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sweetracha · 1 year

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Give Them a Show

Sugar Content: Spicy Sweet (SMUT!)

Allergy Warning: Felix x Reader, OT8 Moments, Public Sex, Sex with an Audience, Humilation, Felix acts like a Ringmaster in some ways, Secete Relationship, Overstimulation, Spanking (a few smacks), Pussy Spanking (once), Squirting, Felix really likes showing you off.

Pastry Description: Felix and the reader keep their relationship a secret from the rest of the members. What happens when they walk in on your little make-out session? Felix is always one for putting on a good show.

Dating an idol was difficult, you knew that going into this relationship. You had always had a crush on the freckled Aussie since you first met him back in high school. Taking Baking 101 as an elective was probably the best decision you had ever made. After graduation, you two kept in touch and soon enough you watched your own personal starlight turn into radiating sunshine for the world.

Felix made an effort to text and call when he could. However, it was inevitable that the hours turn into only a few minutes. Trips back home from Korea seemed to get shorter and shorter. He used to plan days worth of stuff for the two of you to do but it became lucky if you could even meet his family for dinner. It seemed like your crush would only burn on your end.

Then, after the Sydney show, when the boys were all running off of post-concert highs Felix suck you out. You had no clue where the two of you were going, you moved out of the city years ago at this point. Then it all became familiar. The road up the little hill you had taken many times before was tattooed in your memory. Felix and you would sneak off at night to meet here, to get away from it all. This is where he confessed his dreams of being an idol to you, where he told you he was going to audition, where he came to cry to you when he was eliminated, and ultimately where he told you that his life was about to change forever.

This spot was also where you spilled your innermost thoughts to your best friend. Tears were shed, laughter was had, and even anger was shown. You kept many more things locked away however, Felix's glow was sometimes too blinding. The same night he showed you the one-way ticket to Korea was the night you shoved your love letter deeper into your purse.

You drove up here when you called Felix and told him about your date.

And when you mentioned you were moving out of the city with your new partner.

and again when you unveiled your engagement.

The last time you were here, you sobbed over the phone as you explained the last few months you endured as they left you. Felix wished more than anything he wasn't in Korea that night.

Sitting in his mom's borrowed car Felix poured his heart out to you. He explained how life has not been all he made it seem. That he only ever told you about the glamor because he knew you would worry. His rambling was cut short when the roof light caught your eye just right. The shine from your now tear-welled eyes sparkled. Felix wondered if he had hurt you until he saw the faint cat smile that graced your lips. It was the same one he saw every time he made you feel safe. The world seemed to still in the moment, telling him he was where he needed to be. Leaning over the center console his lips took your cat smile away. Then the world moved around you two again.

It kept spinning and spinning. You two never officially asked each other out but it was an obvious thing. Even his members knew you were off the menu. Felix would never confirm your relationship though, mutually agreeing it was best to keep it to yourselves for now. The little moments you two got alone were few and far between. However, you always savored every moment. Heavy make-out sessions lead to sensual petting which always turned into dry humping like college students until one of you finished. Sex was rare, almost a myth in your relationship. Felix didn't do quickies, no he made love to you. He treated the bedroom like a stage and Felix was never one to put on a bad performance.

That's why it was so surprising to you when he came back early from his schedule. You were staying with the boys while you waited for your apartment in Soul to be completed. Felix cried the day you sent him a picture of a matching one-way flight.

He walked through the front door and searched for you. It didn't take long for him to find you lounging on the living room couch in his old tee and some sleep shorts. Before you knew it he had you thrown on his lap with his hands up your shirt. Desperate eyes met yours, begging to let his inner desires free. That cat smile gave him all the permission he needed. Felix attacked your lips rather ungracefully but the need he had for you turned you on more than any good kiss could.

Cold hands chilled your burning skin as they crept up your back. The kiss deepened when he placed one of his hands on the back of your neck, wrapping it around the base. His other found your hardening buds and began to play. A particular tweak to your nipple made you throw your head back to moan out his name, but the hand around it got firmer making it so you couldn't move away.

Felix had this way about him. He was so soft like a teddy bear but dominated anyway. Every degradation was laced with praise. Every bite was kissed away. Every smack was smoothed. Every tear was wiped away. No one knew this side of him, only you.

So captured in this heated exchange neither of you heard the door open. Clouded minds silenced all noise. All but one loud gasp.

Felix pulled away, it was a sound he had never heard from you before. He searched your face for pain but only saw traces of what he described as embarrassment. If that wasn't you gasping then it must have been…

"LEE FUCKING FELIX! YOU LIER" Hyunjin yelled out.

All your worst fears came true. Here you were sitting pretty and posed on your secret boyfriend's lap while all his members barged through the door. You wanted you run away and hide but you froze. It wasn't until Felix tapped your cheek for attention.

"Baby, go to the bedroom for me, yeah? Let me talk to the boys." Felix helped you up and made you as decent as possible. A hand on your lower back ushered you away.

You don't know what possessed you to look up. Catching eyes with Chan did something to you that you couldn't describe.

The gasp, the way they stood there, their eyes on you imprinted into your mind. Seungmin wore a cautious smirk. Changbin's seemed proud. Jeongin couldn't decide if he wanted to look at or away from you. Han chose the latter. Hyunjin's dramatics turned his face a bright red. Lee Know acted as if you weren't in the room. But Chan? Chan looked hungry.

One after another their faces played on a loop in your mind. Each one makes your panties a bit wetter. Why was this happening? You loved Felix. You wanted Felix and only Felix. The thought of being with anyone else made you die a little inside. You would never want to fuck any of the other guys, but something made you feel like you wanted them there.

Felix came back into the room and kneeled in front of you. His hands cupped around your puffy cheeks. He looked into your eyes before he spoke.

"Baby Doll, I'm so sorry that happened. I checked all of our schedules three times over. I wasn't aware they canceled tonight's practice."

"It's okay, sunshine." Your voice told a much different story.

"No, it's not. I had to tell them everything. They want to apologize and to tell you that they think this is a good idea, we are a good idea. Baby, can they come do that?"

You instantly nodded a frantic no.

"Then what are you baby? Turned on?" He laughed at his joke. Then noticed you were not.

"Doll, why? What's wrong? Your face is so red, it's okay to be embarrassed" You and Felix swore you would never lie.

"I'm not embarrassed."

"Oh. I'm sorry baby I didn't mean to upset you." a gentle hand ran up your thigh comforting, but was quickly met with a wet patch. "Baby? What is--OH! Baby…did it really turn you on?"

"Felix I'm sorry! I would never cheat! You know that, promise me you know that!"

"Oh, I know baby. You can't help being turned on by all the eyes on you. The attention is addicting baby, trust me." His voice got impossibly deeper. "The idea of them all watching, wanting, craving you, but they can't have it. Sounds delicious to me. You would get to be the star I always knew you could be. The leading lady in her own debut performance. What do you say, Doll? Why don't we give them a show?"

Some of the guys looked away the second they entered the room. A few looked at your body but away from your face. Then there was Chan, hungry eyes looking directly into yours.

It was clear that you agreed, the cat smile reappear on your lips. He saw this pretty little sub fall right into place at the idea alone. Felix held you for a second, kissed your head, and then left. It was about 15 minutes before he returned, with 7 blushing faces behind him.

"Take a seat anywhere, there are no bad options. Every view of my baby is the best." Felix spoke in a lower cadence and held the tone of a narrator. The chill that ran up your spine was seen by everyone.

Felix sat behind you, pulling you in close and slowly caressing your sides. You know this move. He does this when he wants to keep you on edge, wet but not yet ready to cum. He was planning something.

"Welcome to the show, I hope you all enjoy it. There are a few rules before we get started. First off, no flash photography or filming of any kind, this is a private show after all. Secondly no talking during the performance. Lastly no touching…not even yourself" His voice turned scary at that last line.

"Failure to follow these rules will result in a permanent ban from our theater. Understood? Good. Any questions?"

"When you say no touching--" Surprisingly, the voice that spoke up wasn't Chan's, rather it was Jeongin's.

"No jacking off, no palming, no rubbing, no grinding, and no lap sitting" Felix shot that part directly toward Han and Minho.

"Shall we begin?"

Felix first removed your shirt and shorts to reveal a set of lavender lingerie underneath. His hands slowly roamed your body, obviously showing it off. Once his hands reached your chest he pushed your boobs together, earning some groans from the men in front of you.

Being so openly on display made you burn from embarrassment, but in a way that was so addicting. You didn't dare make eyes with any of the boys, that would be too much. The attempts they made to stifle any moans were already enough to make you crazy.

"Oh, what do we have here" Felix moved one hand to your thigh while the other cupped your chin. Simotaniously he forces your legs open and your vision forward. "Looks like my baby might be enjoying this, huh? Atta girl, loving the attention. I knew you would. Look at that dark spot right in the middle of your panties. I bet if I just--" He dragged a finger right across the spot in question. "I was right, you are fucking soaked."

His hand kept your face forward and he pushed your panties to the side. You were forced to take in every face in front of you. Han was as red as you had ever seen him yet he didn't look away. Seungmin and Jeongin both bit their bottom lips. Minho's pointed glare made you want to hide. Hyunjin looked as if he was in awe. Changbin seemed more focused than ever. And Chan, well Chan looked hungry.

Felix was quick to slip a finger inside of your cunt and set a brutal pace. He was only ever quick like this if he was determined to make you cum. From the growing erection on your back, you were sure he was as desperate as you were. Two more fingers entered before you realized and more were making short figure 8s on your clit. You threw your head back as you held in your moans.

"Nuh uh baby, that won't do. Go on, sing for our guests." Felix purred in your ear.

A crying whiny moan left you. Each one after was higher in pitch. You were so close, right on the edge of bliss. Then Felix pulled out. You didn't have time to complain however as he landed a slap to your soaked cunt and vigorously rubbed four flat fingers back and forth. In a matter of seconds, the bed in front of you was soaked as you screamed.

Most of the boys had to sit on their hands to not break Felix's rules. They were not about to risk missing the second act of this performance. A few moans and groans and even a whine from Jisung escaped but Felix let them slide. He was focused on you now.

"Color babygirl" He whispered for only you to hear.

"Green" it was shakey and quiet but Felix got the idea.

A gentle hand seductively ran down your front before he flipped you around, giving all the guys a great view of your ass. He smacked it a few times before smoothing out the red.

"How's the show so far? Worth the wait?" Felix projected out to the crowd.

"I see some are enjoying it…and others are REALLY enjoying it" He snickered as Changbin choked on a fake cough.

"Sometimes a bit of color looks so good on you baby."

He laid you back slowly, inching your head so close to the edge of the bed. Just enough that when you looked up you could see everyone. This position was dizzying enough but adding the weight of Felix's cock at your entrance made you spiral.

"Please" you whined out

"God baby, that's all I needed to hear"

"Come on baby, you can do better. Show them how a real starlet begs."

"Please Felix, please fuck me. I need it. I need your cock in me, fuck me like they aren't here"

And with that, Felix set long deep strokes into you. He knew you better than anyone else. You liked to feel yourself being taken apart, feeling every inch sink in and out.

Every time he thrust into you, your head got closer and closer to tipping over the edge. Every time it happened you were closer to falling over your own. Felix let out a startlingly loud groan as your walls contracted around him.

"Fuck that's it, baby, Keep going. Fuck, keep squeezing me like that and I'll show the boys how pretty you look with cum leaking out of you." The pad of his thumb met with your clit and sent you over the edge.

As you came hard your head slipped over the bed. Unside-down you saw 7 sets of dark lustful eyes ready to take you. At least three of them came untouched. You overstimulated yourself at the thought that you could do that to someone.

Felix slowly pulled out of you and gently turned you around. Your body was putty at this point, making it easy for him to mold you just how he liked. He spread your legs as wide as possible and pushed down on your lower stomach. His cum mixed with yours as it began to leak out of you. He pushed a bit harder to make it flow.

"Good job baby, everyone clap for the star of our show."

The clapping added to the intoxicating humiliation you already felt.

"But the show must go on! What is a performance without an encore, am I right?" Felix sat you up.

"I think we need help from the audience for this next part. Chan, do you mind coming up on stage?"

"I thought you'd never ask," Chan said.

He looked hungry.

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yannaryartside · 2 months

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Sydney is also trapped in the freeze response.

She is permanently on the brakes. Like Rooster in Top Gun

Let me explain. (Spoilers for top gun maverick)

The character arc of Rooster in the movie revolves around the fact that he is always stuck on “defensive, preventive flying” in the sense that he lacks the initiative to make the risky decisions that are necessary in combat scenarios. The root of this issue is obviously fear, because his father died on someone else’s choices, and he doesn’t want to make a decision that could cost someone’s life.

I am starting to think Syd may have the same issue. I was reading a post about Sydney’s inability to make a decision on the partnership agreement (I can’t remember now I will tag it if I find it).

But the op expressed very well how Sydney has basically been offered the opportunity she has always dreamed of (Shapiro's offer was better but came in later). Still, she postponed the decision while she played the resistance game the whole season against Carmy’s antics. It's like a boxer trying to fight the distance. The conversation she had with Luca in the last episode about “a friend you went through a battle with” seems to connect with this idea. Then, in the end, she has a panic attack and thinks about the people she cares for at the Bear, how they have grown, and the battles they have endured.

I am going to say something that may be controversial: I think Syd has not grown significantly since she came to the Bear. Or, to put it in another way, she has not reached the version of herself that can make it in this industry on her own. The version that could conquer the obstacles of the plot that are designed to change her. There is a reason we don’t see a new version of her in comparison to when she came to the Bear for her first day.

She has taken on new responsibilities and has conquered them. But I believe she has not shown us anything that was not already inside her. She did not change like Richie (that went from unreliable to indispensable and caring, specially with her) or Nat that accepted the restaurant being a good thing for her family and herself, or even Fak, Marcus and Tina, that once thought of themselves incapable of the things they have accomplished.

Whatever beliefs Sydney has about herself that pull the ultimate brakes for redefining herself, she still has them.

She is and has been for a long while a patient, honest person that extends grace to others. And because they were given accountability, support and understanding, people around her were able to grow. That is what the flashback is about. She made a difference. She built something, and yet, nothing seems to feel solid for her.

I wonder what all of this could mean

The brakes analogy

There is plenty of analogies about driving in the show. We have Donna crashing her car on her family’s home, the dream of Cicero about driving out of control and crashing with Carmy’s dad in it (there is something there). Claire's reckless driving, the mentions of her being an adrenaline junkie in some aspects (she used to shoplifting, her job). Like a comparison to people that live life like reckless driving (addiction and other issues).

Meanwhile, Syd was a professional driver. She has a tattoo of her mothers car in her back. She described what “crashed” her business as “going too far, too fast” She even drives Richie because he got his license suspended (reckless behavior). Sydney is perceived as reasonable, mesaaured and reliablee. A good driver (metaphoricaly), but…

Is the show trying to tell us that she is a person who may have a hand in the brakes too often, in the sense that she may freeze in a moment when acceleration is required? In creative careers, you often have to take risks, and you will fail most of them, but what is she a fraud to lose this time? What has she been afraid to lose this whole time?

She even acts like “the brakes” of the plot in moments of chaos. She asked Tina to slow down and completed her task on Doors, and does her own, putting the pace of the kitchen in a “under the speed limit”

She makes Carmy slow down and stop his spiraling thoughts. Yeah, she is the brakes if the car, but she applies them too much on herself. Hope that makes sense.

#just a thought #the bear #sydcarmy #sydney adamu #the bear fx #carmy berzatto #carmen berzatto #the bear meta #carmy x sydney #carmy the bear #sydney x carmy #sydnet adamu meta

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thoughtfulchaos773 · 2 months

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This was a theory I found on reddit and I made a post about it here. Let @turbulenthandholding and I entertain this theory for fun! We were bouncing off ideas, and there's meta turbulent written about disassociation and memory loss.

Carmy & PTSD.

You may also be unable to recall crucial information or forget essential milestones in your life or significant relationships. link

So here it goes: Carmy met Sydney the day he made the hamachi with blood orange, just a few days after Mikey died. He's wearing that glove because the wound is still fresh. So, he continues working and avoids seeing Mikey's body in Chicago.

But talking with Sydney, she's the first person he shares with about his brother's death (she doesn't know how he died because she asks questions about Michael in 1x02 Hands). They had a connection that night and slept together in her hotel room.

Afterward, he has a panic attack, and Sydney calms him down. This is actually the first time it has happened where she calms him. She tells him he should go to Chicago to say goodbye to his brother. That night, when she falls asleep, he goes back to Chicago.

A body in the morgue can be there for up to 30 days- this is where this fragmented memory comes up:

Carmy actually visited to see the body.

Then walks out and goes into a busy street. It's the meaning of the dream.

In his dream, you see two headlights—there are no cars on State Street bridge, and there are no street lights over the bridge in RL.

Also, when he wakes up, cars are honking?!

This is a different memory mixed with a dream.

Plot twist: Emmnuel almost runs him over. It's a serendipitous moment where, if Sydney isn't there, her dad is there driving by this road by chance. which is why we get this ominous dream in the pilot. Sydney never tells Emmanuel of her admiration for Carmy; he wouldn't know who Carmy is. We get foreshadows of the cars with Emmanuel: 1) when he tells the story of her mom and their first date, and 2) when he tells Sydney the radiator to the car keeps clicking.

Also Jimmy's dream.

When Emmanuel gets out of the car, he asks Carmy if he's okay, but Carmy keeps walking. Later, when Sydney gets back home, Emmanuel tells her—like he always talks about his car trouble—that there was this man he almost hit with his car.

These lyrics played in the 1st episode:

Via Chicago by Wilco

This is a foreshadowing that this memory will come up when he sees Emmanuel.

When she reveals her tattoo- we see carmy making the ragu and these lyrics play:

But wait- why didn't Sydney say anything at the interview- she caught on quickly. He didn't remember her- it was a one-night stand in her head. Why would he? He's this famous chef- who probably has a really active sex life, she assumes.

She also probably called and spoke with Gary, or Ebra, answered, and told her when to come in.

So when she makes up, she and her dad would come every Sunday; Carmy does a double take- probably remembers her saying that word Sunday-becuase they hate Sundays and talked about it- so it almost triggers a memory.

He's quite forgetful—he doesn't remember and just accepts she called that morning because he knows he has a foggy memory even forgot what UPS is.

Carmy would draw Claire in high school. Why doesn't he remember that Claire sat behind him in algebra class? PTSD and fragmented memories can be intrusive.

Carmy still forgets things, but the memories are starting to come back. This is why Carmy remembers nights with Claire in season 3- season 4 may play out that way. Sydney spent time with Carmy doing a menu review at his place. A calendar shows in 2x05, with Claire visiting the restaurant and reviewing the menu together on other days.

This is where the scrunchie comes in.

That's all for now!

@turbulenthandholding I hope this is right- let me know if I need to include anything!

#sydcarmy #can someone make this a au?#the bear season 3

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tigertan · 6 months

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neighborly favors and chicago cigarettes. [ jellybeans. ]

part two of said slow burn fic ^_^ this is mainly a snippet but there is some silly smut incoming in the full chapter oooops ..

part one [ mac n cheese ]

ao3 link

[ word count ; 1k ]

;; all fluff. awkward meeting again. carmen takes a strange interest in your nails.

your new acrylic nails gleamed in the cold sun of chicago’s morning as they curled around your steering wheel. a pretty candy pink, nothing fancy. they were short and blunt to maximize efficiency, and you’d always liked doing your nails.

with your new job starting tomorrow, you arranged a nail appointment early this sunday morning just to get it out of the way.

you rounded the corner of the apartment building's back parking lot and hopped out of your car into the complex.

despite your freshly scrubbed face and still damp hair from the morning shower, yesterday night’s chicago smoke lingered both on your skin and your memories. the mild hangover you’d gotten was bravely fought off with a fistful of tylenol and gallons of water.

after finally finding something in common with carmy, sydney rushed out and began apologizing for richie’s behavior, to which you’d reassured her it wasn’t a big deal. you’d just avoid him your entire life after that. because while you weren’t in the wrong, it was an embarrassingly public outburst that burned itself into those moments your brain would never let you forget.

sydney decided to take you home at that moment, and you didn’t complain.

you nodded a bye to carmy with a smile still stuck with a cigarette and he’d nodded back, unsmiling.

it was only after you’d wrapped the covers around you did you realize you never asked him if his name was really carmy.

oh well, you guys were neighbors. you were bound to see him anyway.

you hummed a song to yourself— specifically frank sinatra’s classic hit, rain in my heart— as you climbed up the stairs and turned the staircase straight into a brick wall.

but that couldn’t be right, because why did it stumble back at the impact at the same time you did?

the answer was easy; it wasn’t a wall. it was the tightly fitted cotton-shirted chest/face of your neighbor carmy. his awful brown jacket was thrown across his right bicep, and you could see his tattoos much more clearly. the numbers on his fingers weren't numbers, they were three letters of ‘SOU’ on his index, middle, and ring respectively.

there was also an inked flower on the back of the same hand, and further up his arm was a measuring cup carrying a globe. you noticed he had more but stepped back too quickly to discern others.

your nose stings lightly at the impact, and you raise a hand to hold it, eyes widening. a tiny part of you wonders if he is going to yell at you.

“shit,” you say, blinking.

“sorry, i didn’t see you,”

“are you okay— sorry,”

you both spoke at the same time, which pushed a smile out your lips, and you giggled. so he wasn’t going to yell at you.

“sorry,” you whisper, a grin peeking out from either side of the hand in front of your face. he blinks, the chicago morning sky making his already ice-blue eyes seem ever clearer.

“you uh— your nails,” he blurted, a muscle in his temple shifting as the words nearly burst from his lips.

it takes you a second to realize what he’s talking about, but you lower your hand and splay it out, the uv coat catching the light perfectly.

“oh! yes. nails. got 'em done a few minutes ago.” you explain, giving him another quick smile. “they uh, they’re nice. like jellybeans.” but the compliment, if you could even call it that, was stamped out with deliberate volume and a strained edge of a rather inept tone that creased your brow despite your smile.

“... thank you,” you reply, absentmindedly running your thumb over the groove of the keys in your pocket.

he watches your hand fall back beside you and then swallows.

“do you like—“

“is your—“

your voices overlapped once more, and this time he smiled too, curving into his left cheek and carmy released a singular, airy laugh.

“sorry. uh. you go ahead,” he gestured to you, flicking his eye contact from you to the floor. “yeah, sorry.” you grinned with genuine humor now, “is your, is your real name carmy? sorry, i just heard syd say that last night and i just…” you trailed off, the question sounding dumb and cold on your tongue now that you said it aloud. he blinked again. “uh. no— no. it’s a nickname. for– for carmen. carmen berzatto.”

he extends his hand out as if you had guys met for the first time. finding it endearing, you take it, a gel-nailed hand clasping the weathered, inked one.

“were you heading to work?” you ask, and after a momentary silence, he nods, then scrunches his brows and quickly shakes it, the oat-colored curls on his head bouncing.

“hm? no, just… heading out. kitchen doesn’t open until four today,” he replies, carding a hand through his hair.

you mouth a silent oh and nod back.

“well uh, it was good to see you neighbor,” you grin and step the side lightly, breaking the awkward yet giddy conversation that had transpired.

“yeah. yeah, you too.” carmen gave you a half-smile back, nodding a final time as he passed by you, his hair bouncing as he walked down the stairs, not looking back.

you did, however, watch until his curls disappeared behind the coffee wood and industrial metal of the stairs.

you realized you didn’t ask him what he wanted to ask until you’d slotted your key into the lock with a smile.

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carmen slammed his car door behind him as he sat, cushioned in the faux leather seat, hands firm on the steering wheel. he stared directly in front of him, boring holes into the dusty red brick of the building wall, sky tinted a slight grey from the windows.

“jellybeans? really carmen?” he sighs-slash-scoffs, running a hand over his face before fumbling his keys out of the jacket pocket. brows scrunching, the man hesitates before putting the keys into the ignition. despite the faint alarm bells going off in his mind— they seemed to always be there anyway— he twists in the front seat to look behind him at the building entrance as if she’d walk out of the large, heavy-duty door at that moment.

for a moment or two, he stares. but the reality of it catches up to him in flushed, heated cheeks and brows creasing further. “fuckin’ stupid.” he mutters, finally shoving the keys into the car as the engine purred to life. it was odd how the light from yesterday’s cigarette had bent around her mouth despite the unforgiving fluorescence of the alleyway, and made carmen stare.

but that’s all. she was only enough to stare at, he concluded with a steely grip on the wheel. with the bear at its peak, how could he do anything but stare?

he pulls into the back of the bear’s parking lot with the recipe for a spaghetti alla carbonara stuck in his head and a smile stuck in the corner of his mouth.

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justanotherdrfan · 7 months

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WELCOME ALL DANNY FANGIRLS TO YOUR INSTALMENT OF DANIEL RICCIARDO’S DTS BREAKDOWN! 🍯🦡

I’m leaving this one open since you all skipped straight to this episode! (I waited and I don’t know how)😂

S6E9 (Three’s a Crowd)

GIF by @arturleclerc

DANNNNNNNNYYY BOYYY 😍😍😍😍😍😍

He’s already laughing (god I love him)

‘Alright, what’s up?, Daniel Ricardo, this is season six drive to survive, and yes I’m back’ (fangirling HARD)

WAIT HE WAS IN SYDNEY, HE WAS IN FUCKING SYDNEY (why did no one tell me I would have called sick at work)

Daniel and Blake I really wish you went ahead with that podcast because you two are poetic chaos together

Cue another Daniel montage (they have his whole discography on file don’t they?)

He looks so fucking tried though

Logan and Alex talking about DTS frothing at the mouth about Daniel returning is the most factually, correct thing I’ve ever heard 😂

Logan: ‘All I know is the most excited people when Danny Ricciardo came back was Netflix.’

Alex: ‘I literally think they had to change their pants three times. I know the episode already. Let…let me run it through. Ready? Here we have Danny Ricciardo watching on the sidelines. “Yeah, it hurts to not be racing.” Then all of a sudden, pans to Nyck de Vries. Lock up. [imitates brakes screeching]. Off the track. Crash. Oh shit! Boom. Fast-forward. Silverstone. Test. Daniel Ricciardo. Super quick. [laughs] Danny looking at it like…big smile on his face. “It is what it is. You know?” [man]“I never left” “I never left. I’m back,baby. Honey Badger. Don’t give a shit.” (Hire him now DTS because he nailed that)

Fuck why they got to follow that shit with Zandvoort though

Daniel whoring about in his Enchante tattoo thigh high shorts

“Feels right. Feels good” (It sure does Danny is sure does)

EVERYONE LOVES DANIEL

And they get him straight to a photoshoot to whore him out

THEY DID NOT USE HIM WINKING IN THE INTRO (da fuck you lot doing? Give the people what they want)

Yes Christian 2025 prospect (he’s a shoe in ahh? See what I did there) 😉👟🍾

FUCK YOU MICAHEL ITALIANO (why is he getting air time) I’m glad he’s left F1

OHH NO OHH NO OHH NO NO NO NO NO NO

IM CRYING AGAIN. I CRIED WHEN IT HAPPENED AND IM CRYING AGAIN

Ohh they have his X-ray

Clairey bear

Cue Liam Lawson (I do love you but I missed Danny terribly)

The others telling Liam to be prepared (this is very welcome to our toxic work environment)

‘She doesn’t even go here’ (a Danica story)

Liam out qualifies all the red bull drivers (yes kiddo)

DANNY BACKS (SCREWS AND ALL) for engineering purposes only

Umm why are you hurting him? DONT TOUCH HIM! (Look yes I know it’s physiotherapy and he needs it. But I’ve broken my hand before the left one as well and driving a normal road car caused me to cry in pain so when I say don’t touch him I mean it)

I SWEAR TO GOD ZAK YOU STAY THEY HELL AWAY FROM HIM

Checo clips Yuki and he’s out (he probably thought it was Daniel trying to take his seat. It’s his in 2025 mate there’s no fighting it)

Ohh look Alpine with reliability issues (things you continue to see)

Yes DTS let’s show Russel’s crash from another angle 😂

POINTS FOR LIAM 🎉🥳

Are we positive he was in Sydney and not Perth?

Yes king SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT

Yuki GP time

Not Suzuka having Daniel, Yuki and Liam on all the banners

Poor Yuki being overwhelmed by the fans. I understand fans being excited but he’s cornered in the car and clearly doesn’t feel safe (and for Michael to be like it’s ok the fans are happy is actually the problem at hand. His and all the drivers safety has to come first and he point blank didn’t feel safe you arsehole Michael so it’s not okay)

Yuki honey it’s okay Liam not going to hit you

If we can’t have an Aussie a Kiwi will do

Liam finding out Daniel’s and Yuki are getting announced for 2024 🥺

Liam mate I’m sorry you deserve better

Mexi-coooooo

HES BACK BACK

Yes yes your P10 in the constructors (just you wait, just you fucking wait)

Checo out before turn 1 (its AUSGP all over again)

Ohh look another McLaren/Alpha Tauri incident 😤

No McLaren the plan is not to attack Daniel (haven’t you fucking done enough?)

P7 BABBYYYYYY

ENCHANTE, MON AMI

See your P8 now (told you to wait and see)

Yes Christian, Daniel did drive a good race (remember that and who didn’t)

Look at him and his little moustache

Will: ‘ I think this is only part one of a far wider story.’ (Yes 2024 season will be epic for Danny Ric)

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Season 17e4 live reactions!

Spoilers…obviously

- ooh shady deal going down

- hmm never heard conked used as a word for car

- okay it rlly bugs me that on CME is so much harder to see anything

- I KNEW IT, she was gonna use a ruse

- oh man this sounds like a revenge-led UNSUB

-EM DONT ARGUE PL, DONT SWEAR

- lol she looks so done and I love her

- aren’t her fingerprints already in file??

- TYLER. BOUNDARIES

- PEN STANDING HER GROUND

- she’s learning!! pen’s sharing the lessons she learned w Tyler

- OH HOUSE alarm - I was so confused

- also why is all this focus on the alarm making me think pen will be bulgarized or hurt

- okay I really fucking love this Dave getting the mind of the killer by imagining them thing they do , it’s so interesting

- “prick” lol Emily

- JJ :(

- I think they’re all gonna fall into the “conspiracy theory” thing when they solve cases this season w voit getting in their heads and that’s going to be really cool

- HAHA I love chaotic kinda angry Em

- WHAT WAS THAT SMILE MS PRENTISS

- Sydney’s such a badass I fucking love it; GO MAMA BEAR

- jeez Elias “I’ll find you”, that was freaking scary

- LEE!?!? I TOLD YALL CALLING HIM BY HIS BIRTH NAME WOULD BE IMPACTFUL

- I think that they too often read into what Voit says - I think the conspiracy theory has the team second guessing everything - every case, every potential clue. I think the way they’re officially gonna win over Voit is taking his word for what it is. That’s my theory for s17

- is that Debby Ryan??

- bahahaha pen being crazy mad is soo funny “can you get me another one of these”

- what did she say in French??

- okay I miss Garvez so much but Pen and Tyler are funny as fuck together

- why does Dave know what tattoo ink is made up of?

- okay Tara “Spencer Reid” Lewis, knowing tattoo stats of the top of her head

- fucking brian

- oh god Brian is going to get himself killed

- “Is it because you shot at us?” 😂😂

- god holly is so strong :( heart is hurting for the little girl

- HOLY CRAP I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT

- why are they interrogating her? she’s sad :(

- hehe hot scary Luke

- elias’ biggest fear is someone becoming him damn

- holly needs to be protected at all costs

- WHY IS HE STILL NOT CONFESSING TO PROTECT HIS FRIKIN CHILD. goddamn Elias

- poor Sydney :(

- JJ, you are important ❤️

- not everything is related to gold star!!! I don’t think they should be connecting everything! Is it just me? Or is this not part of the whole conspiracy theme that this season has? Maybe it’s just me

- tyler, you’re not tugging at heart strings like you’re thinking bud

- “really intense incredible connection” I mean yes but also no?

- pen come on that was NOT moving do not be shook

- I feel a tiny bit that this ep hard to follow, so many interesting storylines but none fleshed out enough for me to follow everything, idk

- I can’t get over how much this actress looks like Debby Ryan 😂😂

- okay wait interesting - daughter following in father’s footsteps all around? jade and rick and holly and voit? if that’s intentional, that’s really good writing

- ALL HAIL THE BLACK QUEEN INDEED

- oh no what happened pen?

- no way that’s gold star???? they would NOT tell us this early

- holy crap whoa! a team?!? Interesting…

- Am I the only one thinking it’s a lil icky that they’re trading support for holly for help from voit? I get it’s their only option and they’re desperate but still

-OOH VOIT as part of the BAU, interesting

- I still don’t trust Elias, I think he’s intentionally messing with them, making them second guess everything

#criminal minds #luke alvez #garvez #criminal minds evolution #bau team #elias voit #gold star #penelope garcia

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thedaytheworldburned · 1 year

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'Chasing That Feeling' MV First Reactions

Guys, I'm reacting. The blog isn't dead. I'm just also going to the Wild Kpop Fest in Sydney, so had to get ready for that. It was fun and I enjoyed seeing all three groups, but especially New (ahem, bias altert, ahem).

But let's have a look.

First, this MV pretty obviously follows on from 'Good Boy Gone Bad,' 'Sugar Rush Ride' and so on. It also has what I interpret as some nice Magic Island references, but I may be completely wrong (as always). So let's get into it!

I feel like this ray of light depositing TXT on Earth is a pretty obvious representation of them being expelled from Magic Island. It shows how violently they have been expelled after abusing their power, and it conveys how they, like Gfriend and unlike BTS, were born on the island, as such, and thus are basically supernatural non-human beings.

Also, the rubble and water are reminiscent of 'GBGB' and the Japanese MV for 'Sugar Rush Ride' - instantly visually connecting this storyline to the heartbreak and insanity one which those MVs discussed.

And, of course, we have the continuation of the star and the number 5 - there are 5 tunnels leading out of this hole, 5 colours in the light, 5 lights they chase, 5 points on the star, and so on.

There's also a nice contrast with the idea of angels coming down from the sky, and TXT being dressed in black - reminiscent of when they went crazy and were decidedly not angellic, despite being supernatural.

This is also emphasised by the fact that they are styled with tattoos.

Also, as always, TXT's choreographies are great.

Don't ask me to colour analyse the colours of light each membr chases - it would take far more time and research than I have today to do that in depth, and is thus better suited for a proper MV analysis. The most I can say so far is - Kai is gold - since he is the 'angel', Gyu has been associated with green before, especially in the webtoon through plants, and Yeonjun gets the other side of the cat - blue and green, thus he gets green.

A lot of this MV is them further abusing their powers, since they clearly didn't learn their lesson. Also - note that there are a lot of cars featured in this MV - cars being something we have seen in Magic Island arcs before, and which is generally a symbol of transit - as TXT are continuing their journey.

Interestingly, only Gyu, Yeonjun, and Taehyun seem to actually attain their power in this MV - Kai and Soobin are just constantly chasing it. We know Kai is in an internal battle, so it makes sense why he chases. Soobin is also being held back by doubts and the glass box the cat put him in. Yeonjun, Taehyun, and Gyu are all very firm in their beliefs - whatever those might be, and whether they're good or evil - so they can grab that power and feeling since they know how.

Trains are back - another way to get to Magic Island. They also emphasise the sense of danger in this MV.

Also, are you wondering why no one - except for the people Yeonjun LITERALLY RAN INTO are reacting to them in this MV? I'll discuss that more later.

I also think this scene is the best visual representation of the longing and desire they feel in the MV - Soobin reaching forward for power, for love, for literally everything he could ever want, but forced ackwards by the momentum of the train and his own doubts.

Like, look at this face!

Also - note that the tattoos on his neck look a little like the branches/veins V had on his neck during 'ON' era - a coincidence? Idk, but it's interesting.

So here we see that Taehyun has his power, and, like the rest of them, he is wonderfully misusing it.

Same with Gyu - although in a far more dangerous way.

Yeonjun too.

I'm not entirely sure if this is supposed to be Kai having his power or just grabbing a lift to try and catch up to it - but since there's no golden light, I'll assume he doesn't have the power.

I don't think this has any point other than to show how he's cool, how he's using his power, and possibly associating him with Gyu considering the light is green.

Star time again!

They've unified - making them more powerful, as expected. But interestingly, in this explosion, I only really see the red and blue, and, by proxy, purple. Was there a reason for this? Soobin, Taehyun, Yeonjun - generally but not always portrayed as good - vs Gyu (who smothered Taehyun) and Kai (who has a demon inside him)? Maybe I'm completely wrong.

So the Dr Strange stuff going on here is interesting because it shows that their abuse of their powers is literally breaking the universe/breaking reality. It also made me think that they were moving between dimensions - you know, since it's the mirror dimension. Which brings me back to people ignoring them and the light falling from the sky - it's possible that they have been shoved into another dimension, either by their own volition or because of the harm they did to Magic Island. This is a nice use of visual shortcut and also offers a potential explanation for why they are suddenly in some random city in America or England - I thought it was London but my knowledge of these places is almost nonexistent so please forgive me for not knowing.

I also find it interesting that they suddenly snap back to reality.

And also an odd shot to end on. The only thing we would think we would get from this is seeing the boys leave, but we also see the cars, the people walking, and the buildings. I have no doubt there is hidden meaning or are hidden detailsl, but the only thing I can really point to is that it reminds me of 'My Fair Lady,' and that the steam rising up could be considered the damage left over from the world knitting itself back together after going all mirror-dimension.

So that's the end of the MV!

I love the choreography, as always, but that is best analysed in a different video. Interestingly, I think it does little (compared to their other choreos) to tell the story, and instead is just cool and portrays the mood of the song.

Let's talk about the lyrics for a moment.

We've of course got the mandatory mentions of the night and moonlight, and of the highs of being in a 'loving' relationship.

The 'thief that keeps on stealing' is interesting, because there's the obvious meaning of 'stealing my heart,' but also the implied meaning of stealing power etc.

Then of course, the idea of miracles. Lightning is also often associated with a dangerous form of love (See Romeo and Juliet for what is probably the oldest example of that). And the kalidescope and butterflies are of course related to the butterfly effect and the fracturing of the world through the mirror univserse/dimension.

And that's pretty much it. A nice simple set of lyrics for a short little song.

Conclusions

It follows on from the previous MVs and storyline. Although slightly different themes are explored in each MV, they seem to be very obsessed with the 'high' phase of the relationship, rather than, you know, the fallout and the healing from it. Maybe they're serially dating toxic people. Psychologically that would make sense. Storyline-wise? Not so much.

That said, they probably like keeping the romance for the title tracks since that sells well, and keeping the funky mind-bending curse stuff for award shows and bside MVs, since the fans love that, and it makes jaws drop in award show season. In fact, they released this basically just in time for award show season - was that for a reason? Or is that a conspiracy theory of mine?

As a matter of interest, this (generic title tracks and crazy bsides) is something that exists in the whole industry but ESPECIALLY in HYBE.

#txt #tomorrow x together #txt theories #mv analysis #the name chapter #tnc #the name chapter: freefall #chasing that feeling

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damnhotmsimmons · 3 months

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17x04-Kingdom of the Blind

here's my live blog for 17x04 of cm

caution: Spoilers, mentions of self harm

Who is that lady in the beginning?

A potential victim?

Why does that actress look familiar? I think I recognize her from scream 6

Nvm, I checked IMDB and I was right, it's Liana (aka Quinn Bailey from Scream 6)

Shit, the woman was pretending to be a victim

The woman took her badge

Could she have something to do with gold star?

Ugh, not Emily get taken into the police car

Fuck you Brian

I hate seeing Emily get arrested

Emily in a cell

Ugh, Tyler in Garcia's apartment

Garcia asking Tyler the true questions

Garcia doesn't want to help Tyler can't blame her as he's still doing behind the team's backs and lying

And she has a point that he doesn't listen to her

The phone having an encrypted key

Ugh Emily risking everything

Yeah I feel for Garcia since she didn’t want to do that even if it means now they may be closer to who gold star is

You know it's bad when I feel bad for Evolution Garcia in s17

Matt would not tolerate this shit

Emily cares more about Gold Star when it wouldn't have taken long for her and JJ to talk as she's her friend and needs to be okay

Yeah, Matt would’ve definitely talked to JJ after seeing how she was at the round table

Poor Garcia being forced to help her friend despite the rules they'll break simply cause Gold Star is that important to Emily

Poor Garcia, she is trying to set boundaries and not do anymore bad choices and Emily is only making things worse cause of gold star

Emily's little smirk is cute, if only she didn't have to be so smug and focused on gold star

How is it that Emily is getting on my nerves moreso than Garcia. At least Garcia is trying to be better and learn her mistakes by setting boundaries with Tyler

Luke giving Sydney some pointers before she talks to Elias

JJ also giving Sydney some advice

I want to hug Sydney

The former married couple now seeing each other

It seems there’s being a lot of see for Emily being so focused on gold star and how that will have consequences

You know the acting is good as they're married irl

Wtf Elias

Sydney has a point and she is rightfully upset at Elias for what he has done and put his family into

Holly and Harlow also deserved better

Wtf?! Elias

Elias refusing to say goodbye

Emily won't declare it Gold Star till there's proof

Rossi and Tara working together on the case again, it’s cool they are working together a lot

Same as it means Tara and Rossi being the father and daughter duo and Tara sharing screentime with Rossi

Oh look, it's unsub!Liana again

What is Unsub!Liana doing?

Oh she's inking herself?

I realized how she's the first female unsub introduced in evolution

So she did give herself a tattoo

Why does the tattoos look like eyes?

She's smirking, so she wanted the victim found

Garcia trying to decrypt and decode the phone and failing

Not Tyler overhearing Garcia lashing out inside her office and possibly breaking stuff

Jesus Christ, she broke her keyboard

Tyler's reaction to the broken keyboard

"How's it going?" Really Tyler? Do you want Garcia to answer that

Garcia needing Tyler's help

And then her trapping him in he server room

Not her telling him that there's electromagnetic radiation and how prolonged exposure will make him sterile

Tyler laughing awkwardly and not knowing if Garcia was joking or not

JJ and Luke comforting the girls as they're about to go see their father

Harlow is smiling?

Not Harlow hugging Elias

Holly is understandably scared

Sydney being a protective mama bear

Rossi and Tara at the crime scene

So the lady used her tattoo needle to gorge the sheriff's eyes out?

Unsub!Liana is hunting them

Not ghost!Elias taunting Rossi at the thought that he can convince his family to drop their testimonies

Elias also telling Rossi to look at him but he's interrupted by Tara

Tara saying how the unsub is a woman and she's right as it's the lady from the beginning

Hopefully there's a name for them as I don't wanna keep referring to her as female unsub

So more women have tattoos than men

Tara telling Rossi how they need to tell Emily that the unsub in this case is not gold star as gold star is a male

Emily won't take it well

Seriously Brian

Elias possibly passing his serial killer traits to Holly as she's suffering from self harm and sneaking a box cutter past guards

Yeah Elias definitely seems shaken by that especially as he probably tho…

Elias keeping those traits a secret was all for nothing and now he and Holly are facing the consequences

I hate how there's a possibility of Holly becoming an unsub after this which makes her life even more tragic

Poor Sydney and Harlow

Holly definitely reminded JJ of Roslyn cause of the self harm and the fallout with her dad

Luke being the one taunting Elias after that

Elias asking Luke to help Holly as he won't let her become like him, but will they? Will Holly let them? Is the damage already done?

JJ trying to help Holly

Holly thinking Sydney would stop crying and be free from Elias if she killed him but there's still consequences for that

Damien working with Jade explains why the BAU assumed gold star was a male, but it's multiple unsubs and one of them being a female

So there was a reason why the casting for Jade was a secret despite Liana being well known as her character is one of the main villains

So each member of the strike team had an assignment for a specific target and Aidan and Jade being some of them. I'm assuming Damien is also another target hence why he killed the other members in the first episode

Seeing Tyler sitting down between Luke and JJ is hilarious especially as his hair is styled like Matt's and wearing an outfit similar to his in 12x13

"Five members, five points of the star" well played and Tyler sounded badass saying that

The members are all trauma bonded at Stuart House

Sadly they still don't know who started the gold star program nor who funded the escrow account

Tyler telling the team that Gasper told him that gold star wasn't a rogue government operation. So there is hope that a storyline like that could be used for when Matt returns

It seems like five since there’s five members of the strike team that targeted the members. Since three are accounted, there seems to be two left

So a private contractor runs the gold star program

Okay so the other two remaining members are named Pete and Dana

Damien taking most of the kills and Jade keeping the badges as trophies

So the members of gold star plan to reunite together. Well the remaining four since Aidan is dead and their spree won't be done even after the strike team members are dead

It seems like Jade is the true leader and Damien is more of the main muscle of the gold star program, sorry Emily

JJ, Luke and Tyler finishing each other's sentences

Damien and Jade don't seem like the type to be so easily fooled like that considering their victims are guys in law enforcement and ex military

So the members of gold star plan to reunite together. Well the remaining members

Yeah it seems like they are out for revenge because of the trauma they went through

#criminal minds #cm evolution #criminal minds evolution #criminal minds spoilers #criminal minds season 17 #cm 17x04 #cme 2x04 #cme spoilers #cm spoilers

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mismatched-sockss · 3 months

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y'all are getting some thoughts on the new episode this week!

okay, but why is Emily sitting in the back of a cop car kind of hot....??

JJ looks so tired and broken.... i'm about to cry

Emily is gonna explode soon uff...

fucking Tyler, couldn't he have like, come in an hour later or so? it wasn't "urgent" enough for him before, let my girls talk

i can get that he is in fact worried about his daughter, but did Voit really, really, think his wife would change her mind by threatening her????

coincidence my ass, twice is a coincidence, three times is a pattern.. how fucking big is this whole gold star thing..??

i love Garcia, from keyboard to server room 😂

that thing didn't look like an official tattoo needle to me, but okay. either way bat shit crazy to use that thing for the eyes. Tara's reason why the needle points to the Unsub being a woman doesn't make sense to me tbh

yeah not gold star, but like i said, three times is a pattern. you can't tell me all these similarities are just a coincidence

"Emily are you alright?" lmao, Brian. and fucking listen to Emily man!

a program????

"I can't believe how big you gotten" dude, it's been two weeks

omg, i thought she had pepper spray!

is it bad that i kind of feel bad for Voit?

Luke, baby, i don't think taunting him is such a good idea rn

why the hell did Holly think it would make her mother feel better when she killed her father and went to prison herself?? as if that wouldn't make it worse on Sydney?

"[...] you want me to lie and say i'm Sicarius [...]?" i thought we were past denying it?

oh he's so worried about her.... bet he is comparing himself to his uncle by now because of it...

now i'm really crying... "It's not important" honey, yes it is!

you get five seconds, not one more

fuck, don't make me like you...

when will Rossi finally talk about his hallucinations, that's gonna end bad...

Gold Star - Eyes only.... aaah, goosebumps. i need to know what else Garcia found!

uuuuh...... what?

asdfghjkl fuck!! pattern! told ya it's a pattern!

reminds me of what Antonia Slade said "oh, this is exciting. it feels like i'm one of the team"

why do i feel like Voit is going to try and run while he's at Quantico?

#criminal minds #cm evolution #cm spoilers #--- mismatched🧦

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Sydney is on the last train home

This clips little mention of a choo choo train reminded me of something.

At the end of Ceres after Carmy turned down Sydney's risotto dish, Last Train home is playing.

Sydney is what Carmy believes to be the fallen angel, she fell into The Beef to save it. But really she's just there because she fell behind on life. She feels out of luck and out of time. Her wishbone tattoo symbolizing her desire for good luck and her mother's car symbolizing her short time on earth.

If Carmy doesn't want to love her or listen to her and help her get to where she feels she needs to get (the stars, accolades etc) then he needs to let her go because she feels out of time to achieve her goals. Season 3 it's all on the line for her because she feels like she is giving it her all and it's finally being seen by her dad, and she can't let Carmy be the one to mess it up for her.

She put her heart where it didn't belong by giving the dish to the food critic because she believed in it and loved it. And then things went wrong. Carmy also put his heart where it didn't belong and messed things up for himself by getting locked in the fridge. Sydney overheard him saying he's not even sure he's meant for this and he might not want to keep going, which made Sydney throw up. Sydney wants to know if he's actually going to quit on her or if he's hopping on The Bear Express. Season 3 is the last train for The Bear, they either make or they don't and it ends for Sydney, and everyone else.

#the bear #sydcarmy #the bear meta #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #the bear fx #chefs kiss

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wc: angelo's online date and esme's daughter's father.

CAT, 28, GMT; SHE/THEY. | if you’re hearing CODE MISTAKE by CORPSE x BMTH playing, you have to know RYDER SYDNEY (THEY/HE/ANY; NON-BINARY) is near by! the 33 year old FORMER PROFESSIONAL BARE KNUCKLE BOXER NOW PERSONAL TRAINER has been in denver ON AND OFF FOR 33 YEARS. they’re known to be quite TOUGH, but being DRIVEN seems to balance that out. or maybe it’s the fact that they resemble NICO TORTORELLA. personally, i’d love to know more about them seeing as how they’ve got those PROTEIN BAR WRAPPERS, SCARED KNUCKLES, SILVER RINGS, YELLING AT SPORTS CHANNELS, BROKEN SKATEBOARDS, and CHIPPED BLACK NAIL POLISH vibes. and maybe i’ll get my chance if i hang out around MONTBELLO DISTRICT long enough!

TW FOR DEATH, DRINK DRIVING, AND CAR CRASH MENTIONS which are brief and tagged accordingly when they start and end.

BASICS:

NAME: ryder sydney.

NIKNAMES: the ghost (formally)

AGE: thirty-three.

BIRTHDAY: 14th july.

GENDER AND PRONOUNS: non-binary, they/he/any (they/he was used by my nico’s partner in a recent interview so i’m under the assumption that’s the ones nico uses the most but they also said any pronouns are welcome!)

SEXUALITY: pansexual and polysexual.

OCCUPATION: professional bare-knuckle boxer (formally), personal trainer.

CONNECTIONS:

an older brother (deceased)

kyo’s unofficial coach / friend.

angelo’s online date.

esme's daughter's father (recently back in contact with).

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

former boxing rivalry.

gym friends.

enemies.

PHYSICAL:

HAIR COLOUR: brown, sometimes dyed platinum.

EYE COLOUR: blue.

HEIGHT: 6 foot 1.

PIERCINGS: none.

TATTOOS: literally too many to mention.

SCARS: many from fighting including but not limited to knuckles, eyebrows, and bottom lip.

OTHER: also has deformed ears from hematoma auris (cauliflower ear) due to repeated trauma to that area.

BIOGRAPHY:

Ryder Sydney comes from a long line of established fighters, from bare-knuckle boxers to more recently mixed martial artists there’s not one generation that hasn’t been involved somehow. That being said, the relationship with the majority of his family is nonexistent. His family, particularly his father and uncles, only acted as relentless coaches. All the siblings were trained at a young age to keep their renowned family name relevant in the industry. In their household praise was rare as there was always something to improve on and “punishments” were harsh which Ryder, always the most rebellious one, was the brunt of. If there’s one thing that runs in their family and it’s violence and impulsiveness so it’s no surprise that he’s carried those traits from a young age too.

TW FOR DEATH, DRINK DRIVING, AND CAR CRASH MENTIONS: Despite everything that has happened in Ryder’s life, the thing that impacts them the most is the night that one of their older brothers died. The person they were the closest to. They remember everything so vividly from him coming to pick them up in his new car, to speeding through the roads outside of the city, and the sudden loud stop and that’s when their memory stops. Little did Ryder know that their brother had been drinking and little did they know that only one person was going to make it out. Ryder has a million and one conflicting feelings about what happened (which also inspired his stage name) but still to this day they’ll never be a passenger in any car. END OF TWS.

As he got older he wanted to separate himself from the Sydney name so he adopted a stage name “The Ghost” and that’s what he fought with for his entire bare-knuckle boxing career from street fighting all the way to bare-knuckle boxing championships. He was good at it too. Earning him several titles. But it all came at a heavy price. Through the years Ryder suffered multiple injuries, from broken bones to repeated concussions that forced them to reluctantly retire. Always being one to try and hide their injuries it was a challenge to have to face them and come to terms that their body couldn’t withstand the gruelling training and matches no more.

Came out as non-binary and pansexual after he retired.

Ryder’s still trying to find his place now he’s not competing.

PERSONALITY:

While coming across as quiet and grumpy, most people will be lucky to get a sentence out of him, Ryder’s not aggressive unless prompted which is in stark contrast to how he looks and his history in boxing. While he prefers to spend time by himself but that doesn’t negate the fact that those close to them get his light-hearted and mischievous side.

Is known to skateboard down a road in the pitch black of night for the adrenaline rush.

Due to their upbringing, they’ve always had an insatiable hunger to be better than they were yesterday. It has driven them to perform bigger stunt stunts and take up bigger fights than the last. Even as a child Ryder would think they could make impossible jumps on their skateboard, and while some of them he made, more often than not he’d end up with scrapes and having to push themselves home on a skateboard with a broken ankle. This is still evident in how even today if Ryder doesn’t feel as though they’re progressing regularly they’d feel disgustingly stagnant and restless and will do anything to feel as though they’re not.

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