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#I’m very exhausted dealing with this
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Today is an utter shit show and he wants it to be over with.
#// the whole apartment mudslide shit show is tiring#I’m tired of people blaming the conplex for the slide it’s not. It started way above on private property#where are people supposed to live in this town when everyone out of state keeps hoarding every house in this small area#reprod the damn mountain is the first thing#several buildings including mine are being looked at because they all likely moved#we have to be out of our places and our cars can’t be there while they’re working#and people keep coming up to our complex for photos like it’s some giant disaster#please leave us residents alone as we go through this#it’s a mudslide it’s not a huge disaster but some are def going to be displaced for a while#I’m very exhausted dealing with this#but there’s more flash storms on the way so 🤦‍♀️#Some locals in the area need to fuck off with their words it’s not easy to get a home or rent one in this town#there’s only two complexes for apartments in the area so where else are we supposed to live? An hour away? Tahoe? Reno? The damn deserted#desert in the sand? Fuck y’all seriously#it’s the areas fault for 1. Not reprodding the hills and mountains 2. Selling property to people who build all the way up the mountain#who don’t take care of their land at all#3. Follow the rules set in place for not going to critical areas after bad winters and storms and stir up the loose dirt#I’m not sorry for the rant but this is ongoing since Saturdays event and will continue all week#Now I’m dealing with the after effects of this at work like give me a break these people need to stfu
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infernal-lamb · 4 months
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Very interesting that Cotl official twitter called the goat a ‘dark reflection’ of the Lamb…..because the Lamb themself is already a subversion of what connotations lambs and sheep have in a lot of societies: purity, meekness, submissive/natural followers etc etc…..The Lamb has been shown to be cruel and unconcerned with objections to their cult leadership and the unsavory things they do (outside of punishing those who do object), thwarting expectations of what a meek little sacrificial lamb should be, so I’m unsure what they mean—is it just aesthetically? What is the Goat capable of doing that the Lamb isn’t? Is it just attitude-wise?
The Goat, however, is an animal often maligned and associated with the occult, shadowy pagan tendencies (this, however, is primarily part of wider Christian oriented views. Other religious and spiritual practices will vary) and viewed as troublesome. If their subversion were to follow along thematically with the Lamb’s, I would expect that despite the Goat’s rough attitude and penchant for destruction, they would be more clear-eyed about the nature of the Lands of the Old Faith. Maybe not necessarily an absolute “good” person, but at least recognizing the harm they are committing and the rationalizations behind it, and perhaps disinterested in power unlike the Lamb. Idk. I just find these things #interesting
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hidefire · 1 month
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really awkward at talking abt these things but we had a pretty sudden death in my family, and it has been hitting everyone kinda hard. I’m doing okay, I wasn’t overly close with the family member myself, but am incredibly close to people who were. I’m gonna be offering support to them, and on top of that the situation is just a lot to deal with. I have no idea what this will do to activity. Writing can be an outlet but I also know I will likely be incredibly tired for a while. Just wanted to let you all know where I’m at for the time being <3
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milo-is-rambling · 5 months
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I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?
#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like.#what? am I missing something here?#my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day#but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both#gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a#bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of#being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even#with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like#go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m#afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make#this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s#so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room#and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until#my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and#that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad#anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know.#honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down
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certainlysleepy · 9 months
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myfriendtheghost · 1 year
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goodnight baby love
#if u are one of the like three people I need to respond to rn … forgive me for I am mentally and physically exhausted <3 work was bad 2day#also Greta if u post anything after I go to bed pls don’t let it be josh I can’t deal with fomo rn#anyways………..#I applied to go back to college today so#that’s funny#I always said I would rather die than go back to school because college is a scam but we are in some absurdly desperate times <3#so yeah#and I have like. 4 jobs I need to apply for#I’m so stressed and overwhelmed lmao#oh and#have I told y’all I’m moving back in with my parents ??#yeah#they’re building me basically a studio apartment in the basement so that’s fun and funky#but I’m conflicted because as excited as I am for the weekend because no work#my roommate has been gone for a week and comes back this weekend#and I have to tell her I’m moving out when she gets back 🧍🏻‍♀️#which. under normal circumstances would be fine#but with my roommate ….. there are not normal circumstances#so yeah I’m very stressed !!!!! and my job makes me want to jump off of a cliff on a daily basis so I truly have not been able to rest lmao#I really need to stay with my company for a few more months because I have so many trips coming up but it has fully ruined my mental health!#anyways … if u pray please pray for me rn LMAO I’m going through it 😭😭😭😭😭😭#on a more happy note I see my fav band again 2 weeks from today :)#I get to see my Franniiiii <333 I love and miss her so bad#shoutout to anyone who read all of this LMAO#also I had a background check today for job purposes and the guy who did my fingerprints was very cute !!!!!! THAT WAS SCARY
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waugh-bao · 4 months
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isthisjackie · 5 months
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I am a lil disappointed but also completely unsurprised that my most chaotic friend could not keep plans and didn’t tell me until the last minute
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suuho · 1 year
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mhm. being chronically ill sucks.
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softpastelqueer · 2 years
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It’s honestly really exhausting to be taught in speech pathology that you should use specific, clear, and concise language when talking to others, but Neurotypicals never seem to understand specific contextual language and act as if you’re using vague terminology 😭😩😭
💖Neurotypicals Learn How To Communicate Better Challenge💖
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youmearepeaches · 1 year
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my total admiration for nurses and caretakers. I’ve spent a couple of days taking care of my grandma because my aunt and mom are on holidays and I ended up crying out of frustration
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flutterby5 · 1 year
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#some days are so hard like I am very not okay a lot of the time these days but rn I’m actually okayish so I can’t put it into words#but like basically I’ve been have trouble sleeping recently and it’s only gotten worse…to the point where I’ve been waking up every single#night and it’s so hard to get my brain to be sleepy again and go back to sleep#and it’s ruining my life like being exhausted makes life sososo hard I’m miserable and everyone around me is laughing and lighthearted and#I just wallow in my own misery…like when I’m okay I’m okay but when I’m not I question everything#I should really just quit my job and focus on dealing with this chronic insomnia I have now but I’ve been trying different things and#nothing has stuck..part of me probably isn’t trying hard enough but how can I with a full time#job and the need to feed myself and chores and getting my mind of everything and trying to workout more like??#that’s why I need to quit but I am hesistant to move home like I don’t have to but still then I wouldn’t need to pay for rent yknow but I#I also kind of don’t want to move home bc it’s quite nice not to and for covid reasons bc I’m like the only one I know that still cares#about covid lmaooo but like there are definitely pros too like I’m glad I still have the option tbh#but I wish I could just sleep and didn’t have to fight my own brain every single night why can’t I just be normal like I know no one is#normal but also why does everyone else do such a good job hiding it while I just feel like I’m just bringing the mood down by struggling so#much..like also my dept so small rn and I actually do lie my coworkers they really already take a lot of weight comparatively and are#reliable that I feel bad idkkkk why can’t I just sleep like seriously. wtaf is wrong with me#random thoughts don’t mind me#I’m so fucking tired
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king0fcrows · 2 years
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lovecoredeity · 2 months
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as we know art and my confidence in my ability and posting online in general is kicking my ass, is there anything yall would like to see from me or would yall like to see Less from me?
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buddiekinard · 2 months
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[cartwheels into the room with flourish]
girl is not and will never be gender neutral
thank you
[bows and thriller dances back out of the room]
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yeehawgeek · 4 months
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i am. so tired.
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