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sleepymccoy · 4 years

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Aziraphale’s demon aspect

As voted by 246 people!

The winner is

Owl

with nearly 26% of the primary vote

many people added in their free form answers that they were imagining a barn owl specifically

Owl was the front runner the whole way through this survey, but most of the time by a very beatable margin. The 40 or so people who voted in the last night really tipped it over, it was a tight race! And the results are crazy split imo, a quarter of votes constitutes a win! I love the different opinions and ideas we all have so so much

Ram/sheep came in a hearty second with 16.5% of the vote

A very regal demon there.

After that it gets a little murky, so I’m going to share the second graph I made when is every animal that got more than 1% of the vote. So it’s the top six animals

Magpie and Lion holding strong! Then Moth and Goat looking very good

The second question let you vote for as many options as you thought were appropriate for Aziraphale! So, there were a lot more write-ins! It’s crazy!

I’m using google sheets so I can’t get it to show you every name, but the raw data will be in a read more so you can scroll through everyone’s beautiful imagination there

Again, Owl winds with a solid 20% of the vote. Ram/Sheep coming in with about 15%, followed by Moth, Magpie, Goat, Lion, then Tortoise.

Tortoise was 11th in the first round, tied with Snake (but pale), and managed to surprise me by coming through so strong in the second. Slow and steady, baby.

Nearly everyone who wrote in about Magpies told me that Magpies hoard stuff, so it’s nice to see the hive mind at work there!

Five people told me they were voting goat because of that one piece of art by @hollow-head that shows Aziraphale scaling a bookshelf like goats do cliffs. As an artist myself I found it legitimately moving that this one image had stayed with people so strongly. That’s just beautiful. Here’s an example of just one person’s comment

idk dude i just remember one person posted art of him scaling the bookstore shelves like those goats scale mountains and just eating his clothes while he reads it was so fuckin funny but anyway goat eyes are great or he could have lil stubby horns that r covered by his hair

One moth enthusiast took the time to give me a short essay on their choice of moth. I have included a portion of it, cos it was so great

So if I had to choose an insect, it would be a moth, preferably a Megalopygidae, also known as the Flannel Moth. They are fluffy, white-beige and look innocent and fluffy, but their larvae can cause painful inflammations. A poodle moth would also fit because it's almost pure white.

Here’s a flannel moth for everyone

and a poodle moth, which i honestly thought was a hoax but i looked into it just now and it seems legit? There’s not a tonne of proof, but the og pictures are from a scientists who stands by them, so like, wow

And then a DIFFERENT PERSON put this in;

the moth i had in mind is Acherontia atropos, in polish called Zmierzchnica trupia główka (meaning more or less "dusk death's head"). i have a whole symbolism planned out and stuff

Fucking, moth fandom come through!!

I’m vaguely scared of moths, fun fact. I don’t like the thick thunking sound they make when they hit stuff.

Here is the second round but with all the animals that got four or less votes removed for ease of viewing

the one segment there at 12 o’clock that google hasn’t labeled for me is Swan at 0.9%

I cannot believe I didn’t put swan in as an option, that’s all write-ins

So, to summarise, I suggest you take a lot of this with a grain of salt. It is not meant as an instruction to fandom or to railroad creativity. I have a narrow corner of the Good Omens fandom that I interact with, and while this quiz was up for a week I’m not sure it reached a great variety of people. About 250 folks filled it out, which was tonnes more than I expected and I love each and every one of you for filling it out!! But I have noticed that Owl was first on my list and in the free form answers the example prompt I gave included, “such as a breed of owl that specifically speaks to you,“ so I think it’s possible I did that unknowing bias thing that practiced survey folk know now to do. So, grain of salt.

I also think that if animals like Swan and Cat were in the list of options they’d’ve gotten more votes because the people who voted for those were coming up with it fresh themselves. I suspect people would’ve voted for them, but it just didn’t occur to them in the moment. In much the same way it didn’t occur to me in the moment I was writing this survey.

So people know, I got the ten or so animals that I put in the survey from searching the demon!aziraphale tag on tumblr, so it was all stuff that other people had come up with. I was trying to avoid my own bias, but i think in hindsight i could’ve done better!

Having said all that, this was all so much fun and the results are clear!!! Love a good owl!aziraphale

Imma continue to draw my boy as a ram, though. Cos this was all just for a laugh <3

numbers and a few more things under the cut

So some of these have half a vote ascribed to them. That’s for people who in their freeform answer said things like this;

ngl, that one post about him being a swan still makes me laugh

Mourning Dove. Though that Scallop answer was fucking brilliant

And I kinda made a judgement call that that wasn’t a vote, but it was kind of a vote. So I gave them half a point.

There were a few situations where people would write in a specific species. If I got more than one vote for the root animal I just grouped them together, but if it stayed the only vote then it kept the species. Cat got the most specific species mentioned, and in the second vote Bat had a few species mentioned (albino bat being my fave), but I ended up grouping them all just under Cat and Bat to give them a better chance of getting on the graph. There were probably a few other examples but I can’t think of them. The one exception to this is the person who wrote-in Duolingo Owl specifically. For that one I figured Owl is already pretty solid, and that’s just fucking funny, man

I was also pretty generous about some stuff. So, this person didn’t vote for Moose but they clearly regretted it so I added a vote for Moose in the second one where you could vote for multiples. They kept their Ram and Goat votes, of course, but I added Moose for them

I get very bastard energy from my demon az headcanons. Like f-ing shit up for a laugh more than anything, but otherwise indifferent. That's kinda why I like the ram/sheep/goat thing so much because it reminds me of indifference and random chaos. Or a moose. Shit, I should have written in moose

So yeah, it’s hardly a double blind study that’d stand up to any real criticism, but it was fun and I think the essence of it is fun!! Scroll through and have a read. Imma pull a few more of my fave write-ins and put them down the bottom cos it’s great. Esp the ones that only got one vote, the reasonings were stellar on some of those

Here is the first vote results, where everyone could only vote for one animal each

Owl 63 Ram/Sheep 40 Magpie 28 Lion 26 Moth 21 Goat 17 Swan 4 Eagle 4 Dove 4 Cat 4 Tortoise 3 Snake 3 Scallop 2 Rat 2 Rabbit 2 Mongoose 2 Badger 2 Shima Enaga 1 Shark 1 Porcupine 1 Orangutan 1 Mouse 1 Long Furby 1 Hippopotomaus 1 Goose 1 Duck 1 Dragon 1 Cow 1 Cereberus 1 Boar 1 Bee 1 Bat 1 Alpaca 1

Second Vote results, where everyone could vote for as many as they wanted

Owl1 82 Ram/Sheep 136 Moth 108.5 Magpie 98 Goat 96 Lion 72 Tortoise 61 Snake 37 Eagle 33 Cat 9.5 Swan 7.5 Lizard 4 Rabbit 4 Badger 3 Mongoose 2 Dove 2 Mouse 2 Squirrel 2 Bear 2 Raccoon 2 Capybara 2 Dragon 2 Bat 1 Long Furby 1 Rat 1 Boar 1 Goose 1 Peacock 1 Pangolin 1 Lindworm 1 Moose 1 Chinchilla 1 Duolingo Owl 1 Cackatoo 1 Crow 1 Cow 1 Alpaca 1 Dodo 1 Shark 1 Big Dog 1 Snow Leopard 1 Scallop 0.5

All voting was optional. To help explain how scallop lost 1.5 votes from first to second, I believe the people who voted for it in the first question just skipped the second cos they’d said their bit.

In terms of how many people engaged with the questions, Q1 had 245 answers and one skip. Q2 had 241 answers and 5 skips, and Q3 where I just let people talk at me if they wanted to had 84 answers and 162 skips.

So please enjoy my selection of free form answers. They all made me smile but putting all 84 in seems excessive to me, so I’ve chosen the ones that are either full blown mini essays or that make me laugh. It’s still a lot, this project brought me so much joy

Shima enaga - It's the hair man

Cow (aka golden calf)

Scallop. He is a snack.

Swan. Elegant but very capable of fscking you up. Mates for life.

basically anything that is both gentle in nature and fiercely loyal, territorial and protective (but prone to anxiety). Also hedonistic esp. with food. For all of these reasons, I think a dog would be the best choice.

Dragon with his hoard of books

it’s about the teeth. just too sharp and too many to be human. (comment from op here, this person voted for shark, just for context)

Turkish Angora cat. Magnificently fluffy, incredibly intelligent, love heights and will jump off crazy high things and land on your head, gloriously dignified until they see a string and run into a wall, love one or maybe two persons to distraction and want everyone else to fuck off, will drape themselves over their person’s shoulders and go to sleep, range from “will jump in the sea to hunt fish and has a murder pit full of seagulls they’ve massacred” to “will fall over at the sight of a baby bird”, very particular about food and will yell at you if you get it wrong. Also the breed that some asshole took three cats from and bred parent to child to make Persians. The cautionary tale has been acknowledged and we love our crazy smart, single braincelled children.

I usually imagine him as an owl because they are nocturnal (and we know that Aziraphale can easily stay awake the whole night reading). Also the image of an owl puffed up is kind of ridiculous and reminds me of him, of how an annoyed Aziraphale would look. However the options above have made me think that a lion would suit him very well, too. A lion or just a very BIG cat. I mean, he makes pleading eyes to get what he wants, likes to be confortable, is a bit of a bastard and often puts himself in awkward situations from which he needs to be rescued. He just... acts very cat-like in my opinion. Also owls and cats are both predators, but are usually imagined (or, at least cats are) as cute little creatures, just like Aziraphale is an Angel of the Lord (a Warrior, actually) but looks all soft and cute and huggable. I dunno. Maybe I just want to pet an Aziracat.

I love all the other people's thoughts about demon!Aziraphale, but what about the honey badger? I try to explain why I have it in mind for demon!azi: its name (I think it's funny, expecially in English because 'honey' can make you imagine it's something sweet (it is for me), while the 'bad' in badger can be an alarm bell (like 'be careful! It is not like it seems!')); its face (ok, who can say its face isn't cute? I think, and hope, nobody can, and like the name, it is a misunderstanding: as always, be careful, it's not like it seems!, I think demons can say something about demon!azi as like "you don't seem like a 'good' demon, you can't be, your face (animal and human) is too f-ing disgusting sweet to be a demon!", I think maybe even angel!crowley, at the beginning, can think something like this ("how in the world somebody so cute like you can be a demon?"), then he discovered how demon!azi can be a very talented demon sometimes, but in Crowley's mind azi is still his little cutie angry furry); its furry's colour (black=demon, white/grey/silver/idkitsname= color of demon!azi's wings, because even if he fell, I can't say no to his white wings 😭); it is a snake's predator (and in my mind angel!crowley is still a snake); its solitary life (demon!aziraphale is alone and he doesn't mind it, unless it's angel!crowley we're talking about, then our cute demon minds it); its behaviour (demon!azi, even if he's cute, can be a really very talented demon: honey badger is fearless and dangerous, it can fight bigger animals if there aren't other chances and it can't escape); its skin is very tough (except for a soft/safe spot, behind its neck if I remember well, that only angel!Crowley knows and sometimes he uses it to calm demon!azi down or make azi do some good deeds); its diet (it has a sweet-thooth, for honey in primis, but it can eat everything it wants... Doesn't it resemble demon!azi?); it's smart (search for Stoffle on your browser if you don't know)... Ok,I think I finish, sorry for the novel 😅

I tend to think of animals that meet three criteria: (1) they exemplify “faults” in his character exaggerated to “sins”—gluttony, greed/hoarding, sloth, (2) they are species that favor fawning or flight as a defense mechanism but can also be bold on occasion, and (3) blend very well or have a keen affinity with human society, specifically thriving in urban (i.e., city) environments. This is mostly because I can’t see “Aziraphale” in a reverse AU that doesn’t preserve some of his core traits as an angel (a little hedonistic, hoarding, anxious, etc.). So I like city-dwelling bastard animals with bonus points for relation to scripture, like a rock dove or a fox or an owl.

Owls aren't smart, and the pedant in me says not an owl. But, thinking on it, demon aspect, owls are perceived as smart, but designed as deadly silent predators, patient and solitary. So actually demon Aziraphale could take on more owlish aspects. I just like cockatoo better, since they are smart, and showy. Or a crow, although that does amusing things with Crowleys name.

god imagining him as a chimera is !!! (comment from op, there was this odd flurry of mythical animals being voted for one night. i think the survey hit a corner of fandom that leans that way. there was also dragon, another chimera, a griffon, and a lindworm all at the same rough time)

Magpies are great because they’re cute and fluff themselves up (go look at Sophie the magpie) and like hoarding their favorite things but also I’ve watched one just straight up kill another bird before because corvids are sneaky little bastards with no lack of a mean streak if they’re crossed

It’s the duolingo owl, I’m so sorry op but it just is. I genuinely don’t mean to clown on your post, but this take was delivered to me in a sleep induced haze and I believe it’s the god given truth. Demon Aziraphale WOULD try to make you learn a dead language and he’d go about it in a vaguely threatening way (comment from op, you’re so fucking right dude. also, shit like this is made for clowning, i’m with you 100%)

When choosing a demon aspect for a Aziraphale, I usually tried to keep in mind the artistic tradition of which animals are linked with demons. The Good Omens team seems to have drawn inspiration from that source because all the animals we do see are either reptilian or insectoid. Those species were often shown inhabiting hellish landscapes in Renaissance and Baroque paintings. However, Aziraphale never struck me as cold or slimy or hard like an exoskeleton. So if I had to choose an insect, it would be a moth, preferably a Megalopygidae, also known as the Flannel Moth. They are fluffy, white-beige and look innocent and fluffy, but their larvae can cause painful inflammations. A poodle moth would also fit because it's almost pure white.

Ok so the only reason I pick magpie is because those bastards are smart as hell but also know how and when to inconvenience the shit out of you, and if you gain their trust then they're absolute darlings but if they decide "nah, dont like ya" then you're basically done and you'll wake up every morning with shit on your car window. I also chose sheep/ram cuz I mean... idk it suits him. I don't remember my other choice but I'm sure I had a good reason.

I feel like a barn owl would suit him well but I'm not really sure why, I also think that a moth would suit him really well because of the whole "moth to a flame" thing and as a demon he would have gotten burned because of that attitude.

I write a reverse AU fic called Lambs to the Slaughter where Aziraphale's demonic aspect is an albino sheep! I imagine him as a mix between a wild Argali ram and the first woolly domestics. I chose an Argali because they're the largest species of wild sheep, but I wanted him to have traits of a domestic breed because he obtains his animal aspect from a sheep in Abel's flock which would be several generations down from the original wild species in Eden. I really think a sheep suits Aziraphale! They're an incredibly common animal and have been since they were first domesticated. Likewise, since the start of human history, Aziraphale has been living side-by-side with humans, providing for them, and protecting them. Due to how common they are, sheep are often unnoticed, which Aziraphale leans into. Crowley wants to stand out. He has a dedicated aesthetic and an obsession with human invention, where Aziraphale leans more towards simpler, known things and creature comforts. He fades into the background, and that suits him fine. He doesn't have to be outstanding to Heaven or to humans or even to Crowley -- it's enough to do his part, to trust in a bigger plan. People associate sheep (especially lambs) with innocence or ignorance which foils nicely to Crowley as the serpent tempting with knowledge, as well as with Aziraphale's own sharp mind and ongoing embers of faith in a system that is failing him, Crowley, and all of humanity. Sheep are, like Aziraphale, soft, cute, and hiding a hard-headed stubbornness and a surprising strength that makes them absolutely fearsome. Aziraphale is very much the sort to put his head down and push relentlessly forward regardless of the pressure and strain. Rams in particular have thick skulls to withstand the brutal force of headbutting one another in displays of dominance. While Aziraphale is clever, he's not above rolling up his sleeves and getting the job done, as messy and unpleasant as it might be (see: pulling a gun on the Antichrist). Also sheep are associated with Pan, a god associated with food, music, theatre, and the criticism thereof, which hit many of Aziraphale's personal interests and hobbies! I like the idea that in a reverse AU, the demon formerly named Aziraphale might be the original basis for Pan!

I wrote in Orangutan for the first question because if I remember correctly they are some of the most violent apes. Although I'd accept bonobo for him too. They fuck alll the time.

mothman aziraphale,,,,, thats it

Snowy owl, speremint's tortoise, and I just adore the goat.

moth - dusty and eats books

Long Furby the way Loni-Capri draws it.

I keep thinking about that Black Philip quote "doest thou wish to live deliciously" because... it fits so much with the general epicurean/hedonism vibe the Fandom has for him ... but in a demonic way and also I think a lot abt that art piece (already referenced many times probably but what the hell) of him climbing his own bookshelves, it's just so good!!

Albino Lion/white lion (matches his hair). I feel like maybe I should explain why I think Lion would fit him best, lol. Lions actually are rather sedate, inactive for 20 hours of the day (see: Aziraphale reading and unmoving- yes I pulled wiki for this to make sure I didn't spout anything terribly wrong, shhh) but also there's nomad lions. Lions that range widely and move around sporadically either alone or in pairs (*looks at Crowley after apoconope*) (pairs are more frequent among males who have been excluded from their birth pride) but also I think of lions as protectors, defenders, and what is Aziraphale if not that? If not an angel who fiercely protects humans, crowley, earth? (When he finally overcomes heaven and it's abuse) lions don't hunt unless they're hungry, don't attack unless they're defending. They've been known to sit directly next to jeeps full of people and just watch them, not attacking or being aggresive.

I saw art once (I have no idea who the artist is) of Demon!Aziraphale climbing his bookcases like a goat and absentmindedly chewing on his sweater while he reads. I felt like the goat aspect suited him perfectly.

Honestly I wrote Az with a rat aspect because, well, it fits who I see demon Az as. He's not super powerful but he is very consequential, like rats carrying plague fleas (this also describes how I see Az tempting). He tries to blend into a crowd, which is arguably one way rats survive, and can get himself into places/situations that should be impossible or super difficult. Like snakes, rats have been unfairly maligned by our culture for a long time, even though they are very social with their colonies, smart, affectionate, and generally good beans. Finally, male pet rats are known far and wide as the lazier of the sexes while the girls are super curious and adventurous.

Somehow his tartan pattern becomes either his colour scheme or his coat/feather pattern.

Eurasian eagle owl. A big, unapologetic grump of an owl that is soft as soft can be underneath. Possessor of the glare to end all glares to be used in such dire situations as being interrupted when reading or being told one has "had enough cake".

#demon!aziraphale #reverse omens #sleepy speaks #fandom vote #aziraphale's demon aspect #this was so fucking fun you all

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juneviews · 3 years

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axelle judges non bl shows > My Dear Loser: Monster Romance

/!\ SPOILERS AHEAD

shitty summary: Pong has a motorcycle gang and does nothing but make racing bets and loiter around. One night, he has an accident with Namkhing, a beautiful rich coffee shop owner, and while sparks fly from that moment on, he has to find a way to pay for her car repair.

where to watch: youtube

grade: 8/10

pros:

- I really liked the characters. pong was kinda the “perfect” male lead but I do think there’s a sincerity that emanated from him that made me still like it despite that. gonna be honest all of the other roles lee had were kinda boring to me but this is the first one where I finally saw the appeal. namkhing was a great balance of again, the “perfect” female lead, but sassy & strong in the ways I like. jued was definitely the mvp of the series, and while he did play into sort of a “victim” role, it still 100% worked bc sing was just so cute. on was also great, and even though she was really annoying she also had great emotional moments where she definitely shined.

- the acting was great. everyone did a great job, but lee surprised me the most bc as I said he fit the role really well & made pong a lot more interesting. his crying scenes were really good. namtan was also amazing in the emotional scenes, which is not surprising bc that’s definitely her strong suit.

- the chemistry was great, as expected from the romcom queen mook herself haha!

- I love stories that tackle money issues & disparity, and I feel like thai dramas almost always do them justice. here watching pong get more & more in debt as he tries to get out of them felt quite realistic & the difference with namkhing who’s way less considerate of money was great. for once the obstacle to the straight love story felt real bc realistically pong is not the guy a rich woman like namkhing would go for, and I’m glad they tackled it & it was a central point of the story.

- this is gonna seem a bit dumb but in our society full of toxic masculinity, it was amazing to see the male lead break down & cry in front of the female lead. that moment caught me off guard bc it so rarely happens in thai dramas & here it happened a couple of times. it just made pong more relatable of a character, the relationship more equal, & acting-wise those scenes were beautiful as well.

- I also appreciated that it was clear they liked each other from the start. one thing that can be annoying in straight romances (not always though) is how far the main leads go to pretend like they’re not attracted to each other by having the most random & unrealistic obstacles thrown in between them. when in reality, we all know by the media we’ve consumed since birth that man + woman in basically any media = romance & that realistically a straight couple getting together is quite easy most of the time. so sometimes the length series go through to make it seem like the straight story is a “forbidden love story” is kinda ridiculous. here even though pong & namkhing DO have reasons not to pursue a relationship, they don’t go through huge hoops to get together & they fight hard to stay together even through their differences. it just felt 1) more realistic & 2) made the ship way stronger imo.

- ngl that plot twist in ep 2 had me SHOOK. I genuinely didn’t see it coming & it was one of the most well-executed & acted plot twist I’ve seen in a while.

cons:

- for me it was slightly too long. I think the series would’ve been stronger at only 8 episodes, by removing a few scenes & condensing the story.

- I disliked namkhing having to go study abroad in exchange for her dad paying pong’s debt off. idk what it is with romcoms & characters HAVING to spend time apart, but here it made no sense to the story & characters and truly added nothing. I actually appreciate the characters being apart if it means that they’re gonna grow in ways they couldn’t have if they were together. but here, pong’s growth could’ve literally happened with namkhing by his side since it had literally started bc of namkhing. and namkhing just came back home with a new taste for fushia clothing & lipstick lmao, nothing changed for her. it also completely contradicts her dad’s character growth from an overbearing dad who wants to decide everything for his daughter to him letting namkhing be her own person by making him go back to his original mindset. that was just for the plot, and it was frankly unnecessary. if that whole storyline had been cut, it would have allowed the show to be shorter like I said in the previous point, and in my opinion, much stronger.

- going off of that, it was clear that a lot of the choices made by the characters were only to fit the plot, and not the logical choices someone would actually take, which is always a little annoying.

- like most of the time, the wlw character is the only one who ends up alone...

would I rewatch it: not before a little while at least

This was actually a good surprise, I liked it a lot more than I thought I would. This is definitely one of the best gmmtv straight romances for me, and I would definitely recommend it :)

#my dear loser: monster romance #my dear loser monster romance #my dear loser the series #axelle judges non bl shows #bypiningbisexuals #I love how the only gif I can use as a banner is not a gif of the main ship... but the goddamn villain lmao

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everyandanythingimagines · 6 years

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New Year’s Day | N.C

Warnings: use of alcohol? (idk if that is a warning), I guess angst

Word Count: 3341

Summary: Based on ‘New Year’s Day’ by T-swizzle :)

A/N: sooo yeah long break but I’ve been writing again... btw not my song, it’s by Taylor Swift. BASICALLY this one is I guess special to me bc it’s somewhat true. ngl I don’t know if I got the interpretation of this song right, but this is how I saw it. Some parts were altered a bit to fit the song better but right when I heard it I just HAD to make it an imagine. also plz request lol thanks for reading hope u enjoy

*not my gif and it somewhat fits idk not really nvm*

SIDE NOTE: There are a lot of time jumps so here is a guide if you are lost... Italics are from New Years Eve, normal is the day after and on, and bold is lyrics. enjoy

There's glitter on the floor after the party

Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby

You woke up on new years day with the biggest smile on your face. Reminiscence of the night before still plays in your mind. You threw a party in your apartment with just a few of your closest friends. Somehow word got out that the oh so popular ‘Peter Kavinsky’ was going to be partying at your place and a whole bunch of girls, that you were 100% sure that they did not like you before this party, showed up. Probably trying to get lucky with him or any of his close friends. The both of you had mutual friends, and over time all of you had become one tight friend group.

Since yesterday was New Years Eve, everyone had been drinking and dancing. It was only 10 pm when everyone had started to party. You remember bits and pieces of that night, but the most important memories weren’t forgotten.

There was noise coming from the room next to you, some people had spent the night at yours due to their lack of ability to walk/drive home. You got up to check who it was and it was only just a few girls carrying their stuff in their hands trying to sneak out. They smile at you and thank you for inviting them, which was funny because some of them weren't.

Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor

You and me from the night before, but

Your friend, Morgan, came up to you as she was leaving, “Happy New Year girl! I thought you would want this!” She says. You look down at her hand and it’s a photo of you and Noah from yesterday. He looked amazing in his jeans and black button-up shirt, his hair was gelled yet slightly messy.

“Thanks!” unable to contain a smile on your face just thinking about the both of you from last night, “Do you wanna stay for a bite? I can make something?” You asked her.

“Yeah sure, I’ll stay and recover a bit more because last night was WOW,” she laughs, “so, you and Noah huh?” you turn to her and she’s wiggling her eyebrows. What happened was amazing, but you didn’t know what was going to happen next. All you thought about was last night and everything but the future between you two.

You had this crush on Noah for a while now, there was non stop texting between the both of you. People kept telling you that maybe the feelings were mutual, but it felt too good to be true. Noah was this amazing actor and you were this ordinary girl who he met through mutual friends. How would a relationship even work if this were to happen?

Don't read the last page

But I stay when it's hard, or it's wrong

Or we're making mistakes

Throughout the whole party, you and Noah were inseparable. Everything you did, he did and everything he did, you did. From playing harmless drinking games to sitting on the sofa cuddling and chatting nonstop. There were definitely glares thrown at the pair, but at your drunken state, you thought it was nothing. When you had become separated from Noah, you saw a few of your friends Victoria, Christina, and Gabby, talking in a corner.

You went up to them to see how they are doing, “Hey guys! What are you up to?” they immediately put on fake smiles. The last bit of ‘sober Y/N’ had thought this was weird, but the ‘drunk Y/N’ didn't think anything of it.

“Oh, just resting from this non-stop dancing! Nice party by the way!” They answer. At some point during this awkward exchange, you saw Vic’s eyes flash to Noah quickly. That’s when it all clicked, Noah had asked Victoria out months ago but she had rejected him because she “wasn’t ready” so why does she care now?

You brush off that thought and continue making your rounds to check if it’s getting too chaotic. As you do this your mind floats back to Victoria and Noah, “Maybe this isn’t okay” you think to yourself, “I didn’t think Vic and Noah were a big deal, maybe they are and this is a mistake” Your eyes find Noah’s, "or maybe not.".

I want your midnights

It was only 10 minutes till midnight, you had gathered everyone to the main area with the projector setup displaying the famous ball drop in New York. Noah had found you dancing with the rest of the group. Everyone partied like nothing else mattered. Dancing, drinking, and capturing moments people probably won’t remember tomorrow, if it wasn’t for cameras.

Time had flown by and the countdown from 30 seconds had started. Your heart was racing, you didn’t know what was going to happen. Sure you and Noah had been talking nonstop but does he really like you? It all comes down to this moment.

Noah’s hand found yours

You look around at your surroundings

But all you see is this beautiful brunette

The both of you is still counting together

Everyone else starts to fade…

Then the music….

He pulls you closer

You smile at him

Both of you start leaning in

1…

You kiss.

“Smile you two!” Morgan says. Noah ends the kiss first, smiling towards the Polaroid camera and you follow.

But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

You heard a knock on your door as you were in the middle of looking for some food.

“You get it, I’ll look for something to eat for us,” Morgan said, you smile and thank her. As you walk towards the door you pick up a bunch of empty bottles that were scattered all throughout your apartment.

“Hey! Happy New Year!” You greet, struggling to hold the bottles you had picked up. You look up to meet Noah’s eyes. He looked great considering how much he drank the night before and so did you, but then again you never get hangovers. He chuckles at you struggling and immediately helps you with a few bottles. “Thanks, come on in!” as you invite him in, Morgan sees him and gives you a look. You roll your eyes at her and drop the bottles in the recycling bin.

“Hey! How was your night?” Morgan winks and Noah greets her back. Morgan then looks to you, “ I couldn’t find food I want to eat so I’m going to head out to get us food, Noah do you want anything?” Morgan offers. He replies with a no thank you as he continues helping you clean up the bottles.

“Alright sounds good, I’ll just have what you are having,” You reply to her. She grabs her keys, winks at you and heads out the door. Silence filled the air as you both continued on cleaning. You didn’t know what to say and neither did Noah, he looked troubled, not knowing what to say.

As Noah placed the final bottle in the bin, he turned to you, “Look, Y/N, obviously I need to clear something up here…” Noah trailed off. Your heart was beating a thousand miles per hour, this didn’t sound so good. “You are very pretty, smart, and nice, but I don’t feel for you like as a relationship or anything like that type of thing,” Noah added, your heart dropped and you didn’t know how to reply. Noah continued, “ Yesterday was definitely a mixed signal for you and I feel awful about it…” You wanted to say something but you didn’t know what to say. You felt angry, betrayed, and devastated. So many things were running through your head. How could he do this to you?

You wanted to know what was going through his mind this whole time, it doesn’t make any sense, it wasn’t just last night that he had been flirting with you. The flirting had been going on for about a month now, why the sudden change?

“I have been in the same situation only it was the other way around and it sucked. I’m so sorry for everything I just wanted to let you know before things went too far.” the guilty boy finally finished his speech. You didn’t know what to say, you didn’t want to embarrass yourself.

Eventually, you managed to put words together, “Yeah… I feel like that was just because we were both drunk … And don’t worry about it, you’re a good guy” you finally raise your eyes at him. “ I’m not gonna lie when we first met I was kinda into you, but I like us better as friends. I don’t want things to be weird with us after last night…” you lie, you’re trying hard to keep as much dignity you have left and brush off his confession as if it didn’t affect you. But it had, and you were crushed.

Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you

Your close friends had arrived early to have a fancy dinner before the party had started. Sadly, Noah had a last minute shoot for his upcoming movie. By the time everyone had finished dinner, Noah had finished, he just texted you that he was on his way over. Your friends helped you clean up before people came to avoid anything breaking. Suddenly, the doorbell rang, you ran to the door and opened it. It was Noah, he still had a bit of makeup on from the shoot that you could tell he had tried to rub off.

“I like your makeup!” You laugh at his attempt to take off his makeup.

Noah sheepishly rubs his face. “I can handle this stuff for shoots and stuff, but daily? Dang woman! How do you do this?” He complains to you. You offer him some makeup remover wipes and he gladly accepts. You take him upstairs to your washroom and give him the wipes.

“Do you need help taking it off? Or can you handle that yourself?” You tease him.

“Well I mean if you need an excuse to come closer then okay…” he says in a seductive voice.

“Come on! You could've done better than that!” You laugh at Noah's attempt to flirt with you. You grab the wipes from his hand as he sits on the counter, your body is in between his legs as he rests his hands on your waist. The sound of your heart pounding was loud, you were sure the Noah could hear it over the both of you talking about each others day.

As you finish taking off his makeup, the both of you stare into each other's eyes, your faces slowly inch closer together. “Hey, you two! Come down here before everyone arrives!” you could hear one of your friends shout from outside the washroom. The both of you jump separating yourselves a bit, but still not letting go of each other.

“Maybe we should join them…” Noah trails off as his eyes flicker from yours to your lips.

There’s glitter on the floor after the party

“Thanks for understanding” Noah smiles at you. You look into his eyes and you were confused. You could see guilt and sadness in his eyes, but what made you confused was when you could see a hint of regret. Not like he regretted what you two had experienced, but as if he didn't want to be rejecting you and he regrets doing this, there had to be more than he isn't telling you. He told you that he wanted to end this and that he didn’t want you, so why are his eyes saying something else? The pair stays silent for a while as you process things and cleaning the tabletops to keep you both occupied. “I should get going now…” Noah says as he finishes wiping down the surface of your tables. “I have to video chat my parents later…” he awkwardly shuffles to the door. Noah had always been open with you from the beginning. The second time you guys hung out he told you how hard it was being in a different country as his parents, especially when he had to move away so young. Although he finds it embarrassing that he calls his mom every day, you found it sweet.

“Yeah, no problem. Thanks for stopping by,” you say as you go to open the door. You both exchange goodbyes before you shut the door. Suddenly your vision became blurry from the tears building up in your eyes, you leaned your back against the wall and slid down on the floor. You don’t know how long you were there for, but you were playing every single moment you two had together. How could this happen? It seemed like the feelings you had for each other were mutual, but you were mistaken.

When you recovered from your mini shut down, you look around the room. There was glitter everywhere on the floor and stuck to your body. You felt empty, even though you told Noah you still wanted to be friends, how were you supposed to go back to normal. You didn’t even know what ‘normal’ was for you guys, the majority of the time knowing him it was always flirting. One thing you knew was that you had to clean up and put everything in the past.

The door opened and in came Morgan, “Y/N? Are you okay? What happened?” she asked all worried. When she left you were with Noah all happy, but now you’re not and he’s not here.

Please don't ever become a stranger

Whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

~time skip~

It has been a few months since New Years and you finally recovered. It took you a while to get over Noah, your friends practically had to drag you out of bed so you could go out with them. As the days went on it got easier to not think about the stunning brunette and it felt great. You were more mad than anything. Sadly, you never patched up that friendship with him and got back to the way things were, but you were okay with that. Since the both of you were in the same friend group you still had to see him, at first it was awkward but you both got over it. However, you never had a one on one conversation since that day.

You were currently bowling with a few of your friends having a great time. Everyone was happy now that you were back to normal.

“Okay! Loser buys a round of shots for us at the club later!” Morgan challenges, everyone laughs and agrees. It was girls night and you all were planning on getting wasted with a possibility of meeting an eligible bachelor.

“You guys are going down!” You shout, you walk up to the lane and start prepping. Suddenly you hear a laugh a few lanes down from you, it was pretty crowded and loud but you could never forget one of your favorite laughs. You turn to face where the noise came from, your mind was right, it was Noah.

There were multiple times you saw him after New Years, but this time was different. You saw him with Christina, and it wasn’t just a hangout, his arm was around her plus they clearly were flirting. You pointed them out to your friends and some of them were shooting you looks to see that you’re okay, but others were mad that Noah just practically hit up all the girls in your friend group.

It wasn’t until after Noah told you off that you found out that he had chatted up all your friends, which was disgusting considering that you all were in the same circle of friends. By the time you had found that out about him, you were done with it. You would still deal with being ‘friends’ with him still, he hurt you all and that wasn’t right.

At first, when you found out you didn’t believe it, he was so sweet and caring, how could he do it? But he did. There was still some part of you deep inside that felt for him and seeing him with Christina hurt. She was the last person you would expect to do this, none of you saw it coming. What hurt, even more, was that he promised once that he would take you bowling. One day you sent him a snap of your bowling score and he had challenged you, he didn’t say it would be a date, but you thought it could be one. However, he never took you.

And I will hold on to you

It was nearing the end of the night, you and your close friends were all sat on the sofas laughing about old stories of each other. Noah’s arm was around you leaning on each other, everyone was tired and sobered up. Which made sense since you all started partying at 8. The party had calmed down, mostly everyone went home or to another party spot when they figured out their chance with Noah was basically impossible. As everyone broke into their own conversations, Noah turned to you, “I should go… I had a great time, tonight was unexpected but good,” he smiled as he started to get up.

“Me too! Thanks for coming!” You said. He pulled you into a tight hug like you both were savoring it. The rest of the boys stood up as well saying their goodbyes. You lead them to the door and took one last polaroid before they left.

You smiled at them, you could tell that he was happy, he used to have those eyes whenever you were around. It feels like there should have been more to what has happened, but you will never know. There are some things you will never understand and one of them is the whole truth of what happened between you two. It hurts but you had to let him go, maybe he was the right person at the wrong time or maybe not. All you know is that something felt right between you two to just let him go.

You took a deep breath, “goodbye Noah…” you whispered as threw your ball down the lane. You turn around walking back to your spot, Gabby’s face drops.

“Aw man! Okay, drinks on me tonight!” She yells, “but we’re having a rematch next time!” She challenges. You were confused, you thought were in last behind Gabby, but that was until you looked up at the screen and saw you got a strike. You smile and finish your turn.

“Okay, who is ready to party?” You say as everyone starts getting ready to leave. You walk to the counter returning your shoes then head towards the exit. You pause and hesitate before turning around to get one last look at Noah. Your eyes met his brown ones that had already been on you, both of you had this look in your eyes. Everything that happened between the both of you will live in your memories, and there will definitely always be a place in your heart for him no matter how bad he could hurt you. Whether you had still a future together as friends, you don’t know, but you had to let him go.

So there you both were, staring at each other across the room, it was as if time had stopped. You gave him a slight nod and he returned it. This was it, the ending of you two as a couple, the closure you finally needed.

“Y/N C'mon! We are going to miss all the cute guys!” Morgan said snapping you out of your last moment with Noah. You laugh and ran outside to the car. From that point on, Noah was the last thing on your mind for the rest of the night.

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Glasses and Whiskey Part 2

Request: loved “Glasses and Whiskey” sm !!! are you gonna make a part 2??? 👀☺️

Pairing: James x Ravenclaw Reader

Word Count: 7,202

Warnings: Language, implied smut kinda???? +my awful writing

A/N: Okie dokie, ngl, I’m not super proud of this fic cause I tried writing in a different POV but I don’t think it worked out to well. Also... the beginning of this fic takes place BEFORE the events of part 1, just in James perspective. Hopefully it should be easy enough to follow along but, like I said, not super proud of this fic so I apologise if it isn’t. Other than that, hope you enjoy :)

Previous Parts: Part 1

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*****JAMES' PERSPECTIVE*****

James Potter knew everyone. At least, he thought he did. For several years he roamed about the halls of Hogwarts, every single student smiling at him admirably. And for several years, he had somehow remained completely oblivious to the existence of a quiet and extremely pretty Ravenclaw. You.

The first time he saw you, he was in the library. Remus had dragged him, Sirius and Peter to study, though the three of them were doing nothing of the sort. Then, he heard a soft giggle that somehow made him feel lighter and he caught himself smiling subconsciously at the sound.

"I'll be back in a second, lads," he said, clearly distracted by something, though the rest of them said nothing. He searched row after row in between bookcases, and though in the back of his mind, he knew it was a ridiculous thing to be doing, looking for someone because of their laugh, he was growing more and more curious and for the life of him, he couldn't bring himself to care.

As he turned the corner, he saw you, sat with none other than Lily Evans. Merlin, you were beautiful. How had he not seen you with Lily before now? He was almost mad at himself for concentrating on people as pathetic as Snivellus, when instead, he could've been talking to you.

And it always seemed such a simple thing to do for James; talking. But when he went up to you, your eyes staring up at him, almost piercing through his very soul, he couldn't even bring himself to speak one word. He just awkwardly stuttered and rushed away, ignoring the glare Lily was giving him.

Walking back to his friends, James began to feel the effects of rejection. He felt it completely pointless to even try and hope you would talk to him now. But, the effects soon wore off, and he could think logically again.

"Where've you been then?" Remus asks, his tone interested, though his attention never once left the book in front of him.

"Kissing some girl probably, hey James?" Sirius laughs.

James goes wide-eyed in shock, fumbling for an explanation. "Wha- I, no. I just... went to get a book for studying."

"Oh yeah?" Remus questions, a small smirk showing on his face.

"Yeah," James replies, confident with his reply now he had come up with a half-way decent excuse for why he had been gone so long.

Remus looks up at him, still smirking, before returning back to his book. James thinks he's got away with it but a few seconds later Remus asks, "Where's the book then?"

"Oh shi-"

"HA!" Sirius exclaimed, "So, our boy Prongs has been snogging someone then! Who was it?" He ponders for a while, disregarding James' objections to the whole idea. "Wait, was it-?"

But Sirius didn't get the chance to finish his question, as a furious Madame Pince came stomping towards them, herding them out of the library.

"Hmph... brilliant guys. Really, just fantastic." Remus rolls his eyes, seemingly annoyed though he had almost done studying anyway. He'd finish the rest in the common room.

"Oh shove off Moony, we all know you'll get full marks on every test anyway," Sirius jests. "It's Wormtail that should be worrying."

James chuckles as the smaller boy jogs to keep up with them. He waits for him and teasingly ruffles his hair. He had hoped that the mystery of where he had gone in the library had been forgotten, but for the rest of the journey to the Gryffindor Tower, Sirius, Remus and even Peter listed almost all the girls (and some boys) in Hogwarts, all of which James had responded with an exasperated "no."

When they got back to the common room and his friends finally shut up about who he had supposedly kissed, they made their way over to the fireplace, sitting down on the couches around it. Though at first, he remained debating about their next big prank, he soon became disengaged from the conversation and instead his mind drifted to think of ideas on how to talk to you.

Obviously, the best way to do that was to ask Lily, who was clearly one of your close friends. The only problem with that was that barely two hours passed by without her calling him an "arrogant toerag" or anything of that variation. No, his best bet would to be ask around the Ravenclaws and maybe some of the other houses to see what he could find out about you. Maybe then, he could ask you about your interests. So, that's what he planned to do. The four Marauders went up to the boy's dormitories shortly after, minds buzzing at the genius of the plan they had just come up with (James would have to ask Sirius to go over it again at breakfast) and soon, they fell asleep.

The next morning, James woke up earlier than everyone else and got ready to go down to breakfast in the Great Hall. Before he left, he placed an enchantment on the door to his dormitory so it only opened after a certain amount of time had passed. He couldn't have any of them interrogating about why he didn’t sit with them. Breakfast only lasted an hour anyway and he would be sure to save some food for Sirius, Remus and Peter for after.

When he went down, there were only a few people. Most of them were Slytherins in the older years, so he didn't bother going over to them. Instead, he sat beside some Hufflepuffs in the same year. However, much to his annoyance, even after asking them multiple questions, they seemed to have no idea who you were. It didn't help that he didn't have much to go on either. After fifty minutes of asking around at all the house tables about you, he had gained absolutely no information about you at all. It was infuriating. Your name must have been said in your classes at least once, but it appeared that no one could place the face to a name. So, after an hour of questions, he resided himself once again to the idea that he would never know you as much as he wanted to. He had half-convinced himself to just talk to you, but he knew he wouldn't be able to do it without stuttering again. Defeated at least for now, he heads over to the kitchens. Ensuring no one is watching, he tickles the pear and opens the door. He asks one of the house elves to bring up breakfast to the Gryffindor common room, thanks them and heads back up to the tower, already formulating another plan.

Throughout the week, James could be seen in complete concentration, often zoning out or banging his head against the wall, probably in a vain attempt to have an idea. But, to his frustration, the only conclusion James could come up with is to talk to Lily. It would be difficult, especially since whenever he would teasingly call out to her, she would glare at him and walk away in the opposite direction. He'd just have to get her to listen to him somehow.

Over the following days, that's what he did. It was only after the both of them got told by Professor Slughorn to stay behind after potions that he finally got his chance to talk to her.

They had been brewing the Draught of Living Death and it was the perfect opportunity for James to talk to Lily... if only Sirius wasn't sat in-between them. Every time James would lean to talk to Lily, Sirius would lean in the same direction, blocking any possible form of quiet communication. Fed up, James shouted Lily's name, unaware of how loud he had actually been just as the room went completely silent. Professor Slughorn's attention turned towards the source of the noise, and when he saw where it came from, he said, "Mr Potter and Miss Evans?" He waited until the two of them nodded in acknowledgement. "See me after lesson, please."

The potions teacher shut the ingredients cupboard unintentionally harshly, before addressing the two students before him. "Now, I do hate doing this, especially as you're both two of my most promising students... but you must pay attention during lessons." Lily looked down at her shoes, almost looking as though she was apologetic for her behaviour, but James could tell she was half fighting with herself on whether or not to say something back to Slughorn. James felt a sudden urge of guilt washing over him; it was his fault she was in here when she hadn't even done anything wrong. Only half listening to the lecture, James waited until Slughorn dismissed them both. He was planning on having to run and catch up to Lily, though he was surprised when, as soon as they were out of sight from any onlookers, Lily grabbed him by the robes and forcefully dragged him to the edge of the wall.

"It's one thing, Potter, for you to try and make my life a living hell, but if you get me into trouble one more time, I'll-"

"I'm sorry, okay?" His voice remorseful.

"Well-" Lily paused for a moment, processing what he had said. This wasn't James' normal behaviour, around her at least. "Well, erm... Good," she mumbled. She turned to leave, but James called her back.

"Wait!" Stopping in her tracks, the red-haired girl turned back towards him. "I need your help with something," he continued. Thinking for a moment, he hurriedly added, "please."

"What could you possibly need my help for?" She asked, incredulous.

"Well," he scratched the back of his neck, "Merlin, don't take this the wrong way, Evans... I want to get to know your friend."

"I have quite a few of those, Potter," she says impatiently, rolling her eyes. "Which one?"

"I don't know her name, that's half the problem actually," he admits. "She's in Ravenclaw, I know that much, and she was with you in the library."

"Y/N?"

"I guess. I hadn’t even seen her before until a few days ago," he shrugs.

Lily looks at him, for a moment, shocked. Then, she remembers she's talking to James Potter and suddenly, anger spurs inside her. "Definitely not, Potter. She's not some... thing for you to win over."

"Lily I swear I don't mean it like that!" Lily seems to hesitate so James uses the advantage while he has it. He tells her in detail about the day in the library, at which she nods in recollection, and how he had tried to talk to her but always found himself tripping over his words.

"...Then, at breakfast I asked everyone about her, but no one knows enough about her so, here I am." He finishes.

Lily stares at him, trying to stifle a laugh. "I can't believe you actually did that," she says. Ultimately, what he had just told her was what had convinced Lily that James was genuine. No one put that much effort into one girl, not just for a prank, as she first expected it to be. "I can understand why you couldn't find anything out about her though. She's very quiet and reserved around other people and I think she prefers not having everyone know everything about her."

"So... this means you'll help me?" James asked.

"Yes James, this means I'll help you. But if you upset her in any way, I will hex you."

They started walking back together, but when they separated (Lily going to dinner and James back to the dormitory to find his friends), he couldn't help but repeat your name aloud. He liked the way it rolled off his tongue and he was now more anxious than ever to talk to you.

Later that night, James was awoken from his nap by a sudden weight on the couch he was laying on. Drowsily opening his eyes, he saw a blur of red hair and immediately became more awake.

Lily giggled. "Right, before I help you, you need to promise me something."

James waited a while before he realised Lily was waiting for him to say something. "Okay."

"If I help you, you can't hex Severus anymore."

"Aww, Lils," he pleads. "He deserves it, hanging round with those Slytherins. You know who they are right?"

She huffs and stands up. "Of course I do, I'm not stupid. I told him I don't like it before he- well... Before he called me a Mudblood." James can see Lily getting aggravated by the memory, but he doesn't point it out. "But, if you can't stop it, then the deal's off."

"Fine... I'll stop hexing him, unless he does something first."

"I'm not going to get any better than that, am I?" She asks, sitting back down. James shakes his head, grinning. "Then I suppose that'll have to do," she sighs. "Now, here's the plan..."

Apparently, you were in James' Transfiguration class and yet again, he found himself wondering why he had never seen you before. Lily even said that you usually sat at the Gryffindor house table in the mornings. He did give himself a pass on that, though, as until recently, Lily stayed as far away as possible from him. As he had Transfiguration next, he made a point of getting there early so he could ask McGonagall if he could move seats. He was sure she'd agree. After all, as good as he was at the subject, he wouldn't mess around as much if he wasn't sat next to Sirius. Knocking on the door, he waited until he heard her tell him to come in.

"Hiya Professor!" He smiled. Minnie always was his favourite teacher, even if she was strict.

"Oh, it's you Potter. What’s the matter?"

"I was going to ask if I could move seats this lesson? Maybe towards the back of the room," he suggested.

McGonagall eyed him suspiciously, but went along with it anyway. "Will the seat next to Miss Y/L/N do?"

James couldn't believe it. He supposed this is how it would feel if he drank Felix Felicis. Then again, there weren't really many possiblities of where he could've sat at the back, but he chooses to ignore this piece of information and take it as a sign of good fortune. "Um- yes, actually," he nodded, hoping his voice wouldn't give away his excitement.

"Well, I suppose you won't be disrupting my lesson sat next to her. I am right in saying it’s only for today?"

"I think so, yes," replied James.

"Very well Mr Potter. I will inform Marlene when she arrives about the change."

As James leaves the room, he shouts back to McGonagall. "Thanks Minnie!"

When Marlene saw James sat in her seat, she was close to dragging him out of it. Fortunately, James had told Sirius about the situation, who quickly pulled Marlene to the front of the classroom. The moment you entered the classroom, you're obviously confused, but you don't say a word about it and go to sit down in your seat like normal.

James waited until McGonagall finished demonstrating how to perform transfiguration on animals before he spoke to you. "You're Y/N, right?" You nod but he can tell you're shy, so he tries to make things easier for you. "I'm James," he grins, and to his delight, you laughed.

"I know who you are. You're one of the most popular people in the entire school."

James smiles, but waits to reply as McGonagall was handing out rabbits to each student. There were several 'Aww's' from the rest of the girls in the class who were fawning over the creatures. Even James could admit they were cute. When she had passed their table, he spoke again. "Only one of the most popular? Who's more popular than me?" He jokes, shooting you a wink. "I'll have to catch up with them." To James' dismay, went back to focusing on transfiguring your rabbit into a hare; avoiding any eye contact with him, though not before he caught a glimpse of your blush. But this time, he wasn't going to give up talking to you. This lesson was important for Lily's plan to get you to talk to him more.

"So, who are you rooting for next week?" He asks after you both had spent thirty minutes in silence. He had decided it would be better to let you get on with your work for a while.

"I assume you're talking about Quidditch?" James nods in response to your question, watching as you look back at him. "Well, seeing as my house isn't playing, I guess I'm rooting for whoever wins," you say, playfully, knowing he would want most people to be supporting his house.

"I'll lend you my Gryffindor banner, then," his cocky smirk making you laugh again.

"Lily always told me you were egotistical," you joke. "How can you know you'll win?"

"Hey! I'm not saying I'll win the match by myself! I'm saying my team will."

"Well I suppose we'll find out next week then, won't we?"

Smiling, he stands up, the lesson now over. With the way seemed to be going, Lily's idea was going to work in no time. "I'm sure we will."

As he predicted, Gryffindor won the match against Hufflepuff and as soon as the match had ended, James announced a party held in the Gryffindor common room. When they discussed it the week before, Lily told him she would be sure to get you to come.

On his way back from the pitch, he spotted you walking back with another Ravenclaw girl, almost at the castle's entrance. "Y/N!" He shouted, running to catch up you as you had stopped to wait for him. "To think you doubted me," he panted, slightly out of breath.

"Never doubted you, James," you say matter-of-factly, motioning towards the red and gold scarf around your neck.

Even after you left, he couldn't wipe the grin off his face.

Most of the people were already at the party, but he wasn't sure if you were as he was with Sirius getting food from the kitchens. It would probably take you a while to walk from Ravenclaw Tower anyway. When his and Sirius' arms were filled with food, they returned back to the party.

As soon as he steps through the portrait of the Fat Lady, he sees you and Lily, both drinking Firewhiskey. However, if he wasn't already looking for you, he would've missed you completely; you were practically hidden in one of the far corners of the room. Putting the food down on a nearby table, he makes his way over to the two of you. "Hey Lily." He nods at you, hoping to not make you feel uncomfortable. "Y/N."

Deciding to quickly talk to Lily first, he drags her slightly to one side, though not far from you. "Thanks for getting her to come here. It's brilliant."

"I can tell," she laughs, her words slightly slurred due to the alcohol. "You've been smiling like an idiot since you've seen her."

James laughs nervously, about to say bye to Lily and go to talk to you, when he notices you've gone. At first, he presumes you just went to get food or something, but after five minutes of looking around with no sight of you, he faced the truth that you had left. Trying to tell himself that it was probably just because you didn't usually like parties (according to Lily), he joins the party to distract himself.

The next morning, he, Sirius, Remus, Peter and Lily head down to breakfast earlier than usual, all extremely hungry after the previous night. To his surprise, Lily stays with them and sit next to James. Not only was it incredibly funny to see the bitter look on Snape's face as he saw (something he pointed out to Sirius who proceeded to break out into a fit of uncontrollable laughter), but he was also happy that the one person who truly seemed to hate him was now becoming his friend.

"So, I wonder where Y/N went last night," James said, hinting for Lily to answer.

Thankfully, she realised in the questioning and very slightly anxious tone in his voice that he needed her to confirm you didn't leave because of him. "James, she probably had some homework to do," she jokes. With Sirius, Remus and Peter close beside them, she lowers her voice so they don't overhear her next words, "don't worry too much."

Despite Lily's attempt to be quiet, Remus still heard what she said, though he hadn't been paying attention to the first part of their conversation. "Worry about what?"

Quick thinker that he was, James began to laugh. "Padfoot, obviously," he scoffs. Sirius turns around at the mention of his name. "Did you not see him and Marlene last night?"

Lily gives a genuine laugh when she sees the shocked expression on her friend's face. "You were both hilarious," she agrees. She goes to mock Sirius and Marlene by cuddling up to James, though she struggled to keep a straight face while doing so. However, at that moment, Peter coughed and looked towards the doors of the Great Hall. James and the rest of them turned around to see you, looking as though you were on the verge of tears. None of them were subtle about the way they watch you walking straight past them to the Ravenclaw table.

"Doesn't she usually sit with Lily?" Peter asks.

"Yeah. She does," Lily says.

You were talking to the same Ravenclaw girl James saw you with after the Quidditch match and it was only when you glanced back at them all that they stopped staring at you. Soon, you rose from the table and left the hall with your friend, laughing and looking a lot more cheerful than you had done when you had entered it. James had to resist the urge to bury his face in his hands. It figured his luck would turn after he finally started to think he stood a chance with you. Even Lily was worried. He knew this because as soon as you had left, she had run after you, probably curious as to why you had acted so strangely. Soon, he began questioning himself. He was James Potter for Merlin's sake, and it was certainly no secret that most of the girls in his year would gladly go out with him. So why did he have to fall so hard for the girl that didn't love him back? Aggressively pushing his plate away from him, he too stands to leave the hall, ignoring the shouts of Remus and Sirius. He remained oblivious and otherwise uncaring of all the eyes that followed him, simply allowing his feet to carry him away.

Over the next week, James tried to talk to you at every opportunity he got. But the only way he could ever get close to you was when he was with Lily, and even then, you completely ignored his existence. After he settled on the decision and told Lily, she suggested inviting a few people and then talking to her there. Reluctantly, he agreed and prepared himself for an anxious wait during the next few days.

Sirius was helping James pull a prank on Filch after Defense Against the Dark Arts. They had told both Peter and Remus to meet them in the Great Hall for dinner and went to retrieve the dungbombs and several other items from their dormitory. Once they had retrieved them, they split up; James was to create a diversion whilst Sirius actually carried out the prank. However, he became distracted when he saw Remus, of all people, talking to you and laughing. A wave of anger and jealousy surged through him, clenching his fists until they turned white until he remembered. He hadn't told anyone but Lily on how he felt about you, so it was unfair of him to get mad at Remus. He shakes his head, clearing the thoughts from his mind for now, and continues on his search for Filch.

Later that day, in Potions, he dragged Lily to the seat next to him, earning several puzzled looks from both his friends and the other students. "Y/N would tell you if she liked someone, right?"

"I'd hope so. She is my best friend," Lily answers.

"Well, has she said anything about Remus?"

Lily looked towards him and saw straight away that he was worried. "Why, what happened?"

"Nothing, really. I just see them spending a lot of time together, that's all." He tried to make it seem as though he wouldn't care if you did, but in reality, inside he felt the jealousy clawing back again, almost like a monster desperate to escape.

"No, she would've told me if she liked him," she said.

The jealousy in James calmed down at the confidence of her words and he nodded. Partially to Lily, and partly to himself. "Okay," he breathed. "Thanks, Lily."

It was the day of the 'small party', as Lily had put it and everyone except you had turned up. This had led to him drinking nearly three whole bottles of Firewhiskey and a small glass of Daisyroot Draught he had managed to get from the Hog's Head from his last visit to Hogsmeade. The whole time, he was nervously biting down on his bottom lip and he kept messing with his hair. It was fair to say that by the time you did arrive, James was very clearly drunk. Lily was the first to greet you when you came in, getting up and stumbling over to hug you. "Y/N! I thought you weren't going to come."

James laughs, "well, she would've been missing out on all the fun, right Evans?" When he catches you looking and smiling at him, he felt giddy and was about to ask you to sit next to him, when you went to sit next to Remus instead. From that point on, James was only vaguely aware of the conversations around him. Insisting to himself that he wasn't bothered by your choice to not sit next to him, he started messing and levitating certain objects around the room until Lily took his wand off him, claiming he was too drunk to be messing with magic. She was probably right.

"Spin the bottle anyone?" For James, your voice was much clearer than the rest, and he soon found himself sobering up slightly.

Lily had gone over to sit next to you, leaving James sat in-between Marlene and Peter. When he looked over, he saw you whispering to each other.

"So, I take it you like James then." Y/N asked.

Even in her drunken state, Lily realised this was her chance to see if she could find out how you felt about him. "I don't know," she shrugged. "He is great though, isn't he?" She prompted. Lily waited for your answer, hoping you would confess you liked him. But you only replied with an exasperated, "I guess so."

James hadn't heard this conversation, but Lily planned on telling him in the morning when they could actually talk coherently.

Peter grabbed the attention of everyone by giving a loud cough, and they began the game.

So far, James had only kissed Sirius due to the fact that he was last in the order they were going in and somehow, you had managed to have one of his turns. He had no idea how it had got muddled up, he could only say he wasn't very happy about it. You had kissed two out of three of his best friends, Moony and Padfoot, and he was almost certain they had been flirting with you all night. Finally, it was his turn again and he reached forward to spin the bottle. Time seemed to go on for an eternity as the glass rotated, at least for James. He was hoping it would land on you, so he would finally be able to kiss you. Instead, it landed on Lily, who was now going over to James. Honestly, he shouldn't have expected any different. The world had a way of giving him the exact opposite of whatever he wanted. Hoping they could quickly get the kiss over with, the two pressed their lips together, several cheers coming from the rest of them. He knew why. Almost everyone thought he had a crush on Lily. She was pretty and smart and just the type of girl James Potter would go for. How badly he wanted to correct them all. But he thought if he did, you would definitely hate him, and that was something he wasn't willing to risk. The kiss went on for longer than he intended, both his and Lily's minds clouded, unable to focus on the time or the people around them. Pulling apart after what had felt like hours, though in reality was only a minute, he found for the second time, that both you and Remus had gone. Cursing himself for his actions, he wondered if he would ever get used to your frequent disappearances.

*****Y/N'S PERSPECTIVE*****

Part of you felt guilty for leaving Remus alone when he was the only one to come after you, but you didn't want to be bothered by James anymore. You would just have to face the truth and accept it. You could've tried to cut him out of your life entirely, but that would mean losing Lily too and she was your best friend. Instead, you chose the alternative option; just be friends with him. Stop avoiding him and just pretend like you didn't care. So, that's what you did. During the next two weeks, you made an effort to talk to him again, even occasionally sitting next to him in Transfiguration whenever Marlene wanted to sit with Sirius. Some days, doubts weaved their way into your thoughts, convincing you that you were making a mistake; that you were only going to end up hurt. Rumours were going around about you, because how could a quiet, once barely known Ravenclaw girl become friends with one of the most popular people in Hogwarts. They couldn't really say much worse than that however, and so you learned to pay them no mind.

What you weren't expecting, was that James would begin to flirt with you. At first, you refused to let yourself believe it. You were just being a stupid girl with a crush and you were too childish to move on. But soon, it became apparent enough to even Remus. On the way down to Defense Against the Dark Arts was when he first mentioned it.

"You and James seem to be getting on okay."

You hummed, relishing in the warmth coming from the open archways of the castle. He seemed content enough with your silent answer, and usually you would've left it that way but for some reason, you felt the need to talk to someone about it. "I don't know. I still think he likes Lily."

Remus frowned. James was his best friend, but so were you and he hated when you were upset. "Prongs doesn't understand the implications of his actions sometimes, Y/N/N. I know I'm going to seem like a complete git when I say this, but just don't take everything he does seriously."

You were about to respond, telling him you had been telling yourself that already, when someone stepped in the middle of you and Remus, wrapping one arm around your shoulder. "You called?" Sirius said, attempting to impersonate a posh voice.

"No, we didn't Padfoot," Remus said, pushing his friends arm from around his shoulder as you did the same.

"You did. I heard my name," he defended, causing both you and Remus to laugh.

"Some variation of it, maybe," you said.

Sirius sighed, going around to walk next to Remus. You reached the classroom, the Professor already inviting the students inside. Remus was about to say goodbye to you, when he saw James, already sat with Lily. "I'll erm, see you after class, yeah Pads?"

Sirius looked slightly confused as he and Remus were usually partners in this class, but he knew Remus wouldn't do something without a reason. "Yeah, see you later Moony."

You of course, had noticed James with your best friend the moment you had entered the room. Perhaps that's what made it worse. The fact that James still talked to Lily, and as each day passed by, he appeared to be getting increasingly happier. For this, you were very thankful to Remus for staying with you. However, you knew he would try and talk to you about it and that was something you weren't really in the mood for. You started a new topic, hoping he would get the hint.

"Are you still going out with Rachel?"

"Yes," he answered. "Actually, I think we're going to the last Hogsmeade weekend together."

"Well, I'll be sure to keep Sirius well away from you this time," you chuckled, remembering when Remus told you about the first date he went on with her. Sirius had followed them and ended up causing a huge, albeit hilarious, disaster. Luckily, Rachel had taken it rather well and the Marauders had decided she was a keeper.

"Please do," he laughed.

At that moment, the Professor called on you, and when you weren't able to answer the question correctly, the two of you mutually agreed to remain in silence and instead focus on the remainder of the lesson.

*****JAMES' PERSPECTIVE*****

Remus was usually a peaceful person who avoided conflict wherever possible. At least, that's what James always thought about him, anyway. Point was, it took a lot to get him to confront someone. That's why when he entered the room, scowling and in a similar mood to that of which he had on the days prior to the full moon, James became instantly concerned for himself. It didn't help that it was late, either. Remus had obviously made himself stay up so he could have a conversation with him without anyone interrupting.

"Prongs, I need to talk to you," he said abrasively.

Inside, he felt more nervous than he had in a long time, though when he raised his head to look at his scarred friend, he ensured there was no trace of anxiousness in his words. "Sure, what is it?"

Remus squints, as though frustrated by the fact that James seemed to be so uncaring of what he was about to say. "It's about Lily and Y/N."

Well. James freezes. He wasn't sure what he was expecting, but it certainly wasn't that. Remus must've found out about his feelings for you. And that one thought was able to unhinge James in seconds. What if Remus hated him for liking the girl he also liked? It wouldn't be unreasonable; Remus often thought that aside from his friends, there was nothing really that great about his life. And now, once Remus had finally found someone who would accept him for everything he was, James Potter was about to take it all away from him. For the first time in his life, James felt disgusted at himself. Who was he to destroy his best friend's happiness?

There was another worry in the back of his mind as well. What if you and Remus were already going out, and this was Remus telling him to stay away from you. Something that in that moment, felt virtually impossible.

But, it was none of those things. In fact, James might've said it was worse.

"You need to stop messing around with her," Remus said, his words harsh but also conveying a slight amount of remorse, though James was fairly confident that it wasn't for him. "Both of them, in fact."

James, however, was confused. "What do you mean?"

"I mean stop making her think she's got a chance, James!" Remus said, his voice raised. "Surely you must know she loves you? She is one of my best friends, and it's not nice seeing her being unnecessarily hurt." It's clear you like Lily, so quit flirting with Y/N and acting like you don't."

It took a while for James to process everything his friend was saying, but he eventually understood. "Moony, mate. I don't like Lily like that."

"I don't care, James-." Remus hesitated. "Wait, what?"

James laughed. "I mean, she's a great friend and all, especially helping me talk to Y/N, but I haven't liked her like that since third year."

Remus paused for a moment, trying to remember the last time James had discussed his plan to get Lily to like him. But the problem was, he couldn't. Meanwhile, James was replaying the conversation over in his head, realisation dawning on him from something Remus had said. "Hang on.... Did you say Y/N loves me?"

"Obviously. Prongs you'd have to be blind to not see-. Oh fuck." Remus began to panic, quickly noticing his mistake. "Mate, please forget I said that," he pleaded.

But James was feeling too excited, his heart racing and finally feeling as though things were going his way. He cut Remus of mid-sentence. "What's the problem? You don't like her, do you?"

"No. No, of course not. She's just my friend," Remus assured him.

"Well, in case you hadn't noticed from this conversation, I like her and apparently she likes me back."

"Well, yes but-"

"Then shouldn't I just go find her and tell her?"

Remus considered everything for a moment. He didn't like you in that way, so James was right; there was no problem with that. As for you, well, you definitely liked James. According to what James had said, Lily would be happy for the both of them, not hurt like Remus had thought she would be. So, what was left to stop him?

"Just don't tell her I told you, okay?"

James simply nodded and ran out of the common room to find you.

*****Y/N'S PERSPECTIVE*****

Not for the first time, you woke up in the library, surrounded by piles of books and the light from the moon shining inside through the window. This usually happened whenever you were studying or stressed about one thing or another, but you couldn't help but wish Madame Pince would at least check the library was empty before leaving. Now your arms and neck ached from laying in an uncomfortable position. Groggily, you got up and began putting everything away, tripping over several things whilst doing it. You were too tired even, to hear the fast-approaching footsteps, gradually becoming louder and louder. As you placed the last book on the bookshelf, you turned around and bumped into someone. It was dark and your eyes were still half closed, but you could tell from the reflection from the glasses and the fluffy, unkept hair that the 'someone' you had collided with was none other than James himself.

The attempt to just stay friends with him and nothing more wasn't exactly working out in your favour. If anything, you would've said it only lead to you liking him even more. But you couldn't bring yourself to care anymore. Especially now, when he was grinning down at you like the adorable dork he was.

"Well, well. If it isn't my favourite eagle girl," he teased. "How unexpected it is to see you here."

"Some days I think you call me everything but my name because you've forgotten it," you mused.

"Have not!" He asserted.

You giggled, glad that it was dark enough so he wouldn't be able to see the blood rising to your cheeks.

"Who could forget a name as pretty as... wait, what's your name again?"

"You're a complete arsehole, James." You attempt to convey a serious tone but your attempt to hold back the smile threatening to break onto your face doesn't work for long.

"I know you love me really, Y/N," he smirks, stepping back so he could see your face more clearly.

You stumbled over your words, not sure if he was joking or not. Despite the smirk, it didn't feel like a playful comment. "Wha- who? I mean, yes but-"

He placed a finger on your lips, causing your breath to hitch and subsequently you fell silent. "A little birdie told me," he whispered.

Immediately, your face fell, and you wanted to curl up into yourself. You nodded, confirming his statement and preparing yourself for the rejection that was sure to come any second now.

"I love you too," he confesses.

Your eyes snap up to his hazel eyes, and you started wishing it was daytime. The only comparison you could think of for James' eyes was looking up between the trees and seeing the flecks of gold, green and brown. You had always found it to be very freeing. But even in the limited light you had at that moment, you're able to see they're sparkling with mischief but at the same time he's staring at you like no one has ever looked at you before. As though you were the center of his attention completely. It was such an overwhelming and pleasant feeling, but you couldn't help the disbelief that followed his words.

"But, you love Lily. Everyone knows that James."

He shakes his head, and proceeds to explain everything that had happened since he first saw you in the library with Lily. How the parties were just an excuse to talk to you, and that Lily was only telling him how to talk to you without making you feel uncomfortable. He apologised for the kiss with Lily, promising to never drink as much as he did that night ever again. All the way through his explanation, you listened intently, things slowly starting to make sense for you.

"And now we're here," he shrugged, finishing his story. "Kind of fitting it's in the place we first properly met."

"And you're sure this isn't some joke?" You ask.

"Two hundred percent."

"That's not a- never mind." He smiles at you and you can't help but smile back. His happiness was contagious to everyone around him.

"So. You love me." It's more of a statement than a question, but you nod anyway. "And I love you," he continues.

"Yeah?" You couldn’t help but ask. You doubted you would ever get bored of hearing James say those words to you.

"Yeah."

He leans in towards you, his hands wrapped around the small of your back and your foreheads resting against each other. You can feel the warmth of his breath and feel every blink, his eyelashes lightly brushing against yours. Somehow, you manage to form words, though they only come out in a whisper. "What're you doing?"

His lips brush against yours, and when he pulls away, you try to follow but James holds you back, chuckling. "Think of it as making up for lost time."

You smile. Finally, the boy you had liked was here with you, about to show you how much he liked you back.

Humming, you pull him back closer to you. "I think I can live with that."

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Kdrama: Tomorrow With You Review

Forewarning: There are moments within this review in which I sort of abandon any sense of professionalism, oops. Enjoy! *images to be added soon.

The OTP

Same age in real life omg I've never seen a pair so perfect.

NO SECOND LEADS. I absolutely love it when the focus is only on the mains, with no pointless distractions or love triangles that go no where. I love it. i rly do

cute cute cute cute times a million

They honestly looked like a legitimate couple, I feel like I could spot several moments when they even broke through their actual characters and ad-libbed it out or something

Many people were also complaining about how slow (I assume they meant relationship progression???) it was, and got annoyed over their "back-and-forth-ness"?? honest to god, yes they were so beautiful that I barely noticed it. But also, it was so logical to me, the process they went through in which they lied to each other & then failed to communicate until later. Like, it didn’t piss me off because it made sense...? I didn’t see anything wrong with it? It went a little like:

Yoo So-joon hits on her because he knows how they’re connected by death.

He tries to shake her off, but realizes who she really is (a fellow survivor).

He becomes interested again.

THEY FCKING GET MARRIED in FCKING EP 4 IF THAT IS SLOW TO U, THEN STFU AND GTFO

He obvi don’t love her fully, but she’s already heads over heels

She feels suspicious af and he doesn’t tell her stuff (that even his friends know). And he gets angry easily while he tries to protect his ppl, but keeps his secret hidden.

She got sick and he pulls off his romantic but materialistic resolution.

He opens up to her a little bit more and they cry it out.

He makes a wrong move again and then is basically forced to reveal his secret.

She’s like what the actual fuck is wrong with you, but comes to terms with it.

They get closer, but she feels empty because she rly don’t know much about him and he is as careless as ever.

Her heart breaks over the reality of him disappearing so easily.

So-joon is slowly realizing the future that’s in store for them.

Tries to call it quits and play noble idiot, but she won’t take his fake, snarky ass.

So they make up and he really really really realizes that he must change the future, no matter what. He has nothing left for her him but her.

He tries hard. but doesn’t try hard enough.

By the time he disappears & she waits for two years, they are basically one heart.

By the time they reunite they are the cutest couple in the world.

I think a big issue people had with So-joon’s character was that "he didn’t love her" when they got married, but I think that wording is extremely misleading and not entirely accurate. Yes, I don’t think that at that point he could say "I love you" to her with sincerity, but it’s not like he flat out was disgusted by her or hated her…?? It was more like, he was not fully aware of what he was getting himself into, by getting married. Not just to her, but the concept of marriage and the commitments that come with it in the first place. That was what he was not on board with, which is how he may have come off as indifferent. But we all knew that Song Ma-rin would change him for the better because the ones with flawed intuition always get taught a good lesson or two from their loved ones.

DO U KNOW how MaNY times he was shirtless WITh HEr?????

I swear I think I counted properly, but they kissed like 9+ times and probably hugged like 15+ times like omfg I’m pretty sure that is a record

Can I also just mention that for me, when a couple wipes each other's tears, like when one of them actually takes their fingers and smushes the falling teardrops, that is just game set. To me, that solidifies their relationship as one where 1) they aren’t embarrassed to cry in front of each other 2) they care enough to show tender affection for each other 3) they sympathize together. And that is exactly what they did. MORE THAN ONCE excuse me.

The Plot

A lot of people complained about the various flaws within the actions of the characters and the mechanics of time-travelling. Honestly… like I mentioned earlier, since the OTP was so convincing to me, the holes in logic kinda flew past my head. Like, I didn’t dissect them too deeply because I was so distracted, or I just didn’t bother

Don’t you see that their progression only felt natural?? You start out with one side that is overconfident about the commitment as if he’s strolling through a park while the other is lovestruck, but always smart enough to know when bullshit is going on, and is never afraid to call the other out for it. It only took a matter of time for them to find real and genuine appreciation for each other, and it was worth it.

"WTF were you thinking moments" & justification:

So-joon letting Song Ma-rin go home by herself while Kim Young-jin was still lurking. Ok I have no solution to this like you honestly....DID YOU NOT LEARN FROM AHJUSSHI THAT YOU BASICALLY GOTTA STICK TO THE PERSON LIKE GUM IF YOU WANT THEM TO BE SAFE?? U HAVE TO HAVE THEM IN UR SIGHTS AT ALL TIMES.

So-joon getting onto subway and ultimately getting stabbed. Ok, he even said himself that he wanted to catch him with his own hands because if he doesn’t now, he'll get away and who knows how much more havoc he could wreak? The police would do no good being there blatantly, and so he had to hold out since he was the bait anyway. He just should’ve been smarter with defense, like c’mon man let’s not get cocky with your fighting skills now.

So-joon letting her run onto the street. Ok yes, he def should’ve reacted faster and realized what kinda danger she would be in after being aware of it for like 2 years aiya. But I assume it was a spur-of-the-moment, blinded happiness kinda thing. They were cute af and they were happy and like who really thinks that hard y’know???

So-joon just bracing himself and Ma-rin for the car crash. He was facing their deaths, I assume. Yes, they could’ve just jumped out of the way, but at the same time, he had already mentioned that he just wanted to enjoy the small moments they have together, instead of always trying to cheat and change fate. If they were meant to die in that moment, he was going to take it as is. (which is lightweight greedy bc wb marin???? but whateves lol).

I really do think that the story-line was extremely tightly woven to begin with. Even up until episode 16, we saw scenes from episode 1, and vice versa; everything fell into place perfectly and the details were down to each minute of their lives. Everything was very clearly thought out and i felt like they picked and pulled at certain pieces at the proper times and revealed others at the most crucial of times, too. Props to the writing team for creating such a complex & dynamic web of characters and events that spanned nearly 3 decades.

The Cinematography

Stunnnningggggg. Especially that iconic moment in episode 1 when he pulled her out of the path of an oncoming truck and talked to her for the first time, like the way the sunlight was hitting the camera, it was just something else I swear.

Overall, the colors were warm and fluffy, but the future def always looked more bleak and dry and dark. Beautiful dualism with a strong impact.

Also can I just mention that when So-joon disappears, it’s also very mystifying, the fast wisps are quite a touch.

Also ngl the couple themself was extremely aesthetic; like they are both very attractive people & when attractive people cuddle a part of you kinda just dies inside, y’know??

The Emotions

Ok I admit that my reactions were probably overboard because I was so attached

but straight up this is the kind of drama my heart was searching for.

I always love it so so so so much, (although realistically speaking, it’s only fantasy ones that can pull this off w/o it being some noble idiocy shit) when the force that is keeping a couple apart is a force that is greater than themselves. It’s more than them just choosing to not be together. It’s them wanting so desperately to be together, but circumstances, in the best kind, life and death ones, prevent them from doing so. The reason I like these kind of situations so much is seriously because that’s where all the love comes out. The pain of love.

It was so so so soooooo excruciatingly painful to watch So-joon and Ma-rin's future unfold the exact way he saw it would. It tore me to pieces because I could feel Ki-doong's hopelessness from losing his best friend to a murderer, Ma-rin's deathly painful heartbreak from simply NOT knowing what in the world is going on or what will happen (and for her dad to tell her to move on), but just having to wait, and So-joon's very own inability to fix it all. Oh dear lord watching him visit her grave in the future where she no longer exists, that shattered my sanity because it hurt so much.

I literally cried in the smallest of moments. When he disappeared in front of her eyes, I burst into tears along with her because her crying was so beautiful (yes, actually tho), but at the same time, I felt it deep down inside. It felt trivial, to cry over that one moment, but it also meant so much more than that. It represented a real fear of losing your loved one, and o dear lord i can’t.

Like I said, the heartbreak was everything I’ve been wanting. It felt so raw. In those moments where even he cried because he was so scared for the future (after eating in the tent with ahjusshi, calling ahjusshi on the phone in the cafe, reading her letters sent to him from her past self), knowing how much was on the line, and how much he just wanted it to be okay, it hurt so much because I had so much hope along with him. I honestly didn’t expect them to allow their future to play out the exact way he saw it; I rly thought that they’d pull some plot twists because that’s what dramas do......... and so when everything really did unfold painfully, my heart was unprepared and it tore apart. Even though I knew that they would be together in the end no matter what, I didn’t know how, and everything still hurt like fking crazy.

I know a drama does it right when I can feel the pain physically in my own chest. When it suddenly feels so heavy and ache-y that I kinda wanna give up in life a little bit. That's when a drama pulled the right strings & carved a good-sized void in my heart.

The Special Connections

I, tbh only decided to watch this because I found out that Kim Feel, my eternally favorite musician, sang an OST for it, and I was feeling extra down from his military enlistment. What a beautiful gem he brought me to. When his voice played at the still frames in the ends of some episodes, my heart filled with this indescribable sort of happiness and longing.

The "seoul station" that So-joon refers to is actually called Si-cheong station, one I manage to catch a geofilter for back when I was in Korea!!!!!!!!!!! It was an exciting discovery, to find out that the exact route So-joon takes back and forth is one that I have traveled on myself.

Idk if this really has to do with anything, but the director also directed Oh My Ghostess and King of High School, so everyone kept saying that this drama would be a rom com BUT BOY WAS THAT SHIT DARK AS F*CK IDK WHAT Y’ALL HAD IN MIND BUT like, no no, no, that was nowhere close to the other 2 dramas he made. It was a beautiful change of atmosphere nonetheless.

The Message

The fact that Ma-rin is a photographer speaks volumes. For a man who is infatuated with the future and has lost focus of the present, just one photograph can speak volumes. A photograph captures the present and instills a moment in time. For Marin, this is what her life's work depended on; this is what she lived by. Capturing the present and cherishing individual seconds in time. And for So-joon, this is exactly the kind of person he needed to save him from himself and his future selves. So so so beautifully laid out.

Even just the ending line: "today". Like akjfkjdagkahkgdhlanjak, if you don’t get the message from this then you are just... idk wtf you’ve been watching LOL. Granted, the drama is called "Tomorrow With You", but clearly that is not what they are tryna get at. That was the theme throughout the entirety of the drama with So-joon being an apprehensive wuss, but the reality of it is to face the present, and live for a today with you. Love love love <3

Favorite Moments

When he asks "So... do you like me?" and she replies "Was there ever a time when I didn't????" LIKE IDK something about the trivial-ness of both statements yet how deep they hit home.... like obviously, they like each other or else they wouldn’t have gotten so far. But the fact that he had a need to reiterate that, and the fact that she was like "dude have I not made myself clear how much I like u" like that is just so adorably cute and squishy goals to me omggg.

When she sniffs him as they walk home from dinner and giggles and says "Hehehe husband smell" OMG WHY R THEY SO FREAKING CUTE I JUST--.

When he disappeared right before her eyes, it shattered everything in me.

When he grabbed her and saved her from the accident, it was one 2-sec move that altered entire lifetimes, for better or for worse. It was beautifully shot, despite it being an extremely cliche move. It’s okay. It was gorgeous and it’s def my favorite wrist grab to date LOL.

When he started crying because he saw the car accident on the news and he legit was dropping tears, but she laughed it off and hugged him and her smile was so sweet and innocent but he’s legit in agony and it was just so cute and heartbreaking at the same time LIKE HONESTLY that phrase is what describes this drama in a nutshell. Heartbreakingly beautiful.

Despite its flaws, this drama was honestly what I’ve been looking for so so so long. It’s definitely not my number 1 because there were things it could’ve done better, and each episode did not stand out like a number 1 drama should have, but it definitely tore me to pieces, out of joy AND despair. I loved it to bits and I will never forget this gorgeous couple and their journey that transcended time.

#tomorrow with you #kdrama review #내일 그대와

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