#IM JUST AWKWARD AND UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND GUYS I HOPE HE DIDNT TAKE IT AS ME BEING INTERESTED

[kavehayati]

LONG RANT ABT A GUY IN MY UNI / group project …

IM UNFOLLOWING THAT DUMB GUY BRO HES so >:( bc he would lowkey pretend I didn’t exist even tho I actually put in sm effort to make sure I didn’t freak out around him for the virtue that he’s a guy. Like I warmed up to him as much as a person like me could ! I could’ve even considered him (in a weird sense?) a friend ! AND YOU KNOW WHAT I GET ? Half assed responses when HE WAS ACTUALLY BEING RECEPTIVE TO ME ??? Like what the heck we were actually on the track to being normal classmates etc and he just had to make me feel bad

AND NO I DIDNT MISREAD THE SIGNS OF IT BEING A MUTUAL GOOD TIME BC HE LITERALLY RETURNED MY VIBES AND PLUS ID NEVER GIVE THOSE VIBES TO A MALE UNPROMPTED THEY HAVE TO INITIATE AND I HAVE TO FEEL SAFE ENOUGH AROUND THEM TO EVEN RECIPROCATE LIKE WITH EHRON HE MADE ME SO CALM 😭 Toofy as well 😭😭😭 and this guy too but like CLEARLY HES A DUMBASS.

Honestly he might’ve been a dumbass actually bc like what the heck ! Once my depression was actually SO bad like I couldn’t move to do anything much less work and I couldn’t even comprehend anything I was reading bc my mind it’s so fuzzy from how bad it is, but I tried rlly hard even though I could barely do anything at all, and I got the vibe he was mad at me for that but I brushed it aside bc I have more pressing issues to attend to, but then he apologised and then I had to be the one comforting him BROTHER GET OUT 👉🚪I am not comforting a whole ass MAN who’s a year my senior go to your gf or your mother 😾

But I can’t un add him just yet 😭 bc we’re probably gonna get more group project marks and it’d be sooo awkward if he finds out … I’ll do that in December … BESIDES ITD BE SO BAD IF I UN ADD HIM RN BC HE JUST POSTED HIS GF ON HIS STORY TITLED 18 months and if you read my tags I DONT WANT IT TO LOOK LIKE IM UPSET OR IDK WHAT THE HECK HE THINKS CAUSE HE AINT A CATCH 😭 kavehs the only catch ik :3

[kindnessisweakness2]

Delusional -Part 12!

Delaney sat on the side of the uncomfortable St Thomas Hospital bed. Her head hung low as she tried to keep from breaking down. She couldn’t believe how her life had fallen apart so quickly when she tried her damn best to keep everything together. This time yesterday she was mentally preparing herself to die, believing she would never make it out of that room breathing. And now here she was in hospital after Gemma’s insistent pushing and threats to shove her size 9 boots up her ass if she didnt get herself checked out. All Delaney wanted to do was lie in her bed and let the world around her melt away. What else could she do? Life couldnt go back to how it was before. Nothing would ever be the same. 

Her thoughts were cut off as Jax followed the Nurse into her hospital room. “Well Delaney, your hand is badly broken in 3 places. It’ll definitely need a cast. 2 ribs badly bruised but thankfully not broken and apart from the tenderness in your shoulders there’s nothing serious to worry about.” The elderly nurse sat on her stool in front of Delaney's bed. “I’ll just pop some butterfly stitches on the cut on your cheekbone, forehead and chin and then someone will be in to fit your cast.” Delaney stayed silent as the woman worked on her face. She kept her eyes on the Blue hospital curtain infront of her and avoided Jax’s worried eyes. Its not that she didnt want to talk to him, she just didnt know what to say. What could he want to hear other than, Im sorry i let my abusive ex fiance murder our baby we made by mistake one drunken night that you dont remember? Oh Yeah! That’ll go down a treat. All Jax wanted however, was to hold Delaney tight and tell her that he’ll never let anybody hurt her again. That if he had his own way no one would ever so much as raise their voice to her again. The pain he felt in his chest when he first saw her terrified on that video link hasnt left him for a second and he dont think it will until he holds her close again. His heart is breaking for the woman he loves more than he ever thought he could. He was always the one she put her trust in. He was the one who she always looked to when she needed help and watching her now in this hospital bed, still drowned in his oversized hoodie looking so fragile, she couldnt even look at him. And that hurt Jax more than anything. 

The sweet elderly nurse smiled at Delaney as she finished up her stitches and left her and Jax in awkward silence. After a couple minutes Jax couldnt take it and had to break the tension. “We have alot to talk about Darlin’” Delaney looked away from him and stared blankly in front of her. “I’m sorry. I must of shit all over your and Tara’s ‘reunion’! Didnt exactly plan to get kidnapped did i?” She was tired, Hurt and instantly on the defense. Without turning to look at him Delaney gestured towards the door. “You can leave now tho. Im Fine.” Jax huffed at the Stubborn woman. “I wasnt with Tara! When you Kicked me out i went to the clubhouse and sat on the roof nearly all night. Until Ope talked some sense into me that is.” Sitting down next to her on the bed Jax tried to get her to look at him but she ignored his attempts. “Do you know what Ope made me realize?” Still facing the curtain Delaney pulled a face. “That she left you once and she will leave you again.That shes not really down for you or this life. If she loved you as much as she made out, if she really understood you she would never of considered asking you to leave your family and this life behind.” Delaney finally looked at Jax. “Ive never had even one conversation with her. But from what you have told me, from seeing how broken she left you. i cant for the life of me work out why you would want to risk going back to her? When i first met you you were so highly strung the slightest thing would make you flip out. You beat the shit out of a prospect for borrowing one of your tools from the garage, for fuck sake. I would see you drinking your body weight in jack each night before sloping off to your dorm with whoever caught your eye. But the one thing i will never forget is the sadness in your eyes Jax. You were fucking broken.” Tears welled in Delaneys eyes as she remembered how different he was back then. “I cant just sit back and watch you go back to the person you were before Jax. Thats not the man i know. Thats not the man i love.” Delaney stood from the bed as the Male nurse stood in the doorway and called her name. Nodding at the man she started to follow him out of the room to go get her cast fitted. She stopped in her tracks and shock spread across her face as she heard Jax speak the words she had secretly been waiting years to hear. 

“Despite what you think. Its you, Delaney. Its ALWAYS been you.” 

:)

Another post finally up for you guys. Really hope you guys have been enjoying it. Sad to say i think it might be coming to an end. Got A few more chapters in me but i dont want to drag it out and let it get boring for you guys. As always tell me what you think, i LOVE hearing your guys opinions!! Next Part will follow soon. 

Love to you all, Stay safe! Xx

[nct-lian]

nct 127’s relation to lian

TAEIL + LIAN: IL-LI

taeil used to wake her up for school when she was still a teenager :((

such a soft but overlooked duo

will appreciate each other forever and ever

lian teaches him roasts in english that he can say to johnny

remain each other’s hype man and woman

taeil was the first to suggest he and the other nct members react to the trailers of her dramas on video so they can boost them in popularity

promotes the HELL out of lian’s solo career over twitter

lian loves coming up behind him and just giving him hugs because he’s soft (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

they watch movies together a lot! but taeil has to come down to the fifth floor because lian hates it up on the tenth one

he was once able to grab her hand in an airport and they held hands the entire time :(( a few pictures went a little viral

they share hoodies NSHDHSHCJA

lian keeps bugging him to get an instagram

taeil will ALWAYS take her side in silly arguments she and the other members have sometimes

he makes fun of her height because she’s shorter than him-

he also used to help her with her homework :(

cried when lian went on her first date

“my child is growing up (´∩｀。)”

had to do a background check on the guy before he even allowed him to come in contact with her again, though

JOHNNY + LIAN: JOANN

johnny is her dad, period

no questions asked he is her father

will give her piggyback rides all the time

he was once woken up by her jumping on his bed and asking if they could go shopping

at 6:00 am

he actually got up, got ready and took her shopping but since it was so early, the stores were all closed

he took her out for japanese fluffy pancakes, though!

whenever lian is sick, johnny makes her his mom’s homemade chicken noodle soup recipe :((

speaking of johnny’s mom, she loves lian to death and always asks johnny if he’s taking good care of her

if they’re not being asked any questions or having to translate anything during interviews, they always whisper jokes in each other’s ears to try and make the other one laugh

because of how lian dies during the trailer of her new drama, johnny cried in front of twenty-two other men while they reacted to it

he was NOT embarrassed

“how are you guys not crying? this is so sad. what a cruel world we live in ໒( ˵ •̀ □ •́ ˵ )७”

kept screaming at lian’s “dream of you” performance video

“WHY ARE YOU ON THE GROUND DANCING LIKE THAT?!” “JISUNG COVER YOUR EYES-“

he once effortlessly picked up lian and moved her somewhere else because she wasn’t standing where she was supposed to be

everyone says that their ship name is something a white, suburban mom would be named. now nctzens pronounce joann like “joanne” ･x･

it was said on the zach sang show that johnny used to measure her height every month to see if she grows or not, and that’s the only reason why he has her height memorized

TAEYONG + LIAN: LIYONG

has lost lian in so many airports it’s not even funny

“hyung, what happened to lian?” “oh, you have GOT to be kidding me-“

whenever he doesn’t see her he goes into panic mode and starts asking if anyone has seen his little sister

“about this tall with really shiny hair? her cheekbones are insane, i swear. OH OH OH SHE WAS WEARING JOHNNY’S HOODIE- you don’t know what johnny’s hoodie looks like.. okay, well thank you for your help.”

one of the first members that she was comfortable with

lian said that he was her role model :’(

as the leader, he’s always taking care of her and will not sleep until he knows for sure she’s eaten

because of how lian never participated in any of nct’s first bit of promotions due to being too uncomfortable around them, she was allowed to skip out on the viewings of their relay video letters

but she was still required to make one for somebody and that somebody was taeyong ˵ ຈ ︿ ຈ ˵

she said that she was glad he was her leader and that she hoped to become closer one day

he cried

declares that he will take care of lian till the day he dies

taeyong had yelled at lian’s former manager until he voluntarily quit working for her- he had found out that lian was being overworked to the point where she collapsed during their dance practice and he wasn’t okay with it

always cheering her on backstage when she performs solo

he always tries to include her in guiding the members for their dances because he knows how happy it makes her

instead of having her carry her glasses around with her, he does it instead :D

“nana, do you have to wear your glasses now?”

taeyong tucks her into bed every night he can ᕕ( ཀ ʖ̯ ཀ)ᕗ

YUTA + LIAN: YUN

totally doesn’t have feeling for her, yeah

yuta is obsessed and when i tell you he’s obsessed, he’s obsessed

did i mention obsessed?

he’s jealous of everyone :(

yun stans insist that the only reason yuta is so touchy with winwin and mark is because he’s trying to cover up his feelings for lian

bye if that’s true-

hyuck wanted to give her a hug (a rare occurrence) and yuta straight up just said,

“mine. go away”

i have proof guys :// johnny recorded it and literally posted it on instagram

lian died internally when yuta cut his long hair because she couldn’t put it into ponytails anymore :((

but his hair is growing back now so she’s able to do it again :)

yuta teaches her japanese every tuesday and thursday!

we don’t bring this up because it’s pretty embarrassing but,, when nct 127 were backstage before performing kick it, yuta asked doyoung (who was in a direction where he could get a clear view of lian’s face) if lian was staring at him

how do we know this, you may ask?

it was caught on camera and everyone made fun of him for a solid week straight

he’s caught staring at her from afar way too often for comfort

lian says that he’s very pretty

much like the other memebers that have instagram, he makes story countdowns that he posts about a week before lian plans to release her solo music

DOYOUNG + LIAN: LIDO

another member of the lian protection squad

doyoung was the first to start calling her cupcake

it all started when doyoung was sick and lian made him cupcakes to make him feel better

will slap anyone who makes a flirty remark towards lian

was embarrassed for yuta when he asked if she was staring at him

said “no” and walked away

lian is the only one who ever shows him any mercy :’)

they have very similar taste in decor so they often go shopping together for things to put around the dorm

doyoung said that he spends the most time in lian’s room because it smells like vanilla all the time

he spoils her SO MUCH

like so much

half the plushies she owns at the moment were gifts from doyoung

has a tendency to watch over her and make sure she’s content at all times

“cupcake, are you hungry? i can make you some food if you’d like” “oppa, it’s 3:00am-“ “and?”

they take such pretty instagram pictures :((

at one point in time, doyoung was jealous of his older brother because lian used to crush on him a tiny bit :0

not because doyoung likes her or anything, she just couldn’t stop talking about how nice he looked in revolutionary love

disapproves of the staff giving lian such short clothing sometimes

“um, excuse me, she can’t wear that. are you crazy? go get her a new outfit, please”

JAEHYUN + LIAN: JAELI

not many people bring this up because we know it’s honestly a sensitive topic :|

but he lowkey has deep feelings for her (he makes it so obvious sometimes it’s kinda disappointing to see how oblivious lian really is to it)

jaeli + yun love triangle anyways

jokes aside, though, jaehyun loves lian so so much

once cried to johnny about how he doesn’t know what to do and that he didn’t want to make anything awkward by confessing to her

makes sure to be near her as often as possible

once scared away a whole kim taehyung from talking to her during isac ╰[ ⁰﹏⁰ ]╯ (let’s pretend bts were there for 2019 pls)

“jungkook, keep your friend away, please :D”

didn’t work, though, because they ended up having a conversation later in the day either way

*in the 97’ liner groupchat* “HYUNG IM SORRY HE RAN AWAY I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DOl

it was uncalled for but what can you do amirite ┐(´～｀)┌

lian pokes his dimples a lot and squishes his cheeks

just randomly hugs him but he’s not complaining

johnny isn’t picking sides but he became team jaeli after jaehyun broke into tears in front of him for the first time since they were trainees about how much he loves lian

sad,, i know

lian judges jaehyun for not sleeping with sheets

continues to believe he is not a human being, but a robot created in a lab

jaehyun smiles at her for no reason

JUNGWOO + LIAN: LIWOO

an instant bond formed between them when they first met!

jungwoo learned a lot about her and has developed so many ways to deal with her anxiety :(

gave the staff a guide on how to keep her calm when he went on hiatus because he couldn’t be there with her

buys her colouring books because he knows that they calm her down well!

liwoo went viral and become a popular ship when lian accidentally changed the nct 127 instagram profile picture to a jungwoo icon

she got scolded but it was iconic orange haired jungwoo with a chain-

an untouchable duo when they do double aegyo

nctzens think jungwoo is her favourite member

maybe because lian said he was

“ “who’s your favourite member?” hmm i’ll have to say woo-oppa!”

*cue jungwoo laughing at yuta’s face because he was that shocked*

they share secrets with each other so now they probably know the other like the palm of their hand

even though he’s off his hiatus, he still has to guide the staff members through lian’s little moments because sm staff suck at their job sometimes

they’re the two members who go grocery shopping together

more like jungwoo dragging lian to the grocery store with him but okay

jungwoo loves kissing her cheeks (〃▽〃)

their vocals mixed together are confirmed to be noises from heaven

lian misses his blonde bowl cut :/

MARK + LIAN: LIMARK

leader of lian’s natural length hair committee

like when i tell you mark hates her extensions-

mark was the first friend lian was able to make in nct!

they bonded over canada and it was very rare to see them speaking in korean

mark goes into straight panic when he’s with her sometimes

has to remind himself they’re like siblings

lian ans mark covered “your eyes” by hoody and jay park during a vlive!

it was adorable :((

lian had him saved in her phone as “android user” but now she doesn’t know what to change it to

they had a fight in 2019

mark let’s her call him the weirdest freaking nicknames ヽ ( ꒪д꒪ )ﾉ

mars bar, markie, mork, marko

AND IN RETURN HE CALLS HER MARIJUANA-

he says it’s because czennies consider her to be addicting and since marijuana is addicting as well he thought it’d be a good fit

someone on twitter absolutely ENDED HIM though and wouldn’t stop making fun of him (；⌣̀_⌣́)

they can read each other’s mind just by looking at each other

“dude i hate this shit why does she keep asking us who we wanna collab with?” *cue lian laughing hysterically*

“what’s so funny (゜-゜)” — interviewer

HAECHAN + LIAN: LIHYUCK

haechan makes fun of her kissing scenes in dramas

calls her short all the time

“lian give me a high five- oh haha nevermind it’s too bad you’re so short”

they’ve actually been so close to fighting each other and i’m not even joking

they’re the two members who fight the most out of all of them

but despite this, they love each other very much

hyuck says he’s the only one who’s allowed to make her mad

and if anyone else makes her mad he’d kill them

limark 2019 fight flashbacks where haechan kept threatening mark

there are actually moments when they’re clingy with each other-

haechan loves her hugs :((

like ??????? one minute they’re at each other’s throats and the next, they’re all lovey dovey hugging each other make it make sense ?????

lian could be speaking english and he’d say, “korean, please. i can’t understand canadian”

“shut up <3”

hello haechan cried and wouldn’t let go of her during her and mark’s graduation ceremony in 2018

she makes fun of him for it but never takes it too far

he goes to her for dance advice

during their nct 2018 weekly idol appearance when they were doing the random kpop dance thing, they beat everyone أ‿أ

[nikrangdan]

cafeworker!ni-ki

pairing: cafeworker!ni-ki x female reader

genre: fluff, comedy

description: the cashier at the new coffee shop was so adorable you just couldn’t resist visiting just for him

**did not proofread

————

contrary to popular belief, you were NOT a social person

whenever you were around friends and family, you were always the loudest person there

like SHUT UP Y/N!!!!!!

anyways although you were loud, people still enjoyed being around you because you had such a sweet soul and interesting humor

everyone close to you knew that you hated talking to people you didnt know

but to all the strangers? no

they would think you were an outgoing ready-to-meet-new-people extrovert

which was so, so wrong

but ALAS, you had to talk strangers almost everyday living in 2020

(well lets pretend we arent in the middle of a pandemic right now)

moving on......

so you were in high school at the downfall of your existence

you used to have so many friends when you were younger ..now you only have like 3

and those three were always busy (busy making up excuses thats for sure) so you never really hung out with them outside of school

and on one fine evening after school you decided to visit the new cafe 5 minutes from your house

u were really excited because all the cafes were 15 minutes from your house so now u could just walk to this one if u wanted to !!!

but yeah it was in the middle of a small plaza that had cute buildings

you pulled up to the parking lot and was just about to get out the car when u remembered..

u have to talk to the cashier :/

who’s a stranger! even more ://

it was always so weird to you.. whenever you went out you always had someone else order for you because you just hated talking to strangers

you just felt uncomfortable and you couldnt help it

its not like you have never ordered for yourself but you would always prefer not to

and now that you think about it

this is the first time you have gone out by yourself

you did text one of your friends beforehand but they said they “had homework to do”

LIES!!!!

but you really wanted to try the coffee so you just ran with it

time to face your fears!

you opened the glass door to reveal a cute looking cafe, like the ones you’d see in movies

you loved it already

glancing to the cashier you’d have to be talking to—

hold on

you had to do a double take because WOAH.....

the cashier...

he....

wow..

you have never seen a boy like that in your life

you stood there for like 3 seconds before coming to your senses and standing infront of the menu

that was infrONT OF HIM

“hi, what can i get for you?”

HIS VOICE OH MY GOD..!?!?!

“oh um.. can i get a second to .. look..?”

“yeah of course,” he gestured to the menu on the wall above him

hes so nice u almost cried

your eyes shakily traveled up to the chalkboard menu and u began to ‘read’ the options

its like u could feel his eyes on u WTF!!!!

um um um *internally keyboard smashes*

you couldnt even think

the words on the menu were like gibberish

the ONE time u go out by yourself

this had to happen.. of course! someone had it out for you, you were sure of it >:(

picking a random drink you gave him your order

“uh can i have an iced caramel macchiato?”

ITS LIKE YOU CANT SAY A SENTENCE WITHOUT UH OR UM

u cant help but think hes judging you

he looks like that while u are standing there in old sweatpants your dads tshirt

“sure, what size?” he looks into your eyes after putting your order into the machine

god you felt your heart stop

his Eyes..... theyre so beautiful

“oh um regular” you attempted to give a small smile

hopefully it looked like one

“okay that’ll be $5.12.”

you dug out some cash from your bag and handed it to him

he gave u your change and gave u a small smile

“your drink will be out in a minute”

AAAAA

he went :)

he is so CUTE.....?!?!

he looked around your age too

sigh... you knew he was way out of your league though

you were gushing over him but he probably thought you were just another boring customer

while waiting u sat at one of the 2 person tables on your phone

and u IMMEDIATELY went to text your groupchat

‘GUYS’

‘AT THE CAFE NEAR MY HOUSE’

‘CUTEST BOY IVE EVER SEEN EVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE’

‘WTF IM GONNA CRY HOW DOES HE EXIST’

‘WAIT BRB HE S COMIBBG’

you tried to quickly put your phone down without looking suspicious when you saw him walking towards you with a drink in his hand

“here you go, enjoy” he said before swiftly making his way back to the counter and talking to the other worker there

wow... hes so mesmerizing

you’d steal glances at him every now and then while taking sips of your drink

you were sitting there for like 20 minutes before you noticed you finished your drink

you totally forgot you came here to see how good their coffee was

it was good by the way

sadly it was your time to leave

taking one last glance at him, you threw away your empty cup and walked out the door

wow

u cant believe you got to witness the most beautiful human being ever

in your small town?? crazy

you were sitting in your car just thinking

WAIT

U DIDNT EVEN KNOW HIS NAME!

you mentally punched yourself but then you started laughing

what does knowing his name even matter, its not like u were ever going to talk to him anyway

LOL

*sad emoji*

but the coffee was good so you definitely planned to go back

and not just because of the cute boy

...unless....

*time skip*

the next day you went there was a week later at the same time in hopes that he was working the same shift

AND HE WAS!!!!

score! 1 for y/n, 0 for umm... any other person who had a crush on him too i guess

the cafe didnt have too many people since it was fairly new and also in a small part of the city

so when you went in, you were the only one there along with the two workers

“welcome, what would you like to order?”

NOT THIS AGAIN

he looked even cuter today

his messy blond hair almost covered his eyes

you shouldve forced your friend to come with you this time

you ordered the same thing as last time but this time he asked for your name

hmmm

“um y/n” you answered

your heart was always beating 2 times as fast whenever you had to talk to him

he wrote it down on the cup and after you paid, you went to sit down at the same spot as last time

looking at him is literally the highlight of your day

the same thing happened as last time, he came over and gave you your drink without giving u a second glance

>:((((

boooo look at me cute boy

nonetheless u continued going to the cafe at the same time as much as u could which was like three times a week

literally over a month later and u dont think anythings going to happen

u punch yourself for thinking the boy would somehow find interest in you

hes still indifferent to you which isn’t surprising since you’ve never made any kind of move

ever

but

he should know u by now

hopefully..

*time skip again*

it was a saturday

at this point you’ve basically given up on having a crush on him and now since its become a routine u just say you go for the coffee

not really paying attention to your surroundings you dont notice that the boy at the cash register isnt the normal one you see almost everyday

“hey, what would you like to order?”

woah WHAT

you look up from your bag to notice a boy that was definitely not the one that normally stood infront of it at this time

and you also noticed something on this new cashier

a name tag

how come your old little crush didnt have one????

this new boys name was ‘jay’ and he was fairly cute too

looking around the corner at the other worker u noticed he has a name tag too

you recognized him because he was always working when the cute boy was at the cash register

his name was ‘heeseung’

after taking in these new additions you answered to jay

“oh um.. can i ge-,”

“she gets an iced caramel macchiato. her name is y/n”

??!<_|#%[>~€\£~

you whipped your head around so fast to see who said that behind you

was it who you thought it was ??!??!

YES IT WAS!!!!

OH MYGOD

ITS HIM

you widened your eyes at the boy who wasnt wearing his normal black and white uniform

instead he was wearing black ripped jeans and a gray hoodie

wow....... and u thought he couldnt look any better

BUT OMG?? HE REMEMBERS U

“oh wow ni-ki, you know her?” the boy named jay asked him

“uh yeah.. shes a regular” he said before walking to stand next to you

NI-KI

HIS NAME IS NI-KI OHMHGOD

u thought his name fit him perfectly its so CUTE

“are you gonna get something too?”

this whole time you were silent because.. what is going on

your heart was being SO fast you thought that everyone could hear it

“yup, can i get the same thing? also im paying for both of us”

WHAT??/):)/$;##\%|

ur eyes widened even more it looked like they were gonna pop out of its sockets

u unconsciously leaned towards the boy next you and kind of put your hands up

“w-what?? oh um no, you dont have to do that” you nervously said to him as he looked down at you

he kind of had a smile on his face

“i want to.”

there is no way this is happening

“oiiii ni-ki” jay chuckled while punching in numbers on the cash register

“ill have both of your drinks out soon, you two kids have fun!” jay said before turning around to face heeseung

WHAT??!!??!

your jaw almost dropped from shock

millions of thoughts ran through your brain and you couldnt even process anything

u cant believe this was happening

it was like a wattpad story or something.. is this how u meet ur soulmate

your thoughts were interrupted by a hand on your back momentarily and u look to see ni-ki shyly grinning and gesturing u towards a table

no way...

you awkwardly follow him to a 2 person table next to wall and sit down

you literally could not hear anything except for the pounding of your heart

“uh sorry about that...” he rubbed his neck and sheepishly smiled

“im ni-ki by the way”

“y/n...” u felt so awkward u wanted to cry

“agh, im really sorry if that was weird.. i just didnt know how to ask you out.....” he trailed off

*passes out*

IM JOKING

Ok but u felt ur heart stop bc NO WAY

“wait what??” u ask, ur eyes bigger than the moon

“um yeah... haha i took the day off today to try to talk to you.. sorry if that was weird..”

HE WAS SO AWKWARD JUST LIKE YOU IT WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER

“no its okay!! im glad actually...”

“really? so is it okay if we hang out?” he asked excitedly

u did not think u could handle HOW CUTE THIS BOY WAS O M G...

“of course! sorry if im kind of awkward though” you gave a small smile

“its okay, i think i am too”

you two began talking about the cafe and where you went to school

turns out even though you two lived in the same town (literally 5 minutes away from eachother) u went to different schools for some reason

u talked for like 2 minutes before jay walked up with your drinks

“hows it going guys?”

“its doing good bro, now go away..” ni-ki lightly shoved jay and laughed

you giggled at the sight

jay looked offended and came right back

“that is not how you talk to your elders ni-ki! y/n do you see this?!” he scoffed

ni-ki just rolled his eyes and turned back to you

“do not ignore me young man!” jay joked

“oh y/n, ive heard all about you from ni-ki over here by the way.”

ni-ki’s eyes got so big you almost got worried

he turned around so fast and gave jay one of those ‘i swear if you say anything ur dead meat’ looks

jay obviously did not care

“hes always like ‘y/n this y/n that’ blah blah im glad he finally got the balls to ask you out because im honestly sick of hearing it!” jay laughed

u were blushing so hard

NI-KI LIKED U????

this felt like a dream

ni-ki pushed jay away so hard and turned back with red cheeks

awe

but yeah that was the beginning of the cutest relationship ever

u and ni-ki were so cute together <333

you’d always visit him during ur free time

it took like 2 months before u two made it official tho

and he was the sweetest boyfriend ever

[brrdadada]

LIAR | M

Inseong x FemReader x Rowoon

Series [01]

Word count: 3559

You excitedly called Inseong that you were now nearing their dorm after your car entered the front gate. He was as thrilled as you were, you can hear it from the way he talked. Well, you've been away for 6 months due to modelling work, of course you'll miss each other. You just arrived today from New York, and since you don't have any schedule for the day, your manager let you go as you please only reminding you to be cautious of paparazzis. You decided to go straight to your love of your life, Inseong.

You got out of the car as it stopped infront of the huge building, telling your driver that you won't be needing his services until tomorrow morning and thanking him as you did so. You walked to the front door and rang the door bell. The place was a bit quiet, but it was understandable, it was 7 in the morning and you thought the boys are probably still sleeping. You were about to ring the doorbell again when the door suddenly sprung open, revealing a half naked Rowoon.

"What-" You stopped yourself when you realized it was actually Rowoon.

He looked down at you, the height difference probably being more obvious because of you being 170 cm tall compared to him being 190.5 cm tall. His eyes widened when he realized who you were, and briefly stopped drying his hair with his towel.

"Y/N?" He couldn't hide the surprise in his voice.

Rowoon was half naked, with having only boxer shorts to cover down there. Judging from the fresh smell of soap and shampoo matched with his wet black hair, he looked like he just finished getting a shower.

You quickly looked away. "You're back?" You heard him say, rather enthusiastically.

"Yes I am, but before that will you just-"

You couldn't finish your sentence because of Inseong's loud voice cutting in. "Y/N!"

You looked up and see Inseong hurriedly walking towards you wearing a plain white shirt and black shorts, holding a towel, probably briefly pausing in drying his hair with the towel just like what Rowoon was doing. As he walked towards you you couldnt resist but admire this man, momentarily forgetting a half naked Rowoon infront of you; Inseon looked so fresh and handsome; probably the side effect of not see his face for months that he looked extra good. You missed him so much.

"Y/N!" He said again when he finally reached you, engulfing you in a tight embrace.

You welcomed him in open arns. "I missed you too." You giggled as you hugged him back without giving a second thought. Giving small pats in the back. He missed you just as you missed him.

You smiled as you smell the scent of his favorite shampoo mixed with cologne you know so well. His body felt cool and his hair felt damp, confirming that he just probably did finish taking a shower too, just like Rowoon.

"Excuse me, i'm here too." You hear Rowoon grumbled.

Inseong laughed as he released you from his hug, acknowledging that his band mate probably felt uncomfortable. "I can't believe it. You know if you told me sooner I would've picked you up from the airport myself."

You raised your eyebrows. "And your license?" Remembering the news he told you that his driving license was suspended due to illegal parking and not following traffic rules.

"Oh come on." He scoffed. "That was months ago. I already got a new one."

"Well anyway, lets get inside, im freezing here." Rowoon interrupted.

The three of you head inside the house, with Inseong closing the door behind. You and Inseong continued talking, and catching up as the three of you walked through the hallways leading to what you remember is the dining room. Rowoon was oddly quiet as he stayed quiet and listened to the two of you talk, like a little kid silently listening to two adults talking.

"I'll carry that." Rowoon suddenly say, getting the small box of cake and bag of fruits you didn't realize you were holding the entire time until now.

"Thanks." You mumbled, suddenly getting awkward as your fingertips brush with each other. You internally scolded yourself for acting the way you did.

You cleared your throat. "You shouldn't be running around the house looking like that." You scolded, just like the noona you thought you were.

"Looking like?" Rowoon wondered at first then realized what you actually meant. "Well, its just us nine boys here, so i didnt think it would be a problem." He chuckled. "Right, Hyung?" He said turning to Inseong.

"Well, maybe opening doors while you're half naked isn't exactly a good idea, right?"

You turned to Inseong and raised your eyebrows, telling him to side to you. He chuckled before shaking his head and turning to Rowoon. "Come on, you should cover up." He said walking to Rowoon's side and wrapped the towel around Rowoon's shoulder, barely covering his chest, but enough to cover it from your view.

"Oh come on, its not like you didn't see all this before."

Your eyes widened at his retort. THIS GUY.

You felt your cheeks warmed up and you panicked. Did he tell Inseong? Does Inseong know what the two of you did back in New York? Your mind was about to go overdrive until Inseong's laughter broke into your thoughts.

"Well, you do have a point." Inseong said as he tried to calm himself. "Come on, Y/N, come to think of it, you already saw all of us half naked before."

You tried to distinguish what Inseong was talking about. When?

Then it clicked, it was that time when all of you went to a swimming trip, a year ago. You didn't realize you were holding your breath until a quiet sight came from your lips. God, why were you so tense. He might really suspect something at this point.

You managed to fake a laugh that seemed true to Inseong, "Yeah, right. But its still embarassing okay?" You defended smoothly.

"Pfft, look at you, your cheeks are freaking red." Inseong couldn't hold back his laugh. Teasing you was probably one of his favorite things to do afterall.

"You're so annoying. Both of you." You grumbled, while subtly giving Rowoon the stink eye. You just got more annoyed when he gave you a knowing smirk and a shrug.

"And you're so cute." Inseong said as he placed his arms over your shoulder, pulling you closer to him.

"Whatever." You tried to hide your giddiness as he pulled you closer, once again his scent filling up your nostrils. "Anyway, where are the others." you changed the topic, hoping it would mask the loud thumping of your heart and your soft expression from Inseong.

"Welcome back, Y/N!!!!" All 7 boys shouted in unison when the three of you entered the dining room. You stared at them dumbfounded. They knew? But it was supposed to be a secret you told inseong you wanted to surprise the boys.

You looked up at Inseong and gave him a look, to which he only winked his way out while flashing you his signature smile you know so well you couldn't resist. He removed his arm around your shoulder and walked towards the table. "Come on, we prepared breakfast." Youngbin said, urging you to sit down.

"Wow, thank you guys. I was actually the one planning to surprise you, but it seems I was the one surprised." You chuckled as you walked towards them, Inseong pulled a chair for you, to which you gladly accepted and sat down. He sat on the seat next to you, on your left.

"You prepared breakfast? All of you?" They all nodded with grins on their faces. "Well except Chani" hwiyoung added, which earned him a nudge from the elbow from Chani.

You grinned spotting the Avocado which was sliced in half along with its see. "And this avocado cut in half... Taeyang, is it you?" Everyone held their laughter as Taeyang sheepishly scratched the back of his head.

"Yeah..well.." You chuckled. "Its so cute. But next time let the adults help you in making it." Everyone bursts out laughing.

"oOoh who made these?" You said pointing at the familiar dish, your favorite breakfast when you were in New York.

"Oh, Rowoon made them!" Dawon said as he sat down across from you. You looked to right where Rowoon was, unboxing the cake you brought for them. He didn't seem to hear it since he looked so focused in preparing the food. He made them, knowing its your favorite..?

"So, Y/N tell us about-" Jaeyoon and Dawon started bombarding you with questions.

Everyone took their respective seats as they continued to talk to each other ocassionally teasing you and asking you questions about your time in New York. You were so happy the atmosphere was light and the room was filled with laughter as you ate together, you were thankful that you're preoccupied by their noisiness and the food, that you can ignore the awkward feeling you're keeping at bay because of the fact that Rowoon sat on your right.

"Oh, Y/N, you have something on your.. mouth.." Inseong spoke out of nowhere, so you turn towards him.

"Oh where? Wait, the napkin please." You said and Jaeyoon handed over the napkin.

"Wait, I got it." Inseong said at the same time, also reaching out for the napkin; resulting in both of you holding hands.

The two of you turn towards each other and stared. You feel your cheeks heating up again when Inseong raised his eyebrows innocently and gave you a small smile. You withdraw your hands in panic, leaving the napking all for Inseong.

You heard snorts around the table. "Oh come on guys, what's this." Dawon whined.

Inseong chuckled. "What?" He said while pulling a napkin from the pouch, then turning to you.

"Y/N.." He called out, making you look at him, your heart still raising. "Geez, you're too old for this." He teased as he wiped the left over crumbs from your lips.

"Oh come on! GET A ROOM." Hwiyoung booed jokingly to which Taeyang added, "its too sweet i think i'd get a toothache."

"What, are two already dating?" Dawon leaned forward, with a grin on his face.

You almost choked on your own spit.

"No, we're not." Inseong laughed. "I told you we're just friends." He said as he put an arm on your shoulder.

"Come on, friends don't do that." Jaeyoon whined.

"Maybe they're secret lovers."

"Ofcourse not, why would they keep it a secret?"

"Maybe because of the paparazzi?"

"Or maybe-"

"Guys. Stop." You said while removing Inseong's arm. "Geez, you're all crazy." You laughed as you continued eating.

"Yeah, i don't think noona's dating hyung. Who would ever wanna date him?" Chani commented to which earned series of snorts and laughter from the group and followed by more side comments.

"Anyway, Hyung, someone might really think the two of you are dating, you're too touchy around Y/N Noona." Chani said lazily while he munched on his food. "You should be careful or someone might misunderstand."

"Yeah yeah just eat your food." Inseong told Chani.

"Then can I date you?" Rowoon said, turning towards you. Your heart hammered against your chest, you're about to panic. You knew it was a joke. It sounded like a joke. It was only a joke, or so you thought.

"I don't know, can you?" You remarked back to which earned an oOoOhs and teases from the group once again.

"Hey I didn't the two of you were close!" Jaeyoon pouted.

"Yeah! Last time I checked Rowoon's too cold towards you." Youngbin chuckled.

"Oh come on, cold? You mean, mean." Dawon added.

"They must've gotten close when they met in New York." Taeyang said hitting bulse eye. "Didn't you two meet there? Hyung, didn't you went to New York too? For a photoshoot?"

You froze..you started to panic. No. They can't know. Inseong can't know. You were about to speak when Rowoon beat you to it.

"Yeah, we did." Rowoon said coolly as if it wasn't any big deal.

"Hey, besides Y/N and I are close too you know. It's not just you Hyung! Don't go hogging Y/N all for yourselves."

"Hey no we're not! Y/N's-"

And the topic was dropped. You felt relieved that the whole conversation continued, completely forgetting the forbidden topic, the topic you' never want to talk about. Afterall, you're so bad at lying.

-

After the breakfast, everyone gathered in the living room, planning to watch a movie. Fortunately, both you and the boys didn't have any schedules for the day, well, until evening.  All of them were bickering as to who gets to wash the dishes and who gets to choose what movie to watch. You chuckled as you watched them closely. You missed this chaotic bunch, no matter how many days you spend time away frome these boys, they'll always be dear to you, Especially Inseong.

Instinctively, you looked at Inseong who was also participating in the debate on who gets to wash and pick the movie. You bit back a chuckle, you enjoyed watching him being this loud, he's always been lively, since the first time the two of you met during uni days. Come to think of it, you two had been together for so long that you wondered if Inseong ever developed a crush on you at some point, or at some point felt that you had a crush on him.

You shook your head, nah, its impossible. Despite the way he acts and touches you, he probably doesn't see you that way. And he's too dense to even know about your feelings towards him.

You felt sad; you had high hopes at first that he'll soon come around, but by the looks of it, its not gonna happen anytime soon. Nevertheless, he's still your bestfriend. So you'll stay by his said despite him not reciprocating, and not knowing about your feelings at all.

"Okay let's settle this once and for all then!" Dawon's loud voice broke in your train of thoughts.

"Alright, hands in. The group with the highes number gets saved, then the rest gets to keep playing until one remains!"

Everyone gathered around the center of the room, but didn't start yet. They turned towards you. "Y/N, you too Miss!" They told you that it wouldn't be fun if you didn't participate. So you just sighed and walked towards them, placing your hands on top of the piled up hands in the center.

It was those dumb games when you flip your hands, its often used for deciding which group you're in. Using the palm as "white" and the back of the hand as "black" teams. But in todays rules, its down to elimination. Whichever group that has a higher number, gets to be saved. And this goes on and on until one member gets to have the only different phase of the hand.

"OoOh tough luck!"

"Hey, don't you think its unfair?"

"Looks like its your lucky day!"

"Yeah, noona's probably tired!"

You sighed, you ended up being the one to wash the dishes. Nonetheless it was a fair game.

"You don't have to. These jerks are just teasing you." Inseong whispered to you. You almost froze, but controlled yourself. He was always like this, too close..you bit your lip and try not to let any unwanted emotions slip through.

You turned to him, and smiled, positioning a gour face a little farther away as you did so to give space when you turn to him and not end up kissing him. "Nah its okay, i'll wash them. You and the boys prepared the breakfast afterall, so i'll wash the dishes okay?"

"But—"

"Its okayy" you told him, cutting him off as you stood up.

"Hey Dawon! You're mean!" Jaeyoon complained. "Then why don't you go wash the dishes instead?" Dawon fired back.

"Come on guys, Y/N's probably tired, she shouldn't be the one washing the dishes." Rowoon said adding more pressure on Dawon. Rowoon was as thoughtful as always.

"You shouldn't have let her join in the first place!" Youngbin added.

"Hey, weren't you the ones who told her that it wouldn't be fun without her?" Dawon grumbles.

"Thats because we didn't expect she'll end up as the one to literally wash the dishes." Inseong retortes back lazily.

You chuckled. "Come on, its fine. You guys go pick a great movie, okay? This won't even take a minute." You told them, then turned around not waiting for their reply walked back to the kitchen.

Honestly, you didn't mind really, and it was a good oppurtunity to breathe for a while since the whole time you were there, your mind somehow drifts off somewhere far away, only to be pulled by the feeling of Inseong's skin gently brushing against yours or his hand gently touching your back. You were always so sensitive with his touch you wondered how you managed to control and restrain yourself all these years.

Not a few minutes after you started washing, you felt a hand gently rest against your back; you smiled thinking it was Inseong.

"I told you, its no big deal. You go—" you stopped yourself when you looked up at your side and saw Rowoon instead.

"Oh, seokwoo.." you said rather quickly, not being able to hide the disappointment in your voice.

He raised an eyebrow. "You thought I was someone else..?"

"No, anyway, what are you doing here? Didn't I say that it was fine by me washing the dishes?" You told him before you continue on what you're doing.

"I was bothered so I came to help you." He wore the spare yellow gloves hanging on the wall on the right, then picked up the sponge and started helping you with the dishes.

You chuckled. "You're always so thoughtful."

"Well, i was worried. There's a lot to wash." You couldn't help but be moved. Although you were disappointed it wasn't Inseong, you couldn't ignore that him coming over wouldn't be so bad. There were a lot of dishes afterall, and you always thought Rowoon has always been the thoughtful type of person. You always knew that, by observing the boys years back, but experiencing it, him being thoughtful towards you from time to time made you soft for this baby giant.

"Y/N, You'll strain your neck if you stare at me for too long." He turned to you with a smirk.

You didn't realize you were staring at him, you felt your cheeks warm up. You looked away fiercely and resumed with what you were doing.

"You're so cute when you do that."

"Do what."

"That. Staring off into space."

"I was not staring, you dumbass."

"You were. Do you like me?"

"I was not. And no, not in that kind of way."

"In what way then?" Rowoon pushed further, he stopped in what he was doing, turning to you with a grin.

"What are you smiling for? You're such a pervert."

He his hands defensively. "I didn't say anything!"

"You were trying to say something." You grumbled not bothering to look at him.

"Come on, you're so cold." You could hear a pout eith the tone of his voice. He clicked his tongue, "considering we already fucked each other twice."

Your eyes widened, this time you were frantic. You removed the gloves and quickly rushed to cover his mouth when he didn't know when to stop talking.

"Come to think of it, that time you moaned Hyung's—"

"Will you shut it!?" You whisper-yelled at him. It was a convenience that we was slightly leaning down, enough for you to reach his face and stop that mouth of his.

"I swear to god, you're so noisy." You frowned at him. Didn't the two of you already talked about this before. It wasn't supposed to be brought up here, where everyone is here, and it wasn't supposed to be brought up ever.

"You promised." You told him, looking in the eyes.

You saw how his eyes softened as he gently removed took you hands off his mouth, taking the right one and kissing the back. "I'm sorry, i couldn't help it. You were treating me so coldly especially when Hyung was there."

You quickly retrieved your hands and looked down. "This is getting out of hand. And i'm your noona. So please stop, its not funny. I told you before, we shouldn't be talking about this at all."

"Noona?" You heard him scoff. You felt his fingers touch your chin then gently lift it up to make you face him. His eyes fiercely staring back at yours. "Who fucks their noona anyway?" He whispered.

Your mouth was agape. You were lost for words. Come to think of it, he never called you noona, ever. Not once since the first time the of you met, considering that you were even 4 years older than him, just like Inseong, who he calls Hyung. This guy..

"Now, what's this?" a voice broke out from the room. It was Inseong's.

Great, things couldn,'t get any worse.

>>

[krlworld]

donghyuck loved her more than he ever loved anyone else before. she made him feel at ease, how her beautiful eyes would look at him and asure him everything was alright. he met her through his friends, she was renjuns cousin. he didnt thought of her that way immediately but he couldnt deny she was gorgeous. eventually one night when the whole group of teenagers decided to cancel their movie night without warning the two of them he got to know her better. she told him about her childhood, her family, where she grew up, she had two siblings, one older brother and one younger sister and the way she complained about doing house chores because her sister was too lazy to help and how she loved her dog to death moved donghyucks heart. that night in december when they stayed home on the couch telling each other what others dont know, feelings were found.

   love (lŭv) n. 1. A strong feeling of affection and concern toward another              person, as that arising from kinship or close friendship.

 eventually donghyuck started feeling awkward about her, not in a bad way actually, but his heart would start to beat faster whenever she was around, when she gave him compliments his cheeks would go red. he loved holding her hand and when she fell asleep on his chest. he loved her laugh even though she said she sounded horrendous. he loved how funny she was, how she didnt mind a joke and fought him back. he loved her wild side, when she made flirty jokes that made him flustered and then she would just laugh and knocked it off.  in conclusion he loved everything about her, he loved her.

                                             am i in love?

 It took him some time to notice the strong feelings he had for her but hey, he got there. now it wasnt the beating of his heart that was making him wonder, it was the fact that he had so many feelings for her but he didnt know how she felt. he grew curious, asking himself “does she ever think about me?” “does she miss me like i miss her?” “how would her lips feel against mine…” at that point it was obvious for everyone, except you, how donghyuck felt, he wondered how you could be so dense.

 "falling in love" means to feel a strong sense of attraction towards another person.

 everything was so new to him, he never actually liked anyone except for a cute little girl he once met in kindergarden but apart from that he never felt that strong feeling of almost losing his breath he got whenever he was with you. he started to fear being around you, everything you did made him fall for you even deeper. his friends had told him to confess, “what could go wrong?” they said, but he knows damn well what could go wrong. he couldnt bare thinking about her not wanting to see him anymore because he made her uncomfortable, not having her around, just thinking about it made him feel sick in the stomach, almost feeling like throwing up. he decided to keep you close even if that hurted him.

  unrequited love or one-sided love is love that is not openly reciprocated or understood as such by the beloved.

 one night she called him and asked if he wanted to spend the night. in other scenarios people would think this was weird, but in reality they were more close than they appeared out to be, it wasnt unusual for donghyuck to stay at her place when some random guy who turned out to be a bad blind date made her feel like shit, him having to hold her, wipe her tears and tell her the usual “maybe what you really need is closer than you think…” leading her to think that “something” meant jaemin or chenle, he couldnt help but smack his forehead because of how stupid the situation was… but there was also the case where she would just feel like being with her favorite person, playing video games, eating some pizza and telling each other everything that happened that week, she looked at him with such loving eyes making him wonder if she could ever feel something for him, she made him have some hope but he didnt want to make himself feel better because thats exactly what he wanted to hear.

 that night he spent at her house it was a little different, her parents were out of town with her sister and her brother had left for college, it was just the two of them. in the beginning it was all very normal, the usual stuff, movies, food and laughing about whatever came to mind but as the night went on the atmosphere felt… heavy. he couldnt tell what was making him feel so nervous or maybe he did, maybe he didnt want to accept the fact that she was closer than usual, that her hands were on his thighs and how she looked at him with rosy cheeks.

 she couldnt stop thinking about him, her precious best friend. how she wanted to be more than that, wondering if he wanted to touch her as much as she did, if he ever though about her, if he wanted to make her happy like she wanted to make him feel. she was very good at hiding her feelings because no one had a clue about her affection for the boy, not even jeno who was able to read every single one of his friends.

 you remembered… it was on march, movie night at marks house, you felt closer than ever to donghyuck you couldnt help but cuddle onto him the whole night, thinking about how he made your heart go wild when he was just wearing a simple grey shirt and skinny jeans, literally anyone could say he looked boring and he did, but to you he looked breathtaking. he had black hair at that time, you thought that was the best hair color he ever had it fitted him so well, you wanted to stare at him forever.

that night you left marks house feeling dizzy, you couldnt even describe how you felt, did you like donghyuck? taking your keys out trying to open your front door you stopped yourself when you heard someones heavy breathing. you turned around just to find donghyuck behind you holding your coat.

“hyuck? what are you doing here? i thought you said you were sleeping at marks today?” you asked surprised to see him in front of you, you kind of had an idea of why he was there but you also didnt want to make yourself believe he left marks house walking just to give you a damn coat.

“you left your coat… and i thought you would be cold, but i didnt manage to catch you as you can tell” he said finally catching his breath and fixing his shirt. he then handed the coat to you.

“why would you that? mark lives far from here hyuck, something could have happened to you” you said out of concern, because actually mark did live far away from you, almost a 30 minute walk to be clear.

“maybe i just wanted to see you a little bit longer…” he couldnt help but blush, he really did mean what he said but he felt so embarrassed like he was a child trying to tell his mom he did what he wasnt supposed to.

you wanted to tell him to stay, to make you hot chocolate like he usually does, to play with your hair like he does when feel sleepy, the words didnt come out, but actions did. you grabbed your coat quietly thanking him and giving a quick kiss on the cheek you couldnt tell what was funnier, the way you wanted to throw yourself out of the window or hyuck getting completely flustered and leaving like he saw a ghost.

                                                 i think i love you.

 you were convinced donghyuck wouldnt like you back so you decided to try something to forget him, and that was seeing other guys, simple right? but the plan didnt go so well, for some kind of reason, only assholes seemed to be attracted you and that would end up with donghyuck holding you while you just cried. and maybe he thought it was because of your bad dating experiences but it was actually because the boy you wanted to forget so bad was the one who never left you.

 so eventually you decided to get some courage and make the first move, and tonight seemed like a nice moment to do so.

 leaving your thoughts for a second you analyze the situation, you are resting your head against his chest, your hands on his thighs while his hand is rubbing your back up and down making you feel like your heart is about to burst out of your chest. you look up at him admiring his features, he is so beautiful, his now brownish hair, his dark skin that you loved so much everything about him was so mesmerizing. he then looked into your eyes and you couldnt help but blush a little, you had to tell him, still looking at each other you cleared your throat.

“hey hyuck”

“hm”

“have you… have you ever thought about us?” you felt like you were going to explode, your face burning hot, trembling as each word leaves your mouth.

“y-you, what do you mean?” he swallowed hard and his eyes were all over the place except for you.

“you know as like, a thing” playing with your fingers, you started to get nervous, feeling like he was just about to reject you and thinking this was a bad idea.

“yes” he simply replied. you looked up to him and couldnt hide the bright smile on your face, finally taking his hand in yours and getting even closer. “wow, whats wrong, are you okay?” he said as he looked at you and then your hand you never noticed how much you were shaking but you just couldnt believe it.

“i-im sorry.. i just, i,“ you sighed “i just really, really like you. like a lot” and then everything went silent, you were so scared, still shaking you looked up to find his face inches away from yours. 

“i adore you, you know that right?”

and then he just kissed you, after so many nights thinking about this moment it was finally happening. he grabbed your cheek with one hand while the other held your waist because he knew how much you loved that. your hands went to his hair just touching, finally being able to feel him. you couldnt help but feel like crying you loved him so much it was indescribable. then he started kissing your cheeks, your jaw, your neck and after that you werent even aware of your surrondings, drowning in his scent and his touch. it wasnt until he slightly squeezed your waist that you jumped a little and looked at him.

“so, does this finally make you mine” he whispered, now holding you even closer than before, if that was possible.

“maybe, who knows” you laughed a little smiling against his lips, you could say you were the happiest person alive.

                                          he was finally yours.

[angrylizardjacket]

when i said it i thought it was true [1] {Ben Hardy}

Anon asked: could you do an imagine where ben is the reader’s ex and they are somehow working together on the set of bo rhap and they fall in love all over again ☺️ could you make it angst-y and then end with fluff? i love your writing so much!!

Anon asked: could you do an imagine where the reader is in bo rhap, maybe playing as one of roger’s gfs or something and she kind of falls in love with ben while filming the scenes with him as roger 💖 very fluffy pls :D

A/N: 3124 words. Super AU version of BoRhap being filmed in the fic. There’s gonna be another part, that will fill the prompts better. This might end up being a series. I hope you enjoy. Feedback would be nice.

When your manager rings you, telling you that you’d landed a part in the Queen Biopic Bohemian Rhapsody, you were elated. Freddie Mercury was a bit of a personal hero of yours, and to be a part of his story on the big screen, it was sort of a dream come true. 

In your first meeting, you sign a nondisclosure agreement, and you’re given the latest draft of the script to start learning, as well as a character brief. The script calls your character ‘Amanda’, the girlfriend of Roger Taylor who he eventually realises he wants to settle down with. You’d seen pictures of young Roger Taylor, you wouldn’t lie, you were excited for the role. Honestly, even today he was still quite a fox.

The point is, you were excited to have a fun time on set with a pretty blonde, make some new connections, and earn some good money. Some really good money.

The other shoe drops when you’re flicking through Instagram, and one of the stan accounts you follow has posted a leaked screenshot of the proposed cast list, and there’s your name, right beside the name of the last person you wanted to pretend to be in love with. Ben Hardy; pretty blonde extraordinaire, and your ex-boyfriend.

The table read is... awkward. 

The two of you are sat next to each other, and barely spoke two words to each other. You feel unprofessional the whole time, but you’d rather be anywhere else in the world, and the delivery of some of your lines falls a little flat. The director casts a concerned look between yourself and Ben as you rattle of what’s meant to be banter like you’re reading the news paper.

“They’ve got no damn chemistry; it’s like watching a celebrity divorce hearing.” When the Director vents to one of the producers in the hall outside after the reading, you manage to catch it where you’re just about to come out of the bathroom.

“They’ll be better on set, I promise, it’s just jitters.” She tries to soothe his nerves, and they’re off soon after, and you’re left with a cold, sinking sensation in your stomach.

“You’re Y/N, aren’t you? How are you finding the set?” The guy who greets you on your first day on the Eastenders set smiles with such casual ease it feels like you’ve known him for a while, instead of having just met him.

“Yeah, that’s me.” You agree with a quick nod, rocking back on your heels as you gaze around the space, trying not to look at him for too long. “It’s a bit overwhelming.” Actually, what’s overwhelming is that he’s talking to you. He’s Ben fucking Hardy, pretty-boy on the soap-opera scene, and he’s talking to you on your first day.

“Yeah, you’ll be right though; if you need any help or anything, just give us a yell, yeah?” And you realise he probably doesn’t know who you’re playing, or how you’re involved in that Season’s arc, but you certainly did.

“I didn’t know you could play drums.” You’re trying to be casual when you say it, but you see Ben tense where he’s sitting on a sofa in the rehearsal room, script and pencil in hand.

“I can now, that’s all that really matters.” He’s giving off such strong ‘please leave me alone’ vibes that it almost hurts, and you have to push through the knot in your stomach and sit down next to him.

“Ben, we need to at least be civil.” You say quietly, and he looks at you, expression a little forlorn.

“Y/N, we are civil, and we’ve done this before. Let’s just keep it professional, okay?” His tone leaves little room for argument, and you nod in agreement with a small smile, and pull out your phone, waiting for the rehearsal director.

“Hey there, baby, I don’t think I’ve seen you around here; I know I’d recognise your face.” You purr, running your hand delicately over the collar of Ben’s shirt, as his eyes widened and he spluttered to form a sentence, just as the script had told him to. 

Your character was more a plot device than anything, when Ben’s character is at a low point, his main romance is on a break, and he meets you, a temptress in all black. Your job is to give his character a realisation, he starts as your cocaine dealer when his supplier can’t make the drop, and he falls for you. Depending on the audience reaction, you knew the producers were waiting to see if they kill you off or have you recover from your addiction. The point is, your fate’s uncertain at the end of the Season, and Ben’s character realises he has to get out of the drug trade.

“I’ve got something for you, from Oskar. Can we go somewhere more private?” When he speaks, it’s with surprising confidence, and he steps up from the bar stool and into your space, smiling as your face lights up. The director calls cut after a moment, and you step back, smile sliding to something genuine as an assistant comes in and straightens your loose, black silk shirt, and they reset the shot for a new take.

“Ben, could you try less flustered? You’re here to deliver drugs, you’re not a schoolboy.” The director’s voice was kind as she came up to the two of you, and Ben agreed easily before she turned to you. “Great job, Y/N, don’t be afraid to be more even more forward, if you feel it.” As soon as you nod in understanding, she absconds, and you half laugh.

“If I was any more forward I’d be in your lap.” You snickered, voice quiet as you dipped your head to hide how you were faintly flustered. Ben was quiet, just watching you for a moment, but before you noticed, the director called for everyone to standby.

“I’m after Maggie, do you know where I could find her?” Ben starts as soon as the cameras start rolling, brow furrowed as he leans across the bar to speak to the bartender, and that’s your cue to enter the scene.

“Hey there, baby, I don’t think I’ve seen you around here; I know I’d recognise your face.” And when you say it this time, he smirks back at you, a little cocky, and you can feel the way it makes your heart flutter and you know it’s not as fake as it should be.

Before filming even starts, the producers have essentially forced you and Ben into bonding sessions which, if this were several years ago, would have just been dates. Now they’re awkward and tense, and you tend to bring heavily highlighted scripts.

“I saw you in that Wes Anderson movie last year. It was a really good performance, one of your best.” He offers over coffee. The idea that he’d kept up with enough of your work to label one ‘your best’ has you a little shocked, and something in your heart warms as you thank him softly.

It’s gotten easier to hang around with him, and it’s even easier to pretend to be in love with him in rehearsals. It’s like riding a bike, how easy it is to let yourself smile and lean into him, to let the banter flow easily between the two of you, fond jabs that edge on insulting coming as easily as breathing.

Joe mentions that he thought the two of you worked together before, and when you reply that you’d dated for almost a year, he goes very quiet, eyes going wide. After a beat, he admits it explains a lot.

“X-Men did you real dirty.” You’re half paying attention to an interview with Roger Taylor that the two of you had been instructed to watch together. You’re both in his trailer, sitting on opposite ends of the sofa as you watch in almost complete silence.

“What?” He asks, after a beat, your words having taken a moment to process.

“Killing you off like that; they could have gotten so much mileage out of your character.” The way you say it is far too well thought out to be an idle thought. Ben smirked.

“You just liked the leather pants.” He muttered, but you’re silence is answer enough. You know he sees your embarrassed smile, but you can’t bring yourself to deny it.

“Hey, do you wanna grab a drink after and go through notes and blocking and stuff?” You’re shooting your third episode, and you’re far more comfortable on set by now. Agreeing easily, you let Ben drive the two of you to what he claims is the best pub in town, and you sit in one of the more secluded booths to talk.

It turns out he’s just as much a fan of you as you are of him; you’re known more for your bit-parts in long-running series, it seems like the only show you hadn’t been a part of so far had been Eastenders, it was only a matter of time. It’s an innocent night, true to his word, all you do is talk, and discuss the script. There is one part of the upcoming script that has you a bit nervous. 

“Listen, honestly just go for it; it’s not meant to be sweet or anything, I’m literally taking coke from you.” You tell him, fidgeting, and he’s hums thoughtfully.

“You sure? We can talk to the director, I’m sure-” He offers, but you laugh to hide your nervousness.

“Nah, let’s knock it out of the park, the script says go for it so just go for it.” You assured him, heart rate already quickening at the mere thought of it. 

The next day, before the scene, the director comes over to talk you through it, making sure that if anything becomes uncomfortable, that you can talk to her. Both you and Ben assure her that it’s fine.

“You’re far too cute for this line of work.” You say as you hold a baggie of “cocaine” up to the light, smile playing on your lips.

“Cute? Ouch, you really know how to wound a man, you know.” He says, leaning back against the sofa in the hallway of the grubby hotel your character was staying in. He’s watching you with interest, small smile playing on his lips.

“Cute’s not a bad thing, baby, but you look like you should be making coffees or playing football in the sun, not here, not with me.” And you tap out a little of the powder onto your hand, pretending to snort it before you turn to him, his expression dark and hungry, and he kisses you, aggressive, almost desperate, and you lean into it, almost forget you’re playing a role with his hand on the back of your neck. When he lets go, when he pulls away, your eyes are still closed and you chase his lips for a moment. Eyes flickering open, you see him smirking down at you where he’s standing, and you both know it wasn’t entirely acting.

“You don’t know anything about me.” He growls, and you know you have to smile like you’re into it, like it’s a challenge, but instead, you duck your gaze, giving a small laugh and wiping at the nostril you’d just “snorted cocaine” through, before looking up at him through your eyelashes.

They call cut, and the director announces, almost a little awed, that she’s pretty sure they got the the take, actually says she’s not sure if she could getting a better take if they tried again. Ben seems far too pleased with himself. 

“They want us to tell the public we’re together.” You’re resting your head on Ben’s chest laying at the back of the tour-bus set, and his hand is resting on your waist, which is bare for the crop top and booty shorts they’ve put you in.

“Yeah, I heard.” He replies, voice equally quiet. “I think we’ve got a meeting about it tomorrow morning.” Gwil and Rami are actually playing scrabble at the front of the bus, and Joe is talking to Singer, the director.

“It’s a bad idea.” You’re so frank that you feel Ben freeze, and you heave a sigh. “It’s good for the movie, but Ben...” You trail off, and you feel it when he forces himself to relax. “It wouldn’t be real, it would just be weird.”

“Y/N, we’re actors.” He says very pointedly, and when you turn, resting your chin on his chest, he looks tired, a little exasperated. “It’s just a business deal.” He assured, and you let out a low, thoughtful grumble. 

“We’ll discuss it tomorrow.” You allow, and he nods once, shifting to a more comfortable position, and you go back to resting your head on his chest, eyes fluttering closed as Singer called for the shot to be reset and a bunch of people came and straightened your clothes, and touched up your makeup, all without you having to move much.

You agree to the terms set forth in the meeting easily, the story being that your relationship rekindled on set, and that you were now madly in love, mirroring the relationship you were portraying on screen.

“Wait, does that mean-?” Ben leans forward in his chair, with his heart in his throat as he followed their logic, thinking through the plot of the movie. “Like engaged?” He asked.

“Seems a bit fast.” You agreed, voice level enough that someone might mistake you for calm rather than internally freaking out, and your managers shared a look.

“There will be a public proposal during or after the world premiere, that’s up to you both, and after the movie is out on DVD, you can go your separate ways.” They assured, but your mouth fell open.

“You know he left me for X-Men, right?” You splutter, and Ben’s eyes widen as he turns to you with a scoff.

“You’re the one who said the distance was too much for us while I was in Cairo.” He snapped, and you threw your hands in the air.

“I was offering to come and stay with you instead, but you said you were too busy!” That was enough to shut him up, his mouth snapping closed as he turned away sharply, huffing out a resigned sigh.

“We have a few brands and restaurants who are interested in sponsoring, and the producers are willing to increase both your salaries if you go through with it for the full duration.” Your manager informed you both carefully, and you and Ben shared a resigned look.

“Fake intend to marry me for like three months?” He asked, voice low and bitter, and after heaving a long sigh, you look to your managers,

“Fine.”

“I think I love you.” Ben’s character shows up at your character’s door, and you open it in a silk robe. 

“Hello to you too.” You laughed, but he’s so serious, so sincere, and when he doesn’t flinch, doesn’t offer anything else, you step up to him, pressing your lips to his, and he wraps his arms around you, hands sliding against the silk over your hips, and you pull back.

“You’re too sweet for me, baby,” voice so low it’s barely a whisper, he’s the one who chases your lips this time, but your catch his chin, and his eyes open. 

“You’re high.” He says softly, voice raw and a little desperate.

“And you’re my dealer.” You push him back gently, going to close the door and his expression turns angry.

“That doesn’t mean anything; I love you, Maggie.” His words hang heavily in the air, but before you can respond, they call for cut. You’re told to play it more like it hurts to try and turn him down, and you agree, smiling and nodding all the while. Everyone sets up for another take and you close the door.

When you kiss him this time, his hands are holding your face, and you’ve got your arms around his neck, and it’s like the world falls away from around you. It’s not acting now, hasn’t been for weeks, almost months now, not since he’d asked you out officially. Every time you kiss him you’re desperate to drown in his embrace, and he kisses you like it’s just the two of you, no cameras, no scripts.

“You’re-” and he cuts you off with another quick kiss, which has you laughing a little sadly, “Peter you’re too sweet for me.” He rests his forehead against yours, heaving a sigh.

“I know you’re high.” He says gently, and you don’t push him away this time, just lean back, your finger lifting his chin.

“And you’re my dealer.” You tell him, expression falling.

“That doesn’t mean anything, that doesn’t matter; I love you.” And you know that in that moment, the words mean so much more than the script, than these characters, than the show; he loves you. Ben loves you.

You avoid him, outside of filming, until you actually get a call from your manager telling you you’re contractually obligated to be seen in public together at least once a week. Even while filming you’re short with him, and he’s quick to get away from you the moment he doesn’t need to be around you, which was getting to be pretty bad, seeing as how you had been blocking a sex scene.

After the call, you and Ben get a drink. It’s awkward at first, though that’s unsurprising. After a long sip of his beer, he pats his thighs where he’s sitting in the armchair across from you. You make a face at him, shaking your head. 

“It’ll look less suspicious than if we’re shouting at each other across the table.” He hissed, and you groaned, obliging and crossing to sit yourself in his lap. He’s warm and secure, and he wraps his arm around you like it’s second nature. “Let’s not make this weird.” He said gently, and you nod.

“As for tomorrow’s shoot,” you said softly, leaning in to make sure no-one else heard, and he nodded, humming softly, “we’re professionals, and,” after a beat you cleared your throat pointedly, “it’s not like we haven’t done it before.”

“Not in front of a camera crew we haven’t.” Ben says with a smirk, and you snicker in agreement. “It’s gonna go fine; this is all gonna go fine, I promise.” And when you raise your eyebrows at him in surprised question, he just laughs softly, and brings you in for a chaste kiss. “It’s only until the DVD’s released.” He assures you, and you let your expression fall, already weary.

“Ben, that’s over a year away.”

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

anyway now that ive been in the fandom for a bit i think its time i called myself out and say that i. Love shiniida

hear me out. neutral good, disaster bi iida with true neutral, functional gay shinsou? we stan.

like just consider for a second. shinsou goes to talk with midoriya to get some closure abt their fight in the sports festival and obv talking to midoriya means having to be near his two besties iida and uraraka

anyway midoriya draws shinsou in like the sun he is and so he ends up kinda friends with iida and uraraka as well. along the line they become full-fledged friends esp when he starts doing extra training w them in addition to the training hes gettin from aizawa so he can “”keep up with you hero course nerds”” (in his own words)

anyway so he starts hangin out with the izucrew more and consequently. iida.

iida is the mom/dad friend (depends on his mood that day which one he is) so he usually organizes some hangouts that r also study groups. and now that shinsou is his friend, iida invites him as well

im thinkin eventually iida and shinsou figure out that iida has a strong suit in math but is weak in language, but shinsou is vice versa, so they decide to arrange extra study sessions so they can get the extra tutoring they feel they need

and finally,,,,the pining™ begins

im honestly not quite sure How they fall for each other or how long it would take buuuuuuut……,.,.

iida would definitely admire shinsou’s drive and determination and i feel he’d be rlly charmed by him once he got passed shinsou’s distant, kinda hostile first impression. like once he got passed shinsou’s kinda defenses and saw the tired, funky dude he is that loves cats and sweaters, iida’s poor bi heart wouldnt stand a chance, not even a second. iida would definitely think shinsou’s love for cats/all things cute is adorable. also i think iida would be exasperated w shinsou’s hair but like in the Fondest Way possible. at first he’s like “shinsou u gotta try to brush ur hair!” and shinsou is like “u can try it wont do anything” and hes right it Doesnt. but eventually the messy style grows on iida and he finds he wants to run his hands thro it,,,also iida at first kinda doesnt get shinsou’s sense of humor but he eventually learns to love it

shinsou on the other hand would be softly disgruntled abt how iida cares for him with what i call the Aggressive Affection. cause iida is just like “shinsou! its past 12 am! i would advise you get some rest now” and he wont stop badgering him until shinsou at least turns off his phone and like “shinsou! i made u breakfast bc u slept in late! u can eat it while we walk to class together!” and hands him some cute lil breakfast thing that keeps shinsou’s hands warm while they walk in the morning air. and at first shinsou is like “bruh” but eventually knowing that iida cares so much makes him feel all warm inside,,,,,, and shinsou Would 100 percent find iida’s chopping motions and general gestures he makes when he talks Adorable As Fuck. and he thinks its sweet that iida cares so much abt helpin him academically as well as heroically

anyway i think shinsou would realize his feelings first bc iida is,,,a disaster,,,and he would freak the fuck out becuz oh shit thats quite the distraction from becoming a hero student

iida notices when shinsou starts to avoid him and he gets really sad :[ and it rlly starts to bother him so he tries asking shinsou what he did wrong but shinsou is always in a flustered panic and its like “OHHH LOOK AT THE TIME GOT,,,GENERAL DEPARTMENT THINGS TO DO,,,,GOTTA GO BYE IIDA” so when asking shinsou doesnt work iida tries to ask his friends if they can think of anything but theyre just as confused as he is bc they didnt even realize shinsou was distancing himself. this just makes iida feel even worse bc that means its Just Him that shinsou’s avoiding so its Clear that he did do smth wrong

eventually he calls tensei abt it and tensei kinda calms him down abt it thank you tensei

meanwhile aizawa is like “what,,,is wrong with my child” bc hes not dumb hes observant as hell and he knows shinsou’s been acting kinda skittish lately esp during training so eventually after training one day aizawa sits him down and is like “im not letting u leave until u tell me why ur so freaked out lately” shinsou tries to fight to escape but aizawa is a Pro Hero and shinsou has only been training for a couple months now so he doesnt make it lmfao rip eventually shinsou gets out that he has a crush (how embarrassing poor guy probably wanted to spontaneously combust when he admitted it) and that he doesnt know what to do with it and aizawa is just like “wow mood”

no but really aizawa calls up mic and is like “hi yes hello ur the distinguished gay in this relationship can u give our dumb son some advice”

so mic swoops in and probably embarrasses shinsou a lil bit but overall shinsou accepts his feelings a little more after the talk so thats Something thanks mic

anyway so this pining goes on for a while longer with iida feeling :[ and shinsou feeling bad but like not knowing what to do dkjfjkf. like after the talk w mic it isnt nearly as bad as it was but shinsou’s still awkward and iida can still tell smth abt their relationship has gotten a little stilted :[ but then the joint training exercise happens and its reveled that shinsou is GOING INTO THE HERO COURSE BABEY!!!!!!!

iida is So Excited that he lifts our boy up and spins him around!!! and shinsou is so FUCKING gay he doesnt know how to function once hes put back on the ground smfh so much for being a functional gay huh shinsou

anyway iida starts apologizing profusely like “im so sorry shinsou my excitement just got the better of me and i hope i didnt make you uncomfortable but im so happy for you-!” and shinsou’s like “im in love with you” iida probably passes out lbr

no but both FREAK OUT over that confession and like its so fucking funny bc it was in front of EVERYONE and aizawa just fucking facepalms bc god why does his dumb kid have to take after him so much smh

anyway EVENTUALLY iida and shinsou calm down and before shinsou can Sprint the Fuck Away, iida is like “i!!!!! love you too!!! not as just a friend!!!” and shinsou hides his face in his mask/capture weapon and iida is just kinda bashfully holding his helmet close to his chest and HHH I LOVE MY BOYS………….

anyway they talk and shinsou is like “yeah so im sorry for being weird this past month and a half its because feelings” and iida is like “OHHHH i thought i did something wrong omg” and so they clear that up w each other and start dating. and they are. Adorable. THE couples’ goals in the izucrew. u wish u were as cute as them

iida reading on the couch w shinsou layin down on him?? iida reading TO him while he’s layin down on him in an attempt to help lull him to sleep??? oh my fucking god. thats so good. shinsou brings snacks to their study dates (and theyre actually iida’s idea of regularly scheduled dates someone help shinsou djkfjk) to make sure that they both actually get some food in them. TRAINING TOGETHER,…,..both get v flustered at first but then they get used to it,,im soft

just….my boys….thank you for your consideration. uhh stan shiniida

[abundantchewtoys]

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So, John was doing something vaguely relevant to the plot.

Does that mean that whatever that was in the wallet for him to find, wasn't relevant? Or did Dirk really skip to a point in the future in his narration? I'd think that if a living person was captchalogued in the wallet, that'd be plot relevant.

If so, I wonder if it's more than one. But we're not likely to catch up with both Aradia and Terezi in one go. Also, I doubt Vriska somehow captchalogued herself in this wallet to escape the clutches of gravity. Well, except maybe if after reverse engineering the code for the wallet, she also alchemized a regular wallet besides the 8-ball/wallet combo.

But that makes me think of something else. I wonder what the max storage space of the wallet is... If it's functionally infinite, they have a functionally infinite singularity of questionable intent that might be in need of cleaning up at one point. :P Though it's doubtful.

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"You’ve been drifting so long that you’ve lost the ability to objectively judge time or depth or distance. It’s getting hard to think about yourself as an objectively limited being. The boundaries of your skin begins to thin and disappear." Oooh, is it the lack of milestones in that plane, maybe, that's causing this introspection? Or is it just part of his ascension to his ultimate self?

"If your perception expands beyond the meat sack of your body, then are you really an individual anymore? Why shouldn’t we become gods? Why shouldn’t we become one God." Sounds like something Dirk might say - I know, funny because Dirk IS saying this, in John's stead. Alternatively, if Alternate Calliope is really malevolent, this might be her motivation to devouring everything ever. She wants to become UNIVAC.

"You scrunch up your nerdy face and furrow an eyebrow. It seems you aren’t enjoying this train of thought." John's intrusive thoughts are next level.

"Sorry, dude. That’s what’s on my mind right now. I’m having a phenomenological debate in my third ear that’s way more popping than your little hero’s journey into the belly of a quarter-life crisis." For a minute I thought he meant he was debating this with Kanaya, but he put her on hold so I was like: :? Then I realized he said "third ear", I guess that's something akin to the mind's eye, in that he's currently using the narration for his internal monologue.

"It turns out you don’t have time to worry about the voice inside your head, because you hear one outside of it." Ooh! Someone living, one we expect to be out here? And there Dirk goes, burying John's emerging awareness again, for a moment.

"At first you don’t think it’s real." ... Please don't be Alternate Calliope.

"MEENAH: yo blue guy MEENAH: get the shell down here"OOOOOH! She's alive!! ... Well, no, she's still dead, but you know. She survived Lord English, and the Black Hole. Girl's really got spunk. So, that brings her back in the running for candidates for John to give the ring to. ... Speaking of. Did John just, like, shrugged off Lord English's tooth, or is the poison still in his body?

I'm glad we saw her, it means that more people could have survived that were around before the battle (alive or dead), as well as the B2 kids that died during the battle! But uh... What even is still sustaining their existence? I mean, the dreambubbles were created to house them, only Sollux was able to leave through mumbo jumbo class/aspect magic.

"Your whirl around, upside down. You look up, then down. There she is." Hah, yeah, no point of reference, no gravity, so indeed, she could have been every where, relevant to him, that's also why she shouted "down here"!

"She’s clinging to a random server beacon, looking a little the worse for wear but still grinning. You float on down to greet her." Tsssh, she located the server running the LE code??? What could they even do with that, anymore. (How did it even survive.)

At least, I'm guessing it's that server, not the server hosting Rose's walkthrough. :P

So yeah, uh, that server was connected to Doc Scratch's study. In the Green Sun. ... Has it become a non-letal shortcut to Alternate Calliope now?

"JOHN: thank god. i was beginning to think that no one else was alive. MEENAH: im not alive" Hah! Ba-dum tssh.

"JOHN: oh right. sorry. JOHN: i’m glad to see you, is what i meant to say. MEENAH: same MEENAH: i fuckin guess" Yeah, not many of her friends will be left, probably. If any.

"She narrows her blank eyes. Her mouth twists into a frown. Not quite a concerned one, but close enough. You’ll take it." Is she noticing John has become an adult? ... Or yeah it might just be general concern, the situation is alarming enough. I wonder if she knows about Vriska? And what that exactly means to her, 16-year-old Vriska probably being dead for good.

Oh boy, but this is so cool, she's got potential for just as much as the Condesce, who had ties to Lord English. I wonder if she'll be instrumental in the final stages of the epilogues, if Alternate Calliope ends up being the/a end boss.

Can't shake the idea I'd like her to end up on Earth C, but then she'd not have a good role to play in a utopia, I think. But then what is her role in the story from here on out, exactly.

"MEENAH: damn buoy ya look like S)-(IT JOHN: yeah, i know. JOHN: i suffered a mortal wound, and then i threw up on myself." He didn't get better so much as that he walked it off.

"MEENAH: waterboat lord english MEENAH: he bite the bullet or what JOHN: yeah he’s... JOHN: he’s pretty fucking dead. MEENAH: whale MEENAH: theres that at least

There is definitely that, at least." Must feel like an anticlimax to Meenah too, probably. She wasn't around to see the guy bite it that was responsible for their own universe being forced to be scratched.

"You were kind of hoping you’d discover a survivor you could have an actual conversation with. Not that you aren’t glad to see Meenah, but you don’t /know/ her, and she’s not who you were really looking for." Funny how Meenah grew on John so much, what with how she ran him through on at least two occasions. I was thinking at first John was looking for Vriska, but that's just an automatism, a left over from when John still felt something for her. Of course, I forgot about Jade.

"That reminds you. JOHN: hey, uh... JOHN: mee... JOHN: fish? JOHN: (christ.)" Is that supposed to be a fish pun in her name, him using one cause he knows she likes them? Or is it that Dirk may remember Meenah's name (hearsay, in his case, since he's post-retcon - then again, ultimate self), but not John. :P

"JOHN: have you by any chance seen jade around? MEENAH: who da fuck is jade"PFffff, hah! Now she gets a chance as well to broadcast her ignorance in the names of the people in the other parties. 'THEY'RE ALL NAMED CARLOS AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.'

"JOHN: i mean, REALLY? JOHN: you don’t know jade?" The time she spent a lot of time dreaming in the dreambubbles was before the A1 trolls ever became relevant. On the three year trip, the indication seemed to be they just met a lot of A2 ghosts from alternate timelines in their dreams.

"JOHN: jade’s like, a big deal? JOHN: i thought you were kind of important too?" Well, different circles. Top of class vs. top dog on the play yard.

"MEENAH: you didnt even know my name dog" He knew you were an alternate to Betty Crocker, though. :P

"You’ve never been accused of having stellar people-reading skills. But even you can tell the look on her face says it all right now." Well, just be glad he isn't Jake, or even a death glare wouldn't suffice.

"JOHN: wait a minute. JOHN: do you even know MY name? MEENAH: uhhh" Pfffff, hah! Actually, valid question. What with how she referred to even her friends by last name (okay, that's because they weren't revealed yet), and had all those nicknames for them (and Karkat and Aradia)... Maybe she's just really bad with names.

"MEENAH: like MEENAH: joke? MEENAH: joke somefin" Wrong bespectacled nerd, but I can see why she'd mix them up. :P Close enough, though!

"JOHN: joke is my biological father. JOHN: i mean JAKE! JOHN: jake is his name." No, I think jokes might actually have fathered you. :P What with how he's a trickster and all.

"Halfway through this exchange, Meenah pulls out a small, clamshell-shaped accessory kit, and begins to file her nails." This is starting to turn into an awkward schoolyard conversation between classmates that don't really know each other.

"She almost dislocates her jaw by yawning the moment you mention Jake." Which is funny because Jake could've dislocated her jaw when he pounced on her when he thought she was past Condesce. :P

"You decide to do her, as well as yourself, the favor of completely ruling out the possibility of eliciting any valuable information from this person." No, Dirk, I do think she still has an ace up her sleeve, even if she doesn't even know it yet. But at least maybe now they'll acknowledge the server?

"MEENAH: i aint moved from this floatin hunger trunk lookin piece of shit since i got my bass kicked" Hah, yeah, it does look like a fridge, in Andrew's art style. :P

"JOHN: well, you’re the first i’ve seen too. MEENAH: oh" I wonder who she might have wanted to find, besides Vriska.

"JOHN: so what’s your plan now?" Don't think she has any left, now. You'll have to lead, Johnnyboy.

"JOHN: you just gonna hang around here, in the middle of nowhere, doing nothing forever? MEENAH: thats what ghosts is most good at aint they" It wasn't what she set out to do, initially, though! She hates inertia.

"JOHN: you don’t have to stay here. JOHN: i can take you back with me, to my planet." Aha! It would have all sorts of implications, of course, since she didn't "win" by any measure. So the victory state would not account for her presence. It won't happen just yet, of course.

"Meenah stares at you for an uncomfortably long time. She looks you up and down, like she’s making certain calculations. On the one hand, spending infinity clinging to a fridge-like space computer circling a black hole sounds like a drag. On the other hand, will her coolness and street cred be able to survive any prolonged association with this dumb blue nerd? That’s what she could be thinking, you think. You hope not though, because if true, it would hurt your self-esteem." I give Meenah more credit than that - her attitude is part of a facade - but she could indeed be thinking exactly that. On the other hand, she might actually genuinely not know if he's "fo' real", one, and two, what she'd even do on his planet. ... Also, is John really asking a girl over to his place? He truly IS an adult. :P

"She finally appears to make up her mind. MEENAH: naaah" Hah, as if it's a drag for her. And what's her motivation then?

"MEENAH: ok for one thing genius MEENAH: im dead" Well, that's not a problem, though she wouldn't know. John still has the Ring of Life with him. But I wonder what the other reason is.

Hah, Blaperile points out that Meenah at one point told John specifically not to give her the ring, cause she didn't like how she turned out as Condesce. Right, she might think living is no longer her thing. Which is hilarious for a Life player. Still think John might make the proposition.

Also, she thinks she might not fit in with the others, but she doesn't have to worry. They're all disasters, one and all.

"MEENAH: i wont even last on your planet ill just like MEENAH: fade away or some shit MEENAH: i dont know what happens to ghosts in real places actually but ima guess it goes somefin like that" See also: what ever happened to Aranea after Game Over. :P

"MEENAH: anyway while you was floatin there i came up with my own plan" ? There's not a lot of options here, really. The Black Hole... Mugging John... Lazying about...

"JOHN: what is it? MEENAH: cmere MEENAH: gonna whisper it to you" Option A) she screams. Option B) she mugs him for the ring. Option C) she'll stab him again, assuming he's another hologram self.

"You lean in rather credulously, and bring your ear toward her cupped hand. MEENAH: (nerd)

You pull back, unamused by the prank. What is this, you think. Fucking amateur hour?" Hah, chances are high she just swiped the ring. Or the wallet. Once a Thief... But heheh, still funny how Meenah likes to prank. Seems like Condesce and Sassacre really found one another. :P

"MEENAH: reel cute you wanna be my savior blue boy MEENAH: but the fact is you already helped me out MEENAH: got everyfin i need from you MEENAH: sea ya round sucker! 38)" She putting the ring on now? But uh, she'd spawn on Earth C, right? Or right there?

"She’s laughing her ass off. Before you can react, she jams the button down on the beacon and opens the server. She jumps into the hatch and the door snaps closed behind her." ... What! WHAT??? ... She's not in cahoots with Alternate Calliope, is she? She might just be trying to defeat the end boss herself. At least, if the server still leads to where the Green Sun used to be.

"Oh shit." ... It doesn't lead to Dirk now, does it?

"I think I know what just happened. You might want to check your pockets." So, if she took the wallet and not the ring, that means what's inside the wallet is relevant to the plot!

"Sure enough, it’s missing. The Ring of Life you stole back from Aranea has been re-stolen. Bitch just picked your pocket. You got played, man." Wow. So she's actually decided to go through with getting resurrected. ... Although it could actually be for Alternate Calliope, but then what would even the implications of her resurrection be?? It would be a parallel to how Condy worked for LE. But if there's two alive Calliopes that ended up on Earth C, I suspect there might be an impersonation at one point.

Yeah, so if both wear a Ring of Life/Void... Maybe that'd have funky repercussions as well. Not to mention they're both versions of the same "ultimate self" - although 'our' Calliope's not a god tier, there might be a bleedover again, like with Jade. But Alternate Calliope might want to dispose of Calliope, if she wants to become the only version of them. Then again, she did specifically tell her other to go and enjoy life.

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I wonder if it'll become relevant at any point that having everyone in the dreambubbles follow you would supposedly grant you the boon of resurrection. Since there's so few people left out here, it seems like it could have become a feasible thing to do. In fact, it might be that this is represented by Alternate Calliope's resurrection, if events really play out like that: Meenah might be the only other ghost left. Unless there are still the other A2 ghosts we're missing, from the character list.

[huangfilms]

Photographer!Renjun

summary: hey i have to photograph someone for my class will you be my model || college!au

(A/N) ok we all saw this coming 😪 i can’t believe everyon e was voting for renjun but hey!! here we go!! i hope u enjoy reading this and THANK U A BUNCH for voting on my poll !! thanks so much for 80 followers as well!! i am thankful for each and every one of u guys i love u all!! so i dont know how this is gunna go but lets start queens!! (PS PLEASE LEAVE ME FEEDBACK!! luv u)

so,, where 2 start

u are obvi in college right? right,, and u major in,,, uhh whatever u want to major in so! thats up to u!

and ur just ya know walking through campus looking DEAD to the world,, nd ur just sippin at ur coffee cause its too early in the morning for this

ok well you’re headed for your first lecture for the day and so your eyes?? half closed

then u bump into this kid watch it fool smh

and so you spill ur coffee on yourself,,, only on yourself. can u believe smh

when u look up you’re about to POP off on this guy but then he is-- the most beautiful human being you’ve ever seen

straight FACTS have u ever seen such beauty?? not until today queens

but anyway this dude starts to apologize and stutters e v e r y  w o r d and youre just standing there looking at his beautiful face okay lowkey sounds creepy but bar e wi th me

when you’ve had enough of his apologies tho,, u tell him that hey!! its ok lmao cause u have an extra jacket in ur bag

it was getting chilly anyway

so u just leave him there speechless cause u were running a bit late,, and u realize that once ur in ur classroom, you didnt get his name LMAOOOO u stupid bitch

but the class starts and u forget all about the Most Beautiful Human On Earth 

anyway time skip like 3 weeks and u see him around campus

and u really wanna talk to him cause hes!! cute!! but then!! anxiety!! so u decide against it

but then u make eye contact and then he’s Smiling At You and then hes walking ur way

and ur all like,,,,, what DO oh my jeez

when he finally reaches u, u didn’t expect that to come out of his mouth

he said, “hey so i have this project for my major and i gotta photograph someone will u b my model,,???” AND UR EYES: OPEN WIDE

bros what is there to picture?? (IM JUST KIDDING UR ALL GODDESSES/GODS) 

and you’re super shocked and he can tell and even HE couldnt believe he asked u that cause then he turns red and then hes like

omg im so sorry we dont even know each other that well dkjhfkajsh

and ur just like,, okay yeah sure

and then he stops talking and just Looks At You,,, oof

and before he can say anything u say ur name cause,, u still havent done that ! LMAO and so he just says his name as well with a Shy Grin

“My name’s Renjun” : )

SO ANYWAY u guys swap numbers (SCORE) and set up a day to meet up so he can take pictures of u

ok that sounds weird but it is what it is amirite

well u guys text each other a few times before u guys go to meet up in a few secluded areas

when u guys first meet up tho, u dont know what the hell u were doing cause How To Pose For Pictures AHSDKFHKJ

and it was lowkey awkward since u were really stiff and kinda uncomfortable why did he choose u omg

well he figured u were a little uneasy about the whole thing and decided to take a break, so u guys go down to a cafe near by and just talk

you guys get to know each other and you find that His Laugh is your Favorite Sound

and after that, you guys go to other places and you let loose cause you feel okay now

after that one meet up, you guys see each other a few more times for his project

and you asked to see the pictures but he said! they! were! a! surprise! so u had to wait until his showcase

but anyway

you guys start to text each other so much and its so! cause your heart! goes like this !!! you feel so !!! when you talk to him

u think ur starting to develop some feelings for him and ur like! oof wha t

but u dont know if u can tell him LMAO

so u dont tell him cause ur okay with just being friends :)

anywho! time skip like 4 months and u can confidently say that u have falle n for dis boy o no

but its his showcase so u an finally see all of the pictures!

now that u think about it, you haven’t asked him what the theme/assignment was 

but once u go in the showcase,,, u are one Speechless Bitch

CAUSE THE PICTURES?? ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL

and when u get to renjun’s section, you see the title of the collection

the title is “A New View of Beauty” and it’s just pictures of you when he coulda added in pictures of other people too

and there are even some pictures from when u two hung out just cause

and u are so! shook! cause this is so Cute your heart cannot handle it right now omg

and when you get to the last picture??? it makes ur chest! combust! 

FAT HEART NUT

cause it was a picture from your favorite day you spent with him

LIFE: GOOD TO YOU

and so you go and find him! cause u decide that hey! ur gonna do it! 

but before u could even say anything he pulls you by your waist and hugs you tightly, and then he

HE

HE KISSES YOU WTFKSDHFKSDF

YOU JUST HAD THE FATTEST HEART NUT EVER BECAUSE YOUR CHEST LITERALLY COMBUSTED YOUVE WANTED TO KISS HIM FOR THE LONGEST TIME

when u pull back he realizes what he’s done and he apologizes cause he didnt ask you and he felt bad becaus e he feels like you dont like him that way and then hes rambling and so--

you kiss him again and then call him an idiot because of course u like him back!!!

and then he Smiles SO Big your heart literally ac hes

and then he asks you out BUT 

he didnt just ask u out

he Asked You Out with More Pictures you didnt even see

and it’s a compilation of all of the pictures that his friends took of the two of you, some pictures were just you, just of him, but majority was of the two of you

and YOU ARE LIVING FOR THIS BECAUSE ITS SO CUTE YOU LOVE IT AND U SAY YES BECAUSE U LIKE HIM S O SO MUCH

so anyway PHOTOGRAPHER RENJUN WHO IS ALSO UR BF ;))))

he takes so many pictures of you, whenever he can and its so,,, cute

cause he has all of these printed picture, polaroids, and just a lot of pictures of you around his desk

his favorite picture of u is when u both went to the park and he took an off guard pic of you laughing on a swing and he set it as his lock screen :’))))

BUT ANYWHO

photographer!renjun is honestly Such A Concept i love it so much

he just takes pictures of you every chance he gets!!

anyway!! end!!

Masterlist

[rosapeachhogwartsmystery]

I just wanted to meet up with my girlfriend! (Hogwarts Mystery Imagine - fem!reader x Rowan Khanna)

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Words: 2061

Pairing: fem!reader x Rowan Khanna

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Rowan and you have been together for a little while now. During the adventures you have had with the Cursed Vaults you two grew really close. After finding the third Cursed Vault you had actually kissed her. You definitely surprised her back then and it wasn’t even the start of your relationship. After you got the next clue you actually realized what you did and ran off with an awkward grin on your face. The two of you couldn’t even look at each other for a week. It wasn’t until Merula shouted “Just kiss already!” when you two decided you needed to talk. After a long talk with each other you two realized that you really liked each other. Rowan didn’t want to ruin her friendship with you by asking you out. She thought you didn’t seem to be interested in her romantically and she thought it would be better if she hid her feelings for you.

 In the beginning you didn’t have any romantic feelings for Rowan, but only because you weren’t really interested in romance at all when you were a first year. Romantic feelings grew during your third year, but didn’t have the guts to tell your best friend about your feelings for her. So, at the end of your fourth year it happened. You two were officially dating before your fifth year at Hogwarts. Most people were supportive about your relation with Rowan, but there were also people talking thrash behind your back. Especially some guys that were saying bad things about your relationship with Rowan. You ignored most of them. Unless they were saying things along the lines of ‘but Rowan is so plain, Y/N. How could you date someone like her?’. You really had to tell some people off. It was your decision, not theirs.

You would meet up with Rowan in library today. Only to be cornered by one guy. “Well, hello Y/N.” He said. “Eh… Hello?” You said, trying to walk past him. Of course, he wasn’t going away and tried to block your path. You were feeling annoyed and gave the guy a look. “Excuse me, but I have to go somewhere.” You mumbled, trying to walk away again. Once again he stepped in front of you. “Where are you going?” He asked. “I’m meeting up with someone. My girlfriend is waiting for me.” You said, looking really annoyed. “Oh, you mean that plain friend of yours. Come on, you could have so much more fun if you come with me.” He said with a grin. “No, thank you.” You simply said when you tried to walk away again. This time another guy blocked your path as well. “Oh, come one, Y/N. Let’s go to Hogsmeade and drink some butterbeer with us.” The other guy said. Oh great, a third guy walked over to you, with a grin. “You will have so much more fun with us, than that silly girlfriend of yours.” The third guy said.

 You tried to walk away from them by going back where you came from, but they grabbed your arm. “Don’t go, Y/N.” The first guy said. “You will come with us.” The second guy said. They basically pulled you along and you were starting to panic a little. “I don’t want to go with you.” You told them, hoping they would perhaps listen to you if you directly told them you didn’t want to go along with them. They didn’t listen, just pulling you along. “Just drink a butterbeer with us, we are not going to bite.” The third guy said. You shook your head, frowning. “No, let me go!” You said, trying to struggle free from their grip. They didn’t bulge, just pulling you along even rougher than before. You could tell you were about to pass the library, knowing Rowan would be waiting for you at the entrance. You weren’t sure what the guys’ true intentions were, but you weren’t feeling good about this. You took a deep breath.

 “Rowan! Help!” You yelled as hard as you could. Before the guys could do something you heard a familiar voice. “Y/N!” Rowan ran over to you and the guys. She pulled you away from those guys and held you close to her. “What were you doing with Y/N?” She said, glaring at the guys. “We just invited her to drink some butterbeers with us.” The first guy said with a smirk. “Well, clearly she didn’t want to go with you.” She told them. “How could you be so sure about that, Khanna?” The second guy said. “Are you serious…?” Rowan muttered. “We thought she would be up for something more exciting than you.” The third guy said. Rowan looked pretty angry. “By forcing her to come with you guys?” She said angrily. “Oh please, she doesn’t even know what she wants. We thought we could help her a little to see how lame you are.” The first guy said, not being impressed by Rowan.

 Rowan looked pissed and then she grabbed her wand. “Locomotor Wibbly!” She shouted, pointing at the first guy. The guy’s legs collapsed and he fell on the ground. The other guys looked at Rowan, their eyes widening a bit before they looked at the guy on the ground. “What are you two looking at? Get me out of here!” The guy said before the other two helped him up and scurried away from the scene. Rowan sighed and then she looked at you. “Good riddance, don’t you think so?” She said, looking a bit relieved. You just stared at her, not saying much. She tilted her head, looking a bit concerned. “Y/N, are you okay?” She asked.

 Suddenly you surprised Rowan with a tight hug. “Woah, Y/N!” She said. “Oh my Merlin… Thank you so much, Rowan.” You said softly. She smiled sweetly. “What kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn’t rescue you from those buffoons?” She said before pulling away from the hug. She still held your shoulders though, studying you. “You are okay, aren’t you?” She asked you. “They didn’t try anything else did they?” You quickly shook you head. “They didn’t do anything besides pulling me roughly along with them.” You said honestly. She frowned and looked at your arms. “I can tell they weren’t being very gently with you… Look at your arms! You actually have bruises on your arms.” She said, not looking too happy about that. “I’d rather have bruises on my arms than going with them to wherever they were going to take me.” You said.

 “Still, they shouldn’t have been so rough with you, Y/N.” Rowan said honestly. “I’m just glad you heard me.” You told her honestly. “I’m glad I heard you yelling. I don’t want to think about what would have happened if I didn’t hear you.” She said, almost shivering when she mentioned it. You gave her a quick kiss and then smiled at her. “But they didn’t. I’m really glad you helped me out when I needed you. You are the best, Rowan.” You told her. She blushed a little, but gave me a smile as well. “It is no problem, Y/N.” She said. “Also, that Jelly-Legs curse was wicked.” You said with a grin. “Well, I had to do something and quick, because they wouldn’t take me seriously. I think they will think twice before they mess with you again.” She said and then she held your hand.

 “Is our library date still on?” You asked with a smile. “Only if you want to.” She said before you two walked to the library. You two would study together like always, but you could tell that Rowan wasn’t completely focusing on studying with you. She seemed to be lost in thoughts, looking a bit uncomfortable. You tried to catch her attention when she was lost in thoughts, but Madam Pince would shush you whenever you tried to. After a while you sighed and suddenly grabbed your books. Rowan suddenly looked up and blinked. You gave her a look, like you were saying you were getting out of there. She nodded before she grabbed her own books. Once you were out of the library you looked at Rowan. “I could tell you weren’t able to focus.” You said. “About that…” Rowan said. “Let’s go to our dormitory. We could talk there.” You said when you walked towards Y/H’s common room.

 Once you two had reached your dormitory you sat down on your bed and patted the spot next to you, wanting Rowan to sit down next to you. She sat down next to you and looked down a little. “Tell me what is bothering you, Rowan.” You said. “It is just that I’m worried about something.” She said. “About what?” You asked, tilting your head. Rowan looked at you. “I’m worried about you.” She said. You looked confused and raised an eyebrow. “About me? Look Rowan, I know you were worried about me because of what happened, but I’m fine.” You told her. “I’m not just talking about today, Y/N.” She said seriously. “Then what are you talking about?” You asked, not sure what she meant with it. “I’m talking about people harassing you.” She said. “Harassing me?”

 “Y/N, I’m well aware about the guys that keep bothering you.” Rowan said. You blinked and then you slightly bit your lip. “It is not that bad, Rowan. I mean, it is nothing I can’t handle.” You told her. “Y/N, three guys tried to pull you along against your will today.” She said. “It’s not like that happens to me every day.” You said. “It still happened, Y/N.” She said seriously. “All because we are dating.” She said, frowning a little. “What are you saying, Rowan?” You said when your eyes narrowed. “That is my fault you are getting harassed by them. That’s what I’m trying to say.” She said. “That is nonsense!” You said. “No, it is not nonsense! Ever since we two started dating they started harassing you!” She yelled. “What do you want to do about it, Rowan? Break up with me so they will stop?” You yelled back. “No! I don’t want to break up with you! I just want to do something so they will stop!” She yelled back.

 “I don’t want anything to happen to you when I’m not around.” Rowan said seriously. “Rowan, I’ll be fine. If it makes you feel any better I could try to avoid these kind of people and be more careful where I’m walking.” You said. “Y/N, that is impossible. You know you won’t be able to avoid these people all the time.” She said. “I know, but I could at least try so you would feel better about me walking around the castle with those jerks.” You said. “Maybe we should inform a teacher about what happened.” She suggested. “I know, that is probably a really plain answer, but-” “Ah-ha! That what this is about, isn’t it? This is about them calling you plain and stuff.” You pointed out. Rowan rubbed the back of her neck. “You got me there.” She mumbled.

 “I suppose I do kind of wanted to know if you weren’t bored with me, Y/N.” Rowan said. You raised an eyebrow and then you moved closer to her. “If I was bored with you, I would tell you, Rowan.” You told her. “I really like you, Rowan. I don’t want anyone coming between us.” You said honestly. “Besides, if I didn’t like you anymore, I wouldn’t do this.” You said when you kissed her. Rowan kissed you back, feeling more relieved about everything. “Did that reassure you?” You asked her. “Definitely.” She told you with a grin. You began grinning as well and wrapped your arms around her neck. “I guess our library date didn’t go well, so we should do something else to make up for it.” You said with a playful pout. Rowan laughed. “What did you have in mind?” She asked. “Maybe we should have a nice date on the Castle Grounds.” You suggested. “Sounds like a plan to me.” She said with a smile. You were glad Rowan had told you what was bothering her.

 “We still should tell a teacher about this, Y/N.” Rowan said. “We should, or else we might be the ones in trouble.” You agreed.

[kpoprplys-blog]

Bumpy Ride (iKON SMUT)

Pairing: Junhoe, Bobby, Reader

Word count: 2,069

So i’ve been having ikon feels lately and i was listening this old song and immediately thought about poly relationship with JunBob for some reason(?) but yeah i might write pt.2 im still thinking about it sooo~~~ enjoy!~

It was finally saturday. You were so tired because the work was so tiring that week so you wanted to have some “me time” for yourself. You spoiled yourself with snacks and stayed in bed watching movies all day. Then you decided to go out and have some fun because it’s been so long since you had some drinks.

You took a quick shower and took out a black short tight dress. You did your make up and hair, looking at yourself in the mirror one last time before calling out a taxi.

It wasnt like you didnt have friends but you wanted to have a time for yourself so you came alone tonight. You smiled at the guard before going in and walking to the bar to get something to drink.

When you decided you had enough drinks for now, you threw yourself on the dance floor. Meanwhile, Junhoe spotted you and nudged Bobby pointing at you. He smirked taking another sip from his drink. “We found our fun for tonight” Bobby smirked looking at Junhoe.

You went back to bar to have some more drinks and some time later you were back on the dance floor. “Dance with her” Bobby pushed Junhoe a little bit. “Why don’t you do it?” He resisted but he wanted to dance with you sneakingly. “Because i want to watch” Bobby shrugged pushing Junhoe more. Junhoe chugged his drink before making his way up to you.

He pressed his body up against yours and smirked when you gasped. “Hello there beautiful” He whispered to your ear. You could hear him clearly since he was right next to you. His deep voice sent shivers down your spine. You smiled and turned your head a little to have a look at him. He was beautiful. “Hey” You said smiling. He guided you so you were dancing with him.

On the other hand, Bobby was watching you two carefully. Eyes fixed on both of you, sipping his drink here and there. He was going to join you guys but not right now. Junhoe pulled you closer “Don’t want to sound cheesy but why are you alone?” He chuckled. You chuckled back and swayed your hips with the beat of the song that was playing. “I wanted to have some time alone” Right after when you said that, your favorite song started playing.

You pressed your body more against Junhoe’s body as you let yourself get lost in his arms. His hands were roaming over your body. That’s when Bobby decided to join you.

Your eyes were closed as you focused on dancing with Junhoe. You opened your eyes lazily when you felt another pair of hands touched your body. There this boy was standing in front of you, smiling. He was beautiful as well as the boy behind you. “Hi” he smiled and pulled you to him by your waist.

You were surprised a little but relaxed under his touch. You wrapped your arms around his neck and danced with him as the boy behind you whispered in your ear “You’re ours tonight” That’s when you realized they knew each other. “I’m Junhoe and that’s Bobby. You’re gonna need to know our names since you’ll be screaming all night” He smirked as he felt you tense up.

His words sent shivers straight between your legs but you tried not to show it too much. Junhoe pulled you to him once again while song was coming to end. He hugged you close to feel every curve of your body as Bobby kissed down your neck. Junhoe pulled away and took your hand “Let’s get out of here”

Bobby sat on the driver seat as you and Junhoe sat in the back. You sat on his lap right when you got in and kissed him deeply. His hands found their way to your waist and held you down. You kissed his jawline as Bobby watched you two kiss. Junhoe made eye contact with Bobby biting his lip while you kiss down his jaw to his neck.

Bobby and Junhoe were known as “awkward with each other” around their friends but it wasn’t actually true. They had some kind of chemistry between them and both of them knew this but never mentioned it before.

“Fuck.. stop doing that” Bobby hissed never breaking the eye contact with Junhoe. Junhoe laughed and rolled his eyes pulling you up to kiss you again.

Bobby parked the car when you guys arrived. You got up from Junhoe’s lap and got out of the car. Bobby pushed you up against the door once you guys get in. “Now its my turn” He smirked before picking you up. You let out a small scream and laughed as he carried you to the bedroom.

He laid you down on the bed and kissed down your neck. “You go with her first. Now i want to watch” Junhoe said and sat on the couch beside the bed. “I’m Y/N btw. If that matters” you whispered softly not knowing how they would react. Bobby looked up at you and smiled. You realized how cute he actually is. His bunny teeth were so cute and his eyes disappears when he smiles.

“Of course it matters love” He said kissing you softly but the kiss turned hot and passionate in a matter of seconds. His hands tugged your dress up as he squeezed your thighs. You whimpered softly closing your eyes. Bobby took off your dress completely and his breath hitched. “Fuck baby you’re so beautiful” He bit his lip and you blushed looking away. Junhoe was watching you two quietly savoring the moment.

You looked over at Junhoe, shivering under his deep gaze. You turned your attention back to Bobby. He kissed down your neck to your bra and took it off with a swift motion.

Junhoe bit his lip at the sight and sat more comfortably to watch. You were kinda uncomfortable being watched by someone else but it was also turning you on more. Bobby kissed and suck on your nipples rolling hips onto yours. You could feel how hard he was. You threw your head back and moaned softly, arching to his lips. He smiled up at you as he made his way down between your legs. He took off your panties slowly, hissing at the sight. “Damn babygirl you’re so wet and i didnt even do anything yet” Bobby licked his lips looking at you. “Please..” You whimpered bucking up your hips. “Please what?” He teased while smirking at you. “Please don’t tease” He chuckled showing his bunny teeth before attacking your clit. He sucked on it like his life depended on looking up at you. You threw your head back moaning.

Junhoe on the other hand, was enjoying the view. He was biting his lip looking at you waiting patiently for his turn. Bobby climbed up kissing your body before kissing your lips, pushing his tongue inside your mouth to make you taste yourself on him. He took off his shirt but left his jeans on. You looked at him with questionable eyes and he only smirked at you rolling his hips onto you. “You’re gonna be a good girl and cum for me okay princess?” he whispered in your ear, biting your earlobe. You whimpered meeting his thrusts. “Bobby please.. i need you inside me” You begged once again but he was not having it. He kept on thrusting his hips, the rough material of his jeans adding up to your pleasure. He was so hard and you could definitely feel that even through his jeans.

He growled in your ear feeling himself getting close. You were close too so you wrapped your arms around him pulling him closer to your body to feel every inch of him. “Babygirl im so close” He growled and picked up the pace. “Me too. Make me cum! please!” You cried out digging your nails on his back. Soon enough you cum, soaking his jeans and he came inside his boxers, his head falling in the crook of your neck. “Fuck that felt good” He chuckled, voice hoarse. Junhoe cleared his throat signaling he’s still there. You looked at him smiling. “Why don’t you come here?” You asked seductively. Bobby got up and took off his jeans and boxers, sitting on the couch where Junhoe was sitting earlier. Junhoe made his way up to you and smirked at you. “I hope you’re not tired already baby. Because we have a long night ahead of us” You smiled at him and pulled him by his collar “Just fuck me already” “Wow impatient now aren’t we?” he smirked taking his shirt off. He took off his jeans too before climbing onto your body. Your mouth watered when you saw him and you gulped. He was thick and long.

He pumped himself a couple of times before lining himself up on your core. “You ready babydoll?” He asked rubbing his tip up and down your pussy lips. You winced, still sensitive from your orgasm but nodded. He pushed himself inside you, letting out a long, loud groan “Fuckk you’re tight!” You immediately wrapped your legs around him, the feeling of him stretching you out was too much. You threw your head back and moaned loudly. “How long ago you last fucked someone” He said between his teeth. You couldn’t say anything. Instead you just moaned. Bobby was sitting there, he was hard again already. He watched the scene before him with hooded eyes, way too turned on. Once you were stretched out enough, Junhoe started picking up the pace. “Moan for me baby. Let the people hear who’s making you feel this good” Bobby laughed at the younger knowing damn well how he loved being praised. “I-I want you two to do something” You said between moans. Junhoe turned to you still fucking you hard. “What is it babygirl?”

You opened your eyes and looked at Bobby before turning to Junhoe. “I want you two to kiss” You could tell they were taken aback and looked at each other. Bobby’s eyes shifted to Junhoe’s lips and he bit his own. You smiled at them “Come on just do it” Bobby got up and walked up to Junhoe. He leaned down and pressed his lips onto Junhoe’s. You moaned at the sight clenching around Junhoe and that caused him to moan into Bobby’s mouth. They pulled away and looked at each other before Bobby connecting their lips again harshly. You giggled and bucked your hips to signal Junhoe to continue. They pulled away again and Junhoe turned his attention back to you. His cheeks were hot and you could see that. Bobby came up to your face and pumped himself. “I want your mouth baby”

You propped yourself on your elbows and opened your mouth for Bobby to slide in. He thrusted in your throat and you gagged at the sudden action but you got yourself together and let him fuck your mouth. Junhoe was fucking you hard and fast making your body jerk under him. You were getting close again and you brought your hand down to rub your clit. Bobby twitched inside your mouth before cumming without a warning, pushing your head further on his cock. He growled loudly and stayed like that for a while then let you go. You swallowed his cum looking at him and humming at his taste. He bit his lips and kissed you passionately. Junhoe was close too, his thrusts were now harsh and sloppy. “Fuck baby im gonna cum!” He moaned loudly smacking the insides of your thighs. You cried out in both pleasure and pain “Cum for me daddy! Cum inside me!” Your words and nickname for him threw him on the edge and he twitched inside of you before painting your walls with his cum. He fell on top of you and panted heavily to your neck. “Fuck.. that was amazing” You said between breaths and both of the boys nodded in approval. “Do you want to... stay with us?” Junhoe asked still panting. You looked at him in shock but nodded. “Yes i would love to!” You smiled at him pecking his lips but he kissed you longer. You told Bobby to come lie next to you. And the three of you fell asleep cuddling to each other.

[kimmycup]

*flops down face-first in your inbox* Hi. I live here now. Don't mind me. *groans* I am 2 pages into my paper and I already don't want to anymooore. I hate this. If this were a fic, I'd already be five pages in. Which would mean I'd be DONE. I want Jagnus, with Magnus visiting Jace in the belltower for the first time and totally being into the dramatic aesthetics. And then they kiss. I dunno. My brain is broken... *hides under pillow*

LIKE. Jace moved out of the loft BECAUSE he fell in love with Magnus. And that is Not Good. And now he's living in his angsty dramatic bell tower, dramatically angsting around. And Magnus comes visit because he too has fallen for Jace, right? And then they kiss in the bell tower and get together. But there be angst before that. yes? *nods*

This fic operates under the assumption Max never said shit he said in 2x08.

“Knock knock?”

“Jace.”

Alec was clearly surprised seeing him in the doorway, eyeing the duffel bag on his shoulder. Jace smiled sheepishly.

“Think I can come back home or will the new Head of the Institute uphold my banishment?”

Alec frowned, standing up and ushering Jace inside, closing the door. Jace dropped his bag onto the floor, collapsing on the couch and looking at Alec with pleading eyes.

“Did Magnus do something? Because if he kicked you out and you don’t feel comfortable coming back yet...”

“No, Alec, stop.” He groaned, blushing. “Magnus didn’t do anything. I just didn’t have a reason not to come home, right? And I... I had my reasons. Leave it be. Can I move back to my room?”

Alec shifted uncomfortably, avoiding his gaze and Jace felt his heart skip a beat.

“About that... Your room is a bit occupied.”

“What?”

“Well, Max moved in now that he completed his training, so... You can imagine what his reaction was when he realized your room is standing empty at the moment. You may be able to salvage what things you left there, but I think he adopted a lot of your stuff, old leather jacket included.”

Jace stared at Alec, unable to believe he got his own room kidnapped by his little brother. Still, he could help but smile, shaking his head and feeling warmth spread through him seeing yet another sign of Max’s ridiculous hero-worship of him.

“He probably drowns in it, doesn’t he?”

“He does. He insists he’ll grow into it.”

Alec smiled back and Jace gave up.

“Let him keep it. The room too. Didnt we have a spare bedroom in the bell tower?”

Alec frowned.

“Yeah, we do but it’s a bit drafty? I could ask Magnus to isolate--”

“No, there’s no need. Don’t bother him, it’s still warm and I think the room has a fireplace, doesn’t it? I can live there. It’s bigger than my old room was, almost like an upgrade.”

He smiled, and hoped Alec wouldn’t see through his deflection, focusing on keeping the bond unreadable.

“Well, fine. If that’s what you want.”

There really wasn’t any reason for him to stay living with Magnus and it has become absolutely unbearable. Jace needed to escape. The realization that he had fallen in love with the warlock was absolutely terryfying. Staying near him had become a whole new brand of torture.

Jace couldn’t look him in the eyes and stay so close after it sunk in. He needed to stay away, he needed to separate them before it was too late, before he couldn’t get over it, before he ruined their relationship with Magnus, before Magnus found out.

Coming back home was the right choice, Jace thought, snuggling deeper under the covers and looking at the fire crackling, spreading nice warmth through the room. It was unused for a long time but in his fluffy blue pyjamas and with a few blankets it was enough until the fire spread through the room.

It felt nice. The room was big enough Jace could fit the piano here and it came with a pretty, stained glass, tall, very climb-able bell tower. He was looking forward to that for sure. And being back home was great, wasn’t it? Being back with Alec, with Izzy, with Max, finally, after years of separation.

So why, despite the fire warming the room, Jace felt the cold emtiness spreaing through his heart?

There was absolutely no reason ever for Magnus to suspect that his new living arrengment had been anything but temporary. And with Aldertree gone and Alec in charge, there was no reason for Jace not to come home.

Especially after the war ended, victory that cost Jace his life. It was natural that after literally dying Jace would want to go back to the comfort of home, to his family, where he would feel safe and could process everything easier.

So Magnus had no idea why Jace announcing that he was moving out surprised him. And he had even less of an idea why he found himself disapproving of this idea. He didn’t voice that thought, of course, but it kept nagging him, constantly at the back of his mind.

He missed living with Jace.

Jace Wayland Lightwood Herondale, whatever he was, to Magnus he had at some point become just Jace, a roommate and a friend. He was no longer just another pretty, overly confident Shadwhunters.

Magnus got to know him, got to see the vulnerabilities hdden under as many masks as he had himself, got to taste the amazing cooking Jace did to relax or when he had a free day, got to watch Jace fall asleep on the couch because he got too immersed in a book.

And now that Jace was no longer there, the flat suddenly seemed so... empty.

Oh no.

That was it, wasn’t it? Magnus had gone and done it again. He fell in love.

Magnus knew it was a bad idea. He knew it was an idea he should immediately abandon and forget. But since he was already at the Institute, helping Alec with setting up some stronger wards after bad experiences during the war, he couldn’t help himself.

That was how he found himself at the door to Jace’s bedroom, surprised when the voice that answered his knocking was not Jace’s, and neither was the figure on the bed his familiar blonde.

“Maxwell?”

“Magnus! Hey! Can you do some magic for me? Maybe magic my homework done?”

The sassy kid turned to Magnus with a wicked smirk and the warlock shook his head fondly. 

“I’d love to but I’m afraid I’m all out of homework magic already. I was actually looking for your brother. Didn’t he live here once?”

“He did!” Max practically lit up at the mention of Jace. “Isn’t taht awesome that I got his room? He lives in the bell tower now, last doors on the left.”

Magnus nodded, sending Max a wink and closing the door behind himself with an overly flashy sweep of magic. The awed gasp behind him made him smile. Their world’s future looked a lot brighter with kids like Max, young Nephilim who were fascinated by magic and not afraid of it.

Arriving at the the door Max pointed out, Magnus knocked. This time the voice the answered was familiar. When Magnus gently pushed the door open, he was not prepared for the sight that met him.

Jace’s new room was amazing, lit up by candles, with a paino to the side, embers crackling in the fireplace, heavy mahogany furniture and big, stunning windows. And then...

And then there was Jace.

He was in the middle of the bed, curled together so he looked incredibly small on the huge bed, dressed in blue flannel pyjamas and his hair falling softly onto his face as he was lost in a book.

Magnus couldn’t help a small whimper that left him at the sight.

Jace looked so soft and pure and vulnerable like that, a far cry from the confident, proud warrior, all barriers down and completely exposed. Magnus just wanted to go over an hug him and wrap im in a blanket and take him home.

He wanted to keep him.

He was fucked. As Jace looked up at the pathetic sound Magnus made, blue-brown eyes that fit the PJs so nicely wide, with long eyelashes, Magnus fell just a little bit more in love with him.

“Mags.” The nickname didn’t help Magnus’ poor heart. “What did you need?”

Jace looked hesitant, almost anxious as he slowly closed the book and sat up, looking at Magnus who kind of forgot how to breathe, let alone the reason he came here.

Did he have a reason he came here?

Was stealing Jace to take care of him forever and pamper and cherish him an feed him belgian chocolate and italian wine a valid reason for coming here?

“I...”

He wasn’t sure what to say and Jace kept being distracting, brushing his hair out of his face which only fluffied them up some more and turned Magnus attention to the pillow lines on Jace’s cheek.

Another small whimper escaped him.

“Are you okay, Magnus? Is there something you wanted or are you just going to stare at me and making noises like a dying kitten?”

There was a hint of amusement colouring Jace’s tone by now and damn but that smile only added to the picture.

“I am pretty sure I must have had a reason to come here but you went and had to...” He made a vague gesture at Jace, trying to imply his point. “Can you please stop looking so adorable? It’s distracting.”

Jace chuckled but his cheeks floded with red.

“What? I’m not adorable, Mags. So erm... do you want to... You sure you can’t remember why you came here?”

The atmosphere was becoming slightly awkward, so Magnus decided to come over and sit on teh edge of the bed next to Jace.

“Oh, I’m sure I’ll remember in time. Or maybe I didn’t have a reason and just wanted to be graced by your heavenly presence. What are you reading here?”

“I, what, no, it’s nothing, leave that-- Ugh.”

Magnus happily let his magic keep Jace away as carefully took the book, making sure not to loose the mark of the page Jace left off his reading on. 

Jace groaned, burying his face in his hands and collapsing onto the bed. What the hell did Magnus want from him, sauntering into his room looking like a million dollars, staring at Jace and calling him cute of all things?

Max was cute. 

People like Izzy and Alec and Clary were cute.

Jace was not cute. Jace was broken and crude and too much and no one besides Alec, Izzy and Max ever stuck around to see past all the shitty  vibes he couldn’t help but give off when people where around him.

“Sweet Filthy Boy? My, my , didn’t take you for the BDSM erotica kind of guy...”

Magnus was talking off handedly about the book, an sue him, Jace loved it, he enjoyed it in a way he didn’t enjoy a book in a while, getting lost in it and never wanting to finish, but somehow, Jace couldn’t focus on the warlock’s words.

Magnus’ voice was suddenly irritating, just because of being there when Jace didn’t want it there because what the hell was this whole thing supposed to mean? Coming in with no reason and taking Jace’s time at this hour when Jace was already in bed, in his PJs and drifting off?

“What the hell did you want, Magnus? Because it’s kinda late so if your only plan was to bother me I’d rather reschedule.”

Magnus at least had the decency to look scolded at that.”

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to imply anything, I mean, it’s perfectly okay to be into BDSM and--”

“--oh I don’t need your permission to be into BDSM, kindly fuck off that. Why did you come, here, Magnus?”

His last words came out as a soft sigh, his calm anger rune glowing softly as he activated it with his magic, letting the tiredness take over instead.

“Holy shit, that’s so pretty. Did you know your eyes glow gold when you ativate runes?”

Jace sighed. The warlock truly had the attention span of a kitten.

“Why are you here, Mags?”

“I missed you.” 

Jace was surprised by the words, not sure what happened as Magnus’ whole demanor changed and the warlock laid down next to Jace, looking at him with beautiful eyes, golden and slitted, his glamour down as he seemed vulnerable.

“I haven’t lived with anyone in ages and it was nice suddenly having a roommate but I didn’t realize I didn’t like just company, I liked your company, I didn’t realize that until you were done.”

Jace looked at Magnus with wide eyes and open mouth, unsure what was happening.

“I have fallen in love with your, Jace Herondale.”

Jace’s brain rebooted.

“You’re not serious.” But before Magnus could reject him, looking rather put out by the comment, Jace quickly explained. “I literally moved out because living with my crush got weird, Mags.”

He blushed, watching as Magnus tried to compute what he just found out an a wicked grin, grabbing Jace by the waist and bringing him close into his embrace.

“Does that mean I can keep you? And take you home to my bed?”

Jace just shook his head fondly and leaned in to kiss him.

“Sure. But maybe tomorrow? I’m kinda comfy here right now.”

And as they drifted off together in the bed under the bell tower, Jace realized he was home here too. Some people had more than one home. His was with the Lightwoods but it was also with Magnus.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT PHOE, i dont even know how long it is and its totally not what the prompt said but fuck it, i wrote it all in literally one sitting and chose it over sleep. fucking hell, i havent had a flow like that in ages, is that was being high feels like?

[gohyuck]

NCT 127 reaction to you falling asleep on them

rest of the reactions under the cut - kept as gender neutral as possible

taeil

honestly he’d probably be running his fingers through your hair while you lay down on top of him while watching tv or something

it’d be a while before he even noticed you’re asleep

when he does it’s kind of startling because you’re so quiet?? wow amazing

“wow”

when he realizes he stops combing through your hair because what if it wakes you up or something

but then you stir and move your head a little higher up on his chest and he’s like oh

so he goes back to playing with your hair and braids it and stuff

have fun combing it all out when you wake up lmao

your legs and his are entangled and one of his hands is on your back and the other in your hair or behind his head

you’re basically flat on top of him

he doesn’t want to move too much

taeil is like... crazy afraid of waking you up because you must be s o tired and he doesn’t wanna ruin your much needed sleep

“ah they’re so pretty”

turns off the tv eventually because he’s watching you now and not even paying attention to it

wont make any noise honestly

eventually he’ll probably fall asleep to the sound of your breathing tbh

while you’re listening to the sound of his heartbeat

johnny

johnny, softly, but with feeling: “holy shit”

his frame is like x2 yours lmao he makes for a gr9 bed

also his clothes are always soft and highkey he smells like home so when you guys are just chilling and cuddling in downtime and it’s quiet ofc you’re gonna fall asleep

you’re pretty much halfway on top of him at first, with an arm and a leg thrown around him haphazardly 

he’s worried you’ll slip off when you fall asleep though so he moves you so you’re entirely on top of him

one arm finds its place around his neck and the other hangs off the couch in like...ultimate chillaxing position

johnny’s all about being super relaxed and cool and shit lmao but in his head he’s aaaaaaaaa because you look adorable and also you’re falling again

both of his arms are wrapped around your waist

if you originally are a little lower on him he’ll gently pull you up so your chin is near his collarbones

johnny the type to take approximately 389243 pictures of you sleeping

probably posts a couple to his sc story

“they’re so tired they fell asleep on me”

“i ain’t even mad tho look at how cute they are”

(haechan responds to his story with “they fell asleep because you’re boring as shit”, a fight ensues)

you wake up to find him knocked tf out, possibly snoring

it’s your turn to take pics and post now

(haechan - “he’s so boring he put himself to sleep”)

taeyong

he’d probably be unable to hold in a tiny squeal because “oh my god look at them”

your head is on his chest and one arm and one leg are slung across him

tae’s lowkey touched because you have the whole bed and choose to fall asleep entangled with him and basically on top of him

he’s 100% sure you’re the cutest thing to exist ever

has his hand on your waist and probably rubs little circles into the skin above your hipbone because it’s so s o f t

moves hair out of your face

tucks it behind your ear so he can look at you better

“ah i guess if they’re asleep i should be asleep”

he really wants to kiss you because you just look so adorable and are everything good in the world (you are his world) but he also doesn’t want to wake you up

crisis????

if anyone else walks into the room, like the other members, he makes the “shh” gesture before they can even think abt opening their mouths

when you wake up he moves so he’s over  you

presses like........... a million kisses to your forehead and cheeks and nose and just everywhere on your face before your tired ass pulls him down for a proper kiss

“did you sleep well?”

“yeah, but i like being awake because i can be with you”

“so...you DON’T dream about me”

“yAh”

yuta 

i couldn’t find a nonsexy gif of yuta?? a GOD

he’d lowkey be shook as shit

prob tries to be like.cool about it but internally he’s panicking because this hasn’t ever happened before and he doesn’t really know what exactly to do

pets your hair a little bc??? he just...dk

licks his lips a lot while he’s messing with your hair

stops you from falling off of him and onto the floor a couple of times but a small part of him is tempted to let you fall so you’ll wake up and you guys can hang

eventually he’ll get tired of hoping you’ll wake up

he gives you a long nap tho bc he knows you’re tired and he’s kinda tired too but like

he doesn’t wanna fall asleep bc lowkey he’s a little afraid you’ll fall onto the floor if he isn’t there to stop you

after like...an hour of switching from mild awkwardness to exasperatedness to admiring you silently he gets a little tired of it tho

“wake uppp” 

you yawn really loud and sit up so you’re straddling him, rubbing sleep out of your eyes and he really can’t help himself

he flips you both over on the couch

smiles down at you and then sighs

“good, we can do stuff together now” he smirks and kinda does an eyebrow wiggle and you just laugh and smack him on the chest a lil bit

he laughs too and buries his face into your shoulder, carefully balancing his weight on you

you guys just talk from that position for hours until the other members come back only to see the two of you dead asleep

doyoung

he’d be another to take wayyyy to many pictures of you

he prob wouldn’t post any though they’re just ~for him~ for when they go on tour or have schedules and he misses you

gently turns you guys over so you’re lying under him and one of his arms and one of his legs are carefully put across you

this way if his legs fall asleep he can get up and move them around without really disturbing you

when you’re underneath him he can’t really stop himself from just sitting up for a second and admiring how stressless you seem when asleep

“oh my god... they’re wearing my shirt”

would smile crazy hard his face would probably hurt

struggles to keep a squeal in because he literally can’t believe of everyone ever you chose h i m and now you’re wearing his clothes and sleeping in his bed beside him like

will wonders never cease?

doyoung can’t help himself tbh he presses chaste little kisses to your forehead, the junction of your jaw and neck, where your shoulder and neck meet, just, sweet kisses where he can

you shift a lot in your sleep and it always kinda panics him

you: moves your pinky finger - doyoung: *gaSP*

eventually though he does fall asleep beside you 

only to be woken up by you lightly kissing him

you apologize profusely because you didnt mean to wake him up you just couldnt hel p  yourself

and he just laughs and tackles you to the bed, getting into a tickle war

im screaming itd be s o c u t e

jaehyun

prob just chilling lying on the couch and you’re sitting on top of him, straddling his legs because its comfy

after a while it gets silent and eventually he drifts off, only to wake up like 5 min later

he blinks a couple of times to get the very short  and disorienting nap out of his system only to see you still straddling him but your head leaning against the back of the couch, small and very cute snores leaving your half open mouth

he takes a pic for the Y/N MEMES album he has on his phone

it’s his most treasured possession - shitt y meme pics of you

“one day our kids will cherish these images too”

he half sits up, raising himself up on his elbow on one arm so he can use the other to gently lift your head

places you head on his chest and lies back down reallyyyyy slowly so you don’t wake up

he’s tired and you’re tired

for a little while though he just stares at you because goddamn you’re real and you’re with him

jaehyun’s getting existential up in this bitch

you’re still snoring so he shifts a little and you quit it and he can’t help but chuckle to himself 

he starts yawning 

before he knows it he’s half singing songs to try to stay awake so he can see your face when you wake up super groggy 

he can’t do it though

when you wake up your boyfriend is knocked tf out and you’re lying on his chest

you just go back to sleep because you’re 1) tired and 2) in love with the idea of just napping with jaehyun nice

winwin

like yuta he kinda wants to wake you up the second he sees you asleep

however he’s really just... amazed by how you just basically melted into his arms while laying against him in bed

you basically dozed off midsentence like you were talking and your words faded until you just exhaled little sighs

and with that sicheng knew you were super asleep

you have a death grip tbh so he can’t really get up but he soon realizes that he honestly doesn’t want to because it’s pretty rare that he just sits and chills or hangs out with you

and even if you’re asleep he’s still with you and honestly?

that’s all that matters

your lips are against where his neck and shoulders meet and both of your arms are around his neck 

it’s kinda uncomfortable for him at first but after some tentative shifting he finds a good position for himself

one arm behind his own head, propping himself up against the pillow a little bit so he can see you, the other lightly resting on your head

the rise and fall of your chest is slower than his since you’re sleeping, he can’t help but compare your heartbeats

it’s like poetry in motion for him

he says dumb shit to you while you’re sleeping like “ah you drool when you sleep, what a s l o b” that’s obv a joke

reaches for his phone and texts all the members to stfu and not interrupt them bc you’re sleeping and you deserve the rest

even tho he originally wanted to wake you up so you guys could talk

just really loves you and wants you to be happy im s o f t

mark

after a video game session you guys hang out on the couch together to just talk and catch up before his members get back fro being outside

mark sits up, leaning a little against the couch’s arm and you lie with your head in his lap 

he really likes twisting strands of your hair around his fingers while you talk its like...his Thing

but yeah it gets late and after a while it gets quiet and you just fall asleep

mark cant help but laugh because honestly??? it was so sudden but wow

he moves your head so he can get up off the couch, makes sure the door to his dorm room is open, and picks you up 

hes lucky you dont wake up while hes carrying you to his bed 

when he puts you down he makes to leave and pick up the games and snacks yall left out but your sleeping self makes grabby hands

he c a n t resist and he just giggles a little bit but slides in next to you

marks p surprised when you move to hug him in your sleep 

then he remembers how you cant sleep without holding something, just like taeyong

or someone, apparently

eventually falls asleep

both of you wake up to taeyong acting shook af that yall were cuddling in your sleep

haechan takes plenty of pics b4 that tho as b l a c k m a i l

all in all a successful stay-at-home date

haechan

he’s lying down and reading on the couch when you get to their dorm

one hand behind his head propping it up and the other holding the book 

when you get there he puts it down and opens his arms wide

you laugh and lean down to hug him only to get d r a g g e d down

“doNGHYUCK”

“just lie down on me i’m a good pillow”

he’s so exasperating honestly but you love him and he loves you so it’s all good?? you make him sit up tho and you snuggle into his side after he puts in the movies you guys are marathoning for the night

“if you do twilight i’ll kill you”

“damn y/n why you gotta ruin my dreams like that”

it ends up being old horror movies that arent scary and like halfway through the 4th movie your head is on his shoulder and youre asleep

he stops the movies and turns the tv off, sighing, roasting you fondly

“idiot couldn’t even stay awake for all of it”

he lies down really carefully on the couch, bringing you with him

he really is a good pillow

it’s like 2 am by this point and some of the members are just about to be getting back from practice 

haechan sings really softly while youre asleep, your legs entangled in his and head squarely on his chest

he basically sings himself to sleep, and its in that position the other members find you, asleep together on the the couch

johnny cops haechan’s phone and takes a bunch of pics, making one of them haechan’s lock screen

haechan doesn’t change it when you guys wake up

[starco-conut]

Our Thoughts on Season 3

Hey everyone!! as you may have seen...Alan and I have been just a bit let down by some of the stuff going on. Luckily, we’re both huge ass nerds so we wrote it all out in a multi-paragraph post. With visual aids! if you’ve been feeling a little offput by the new episodes but can’t place why, we probably have your reason put into words somewhere in here. 

Reviews, replies, general additions to this post are not only permitted, but strongly encouraged!! :D

bold is nicole. italics is alan

Scent of a hoodie

I mean. one word summary;... Uncomfortable. it was rough to watch my girl obsess like that and honestly??? there was no clear message at the end... with the whole ‘the scent is in ur heart....’ do they mean to imply she’s getting over marco or that he’s always gonna be around in her mind??????????. yeh. not much to say here.

this episode was kind of strange and felt really awkward with star’s obsession with marco but had a sweet ending with star learning that its really unhealthy for her to latch onto marco like this and its time to move on. it felt like one of those iffy episodes throughout most of it but the end was decent enough

Rest in Pudding

Her little monologue to glossaryk was super cute and well done!! that whole bit was just. Good! felt like Old Times! but then there’s

This was... a gag? I dont know. when i saw it first my gut reaction was that they were setting up some angst about how star’s calling people on earth that aren’t her best friend Marco and THAT got me!! i was Ready To Be Hurt by that! but then like...nothing. Unless it comes up in a nearing episode this was just a bad joke. overall episode wasn’t bad at all though!!

i really enjoyed this episode! the pacing, mystery, and comedy all held up to the Star standard and only had a small amount of plot progression which felt appropriate for a halloween episode. my only gripe is that after the whole Battle For Mewni deal, i expected Moon to believe Star a bit more when she says Glossaryck is alive

oh yeah that too for sure

Club Snubbed

pretty much made me want to die and barf simultaneously. when it got to the scene above, where she talked about just needing a friend i thought, hey, thats cool. and accurate. maybe that dance scene clip, since its unfortunately not a flashback, is going to be presented as platonic!

nope. anyone in for a suicide pact?

To be fair, i should elaborate. Tomstar, in theory, is super cool. I definitely vibed with the fire and butterfly magic mix happening, back when I thought it was a flashback. But...Its been, what, 5, maybe 6 episodes since marco left and she’s already just...whoop? who’s marco? haha what? There’s not enough time. 

And from what I can tell, none of their old issues have been addressed. Tom still has anger issues, but because ‘its hard’ and he’s ‘trying’ suddenly star’s all over him? sleazy ppl come to their exes like ‘i’ve changed!!’ for a reason. the ex should actually. want. to see. change. Star seems content to say ‘fuckall, tom’s here, why not’

WHICH..could actually be good? If it’s presented that way? My hope is that she’s latching on to Tom because they have history, and a bond already. Marco’s gone suddenly, she’s urging for somewhere to direct her affection- lord knows the sweet girl has lots to give. and then they’ll part as friends after she realizes whatever they are now is unhealthy and ingenuine romantically. I have no backing for this and honestly it doesn’t look like that’s the way they’re going but... I’m gonna hope.

this episode definitely throws a spin on our view of tom as an “uncaring, lying, manipulative ex boyfriend” and for the first time i felt like i really saw Tom Lucitor, a boy with anger issues and an unfortunate history with his actions. i was really glad to see this character growth for him but i feel like the writers completely skipped over the real impacts that a relationship like tom and star’s had on each other. 

yes!! i didn’t say but, i kinda love tom as an independent character. his anger issues are presented as a part of his personality, he is a guy who has anger issues, not Anger Issues in a physical form. lots of cool depth on that.

realistically, star would not immediately fall back in love with tom because...why would she? we as the viewers know that Tom has changed but to Star? he has a significant history of lying to manipulate her and marco to get closer to them and star doesn’t have a real reason to believe what he’s saying is true and she shouldn’t have 100% faith in him so quickly especially when she had 0 trust in him just a few minutes prior. overall i was impressed with the development for tom but the future implications were disappointing to me

i will be talking more about my issues with Star and her trust issues later.

Stranger Danger

My only issue with this episode is that it doesn't exist outside of its own ten minutes. I literally forgot about it til i looked up an episode list of s3 to write this post. Eclipsa is sitting there, queen of darkness, in the same castle grounds as star, and shes nor the trial is brought up in the subsequent episodes. Alan goes wild on this one so I’ll let him take it away- he’s 100% on point here.

THIS IS A LONG ONE BOYS, STRAP IN,

i agree with nicole here, there is no buildup to the immense revelation that eclipsa is free and roaming the castle gardens. battle for mewni had planted the seed that eclipsa was breaking out but there was no mention of this in any other episode. and then there’s this:

what was this all about?? did no one notice that Eclipsa, the Queen of Darkness, one of the most powerful queens and magic users in Mewni’s history, and a wanted criminal, was FREE FROM THE CRYSTAL THEY FROZE HER IN?? And in BFM, Moon even visits Eclipsa’s crystal prison to check if she’s still there but now? she didnt seem worried about it AT ALL. only when Star is peacefully talking to her does Moon and the magic high comission show up because...plot reasons.

aside from that, however, i feel like the pacing in this episode was not planned very well. from the opening scene of Star taking care of Glossaryck for well over 4 minutes, it felt like this was going to be a fun silly episode with general shenanigans (there’s nothing wrong with silly episodes, it just didn’t end up being one). but halfway through the episode, eclipsa shows up and suddenly the plot is moving at a rapid pace. and while this felt like it should have been the climax of the 11-minutes, the climax just continues? there is no falling action in this episode. it continues with star being decontaminated and at one point she is strapped to an examining table and flashes through some disturbing faces

why is she smiling? who drew this? this feels really creepy, like someone is putting their kinks into the show and its really uncomfortable to watch and think about. there is a heart touching moment with Moon and Star talking about their actions and both side have somewhat understandable reasons, though star clearly has the show’s bias so the plot progresses (which is not necessarily a bad thing). afterwards, Star meets Eclipsa in her cell and still, the climax of the episode has not fallen at all with all the arguing. and then finally when star confronts eclipsa in her tower, she says,

“Just because i didn’t want you crystalized again, doesn’t mean i trust you.”

????

She literally has no past with eclipsa other than having a pleasant conversation with her. She knows next to nothing about her actual actions or personality but immediately doesn’t trust her? but in Club Snubbed she immediately trusts tom? the guy who directly had severe negative impacts on her life?? Why?! Why are the writers so inconsistent? nothing makes sense! It’s cheap, forced romance that’s why!

and after this ridiculously long climax the episode just ENDS. there is no resolution, and it doesn’t touch on it again anywhere in the next four episodes. It’s bad show writing.

Demoncism

I picked this screenshot because it was the most disgusting!!! this is just...more of an opinion here but I really like the trope where one is out of their mind, dangerous, causing magic destruction and the other defies the risk and holds them, curing the issue with The Power Of Love. it’s corny but I love it. and yet.

here. they decided to just. chuck it in. I’ve seen shows do this trope Very Very well (oddly, one example i can think of also involves a wild demon kid and a forest in blue fire.....) but to just...throw this in there. with. like 8 seconds of buildup. n-o. no. ESPECIALLY because tom and star, where they are currently in the show, aren’t ready to be romantic, and this trope always has romantic implications.

i got extremely mixed feelings from this episode. on one hand it had a great message that you shouldn’t force change but rather to grow naturally and learn from your mistakes. on the other hand,  a lot of it is still tainted by this cliche, boring, romance. Star immediately barges in and claims that he’s only doing this for her and generally is untrusting of his actions. 

......

are you noticing a common theme here? writers purposefully twisting characters’ interactions for the sole purpose of causing drama? give me one good reason for star’s sense of trust to be flip-flopping like this over and over again. im being serious, if you even read this far, leave a reply and call me out because i CAN NOT THINK OF ONE GOOD REASON.

“Okayy, but no tickling.” Again, more creepy bdsm, moving on.

Then later when hes doing that whole floaty, blue veined, writhing scene i will actually commend the writers for making a very good analogy of how painful and unhealthy this process is for tom to quickly force himself to change. then star comes back and hugs him and says shes here for him which would have actually been a very sweet moment if they had just been friends but of course, they’re not. its just a reminder that “uwu they’re in love now”. and then there’s this:

confirmation that yes, the show is going to do that. rush star and tom’s relationship bc #teendrama. and the worst part of it is: star and tom could actually have been an acceptable, if not role model relationship if it wasn’t written so poorly, which is what the next paragraph or so is dedicated to.

I don’t hate Tom and Star’s relationship. I don’t. i see it as a missed opportunity. Tom and Star were two people who used to be a couple in the past and broke up for reasons unknown. we can speculate that it was because of Tom’s anger issues and problems with lying, and also Star’s inability to deal with complex situations and face her problems. THIS IS AN INCREDIBLY COMMON REAL LIFE SITUATION. This was a ripe opportunity to go in-depth with Star and Tom’s issues, not just their own but also the issues between them. and it is wasted. I know that its hard to fit this into one measly episode but there’s a whole half season to develop them at a proper, realistic pace! i wouldn’t care if the entire season is dedicated to Star and Tom working to solve these issues if it meant we had this enormously important topic resolved in a healthy and wholesome manner. 

But the problem is, none of this happens. And it’s not going to. The writers completely skip over all of Tom and Star’s anger towards each other and go straight to “UWU THEYRE IN LOVE NOW”. Star is just rebounding off Marco and onto Tom and there’s going to be more unnecessary drama, and someone’s going to get hurt.

And I am disgusted.

Sophomore Slump

jarco saved this ep ? the only parts of it i could really relax and enjoy was the little jarco montage it was cute. and then. and THEN. the random dumping. I get what the writers were trying to say, y’know? ohohohoh, nudge nudge, we all know who marcos REAL best friend is...hohoho...except. they shouldnt have. said it. at least not via jackie. She was used in this disgustingly common way where she’s just there to deliver a message and help marco realize something. do y’all realize the most drastic adjective i can apply to her realizing she+marco wont work is like....”bummed”. It’s realistic to cry, to be fucking mad, to show...FEELING...i don’t care how cool and chill she is. It’s an absolute travesty to her to not let her be upset about it. 

AND THE CAPE. it was obnoxious, I hated his attitude about it, not because it was annoying but because he expected others to stop ‘acting weird’. I had hope when jackie knocked sense into him but then he...was then REWARDED for his obsession with it? He ended up getting what he wanted, a ticket back to Mewni, by being a stubborn arse about it. no.

god where do i begin. alright.

Marco was so out of character this episode. im not talking like “he isnt the safe kid anymore he takes some uncharacteristic risks”. no. I don’t know who this kid is but it is not Marco Diaz. He’s some plot device created by the writers to create drama. Why is he so obsessed with his cape? Why is he forcing his experience on mewni into every conversation? Why. Is he. The Croissant Girl. The dude spent over sixteen YEARS in other dimensions going on quests of epic scale and comes back home without a single issue readjusting. Not one word. but then he spends one week in the butterfly castle and serves essentially no purpose the entire time other than freeing Star from her chains one time. He was completely and utterly unimportant in the grand scheme of the BFM movie. and then he comes back to earth and feels this great pride as if he was some great part of the event. Why? what does he have to be proud of? there was no mention of this development in any of the earlier episodes. and i havent even mentioned the ridiculous forced breakup yet.

at some point it seems like Jackie’s words really do come through to Marco. He snaps out of his daze and seems to genuinely want to make it up to her. the scene with Marco and Jackie having a fun date at the pier was incredibly sweet and was generally a good experience. We got to see more of Jackie’s fun side that we were desperately searching for in season 1 and the first half of season 2. it was very satisfying to know that jackie was a character everyone would eventually come to love. but then

that. Why? Why has Marco not moved on at all and learned his mistakes? why does he not understand that he’s being destructive. why do the writers like creating unnecessary drama. you know what show had a very similar plot issue and resolved this properly??

That’s right! Everybody’s favorite racist, ableist, offensive, generally unfunny show: The Big Bang Theory. I don’t even remember this dude’s name but when he came back from space and was being annoying, his girlfriend talked to him and he realized that “WOW IM ANNOYING LET ME THINK ABOUT OTHER’S FEELINGS FOR ONCE.”

100%. if they had stopped with the callout via jackie, and he had actually taken off the cape, I would have been fine. lesson learned. but, obviously, they didnt do that.

 If this show (which has an incredible track record for doing crappy show writing) can get it right then why can’t Star vs the Forces of Evil? A show that is usually praised for it’s amazing talent for intelligent, easy to understand, and great moral messaging?

Because of the writers. They don’t want to teach important messages for these kids (the target audience may i remind you) to latch on to and learn from. They want to write their angsty fanfiction and throw it into canon.

Nicole-TL;DR my lasting hope is star’s affections for tom are, and are revealed as such, a way to cope with going cold-turkey on marco and things resolve without a stupid fucking love triangle also jackie and janna start  dating. aaand im just. disappointed with the show rn. something’s different and after shoving this amazing ass show in everyones face for so long just to see it kind of...well, it’s starting to peel. idk why. but im just hoping this is like...banagic incident but...several episodes long.

Alan-TL;DR 

[psychicscavenger]

that last post got to me because for me, it also applies to people who have heard of/know me through other people. 

my parents, while not the most social people on the planet do know a majority of people growing up in a rural town will do that. everytime we went out somewhere, we’d always run into at least five people who knew my parents. i NEVER knew any of them, and when i was with my parents i didn’t mind cuz i was safe, i was with them, nothing could happen.

cut to me being at least sixteen years old, probably fifteen. im at the closest walmart, my mom having ran off with her friend to go shopping and me being my angsty teenage self didnt want to hang around them so i was just browsing. i was by the magazine aisle when a man possibly in his late forties is watching me. im creeped out, i do my best to not look him in the eye hoping he would stop and go about his business. he didnt. finally as im distracted by a book cover, he comes up to me and makes a small joke about something on the cover. (i dont remember cuz i was too startled to hear him and busy laughing politely to pay attention) the man introduces himself and im like ?? wtf ok i dont say anything and the guy says hes a friend of my dads, he says my dads name and everything, about how he knew him and yadda yadda. ive never met this guy before in my life and i tried to be polite suggesting the last hes seen me was when i was a baby(cuz usually thats the case) what he said next creeped me out more than anything else(probably just as bad as the time we had a peeping tom incident)the man STRAIGHT UP TELLS ME “oh ive never actually met you, ive seen photos of you on your dads facebook” what the shit. i dont really say anything other than oh and try to slink away when the guy just wont stop talking to me. at this point one other woman showed up, saw me looking uncomfortable gave me the sympathy face and walked off(thanx lady), the guy notices im not as talkative and asks me about it. i say im just tired and have to go find my mom, this angered the man for some weird reason and said if i didnt want to talk to him i couldve just said so, youth these days are so rude to their elders, and blah blah blah, basically going full rant for something stupid and im like sir i dont know you, you cant just go up to random woman in this day and age. then he goes “im not a stranger! i know your folks!” THAT DOESNT MAKE YOU LESS OF A STRANGER DICKHEAD. finally i just walked away, the man continued ranting but i didnt pay attention to any of it and when i brought it up with my dad, he AND MY GRANDFATHER just talked about who the mans kin to and didn’t understand why that situation made me uncomfortable., jotting it down as ‘oh heather just doesnt like to talk to people bullshit’ and never said anything else.

throwback to last week, some random ass man knocks on my damn front door, parked in my front lawn asking for me dad. ive never seen HIM before and when i told him my dads not here, not offering anything else, the man introduces himself offering a handshake(which i dont take cuz one i wasnt wearing shoes and it was cold i wanted to be back in my damn house) and he kept making one sentence statements like “i need to speak with him(him being my dad).” “hes not here, he might be over at my grandparents around the corner there.” “....im a friend of his.” “okay.” “....we used to work blah blah blah” “...okay.” this continued on for another awkward three minutes before he finally fucking left(driving on my front lawn btws and im still reeling from that encounter) during the exchange the man didnt call me anything but from the way he was acting/looking at me i could tell his patience was wearing thin with my attitude but thankfully after the eighth “..okay.” he left, he wouldn’t have done anything im sure but how was i supposed to know that at the time? plus it didnt help my worries when dad said he had ran into him the week prior and the man was drunk out of his mind. fucking alarm bells after that. 

WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE THINK THIS IS OK?  JUST CUZ YOU KNEW MY PARENTS DOESNT MEAN YOU CAN JUST APPROACH ME AND SAY ‘OH I KNOW YOUR PARENTS, YOU CAN TRUST ME’ NO THE FUCK I CANT!