the madohomu thing i drew that I’ve crossposted on several platforms so many times im sure people are sick of it already but I want to consolidate my madohomu stuff in one place so here it is again lol :’))
This time with a never posted before bonus- a non-cropped unedited version of the og for fun
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It's so confusing even to me sometimes especially when it perhaps matters the most how I am an empath as in I will feel like crying while watching someone else cry out if their hearts and I could literally feel their pain but then I'm also so detached like so much so that if someone I know is going through something (as in trouble in paradise (yeah I'm eloquent)) and completely losing it over that person, not being able to function properly like not eating being sad feeling depressed -- it just makes no sense to me??? Like I can't even begin to try to comfort other than just pat pat like??? So you found out they don't care about you don't you just instantly lose all feelings as well? Don't you feel cheated and ridiculed?? Does that mean nothing to you, your self-respect?? And if it does all those things then why do you feel sad. What do you feel sad for. I would feel angry. So incredibly angry and I would simply think I was an idiot to not notice the signs or to stay for as long as I did and it would be like a switch just completely off. I don't think I could ever hold a human above myself. And this makes me wonder if I could ever love at all.
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Yknow what makes me reaentful? How ive been sexually abused so much growing up, no one did shit besides shove me off to a therapist, ive been promised by feminist spaces that ill have a place to heal within them, and as soon as my abusive ex tries to smear me and project their behavior on to me by accusing me of doing that shit too, all the sudden everyone acts suspicious, and i still dont get any of that promised healing. Its hard not to feel like my ex did this intentionally to prevent me from having a space to heal. And its my issue with the "believe victims" narrative because it seems to me like people dont actually want to believe victims but to believe the victims they *like* and *agree more with politically*. If people can just say whatever about someone and you feel obligated to believe them because "believe victims", its very clearly going to be exploited by abusive people, and while i dont think we should stop per se, we need to have some sort of actual system to vet who is and isnt telling the truth, like a pseudo-courtroom. At the very least let everyone and their side of the story actually be heard. Bc idk how you guys plan to believe two victims at once who are accusing eachother other than throwing your hands up and picking one or deciding that we're both bad, which doesnt seem very fair to me since people seem to looove demonizing me for no discernable reason.
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some name ideas bc I literally want to talk to ppl abt them but i cant really talk to anyone ?? Idk so public post on tumblr dot com ig.....
- Rayne
- forest/Forrest (spelling????)
- Phoenix
- Nichols (as a tribute to nichelle Nichols probably used as a middle name) or Nicholas (even though I dont really want a """boy""" name...... Idk)
- rea (pronounced as "Ray")
- Chris (still bc a lot of ppl call me that and it would make my life easier but idk..)
- Nick/Nicky (a nickname of a couple of the above)
- idk.. I literally dont know what to call myself I dont feel like I have an identity
- icarus (probably wouldnt actually do this irl cause I feel like ppl would idk be like super weirded out by it????)
- ive also thought abt the name "carus" but it's not a real name i made it up.....
- something celestial?? I dont really know I just like trees and stars and rocks and idk what i am
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