#SORRY IVE HAD THIS SONG ON REPEAT ALL DAY

[foccaccia]

The old dog is done

They killed him off when he was only young

Till that soil to heal your soul

Till that soil to heal your soul

[alexias-left-foot]

Benção

Ive been writting this one for a while.

!Dont know if i will keep writting on this universe

Wrote this one while listening to a portuguese song, (dont ask please), link below

!Im not english, so im sorry for any spelling mistake!

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You know, she is probably still mad at me- you said to Mapi and Ingrid while making your way to the dressing room- If i tell her she won't probably talk to me ever again.

Cmon she knows you y/n! She has to understand that there is something more important going on. You have to tell her or she is going to break up with you. You can't hide it anymore. You have been so stressed, she is going to notice even more- Ingrid answered you.

You “have a kid”. Not you, but your ex. Your ex was pregnant 1 YEAR AND A HALF AGO! Now you have a kid with 9 months . Before you both broke up, almost 2 years ago, you both were trying to have a baby but it never worked, at least you thought that. Turns out you were wrong! She was pregnant all this damn time, had a kid and didn't tell you anything till last night. 

Last week after your away easy win 6-0 against Valencia she, and your baby, were in the public. She asked you to talk with her, which was clearly strange. Then she told you that the kid that was sleeping like a little angel was yours. She also told you all of a story but you just did not pay any attention to her still in shock looking at the sleepy kid in the grey pram. She told you that didn't want the baby anymore and wanted to give the kid up for adoption and wanted to inform you about it. You were arguing with her and ended up saying that you would stay with the sleepy baby. She was a bit shocked but agreed and told you you have a couple of weeks till you have to go get the baby or the baby was going to be adopted. You just agreed and said that will keep in touch.

Ona saw you both talking and, of course didnt like it, mainly cause of the love story you and your ex had. She was really jealous and didnt talked to you until you were both at home. Where you both fought because  she was jealous of your ex. She clearly made some movies on her head but you didnt want to keep arguing with her, it was a long day and you were so tired, so you just slept on the couch so you could get your head cleared.

 Things got a bit better but you didn't tell her, not yet. Only Mapi and Ingrid know about it, they are your best friends and you needed to talk to someone so you talked to them. They were clearly in shock when you told them that but decided to help you. That's what they are trying to do now.

“Now let's go to practice so you can clear your mind a bit, vale”?- Mapi sayed while squeezing your cheek

Practice was fine but you weren't really present there, which made your teammates worried 

“You need to tell her” Mapi said in the locker room. Mapi was right. You needed to tell her.

After a ride home that looked like an eternity, you were both at home. 

You were both watching some trash tv when she breaked the weird silence.

“Hey, what's going on? You´ve been a bit strange since you talked with your ex” Ona said with a worried look. “I have something to tell you, bebé, I just don't know how to tell you” You said while the brunette looked with an even more worried look “I-I have a baby. I didn't knew it, my ex told me after the game against Valencia, that's what we were talking about. She wanted to give the baby up for adoption, but I just couldn't tell her to do it, when I looked at that little baby sleeping in such an innocent cute way. I didn't knew what to do or say to you, i'm so so sorry…” you gasped and took your eyes full of tears out of the  floor to look at Ona who looked at you in shocked “You have a-a Kid?” she repeated while you nodded “And the kid is going to live with us” you nodded again. A minute of silence was made by both of you. Both of your hearts pumping fast 

“I think I can handle that '' she smacked your arm, with a soft small smile on oour face, joking at you who were in  tears by now. 

She looked a bit unsure because of her smile being so small, but you just hugged her in a really sad but sweet hug. 

“ Hey, hey, stop crying, okay you whiny? I'm here, I'm gonna help you through this, okay mi amor?I love you!” She was still making fun of you but she was as scared as you. It was her way to defend herself, being sarcastic and funny but you loved it even if it makes never be sure if she is scared or not.

“I love you too Oni, thanks for being here…” You managed to say while tears were rolling down your face and starting to get Ona´s eyes.

[kristlewrites]

“Baby I’m ready for take off”

CW: Cock Warming ,Chest Riding, Fluff(?), Poorly written smut, comfort(?) nicknames ( ma, mamas, papa, and baby)

PAIRING: Connie x Black!FemReader

WC: 0.9k

🫧🗯️: Test run post! Don’t judge🤒 ALSO! first time writing smut so if it’s bad i’m sorry, it’ll probably remain like that for a minute…(title is from a wayv song.. doesn’t have to do anything with the fic🪦🪦)

MINORS DNI

(take off!)

It's been a long day, long week even. School has been beating your ass with essays and finals..this was your only chance to relax. You enter connie's apartment around 6 pm, he wasn't there because he's also been busy but not with school. The team made it to regionals and the coach has been working the team the bone with drills everyday.

     You use your key that he lent to you and make yourself at home, he lived off campus. You make your way into the shower and clean yourself up real quick and change into his pajamas, although a lot of your clothes is in his room, hell ! you even have your own drawer! But you love the way his clothes feels on you and his scent makes you feel safe. You were absolutely starving by the time you got dressed and decided to go order some food, wing-stop you finally decide you got yourself a 12 pc hot and lemon pepper with a side of fries and A sprite. When the food came around it was almost eight and Connie should be on his way home.

   After you finished eating you cleaned up super quick and went to bed, connie showed up about an hour later. He knew you were here but seeing you in his sheets and pjs made his heart falter. He went in the shower quickly and joined you in bed. He tried his best not to make any noise but regardless you still woke up 

    "Sorry ma, didn't mean to wake you up"

    he said so gentle, 

      "how are you? I'm sorry I came home late.. i didn't expect coach to keep us so long"

   he caressed your cheeks trying to get you back to sleep. You looked up at his beautiful freckled face, you missed him so much you guys havent been able to see each other at all this week with being so occupied with your own personal activities and affairs. Small tears stream from your eyes, he wipes them away with such care and delicacy.

   "I know, I know ive missed you too, baby"

    You turn towards to him and indulge into his chest , he's not wearing a shirt which is normal since he gets really sweaty at night (😭😭🪦🪦🪦) you start talking about the events that happened that week, how your essay went, how you absolutely failed your stats test, new books you bought, girl drama, and how stressful it's been for you. He nods occasionally and throws in a couple of "mhms" to let yk that he's still listening. This goes on for about an hour and at this point you're just rambling, but connie understands how much you love to talk and let's you continue without complaint, that is until you ask him about his week and what he's done. 

   At this point he's practically knocked out. 

   "Hah, What was that baby what did you say??" he said a little bit groggy

   You repeat your question, but while you do you see that he's HARD??? No way this man was hard from just hearing you talk.But then he must've been backed up from this whole week because of how rarely he saw you or had anytime for himself. When you think about it has been a while since y'all had sex, because of how seldom it's been to even talk to him on the phone 

   "Hey con.. You're hard, how long has it been?" you ask while playing with his nipples. (🪦🪦🪦)

   "Baby you don't even understand how much i've missed you..c'mere" He pulls you closer to his penis.

  Slowly he removes his pants and boxers, revealing his hard leaking cock.. good lord it was so much prettier than you remember. You slowly enter his dick into your hole, surprised by how wet you were.

   "Be careful mamas I could jizz into you at any point" you laughed at his choice of words, it was clear that he hasn't been relived in awhile..and while you were also tired doesn't mean you could at least help him out!!?? and you were on the pill so that should count for something..right??? Continuing you grab ahold of his tip and insert it, until fully seethed into your pussy. It felt so good, you grabbed his hand and placed it on your stomach showing him where his dick is. That really pushed him over and sprayed your pussy through and through. your poor baby he was so sensitive. You guys stayed like that until morning.

   Waking up, you find yourself looking at connie sleeping so soundly and peacefully. You reach for your phone but feel restricted once you've realized the man got a whole ass dick in you. omggg

  "Baby wake up" you whisper yell, tapping his chest. you roam your fingers on along his abs, a few seconds later connie shifts a little bit to remove his cock from you and lifts you up and places you down on his chest. This all happens so quick that u immediately shiver, with your wet slicky pussy on top of his chest he begins move you up and down while his dick teases at your ass crack. Your nails dig into his abdomen while you grind your silky pussy over his abs. Connie's hands take pleasure in your tits while they bounce up and down, twisting and turning you nipples putting you into over drive. Your cum glazes over his abs, you panting hard. First thing in the morning... You rest your head on his chest finding his heart beat while he rubs your head calming you down. 

   "I love you ma" he whispers, he feels your smile into his chest and laughs a bit. He raises your head, "did you hear what I said?" He leans in for a kiss and you return it. "I love you too papa"

(Think of this as a soft launch ijbol)🫧🗯️

[rowaelinsdaughter]

Can I request a rowan fluff where reader is just having a really bad day and feels like everything is going wrong bc of a few mistakes she makes and rowan is comforting and its just so much fluff and cuteness overload

GOOD NIGHT

a/n;; sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry this took me so long, BUT after having a breakdown ive finally write it, and believe me when i say i also needed this.

WARNINGS: anxiety, fluff.

if someone asked her to describe her day she would have said awful. terrible. 

she woke up late, and she had to run to her job, earning a scolding from her boss. 

then, she lost an important paper and she felt the anxiety starting to take control of her body. so she locked herself in the bathroom trying to calm her breathing. the morning went normal, people entering, people leaving.

but then she went home. 

she opened the door, feeling the heat of the chimney and the smell of food told her enough of who was cooking. 

rowan. he was home. her mate. her husband. the love of her life. 

taking off her shoes and leaving them in the closet, she walked barefoot to the kitchen, stopping at the entrance. he was cooking barefoot, with loose pants and without a shirt, leaving his toned body in sight. and his long silver hair was tied up in a messy bun. 

“hi babe” he said, his voice a relaxing song for her body.

she walked to him, her arms on his waist and she kissed his back. “hello, ro” 

he was still cooking as he asked.

“have you bought what i asked you?”

she tensed. 

shit. 

no, no, no, no, no. 

she had forgotten. she hadn’t remembered that he asked her to bring something he needed from a shop near her job. the anxiety, the stress of the morning, had erased it. 

moving away from him, she hit the table behind her. covering her face with her hands, a sob broke the sound of the cooking food, her body started trembling so violently, that the table she was supported in started to move. 

“babe” 

she was breathing fast. so fast, she was going to faint.

“babe, hey, relax” a cold wind moved her hair back, and a pair of hands grabbed her’s, separating them from her face. that same hands grabbed her chin so she was looking at him.

her eyes were red and puffy, cheeks stained with tears, and breath heavy and fast. 

“look at me.” rowan said, slowly but demanding it. “come on babe, breathe in, breathe out. repeat it with me”

breathe in.

breathe out.

breathe in.

breathe out.

once she was relaxed enough, her body fell forward looking for her mate’s body. rowan caressed her head and she hugged him tightly. 

“i’m sorry rowan.”

“hey, look at me” she looked at him, her chin on his chest. “don’t worry about it, ok? it’s not a big deal, i’ll buy it. so don’t worry about it” he grabbed her from her thighs, lifting her from the floor and rowan carried her to their bedroom.

he bathed her, sending all the love he could down the bond. 

it was past midnight when they were laying down on the bed. her body on top of rowan and his hands on her back, caressing it. when he looked down at her, she was finally asleep, her breaths slow and steady, and her once tense body relaxed. 

he placed a soft kiss on her hair. 

“good night my love”

all rights reserved to ©rowaelinsdaughter. no tranlations allowed. no copy theme. don not copy my work.

🏷️;; @thehighladywrites @shadowdaddies @throneofsapphics @danikamariewrites @loneliestluvr

[delilahcalicocat]

hi! How are you doing? I hope you're okay <3 if you don't mind i would like to request a fluff reader x the judgement day (could be platonic or not,you can decide! ) where reader loves micheal jackson's music (ive been his fan since 9 yrs and now im in my mj feelings again) and she always listens to it and slowly tjd start to get passionate about the music too!! Sorry if it's not understandable, have a great day!! You're loved ♡

A/N: I'm doing fine, I was just busy yesterday. So of course I can make this <3

You loved Michael Jackson, you'd always be listening to his music.

One time while you had to drive to a show with Damian, Finn, Dom and Rhea. You heard 'Bad' come on the radio

You literally sang your heart out to the song. Your favorites were 'Bad and Smooth Criminal' you were always listening to them on repeat.

So Finn and Damian started catching on.

Of course your boyfriends would catch on first.

Then Rhea caught on. She would often flirt with you by using song lines.

So Damian and Rhea decided to save up their usual travel snack money to buy you the Vinyl of Michael Jackson you were always talking about.

They all started to get passionate about your music. So that's why they did it.

You were excited because it was a week before your birthday.

So on the night of RAW, you were called backstage by The Judgement Day.

They handed you a bag that was purple with a bow on it.

You opened it and saw your favorite Michael Jackson album as a CD and A record

You ended that night in tears.. of joy..

[fromthepinnacle2thepit]

𝒩𝑜𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒲𝓇𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝒲𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉 Papa Emeritus IV x reader

so i’ve had this idea for a while and finally was able to put it into words!

summary: our beloved papa has had a crush on his assistant for quite some time, except there was one issue, he didn’t know it yet. one day, you decide to go to one of his concerts with him. as he’s performing Mary On A Cross, he realizes he’d rather sing this song only to you. that he loves you.

enjoy!

⊱ ────── {⋅.𖤐 𐕣♱ ✯ ♱𐕣 𖤐.⋅} ────── ⊰

“No no, please, cara. You don’t need to do that.” he said, nervously brushing off what you’d just said.

“Papa- Copia, I insist. I’ve already bought the ticket, please, let me come support you. I want to see you, you’ll be amazing, pleasee?” you asked him, looking up at him with hopeful eyes as he turned to face you. In his eyes was a very different look. One of determination but also worry, hesitance.

The tour began today. It was starting that very evening. Copia had been very nervous. He wasn’t always this particularly nervous about performing but for some reason, this time was getting to him. You had racked your brain trying to think of reasons why it could be, but to your utter confusion, you could find no reason whatsoever. Maybe someone had made a rude comment and it got to his head? Maybe he was trying something new? Maybe he had bad memories from the venue? You didn’t know. You may not have understood the reason for his anxiety, but you wanted to support him. You cared for him- deeper than you should, you thought. And you wanted to be there for him. Luckily, this first night of the tour was close to the ministry. By working hard, (and a lot of convincing Sister Imperator), you were able to go! You had been able to scrounge up the money for tickets in the pit, right in front of the stage, where you could see Copia perfectly. You mentally sighed happily at the thought of getting to see him, up close, doing his thing, performing for all the people, being amazing. Though you were snapped out of your happy daydreams by Copia apparently repeating your name.

“Y/n?” he asked, waiting for a response.

“Yes sorry what did you say, Papa?” you asked him, embarrassed he had caught you in your daydream, and that he was needing to repeat himself.

“Please y/n, it’s Copia, I’ve known you far too long and know you far too closely to continue with such formalities.” he said with a smile muttering “Papa..” to himself, as if in disbelief you would be so formal.

“Then, Copia, what did you say?” you said, emphasizing the Copia. You gave him a playful smile as you waited momentarily for his response.

“I asked why you bought the ticket, mio caro.” He said, turning to scan over papers that would he waiting for him when he got back from the tour. And telling by the look in his eyes, he wasn’t exactly bursting with excitement. Since his eyes were busy running over the pages, they were too busy to notice the smile that had come onto your face from the name he called you.

You might as well come right out and say it, you were in love with Copia. Ever since his first days as Cardinal, you had loved him. It had only grown with time. Passing comments between you two had grown into long evenings discussing life, the beliefs of the church and Lucifer, and soon, his role as Papa. On occasion, Copia would invite you to his room and you two would play video games together. Other nights, you’d help him write his next sermon. You both learned so much from each other. You would trade books, discuss rituals. To anyone’s eyes, you two were a match made in heaven- wait no- would it be hell? A match made in hell? Oh well. One thing was for sure, to anyone who had eyes it was clear, you loved him deeply. And he loved you. (Even if he doesn’t know that yet-)

“There’s a million reasons. I want to support you, see you doing your thing, all of those kinds of things. I thought it was a wonderful idea.” you said, looking mildly sad. Did he not want you to go? Was he annoyed?

“Oh y/n, you know I’d love for you to be there.” Copia replied, sympathetically resting a hand on your arm. With his words and the feeling of his leather gloves on your skin, all your worried were relieved from your mind. You felt yourself warm up from his touch. He had always had this effect on you. Some days you wondered if it was really Lucifer you were worshipping or just him. You would’ve been happy either way.

“You would?” you asked, not wanting the happy moment to end. Mismatched eyes met yours, a content air falling around you two in the comfort of his office. It was moments like these when you hoped. You hoped that maybe someday, it would be more than light touches on the arm, more than the longing smiles you gave him, more than the desperate longing to be something more.

“Yes, yes, of course! Come now, do you really think I’d reject your presence carissima?” he responded. You suddenly became very aware of his hand still on your arm, even more aware of the small circles he was tracing into your skin with his thumb. Damn it. Why did he have to look at you like that? His smile was causing yours to grow. Like the sun to a budding plant, he lit you up. You had never been looked at like that. It was a smile of utter comfort and interest. Like he would hang on to your every word, like he was ready to give you every ounce of reassurance in the world.

He didn’t know why, but moments like these- moments with you, warmed his heart in a certain way. One he couldn’t put into words. What was this feeling for you? He wanted things to stay like this, for a long long time. He wanted his hand to stay there. What if he hugged you? No- he couldn’t- not now. You would think him weird.

“Well, it’s certainly nice to be appreciated.” you said softly, not able to look away. Ever drawn in by the mismatched eyes, you loved them. You loved him. In times like this, it felt like the entire world was left behind, it was all so far away. You didn’t care about your anxieties about tonight, you didn’t care about tomorrow’s work, or the day after that’s, or absolutely anything else, until the end of time. You were so entirely wrapped up in who he was, it was hard to see the rest of the world for all the pieces of him were everywhere you looked. He was there in the dark of night, a flickering candle, he was there when you would take your walks at night throughout the ministry. He was always there- in your mind, and your heart. Surely, you thought, this can’t just be only my feeling. He has to feel something, or know I feel something. It was ironic to you, sometimes. To the rest of the world, the person you held dearest would be considered entirely blasphemous, terrifying, doomed to spend a eternity in hell. To you, he was your greatest joy, your safe place, the person whom you loved with your entire mind, soul, body, and heart. You adored him with every ounce of life you had in you. You loved him with every ounce of life you had in you. And if the day came where that life was taken from you both, you would even follow him to hell. To you, true hell was an eternity without him. Not whatever is in the bible, or other ancient scriptures.

“You,” he paused, turning his head to look at his desk, but this time his eyes weren’t scanning over documents or papers or work of any kind. They looked like they were thinking of all the words in existence, trying only to find the right ones for this moment. “You are more than appreciated.”

What did that mean?

He was desperately searching his head for any explanation as to how he felt, what was this burning in his chest, this eternal longing?

Going ahead and speaking your thoughts you shot a question at him. “What do you mean?”

He only looked at you. The room was horribly silent, if only his voice would fill it with noise.

All at once, the door burst open and Sister Imperator practically flew in. Copia removed his hand quickly from your arm, and you two stepped apart as she scanned the room fiercely.

“Ah, there you two are! Wonderful, how do you both feel?” she asked, obviously nervously anticipating your responses.

“Good!” you said, a little anxious under her seemingly ever-watchful gaze.

“Oh, yes, yes good. We are good. Thank you, Sister. Uh, how are- how are you?” he asked, his awkward demeanor emerging dramatically. You couldn’t help but smile internally at this, you thought it was so cute. You also noticed he was much more calm when it was only you two. Did he really trust you that much?

“Perfect, well you both are to leave in an hour. And y/n, I expect you can get ready in that time?” she asked you.

You were surprised at the lack of warning before hand but since she was messing with her hands nervously, you suspected she had her own worries about tonight and decided it best not to argue. “Yes, Sister, sounds good.” you said in reply.

“Terrific, thank you child. Now, uh,” she stepped towards him, as if wanting to say something, possibly give him a hug? You didn’t know. But she stepped away before anything could happen. “Do well.” she said before hurrying out the door, muttering to herself about other duties and jobs she had to attend to, all while being wrapped up in this evening.

You turned back to your dear Papa, “So, we have an hour!”

“That we do.” he nodded, seemingly in thought.

“I’d better go get ready then! I’ll see you soon Pa- sorry, Copia.” you excitedly said with a smile, you turned quickly and left the room, just in time to hear a goodbye from Copia.

He watched as you left, and he was excited too! He wondered what you would wear, how you would look, what you would think. What song would be your favorite? Would it be appropriate to Cirice you? Just like you, many questions ran through his mind. Dancing around like falling leaves, swirling and mixing in a beautiful array of wonder.

You hurried through the halls, excitement burning deep within you along with the need for more air. Damn- habits can be hard to run in. You passed other hallways, leading further and further into the ministry. You passed elaborate paintings depicting Lucifer, worship of Him, Eve, Lilith, and more. Statues of these figures laid about the halls as well. With the ceilings high above you, rushed past many Siblings of Sin. Until finally, you reached your room. Practically throwing the door open, you stepped in. The outfit you had picked out for this evening lay all ready on your bed. You tossed off your habit, tearing off every garment of clothing you wore over your undergarments. Soon, your carefully planned outfit was no longer laying on the bed, but now your body. And you looked…good.

It fit your body just how you had wanted it to, it accentuated every little bit of your beauty. You were certainly not disappointed.

You only wondered what your beloved Copia would think..?

You hoped he would like it.

You were bursting in excitement as you finished with all the little details of your current look. Any makeup or accessories that had needed to have been added were added and you felt you were ready. You only worried lightly about tonight. You were worried about how your love for Copia would grow. There was no way you’d be able to see him up there, with those beautiful outfits adding to his powerful look, singing so wonderfully, without falling even more in love with him. Unholy fuck, you could practically picture it already. And your stomach was filled with a nervous excitement. Or very very aggressive butterflies. Rabid birds maybe. You didn’t know. You only knew you couldn’t wait. And that you hoped that maybe, just maybe, Copia might appreciate your outfit too.

You grabbed what other things you may need from wherever they were, took one last glimpse at yourself in the mirror, and headed over to your door. Just as you were about to open it, you heart two short noises.

Knock, knock.

Who on earth would be at your door now? You desperately hoped that the universe wasn’t trying to keep you from going to this concert; cause by Satan, if you needed to go up against the universe to get to this concert, then the universe better be ready.

“Child? Sister Y/n, are you ready?” called a shrill voice.

Oh.

That’s who.

You opened the door to see an even more frazzled looking Sister Imperator. You silently thanked the universe for not getting in the way of your going to the concert.

“Ah, ok. Good. Now, follow me.” she said, nodding a few times before sharply turning on her heel and walking swiftly down the hallway.

You had no choice but to follow her.

You followed her through a couple hallways, expecting Copia to be joining you any moment. When he didn’t, you hurried and caught up to Sister Imperator.

“Sister? Where are we going?” you asked her.

“The car that will transport you to the venue of course, what else?” she asked you. She had stopped now and turned to look at you, a confused look on her face as if there was no other place in the world you could possibly be.

You took a second to process that. You thought you would’ve been meeting Copia.

“So, where is Papa?” you asked

Sister turned and continued walking, her sudden movement caused you to pause then hurry after her.

Damn this woman is fast.

As you followed her, her response rung out through the halls.

“He has already left for the venue. We decided to send him early. Sound checks and all, you must know.”

You couldn’t lie to yourself, you were a bit disappointed that you weren’t able to see him before he performed. But that was ok. There wasn’t anything you could really do about it now, was there?

Soon enough, you and Sister Imperator reached the entrance of the Church. You walked out the doors and into the bright air. It was not yet sunset, but it would be soon in a few hours. A black car awaited your exit out of the church. And in the drivers seat…was a Ghoul!

“Alright. Now then, you have everything?” asked Sister Imperator.

“Yes, thank you very much. I really appreciate this.” you smiled at her, thankful she had helped you achieve getting this opportunity.

“Of course. Well, you’d better be off now, shouldn’t you?” she nodded in return to your smile and you could’ve sworn you saw a small one playing at the edges of her mouth.

“Yes, I should. Have a good evening, Sister.” you replied and opened the door to the backseat of the car, where you assumed it was appropriate to sit since the Ghoul was driving, and it seemed more formal.

The car started and you watched it pull away from your dear Satanic Church. The dark walls which held secrets, had also come to hold your home, your heart. It had come to hold a place of love and beauty. You were allowed to be human there. Good, bad, and all.

You had also been allowed to love.

And oh, how that love burned in excitement as the church grew further and further away.

You swore you could still see Sister Imperator standing by the entrance.

You hummed quietly to the music playing over the radio as you watched the landscape pass by. You thought about the fact that Copia had seen this on his drive too. Oh how you loved him. You wondered what he had thought of the passing trees, the buildings, everything. You wondered if he thought about you. Of course, he had. But you had no way of knowing that yet. All you knew was that he made the world so much more beautiful. You had never understood how beautiful one person could make the world until you met him.

You couldn’t possibly know this, but at that moment, Copia was getting out of his car, thinking about you. Thinking about the fact you’d see all his singing and dancing and performing. It was one thing to come back from a tour and simply tell you about it, it was another to actually have you there. He couldn’t ignore the anticipation that rose in his stomach more and more.

After a few more passing minutes, you found yourself in a slowly stopping car.

You were here.

You could barely contain yourself.

You were surprised when the ghoul came around and opened your door for you. You stepped out, giving the ghoul a warm smile.

“Thank you very much,” you said to him. He nodded, in what seemed like a grateful way and held out his hand. You looked at it, for just a moment. You then put yours in the ghoul’s and the ghoul shook it. It was a small gesture, a polite one. But you felt it meant more than that.

You had always been kind to the ghouls, a sort of friendship had formed between you and them. You were always very polite and treated them as individual equals. Not simply the protectors of Papa or simply things that performed by his side, not as something below others in the ministry or the siblings, but as those who did very hard work, and deserved the right to be treated with compassion. Through your kindness, they had given you respect in return.

Once your hands were separated, and you had made your goodbyes, you walked towards the venue. Unsurprisingly, you were the first one there, other than the workers.

A few of them made small-talk with you, and for a bit you waited around doing typical waiting things. After a bit, other people started to show up. You admired all their outfits, the merch if they had any.

It was the best wait you had ever experienced. And you knew every second would be worth it.

All of this was wonderful and all, until an opening of a gate caught the attention of many. It was a ghoul and a worker of the venue. The ghoul stayed behind the gate as not to get trampled, though getting flooded audibly by the cheers of the thrilled fans. But the worker stepped out through the gates, and headed towards you.

“Are you y/n?” he asked you, seemingly in a rush.

“Yes. Why?” you replied, very confused as to what was going on.

“Alright, please come with me. You’re needed backstage.” he said, and turned. But not before motioning for you to follow him.

You showed the other workers your ticket as you entered, they looked confused too, but they let you pass.

Once you were through the gates, you were led into a building. As you walked through it you saw many other workers, along with a ghoul here and there.

“Where are we going?” you asked the worker who was leading you.

“A dressing room, you will see. He told me you were needed, insisted, actually.” the worker replied to you, not slowing their pace at all.

After a minute, you got to a long row of doors, the ghoul that had accompanied you waved to you, opened one of the doors, then disappeared inside. Eventually you came to a door near the end of the hallway.

“Right in there! Thank you for coming, I’m sure this all seems very strange.” the worker said.

“It’s ok, thank you for coming to get me and bringing me here.” you replied.

The worker gave you a smile and a nod, then turned and walked down the hallway, off to throw themself into some other pre-show chaos.

After watching him leave, you turned back to the door. You took a breath in, and opened it.

Inside were multiple mirrors, a couch, mini fridge, and very, very, bright lights. In the center of it all, was Copia. Beloved, amazing, Copia. You quickly stepped inside and shut the door behind you, that seemed to startle the man out of his thoughts and turn back towards you. You watched as his gaze fixed on you. You couldn’t miss how his eyes widened. Was it wonder, amazement? Unbeknownst to you, yes. Yes it was. It was pure wonder and amazement. And later as Copia would find out, love.

“Ah, cara mia. There you are.” his tone was calm, but his eyes were still wide, he moved towards you, quite quickly.

“Is everything ok?” you asked. You couldn’t hide how your eyes had widened too, he looked incredible.

“Yes, yes, all very good. I was just eh, worrying, and uh, wanted to see how you were doing.” he said, looking at you with such happiness.

“I’m doing quite well, thank you! You look amazing, you’re going to be amazing.” he smiled as you said this

“I can already hear the cheering fans!” you joked and you both chuckled.

“Ah, well, thank you. I appreciate that.” he said. “I should uh,” he motioned to his makeup, which he was just finishing putting on.

“Oh! Mhm, do you need help?” you asked him.

“Sure, uh, ok, so..” As you both worked, his makeup was finished, leaving you two to laugh and talk, and have precious time together. Though, eventually, it was almost time where you would need to leave and take your place in the crowd.

“There was…another thing, I wanted to uh, talk with you about. Before we you know, go on.” he said

“Hm? What is it?” you asked

“Just, nerves, you know?” He asked. And yes, you did know.

“Hey, you’ll be amazing. You always are. There’s not a day that passes where I don’t think that. You’ve done this many times, and everyone always loves it. You’ve got this! You’re gonna take their breath away, Copia.”

And you were right. He would take their breath away. Sadly after you said that, a worker notified you that they would start letting people in the gates in about five minutes. And you had to take your leave.

Within minutes you were in your place in the pit. Right in front of the stage, in the center, right up front.

Soon, everyone else were in their places too.

Next, the opening band started.

After that, the opening band finished.

And then, it was time.

You swear, when you first saw him come out on stage, time was frozen. He looked more amazing than you’d ever seen him. He radiated confidence. Cheers roared louder than you’d ever heard. He was a fire, he was the sun. He was illuminating everything, it felt like.

And of course, he saw you.

Many times, he looked your way, danced and sang in front of you. You loved all of his costumes, his jokes, all of it.

Then the time came for Cirice to play.

Wanna guess what he did?

Ciriced you.

The night went on in a beautiful blur of love and ritual.

Soon, Mary On A Cross began to play.

By the time the first chorus came, you felt you could melt. He was looking at you. He was smiling at you.

In his mind, he was thinking about you. He thought how you’d spent the night dancing and singing, he thought about the way you two were together, how you were to him. And eventually, came in to that burning happiness in his chest.

Soon, the slower part of the song came.

“You go down just like Holy Mary, Mary on a, Mary on a Cross, not just another bloody Mary, Mary on a, Mary on a..”

And with the next few lines, he would realize that maybe it wasn’t only Lucifer he worshipped, but you as well. He loved you. He loved you. Satan in hell, he loved you. He was in love.

You were what had been keeping him going, you were so so beautiful in every way. You brought him to life, you were what he sang every song to. You were his muse.

“You’re beauty never ever scared me,”

With that, he made eye contact with you. There were so many people around the two of you but for those moments, it felt like only the two of you. You two were meant to be. He was yours, you were his.

Your beauty had never scared him.

It had been you, all along.

He loved you.

He loved you, he worshipped you, you were the flame burning deep within him.

As the song came to an end, he kneeled down at the edge of the stage, right before you. Your hand joined his, as he held his out to you. He kneeled down close, close enough so only you could hear.

“I love you,” he whispered to you.

⊱ ────── {⋅.𖤐 𐕣♱ ✯ ♱𐕣 𖤐.⋅} ────── ⊰

a/n : i hope you all like this! i might do a different ending to this. but anyways, i hope you like this. remember to take care of yourselves!!

[melit0n]

I read ur tags about the new ST masks and honestly, I agree, it's very different (very Slipknot and gore-ish) and right now, the discography and overall vibe doesn't match(like a handful of songs have a true metal quality to it) and unless they're gonna start releasing new stuff the vibes kind of...clash? And so far Vessel is the same, so I'm wondering if the others just wanted to stand out more and were given creative freedom or if everything is going to shift at some point :/ I also think its a bit been there done that (but the simpler black and gold mask I like) the others remind me of the Joker or a Shrunken Head

Thank you for the ask anon! To be honest, I saw 'I read it tags about the new ST mask...' and I panicked thinking I was about to get left-right-goodnighted in an ask, but I'm glad it wasn't so, lol.

Further, I'm glad someone agrees with me. I said what I said in my tags on twt and within the hour I had 20+ people in my replies quote tweeting me saying how I 'wasn't a proper fan for not liking the change', how I 'should leave and stop listening if I was going to be negative', and (my personal favourite because it was so absurd) 'you're so one of the people that found them through TikTok. Good to have a cleanse of the fandom if you were only here because you have a mask kink'.

Even had someone tell me to off myself! Which was, y'know, lovely. I don't have any screenshots because I was just sat there trying to figure out how to reply to them, then saw the one that told me to off myself and just had a little overwhelmed cry and deleted the tweet, in which I then got tagged in a now deleted tweet calling me a pussy. You are so loved my ass.

I deleted it because it made me feel really shit about myself (for obvious reasons), but it made me feel more shit when I woke up the next day seeing people say the same things I did (like hoping it was only a Wembly thing, but considering the amount of detail and effort that's been put into those outfits and masks, I think not), and getting nothing but acceptance and neutrality in the replies. I'm not particularly popular on twt since people are fond of copy and pasting my post about Euclid, not giving credits, blocking me when I ask them to, and when their mutuals see that I'm blocked by them they just have at me for no reason, but I think it says a lot about a fandom if they can go from getting everyone to hold up a three for iii at the concerts out of pure adoration to telling someone to off themselves because they don't like the new designs. (sorry for the rant about twt anon)

I'll repeat what I said in my tags; they feel very out of place to me. Again, maybe it's just the fact I'm used to the balaclavas since I've been around here for a while, so all I've really known is Vessel's custom mask and the collective of balaclavas, but they just don't match. They stick out more than Vessel does, both design and colour pallet wise. Vessel is in full black with white accents and a white, red and gold mask, the Esperas are in full black with white accents and a red mask. And then the guys are there, y'know? Don't get me wrong, the amount of detail and effort that's been put into the designs are amazing, and they definitely have to have given each member creative freedom because each mask and design matches the lad's vibe immaculately (especially iii's), but it doesn't match Sleep Token's vibe as a collective. I like IV's design best because his matches his stage presence and ST's vibe (as you said, the simpler gold and black mask), as well as ii's (minus the hair).

I think maybe the hair on ii's and iii's masks in general are throwing me off lol.

Furthermore, Sleep Token's only full on trad metal songs are Gods from Sundowning and Vore from TMBTE, so I got really surprised when I was basically looking at Slipknot masks curated for Sleep Token. ST are known to genre bend constantly, so maybe we will get new stuff. But, considering they've had the same vibe in their music since 2016, I'd be a bit surprised if their new single/new album was just all trad metal, or at least has a lot of aspects of it, but who knows! Maybe change for them is inevitable.

I think it's well known on this blog that the passing of time and change in literally anything is my mortal enemy so seeing this kind of randomly happen gave me whiplash. I don't think I can love the new designs as much as I loved the old balaclavas, but that doesn't mean I don't like Sleep Token anymore, y'know? All I can really do is apologise for having a non super positive opinion and hope people don't hound me on here for it (which, so far, they haven't, and I appreciate you very much for being really chill about this anon). Give me a week and I'll probably be on the boat of liking them and making analysis posts on all the little details, lol

[smileymoth]

@pikslasrce tagged me to post my top albums from this year :))

senses fail - still searching // armor for sleep - what to do when you are dead // senses fail -let it enfold you hollywood undead - hotel kalifornia // boysnightout - make yourself sick // wilbur soot - your city gave me asthma alesana - the emptiness // bedwetters - meet the f@cking bedwetters // bring me the horizon - sempiternal

do not ask me how many times i've listened to these 9 albums idon't even know myself. it's way too much though. i couldn't put all 4 boysnightout albums here so i just stayed at 1 and put it in the very middle because they altered my brain chemistry <33

senses fail gets 2 albums because i didnt spend weeks only listening to those 2 albums for no reason... their lyrics mean sm to me i want to illustrate the albums or songs one day. this goes for both senses fail and boysnightout btw. AND armor for sleep. there's something about that specific album. i realised i really enjoy albums that tell a story. and the fact that i like themes of angst love blood betrayal etc etc is no surprise either. car underwater got played way too many times

i discovered bedwetters thanks to eurovision, they were one of the options for estonia and i ofc found their old and only album (they released a new one a few weeks ago tho) (i dont know why they have 2 spotify accounts. im not asking). i even got to see them live bc they gave a free concert during summer <33333333 i got a picture with the band too !!!!! so cool

the new hollywood undead album got me back into them so im back to being obsessed. i love my silly california guys :3 i've been keeping up with them since and i desperately need to draw them again, this time without their masks!!!! im very glad that i found alesana to be sooo palatable this year because ive tried to listen to them before when i was a teenager and it just... didn't click, even if i tired. so yeah i get to fix that mistake now.

in spring i had a moment where i listened to sempiternal on repeat on the cd player for multiple days straight and in the past month i've, again, been listening to bmth and specifically sempiternal again so it gets a special place, too.

wilbur is just there because i had jubilee line stuck in my head so so so so much and also it's the best study music ever. also wilbur why is i'm sorry boris so silent. i can barely hear it it makes me angry so i always skip it. and then bc its the end of the album it gives me some lmanburg flag cover-art song that i don't like

anyway here's a special mention to these 3 albums because 1) greeley estates - caveat emptor, i just discovered it this week and i am in love. also greeley estates has been in my radar for quite some time now and i find the singers voice to be very pleasant and interesting? the tone does sth for me 2) brand new - deja entendu, for being stuck in my head for a good week because the tommy gun song wouldn't leave my head since it came on shuffle from my saved mp3 list when net was down 3) just surrender - if these streets could talk, because again i was obsessing over this for like a good week before i forgot about it. good album. not available in serbia tho for some reason

can you tell i love talking about music that i like. i know nothing about music it just makes me happy. :)

anyway i am tagging uhhhh @varteeny1234 and @complicatedsurgery and uhhh @cactusringed and uhhhh anyone else who wants + i'm not gona tag you, sly, because you only listen to alex g anyway <3

[ivpapaemeritusiv]

Chapter 3: Summoned For a Divine Cause

Summary: Although Sister feels great about the decision she has made, the decision is not welcomed in the same way by everyone. Other members of the Clergy feel it is too dangerous to keep one frontman for too long while Papa Emeritus struggles to connect with anyone on the road. Meet the ghouls in this chapter and find out how they help their leader out.

Word Count: 1,422

Sister felt very good about her decision. She spoke to the rest of The Clergy, and everything was finalized. Mr. Psaltarian, the eldest member of The Clergy and the one responsible for scheduling the band’s shows, didn't like it. He did not dislike Papa Emeritus IV, but the elder Clergymen were afraid to keep one person as the frontman for too long. They felt people would begin to worship the man and forget about the purpose of the band. He also felt Papa was dense, uninformed and clueless. However, they could not deny his success. When the band succeeded, they too succeeded. Papa Emeritus IV had won over the hearts of millions all of which dreaded to see him suffer the same fate as his predecessors.

Sister always believed that Psaltarian was plotting to replace Copia from the minute she announced that he would now take the lead. These were the people in which she had to protect her darling boy from. She herself knew how easy it was to get rid of somebody. After all, she did the same thing, convincing Papa Nihil to kill his own sons in order to appoint the Cardinal as the new frontman. This is why securing the blood line was so important. With a new bloodline and Sister at the head, her place along with Copia’s would be sealed forever.

*

Papa Emeritus couldn't believe he was being forced to choose a significant other. A wife? he kept repeating in his head. He never thought about settling down at any point in his life, much less having children. The ghouls, of course, enjoyed teasing him about it.

“Who is going to be the lucky lady to land you, huh?” Rain laughed, sarcastically.

“I’m already sick of you and we just started touring,” Swiss, another ghoul, added.

“If I had to wake up to your face every day, I’d permanently blind myself,” Aether cackled.

Ghost just began their U.S.A Re-Imperatour—27 shows in two months. It was going to be hard work. It was going to be stressful. The nameless ghouls Aether, Fire, Rain, Mountain, Swiss, Cirrus and Cumulus of course adored Papa Emeritus. They appreciated the situation that he was in but couldn’t help making jokes at his expense for their own entertainment. One had to find ways to amuse themselves on the road.

“Ha ha, that’s funny. That is very funny,” Papa said unamused, “You know what it isn’t? Helpful. It isn’t helpful.”

Everyone laughed, “We’re sorry, Papa. It’s all in good fun.”

“Yes, Papa, we’ll help you find a woman. God knows you need all the help you can get,” they weren’t quite done poking fun at their leader.

“Alright, alright, well HELP! Quit giving me shit.”

Papa truly adored his ghouls and ghoulettes. They were carefully chosen by him and the clergy, considering both their exceptional talent and personal connections. It was a special bond that made their performances even more extraordinary.

Cirrus, standing at a towering 6'2", earned the nickname "Cloud" from her fans due to her sky-high altitude. As the lead keyboardist, she wowed the audience with her mesmerizing keytar solo in Papa's song, "Mummy Dust." Known for her affectionate nature, Cirrus would often distribute roses to the crowd, adding a touch of romance to the electrifying performances.

Sodo was definitely one of the liveliest ghouls in the group. He had a knack for engaging with the crowd and always left a lasting impression. His on-stage antics pushed boundaries, with x-rated gestures like caressing and playfully choking or licking the other ghouls. His guitar skills were second to nobody. Sodo would shred on his guitar with such fiery passion that it seemed like the instrument could barely handle the intensity.

Aether was another guitarist like Sodo, although much bigger. Sodo was very tall and thin while Aether was of average height and more muscular. When they performed, their chemistry was off the charts. They would entice the audience with their seductive interactions and gestures towards each other. It was so intense that if one didn't know any better, they might think they were more than just bandmates.

Rain, the water ghoul played the bass guitar. Despite being one of the shorter ghouls, he still stood taller than Sodo when they played side by side. Rain had a quiet and shy demeanor that added a mysterious charm to his presence.

Cumulus, the curvy ghoulette, like Cirrus, also played the keyboard but she was known for her powerful voice. Her melodic sounds were simply breathtaking. Fans couldn't get enough of her mesmerizing performances. Standing on her own platform, Cumulus belted out tunes that touched the hearts of everyone lucky enough to hear her.

Mountain, the band's drummer, had a unique presence on stage. Unfortunately, due to being hidden behind his massive drum set, he didn't receive as much recognition from fans as the other band members. Being more of an introvert, he didn't interact much with the rest of the group during performances. He refused to wear shoes on stage, which added to his individuality. Despite his quiet nature, his drumming skills spoke volumes and contributed to the band's incredible sound.

Then there was Swiss, the multi-ghoul. He was a true jack-of-all-trades! He could do everything from strumming the acoustic guitar to striking the tambourine. He stood out as one of the most outgoing and daring members of the group. During their shows, he would bust out some epic shimmies, adding an extra dose of excitement to the performances. Plus, he had an absolutely beautiful voice and provided backing vocals for every song.

While Swiss could be quite seductive on stage like Sodo, he had a heart of gold and was incredibly sweet. He had a unique fashion sense and rocked high-waisted pants, setting him apart from the rest of the ghouls. Fans affectionately called him "the smiling ghoul" because he always flashed a big, white smile underneath his mask. Swiss truly was a one-of-a-kind character in the band—one of Papa’s favorites.

Their first stop was Concord California at the Concord Pavilion. Every tour began the same, of course, with Papa running out onto the stage to sing three songs before introducing himself. He scanned the audience closely looking for anybody that stood out to him. The faces all seemed to mesh. To him, there was nobody distinguishable.

After every tour came the meet and greet. He would meet countless fans, share a laugh or two and snap a picture with them. They were all wonderful people. He loved his fans, and he loved connecting with them but there was no one he could connect with on an intimate level outside of the music.

He called Sister Imperator about the matter one night, feeling desperate about the situation.

The phone rang a few times before a warm voice greeted him, “How is my little Cardi?”

“Oh, well how kind of you to ask,” he spoke in his strange accent. The question to him was a rhetorical one, “Actually, Sister things are not going well.”

“Really?” she was surprised to hear this, “I’ve been keeping up with social media and reading the headlines and it seems the tour is a great success. Not to mention the proceeds you’re bringing in. The Clergy is very pleased.”

“Yes, I know that” Copia acknowledged the band’s achievements.

There was a small pause before Sister realized, “Oh. You mean—?”

The silence on the other end of the phone confirmed her suspicions.

“Yes, I can’t find anyone I like out here on the road.”

“Oh Cardi, nonsense, ‘you’ can’t find a lady? Why, any woman on this planet would be utterly fortunate to have you. You’re a rock star for God sakes and you’re rich. You’re charismatic and you’re beautiful and kind. Unlike your fool of a father,” she stopped herself.

“My what?”

“Nothing,” she quickly changed the subject.

Sister instilled confidence in the Cardinal with her words. She was always able to make her son feel better.

“Yes. You are right about that. I am all of those things—I suppose I’m just having trouble picking one of these ‘utterly fortunate’ ladies.”

“Just be yourself, C. You will find someone.”

The popestar grumbled a bit before bidding Sister goodbye. He felt relieved to have been off the phone. The whole thing to him was very embarrassing and he couldn’t wait for it to be over. He usually enjoyed his tours very much but this time the added pressure made him enjoy it a little less.

[urapocolypticcrush]

hii rose 👋

thank you for the answers to the last questions!! they were so fun and interesting! (your eyes are such a beautiful colour by the way, like the sea on a clear day🌊)

you have a cat?? OMG I WISH I HAD A CAT but im not allowed one 😭 what is your cat's name?? how long have u had him?

i realized i hadnt asked u about taylor swift yet!!! (i cant believe that wasnt the first question i asked haha)

how long have you been a swiftie and when did you become a swiftie? any fun facts u wanna share about being a swiftie? (kinda random but hey still relevant)

what song/album made you a fan? what are your top 3 albums? what are your favourite songs of hers?

have u been to any of her concerts before the eras tour?did u go or are you going to the eras tour? (i didnt get to go, taylor isnt coming to my country 😭)

from anon 💌

hi anon !!! 💌

thank you omg youre so sweet!!

my cat is three years old and i’ve had him since he was around 6 months old!! his name is tiger!! (i really hope you can get a cat one day they’re such lil cuties)

omg taylor!!!! my beloved aaaah!!!!

i’ve been a swiftie since 2020!! (don’t laugh but i liked her since 2016 but i wasn’t actually sure who she was lmaoooo) i became a proper swiftie because of folklore, but before that i had reputation and 1989 on REPEAT. umm let me think about fun facts!! aah i really dont know what counts but ive stayed up for nearly every album release ive been a fan for! and i constantly have the eras tour on repeat so i can literally act out every song on the tour and whenever one of the songs plays i do all the dances and moves lmaooo

i always say folklore made me a fan!!! (specifically cardigan!) DONT DO THIS TO ME ANON TOP THREE ALBUMS IS SOOO HARD AAAH

ok im gonna do it for you but this causes me physical pain. (these are NOT ranked) ok so top 3: folklore, the tortured poets department and midnights (but evermore and lover and rep are SOSO close to being here)

again favourite songs are IMPOSSIBLE. but some of my die hard loves are: getaway car, tis the damn season, the last great american dynasty, the archer, its nice to have a friend, ivy, white horse, we were happy, mastermind, sweet nothing, invisible string and basically all the tortured poets songs!!!

ive not been to any of her concerts before sadly (i wouldve loved to go to rep!!) but im very lucky and im going to the eras tour in august!!! i cant wait omg!! (im SO sorry shes not coming to your country im praying one day youll get to see her live!!!!)

anyway im sorry this ones so long anon but thanks so much for the asks ily lots you’re such a lil sweetheart!!!!!

thanks anon <33

[belladonna-and-the-sweetpeas]

I was tagged by @waitmyturtles (thank you <3) to do the spotify random list. I don't use Spotify - so I shall put my current personal playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play. I have music on here from yesterday and from 15 years ago, so this is going to be fun! :D

BigBang - Fantastic Baby

I heard this song my first year in China. I had never heard K-Pop before hahaha. I've had a soft spot for this song since then, as it was the first non-chinese song I'd heard in public in nearly a year.

2. Paloma Faith - Upside Down

I went to an open-mic night at a bar in China between two of the covid lockdowns in 2021 and an acquaintance of mine sang this song. I love the genre and the lyrics.

3. Proxie - Silent Mode

Look, the music from My School President hooked me, I watched the concert, and then found so many amazing Thai artists from there. Proxie is one of them.

4. Demon Hunter - Carry Me Down

This song has been in my playlists for so long, I don't remember when or how I found it lol

5. Gemini and Fourth - You're Blushing

I like both of their voices and this song is light and summery. But let's be honest - I have every MSP OST and adjacent song in this playlist.

6. Elvis Presley x JXL - A Little Less Conversation

Throwback to high school. From an AMV playlist curated by my group of friends who turned out to all be queer - not surprising from a group of art and D&D nerds!

7. Ava Max - Kings and Queens

I tend to search for FMV's for all my obsessions (old habit from highschool days) and this song was used for a multi fandom edit. It went straight into my girl power song category :p

8. Pet Shop Boys - It's a Sin

For some reason, considering how into classic rock and older music my whole family is, this song didn't cross my radar until it was on a Bad Buddy playlist here on Tumblr. How could I not love it?

9. IVE - Love Dive

Another multi fandom song edit. That edit used a male cover of this song, but as I have no idea who the artist is (sorry!) I'm linking the original IVE version here.

10. 5 Seconds of Summer - Teeth

The art teacher at the kindergarten I taught at loved this song. Every time we had to stay late to do prep work, we'd blast it at full volume. I think it has also been used as a fan edit favourite for almost every single romantic pairing ever.

It's missing some of my top favourite artists and songs, as well as some that are currently on repeat, but not a bad random selection of my musical taste. It's been fun! I've been taking notes of songs to check out from everyone else's lists, so tag me in if you do do this. If you've been tagged before, ignore this, and if you want to do it and haven't been tagged, take this as your invitation! @sorry-bonebag, @petrichoraline, @chalkrevelations, @toastedpoptartsarelife, @user-patpran

[morpheusdreamt]

Ty @camillekaze for tagging me on this! It was fun to do and I always love sharing music with people 🥰

Rules: Shuffle your on repeat playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then tag 10 people!

1. Cherry Waves - Deftones

Ive been on a huge deftones kick lately and yall already know i’m a sucker for the ocean/waves pulling you under as a motif for obsession

2. Sugar - Remi Wolf

A song that i’ve got a huge soft spot for, literally unskippable, listened to it a lot when i was going through it at the beginning of last year (and am happy to say things have gotten better/easier since 💖)

3. Harvey - Her’s

A sweet jam and i dedicate to the bestest sdv bachelor ever (in my extremely biased opinion)

4. First Time- Hozier

Im so obsessed with this man, yall have no idea (or maybe you do lmao) This one was an instant hit for me “How before I heard it from your mouth, my name would always hit my ears as such an awful sound” literally FELT. Also bought a shirt that i later found out had lyrics to this song on it and that really got me 😭

5. Softly - Arlo Parks

A bittersweet break up song that is such an earworm, always gets stuck in my head when im getting up in the mornings

6. King For A Day - Pierce The Veil

An emo classic! Perfect for when you feel like screaming at the world 😌 been going to emo nite a lot lately and it’s always one you’re bound to hear at some point if you go

7. Decode - Paramore

team edward 4ever sorry not sorry (this song also just like, seriously fucks, its so moody. Another emo classic!)

8. ヘリクツBOY - Jun Togawa

This one is just fun! Another that gets stuck in my head a lot

9. Sea, Swallow Me - Cocteau Twins

Literally all about the vibes, one of my favs by them and what got me into cocteau twins

10. Jesus Don’t Like That I’m Gay but Satans Cool With It - Lil Boodang

Obsessed with this song, OBSESSED. Found it on soundcloud and its got everything: catchy hook, whiny vocals, hall & oates are there.

i’ll tag @jake-marshall @dweebpheles @yagottabelieve and @supernovajazzy (tho no pressure either) as well as whoever feels like doin it! ✨

[a-moth-to-the-light]

Most-Listened of October 2023

(via stats.fm/spotistats)

[last month]

What a sleepy month... as in, I've been sleepy and haven't had much interest in new releases. (Except IVE. I have been listening to wayyyyyy too much IVE.) Hopefully I'll have some energy back in time for the RV album, and to really enjoy the Weeekly comeback (finally!!!) that just happened!

1. Lux Aurumque -- Eric Whitacre, Eric Whitacre Singers

Eric Whitacre (and a song from the same album as the last one, too??) on the top of the list two months in a row! Deserved. This is basically the same song as "Sleep" for me, but they both have just so much emotional value so I don't really mind!!

2. Invisible String -- Taylor Swift

This ended up being a theme song for my big creative writing project this month--I really don't think I've gone a day without listening to it, and I'm still not tired of that soft guitar. It’s so perfectly cozy :)

3. Either Way -- IVE

Another theme song for the writing project--I love how this song proves that sounding ‘gray’ doesn't have to be unappealing. If you liked this, you’ll probably like Dvwn’s “Yeonnam-dong”!

4. Siren -- Taeyeon

I hate that this song perfectly captured my mood for more than half of October, but thank the gods I had a song that described that mood perfectly!! If I’m stuck feeling stressed and glum (a REALLY weird combo), at least I have Taeyeon to keep me company :)

5. Chili -- Hwasa

This was GREAT. I mean it’s me, so I'll listen to Hwasa sing anything, but this instrumental really hits, especially compared to the abomination of an instrumental that was "I Love My Body". With the killer combination of Hwasa & the beat, “Chili” was an instant 'leave on repeat until I can no longer physically stand it' classic.

6. Here We Go Again -- Jini

I talked about this album, right? It carried my month!! It's not my favorite of the year--there are definitely some really messy parts (that I think will get worked out in Jini’s discography over time)--but the commitment to making catchy, energetic songs that feel mature but still youthful, and to keeping a consistent aesthetic throughout the album, is something I really appreciate. This is my favorite song from it--Jini does a great job with such a fun chorus! Can I call this my favorite NMIXX song?

7. Bad Reputation -- Jini

MORE JINI !!! The way the piano in the instrumental reminds me of Katy Perry's "Roar" is unfortunate, but "Bad Reputation" is too genuinely sweet for me not to enjoy. I LOVE TOO LITTLE JUST A LITTLE TOO MUCH <3

8. Thursday's Child Has Far To Go -- TXT

Sorry, new TXT album. I'm happy with my comfort song!!

9. Psycho -- Smyang Piano

Writing project soundtrack! This has been on one of my favorite lofi mixes for forever, but I never bothered to seek it out on its own until this month--I'm so glad I did!

10. Teenage Dream -- Olivia Rodrigo

Writing project soundtrack! A solid 3/5 for good atmosphere + some standout lyrics!

11. Quimera -- Alba Reche

One of my favorite songs of all time, here to make the cold-season days a little bit softer, as it always does. At this point, "Quimera" is a seasonal tradition for me.

12. Biriken -- Creepy Nuts

Creepy Nuts!!! Okay, so… I don't enjoy this song, like, at all, but I keep finding myself drawn to just how intensely it makes me feel. I find it so viscerally terrifying and unpleasant that it's much more compelling than a lot of other songs this month! And I think that's what really made me a fan of Creepy Nuts in the first place--I find their music so interesting, even when it isn't pleasant. I can’t look away, and that’s what happened with “Biriken” this month.

13. Mr. Blue Sky -- On The Rocks

This a cappella arrangement is so glorious. Like oh my GOD if I still did arranging, I would be taking notes on every second of this. (I'm still probably taking subconscious notes, anyway, considering how many times I've listened to it this month.)

14. Pink Venom -- Blackpink

I really don't remember listening to this one that much? But I do love it--it's my takeout cheeseburger of songs, and it's always a good fast-food meal.

15. Big It Up -- Ailee

This song is fine! I like it a LOT more than the title track, at least.

Five-Star Songs This Month:

Chili -- Hwasa (yep this is back! favorite release of the month, sorry IVE & Sunmi I STILL LOVE Y'ALL I PROMISE)

Holy Moly -- IVE (had me from the moment that low drum kicked in. even the weird glitch sound in the chorus doesn't faze me anymore!!)

Wonderland -- Aimer (okay this is late. i've loved the walpurgis album since it came out, but i didn't appreciate this song specifically until a walk a few weeks ago--and now it feels like a crime not to give it five stars.)

Dalala -- Yuju (can't believe i missed this when it came out?? this is my "off the record." yuju makes every song feel so high-class, so impeccably put-together, just by being on it.)

[geteaten]

i was tagged by @youngestdaughtersyndrome and @capybar00 to show 5 songs ive currently had on repeat!! thank you holly thank you lys <33333 💕💗❗

im also gonna put some commentary cause why not? i've been on a pop kick aha, haven't been listening to much bc i was on a family trip, but here are some songs i've put on the background bc i enjoy them <3

just love their voices on this and honestly. refreshing to hear from nct, as i didn't thoroughly enjoy any units' recent releases.

the whole mini is sooo good to me i grew up listening to a lot of synthpop and was really into vaporwave, city pop and other similar genres and mag bay j scratches that itch. they take it to another level here!!

"these days i wear my body like an uninvited guest" real... just a nice song to listen to. it's so beachy summery etc. love. i also have been a longtime-ish fan of caroline since her chairlift days, so i do have a soft spot for her vocals.

i just wanna be aju nice-d a million times for once in my life. anyway this song is such a mood booster lmaooo i promise i listen to other seventeen songs too

cuntiest nct 127 song. when taeil comes on i go crazy every time... the instrumental for this is so good???

sorry for the long post i went all in 🫶

tagging @qazastra @concordewillfly @computerexploder @fhwa @killerwhalez and whoever else who wants to do it <3 take care babes!!!

[ittybittybumblebee]

Something about you reminds me of dr stein by helloween. That is all goodnighy

U SENT THIS ASK YESTERDAY SORRY IM JUST GETTING TO IT NOW BUT THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO THIS SONG IVE HAD IT ONE REPEAT LIKE ALL DAY I EVEN MADE ANOTHER EVIL SCIENTIST OC FOR MY OC STORY LISTENING TO IT FUCKING THANK YOU THIS IS SO GOOD

2. I AM SO GLAD TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH SOMETHING SO. DAMN GREAT

[echoesofadream]

i saw you say you didn't find anything to criticize that much in d-day but you didn't like it that much. for me it's a no-skip album, all the tracks are great, and i love yoongi, but i'd love to hear your criticism of it. i'm bored and i like getting other people's thoughts on things lol

honestly this is gonna be a hater moment AND maybe disappoint you because I dont have a lot of takes like I didnt really listen enough to it to fairly judge it you know. like I think I both listened to the whole album and read the lyrics only once. but 1. yoongis singing wasnt a hit for me, it worked for set me free I think but in this album its like too much, I cant really explain but I feel like this is gonna sound so evil but he has too much confidence in his singing? 2. they disrespected queen jieun by giving her those nonsense lyrics in people pt. 2 3. the lyrics overall at least in English are kind of strange to me. SDL? somebody does love? what are you talking about... and just the repeating of "my amygdala" it feels like honestly it feels like he thinks he learnt a cool English word but it doesnt sound cool to me sorry im such a hater.

also haegeum is pretty cool but it felt like a daechwita wannabe like a lesser version of daechwita like trying to be daechwita and recreate its success and impact but no song will ever be daechwita.

the tracks I liked are HUH ft jhope like king shit (nothing jhope is on could ever be a miss he has not had a bad verse in his life). I kinda fucked with d-day a little bit tbh. snooze was ok I think. haegeum like I said is pretty cool. and polar night I quite liked. but none of these are songs ive listened to over and over like yoongis other solo works which I LOVE, D-2 and Agust D are some of my favorites when it comes to bts solo stuff. seriously.