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sneak peak of the Mike and Matt cuddling sketch I’m working on
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qangelbluebird · 4 months
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Creation = The Thing (from the tubhole?)
Primary Protector (Creator (not used but could be)) = Tubbo
Rank 1 Shell = Sunny
Guardian = Philza
Shell (in general) = Eggs
Pancake Shell = Empanada
The Mother of Pancake Shell = Bagi
Duck Shell = Chayanne
Trauma Shell = Tallulah
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chronically-ghosted · 10 months
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me: *consumed with lust, enraged, on my couch yelling into pillows, kicking my feet, gnashing my teeth* “he’s just some guy”
guy in question:
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fakeoutbf · 29 days
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five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety
#walk with me#this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere#the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad#count on the person**#i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them#in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other#it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time#idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too#so we’ve been more properly friends lately#and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to#gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it#and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention#(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention)#anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all#weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone#so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever#and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more#and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted#they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture#and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek#i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on#bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other#flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc#i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed#but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers#and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious??????#your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up???#if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right???#so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend#delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something
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coconut530 · 2 months
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I CANNNNNNOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTT THEY’RE AMAZING 🩷🐦‍⬛🖤
Other WTs today:
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binders-and-beanies · 16 days
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Pondering bottom surgery in the tags I mf guess
#I’ve been. thinking abt bottom surgery again after having accepted for a while that I would probably never get it#for context early on in my transition I was dead set on phallo but then T and my other surgeries satisfied me enough to not need it#+ for phallo I would have had to keep an arm or leg free of tattoos and I just did not want to wait on that#not considering it would probably be at least a decade. tattoos were and are more important#+ the more I started to enjoy using what I have I was like. it is simply not medically necessary anymore#like would I like to have a **** yes. do I need one to live a happy life no#being bi complicates things for me too bc it depends a little bit who I marry#don’t want to tailor my body to a specific relationship esp if it doesn’t last forever but it does make a difference#current partner is nonbinary and wants phallo so that does not make things simpler lol#I want a body that allows the most affirming possible relationship w the person I intend to marry#I also don’t want to end up hindering things w future partners should that not happen#anyway I say all this to say. I had never considered meta as an option bc I didn’t think it would do much for me#lot of effort and money and healing for not as drastic a change. wouldn’t solve my biggest bottom dysphoria issues#however. starting to think it could be the middle ground I’m looking for as a gnc/genderfluid person#it would be less surgeries. less complicated n expensive. less changes to my current anatomy#esp if I don’t do everything you Can do w meta. I could do like half of all that or less#I don’t wanna risk giving up the things I can do now without knowing if I’ll enjoy the new possibilities#but this could be a way to just kinda feel more affirmed without it changing my life all that much#I think just the act of undergoing bottom surgery would be affirming. like I’ve done Everything I’m a binary male thru and thru. transexual#and I wouldn’t have to keep wondering if I’ll do it someday or if I should#not that I can any time soon I’m uninsured. insurance prob wouldn’t even cover it#but just. the more I look into it and think abt it + the more serious my relationship gets the more I lean towards it#my partner talking increasingly abt wanting bottom surgery asap is influencing me too ngl not even in a jealousy way#just. I can’t deal w the possibility of a partners phallo fucking up my relationship w my body Again. I would need to know what I want#man. I can’t even go to therapy to talk thru it. on account of being uninsured#mine#txt#personal
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ghostwithaheartbeat · 4 months
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Day three of holding everyone’s laundry hostage until my father takes a shower.
The last of my father’s beloved white socks have fallen to the filth. There is little hope, and even less in terms of rest. The battle is ongoing, and it feels often that I am fighting alone. Morale is low; my ally in this conflict, mother, is injured. I long for the days when I can rest. When this war will cease, and all will be clean again. The dishes done, the people bathed, the laundry washed and folded. Alas. We know the struggle will never end.
I am Sisyphus, and my father’s horrid stench and apathy are forever my boulder.
My father is a war profiteer, and I am a hapless young recruit greeting a doomed mission.
Last shower date: December 25th, 2023
#collective tag#it spoke#i’m venting#but like… only half serious#god I am so so so so tired.#I’m so pissed man#at just. everything#this house is falling apart around me and It’s like I can’t do anything#I have begged and begged and begged this fucking man to take a goddamn shower.#I cry about this#because he just doesn’t fucking care#I CANT DO EVERYTHING!!!!!#NOT FOREVER#huge ass ants everywhere? sure. fuck it. why not#piles and piles of laundry? okay. I can do that.#not paying the mortgage until our shit gets shut down and mom and I yell at you?#cooking halfassed meals that are only barely tolerable to you and inedible to everyone else#and then complaining when we don’t eat them despite how much we’ve all told you?#and leaving the whole kitchen to rot?#PISSING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY AND NOT CHANGING YOUR PANTS BECAUSE YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT AND NEVER SHOWERING FOR MONTHS ON END?#I’m just… words cannot describe how tired I am right now.#mom has a broken foot too so I also have to take care of her even more than normal#how did baby me handle this all the time on top of school?#‘yeah sure i can take care of two fucked up angry disabled adults on top of my crippling childhood trauma and schoolwork!’#—>#‘I swear to fucking god I will telepathically make my heart stop beating by sheer force of fucking will if I hear you call for me again’#deepest apologies to any poor soul that reads this#i really just needed to cry and scream and cry harder again until I throw up#and maybe a hug
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starlooove · 9 months
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I like bruce better when he’s a shit dad it’s so much more interesting and adds a complexity to his character that I think is genuinely necessary for some of y’all to see, bc too many of y’all genuinely think Bruce being nice to strangers and hugging his kids after they escape death means he’s a good parent off rip which….I hope ur just on this man’s dick and don’t actually believe that
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floral-hex · 6 months
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Just canceled all of my future therapy appointments. Big fudgin’ bummer. Did I mention I lost my insurance? Didn’t even find out about that until the day it lapsed. Trying to find a way to fix it now, reapplying and whatnot, but ya know, it’s bureaucracy so who knows how long it’ll take. Just fingers crossed I don’t run out of meds first.
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lol it’s underwater 🐠
#ugggghhhhh so sad#like genuinely I think my therapist rocks#he’s the best one I’ve ever had. nice and cool but no BS and just harsh enough to push me#I feel like such a baby for saying it but literally the number one thing I’ve wanted these last few weeks was to go to therapy#I had to skip my last appointment so I haven’t seen him in weeks#between my mom’s organ transplant and driving back and forth to see her everyday and taking care of my bros aaand super suicidal birthday#I’m just… I’m tired. I want to vent. I just want to spill my guts for an hour and maybe cry a lot#and I can’t do that with anyone else. I know that’s dumb to say#I 100% can’t complain to my family because ya know I gotta be strong and they don’t need me being a burden#and I love my mutuals but I don’t know any of you anywhere well enough to feel comfortable venting#I mean. y’all can vent to me all day. I’ll gladly listen to you talk about yourselves. I’m here for it. I just can’t do it myself 😕#I’m so tired and anxious and I don’t want to really get into the self harm talk but I’ve had some serious self destructive thoughts lately#I don’t know what I’m going to do#I have to believe it’ll get better#because if I don’t believe that then… what’s the point?#also.. I’m really fucking lonely. just to throw that out there. if you can’t tell by my reblogs.#I am like desperately and ravenously lonely and full of longing#and you add that to everything else it’s just the sad little cherry on top…#now I want an ice cream sundae… mmmm….#I need 1000 hugs and to sit with someone and maybe get fucked up and complain and sit in silence and and and blegh#but that’s life. it’ll be… it’ll be whatever it is.#sorry. this is a bit too heavy for this time of morning#I’ve been sick. really bad vertigo and vomiting and I’m just wiped out and sad#but I love you stranger or at least I like you enough to be okay with you reading this#okay be safe#goodbye forever#text
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madigoround · 8 months
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So I’ve been working on my anxieties about the future a lot lately and I’ve made some really great improvements, including getting almost entirely past my stress over getting a pet because it could lead to financial turmoil (I have a million back up plans in place now to make me feel more comfortable about such things) and I had been thinking I might get a dog because not only would it be company but as a woman living alone it might provide me some level of intimidation from outsiders, and as a step in the direction of getting a pet and also just because I enjoy it I have been fostering and today I brought my foster kitten back (I already miss her but she never got less feral and her scratching and biting only hurt more as she grew, hopefully she’ll calm down as she grows up) and I was sad that I would be going home alone tonight so I took a stroll around the shelter and I was only really looking at the dogs entertaining getting one and then this meow calls me over to the kitten side and there’s this little fur ball and she comes right to me to get pet (my foster kitten hated being pet or held so this was a nice change) and I ended up sitting down with her in a one on one and she was so sweet but I had to go back to work and they’re closing early tonight so I said if she’s still there tomorrow then it was meant to be and if she’s not I hope she has a good life and now that I’m sitting at work I can think a little more clearly beyond the OH MY GOD THIS KITTEN IS SO CUTE AND SWEET but I keep looking at her photo and I think I would really love her, I kept saying I would keep my foster kitten if she was cuddly or affectionate lol but getting a kitten wasn’t the plan really so I don’t know if I should abandon the dog plan and get this kitten or not adopt the kitten and keep looking for a dog and fostering until I find the right one
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seventh-district · 15 days
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#Seven’s Public Diary#vent post#vent#cw vent post#cw vent#cw health#cw medical#cw medication#cw death#death mention#after nearly 2 weeks of unexplained pain and Symptoms and working myself up into the worst panic attack of my life#i finally caved and went to urgent care :)#it’s not lost on me that the same thing happened a little over a year ago. not bc of the same symptoms but it’s the same fear of dying#smthn smthn if i had a nickel smthn smthn weird that it happened twice. i rlly hope this doesn’t become a pattern#i can picture it now. every spring i walk in and they’re like ‘ugh it’s the neurotic hypochondriac with 4 anxiety disorders again 🙄#wonder what they think they’re dying of this time!’#sigh. anyways i’m fine. probably.#the consensus was ‘no you’re Probably not gonna have a stroke and die. you’re just Very stressed and in a lot of pain.’#got diagnosed with Stressed Guy Syndrome so now i take ✨painkillers✨ and ✨muscle relaxers✨ 🙃#they wanted me to take a steroid shot too but that felt like overkill. it’s also a big step for me to be willing to take anything at all#not bc i’m scared of getting a shot in the neck i’m just. scared of medication in general. the side effects. the potential for dependency.#it’s only for a week but i’m still uncomfy with it. but it Is nice to be in less pain. tho i have my doubts that it’ll help long term#time will tell. but i still can’t shake the fear of the tiny chance that it Could be more serious. but it’s not big enough for them to test#for it so. just gotta live with the fear. which in turn is making it hard to relax. which is what i’m supposed to be doing. so.#anyways. i Hope the meds work and i don’t end up back there next week spending More money and seeking more treatment#sighhhh i just can’t catch a break these days. it’s Always Something#at least the electricity and internet are back on after the tornado last week. and at least i’m not in much pain for now. silver linings.#sorry to everyone i’ve unintentionally ghosted but it’s been hard to think through the pain and now the meds are making me eepy#hopefully i’ll recover and recharge my social battery sooner than later. bc i do feel v bad abt it#and it’s So nice to sleep without much pain so i’m. taking advantage of that this week. Seven Try To Relax Challenge 2024
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zahri-melitor · 1 year
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…oh good, Devin, I see you spent Gotham Knights #20-21 making the racism around Dick’s adoption worse on TWO further angles.
(This set I did already know about) (I hate it here)
Ok while I attempt to forget this whole plotline, let us instead enjoy this particular panel and the hilarious suggestion that No Man’s Land was “forced cessation”.
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Forced cession, you say? THAT LAND WAS NEVER CEDED. (Sorry, knee jerk habit there)
Ok time to consult Blackstone’s Commentaries as to the correct legal system and land ownership of Gotham.
If the United States did cede Gotham, who was it ceded to? The remaining inhabitants? The gangs and criminals it imprisoned inside? In that case, if it was ceded, the USA could not simply resume the land by executive order, but yet they did. Suspicious. The inhabitants have grounds to now sue the US government for stealing their clearly established connection to the land (Cobblepot (No. 2) incoming) AND for overruling the existing legal system on their illegal return (Dent v United States to adjudicate on whether any changes or charges under the NML legal system should be upheld. Legality of the Dent v Gordon trial is at stake!!)
Now can we instead call No Man’s Land ‘desert and uncultivated’ and consider whether ownership passed by settlement? No, and let’s all say “thank you Pamela Isley”, as Robinson Park demonstrably was cultivated land supporting the islands. It was not desert. The US does not have grounds to simply resettle Gotham. The existing inhabitants were civilised, despite any allegations or slurs by the US Government to the contrary when they blew the bridges.
The final consideration is whether ownership of Gotham as of 31 December 1999 was now held by the Blue Boys via right of conquest, given you can’t unilaterally uncede land and No Man’s Land did involve intra-community warfare of the local inhabitant, with the Blue Boys and the Bat holding the largest share of the land in the final days. Does the GC ex-PD hold title to Gotham by conquest and did THEY then cede the land back to the US? Also potentially Gotham held multiple overlapping contradictory legal systems given Penguin and Two-Face’s territories not observing US law. Given the compromises made by the Blue Boys could they be considered to have enacted additional local laws that now need to be distinguished from the outside US largely system? Is vigilantism now legal in Gotham?
In this essay I will…
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corset · 1 month
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Imagine being able to make a decision about yourself
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toxictranny · 2 months
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when ppl use tone tags it’s amplified for me like what is /srs did u mean /Serious🗿
#online sm i make this emoji face irl.^^ it’s awful#i need buddies😡😡#i love the internet because it makes me aware of how beautiful things are#but also um it makes me sad because i’m going to die without friends#i CAN imagine if we never met the broskis):#gf was like (dating app that has a friends option)? BRAH!!! never ever#they’ll just wna fuck me and i’ll be sad#because i Like being affectionate witj my friends n intimacy but idk#the line between joking around kissin ur pal on the cheek and having sex with ur pal is so thin around here!#it scares me because what if i can’t find connection without sex#i have all the sex i need ok and i used to be overly sexual. it didn’t go well but it was the only time i had friends when i was willing to#be sexy with any of them at any time#theyd get hurt if you were like ‘oh tht was just a one time thing’ means i’m being monogamous and lame or whatever#one time it turned into i ‘used’ them likeejgjfjr WE MADE OUT AT A PARTY and after that they thought we were gonna make out whenever we saw#each other. at the time i had two partners and i wasn’t looking lol it was just a kiss!#but everyone got mad at me and said i used them for sex (we didn’t have sex) and also that i ~lead them on~#we were kissing for less than ten minutes too#grow the fuck up. honestly#also???? for the record i would LOVE to bone a friend here and there but i DON’T want ANY expectations for more#it’s just too much presh for me when ppl are like oh we’re in a relationship now! after we fuck#even fwb is a relationship.. situationship.. flirtationship. hook up. softting. like#there’s way too much for me i just want to get a lil jiggy with it couple times a yr. and watch my gf kiss girls thy would be so nice#anyway.. /Serious🗿#toxictranny
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blueish-bird · 2 months
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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive
#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy#been feeling weird as hell these past few months#like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days#or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day#idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this#just thinking#meposting#I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying#I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult#I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.#whatever#I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that#dissociation#me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though#she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety#and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time#I’m so solid now#so stuck in the ruts of capitalism#fuck capitalism#I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled#sorry I love talking#and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing#I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school#bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude#I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time
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yourqueenb · 11 months
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Tf? How about no because I did what I did and I don’t regret it
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