#Like I Used To

[morbid-empress]

I just realized I have over 2,000 followers

Thank you, especially mutuals 💕 xoxo

[theicarusconstellation]

i hate this i’d like to go back to online uni please

[ladyurbosa]

You know that friend that watches everything you do on social media, but very rarely, if ever, interacts with you? It's giving secret hater tbh.

[songspiral]

"Like I Used To" by Sharon Van Etten & Angel Olsen

[buttery-chaos]

im making slow progress on the next chapter guyz 🫡 slow.. but progress i think i overthink what im writing too much grrr

[alvertesongdiary]

Sharon Van Etten & Angel Olsen - Like I Used To

Will the marker stain the skin? Stole the dress I saw you in Now nothing comes to mind. Saw a life as override, One more session overdrive. The ceiling is the roof

Change address and draw a line Show my friends the silver lines Call my family just to know they’re there

Sleepin’ in late like I used to Crossing my fingers like I used to Waiting inside like I used to Avoiding big crowds like I used to

Crawl the field and let you in Brand my heart I found you in To say nothing’s more apart Will my lover be there, stay Follow them to less the pain The ceiling must be wrong

Well my head’s gone today Sell my past for a way to sing and have something left to say Pray my hands, pray my voice Give the reason, take away Make believe an order for to stay

Lighting one up like I used to Dancing all alone like I used to Giving it up like I used to Falling in love like I used to

Open my heart like I used to Making out long like I used to Holding hands openly, rights to taking what’s mine like I used to

Like I used to (like I used to) Like I used to (like I used to)

01/02/2024

[squirmydonnie]

Vent art:

I was in my uniform for ROTC but I haven't ever worn this one before. I tried to tie my shoe on the boots but I've never laced boots before.

This was just me trying to express my feelings. I can never really say them or write them how I actually feel. I'm always stopping myself.

This is as close as I get

[ashyblondwaves]

I really need to get into the habit of writing anywhere. I used to write to just sit in the living room in broad daylight and write fanfiction. That of course was when the kids were small and didn't understand what I was doing. Now that they know, they'll ask 800 questions and roast me, so I tend to only write when I'm by myself now.

But let them roast me. I don't hide the fact that I write fanfiction from them. They're just nosey little things and will want to read it and while I'd like to think I'm a pretty cool parent, I will not let my kids read my stories lol.

[s0fars0perfect]

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[roses-and-elixir]

Keep coming back to the thought that everything I thought was hard and would avoid actually wasn’t that bad once I got through it. It’s so freeing realising this. I just need a bit of support and a lot of practice.

[rizzshimura]

guys, why is tumblr so boring these days lmao

[meme-loving-stuck]

the hardest part about having an addictive personality is like. you KNOW you can try to discipline yourself or just keep facing the consequences of the bad thing until you finally steel yourself and say 'no. no more bad thing. because it makes me feel bad'

like you KNOW youre capable of doing it. everyone is. and youve done it... maybe once? twice?

but for you, that resolve to finally stop and recover is locked behind a door that everyone SWEARS has a key and you just need to discipline yourself to find it. but you have disciplined yourself and you have tried everything and your fucking door doesnt have a key. it just doesnt. so you can hardly remember a time when you got to just... say no. and unlock the door

and you know that at SOME rare points in your life you have had something so catastrophically bad happen related to the addiction (usually involving hospitalization or something equally serious) that you broke the fucking locked door down and finally stopped. so you know it CAN be open and you CAN see the other side of that door.

it's just way fucking harder when the key to yours doesnt exist.

[hierneneuro]

dude university is all i wanted it to be but it's like.

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[girldraki]