#SO SO encouraging and kind of you all omg 💜

[generational-atrophy]

OMG! I WAS LOOKING THROUGH UR BLOG CUZ MY HETALIA PHASE IS BACK AND WAS LIKE "I LOVE THIS WRITER SM WHERE ARE THEY" AND BOOM!

So request, if that's okay, the main 8 with a reader who cries during confrontations and or arguments. An imagine where ofc the main 8 says something hurtful and reader just covers their ears because 1.) Ears do be sensitive and 2.) It causes them to shut down completely

Can we know how they'd handle it plus how it'd go? Ty 💜

hetalia main 8 saying something they regret in an argument

2.8k words ~ gender neutral headcanons

tw: they say hurtful things, and are kind of assholes in general lol

America - Alfred F. Jones

“I’m better than this. Why’d I keep someone as seriously uncool as you around?!”

Even as you immediately begin turning away from him, curling into yourself for comfort, Alfred would be less than sympathetic. If you’d ever doubted how self-centred he could be, this was more than enough evidence to prove it.

“What? What- just- don’t do that! You’re the one who started this!”

It’s unlikely he’d let up even after the tears start. He’s really that callous when he feels hurt. After a few tense minutes of silence broken only by your quiet whimpering, he’d start tearing up too. Not from guilt, seeing how much he hurt you. But instead from how he’s only now realizing he has to put his own feelings aside to take care of yours.

He’d approach you like a rabid animal, a lump stuck in his throat as he tries to say anything to get you talking again.

“Listen, it’s uh- not that serious. I’m sorry, ok? Let’s just… like- do something else?”

His comforting consists mostly of trying to get you out of your own head. Once it’s been long enough that you’re less scared, he’d take your hands away from your ears gently and kiss your cheek. If you’re sensitive to other things, he’d wrap his jacket around your shoulders and turn off the lights until you’re up and talking again.

“See? Not that hard, just like I said. Good job, babe…  let’s just keep going like this, yeah?”

Somewhere, past all of the self-absorption and pride, he does have a heart. And that heart will immediately take you out to get ice cream. It’d take him a while to admit fault (and I mean real responsibility, not just his usual “sorry not sorry, move on,” schtick,) but maybe once your tear stains have dried, he’d realize what an ass he’d been.

England - Arthur Kirkland

“G*d, you’re pissing me off already! Just- fuck- get out of here if you hate us so much!”

Like usual. He’s desperate to just leave as soon as there’s conflict. It may be annoying, but at least he’s only doing it because he knows how awful he is when frustrated. 

If you don’t take up his offer to abandon the conversation, he will. You’d have to be seriously struggling to keep him with you in that moment.

“Trust me, everything will be much, much worse if I stay…”

He’s always acting like that. It’s like his conscience disappears when he speaks, but only returns when he’s already said the hurtful thing. Never taking responsibility, always panicking and leaving just as your tears start to fall.

But, the more you tell him how much that hurts, the more he might be willing to stay.

It’ll take him a while to be able to choke out a cowardly “sorry,” but at least he’ll stop trying to push you away at every occasion.

“Wait- don’t cry so much love, I’m- I… I didn’t mean it. Ok? Is that better?”

It’s impossible for him to keep arguing once you’re truly upset. Instead, he’ll take you by the hand to the kitchen so he can start making tea for the two of you. In that silence, he encourages you to speak whatever awful thoughts you’re repeating to yourself. He’s just trying to get you in a comfortable environment again at that point.

Quiet affirmations are the only things he’ll bring, looking at you sympathetically and still holding your hand tight while you talk about whatever you want to. Whether that be something completely random, insults towards him, or actual constructive discussion is up to you.

At the end of the night, he’ll apologize. Not well, mind you, but enough to dissuade you from whatever hurt you earlier. All that matters to him is that you don’t go to bed upset.

“I’ll do better next time… or- I mean- I’ll do my best to… not be like that… again. Promise.”

France - Francois Bonnefoy

“But is it that impossible for you to put in some effort? It’s just… embarrassing to be with you right now!”

He’s always been a fighter for sport. When he argues with you, it’s not to prove a point. It’s probably not about anything he actually cares about either. He honestly just does it for fun. To him, arguing is how you really get to know someone.

So when you take his words to heart and, in the worst case, start crying, he just really doesn’t know what to do.

“Merde, darling, you know I wasn’t being serious! Come on now, don’t take it so personally…”

He may grumble about how he didn’t want you to get so upset, but at least he’ll still calm down and quit pushing you. Whatever tension there was before will dissipate as soon as he sighs, making his way over to you and wrapping you in his embrace. Unless that makes you even more uncomfortable, in which case he’ll just grab your favourite blanket and gently drape it over your shoulders.

“I am so sorry I made you so upset, I really didn’t mean it. You’re wonderful to me, always so stunning!”

For as long as you need him to, he’ll apologize over and over again, playing with your hair and wiping away your tears as delicately as he can manage. He may be just as upset as you are when he realizes what he did, but he’s shockingly good at compartmentalizing that when you need support.

But, if you focus too much on how he hurt you, he might start crying too. He can’t help it. Ignore him.

Either way, he’s there to hold you and validate you in whatever you might be feeling at that moment. Be as irrational as you need to be,  he understands the urge well. And either way, he’ll just nod along to anything you say and insist it’s everyone else's fault. Including his, unlike basically every other man.

“How can you expect to survive when you hold all of this in? Please, always come to me even with small things, we share everything as lovers, yes? I cannot bear to see you as upset as this…”

China - Yao Wang

“Can’t you act your age? How do you expect anyone to put up with you like this?!”

As soon he says it, he knows that was an awful thing to say. He doesn’t need you to tell him, he can tell just by your expression that it was too far. You didn’t deserve that, he told himself.

But that doesn’t mean his ego is gonna let him give in so easily. Even if he was an ass, he still can’t let himself give up “authority” in a fight.

“Agh- that’s not… its not what I mean to say, alright?! So just… pretend I did not….”

If you quit fighting, instead becoming more upset, he’ll really struggle to calm down instead. Like, yes, he knows he should be trying to make you feel better, but that’s- he just doesn’t want to! He entered this fight with a purpose, and just because you’re crying doesn’t make that purpose any less important!

“Why won’t you argue back?! Aiyah, I knew you were childish but-”

Then he cuts himself off. Does he want to be the bigger person and apologize? No. But will he do it if you stop crying? Yes.

He’ll rest a hand on your arm and suggest in the gentlest voice possible that the two of you should go for a walk. Maybe the fresh air will help both of you clear your heads. He doesn’t know what must’ve happened to him to make him say all of those things either.

“I don’t think those thoughts, tiánxīn. I’m sorry I said it, I was upset but… I still should have known better.”

For as quickly as he’s willing to take responsibility, he’s not as much good at the “getting you out of breakdown” stage. Hopefully, you’ve already communicated with him about that so he knows to stop being so loud and trying to touch you. He’ll do whatever you request of him, but what’s best for you in that moment is probably not his first instinct.

“I’m sorry I was being such a huge ass. I love you, I promise.”

Russia - Ivan Braginsky

“You think you are special? I can beat sense into you just like I can them!”

Good luck getting him to understand that you can’t just threaten people within the next few hours. It will not work. When he’s angry, he really doesn’t care about feelings. Just about getting you to cooperate with whatever he says.

He may usually think of both of you as equals, but when you start seriously challenging his authority while he’s in a bad mood, it’s impossible for him to not be cruel. It’s always just better to leave than let him spiral and hurt both of you in the process

Although, he (obviously) would never actually put his hands on you. He just acts like a big baby and’ll stomp his feet and tell you whatever will get the most reaction out of you.

“Любимый, won’t you come out? I’m very sorry, I promise… can’t we just talk?”

But if you do remove yourself from the situation, he would never chase after you and force you to keep being in that awful environment. He knows better than that at least.

The moment you turn away and refuse to engage with his childishness, he’s already planning how to get you to forgive him. For as callous as it seems, your disapproval hurts him more than anything else. He would come to you on his knees, snivelling and pleading,  if that was what he had to do just for you to look at him again

The moment you let him in though, he just rushes over and captures you in his arms. He would dry your tears as gently as he could, treating you like you were made of glass.

“Куколка, куколка, you know I never mean any of that, right? I’m sorry, sorry, please- please, forgive me? If I kiss it better, will you forgive me, любимый?”

He’s so pathetic. Ask anything of him in this state and he’ll do it without hesitation. Unless it’s staying away physically. He’ll be quiet and let you ignore him but don’t try to push him away or he’ll get whiney. If you stress that it isn’t personal enough, maybe he’ll let it go though.

North Italy - Feliciano Vargas

“Why aren’t I good enough? You always abandon me, like-  like I’m nothing! Why do you hate me!?”

The moment either of you pick a fight, he’s already sobbing. Sure, he can argue with his brother for hours, but you matter to him in a much more vulnerable way. If you’re at all upset with him, he instantly feels like you don’t like him any more.

But when he feels attacked, he attacks just as much. In his subconscious, it’s always easier to push you away than have you abandon him yourself. That doesn’t result in very productive conversations, though.

“You’re just pretending you love me! You’re a liar, I- I know it!”

When you start crying along with him from all the awful things he’s said, two things can happen.

One, he cries harder, interpreting your hurt feelings as being an admittance to what he accused you of. Why would you be crying if it wasn’t from guilt, and why’d he say that when he so dreaded it being true?!

Or two, you’ll tell him about how truly terrible it feels to have him think those things about you, and he’ll snap out of it. His overwhelming emotions make him incredibly selfish at the moment, so he truly hadn’t considered how you felt from all of that.

Then he immediately lowers his voice, giving you plenty of space until you feel up to talking again. 

“Oh… I’m sorry! I didn’t- you wouldn’t do that! I know that, you know that, so just- I’m sorry! Please, forgive me, amore mio dolce!”

He pulls you into a hug immediately, keeping the two of you as close as physically possible as he whispers promise after promise of his love. Until your tears dry, he won’t stop strangling you with unabashed affection, doing anything he can just to get you smiling again.

The feeling of guilt is not something he’s used to. It’s not out of the realm of possibility that he’ll start crying again too.

“If I ever make you feel bad again, please shut me up, please! I can’t take the thought of you so hurt by my words!”

Germany - Ludwig Beilschmidt

“My word should be more than enough for you to shut up already!”

It’s exceedingly rare that he ever loses his temper around you like that. Normally, you’re the one thing that can always calm him down. Just looking at your face makes his chest fill with butterflies, drowning out whatever dark thoughts he’s having.

So, needless to say, he immediately regrets snapping at you. Immediately.

“Wait, no- no, I didn’t mean to say that. I didn’t mean to. It’s not true, just- just stupid, I’m sorry, liebling…”

Whatever you two were arguing about is instantly forgotten as he rushes over to you and takes your face in his hands. It just breaks his heart to see you hurt, much more at his own actions. You don’t have to worry about him taking responsibility, he would never try to dodge the guilt of making you cry.

It’s not the first time he’s lost control, and he knows it’s his fault. But maybe if he takes you in his arms gently enough, rocking you back and forth as you cry into his shoulder, it’ll make it a little easier for you.

But if you just need a silent moment to yourself, that’s perfectly fine too. He’s autistic, so he certainly understands the feeling and will happily provide you with whatever comforting items you request.

“I’m sorry… you didn’t deserve what I said. I love you, please tell me you know that…”

Even if you pretend you weren’t that upset by it, Ludwig wouldn’t let it go like that. If he gets to his breaking point like that, whatever fight you were having is put aside for the night. Now all that matters to him is that the two of you make up and get back into how things were before as soon as possible.

Expect him to be beating himself up for a while though. He just wants you to know how sorry he is, how much he regrets snapping at you, even if it does seem a bit excessive. But he’s just had too many people he cared about leave to not make a whole thing out of it.

Japan - Kiku Honda

“Don’t you have any sense of personal space? You are like- choking me with all of… you! I can’t stand it!”

He’s a logical man. That’s one thing he always tells himself. Never, not even when he’s emotional, does he say things he doesn’t mean. Was the way he said it less than perfect? Yes, of course, he can’t believe he had just acted so impolitely, especially to someone who he cares so much for. But he still… meant what he said.

But, for the first time, as he watches your face break slowly, he’s not so sure of himself. Whether he meant it or not seems suddenly so inconsequential compared to the thought of hurting you. He… upset you? That wasn’t supposed to happen.

“Ah- why are you crying? What is wrong? You… you- it will be… alright, you know? You are ok!”

Wait- no, don’t cry more from that! He has absolutely no idea how to comfort you, but if he really has to, he’ll do his best. Although it’s a little difficult for him to resist drawing your hands away from your ears, he’ll do his best to just let you have your process (no matter what that means for you.)

Before you can even hear him coming closer, you’re suddenly drawn into an intimate hug. His hand drawing your head underneath his and kissing the crown of your head so lovingly, it's almost like another person possessed him as he turns so soft just at the sight of your tears

Would his pride usually reject this? Yes, but, it’s certainly not the first time he’s had to put that aside for you.

He’ll sputter generic apologies, purposefully hiding his grimace as he forces himself to forget about whatever you two were arguing about before. Well, at least for now. Most likely he’ll bring it up not long after, but in a much more… non-confrontational way.

“Let us go do something else instead, hm? You’ll only get more upset like this, and I want that as little as you want it.”

On one hand, he’s a little annoyed he had to put aside his own gripes to calm you down. But on the other hand, he hates conflict. Anything that gets you guys back to normal is worth it, especially if otherwise you’ll be crying in his arms. That’s his absolute nightmare.

[madschiavelique]

HAIII

I normally never write stuff like this because I find it pointless. Mainly because at the end of the day, it’s not a random person’s thoughts that matters when it comes to someone else’s craft, but the one actually executing said ideas, HOWEVER… I FREAKING LOVE THE ACOI SERIES SO MUCH. As much as I love a good oneshot or headcanons, finding a good series with good worldbuilding is like finding gold in a cave when you were just mining for crystals. Or the other way around idk. Point is, I think your writing is amazing and your creativity is PEAK. And I know being a writer and all creativity isn’t exactly negotiable, but to see someone write an actually good slowburn series with characters who actually have their own shit going on, is so so SO rare in my opinion as a simple consumer of tumblr media. I’m doing a bad job at explaining myself right now but I could go into so much detail about how much I appreciate this series, I genuinely hope you don’t get tired or too burnt out writing it because this is genuinely awesome and I always look forward to reading new chapters. ANYWAYS I LOVE IT. And also the memes are pure gold. idk what your fandom is on but i always end up giggling my ass off looking at the memes bro😭😭 i love everything about it. Thank you for writing this amazing series and being so consistent with it🔮💜 ALSO YAY PURPLE APPRECIATION!!!

OMG HAI ANON!!!! THIS MADE ME WANT TO CRY IN THE CAR RIDE TO GET BACK HOME AFTER AN EXHAUSTING FAMILY FUNCTION THAT SUCKED THE LIFE OUT OF ME. YOU ARE SO SWEET IM KISSING U RN

i try my hardest to actually make a story out of this and not just a romance (although the romance is the biggest aspect of the story obviously) because ARGH I HAVE TOO MANY IDEAS AND AN ACTUAL BACKGROUND FOR READER AND A PLOT AIGHT

as long as i have such a community like you guys i don’t think i could ever drop writing the fic. it’s now become a part of my routine to think about this fic and see all the amazing memes you guys are sending me and it’s my motivation now 🫶

i have to admit that i need a lot of encouragement because i tend to doubt myself and my writing a LOT. i am really exigeant when it comes to anything in life and i won’t lie that getting all this praise from you guys reassures me a LOT to write more and not drop this so, a massive thank you to all my beautiful community who supports me and makes me laugh and generally so happy on the daily basis ❤️ thanks to y’all my year has been absolutely incredible after enduring an insane amount of bullshit

thank you all, ily, and thank you so much nony for such a kind message 💜

[ardenrabbit]

Hello!

A Long and Slow Recovery - are we past the halfway point? I am so excited to see how everything turns out. Did you do a lot of research to delve into Xie Lian’s experience with recovery? It’s very well written with regard to his mental and emotional struggles. Also , I just love how you write Hua Cheng and Xie Lian’s interactions.

Those Worthy of Following( new name change!) - I gushed about it in your comment section but need to emphasize how much I love that opening chapter with the dual between Hua Cheng and Xie Lian. And this dynamic, of Hua Cheng being the prince, and Xie Lian being the bodyguard, is A+++. Xie Lian is so calm and kind and powerful. He was so fierce about Hua Cheng not talking down about himself. Like,yes gege, please show your Hua Cheng how precious he is, haha. I ❤️ reading Xie Lian showing his protectiveness of Hua Cheng, even from the man himself. I’m also keen to see how Feng Xin and Mu Qing will take to Xie Lian in this verse too.

Is there anything else you can share about it that’s not spoilers? If not, that’s fine too!

Your writing is just delicious - a pleasure, something to savor and come back to again and again.

Thank you!

Omg thank you so much 💕😭💕 Your comments are always such a delight!! It's so validating and encouraging and I hope you know that!!

We are indeed past the halfway point in alasr! I honestly just kind of know what happens in a big blob with like half a dozen bullet points, so I don't have a final chapter count ready, but Chapter 20 is basically the start of the second half of the story. I originally thought the fic was gonna end at just about the New Year celebration, but it turns out his recovery is taking a lot longer than that, and his recovery isn't even the only one we're dealing with now, so I got ambitious. The premise also uh deserves a little more closure and resolution than that lol, so Arc 2 is gonna be a little higher stakes than we've had so far.

I'm so glad you're enjoying how I'm writing Xie Lian and his recovery! Haha I did research a variety of other conditions and disabilities and read accounts from people who have them, because that's just good research. Honestly, though, inspiration for the vast majority of Xie Lian's mental/emotional struggles have been sourced from firsthand experience :)

I'm mentally and physically disabled and have been my whole life, and I wasn't even diagnosed with anything (I was somehow just diagnosed with Teenager) until I hit rock bottom about it in adulthood. I've gotten to a better place with the mental stuff, but even though it's no longer an active threat to me, my bad days can still leave me nonverbal, disconnected from reality, and sometimes catatonic. The physical stuff has been getting worse over the years, and even though I can still walk independently with a cane when I leave the house (as long as I rest a lot), I still fall down just walking in my own home. I keep having to remember that my chronic pain and fatigue isn't normal, and I keep getting evidence that I'm worse than I thought. I've had to reorganize my life around all of it and I'm uh. Not taking it well lately lol.

So alasr is my self-therapy project. Xie Lian is going to get better and I'm not, and that still kind of pisses me off lol, but it's nice to vent and see someone else get a happy ending. So...yeah, at least writing alasr has helped distract me from my own pity party, and Xie Lian's anger, despair, guilt, and forced optimism are cathartic for me. It's not just about me, though; obviously I'm trying to stay in character for him and write in the context of his specific circumstances. But I guess I relate to sick fic stuff lol

Fully aware that that was a lot of oversharing 💜

But ANYWAY, AS FOR ✨ THOSE WORTHY OF FOLLOWING ✨ I'm so glad you're liking that one so far too!! I craaaaave protective badass Xie Lian and I needed a different brand of angst and drama from alasr for a while lol. I love writing violence tbh. I don't wanna spoil too much, but I definitely wanna confirm this:

TWOF is NOT a post-canon reincarnation fic. I'm personally not up for writing that kind of loss of all their canon experiences. And there are probably some really well-written takes on it! It's just not personally my speed. 😅 This one might seem like a post-canon reincarnation fic in the first couple chapters, but it'll make more sense soon.

It IS angst with a HAPPY ending, I promise!! What I'm planning right now gets really rather sad and it might seem hopeless at some point, but I promise, I'm confident in my plan to make it genuinely happy and fulfilling!

I'm exploring a trope about which I've had some general hangups, but I honestly enjoy taking tropes and tweaking them to my preferences. I think a lot of people can already guess what trope I'm talking about, which is fine with me! If it means the buildup and foreshadowing are working, I'm happy it fits!

What I'm panicking about with this wip is that I've convinced myself that I need to earn a doctorate in Tang Dynasty battle and siege tactics to write it credibly lmao. I spent three hours the other night researching ancient Chinese fire starters and the differences between Han and Tang era tea preparation (to little avail). This one is gonna take a lot of research for my own peace of mind but I hope it pays off!

Mu Qing and Feng Xin are gonna be okay!! Someone commented on ch2 that they liked that Mu Qing got hurt because they hate him and I'm like...I didn't think I'd framed that as a good thing..... 😅 That was something a Bad Guy did.......... 😅😅😅

Thank you so much for your kind comments and all of the fun engagement!! I'm truly so honored that you've enjoyed my writing so far! 💖💖💖

[earlgreytea68]

Heaven, Iowa.. if ur willing/have the time! Would love to hear some thoughts 💜

I loooooove Heaven, Iowa. I know Pete says this is a song about drinking a screwtop bottle of wine and driving off a cliff, but this is a song about drinking a screwtop bottle of wine and being in love, and staying there, in your own little bubble. That's how I read this song. It's one of those classic FOB songs with classic Pete Wentz lyrics working on one level with a perfectly expected and stereotypical interpretation and simultaneously working on a whole other level that deepens and complicates the entire narrative of the song.

Okay, so, first, that opening line: 6 AM, Mulholland Drive, "Moonlight Sonata" and I. First of all, shut up, this is so evocative in so few syllables and it kills me. Second of all, as others have pointed out, it should grammatically be "Moonlight Sonata and me," probably, unless it's intended to be the beginning of a sentence, and that's actually how I read the whole first few lines, as cut-off sentences.

Moonlight Sonata and I --

(wait, hang on, let me try this again):

First movement, you and I and a screwtop bottle of wine --

The use of the pronoun "I" instead of "me" in those phrases implies the beginning of a sentence, but the end of the sentence never comes, you never hit a verb. To me, it's like the speaker is so full of feelings that they can't be articulated, he's speaking in snatches.

Also, "first movement" is so clever, hahaha, the first eleventy million times I listened to this song, I thought it was a clever Moonlight Sonata reference, you know, first movement of the Moonlight Sonata, and then I wrote that fic based on these lyrics and Pete's sitting in the car in the fic debating making the first move and I suddenly was like, "omg first movement," like, it can also be making the first move required, who makes it, you and I and a screwtop bottle of wine will help move things along. Ugh, he's so smart about such silly little things like that all the time.

ANYWAY, then you come to honestly the sexiest image on the whole album: "I've unspooled on the floor." Ugh Pete. This always makes me think of the whole meme about how bisexual people can't sit in chairs normally. Pete totally would just sprawl out on the floor while he drinks wine. (I often write Pete sitting on the floor on my fics and now you're going to notice that, now that I've said it.) Also, though, "unspooled" is just a great poetic word there, you have an exact image of falling-apart-ness and letting-go-ness that no other word would have achieved. It connotes the unraveling of something that is ordinarily tightly wound -- that is supposed to be tightly wound -- and the unraveling causes a special kind of tangled mess, but also a loose sense of release.

"I feel so A Star Is Born" is a lot, given the plot about discovering and encouraging an incredibly talented, younger singer by a person who's already kind of a big shot. So there's that. Also the fact that Pete when writing these lyrics was around the same age as the Bradley Cooper character in the film, which makes this line feel about wondering about reputational decline and artistic legacy (which Pete thinks a lot about in his lyrics, anyway, but never in quite as tragic terms as this). The "would you read my eulogy" line fits with that "Star Is Born" reference: I'm not worth it, but will you tell everyone good things about me when I'm gone? Which also connects to: Tell me when the party ends, will you still love who I am? WHICH ALSO, in the mythology of Fall Out Boy, is a weighted metaphor anyway. In Pete lyrics, the party is often life, with the afterlife taking the place of the afterparty, so this can be another death reference. But also, inevitably parties ending make you think about "Where Did the Party Go?," and so then this becomes a hiatus reference: "When everything is stripped away and it's just us, do you still love me then?"

"I will never ask you for anything except to dream sweet of me," is just a straight-up line from a love song, which is important, because to me this entire song is a love song, and that line betrays it so very clearly. The speaker is never, ever alone in this song, there is constantly a "you and I," someone to kiss his cheek, someone to read his eulogy, someone there after the party ends. (Even when there's not a someone, there's the Moonlight Sonata still with him, and I'll get to that later.)

The chorus is "Scar-crossed lovers." I've seen people talk about how emo and goth an image that is, and I get it. The "scar" reference seems like it makes it emo-er than the usual saying, which is "star-crossed." So on one level, sure, how Pete Wentz to turn the word "star" into "scar," of course, once an emo, always an emo, etc. But I actually think changing "star" to "scar" converts a hopeless saying into a hopeful one. Because "star-crossed lovers" means lovers who can't hold it together. The original star-crossed lovers were Romeo and Juliet. Certainly not a happy ending for them. But these in this song are not star-crossed lovers. They are scar-crossed. Scars are actually healing. They are the body's kintsugi, to use a reference from another song. If you've got a scar, sure, it means you've been through something, but what it really means is you got through it. You came out the other side and you healed. These are not lovers who can't get it together. These are lovers who came out on the other side of the apocalypse.

The same multi-layered meaning exists in the next line: "I'm checking myself out forever." Sure, on one level, this sounds negative: I am gone, I'm leaving. But the thing is: What is he leaving? It's actually not entirely clear. I don't think it's the relationship he's leaving. I think it's the rest of the world. And not in a bad and depressing way. He's like, "Look, I have found something real here. You see all this nonsense, all this chaos, all this drama? I am checking myself out of all of this forever." This goes nicely with the next line: "I'm saving this all for later," which can also be read on two levels, one being, "I'm checking out of this nonsense, I'll deal with it later, I'm staying in my bubble with my love." Another being, "I am here in this bubble with my love and I am going to remember every second of this." After all, "save for later" means something you want to make sure you return to. That line, "Here we are untouched forever" also supports a positive reading of the relationship. It could be read as, "Now we no longer exist, we are only enduring in my memory," but...nowhere in the song does that seem true of this relationship. The relationship is very present throughout the song. When he says "here we are untouched forever," I think he's talking about this bubble he's retreated into, away from the rest of the world.

And that reading goes into the second verse, too, where he refers to himself as being "gone like this." This could be read as really dark, given the Star Is Born reference. But it could also be read as: I have checked out of everything and I am holed up with my love and just everyone wait to see how much they're going to miss how much I was doing and holding together. "Talking to the mirror," (I am the invisible man...) -- "Half your life you've been hooked on death." This seems like an obvious reference to Pete Wentz's reputation, but it's in quotes, like he's quoting other people, like he's telling himself, reminding himself what people think of him. Because that's not who he is.

This last bit of the second verse is so fascinating to me. "Twice the dreams, but half the love, be careful what you bottle up, the chemistry is a mess it seems," these are all negative images and negative lines, warnings and self-recriminations. And then there's that unexpected "But me, I'm still a sunbeam." Patrick is usually the sun in Pete's lyrics, the sun is usually something outside of Pete. How shocking and strange for Pete to suddenly write that he's the sunbeam, and for Patrick to give it a melodic flourish to boot. That could be Patrick giving that to him: "Don't worry about your chemistry, you're definitely loved." BUT, it could also be Pete finally, finally internalizing what Patrick says to him all the time: "YOU'RE the sunbeam. It isn't me. It doesn't matter how you feel like you're too much, it doesn't matter how much you feel like you bottle up, it doesn't matter how much you feel like a mess, you're still amazing, you're still a sunbeam." Ugh, the amount of healing in this song. Scar-crossed, indeed. The bridge could be read as flipped, from Patrick's perspective, and that works, but, tbh, that bridge can also be read as Pete closing his eyes inside the bubble he's created with his love, and there's darkness in this, but the love's glow is right there, so soothing, leading him home, a beacon. When Pete closes his eyes and shuts the rest of the world out -- there, there's the glow, giving him that little shove he needs to keep going: Shake things up, see what comes down, write another album with me, send me some words, we've got this.

This song rises to unbelievable heights by the end of it, like, it is sonically overwhelming, but then it loops around to the same soft rhyme as the beginning, Patrick crooning once again. It begins and ends with the speaker and music. In the end, the thing that has always been there for them: the music.

Also, the fact that Moonlight Sonata is the reference is so interesting in the context of Patrick being the sun in Pete's lyrics. If Patrick is the sun, that makes Pete the moon, catching his reflected glory. Moonlight Sonata, indeed.

This song is full of yearning, but at no point do I feel sad for this guy. He's gonna be okay. His love is right there with him when the party ends.

[finniestoncrane]

Finnie omg this is eating my brain now and I gotta know-

How would our favorite rat of a man, Arkham riddler, deal with a s/o that's being a brat?

Thank you and ily 💚💜

Bratty S/O

Arkham!Riddler Headcanons jhkjhasd OK SO i think a bratty s/o would suit him well omg (also ily2 ;-;) 💚🔧 request info • prompt list • send me a request • kofi • masterlist minors DNI!! 🔞 cw: punishment mentions, sub/dom dynamic mentions, spanking, daddy kink, teasing

look, while he usually insists upon being worshipped and obeyed as standard, he can actually take a little pushback

in fact, he welcomes it at times

keeps things interesting after all

someone who is willing to blindly follow his every word and command isn't always the best person for the job

whatever the job may be...

someone who is on his level, who can give back as good as they get

that's the kind of person who makes life exciting

and makes it worth the work

so a bratty s/o who is mischievous and cheeky and refuses to bend to his will

(unless they know he really means it)

that would work for him, in so many ways

it would fluster him, challenge him

but he could use a challenge, everything else comes so easily

having to work for your obediance, or your eventual acceptance of his rules or desires

that would make the end goal very much worth it in his opinion

and perhaps, if you were very good and behave for five minutes instead of constantly talking back and being defiant

he can show you how easily things come for him

but not before he punishes you for your insubordination and cruel teasing

after all, he wouldn't want to encourage this kind of behaviour, not at all!

[karla-the-elemental-dreamer]

🪢 KH-OC Week 2024 🪢 - Day 7 Package 💙💜🧡🐲🐻

Admin note: Due to the absolute trouble my mind is putting me through, Day 7 will be a LONG read due to the multiple (but fun and interesting) processes I've had to go through to get the juices to flow. There will be multiple prompts and ideas addressed, because I will not be capitulating to these blockages 💪🏻 I am finishing @khoc-week strong whether my brain likes it or not XD

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Unlike the other days that simply had their submission package, Day 7 will be split into two parts:

The actual submission package.

The official revelation of the surprise that was mentioned on Day 5.

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And... OMG there is no prompt for Day 7!

Well, there is/was one pre-determined, but with poor Terra being tossed here, there and everywhere during the week, Dinh-Yu said to make Day 7 all about him [Terra]... With the centre of it being OC related of course. And looking back in a sense, the connections with Riku have actually already been touched on during various previous days.

So re. Terra and whichever OCs we intertwine, here goes:

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SECTION 1A: Prompt / Eraqus

This is an extension of Dinh Yu's Day 7 prompt, and to let you guys in on the fact that someone (don't know who) called 'the cavalry'. The reason Master Eraqus is now considered powerful is because he has now passed on in my timeline, due to the assumption of KH3's ending.

Why do I also include this tidbit of exposure? There was apparently a Day 6 prompt called journal. The way my journal works? It's a magic journal. So not only can I write in it, but others can choose to direct their communication into it if they wish. All they have to do is feel in their heart/mind what they want to say to me, and the journal will magically transcribe their words into it, waiting for me to open it and read it, and even respond in kind. It's basically like Email, but through a book and a person's thoughts, instead of the PC and actively typing both ways.

They envision in their minds; their message writes itself into my book [A to B].

I write back in my book, it gets translated into a thought in that person/s head[B to A]:

~9:10 PM (AEST)

Master Eraqus: “Karla… I know you might be uncomfortable with me, and even if so, we may have never spoken before. I apologise for any preconceived notions I may have given to you through my previous actions to Terra, Aqua and Ventus. But if you can allow me to assist you. As you know from 2022 onwards, I have allowed and I even encourage Terra to walk by your side to atone for the immeasurable pain and suffering that I have caused him and his friends… I think they need you to finish what I started, even though you offer a different relationship, not so much their teacher in the realm of light. While Ven was being checked for bad energies [mind blockage/poison], I quickly had a word into the ear of your newest dream guide, Young Cricket, or as you otherwise call him, Dinh Yu. I have been let in on the fact that he is leading you for KH-OC Week, but not even he can seem to navigate you past this energetic block that seems to be tormenting you with regards to Terra. I have asked Dinh Yu to hand his spot over to me for just a short while, and I will guide you where you have always meant to go for Day 7… As Terra’s teacher and someone who now knows him well [after Xehanort]. Dinh-Yu will be back in the driver’s seat at the end to check your balances with you and sign you off.

So first of all, I see you’ve already put up a pre-commissioned artwork of Terra. Continue to discuss the meaning of that and why you got it done. When Terra was your strongest bridge, what is it that made the Land of Departure feel like home to you? Was it the land itself, or was it Terra’s stewardship? When you’re with Terra alone, how does he make you feel? I have come to understand that you didn’t want to wield a keyblade, but when Terra got involved, the very little keyblade knowledge you gained suddenly expanded greatly. Was it the love between you and Terra that made Riku capitulate from his initial arrogance and annoyance?

I come to hear that you’ve in-fact done numerous artworks of you and Terra in the last year. Share those as well. Not so much as descriptions, or you’ll leave them with a strenuous encyclopaedia. But just a gallery of your art if you will and a sentence or two about those works if you must.

I’m now looking at your Day 5 post in the data, and I see you’ve mentioned Neverland as a favorite spot that you liked to go to with Terra. Maybe now is the time to explain why if you wanted to. Again I don’t recommend you follow on all of my ideas if it makes your work unsuitably long, but I am simply cramming in all these ideas so that this severe energy blockage you seem to have undergone in the past few days can’t disable you anymore. I wish you the best of luck, and please don’t hesitate to reach out to me if you need any further help.

And wait! Just one more thing before I go or at least take the passenger’s seat. Say you were out of all energy impairments. You can still address the official Day 7 prompt if you wanted to envision any future scenarios with Terra… But that one may be difficult in your current state. Good luck”.

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SECTION 1B: Commission / Ventus

First of all, I want to re-show off this beautiful art that was drawn by 'Nexathila' within the last year. She does not have a Tumblr, but you can find her by going to this carrd: https://nexathila.carrd.co/

I knew I wanted an artwork with Terra at the time, but I'm not very good at being organised when asking for commissions 😅 So I thought fast and asked for a drawing at the Land of Departure as we did stargazing...

~9:55 PM (AEST):

Sierra: “She’s going to fail the test!”.

Selvian: “Eraqus has given her the prompts. She just now needs to do them”.

Dinh-Yu: “Ahhhhh”.

Selvian: “Relief huh?”.

Dinh-Yu: “Yes. Such a relief. Has she had that bad a blockage before?”.

Selvian: “They come and they go. But that’s the first one you’ve had to deal with. She’s had the doggie not let go of Riku before, and now it’s trying the same thing on Terra”.

Sierra: “Did Ventus get captured because he was trying to help Terra?”.

Selvian: “Yes, sadly”.

Krystal: “I’ve gotten Ven to help out!”.

Selvian: “You have?”.

Krystal: “He’s feeding her thoughts on the Land of Departure, and Cricket’s [Dinh-Yu's] transcribing them into a document and sending them to her journal”.

Selvian: “Thank the Lord in Heaven”.

~10:00 PM - 12:15 AM (AEST)

Ventus:

“The stargazing, she loved it so much. She tried to pretend she didn’t when Aqua and I were around. But when she was alone with Terra and we had a peak, it was something different. I find it amazing how Terra always got answers out of her that none of the other guardians would ever get. I think it’s because Terra never pushed, and not once did he ever betray her trust by spilling things to other people, at least not without asking her permission first.

So even though SHE thought she was rushing to choose something for a commission, I think she was meant to be shown stargazing with Terra there. I notice the artist put their keyblades in the background. She didn’t want or think she’d be getting them in the image to begin with, but then something spoke to her when they WERE included. She had just finished training with Terra, and that was always an also unique experience in itself. Karla seemed to feel this sense of obligation when training with other guardians, but Terra always slipped her into it in the most subtle ways, and he made it fun for her… Y’know, that feeling of having a job but never working a day in your life.

I’m just getting this abstract thought. So I want to address it while I have it. Terra was originally meant as a distraction for Karla, at least that’s what he came for. We all didn’t know what was up when she asked for Riku in May 2020, and as someone who watched over Riku as it were, Terra had genuine concerns. But you know Terra, he’s not one to be mean to anyone, so he simply tried to divert Karla’s attention but she was one smart cookie. And then as Terra was trying to help Riku, he decided to help her too. Y’know? Starting out as one thing but then diverging into another? Terra wasn’t even Karla’s dream guide to begin with, but he just felt this sudden compassion and need to work her out, like there was more to her than meets the eye.

I guess Terra wedging himself into her life did work out as she needed him in late 2021. Like… As in because he made an effort to connect with her and know her, she knew he was the next best option to add to Riku. But I digress.

Back to keyblade training. Again, what Karla thought was a chore, Terra made it seamless for her. And the way he taught her, I’ve never seen him be so as accommodating to anyone as he was to her. Like his method was brute strength and hard hits, but he knew that he was the only one she’d train with, so Terra made it a point to control his power around her. And like Terra made it his business to watch and learn Aqua’s style so that he could teach that to Karla. With Aqua’s style but Karla’s own magic added, she became a powerhouse and even shocked Terra. But where Terra eventually got her is sometimes she’d spend too long manifesting a spiritual or cosmically powered spell to support her attack, and then Terra would smack her from behind and tell her she’s gotta take the rose-coloured glasses off when reality comes flying at her all of a sudden. I think that’s why her mind isolated her only to Riku these days… Because he’s more head on. So I think it’s about the need for her to find a middle ground and then she’ll be able to keep them both.

Let’s see now. I addressed the art and stargazing, which then led to keyblade training. Oh! I should tell you that Mahna Templestowe is not the first keyblade she manifested. Because like I said, she has universal manifestation and other psychic powers, so with it, the first keyblade she manifested was a clone of Terra’s and we were all shocked. But it just went to show how much Terra meant to her, and I remember a tear falling out of his eye when he saw that keyblade. I heard she got Mahna Templestowe later down the track when her keyblade use became more regular, and at the time, she was doing something with Riku or Terra in the realm of darkness. When she was put on her own to save one of them, rather than relying on them, that’s where she got her ‘personality’ so to speak.

Now I’ve been told that the master suggested talking about why she likes going to Neverland with Terra. I don’t really know the answer, as that’s between her and him. And… Cricket! Don’t peer into her dream journal! That’s an invasion of privacy! Well… I guess we’ve got answers now. So they would always sit on a rock and look out to the sea as Terra held her. They didn’t talk as much in Neverland; that was more just a tranquil moment together, or more recreation as it were. I think as she felt the Land of Departure was her base point, that’s where she’d find herself if she needed to have a really important conversation with Terra. Like she’d seek out his home and he’d give it to her in a sense. In summary, the she’d travel with Terra to all these BBS worlds and each one had a unique feel for a different activity, but the Land of Departure was at the heart of it all, and basically what she associates Terra with.

I’m really sad that Karla’s mind (energy levels) started to attack her in regards to Terra and tried to prevent her from finishing OC Week, but my teddy friend Krystal stayed with me in customs, and she actually managed to talk me out of the astral lock I was put into. So as Terra’s friend and someone who really loves Karla, I’m doing my part to save the day and I’ve been asked by Selvian and Cricket to contribute to her story ❤️"

Krystal running in with Ventus goes to show that the teddies have a mind of their own. Just like I didn't know Sibella wasn't right for Terra, I didn't know Krystal remained with Ventus. I assigned Krystal to Ventus at one point, but never heard from her since. Then when Selvian brought Ventus to 'customs' to try and help me with my severe mind blockages, Krystal came with him! So those two have had a good friendship. And now come to think of it... I have envisioned her doing things with Ventus in the LoD from time to time 🤔

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I don't have a teddy version of Krystal drawn up (because obvs she surprised me). So here is a human model from January this year:

MISS KRYSTAL LEBAUCHEN (Ventus) - ISFP:

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SECTION 1C: Art Gallery (KB)

^Official DG 'family photoshoot' done in 2023. Karla is between her KH dream guides here. Riku and Terra's expressions are portrayed so accurately here 😊

^Karla normally doesn't like early mornings, but at the Land of Departure, Terra makes it worthwhile if she's up for it.

^Terra being the gentleman as always. He accompanied Karla to a Christmas photoshoot at the end of 2023. They both have a copy of the photo in their homes.

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~12:35 AM (AEST)

With sheer patience and shameless intervention from nearly the entirety of my team AND Kingdom Hearts, we beat the energy block even though it presented a Good Game! Thank you for playing lol. In the words of Master Eraqus himself. CHECKMATE.

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SECTION 2: THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU

Now I did say back in Day 5 that I had a surprise for a certain someone, for putting his hand up and acting as my Jiminy for this event. Thank you for being so accommodating and allowing him to work his magic:

Now sadly, he'll have to bus Natasha and Erika back home, but I hope you had a great time learning about them and getting to know them, and at least they now have a foothold in Kingdom Hearts if they need to do any future field work there. And with that, Sierra and Erika have to go their own ways for now unless they decide to visit each other down the track, but nothing is planned yet.

Natasha and Erika will have their keyblades hung somewhere in Cricket's dojo until they decide to use them again.

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Thank you to the mods of KH-OC Week itself; for making everyone feel welcome and putting on a successful event (it's still here in 2024 😶). I've loved seeing everyone else's works and where they come from. I think we all deserve to have an inheritance [individual timelines] in KH, hence why I link the user to the OC. Including how I bridge myself.

As much as I have hilariously complained because my mind has been pushing exhaustion on me (and didn't like Terra 🥲) , increasingly leading up to Day 7. Here are some of the benefits that I have received from KH-OC Week 2024, as opposed to if I didn't participate:

It has reminded me to check my lore and restabilise my bridge with Kingdom Hearts.

Terra probably would have remained at the depths of limbo without this event. My mind throwing a tantrum was a good thing IMO because now I know what steps to take to get him back FULLY. Even if it takes more than just a week. KH-OC Week (and Dinh-Yu's unique prompts and instruction) pushed me into awareness and progress. I honestly think Dinh-Yu knew Terra was in trouble beforehand; he's cluey like that.

I would have never discovered that someone wasn't suitable for Terra. We have now introduced someone that he'll have a much better relationship with.

Sierra got to spend time with her sister. And as Erika is an ESFJ, she actually forged connections with some of the Kingdom Hearts members.

We have evidence and a stern commitment from Riku that he isn't the grouch we met back in 2020. His loyalty to us is unwavering, and it even bleeds down to the bears. He is personally thanking Dinh-Yu for doing KH-OC Week with me.

Whenever OC Week happens, new lore just pops up out of nowhere, which is why the Days can change so suddenly from their initial plan.

Admin Edit: I just looked at my clock upon finishing and it says 1:23! The subliminal msg I got when looking at the clock was that despite all the mental battle, KH-OC Week has indeed finished on a positive and strong note.

And...

Thanks Universe XD 💖

[ikeprinces-stuff]

I saw your hashtags and I just wanted to reach out and say your thoughts were exactly my thoughts. I have been writing here for a while so posting my writing doesn't phase me but I was so nervous about posting my OC.

OCs feel personal in a way that writing a Reader or MC doesn't and that makes it such a vulnerable thing to do. I sat there last night going "I don't know if I can do it."

But.....I am SO glad I did. It's a relief to see how kind and welcoming people are towards OCs and I'm now really excited for what's next!

So make that post! I for one would be really interested in seeing what you have dreamed up and I guarantee I'm not the only one 💜

OMG! Hi @violettduchess 👋🏼☺️

I did give some hints about my OCs existence in several writings I've posted here before, but I didn't give any hints about who they were, where they came from, or any insight into their backgrounds because I was and still am nervous.

Seeing others post about their OCs motivates me sometimes, but because I'm an overthinker, I have some doubts and questions. "What if they don't like them?" “What if they say I did a copy-paste from one of the suitors?”

The OC I'm talking about at this moment. It took me two full years to write down their background, imagine their appearance, habits, etc. And every time I add a detail from my imagination, I find that one of the suitors already has this detail, which prompts me to rethink and formulate and since the suitor associated with my OCs isn't popular, like, strongly isn't popular, they might be thought to be similar to that suitor or something like that.

I'm still trying to fight the negative alter ego that filled my brain with all these doubts...but I'm glad you gave me a little push and I'm thankful for your and everyone's encouragement 🥹🫶🏻💖✨

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

Heheeeeeee tysm for expanding so deliciously on my ask :’) I’m absolutely OBSESSED with your analysis of things, and your Milex reblogs recently have just been PERFECTION!!

For real though i am obsessed with it the way i am obsessed with all his little non verbal encouragers, and the way he kind of savours the sound of them as he utters them??

- EXACTLY THIS !!! I could listen to him do it all day, it’s delectable.

but yeah, i feel like there’s definitely an undertone of irritation or impatience here that gives this little 'mhmm' a slight edge

- HONESTLY !!! It’s a little patronising, a little bored, and just pure sex appeal like how does he do it

He’s a phenomenal little creature :’)

(Ps. Cant wait for the new chapter of four walls. Its my fave fic, the angst and the way you portray their connection is beyond perfect.)

hiiii nonnie 🩷 oh my goodness this whole ask has made me smile SO much, you're too kind 🥺

it's lovely to hear you've been enjoying my rambles about alex and miles - i have so many thoughts and feelings about them that just get poured out into the tags sometimes, so it's very nice to know that a) they actually make sense, and b) that they resonate with someone outside my brain! honestly i could spend forever analysing alex, i find the interplay of all his different layers and contradictions and the way he perceives the world around him just fascinating 🤩

'a little patronising, a little bored, and just pure sex appeal' this is the PERFECT description of his tone in that clip🥹 also i'm obsessed with the term 'phenomenal little creature' for him to the point that when i was scrolling through my dash just now and saw a photo of him with his little guitar that phrase immediately popped into my head (i think it's permanently ingrained there now actually) 😭

omg you are too kind to say that about four walls 🥺 ahhhhhhh. i am absolutely flailing over the fact it's YOUR FAVOURITE FIC?? oh my god in a fandom with so many wonderfully talented authors that's just the BIGGEST compliment 😭 that fic is so close to my heart and it just means more than i can ever articulate when i hear that people are enjoying it 💗 thank you so so much 💜💜 (ps the next chapter will be up by next weekend at the latest, hopefully before 😘)

[alectoperdita]

Not really an ask, just sending you some appreciation! 💜

I just wanted to say: omg I love your work! 💕

I just happened to come across a post for "A Striking Match" on here and then read it on A03 and loved it! I then read "Two monsters walk into the club"...and then Audience participation not required" (which btw, if you ever update this I will be forever grateful but I understand if you don't since it's been some time) and now I'm currently reading"In bed with the mob" and am looking forward to reading all of the other ones!

I have a confession to make, anon. I held onto this ask for as long as I have so I could periodically go back and easily find it in my inbox and read it as a little pick-me-up. So thank you for sending these kind words to me. You have no idea how encouraging this is.

I hope you enjoyed the fics you have and will read. (And I'm always open to talking about the specifics of the fics if anyone wants to hear about them.) I'm always delighted to be reminded of "Two monsters" and periodically think I would love to write more fantastical kinky smut for those two. As for "Audience," I have been poking at it again recently. Half of the next chapter was done, and I'm trying to nudge myself into just finishing it. Because I do want to work on it more. I still love that story and dynamic! It's fun! No promises of when (because my mood is sadly not dependable/manageable these days) though, but hopefully before the end of this year.

[marimbles]

im not in any of the current fandoms ur into (im no longer as into ml as i used to be, but i like seeing ur tags and u have such a sunny personality so i still follow you) AND OMG UR ART HAS IMPROVED SO MUCH???

i remember you would replicate the ml style but now youve developed ur own style and youve got such a good understanding on lighting and colours, and ur lines are so smooth and just ajdkkdksksk anyways im proud of how far youve come w ur art !!

HELLO?? I’m gonna break down crying this is so nice 😭😭💜💜💜💜 thank you so so much! !

First of all I’m flattered you liked my stuff at all haha let alone that you have stuck around despite not being in the same fandoms anymore 🥺 next of all!! What a kind thing to say!! It means a whole whole lot. I think on my end it’s harder to see improvement, so it’s really encouraging to hear that other people can see it. Like intellectually I know I am always improving, but drawing is still hard and I’m always in the weeds of my own work and don’t really get to step back and see a wider view unless I look at some of my old art and I’m like oh hey! I actually did get better bc this looks worse to me now 😂

yeah I was definitely trying to replicate the ml show style in the beginning! I decided to learn how to draw specifically so I could draw miraculous ladybug fanart HDJDJS and at first that’s all I really knew how to do. When I got into toh I didn’t replicate that style but I did incorporate some elements from it. I think I did the same a little bit w atla, and I’m doing it now w the botw/totk art style too. and I’m sure as I love more things and keep drawing it will keep developing! I am also hugely inspired by other artists and I sometimes try to incorporate the things I admire into my own work. I feel like my art style is just a culmination of all the things I have loved so much I had to create about it. just a big playdough ball with a bunch of colors rolled in, haha

Also you’ve discovered my weakness…i have an Addiction….to THE GLOW. moth behavior. I wouldn’t say I have a great understanding of lighting and colors but I sure do love when they’re happening. So I just try to make them happen and I’m like ohohoho what if it were sunset. get this: rim lighting. perhaps (definitelyhaps) a lens flare. God was so right when He said “Let there be light.”

man sorry I always ramble sm this was just so nice and I got excited haha. “I’m proud of you”…trigger words fr!! This made my day, thank u 💜💜💜

[tomanyships69]

First watch through of 911, play by play of my reactions.

Second episode in and Buck is already traumatized, but carla the nurse is a sweetheart and I love her!

Dude gets attacked by dogs and still has the composure to rizz up the pretty cop lol.

Girl is right tho, you need to move on from that husband so you can both be happy.

OOF rizzmaster is actually the robber ruh roh

Carla is back!!! Give her as much wine as she needs 💜

Buck is cute but Abby you leave that boy alone, don't be weird because he gave you a compliment. Dudes got enough going on without adding you to the mix smh!

She took his number from a report???

Like the actual call is semi nice, heart in the right place kind of vibe (at least I think that's what they're going for) but still feels weird.

Oh no he's at the funeral, this man feels so bad.

I know the sister is mourning and all but like wtf was that???

Buck out here using his youthful cardio to avoid his trauma.

Buck might not be the most eloquent but the emotion is there, maybe he'll actually go to counseling.

HE IS GOOD FOR HIM!

The cop and her hubby are working it out too, good for them (tension isn't good for anyone especially the kids)

No

Stop it

Don't touch your patient's without asking them, especially not during a first session.

AND she friended him on Facebook, who does that first of all? It's just weird, but also why does this feel like it's gonna get worse?

Back to Athena, I know it takes time but you are being delusional. You need to at least get separated and maybe discuss an open relationship, not that you have much of that left.

GROSS I WAS RIGHT, NO BUILD UP EVEN JUST CUT TO HER SLEEPING WITH A PATIENT. THIS WOMAN NEEDS HER LICENSE REVOKED!

She has no right to feel bad either omg

Athena out here flirting and working all her frustrations out on the robber

I love "The Maneuver" distract and then kickem in the chest

Oh no the sisters back, at least she apologized.

Carla is a sweetheart but is definitely encouraging bad behaviors

Lord have mercy, I wish this boy was better with his words. The call did go better than expected tho

DAMN we can't escape the suicide theme of the episode. Like this family isn't going through enough.

In conclusion fuck this show, but I love it!

Thanks for reading

[joelslegalwhre]

hey em! happy to provide entertainment during your lecture lol 💕 0, 7, 9, 16, 31, 38 & 41?

hii jana <3 You definitely did lmao thank you for all the questions!🩷💜

0. Height?

5'4 or 1.63m

7. Have tattoos?

No, but I'd love to get some in the future! I'm still a little too scared that I won't like the place or motive I'd choose after a few years but I have a few in mind!

9. Got any piercings?

Yup, a nostril piercing! (and my ears are pierced)

16. I’ll love you if

You're kind, compassionate and have a sense of humor, but also if you like to stay in and watch a movie with me lol

31. What your last text message says

encouraging bestie as always

38. My childhood career choice

I loved to watch fixer upper as a kid (still do) and I really wanted to become an interior designer but I hate math so that's not happening anymore 😂 (edit: I also wanted to be an archaeologist for sooo long, yk bc of Indiana Jones...😂)

41. Where I want to be right now

Omg so many places tbh, (I'm watching supernatural rn and driving somewhere nice with Sam and Dean would be- 😮‍💨) but I'd say the halloween horror nights at universal (I really want to go but I'm literally on another continent 🥲)

ask me questions

[jinstronaut]

get them again!!!!! i absolutely love what you are doing with jin daily and it always brightens my day seeing those posts pop up on my dash because i miss him so bad 😔 these anons are such fucking losers for acting so entitled like just fuck off then? no one wants you here if you're gonna be this stupidly critical and negative 🤷‍♀️ anywho thank you for all of your hard work and i always love seeing your posts on my dash 💜

ksislekekeejejrnd omg pls tysm !!!!! i usually just delete anything negative i get (which rarely happens i’ll admit which is nice!), but man…. something about that message just hit wrong. thank you so much for your kind words and your encouragement!!!!! you’re an angel and ily 🫶🏻💖

[han-uhhhhhhh]

you reblogged my post about insecurities and before that reblogged a post telling everyone to be kind to themselves today - take a page out of your own reblogs because you are a beautiful and an amazing lady and i'm so so glad to have met you and be mutuals/pals. don't let the meanies, the baddies or your brain tell you otherwise. you are incredible and so so fearless. love you. 💜

OMG! You are such a sweetheart. Thank you for the words of encouragement! I am grateful for as well! 💖

I do a lot better about my insecurities nowadays, especially on the looks front and the “I’m competent” front. Trusting myself to be myself and engaging socially is still a huge struggle! Today was a little hard about my looks, the dysphoria is attacking me.

But yeah, thank ya friend! 💖💖💖

And also

Cause all those nice things you said about me apply to you as well!

[1d1195]

Wait no bestie I’m the dumb one lol Thursday is what t the extra is called not the story😭 omg I love a good next door neighbors story especially when the mc is trying to act like she isn’t wanting him!

See I love the way you wrote your angst because it makes sense to me!! I don’t think it ever really feels like it’s coming out nowhere but then again even if it does, it’s not a bad thing tbh! Though I totally get being self critical about it like I’m the same way lol for me it depends on the problem on how long the angst vibes should last! Like the Honey cliffhanger was shocking! And yes it was coming out of “nowhere” BUT bestie if we really want to analyze it like targeting a young single dad who is RICH makes sense. Especially with how Chloe’s death was like talked about in news outlets(I hope I’m remembering right lol) then if I was a criminal I would think he is an easy target! Since he obviously will leave the baby with someone who’s not him! ANYWAYS overall it was not dumb and I loved the drama it gave!

gagtita is SOO you coded I can’t even!! I’m sure whatever you may come up with will just be so good!!!

Omg Sam you’re so sweet😭 I’ll definitely let you know little facts that I think you might like! I try to remember when my brain isn’t fried lol

ITS OKAY IF YOU DRAG ME HAHAH I LOVED IT!! I know you would never intentionally try to make me or anyone feel bad! If anything i genuinely laughed out loud when i read it!

Oh bestie his HANDS are just soooo AH! I will certainly update if anything happens lol

Maybe highlights might give you the change you’re looking for without it being too extreme? Idk tbh because I don’t photograph well at all either lol but bestie I bet you’re actually so hot and like you’re super smart and KIND so yeah!!!

How exciting visiting a place you’ve never too!! Fall is so you and I love that!!

I can sleep late when I don’t have classes but typically it’s not ideal because my body will just get use to a certain time sadly lol but yeah its good for three days only though I don’t know yet how it will be like long term! I don’t go on Monday’s so I consider it be just a another day for the weekend lol but yeah this past Monday I didn’t need to do anything so I was so lucky to read the honey update early!

When I drop your full name it’s truly never because I’m upset! If anything I’m just truly GAGGED and FREAKING OUT lol

Hope your week is going well!! Sending you the best vibes! Hope you can find something that makes you smile! Love you bestie!!-💜

You're not dumb lol I was def misleading the way I wrote it. I've got like four or five one shot ideas. genuinely PRAYING they don't turn into a series. I feel like I need a break from writing a series. I've been overwhelming y'all with series 😭😭

I'm glad you see the vision! That makes me so happy!

If you have any facts or tips to help my teenagers be normal those would def be facts I'd be interested in 😂😂

My mom's been encouraging highlights and I should just listen to her because she's always right about my looks. I used to hate shopping with her but now I'm like "Can you tell me what to wear, Mommy, please?" Ma'am tried to put me in turtle necks all the time for most of my childhood and I REFUSED. Now I LOVE turtle necks. My poor mother.

I'm sure I've mentioned I love the moon and I always see posts that are like "the moon is beautiful and doesn't photograph well either" so I try to remember that but it's hard 😭

hahaha I feel that. I love to sleep in! (UNTIL 7) I'm a 5:45AM wake up kind of gal. 7 on the weekends is a delight. I also feel like I don't get anything done if I sleep late. But anyway. I LOVE a Monday off schedule. That's the best! I'm glad you were able to read it early I hope you're able to read the last part soon too! I love your feedback 💕

NO I LOVE THE NAME DROP it's so funny 😭

Hope your week is good too! Love youuuu!!!

xoxo

[taegularities]

🐼✒️anon here, omg rid you're so sweet😭 just listened to the commentary and first of all, your voice is so soothing, i could listen to you talk all day

second, i teared up when you mentioned isabella's lullaby. that is literally one of my favorite pieces of music, and i have imagined singing and harmonizing together with jk, and when you mentioned that he hums that for OC i literally teared up, felt like cmi!jk was made for me🤭

third, thank you so much for answering my questions🥹 it was so comforting, and it was so interesing to hear more about your writing process. and thank you for your encouragement, i really appreciate your advice and support, you're such a sweet soul🥹

also peraltiago??? and elemental??? i literally yearn for that kind of love and connection, especially peraltiago (although the cmi babies have long replaced them now) ughh i can totally relate to everything you said there! if you havent already, watch the good place, i think you'd really appreciate the dynamics between the characters, trust me

lastly, i was so surprised when you said that you've started the blog in 2020?? the way you write really makes you think you've been in this for far longer. i am genuinely amazed by your talent rid, you fucking rock💪🏻

its not a 🐼✒️ ask without writing a full essay, i apologise🙏🏻 i just wanted to let you know i really enjoyed the commentary, and im looking forward to the rest of cmi (im still in denial about the fact that its gonna end, and im also in denial of the possibility of you leaving yup) you are truly amazing, i cant find anymore words😭 love you so much, take care of yourself and rest well! I hope you get well from the cold soon, sending you all my love💜💜💜💜💜

holdddd, i guessed your name? kajshasj that's crazy bc i wouldn't even know lol but omg super proud i pronounced it well!! 🥰 as to your message… are you kidding, you're so 😭 gd sweet, like ilysm!!

isabella's lullaby is truly one of the most spectacular and gorgeous pieces i've ever heard. immediate favourite. it's become a lullaby to oc, too, bc i imagine it so feathery soft in his voice. also, wdym?? i didn't give any advice, that was totally these two heheh 👀 and all i want is for them (me heh) to comfort you <3

PANDAAAA, YOU AND I ARE VIBINGGGGG. peraltiago is my shiittttttt (fun fact, i just watched an episode last night where they used the ship name for the first time jkfsdhssf). how dare you say cmi babies have replaced them I WILL LITERALLY SOB INTO MY PILLOW WHAT 😭 also, putting the good place on my to-watch-list!!

i actually started this blog in early 2021 which makes your praise even more meaningful and sweet babe i adore you 🤧 ty ty ty!! and i've gotten a lot better!! spent my week off work well (but about to work for uni deadlines 💀) <3 not the deniallll 😭 if i do decide to stay, i promise i'll try my best to keep this thing going for as long as possible. we shall not see the end of their story soon (bc i'm very much in denial, too) <3