#I should've posted this before the most recent update

[artbygaia]

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[cherrytea556]

Lore Rekindled; The Lore Olympus that should have been

To be honest, I checked out the rekindled version before the original one and now having reading the original as well, it's extremely odd. Y'know goodbye volcanic high where the original was a mess but a group of 4chaners made a parody game which turned out to be of better quality than the original? This is like that but replace 4chan with tumblr users, mainly @genericpuff whose series is pinned in their tumblr blog where you can check all of the episodes, especially updated ones. In this post, I will be praising this series of how it fixes the problems of the original

The Pacing

One thing I notice about lore olympus and lore rekindled is the pacing. Not just the flow of the story but where it chooses to focus on. Now in lore olympus, the pacing is kinda a mess and its mainly to do with what it focuses on. An example is the magazine plotpoint; in the original, its basically kinda there in between doses to focus on other stuff like persephone and hades together, persephone's sa (i'll get to that later), eros story, zeus and hera etc...The flow generally isnt that bad per say (except for persephone's sa cuz that was way too quick) but for a story meant to be a romance between hades and persephone, you'd think it idk, it would focus on persephone and hades specifically, not eros which is another example of; its flashbacks. Eros specifically has such a dragged out flashback in episode 12 which we didnt need or at least with that much exposition when it should've naturally expand in the story and that's what rekindled does. The magazine plotline has turned into the first conflict of persephone and hades as we see how it affects their lives and relationships. This works for its pacing better because it doesn't give you too much stuff to jumble with, making the narrative more concise and easier to understand where the story is going. And with the flashbacks, rekindled cuts out the fat in the flashbacks from the original to a perfect balance where it gives exposition of the characters while also leaving mystery for the audience to be intrigued, my favourite one would have to be this (though it more of a nightmare than a flashback specifically speaking);

It's of persephone in a greenhouse her mother placed her in with this red eye thing following her from outside the greenhouse. I have no idea of this lurker if its her metaphorical rage or a danger in her life but either way, i am intrigued by its presentation.

The Characters

When reading lore rekindled and lore olympus, the characters are definetly an odd experience. For lore olympus, the characters arent exactly uh....great per say. I think the main reason for this is how their ultilised, with characters like eros, hera, hectate etc being there to mostly be a matchmaker for hades and persephone even if it was initially seen as wrong like with hera and hectate, be antagonistic as a way to have conflict between hades and persephone like minthe, demeter and recently leuce even if ones had reasons too like minthe with hades emotionally cheating on her and demeter because lets be honest, she had a point. Then there's hades and persephone, whoo boy where to start with them.

Hades starts off as a creep eyeing at persephone during a party, specifically at her body and still lusts persephone even being aware that shes 19 and he's 2000 years old. Also is a shitty boss, father AND contributes to slavery with it while being adressed in some way, doesnt change him which isnt good for a character that's meant to be the main protagonists love interest.

Persephone though, I can get the self insert vibes. From favouritism towards the story, being who most of the men in the story are attracted too, portrayed as a 'cinnamon roll' (they actually said that early on in the story, im not kidding) who cant do no wrong. She acts like a teenager rather than a young adult which makes the scenes where shes sexualised just more uncomfortable (and they already unnecessarily were) along with adding that uncomfortability to the romance

But with rekindled, they expanded on the characters much more than they originally were. Persephone for instance has turned from a 'sexy baby' legal teenager to an actual young relatable adult with agency and allows her to screw up (e.g, getting drunk on her own rather than eros drunking her). Her adult attitude makes the romance between her and hades not only more palpable, but also strays away from the infantilisation/uncomfortable sexualisation of her character which is nice to see. Hades also is written well in the series from how it acknowledges his faults while still making him likable. And thats the same for every character really, their personalities are much more fleshed out and nuanced which makes their characters feel real to life, gaining effectiveness for more emotional scenes with them. An interesting thing too is that they even expanded the magazine guy's character from making fake news for profit into feeling guilt over what they done, standing up for persephone which is a pretty nice change.

No Sa Plotline

Not like you cant have sa in your story ever but if you never planned it from the beginning and only did when people tell you that the scene you drew from your comic was sa then....maybe just not do it. Lore olympus does exactly that where while an attempt was made, it goes on to retcon it into making apollo (the guy who sa'd persephone) into a lesser evil like that would made a difference instead of just cutting it out from the very beginning. Lore rekindled thankfully just made apollo into his pilot version, a shitty bf but more likeable and expanded upon (which should have been his portrayal from day 1). His shittiness doesnt come up in the story, more like self absorbness/egotisticalness although with its recent chapter of the magazine guy offering persephone lunch, it might reveal some cracks or at least further down the story it will be revealed to us which futhers how effective rekindled character writing is in how its expansion of characters would give us the feels. That or portray him as not a good match for persephone, either way much better than the original.

Artstyle

Lore olympus has a pretty good artstyle (at least in s1/the early episodes, s3 is just kinda goofy) but lore rekindled has got a good artstyle which is on top, more consistent too. Here's some examples;

Comedy

It's objectively funnier than lore olympus, no question asked

All in all, if you want to read lore olympus, i recommend you to read the lore rekindled one instead as it's better in every way. Give it a read.

[kozzax]

The thing about post-canon Jade is that she is actually genuinely in character. Yes, even candy!Jade's scandal with Rose. In fact I'd argue that's one of the most in-character moments in the epilogues for either of them. Especially with the context of the most recent update.

TO BE CLEAR. I don't think it was a GOOD decision. I think they definitely should've TALKED to Kanaya about it before they went through with having Yiffany. I think they should have raised her without keeping her secret from literally their entire family.

But it IS in character.

Jade wanted a kid because she was afraid of being isolated and left behind by all of her peers. Given how incredibly lonely she's been HER ENTIRE LIFE and how much abandonment she's gone through, this was a REASONABLE FEAR. All of her friends were moving into a new stage of life, and she couldn't bear to be left behind again, because she's always being left behind.

Rose didn't necessarily want a kid, but she DID want to help Jade. Rose and Jade are genuinely good friends. The beta kids are all ride or die for each other. If Jade had asked Dave or Jegbert-- circumstances willing --they might've suggested communication, but they would've done it, because this is their Jade. Any of them would move mountains for any of the others in a heartbeat. Rose and Jade are no exception to this rule. While Rose loves Kanaya, loves her a whole lot, she's not... great? At current events? She looked into the future, saw that Kanaya would forgive her, and went ok. It's help Jade time.

And yes, they should have talked to Kanaya about it. But this is Rose and Jade. Some of the least communicative characters in Homestuck. Both of them just fix it themselves, and then never talk with anyone else about why or how or what they're doing until it's too late. Of course they messed up on the communication-- they've never been able to communicate well with anyone.

There's no world in which they figured that out in the time that they grew up on Earth C, considering they raised themselves as gods for the remainder of their teenage lives.

Kanaya has every right to be fucking PISSED about this. She's in the right to be angry with both of them for the shit they pulled. They were in the wrong for Rose cheating on Kanaya and Jade asking her to do it. But it was, actually, FULLY in character.

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Machine washed all my recent swatches. I should've taken a before photo for all of them but I forgor. Most of these have noticeable wrinkling which if I were more patient I would've controlled against. But at the end of the day if I'm going to make either a blanket or a sweater out of an machine dry-able yarn, I'm going to throw it in the dryer and live with whatever comes out.

Since I intend for this to be a master post for these swatches for me to refer back to, I'll update in a couple days with any that noticeably change gauge/get less wrinkled with relaxation. (Which I do expect, the "washed gauge" listed below should be taken with a grain of salt)

Willow Yarns Daily DK in Coffee (left), Willow Yarns Daily Worsted in Pomegranate (right)

Daily Dk swatch; 36 Stitches wide, US 6 (4.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 24 stitches by 33 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 24 stitches by 36 rows (per 4 inches)

Daily Worsted swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 7 (4.5mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 22 stitches by 29 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 22 stitches by 31 rows (per 4 inches)

Notes: These two value wools held up as expected to the washer/dryer. That is, not as well as Wool of the Andes Superwash (WotAS), but not Terribly. Putting WotAS through a cleaning cycle resulted in very little change in how the final product looked, there's a little pilling but the actual stitches are very clearly defined. With the Willow line, it's like the actual yarn is superwash (I'm able to unply the tails on these swatches fairly easily) but there's a halo around the yarn that is non superwash and thus felting. It doesn't seem to effect the actual fabric much, but it does make these swatches look more "aged" in comparison to the socks I knit out of WotAS even tho these swatches have only had one washer cycle and the socks have had multiple + wear. It's very possible that with a wool cycle washer/dryer, the surface felting would be less pronounced.

Premier Basix in Mahogany, Herrschners Supreme Worsted in Carmine

Premier Basix swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 8 (5.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 18 stitches by 26 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 18 stitches by 27 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; The name does not lie, basic as hell value acrylic. Didn't get incredibly softer in the wash and feels very "sturdy" for value acrylic. Good stitch definition tho.

Herrschners Supreme Worsted swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 8 (5.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 20 stitches by 26 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 20 stitches by 26 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; Possibly the most accurate Caron Simply Soft dupe I've ever seen. If I didn't hate that yarn I would be more impressed. Good drape for a worsted acrylic and impressive stitch definition.

Herrschners 2-ply Classic Afghan in Almond, Herrschners Baby Wonder in Sandbox

Herrschners 2-ply Classic Afghan swatch; 40 Stitches wide, US 4 (3.5mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 26 stitches by 33 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 26 stitches by 36 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; This yarn is worse than the Herrschners Afghan yarn in practically every way. It was less pleasant to knit (had a plastic feel), less soft overall, and the scarring from wrinkles is far more pronounced. I would be less negative about this yarn if I didn't buy the superior version in the same lot but it is what it is.

Herrschners Baby Wonder swatch; 36 Stitches wide, US 6 (4.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 23 stitches by 30 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 23 stitches by 31 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; The tension change from stockinette to garter really fucked this swatch up, it's rolling up noticeably more than the other swatches. Other than that, this yarn is pretty uneventful? It's not particularly soft nor particularly not soft. It's not something I want to rub my face on but I could wear a garment made from it without issue. The wool blend plays well with the acrylic in this yarn and the stitch definition is nice at this gauge.

Lion Brand Pound of Love in Straw, Herrschners Worsted 8 in Espresso

Lion Brand Pound of Love swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 8 (5.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 20 stitches by 26 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 20 stitches by 29 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; I do not like this yarn but I got it for extremely cheap so I decided to throw it into this swatch mix and it's still the same. Has a rough plasticy texture in comparison to the other value acrylics I tested here. My biggest problem with it continues to be how inconsistent the texture is within the same ball of yarn, in this single ball I've used it's gone from relatively soft to relatively rough and back.

Herrschners Worsted 8 swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 7 (4.5mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 20 stitches by 26 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 20 stitches by 28 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; I expected to utterly hate this yarn but I'm pleasantly surprised by it. The texture is Odd? I've not used a yarn that felt like this one for a very long time, it feels rather unenjoyable in the ball but knits up wayyy softer. I should've bought a lighter colour for this swatch since it's hard to tell the stitches from each other. I'll definitely consider using this yarn over my beloved Big Twist Value for blankets in the future.

Herrschners Afghan in Bing Cherry, Held Single (left) and Held Double (right)

Held Single swatch; 40 Stitches wide, US 4 (3.5mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 27 stitches by 35 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 27 stitches by 36 rows (per 4 inches)

Held Double swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 8 (5.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 20 stitches by 28 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 20 stitches by 29 rows (per 4 inches)

Notes: The real winner of this whole swatching is Herrschners Afghan held single. There's nothing wrong with it held double really (other than the terrible wrinkle but alas that's my fault) but held single, this yarn has incredible drape, softness, and stitch definition. For a really long time I've really wanted to knit a thin v neck sweater to replace one I had a good decade ago, but I've not found a yarn that would be worth the cost (both currency and labor) to justify knitting a sweater in my size at such small gauge. But This yarn absolutely hits that mark. A few negatives; Mild sheen (personal dislike, tho it's not terrible in this yarn). Had the most knots of any of the yarns I tested (I believe there was 3 total, 2 in one ball, 1 in the other). Center pulling this yarn was NOT fun, had major yarn barf that really wanted to tangle in on itself for one of the balls and the yarn is so light and airy it was hard to untangle.

Herrschners Aran in Heather, Premier Anti Pilling Everyday in Walnut

Herrschners Aran swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 7 (4.5mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 20 stitches by 28 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; 20 stitches by 28 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; Terrible. yarn. The nicest thing I can say about it is that I like the colour and that it holds it's shape well. It feels like the world's scratchiest wool but clearly made out of plastic and broken dreams. I've never had an acrylic yarn make my hands itch before. The only thing I could realistically see using this yarn for is something like baskets/yarn bowls.

Premier Anti Pilling Everyday swatch; 30 Stitches wide, US 8 (5.0mm) needles Unwashed Gauge; 19 stitches by 25 rows (per 4 inches) Washed Gauge; stitches by 27 rows (per 4 inches) Notes; The other yarn that reminded me of Caron Simply Soft but not nearly as impressive as the Herrschners Supreme Worsted. It does feel more sturdy than the Supreme Worsted but is maybe half as soft with a much worse drape. The only way I would buy this yarn again is if it was dirt cheap, otherwise it doesn't bring anything to the table that other yarns don't but better (other than maybe being anti pilling, tho I've never had a real issue with pilling from my value acrylics).

[ghoooooooooooooooost]

projmoon update, but not (directly) related to the main incident(s); it has to do w hamhampangpang

copypaste of the thread from my projmoon twitter:

hamhampangpang announced a new theme but then right after they confirmed they recently discarded fanmade goods bc of storage limitations...

always so well timed (sarcastic) it's kinda weird that they had the person writing the apology drop their name in the post too. that's just unnecessary i think

^ looks like a lot of other ppl also feel this way, don't throw another employee under the bus, even a store manager… the person apologizing should be the one officially confirmed to have made the decision

the rumors abt [the disposal] started months ago when ppl were trying to take back their goods and couldn't [in response to the vellmori situation]

the official twitter was quiet most of summer, then on the same day as a promotion they confirm the rumors, should've at least done it sooner. notify the creators beforehand too 😓

promotion tweets from 6 hours ago today (sep 13 in my timezone)

the notice posted 4 hours ago the same day. they still want to accept fanmade goods but they're draining twitter followers fast (and a lot of kr creators were already dropping projmoon before this) so... well...

link so you can look at it yourself and read the qrts (btw, bc of the recent twitter update you may have to click the 3 dots n view engagements to see qrts now):

[camaro-and-smokes]

Harringrove Fics Masterpost

Masterpost for all my Harringrove fics (both on tumblr and AO3) below the cut. Unfinished fics marked unoriginally as unfinished.

UPDATE 31 Jan, 2024: I changed my blogname, so most of the links on my tumblr fic posts are now broken. Links below are fixed to work and you can always read all my fics on AO3, AO3 links work and everything is available there also without logging in. I hope you like to read these despite the trouble.

My Metalsandwich & Mungrove fics masterpost >>

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The Way It Should've Been -series (AO3 >>)

Steve meets Billy. They fall in love. This series follows them through the most important events of their lives.

Part 1: The Love of My Life 1/10 >> / AO3 >>

Part 2: Is She for Real? 1/16 >> / AO3 >>

Part 3: Little Bird Starts Nesting 1/? >> / AO3 >> (unfinished)

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August 1/8 / AO3 >>

After his first year in college Steve comes back to Hawkins for the summer he hears there's a new king in town. It could be another easy summer fling and he'd be in charge, but little does he know what he gets himself into… (Title from Taylor Swift song)

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Dream a Little Dream of Me 1/21 / AO3 >>

Steve works as VP of marketing in a Fortune500 firm. He starts to have a recurring dream of a relationship where he feels content in a way he'd never felt before. "It's just another dream" he tries to tell himself. It's not like you can dream someone perfect alive, can you?

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Pretty (wo)man 1/12 / AO3 >>

This was the first night Steve had dared to actually stop by the red light district at all. He'd driven by maybe ten times the past week and spotted the blonde in the corner four times. He knew that he would actually have to talk to him at some point. But even the thought of being close to him always made him so anxious that he just couldn't stop the car. But as the vision of having the blonde in his bed haunted his mind stubbornly, he had decided that tonight would be the night when it would happen.

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Get Out Of My Dreams, Get Into My Car 1/? / AO3 >> (unfinished)

1992 in San Diego, where Steve recently moved because of his new job, he runs into Billy - literally. Billy isn't exactly what he used to be when Steve had last seen him, but it isn't a bad thing. At all. By chance, they end up as roommates and, well…

or OMG they were roommates!

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The Family Values Program 1/? / AO3 >> (unfinished)

Co-written with Aggressiveviking

When society started to decline, morals deteriorate and disease wiped almost one fourth of the population in the United States, The Family Values Program (TFV) was launched—the last beacon of hope for the betterment of the American people.

Steve had thought he wouldn't need to join TFV thanks to his dad's riches, whereas Billy had done all he could to ensure he would be one of the few accepted to it, for his father's sake—hoping desperately to turn twenty-five before being matched and thus age out of the program.

So, when they got the message from the Matchmaking Service of a successful match, neither of them knew what to expect—and how badly wrong it had gone.

To Steve, finding out that he was matched with a man by mistake was just one problem. The more pressing one was his upcoming twenty-fifth birthday a week from now, effectively aging him out of the program. If their match was revoked, Steve would be cast out of the TFV zone, with a promise from his father for no financial support. Steve couldn't let that happen.

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Oneshots

Standalones, either my own or prompted from fandom events. Latest is always the last on the list. Enjoy :)

Surprise >> / AO3 >> Pure fluff, genderfluid Billy.

Sugar >> / AO3 >> Pure fluff.

The Smear >> / AO3 >> Domestic fluff, genderfluid Billy.

King Size, only on AO3 in full >> Lemons.

A Fair Deal >> / AO3 >> Fluff, the party.

Cat in Heat >> / AO3 >> Lemons.

Princess >> / AO3 >> Fluff, lemons.

May I feel? >> / AO3 >> Pure fluff.

Menace, My Beloved >> / AO3 >> Mild hurt/comfort, pillow fights.

(I'm in Orbit) Stars Exploding >> / AO3 >> Fluff, feelings realizations, not really character death, happy ending.

The Letter >> / AO3 >> Angst, unhappy ending, permanent character death.

Wounded Deer >> / AO3 >> Angst, hurt/comfort.

Oh Baby >> / AO3 >> Lemons, hurt/comfort.

Snow on the Beach >> / AO3 >> / Podfic on AO3 >> Pure fluff.

Take it off (drive me crazy) >> / AO3 >> Lemons.

Little Siren >> / AO3 >> Merman AU, fairy tale.

Screwdriver >> / AO3 >> Fluff, meet cute, innuendos.

Snowfall on the Sahara >> / AO3 >> Fluff

Like a Virgin (only on AO3) >> Roommates, Lemons with feelings

Something memorable >> / AO3 >> kinda fluff I guess :D

Sunlight on his face >> / AO3 >> fluff

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[sapphire-drawings]

For the art asks thing, 5, 11 or 27? Or all three if you’d like! :)

I'll gladly answer all of these

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

Most of it! Well, most of it since I got in the dst hole this year Before that I would almost exclusively draw for myself, my Oc's specifically. Stories I won't be working for a looong time, not sure if I'll ever will honestly, but it's fun to visit them from time to time. (And some. . . weird tastes that remains hidden in the archives of my tablet)

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

I either play long videos in the background cuz I like to have some noise (right now Plate Up gameplays cuz I love the game) I also have a playlist on Youtube that I update every month or so with songs that currently give me comfort (not good with listening EVERYTHING I like at once)

Current highlights of said playlist

° Unlike Pluto's recent songs (As They Bloom and Fata Morgana are my faves so far) ° Father's Day (CG5's Don't Hug Me I'm Scared Song) °Jekyll and Hyde - Dangerous Game, His work and Nothing More and Confrontation (Transformation is also there but it brings me memories of the thing I haven't touched in months Cough cough) ° Phantom of the Opera by Jonathan Young Cuz I have a crossover idea with Maxwil and that is like "the end song" of the whole thing. The crossover has nothing to do with the original story but whatever

Oooooor The Prince of Egypt if I'm feeling down or overwhelmed (currently 10hrs of the Stone Tower Temple. . . )

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

I. . . don't?

Most of my stuff are like doodle pages so I don't really plan anything or warm up. The Warm Up IS the drawing itself. Not even when I have a clear idea in mind, I just push through and deliver whatever comes out. That's why they're so sketchy. Silly doodles are just for fun. BUUUUUUUT I do do some figure sketch sessions whenever I feel stuck in my drawing skills, practicing the line of actions really unclogs my brain when nothing seems to go right

Anyway, I exported the timelapse of the starvetover piece cuz that's an idea that exploded in my head in my head and was transferred almost immediately

Sorry if it's a long post but those are 3 questions so you should've expected that haha

[lesbianlotties]

20 questions for fic writers

thanks for tagging me @lilolilyr !! ily <33

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

120 works!

2. What’s your total ao3 word count?

oh i didn't want to be outed on this but... 1,262,993

3. What fandoms do you write for?

i have written for 18 fandoms! currently i'm only writing for yellowjackets. but i might write more for ronance, i could update the warrior nun fic. and who knows, maybe a new season/movie will get me writing wednesday and the old guard again!

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Aftermath Kudos: 3,605 - aka "holy shit a lot of people were reading wednesday fanfic huh??"

make my menace into someone you'd adore Kudos: 2,179 - ronance coworkers enemies to lovers my beloved!

through the grief can't fight the feeling of relief Kudos: 1,381 - very soft warrior nun fic

five times Deena and Sam met in secret (and one time they didn’t)  Kudos: 1,154 - ngl i didn't think fear street fics got these many kudos but this was a lovely time!

Elvis cloned by aliens (you never know...) Kudos: 912 - it's literally insane to me that a one shot got this many kudos! (let's get it to 1k? 👀)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes!! i think like 99% of the time. i just love it so much. i love saying thank u because i'm genuinely SO thankful for every comment. and i have a feeling if i reply it might inspire people to leave more comments. and also sometimes it's a chance to just talk more about the fic! which i love doing, there's nothing like getting to talk about it

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm i don't love writing angsty endings, as you'll see by the fact that i wrote these two super angsty endings and then i went and wrote a sequel/alternate ending for both ghsjfdghkdfjg but anyway there's:

I'm sorry (it should've been me) - nancy tells robin she loves her but she's too late (in the rain)

If I could hold you for a minute (darling, I'd go through it again) - laura lee reincarnated as the bear and you know what happened to it

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh most of them lmao hmm i think i’m going to go for these “everyone survived post canon and they move in together to be happy and heal as a family” Extremely Uneventful Subject for tog and Who would I be without you, without them? for yellowjackets

8. Do you get hate on fic?

hmmm no i think that’s never happened! the closest thing might have been someone suggesting i always killed certain character when it’s the entire opposite. or the funny alternative, when someone literally only mentioned the men in the background of the story in every single comment they left lol but even those were mostly nice comments!

9. Do you write smut?

i do yes! not much and i only yielded and started writing it recently but i’ve loved it so far lol four of my most popular yj fics are smut, one of them is one of my favorites ever, and there’s that one ronance fic i posted on anon first… iykyk

10. Do you write crossovers?

i’ve done two! Immortals and Librarians for tog and gunpowder milkshake and (Red) Room For 8 for ocean’s 8 and hill house

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of!! hopefuly not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! 【翻译】Being with you (Makes the flame burn good) by R_H_Felidae_Athena

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have tried but they haven’t been posted/finished yet :(

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

okay so that’s a Tough question. judging by amount of fic written it’s robin and nancy, my current favorite is lottie and laura lee, but i also just rewatched bly manor and let me tell you, there’s no one at the level of dani and jamie <3

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but probably won’t?

there’s too many 😭 going as far back as the ocean’s 8 days there's the haunted house one, then fear street enemies to lovers, my warrior nun fic, yellowjackets coffee shop au, and all the ideas i haven’t even started ghsjfdghjf

16. What are your writing strengths?

oh don't do this to me. i literally never know what to reply to this. i... well i'd like to think i'm good at characterization and maybe dialogue!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

hmm i think i have a serious lack of discipline that means i only write when the mood is right and i will never stick to a schedule or plan or routine lol and okay i'll admit it, i might be too lazy to do the research necessary to write certain things/stories so i just avoid them 😭 but in my defense it's because too much research for academic reasons made me allergic to it

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

hm. i did this somewhat regularly with the old guard and in one ronance fic but looking back i don’t love it very much, it’s just okay i guess. this is just for me personally!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

ocean’s 8 hgsjdfghjf closely followed by the haunting of hill house

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

VERY very tough question!! they’re all my babies and i couldn’t possibly pick any fav- actually i have a few! but i’ll keep it to 3 special ones that funnily enough are far from being my most popular ones (pls read them i worked so so hard on them)

God's very simple and love shouldn't burn - aka my lottielee manifesto! 

If you rewrite your life, may I still play a part? - stranger things, nancy wheeler choose your own adventure fic!

my heart (is like a haunted house) - tog, andy falls in love with quynh’s ghost

tagging: @natscatorrcio @dufrau @eskawrites @scorchedhearth @sapphicscience @yee-hawlw @reesesfastbreak (if you want to! no pressure!) and pls pls anyone that sees this and wants to share say i tagged u!

[ventisslut]

OP where's this tall dom reader x venti content u see everywhere bc i almost never come across it.

Oh come on

You know what i'm talking about. I've been avidly following and checking the venti tag daily on tumblr since 2021, i've seen them all. If you were to just go through the genshin smut posts on tumblr or check a3 fics, you'd notice the clear bias towards Venti since people think that if a character is cute, short or feminine in the slightest they must be a sub. Dom Venti content has been always scarce compared to sub venti. And people have explicitly stated before that they never thought of him in a Dom position until we suggested it and they still are saying things like that.

You may be feeling like dom venti content is everywhere or everyone prefers him as a dom right now but it's not true, more and more people only started to write him like that in recent years or see him in that light because we pushed the idea that Venti could be a dom too. I've been here since before the windblume update and i remember the first days of the fandom. there were only a few writers who wrote him like that until we started writing our own content since it was not enough and started pushing the idea that hey, maybe Venti could be a dom and his s/o could be shorter than him?

I mean 165 / 5'4 (his canonical height) isn't that short tbh.

Even so, none of my works have any implications in them that reader is shorter than him and i never talk about reader's appearance because it's supposed to be a reader insert. And i wish other writers would do the same.

I remember many many times when i was reading a venti reader insert fanfic and writers immediately assume reader is taller than him since he looks short in game. And then Hell, most of the Venti nsfw artworks are almost always sub venti where he's getting fucked by taller characters.

And i'm not the only one saying this too. I'm guessing you saw my vent posts? Then you should've already seen the amount of people agreeing with me.

[sarcasticsunshine123]

WIP game

remember this? yeah I'm doing it again hehe

Rules: Share the titles of each of your current WIPs and if your followers ask, share a preview (edit: or a ramble) of the one that sounds the most interesting. Send this on to ten mutuals who you are curious about what they’re working on.

(no one tagged me and I'm not tagging anyone I've just had some serious trouble with writers block recently and am going to uni soon so won't have as much time for writing or anything so basically let me tell you about the stuff I haven't finished yet so future me feels less bad about not writing as much djfj if anyone else feels like doing this then count this as me tagging you!)

I'm not surprised (I should've known)

Previously Engaged ✔️

on the outside looking in [posted]

fearless

sirens (the beat of your heart)

told you so, working title

speak now ✔️

a second chance (not what I meant), working title ✔️

we sit in silence but we're smiling, very working title ✔️

delicate ✔️

(it's not like) i’m in love with you ✔️

The Instagram Conspiracy ✔️

it's the start of something new... take two (working title)

do you want to save this message?

(I didn't include the ones that have been asked about before but weren't posted yet or the trope challenge one bc I don't have a title yet and that ones a surprise hehe)

anyway ask away!!!!

edit: I am still doing this so keep sending asks, I've checked off the ones I already have one for and keep it regurlarly updated <3

[2dkapsddr]

March 29th, 2024 - ProSeka, CHUNITHM, beatmania, DanEvo, EZ2AC, Arcaea

WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT GAME LIST!!! oh my god this day is so hype you guys have no idea yet .

so after a few months of waiting and making my cosplay, the day finally arrived. after much communication and deliberation between my friends, we were set to meet up and depart outside my house for the event. i put on my cosplay, wrote some scholarship stuff, and hopped in the car where we made our way to the con and our weekend of freedom and joy. i even scored this Ego Rock FC on the EN ver of ProSeka on the way there!

we finally arrived after taking the link train there and having some eats at a local ramen place, where i was INSTANTLY drawn into the magic and joyousness of the con's environment and cosplayers. we first entered the artist valley after getting our badges and my GOD there was so much!!! i was drawn in!!! it was amazing!!! most of the details i've already discussed and put down in a journal somewhere, but for this account? i'm gonna be talking about the RHYTHM GAMES there.

they had an insanely cool freeplay arcade full of arcade games, but most notably the rhythm game ones that were by far the most popular of the bunch. once i was finished with my artist valley purchases for the time being, i split off from my friends and headed upstairs to try and find another friend before giving up and finding the arcade room. i entered into a room of magic, a room of marvels and wonder for me. not only did they have the recent CHUNITHM NEW update, but so many other rhythm games i had only dreamed of seeing and even playing!!! you'll notice such rhythm games by the title, which includes three that i've never featured before on this account. ladies and gentlemen, for the first of around three consecutive posts, i introduce you to... the SAKURACON ARCADE SELECTION SPECIAL POST PART ONE!!!

first off, CHUNITHM NEW!!! i had already played SUN PLUS at a different event, so this was a slight step back. however, what set this apart was the fact that it was on the same server as my paralost account and thus i could transfer over my data to play on my main chuni account on 120hz!!! that's right, 120hz!!! 120 whole frames per second!!! as much as i wanted to play all the other games, i settled nicely into this one and grinded it out as much as i could while the line was short and while my friend also wanted to play. so before i move on to the more obscure zone, here's the collection of scores i got from that part!!

next up? DANEVO!!! i've really wanted to play this at a con and especially in cosplay for the longest time, and now that i was briefly with a friend, i finally had my chance... i unfortunately didn't have very many routines memorized, so i only played one set containing Daisuke and Tsumi to Batsu, the two DANCE aROUND level 10s that i had memorized for that game. the result? AMAZING!!! i'll even link a video as a bonus at the end of this whole thing, but here's the sick and clean (though imperfect) scores i got!!

briefly returned to chunithm where i got a few more scores before my friends dragged me back to the artist valley with them :] S+ on A Site De La Rue and Hana to, Yuki to, Drum n' Bass!!!

after i got caught up in a persona stamp rally and wasted more funds on even more charms (i wouldn't say they were wasted, but i maaay have spent a little more than i maybe should've? idk...), i headed back to the arcade for the rest of the day to finally have some peaceful, quiet gaming time all to myself. it was at this moment that i found two particular empty cabs, and opportunity struck at that exact moment. i've been dying to play either of these for years, their song selections and silly charts enticing me. and now, they were finally free, in the open, within my grasp. i ran up while no one even paid them any mind and booted them up, resting my hands on the keys and turntables. "hello 5key, my new friend."

that's right babey we're finally actually playing 5KEY BEATMANIA!!! AND 5KEY EZ2AC AS WELL!!! FUCKYEAH!!!!!!!!!!! to say i was ecstatic would be an understatement, as i've always been a huge watcher of really old 5key videos on youtube and have really wondered what it's like to actually play on one of these. they sure did feel old, but that only completed the experience even more. i fucking LOVED THIS!!! LOOK AT ALL MY BEAUTIFUL FIRST-TIMER SCORES!!!! (i had some trouble figuring out how to change some settings, but i figured it out within my first set and got straight to work on the (fake) grind...

thought that was the only 5key game they had, or the only one i'd be playing at least? THINK AGAIN!!! i also managed to snag a set of EZ2AC when all the casuals left!!! and by GOD i'm also wondering how they managed to do this on old windows XP monitors it's so beautiful to actually see and play up close, even if i suck complete ass with the foot pedal and stuff...

one last score for the night as i was heading back from the con for the day (tragically missing the ddr sing-along), it's a full recall on Dement ~After Legend~ BYD-9+!! there's not much notable about this score other than just being during con weekend, but i just fuckign LOVE rhythm games ya feel? (and the score is pretty good on its own too ig :rolling_eyes:)

BONUS: you didn't ask, but i delivered on my promise! here's a super short clip from my friend of me playing Daisuke in my Toya Aoyagi cosplay!!

[zaptap]

so i played splatoon 1 for 57 hours when i came back to it in the last couple months. that puts it at 440, just under splatoon 2 (which is at 450)

really makes me realize how little i played splatoon 2, relative to how much content it had and how long it was the newest game.

after a year or so of splat1, basically ignoring every other wii u game i got after that to play splatoon more (3ds escaped this only by being portable) i went into splat2 resolving to not leave a trail of unfinished games behind me again

buuuut that just created a different issue. new game comes out, i'm like ok i'll get through this and go back to splatoon.... then another new game comes out before i can do that. and i still didn't even finish most of them. probably the bulk of my splat2 activity comes from the first 3 months before mario odyssey released, and the month or two after octo expansion, and the rest is just keeping up with the new content, splatfests, and hitting the salmon run checkpoints and dropping in for special rotations. i could've played more. i should've played more

i'm taking a different approach with splatoon 3. yeah, they're still making games i want to play that aren't splatoon. but i like splatoon more. so it should have priority. and i've discovered the secret to not feeling bogged down by a lot of unfinished games i've bought is to just... not buy a lot of games. in the past i'd buy stuff if i got a good deal or if i just wanted to make sure i got it when it was available (since i prefer physical). and spending money on that means i feel more obligated to play it and i feel bad if i don't fit it in

but, welllllll, when i got the splat3 oled i hacked my launch model switch and so now uh. i'm not worried about missing out on switch games. if i wanted them i could get them whenever. and it removes the whole "i paid for this i should get my money's worth" obligation. (and yeah i prefer physical but getting a good deal is a good tradeoff to go digital. especially if the deal is free). anyway i haven't actually done anything with my hacked switch beyond setting it up but the option certainly is there. i'd still end up buying games i intend to play online though (which is pretty much just splatoon and pokemon, the latter just for trading and home compatibility)

so yeah in the year and a half since splatoon 3 released literally the only other games i've gotten are pokemon violet (and its dlc) and totk. im not even done with either of them (though in violet all i have left to do is get the rest of the post-dlc legendaries). probably will buy the ttyd remake too. other than that it's just been splatoon 3

i kind of don't want to play it too much though. i burned myself out playing splatoon 1 a lot ahead of the last splatfest (which is why i pretty much didn't touch it again until this year), and it took until splatoon 2 for me to want to play again.

but the issue there was i decided i wanted to hit level 50 during the last splatfest, and i was far enough away that i'd need to get a ton of exp each day to make it (i think something over 200? you get 5 exp for winning and 2 for losing so if that was 200 exp exactly, it'd be over 3 hours a day at BEST. i tended to win about 2/3 to 3/4 of the time in splat1 those days so it was at least on the shorter side, but still, you can imagine the strain this put on the fun i was having playing the game).

this is also why i don't particularly care about leveling up in splatoon 3 (especially since other players can't see your level this time). i recently hit level 50 after over 800 hours, probably about double how long i took to get there in splatoon 2 (i'm in the low 50s in there, maybe 54 at most). if salmon run gave exp though i'd be way higher (it should) (when are they updating it to do that) (seriously if they can add wandercrust support to it they can add exp too)

i do think i really need a break from splatoon at one point. there's enough that i want to do that i'll probably continue after content updates stop, but i don't want to keep playing daily all the way until splatoon 4 (whenever that is). i need to at least turn it into a weekly routine after that maybe. forget the first victory of the day bonus (catalogs wouldn't have anything important at that point i assume? mystery boxes like the extra catalogs i'm thinking), maybe at least catch each salmon run rotation's superbonuses for the cash drops (that's not a once a week thing though. that's like 4 days a week i think. better than daily, but still)

i would totally be fine if the next splatoon game didn't come out for like a decade. there's enough in 3 to last that long. but of course if they're making a new console, they're going to put splatoon on it. it's only a matter of when. would we be looking at 3 years after splat3 content stops, like last time? longer? shorter? who knows. may depend on whether some of the devs will have to do an animal crossing game in between again

[moveslikeanape]

hey! so, you may or may not have seen me post about this, but sadly one of my cats, lily, died just a couple days ago. i'll spare you the details of what happened, but i've been pretty heartbroken about it. she was an incredibly sweet cat. daisy is doing well and is very healthy, though. anyway, you and your dad's cats have such cute names! would oliver's name happen to come from oliver and company?

iirc you have an older phone and that's why you can't get dreamlight valley on mobile, right? hopefully you'll be able to download twisted wonderland! i should also say that the game is sort of a mix of a visual novel, rhythm game, and turn based RPG. the gameplay isn't usually too difficult but it'd be totally understandable if it turned out it wasn't your thing. i mostly love it because i'm fascinated by the characters, story, and world! it's set in a school with seven dorms, each one being based on a different disney movie: there's heartslabyul (alice in wonderland), savanaclaw, (the lion king), octavinelle (the little mermaid), scarabia (aladdin), pomefiore (snow white), ignihyde (hercules), and diasomnia (sleeping beauty). so each part of the story focuses on one dorm and takes inspiration from that movie's events, but with a lot of unique twists on it. and it's still ongoing so it's always fun to wait for the updates to find out what happens next.

i agree on everything you said about sequels! and personally, i'm worried about moana 2 because it was originally planned to be a disney+ show, which was then canceled and turned into a movie. so i have to wonder why they made this decision, is it just because a movie will make them more money? and how will whatever story was planned for the show work with the much shorter runtime of a movie? i just find it strange. and yes, i love toy story so much but i'm not excited about 5 at all!!

how i feel about the WDAS movies since moana is that with almost all of them, i was excited before they were released and then either disliked them when they came out, or enjoyed them at first but after rewatching and thinking about them more i realized they just weren't very memorable and not nearly as good as i first thought. for me the only exception has been encanto, and i'm pretty sure it's by far the most well received of the newer films as well. i think it's clear that disney is having issues behind the scenes, and it's also sad that some people don't see that. recently someone on here basically said that i and others who don't like wish are "anti disney moron", and are the reason we're getting all these sequels instead of original stories… but most people who know me would say that i'm crazy passionate about disney! i wanted to love wish but found it disappointing, and it is not my fault that it didn't succeed.

i will be honest, trolls band together came out in theaters around the same time as wish and i remember hearing about it making more money and getting better reviews than wish did. i ended up thinking i should've gone to see it instead because as cheesy and childish as they are, i actually like the trolls movies haha. the ghibli movie "the boy and the heron" also came out in US theaters not long after, and it sounds like a lovely movie from everything i've heard about it.

strongly agree about the broadway shows! i also think something that really sets them apart from the live action remakes is, quite simply, the fact that a stage show is such a different medium than a movie. they have to get so much more creative to translate an animated film to the stage. sometimes i see people wanting remakes of movies like the emperor's new groove or princess and the frog, but i always say they should get broadway musicals instead.

ohh that is true, i didn't think of how tarzan and terk's relationship might be viewed differently if it's just the two of them! it's too bad they had to remove tantor, because it sounds like that just might be the reason why terk was changed. also, sorry some of my asks are so lengthy, you can probably tell that i tend to ramble lol.

I'm so sorry for your loss **hugs**

It never gets any easier, but giving them a loving home and the best life we can makes it worth the heartache. I'm glad Daisy is doing well. Many people don't realize that losing an animal is hard on other animals in the house too.

(also, sorry I missed the post, I've been having internet issues on and off this weekend)

Good guess on Oliver's name. I finally got to name a cat, and naturally had to be Disney related… I was struggling to pick the best name, but couldn't concentrate because he kept crying for more food, so he kind of named himself.

I do have a tablet, but it's android and dreamlight valley isn't available on them (hopefully it will be someday). I have tried Twisted Wonderland and it looks really interesting. Love all the character designs, and the villain descriptions too! Not sure if I'll play much of it though, it looks like it takes far more time than I have time for. Will let you know if i make any progress on it though!

I was so excited when I saw the announcement of Moana 2 (especially the artwork with the whale shark, my fav!), but then I discovered they'd cancelled the show. If we were getting both I'd be ecstatic, more Moana! But changing from series to movie so far into production… that just screams Tarzan and Jane (tying a few episodes together with some quickly written story to make them connect) to me. It's gotta be about money. 1 short movie verses however many epsiodes they were going to do. I'm going to hope for the best that Moana turns out alright, but I'm not holding my breath. I find I'm constantly surprised when I get reminded that Toy Story 4 even exists, it was just that memorable to me. The only thing I really remember from it is Duke Caboom, and that's probably only because he's Canadian, lol. Can't imagine what they could possibly add to that series to justify another movie.

I really really wanted to like Raya, and I probably should give it another chance as I've only seen it the once, but it just felt like they were throwing things in there that they think people will like instead of actually trying serve the story. From what I remember, so much of it seemed unnecessary. I do remember at times being blown away by the animation though, maybe I was just too focused on that to actually pay attention to the rest, lol.

The "anti disney moron" made me laugh. As if that's what's going on. There are people who genuinely like Wish (and the other recent movies), but enjoying a movie doesn't make it good. And Disney is in a rut because they are, not because fans are being too picky. Disney went hard in the 90s/2000s, and they just can't seem to achieve the same quality of story we've some to expect. There are other factors too. The whole pandemic situation, rising costs of everything, and people just being worn out will affect how movies do as well. I've been worn out for years, constantly on the go, and at times struggling to pay bills… when I do have time to unwind and watch a movie, I don't want to waste my hard earned money on something I'm not guaranteed to enjoy. That makes it so much easier to just wait for something like Wish to go on Disney+. That way if it ends up being not my cup of tea, at least I didn't waste any extra money on it.

I've never seen any of the Trolls movies, but I have some coworkers who said they enjoyed them. I've heard nothing but good things about the Boy and the Heron, and I really want to see it!

OMG yes!! Stop the remakes right now and bring on the musicals!!! They can still film them and put them on Disney+ so people who can't travel can still see them. Even if they did that as a pay per view, I would still watch them! And I totally agree about the creativity, far more interesting than any changes they've made for the LA remakes.

I dug out my Tarzan Broadway book and had a quick look through, and I couldn't find anything that even mentioned Terk becoming male. Will have to find the time to properly read it someday. That's probably my best guess though. Such a shame not to find the actual reason. But at least we get 2 versions of Terk this way. I am so sad Tantor was removed, he's such a great character. It may have been tricky, but it would have been neat to see how they'd pull off having an elephant in the show.

lol, no worries. You're passionate, "rambling" is part of that.

[jeongjaebae]

ah my new year gathering was canceled ! the host got covid the week before and just canceled it in case! and uhm ( • •;) i have like 256GB HAHA but i'm at 10k now ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ back when i had 6k photos i told myself that it's not going to be worse than this.... then it did.... ANYWAYS I SAW THEY STARTED POSTING ON INSTAGRAM i'm like pls let me catch up first (T＿T)

yeah league is similar to val! when people say playing league is a red flag they usually categorize it with val... but i choose to turn a blind eye on it.. for now bdkdbdkdn oh i play sstbz too! oh my god, have you seen a clip of jacob failing at sunwoo's rap and saying "sunwoo, rap slower please" LOL the whole thriller album 🙅🏻‍♀️ too hard for my chubby little fingers. oh i'm not a skater, (professionally wise) but i'm avid fan of it! i just like to casually do skate. oo figure skating ? figure skating always fascinated me, why did you quit if i may ask?

ooo bermuda line + sangyeon? and gosh you don't need to say thank you! i wanted to see how you were doing even if i didn't have enough energy to talk <3 gosh,,, i love wadada although the second part of the chorus... not my fav but i'm on neutral on the "oh~" part now! hmm, SMILEY!! smiley gives me like a disney 2010s vibe and i miss that era. i also like polaroid love & pirate ! any groups you recently started listening to? hmm usually with two toned hair most people call it skunk LOL. i know my big three! (obviously my sun sign is scorpio) cancer moon and gemini rising ! i don't know much about zodiacs but my chart says i have water the most then earth after and fire then air in last! man, everyone who guesses my chart as well think i give off earthy vibes, so you're not alone! and thank you! but maybe sticker playing on repeat on my feed helps me think it's okay LMAO.

but ah i should've realized from your blog theme i never thought about that BDKXNXKX. hmm mine changes on the day but it's mainly dark purple. even though i don't post on my blog anymore, if you saw it you could as well tell from my theme! gosh i agree! i don't know how long your winter break was but mine was pretty lengthy but still felt so short 😭.

gosh -20? i can never endure the cold, the most it gets cold here is like 60 (fahrenheit) ~15 celsius! it doesn't snow here but in the winter we get wind and light rain ;-; (i don't know if you can tell where i live based on the weather, can you guess? HAHA) but yes stay warm as well ! -🐿

ahh well i hope you had a fun new years anyway!! but yes stay safe and healthy <3 omg 256gb didn't sound like a whole lot until i checked my phone and... i'm sitting at 64gb 🤡 tho my gallery is mostly just tbz and fic insp LMAO. but yeah INSTAGRAM TOO NOW as if it wasn't already hard enough to keep up with their updates in one spot!!

league, val, and... overwatch 🥴 the trifecta of red flags AHAHA. and omg sstbz... sunwoo's raps!! are so difficult!!! would agree that thrill-ing as an album is difficult, obviously with out of control, but thrill ride... isn't exactly one easy either... but omg watching juyeon play compared to the other members is so funny!! ahh i see, yeah skating is fun!! i quit bc of a knee injury years ago but like i wasn't great at it anywayyy :') now it's kinda just fun showing off a little while casually skating with friends or attempting to teach them simple moves haha (or like... analyzing olympic figure skaters like i've been doing these days LMAOO)

juyeon has actually made a comeback on my bias list since my last message about him slipping but i feel like that might be due to his hair... maverick era did him dirty >:(( i'm also writing him rn so there's that LOL. ooh the wadada dance looks like so much fun!! i saw the huening fam cover but ngl still don't like the song very much... agreed that the second half of the chorus is what makes it not so good HAHA. smiley is fun, have you listened to the rest of the album? i'm obsessed with her bside pretty boys 🤩 ooh polaroid love is a nice song to write to!! hmm i really liked yuju's album OH AND the game by pentagon!!

ohhh i don't think i would've guessed air being last for you but the earth vibes part is so interesting considering it's not in your big 3? have you read into your chart? i'm not exactlyyy a believer but there are some things on my chart description that seem strangely accurate HAHA. i have a taurus moon, libra rising, and gemini venus/mars!! oh is your theme still dark purple... would i find u... if i went thru my followers 👀 JK JK but that's a pretty colour!! i like purple too 🤩

just 60 fahrenheit??? lucky omg... i cannot stand walking my dog these days it's so cold 😭 wonder if jacob is also enjoying this canadian weather now that he's back LMAO. but hmm based on that i'd probably guess cali, arizona, nevada, texas for where you live??? haven't been to texas but when i did a winter trip to the other three states it basically felt like the fall weather here :')

but yes stay warm!! take care of yourself!! i hope you're doing well <3

[tamiddyinyourcity]

12:02am

Diva cups suck but at least i didn't bleed on the bed yet like i diid earlier

Tuesday, May 5th of 2020

Iife updates:

Cam complimented me and said I was a really good storyteller. I diiiig and am still kind of smiling and gushing and giggly about it even now. Aw shucks, thanks fam. Aaaaaaawwwwww. Daaaaaaaaw fuck why am i blushing? Am i being perceived???????? Oh my.

Talked on instagram live about that time Maxwell's parents saw my whole pussy on his phone once and barred him from seeing me, and about the classic "Asked Matty if he was gay during sex" infamous tale. Had two people post the 😂 emoji, and actually sit and listen through the whole thing. Felt aaaaawesome. The little things in life are often the loveliest, yknow?

I might go natural, or at least experiment more with transitioning styles to keep my ends intact and my hair growing in. I found a soybean oil online that they can specifically make smell like cereals! Imagine me, with Cinnamon Toast Twists, or a Fruit Loop Fro? Krispy Kreme scented Kurls? Baby, yes. Imagine the pure sex appeal of that, I swear to god, yall. 😍😍

Feeling nice.

My friends were roasting Francis' photos online. My favorite line was, "This man is repulsive! He looks like he smells like hot dogs!" (I was cackling and shoving my face into the pillow for a solid 14 minutes after that.... the "REPULSIVE" is what got me, like damn sis he's THAT fuckin bad to you???? Goddamn, lmfaoooo men are so terrible at taking photos of themselves.)

Too tired to regain the same hype energy as I had before to continue room diving. Once the "that old fat hag took her shit covered saggy asscheeks to a studio apartment and ive finally had peace i havent had in years" wore off, its just still a bland room. Gonna cover the walls in scripts and concept art very soon, so that's still a plus for me.

I'm sleepy before 3am how nice

I wrote a lyric for the song I had raken a break from, and it fits the flow perfectly! I'm so damn happy, god blesssss.

And I feel somehow pretty good, realizing why I was stuck on a loser. Once you go "you only clung to them since you doubted the ability to find better, and since he was the closest person you felt you could cling onto and trust after the man you truly loved had left, you were adamant to make a spineless person try to still keep things going.".... its, easy to lose the care.

I didn't really let the information click of "Patrick #1 was your first healthy relationship ever" until now.... god damn. Yeah, guess it does make sense. If you deal with so many shitstorms, then the one man that actually makes it clear that you being gone impacts his life is an entirely new feeling.

We aren't on good terms, but I still like to think he knows he still meant a lot to me overall. He was stupid as hell to assume that I fell out of love with him, or some dumb shit like that.

He just should've told me how he felt.

Imagine that.

12:42am.

I still like him.

He was stupid for thinking that ignoring me would not have consequences.

And my most recent ex is also stupid.

He put on a facade so much, that his disrespect showed me the reality of his perceptions towards me.

I'm disgusted knowing I ever gave someone like that a chance, the type to never know why they liked me until it was too late.

Fucking. Loser. Baldheaded. Slimeball.

And a chode.

Gonna go try to sleep. Patrick number two should die. Peace yalls.