#like i used to

[buttery-chaos]

im making slow progress on the next chapter guyz 🫡 slow.. but progress i think i overthink what im writing too much grrr

[alvertesongdiary]

Sharon Van Etten & Angel Olsen - Like I Used To

Will the marker stain the skin? Stole the dress I saw you in Now nothing comes to mind. Saw a life as override, One more session overdrive. The ceiling is the roof

Change address and draw a line Show my friends the silver lines Call my family just to know they’re there

Sleepin’ in late like I used to Crossing my fingers like I used to Waiting inside like I used to Avoiding big crowds like I used to

Crawl the field and let you in Brand my heart I found you in To say nothing’s more apart Will my lover be there, stay Follow them to less the pain The ceiling must be wrong

Well my head’s gone today Sell my past for a way to sing and have something left to say Pray my hands, pray my voice Give the reason, take away Make believe an order for to stay

Lighting one up like I used to Dancing all alone like I used to Giving it up like I used to Falling in love like I used to

Open my heart like I used to Making out long like I used to Holding hands openly, rights to taking what’s mine like I used to

Like I used to (like I used to) Like I used to (like I used to)

01/02/2024

[squirmydonnie]

Vent art:

I was in my uniform for ROTC but I haven't ever worn this one before. I tried to tie my shoe on the boots but I've never laced boots before.

This was just me trying to express my feelings. I can never really say them or write them how I actually feel. I'm always stopping myself.

This is as close as I get

[ashyblondwaves]

I really need to get into the habit of writing anywhere. I used to write to just sit in the living room in broad daylight and write fanfiction. That of course was when the kids were small and didn't understand what I was doing. Now that they know, they'll ask 800 questions and roast me, so I tend to only write when I'm by myself now.

But let them roast me. I don't hide the fact that I write fanfiction from them. They're just nosey little things and will want to read it and while I'd like to think I'm a pretty cool parent, I will not let my kids read my stories lol.

[s0fars0perfect]

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[roses-and-elixir]

Keep coming back to the thought that everything I thought was hard and would avoid actually wasn’t that bad once I got through it. It’s so freeing realising this. I just need a bit of support and a lot of practice.

[rizzshimura]

guys, why is tumblr so boring these days lmao

[ryssbelle]

Progress Update:

It's been a while since I did one of these lol, sorry for the radio silence after the last update and threat to Ravios life, I've been organizing stuff and doing other fun things in the background.

But I've also been stuck at work, August was a busy month for me due to back to school sales (I work in retail) and us having 7 people quit due to going back to school. I'm not mad at them, like I'd rather they get their education then be stuck at retail like me lmao, it's just lead to a lot more work on my plate and a lit more exhaustion then I had before. All of that plus getting Covid for the second time this year has drained the life out of me so making content like I did before is a bit difficult.

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All that aside tho, as to not leave you in the dark heres the to do list I have:

I'm working on something big for @discarded-grace which is why that's gone dead for the moment.

Once that's done I'm actually going to switch back to Branching timelines to get out an update for that.

Once that's complete I can finish the DTBS update that has already been drafted!

In between I want to do little doodles and such for DTBS to jot only flesh out the story but to get in more bird content that I wasn't able to get in before!

I'm going to try and get this all done as soon as I can tho I am just one person who has a life outside of this. My brain can only do so much, but thank you for being patient with me, I know it's not always easy especially when I have these long breaks, but thank you for sticking around despite that!

I hope to bring you all quality content soon!

[meme-loving-stuck]

the hardest part about having an addictive personality is like. you KNOW you can try to discipline yourself or just keep facing the consequences of the bad thing until you finally steel yourself and say 'no. no more bad thing. because it makes me feel bad'

like you KNOW youre capable of doing it. everyone is. and youve done it... maybe once? twice?

but for you, that resolve to finally stop and recover is locked behind a door that everyone SWEARS has a key and you just need to discipline yourself to find it. but you have disciplined yourself and you have tried everything and your fucking door doesnt have a key. it just doesnt. so you can hardly remember a time when you got to just... say no. and unlock the door

and you know that at SOME rare points in your life you have had something so catastrophically bad happen related to the addiction (usually involving hospitalization or something equally serious) that you broke the fucking locked door down and finally stopped. so you know it CAN be open and you CAN see the other side of that door.

it's just way fucking harder when the key to yours doesnt exist.

[nikolailantsovhoe]

Ppl: This new final fantasy game looks good

Me: Really??

[shimenawas]

4NEMO SMAU,,,

[bocikashitposting]

I hate hotdogs.

Yet every time I get the chance, I eat one.

And every time I feel like I have to throw up after eating it.

I have been doing this since I was 3 years old.

Some things just never change, I guess..

[hierneneuro]

dude university is all i wanted it to be but it's like.

[ringneckedpheasant]

cubs in five is a gay solavellan song send tweet

[theboxfort]

Peace and love