Spare eddie hcs? Pls Migz, spare eddie hcs? I miss you writing the boy!
i am SO sorry i am like a week and a half late to this, please forgive me 🥺lets talk about eddie
i think he gets really good at being bad. not... bad per say, but he gets really good at things like sneaking out and standing up to sonia. after the hospital incident, it’s like he’s tugged at a loose thread on his shirt and it’s starting to unravel, you know? they say bravery is addicting...
after he gets home from the hospital he bikes to the grocery store and picks up a carton of peanut butter. when he gets home, he pops the lid of his epipen and shoves a giant spoonful of jif brand into his mouth and squeezes his eyes closed while he chewed and waited for his throat to close up. but... it didn’t. also, peanut butter is way slimier than he’d imagined.
eddie memorized the way the stairs creaked. if he stepped to close to the banister on the fifth and seventh step, he’d wake his mom. after being caught once, eddie started practicing during the day; sonia had only barely accepted the shaky i’m thirsty excuse he’d given, bathrobe just barely covering his windbreaker. now, he could get downstairs and out the back door in under thirty seconds with professional ease and barely the sound of a mouse’s yawn.
bev’s always the first to jump into the quarry, until she isn’t. richie and eddie are standing at the edge arguing about which of them was the real winner of loogie when stan said, scraping dirt out from under his nail, the real winner would jump off right now. eddie turned, gave himself a few steps, and then launched himself into the water before bev had even tugged off her dress.
beat that, richie
eddie learns to sneak out so he can hang out with the losers after dark, of course. that’s what he tells himself, because it’s true - and it is. the thing is, the more and more he successfully sneaks out, the more and more it becomes just him and richie and bill, roaming the barrens for dead bodies (not funny richie) or maybe the cure to eddie’s virginity (beep BEEP richie). and then, after awhile, it’s just eddie and richie most of the time.
(if you ask ben, or bev, or mike, or stan, or the entire town of derry, maybe, that’s how it always is.)
and then, eddie learns a lot of things really fast. peanut butter is slimy (and he’s not allergic), there’s twelve steps on his staircase and all but one creak somewhere, and... he might be a little in love with richie. probably not, though - it’s just richie, right? richie’s eyes have always been this green, his laugh has always been this high-pitched, and his smile has always made eddie’s hand itch for his inhaler.
fuck. shit.
eddie quits being brave cold turkey. it feels like a logical decision.
eddie’s heart doesn’t get on board though, you know? it still wraps its hands around his rib cage and rattles them like cell bars, demanding to pop out of his chest at any moment. one time, eddie watched richie wipe spaghetti sauce off his chin with the back of his hand - and then lick it off the back of his hand. eddie was fully prepared to vomit, but also that familiar rattle rattle clunked behind his lungs. it’s called nuance
so maybe eddie’s in love with richie. it’s fine. it’s cool. maybe one day he’ll remember how to be brave; maybe one day richie and him will be standing at the top of the quarry at midnight, each of them trying to hock a bigger loogie, and after they both wipe the spit from their mouths and richie’s stopped laughing about eddie’s hitting the rock instead of the water, they’ll look at each other. maybe then eddie will tell him.
(he will. it just takes awhile. richie never sees it coming, but the rest of the losers have nearly lost their patience.)
so yeah i guess this is a really roundabout way to say eddie figures out he really likes peanut butter, despite the way it sticks to the roof of his mouth. he does, however, like the feeling of richie’s hand in his way, way more.
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for migz/goop ( @eddiekissbrak ) on her 23rd birthday. i don’t write much but have this ily
it’s in the way he looks back at you to see if you’re laughing at one of his jokes. his mouth is moving in reply to someone else, but his eyes are on you as you say, “really funny, spaghetti”. his smile widens and he turns back around, almost walking into bev.
it’s in the way he grabs your glasses and cleans them with a cleaning rag he keeps in his pocket. “do you keep that just for me?” you ask, overly batting your eyelashes and his cheeks lightly flush as he gently hands them back to you and mutters, “they’re your glasses, learn to clean them”. which. isn’t a yes or no. but you know what it means.
it’s in the way he dismisses a suggestion for lunch because he knows you don’t like the food. it’s quick and everyone moves on, but you catch it and your heart thumps just ever so slightly. later, when everyone is eating lunch, he’s in the bathroom when the waiter comes by for everyone’s order so you order a strawberry lemonade for him and a classic lemonade for you. you know it’s his favorite drink. you know each other like that.
it’s in the way he keeps all of the rocks you’ve given him over the years. you give him a rock if you find it cool or weird, and it’s never a Big Thing. you hand him the rock and he takes it and places it in his pocket. you assume he washes them after. but he has a shelf in his room that’s mostly taken up with rocks from the years of friendship. neither of you say anything about it.
it’s in the way that he lightly jogs after the car as you leave Derry. everyone that’s left waves with watery eyes as your car pulls away. but not him. he follows your car to the end of the block, waving as he does so. he shouts a goodbye as you turn a corner, watching him grow smaller in the rear window until he’s gone completely.
it’s in the way his face is one of panic when he sees you again for the first time in nearly three decades. there’s recognition there, and your stomach flips over and your heart slams in your chest and you decide to drink as much and as soon as you can. he doesn’t take his eyes off of you for the majority of the night, while you avoid looking at him. at one point you arm wrestle and you want to put all your effort into it just to keep feeling his hand in yours.
it’s in the way his eyes are so trained on you as you tell him he’s brave. nobody has gotten through to him. but here you two are, and the words are easy and “you’re braver than you think” is a phrase that you can see hits him. and you know he doesn’t fully believe it just yet. but he trusts you. for as loud as you are, for as dirty as your insults are, you’re who he trusts most.
it’s in the way your name is his exclamation as he’s pierced through his chest. he’s being thrown like a ragdoll and all you can think is “eddie” and all he said was “richie” and it means something, but neither of you have put it together. he said your name as if you could save him or make this all a bad dream. and you try to. you do what you remember seeing people do on tv or in movies. but it isn’t enough. and you put it together as you bring his stuff to his wife and she mentions that you’re the comedian he always watched.
it’s love. it’s in the way he smiled at you, the way he would fire comebacks at you, the way he always squeezed into that hammock with you. it’s in the way the words never left your lips. it’s in the way he’ll never hear them. but it’s there.
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My Favorite 20 ‘17 Tunes + Scuzzzy Pop Awards 2017
Presenting a run down of the tracks that kept me singing, humming and grooving the whole 365 days of 2017. Top 20 ‘17 tunes + the bubbling under tracks (21-99):
Ed Sheeran - Perfect
Harry Styles - Sign Of The Times
Sam Smith - Too Good At Goodbyes
LANY - Super Far
Ed Sheeran - Castle On The Hill
James Arthur - Say You Won't Let Go (last year’s #5)
LANY - ILYSB
Ed Sheeran - Shape Of You
Lord Huron - The Night We Met
Zedd with Alessia Cara - Stay
Lauv - I Like Me Better
The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This
Selena Gomez - Only You
LANY - 13
Shawn Mendes - There's Nothing Holding Me Back
Linkin Park - One More Light
Bruno Mars - Versace On The Floor (last year’s #26)
Logic feat. Alessia Cara & Khalid - 1-800-273-8255
Clean Bandit feat Sean Paul & Anne-Marie - Rockabye
Bruno Mars - That's What I Like
+ BUBBLING UNDER TRACKS…
Demi Lovato - Sorry Not Sorry
Good Great Fine Ok & Before You Exit - Find Yourself
AJR - Weak
Ed Sheeran with Beyonce - Perfect Duet
Justin Bieber feat. Blood Pop - Friends
Pink - Beautiful Trauma
Niall Horan - Too Much To Ask
Louis Tomlinson feat. Bebe Rexha & Digital Farm Animals - Back To You
Rico Blanco - Sorry Naman
David Guetta feat. Justin Bieber - 2U
Martin Garrix feat. Troye Sivan - There For You
Kyla & Jason Dy - Tayo Na Lang Kasi
The Script - Rain
Charlie Puth - Attention
Eminem feat. Beyonce - Walk On Water
Clean Bandit feat. Zara Larsson - Symphony
John Mayer - Love on the Weekend (last year’s #37)
TJ Monterde feat. KZ Tandingan - Ikaw At Ako Pa Rin
Mark Carpio - Hiling
Luis Fonsi feat. Justin Bieber - Despacito (Remix)
KZ Tandingan - Two Less Lonely People In The World
Kygo feat. Justin Jesso - Stargazing
Migz Haleco - Bes
Ely Buendia and The Itchyworms - Lutang
Pink - What About Us
3D - Burnout
Paramore - Fake Happy
Zayn and Taylor Swift - I Don't Wanna Live Forever
John Legend - Love Me Now (last year’s #35)
James Arthur - Can I Be Him
Maroon 5 feat. SZA - What Lovers Do
Lorde - Green Light
Billie Eilish - Bored
Eminem feat. Ed Sheeran - River
Machine Gun Kelly x Camila Cabello - Bad Things (last year’s #68)
Kygo feat. Selena Gomez - It Ain't Me
JP Cooper - September Song
Machine Gun Kelly feat. X Ambassadors & Bebe Rexha - Home
Alessia Cara - How Far I'll Go (last year’s #77)
Khalid - Young Dumb & Broke
Drake - Passionfruit
Ben&Ben - Maybe The Night
Isaiah - It's Gotta Be You
Josh Groban - Evermore
Unit 406 - Tanghaling Tapat
Charlie Puth - How Long
The Weeknd feat. Daft Punk - Starboy (last year’s #31)
Lady Gaga - The Cure
Silent Sanctuary - Malayo Na Tayo
Louis Tomlinson - Miss You
The Ransom Collective - Tides
Linkin Park feat. Kiiara - Heavy
TJ Monterde - Mahika
Alessandra De Rossi - Twelve
Imagine Dragons - Thunder
Ebe Dancel feat. Rachel Alejandro - Kahapon, Ngayon At Bukas
TJ Monterde - Kahit Kunwari
The Ransom Collective - Open Road
Logan Paul feat. Why Don't We - Help Me Help You
Sir Sly - High
ONE OK ROCK - American Girls
Jonas Blue feat. William Singe - Mama
She's Only Sixteen - Magic
December Avenue - Sa Ngalan Ng Pag-ibig
Clean Bandit feat. Julia Michaels - I Miss You
Niall Horan - This Town (last year’s #43)
Imagine Dragons - Walking The Wire
The Japanese House - Cool Blue
Zayn & Sia - Dusk Till Dawn
Bamboo - C@ll
Artists for Grenfell - Bridge Over Troubled Water
Maroon 5 feat. Future - Cold
Francis and the Lights feat. Chance The Rapper - May I Have This Dance (Remix)
Inigo Pascual feat. Aikee - Extensyon
UDD - Sigurado
Quest - Walang Hanggan
DJ Khaled feat. Justin Bieber, Quavo, Chance The Rapper, Lil Wayne - I'm The One
Maroon 5 feat. Kendrick Lamar - Don't Wanna Know (last year’s #19)
Kaye Cal - The Labo Song
Scuzzzy Pop Awards 2017:
Favorite Female Artist:
Alessia Cara
Pink
Selena Gomez
Favorite Male Artist:
Bruno Mars
Ed Sheeran
James Arthur
Favorite Duo / Group / Band
LANY
Linkin Park
The Script
Favorite Breakthrought Artist:
Ben&Ben
Khalid
SZA
OPM Awards:
Favorite OPM Band: The Ransom Collective
Favorite Female Artist: KZ Tandingan
Favorite Male Artist: TJ Monterde
Songs included in the list are my 20 favorite songs of the year. Rankings and Pop Awards results were based on the number of accumulated points garnered by each song on my personal weekly music countdown (chart geek / weirdo alert!) dated December 24, 2016 - December 29, 2017.
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