#Okay i need to calm down

[moonystoes]

thats what you get for subbing le guilly you mickey mouse looking ass bitch

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

[frenchublog]

[lunamonroeao3]

“A-are you real?”

The Caitlyn in her mind raises an unimpressed brow. Vi’s feet stumble, half dragging across broken cement. Graffiti still paints the cracked pillars.

“Of course I’m real,” she says finally.

The dream lasts longer than normal. But Vi keeps stumbling, making her way to the hole in the wall she calls home. A sick joke.

But the Caitlyn in her mind keeps following her. Persistent but hazy.

Vi’s apartment is as she left it. A mattress, stained and without sheets, sits on the floor in the corner. Bottles line the only window. Her bathroom, if one could call it that, consists of nothing more than a tub. A shattered mirror. From her fist or the one before her. She doesn’t know.

She expects Caitlyn to be gone by now. She doesn’t normally last this long. Doesn’t come this far. But when she flops on the mattress, she lets herself enjoy the image just a little longer. Unsure of when she’ll suddenly disappear.

“What happened to you?”

Her voice isn’t normally this clear. In fact, she normally never hears her at all.

“You miss me, Cupcake? You hear t-to arrest me?” Vi slurs. Her face itches, the black smudges feel ingrained into her skin, deeper than any ink.

Footsteps, tentative but firm fill Vi’s ears. The thin mattress dips. Fingers grip her chin, the soft leather gloves force her eyes to blink open.

“This isn’t you, Vi,” Caitlyn whispers. Vi takes her in. This version of her. Angled cheekbones and soft hands. Her face just as disappointed as it normally is. But there’s something else there. The booze must’ve been stronger than normal.

Vi nearly keens when the figment moves, disappearing from her sight. Only to return moments later, something cold and wet scrubs along her eyes.

She truly expects her to be gone by now. For her own hands to replace Caitlyn’s. Or maybe Vander’s. But all she’s met with is blue.

“Why’re you looking at me like that?” Fingers are back to gripping her chin. A thumb stroking a cheekbone. She knows this isn’t anyone else then. No one else gets to touch her like this.

“You don’t normally last this long,” her voice comes out hoarse, her vocal cords raw and underused. Caitlyn’s figment just huffs, vertical lines creased between her brows. Like they’ve become permanent fixtures.

She lifts a blood-stained hand. Knuckles raw and cracked, shocked to meet something soft and firm. She lets her knuckle drag down down down. Stopping at this Caitlyn’s jaw.

“Will you kiss me this time?” Vi asks. What’s there to be afraid of? This isn’t real.

Caitlyn frowns. Interesting. She thought maybe this dream would be different.

But then her lips are covered in warmth. Soft and almost real.

“Sleep, Vi. We’ll talk more in the morning.”

And when Vi blinks her eyes open seconds, minutes, hours later, the ghost haunting her limbs and lips is gone. Only a black and bloody wet rag sits next to her, soaking into the floorboards.

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

[gojoest]

but he looks so cute in his basic ass uniform

[princessbrunette]

rafe taking time out of his criminal schedule to be a big brother and lecture wheezie about overstuffing her suitcase was so funny and cute to me like he’s such a big brother skddjdn “anymore problems you want me to solve for you?” crying

[volivolition]

just a little stressed lmao

[abs0luteanarchy]

okay decided to do some lineart tests and like

these wires?

I wonder if it would be fun to just run your fingers down them affectionately lik— METAL CLANKING SOUND

[shima-draws]

Hm wait she's hitting different this time around,

(I started playing PMD Explorers of the Spirit 😳)

[bakaramia]

I love bottom Vox so much, it makes me sad how little if it there is 😭😭.

[squeezetheduck]

Here’s the thing with people shipping Alastor, I could not care less about who people ship Alastor with or whether they ship him at all, what I do care about though is people making him allo.

This is one of the few cannon ace (possibly aro) characters out there and he can 100% be shipped in verity of ways without ignoring he is ace or aroace.

Make him aroace but still platonicly obsessed with Lucifer or Vox.

Make him sex repulsed or indifferent it doesn’t really matter (I could 100% see him having sex with someone for entertainment purposes just like I can see him being sex repulsed).

Even make him Demi/grey-ace if you must show him reciprocating sexual attraction.

Bonus points if he’s aro and you play around with platonic relationships/QPRs.

I know at the end of the day he is a fictional character and people will do what they want, but please listen to aro/ace fans when we ask you not completely ignore his sexuality when there are so many ways you can still play around with his characterization without disrespecting one of the few cannon ace characters to exist in TV.

[andy-clutterbuck]

Men's Fitness | 2014

[ladamedusoif]

Yes and SOME OF US (me) have been saying this for some time and have plenty of ideas that don’t involve Austen or a British setting so, y’know, I’m a historical gun for hire on this one.

I’m just feeling very validated that people are seeing my vision.

[flodaya]

omg yeah that was on feb 15th so she had just celebrated the twin's birthday the day before 🥹 she was feeling extra holland

i'm going to throw up

[soullessjack]

watching too many hulk video essays on YouTube and now I can’t stop thinking about the avengers reference in 15x18 when Amara asks Dean how they intend to defeat Chuck without four archangels and he says “we got one jack”

something very brain wormy about that parallel idk