#I think they’re allowed to be upset; in fact; it would be weird if they weren’t

[citricacidprince]

Thinking about Psychonauts and how much I love the Aquato family once again

They mean the world to me your honor

[kysuguru]

you REPLIED IM SO HAPPY😭😭🤞 btw the fact that suguru AND satoru are both her love interests im so HAPPY stsg for the WIN!!! i love how suguru and shoko automatically know what satoru is implying cause hes so so OBVIOUS!

i cant imagine the troubles suguru and satoru would have with reader.. shes so enduring and she allows them to do whatever because shes too sweet! ofc shes serious when the time comes down to it but i just know she takes the two lightly and cares too highly of their opinions to really say no to them. i 100% know suguru is worst when it comes to teasing her. in this universe i want to believe suguru does not deflect so he stays there w them. although reader probably does not realize the two actually is in love with her, she probably assumes they are with each other so she does not want to intrude.

what if shoko and reader were discussing about first dates and she finds out reader never had her first anything and sets her up with one? maybe rin or shin?! LOL and behold satoru and suguru being menaces and completely mean to her . the trouble they would cause to the way they would be so upset. reader actually enjoyed her first date but shes confused why stsg are so upset over her. they always teased her for not having a bf and when she does try theyre even more ruthless?? bc in reality to stsg they always thought she belonged to them and they’re actually in shock that shoko would do that knowing about their crushes on reader? (cue shoko laughing in the background)

i love these asks smmm😭 tysm for sending. and ur right!! i have chapter one and two written and posted on my ao3, but suguru doesn’t defect, i cant allow that. and yes… stsg are sooo annoying when it comes to jealousy. like they are so suffocating..

this is new, very new.

it was a brief conversation, so mundane you wouldn’t bother to remember it unless brought up. shoko asked a simple question. “you ever been on a date before?” after talking about her horrible experiences with lousy men. it was an easy answer, “no.”

and you thought it’d end there. of course it’s normal for girls your age to go on dates with other people, experience the life of romance at a young age, but it wasn’t odd to meet a girl your age who hadn’t been on a date. so you weren’t sure why shoko put you up to this.

rin sits across you with a beaming smile, the fluorescents of the cafe highlighting his freckles. you fiddle with the warm cup of coffee in front of you. you weren’t much of a coffee person, but you panicked and ordered the first thing on the menu. it was bitter, terribly so, you weren’t sure whether you’d prefer this or satoru’s cups of diabetes.

you sip on it occasionally, to make yourself look engaged. you hope your poker face has improved, you’d be humiliated if the bitterness on your tongue manifested itself onto your expression (rin noticed, but felt too awkward to speak up).

it’s weird, and you try pretending this wasn’t set up at a romantic date.

you like rin, he’s really nice, but you’d never even imagined him romantically.

he’s beaming at you, you think he’s blushing, and he looks as if he’s in a daze with his cheek resting on his palm. the look of adoration is so shell shocking you’re gazing around the cafe at other customers he might be looking at.

you chalk it up to excitement of being in such a nice place.

conversation with him is easy though, you realize.

it’s unlike satoru or suguru. suguru’s a listener, unlike satoru who’s a talker. they fit in so well with one another it makes it hard to fit in. you don’t mind that, watching from afar is enough for you. but you still yearn.

maybe that’s why shoko did this in the first place. to get your mind off of them. you suppose it wouldn’t be bad to broaden your spectrum, you needed more friends anyway. you couldn’t always hang onto shoko, suguru, and satoru forever.

hours pass, and before either of you know it, the sun sets.

rin was full of stories, he had so much to tell about kyoto, his classmates, and his missions. he was so fond of it all that you couldn’t bear to stop him. it was nice listening to someone on the same level as you. not that you disliked listening to satoru boast about his missions and how awesomely strong he was, but it was a nice change of pace to hear such things come from someone of your caliber.

you could get used to this.

your entering the school with a content face. you feel them both before you see them.

satoru drapes himself onto you, talking obnoxiously loud in your ear as suguru sends you a soft smile. your company with rin was wonderful, but you didn’t realize how much you missed your favorite people until you see their visages.

“where were you at for so long?” suguru asks calmly, though there’s a hint of something else you can’t really decipher. maybe suspicion.

“shoko set me up on a date with rin.” you say sheepishly, scratching your cheek.

they both freeze, you can feel the way satoru’s breath stutters as his hold gets loose. you look up at them both, brows raised.

…

it’s so silent. was it something you said? were they perhaps upset you didn’t say anything? did they want to tag along? you would’ve said yes immediately.

“rin from kyoto?” satoru whispers, and you think he sounds angry. you can’t fathom why, so you try and brush if off. even though there’s a seed of dread starting to grow in the pit of your stomach.

“yes... shoko said something about chemistry. whatever that means!” you chuckle nervously.

satoru let’s you go, backing away. now you’re worried.

“i-is something wrong?” you look up at suguru for assistance but he’s turned his head.

you shuffle your feet, anxious. they’re obviously upset, but you don’t know why. “did i do something?” that’s the only thing you could think of. or did they not like rin? he was a nice guy, so you wouldn’t understand why.

satoru rubs your head, startling you.

“it’s nothing, sweets,” he says.

but he’s walking off before you can speak any further, he makes a point not to let you see his face as he departs. suguru gives you a strained smile before he’s following. “night,” he mutters.

and even though satoru reassured you, that seed of dread continued to grow.

satoru and suguru are busy. satoru hasn’t asked for your notes in awhile. you wanna assume that he’s got it down until you hear him loudly bugging suguru for his notebook. your heart drops at the fact that satoru just hasn’t asked you. you don’t know why that hurts, it shouldn’t. maybe suguru just conveys the answer better, there’s nothing wrong with that.

they go out for lunch, leaving you and shoko in the empty cafeteria with your cold noodles. shoko’s great company, of course, but the lack of satoru’s loud voice and suguru’s scolding makes it feel eerily quiet.

nights in the common room have shrunk to just you and shoko. it’s been like this for a few days. only a few days. yet you feel as if these days are dragging on slower than usual. shoko notices, and rolls her eyes, muttering under her breath how pathetic boys could be.

you think she’s spoken to them, for they look at you a little more now. but they barely talk to you unless the situation calls for it, even then, they’re awkward.

but it isn’t until shoko has been in high demand after a dangerous mission that the first years came back from that you’re alone with them. you’re nervous, feeling their eyes trained on you. you don’t dare make contact.

they begin talking to each other, and you feel joy consume you at the familiarity of it. you’re looking up now, making eye contact with the both of them. satoru opens his mouth, but you intervene.

“i’m sorry!”

their eyes are wide.

“i’m sorry for whatever i did. it’s just.. you guys feel distant. if it’s because of me then—”

“i should say sorry,” your eyes flit up to suguru’s as he scratches his neck sheepishly. “i was being childish.” he speaks into his palm. “we were being childish.” he corrects himself, eyes glaring into satoru’s, who huffs and crosses his arms.

“so it was something i did?” your brows knit as a frown etched itself onto your lips.

“it’s more complicated than that,” suguru says. but you’re not convinced.

satoru mutters something under his breath, you catch nothing but rin’s name. so you ask him to repeat himself.

“i just don’t like rin, is all.”

you blink.

“d-did he do something?” you needed to know, if he hurt or insulted suguru or satoru in any way you were ready to break it off—

“no. not exactly, we just… don’t like you being alone with him,” suguru admits, flushed.

oh!

you felt relief fill your chest.

“i think i know now.” you smile, happily. they stare. they both lean slightly forward, anticipating. “if i ever go out with him again i’ll invite you both out!” you clap your hands together.

they were upset that they weren’t invited along. that makes sense. you’re relieved. satoru did eye that cafe whenever you three passed it.

they share a look, one of amusement and one of exasperation.

“such a ditz,” satoru grumbles.

“we’d like that,” suguru smiles.

you’re happy, so happy you could cry tears of relief.

“i’m glad, i thought you were both gonna hate me forever.”

suguru grabs your hand, caressing your palm, your heartbeat spikes. “that’d never happen.”

satoru scoots closer to you and drapes himself over your shoulders, the familiar action has your cheeks hurting from how big you’re smiling. he squishes his cheek against yours, rubbing softly as he speaks, “never go out alone with rin again, okay? you need at least me or suguru there, not even shoko’s enough!”

they will never forget how she betrayed them so.

“of course,” you exhale, joyful.

and yes, abt stsg ur also right! this is kinda a poly thing. stsg love each other and the reader

[findafight]

I’m gonna admit, the whole “Robin and Steve share a girlfriend” thing kind of came to me when I was imagining how Steve and Vickie would get along.

As many people (I think including you?) have pointed out they have pretty much the same sense of humour, and seem to enjoy the same movies.

I see Steve being a “third wheel” on a lot of Robin and Vickie’s dates, in part because of rides and in part to make certain situations look less date-y. Or look more like one of the girls is third-wheeling by holding hands, doing the hand to the small of the back thing. Which sometimes leads to situations where Robin is kind of puppeteering Steve; “Steve, look at Vickie, she’s so cold! I can’t believe you’re not offering her your coat - what kind of boyfriend are you?”

(This comes back to bite her in the my ass a couple times when Steve will loudly announce “Robin, I cannot believe you’re just going to take the slice without offering it to Vickie, what kind of boyfriend are you?”, allowing Vickie to turn the puppy eyes on Robin.

He has done this a couple times in front of the kids, which they all find weird, but also assume it to be either one of Steve and Robin’s *deeply* unfunny inside jokes or part of an argument on the road to the realisation that they are in fact in deep denial about 1. Being in love and 2. That they have gone down a Super Mario pipe, skipped over all the interesting parts of romance and landed in their “old married couple” phase)

It’s all very confusing for Vickie. Like, she gets a kiss on the cheek from Steve so Robin can kiss her on the other cheek under the guise of making fun of the sappy couple - or else she gets a kiss from Robin and Steve gives her a kiss on the cheek to actually make fun of them. But she also gets forehead kisses from Steve to say hello and goodbye - which he doesn’t think is a big deal. He does that to Robin all the time - it would probably be rude to leave Vickie out, right? Or make her feel weird, left out. Things are not helped by the fact that Robin sometimes expresses her love via Steve. If Vickie’s upset, she’ll hug her, but she’ll also make Steve hug her, because he gives the *best* hugs!

Like, yeah, they’re a soul cut in half or whatever, but seriously - is this some kind of test? Does Steve think that she’s going to chest on Robin and is trying to prove it? Has Robin put him up to this because she thinks Vickie needs/wants wooing by *both* a girl and a boy? (She’s recently come out to her younger sister as “bisexual” and one of her questions was “so can you only have threesomes now?” Vickie is *going through it*, folks!)

Eventually she sits them down to try and talk it out, because this morning she woke up wearing a mix of both their clothes and she has some important assignments coming up at school, guys, SHE CANNOT KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS!

(There is a moment of silence as both Robin and Steve both fight to repress the urge to yell at each other that *this* is what that girl Janet that dumped Steve the other week was talking about!)

All hail Vickie, the bisexual who won *and* continued o be a disaster. no one is doing it like her!

omg sooooo good anon. I love this. VIckie is fighting for her life trying to decipher what is going on in her own relationship. is she dating Steve? is she not dating him? is she only dating robin? or both of them? Robin and Steve are weird she knew this going in but this is a bit much, right? and had to sit down for a minute because yes she woke up with Steve's shirt on and robins pants but the she saw Steve wearing her own sweater and robin wearing Steve's pants and so what does this mean? what are they doing? does she want anything to actually change?? (the answer to that she knows is no. She just wants clarity!and also is realizing that yes Steve does give the best hugs but part of that is that is Robin is there too. She's also realizing maybe kissing Steve and holding his hand is something she'd be down for more often!! help her!!)

and if she is also dating Steve she's going to have to live through the mortification of maybe telling her sister, and explaining that just because she's bisexual the throuple situation is NOT an essential part of that it just kinda happened by accident without any of the three of them noticing. and. who wants to admit that let alone to a little sister who Will Not Let It Go? poor vickie....

No one is doing it like Vickie and Stobin is not helping the situation At. All.

[hyperfixated-homo]

eepy moment. have horror au hcs which i have been saving in my back pocket

Raph has so many ghost hunting tools. Its genuinely sort of impressive

Raph has a stash of candles nobody is allowed to touch, apart from to restock. They’re ceremonial

Mikey is team medic bc of the amount of injuries he’s had to deal with in his genre

Mikey knows how to use the most weapons

Leo knows how to use the least weapons

Donnie sometimes speaks in a different language. He never remembers what he said after he says it. And the others know nothing about it, usually only able to pick out that its distinctly nonhuman

The best days for Leo are the ones where he acts completely normal, like he did Before. They are also the worst, because being snapped out of whatever delusion he is experiencing is never fun.

Raph is the worst at eating, but the best at cooking. He often made food for his “friends” at the cabin, but often forgot to make enough for himself.

In a strange turn of events, Leo is the best at taking care of himself. That is, regarding everything except sleep. If he forgot to take care of himself, one of his hallucinations would get mad at him. Although, they got mad when he ate too, so it didn’t matter either way.

Donnie hates food that is too hot. He used to like certain things scolding, like coffee, but now he can’t stand the feeling of it. He doesn’t like the way it burns his tongue.

Everybody makes an effort not to make Donnie think too hard about his markings. It messes with his head.

Leo is the best driver of the group

Donnie has seemingly magic hands when comes to plants. He can make anything thrive.

Sometimes Donnie’s shell markings change. It has a weird correlation to his mood.

The boys’ rooms are a friendlier extension of their universes. Still, they don’t go into them too often. The memories are too fresh.

Leo is banned from cooking. It’s for more upsetting reasons than you probably think.

Mikey can live in practically any basic survival situations. He’s seen a lot of nonsense. He knows how to deal.

Sometimes, Leo and Donnie will lose the ability to feel pain. Donnie has tried to figure out why it happens, but so far has not found any specific reason.

Mikey and Leo have both murdered people. They have also both been murdered. They have bonded about this on more than one occasion.

Raph has a thing against dolls. If any of them inexplicably show up around the lair, they are to be removed IMMEDIATELY.

Leo did the bloody mary challenge once as a joke. He stopped afterwards though, when Raph had a genuine mental breakdown thinking he had invited a ghost to the lair.

Raph knows how to do exorcisms. Not only that, but he’s damn efficient at them too. Doesn’t have to do it often though, because he’s got a bunch of precautions in place to stop spirits from entering the lair already.

Donnie has met (a?) god. He knows this for a fact.

(more au info here smile)

[strandnreyes]

Chapter 1 going up on Friday!!

“Hey,” Carlos smiles. “I was looking for you.”

His damp curls are still sending drops of water down his chest and though TK’s sunglasses would allow him to stare unabashedly, he looks away. 

“I’ve been here,” he says evenly.

“I can see that. You’re starting to look a little red,” Carlos says, sitting down on the next chair and kicking his legs out.

“What?” TK frowns, pulling his sunglasses off to look at his skin. He doesn’t even spot a hint of sunburn. “Asshole,” he mutters before laying back down, trying not to smile at Carlos’ laugh. 

TK moves away from watching the rest of the players to take in the other guests. There are a few families in the shallow end of the pool and a couple in the hot tub who are very obviously on their honeymoon, but mostly it’s just their team. 

“I think some of the guys are getting a volleyball game going on the beach,” Carlos tells him. “You in?”

“Judd’s gonna be pissed if one of them twists an ankle,” TK mutters. 

“I’m guessing that’s a no, then?”

He shrugs. “You can go if you want.”

“I’m good,” Carlos declines, tipping his head back as he basks in the sun. The sight alone is almost enough for TK to forget what he was upset about in the first place. “It sucks to be out of the tournament, but I have to say this is kinda nice.”

TK hums. 

“It’s weird, though. It doesn’t even feel like Thanksgiving,” Carlos continues and under a different circumstance, TK would ask what his family normally does on this day.

Instead all he manages is, “Yup.”

Carlos huffs, sitting upright and swinging his legs over the side of the chair. “Alright. Get up.”

TK finally looks him in the eye. “What? No. I’m relaxing.”

“Yeah, it seems like it with your clenched jaw and your one word answers,” he presses and TK doesn’t have to see his own expression to know it’s bitchy. It doesn’t deter Carlos though, and in a much softer tone, he says, “TK, come with me.”

“Carlos, you don’t need to—”

“I want to talk to you,” he corrects TK’s assumption. “And you don’t seem like you want to do it here.”

TK looks away. He doesn’t really want to talk about it at all. But they could sit here and Mitchell can ogle Carlos some more. Or maybe Carlos will go join the volleyball game with him while TK stews here, instead. 

Or he could follow Carlos inside. 

He sighs as he gets to his feet and silently follows Carlos. He doesn’t know where they’re going, but as they get back to the hotel and Carlos presses the elevator button for the team’s floor, he breaks the silence. 

“Is Pearce not here? I didn’t see him down by the pool,” TK says as they’re standing in front of room 507.

“He’s at the game,” Carlos tells him as he slides the key to his room. 

“Of course he is,” TK mutters. “I don’t think that man is capable of fun.”

“Stop changing the subject,” Carlos tells him, though he sounds a little amused by TK’s comment. He ushers them through the door and into the bathroom and when TK gives him a look, he explains, “In case he comes back.”

The bathroom is spacious enough that TK can lean back against the sink and it still feels like Carlos is miles away even though he’s only standing near the opposite wall. His hand bumps into a toiletry bag on the counter behind him and when he glances back to push it out of the way, he spots the second one on the other side. They’re both neatly packed and zipped up and TK gets stuck on the fact that he has no idea which one is Carlos’ and which one is Pearce’s. TK feels so comfortable around Carlos that he forgets they’ve only really known each other for just over a month.  

“What’s going on?” Carlos asks when TK continues to give more attention to the bags holding toothpaste and contact solution than him. 

TK shakes his head. “It’s nothing,” he says, glancing at Carlos’ eyes once before scanning his bronze chest. He looks away from that, too. 

“TK,” he tries again. “We’re basically on vacation for a day and you’re sulking. I know it’s not about the game.”

“It’s not,” he dismisses. 

“Okay, so what then?”

TK knows if he really doesn’t want to talk about it, Carlos won’t push him and maybe that’s why he does get it off his chest. 

“Mitchell wants to fuck you,” he blurts out.

Carlos rears back, the news catching him so off guard that TK sees the physical signs of it. He rolls his shoulders back and he blinks a few times before asking, “What?”

TK huffs. “I already saw him pretty much eye fucking you by the pool.”

Carlos frowns. “He was not—”

He shuts up when TK gives him a look. “He was.”

Carlos looks like he’s replaying the whole interaction in his head. Then, his expression clears and his attention is all on TK again.

“Wait…” he starts, “are you jealous?”

“No, I’m not j—” TK snaps his mouth shut, looking off to the side like Carlos would see right through his lie if TK looked at him. 

Carlos steps closer, forcing his gaze. “TK, I’m not having sex with anyone else.”

TK swallows hard, forcing out, “You could.”

[once-upon-an-animation]

If I could redo Percabeth in PJO/HoO…

The more I shed my childhood nostalgia and think about Percy and Annabeth’s love story more critically, the more I find myself feeling unsatisfied with the way their relationship and its development was executed. If I could change certain aspects of their relationship, here’s what I would change:

- To start off, I wouldn’t change anything in TLT or SoM. I feel like the way they were progressing was great in these two books. It was in TTC and onwards that things started getting weird for me in terms of Percabeth (and just Annabeth’s character overall tbh. I’ve seen some people say that Luke’s redemption arc kind of had some negative consequences for her characterisation and I sort of have to agree).

- I would remove all the instances of Annabeth hitting Percy or seeming like she wants to hit Percy. While I wouldn’t go as far as to call Percabeth abuse, the hitting does make me uncomfortable. I don’t buy the whole “this is just how demigods act!” excuse, because we never see Percy hit Annabeth back. In fact, we never see any of the boys in this franchise hit their female friends or girlfriends as far as I recall. And that’s obviously because it would be extremely alarming to read something like that, so it shouldn’t be okay in the reverse.

The hitting doesn’t really add anything of value to the story and there are other ways to show that Annabeth is a tough, strong, no-nonsense girl without her ever laying a hand on Percy. I want her to reserve her aggressiveness for her enemies, and show some gentleness towards her boyfriend.

- Along that same vein, I would take away the element of Percabeth’s relationship where Percy feels fear towards Annabeth or feels like he can’t state his opinion on something in fear of making her mad or upset. This is most prominent in the Crown of Ptolemy short story where Percy literally states that he has a “healthy fear” of Annabeth because she’s kicked his butt plenty of times. That line makes me EXTREMELY uncomfortable. I have never met anyone in a genuinely healthy relationship who has a “healthy fear” of their partner. I’ve met people who respect their partner and cherish their feelings, but not feeling genuine fear. I want Percy to feel confident in this relationship and feel comfortable being himself. I don’t like reading lines about Annabeth “kicking his butt” at all. I feel like Rick adds this stuff because he’s either using that typical “my wife is tough and is the boss of our relationship” humour that boomers use or because he thinks we think it’s cute. But I don’t think it’s cute. Like I said, it’s a little uncomfortable.

- I would allow them to communicate more between the summers. It’s never really made clear how often Percy and Annabeth are communicating with each other between the books but it doesn’t seem like that much. I find it odd that Percy and Annabeth are developing a friendship/falling in love but are seemingly not talking to each other much during the year. It doesn’t have to be everyday, but just make it clear that they’re making regular contact and maintaining their friendship outside of camp.

- I would give them more stuff to have in common aside from their quests/trauma. I find this really important because while the opposites-attract trope is kind of cute, I’ve always wondered what Percy and Annabeth’s dynamic is like outside of quests. What do to they talk about? What are their more mundane conversations like? What do they like to do together? Why do they like spending time together? How do they decide what they’re going to do for dates?

The way Percabeth is currently written, it’s hard to tell if they have any interests or hobbies in common, and what their interactions are like when they’re not discussing demigod stuff. It kind of seems like they just tolerate each other’s interests but don’t have many shared interests that they use to connect with each other. I want them to bond over other things aside from their quests and traumas to show that there are other reasons why they gravitate towards each other. This is important to me because I want Percy and Annabeth to have more things that they like specifically about each other that they couldn’t generally find in other people.

- This one is more of a personal preference, but I would love to have seen Percy and Annabeth acknowledge each other’s birthdays a little more prior to TLO. I think Annabeth’s birthday being in July was something added in retrospect in HoH, but it would have been nice to see Annabeth acknowledge Percy’s birthdays even just as friends before they started getting romantic, just to solidify how important this friendship was becoming. Maybe she arranged for a birthday card to be sent to him or something.

- I want Annabeth to better acknowledge the ways in which Luke tried to harm Percy. I remember in BoTL, there’s a specific line where Annabeth says to Percy: “You want him to be evil, is that it?” This line has always kind of bothered me because Percy isn’t regarding Luke as evil out of nowhere. Luke has actively tried to harm many people up until this point, including Percy. As the girl who cares about him, it should mean something to Annabeth that Luke has tried to kill her best friend/her crush on more than one occasion. But correct me if I’m wrong, I feel like she doesn’t really acknowledge that when discussing Luke? I don’t know; I just feel like when you like someone, it should deeply upset you when another person tries to harm them. I wanted to see Annabeth with a more balanced and comprehensive view of Luke as opposed to sort of glossing over his wrongdoings from TTC onwards. (This moreso ties into my mixed feelings on whether Luke was truly a hero, but that’s a different story).

- I would change the way that the Annabeth/Rachel/Percy love triangle is resolved. Now I generally don’t like love triangles because they’re usually cringey, cliche, or just poorly done. I don’t mind this particular triangle however because I do enjoy the angst to some degree, but I’m not very impressed with its resolution on behalf of everyone involved.

First of all, the lack of an apology from Annabeth to Rachel is an absolute travesty. Annabeth is definitely old enough to recognize that she was being rude/mean when she didn’t have to be, and she really should have said sorry. I would have also loved it if there was a scene of Annabeth recognizing that she’s not entitled to a relationship with Percy. I do want Percy and Annabeth to end up together, but I would have just loved to see more respect for Percy’s autonomy from Annabeth? Idk, I like it when best friends are able to respect each other’s freedoms and show that they just want their friend to be happy, even when that means a romantic relationship with someone else; it shows that they really have a genuine love for each other as people. Lastly, I remember in House of Hades where Annabeth says that she likes to bring Rachel up from time to time to make Percy uncomfortable and keep him on his toes. I don’t like this at all and found it extremely unnecessary. What value does this add to the story aside from making Annabeth seem kind of mean? This love triangle died in TLO, let it stay dead.

Second of all, I don’t like how passive Percy is in the resolution of this love triangle. While I don’t really agree with their arguments, I can understand why some anti-Percabeth folks feel like Annabeth was a rebound for Percy or how Percy just kind of settled for her because his other option conveniently removed herself from the equation. What would Percy have done if Rachel had never become the oracle, or was still allowed to date as an oracle? Would he just have continued sort of flip-flopping the two girls? I don’t think so, based on everything that happens during the Battle of Manhattan, but I wish the narrative would have emphasized that more. The easiest way to fix this would have been to have Percy make an explicit choice prior to Rachel becoming the oracle OR to have him make some kind of statement on what he would have chosen after Rachel became the oracle. Overall, I want to see Percy reflect on the love triangle and reflect on why he chose Annabeth. Just a little something that would make his choice for Annabeth more clear and more firm.

Overall, I just wanted the characters to think about the impact of the love triangle a little more. I wanted to see them acknowledge what went wrong and what they could have done differently, and I wanted to see them gain some wisdom from it.

- As far as HoO goes, in addition to the writing quality generally not being as great, most of what I don’t like about Percabeth in HoO are continuations of what I didn’t like in PJO. So I won’t repeat myself.

- The lack of a post-Tartarus reflection scene between Percy and Annabeth is easily the most devastating writing decision ever made for this couple. How are y’all literally gonna walk through hell together with all these dark experiences, but there’s no sort of private follow up between the two of you as a couple? Rick had time to write “Nachos After The War” but he couldn’t write a scene of Percy and Annabeth reflecting on their time in Tartarus together? This was such a golden opportunity for them to have a really meaningful and loving conversation with each other and make one final statement on the meaning of their relationship but noooooooo.

And that’s it! Long post, I know. I want to make it clear that I am not anti-Percabeth. I love this pairing and I see a lot of potential in their relationship. But I do view them a lot more critically now that I’m older, and there are lots of little things that I wish had been different in retrospect.

[weirdonumber33]

I thought for the void  with pictures yay !!!

Fairy Eddie x human reader

Ok let me set it up for you, Reader walking through a forest trail nothing unusual not walking off path or anything-until BOOM!! they trip and fall rolling down a the steep hill spraining their ankle in the process somehow they fell through some weird shield, field thing??

Opening them up to a world they’ve never seen before looking like New York if it had been made out of trees and other natural things. With strange creatures and monsters some more human than others. they wandered (limped) aimlessly until they somehow stumble into Eddie and he ends up dropping his cigarettes. Getting a angry grumble telling them to watch where they’re going. Reader freezes in shock at the fact that his ears are pointy and he has a giant pair of fairy wings tho a little scruffy and ripped up they seem to mesmerized reader. ‘How is this possible? how is any of this possible!’ Reader thought 

That’s when Eddie lifts his head and realizes they’re human he panics and says “you’re not supposed to be here” now they’re both frozen. Staring at one another. When he hears people coming panicking he yanking them into an alleyway. So no one would see them, Humans aren’t allowed to know that fairytale creatures exist. Once the people pass Eddie realizes doing this he made himself an accomplice to hiding a human so now he’s stuck with reader till he finds a way to get them out of there a secret world. The portal only opens up at random spots of the fairy tale city, Though there is one consistent portal that exists but it’s heavily guarded. he explains all of this to reader and says that he’s not sure what would happen if they went to higher ups, what would happen to him or reader. what type of trouble either them could get in!!

Since the reader is injured he helps wrap their leg and gives them a potion that will help them heal quicker. eddie tells reader to listen to him, and only him and he’ll get them out. he ends up, going back to his apartment. they talk of both their lives, and how they’re so different and yet so similar.

Eddie thinks reader is really cool. Eddie end up telling reader that he’s super cool a hero even! He also totally has a TON of friends. kind of just boasts of being some thing that he’s not really(popular and idk the hottest guy around something silly like that. Sorry if this sounds kind of out of character, you can change it if you want!). which he does end up showing some of his friends to reader for help. he tells them all not to tell reader that he’s not super cool and then there’s a dramatic reveal that he isn’t what he says he is I don’t know for drama I guess ?!? Then there’s a back-and-forth of reader not being sure if they can trust him but ultimately understanding, and trusting him again?

And then, finally they get caught by the higher ups of the fairytale guards. Him, reader, and a couple of his friends are all standing being held by said guards when a beautiful lady,-whatever fairy creature you want to make her-steps through and asks what’s going on the guards explaining what happened and she laughs elegantly. Saying that wasn’t that big of a deal. Nonetheless she is a bit upset that they hid it from her. Leaving reader, Eddie, and his friends shocked not knowing this. The beautiful fairytale leader explains that it isn’t very common for humans to slip through but there’s an easy way to get them back without any issues. She would make the human think that it was all a dream/wipe their memory of this happening at all…. (Bum bum BUM!)

And there’s a really sad saying goodbye moment or-I don’t know-reader stays but can’t go back home ever?? it’s really up to you honestly

Also yes his ears move with his expressions😼

[nekropsii]

Ok so hussie that SUCKS ass so much and he always came off to me from what he showed in his comics as a weirdo in so many ways. But like I never feel like i see this brought up whenever I talk about homestucks more questionable parts and I don't like that very much. U seem to talk about it a lot and I think that's good so I think it would be interesting to hear your honest unfiltered thoughts on the guy and everything that he's done

Ohh, boy. This is a doozy. Yeah, this is something I have a lot to say about… I try not to talk about Hussie too much, since they’re a bit of an upsetting topic, and I just don’t really like discussing real people, but… There comes a point where you literally have to acknowledge the Author when analyzing the Work. Sometimes, Death of the Author isn’t applicable in the way you hope it is, and sometimes, The Curtains Are Blue for a Reason.

That being said… Let’s get into this. I’m gonna be including a few links in this one, so here’s to hoping that it doesn’t break the post, and that it remains visible in tags. It’s an important discussion to have.

Content Warning: In-Depth Discussion of Racism, Mentions of Ableism and Child Predation.

Despite the fact that I prefer to analyze Homestuck from a largely Watsonian perspective, since Hussie isn’t very fun to think about, I cannot, in good faith, ignore it 24/7. In order to really be able to understand certain parts of Homestuck, you need to have some iota of cultural, racial, and sociopolitical awareness. This isn’t me saying “You need a high IQ in order to be able to understand Homestuck,” this is me saying there are certain parts of the story that are caked in stereotypes that a lot of Non-POC, especially Non-Black people, might not pick up on. Same goes for the Able-Bodied.

Hussie has proven themself time and time again to be a raging racist who is really, really weird about kids. Her writing is a double-edged sword- on one hand, Childhood, and the loss of it, is rendered beautifully in Homestuck in ways I haven’t quite been able to find in other media. The fearlessness and shamelessness in allowing the characters the make horrible mistakes and be flawed people as they grow up in harsh circumstances is an incredible thing to witness… But then there’s Hussie’s disturbing infatuation with Vriska Serket, who is a 13 year old girl, and his unabashed hatred for characters like Tavros Nitram, who is physically disabled, as well as Gamzee Makara, who is Black-Coded in a way that’s offensive.

Hussie’s bigotry is transparent. Let me use Gamzee in particular to expand upon this topic, because he’s… A pretty obvious choice when it comes to this discussion.

Gamzee Makara is a Dirty, Drug-Addled, Hedonistic, Unsupervised Mess of a child who has an Absent Father, Horrifically Violent Impulses, and a religious devotion to a Hip Hop/Rap band. While it’s undeniable that, from a Watsonian Perspective, Insane Clown Posse is a legitimate basis for a real, in-universe Cult, it’s also undeniable that- in tandem with the rest of his character- that obsessive devotion to those specific genres does not read well, as they’re historically Black music genres, and Black men are stereotyped as having a particular affinity for it. I’d like to take a moment to acknowledge how Gamzee’s character is largely treated as a joke, with him mostly being portrayed as significantly more stupid, bumbling, and useless than his peers- to the point where it’s a remarked upon thing in the text of the story- and that this, when taking in the context of the racism behind the rest of his character writing… Reads as a Minstrel Show.

This doesn’t even touch on the concept of “Chucklevoodoos” within the comic, which has its name derived from a real world, currently practiced, legitimate African Religion. It’s most often quite offensively boiled down to mysterious, spooky, magical nonsense, and as something that’s simultaneously unknowable (to white people,) all powerful, and primitive /lesser (than Abrahamic Religion.) The presence of “Jujus” as a set of mysterious, extremely powerful objects within the game of SBURB raises some red flags in conjunction with the rest of the things I’ve listed as well- it wouldn’t read nearly as poorly without the previously aforementioned extreme racism, and with said racism in mind, I can’t help but think that it also being associated with the Makaras while also being borrowed, once again, from African Religious Practices, was intentional. Don’t get me started on Kurloz.

(Wikipedia may not be the most detailed source ever, but it serves its purpose to prove that this is an actual thing, and I’m not just talking out of my ass here.)

It’s disheartening, but unsurprising, to see a fandom that seems to pride itself on a sense of Acceptance, Awareness, and Diversity be unable to grapple with the fact that the creator, and the source material they’re working with, is inherently bigoted. Pointing out that the Racism and Ableism in Homestuck exists is not at all something people should shit the bed about, and it’s not a conversation put on the table purely to tell people to stop liking Homestuck; Critical Enjoyment of media does exist, and you can be aware that a piece of work has some deep, deep issues and still enjoy it. I would know- I’m literally an Alpha Troll-centric blog.

Shifting gears here, but Hussie’s ableism is well known- ranging from things as obvious as early Homestuck’s liberal usage of the R-Slur, (though that was quite normalized online during the period in which it was used, and I’d argue that that’s partially a product of its time,) Tavros’s horrible treatment due to his disability being something that was supposed to be viewed as “deserved,” Tavros’s disability as being something that needed to be “cured,” and Terezi’s Pseudo-Blindness, to things as obscure as the way Hussie handled Horuss Zahhak’s canonical Systemhood.

Also, though it’s not in the vein of bigotry, I need to expand upon an earlier point… Hussie’s obsessive, unabashed attraction to Vriska Serket, who is a 13 year old girl, is a significantly more openly discussed topic, I feel, but I’ll go over it still. Andrew Hussie has what is functionally just a Self Insert within the comic, bearing their name and their- at the time- exact image. This Avatar of himself even shares the role of being the Writer of Homestuck, and the line between what is an actual reflection of Real World Hussie and what is just a character is extremely thin, and extremely blurred. That said, a decent portion of people took Hussie’s Avatar as near purely a character- but his attraction to Vriska was a genuine thing. Hussie’s Avatar takes every opportunity he can get to physically stalk Vriska, and sexually harass her. The stark age gap between the two of them is, if I recall correctly, remarked upon in the comic, and Vriska’s disgust and discomfort is seemingly supposed to be a part of the joke.

There’s a lot I could talk about here, but I’m not currently equipped enough time, mental and emotional energy, space, or words to tackle everything cleanly in one post. The start of the web is there, the foundation is built, but I can’t adequately weave it all in a single day. I hope you understand. There’s quite obviously more to be said, about Meenah’s use of AAVE, Damara’s aggressive over-sexualization paired with her speech patterns, the running theme of Child Predation, so on and so forth. A lot of my thoughts on Hussie aren’t kind. They really aren’t a good person, no matter how much any of us wish they were.

[drbased]

The difference between me when I was spiritual vs me now is like night and day. Spiritual beliefs kept me a scared, perpetual child. And now when I interact with the people who still have those same beliefs I see them as not just a scared, perpetual child, but also incredibly insecure. It’s like being a vegetarian around meat eaters - you just existing as an atheist in their vicinity will have them say things out of the blue like ‘I’m not in the preaching business but’ and then they go on to list some coincidence that happened in their life recently. And I’m there thinking, why are you telling me this? I literally don’t believe what you believe. I know it’s important to you, but if these experiences *are* so special and important and personal to you, isn’t that enough to simply feel them in your heart? Isn’t that what belief is literally about - your own personal relationship with the universe? Why are you telling me all this as if you’re clearly not trying to persuade me of something? Aren't you just kinda rubbing it in when you assert that you take such comfort in, say, there being an afterlife when I don't necessarily believe in one?

But, of course, it would be a social faux pas for me to say what I actually think - and, besides, I’m actually *not* in the business of converting people - so I just play along and nod. Because these things clearly give them some comfort, and I’m not about to interfere with that. Besides, part of me still feels like that inside - I was raised that way, after all.

It's been rather weird for me because I don't think I've ever explictly said out loud to these people that I don't believe in that stuff anymore - I've just sort of, not indulged them further than that smile and nod. I don't know how they figured it out, maybe I've looked really awkward or something. But I can't help but notice that even though I used to literally believe what they believe, they start with the square one arguments, as if that's gonna somehow convince me. One of those square one arguments is literally 'it gives me comfort' (as if that's a legitimate argument for proving anything!!).

And, you know, when the same person is really upset at some recent bad luck and thinks that it’s a ‘sign from the universe’ that they’re not Allowed to have some certain basic joy (such as - and this a real example - a fucking birthday party), you start to wonder just how much comfort they really get from all this. That comfort clearly comes from a deeply insecure place. You realise that people who believe things need *you* to believe it too - in fact, it’s a necessary component of belief that everyone else has to either believe it, or they’re just in denial. Simply knowing that there is someone else who doesn’t believe is enough to shatter the illusion. Not to be all edgelord here, but it's all very Santa Clause-esque.

Faith and belief are fundamentally insecure, and I'm tired of having to be the adult whenever I engage with someone with these beliefs. Especially when I know how much I benefitted in other, larger ways, from dropping these beliefs and taking full responsibility for my own actions. I mean, I guess that's an argument for 'comfort' from my end, too, but just to reassure you, I'm not in the preaching business 🙂

[nightvale-thoughts]

thinking about the controversy around mag 185 again because (?) it was so weird. setting aside the fact that mag 185 wasn’t even that revolutionary in its critique against police brutality, it’s still crazy why people who believed it would be got upset.

i know that a lot of people were angry w/ the idea of real world systematic trauma being used as material for the show, but um… uh. that’s the point that’s the point that’s literally the whole point. in s5 everyone’s deepest fears and traumas have been made manifest in the most literal ways and. ? obviously that includes real world fears and not-cartoony, easy to digest ones too,,

it’s also odd to me that this ep was controversial, considering the fact that we’d previously had episodes focusing on topics like eating disorders and addiction before. by that point in the show, it’s assumed that the audience would be comfortable with mag 185 because (imo) we had handled much darker and visceral depictions of real world trauma prior. so ? did ppl online suddenly get scared that jonny wouldn’t handle a topic like that with sensitivity?? after 185 episodes ???

i guess the follow up argument to this would be whether jonny had any right to include these kinds of things in the show which.. um. he did actually sorry :P

colourblind character casting and writing doesn’t do as much to critique the actual systemic issues that kept minorities away from the spotlight for so long. everyone cheers for writers when they do the bare minimum of having good representation in their work, but then get angry when writers use their platform to critique real world systematic issues ☹️

like u know they’re supposed to do that right,, that’s the whole reason why people believe independent media has the potential to be world changing. writers can actually talk about these issues without having to deal with networks censoring them. why wouldn’t he be allowed to do that :/

[foxgloveinthesun]

Get to Know the Fanfic Writer

I got tagged by @hrh-spinach ! I haven’t been long on tumblr and haven’t followed a lot of my fellow fanfic writers yet, so if you stumble on this and want to give it a try, consider yourselves invited to :)

When did you post your first-ever fanfic?

2005, when I lived in the USA (no relation between the two facts, though). But  started writing as a teen in the glorious early 2000s I guess (yes, I’m ancient, ’83 baby you guys!)

First Character(s) you wrote?

Wrote for myself? Louis de Pointe du Lac from the Vampires Chronicles by Ann Rice. I loved Louis – but never hated Lestat though!

For actual online publishing value, I don’t remember if it was a Vision of Escaflowne fanfic (I was an anime dork) or a Michael Lee fic from Witch Hunter Robin. My most serious fanfic was starring Michael though. If you don’t know him he was a poor teenage white hat hacker imprisoned by the shady organization he hacked into for funsies. He was then forced to do computer related tasks for them to be allowed to stay alive. Poor kid even wears dogtags. Little did I know it was the start of my obsession for dog-coded characters that end up paying a heavy price for just wanting to have fun…

Main Character(s) you're currently writing?

Why, Jesse Pinkman of course.

It always sounds a little ridiculous to state it this way but I relate to him on so many levels... I'll keep it at the fact that his character development actually really helped me realize there were some things I owed to myself to refuse…

He is an advocate for anyone who's struggled with addiction, has ever felt inadequate, out of place and belittled for it... I love how so many different people will reinterpret and embrace him thanks to that.

Character(s) you haven't written about before but plan to soon?

Diane Pinkman? It’s the chapter after the one I’m finishing and I’m looking forward to writing her. Two Sides of a Coin has just been a huge excuse for writing from the POVs of many of the characters that are still alive around the timelines of Ozymandias/Granite State/Felina.

My favorite one of these chapters is Andrea’s though.

I'm still surprised I included Walt as a regular POV through the fic, never thought I had it in me to write him (but then I also wrote from Welker's and Kenny's of course Todd's POV, so... I have this need to understand the rationales that sustains assholes and what/who scares me... It's a trauma thing ^^;).

Fandom(s) you're currently writing?

Breaking Bad/BCS mostly. I’m a huge fan of Charlie Broker too - and of whenever Aaron Paul stars in a story that criticizes toxic masculinity, so I have a Black Mirror WIP as well.

Would love to write about some of my favorite French shows (Black Hearts, l’Opéra, very recently Polar Park a brand new series that I just binged, or Engrenages, or the Holy Grail Quest parody Kaamelot… so many of them!) but that would not touch many readers and for fanfics, I’m a comment whore.

Besides, I want to finish my 4 WIPs (I count the post ElCamino fic that will follow Two Sides of a Coin as an ongoing WIP because I’ve started writing it already in order to stay sane while I finish TSoaC!)

I also need to focus on my personal stories, so, not enough time for other fandoms!

Platonic Pairing(s) you're currently writing?

Oh my… I have this silly AU where Walt gets decommissioned and Jesse and Gale get to work together in the Superlab and they develop this silly puppy cute friendship. I was afraid it would be a bit morbid given what happens in canon, but I don’t know… I really think they could have been a support for one another in different circumstances! It's a crack fic this one XD

Next chapter: Gale feeds Jesse healthy food and Jesse is a bit upset that he has been given vegan food without knowing it because vegan food is weird, ok (even though he liked it)! As a retaliation, he will call Gale’s bullshit regarding the “freedom” of addicts to buy and use drugs once they’re hooked – especially when you produce a super pure crystal that is even more addictive.... Hypocritical much, Gale?

Jesse calling out anyone’s bullshit is always a treat to write!

Romantic Pairing(s) you're currently writing?

Cliff and Lana Stanfield from Black Mirror’s “Beyond the Sea”. I really love how the interpretation of the characters’ relationships evolve as you delve into the story. Not going to spoil but there is one scene between them that really turns the table and reveals the truth of their relationship and that really got to me…

Your top AO3 tags?

Character study would be the main, because I take writing fanfic as a character building exercise. A nice sandbox to practice in.

Toxic masculinity is also one of the main topics I end up regularly tackling one way or the other…

Backstory brainrot is another one, I guess? I can’t help falling into interpretative backstory madness…

Current platform you use for posting?

A long time ago, I used to be on fanfiction.net… But the interface hasn’t evolved and feels less user friendly. Nowadays only on AO3. I’m aware of the controversies. I’m ashamed to admit I haven’t looked into them because the platform is convenient and I’ve read some great fics there…Not proud of that.

Snippet of the WIP you are currently working on?

I’m not good at snippets! I tried and was about to share around 2500 words of next chapter ^^; So I won’t!

Regarding Two Sides of a Coin, I would love to publish next chapter soon(ish). I would actually love to start publishing my ElCamino/post ElCamino sequel sometimes at the end of the year but that doesn't seem realistic...

Next chapter is from Todd's POV (the last one normally, I cannot with him anymore but I have to commit to my writing plan no matter how hurtful it is to my soul!). I’m realizing most of the structure of the chapters of Part 4 will be built on the same model: flashbacks that allow me to give into my backstory frenzy and “current events” (we have made it to early July by now I think, September is getting closer!).

This chapter heavily rests on the working theory I’ve developed in the fic that even if Todd and Jesse were not friends per se during the Vamonos era, they had some kind of friendly relationship going on, though Jesse would have kept a bit of distance.

I see Todd as relationship starved and he started projecting more onto his intractions with Jesse than there really was (just always rememer this will never be a Todd/Jesse fic, ty!). Jesse on the other hand, at this point of the series, had been efficiently cut from all his supports - by Walter of course (Andrea, his family…) but also by Mike. The scene where Skinny and Badger stop by to bring the roadie cases and Mike is on the look-out so Jesse kicks them out asap is so sad and kind of infuriating. Full confession, I'm not a Mike stan even though I love him as a character and love what he brings to the story. So… regarding dudes his age that his two “mentors” allow him to talk to… Jesse’d have been limited to Todd at this point. And he needs connection, we know that… which is why I think and explore the idea that they did have some form of camaraderie that meant something very different for each of them until the events Dead freight…

Back to next chapter, Todd is really hard to write, so I take my time… I actually want to go a bit further with his character study and test some of his limits without breaking out of character. Tough ballance! It’s a bit of a challenge right now…

[you-can-be-what-you-want-to-be]

you know I do find the “who is this for” mentally kind of wild like. People are allowed to make things they think are interesting without a target demographic outside of “anyone else who might also like this.” And I think we’ve gotten very used to bland trying to get everyone media and a big part of the problem is putting stuff in boxes and because we as a culture are very anti sex.

like okay. Every villain song being jazzy. What if you love that type of song but don’t love villains or kids movies? What if you love animation as a media but want a complex story about like alcoholics or something because it’s something you’ve dealt with and resonates with you?

and there’s also not a single thing made that won’t reach someone

note I am purposely using examples of things widely disliked

I have never watched osmosis jones. I am relatively sure it’s a bad movie. But what do you mean who is it for. The plot is dude who’s being really unhealthy as a coping mechanism gets sick because of it which upsets his daughter and then you see his body fighting back. Yeah it makes sense this movie would appeal to single depressed fathers who are also adults that like dick jokes.

or sausage party. Not something I would ever in my life watch or be slightly interested in. I’m very very ace. Sometimes people just want stupid puns tho and cards against humanity is one of the biggest played games for a reason, people like that stuff.

“who is this for” well what does it have in it that people might like. I will say in all honesty I’m making this because I saw a joke post about hazbin hotel, which I’m only sort of watching. I don’t know any lore or anything about the creator. But a story that’s character focused on redemption and has powerful monsters that are just kind of going “meh” and doing everything because they’re bored? That’s fun for me. Other people relate to hyper sexuality as a coping mechanism. Other people just like musical theatre and have weird senses of humor. That’s fine.

it’s silly to dismiss something because it’s not for you. Everything has value. Even fucking A/B/O could be an interesting exploration into what consent means especially when impaired, world building as a society, sexism, all kinds of things? Is it usually used for that? Probably not! But that doesn’t mean that anything

and this is just sex stuff. I have a friend who loves bad live action remakes. The room which is thought of as one of the worst movies ever made is a cult classic.

“who is this for” before anyone else it’s for the creator. After that it’s for anyone who consumes it and enjoys it. No two people get the exact same thing out if a piece of media or art and that’s okay. You don’t need to get why someone enjoys something or why it’s made, but know that the fact it got made means there is someone who wants it, otherwise why waste the effort? The fact you’ve heard about it just goes to show that enough people cared for it to get on your radar.

[eelfuneral]

I really don’t like how some people have overcorrected from “autism is a tragedy” to “autism isn’t a disability, it’s a superpower!”

Yes, autism is a mixed bag that can come with strengths and positives. Yes, some autistic traits are only seen as “bad” because neurotypicals think that they’re “weird”. That said, insisting that autism is never a disability for anybody creates a space that is actively hostile to autistics discussing the more challenging parts of being autistic. For example, I love that autism makes me a passionate, detail-oriented person, but I don’t love the fact that it makes certain sounds almost physically painful for me. I also hate having meltdowns and dealing with frustrating communication/social mismatches with my peers. I’m fine with being autistic, would not change that facet of me, and love some aspects of it, but I should be able to talk about the difficult and disabling aspects of it without having to worry about people getting upset at me for “being ableist”. Saying “hey, this specific aspect of a developmental disability that I have can be a challenge” is not ableism or “advocating for a cure”, it is simply venting about one’s own life and situation. Creating what amounts to a culture of toxic positivity around autism actively harms a lot of us by making it hard to talk about things that may cause us a great deal of stress, and that’s not fair.

If you are autistic and don’t personally see yourself as disabled, then that’s fine and you are allowed to identify however you like, but you do not get to dictate how other autistics should talk about their autism any more than I get to tell you how to talk or feel about yours.

[cyberrat]

73rd Batch Of Fics: 11th Fill

Endeavor/Deku – Part ⅔ – power imbalance; massive size kink – How do they make it fit?! With a lot of determination.

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Izuku stares at the top of his boss’ desk, his brain having a million thoughts at once – which is not unusual at all. They all come to a screeching stand still once his pants get tugged down beneath his ass, leaving him bend over and with his underwear on display.

“What’s that?” he hears Endeavor’s gruff voice. He sounds… confused, for some reason. Huge hands grip Izuku’s cheeks, massaging them through the fabric; pulling them apart and squishing them back together. “Is that what the youth wears these days?” Endeavor says with a weird scratch in his voice. “They’re see through.”

It sounds so accusatory that Izuku has to twist his neck to peer behind him. Not to see his own underwear, of course – he’s well aware of what he put on that day, thank-you-very-much – but to see his boss’ reaction as he stares down at him. There’s smoke curling out of his nostrils. His eyes look way too bright and blue.

Once again he pulls Izuku’s cheeks far apart and the way he swallows thickly, Adam’s Apple bobbing, Izuku feels like he must be able to see his hole through the thin mesh of his underwear. It’s made so it will breathe really well… not necessarily to hide anything.

He turns back forward, unsure what to say. Should he say anything?

“You come into work dressed like this?” Endeavor asks. He does not seem to need a reply for his cock is suddenly slotting between Izuku’s cheeks. It’s fat and hot. He can immediately feel that heat radiating through the thin mesh of his underwear. His hole clenches down on nothing.

“Damn slut. I should’ve known that a young thing like you only got one thing on their mind. You’ve been going around behind my back, have you? Taking cock after cock. You lure them in with this little joke here-” a thick finger slips into the elastic band of his underwear to make it snap against his skin “-and fuck them right under my nose, are you? You… hussy.”

“But sir, I-”

“Silence.”

Endeavor does not raise his voice but it has the same effect on Izuku. His mouth snaps shut with a soft click. There’s sweat breaking out along his hairline and prickling between his shoulder blades as he feels Endeavor slowly dragging his cock between his cheeks. A slow back-and-forth that is making him short of breath, his back arching and ass sticking out all on its own. Asking for it. Begging for it. His toes curl in his shiny office shoes; he’s suddenly all too aware of the fact that he’s still very much dressed. Not even his cock has been allowed to slip out into the open. No… Endeavor only needs his ass. So it is his ass that is on display.

Behind him, he can hear Enji’s heavy breathing. He is looming over him, watching his every move while he slowly dry humps his ass – so when Izuku offers himself up with his arched back, he notices it immediately.

He sounds borderline upset when he rasps: “There it is! Don’t take me for a fool, boy. I know exactly what you’re up to when I’m not looking. And I think tonight I will finally get what’s mine as well.”

His underwear is peeled down, the elastic dragging over his plump ass cheeks until it sits just underneath them. He is hobbled by his clothes, unable to properly spread his thighs the way he wants to. All Izuku can do is arch his back and let Endeavor do whatever he wants to.

It occurs to him that he should not be this eager. This needy. He should be shocked that his boss would assault him like this and fight him off… but the truth is that Deku has had a thing for men like Enji Todoroki for so long. That is to say, he’s not into bastards but he’s into larger than life men with the physique of a wardrobe.

Figures.

His cheeks get spread apart wide once more. Deku is only too aware of his hole being out in the open, soft and pink and vulnerable… and then there’s the huge blunt pressure of a cock against it.

His mouth opens… then closes again. His whole body instantly rebels against the thought of Endeavor’s no doubt insanely large cock being dry fucked into him.

Only that it isn’t dry. Not entirely, at least.

While Enji uses Izuku’s dumb surprise about everything that is happening, he gathers his arms up and holds his wrists together at the small of his back while putting more and more pressure behind his dick. His slicked-up dick.

It’s not much, of course… but it is something. It is enough to get Izuku’s hole to start spreading for him, which is more than he needs to start cramming his way inside.

Spreading him.

To Izuku, it doesn’t feel like it’s only his body that is forced far apart – it’s also his mind. All those little thoughts that constantly race through his head shut their mouth the instant he realizes just how massive that cock is that is about to be rammed up his ass – and how willing the man behind him is to make it happen.

Endeavor is not a man of many words. He does not dirty talk Izuku; he does not degrade him any more than he already has. He’s quiet and he’s determined and he is focusing on squeezing his dick into that dry little hole in as few thrusts as possible.

At least that’s what it feels like.

It doesn’t take long at all until Izuku starts to sing for him. Does anybody hear it? How sound proof is Endeavor’s office really? Would anybody come running because he sounds like he’s about to get ripped apart? It sure feels like it. But in a good way. And how weird is that?

Something to think about. Later.

Once he feels like he can sit down again. In like a week or two. There are tears brimming in his eyes; the burn from his desperately spread rim is crawling up his spine. It’s not worse than anything he experienced during training, though. In fact, he kind of… he kind of likes the pain. It’s a different kind of pain. One that makes his brain feel blessedly numb and his fingertips prickle.

He makes all kinds of odd sounds that he hadn’t even known were possible – some rough and animalistic… and some very much high pitched and wailing. Endeavor tells him half-heartedly to keep it down.

Izuku decides to ignore it and gets away with it, too. He thinks he’s entitled to that much.

He can feel the moment Endeavor’s glans pops into him. The absolutely insane stretch becomes a bit less unbearable. He would sag down but the way his arms are held keeps him at a nice arc, presenting to Endeavor.

When nothing happens for a moment, Izuku awkwardly peers behind to see Mister Todoroki just standing there, staring down at what he’s doing, the back of his hand wiping over his sweaty forehead.

“There… wasn’t that difficult, was it?”But he does not wait for Izuku to respond. He just gives himself a second longer to gather his bearings – and then continues.

[seerofmike]

It’s Okay To Say Gay, Apex

[this is a repost of something i made on reddit so some of the comments in this post will be like directly aimed at reddit so sorry if any of this reads as weird because of that LOL]

it’s pride month, and there’s no better time other than pride month to make a post about the lore and rep of LGBT+ characters in apex. also this post was partially inspired by the comments under respawn’s recent ‘Trans Rights’ post. more on that later.

this post is a critique, so i won’t be saying many positive things in it, but i do want to get it out of the way now that respawn is one of the better AAA games when it comes to handling LGBT+ rep, and the fact that we even have this much representation at all is great. astounding. but it also falls drastically short, and i think it is something important to discuss. and yes, this does have shit to do with lore, i can hear some of you typing--because not every identity is treated equally in lore.

so let’s get to it.

what partially inspired me to make this post about mlm specifically when i originally planned on doing a post about *all* the LGBT rep in apex is the simple fact that scrolling under respawn’s recent  post, half the comments are about fuse and seer. (the other half are asking where bangalore is lol).

“wait, fuse is gay?”

“fuse and seer are gay????”

“i didn’t know seer was gay? since when?”

i also asked for lgbt+ people’s opinion on how the rep is overall in four different places, and while other things were complained about, the thing complained about the most was the fact that the mlm in apex aren’t allowed to...well, love men.

now, to ELABORATE:

YES, gibraltar has nik. YES, they have kissed in lore. gibraltar has mentioned nik in lore. nik was featured in-game in the season 7 comics. but let’s compare that to apex’s wlw rep.

i don’t really know how to say this, but valk is just. So Obviously a lesbian. she constantly talks about stealing your girl, how much she loves women, she’s been flirting with loba since release, loading screens mention that she hits on girls and has an ex-girlfriend. valk is so obviously a lesbian that it’s actually kind of impressive respawn pulled it off. i cannot imagine that making a character like this ten, hell even *five* years ago--look at how tracer’s identity is treated by overwatch--would have been easy or even possible.

loba also very clearly likes women. she flirts with valk, she has a voiceline referencing being bisexual, she spends much of season 5 lore materials openly flirting with cheryl amacci and yoko from hammond in order to get what she wants, she talks frequently in season 9 about being bangalore’s knight in shining armor, how she’s a beautiful woman, they have a date...she buys her flowers, and then gets upset when bangalore says they’re just friends...

and these two flirt. SO. GODDAMN. MUCH. every match they’re paired together. you can’t play a match with those two without hearing some innuendo about how they’re going to ‘’get cozy’’ after the game. it’s so obvious and also kind of uncomfortably sexual to the point that my brother, who knows Zero about lore, begged me to never pick loba again while he plays valk because it drives him nuts having my character flirt with his like that.

this isn’t shaming apex or its characters for its obvious and upfront sapphic romance. even if the love triangle is so fucking tiring at times, and makes you wish that they would just TALK TO EACH OTHER, the fact that valk and loba can be like this in a game like apex is honestly kind of a triumph in terms of representation.

makes ya wish that the men got the same treatment.

gibraltar’s bio makes mention of a boyfriend, and he has a location-specific voiceline (one of the hardest to trigger) about kissing his boyfriend at the thunderdome. until season 7 with the in-game comics, it would be very hard for someone who just plays the game to know that gibraltar is gay. and even then, nik and gibraltar are so safe it almost hurts.

look, i’m not saying they should’ve fucked or whatever in the comic, but i wanted to bring this up to highlight a thread that former writer tom casiello made in response to Nikbraltar kissing in a season 9 comic--about how he wanted the Nikbraltar kiss to show pure, gay love. wholesome love. safe for the kids. innocent love.

and yes, that’s so important, especially after years of homophobic rhetoric that gay people are Sex Fiends. but then you have to wonder: why must Nik and Gibraltar be wholesome, pure, and innocent, when valk and loba, in that very same season, were each talking about how Much they get babes?

to tom casiello’s credit, he does say that gibraltar’s sexuality had been ignored for nine seasons. and you know, gibraltar isn’t really the type of dude to talk about how much he gets guys, ya know? so sure. that’s fine. i don’t need gibraltar to tell me how many twinks he attracts at a gay bar. leave that to a character with a more flirty personality.

enter: fuse and seer.

fuse and seer have both been confirmed to be pansexual on twitter dot com.

that’s it.

end: fuse and seer.

okay jokes aside, fuse and seer. fuse’s bio mentions that he’s a man’s man. he, uh....uhhhh....he slaps caustic’s ass!  that counts, right? i mean, sure, it was played for a joke, but that should count. cool! those are all our hints that fuse likes men.

seer, he...um...

Seer Has Zero, Absolutely Zero, In-Game Or In-Bio Hints That He Is Attracted To Men.

starting with fuse first: fuse’s bio is so vague that people had to ask if he liked men. some people were convinced that ‘man’s man’ just meant he was a dude-bro or a super macho guy. even now some still interpret that line that way, and you have to pull up tweets from a developer at respawn to even know that fuse likes men. now, to be fair, fuse doesn’t really have any flirty lines with women, so it’s not really fair to complain that he doesn’t flirt with men, right? and besides, he seems taken with bloodhound, so why have him flirt with guys and gals at all?

seer is where we have a problem.

seer openly flirts with loba and lifeline, and maybe even rampart, too, if you choose to look at their interactions that way. he is very open with himself and others, and aside from the theory that he and octane are ex-boyfriends--which is just that, a theory--there is zero hint that seer is attracted to men. he flirts with no men, his bio makes no mention of it, and he hasn’t even received a single lick of lore for me to complain that his lore doesn’t show that he likes men, either, but all the same.

seer is FLIRTY. seer flirts with women. so why can’t he flirt with men?

it’s hard to tell that the mlm of apex are mlm. even with all the excuses in the world, that some of them aren’t the flirty types or relationship-oriented, when a mlm who IS flirty is added to the cast they still don’t have him flirt with men. the mlm of apex are so sanitized that when you post a pride picture including all LGBT+ legends, half the comments don’t know that 2 of our 3 confirmed mlm even like men.

now let’s talk about bangalore and mirage.

bangalore is much more subtle than loba and valk--in fact, some people are quite convinced she’s straight based off what she said about loba, but there are still hints to her attraction to women. she lets slip a mention of ‘her’, hinting to wraith in season 9 that she has feelings for loba. she’s upset when loba starts dating valk. her chronicles voice-act a bit from the overtime comics where she and loba agree to a date. she’s one of three key characters locked in a sapphic love triangle--to the point that the other half of the comments under that post are asking where bangalore is amongst the LGBT+ legends.

bangalore’s sexuality, while unconfirmed, still shows her attraction to women.

fun fact: did you know that the lore about mirage getting high and fucking a pumpkin by mistake and being super embarrassing for him was actually originally about mirage getting high and fucking a man by mistake and being super embarrassing?!

did you know that in a tweet where it’s stated that wattson and wraith have canonically fallen in love in several different universes, it’s also stated that about a dozen universes ‘involve’ crypto and mirage--but they also all involve a pumpkin?

mirage’s sexuality line was immediately turned into the butt of a long-tired pumpkin-fucking joke, with zero hints before or since that he is actually maybe interested in men, and the pumpkin thing actually ended up having originally been a joke about how embarrassing it is to accidentally be gay--and this all culminates in two different (albeit former) devs saying that mirage is a straight man.

and this is the same mirage who has talked about his ex, flirted with women, and mentioned how into girls he is. his mom even mentions it, too.

listen, i’m not saying i want him to be bi or gay. the opposite, in fact. but mirage’s sexuality and the potential of him being attracted to men is treated like a joke, and it turns out that there’s never been anything to grasp at all.

the wlw of apex are allowed to be just that: women who love women. valkyrie, unapologetically, loves girls. loba seems to have a preference for women. bangalore has feelings for loba. they’re stuck in this stupid love triangle that’s in your face and obnoxious and uncomfortable but they are so undeniably gay that it makes looking at apex’s mlm actually kind of sad.

gibraltar and his boyfriend were relegated to twitter comics after season 7, where their most explicit references to romance--their kiss--occured, out of game, and neither of them have done anything in lore since. fuse and seer are confined to twitter mentions only, even when it would make complete sense for seer to look at, idk, crypto or somebody and say “you are so handsome and also fucked up”.

i’m not mad that the wlw of apex have such strong rep. i’m just sad that the mlm of apex are hidden away, tucked into the hardest places to find lore, and even when their attraction to men is in-game, it’s so safe and sanitized that you could almost trick yourself into believing they’re not really gay, they’re just really good friends--or maybe their attraction to men is the punchline of a joke.

i’m not here to discuss why this happens--homophobia, the fetishization of sapphic women for the male audience--i’m just here to discuss that it *does* happen, and i hope that seer gets a super cool boyfriend one day.

[plz dont use the q word in notes/tags of this post i will be blocking u if u do not respect my wishes thanks]

[alyssaforevermore]

Big Brother Spoilers ahead (tonight’s double eviction)!!

Ok so I haven’t made any actual posts about this season in a hot minute because… it’s just not as enjoyable for me anymore (for reasons talked about near the end of this post).

Anyways, I expected Blue to go tonight. I’m kinda disappointed they didn’t split it and make Jag get blood on his hands, but oh well.

Then BOWIE once again winning HOH when I don’t think she really intended to? She also clearly threw the Veto competition 😭😂

Them not taking the shot to get Jag out right now is such a big mistake. Like, seriously?? I kind of understand Matt not using the Veto in the off change Jag went up and didn’t go home (or Jag didn’t go up and was like “dude why?” Later), but this is the end game!! You gotta make those big moves.

America leaving was upsetting, but I also wasn’t that shocked as much as I hoped the others would make a big move.

Lets also take in the fact that Jag could be HOH for a 3rd week in a row now… I haven’t checked who won, if that’s even happened yet, but I’m guessing he will.

The competitions this season have been mostly physical, which feels weird to me. Not to mention this Veto was similar to the one Matt won last double.

Currently, I think Jag or Matt will take the win. I’m rooting for Jag because a) I’m not a fan of Matt for his comments in the house and b) Jag winning would be so cool since she was “evicted” weeks back and c) this man, even if he’s made poor moves occasionally, has been one of the best players this season.

I really hope BB goes back to letting actual fans who understand the game get into the house ONLY, because the recruits don’t really know what they’re doing. Poor jury management and allowing two absolute beasts of competitors steamroll through the game…

Idk, let me know your thoughts and if you disagree with anything I said! I really like hearing other people’s opinions and BB Tumblr has been really nice so far 🫶🏻