#IntrusiveThoughts

[diiiiiii1]

Mis pensamientos intrusivos no me dejan dormir.

[somethingyoudesire]

I don't care if people judge me (okay fine i do but just a lil bit) but what i genuinely wanna know is how they perceive me. Do they think I'm someone worth looking at? Do they look at me and think that, "she's so great" or "Why's she like this?" or "What's wrong with her?"or do they look at me and instantly look away because looking at someone who doesn't look that great is just a waste of time? Is that what they might think? It might be 'cause naked truth? I'm not that great to look at and i do sometimes wonder whether as the books and movies, someone would genuinely wanna keep staring at me and hold the conversation themself rather than just leaving me on "liked your message" or "seen". Am i insane to think like this? Is this normal? Have all these questions started annoying you yet? Yeah, well, me too. From a long, long time.

[ssscary]

how often do you think about disappearing vs actually wanting to disappear?

if you could. Would you?

[panyav]

This video from Charlie Nebe (YT: CharlieNebe & GetTheeToTheStitchery, IG: GetTheeToTheStitchery) almost perfectly describes the way my autistic brain functions.

[rachelfeelsfeelings]

World of Hurt

I lay in bed Staring at the ceiling, it collapses overhead 

I kiss your mouth Then i’m at your funeral, putting you in the ground 

I start from zero then go to the worst  Creating this big, wide world of hurt 

Where I cook on the stove and my house catches fire I hit the road with a knife in my tire Open the door, there’s a man with a mask I’m out at the store and it’s under attack Where infectious disease is in the air that I breathe And everything is slowly killing me… In my world of hurt  

I call my mom Convince myself that each ring has set off an atomic bomb

I fall asleep Peaceful on the pillow, but I’m dreaming of world war three 

I start from zero then go to the worst  Creating this big, wide world of hurt 

Where I cook on the stove and my house catches fire I hit the road with a knife in my tire Open the door, there’s a man with a mask I’m out at the store and it’s under attack Where infectious disease is in the air that I breathe And everything is slowly killing me… In my world of hurt  

When we’re hanging out Just know you’re dead to me When we’re on the couch Know it’s a tragedy   If you still want to love me Just know that I'm cursed When you ask what i’m thinking Know it’s the worst In my world of hurt 

I touch your hair And think about how one day you will not be there In my world of hurt… In my world of hurt

[enolabar]

Sexual Orientation OCD often starts with the unsettling question of identity: how can one be certain about their sexual orientation when plagued by obsessive thoughts? For many, this mental struggle is real and perplexing. Recently, during a conversation with a friend, this topic emerged when she voiced her concerns about her relative experiencing obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) with a specific worry about being gay. It was puzzling for her, as she believed these thoughts indicated a possible hidden LGBTQ+ identity. However, as a queer individual with OCD, I knew otherwise. Let's delve into what sexual orientation OCD is and explore its nuances compared to an authentic LGBTQ+ experience. What Is Sexual Orientation OCD? Sexual Orientation OCD is a variant of obsessive-compulsive disorder known as purely-obsessional OCD. Unlike other forms of OCD, this subtype focuses predominantly on mental rumination rather than observable compulsive behaviors. Intrusive thoughts around one's sexual orientation are hallmark symptoms, leading individuals to question the gender to which they are truly attracted. While the more common scenario is straight individuals fearing they might be gay, those within the LGBTQ+ community can experience anxiety that they might actually be straight. Symptoms of Sexual Orientation OCD Several symptoms commonly illustrate sexual orientation OCD, such as: Persistent monitoring for any signs suggesting homosexuality or heterosexuality. Analyzing interactions with others to detect any sign of romantic interest or attraction. Repeatedly seeking affirmation from partners or loved ones concerning one's sexual orientation. Looking at attractive individuals from different genders to evaluate personal feelings of attraction. Consuming media about LGBTQ+ or straight experiences to find parallels with one's own life story. Sexual Orientation OCD vs. Authentic LGBTQ+ Identity The crux of understanding lies in distinguishing between sexual orientation OCD and being part of the LGBTQ+ community. Sexual orientation OCD manifests as a mental health issue characterized by unrelenting doubt and anxiety over one's orientation. In contrast, identifying as LGBTQ+ is a natural state of being. LGBTQ+ individuals' concerns often stem from external discrimination or internalized societal prejudices rather than an inherent unease about their identity. Recognizing the Differences Determining whether one is experiencing sexual orientation OCD or genuinely identifying as LGBTQ+ typically requires the expertise of a mental health professional. It is crucial to seek help from therapists who understand both OCD and LGBTQ+ issues. A helpful self-assessment is to introspect whether these intrusive thoughts align with one's true feelings and attractions. Individuals plagued by OCD may obsess over their orientation, while LGBTQ+ people naturally feel drawn to and desire relationships with those of the same gender. Ultimately, seeking professional guidance is indispensable as experts can discern through layers of doubt created by OCD and aid in the journey toward clarity. The Role of Acceptance and Self-Discovery For those grappling with sexual orientation OCD, the road to acceptance and understanding can be daunting. However, addressing these intrusive thoughts with both professional support and self-compassion is essential. Over time, many individuals learn to embrace their evolving identities, which may include sorting out genuine feelings from OCD-induced distress. In contrast, LGBTQ+ individuals often find fulfillment and joy in accepting and living their authentic lives. Though societal pressures might pose challenges, embracing one’s true self leads to genuine happiness and complete identity integration. Finding Peace Amid Uncertainty In conclusion, understanding and navigating sexual orientation OCD involves much more than distinguishing it from an LGBTQ+ identity. It requires an acceptance of the condition, patience during the exploration process, and adept professional guidance.

With these tools, both individuals with OCD and those embracing LGBTQ+ identities can lead lives grounded in authenticity and self-acceptance.  

[mentalhealthadvance]

Symptom checklist: Do I have OCD?

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is a mental health disorder that involves unwanted, intrusive thoughts (obsessions) and repetitive behaviors or rituals (compulsions) aimed at reducing anxiety. Common symptoms include excessive cleaning, repeated checking, fear of contamination, or needing things to be perfectly arranged. All these symptoms can interfere with daily life and relationships and must be addressed early. A symptom checklist may help in the identification of patterns but is no substitute for a professional diagnosis. Proper treatment in the form of therapy or medication may enable most OCD patients to lead normal lives. Identification of symptoms is the first step toward the effective management of the condition.Read more......

[heartbrokenjer]

There are too many days to count where I've contemplated sui. I'm keeping my head forward at all cost and going for the life and love I want with her and myself. I know I'm not perfect and I never will be but to all my greatest efforts ill pursue my goals, dreams, and aspirations with a iron fist. I've lost so many people this month. I've lost so much sleep, lost so many opportunities, my heart is broken... and I'm accountable because I can only hold myself to the character I walk into a room carrying. I'm not angry at the guys who laced my weed, I'm not angry at my Uncle for dropping a bomb on me I have to move in the next days, I'm not angry with my Rylee for doing what she feels is best for her right now, I'm not angry at the fellas who stole my phone, I'm not angry at the treatment I've been receiving lately from my peers and neighbors (although I don't understand the vendetta), I'm not angry my business emails have been hacked and taken from me, I'm not angry that the love I've given to the world isn't reciprocated... I'm just hurt. Devastated to be real. Yet again the years of hard work I've put in have been ripped from me. I was on a hiatus... an extensive one at that and I'm not proud of it but I kicked ass 4 years in a row and my mind body and soul needed the reboot. The Woman I love will always and 5EVA be a rose in my garden and soon I'll be able to show her that just as I'll equally show up for myself. I've broken the most beautiful thing in my life and in turn I'm broken as well. To my friends and family I've fallen out with all i can say is where did we go wrong?? I ask genuinely where was it? So I may correct myself and counsel myself. Along side it all ill be going to therapy so I can be a better me for myself and those around me. Most will see this as a haux or I'm just talking from the side of my neck but I promise you world I am being genuine and I won't argue that with anyone. Idk what will be on the other end of the tunnel but I'm hopeful that everything will fall into alignment. With all my heart I've tried to remain in my heart space even when being played against those I love by those that hate. I've forgiven much and I'll continue to do so because it's just in my nature and I won't let anyone change my heart in that manner. I love who I love even if there's nothing being poured in my glass, ill find away to squeeze some into my cup as well... Somehow I will. I'm accountable for my actions and reactions and I'm also hurt that everyone and everything has simultaneously been taken at once. But whats done in the dark comes to light and my heart and character will shine through whatever is being put on my shoulders. With or without help. To those that have went to hell and back for I'm deeply sorry and I just ask for a smidge of patience while I work through these thresholds. And to my love Rylee I'm working on myself non stop and I will not stop because I want to be your Man and your Rock and I want to show up for you and our kids everyday for the rest of my life. Again I'm accountable and it starts with me... Everyone I promise ill make my adjustments as speedy as possible but I won't rush my process... I recently came out of my hole I dug myself in due to my mental health and I truly from the bottom of my heart will return that love to you all, ESPECIALLY MY RY❤ Thank you for your love and patience and I look forward to show myself and you all why my name is regard so highly. I'm off to therapy Friday so I ask everyone send me positive energy to have the strength to return as authentically as possible. I'm a work in progress and again, my deepest apologies.

-Jerimiah W💔

[enimaximus]

I hate the feeling of emptiness when I go to bed because I have no one to cuddle with (yet)

[mendorajames]

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[somethingyoudesire]

When did we all become so doomed?

[whatsmyfavouritecolor]

I had a conversation with my friend today. I was venting to him about my friends not really knowing me that well ( it is my own fault cause im guarded but anyway ) and I said to him. I know a lot of people because I have lived in this area my entire life and I know that if I had to end my life, there would be alot of people there to mourn and pay their respects but how many of them would of known my favourite color? It made him really sad because I don't think people have really ever thought about that. It's one of the most simplest things you can learn about a person yet no one cares enough to ask. I don't understand why.

[ellieisdead2u]

An idea that I needed to scratch out quickly before I forgot.