#Recalling the day

[apollos-boyfriend]

[plumadesatada]

just remembered a fic on AO3 (or more likely LJ because it had that distinct late 00's experimental vibe) that appeared double-spaced oddly, in that some paragraphs would be spaced normally and others would have double or even triple spaces in between. it was about one half of the otp getting over the other's death (or coma, can't remember which), so all the comments were about how poignant the use of visual spacing was as a means to convey all the emotional holes in the character's life.

and then the author replied like... *giggle* guys it's NOT double spaced. try selecting the whole text

and we were all like "no WAY"

but we selected the text, and yes!!!

the "holes" in the story? they were actually lines and actions from the dead/coma character's ghost, rendered invisible to the eye by the simple trick of coloring the text the exact same as the background, revealed by nothing more than a click and a drag of the mouse

a story about the profound loneliness of losing your the partner of your life and having to make do without them, without anything to fill the holes they'd left behind, suddenly became a story about the profound helplessness of seeing someone you love suffer from your absence while you are right there, unable to do anything about it, unable to communicate that you love them enough to suffer unseen and unheard with them, just to keep them company they'll never know about

it was then that I truly realized how *superior* the digital medium is to plain printed paper, how the medium and the format can add to a story.

I think about that fic about once a year. I wish I could find it again

EDIT: FOUND IT!!!! UPDATE HERE

[inkskinned]

but they don't care about the burnout. everyone is burnt out, they tell me. who isn't burnt out!

the good news is they don't say depression is a choice as much anymore, but the symptoms for burn out and depression are so hand-in-hand that they are mirror images of each other. but depression is serious. you're not depressed, you're just whiny. they barely change the script - don't be lazy! burn out is for people with real problems. burn out can be resolved with some fun candles and a day off work. burn out only happens in adults - no kid can be burnt out, after all; they've barely even had a life to live!

do you have a roof over your head and a steady job? you're not burnt out. so what if every night you wake up with a panic attack frothing inside your chest. you're lucky your problems are small. get back into plants or into yoga. shut up about it.

rich people get burnt out and go to fancy places. they get burnt out in their fancy offices with their real-people problems. they get burnt out and hire an assistant to help them never burn out again. you don't have the money to burn out. you don't have the two weeks to recover in a local spa. the job you come back to will still be stressful and hard.

you find yourself often wondering - does nobody remember about the pandemic? it seems almost like a joke or a punchline. being burnt-out was okay "during" the pandemic. now that people are back to ignoring covid, burnout is just-an-excuse again.

you google how to know if it's seasonal affective disorder or burnout. you google how to know if it's anxiety or it's burnout from working. you google how to know if my depression is back or i'm burning out badly.

coming back from burnout just leaves you covered in ashes, not new growth. you struggle to get back basics, and then - you're just supposed to get back up and keep going. every day the amount of tasks you are able to do seems to dwindle even further - where does the time go? why is everything moving so-fast-and-yet-so-slow?

my therapist and i were talking about how many people had latent mental illnesses that were triggered by the pandemic. how depression can be environmental and situational. i am annoyingly logic-driven about my own recovery - i like to be sure i'm working on the "right" thing. i tell her i feel like i'm lying. that it just might be burnout, and i need to stop complaining. she asks me what words come to mind when i think of burning.

oh, i guess i see.

we casually ignore the violence of being left empty.

[bittwitchy]

some new sad girl guy spring dialogue for sebby!

also bonus bc its summer 13 now and i already gave him a bouquet

[robntunney]

TV Appreciation Week '24 Day 7 : free choice: a character that I miss | LEXIE GREY

The depth of grief that you felt with all the losses… it’s because of the depth of love. As long as you’re alive, you get to feel it and you get to do something about it. Everything changes all the time when you’re alive, and all the time, you fight the change. You cling onto what you have and what you know, like that’s how it should always be.

[grandpasauce]

the concept of lavellan unwittingly saying the evanuris' names as an exclamation during sex with solas will never NOT be hilarious to me btw like solas is just going to town on that ass and then lavellan is moaning "ELGAR'NAN!!" and solas just stops like "do NOT bring him into this istfg"

u ever think he gets used to it like?? what is he suppose to say??? 'hey babe could you stop moaning my coworker's names in bed? thanks' ??????

[juniemunie]

This post wouldn't leave my mind.

Error and Ink meeting before they completely become themselves is so....

ლ(ಥ益ಥლ) HHHHHHH

[imperatoralicia]

I adore the rolling sheep of Elden Ring, so I made a little gif animation.

[recallback-art]

I'm still on hiatus, so this will likely be my last post for a while. I made some slime Laika's Comet emotes, and wanted to share em - they're free to use, I trust people will be respectable and credit when asked!

Idk I just make everything I like into goop and the furries are not immune.

[ifbrd]

I’ve wanted to draw this for years:

What the Gravity Falls fandom seems to think a Pines family trip to the Oregon Coast would be like:

Vs, what it would actually be like (source: I’ve lived in Oregon my whole life, the following is what I experience when I have a “beach day”) :

[16th-of-a-twigg]

no rest for the wicked 😈 2024 v 2014

[conceptofjoy]

idk being 16 is hard and im glad i am not that age anymore

[foxstens]

what do you mean riko is younger than kevin

[speedlimit15]

Are kids really being shown pragerU videos in public schools or is that something ppl are just panicking about because pragerU produces children’s content

[orangerosebush]

This is Artemis age ~25 getting misty-eyed*** talking about the morally reprehensible shit he used to get up to back in the day while Butler plays Wordle Unlimited and offers up "Yes that was fun I suppose" in monotone to perfunctorily participate in the reminiscing

*** Yes, this tendency co-exists with Artemis having a deep sense of guilt about his past misdeeds

[vintageskeletons]

jjk or everyone's fave slice of life series <3

for @astronomicalfluffweek. happiest (belated) birthday @astrowaffles!!!!! thank you for always feeding us with the gojo+fushiguro and gojo+first year trio fluff and humour we all desperately need. you're the best and the coolest and did i mention the best? (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧