#IT IS SO COOL AND IM RAMBLING IK BUT ITS JUST SO AMAZING

[dreamingofthedteam]

these interviews are so mind fuck like i love them so much its so real and then not so real but then its so intense and makes me just FEEL

[halloweenism]

☆ ALI'S 2023 END-OF-YEAR APPRECIATION POST !!!

hi friends!!! i just wanted to do a little thing where i thank my friends for being my friends and helping make my year brighter!! this is loosely inspired by @mirxzii!

Firstly, thanks soo much to all my mutuals and followers and everyone else I've had positive interactions with this year on here :)

I'd also like to take a moment and thank all my friends who made my year:

☆ OLIVE | @jewishruthfleming

↳ hiii ilysmmm you've been such a great friend to me and i'm soo grateful you're my friend. thanks for putting up with me and my hyperfixations which are completely different from yours, thanks for listening to my rambles abt alex wilder. you have literally been one of the best parts of my year, and i wanted to make sure you knew that so

☆ NOOR | @kohinoors

↳ noor omg first off hi. i hope this is year is soo good to you. you are one of the coolest people i've ever met. even though neither of us like the same things anymore, i still love you soo much, and im so glad you think i'm cool enough to be your friend 🥺 you're like my cool big cousin, ilysmm

☆ LUNA | @mexicancokewannabe

↳ LUNA BBG HII, literally ilsym. ty for always being there for me and always cheering me up when i'm sad and making me laugh, and making sure ik to sleep. you're such a sweet, fun person and my life is better bc of you 🦐🦐

☆ MARTY | @vidnasty

↳ marty, i hope you know i think you're like the coolest person ever. even though we don't talk much anymore, i still love you so much, tysm for making me laugh and smile and cry (with your angst posts and fic ideas)! i hope you have a wonderful 2024!!!

☆ ROXIE | @mirxzii

↳ roxiee i love you just as much now as i did during our encanto phases, even though we don't talk much or have the same interests, i still enjoy seeing your posts on my dash, and i hope you have a lovely year, hon ^_^

☆ IZZY | @luckynature

↳ izzy!! ilysmmm you are so sweet and cool, and i'm so happy seeing you get the love you deserve this year, (and hitting almost? 1k followers), like congrats babes, you deserve it!!! your ideas and concepts for characters whether oc or existing are always so amazing, like you literally are soo creative omg. you're like the mirabel to my isabela, ilysm have a great year!!

☆ JUNO | @madwickedawesome

↳ juno u r literally so poggers. omg ilyy ur soo cool and have such great taste. and THANK you for introducing me to lacrimosa. life changing frr alshskk anyway ily!!!

☆ JAS | @isitovrnow

↳ jas, you're such an angel, thank you sooo much for being my friend!!! you're such a kind, beautiful soul omg, i hope this year is kinder to you, ily

☆ VARI | @mapsareforbraindeads

↳ niaaa ilysm you are such an amazing writer, and you're so cool. like omg, ilysm i hope you have a great year and i hope life is kinder to you

☆ ASH | @the-wank-shank

↳ you are like omg. you are so cool, you are also like a big cousin to me!!! your humour is so funny, and your art is so poggers. ily hug!!

☆ AERON | @lanawinterscigarettes

↳ MY big bro!!! i love seeing you spam my notifs, its like my little way of knowing your online lol, your such a bright person you always make me smile whenever we talk ilysmmm

☆ AMI | @foxboy-light-yagami

↳ ami you are so funny, your vibes are immaculate, and i love being correct abt light yagami with you. you are literally such a joy and ilysm

☆ IZZIE | @hateful1979

↳ izzie!!! you are such a lovely person, and have such banger taste omggg i love you so much you're such a delight

☆ ACHILLES | @nibblelinephym

↳ achilles you are so poggers!!! ilysmm ty for being my friend! you're so nice and always brighten the dash

☆ CLOUD | @sillysnack

↳ CLOUDDD!!!! YOU ARE ONE OF my favourite ppl omg, you're such a lovely, sweet person ^_^ we've been friends since jan 2022 with our encanto phases (2 YEARS!!) AND i can't wait for another 2 years and beyond omg ilysm i can't put in words hi

☆ SOPHIE | @larsgoingtomars

↳ sophie, you're amazing and i love you so much!! your such a lovely person and i love talking to you, you're such a great friend ilysm

And a special mention to all my friends and mutuals who've deactivated- Asha, Envy, Oli, El, Deus, and everyone else, I still love you so much and I hope that you're okay <3

HAPPY NEW YEARS, EVERYBODY, HERE'S TO A GREAT 2024!!!

[liquidstar]

Ok so, I have only ever watched one episode of Adventure Time, and it was on a hotel room TV, in terrible hindi dub, and I barely remember it on account of being 10(?) but it horrified me.

I remember the MCs trying to get Ice King a girlfriend or something, but he keeps being a gross asshole so they take him to a lake and point at some swans to try and explain love to him. They point to two swans kissing like ':D' and he's like 'ewww' and then the male swan suCKS IN AND EATS THE FEMALE and IK's like ':)))' while the boys stare in horror.

IDR how the episode ended or how much I watched, but I remember thinking 'wow american cartoons are hardcore. I'm sticking to pirated pokemon from now on.'

And you are telling me that show had lesbians in it leter????

oh my god im so sorry but imagining you watching that swan scene as a 10 year old is so fucking funny, i can understand why you stuck with pirated pokemon LOL

adventure time is absolutely very fucked up in a lot of different ways. the early seasons leaned into that type of absurd shit you just described a lot more especially. while the later ones actually started getting more existential and building on the worlds lore.

there wasnt exactly a focused plot, per say. i mean, there was, but it wasnt something methodical and planned out, it was played by ear. and i think it really worked. the way they did it turned out a really cool magic system (based on the idea that reality is just collective perception, and magic users are aware of this and can manipulate perception ergo reality. but the more cosmic knowledge you have the more insane or depressed you become etc especially if youre mortal), and also cool world building (it takes place in a post apocalypse after a nuclear war, now far into the future the face of the earth has completely changed but the horrors unleashed still impact it today), and also a lot of really amazing themes (the world is always changing and nothing is ever permanent, but no matter how things change things also stay the same, in a different way. especially where bonds and love are concerned. everything stays.)

and YEAH there are lesbians (i mean i always hc marcy as bi but still). and they also come from the shows improvisational nature. theres a lot of genuinely really amazing relationships and plotpoints born out of that to me. like, as the show starts to get a lot more thematically dense later on it can seem like a weird shift. some ppl say it got pretentious over time bc its not as goofy (its still pretty goofy lol), but i think it worked... like... perfectly.

because its a coming of age story where the main character actually ages, it actually feels so right that the world around him begins to seem different too. it makes sense that when he was 12 we were doing stupid goofy adventures, when he was 15 we were watching him deal with a lot of really fucked up trauma, and when he was 17 we watched him learn to grow as a person who thinks beyond simple terms of good and evil.

i know im tottaaallly rambling at this point but theres really an insane amount to talk about with adventure time. the timeline alone is ridiculous. but mostly i think my passion comes down to the fact that i was also growing up with the story, always around the same age as the mc going through similar stuff... even now, the story is focusing on a depressed 20-something trying to find whimsy in her life again. and technically the last episode timeline-wise is about accepting death lol

so like idk how exactly id recommend it to a new viewer, its really possible that a lot of ppl wont be able to really tolerate the early seasons as adults (i mean, i think theyre charming, but i have nostalgia goggles lol). that being said i think that its a series totally worth a shot for everyone... eventually. if it sounds interesting you just gotta accept the goofiness at first and trust that youre in for something wild in a totally different way later on. and totally unique and cool and special in a way nothing else has really been able to capture for me since.

TL;DR: no yeah the show was incredibly fucked up and that swan did eat that other swan. but it does have themes and also lesbians.

[old-lorarri]

hey love id like to request ─ lost cause . . . ❨ send me a description of yourself + a fandom and gender preference, and i’ll ship you with a character. ❩ for your 4k celebration. (for formula one) congrats on how quickly you've been growing! its amazing! <3 <3

hopefully i wont ramble on too much (:

i am an american girl in university/college. i go to a large college in the south, but i plan on moving to los angeles when i graduate, which is where i'm from. i am currently studying journalism and screenwriting. i do an internship in LA during the summer for the latter. i love sports, and writing. in the future i hope to write many movies and attend many sports events. my dream events to attend (in general not just sport) are the oscars (who doesnt) the met gala, and for sporting: el clasico in spain, as i am a major soccer fan, and the singapore grand prix. i like to convince myself im very fashionable, but as a student i dont have the budget for that yet. i still dress well, usually cool sneakers baggy pants and tight tops because im semi basic.

for appearence, i consider myself decently attractive because confidence is very important, and if you think you're ugly, you will be. i have high cheekbones, an unmentionable nose, plump lips, blue eyes, with pretty light eyebrows. i am also a proud member of the lewis hamilton forehead squad, and i do like it, most of the time. my hair is medium brown, which either makes me look very pale, or slightly tan (white girl problems ik).

my personality (the most important thing i believe) is pretty good! i try my hardest to be kind, and nice. im well read, working on being well spoken, and i think im a pretty good person. i like reading, and like learning, but not stem. i actually hate stem. im funny in an honest way (aka i dont know when im funny but when people laugh i try to keep it up), but im not a fan of changing the way i act around people. around authority figures i tend to tone it down a bit and be more respectful, but most of the time im just respectful in general. i try to help people, and im working on not being a people pleaser, which i think is a problem a lot of people deal with.

a few fun facts because for some reason i enjoy talking about myself a lot. i speak french and english. i want to live by the sea in the future. im learning spanish and portuguese. i have a fraternal twin sister. i love pets so much. i enjoy architecture, and im afraid of the deep sea but like beaches.

hopefully this isnt annoying, and i realize i sound totally self centered here, and have come to the realization that tone doesn't show over type :(

CARLOS SAINZ

the two of you have a house in la

carlos is def your muse for a lot of your movies

and takes your to a lot of sports events

all of his races you have VIP passes

and you and him are regualrs at real Madrid games

is your date to the met and the oscar

you two got wild after singapore is you know what I mean

you two are def on the paddock best dressed list

loves that you are lerning spanish

def teahces it to you

gets along with your twin

and always makes sure not to take his boat to far out cuz he knows about your fear of deep water

[rosetyphooon]

hey guys ramble time bc i needto ramble and i am very very afraid of bothering others also maybe spoilers idk so here we go yippee but ohhh my god arcane i am freaking out i am quaking in my boots i am shaking with joy i am in a fucking state of pure bliss i am so excited for season 2 omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg obviously theres going to war n shit like no duh but i cant eait for the super epic cool battle between jinx and vi like thats gonna be epic and all the etasers arggg i love picking them apart idc if im reading into them toomuch i love them anyways for starters i love the way its all connecting like i am a sucker for the way everything is coming to tgoether n shit like in the teaser where we see vi and cait together preparing for war you can notice all these small little details that are actually from their leagues skin (caitlyn wearing a skirt n the collar thing or wtvr and vi having the big ass jacket collar and random ass pink ruffle on her waist) so thats super duper amazing cool epic yes also in the teaser trailer theres a small snippet where i think theres viktor and hes using hextech (i might be wrong it might not be viktor but who cares) to start his lil revolution thingy majigy so YIPPEE also in the teaser trailer vi is wearing claggors goggles such a cte detail to me starst sobbing teehee anywas i love ambessas part in this and even tho i dont have much to say abt her rn i hope she has a big part in the whole war thing!! also theres gonna be so much war ik s1 was gonna getting us prepared for all the war like theres a bunch of things in s1 that all signal war is abt to happen and yippe fictionalwar my favoruite slash joke ALSO SEVIKA oh my god sevika in the trailer she fired jinxs gun???? whaaaat?????? plus theres a shot where you can kinda see her arm (robotic one) and its brand new and looks to be designed and graffitied on by jinx which is super interesting like perhaps some jinx and sevika stuff??? do they get along??? so excited so so so very excited for that i love sevika guys also the painted mural of jinx is super interetsing to me especially since its shown right after we see ekko andohhh mygod vander is warwicklike ik we knew that months ago but oohhh my goodddddd big werewolf gonna fuck his daughter upfor kinda switching to piltover over zaun (pls warwick and vi fightscene i'll do anything) okay enough rambling for me i'll probably reblog and add more whenever i feel more need to ramble abt how much i love arcane YIPPEEE forgot to mention it but the fucking poster image wtvr of the rverse jinx holding vi is super cool to me bc unlike the first one where vi was looking away while powder was looking directly at the camera now they both face the camera and vi has this terrified look on her face and ughewsdjfejsdf GUYS!!!!!! i have so much to say!!!!!!!!! most of this was just me rambling abt all the teasrer but get ready for theories and analyings soon /hj

also heres a link to the arcane twitter account fi you would like to see all these teasers urself -> arcanes twt

[01nnie]

— TELL ME, DO YOU WANNA BE MY LOVER?

summary :: relationship headcannons w/ chronoir because why the heck not? ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

notes :: ik this was supposed to be headcannons and it turned out kind of long- im so so very sorry ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ‸இﾟ)ﾟ｡ hope you all like it in the end <3 !! not beta'd !!

wc :: 2k、requested :: yes、no、reader :: gender neutral、female、male

art credits :: 雨瀬セイ on pixiv、u_skeeep on twt

‧₊˚ʚ :: kanae. ↷ ⨯ ︵

-     the sweetest boyfriend of them all

-     will put your needs before himself.

- youre kanae's #1 priority after all (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ

【 you forgot your jacket at home? he offers you his own, wearing a captivating smile. your hands are getting cold? hes quick to cover them with his own, softly huffing his breath over your trembling fingers. youre too shy to ask for his scarf? he notices, just like he always does. with skilled hands he wraps the cool-colored fabric over your shoulders and neatly tucking it under your chin, not before giving you a light scolding. 】

-     regularly gets you to go on café dates together, checking out shops that just opened in your area

-     kanae is the type of boyfriend that would divert your attention to something else before taking a bite of your desert (◕‿◕)

-     dont worry though, of course he’ll share his with you

【 a warm grin made its way to his face when you ramble about how delicious the food was as you dig in for another bite. his eyes catch the dollop of cream stuck by your rose-tinted lips. your eyes widen when he leans closer, swiping his thumb over to clean your mess. a reddish hue glosses over your cheeks when kanae laps his tongue over his thumb, tasting the sweet frosting. there is a shameless grin on his face. “youre right, it tastes amazing.” 】

-     err cough

-     slow dances with you in the kitchen !!

-     the low tune of a romantic song that he picked playing in the background while you sway together with the music ＼(＾▽＾)／

【 kanae his arm around your waist while he has his hand intertwined with yours. “youre such a sap, kanakana.” you giggle when he lets out a playful breath. “you like that though.” is his reply. your eyes widen a fraction and a shriek was pulled from you when he suddenly spins you around. his heart swells when he feels you playfully hit his chest as a complain.

as you both rock back and forth gently, kanae doesnt realize he hold you a bit tighter and closer, like you’ll disappear when he lets go. you dont realize, or maybe you did and made no comment. the brunette didnt dwell on it, rather he focuses on you and only you. 】

-     when things get too much for you to handle, kanae knows when to give you space

-     once he sees light up and your simple “come over” message pops up on his screen, he’s already on his way

-     along with an assortment of your favorite snacks to help cheer you up o( ❛ᴗ❛ )o

【 the wind ghosts over your skin and making your hair flow along with it as you hear the bustling streets of the night from down below. the starry skies and whispers of the moon have been keeping you company while you wait for your boyfriend. you feel another headache forming in when youre reminded of the events that occurred earlier today. you were so tired, just wanting to your worries to wash away already.

a heavy weight was lifted off your shoulders when you heard the door click open, the familiar sight of kanae floods you as you lock eyes. he approaches and sits next to you, the plastic bag he came in with resting on his crossed legs. he doesnt speak, not yet at least, and instead brings out your favorite snacks one by one. your eyes follow his movements and you cant help but overthink that maybe he’s getting exhausted of this; of you.

the frown youve worn this whole evening deepens at that thought, but only for a while. kanae tucks the hair hovering over your face before leaning and giving your cheek a warm kiss. its no surprise that kanae can easily make you smile. the two of you converse, swiftly jumping from one topic to another just like the other times, all while enjoying the makeshift feast presented in front of you. you lean your head against kanae chest, his hands interlocked with yours and his thumb brushing over the back of your palms giving you comfort. the rhythm of his hear beat almost you to sleep. before your eyelids fall, you hear a soft mutter, you cant tell if kanae's professing it to you or the stars hanging in the galaxy. “the moon is beautiful, isnt it?” 】

‧₊˚ʚ :: kuzuha. ↷ ⨯ ︵

-     very much awkward in the beginnings- you had to be the one to approach kuzuha first

-     the vampire doesn’t have much previous relationship experience so he tends to just … stand there awkwardly watching you

-     but you’re not really complaining ! its fun to see his reactions and being the one to take the lead (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

【 kuzuha clicks his tongue as checks his phone once more, taking a note of the time. there was an itch he can’t quite scratch when bears in mind that you’re 10 minutes late. he’s not impatient or anything. in reality, the red eyed male was super excited and nervous. it didn’t really cross his mind as to why, after all you’ve had dates like this before. he should be used to it by now.

his train of thought was stopped he felt something, someone, bump his back, the unknown figure wrapping their arms around his torso before letting out a fit of giggles. kuzuha resists the urge to playfully roll his eyes as he turns. “ya ready to go, baby boy?- woah hey!”

he wraps his coat around you, fully covering you from the wandering eyes of strangers. you pull at kuzuha's arms and peek at him with a mischievous look. “you’re late.. and i told you! quit calling me baby boy y/n” you don’t think you will, not with the enticing glow of his reddened cheeks and how he buries his face on your neck. kuzuha thinks he won’t get used to your antics. how you pull on his hand; one that engulfs yours completely, as you enthusiastically talk about the activities you’ve planned for the two of you. and he thinks that that’s okay. 】

-     indoor dates(?) with zuha !!

-     the two of you have a variety of snacks and dips to choose from laying on the coffee table. you both decide either to watch the new movie releases, or play 1v1 videogames

-     this time around, you’ve both decided to battle each other on a video game. and kuzuha's not about to waste this opportunity of flexing his gamer skills on his significant other (っ´ω`)ﾉ(╥ω╥)

【 another ,,game over’’ title, bolded in red, flashed on the tv screen. the loud cheers of kuzuha filling the air and you let out a huff before leaning against his chest. “damnit zuha, why can’t you just let me win? just once.”  the white-haired man immediately shook his head, making you feel a little more upset. “now where’s the fun in that? what kind of boyfriend would i be if i don’t polish your gaming skills, y/n?” you know he was just making up excuses. he turns back to the lit screen, proceeding to restart the game.

with a quiet grumble you adjust from his lap to stand up, plopping down on the couch as you reach for the popcorn bowl. without properly weighing out the consequences, you threw a piece of popcorn at the back of kuzuha’s head. you go rigid when you saw him halt his movements. you tried holding back the laugh building up in your throat when he turns with a look in his eyes that screams ,,it’s game on’’. it’s safe to say you two made a huge mess of the living room, and your laughs and shrieks could be heard from a mile away, all while the abandoned game was still waiting to be continued. 】

-     so very proud to be your boyfriend i tell you

-     he likes to show off often that you’re his significant other, with or even without you around

-     but i don’t think kuzuha wants you to know about that … or else he might die of embarrassment (⸝⸝•́દ•̀⸝⸝)

【 turning the keys to the left, you entered the house before slipping off your shoes and placing it on the rack. you came home from work, drained and tired, just wanting to spend the rest of the night with kuzuha. speaking of, you looked around the living room curiously. usually, he would already be on the couch waiting for you to come home. you spotted the bags of takeout already on the kitchen island. he shouldn’t have gone that far away. placing your bag on the leather seat, and about to proceed to your shared bedroom, you heard his familiar voice. it was coming from the balcony of your cozy apartment.

with piqued interest, you discreetly pad over to the wall, peeking slightly to see your beloved boyfriend resting against the railings. it seems like he’s talking to someone. you were about to leave to give him privacy when you heard kuzuha mutter your name. that got your feet stuck to the ground.

“i don’t know i just … gahh, i mean you already know what i’m about to say so what’s the point …” you were visibly confused. something he’s going to say that he’s already told before. now what could that possibly be? “it’s just that … you know that feeling when you see a really cute puppy? that’s what i feel when i’m around her, 24/7! it makes me feel so dumb, and giddy! and-and achhh- i don’t know!” oh.

“and i know it might come off as me being clingy but i get so excited when she come home … and her smile! it just- i feel my heart explode whenever i’m near he .. – HEY! Stop laughing, bastard!” kuzuha continues to shout profanities to the unknown person on the other line. based on the laugh and teasing words they let out, you guess it’s probably kanae he’s talking to.

you didn’t pay much mind to their conversation anymore, too busy clenching your dress shirt in hopes of calming your erratically beating heart, fearing it might burst through your chest any second now. kuzuha never failed to make you feel special. it felt like cupid shot his golden arrow straight through your heart all over again when you glanced back at him, making no effort to hide the giddy smile present on your lips at his bantering with his friend. composing yourself, you nonchalantly skipped towards him.

he felt his soul leave his body when he felt a tap on his shoulder. when he turned, the knowing look on your face was the first to catch his attention. “come on, pretty boy. the food might get cold~” raising to your tiptoes, you plant a chaste kiss on his velvet-shaded cheek with a cheeky beam. turning, you go back inside to prepare your dinner together, your light steps fading into the distance. the male let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. his free hand came to touch the cheek that your soft lips touch and he felt his face become even warmer than before. if that was even possible.

kuzuha was brought back to reality when he heard the low whistle coming from his phone. with a hiss and a quick goodbye, he shoved his phone in his pockets before burying his face in the palms of his hand, rubbing his face in the process. “yo, slowpoke! get over here already, baby~” he quickly cursed the fuzzy feeling growing in his body at the pet name you rarely use; a term you only use to tease him with. kuzuha knows you won’t let him live this down anytime soon. 】

[rosiesareblu]

May I request a banquet of roses with Potted Plants ^^ (I hope I did that right XD)

My name is Emma my pronouns are she/her I am 19 I have shoulder length black hair and grey blue eyes. I pretty much look like mavis from hotel Transylvania, I am on the thicker side I got dem I’m like not skinny but I’m not plus size I’m just kinda mehhh I am also 5’8

I would say my aesthetic is like alt or dark academia

I am a Scorpio sun, Scorpio rising and a Aries moon. My love language is probably fiscal touch but I also don’t like being touched (ironic ain’t it) (if you get that reference I love you)

I am super stubborn. Im also SUPERRR sarcastic, like every thing I say is sarcastic in someway. I have low key anger issues. But like I’m also super chill and like go with the flow. I play a shit load of video games mainly animal crossing and Minecraft. I also ramble a LOT about stuff I really like, Greek mythology (it’s my favorite thing in the Entire world to talk about) and tinker bell lore (ITS VERY EXTENSIVE) and many other things. I also make a ton of like super stupid puns like dad jokes. And a LOTTTT of sex jokes.

I am actually from Russia but I am fluent in English because both of my parents are also fluent in English and I have live in America for most of my life. I am fluent in Russian (obviously) Spanish and French. I can play the bass, guitar, ukulele, drums, and piano. I am also trained in like swords...? Idk how to say it lmao but I can do a bunch of cool tricks ik I’m ✨talented✨ (I swear I’m not a narcissist and his is a joke)

I’m so sorry I told you like my whole life story. And sorry if some of it doesn’t make sense I did not proofread this.

Once again sorry this is so long I got carried away

🌱 🌹 I match you with Quackity!

 A/n: I don’t mind it being long, this was actually really fun to write! Hope you like it! Thank you for requesting!

I feel like Quackity would definitely love your aesthetic. As your relationship progresses he’ll slowly start dressing the same as you, asking from time to time if what he’s wearing was ok.

He also loves your hair! He likes running his hands through it sometimes when you allow him to.

Surprisingly the two of you don’t argue as often as others would think. Both of you just find sarcasm funny and use it often when you talk.

But when the both of you do argue, it’s a long process of being stubborn and ignoring each other until one of you just decides to talk.

He also plays video games with you, and if you decide to stream, be ready for him to bother you until you agree to stream with him!

He loves listening to you talk about all the things you find interesting, won’t bother searching anything up in the internet because he will ask you about it.

He loves seeing you talk about something you’re passionate about!

When both of you are present in a stream, beware of sex jokes. Badboyhalo loves you both as a couple but he will be so tired of just saying “language” over and over again.

Being fluent in Spanish, he’ll talk to you a lot in that language. When you join him in streaming, he will talk to you in Spanish and joke around because he knows his friends and some people in chat won’t understand.

He will definitely brag about you being talented

“Mi amor can speak so many languages, it’s so cool, chat!”

“She can play so many instruments! Like holy shit, chat, she’s amazing!”

“Chat, listen, listen, she knows how to use a sword in real life, like what? She’s amazing.”

Will make a stream of you teaching him if you’re comfortable!

This boy loves you so much, please let him brag you to chat and his friends! <3

[laddumb]

OMORI SPOILERS, but it accidentally turned into a long appreciation thread for the game and fandom??

[TLDR] I am very greatful for this community and the game because it pretty much got my life back on track ♡

Anyways thinking about how in the "netural" ending when basil yknow, uses the garden sheers on himself, sunny decides that nothing is there

Sometimes i wonder if sunny really still cared for basil or not, but thinking about it now

He did

He still cared for everyone.

In his mind basil was still his best friend, and to see his best friend do that

Fuck man

Omori hurts bad

Whenever i sit here and think about the little things

The slight details that i missed in febuary

Theyre all so

Hurtful

So greatful that i found out about this game man, it means so much to me, before Omori i spent all day miserable thinking about the same thing that upsets me so much but

Omori gave me something new to think about, something that wasnt distracting because it made me sad or someones life was at stake, but because it made me happy

I finally have the motivation to draw and animate again, and sure the bad things are still on my mind all day but, i see an omori video or meme or fanart or just think about the game and the bad thoughts are completely lost for a moment

I could talk about this game for hours on end, truly

And Basil man, ive never related to a character so well, its so nice seeing someone whos like me, even if its fictional

Its like nobody understands me as a person but if Basil were here, he would because he IS that person

Ik it sounds corny, but its 5 AM and im in a strange mood, no, more like a greatful mood

I think im starting to be happy with the things in my life, and that happiness started because of Omori. And fuck yeah this fandom is amazing, a majority are great people, you guys make beautiful art and animations, hilarous memes, cool ass fanfics, all the good shit

Its stupid, i know, to say a video game is whats picking my life back up, but ive felt so fucking terrible for over a year and finally, finally im starting to be okay again

Its not just omori of course, but i can thank omori for being the reason i started appreciating the things i had more, and loving my people more, i spend time with my family now, i dont just sit in my room miserable all day. I sound like an idiot huh

Idk man im just rambling

Rambling my thoughts onto this silly app and like 10 people will see this and read it through

Idek how this post got to this point, i just wanted to talk about a little detail i noticed

Idk man, this game will likely forever be my number one, maybe im wrong but, right now, where im at, this game is like motivation for me

Thank you Omocat for creating this game, thank you everyone who donated and made the games creation possible, thank you to a majority of the fandom (excluding the ppl who would look at or make r34, blame basil, and argue over ships aside from the hero x anyone but mari and the sibling ships cuz wtf?? Why would u ship siblings or hero with the friend group??) Because truth be told, with how small this fandom is, its like every day i have new fanart to look forward to

Just off the top of my head, ginumo and tabdood i owe you 2 a lot <3 U two are one of the main reasons i stayed in the fandom at the beginning and i look forward to every piece of art you guys make, so thank you

Theres others but im bad with names

Not just them tho, every piece of fanart i see, i love it

I love beginner artists making fanart because fuck yeah its so sweet, and one day they'll look back at it, thats where they started, and they'll want to revisit omori, and all the artists that have been drawing for years and years making omori art, YEAAH MAN EVERY FANARTIST BRUH <3

I love all of you, every creator in this fandom, yeah im talking about you

What you just made one drawing?? Oh u just discuss the game?? FUCK YEAH I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THE GAME !! THAT ONE PIECE OF FANART IS GOLDEN BRO !!

Dont get me started on the comics yall make

Even the people who like or reblog, yall keeping the fanartists and discussors going bro

Love yall

Everyone of yall

Goodnight ♡

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ani....morphs.....

ok so picking up after the david trilogy, which hit hard as FUCK, we have book 23, which basically was a semi truck that ran over my corpse, jesus christ, they really followed up the david trilogy w/all that....

23 was so so good and also painful. its the culmination of a lot of tobias’s characterization in the series thus far and also we finally get the reveal we’ve been waiting for about elfangor....ooooh man 

and there was a lot of painful stuff in this book but the worst imo was tobias wondering if it were possible that somebody wanted him and would take care of him, only to have it all come crashing down in the worst way when it turned out aria was visser three in morph, ouch. 

that was so brutal augh. and when he figured it out and just crash landed and kept thinking about how he wanted to die and how he was stupid to think he could have a home...bro get these kids some THERAPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

so yeah that book was absolutely brutal but also so good...and it further fleshed out the animorphs working as a near-flawless team, w/the whole setup of tobias meeting w/the lawyer being so airtight and well-planned 

also more free hork bajir!! its cool that there's stuff happening w/them offscreen, I like that 

I literally had to take a break from reading the books bc the david triology + 23 was like so much, and also bc the olympics were on and all my time got dedicated to watching those, but then I opened 24, not sure what to expect, and BAM it was the helmacrons lmaoooo

I don't even remember the helmacrons but ig a lot of people hate them? lmao so that whole reputation preceded the book and I was like oh wow time for a change in tone

which wasn't wrong but also I liked that book?? I was never bored, even tho the whole thing was patently ridiculous and also had very little bearing on the overarching story

but I think it would be a standout if it were a TV episode w/a good budget - the visuals were amazing even in text, and I can imagine all the cool shrinking/growing/cellular stuff would be WICKED cool visually (ideally 2d animation but an ant man-esque live action adaptation wouldn't be terrible if they had the budget for it)

whatever let me dream. so yeah I didn't hate the helmacron book even tho the helmacrons themselves were...sure something. lmao I think they come back? that should be interesting

next book is the arctic one, we have yet another alien of the week style adventure - I liked this one too, it felt like more plot-y stuff happened since they destroyed the base, and marco’s POV is always fun 

I do find it funny/interesting how sometimes when the animorphs do something - like in this book, destroying that base in the arctic - it doesn't really seem to impact the yeerks much/it doesn't get brought up much after that. and then other things like them destroying the ground-based kandrona get mentioned a lot (that example is understandable tho bc that WAS a big deal). its just hilarious to me how blowing up entire building complexes has become so routine that it isn’t even worth mentioning at this point

Also I adore when they meet other random people/kids and are chill w/them, like w/that kid they met in the rain forest earlier on w/the time travel 

the descriptions of the brutally cold weather were great. I hate the cold so I was like oof this is a nightmare lmao

also ig that was the first ghostwritten book and I did kinda notice it was slightly different than usual? maybe? I could be imagining it tho 

okay but book 26 tho...BOOK 26. bruh 

that was SO good and I really didn’t know what to expect - but when we finally revisited Jake’s dream w/crayak I knew it was gonna be good (but I didn’t expect it to be a chess game war epic..!)

basically I loved it. SUCH a good Jake book - I really appreciate his character now as opposed to when I was 10 and often overlooked him (sorry jake).

similarly, when I was a kid and read these I sympathized a lot w/the chee and felt bad for them towards the end of the series when they had to get more involved in the war (genuinely don’t remember what they even do but ik I felt bad) 

but now I've basically 180′d and I'm like damn those chee sure are hypocrites huh. 

like they could solve So many of the animorphs problems but their stringent adherence to nonviolence leads to them actively getting in the animorphs way sometimes? and obviously pacifism is a complicated topic, but in this case it also intersect w/the whole ‘child soldier’ thing, and as beings who are insanely old and wise, the chee probably shouldn't just leave all the dirty work to a bunch of literal middle schoolers

aaaaanyways. there’s so much I love about this book. the iskoort! they were sure something. and the ‘plot twist’ that they are actually 2 beings, the Isk and the Yoort - and the Yoort are essentially Yeerks - that slapped. the symbiosis of it all! 

I loved the part where they all realize what this means, that this is why Crayak wants the iskoort destoryed - because someday the yeerks might come across them and realize parasitism is not the only way. I love it! 

alas I don’t recall the iskoort returning in the story (but also my memory is terrible so who knows?) but still that would be cool

basically I feel like this is the book where Jake Truly comes into his own as a leader, in every sense. he outmaneuvers Crayak, and even the ellimist, who’s yanking them around in his own way

the scene where jake shoves the howler off the cliff and jumps off and morphs and acquires the howler...that was fantastic and tense. 

also the murder is definitely becoming more overt. I mean, it has been for a while, but it isn’t really pointed out as much anymore. oof

more on the chee - as Jake points out in this book, and other characters point out in other books - the chee could have saved the pemalites, but instead just stood by while their creators were slaughtered. on the other hand, jake says, what do the chee do AFTER they’ve killed the howlers - where to point them next? when is the end of their violence? 

buuuuut also standing by while atrocities occur is pretty damning, as is frequently mentioned in this series - from the very beginning, when marco initially doesn’t want to get involved in the war at all, and the other animorphs basically tell him that turning his back on the war and acting like he doesn’t even know it’s happening would be immoral and cowardly (which imo this reaction helps to push marco in the direction he ends up going, but I digress) - this topic comes up again in 19 when cassie quits the team and rachel is upset bc she sees it as cassie elevating her own feelings above the greater good (as in, as long as cassie feels good about how she acts, it doesn’t matter how much preventable evil the yeerks are committing while she turns away). etc etc. but that’s essentially what’s happening w/the chee - even tho they help w/intel, the lack of any sort of Action on their part means that they’re essentially allowing awful things to happen when they could prevent them. this is rambly but basically...animorphs deals so much in grey areas, and the chee are noticeably black and white in their actions, despite falling, in a meta sense, in an extremely grey area. its such good, thought provoking writing!

anywayssss I keep talking about the chee lmao what else was there. oh YEAH jake and cassie kissed for the first time awww that was super cute 

and ofc immediately marco teases them as asks jake if he’s gonna kiss him next, and all I can say is...marco is a bicon 

also I love the background worldbuilding w/the iskoort, how they have all these groups and guilds and stuff - its not dwelled on much, which actually works really well to give the world/species a sense of lived-in realness 

okay oh man and the reveal at the end that the howlers were just like...children who thought the whole thing was a game...AUGHH man that’s sooo fucked 

like, when jake morphs the howler and has rachel ready to knock him down in grizzly morph if he gets out of control due to the howler’s murderous instincts, and he morphs to find that the howler is...playful, like a dolphin morph. SUCH a good fucked up sense of dawning horror there 

and the fact that as far as I can tell the chee KNEW this, but wanted revenge anyways, so they let the animorphs assume that the howlers were Evil On Purpose

also I love smaller moments, like jake seeing that ax is ashamed for briefly running away during one battle w/the howlers, and then entrusts him w/an important task bc he knows that ax will see that as redemption - and when everyone thought jake was dead and were so happy when he wasn't (they all love each other so much im gonna cry about these child soldiers augh)

basically that book was so good

man one thing I absolutely love is that the longer the series goes on the more obvious it is that andalites, despite inventing morphing technology, barely use it themselves 

like, most of the andalite characters we see barely morph. its kind of a last resort to them, as they’re already plenty dangerous in their regular forms 

meanwhile for the animorphs, that’s all they have to fight with. that’s their only weapons against the yeerks, and its so fun to see them use the power in so many varied ways, and so creatively, while the andalites have barely scratched the surface of their own technology

its also interesting to contrast against the yeerks who start out w/absolutely no technology, and the andalites share some but not all of their technology w/them...its too bad that morphing technology was just starting out cause that would’ve been interesting

like imo a lot of the conflict w/the yeerks could’ve been avoided if they could just nothlit into better forms - of course, there’d still be plenty of yeerks who want to go start wars or w/e, just like pretty much any species in the series, but a lot of yeerks would probably be like ‘yeah I'm good’ and just chill out as nothlits

also people online love to talk about how humans are alienfuckers and would definitely have sex w/sentient aliens and whatnot, and while I'm not saying that's untrue, its just funny bc in animorphs the truest alienfuckers are definitely the andalites

as of the hork-bajir chronicles, we now have a second instance of an andalite morphing another species to be in an inter-species alien romance (and eventually have kids) 

speaking of, I don’t think I’ve talked abt the hork bajir chronicles yet??? even tho I read it a while ago lmao 

HBC was great...I honestly haven’t really run into an animorphs book I’ve actually disliked at this point, I’m sure it’ll come w/all the ghostwriting and whatnot, but I’ve liked at least some aspects of every book

anyways HBC was great, and it’s funny bc I remember that I read this book as a kid, and yet rereading it now I didn’t remember a single bit of it lmaooo

I really liked the framing device of the free hork bajir telling this story to tobias. I also liked how we know from the beginning that this story wont have a happy ending - we know all the hork bajir end up enslaved by the yeerks, but it’s still somehow hopeful at the end? I think this is largely due to the framing device tbh. 

also I love toby, and I love that the First free hork bajir named their kid after tobias ;_; 

and oooh mannn I LOVED the different POVs from this book. all the characters were so interesting! aldrea was fascinating - I really like the increasingly negative view of the andalites that the readers are getting, all while maintaining the sense that they aren’t like, actively evil, just that they have their issues - like aldrea’s arrogance, and the general andalite arrogance which lead to the loss of the hork bajir. also, who knew andalites had their own brand of sexism? Ls

I did like getting a female andalite tho, that was cool. and dak was really cool, he was such a good, compassionate character who was able to maintain his morals in an interesting way throughout the story

and VISSER THREE...or should I say esplin 9466, because he’s not visser 3 yet...getting his ‘origin story’ was excellent - I really like how we’re learning about visser 3 backwards - we start off the series w/him as the main villain, and he’s campy and menacing, and then we see him in the andalite chronicles as a power-hungry sub-visser trying to climb the ranks and eventually getting alloran as a host, and then back even further here, w/the start of his focus on the andalites and the beginning of his ambition. its been very cool and interesting to see

plus, the beginning of the yeerks as we know them! seerow! alloran! it’s a party and nobody is having a good time, except for some of the yeerks. 

I like how it’s pretty obvious that the andalites are well-meaning with their interactions w/the yeerks, but go about it the wrong way - they give them enough technology that the yeerks realize there’s a whole world out there to experience, and then they blockade the yeerks on their planet and tell them they can’t leave. nnnnot the best approach imo

again, as I said above, I’m interested in how things could’ve gone if the andalites had given the yeerks morphing technology early on - could a lot of the conflict have been avoided, or would it have been worse? the yeerks seem pretty evil in this book, immediately jumping to enslave anyone they can. otoh we hear from esplin that not all yeerks like having host bodies, and find it overwhelming, preferring to swim around in the yeerk pool as a slug - I assume as host bodies became more available this type of thinking was probably stamped out in yeerk society or w/e, but there are a lot of interesting what-ifs in the situation 

I loved the scene where esplin first experiences having a host, and immediately knows he can’t go back. there are a bunch of great sensory descriptions, and it’s a nice scene to pinpoint as a foundational moment for the visser three in the current story, who spent a lot of time and energy getting what he sees as the best possible host body, an andalite

I find it interesting how much visser three clearly respects the andalites, even while constantly deriding them. and you can see the origins of that here as he immediately focuses in on the andalites, working to become an expert on them in order to make himself useful enough to move thru the ranks

another thing I like is how esplin seems a lot more crafty and ambitious than the visser three from modern times - I would guess that reaching his goal (andalite host body) and being given all that power was detrimental, playing on his weaknesses instead of his strengths. basically, I don’t think it’s ooc or anything, I can see how HBC-esplin became animorphs-esplin, especially w/TAC in between

as for seerow...poor dude. you really do have to feel for him, because you get the sense he really did just want to be kind to the yeerks, but it was borne from a place of pity, and he (and the other andalites) consistently held too much power over the yeerks for the species relations to ever be truly equal and functional 

AUGH I have so many thoughts about alien space politics. omg. I need to talk about the actual story lmao

so yeah I also feel for aldrea, she had a rough time, watching her entire family die and being thrown into a hopeless war

and then the andalite council or w/e not listening to her bc she's a girl AND seerow’s daughter...oof

also, I really really liked the running theme of the andalites - specifically aldrea - looking down on the hork bajir as ‘simple’ and constantly underestimating them, especially dak

and I like how this is portrayed as a bad attitude for aldrea to have, and she still remains and interesting and sympathetic character even while having obvious flaws. it’s about being 3-dimensional baby!

and oh man I love that dak realizes that aldrea looks down on him, and his entire species, but he can see that that’s how the andalites are, and it all connects back to the beginning of the story w/the yeerks, bc the andalites looked down on the yeerks and treated them with pity and kept them pinned under their proverbial thumb ‘for their own good’ and look how that turned out 

but dak is wise and kind enough to not hate aldrea for this, even acknowledging when she’s using him, but not pushing her away because he recognizes good in her too - and she ends up changing, partially because of his faith in her

and I feel like it can all be compared to that scenario of like - a hypothetical creature that lives in a 2D world suddenly being thrust into a 3D world, and comprehending what its seeing, and understanding that there’s so much more out there outside of the flat lines of its world - and then its dropped back into 2D-land with the knowledge of all the stuff its missing out on, and no way to get back to it or explain it to anybody else

I loooove that ‘trope’ or w/e you wanna call it, and it’s done beautifully here w/the yeerks - whos the say they wouldn't have been fine in their pool swimming around; as esplin said, a lot of the yeerks were terrified of having a host, it was only from the andalites’ perspective that their lives were sad and pitiful, and the andalites showed them what the world could be like, and then said ‘no, you can’t travel the stars like we do, you have to stay here on your planet and do what we say.’

and then again, w/the hork bajir - dak talks about how, even though he drinks up the knowledge that aldrea gives him, in the end it might have been better to just have lived peacefully, not knowing what was in the sky or the Deep - as aldrea says: “It was too late for Dak: he knew that the stars were not flowers.” 

plus the hork bajir having to go from a completely peaceful species who don’t even understand the concept of violence, to a bunch of soldiers fighting a war...oof 

basically everyone in this story uses the hork bajir. the yeerks use them as hosts, the andalites use their planet as a convenient place to dump seerow and then take their sweet time coming to help, and the arn created them as means to stabilize the planet, but block them off from their society and refuse to help when the yeerks come

like, the arn modifying themselves to be un-infestable by the yeerks and then being enslaved for physical labor instead? oof guys. if they had teamed up w/the hork bajir resistance things might have gone better, but probably not 

more on aldrea - throughout the story I was always thinking ‘how am I supposed to see her? as a good person, or as a bad person?’ 

as a POV character, especially a ‘good guy’ andalite, you just start off automatically thinking of her as a good person, but as the story goes on, she starts getting lost in revenge and begins using dak and the hork bajir, and you’re left wondering if this is a story about her slide into darkness, and then towards the end of the story her character development culminates in her making the decision to stay w/the hork bajir, and the be with dak, and that’s about when I went ‘ohhh right this is animorphs so every character is pretty much gonna be grey’

I feel like that moral grey-ness was on full display w/aldrea, and I really enjoyed that. I love so much when characters who are good do bad things, for good or bad reasons, especially in media like animorphs that’s aimed at kids. it’s so compelling. 

oof, and the ending when aldrea convinces dak to mobilize the hork bajir and teach them violence...and dak asks her if she’s ever killed another andalite, and she’s horrified, and says of course she hasn’t, and he says that that’s what she’s asking him, and all the hork bajir, to do - to kill their own people, even if they are being controlled by the yeerks. biiiig oof. I love that dak can keep up w/aldrea and her andalite supremacy attitude - it seems that the non-andalite characters who get along best w/the andalites are the ones who wont take their bs 

what else happened....oh my god how could I forget about alloran, and his quantum virus. oooof. I like how we find out about alloran in parallel to visser three, in the same backwards way - in animorphs he’s the tragic host of visser three, in TAC he’s the disgraced but still semi-respected war-prince who becomes the first ever andalite controller, and here he’s the guy who decides to commit some war crimes because, hey, we haven’t tried that yet 

but yeah that was fucked up, I love it. I’ve said it before I think but I like that alloran isn’t some perfect martyr tragically taken by the yeerks - it’s a lot more compelling that he’s a very flawed person who was taken as a controller partially due to his own bloodthirstiness. 

but yeah, the part where aldrea morphs alloran and ‘sneaks’ into that room was great. aldrea’s dedication to disposing of the virus is a great indicator of her character development - it really feels like the straw that broke the camels back w/re: to the andalites not being what she thought they were, w/their tardiness coming to help the hork bajir planet and the way her father was treated being the precursors to this realization. it all culminates nicely in aldrea saying ‘fuck this actually’ and nothlit-ing into a hork bajir.

and it’s really tragic but realistic that even though aldrea and dak end up seeing eye to eye at the end and getting together, the virus ends up being released anyways (and fails in its objective to stop the yeerks from using the hork bajir - the whole thing was p much a lose-lose situation oof), and aldrea and dak still die fighting a hopeless war 

but then we have the free hork bajir on earth, including toby, who, like tobias, has andalite ancestry, but no DNA to show for it - I like that they have that connection as well as tobias being her namesake

so yeah I enjoyed that one and its many-layered themes

WOW this got long uuuuuhhh ok I think i’ll leave this one off here. at the time I’m actually finishing the writing and editing, I’m on book 35 lol so I have some backlogging to do. never fear, I have a lot to say....

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My Thoughts Rewatching TGWDLM and Black Friday:

*btw the section for tgwdlm is much shorter than the one for black friday because it’s less new so more people have already said almost all there is to say about it i guess*

The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals: - in the first scene the same phone rings about 32/33 times wow (i counted) - when charlotte is talking about sam singing in the shower, let it out plays real quiet and it's cool - i’ve always wondered what emma was gonna say before join us and die, and to me it seemed like she was gonna talk about paul’s crush on her and maybe reject him (she was acting remorseful, like she was sorry for being about to hurt his feelings maybe), idk if anyone tweeted nick lang about this yet but i wanna know - emma seems to jinx herself every time she says "we made it" or along those lines, like in the helicopter she says "we got outta there!" and before inevitable she says "paul! we made it!" - fuck nora :)

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Black Friday: - the sniggles deserve betterrrr also lauren sniggle <3 - mnfnmggghfht them <3 paulkinsss <3 - silent night playing while we enjoy paulkins - "oH SHIT A BABY" - emma has beanies shopping bags so she either still works there and brought snacks or she just went there with paul idk - paul like "it's christmas time in hatchetfield isn't that fun" and im having flashbacks - i love paul's awkwardness but emma, he's your boyfriend ok (ok? ok. ok.) - emma copying bae like - how does lauren turn into an entirely different person with emma and linda ik it's acting but I CAN'T ENVISION THEM TOGETHER AS THE SAME PERSON - if i think about videos and streams of lauren, it seems like emma's personality is kinda similar to lauren's own personality huh - i think this part with emma and paul is so funny not just cause them and their wonderful delivery but also cause the paulkins content is more condensed in smaller amounts of time since they aren't the protagonists anymore, so it's more funny at once, while tgwdlm is probably more funny in total but it's more spread out - i love emma’s adorable laugh snort thing when tom tells her about the surprise it's so lovable <3 - tom just getting in emma's face when he says "he was sledding. WITH HIS MOTHER" ;-; - they just sneak off while tom sings like - what if emma has a different hairstyle in each musical? anyway lauren is so pretty no matter what her hairstyle is but her hair looks even more amazing down in general, i should probably stop now or i'll keep rambling on about lauren - but like lauren and jon are so cool i'm just more attracted to lauren in general but they're probably my two favourite starkid and YES I AM BIASED, SO WHAT? - tom teleports to the parking lot of the mall during what tim wants - tom: what tim want? tim: JUST ASK ME WHAT I WANT - why does linda look over when sherman says "omg its becky barnes" like u just spoke to her and hate her guts lmao why do u care -adore me plays when linda belittles becky bout stanley -webby: hey hannah do the thing ethan's doing with his hands hannah: *does it and gets scolded* webby: *wHeEEeEzeee* - paul in wdywp "i want what everyone wants, money, a partner, kids someday, maybe.." and linda talking to wiley "i want what everyone wants, to be loved" - linda is holding one of her boots, why did one come off? the camera doesn't show below her waist while she's talking to wiley so idk - lauren lopez as jingle the elf doing a bugette voice is attractive as hell - tom: "i'd do anything for him" me: awwww thats sweet! tom: "even if it means pounding the guts outta some little twerp!" me: :/ - what would happen if tom managed to give the doll to tim? tom: take this doll son. tim: i don't want that lmao? tom: W-WHAT? tim: i want u but ur distant and sad now :c tom: :'o - sHE'S hEaVY! D: - do ya think it's a coincidence that wiley AND xander call the president the nickname howie? maybe xanders dead and this is a fake idk lol - the sniggles are still cute in made in america (especially lauren sniggle) and lauren looks so good with her hair like that actually her hair always looks good why DOES HER HAIR ALWAYS LOOK SO GOOD AND HER NOSE AND (this is just a rant about lauren now whoops) - at 1:42:55 when wiggly is talking to john the "look what happens nightmare time" riff (i think its a riff) plays hmmmmm; also someone else mentioned how the light in not your seed is green, so i think grace chasity (yeah apparently it’s chasity) is the connecting thread in all these things and since she is likely the protag in npmd its probably important. oh also maybe grace and jane are connected somehow? idk just trying to think of stuff that could be in npmd - when wiggly gasps after his hiccup laugh thing it's so uncomfortable and creepy i love it good job jon! - you have pOonies?? - i threw em in the FUCKING TRASH! - you killed the pOoNIES! -"she can go on her own" NO LEX HANNAH NEEDS YOU ;o; -lex: reach? like this? *gun flies towards her and smacks her in the nose* ARGH! - lex: patiently waiting for tom to finish singing - i remember something about either the song a meteor hits or just the wiggly jingle scratch track or something being to the tune of if i fail you, so thats cool - jon is so damn feral as gary and it's wonderful i'm having so much fun - gerald's such a good dramatic device - she's drunk AGAIN? what would you know about becky being drunk linda? im imagining drunk becky and linda talking in a bar idk how else linda would know about that eh - behold the wonderful shriek of lauren lopez - i can sing the range of adore me and califorMIA since im an alto and yet lauren can do her high octaves as well as my own comfotable octave she's just destroying the song wiggle and my belief in what singing ability i have with her TALENT!!! - *obnoxious laugh* bECkY BaRNeS! - lets just appreciate jon and lauren sneaking off stage and doing a quick change into their paul and emma outfits in like 40 SECONDS WHAT also everyone else saying their lines slower so they had more time to quick change - "taaahm?" (i love lauren's midwestern accent) - emma and tom never got to talk about jane :'( but also her grateful little smile when he says it and ghfighdfisdfskh emma and paul <3 - why does emma always want to go to hidgens tho lmao like how trustworthy is he really? aw but i guess emma doesn't have anyone else in hatchetfield except paul and jane's family :'( - PAUL SMILING AT EMMA TO COMFORT HER AWWWWWW I LOVE THEM SO MUCH (2:14:02) like i don't mind about how well lauren and jon know each other because their acting is so good that it gets me so invested in paulkins <333333333333333 - i wanna see the paulkins hug D:< i can just see emma in her cute ass bobble beanie hat thing coming over and then the camera pans away WHY - i love that at the end everyone's just squinting at the sky in confusion and paul's just doing a bug-eye face of shock like O-O - ok at the end of tgwdlm it was sad and scary that emma was still in character and screaming for help but i'm just imagining as everyone bows in a line emma just screaming and staggering around again even though this is black friday and it would be really weird but my brain's also weird - tim died alone in the car :( - fuck nora

[jaehyunrk]

♡

i honestly don’t know where to start with this so i’m probably going to ramble on! i’ve been in rk since i think it’s first year as yixing (lmao who remembers him!!!) kept him for about a year and a half before i had to drop him to focus on school and then i picked up jaehyun!!! and then haknyeon (my favourite boy ever) ♡ ya girl in uni now!!!! i guess you could say i grew up with rk –– i joined when i was what? 15? and now i’m a 20 year old grandma lmaoooo someone get me my senior parking spot! rk has known me pre-haknyeon which is Pretty Amazing... alright here we go !!! 

first things first; shout out to gmg!!! the people that i’ve practically grown up with! @taeminrk @rkrachel @rkyoungjae @rksungho @rkinho @kibumrk ♡ 

i’m so thankful to have such a great group of friends! really, what started off as a way for chanel to babysit me and carly (lmaosjkhskjs) turned into all of you guys trying to get me to watch madoka and then me FINALLY!!!! watching madoka!!! you guys are just some of the people i’m most thankful to. tbh, idk if i would ever be able to enjoy rookies without you. it’s nice to know that we can talk about everything, and that i feel so comfortable with all of you. i could write a whole long ass letter for each and everyone one of you individually but AM I REALLY THAT SAPPY ?! yes i am bitch so lets mfin do this

@rkrachel hope i love u so much!!!!! i’ll always think that you’re actually like fifty years older than me because you’re always so level headed and mature!!! i love those pictures of ur big dogs (horses) and its always fun when we get updates about ur farm!!! i dedicate this video to u!!! i love plotting with you and it’s always such a joy just talking to you!

@rkyoungjae CASSIE!!!! i feel like we havent spoken much recently because we’ve both been so busy with irl stuff! but our friendship started even before rookies with a gc with carly in it! i’ll never forget how you were one of the very first rp/internet friends i ever made and just how comfortable i immediately felt with you! i hope you’re doing well and that life is treating you kindly because you deserve it!

@kibumrk kate! plotting with u is always super fun!!! and i love the relationships our characters tend to build! i know i meme a lot but i love u and yes i know the earth isnt 2018 years old !!!! kibum is one of jaehyun’s closest hyungs and his dad figure (who is now like an older brother figure ... they grow up so fast... <3 ) remember not to stress out too much, to take things slowly and that i love you!!!

@rkinho chanel OMG tbh the first time i found out ur name i was like “this bitch EXPENSIVE???” but anyway i love YOU!!! you are WISE and kind and such a joy to talk to!!! somehow our muses also always end up in interesting relationships and i love it when u come into the gc with random stuff to say LOL lets become a broadway star and get cute boys!!!!!!!!!!

@rksungho LEX!!!!! where do i begin omg !!! i feel like we truly got closer last year and tbh i do not regret it at all !!!! becoming closer to you was one of the best things to have happened to me and i’m so glad that we have such a good relationship now. i LOVE talking to you and plotting with u and just everything with you in general! i feel so comfortable talking to you about literally anything and it’s always so fun just dming you or talking to u on discord or twitter because its just!!!!! FUN!!!!! really u make me so super happy and i hope you know that ♡

@taeminrk CARLY..... we’ve been friends for about 5??? years as well omg but it always feels like its so much longer!!!!!!! ik we’ve both been busy but you’re such a blessing to have in my life! it’s always nice talking to you and i like how we can talk about literally everything. when i was going through hard patches in my life you were there for me (through ib, school, life) and i’m thankful for that! i’m glad to see how much you’ve grown up and i know you’ll go far in life ♡ ur birthday is soon so im leaving more cheesy stuff till then but just know THAT I LOVE YOU even if i clown you thats just how i show affection

- love gmg’s forever maknae 

NEXT UP!!! MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE!!!!!!

rose / @rkyeri : UHMMMM I LOVE YOU SO MUCH???? can you BELIEVE that we’ve been friends for like two??? three??? years??? WOW!!!! you’re literally one of my favourite people EVER and we talk almost everyday and tbh i never get bored of talking to you!!!! the ri to my jae ♡ you’re honestly one of my bffs and i can tell u anything and we’re always being fools (remember when we thought kaeun was 20 years older than wonyoung omg i still cant BELIEVE)!!!! icb the first thing i said to u was “hi i heard u liked blonde yixing” and something like “im reading manga” LIKE..... but really i just love u so much!!!!!! you’re the ro to my fi ♡ i love jaeri literally #bestrkcouple and we are #bestcouple !!! im glad that i can talk to you about anything ♡ im sure u know how much i love u because i literally always tell u i love u!!! youre an amazing dancer and it’s always so amazing to see how far you’ve come!!! CLASS A DANCER RANK #1 IN MY HEART

phil / @rkdoyoung @rkljy : thank u next... im kidding SJSSHS icb how close we’ve gotten in the span of a year omg i feel like i’ve known u for like ever!!! my literal actual soulmate we talk almost everyday and idk how it happened but we’ve gotten into the habit of saying “(insert the boyz member) MORNING” HAHAHAHA u know i love u clown and idk what i’d do without u now!!! ure like one of my fave ppl to talk to and whenever i see a notif from u i get a soft smile :’) jyujyu have got nothing ON PHIFI the true otp ♡ tbh i still cant get over how alike some of the things we do are and how we do some of the same things at the same time despite timezones skjhskjh #PHIFICULTURE!!!!! our one shared braincell really brought us a long way !!! anyway ure literally like my other half especially when it comes to dumb shit so just know that i love u clown ♡ 

lari / @rkbyunbaek​ : LARI!!!!!! i love u so much!!!! we haven’t written much together in a long time but that’s okay! because in my heart baekhyun is still one of jaehyun’s faves!!! talking to u is so great and i’ll never forget #sopafoursome and how much i love them! all your muses always make MY muses smile and you’re just a huge bundle of joy i love seeing you, your muses, your tweets literally anything!!! and you’re such a comfort to have!!! i love u and i hope you always know that ♡

GCS & COMPANIES

i know im not the most active in gcs lately so my apoligeez.... i wont tag ppl but i love all of these gcs im in !!!! and the ppl in it!!!

royal ! there’s so many of y’all so i wont tag but wow!!! i feel like this is the longest lasting company any of my muses has been in??? i love u guys so much and icb jaehyun went from being one of the maknae of royal boys to LITERAL HYUNG LINE.... omg all my grandmas where u @ !!!!! the gc is such a joy to be in, everyone is so incredibly sweet and i love each and every one of you! seriously!!!!

royal boys ! jaehyun’s old but he will try to be a good hyung!!!! he rly went from maknae line to hyung line just like that!!! he will be a good hyung!

nova ! at first i had no idea what to expect being in a gc for a company that none of my muses have ever been in!!! but everyone was so incredibly sweet and i’m so glad that haknyeon got into nova ♡ 

nova boys ! i love u guys a lot!!!! i know i dont talk as much in the gc lately but just know that i love the nova boys!!!!! you’ve all made me and haknyeon feel so welcomed and i love how we meme things and have #incorrectnovaboys aka my fave thing about nova boys!!!! if nova boys dont debut together i think hak and i would cry

rknctea ! tbh i always ghost on the gc but its so funny when i open it up and i see y’all talking about the randomest things LMAO i’ll try to ghost the gc less when i get more free but you guys have been really welcoming to new nct muns and its fun to see what all the stuff you talk about and randomly jump in!!!!

thebuwuyz ! for putting up with the constant crying over the boyz... i love y’all!!! the gc gets random at times but do know that i love it and whatever we talk about! it’s always super fun just talking in the gc!!! #stantheboyz!!!!!

SHOUTOUTS TO @woojinrk​ @jaehwanrk​ @jungeunxrk​ @rkseonho  @rkpcy​ and @rkariel​ !!!!!

@ ang: literally my bff the girl i’ve known for YEARS now... lets have our muses cover hily one more time.... yixing & kris are too iconic for us to ever forget!!!! i love u ang ♡ (i’ll text u more memes)

@ haru: WHEN WILL WE EVER FINISH PLOTTINGKJSHHSHS but rly its so fun to just talk to u too even tho we always sidetrack for plotting just talking to u is fun!!!!

@ moose: I LOVE U!!!! and i loved what yeeun and jaehwan had until i clowned myself and had her cleared </3 but (cowboy emoji) ur love for kenta and sanggyun is adorable and we should plot again sometime.... love u!!!!

@ leo: we got closer after seonho got into royal and tbh i still think ure dongmin for some reason!!!!! im terrible at threading but i still love our kids!

@ mari: we havent spoken in so long but i’ll never forget LAYHAN!!!!! what introduced me into the world of rp-shipping lowkey.... they played such a big role in my rk journey and i always loved talking about them with u!!!! still forever in my heart!!!!

@ mei: we havent spoken in so long TOO but i’ll never forget yixing and tiffany!!!! kt mean girls squad!!!! and ofc “yixing: here comes trouble!!!!” its been so long since then and i can’t believe that tiffany/ariel’s going to debut OMG!!!! imagine yixing streaming her songs in china and showing off that he knows famous ppl

i’m sorry if i didnt tag a lot of people !!!! its bc this is the only time im free enough to write this!!!! love u all!!!

[megakidgrace-blog]

1am thoughts about you

July 21, 2018

I hate the way you make me act. Except you don't make me act anyway this is all me. I hate that i get so excited to talk to you, how nervous you make me feel. These feelings you give me. Always having this high feeling in my head. This fucking pinkish orange flower. I don't like myself like this. So vulnerable. The two times it happen it hasn't work. Its me. It was so beautiful with you. So rare. In your arms i felt so safe. You told me you would never let anything happen to me as long as you were there. Ughhhhhhhhhh why do i feel like this i barely even know you. We only talking for like a month. I really felt like i had known you forever. You say you cant do a relationship bc you dont wanna hurt me but why fix something that isn't broke. Im probably going to end up not talking to you as if i have a choice. Who tf knows what's going to happen in this year. You got me over thinking. Rambling on. Wish u were into me like im into you. You are so tempting. I want to keep trying but i don't want to come off annoying bc ik what its like to be on the other end. I'm usually on the other end. I don't ever feel like this and if i do it stop it. I really wanna talk to you rn. You are lagging lmao but i mean what did i expect when i texted u bc thats what i would do if i didnt wanna talk to a person anymore. I wish i would just take a hint. The days keep going by and im getting better slowly. I know ill be okay. It just sucks in the moment. I miss your family tbh lmao but i dont even really know them. Who tf am i. How did i even manage to get so attached in such a short period of time. Disgusting. I think you are so cool. I cant stop thinking about our first kiss. I remember looking at you in your car when the wind was blowing your hair and we were just feeling the music and being young. You were driving fast. I felt like i was going to die but all at the same time we were infinite and i loved feeling infinite with you. Is it wrong i miss you? You told me you loved everything about me. You made me feel wanted and you were just amazing. Im sorry things arent going to work out. Wish i could do something to change ur mind but ik i cant and i guess i gotta cope with it. Fuck it.

I really hope i can get my shit together a little faster.

Ima have a good time living

Why am i still thinking about someone that keeps making me simp

I need to live happy

Make choices that will make me happy

 March 31 2019

almost a year later and I’m not okay but a different not okay. My world no longer crumbles at the sight of you. You taught me a lot. I now understand you.

[verngyu-moved]

its the last month of 2017, and i wanted to make a special post to a few people i’ve met this year, and just express my gratitude. this was originally part of my follow forever, but i felt like it deserved its own post since i tend to ramble ◑.◑ my apologies to everyone mentioned in this since it’s kinda long + a lot of ppl are mentioned hdjfkgkdfl

amanda @beautifulshuas - amanda!! im really glad the time we had that suddenly super deep convo that u didnt feel like i was intruding on anything hahah. it was nice sharing that experience with u (but also sucky bc it’s not a good experience) and i look forward to more 1 am conversations about shitty relationship situations lmaooo

jennie @boosonseok - no offense but ur shitposts are the best thing in the entire fandom lbr, and i enjoy seeing a lot of divaboo on my dash, since he is like my little brother. i appreciate ur shadiness (u kno the time) and shoutout to the california bay area heheheh ＼(≧∇≦)/＼(≧∇≦)/

bonnie @cafewoozi - i think ive said this like 6 times but bonnie u!! are!! an angel!! i really appreciate all the help and advice you gave me this yr. u only say nice things abt ppls’ work and i still cant fathom that u actually....like....take time out of ur day to put smth nice on each post u reblog,,,, i can barely tag ppls names ??? a n g e l

kelsey @chanyoel - i lov eu thank u for putting up with w me yelling abt mingyu. u were the first person i converted to kpop.......bless. ur also one of the 5 ppl i actually text everyday (≧◡≦) u stick up for me, listen to me, and cry w me (its always bc of svt tho), thanks for being an amazing friend !!! also sorry for slacking off on @/ing u in jun posts..........i have the urge to @/you whenever i see him just kno that

sophia @gemhui - sorry i havent messaged u on tumblr much lately but ur still one of my best friends on this hellhole. weird to think we met thru another blog entirely when ur icon was scoups of ice cream and i messaged u abt it lololol thanks for being encouraging and so sweet all the time the world doesnt deserve u╰(◡‿◡✿╰) ps ur gay ashgdfjkldf

dana @jishua - dana m’luv thanks for letting me rant to u, ur rly one of the easiest ppl to talk to im so mad i waited so long to get to kno u, ur sense of humor is a+, u always have something positive to say, n ur also a #fellowcapricorn whaddup. remember the time i stayed up til 5 to watch the clap mv w u??? goOD TIMES.

jiyoon @jeonheart - jiyoon thank u for helping me learn how to gif stage performances, it prob seems like such a minor thing but it means a lot to me since i’d been trying to for abt a yr. u approached me and u didnt have to do that, and its very rare to see random acts of kindness on tumblr so i just wanted to thank u again ^^ i hope life is bein kind to u and ur in good health!!

stella @jeonqhcn - stella idk if youll see this but i hope school is going alright for u :( ur super smart (srsly) and really kind, ps jeonghan misses u (mingyu tells me jeonghan asks if you’ve said anything 2 me abt him) hope we get to talk more soon!!

adelin @pabospoiler - adelin its always a pleasure talking to u, esp when its about #tumblrstuff, since its nice to relate to someone else about being a content creator and the pros and cons of it. pls keep making ur stuff bc it is really good :( and u may not already kno this, but tbh, u are The™ Soonseok Gifmaker..............its u, bro.

renata @powerfulhoshi - u are one of the most encouraging ppl on here, ur full of nothing but positive light and energy.......u always make me feel less heavy when i talk to u, its refreshing. ur also one of the most under-appreciated content creators in this fandom,,,, wtf....im salty.....but im sure in 2018 u will be greeted w nothing but success and admiration !! bejos to u  (♥◡‿◡♥)

emmy @shuvee - emmy u are uber talented and uber intelligent!! i was not expecting to be ur friend considering u are Ultra Coole™ but its interesting talking about really serious stuff and bitching abt college :////, i didnt rly expect to ever talk to u......so im still in shock tbh. and to think this whole friendship was started bc i didnt know a ship name (wasnt it junshua)???? iconic

steffi @soonsyoung - stef idk i hope youll see this, but ik this yr has not been the greatest, but i love u i love u i love u. sorry for swerving down soonyoungs lane that 1 time. when things got shitty for me after everything that happened u were there for me, so just kno i will always be there 4 u, i miss u on here, but school is def more important and this site lowkey sucks lmao

rina @wonnwoo - !!!!! quite literally the wonwoo to my mingyu, the person who sees my ugliness and still ???? decides??? to stick w me ???? an angel. u give me the best gifts (u think im talking about the teen,age album but im rly talking about the **** and ****** recs). i will continue to better myself for the sake of u, so i can be strong for u, and help u when u need it. im #tsundere as u kno, so i apologize again if i seem cold i just jkdfglsdf have too many fluffy feelings to handle them correctly. i am also drafting a special w*nw** sm*t 4 u if u must kno

[zofias]

tod spoliers 

ever since i finished tower of dawn i’ve been wanting to write down my thoughts about it so here goes nothing lmao feel free to ignore this 

ok so tod started off pretty nicely sjm laid out the southern continent very descriptively and i was thoroughly invested bc well i was totally excited to read tod from the start and when i finally got my hands on it i was ready but not ready lol my emotions about it are just all over the place basically 

anyways i really enjoyed the aspects of the southern continent and the history of it the story of the khagans and how they are chosen was interesting the whole khagan gets to choose which child he/she wants as his/her heir was smth i got truly interested in bc its always the first born child who gets to take the crown or w/e so that was a nice change and the siblings that were introduced in tod were all dissimilar they all had such strengths to be heirs since they all specialized/lead different things like hasar had armadas and lead them sartaq had his aerial army kashin was a solider and controlled the armies on land arghun had his network of spies like i enjoyed that they all were individually so powerful i guess like thru each chapter you’d think the khagan would choose a different sibling but i was really happy that sartaq was chosen tho i did kinda feel like he would end up being heir like it became a bit obvious bc he seemed to be the one who took a stand and was like imma leave if you dont help aelin and co. 

ok lets move onto yrene towers at first i didnt know how to feel about her only bc we didnt get into her character as much yet but when she went to see chaol and nesryn for the first time i was literally laughing also idk why but the dynamic between her chaol in that first meeting made just go yup they gonna fall in love im a sucker for haters to lovers trope ok she literally despised him for a good few chapters lol yrene is freaking amazing and so badass her story was smth i really enjoyed i was really interested in her powers and all about the healers she wanted to make a difference and help her ppl and she got her wish in the end what was really cool about her was that she taught young ppl self defense even tho she knew not so much she wanted to give those girls a change to fight back and when the torre was attacked she knew how frightened that made them and made chaol come teach bc he’d be a good distraction from all the horrors i just really loved the way her mind works she was invested in the art of healing so thoroughly and yrene never backed down she was so determined to find answers like i loved her so much she was amazing slm may have faults but the way she writes female characters is really empowering LISTEN I NEED TO TALK ABOUT HOW YRENE PUSHED HASAR INTO THE WATER i legit started laughing so hard like i needed that it was so good yrene is everything if you dont want to read this book bc of chaol read for yrene ok that’s all im going to say yrene was wonderful 

chaol westfall my first thought about him was ‘my baby i hope you heal and get to fight again’ like reading about how much he didnt like it in his chair was really sad i mean i get it chaol was always really determined and he like being ready to fight and then he lost movement in his legs and his world turned upside down like when yrene was healing him and he was feeling all the darkness and remembering what his father did to him when i read that his father literally pushed/threw him out of the house made me tear up chaol hit his head hard and the son of a bitch father didnt even let chaol’s mother come to him and terrin saw and chaol felt guilty for leaving him i just was so hurt reading that and also few guards helped him leave anielle and his damn father banished them to the mountains like i hated chaol’s father and now i just cant the darkness chaol had in him was so much did he hate himself? i think so but he was so angry and things were haunting him it just made my heart hurt i loved tower of dawn bc we got to see everything about chaol what he felt what he realized it was really good throughout he kept thinking about dorian and always was so loyal to him i love it when they reunite i need sjm to have them hug for a good hour or more tbh like its needed what also made my heart shatter was what he felt for aelin in his darkness you can see how he loved her and his hate for her too like i dont know how to explain it it made me feel idk his darkness was terrible and at some parts i had to put the book down to stop feeling too much idk chaol has gone through so much and it was nice to see what he felt he conquered his darkness and realized and accepted himself his journey was rough but he found himself i was so excited to read this book only bc of him he has always been one of my fav book characters and this made me love him so much more 

CHAROENE???? i dont know chaol and yrene’s shipname but imma tell you i love them together their dynamic was wonderful they slowly became friends and trusted one another they had to somewhat quickly open up to one another bc it was the only way chaol was going to heal physically and emotionally i enjoyed seeing how they developed their relationship it was nice chaol deserved to love someone who cared for him so much my favorite part was when they got into a fight and yrene was walking away and chaol wanted to go after so he willed himself to walk ever so slightly and as he was somewhat getting closer to yrene she began teasing him and moving away to make him walk more it was so cute i liked their relationship a lot they both felt equally comfortable to talk to one another and it was like a balance you know what actually my fav part was their day out in the city when they just rode horses and yrene was healing ppl it was sweet and calm and when they went out to eat just the two of them with no agenda they both deserved smth like that i loved it ik most ppl are going to say sjm wanted to just pair everyone off with a love interest but i love these two it was unexpected esp the fact that they are linked to each other and they’re married!! but i love it im a sucker for that bond stuff ok this relationship made me love tod so much 

nesryn faliq when she was first introduced in queen of shadows i was 50/50 on how i felt about her like i liked her but also somewhat didnt but let me tell you tod made me love her chaol was an idiot for using her as he did and she realized it and it seemed she was ok with it but i loved that she got to have her adventure i loved that she got to return to home and see her family she got to explore the lands of antica with sartaq and kadara what made me like her more was that she was didnt let opportunities pass her by she decided to go with sartaq and find her adventure on her own tho i did sort of predict that her and sartaq were going to become a thing after their little flight on kadara in the beginning idk it just seemed like they would be a thing which they did but i liked it she deserved someone like sartaq there was a lot of mutual respect in their relationship which i admired i loved that thru nesryn we got to learn more about antica and the history and everything like its her home and we got to see what she felt and loved about it that was my favorite thing i also loved that she got her own ruk!! AND NESRYN CAN SING that was so amazing like it adds so much more to her i love her 

a few other things one FUCKING MAEVE IS A VALG QUEEN I HATE HER like that made me so mad and now i want to know how everyone will react to this and what they will do i hope aelin NO ROWAN RIPS HER TO SHREDS another thing lysandra and falkan being her uncle was amazing i loved that we got to learn somewhat as to how lysandra got her powers butterfly the horse made this book a million times better again yrene pushing hasar into the water was hilarious hasar deserved it lmao i really wished someone did smth like to arghun kadara deserves appreciation for being an awesome ruk when she got trapped in the spiderweb i was a wreck also again MAEVE IS A VALG QUEEN what on earth and duva being possessed by valg and throwing her younger sister off a balcony i cried and duva was pregnant that was just so sad im so happy that yrene saved her life im happy that one else died i mean chaol came close obviously again and yrene and him are now linked which is cool but also like terribly dangerous i want to see what sjm is going to do with that the healers were so cool i loved reading about the torre and the origins and everything i hope we get to see more about them yrene is bringing hundreds of them with her so it could be a possibility there was just so much going on in this book lmao

i know i just hit the surface with a lot of this but i really wanted to get my view on the three mains out chaol yrene and nesryn are amazing and you know what i loved that this book was about them finding out where they fit into this war thats booming chaol was uncertain and felt he had nothing to offer bc he was injured but realized that the chair wasnt limiting him but he himself was nesryn found that she can be her own adventure she found that her home country was her place yrene discovered that her powers could save people who are possessed by the valg and that was epic i loved that this book was more about all these characters discovering who they are rather than anything else i loved it so much i was so excited for it and it didnt disappoint me 

if you read my stupid rambling i am so grateful for you haha thank you if you want to leave your opinion go right ahead whether it agrees with mine or not im up for anything lmao also there are probably so many spelling errors im so sorry lol 

~EDIT~ UM I FORGOT TO ADD ABOUT THE FIREHEART CHAPTER I COULDNT HANDLE IT IT RUINED ME OK IM JUST NOT OK AND THE FACT THAT MAEVE HAS AND MAEVE IS VALG MAKES EVERYTHING WORSE I JUST THIS IS TERRIFYING AELIN BETTER BE OKAY I NEED HER TO BE OKAY!!! 

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Here's something else

Well this is fun it's now almost 4:30AM!

This is on and it's kinda depressing from old memories but it's nice. I've just woken my parents up by crawling up the hallway to get to the bathroom BC I needed to go to the toilet but I was loud and I didn't mean to be it was just the boots and if you've ever been up in the night then you've 'tip toed' places and as I've explained I can't even stand so that was made hard and crawling was loud so don't try that if you're thinking of using it. I've solved a couple of puzzles and now idrk what to do but listen to music and vent about how I hate but also like paracetamol extra and I'm really sensitive to caffeine before you say I'm a lightweight I'm not a coffee drinker I prefer tea and yeah it's not fill of caffeine so I have no tolerance. But yeah I'm sat in bed listening to Spotify and thinking about how I'm missing more school but you know what screw it is mean there's nothing that I can do about it now and I'll end up catching up later I'll be fine it'll just be a heavy Saturday. Also I forgot to say earlier if it is what the spine surgeon suggested then it could take surgery which really is not good BC even though it's not very invasive it still is a little invasive and it has its risks and if I didn't get it with the NHS then that'll be very very very expensive BC you know it's pricey private but well worth it BC I need to get this sorted by it's knocking the shit out of me at the moment. Oh well I guess this is all I can do for the moment. Bless my dad he's been on the phone lots and trying to get me the next appointment ASAP but idk how long it'll be we should get a phone call tomorrow (today but if I fall asleep it'll be tomorrow BC it's 4am in the morning 12-11-19) and ooh it's A's birthday!! Yeah I should text him.

Anyways where was I oh yeah basically the person we saw first privately was a spinal surgeon BC we thought it was to do with our spine but here's the kicker... It wasn't so now we have been reffered to the next person and today we found out that he doesn't deal with children which is really weird bc im 15 and fully grown almost as a man well my feet are fully grown at least. But yeah so now we're trying to get to another person who can help but that's the story so far and if we could have done anything quicker we would have. I got my MRI on a disc also it came when I was ill Friday last week which is really cool they look awesome and I also have my feet which I haven't seen anyone about yet so yeah if there's a orthopaedic Doctor out there who reads MRIs and deals with children that'd be awesome but yeah it's specialist and it's annoying BC I'm slightly worried that we won't get someone to see me quickly but it should be ok it will be ok. I feel sorry for the people around me more than me I'm literally being waited on I'm experiencing what it is like to be my bother right now that's funny (he never does anything) but still it's a lot of pressure on my family and ontop of all this since close friends are going through a tough time and that's going to be a bit overwhelming for everyone but it should be ok I mean worst case scenario I'll just wheel around the house and help out where I can but it's really hard to do that because even though I live in a bungalow which is amazing can I say and some of it is more open planned it's also really awkward to get into my room, bathroom, utility room, spare room and out of the house that's one thing I really miss that I cannot do normal things that other people can you really don't realise the amount of things I can't do anymore. I was ok with sitting out of PE or doing things that wasn't running (4 months ago I could easily stand and walk mostly) but now I can't do that at all it's just too bad. I can't go into town to meet people and for the most part they have to come to me. I haven't left the house in 3 days since I went to a party and that was hard with the codiene - also there's an update on that I'll say in a minute yeah an update within 3 Hours of rambling but I just forgot to say I'll explain in a minute - but yeah I was shattered like almost falling asleep on the sofa shattered which for me is impressive BC I used to not sleep well and I got by with lots of sugar in my system.

Now back to the medicine/drugs. The medicine I'm taking isn't fully effective BC codiene is not an anti inflammatory which isn't what would help tarsal tunnel (js all of my symptoms fit it and this was before I heard of it I'm not saying it is it it just gives me a smidge of hope that this shit show might soon come to a close) so it'll stop me feeling shattered if I stop taking those but I can keep my naproxen and amitriptyline so I might trial that BC I feel like crap with or without the painkillers but feeling tired is rubbish also so I'll just give it a go. I hope there's no withdraw from codiene like ik I'm not addicted but just wonder BC it's really strong. Oh well it'll be fine I'm sure. I'll continue this rambling soon.

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we are all fools in love

A/N: Jumping on the textfic bandwagon. This was so much fun to write, I completely understand the obsession now. Title from pride and prejudice (the book)

James Potter to Lily Evans: do u think my english lit paper could just be a review of the kira knightly pride and prejudice movie

Lily Evans: james it is 3am

James Potter: yes it is

Lily Evans: pls go to sleep

James Potter: cant this is too important 

Lily Evans: im not even in english lit ask remus

James Potter: hes asleep lily obvs it is 3am

Lily Evans: wow what a novel concept 

James Potter: but actually have you seen the kira knightly p&p its so good

Lily Evans: ofc i have ive been in love with mr darcy since i was 10 

James Potter: lily evans! how could you?!! in love with another man?!!! i am heartbroken!

Lily Evans: i am going to sleep now

James Potter: wait i actually need to know do u think i can write my paper on that

James Potter: lily? 

James Potter: lily im not kidding

Lily Evans has left the conversation. 

Sirius Black to Lily Evans: can u pls make ur boyfriend shut up abt pride and prejudice

Lily Evans: sorry i think hes ur boyfriend in this situation

Lily Evans: that reminds me can you make ur boyfriend shut up about pride and prejudice

Peter Pettigrew to is this a cool chat name?: hey prongs isnt ur 6 month anniversary with lily coming up?

James Potter: ya

James Potter: we’re going to a rlly nice dinner

James Potter: im surprising her

James Potter: theres going to be a violinist. and roses

Remus Lupin: jeez james how long have you been planning this?

James Potter: only like, 7 months

Remus Lupin: that was a logical decision

Sirius Black: gotta be prepared moony

Peter Pettigrew: i cant believe prongs will have been dating lily for 6 months on october 24th at 5:06pm its truly amazing she hasnt dumped you yet

James Potter: thanks for the vote of confidence pete

Remus Lupin: pete why do you know the exact minute they got together 

Sirius Black: well obviously he marked it in his calendar like the rest of us

Sirius Black: i cant believe you havent recorded the momentous event moony shame on you

Remus Lupin: you own a calendar?

James Potter: actually it was 5:07 

James Potter: just so u know 

Peter Pettigrew: my whole life is a lie

Sirius Black to James Potter: not coming to chem today 

James Potter: u dont take chem

James Potter: neither do i

Sirius Black: then what is the sciencey class where you evans and i sit in the back and make fun of giles the entire time

James Potter: physics

Sirius Black: r u sure

James Potter: yes

James Potter: yesterday u asked giles what exactly a physic was

James Potter: he did not find it funny

Sirius Black: yes but everyone else did 

James Potter: on the contrary lily just rolled her eyes

Sirius Black: good god prongs do u catalogue everything evans does y are you so disgustingly in love

James Potter: i dont catalogue im just perceptive

Sirius Black: r u kidding me last week sabrina morgan asked you out and you didnt even realize it

Sirius Black: and then u had to chase her down and tell her that u had a girlfriend who you were very much in love with and that u did not actually want to go out

James Potter: i dont see what that has to do with anything 

Sirius Black: thank you for proving my point

Sirius Black to yes remus i own a calendar im not a barbarian: I HAVE THE BEST IDEA FOR GRAD PRANK

Remus Lupin: if it involves balloons filled with maple syrup again sirius im leaving this chat 

Sirius Black: i would never do that again moony im not boring

Sirius Black: this time its balloons filled with molasses 

Remus Lupin has left the conversation.

James Potter: really sirius? molasses?

Sirius Black: in hindsight it may actually be worse than maple syrup

Sirius Black: back to the drawing board

Peter Pettirgew: wait i want to hear the idea 

Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: why is james being weird

Remus Lupin: what are you talking about 

Remus Lupin: he always looks like that 

Lily Evans: mary macdonald just asked him if he had any plans this weekend and he almost jumped out of his seat 

Lily Evans: and now he’s tapping his pencil against the desk. he only does that when he’s nervous 

Lily Evans: youre sitting right next to me how have you not noticed

Remus Lupin: idk you’re gonna have to ask him

Lily Evans: i tried

Lily Evans: he just said ‘err nothing why would you ask that hey did you see that movie’ and then he rambled on about some netflix documentary

Remus Lupin: that seems pretty par for the course to me

Lily Evans: come on remus

Remus Lupin: idk ask sirius

Lily Evans to Sirius Black: why is james being weird

Sirius Black: what r u talking about

Sirius Black: he always looks like that

Lily Evans to Peter Pettigrew: why is james being weird

Peter Pettigrew: idk what youre talking about

Peter Pettigrew: hes totally fine

Peter Pettigrew: nothings going on

Peter Pettigrew: just yesterday he told me he was feeling as normal as ever

Peter Pettigrew: hes definitely totally completely fine 

Peter Pettigrew has left the conversation.

James Potter to james is going to a fancy dinner hes so grown up: EMERGENCY: WHAT DO I WEAR

Peter Pettigrew: a suit?

Sirius Black: nothing

Remus Lupin: a nice shirt and a tie

James Potter: okay i have found something crisis averted

Sirius Black: breaking news: james learns to dress himself

Remus Lupin: we’re so proud of him for his achievement

James Potter changed the chat name to ‘james is going to a fancy dinner hes so grown up UNLIKE THE REST OF YOU’

Sirius Black: i feel personally victimized and attacked

Remus Lupin: i think that was the point

Peter Pettigrew: hey! i didn’t say anything!

James Potter changed the chat name to ‘james is going to a fancy dinner hes so grown up UNLIKE THE REST OF YOU minus peter’

Peter Pettigrew: thank you

Lily Evans to James Potter: thank you for tonight

Lily Evans: it was wonderful

James Potter: glad you liked it 

James Potter: these 6 months have been the best of my life

Lily Evans: mine too

James Potter: hey lily?

Lily Evans: yeah?

James Potter: i love you

Lily Evans: i love you too

Remus Lupin to James Potter: how did it go last night?

James Potter: it went great

James Potter: she loved it

James Potter: i did cut myself on one of the roses tho

Remus Lupin: oh my god

James Potter: there was a little bit of blood but i survived

Remus Lupin: glad to hear it

James Potter: on another note, do you think McGonagall will accept my english lit paper if its titled “‘Lizzie B Takes No Shit’ and Other Take Aways From Pride and Prejudice (2005)”

Remus Lupin has left the conversation

Sirius Black to fambam: BREAKING NEWS: JAMES POTTER AND LILY EVANS ARE SNOGGING IN THE CAF

Remus Lupin: sirius theyve been dating for six months

Sirius Black: IK BUT IT NEVER GETS LESS EXCITING

Lily Evans: glad to know you find us entertaining

James Potter: what did you expect lil? were like elizabeth and darcy

Sirius Black: does that make me bingley

Remus Lupin: p sure im bingley

Lily Evans: guys its obviously pete

Peter Pettigrew: aww thanks i think also is now a good time to mention that ive never actually seen this movie

James Potter: WHAT????!!!!!!!??????!!!!