my dearest anon i am so sorry but popping back in after dealing with serious life events that have been sucking all excitement and will/time to draw from 2024 to this and only this was really. agh
You’re Imogen Temult. You’re on this quest to learn more about your strange powers that started appearing and growing as you matured into an adult.
You hear everyone’s thoughts all the time. You have to actively work to shut out all the noise in your head. You lose sleep over terrifying nightmares about red storms.
You scared away everyone in your hometown with your powers to the point where your own father can barely look at you. And so you go out in search of answers. In search of your mother who has been missing most of your life.
You meet people along the way you grow close to and allow yourself to open up to them. They support you in your quest and help you understand that you can control your powers and you don’t need to be afraid of them.
You’re starting to feel like you have family again - but then you find out your mother is still alive and just so happens to be wrapped up in a cult dead set on destroying the gods by releasing a powerful force upon the world.
You’re grappling with the knowledge that your mom is actually out there. And she might not only have answers for you but she might be able to help you control your magic so you can protect the people around you from yourself. But, she’s working with this cult that is planning on changing the future of the world through extremely destructive means.
You’re then forced to go back to your hometown where everyone is still cold towards you. You face your father again after years apart and it’s not the warm welcome you so desperately need. But you make it through with the help of your friends.
You and your friends are getting close to doomsday. The clock is ticking on the end of the world as you know it. You think you can reach your mom. Maybe if she’s on your side, you can take down the cult together and save the world. So you try and reach her through your subconscious.
You get to finally communicate with her- free from the restraints of your nightmares and she tells you that you could both finally feel at peace. You could rid yourself of the heavy burden you carry. You could be free. Finally.
So you think about it for a moment. What would peace feel like? Maybe a world without gods wouldn’t be such a bad thing.
But it’s at the expense of so many lives. It’s achieved through a path of destruction and despair that would tear the world asunder.
You’re reminded of this and have to handle the feelings of loss all over again with knowledge that you might not be able to get through to your mom. She might never change her mind, let alone in time for the countdown.
To save the world, you might have to kill your mother.
"You are more beautiful than an endlessly starry night, if I had a star for every time that I felt something for you.. I would have enough stars to fill up all of the space and then some. It would be wall to wall stars, only heat.."
You are that beautiful.. some girls truly inspire beauty - eUë
As Forte matures and continues to gain confidence in his training I can't help but appreciate his ability to work calmly and think through situations.
I had him tucked between me and the self checkout station at the grocery store. Without direction from me he got up and sat behind me, which is a trained task called blocking. It took me a few seconds to clock what he had. An unhappy customer was loudly complaining to an employee and coming towards us. They ended up getting so far into our space that they ended up almost on top of Forte. I don't think it was intentional, they were likely just too wrapped up in themselves to be cognizant of other people's space.
Forte didn't budge. Just looked at the person and then back at me. I paid him with chicken and told him he was a good boy. His tail thumped softly against the floor but he didn't get up.
While moving to sit behind me may seem like such a small thing, it makes a big difference for me. Due to my disability being crowded or bumped into can have negative consequences for me.
And I have to be impressed because that small thing is actually a big ask of most dogs. He didn't lean in to sniff or solicit attention from the other person, even though he's friendly and loves making friends. He didn't give to the spatial pressure of a stranger standing that close to him and move away. He didn't feed off of the annoyed energy of the other person or my getting uncomfortable.
He assessed the situation, loud person coming towards us, acted, moved into a block position, and held it until I was ready to leave.
A lot of service dog training isn't flashy or impressive to watch. But I'm so grateful to have him by my side. I know how much it truly asks of the dog and watching him embrace the challenge makes my heart grow three sizes.