#SORRY FOR GOING OFF. I . AURGH...

[mysimsyuri]

🫵 you.

🏁- if not at the same time, who started pining first? how long until it became mutual (if ever)?

🛏️- did you two ever have a "there's only one bed" moment?

💭- who daydreamed about the other more often? what did they think about most?

ough thankyou elliot for asking vague ones so i can indulge...... (these two have been plaguing my brain All Day . queerplatonically)

🏁 - not to sound a little self absorbed but i do think it was shawn for sure. i have in depth feelings abt shawns feelings for the ppl around him but i wanna wait til im further into the show to say anything but uh !! he had a lil crush on me for a bit but after i was like "bro im aroace" he backed off and the feelings developed more into how he felt abt gus (didnt know anything abt qprs yet, just thought it was ~best friend vibes~; also hed had feelings for gus for literal Years and just kind of assumed thats what they were) so he just kinda sat back and let the feelings fester (he skipped a lot between thinking they Were romantic and trying to give me space so he didnt make me uncomfy/things w gus weird and those aforementioned ~best friend vibes~) until it grew to full on pining for both me And gus.

paragraph break woag. um after that it was me, i realized i had queerplatonic crushes on them both about a couple months later ?? also i just assumed that gus and shawn were in a qpr already cuz of how they acted fghdkjfg so it was just like "ok cool. should i ask if they need a third or would that be weird. im gonna say weird and just sit here and Pine"

gus. hrm. i think he definitely liked shawn for a little while and were gonna pretend i can name a certain time in the show to back this up. maybe they both nearly died and the experience awakened something in him idk. he pined for him a little but not w me (i still dont have the details of how we all started the relationship but i think i bring up qprs and theyre both like "huh??? thats. is that what this is???" so he only starts liking me like that After we start being together (we didnt think to just. share shawn. we were just like "ok were all together now. the three of us. wahoo"))

🛏️ - not particularly cuz theres not rlly a bed in the office (unless there is. once again 10 episodes in sdfhjg) ?? But there are all nighters and naptimes w the one couch . usually for naps well just sleep at our desks but sometimes u just gotta stretch out n lay down yknow and if somebodys already there then oh well!! shawn has woken up multiple times to both me And gus passed out nearly on top of him (and vice versa ofc but shawn looks the coziest. i lay on him on purpose)

💭 - tbh prolly me a teehee :]c shawn and gus are usually too busy working to daydream while i just sit at my desk thinking abt them rescuing me from something or other... or just what it would be like to hug them .

[toastsnaffler]

crazy how I had an entire 3 day weekend and I didn't do anything fun just for myself. at all

[lunarcry]

did a foolish thing and went through my libertaria screenshots. teehee (none of the very important loki parts tho thats for later

Fenrir: Ugh, I've had it, Loki! Can I take this stupid stuff off now? Loki: I thought we discussed this already. A little modesty goes a long way. Fenrir: I'm a primal beast! B-e-a-s-t! Why should I give a crap about showing modesty to mortals! Lyria: But, Fenrir… It looks so nice on you. It would be a shame to take it off now. Fenrir: It does not look nice on me! My natural looks are all I need!

Lyria: Oh, Fenrir! What do you think of this ribbon? If you let me tie up your hair with it, I just know you'll look— Fenrir: Stay away from me, and mind your own business! I'm not a doll! I don't care how many primal beasts you have, I can devour you in a single gulp! Lyria: Okay… Sorry. Fenrir: Ugh… Listen! I'm not part of your crew, so—

conversations im obsessed with (also again how weak fenrir actually is LOLLLLL

Loki: Then I'd like to offer my services. I know I'm an Astral, but wouldn't you rather have that over no one at all? Lyria: A-are you really okay with that? Fenrir: I'm not!

'i consent' 'is there someone u forgot to ask?' meme

The guard prepares to usher Lyria away, when a voice sounds from behind them. Fenrir: Sister! Where the he—I mean, I'm over here, dear Sis!

Loki: I'll star in the lead role this time, Fenrir, do what you did before. Fenrir: … Lyria: Gosh! Fenrir's tail is standing on end! Loki: Excuse me, I'm looking for my little sis— Fenrir: Raagh! Istavion Soldier: Awagh! Loki: Fenrir! That's not how a graceful lady should act! Fenrir: Shut up! I'm done playing along with your little games! Sneaking in this far was good enough. If they want to come at me, then I'll take them all out.

Lyria: Oh no! The door is locked! Fenrir: Move! I'm gonna smash it down! Lejos leaps out of the way just in time—the door, its frame, and parts of the surrounding wall suddenly implode into the room.

SCENES IM ALSO OBSESSED WITH

White Knight: Though I ask that the viceroy make no further movements. That youngster is most likely the Astral the True King spoke of. Loki: What do you know, Fenrir? We're celebrities. Fenrir: More like infamous fugitives wanted for interrogation.

thinking about that before nalhe scene w/ true king.....i rlyyy wish theyd talk about loki & true king... (but also fenrir recognizing that white knight is strong

anyway knowing white knights real name. help. out of all names.

Fenrir: If you plan on making me do more things I hate, I'll bite your head off in front of all these people. Loki: Show some class, Fenrir. The world is finally getting a view of your cute side. Fenrir: Okay, you just said your last words. Who do you want me to tell them to? Loki: Just deliver it to whoever would be most saddened by my passing. You can decide that one for me, Fenrir.

i lvoe them so so much

The White Knight trails off while looking at Mikaboshi, hoping she'll fill in the blanks about the mystery Astral but she pouts instead. Mikaboshi: I don't know anything. I'm still not complete yet. My power might be stronger than Loki's, but his nose is sharper at sniffing out weird stuff. White Knight: (Judging by their responses, even Loki finds the presence of another Astral irregular?)

aurgh i love them. i love them.....

Mikaboshi: Well, I wanted to go watch a fight in the coliseum…

Necesaria: (Of course, the real reason is because my orders from the higher-ups are to collect data on Mikaboshi. Trying out different perfumes, foundations, and makeup was a ruse to test an Astral's resistance to poison.)

Vyrn: Loki mentioned you guys split off. Sounds like everyone found something fun to do. Necesaria: Nothing wrong with that. After all, our crew is a collection of misfits. Mikaboshi: I'm not having any fun! I don't care about cosmetics or whatever. And if there is another Astral here, I don't want to go near them.

I LOVE THEEEMMMMMM still loving how loki just picked necesaria up. like ok yeah u can join welcome!!!!! obsessed with lokis crew

[cathalbravecog]

Mmmm I don't ever go seek out art for TTCC it's all sent to me or I find it thru my recommended or thru reblogs but I think I talked about this before, I'm not sure - but a majority of the Cathal art I DO see here Nad on clash cord that isn't from me or friends/mutuals is... Him drawn as a child/legit a baby... I.... He's employed do you realize he's at at least an older teenager if you want to keep him that young... I have no specific age for him but like why does EVERYONE treat Cathal like just a baby child. Like his personality isn't JUST that he's Allan's son.

If you really want me to pick an age for Cathal he'd be around 19-23, still very young, understandable age for someone to have a First Job like that in my opinion - but already an adult and capable of things... And like just because he's lazy and he sits around and doesn't do anything because he DOESN'T WANT TO doesn't mean he's not capable..... Why do you people baby him so much. I agree he is adorable, and I myself want to be kind and gentle to him and have fun with him, I get it, I also adore Cathal a lot if you Can't Tell, but do people... Seriously have to baby him... Occasional "awe baby" is okay but people treat him just as a child or some Dude To Put In The Background (Which I get we all have our faves and stuff but yknow... Nobody ever fucking does him right when he's in the center)

I'm not trying to say I'm superior here or anything I'm just as flawed as anyone is but at least I want to respect Cathal and. Not baby him? This feels nearly like the papyrus situation again except Cathal is legit often drawn as a baby/kid even not in situations where he's young and growing up being raised by Allan which I've seen on clash cord a few times

Again sorry for the negativity I just want to get this off my chest because I just. Aurgh. I don't trust people for these reasons... This is why I'm my own little corner of SWAG And Cringe here (Also because I'm sensitive to People Treating Him Wrong and also I Am A Bit Possesive Of My Blorbos)

Like pls tell me I'm not the only one who noticed just HOW MANY people do this.... Can we see Cathal for more he is than just uwu cutie babyyyyy

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

So, thanks to dracula daily, I watched Bram Stoker's Dracula (the title is a fucking lie). Spoiler warning for that, and also, well, for my rambling.

I just really need to talk about it, this is no analysis or rating or anything, really just me talking.

The beginning is promising. I really liked the colours and all, even if Drac was hard to understand. But that part was pretty neat.

The story begin was surprisingly accurate. Like, they even read parts from Johnathan's journal! Not sure if it's directly from the book, but that was a nice detail. A couple scenes in the castle were confusing and, uh, weird, but mostly it was accurate! We even got Dracula's lizard fashion!

And the brides- now I get what that one post said about vampire titties. Oh my goodness why are they half naked. I know vampires are like all sex and the stigma around it and shit but why so much.

Then there was Mina and Lucy and....... I know the whole "sex bad! the protags are good bc they are so pure!" kinda sucks but. idk. she just doesn't feel like Lucy, At All. BUT Jack's entrance was neat.

I also liked that they gave Renfield a backstory as the first guy to go to Dracula.

The Demeter had so much missed horror potential... well, you can't have everything.

Okay but WHAT THE FUCK was up with that werewolf dracula thing?? Seriously what the Fuck dude. What The Fuck. Also... the whole fucking thing. Like, literally. Why did our bitten girls try to get out their boobs. Why. Like, c'mon, yeah vampires sexy we got it, but the Number 1 Symptom being "Boobs Out" is, uh. yeah.

Okay, but they kept the "Jack, the woman you loved is dead. I want to cut off her head and take out her heart" which is literally sooo funny I love that.

HATE HATE HATE THE DRACMINA BULLSHIT. WHY IS HE THERE. WHY IS HE BEING CREEPY AND SHE FALLING FOR IT. LITERALLY WHY THIS MAKES NO SENSE. YOU DIDN'T EVEN MAKE HIM A SEXY ROMANTIC GUY OR ANYTHING HE'S LITERALLY JUST A CREEP THAT SHE TRIED TO RUN AWAY FROM AND NOW SHE'S INTO HIM??????

Johnmina marriage..... in an actual church. They deserve it tbh.

They burned the boxes lmao. Renfield was done dirty in here, really. HOW DID WE GO FROM "*punches him* YOU MURDERED LUCY!!" to Sexy Makeout Scene (that happens to be a scene of incredible violence and (sexual) assault in the original!)

Hunt for Drac was pretty short tbh. Mina, honey, they skipped you part in this and I'm so sorry for you. And you characterization and arc in general. Also why the fuck are you kissing Van Helsing and Why is he kissing back. What the Fuck.

The final scene at the castle with dracula is......... I am. Not A Fan. I mean, she got to kill him, which is neat, but she did it bc she loved him, which sucks. Also Quincey my boy........ aurgh.

Soo.... in general?

Was it a good film in itself? Yeah, I guess so. Too much boobs and sexy stuff for my taste, but it was a good film. Well made, no unnecessary blockbuster shit, the setup and all was really neat.

Was it a good Dracula adaptation? Hell nah. Inspired by the book? Okay. Based on the book? Questionable. "Bram Stoker's Dracula"? Honey you couldn't get further from Stoker. The heart of the book are the characters. It's Johnmina's love, it's the polycule, it's everyone hating Drac So Much for what he did to Lucy and Mina... and that just isn't in the film. I have literally no opinion on the characters except Lucy because I just cannot see LUCY in her, and Mina because what is going on with you girl, and that's just sad. Dracula wasn't really likeable, but you didn't hate him, either, which in itself says that you kinda missed the point of the book.

Also the type of horror was entirely different. Like, in here? Dracula was A Guy. A scary, powerful, undead, monster guy, but still a tangible person.

In the book, it's this unknown thing in the background. You don't know what he does, why, where he is, what he thinks. You think you meet him in the beginning, but then he's gone. He's the unknown horror, you think you're safe and suddenly he's There, only to disappear again and you know you can never be safe until he's truly dead, but how? How can you kill this monster that doesn't seem to be like any human At All?

It was a good film. It just wasn't a good dracula adaptation. I kinda liked watching it, but I didn't need to watch it either, and I definitely won't again. I'd rather reread the book.

[just-absolutely-super]

MMBN/Fullmetal Alchemist intense:

(shattered automail)

Lan: Aurgh!

Bass: Pathetic.

Hub: No, stop! If you're going to take a life, take mine!

Lan: Nii-san no!

Hub: Lan willingly took on the mantle of State Alchemist to restore me! I'm the cause!

Lan: Don't! Please don't!

Bass: … Interesting.

Lan: Nii-saaaaaan!

Proto: Fire!

Gunshots rings out, Bass backing up in his attempts to dodge them

Chaud: Step aside, everyone, I'll hand this

Proto: Sir, no!

Proto pulls Chaud out of the way as Bass tries to grab at him. Proto tries to retaliate with a sword, but Bass dodges

Proto: Apologies, but you know as well as I do your alchemy doesn't work in the rain. This is not the time to try to show off in front of your father!

Chaud: *blushes in embarrassment* Right...

Shuuseki: Everyone, after him! Do not let Bass escape!

Bass: Tch...

Bass flees, most of the military officials giving chase

Chaud: Hmph, if only it weren't for the rain...

Proto: Again, my apologies, Chaud, sir...

Lan: Hub! Hub speak to me! Are you okay?!

Hub: Lan...you...

Lan: Hub! Oh, man, big bro you had me scared. I thought the worst was gonna happen!

Hub: You... YOU IDIOT!

Hub hits Lan upside the head much to everyone's shock

Hub: I thought I told you to run! What were you thinking sticking around and fighting back?! Obviously he was too much for you, and now look! Your arm is destroyed!

Lan: AS IF I WAS GONNA RUN AWAY AND LEAVE YOU TO DIE!

Hub: Better me than you! *Hub's arm falls off* OH GREAT, NOW I'M FALLING APART TOO!

Lan: ...Hehe...HAHAHAHA! Looks like we're both in a sorry state, brother...

Hub: Don't laugh! I'm still mad at you! You owe me big time!

Lan: Haha, just put it on my tab...

Chaud: ...Well, at least we accomplished their safety

Proto: True...

[smithsibsceo]

ask questions: 18 / 27 / 30!!

18 - do you like reading? if so, whats ur favourite book?

oooh this question..... wow. my relationship with reading is complicated. on one hand, i will literally consume hundreds of fanfics a day, and not get bored. however, reading an actual physical book is quite the bit harder for me, especially if i don't find it instantly compelling. i have undiagnosed adhd (trying to get a proper diagnosis D:), so things that don't give me instant dopamine rushes = hard to focus on. with fanfics, im reading things targeted directly to my interests, with the characters and tropes i enjoy. the characters i read about i've formed a connection with, watched them develop over seasons etc. with a new character in a completely new book, it doesn't have this sense of familiarity, which, given that im so used to fanfics, i can sometimes find difficult to get through. when i was younger was a whole new story - i got through like a book a day. but now im older, with more intense special interests and more internet access, so that doesn't really happen anymore. the whole things a bit weird. and, if im being honest with you - i don't have a favourite book of the top of my head. ive read a lot of books i enjoy, but im afraid i could NOT list you my overall fave ndjwnbejncken.

and WOOO. sorry for that LONG ASS RANT NONNIE NKDNKWJKXJKC

27 - who was your childhood crush?

now, im aro, so i've never really had a crush crush. i have celebrity crushes (cough cough maya hawke cough joe keery), and i have people i see as rlly rlly attractive (cough cough maya hawke cough joe keery), so if we're going off that basis i'd probably say... maybe like kai or nya from ninjago they were awesome. ninjago was my first ever fandom fandom, so i guess it all adds up. i was also rlly into gogo from big hero 6 B]

30 - what are ur hobbies?

ooh this is fun!! i love baking, its so fun and happy and aurgh!!! love it. i want to say writing too, but i procrastinate way too much. once in a while i like making stuff with clay at like midnight - eg its currently ten past one in the morning and i just finished making a clay ring and badge so. yeah sjedkekj!!! and obviously fandom stuff :)

AND TYYYYYYY NONNIE IM SO SORRY FOR RAMBLING NSNDKJEJD. THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE ASK DUDE HOPE U HAVE A LOVELY DAY <333333333

[italiantea]

God you are SO RIGHT re: duolingo and grammar, it drives me up the WALL that they have NOTHING on it. How am I supposed to learn a language if I can't learn THE RULES of HOW the language is CONSTRUCTED. especially when I'm dipping into Polish where I'm at a point where I Know Things, I Get Things, my spelling is atrocious my vocabulary is small however I NEED TO KNOW THE GRAMMAR. How am I supposed to make a sentence when I don't even get to know The Rules. This language has 7 grammatical cases (Kasus) they NEED to be taught. You are FUCKED if you don't know them. AURGH

(sorry for going off hendmdkfkfn)

I KNOW right like I get that it's not what it's going for but it kinda blows my mind that all it does is tell you what's right and what's wrong and you're just supposed to Figure It Out like some sort of AI training. like i know for every language learning app theres a reddit thread talking about how its shit and you shouldnt use it and you can never beat having an actual teacher but dang for the most hyped up language learning app in the world it is shockingly barebones

edit: ok I just saw that some of the unit guidebooks have grammar 'tips' with the classic tables with the cases but I'm still *press x to doubt*. they're pretty short and basic, it would probably be better to just get a complete study guide or textbook instead🤔🤔🤔

(just clicked into a few latin unit guidebooks, they only have example sentences🥲←why are you even learning latin)

[kryptoknight]

Tagged by @lament-of-0rpheus and @supermanstoddlerleash thanks for the tag guys :))

10 Fandoms/10 Characters, in no particular order and bolded for readability:

Clark Kent/Superman | DC - Clark Kent my best friend Clark Kent he's just. So fucking important to me. As a TRA

Steve Rogers/Captain America | Marvel (<- 🤡) - unfortunately i do still dabble in some Marvel, although very rarely, and I will just always have a soft spot for him. He's Just Some Guy From Brooklyn, he's the man out of time, he a soldier, he's an artist- *gets pulled off of soapbox*

Zagreus | Hades Video Game - sad titty man

Achilles | Hades Video Game - sad titty man, the og edition

Patroclus | Hades Video Game - SUPER sad titty man. Aurgh

Skulduggery Pleasant/Lord Vile | Skulduggery Pleasant - i fucking hate Derek Landy for making these really complicated and 3D characters and relationships and then writing them Like That. Whatever, Skulduggery still compels me tho

Percy Jackson | Percy Jackson and the Olympians - my OG blorbo

Magnus Bane | Shadowhunters TV Show - I'm actually not as into this as i was, but i do love me a deeply traumatised, deeply sad man with glittery eyes. I have never claimed to have good taste

Sherlock Holmes | Elementary TV Show - okay, i will say i don't actually like viewing this show through a (modern) fandom lens bc i just think. That would do it a huge injustice tbh. I mean that in the least offensive way possible. Elementary's Sherlock is such a genuinely well crafted character that you can tell real work was put into and imo there isn't much, if anything, that fandom style projecting would add to him

Quellcrist Falconer | Altered Carbón TV Show - not really a fandom (afaik?) but that show was so good, and despite the fact that I wasn't a huge fan of the story of S2, i rly loved Quell in it and the 'we are more than the sum of our intentions' scene lives rent free in my head

Started doing this and immediately forgot all my blorbos so this was rly hard lmao. Also realised i need to consume more media.

Anyway, I saw this going around the DC block a lot, so sorry if you've been tagged already! And as usual, no pressure to do it @allgremlinart @alexeishostakoff @nightmareinfloral

[mittensmorgul]

For context here, Lizbob is incredibly still not spoilered for the last four episodes of s14, but learned about Christian Kane filming 15.07. Apparently he and Jensen filmed all day together, and there were some exciting fight scenes filmed at a roadhouse-type location called “Swayze’s.” So I woke up to this message in my chattybubbles, and it spawned some fascinating wild speculation that we wanted to inflict on everyone else :’D

(also I am now considering writing an AU based on this spec... we’ll see...)

elizabethrobertajones: I can't believe Dean is currently banging his ex

Today at 10:41 AM mittensmorgul: wait did i miss something or is this just the CK news?

elizabethrobertajones: filming going on :P apparently they've been alone together on set all of yesterday that's one heck of a date

mittensmorgul: oh yeah, I saw those tweets :'D

elizabethrobertajones: are there any pictures of his hair situation? Is it still long? Or is it short right now? I saw a random pic of him at an event with short hair and now I'm worried

mittensmorgul: They made it sound like that was his only day filming, and he only saw Dean for a very short time. I kinda hope he'll be back in other episodes, but given the season, I doubt it, sadly I haven't

elizabethrobertajones D: I guess it's for the best not to get Dean too in deep with his ex just enough to shake up old thoughts and make him more open to Cas

mittensmorgul: I think at best, it's MAYBE shoulder-length because of a promo pic for another new show he's filming for that was taken relatively recently, but he's wearing a hat so I don't know yeah, that would be good

elizabethrobertajones shoulder length is acceptable

elizabethrobertajones Honestly the shorter the better in terms of "why did you randomly show us Dean had this hot as heck old BFF in the middle of *whatever final season nonsense*" short in time not in hair length longer the better there anyway Black Sails used scant minutes to tell us Flint had an old friend back in England and then it turned out they were banging :P

mittensmorgul: yeah sorry, I was off scouring the internets for any recent pic of him :'D

elizabethrobertajones: no need to apologise :'D

elizabethrobertajones: https://twitter.com/nataliefisher/status/1180070341109923840 *wheeeeeeeeze*

mittensmorgul: the bar fight would take place at "Swayze's" that's the bar they were filming at swayze always gets a pass

elizabethrobertajones: *wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze*

mittensmorgul: I think I finally know what to draw for suptoberart today... 5.09 has just inspired me :'D but yeah, I think this is the first roadhouse-type establishment we've seen exterior set spoiler pics since 11.04 and the episode is called "Last Call" I think and Cas is in it (he filmed the other day, had to rush back after njcon for it I think that's all I know about it :'D

elizabethrobertajones: *flails* CK's going to talk Dean into addressing his feelings for Cas and Dean's going to go running to him with a bottle of wine and a bunch of flowers

mittensmorgul: HAAAA strangely, I'm wondering if this will all be framed around music/singing, rather than some secret past romance (I mean with subtext, but still, surface layer "why don't you sing anymore" kind of thing, as if that was something secret in Dean's past)

elizabethrobertajones: Omg Dean's a secre karaoke star YES Like Larry but omg omg om g omg omg yes please

mittensmorgul: because they implied in one spoiler that Leo is a FORMER hunter, so what if he now runs this roadhouse where people come to sing/play music

elizabethrobertajones: AURGH

mittensmorgul: because that's something CK does in real life, too...

elizabethrobertajones: maybe Dean is looking to open a karaoke bar after all, exactly like I speculated after his Rocky's episode OMG JO SINGING IN HIS BAAAAR sorry I went Leverage

mittensmorgul: this was actually my FIRST thought before the "old boyfriend" spec started happening YEP

elizabethrobertajones: this doesn't work at all but I want Jo to sing with Dean if we're smushing thigns together :P ah man, that episode

mittensmorgul: I'm watching 5.10 right now... so ow to that

elizabethrobertajones: now I just want to watch Leverage

mittensmorgul: yeah :'D

elizabethrobertajones: also I looked at the next page of my dash (700 pages back) and Jo gifs were at the top

mittensmorgul: that episode in the country music bar basically can we make that a weird destiel au with them running into leo on a hunt or something

elizabethrobertajones: YEEES someone please let Dean play a guitar omg maybe he was Dean's guitar teacher once HALP I am wounding myself

mittensmorgul: oh no...  like Robin

elizabethrobertajones: HALLLLLP Dean just wanted to be a rockstaaaaaaaaaar maybe a grimy folk rocker going town to town performing in dive bars and doing tricks like playing the guitar on a mechanical bull or whatever that might be more his style

mittensmorgul: oh noooo are we gonna get more sad backstory about why dean chose to give up his dreams to the point where everyone believed he was even a terrible singer and knew nothing of his musical aspirations?

elizabethrobertajones: *hyperventilates*

mittensmorgul: I feel like I'm setting myself up for disappointment now

elizabethrobertajones: Dean's true acceptance is season 15's story?? These are spoilers I've gleaned by looking away quickly????

mittensmorgul: but also want to post this...

elizabethrobertajones: Do it HURT THE PEOPLE TEAR THEIR HEAAAAARTS OUT

mittensmorgul: but yeah, dabb did say something to that effect about Dean in an interview posted the other day...

elizabethrobertajones: See??? Aaaaaaaurgh

mittensmorgul: gah I can't share that quote with you because spoilers but trust me, Dabb basically pointed at performing dean and was like "that's what we're gonna address"

elizabethrobertajones: :D GOOD

mittensmorgul: okay, now to scroll up and copy all of this :'D

[kingofthewilderwest]

Aurgh it’s hard as fuck when your main squick is something that’s popular with like, almost every other human being ever, and is intended to be one of those safe everyday conversations you can have with both intimate friends and complete strangers. Where it’s supposed to be a thing that humanity uses as a uniting, welcoming, bonding force... but to me it’s just... a really uncomfortable reminder of a host of bad things.

I’m talking food here.

Food conversations often make me feel uncomfortable. Vastly uncomfortable. There’s an intricate set of conditions for which conversations I’m fine with and which will bother me, but no one except me is going to know all that minuteness. Point is: food conversations, food socialization, it’s everywhere. And it’s so hard to handle. Because i know everyone wants to be nice and they’re reaching out to me, but every time they do that kind gesture, it’s alienating and disturbing me more. And so 9 times out of 10, I put on a polite face and humor them because I don’t want to hurt them. I don’t let them know it bothers me. 

Dudes I am like, always trying to minimize my discomfort for others, because I know it’s impractical to act otherwise.

Which means I’m constantly living in a state of internally squirming.

Let’s be clear: I am someone who’s pretty comfortable giving feedback to friends, talking back and forth about what does/doesn’t work between us. I’m not someone socially anxious at approaching topics like these. I’m FINE telling friends, “Hey, I don’t like X, how about we do Y?” But just... food’s an impossible battle, dudes, and you can’t do it to complete strangers, to EVERYONE you meet, to EVERY circumstance you go through... it’s just... it’s a losing battle and I’d rather be polite and not make others feel uncomfortable, than constantly jut out to no good result.

For like. The one time out of ten I ask people (usually close friends) to avoid food-related actions and conversations, it’s a roll of the dice whether or not their behavior changes, even when they don’t complain “That makes it hard to talk to you!” Usually the confiding conversation changes little. Even when they’re trying to do something. 

The problem is that food reminds me I’m socially ostracized, and it reminds me of a lot of the mental illness and self-care issues I’ve chronically had in my life. In fact, food is a really good symbol of everywhere I just STRUGGLE so like, yeah, surprise surprise, I hate hearing and talking about it and stuff.

So like. Number one. I have Celiac Disease. I got diagnosed as an infant (praise God) and have lived a strict gluten free diet my entire life, even before most people knew what the word meant or knew the word existed. I have pride for being a Celiac, but I don’t like what the social impacts are. I learned to turn down food offered to me. Which is like. A lot of the time, dudes. Humans bond through food. But growing up without food bonding is....... yeah wow, dudes, apparently it messes you up, who knew.

1. You gotta turn down the dinner invitations for people who want to cook for you, knowing they’ll have nooooo idea how to prepare safe gluten-free friendly foods. Or, you don’t want to be a Drastic Social Burden(TM) that’s difficult to prepare for (because there’s so much RESEARCH they’d have to do, and so much I’d have to DOUBLE CHECK for them, just to make sure I could eat one fucking cupcake). So any time there’s a social gathering around dinner that isn’t going to a restaurant, it turns into a major cringe reaction for me, wishing that this hangout were literally ANY other time of day.

Mealtimes, which everyone else uses as a way to bond with one another in a positive, delightful way... are one of the Biggest Ways to make me feel alienated, uncomfortable, socially burdensome, on edge. Instead of making me feel included, I feel all the more aware I’m the odd one out. During the times people *DO* actually cook gluten free for me, I feel an unending wave of gratefulness piled on social burden, because they had to go out of their fucking way to figure this out, due to the problematic nature of me having strict dietary restrictions.

2. You know how often food gets offered to you as gifts? I have to constantly turn down those gifts. I already lack gift giving abilities; turning down gifts is socially cumbersome but something I’m always waiting to have to do. Instead of ever feeling grateful someone offered me something (I know they mean well), I have to ruin the moment by asking to see the packaging for the ingredients list, or saying “no”. And someone saying “I’d love to cook for you!” just makes me think “oh god oh god oh god NO. please NO.”

3. Really fun hanging out with friends and “Let’s go eat” and you have to veto 3/4 of the restaurants they want to go to because you can’t eat there. Frankly, I often succumb to “Pick what you want, I’ll figure something out for me.” My friends don’t like that and insist to include me (food bonding [sigh]) but yeahhhh, I like to wimp out on that rather than bother.

4. Oh hi guess what it also goes into being left out of religious experiences like church communions. Until larger churches started offering gluten free wafers to replace bread... if I wanted to be included in communion... I either had to whisper something to the pastor before she gave me bread, or I’d have to give her my gluten free bread ahead of time so she could give it to me specially (this is what my mom did for me, who always tried to make me feel included as a little kid... bake me my own cakes for birthday parties... arrange this stuff with the church... what have you). And let’s not get started on the awkward conversations I had when friends invited me to seder and I had to do a lot of make-sure-ing there too.

5. Okay guys you know how COMMON it is for people to text you food pictures? Look what I made. This is my dinner. What have you. How that will IMMEDIATELY set off my discomfort??? But if I don’t respond, I’ll get a text half an hour later, “Hey, did you see my concoction?” 

6. Ngl this makes me 300000x more nervous if I have to do any food-related hosting event. Even if it’s “bring something to the potluck!” it throws me into so much distress. Now *I* have to pick food for *someone else*, when I live in a world where no one knows how to pick food for me. It makes me uncertain what to bring, what’s acceptable to bring, etc. I mean, I guess the one thing I have going for me is I make sure I bring stuff ANY person of ANY diet can eat, but like... there’s so much social discomfort. I get even more uncomfortable at the thought of trying to cook meals for people (doesn’t help I can’t cook to save my life) or hosting social events with snacks in them (ex: movie nights). 

THERE IS A REASON I DEFAULT TO “HEY WHO WANTS TO GO OUT TO DINNER, I’LL PAY!!!!” it’s the one non-uncomfortable way I can show my love to my friends, while dealing with a physical need I know they have (hunger). It’s not the “best” bonding way, but I try to minimize those experiences, get out of them, but like... if I’m offering to buy you dinner, THIS IS ***THE*** BEST I CAN DO AND I AM DESPERATE TO DO IT BECAUSE IT IS THE ***ONLY*** WAY I CAN FOOD BOND WITH YOU AND I KNOW YOU NEED THAT.

On and on and on and on and on. 

Like, on its own, living with Celiac is damn EASY. It’s not hard to cook and eat gluten free meals. But it’s the interaction with all the other human beings, who default to eating gluten-filled meals, and trying to get me in on the socialization of gluten-filled meals... that makes it so problematic to navigate. And means I’m constantly feeling socially........ jutting out. Square peg in round hole phenomenon.

But it’s not just the fact that everyone else grew up bonding with food and meals... and I was separated out and couldn’t bond. 

Uarghghghg it’s not just Celiac. Celiac is simple. Celiac is normal. I’m 100% chill with the fact I have it, and I actually get angry when people suggest it’s something that should be “cured.” Fuck you dudes, I’m normal, I’m healthy, my life is great, it’s not my fault you like wheat and think I should like it too. 

But. Where things get really emotionally hairy. It’s that food is a pinnacle of my non-neurotypical issues. I forever screwed up my diet in college when I got so depressed I quit eating regularly and lost something like 10-15 lb (which was... like... 10% of my body weight, yiiiiikes). It became this... self-imposed contest... where I tried to skip as many meals as possible. It became a Rule that I didn’t eat Sundays. It took years for me to eat 2-3 meals a day again. And it forever impacted the health of what I ate. I have really baaaaaad diet.

And diet is always the first thing to get impacted when I have a depression-y spell. It’s the hardest thing for me to get in control to try to take care of myself. I’m CONSTANTLY struggling to take care of myself even during my happy periods, when it comes to food, and so you can only imagine what happens to my diet when I’m in my many bad spells. Food represents the constant struggle, the constant inability for me to function. It sometimes feels like the symbol of my mental illness. It’s a battle I am constantly, constantly, constantly, constantly fighting. I’m fighting to get ONE meal a week that I’ve fucking cooked for myself. I’m fighting to eat things that could be called “meals” at all (don’t worry, I get my calories and shit in, I eat very regularly, I snack all the fucking time, I’m not underfed, I’m fiiiiiine, it’s just not... good nutritional value, and it relies heavily on restaurants or non-scratch non-recipe items). 

And when food is the epitome of so many bad things - inability to fit in socially, inability to take care of myself, a memory of times when I collapsed psychologically my freshman year of college and went into eating disorder mode... like dudes, I’m sorry, I’m not going to enjoy photos of your macaroni and cheese you texted me. It’s going to make me go into instant Red Flag Mental Mode where I’m thinking about nothing except constant internal battles I fight.

And yet.

Oh goodie.

Food is The Go To socializer. Food is a Nice Easy Topic. Food is everywhere, and I just bite my tongue and smile and tell someone, “Looks like a tasty dinner.”

[storybookstalker]

i’m in a strong mood for mccree aksksksk

I feel ya, Ima do a little thing that hopefully is good for our favorite cowboi, work sounds like it suCKS. Yo i hate passive aggressive SO MUCH like if you’re mad be mad pls I can take that so much better. It’s hella nice someone listens to you!! and yeah humans suck, the horror stories of the  c u s t o m e r s  , I wish you best of luck with life darlin!! Make sure to take a hot bubba bath or bathbomb to relaxth and not deathface, take care of yourself!!!!!! ilysm2 also on the topic of ranting can I just mention how annoyed I am that I can’t change the color of my text on my computer do u know how sad this makes me)

Jesse Mccree 

Things could not get any worse, you were sure of it. You’d slept through your alarms multiple times over the last few months, oversleeping a few times a week now. You had NEVER overslept for ANYTHING in your LIFE before coming to Blackwatch. Maybe it was because of the new work and its schedule? But again, you never felt that tired from most of the work, especially as an undercover agent. You weren’t ever doing any of the hard work, like Jesse or Genji. Those guys and the others worked so much harder than you, it didn’t make sense. It didn’t help how much jesse would tease you for it, you had liked him at first but he was starting to get a little inappropriate with his teasing about your apparent sleepiness. But he was fine and actually fun to be around most of the time, so you let him hang around. Back to the shitty luck, you were so sore nowadays. Hell, you weren’t even doing anything!! Why the fuck were you so sore? Your head was always foggy now, you could barely focus on work and frankly it was really starting to piss you off. It was only getting worse, you had blacked out the other day. Gabriel was starting to take notice as well. Jesse might be a little creep about the oversleeping part of all of this, but at least he’s supportive of you. He’d been the one to bring you to the infirmary when you had blacked out. You were terrified of losing your job here, but at least Jesse is there for you. He’ll protect you, care for you. Whether you thought you needed it or not, he’s going to help you. After all, he knows exactly how much help you’re needing. You need so much of it, maybe he should start visiting nightly?

[brainiacfanclub]

Truth - Brainy x Reader

Author: Melanie Kheel

Word count: 1172

Warnings: None

Imagine... Being drawn in by his eyes.

She was literally banging her head against the desk.

It was late at the DEO after a quiet day with little crime around National City and no one should have been around with the exception of agents keeping the place safe, and those cleaning. Brainy had stayed in late simply because he didn't want to leave before Y/n did, but it seemed apparent after one AM that she didn't have plans to go home any time soon. He stole a glance in her direction and then back at what he was working on before wanting to look back. She was very pretty, but he could tell something was wrong. Brainy's mind crossed the fact that he'd been sitting pretending to work and do thing's just so that he could be around her. His thoughts were interrupted by a bang and a grunt from Y/n's direction. He looked immediately over at her again and the banging didn't stop. Y/n was sitting at her desk banging her head against it, most likely in frustration.

"Um... I don't think that's a good idea, Y/n" Brainy said to her, standing up and stepping towards her.

Y/n jumped obviously startled by him. "Brainy!! You!- You're still here!?" She looked right at him with a hand over her racing heart.

"I- Well yes. The entire time actually- You didn't notice?" He had moved to stand directly next to her so they could hold a conversation.

"The entire time!? Okay-" She took a deep breath, "I was just focused on my work is all. What are you still doing here?"

"Well-" Brainy looked away, slightly embarrassed by the fact that he was trying to see how late she could stay, and if he could stay later than she did. "I'm simply used to..." His hands fidgeted and he put them behind his back out of Y/n's sight, hiding his nervousness "...Being the last to leave." He lied.

Y/n nodded. "Right." She had glanced at the occasional agent that happened to stroll by at that same moment and Brainy knew that she didn't buy it. "Were you working? I didn't mean to interrupt you I just got really really frustrated at this dumb- Aurgh!" She pushed her keyboard aside and leaned her head back to stare at the ceiling.

"What I was doing wasn't exactly, well, important." He said, his eyes going to Y/n's computer screen. "But may I ask, what is it that you are working on?"

Y/n let out a sigh and motioned to her screen, turning to look at it. "Suffice to say I'm looking for someone. And I'm failing miserably."

"Well," Brainy's hands moved in a circular motion, "If you'd like I could... Lend a hand?"

Y/n smiled at him and he hesitated but smiled back slightly. "Well... If you really don't mind I'd appreciate the help, Brainy."

"Right then." Brainy pulled a chair over and sat in front of Y/n's computer. "First of all who are you looking for?"

"A woman... She has a family although I could care less about who she married..." Y/n looked down at the desk, her index finger tracing mindlessly about on the cool surface.

"Alright. Her name?" Brainy decided it would have a negative effect to ask about the obvious troubles Y/n had with this person, so he moved on to the part of finding them.

"Y/m/n." Y/n watched Brainy doing something she'd done more than enough times, hoping that he would do something different and come up with something.

"Just do this... Adjust your... Right here..." Brainy mumbled as he worked and Y/n couldn't help but find it cute. He looked human at the moment and she had never seen his Coluan form which left her to wonder about it while she watched him.

After around ten minutes Brainy sat back and looked at the screen in triumph, then at Y/n. To his surprise, she was staring right at him, obviously lost in thought because she didn't seem to register that he was looking at her for a moment.

"Oh... S-sorry," she said before clearing her throat. "Did you find anything?"

"Hm? Oh- Yes. No need to apologize it's quite late after all." Brainy motioned to the screen and looked away from Y/n. "She died 3.7 years ago of pneumonia, and her family is living in different places around the United States. Would you like me to discover their whereabouts as well?"

"N-No." She reached out as if to stop him from looking into the family members, "That's fine thanks Brainy. Really thank you."

"Is that all then?" He looked again at Y/n and her eyes averted contact with his.

"Yeah. Goodnight I guess."

"Yes, Goodnight Y/n."

She began gathering her things, and Brainy went back to his work area. As she walked past behind him she turned around and came back.

"Y'know I've never seen you without your Image Inducer on." She gripped her jacket to keep her hands from shaking from talking to him again, in a not so work related way.

"Well, I find that it makes it easier for people to... Accept me." Brainy said, turning to her again. Even though she was visibly tired, she still looked...

"Can you turn it off?" Her question was straightforward and Brainy took a moment to respond after what he was just thinking.

"You want to see... What I look like without the image inducer..?" He asked even though it was clear what she meant.

"I'm sorry- That was so straightforward I didn't mean to feel forceful I just..." Her voice trailed off as Brainy brought two fingers to his forehead and in a flash the inducer was inactive, and his Coluan form stood before Y/n.

"Oh." Was all she could say, but she took a step forward, closer to him.

"I'm afraid I have to ask; are you alright Y/n?" Brainy asked.

Y/n didn't say anything. At this point, she could tell that as nervous as she was about what was happening he was equally so. Despite that, she reached out a hand and touched his pale blue cheek. His skin was warm as her fingertips traced against it and she gave a nervous smile.

"This- Isn't what I was expecting. To say the least. Um, you have white hair..."

Brainy's eyes fell slowly to the ground.

"No, I'm sorry this is my fault. It's just..."

Brainy looked her in the eyes, "It's just..?"

"Your eyes are just so big and... Brown and warm and..."

The pair was close and Y/n's hand on his cheek felt hot like fire. Her sentence was never completed because their lips touched in a fiery kiss. For a moment they both froze. Neither of them had expected the other to consent to the kiss, in fact, they had more reasons why they wouldn't. But then there was that feeling. The one they both felt, but hid.

The kiss was small but meaningful and beautiful, between two people who shared love, ignorant of the others feelings up till that moment.

[kittymaverick]

If anyone needs them, here's the transcribed version of the entire bloopers

Tunon: The chaos you’ve sown everywhere is unacceptable. You cast yourself so far outside the established order, and I [Record scratch] I can’t—I just CAN’T EVEN DEAL WITH IT.

Sound cut: *Beep beep*

Barik: I’m a weapon bond to you only by duty. No freaky deaky.

*Beep beep*

Lantry: Point taken. I will make no note on the subject for the time being, except for what happened to my accent. [Cough]

*Beep beep*

Eb: The Archon’s more fragile than I susspe— speh, speh speh speh.

*Beep beep*

Graven Ashe: [Maniacal cackle] Oh you putting big words out there!

*Beep beep*

Barik: [Voice cracking from desperation] I would be out of this armor if I could do this!

*Beep beep*

Nerat: Ever the loyalist. Prepare yourself for a second cage, Barik the Di— Barik of the Dithfavored. Phlaffuring Fuckertash!

*Beep beep*

Barik: Get up, girl! [Sobbing] He was… the most human… of all of us— Spock!

*Beep beep*

Eb: Considering all the things that don’t think to bother you the slightest, I’m not gonna lie, I kinda like getting o— I’m kin— I— Mm— [To the side] hmph! Reading.

*Beep beep*

Verse: The last thing I need or want is a hug from the shambling junk keep— Junk huuuuuurrrrgggghhhhhhh. [Disappears off screen] Junk, heap. Junk heap, okay.

*Beep beep*

Nerat: We will have your bones fashioned into a sceptre, you skin knotted into a belt, and your tongue fed to crav—feh—heh— I’m good with the words speaking.

*Beep beep*

Sirin: Fatebinder! It is always such a pleasure to speak with you. [To voice director] Do I sound sarcastic? [Laughs]

*Beep beep*

Nerat: Good ear, young fatebinder! When the Vendrini guar— Vendrinen guard, VenDRIEN gua— Vendrien—fuck my life!

*Beep beep*

Tunon: The court may never recover from this blow, but at least I can seek some final satisfaction out of you, and NOW I understand the line better!

*Beep beep*

Sirin: Goodbye, Fatebinder. [Snaps fingers] I, AM, OUTTIE.

*Beep beep*

Eb: The band is too small to be a serious threat to the Dissfavored or the Chorus— [chuckles]

Valerie Arem: Darn it! The Dithfavored! [Still laughing] Can, can we ju… it’s like a Pinky and the Brain line at this point for me! [Inhales, resets.]Urgh!

*Beep beep*

Verse: Classic example of the Overlord’s devastation, like a battering lamb that e— lamb? A battering lamb.

[Voice Director: I was just kinda thinking about, you know, deep fry— (???)]

Allegra Clark: Can you imagine instead of a battering ram, an actual battering lamb. Like a MEEEHH, bloop!

*Beep beep*

Eb: Now that I stand at the top, the only chant I will start is a chant of disarmament. I will not throw them into the charnel pit.

Valerie Arem: Oh! I— I s— totally faked it on charnel I was so glad I chased that I had no idea if that was how it was pronounced. [Laughs] Oh happiness! ^_^

*Beep beep*

Lantry: I think she has great potential. A dangerous amount of potential, to be blunt. The Scarlet Furries— Ha! Furies! Sorry! I’ve been at a convention.

*Beep beep*

Killsy: Thought would stalk small pack of sages near den place call Burning Library. But Sages b—[Stumbles on next syllable] fuck. Ahem.

*Beep beep*

Ashe: Perhaps another catastrophe that will punish our foes for hiding behind their [sudden change of tone] walls? [Cackles] I get to the—

[breaks character and laughs]

Kirk Thornton: I saw the question mark way to late! [Still laughing]

*Beep beep*

Barik: The Adjudicator certainly taught you everything he knows about being a inedebedeburdeBerDURpassthehand!

*Beep beep*

Lantry: What’s that, you say? Flocks of nubile lasses with an interest in old man who knows history? You need a definitive trectatus?— tracTAtus! Dammit! [inhales angrily] Urgh.

*Beep beep*

Sirin: You can’t be serious, Fatebinder. Don’t ask me to do this. [Prolonged gasp as Voice Director explains what is about to happen.] AURGH…. WHAT THE FUCK, MAN? This shit just got real.

*Beep beep*

Mark: Won’t have much of anything left once the Adj—Adjfucker— Shit! [Awkward tittering] One more time.

*Beep beep*

Lantry: Sustaining it, and if enough people fear it, even growing a beh- ahahoho, poo.

*Beep beep*

Nerat: You have exhausted your usefulness, and we will delight in tattooing our sigil on your fla— [garbled syllables] ong nyour nya nyer.

*Beep beep*

Barik: And the strength of our legion, is in— [Bumping sound] me hitting the mic stand, boomshakalaka.

*Beep beep*

Verse: You piece of shit! Do you know how hard I’ve work to sta—[strangled] uuuuaaaaarrrrrrggghhhhh. [Disappears off screen again.]

*Beep beep*

Lantry: Scholars hypothesize the Scourges are born of magic. The Oldwalls and their— oo, shit. Crech? Creché? [Voice Direction corrects.] Crèche? Crèche. Somebody’s gone to school… it wasn’t the actor.

*Beep beep*

Nerat: Graven Ashe and Tunon have allied against us! You conspire to rob of— duh pfft pfffft pffftttt… to man— amange you! That’s— [sputtering, angry and frustrated] ERGH!

*Beep beep*

Graven Ashe: [Sound of a grizzly bulldog shaking off water?] Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreh…Heh.

*Beep beep*

Nerat: That simpleton Ashe is no doubt sobbing in his porridge over the [sudden realization of self incrimination] soldiers we killed— fuck!

*Beep beep*

Tunon: Either the Archon of shadows has lost his once indomitable pow— prowers, in combact, eh dep…[breaks character]

Ray Chase: Even the typo, ah, make sense. Comapt!

*Beep beep*

Verse: The most we do for each other is try not to get the other one killed, which is more than you can say for morse— urgh, my gawd. [Slurring, then] RA GA GYA GYA GYA- okay.

*Beep beep*

Tunon: Master, if you’ll join me upstairs. [Blushing] I will pledge fealty to you in the lawful manner.

Ray Chase: I do not want to know what THAT is. [Everyone laughs]

*Beep beep*

Graven Ashe: Would Kyros’ mighty spymaster please enlighten this gathering of allies with some scrap of stratIA—GLURERrrrrrr!

*Beep beep*

Nerat: We are legion, and you cannot stand against [voice cracks] us all. That was a stumble, fuck.

*Beep beep*

Eb, or rather Valerie Arem: Geez god fuck I can’t say any of that!

*Beep beep*

Lantry: I don’t imagine Kyros leaves anything to mere confidence coincidence in-conscious and all the other words I thought was. [Checks.] Coincidence.

*Beep beep*

Sirin: Burgh! [Throttling] Ergh! Wow! Hey, I got… bronchitis, hey!

*Beep beep*

Graven Ashe: So I will start protecting the peers— petitia—

*Beep beep*

Lantry: General Grumps is the wiser choice. It’s patently obvious which Archon he is truly loyal to— well derp, poopy head.

*Beep beep*

Verse: Welcome back, ass [Also gets bronchitis] hole. Ergh! Ass HOLE, like HOLler.

*Beep beep*

Eb: Perhaps now is a fine time to test the reach of your Edict—s. Oh, Edict- Eh huh, uh huh…

*Beep beep*

Tunon: I once thought that Kyros was the sole Overlord. The notion of rising to her eshe— eke— ektelon…[resigned inhale]

*Beep beep*

Xander Mobus: “Fatebinder of reeking discharge”? We’re going right to the fart jokes!

*Beep beep*

Nerat: [Mockinglyl] Fatebinder of reeking discharge.

*Beep beep*

*Fart noise and effect*

*Beep beep*

Verse: Phew! I can spell you— spell. [Elatedly] I can spell!

*Beep beep*

Mark?(Nope! IT'S NERAT!): You’re gonna have to kill ALL of us, ‘cause you’re my number one guy… Sorry, full jack.

*Beep beep*

Verse: Of all my days running with the Chorus, I think I enjoyed Ass gang the most.

Allegra Clark: I’d wanna be in Ass gang! That sounds great!