#I’m upset to say the least

[eddiebuckley-diaz]

I’m not hating on Buddie having partners, but i am not a fan of how both their plots have unfolded.

Eddie now probably with Marisol when he said literally last week “it’s not smart to date people from calls”

Buck and all these weird instances and Natalia being introduced as a fangirl and now she’s not?? This whole thing with Kameron and the baby?

[brazen-kenobi]

Why do the prettiest wildflowers always have to grow in the most inaccessible places

[nightmun]

A day late posting these here but here’s a couple stupid drawings I rushed out for Valentine’s Day on RDL!

[queer-reader-07]

it is so vitally important to me that aziraphale and crowley not only love each other but choose to love each other.

i don’t want it to be fate. i don’t want it to be god’s will. i want it to be a conscious and continuous choice.

i want aziraphale choosing every day of his goddamn existence to love crowley and all that he is. i want aziraphale choosing to love crowley not in spite of being a demon, but because he is a demon. i want aziraphale choosing to love crowley’s curiosity and creative wonder. i want aziraphale choosing to love crowley’s love of plants and gardening.

i want crowley choosing to love aziraphale’s passion for books. i want crowley choosing to love aziraphale’s desire to do things the human way even if he could just miracle it. i want crowley choosing to love aziraphale’s angel-ness because it is a fundamental part of him.

i want aziraphale choosing to love everything about crowley and vise versa. and i want it to be a very conscious and intentional choice.

it being fate negates the entire point of the story. good omens is a love story between an angel and a demon, yes. but that’s not all that it is. it’s a story about two occult/ethereal beings who choose humanity over the great plan. two beings who choose the world over armageddon. and they make those choices because despite it all they have chosen to fall in love with the world and with humanity.

it only makes sense that they choose each other. that they choose their love. it being fate or god’s will ruins the foundational pillar of their relationship. that they choose each other over and over and over again. year after year, century after century, time and time again. they always choose. they choose the arrangement, they choose saving the other from harm, they choose lying to protect the other.

it is always a choice. and it better stay a choice or i am going to be so devastated.

[taakitz]

sorry this is random as fuck but. does any1 have any advice (or reading recs) for drawing with less expectations/pressure on yourself? like. advice on how to just enjoying the act of making art vs. drawing with the final product in mind?? how do i enjoy art again.

[suave-hogan]

Day 9

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[jasontoddenthusiastt]

I always smh at people who dub Jason as “whiny” “and therefore ooc” in tt 29. If you died and all everyone did was taint your legacy, and not a single person remembered you fondly or deemed you worthy of commemoration after your death, wouldn’t you be a bit upset too?

[ohno-the-sun]

I hope something happens that makes you feel happy soon, you're a good, kind person and a skilled artist!

The brain can be mean sometimes and make good times feel bad and self-doubtful. I often get it too and so do many others. I don't know if it helps but you aren't alone.

Please know that it's okay to not be the most extroverted person in the world, and that what you do and make has helped many people find happiness, community, and feel less alone themselves.

I hope you have a good week :)

Thank you so so much mysterious anon

And I am truly sorry about dumping dumb emotional stuff here, but thank you for your kind words they do help me feel a lot better

[apostaterevolutionary]

The feeling of trying so so hard to get into something that you should, by all accounts, enjoy and that seemingly every single member of the human species considers to be not just enjoyable but the greatest thing to ever exist but you just. Really actually do not like it and can’t even understand how someone could and wondering what’s wrong with you and if you’re literally the dumbest person alive because it really just seems to be you having the issue but you’ve tried really, really hard but it’s just not happening

[wren-kitchens]

idk if this is niche but sometimes it gets annoying when you get test scores back and your friend is upset at their score and you ask them what they got and it’s like. 80%, whereas you’re proud of yourself because you got 40% and suddenly you’re not as happy with your score anymore

[ilovefredjones]

jim and la’an are suchhhhh a crazy combination bc like. they both underwent such massive trauma at a young age. la’an processed that by becoming very frigid and isolationist; jim in turn became amicable and charismatic. their trauma both drove them to join starfleet, after being saved by it, and the need to protect people after they couldn’t as kids. neither of them open up. neither of them trust easily. they’re both sharp and vigilant and aren’t afraid to get violent. they’re both so lonely. they’re both haunted by their pasts. their love is bittersweet; something they knew could never last.

[reikunrei]

the fact that I was looking into starting on t and was also tentatively looking into getting my own car since all 4 of us now share 1 vehicle. and now I can’t even think about saving up money at all. fucking sucks

[bo0zey]

Did I miss "back from the war" recreation or is that not happening

OK so i've been meaning to address this for a while because it’s actually something i've been genuinely annoyed/sad/upset about; my original plan to recreate the post was to go to riot fest & have someone take pics of me during MCR live in person (caption wouldve been something like ‘when will mcr--omg they;re Back from the Warfdskns’ lol idk). i ended up 2nd row from the barrier & i was like OMG bc i didn’t expect to get so close & i was like ‘WOW these r gonna b such GR8 PICTURES!!i;m so lucky!!this is gENIUS!’ & so my plan was literally going according to/even better than planned right?? i mean the fact that i was ~a few feet away from the stage n was ~1.5hrs away from seeing mcr LIVE??? my plan was going along SUSPICIOUSLY well..everything was falling into place TOO perfectly...it was almost to good to be true right??? IT WAS. everything went to shit & my plan fell thru during the last band before MCR when my body suddenly fell victim to the effects of being crowd crushed for >7 hours straight; i experienced syncope & was pulled over the barrier & out of the pit by security.

sooooo, you didn’t ‘miss’ anything; the post was supposed to be recreated at the concert, but the universe pulled an uno-reverse on me when it remembered i’m on the universal ‘Do Not Ever Allow to Be Truly Happy’ list lol. i meant to post an update abt my failed plan afterwards, but tbh the actual event in itself made me wanna fr kms, and i felt even guiltier/worse for being unable to fulfill my promise to u all bc i fr planned on recreating it at the concert. 'ok but u were still at the concert after u got pulled out’ ok physically yes but mentally N-Ooo. due to the hypoxia (lack of blood blow/oxygen to the brain) i’d obtained secondary to being crowd crushed PLUS the psychological trauma of being removed against my living breathing dying will from the pit (btw the psychological trauma has nothing to do with being crowd-crushed but im not gonna get into that turmoil rn lol), i was stuck in an altered mental state for the remainder of the concert. i was dissociated for mcr’s entire set until i woke up the next morning & it took ~3-4 days for my body to fully recover from the physical trauma of being crowd crushed.

i still plan on recreating the post eventually, but tbh it’s not rlly my top priority atm bc 1) i still can’t come to terms w/ the fact i lost my 1 n only chance to experience MCR live & 2) imo seeing MCR live was the perfect opportunity to recreate the post & that clearly didn’t work out for me sooo now i have no idea how else i can top that idea :( .

[phantom-does-a-thing]

It’s almost worse knowing they hurt me unintentionally because I don’t have any right to hate them. It was an accident, they didn’t know, but still I have breakdowns at the mention of them and they don’t even know.

[littlenightmares2]

girl the way little nightmares haven’t even acknowledged tson winning a webby and haven’t posted any LN3 content yet OR announced the enhanced edition. am i crazy

[the-bisexual-a-genda]

Feeling deeply tired of my family hours.