#Ren being gay for fictional characters

[happiness-in-fiction]

yet another one of his characters for my f/o list <333

[vacantgodling]

re. about

you may call me: ren, renjamin, rimz, r.a.a, or vacant

refer to me with he/him pronouns (masculine nicknames like ‘king’ & terms of endearment like ‘dear’ or ‘sweetie’ are also good. just nothing overtly feminine like ‘queen’ is the gist)

i am 26 and my birthday is october 2

i am black, transmasc, neurodivergent, and queer (achillean or yknow gay if you want to be specific. i’m a fag ok.)

as a psa: i don’t care if minors follow me but i’m not your parent so proceed at your own risk.

aside from writing i like: playing video games (mostly overwatch, my special interest for a ridiculous amount of time. but also, legend of zelda & the sims), drawing (when it’s not annoying me), gothic literature & older books with flowery prose, the colors pink, black & gold, history, anime (older anime+demon slayer really), and i’m learning japanese (to the best of my ability. むずかしです)

re. wips

find a list of all my wips HERE! i work on them sporadically when inspiration strikes. find a wip sampler where i show off a piece of prose from the work to give you a sense of its vibe HERE!

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my 2023 year in review!

also, for ease of access: current tag games i’m doing (i want to keep track of it this year)

last line tag 2024

wbw 2024

ask games 2024 (general)

tcol character tournament!

re. connect

here are other places you can find me:

bluesky || cohost || pinterest

my partner yves and i make stories together, which is here -> @mothgrudge (i also rb a lot on @babylonsfalling)

i have a discord so if we’ve spoken feel free to ask for it (however i don’t really do servers. maybe one day, but for now no)

maybe this year i’ll work on an actual website & i’d love to make a youtube where i just talk about shit so… maybe, we’ll see...

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[misogyny]

Still trying to figure out why someone was bringing up Divayth Fyr on a post about fictional fascists and woman murderers/beaters being called gay or trans. Am I completely forgetting something or is there just a group of Morrowind fans on Tumblr throwing a character that they don't like that's just kind of a weirdo in with Kylo Ren and Patrick Bateman. I don't know what he does in ESO because the game wasn't fun.

[dinluke-ao3feed]

bananakin

Read it on https://archiveofourown.org/works/58463230 by Kassbeara99 boba fett kidnaps a cosplayer to save fiction Words: 496, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Original Characters, Snoke (Star Wars), Din Djarin, Lando Calrissian, Cal Kestis, Armitage Hux, Finn (Star Wars), Poe Dameron, C-3PO (Star Wars), R2-D2 (Star Wars), Leia Organa, Luke Skywalker, Padmé Amidala, Fennec Shand, Boba Fett, Rey (Star Wars), Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Mace Windu, Yoda (Star Wars), Grogu | Baby Yoda, Chewbacca (Star Wars), Darth Maul, Greef Karga, Anakin Skywalker, Han Solo, Qi'ra (Star Wars), Elia Kane, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious Relationships: Han Solo/Original Character(s), Lando Calrissian/Original Character(s), Cal Kestis/Original Character(s), The Armorer (The Mandalorian TV)/Bo-Katan Kryze, Lando Calrissian/Han Solo, Leia Organa/Han Solo, Din Djarin/Luke Skywalker, Poe Dameron/Finn, Armitage Hux/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, C-3PO/R2-D2 (Star Wars), Ahsoka Tano/Original Character(s), darth maul / moff gideon, sheev palpatine /couch, Mace Windu/Yoda Additional Tags: no beta we die like the younglings, if something doesn't make sense it's a crack fic, cringe doesn't exist crack fics killed it, OC is a slut, oc is actually just a very poorly disguised self insert, C-3PO and R2-D2 are an old gay couple, i promised myself i wouldn't care about being cringe so im leaving the ships, i threw in some crack ships as well, Kidnapping, Stalking, Invasion of Privacy, Shooting, Gun Violence, Derealization, Fainting, Sickfic, Crack Treated Seriously, Sensory Overload, Self-Sacrifice, Fluff and Angst, bad convention etiquette, Drugs

[absolutebl]

One year ago I had never read or watched anything in the romance genre and I have now hit 150 BLs, so I’ve been thinking about how I got here!

Until I was in my early 20’s I only read litfic, sci-fi and fantasy, never romance…. Then I started reading fanfiction but again, only based on sci-fi or fantasy shows/books - and I always rejected the coffee shop or university AUs - why take characters who can do magic or are vampires and make them normal humans who work in a library? So again, I missed out on all the romance tropes.

Then, during the pandemic I started reading Shameless fanfic and perhaps because the characters are humans who live in our world, I ventured into the AUs for the first time and discovered that I love all the romance tropes! Give me all the enemies to lovers, forced proximity and arranged marriages please…

Finally, this led to BLs and for the first time in my life almost all the media I consume is romance and I love it so much! What a weird journey… I’d love to hear if you’ve always enjoyed romance and how you got here?

Oh my goodness what a fun question, okay let’s hit it...

My Journey to BL via SFF, Yaoi & M/M Romance  

So way back at the dawn of time I was once a hard-core fan, specifically in the science fiction and fantasy realm and specifically around 90s franchises that had to do with bad ass female warrior characters, so think Xena: Warrior Princess, Farscape, Buffy, Firefly. I did cosplay and crossplay (although we didn’t really call it that, then). I went to my first SFF con as a minor actually, as soon as I got my driver’s license and some autonomy I was out and about doing cons, ST:TNG Creatathons (is that what they were called?) and such. 

I was of the right age, but that was also how I found and got involved with queer fandom, ren faires, and kink. First prides, first alliances, first marches, first dungeons, first orgy - ya know, as ya do. I sexually matured super early and ya know what? It was fine, I’m fine. It all worked out. I regret nothing and stayed healthy emotionally, mentally, and physically, probubly as a result of the companion friendship groups I was forming, so... win win! 

And all because I read books like... THIS: 

I’m a FAST AF reader and super advanced, I read Tolkien at like age 8, and came to fandom via books more than TV or film. (Please don’t take this as a brag because I skim and retain NOTHING, so it’s not exactly a life advantage.) By high school I was into primarily fantasy, and always wanted/liked/preferred a romantic arc and some kind of found family element (so friendship groups = a big WIN). I also really gravitated to any authors who dealt with or mentioned queer characters (like Mercedes Lackey). That’s also when I first started noticing the “kill the gays” trope. 

I was always a really voracious reader. I read pretty much all the fantasy that my local library had, and then (partly because of Anne McCaffrey and a few other authors who also wrote romance), with no where else to go I moved into the romance genre. I actually got into romance before I got into science fiction. I was reading bodice rippers at age 10. Again, it was FINE. Some of us mature real early. Also I was living in the UK when Queer as Folk was doing its thing while reading lots of Mills & Boon. 

Then in the early 2000s I started actively looking for consumable queer literary media. By that I mean: anything that had queer characters as the main characters. However, I really don’t like literary fiction (too depressing), and I really wanted that romantic arc. I wanted stories that gave the queer characters happy endings TOGETHER, and also that didn’t gloss over the sexual side of being queer.

This basically led me to Japanese yaoi. I don’t recall exactly how I found my first one, but I do remember the hunting. 

I had to either find them and get them shipped to me via weird black market back channels, or I eventually started ordering them off Amazon. In fact, the first thing I ever bought on Amazon was a yaoi manga in dead tree form - so they might be why I opened the account. Only a few publishers were producing yaoi in translation back then, a name I particularly remember was DramaQueen. I actually even owned some yaoi publisher merchandise, which means I had an account WITH the publisher. I mean, who does that?! I had a T-shirt that said “seme” on one side and “It’s tough at the top” on the other side. I was so proud! I would wear it to sci-fi conventions, but was so obscure then that nobody I ran into ever knew what the shirt meant. I mean us geeks knew anime and even some manga, but yaoi? Not so much. 

Honestly, I still only really enjoy consuming manga in printed form (I struggle with webtoons), which is one of the many reasons I haven’t followed it (or manwha) closely in recent years. 

Meanwhile, at the same time I was being a yaoi fan (without a fandom) I was getting into the Hollywood indie gay romcom phase, so like Latter Days, and Shelter, and some of the other queer indie movies I talk about in this post: 

Old Guard Queer Cinema for BL Lovers 

So now we’re in mid 2000s and there just wasn’t a lot of manga in translation, let alone yaoi, thus I kept hunting for a more queer romance fiction to read. 

Which is how I became a really early adopter of the very first, what was called back then, m/m romance. There were only a few houses producing for the American market, small publishers like Loose ID.  I bought and read a ton of them in physical form, and then was super early on the e-book bandwagon because of this market almost entirely. I mean, we are talking early e-books that I had to go to the publisher’s website to buy and download - this is in the days of Sygil and Calibre. You had to read them on your laptop. I owned a FIRST generation Kindle.

At this point I’m reading mostly romances and no longer any SFF. And then recently (within the last 10 years, the two have started cross pollinating again, although now I only read SFF that has a strong romance thread and a happy ending for the queers. No exceptions will be made. 

Gotta have my standards! 

So I become a romance reader mostly because of yaoi, and now I do read other queer romances (not just gay ones) but before we didn’t have a choice. (Although gay romances still dominate the market.) 

I kind of left mangas behind for a long time.

So when I discovered BL, and I think SOTUS was my first one (?), although it might’ve been Love by Chance or Love Sick, or... (honestly when I jump into an obsession I JUMP TF IN so early 2019 when I discovered BL I tried to watch EVERYTHING I could all at once), I brought all of this baggage and affection (and forgiveness) from my history with yaoi and early mm romance (which get a lot of things WRONG not just about being gay and queer identity but also about sex and relationships and communication) to my interpretation of the BL genre.

(Well, that’s a massive run-on sentence I’m not bothering to fix. nash) 

So there it is. A very long way of saying: 

because of yaoi I got into m/m romance 

because of m/m romance I became an ebook romance reader

because of gay romance I have strong standards for my happy ever afters 

and because of THAT I got into BL and that history still dictates the KIND of BL I prefer

TA DA! 

*insert twirling flourish here* 

And then, because I am an obsessive completest, I have been systematically using all of lock down to try to watch every BL ever made. Some of us don’t, ya know, stay still very well. I needed a QUEST. 

Notice what’s missing? Fanfic. Yeah I have never been into it. It’s all good, I’m not against it or anything like that, just like D&D or Star Wars or electrical play... not my thing. 

(source)

[sidhewrites]

New intro post, because why not?

❀ About Me: ❀

My pen name is REE. I’m 25+, use THEY/HE/SHE pronouns, and live in the PST Timezone. My official pen name is Ray Lane, and you can get my first novella HERE.

I’ve been writing for well over half my life now, with varying degrees of success. I’m also really bad at being concise, so expect lots and lots of rambling any time I open my mouth. Ask me for neat animal facts!

I like zombies and guts and fairies and things. If it’s either either really cute, or high-stakes horror, or a mixture of both extremes, then it’s for me. Most of my writing is HIGH FANTASY, and has been leaning towards LIGHTER AND SOFTER themes of late, but I’m a fan of a wide array of genres and styles. Eldritch beings and monsters are a personal favorite, including the old folk tales surrounding western Eurpoean fae folk and supernatural beings.

I also illustrate. You can find my art blog here.

❀ Main Projects❀

❀ I Met a Girl in the Graveyard aka “Graveyard Lesbians.”

Draft 1 complete! Now in editing stages.

While wallowing in misery after a recent breakup, skeptic Kaz heads down to the local cemetery to sabotage the investigation of some big-name ghost hunters. While there, she meets Lucy, a goth woman who seems just as interested in causing trouble as Kaz herself. But something seems off when the hunters’ tech keeps picking up on signals coming from Lucy’s direction – or, it would, if Kaz didn’t think they were just getting really lucky.

…She’s a ghost, y’all. Lucy is a ghost, and Kaz is too stupid to figure it out.

GENRE: Supernatural, comedy, wlw, urban fantasy

ADDITIONAL TAGS: Gay and bisexual main characters. A senior cat as a major supporting character. Ghost hunters. Jock MC.

More Info Here

Silly Powerpoint Here

Start reading here

❀ Secondary Projects ❀

❀ Glimte (Complete!) As a child, Katja’s father told her that sirens live in the bioluminescent waters surrounding their small village, but she seems to be the only one who believes in them. Her belief is solidified after a siren saves her as a child – and cements her fixation on sirens throughout her life, even through the tragedies and changes throughout the years.

Genre: Short fiction, wlw, low fantasy

More info here.

Get the eBook here.

❀  Silverlight: Polly is a healer’s apprentice in a sleepy village, where the most exciting thing in her life is sneaking into the forest with her best friend Jack, an exiled fairy with no magic to his name. But when they find an injured fairy solder in the woods, they set off beyond the veil into a world of magic and danger to stop the wicked Night King before he can cover the world in darkness forever.

GENRE: Light fantasy, adventure, romance subplot.

ADDITIONAL TAGS: Bisexual main character, transgender love interest. Talking animal sidekick. A requisite masquerade ball. Polyamory. Childhood friends to lovers, bodyguard romance. #LetPollyHaveABigSword2k23

More Info Here

❀ Tertiary / Backburner Projects ❀

❀ Untitled aka “Ren Faire Lesbians.”

Zanna loves her job at the local Renaissance Faire, but her world is turned upside down at the appearance of Aurelia of Velaqua, a knight who has nothing but her magic sword and a vague memory of how she arrived on earth. With no other ideas, Zanna takes her in as they work together to find a way to get Aurelia home. But they soon discover that the danger of one world is seeping into the other, and it’s going to take everything they have to stop it.

GENRE: Romcom, cozy fantasy, romantasy

ADDITIONAL TAGS: loyal lady knights, reverse isekai / portal fantasy, only one bed, fish out of water, height difference, horse girls tm, himbo best friend

More Info Here

❀ April Showers

Lise and Cass have lived a sleepy, art-filled life with nothing more exciting than the occasional riverside picnic or pillow fort to occupy their days. But this year’s spring rains bring something entirely unexpected – a selkie named Fiske. Their world is immediately changed as they try to make her as comfortable as possible while searching for a way to get her home without being found out.

Genre: Queer Romance, slice of life, low fantasy.

More Info Here

[kitkatopinions]

Can we talk about the rampant bi/panphobia surrounding Yang "looks at guys like they're fresh meat in the first 3 volumes and chibi" Xiao Long? Blake's gets brought up a lot as 90% of her reason for existing is to be the romancable NPC, but it's hardly talked about with Yang. She has shown express interest in guys. Even if Bees goes canon, it's not a Bi/Lesbian ship. It's a Bi/Bi or Bi/Pan ship or what ever other possible identity that doesn't erase Yang's attraction to men. I get the whole wanting rep thing but there's more lesbians in RWBY than any other LGBT identity and they aren't really that good in terms of representation. Do we really need another angry/aggressive/problematic lesbian in RWBY? And whenever it does get brought up, Lesbian!Yang fans always go "oh, it's just comphet". Um, excuse me? Isn't comphet not supposed to be a thing in Remnant?

Okay, so there's a lot to unpack here, and I do get why you're so frustrated because as a bi person, it gets so frustrating dealing with not only a huge lack of representation, but also feeling boxed out of, undervalued by, and invalidated by your own community sometimes. I myself have been really frustrated and even hurt by the way many RWBY fans (and specifically Bumblebee fans) have talked about Blake and Yang's sexuality, like they would be less gay or less rep if they were bi, how shipping them with men is 'wrong' because it's 'straight behavior' and 'validating the straights,' and I got particularly annoyed once by a post that claimed that people only shipped Yang and Weiss so that they could force Blake - who they claimed was a canon lesbian - into a relationship with a man. I think it's clear why people talk about Blake's status as bi more than Yang's - Yang has one moment in eight seasons where she acts clearly attracted to men, whereas Blake has had two canon romantic relationships with men, Adam being her ex and her having gone on a date with and kissed Sun on the cheek. When people dispute Blake's status as a bi, sometimes they (rightly) come at it from the point of view of 'this is just my own personal headcanon for my own benefit.' But too often, Blake's attraction to men is dismissed outright and fans try and find every excuse to invalidate it so that they can insist that Blake is a canon lesbian. That's pretty openly biphobic imo. (Also I don't agree that 90% of Blake's character is a romancable NPC. I think maybe she's become mostly not an active character who only really exists as support and romance, but the idea that it's 90% of her overall show character is weird to me, Blake is done dirty by the show but that doesn't mean she's not a character for the first five seasons.)

But Yang is also worth talking about. Because of the fact that her moment of displaying clear attraction towards men is brief and early in the show, many fans have just... Thrown it out entirely, and decided that not only does it not count, but that anyone who brings it up is living in the past and is stupid for paying attention to the early seasons. That's obviously really dumb. The idea that after the first five seasons, Yang is displaying clear romantic attraction towards a girl for the first time, she is now one hundred percent a lesbian in canon because she's only displayed romantic attraction towards men once... That's also rooted in biphobia. Being attracted to men doesn't just suddenly go away because you're attracted to women and vice versa, no one chooses to be bi, gay, straight, ace, whatever. If Yang was sexually attracted towards men at seventeen, that part of her doesn't stop existing just because she's sexually attracted to women too. The thing is, headcanoning Yang (or even Blake!) as a lesbian is totally fine. I think the RWBY creators did say that sexism, racism, and homophobia doesn't exist in Remnant, but like ??? Idk why they'd decide something like that if they were gonna make jokes about Jaune and Qrow wearing skirts haha laugh at the non-gender-conformity of men, and if they'd write the first five seasons with literally one gay character, while tons of straight relationships that get credence, everyone else expresses no clear romantic inclination towards the same sex for five years of the show running. And we're supposed to think there's no heteronormativity at least? Cardin and Jaune both have clear toxic masculinity problems that Jaune grows out of, but we're supposed to think that toxic masculinity has nothing to do with any sexism or homophobia, however internalized? I think if people want their fans to believe there is not sexism or homophobia or racism in their fake world, they need to make good and sure their own internalized issues don't leak into their work. So I don't think it's wholly invalid when people decide that in their headcanon, they think Yang just acted like she was attracted to men because she thought she should. I especially think it's valid for people to headcanon that Yang had acted like she attracted to men because she thought she was. She was only seventeen, seventeen year olds put on behavior that they think is cool and she is the niece of Qrow 'wink at Winter to piss her off' Branwen, and Yang could've realized maybe during school that putting on behavior was all that was, and that she isn't actually attracted towards men and likes girls - specifically the girl dancing with Sun at the school ball. That's perfectly valid as a headcanon. But that's all it is, a headcanon.

Yang is not a canon lesbian and it's perfectly valid and supported by Yang's canon interactions for people to consider her bi or pan, and people can even headcanon her as ace if they want. Trying to demand that other people see fictional characters as the sexuality you prefer them in is just going to drive wedges, especially when so much venom seems to be directed towards bi characters, with others acting like they're literally less rep if they also have romantic interactions with people of the opposite sex. Like, people literally have the idea of "I love that Blake is bi, but I hate that people are shipping her with men or talking about Blake's romances with men and idk why the show put any focus on her romantically interacting with men." Like, sure, okay, so you support bi characters so long as they don't be bi too obviously. But... I'm getting off topic.

Here's the thing... I would caution not to get too deep in this "there's too many lesbians," concept. We're supposed to all be one community, supporting and fighting for each other. The problem isn't that there's too much representation for lesbians, the problem is that there is not enough representation for bi people, or pan, or ace, or trans men, or trans women, or non-binary people, etc. We don't have to wish less for other gay people to wish for more for ourselves. I agree that disregarding Yang's moment of attraction to men maybe isn't the way to go, but it's not that there are already enough lesbians in RWBY. There are only three side characters (by the way, two of them aren't confirmed lesbians, just because they're in a relationship with each other,) two of whom made a very minor appearance in all of two or three episodes and will likely never return to the story. As you say, the rep that lesbians have gotten in RWBY isn't very good. Them desiring more representation is perfectly valid, and I even get them wanting that representation from Yang, despite her single moment of lusting after boys in season one. That's a perfectly understandable desire. I myself want gay Neptune despite him expressing interest in women. It's not wrong. The only thing that's wrong is villainizing and mocking people for their own very valid ships like BlackSun or Yang x Jaune or Yang x Mercury or Blake x Ren or whatever ships people like. I'm sorry that I can't agree with you here, but if there was a scene in RWBY where Yang discusses her feelings for Blake and says that she realized she's a lesbian... I might not be particularly happy with the writing staff, because I already heard there's an element of disregarding Blake's former relationship with Sun in things like the comics, which is frustrating as a bi person. But I would be happy for the people who would find in this something that speaks to them and makes them feel like their own experiences are represented. Sometimes I can feel excluded from the LGBTQ+ community due to my attraction towards men, and that's hard, but I'm not going to start devaluing the victories of other gay people because of it, I'm not going to start getting upset when they get representation, or when a character they love claims an identity that reflects their own.

I do get where your frustration is coming from though, and it's perfectly valid to feel upset and exasperated both with the way MKEK write their queer relationships and in how people in the fandom tend to disregard the bi identity of characters.

[samiwok]

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This is not a part of the story. Consider this as a kind of preview for what’s coming and for you to be prepared. In which the two groups ( the one with Yn, Kuroo and their friends and the other with Sakusa and his friends ) are giving an interview about this social media after filming.

> Part one is with : I. = Interviewer. || Y. = Yn. || K. = Kuroo. || B. = Bokuto. || O. = Oikawa.

I. ; Good evening ! You guys are our first group to be interviewed today, hope you’re okay.

O. ; Yes we’re all fine ! Right ? [ he turned to his friends sitting next to him. ]

K. ; Perfectly fine. [ he smiled and looked at Yn. ]

B. ; I gotta say I’m not really okay today.

Y. ; Ko’ ? What’s wrong ?

B. ; Kuroo really suffered in this. And Yn too.

I. ; Uhm I-

K. ; Come on Bokuto, it was just a fiction. Another show to divert iwaishiteru’s readers.

O. ; Yeah and we’re actors dummy... [ he sighed. ] that wasn’t real.

I. ; So tell us something about you.

O. ; Yn hates Ren.

Y. ; WHAT ? No need to expose me like that you know.

I. ; Who is Ren ?

K. ; Ren is our manager. And also the manager of the others.

Y. ; Kuroo please could you respect them.

K. ; No he pissed me off.

O. ; [ he laughed. ] How can you be like that? You just said to Bokuto it was just a fiction.

K. ; You know what is not a fiction ?

[ we had to cut the twelve next minutes because of inappropriate vocabulary. ]

I. ; Okay a few questions just to get to know you guys better, may I ?

[ they all nod yes. ]

I. ; Good. So, which one is the funniest in FYL ?

K. and O. ; Me.

[ there’s a blank. ]

[ they’re arguing and Yn decides to attribute this title to Bokuto. ]

I. ; Since when are you all friends ?

B. ; Kuroo and I used to hangout together when we were studying, so it’s been a few years now.

K. ; Still hard to deal with him honestly. [ yn hit him ]

O. ; I personally know Yn since a while now, we know each other since we’re in high school.

Y. ; Yes, Oikawa is my dearest friend just like in FYL where he is the friend you can confess to and all.

K. ; Basically he’s the gay friend.

Y. ; Oh shut up.

[ kuroo added something about oikawa being a b*tt*m and then we had to cut the next five minutes. ]

I. ; Who is the one that suffered the most in FYL ?

K. ; It’s Yn. It was hard for her.

[ yn shrugged. ]

I. ; Could you tell us how does the story begin ?

B. ; Yes ! Basically Yn and Kuroo just finished filming a romance movie. Kuroo plays a character named Taiyo and Yn plays a character named Usagi, and there’s a prev-

[ oikawa covered bokuto’s mouth. ]

O. ; GOD ! Too many details. Please end this interview right now or he’ll say too much about the story.

I. ; Fine ! Thank you for coming today, can’t wait to see the whole story. Don’t forget to be here on November, 1st of 2020 ! And see you later for the interview with Sakusa Kiyoomi and the others members of this social media au.

[mandwhore]

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Bo Katan, Satine, and the Death Watch. We bully yt women who would call me a slur, and the yt fanatics who appropriate the culture of mandalorians who were displaced on this blog. 

k*lo ren. Please do not mention the space nazi to me. (Also applied to ad*m driver because he was in the army to "avenge the us for 9/11" and I am someone who is directly affected by the patriot act)

lukedin. They are both my favorite characters but they have few interactions, one of the biggest one being Din giving away his kid. Also having interacial gay relationship with large age gap with the moc being the older one is bad, and I should not have to explain why.

The Sequels. I really liked tfa, and the potential it had. We were going to have a black ex-stormtrooper turned jedi protagonist, a latino pilot who had an interesting backstory involving a military legacy, and a woman with force sensitivity and an unknown backstory. Instead we ended up with... well *guestures vaguely*

MCU. Especially t*ny stark and class traitor peter parker

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Favorite Characters of all time (in no particular order except Katara is number one) - KATARA (atla), Aang (atla), Buffy Summers, Luke Skywalker, Din Djarin, Adora (spop), Mako (lok), Ming-Hua (lok), Mulan, Peggy Carter, Akane Tendo, Ukyo Kuonji, and Kiki (kiki’s delivery service)

Favorite Movie - The Princess and The Frog (the way they are the best disney couple ever 🥺🥺🥺)

Favorite Star Wars Movie - Attack of the Clones (it’s about the forbidden love 🥹🥹🥹)

Favorite Star Wars Couple - Anidala (i am sorry they just hit me with the yearning. i am young and biracial and queer and they just make me yearn)

Favorite Tropes - Enemies-to-lovers, Forbidden romance (it's the angry biracial bisexual in me)

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[ID: The “Friendship ended with” meme edited to say “parentship ended with yodito now gon freecss is my only son.”

Gon Freecss, from Hunter x Hunter is edited onto the image on the face of the right person in the original meme. In the two spaces of the bottom corners of the image, Grogu from The Mandalorian is edited there with a green “x” marked over his body. End ID]

[2ndblogg]

Hey! Just read your hot take on novel!wangxian and I absolutely agree. I'm gonna have to say here that I believe it boils down to the fetishization of homosexual men in a lot of the fandom culture that surrounds mlm shipping, as you said it's a space for a lot of women to experiment with their desires and whatnot, but I think therein lies the breaking points between reading novel!wangxian as a good, healthy relationship vs. reading it as a very flawed and toxic one. As an LGBT person, reading the way the author dealt with their relationship made me extremely uncomfortable, it just really feels like something that is written by someone who is more invested in using her queer characters for satisfying her and her reader's own pleasure than a well-built, strong relationship between two characters. Not to take away from the novel in some other aspects, I believe that novel!wwx is a much better, much more nuanced character than what he is in cql, but when it comes to wangxian, I think the intentions are very different for each of them. To each their own, I guess, but I do find it very troubling that some people in the fandom have a really hard time admitting that novel wangxian is not even remotely healthy.

Absolutely.

And can I just say how glad it makes me to see that not everyone is praising this book for it’s lgbt representation...

But I guess that’s also why I just occasionally feel the need to scream my frustrations into the void or try to make sense of the novel.

And why I try to be understanding and accepting of people’s opinion of the novel and not take it ‘personally’ (in the sense of sitting there thinking “holy shit this is how they view ME, this is what they think of ME” etc).

I was in fandoms back when they were really a place dominated by straight (homophobic) women and realism or lgbt representation wasn’t on anyone’s mind (and the occasional dude butting in to say that’s not how sex works or bottoming is experienced was ignored or told to get out). I experienced this change to fandoms being more of a lgbt space, of people becoming aware that media can shape your views of groups of people, of people becoming aware of their fetishizing of fictional gays vs. their prejudice against real life lgbt people etc.

And tbh MXTX just writes like one of those, she writes wangxian like everyone wrote their gay relationships around 2005 and earlier; clear power imbalance, clear roles and attributes that are divided into ‘manly’ and ‘feminine’, certain physical attributes (like the female self insert character aka the bottom being pretty and slight and weaker and shorter), men/the penetrating partner can’t really be raped so anything the woman/bottom tries isn’t really ‘bad’, the male love interest is forceful and self centered but ONLY because he’s so in love and since he’s emotionally stunted he has to express that through sex, men/tops NEED sex and it’s rude/mean to deny them that, the girl/bottom isn’t THAT horny or in charge of their own sexuality but wants to please their partner and what they really get out of it is the emotional aspect, decisions need to be made for them because the dude/top just knows better, the girl/bottom is childish and flirty and the guy/top suffers through it until he finally snaps and shows the girl/bottom who'sboss etc etc. (honestly homophobia and misogyny is so tightly knit in this kind of fiction, if it wasn’t so frustrating it would be very interesting).

Tbh I disagree with novel!wwx being more nuanced (despite a lot of ppl whose opinions I really respect also feeling this way), because I simply cannot seperate him from the wangxian relationship. All I see are tropes and stereotypes applied to make him ‘work’ in the context of the wangxian relationship instead of an actual personality...

To me, in CQL WWX is clearly the main character and you love his interactions with LWJ and want more of them and value them, wheras in the novel most of the time WWX plays second fiddle even when a scene should technically be about him and LWJ’s presence is incredibly suffocating, because he’s always being controlling or at the very least influencing WWX.

I also don’t feel like WWX has much of a character arc/growth. We’re essentially told he had one but the only thing that really actually changes is him hating himself a bit more and letting LWJ smash..., and I guess: he’s less independent than ever, he’s more isolated that ever...

I’ve called novel!wangxian a relationship between an abuser and his victim, because you can find evidence of that in the text. Not because I think the author wanted to portray an unhealthy gay relationship. Like you said, she was fetishizing and wrote for a similar crowd. But to me that ‘realization’ helped...I still don’t see how people can call it a masterpiece but I can at least understand hyping something you like up...

And like, badly written gay relationship or not; gay/straight,man/women, I see how people can find it hot. Exploring your sexuality through fictional characters isn’t necessarily a strictly straight girl phenomena. I probably have read fic that was exactly like this, I can’t judge anyone for it. But no one prints out the last PWP they read and goes, “this is ideal lgbt representation and nothing will ever be this good, the fact that it includes rape makes it so realistic” like????

(Is that part or an effect of the woke and purety culture? you can’t say ‘i like this book but it has flaws’ or ‘i’ve enjoyed this but it’s not up the feminism or lgbt acceptance that i preach/live’ so you have to pretend it’s flawless?)

And like, I do think novel!wangxian is a nightmare when it comes to lgbt representation and I do believe this is largely due to a cishet woman writing about gay men and fetishizing them (the fact that a lot of peoples arguments why novel!wangxian ‘is better’ boils down to ‘there’s kissing and sex’ is also pretty telling). And I am frightend and worried by some peoples response to it.

But is it really fair to see it as just that? It’s a problem sure, but that same thing happens in straight media (which I am admittedly not well versed in). Stephanie Meyer didn’t set out to write Edward Cullen to be a creep and non of the teenage girls that went crazy over him viewed it as such...Reylo fans (aside from some of them proclaiming Finn to be the real villain and saying it’s racist and misogynistic to not find Kylo Ren hot) found a way to view him threatening her as romantic and sexy, Loki fans that didn’t ship him with Thor usually fell into the camp of “he would be a perfect boyfriend” or “what if this OFC was his slave and he raped her everyday <3″... like ignoring/glorifying/romanticizing behaviours or exploring what kinks you might have through the safety of fictional characters and fictional settings isn’t JUST happening when it comes to ‘the gays’...

And not just specifically in fandom spaces either, a lot of ‘romantic’ movies include inappropriate touching, the boy/guy knowing better than the girl what she wants etc. And I absolutely do believe that that’s something that normalized these things for a lot of young girls and guys (I don’t want to get into this too much, I’ve really seen a change in the past few years, but before that it was pretty common for young boys to believe they need to keep pursuing and pressuring a girl that has said no, girls truly thought boys could die of blue balls, girls thought it was their duty as good girlfriends to let their boyfriends fuck them even when they weren’t in the mood, that they couldn’t talk about what they want in bed or what they don’t find enjoyable because ‘sex is for boys and girls get a relationship in exchange’ etc.).

And in much the same way movies have only relatively recently begun being called out for that, it’s also still pretty recently that they’re being called out for having their one queer coded character be a pedophile and a murder or whatever...Like, society as a whole becoming aware of these issues.

But do authors that publish their work with a specific target audience in mind have a responsibility to think about the effect it might have on them? (And I can already hear loud screams of ‘no way, it’s not your fault if your audience isn’t smart enough to understand that this bad thing is bad’, but I actually do believe in a way they do. That doesn’t mean you can’t or shouldn’t write whatever you want, just maybe take a look at HOW you bring your point across. (We do KNOW people are influenced by what propaganda they’re consistantly fed. I mean, you wouldn’t write a pro-drugs childrens book...) )

What if the author isn’t aware of their bias and prejudices? Or their target audience isn’t their actual audience?

And do we, society and media, judge female and male authors differently when it comes to romance and sex in fiction? (The answer is yes btw) But also, where do we draw the line at calling something ‘badly written’ and calling it toxic? Can it be both? As I’ve said before, a lot of people claim that only the physical intimacy scenes of novel!wangxian are bad, because they’re badly written and OOC, some say the book as amazingly written and only the wangxian relationship is bad because the author doesn’t know how to write gay men. In my ‘hot take’ I essentially said that’s not necessarily bad writing so much as it’s simply an (okay, unintentional) toxic relationship. And would this relationship still come across as toxic (or badly written, whichever you want) if we didn’t know the author to be a cishet woman? Or if a gay man had written it? (my personal, eloquent answer for this is: yes, but differently.)

Which was really all just a rambly way to get to my point of: it’s not just fetishizing of gay men, it’s also the homophobia and self-inserting in a safe situation.

You can literally replace WWX in the novel with a female character and it wouldn’t change a thing. The author takes such an effort into building up this power imbalance in every aspect of their life that if WWX were a heroine nothing would change in this (sexist/ancient society) setting.

(And clearly this is something that appeals to people if you look at the amount of female!WWX fics...)

Not even the sex scenes. There are maybe two allusions in all of them combined that WWX might also have a dick but like, you can’t be sure and it sure as hell doesn’t need stimulation.

(and again, that could be written as a kink...but it’s just not.)

CQL is a gay love story. MDZS at it’s core is none of that.

But I also very much agree with your ‘to each their own’, like here I am criticizing and trying to find explanations and whatever, but at the end of the day it doesn’t matter why someone might like (or write) a book like this, I vastly prefer CQL!wangxian but people have their own reasons for not doing so.

The ‘problem’ really only lies in, as you said, people not being able to accept that it’s not a healthy relationship. Or claiming it to be perfect lgbt rep.

And because my brain can’t shut up today:

I also can’t stop thinking that the way some people ‘glorify’ the book as due to their age and ‘inexperience’.

When I was a pretty young kid and got into fanfiction, there was nothing but completely OOC!whump to be found in the first two fandoms I was in. And I loved it. It was YEARS later that I thought I might like to read something with the characters being...in character. What I’m trying to say, in different stages and phases of your life you might enjoy different things, for different reasons...and obviously, in that moment, you won’t think about ‘what appeals to me here/should this appeal to me/etc’.

I don’t mean inexperience as ‘sexual inexperience’ here, though of course that could be part of it, but also like, inexperience with this genre (is this the first book like this you read, or did you just read 50 in a row that all had the same unhealthy vibes?), with lgbt people and issues (do you know any lgbt people or is your only image of them either the cute boy you can’t have and don’t want to see with another girl or grown men in full kink gear in front of children during CSD? and also: do you think ‘i like this’ and that’s the end of it or do you notice how many people idolize this objectively unhealthy relationship and won’t allow critique on it...)  

I...just wanted to say thanks really.

I just can’t stop rambling apparently and I know I mostly just repeated what you said or what I already said but in longer... I just really do feel very strongly about novel!wangxian and the perception of them and have actually at times felt very personally...worried/affected, by people’s acceptance and love of them and I just... have to try and make sense of it...

[happiness-in-fiction]

literally obsessed with this pic of him RAAAA he's just so??? he's so gorgeous and he just looks so great here and i'm so jealous of her </3 he should be leaning against ME /lh anyway his hands!! his face!! (so kissable...) and lord his LEGS he has no right looking like thissss i need to lay on top of him and cuddle with him

[pompadorkery]

What do you mean you find it hard to relate to female characters. It's a fictional universe, you can make them anyway you want. Lucy is pretty feminine and Anglo too. I realize almost all the moms of your ocs are bad or thier children hate them. I understand that you have an abusive mom but do you really have to projected on every character you have. Do you have something against women or your just not attracted to them. Probably the latter because all of your ocs are sex dolls.

Wow. Where to even start with this one.

Why do you think the majority of Hollywood action heroes or video game protagonists are cis white males?

It's because it's the easiest to relate to for the biggest demographic of their audience.

Many anime have just a boring plain normie male protag for the same reason. They're supposed to be easily relatable, and like a blank slate that you can project on.

For me, female characters are hard to relate to.

Growing up, I never cared for female protags or love interest characters. And usually actively disliked them. (Much of this is because female characters are generally poorly written in alot of media, but that's besides the point)

I have never felt "in touch" with womanhood. I could never relate to female characters because none of them were like me, or had the same thoughts or struggles I had.

The female characters I like now are generally mold breaking. They don't fit in the typical box. And they give me something I can relate to.

For example:

Mako Mankanshoku from Kill la Kill. She's an absolute idiot and a total bimbo. She eats alot, she's loud, she's kinda useless at times, and she cares alot about her friends.

Satya "Symmetra" Vaswani from Overwatch. First of all, she's on the autism spectrum. She's rigid, stubborn, and can often come across as mean- but in reality she's just very goal oriented and likes things to be orderly.

While these are very different characters, I find alot of things in them that I can relate to and identify with. Not every aspect is true at all times, and there are plenty of things in their characters that I can't relate with, but regardless, there are aspects of myself that I can see in characters like them.

I've always related better to male characters. And like I said, much of the time female characters aren't written well, while the male characters are. I just always found them cooler. I liked their designs more, and they had more interesting stories. Whereas many female characters entire plot revolves around getting with the protag.

I've struggled with gender my entire life. I never felt like a girl. Even the people around me would say that I was such a "tomboy". I would often get told to dress more feminine, or that my haircut made me look like a boy, etc. One of my happiest moments as a teenager was when I got to play a male character in my high school's spring musical and during that entire time everyone referred to me in character, as a boy. I had a great time playing this character, and it really showed through in my performance. I was comfortable for once.

I identify as non-binary now, and I still have alot of questions about my own gender, and I'm still figuring alot of things out. But what I know for sure is that I'm not a girl.

Now, getting into my OCs.

You claim that all my OCs have troubled relationships with their moms, because I have a troubled relationship with my own mother.

2 of OCs.

2 of my OCs have mommy issues.

Out of all the characters I have, only 2 have issues with their mothers. So like, are you just pulling things out of your ass, or?

Lucy was abandoned by his mom at a young age and has alot of bitterness towards her because of this. Which is perfectly reasonable given the situation.

Sanka is just a brat. He still loves and cares about his mom, their relationship is just strained due to his own insecurities and self-loathing.

All my other characters either have no mother in the picture at all, or have perfectly fine and normal relationships with their moms.

Neither Sanka nor Lucy's moms are abusive. So it's pretty yikes of you to bring up my own abusive mother in this conversation. What are you trying to prove? In your concocted narrative, I'm writing characters with abusive moms because my mom was abusive and that's the only mother figure I know. So.... I'd be writing from experience.... in what world is that a bad thing?

You also mentioned Lucy and Angelo being feminine. "Feminine male" does not equal "woman". Those are two very different things. Just as a butch woman is not the same as a man. Experiences are completely different. Equating them is extremely sexist, and could be incredibly transphobic if you also think this way about real people.

And claiming I'm not attracted to women because my OCs are 'sex dolls'. Literally what are you even trying to get at? You do realize that real women and fictional characters are different, correct? Plenty of lesbians create stories or art about mlm characters. Plenty of lesbians draw gay porn. Are they not attracted to women because they draw men getting fucked?

I am bi. I also fall somewhere in the ace spectrum, due to alot of my own dysphoria. Of course I'm attracted to women. Real women are so incredibly sexy and beautiful and interesting. What isn't there to like? Just because I like making male characters doesn't somehow mean I hate women. I just haven't been able to create a fictional woman I find as interesting and captivating as real women are.

Also. I just enjoy drawing men. So a majority of my characters are gonna be men. Sue me. Sorry for enjoying myself.

And the whole "sex doll" comment. I answer the questions people ask. Which happens to be alot about sex. What can I say? People have cumbrain.

I'm also an nsfw artist. So obviously alot of the art I create is gonna be porn.

Is that the entire story of the characters? No, of course not! Do you think me and Ren would have enough storyline for an entire book if all the characters did was fuck? There's so much more to it than that. There's so much more that people don't see.

I mean, what's more interesting to see a drawing of:

Two characters in the heated embrace of love making

Or two characters sitting on the couch doing completely different mundane activities

There's a time and a place for everything, and sometimes drawing something simple and mundane is a fun look into a characters life.... But also I just like drawing dicks and the faces of people who are thoroughly wrecked.

Tl;dr- It's not that deep, fam.

[thewhitefluffyhat]

Thoughts on Rika’s Magical Girl Story

This is a real blast from the past!  Wayyy back for the February Magia Rapport, I was thinking about writing a “favorite Flame magical girl” post from scratch.  And then I looked through my Magireco folder and realized I basically already had - back in September 2017.  As usual, I never post things until literally years later because I am a silly.

So yes, the reason Rika is one of my favorite Flame characters, even to this day? It’s because back in 2017, Rika’s Magical Girl Story was a major turning point that got me invested in Magireco.

The following was written the very first time I read Rika’s story, but I still stand by these comments on it even today.

Going into Rika’s Magical Girl Story, I already knew the main twist ahead of time.  And I was worried that since the Magical Girl Stories are very short, Rika’s whole character would just be some lesbian stereotype.

Turns out that’s not the case at all – Rika has plenty of other interests, friends, and personality beyond the parts of the plot related to her orientation.

In particular, I love that her story’s main theme isn’t “lesbian angst” it’s “don’t judge people by appearances.”  Rika is purposely introduced in a way that makes you think she’s shallow, vain, boy-crazy, and super cheerful.  But then the story goes out of its way to break that stereotype, and show that Rika sticks up for her friends, is actually a bundle of stress under that cheerful mask, is surprisingly mature in realizing magic-induced love is wrong, and oh by the way, isn’t even straight. 

Then there’s the whole subplot of Rika and Hinano becoming friends.  They both have very different interests and personalities, but they put those differences aside to support each other.  And the end result is a very sweet mentoring relationship.

I really like the subplot of “magical girl realizes wish-granted love is wrong and works to fix it” and the “magical girl is revealed to be a lesbian” subplot, but the combination is a bit unfortunate.  The end result is that the single explicitly lesbian magical girl gets a story about her realizing she needs to get her girlfriend back with a boy.

If they’d kept the “don’t judge by appearances” part of Rika’s story but done the “undo my wish” subplot with a different, straight character (and maybe added more explicit discussion of “this is bad because no consent”), that might have worked a little better.

In general, I liked Rika worrying what Hinano would think about her if she revealed her orientation.  I’ve read too much yuri-bait where the reason there’s no homophobia is to leave open the interpretation that the girls aren’t gay, they’re really just “best friends.”  For me, it was far more impactful to get a full confirmation that Rika not only likes girls, she’s also aware of all the real-life difficulties that entails. 

I also really love the way that the homophobia angle is handled.  We get Rika’s angst and her feelings on not being able to talk about the subject, which felt to me like a legit “first time I’ve ever come out to someone” conversation. And even better, that’s followed up by Hinano’s strong reassurances that anyone who thinks badly of Rika because of her orientation is a jerk.

So the end result is that we get an exploration of internalized homophobia that centers on the lesbian girl’s experience, while avoiding being exploitative and reveling in homophobic comments and bullying.

And then to top that, it seems like Rika and her girlfriend were dating without anyone giving them trouble.  Indeed, it might very well be that her wish didn’t change her friend’s orientation - after all, the main effect was to make her forget her current boyfriend. 

When you put the whole thing together, it seems like Magireco strikes a decent balance.  Kamihama is at a place where Rika may have had some bad experience or heard some ugly comments in the past, but in the present most people are actually pretty fine with gay people.

But probably the most interesting surprise for me in this story?  The little bit of Part 3 where Rika cries about not having a place in the typical romance narrative.  Her friend and the girl’s boyfriend are the princess and the dreamy prince, but Rika doesn’t fit in either of those roles.  So who is she?  Just the cupid who makes their love happen?  What about HER love, what about HER story?  Doesn’t she deserve a place too?

There isn’t really a resolution to this, but I was so happy that she brings it up.  This is why fictional representation is important, dammit! 

(Someone please give this child a copy of Revolutionary Girl Utena.)

tl;dr: Tragic lesbians are definitely overdone, but the angst here feels way more nuanced than I expected, and the short story also has some other legitimately great themes.  Good job, Magireco, please keep going this direction!

A last note: I know it’s a long shot, but I’m still holding out the hope that this isn’t the end of Rika’s story. After all, the game isn’t anywhere near done.  They’ll be adding more magical girls in the future, so it would be super easy to dump a new batch of 3*s where one has a character story where they meet and fall for Rika.

...

......

Amusingly enough, exactly one week after I wrote that last comment above?  Ren was released.  With the very first new character introduction event, Magireco had given me exactly what I barely even dared to hope for.  

 Needless to say, that was the moment I knew I was in this game for the long haul.

[wangzapper]

I just saw a message that some anon wasnt fine with fact that hux is gay?! I love gays!!! And all love of mine and reaspect i give to gay people, couse they have courage to be what they want and not what others want them to be. Gay is wonderfull and all kinds of love are worth every second of your life. Dont quit beeing gay couse somebody that doesnt have brain told you that it is wrong!👑i will personaly blow the system for gays😘

Assuming you're the same anon as before (if you're not, my bad I'm sorry!) At the end of the day Hux's sexuality isn't a hill I'm going to die on, he's fictional. What I DO have an issue with was the way you implied that people choose to be gay or asexual based on trauma or preference. Being gay or ace isn't a choice and the idea of asexuality being inherently tied to trauma is an old and harmful stereotype. (It's also worth noting that gay ace people exist! It's not an either/or!) I also think it's worth examining why you felt the need to ask for an explanation as to why I headcanon Hux as gay as if being gay is something that has to be justified and doesn't just... exist naturally.

Again, I honestly don't care that much about what you personally think Hux's sexuality is. Personally I think the text of the film has a lot of clues that suggest it, to the point of being homophobic, but he's also a fictional character and open to interpretation. You specifically mentioned in your ask that Hux hates Kylo Ren and therefore wouldn't ever want to sleep with him. That's a valid interpretation and honestly, as much as I enjoy kylux, I don't totally disagree. But that in no way suggests he isn't gay. I don't want to fuck my last boss, in fact I'd fist fight her in a McDonald's parking lot if I could, but that doesn't make me not bisexual.

I don't think you're a bad person or that you hate anyone, I just think you should examine some of your ideas about gay people, ace people, and what is an appropriate thing to message people on the internet.

[waywardfacegarden]

Who is your anime: 1) husband 2) wife 3) babie 4) side hoe 5) squad [pretty much if they could be your best friend group] 6) would be your bff 7) would be your archenemy?

Well, hello there, soulmate!!!💗💙 This question is so interesting asjdaldsj, and it also made me realize I have. Way too many crushes on fictional women... (and men, too, tbh, but with men i have like my top 20 pretty clear [not in particular order, just. my fave of faves LOL] and with women I was like. Oh god. Oh god. Do I mention her... or her... NO, HER... NONONO HER. NO WAIT--)

But okay. PLEASE HAVE IN MIND THAT I HAVE LIKE AT LEAST 20 HUSBANDS, WIVES AND BABIES BUT TO NOT MAKE THIS THAT LONG I’M ONLY MENTIONING ONE EACH.

Husband: Rin Matsuoka from Free! (but you obviously know that already ajdlalhds). Dude, I’m. You already know how much I’m in love with him, I cannot. Cannot. He’s hard-working, kind, talented, charming, smart, competitive, so inspiring, so fucking soft, emotional (i love the fact that he cries with ridiculous romance movies akjdladsj he’s a crybaby i love him), he cares so deeply about his friends and his kohais, he’s such a good leader/captain, too?? and kinda a tsundere which is my type apparently, LMAO. But, YEAH. He seriously makes my heart go all askdjlakdjjlad crazy. It makes so fucking. Soft how he’s so tender when he’s with his kohais, too???? DUDE I CAN’T. I was pretty much melting in that scene where he’s teaching Rei how to swim aksjdlasdj. I also die every time he smiles. But it also adds like. 100000000 years to my life. He’s such a blessing ajdlkakj, thank God for Rin Matsuoka. HE’S ALSO SO FUCKING PRETTY?????? AND HOT????? AND CUTE????????? AND ALLURING AND ATTRACTIVE AND GORGEOUS ALL AT ONCE. GGGGHHHHHHH. I malfunction every time he shows up aksjdladj.

Wife: After like. 20 minutes of thinking about it I realized I couldn’t pick only one so I gave up and decided to say the one I’ve been pretty obsessed with most recently. Momoe Maria from Ookiku Furikabutte. SHE’S JUST SO PERFECT??? She’s badass, she’s so freaking cool, she’s smart and cute and pretty and did I already mention cool???? Asjdhald. She’s the coolest. She plays softball and she’s. A COACH. AND SUCH A GOOD ONE. She’s strong (both physically and mentally) and kind and so, so hard-working and dedicated and I just really, really love her. I also could wax poetic about how cute she is tbh ajsdajh. AND BADASS. Basically, every time she shows up in a game (because she’s. The coach. Everyone falls a bit in love with her imo and HOW COULD YOU NOT?????). SHE’S SO INSPIRING. I admire her in such a deep level uGH. All my respect and unconditional love for this woman.

Babie: Mihashi Ren from Ookiku Furikabutte (look, I’m about to finish the manga and besides Bakugou Katsuki, oofuri is the only thing I’ve been thinking about this week ajdladja bc it’s SO WHOLESOME). Listen, HE’S MY SON, OKAY??? I HAVE SO MANY ALREADY BUT I DON’T CARE. I want to protect him, to tell him he’s amazing and doing so great, and to make him feel better with himself, to make him more confident in his talent and to STOP being so hard on himself BECAUSE HONESTLY, THIS BOY IS SO HARD-WORKING AND SO. ENDEARING. AND HE’S DOING AMAZING. He’s always, always working so hard, and he’s!!!! Such a cute, adorable anxious bean. I just want him to be happy.

Side hoe: (I don’t know what this means LMFAO i hope you don’t mean anything sexual bc i interpreted like someone you would kick ass with LOL). Yuri Plisetsky from Yuri on Ice!! Akjhdjalh LMAO. YURIO I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH, AND YOU’RE DEFINITELY NOT A HOE BUT. YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT, RIGHT? But YEAH. He’s the one I’d kick ass with. Also he’s????? One of my favorite, favorite, favorite characters ever, I admire him LOTS. AND LOVE HIM. My love for him equals Rin and Bakugou so. Just so you understand LOL. ALSO I BOUGHT HIS HOODIE SO WE WOULD BE TWINS!!!!!!!!

Squad: DEFINITELY BAKUSQUAD. DEFINITELY. They’re morons and completely disasters but they’re!!! My favorite people ever!!!!!!! They’re the kind of people that have your back ANYTIME, that support you and not judge you, that encourage and support you, that is THERE for you. THEY ALSO WOULD BE SO MUCH FUN TO BE AROUND?????? They’re all kind and funny and witty and AMAZING. They’re such good friends. Definitely my fave squad in BNHA and in a lot of other stories (i also love samezuka obviously and team gai from naruto but ajshdaljf i feel like bakusquad is more my kind of friends). They’re my fave kind of people and idk, I feel like I would always be happy around them. They listen, and make everything fun for you, and care, and I wouldn’t mind having to be The Mom Friend with Grumpy Mom Friend Bakugou and having to tutor them with Bakugou too akjdlaj. They would make me insanely happy, you have no idea. PLUS BAKUGOU IS IN THERE. WHAT MORE DO I WANT?????? AND I COULD RAMBLE WITH SERO OF MANGAS ALL THE TIME AND BORROW HIS MANGAS AND AKDJLADJA YEAH BAKUSQUAD (kami, mina, sero, kiri, jirou [YES JIROU IS ON HERE] and baku).

BFF: I WANT KAMINARI DENKI AS MY BEST FRIEND. He’s such a good friend???????? He’s so supportive and so kind and so funny and A RAY OF SUNSHINE and I just think we would get along amazingly I guess ajsdlasdjald Idk I want him to be my friend🥺🥺🥺 He’s also my Bi Icon and he strikes me as a king of memes and he NEEDS to explain them to me bc I never get jokes or memes akdjlasd.

Archenemy: Kinda cheated on this one but: Lio Fiota from Promare. I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH OKAY YOU HAVE NO IDEA (again, rin-bakugou-yuri-level. He’s one of my biggest crushes). But I wouldn’t mind if he crushes me asdhasdjalsdj LMFAO. He’s just so badass????? and so cool??????? and I probably would just Be Whipped in our fights but idc okay?????? A lot of archenemies are in love with each other okay don’t judge me LMAO. Enemies to Friends trope with my one-sided pining LOL. (The only thing is that he’s so kind that he probably wouldn’t fight me🥺🥺).

ANYWAYS THIS WAS REALLY FUN TO DO, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPE YOU’RE DOING AMAZING, TAKE CARE, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!💗💗💗💗

[jyndor]

lol i got mad about a thing reylos said. shocking. (tw: nazism, fascism)

just saw a ridiculous post about how people who talk about the first order as being nazis are ignoring history and disrespecting jewish people and let me tell you

that the only reason I didn’t write this on that post is because I think the op is probably jewish and also a kyle ron/reylo fan and lol well. I don’t need to be told I can’t have an opinion on this or that I am attacking them. this is nothing personal, except that reylos have a history of being racist and dismissive about fascism, and so I am honestly shook that someone could be so disingenuous. lol oop that was personal.

if you know anything about film history, you know that george lucas got his inspiration for the empire’s look, and also for certain shots of the rebels, from nazi propaganda made by leni riefenstahl, specifically triumph of the will. (guys don’t go looking it up if you haven’t seen it unless you have a strong stomach because it is really, really disgusting). now, that is more or less what happens when you have a guy who is a student of film history make a movie about, you guessed it, a band of rebels fighting an imperial force but in space. george lucas also put a lot of politics into star wars, specifically anti-fascist messaging. this is like the most basic argument people make when dealing with right-wing fans of sw. this is what we’ve all said to some dumbass white guy who got mad about rey or finn or poe. I would bet that some reylos have also had that conversation, since they care about rey (I guess, although that might be too strong a word; they certainly don’t care about shipping her with a guy who tortured her lol but I digress).

jj abrams took what was already overt fascist imagery from the empire and turned it up to eleven for the first order. this is actually why I found the inclusion of POC as first order OFFICERS (not low level workers Bodhi or stolen baby stormtroopers like Finn) to be kind of fucked up, because it diluted the narrative. do not come at me with some idiotic YESS MORE BLACK IMPERIALS YESS because I am just not here for that brand of idiot representational pinkwashing(? this is a term we use for putting gay shit on monstrous corporate/imperial shit to seem more progressive but it might not be the right term for this).

if you look at the og trilogy, every single imperial officer is a posh white british man, and while I am sure that was partly because diversity was not really something george seemed mindful of, it was also a deliberate thing. like, they clearly wanted to evoke an image of imperialist, and yes FASCIST, rule. this is not that hard to understand so don’t be fucking obtuse just because you like kyle ron or reylo. not that I believe that the intent of the creator is the end all, be all, but in this case it does matter.

yes the anti-alien biases were mainly a product of legends, but I am pretty sure it is also implicit in the original movies because there are no aliens to be found in imperial ranks, and they are everywhere in the rebellion. and yes, I can understand why this might be offensive because you don’t need metaphors to understand why the nazis were bad, and yet. maybe, sometimes, you do need to give people a metaphorical understanding of things they haven’t experienced. and humans have a notoriously difficult time understanding large numbers - so maybe, a visual example of what the fuck genocide might seem like is... idk, helpful for kids? alderaan being death star’d might not be actual history, and it might not represent what jewish/romani/etc victims of the nazis experienced, but it IS chilling. personally I think that tfa did a better job with its death star knock-off because we actually saw people in their last moments. alderaan’s destruction can be rightfully criticized as too distant, since we only see leia’s response, and not what it felt like on the ground. but undoubtedly this is a fictional representation of fascist, imperial might - and all the destruction that comes with it.

it isn’t just visual, and of course the star war isn’t real and no real alderaanians were harmed in the making of the movies. duh. it’s a metaphor, an allegory. like idk who these reylos are kidding, acting like people who criticize you guys for stanning a fascist fuckboy don’t understand that these are just fiction.

the REASON I get mad about reylo and about kyle ron stans, is because nothing exists in a vacuum. NOTHING. not a damn thing. the dumbing down of stormtroopers and imperial ideology (vague though it might be) is actually how Disney gets away with marketing t-shirts with stormtrooper helmets on them to little kids, or like idk how people have convinced themselves that ben solo is just misunderstood and damaged, and not a thirty-year-old man who has made a deliberate choice to commit genocide. his so-called abuse (which we only get to see in a comic? like I’m sorry do better with your sob story) is no excuse for at best being silently complicit in genocide, and at worst actively campaigning for it.

I think there are good critiques that people make about saying the empire is nazism, because obviously this is fiction. you cannot have it both ways. you cannot say that it is anti-fascist when you are arguing with right-wingers who didn’t get that message, and then turn around when people say your fave is at best neutral on genocide (lol) and say we can’t talk about how he is a fascist.

I saw someone say something like, no one calls darth vader a fascist. LMAO yes we fucking do. now I will be the first to admit that anakin gets a lot more empathy, and part of that is because he is a more beloved character with more nuance than kyle ron. and decades of lore. but also because he didn’t grow up a privileged son of a princess, he grew up enslaved and because of his traumas he went right-wing. which does in fact happen. but yeah, darth vader had to die at the end of rotj for a reason - because no one would forgive him for the crimes he committed against the galaxy. it’s tragic because he had the potential to do great, and he redeems himself by killing the emperor, but approximately no critic of kyle ron would ever say that anakin skywalker deserved to go free and live without consequences for his actions.

if I have more sympathy for him, it is because the movies gave me reason. not because he’s hot. or idk a bad boy.

and after the racist abuse that john boyega got from KYLE RON AND REYLO stans specifically, if I were them I would shut the fuck up about how offended you guys are about calling him a fascist or a nazi. you can like your bad boy wet dream if you want, and you don’t have to even like that people think he is a fascist, and you can deny all you want all of that OVERT FASCIST IMAGERY that jj abrams put into tfa, but it’s there, and we don’t live in a vacuum, and I am not here for people dumbing down cultural phenomenon.

redemptions arcs are great! I believe in rehabilitative justice, and I agree that there is a bit of gatekeeping on who gets to be redeemed in stories. but rehabilitative justice isn’t just like you let people who do bad shit get away with it, it is a long process wherein offenders have to do some serious work on themselves. it is not easy. it is not fun, doesn’t end in sex with daisy ridley. and in many ways, it might be harder than doing hard time.

but I also don’t think we get to just... rehabilitate the lead officers who are complicit in war crimes without dealing with what they’ve done, that is how I feel about george bush, and yes, that is how I feel about kylo ren, no matter how much you try to woobify him. because that is what society already does - we let the monsters at the top of the system get away with war crimes and murder and rape, so maybe we should fight that kind of narrative in fiction, too.

we don’t live in a vacuum.