#I'm staying myself tonight // Demi Lovato

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DEMI LOVATO : REVAMPED PROMPTS. PT 2. Feel free to change the pronouns on these as needed.

NEON LIGHTS.

"You'll be coming home with me tonight."

"We'll be burnin' up like neon lights."

"Be still, my heart, 'cause it's freaking out."

"You're all I see in all these places."

"Baby, when they look up at the sky. We'll be shooting stars just passing by."

"So let's pretend we're running out of time."

"Shining like stars 'cause we're beautiful."

"You're all I see in all these faces."

SKYSCRAPER.

"Only silence has an ending."

"Do you have to make me feel like there is nothing left of me."

"You can take everything I have."

"You can break everything I am."

"Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed."

"All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet."

"Go on and try to tear me down."

"I'm gonna stay right here."

LA LA LAND.

"I am confident, but I still have my moments."

"I'm not a supermodel."

"Well, some may say I need to be afraid of losing everything."

"Who said I can't wear my converse with my dress?"

"And who said I can't be single?"

"Tell me do you feel the way I feel."

"I won't change anything of my life."

"I'm staying myself tonight."

GIVE YOUR HEART A BREAK.

"But now that I get you, I know fear is what it really was."

"How did I pass the test?"

"When will you realize, baby I'm not like the rest?"

"I know your scared it's wrong, like you might make a mistake."

"I called your cell phone, my love, but you did not reply."

"The world is ours if you want it."

"There's no turning back now."

"'Cause you been hurt before. I can see it in your eyes."

DON'T FORGET.

"Did you forget that I was even alive?"

"Did you forget everything we ever had?"

"Did you regret ever standing by my side?"

"But somewhere we went wrong."

"We were just about to fall even more in love than we were before."

"I won't forget about us."

"You can't forget it."

"Please don't forget about us."

[flieslikeamoron]

I have a playlist for Sleight of Hand and you can listen to it if you want. Is it at heart a conversation between Fiona Apple saying I'm too fucked up to love and Arctic Monkeys saying I just wanna be yours? Sure. But there are a lot of other songs too! I listed all the songs below for those that don't have spotify.

The Fic | The Playlist on Spotify

My Type - Saint Motel

And take a look around the room Love comes wearing disguises How to go about and choose? Break it down by shapes and sizes I'm a man who's got very specific taste

You're just my type Oh, you got a pulse and you are breathing

A Mistake - Fiona Apple

I'm gonna fuck it up again I'm gonna do another detour Unpave my path And if you wanna make sense What you looking at me for? I'm no good at math

Pick U Up - Adam Lambert

I'mma pick you up, I'mma pick u up We're gonna see where we can go This is how I live, this is what I give And you're the one I want to know All my life, I've been waiting Pass my time, procrastinating

Hey Pretty - Poe

I see a stairway so I follow it down Into the belly of a whale Where my secrets echo all around You know me now but to do better than that You've got to follow me Boy, I'm trying to show you where I'm at Hey pretty Don't you wanna take a ride with me?

When We're High - LP

When we're high Oh my God, you blow my mind So let's get high Live until we die You and I Let's just do it one more time (A million times) Let's get high Live until we die

R U Mine? - Arctic Monkeys

She's a silver linin', lone ranger ridin' through an open space In my mind, when she's not right there beside me I go crazy 'cause here isn't where I wanna be And satisfaction feels like a distant memory And I can't help myself All I wanna ever say is, "Are you mine?" Well, are you mine? (Are you mine tomorrow?) Are you mine? (Or just mine tonight?)

Temptation Waits - Garbage

I'll tell you something I am a demon Some say my biggest weakness I have my reasons Call it my defense Be careful what you're wishing You come on like a drug I just can't get enough I'm like an addict coming at you for a little more

Don't Talk to Strangers - Dio

Don't talk to strangers 'Cause they're only there to make you sad Don't dream of women 'Cause they'll only bring you down Run, run, run, run away

Indestructable - Welshly Arms

You're my blood rush Just out of touch Kills me inside But I feel so alive And now you got me like- I'm flashing like a red light But you know I'm gonna keep trying Why you gotta be so Indestructible Fire in your bones Nothing can touch you

Got Dynamite - Demi Lovato

Tell me what you've got to break down the walls Kick senseless my defense Tell me what your gonna do I need you to light the fuse Tell me what you've got to break down the walls You just might need dynamite

Stay Soft - Mitski

Just tell me what you want to do Tell me what you want To burn away 'Cause I could be your stoker

Open up your heart Like the gates of hell

You stay soft, get beaten Only natural to harden up You stay soft, get eaten Only natural to harden up

Left Alone - Fiona Apple

Oh, when I try to love I can love the same man in the same bed in the same city But not in the same room, it's a pity, but Oh, it never bothered me before Not 'til this guy, what a guy, oh God what a good guy And I can't even enjoy him 'Cause I'm hard, too hard to know

How can I ask anyone to love me When all I do is beg to be left alone

One Way or Another - Blondie

One way, or another, I'm gonna win ya, I'll get ya, I'll get ya

Straight Through the Heart - Dio

Never tell a secret with your eyes It's the eyes that let you down Tell a little truth with many lies It's the only way I've found

You Might Think - The Cars

You might think it's foolish This chancy rendezvous You might think I'm crazy All I want is you

Fast as You Can - Fiona Apple

O darling, it's so sweet You think you know how crazy How crazy I am You say you don't spook easy You won't go But I know And I pray that you will Fast as you can, baby Run, free yourself of me Fast as you can

I Want it All - Arctic Monkeys

Blind faith, heartache Mind games, mistakes My sweet fireball My sweet rigmarole I want it all

Runaway - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals

I hooked you with the beat The heavy heat gettin' out of hand And I loved you in a lonely bed The word you said made me understand That if I loved you, I would stay I'd never stray or runaway And I fall down, lonely night I can't fight but maybe I should pray Lord Give me the strength to stay 'Cause I always run away

It Will Come Back - Hozier

You know better, babe Than to smile at me, smile at me like that You know better, babe Than to hold me just, hold me just like that Don't let me in with no intention to keep me Jesus Christ, don't be kind to me Honey, don't feed me, I will come back

To Your Love - Fiona Apple

My derring-do allows me to Dance the rigadoon around you But by the time I'm close to you I lose my desideratum and now you

Please, forgive me for my distance The pain is evident in my existence Please forgive me for my distance The shame is manifest in my resistance to your love

I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

I wanna be your vacuum cleaner Breathing in your dust I wanna be your Ford Cortina I will never rust If you like your coffee hot Let me be your coffee pot You call the shots, babe I just wanna be yours

Never Be Me - Miley Cyrus

If you're looking for someone to be all that you need That'll never be me (hard as I try) That'll never be me (I play with fire)

Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys

(Do I wanna know?) If this feelin' flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sorta hopin' that you'd stay (Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made For sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day

Lights On - The Pierces

This won't get any easier now that your heart is beating in my hand And I'll try not to destroy you, baby, even though we both know I can Oh, you know I can

Make love with the lights on baby Tell me what you see Clear the bed to lie on darlin' Make a mess of me

FOOLS - Troye Sivan

And my hopes, they are high, I must keep them small Though I try to resist I still want it all

Little Bit - Lykke Li

Hands down I'm too proud for love But with eyes shut It's you I'm thinking of But how we move from A to B It can't be up to me 'cause I don't know Eye to eye, thigh to thigh I let go I think I'm a little bit, little bit A little bit in love with you But only if you're a little bit, little bit Little bit in love with me

Love Me More - Mitski

I need you to love me more Love me more, love me more Love enough to fill me up Fill me up, fill me full up I need you to love me more Love me more, love me more Love enough to drown it out Drown it out, drown me out

Raw Raw - K. Flay

You disarmed me, no defense My armor turned to sand It's hard to escape the wounds of the past Every time I feel something real, I wanna take it back

Sensitive, I'm peeling back my skin You got me raw, raw So emotional Raw, raw Oh, I feel exposed Chainsaw Buzzing at my throat Pressure building up inside my chest You pulled the stitches out again I feel the feelings creeping in You got me raw, raw

The One That You Love - LP

Try to be the fire for you, try to be the sun Try to be your home and the place that you come to Babe, I took my whole world and put it in your hands I'm really trying hard but I don't understand How to be the one that you love

Happiness - Black Keys

You got to do the thing you don't want doing Even if it's going to ruin what you had If what you had was bad Say the words you don't want saying Find the nerve to stop delaying Happiness

Respectable Dive - Rufus Wainwright

And baby I love you And I do not want to lose you But I'm not able to put my cards on the table And if you only knew of the hand that I'm holding You would be blushing And I am so far from bluffing

FistfIght - The Ballroom Thieves

They said love is grabbing blindly at a pit full of snakes And wait to feel the only heel among the rows of all the venomous teeth What did I do to deserve you? How did you find me? I was already halfway gone You were a bright light You were a fistfight

Tightrope - LP

We're just a step from fearless Reach out for me my dearest, don't you cry You don't know, you're almost near it

All this time You're just tryin' not to lose it You can always learn to fly You never do until you do it

Up high in the middle of nowhere Don't know but you know when you get there Walk slow and low on a tightrope Hope it lasts but you know, you never know

[fortunawren]

lyrics iii

“LOST BOY” by Troye Sivan

I fell in love with this album circa 2016, and overplayed it so much that I lost interest but now it’s come back around to nostalgia??

My favorite lines:

“So what are you waiting for? Cause someone could love you more I'm just a lost boy, lost boy I say I wanna settle down Build your hopes up like a tower I'm giving you the run around I'm just a lost boy Not ready to be found.”

“Flightless Bird, American Mouth” by Iron & Wine

Twilight did this. We allllllllll know Twilight did this. I’ve had unrealistic standards for romance ever since Twilight entered my life in the 6th grade. I bit a kid once.

Anyway, lines:

“I was a quick wet boy Diving too deep for coins All of your straight light eyes Wide on my plastic toys Then when the cops closed the fair I cut my long baby hair Stole me a dog-eared map And called for you everywhere Have I found you? Flightless bird, jealous, weeping Or lost you? American mouth Big bill looming.”

“Carolina” by Eric Church

Eric Church wrote this song about North Carolina. Well, I’m a South Carolina girl so… and secretly the biggest hick. 👀 Honestly, this song puts me at ease and helps me reconnect with my roots when I’m feeling too far up in the clouds.

I’ve got two favorite sets of lines from this song:

“Sometimes I grow weary From going' all the time I love to take a minute Let you ease my mind I'd love to see my mama Maybe go for a drive But I got to play the star in some little town again tonight Don't get me wrong I love what I do It's just another song about missing you”

And, then, of course the chorus:

“Like a phone call from my baby Saying honey I miss ya, I miss ya like crazy Just like the song of a siren song Oh Carolina Carolina[x2] Keep calling me home”

“Easier Than Lying”

I loved that this song came up on shuffle. After my ex died, I had to come to terms with how bad the relationship was and honestly Halsey came out with this banger album full of rage and hurt and anger and realizations about the world. It really gave me clarity.

Especially because of this line,

“I sleep with one eye open and one eye closed 'Cause I'll hang myself if you give me rope I lost all my faith and lost all hope That everything means anything at all One eye broken and one eye bruised 'Cause I gave myself away for you You liar, you don't love me too It's easy for you after all Losing you is easier than Lying to myself that you love me.”

I said that last part like a manifestation, bruh. Over and over again.

“Peppers” by Lana Del Rey

This is a new song on my playlist largely due to TikTok, but I was thinking about some bad past behavior and feeling a little shame for it and I heard the lyrics to this song and it settled the religious guilt/trauma.

“Me and my boyfriend listen to the Chili Peppers We write hit songs without trying like all the time, all the time I take off all my clothes, dance naked for the neighbors I'm like, "Fuck it, gonna give a show," I open up the blinds I threw caution to the wind, get onto the bike Take a minute to yourself, skinny-dip in my mind I'm in love”

“Down” by Jason Walker

This song comes from The Vampire Diaries soundtrack. I don’t know what episode, but probably one horribly devastating where Damon is the sassy King that he is.

But I’ve probably cried to this song seven times in my life.

“Not ready to let go 'Cause then I'll never know What I could be missing I'm missing way too much So when do I give up what I was wishing for I shot for the sky I'm stuck on the ground So why do I try, I know I'm gonna fall down I thought I could fly, so why did I drown? I'll never know why it's coming down, down, down.”

Bonus: “Echo” by Jason Walker !!! It’s even sadder.

“Easy (with Noah Cyrus” by Demi Lovato

Wherever you stand with Demi, she has a beautiful voice. I personally think she’s been through more than a person should ever have to and that she’s reacting to her trauma and the media needs to stay off her back…but I digress.

Additionally, if you’re not following NOAH CYRUS please do. Her voice is lovely and her music is heart-wrenching.

Lines:

“The hardest part of leaving is accepting the reasons That somehow we keep repeating endlessly The hardest part of leaving is to hold the heavy breathing back (Ooh, ooh-oh-oh-oh) From showing you how hard it is for me (Hard it is for me) To make it look so easy.”

“Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac

If you’ve never seen that meme where it’s like, “One day you’re a child, and then the next the lyrics to “Landslide” finally resonate and you’re crying in a car wash” well….here we are.

This song has literally gotten me through so much. It provides some deep clarity if you’re receptive to the message.

“I took my love, I took it down I climbed a mountain and I turned around And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills 'Til the landslide brought me down Oh, mirror in the sky What is love? Can the child within my heart rise above? Can I sail through the changin' ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?”

“Lookalike” by Conan Grey

My shuffle is clearly refusing to give me any happy songs, and I desperately want to be in a better mood. THAT BEING SAID, Conan is amazing.

Lines:

“And I'll admit that I sometimes, maybe, might Think about you at night, well, almost every night No matter how I try to hide And erase you from my mind I'm dying To find a lookalike 'Cause when you look in his eyes Hope you think of mine And when you look at that smile Hope I cross your mind I hope in your head You see me instead 'Cause you've been in mine every day since then Maybe it's time to find a lookalike No, I can't lie I need a lookalike”

😭😭😭😭

“Hard Feelings/Loveless” by Lorde

THANK WHATEVER HIGHER POWER THAT THIS WAS THE NEXT SONG. If you haven’t been entranced by Melodrama yet, what are you waiting for? “Green Light”, “Writer in the Dark”, “Sober II”—I OWE IT ON VINYL.

So, this song is technically two songs. It had a shift, which I absolutely love, so we’re going to do two sets here.

Set one:

“'Cause I remember the rush when forever was us Before all of the winds of regret and mistrust Now we sit in your car and our love is a ghost Well, I guess I should go, yeah, I guess I should go Hard feelings These are what they call hard feelings of love When the sweet words and fevers All leave us right here in the cold Alone with the hard feelings of love God, I wish I believed ya When you told me this was my home”

I mean…she’s amazing.

And set two:

“We're L-O-V-E-L-E-S-S generation L-O-V-E-L-E-S-S generation All fuckin' with our lover's heads, generation Bet you wanna rip my heart out Bet you wanna skip my calls now Well, guess what? I'd like that 'Cause I'm gonna mess your life up Gonna wanna tape my mouth shut Look out, lovers.”

Anddd that’s all.

[writer-in-theory]

HIIIIIIIII JAY. <333

you know what time it is.

yeah, yeah, i really played myself didn't i 🙄 /lh

Do you have freckles?  yes i do !! i have several across my cheeks and nose and several on my arms.

Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it?  COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE. if i'm making it at home then it's iced with frothed creamer and some hazelnut syrup

What was the last song you listened to? 29 by demi lovato!! 

Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?  i am a hardcore side sleeper. but sometimes i wake up and i've rolled onto my stomach!!

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? YES. i sleep with about four of them on my bed but i cuddle with the same lil penguin 

Do you prefer drawing or writing?  writing. i am new to drawing and it's something i've always been super self-conscious about so we're working on it.

What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with?  twelve. actually, i sleep with a top sheet, comforter, and 1-2 blankets depending on the season

What’s your favorite band/artist?  oooh that's so hard. sleeping with sirens probably just bc of my history/nostalgia

When is your birthday?  may 24!!

How tall are you?  barely 5'1", some say 5'0"

What color are your eyes?  green!! with a bit of central heterochromia

Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now?  dacre montgomery. my brother. serenity. cj. my cat bean.

Fears?  everything. heights, spiders, germs, drowning, fire, home invasions

What’s your favorite color?  light blue!

What’s your favorite season?  autumn!!!!

Want any tattoos? What of?  yeah!! i have two already but i want a mortar/pestle, a quote, the bird relating to my surname, and an olive branch

Want any piercings? Where?  maybe a nose piercing. maybe.

Who is the last person you texted?  my momma <3

Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends? i wouldn't say i have an obvious best friend.

What/who do you miss?  i miss having less responsibility. i miss my cats. i miss having the energy and mental capacity to do hobbies tbh.

How was your day today? it wasn't the best day but i'm sure there will be others that will be better.

How much sleep did you get last night?  1 hour.

Do you believe in aliens?  yes but like not lil green guys that are gonna come start a war or something.

When was the last time you cried? Why?  today. ive been in a lot of physical pain today and just have stuff going on lmao.

What are some seemingly childish things you like?  oooh i like cutesy pajamas that are super soft. and "kids movies" and plushies and all that.

How are you, really?  eh, i'm alive.

Does it take you a long time to make decisions?  oh my god yes. it takes forever. i'm either incredibly impulsive and making a decision in a millisecond or it takes me as long as possible.

What are you looking forward to in the near future?  i'm looking forward to dinner and wine night. i'm looking forward to getting to read this one harringrove fic tonight that i have bookmarked.

What are you looking forward to in the distant future?  i'm looking forward to being out of school, to having a career and not having to worry about it. i look forward to being able to drive, i look forward to a lot of things about the future lmao.

Do you sleep with your door open or closed?  CLOSED. i've learned my lesson.

What’s your favorite flower?  i love magnolias.

Do you currently have a squish?  YES I HAVE SO MANY SQUISHES AND I LOVE THEM.

Do you like your middle name?  it's alright.

Do you prefer dogs or cats?  cats. i'm very scared of dogs though i am trying to fix that.

Do you have any phobias?  dogs, heights, trypophobia, spiders, germs

Do you stay up late? every night even when i probably shouldn't. i stay up until a can't physically keep my eyes open anymore basically.

Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy? YES I LOVE THE BEACH. SUNNY AND HOT AND WARM YES. 

What’s your favorite cartoon?  oooh that's a good question. at the moment it's danny phantom.

Do you have siblings? How many?  i have one younger brother! he's two years younger

Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?  my momma <3

Is there anyone you would die for?  yeah ofc.

What do you need when you’re sad?  i really do need physical contact. i need to be held or hugged, i need to be reminded i'm not a burden for being sad <3

Have you memorized your phone number?  ...yes?

Who’s someone you can trust with your life?  my brother, probably.

What does your last text say?  it's to my grandparents 'hii pop i wanted to show you my record setup in my new place. thanks for all of the records you gave me they'll be well loved ❤️'

[hopelessromantics4life]

Ethan and MC playlist

Part two [2]

1. Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain

Time starts to pass, before you know it, you're frozen, ooh

But something happened for the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground, found something true

And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy, oh

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that their goal is to keep me from falling, hey, oh

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness, I see your face

Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy

Maybe, maybe

And it's draining all of me

Though they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

2. No one- Alicia Keys

One, two, three, four

Yeah

Yeah

This is dedicated

I just want you close

Where you can stay forever

You can be sure

That it will only get better

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry 'cause

Everything's gonna be alright

People keep talking, they can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

And no one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down

And my heart is hurting

You will always be around

This I know for certain

3. Don't give up on me- Andy Grammer

And I will stay

I will stay with you

We'll make it to the other side

Like lovers do

I'll reach my hands out in the dark

And wait for yours to interlock

I'll wait for you

I'll wait for you

'Cause I'm not givin' up

I'm not givin' up, givin' up

No, not yet

Even when I'm down to my last breath

Even when they say there's nothin' left

So don't give up on

And I will hold

I'll hold onto you

No matter what this world'll throw

It won't shake me loose

4. Strangers in the night- Frank Sinatra

Strangers in the night

Exchanging glances

Wandering in the night

What were the chances?

We'd be sharing love

Before the night was through

Something in your eyes

Was so exciting

Something in your smile

Was so inviting

Something in my heart

Told me I must

I must have you

Strangers in the night

Two lonely people

We were strangers in the night

Up to the moment when we said our first hello

Little did we know

Love was just a glance away

A warm embracing dance away and

Ever since that night

We've been together

Lovers at first sight

In love forever

It turned out so right

For strangers in the night

5. Love in the dark - Adele (cover by Leroy Sanchez)

You have given me something that I can't live without

You mustn't underestimate that when you are in doubt

We're not the only ones

I don't regret a thing

Every word I've said

You know I'll always mean

It is the world to me

That you are in my life

6. Tell me you love me - Demi Lovato

Bad at love, no, I'm not good at this

But I can't say I'm innocent

Not hardly

But I'm sorry

And all my friends, they know and it's true

I don't know who I am without you

I got it bad, baby

Got it bad

Oh, tell me you love me

I need someone

On days like this, I do

On days like this

No, you ain't nobody 'til you got somebody

You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody

And I hope I never see the day

That you move on and be happy without me

Without me

Oh, what's my hand without your heart to hold?

I don't know what I'm living for

If I'm living

Without you, ooh

7. Shallow - Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper

I'm falling

In all the good times I find myself

Longin' for change

And in the bad times I fear myself

Tell me something, boy

Aren't you tired tryin' to fill that void?

Or do you need more?

Ain't it hard keeping it so hardcore?

I'm off the deep end, watch as I dive in

I'll never meet the ground

Crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us

We're far from the shallow now

8. Fire on fire - Sam Smith

Then I saw you and I knew

Maybe it's 'cause I got a little bit older

Maybe it's all that I've been through

I'd like to think it's how you lean on my shoulder

And how I see myself with you

I don't say a word

But still, you take my breath and steal the things I know

There you go, saving me from out of the cold

Fire on fire would normally kill us

But this much desire, together, we're winners

They say that we're out of control and some say we're sinners

But don't let them ruin our beautiful rhythms

'Cause when you unfold me and tell me you love me

And look in my eyes

You are perfection, my only direction

It's fire on fire, mmm

It's fire on fire

When we fight, we fight like lions

But then we love and feel the truth

We lose our minds in a city of roses

We won't abide by any rules

9. The scientist - Coldplay

Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles, coming up tails

Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science, science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me

Come back and haunt me

Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails

Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy

10. Run to you - Lea Michele

The city sky's feeling dark tonight

We're back to back with our heads down

Just look at me, give me more tonight

Just give me more of your love now

Let's set fire to the lonely night

You're beautiful when you look at me

Let's give love another life

Cause you'll be safe in these arms of mine

Just call my name on the edge of the night

And I'll run to you, I'll run to you

I would run to you, if you want me to

Just give me some kind of reason

I'll take the pain, take it all away

Just give it some kind of meaning

Let's let go, let it be the start

You know I'm feeling the same thing

Let's let go of our broken hearts

Even if it's gonna break me, love

Gonna make my way to you

Anyway it's gonna take me, love

[milkwaystars]

“I won't change anything in my life I'm staying myself tonight ” ― Demi Lovato

[borathae]

~Chapter 25~ Jesus Christ and i thought the last chapter was a rollercoasterride. When Jungkook said "you are the love of my life" now that...broke me. No joke I literally got chills when jungkook said that, like i am not joking. Also "No darling, i mean y/n" aaaah there it is again 👀 Also forehead kithes, yes.

🖤 Strangers - FLETCHER

When oc & kook started talking it just felt so real. Like how people that had such a special bond can become strangers again. Like when you were SO FUCKING close with someone you could talk about everything and now you don't even know how to start a conversation. "The way we ended it, you know it makes me sick how two people once could be so in love, now we never talk. [...] and I hate that I hurt you. What I know right now, I wish I knew then. [...] We started out as strangers, now we're strangers again."

🖤 No Right To Love You - Rhys Lewis

Jungkook knowing and acknowledging he fucked up, to the point where he feels like he doesn't even deserve ocs love anymore. "To jump was my decision, I've only got myself to blame. 'Cause I have no right to love you when I chose to walk away. I have no right to miss you when I didn't wanna stay and I have no right to need you. And I knew what my heart was gonna lose. I have no right to love you but I do. I still do."

🖤 Mirrors - Justin Timberlake

This one is just so fitting. Especially with the part where jk was really opening up about what oc really means to him and that he lowkey only sees a future with her. Like she really showed him what love feels like. "I don't wanna lose you now, I'm lookin' right at the other half of me. The vacancy that sat in my heart is a space that now you hold." Alsoooo when he said that once he realised all that, he just had to come back, there was no other option. "Show me how to fight for now and I'll tell you, baby, it was easy comin' back here to you once I figured it out. You were right here all along." And then the part of the song where it literally goes "you are, you are the love of my life" over and over again 💔 Also this line: "So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone." Jungkook is evolving.

🖤 What We Had - Sody

This would have fit the last chapter so much but I just discovered this song and I think this also kinda represents what Jungkook feels about the whole OC x Hobi situation. We see he's bettering himself in that he's trying to walk away from the situation and deal with his emotions alone instead of exploding in ocs face bc that is toxic. And he's very open about his feelings, communication is key in a healthy relationship. But still, he is jealous bc he loves oc and therefore obviously doesn't want to imagine her with another man. "I know I'm being selfish and I've got no right but I can't help thinking about you tonight. And I don't wanna say it 'cause I know it's bad but I don't want somebody having what we had. I know I'm being stupid but I just can't stop thinking that you're with somebody and I'm not." Also this part: "I've still got the pictures from the memories that we once made, can't seem to let them go, I thought that we'd grow old. Down to see you happy but I don't want to see you happy without me."

🖤 I Hate You, Don't Leave Me - Demi Lovato

I feel like this represents oc's feelings really well, like the way she's torn between wanting him back and struggling to forgive him. "I hate you, don't leave me. 'Cause I love when you kiss me. I'm in pieces, you complete me. But I can't back down, no, I can't deny that I'm staying now 'cause I can't decide, confused and scared." The song even talks about the physical touch part with which oc is struggling as well, wanting to be held by kook but at the same time being scared of what his touch ignites in her. "I hate you, don't leave me. I feel like I can't breathe. Just hold me, don't touch me." Also the ending of this chapter really felt like oc was trying to make sure that jk knows that she needs him and that it's definitely not fully over eventhough she's so torn. "I admit, I'm in and out of my head. [...] Just hear me out before you run away 'cause I can't take this pain, no. [...] Been abandoned, and I'm scared now. I can't handle another fall out, I'm fragile."

🖤 Side of My Heart - Katelyn Tarver

Same as with the song before. Oc struggling with her feelings. "Half of me wants to come over and spill every thought that's inside of my head. Half of me wants to unlearn every turn that would take to get into your bed. One foot on the gas, one foot on the brakes. One out the door and one trying to stay. [...] I can start telling myself once we get through the mess, we'll be stronger for it. But then I start thinking that if I was stronger, I wouldn't put up with your shit. One minute I'm sad, the next I feel crazy." And this "I need you all the way here or all the way gone", how oc got angry for a sec when jk told her he's leaving again.

Sorry these are getting longer everytime, I'm invested haha 😢✌

Okay first of all never apologize for your song recs getting long! Please I love them so much, you could sent in a whole novel and I would read every single letter of it 🥺💜  

 Strangers - FLETCHER

Okay first of all that song has such JKMusic vibes, which just adds a whole level of flavour to it omfg 🤧 Also no joke this is literally so them ommgmg. Like when the reader is all like “help why is it so weird talking to him? what happened?” that song could play in the background omfg 🤧😔 but also omfg this line “No time's the right time to reach out but here I go [...] all the things we said and couldn't take back, swear I never meant it, and I hate that I hurt you.” is so Jungkook and him struggling to reach out to here for months 😔

No Right To Love You - Rhys Lewis

I don’t even know what part to quote because the whole entire song is basically Jungkook in this chapter. Holy shit :( I am acHING HAHAHHAH you don’t even know how many times I listened to that song while I was writing this chapter. And then you go and rec it and I am just like 😩 we are sharing a braincell anonie 😔

Mirrors - Justin Timberlake

I don’t know what I should add here anonie. Your description and the lyrics you chose are literally perfect. There is nothing to add here other than :(( I am bIG SAD :(( 

What We Had - Sody

YES OMFG! First of all I 100% agree with you that this also fits perfectly with chapter 24 😔 also lisTEN HOW DO YOU FIND SONGS THAT JUST FIT SO 

R I G H T???

Like I am literally blown away, it’s freaking amazing and I am :( Also omfg this part “I've still got the pictures from the memories that we once made, can't seem to let them go.” if that isn’t them both realising that they both carried a part of the other with them. OC with the half-finished tattoo and the polaroid and JK with the finished drawing :( I am soBBING

I Hate You, Don't Leave Me - Demi Lovato

😭😭😭 anonie lisTEN I AM GOING TO SMOOCH YOU hfhdshfh your description, the parts you quoted I am just wOw I couldn’t have said it better. Fuck you saying “ she wants to be held by kook but at the same time being scared of what his touch ignites in her.” I am ACHING 😭😭 aLSO THIS PART “Been abandoned, and I'm scared now. I can't handle another fall out.” if that isn’t her being all scared of giving in I am :(

Side of My Heart - Katelyn Tarver

This song is so beautiful omg, I teared up hahahah hELP lisTEN I am :( this shows her struggle so well, like especially that part “I need you all the way here or all the way gone [...] I want you to go and I want you to stay.” this made me think of when they were all like “guess that’s it then, the end of our relationship” and yet neither one of them stood up and left because deep down they both didn’t want their relationship to end. I am a broKEN WOMAN 😭

Thank you so much anonie, listening to those songs literally just made my day. I mean lol they did tug at my heartstrings, but it was a good kinda tug 🤧 seriously I appreciate you so much, I love you lots my lovely anonie 🥺💜💕

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My MatchaBlossom playlist

Here's the link to the playlist on Spotify-

Song meanings and POVs elaborated on down under.

Call it what you want- Taylor Swift

(Let's start with a TS song cause why tf not. I am and always will be a total slut for her 💜)

Okay, just the general vibe of this song is that of a person who's been through a bit and has now found a love so beautiful it's helping them heal and I feel like that ties in so well with Cherry and Joe's entire arc. I hear this song in Cherry's POV when Joe's affection is starting to restore his faith in love and life after Adam's done fucked it all up. Or even when his anxiety gets really fucking bad or whatever. It's just got big comfort vibes and I am a total whore for Cherry acknowledging and appreciating everything that Joe does for him.

All my flowers grew back as thorns,

Windows boarded up after the storm,

He built a fire just to keep me warm.

Explosion- Zolita

PINING JOE PINING JOE PINING JOE

*ahem* let me be more articulate.

TEENAGED PINING JOE

Don't call me about him I don't wanna hear

Put him out of your mind just make him disappear

Stop pretending you got nothing left to hide

My memory is slipping and it's killing me alive

Reached the bitter end

Can't pretend I'm not in love with my best friend, my best friend

Hate that you know me- BLEACHERS

Okay I think this song fits Cherry very well, especially when he is still trying to understand his dynamic with Joe. My personal headcanon is that Cherry is prone to bouts of self-hatred because of his anxiety and consequently, doesn't always consider himself deserving of Joe's love, and so, he tends to dislike it at times when Joe seems to understand him better than others and anticipate his needs so well, and I feel like this song depicts that beautifully.

Sometimes I hate that you know me so well (so well)

Sometimes I, I hate that you know me so well (and I hate ya)

Some days I, I wish that I wasn't myself (No)

No luck! (No)

And I hate that you know me so well

Heart attack- Demi Lovato

Okay, I can not be the only person who thinks of teenaged Cherry every time this song comes on. Imagine a Cherry who's flabbergasted by the strength of his feelings for Joe, and can never figure out what to do with himself.

Never break a sweat for the other guys

When you come around, I get paralyzed

And every time I try to be myself

It comes out wrong like a cry for help

It's just not fair; pain's more trouble than love is worth

I gasp for air; it feels so good, but you know it hurts

Lover- Taylor Swift

I have a very specific scene in mind when it comes to this song and that is MatchaBlossom slow-dancing in the first house they get together.

We could let our friends crash in the living room

This is our place, we make the call

And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you

I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all

Make you mine- PUBLIC

You knew this song was going to end up on here lol.

Strangely enough, aware as I am of the fact that most of the fandom believes Joe was the one chasing Cherry (and I agree) this song just hits me as all Cherry's. It has all of his characteristic dogged determination and refusal to admit defeat lol

Well, I have called you darlin' and I'll say it again, again

So kiss me 'til I'm sorry, babe, that you are gone and I'm a mess

And I'll hurt you and you'll hurt me and we'll say things we can't repeat

Mess is Mine- Vance Joy

Slightly older, mellowed out MatchaBlossom, starting to realise they're in this together for the long run, that they always have been.

Further I feel like verse 1 and 2 respectively follow Joe and Cherry's POVs

First we have Joe, who is just brimming with the realisation that Cherry is his for good.

Talking like we used to do

It was always me and you

Shaken up and shipping out

Check me in and check me out

...

Hold on my darling

This mess was yours, now your mess is mine

Secondly, we have Cherry, who considers himself unbelievably lucky to have been considered worthy of Joe's love and keeps wondering if he is half as good a partner to the other man as he is to him.

See you in the market place

Walking around at 8 AM

Got two hours before my flight

Luck be on my side tonight

You're the reason that I feel so strong

The reason that I'm hanging on

You know you gave me all that time

Did I give enough of mine

More than Friends- BEKA HONNE

Baby MatchaBlossom pining. Really sweet, soft vibes. I keep thinking of shy, unsure junior high school Kaoru and Kojiro suddenly becoming blushing, stuttering messes around each other for a period of time as they both hit the realisation that they'd very much like to be kissing each other and it's very much not a Friend™ thing.

It happens after Joe has freshly realised that he is bi after all and Kaoru is exactly what he needs. Again, verse one reminds me of Joe, verse two of Cherry. They are down under respectively.

Driving home and those cats eyes got me seeing you

I'm always seeing you

I don't know how to tell you that I was wrong before

I thought I needed more

I was wondering if we could talk

I think about you every day

And the mixtape you made

Is all I ever to play

And every song reminds me that

You and I

Should be more than friends

...

I never thought I would see your face at my door again

Not at 3 AM

And I don't know just why I wasn't enough before

I thought you needed more

I know you came here to talk

Can't listen to the tape I made

It brings me too much pain

Cause every song reminds me that

You and I

Should be more than friends

This song can also work if you reverse the POV orders and then see it post Adam, but the vibe is a lil too soft for that.

Night go slow- Catey Shaw

MatchaBlossom but in a chill, lo-fi aesthetic.

The cars all stop where they are

When you take my hand, there is no time

Every moment that passes by with you

I wish I could rewind

Let go of your ways

And forget today

Just follow me tonight

Do you understand why I put all my plans on hold?

Not Afraid Anymore- Halsey

Okay, this one goes a lil heavy but imagine a traumatised Cherry, ya know after Ad*m, finally learning to let himself go and feel things again, emotionally and sexually, with Kojiro.

I also feel like they are two kinky bastards so really if you only wanna interpret it like that be my guest.

I am not ashamed anymore

I want something so impure

You better impress now, watching my dress now fall to the floor

Crawling underneath my skin, sweet talk with a hint of sin

Begging you to take me

Devil underneath your grin, sweet thing

But she play to win, heaven gonna hate me

People Crying Every Night- A R I Z O N A

I hear this song as Joe trying to get through to a hesitant Cherry, trying to make him see that while they don't get a say in so many other things, things that have happened and things that will happen, they get to choose the life they have together. They get to pick out their happy ending, build one out of scratch with each other and even if they have nothing else, at least they have this.

Oh and as the day

Turns into night

The things that we can't say

The things we try to hide

Like everyone else

We can't choose the way we die

Oh but we can choose

The way we live tonight

Oh I wish I had the answers

I wish I had the time

To give you all the reasons

Why it's worth it down the line

Ready to go- NEFFEX

This song is an ✨ aesthetic ✨

Okay but imagine, young, punk! MatchaBlossom, maybe around the time when they're travelling the world together?

It's all hot and heady, and Joe is thrilled by the wild, wild force of nature Kaoru is. He can't do anything but give in.

She said stay for a minute

Play with my limits

Drink till we're sinnin'

Baby I'm ready to go

...

She said she's finally alive

When she starts losing control

I said I know what to do

Just let our bodies go

Shine a Light- BANNERS

Another Kojiro song. This one reflects his inner struggle as he feels torn between wanting to comfort and protect Cherry after Adam, and the fact that he is hopelessly in love with Cherry who inadvertently keeps hurting him with how he is lost in the huge web of feelings he can't parse through, not completely blind to how much Kojiro loves him but not fully realising it either. This song reminds me of a confused and helpless Kojiro. Loving Kaoru is such an integral part of him that it makes him, him and it is his constant in the rapidly changing world around him as he stands on the brink of adulthood. He is very nearly ready to beg for mercy and yet knows he, himself is saved by the love he has for Kaoru.

And when the night falls, oh, call on me

Just don't forget to show me some mercy

Ooh, say you're mine

Ooh, take me higher

Sleepover- Hayley Kiyoko

JOE PINING @ HOMOEROTIC SLEEPOVERS WITH YOUR B(est)F

You wanna be friends forever?

I can think of something better

I'm just feeling low, feeling low

Sleeping here right next to me

But will you ever mess with me?

No

Thank you, my twilight- the pillows

Listen, this has been my fav classic Japanese love anthem for so long and to think it is PERFECT for Matchablossom just makes my heart go 💞

The lyrics are heart-wrenchingly raw and real, which is great reflection of Joe and Cherry's relationship. I include a translation of a few verses below, the first one seems something snatched straight out of Joe's internal monologues and the second one depicts the breathless intensity and loyalty so typical of Kaoru:

If you think it looks like I'm waiting for someone

Then you're right

I've been waiting for you

...

Sometimes people will ask me

"How far will you go for her?"

BABY as far as it takes

Wings- HAERTS

Another song depicting Cherry healing from Adam and learning to accept Joe's love, but a fluffier and sweeter way to go about it.

In which, Cherry decides to separate all of the sweeter moments of his and Joe's days with Adam from all of the bitterness, and carry that in his heart after they part ways and he finally moves on.

I will never let you go

I know you want it, know you want it

Learning love means not to know

I'll learn to take it,

Would you mind- PRETTYMUCH

Ending this post with a fluffy, flirty rec that could be Joe's anthem. See for yourselves.

Say you don't catch feelings, you say you ain't the love type

I'ma have to work, then, uh the whole night

Nothing like your ex, no, this ain't what you used to

Just give me that chance, girl, uh, won't lose you

See it? ;) Also, I feel like Joe had typical frat boy taste in music at some point so