#I wonder what it is

[satirates]

It always seem like there something between them...

[mail-me-a-snail]

i don't know how 2 explain it but there's like a bubble btwn me and certain new things n sometimes, rarely, that bubble doesn't exist but most of the time . most of the time it's there

[jackstheprinceofhearts]

here is the link to enter for the surprise, i already entered ❤️

https://www.instagram.com/stories/stephanie_garber/3072904617675163271

[crusheswhimsandfancies]

[prettyboybyers]

If they even mention m!leven on November 6th I'm gonna

[sorivii]

Pspsps

Today is the day i give the "something" :3 (after school)

Yay! Hope your school day is going great! o(^▽^)o

[imaginaryhuman]

Forgiveness. We can't seem to quite be done.

And I always wonder why.

I know it's been beyond me all this time. I notoriously fail at making amends or anything of the sort. Like a spoiled kid, I've just put everything I don't like in some box and away from sight. Only to be unearthed when it knocks against all corners to tell me "Don't go there. Don't go there. Don't go there."

Where?

You can't tell me, can ya?

Just don't go there-- where the bridges burn or where you stand across yourself and your loneliness?

... but I can't.

Maybe it's because I can't forgive anyone for myself. Huh. Maybe that's the problem-- I've never forgiven anyone for myself. On that same note, I may be incapable of forgiving myself of anything. I'm not sad about it. It's probably a more painful point that I can withstand allowing something to fester this way. What a horrible person. Sure am, aren't I? Not in the way that potentially gets me the "beloved asshole" type of title but the kind of sinister that subconsciously makes babies cry or animals hiss. The type that would make anyone with decent instincts stay a few steps back or something not too close.

Reasonably so. Because if a situation needs selfishness, I'd take it. If a situation needs selflessness, I'd use it. Goodwill is a tool and it doesn't always have anything to do with a person being good or bad. Or I could be wrong. A kinder person may assimilate life lessons differently. But I had not been a kind child. My siblings can attest to that. I'm not sure I've learned to be a kind adult either. In the whole kindness and rightness argument, even if it doesn't make sense since they're not even opposites, I'd gag on the dick of righteousness as long as I stay safe, unhurt. The painless route. "Who wants to grow if it'll just feel like shit anyway?" says the proverbial bitterness of being just an inch above 5 ft. I can drown in a fucking kiddie pool. Says the wistfulness of my existence. Says the shallowness of my own goddamned heart.

"Forgive me for I have sinned"

Even if your emotional response to sin is really none of my business, sure, I will forgive you. Is that how it goes?

"Let it go for your peace of mind"

Ya darned well wish, don't ya? Can I get a hell to the no? Truly, if I want peace of mind I'd rage and hate you until the day (or night) I die. Isn't that just fantastic? Quite romantic too, no? In my world, the most pathetic cliche to exist is that in hatred exists a great love. Maybe that's what it is. Or maybe not. And here where for most people, I'd feel nothing but muted feelings (I can't... only for very few)-- I will be in awe of the flowers blooming on your future grave. I will slumber through the nightmares that wear your face. Not an ounce in my lifetime's reservoir of regret will be spent on any singular thought of you.

"What's there to forgive?" Everything. Nothing. Wait. Stay still, monumental and magnanimous in your patience. Just be still and wait... and wait... and wait. Exist nowhere near me but close to my heart. A horrible home for someone like you with its questionable chambers and a rhythm that you can never dance to. Wait. Stay still, monumental and magnanimous in your patience for me who will probably never forgive you. So wait and I'll be an old dog with no more tricks to learn.

It's neither right nor kind but who's to say it's wrong wrong wrong?

Sound the sirens and flash the lights. Lock it up-- arms to back and spiral down then up the steps to the gallows. Listen to the chants. Sway softly to the applause.

[theredonexx]

Does what you remember disturb your, Harry?

No- stop- i dont want to talk about it- (*he's visibly shaking*)-🧣

[sylvies-kablooie]

i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

[orphetoon]

did i ever post this here

[fantastic-nonsense]

[officialspec]

can i say something. for years i thought the joke of the song short skirt/long jacket by cake was that he wanted a woman who was hung like a horse. like i thought when he says jacket it was a last-second fakeout because he very obviously meant to say cock. and the rest of the things in the song were just her personality and interests. which were secondary to her awesome penis

[kelddaa]

I was plagued by a vision

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

[sheerbadluck]

okay yeah I went through cbt and technically I understand that I can’t control this and therefore I should not let it bother me

but

it still bothers me a little that my mom is extremely supportive and vocal about my sister’s boyfriend music (like advertising his songs on social media, getting him good connections, posting about how proud she is of his progress like he were her son??) but never gave a shit or was supportive in any way of my passions (or my sister’s for that matter)

yeah that bothers me that’s not natural