#THE POSE. EVERYTHING ABT IT. I FEEL INSANE

[slenderverse]

LOOK RIGHT FUCKING NOW

[valkofish]

HELLO me and my boyfriend are silver and sonic kinnies and we are absolutely IN LOVE with your sonilver art so i just wanted to rant about your art in general bc omg i love it so much

i feel like its so rare to see fanart that feels as personal and unique as yours ?? you put so much personality into every piece down to the stylization of the characters being so unique and specific to how you draw them. like its so uniquely PERSONAL and all of it is so full of love im insane abt it

i love how you use colors and how you lay out your comics.. your poses are full of personality (as well as everything else) and i love your designs for everyone. like i said !! its super unique and i love it

sidenote: me and my bf send each other your sonilver art all the time, its really special to us :) so ty for being an awesome artist <3

oh my goodnes oh my great heavens, I don't think I've ever received such an art analysis, I feel so honoured, thank you so much!! 🥹🥹🥹

this is so sweet, I'm so happy to see my art mean so much for the two of you!!! I'm absolutely speechless!!!!!!!THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭😭🤍💙🤍💙🤍💙🤍💙‼️‼️‼️🥹🥹

i dont know whatelse to saybut imvery happy *does this*

[tynkrst]

I hate to bother but do you have any advice to someone who's trying to improve at drawing? Tbh you're one of my favorite artists online and every post you make is a treat so even just having a fraction of the skill you do would be a boon. Also, what art program do you use and do you have any favorite go to brushes?

AAAAA888888 you're not bothering me at all i'm gonna explode i'm really so honoured to hear that HELLO!!!!!!! thank you so much, it really means a lot to me!!! ;;;;_;;;;; I'M GONNA DO A READ-MORE JUST IN CASE i have a feeling it'll look long

i'm self taught but the process was not the best so it took a while to get here and i had no planning laid out for myself but with what i know now, i think if i could start over, i'd do it like this (since i cannot in good faith recommend u to just stumble for over a decade):

find something you really like drawing (get addicted to ocs. seriously!!!),

follow enough artists to get inspired but not discouraged (ik a lot of people who would treat it as some sort of race or competition or something that's out of reach, and it would bring them down, it's good to have inspiration and goals but u gotta keep ur mental safe!!), but also

do studies, some artists post their studies which is really nifty But it's probably better to do some on your own too bc you'll get a better understanding of things (it sounds boring but i think it's fruitful and fulfilling, i don't do them often but when i do it's a good feeling) also whether you're doing clothes studies or pose studies, do something that will make them fun for you, like drawing an oc or character you really like in that pose or clothes

have fun and take your time with things and do not be hard on yourself‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ pace yourself and draw for yourself!!

i use clip studio paint, it goes on sale every couple of months, every time for 50% (though you could probably yoink it somewhere for free?? but i'm not sure if that'll allow you to download new brushes)

speaking of WHICH these are the brushes (and tool) i use most often (there's a lot of brushes on csp for you to download and play around with so you should do that and test em out to see what works best for you!! there's a LOT of fun tools/brushes to test out)

download links

first: https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1746109 (50 clippy, csp sometimes gives that currency away through login bonuses like gacha (i'm not even kidding))

second: (i've been trying to find a link for over an hour now and i can't find it i'm really sorry abt that BUT i think any brush works, it looks easy to replicate or to find an alternative!!)

third: https://assets.clip-studio.com/en-us/detail?id=1759448 (it's insane and it's FREE, it also has clear instructions on how to use it within the link)

i hope that answers everything, thank u again!!!

[mmollymercury]

For the character ask game, Camilo ☺️

YAYY I GET TO DO THIS AGAIN!!

seriously ppl I love talking abt my hcs, don't be shy to ask me abt them😭💕💕

Camilo

⚧ - Pronoun hc: he/they. This is basically canon lol. If u didn't know, before the movie came out and press was asking questions abt it. Ppl used 'they/them' pronouns to refer to Camilo in interviews 💕 also... the fact that so many nb ppl adopted him... I mean, it shows guys. Birds of feather, innit.

🏳️‍⚧️- Gender hc: non binary💕💞

🏳️‍🌈- Orientation hc: idk abt this one, I've never really thought abt it before. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

🌌- zodiac sign hc: Camilo is a December baby, I'm pretty sure.... Sooo that'd make them a capricorn??? I think😶

🧠- MBTI/Enneagram hc: based on my researchhhhh (but as I've said before I'm very new to this stuff lol) he'd be a ESTP

Some things that helped me come to this conclusion:

Camilo is very extroverted. He does have moments were, if you look carefully, he kinda shrinks in on himself and resumes the 'dinosaur posetm', also known as Bruno's constant state- but despite this, he thrives on attention, I mean look at this pose:

You can practically hear him saying 'look at meee'. Next, I believe they'd make decisions based on the reality of the situation and speak very literally about things, example:

"Err, not if we don't have a house."

He does not entertain the option of that changing right away. He's focused in the now and is trying to get that dealt with first.

He's very confident but he also hides behind other people's faces, literally. I do imagine him to be quite popular in his own right but still, he's very closed off with his emotions and only thinks about catering others, that's literally his gift. So he neglects himself emotionally and pretends he's okay behind his happy demeanour. He's a devil and is the epitome of a little shit. But it's tough love sometimes, they do truly care💞

Now, this section, I like to call: no (with one exception)

❤- OTP hc: 🚫

🧡- Everyone I ship with this character: 🚫

💛- Brotp: Probably him and Mirabel, they're the best of friends💕💕. BUT DONT GET IT TWISTED, THIS ISNT ROMANTIC U FREAKSS😤😤😤🚫🚫🚫

💚- Notp: everything lol (not hating on oc x canon btw, u guys do your thing, I'm just talking abt canon x)

💙- Crossover ship: 🚫

💜- Crossover non-ship relationship I like: mhhhh never really thought abt it. I think Camilo would absolutely roast any person from my other hyperfixations lol

📖- AU I'd like to see them in: modern AU,,, again... Let's face it, he'd be a youtuber who'd make insane, chaotic vlogs with thumbnails on par with drew phillips:

❤🩹- Angsty hc: He lies about how he feels for the sake of others, just like the rest of the family; also uses humor as a coping mechanism. He often worries that people only see him as the people he can be and don't really care about him. Also, I think they'd definitely get paranoid about their appearance and question if this is them or just another shape shifted creation. I think he'd have moments of losing himself and shifting as other people to cope with stuff. He isn't really in touch with who he is because of this. He's got trauma, poor thing🥺🥺🥺

💖- Happy hc: He played with dolls as a kid, due to getting them as hand-me-downs. When abuela gifted him a stereotypical 'boy's toy' he used it to play with said dolls. Like: if it was a football, he'd turn it into 'circle world' and the dolls would play on it lol. Before he forgot him, he used to fall asleep to Bruno rocking him in his arms🥺🥺

😋- Funny/stupid hc: When he hiccups, it sometimes can trigger his shapeshifting. Sometimes, he'll transform into someone and try and keep the clothes that come along with them. It never works.

🪞- Appearance hc: I'm not sure what to put here lol, let's just say: I think he'd eventually ask to get his ears pierced. He was always jealous of how the girls got them done when they were little.

🥖- Food hc: THIS SHIT EATS LIKE IT'S HIS LAST DAY ON EARTH, ALL DAY, EVERYDAY. he's got one of those 'food critic' palletes, there's basically nothing he hates, he loves all flavours AND LIVES for the experience of all of them. He eats everyone's left overs, without leaving a crumb; first thing he does when he and Mira come back from school is complain about being hungry, Mira then says: you literally ate on the walk home bro-

I agree with the headcanon that shapeshifting into all these ppl, wears him out and that's why he's so hungry, however, I also think it's more than that: he just has a naturally fast metabolism and looooves food🥰, cos I like to think he still acts like this when the magic is gone. The family call him a human trashcan lol.

🛌- Sleep hc: he sleeps like he's been hit by a car, snores like an engine and drools all over his pillow.

🏡- Domestic hc: he has the best relationship with Pepa 💕💕😭 he's a momma's boy 💕, Julieta gets annoyed of his eating habits but she's grown to make extra of everything, just for him💞 I think she'd also let him eat the parts of a meal no one else really wants, before she serves the whole thing, for example: like the legs on a chicken, my mam used to do this for my sister lol x

He likes having a jokey, bickering relationship with Félix. They don't actually fight or anything but he'll make play insults like: "old man" and "grey hairs" just to have that playful back and forth banter. They'll both be laughing, knowing there's no malice behind the words🥰

🗡- Badass hc- He'll shapeshift into a bully's mam to get them to back off. Also he just hates on bullies in general, often crossing a line and being a bit of one himself, when trying to defend ppl.

❓- Anything else you want: this boy would watch dragrace, come on now-

[dongfangxunfeng]

😐😐😶😐😶😐

u know that fear of talking abt stuff to ur friends ok this is that like. i genuinely feel . really scared of posting this but also i feel like i can't just act like everything's just fine anymore but. i am starting to think that the last few months have been. ok u know what i am posing this as a question because i don't know anymore.

so i broke up w my ex right . and then for the next 3 months he refused to give me the space i needed and did not respect that decision at all and instead would beg to get back together and used the idea that he still cared about me to try and. get me to emotionally support him and then because i didn't he called me mean and selfish and would literally ask to call me and then yell at me on the phone abt how heartless i was. when i blocked him on discord he texted my phone number and called me immature and shittt for not wanting to talk to him. despite the fact that he has not listened to me when i say i cannot be your friend and i need space from you. uhh is that considered emotional manipulation. sorry i just feel insane

like genuinely i feel like I'm going insane i feel awful posting this BC I feel like I should just work thru it myself . there's more fuckin shit but god i feel like. ahwbdkajwbbeiejsnwknf ok u know what. if this ruins everything oh well.

[quirkle2]

your twi hcs are in fact canon bc i said so . i consider myself an expert on him and ngl youre so right <33 i will add on

he does not berate wild for the stupid shit he does and thats true . BUT he'll take it one step further: oh the chain is in snowpeak and they have to walk so far down ?? both wild and twi are already racing down the mountain on shields, competing against each other on who can go the fastest WHILE STILL doing cool tricks. THEY BOTH SHIELD SURF AT LEAST ONCE CANONICALLY !!!!

as much as they both know that twi is a horrible cook outside of the beef stew he can make, wild still doesnt stop him from trying to help <33 he knows the basics of how to chop vegetables and all that. its just actually figuring out how everything goes together that twilight has no fucking clue on

twi absolutely will never pass up the chance to infodump everything he knows about farm animals to the nearest Link he can grab. additionally he may grab on to that Link by the shoulder while he blabs on. like Sky's cuddles, there is no escape from this until he voluntarily lets you go <33

before majority of the chain know that wolfie is literally twi, he takes advantage of this and uses the Dog Pose and Eyes to beg for scraps from dinner. wild acts irritated and tired at this but he secretly thinks its so funny and clever so he doesnt make any real effort to stop wolfie <33

i will write more . when im not tired from being on campus the entire day <33

YEAH YEAH YEAH EXACTLY twi will Join In on the chaos. he's batshit insane what would give him the right to tell wild no. i firmly believe that while, when it counts, twi is one of the most responsible, he is also, at other times, one of the craziest fucking ones

CRIES,, YES . he's allowed to help with dinner he just wants to feel useful and included,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

and yes he infodumps to the chain abt goats and they will FUCKING LIKE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they listen and ask questions i fucking said so . they are kind and loving and gentle All of Them every single one they love him and they love seeing him happy and if that means having to sit there for an hour hearing facts about farm animals They Will

ADORE the idea of twi having no fucking shame and using the puppy eyes even though some of the chain know it's him. if a wolf can turn around toward wild and give him a shit-eating Dog Grin, he does exactly that

[reveriecorridor]

*thinks of someone unconventional* what about lucillius :)

*poses* hiiiiii

Sexuality Headcanon:

gay gay homosexual gay

Gender Headcanon:

faa is literally like a creature to me. theyre everything all at once but also nothing at all at the same time. hope this helps!

A ship I have with said character:

hope this img helps!

A BROTP I have with said character:

🥹 pls i like to think abt lucifaces sibling moments. like it would be AWFUL bc lucio is a little shit but i like to think about it.

gbf can u give me crumbs again please

A NOTP I have with said character:

nobody ever will ever make me tolerate b*lial like i know theres ppl out there who ship it. I Know It. i hope they all know theyre wrong

A random headcanon:

i feel like i just adopted it from you or calico. or both bc ur both insane. but i like to think abt primarchs preening their feathers. faa is not immune.

General Opinion over said character:

I DONT TALK ABOUT THEM ALOT bc nervy but good god does he make me feel mental.

things that just Stick with you forever

[jelluf1sh]

★ my first ever impressions of twisted wonderland characters.

(nobody asked for this.)

ace trappola — i remember thinking he was definitely one of the heartthrobs from otome games. his pose when i first saw him made me think, “he likes to egg people’s houses and steal his friends’ snacks and hit on girls.” i still don’t like him obv.

deuce spade — i thought he was one of those silent but popular types. 💀 i was so shocked when he literally did not know that grocery store eggs don’t have chickens in them.

riddle rosehearts — his appearance kinda gives his personality away, i think, but i’m stupid, so i told myself, “he’s one of the mean but soft-at-heart kind of guys. so harmless.”

trey clover — average asl. i don’t hate him by any means, but he’s just not noticeable to me.

cater diamond — honestly, my first original look at cater made me think of asmo (i forgot if i started playing obey me before i started playing twst wait). i like his hair and his earrings — “definitely one of the carefree, ‘i’m-just-coasting’ kind of guys.” i still need more lore.

leona kingscholar — “OMG he’s so fine” and “DAMN”. my first thoughts. not gonna elaborate on this.

ruggie bucchi — so fun fact!! i used to have a really big crush on ruggie back in my early twst playing days. pls do not bring this up to me. they were not good times and i will cry.

jack howl — idk what it was abt savanaclaw man.. i wanted him to be my bf so bad.

azul ashengrotto — he’s one of the characters that i could never get into or seriously simp for. i don’t know what it is. when i first read over his backstory in book 3, i felt bad, but i don’t think i’ve ever really had romantic feelings for him..?? also i hated him to the CORE for evicting me.

floyd leech — i took one look at him and jade and said, “he’s the better twin.” he was honestly comedic relief to me, but i remember getting so happy when i got or groovified new floyd cards.

jade leech — i kinda fluctuated with jade cause on one hand, he’s really pretty and is def a sebastian michaelis kinnie. which is hypothetically everything i would want. on the other hand, he’s literally sm worse than floyd..

kalim al-asim — RRSFGHAHHUHGYS i used to sing prince ali but i’d replace prince ali with his name. idk who could ever hate kalim???? he was like my everything.

jamil viper — from my first time looking at him, i could never even guess that his backstory is what it is. BUT WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS WHIPPED LIKE.. 😭 when i tell u i had the most downbaditis i’ve ever had ever. i listened to genie in a bottle so many times twirling my hair and thinking of him pls don’t metion this ever again.

vil schoenheit — another fun silly fact!! guys i used to HATEEE vil schoenheit. i mean i HATED the way he acted, the way he talked, the way he looked at me. i was such a wrong and horrible person to my wife back then.. BUT!! i have come to severely appreciate and love him (in concerning amounts maybe).

rook hunt — funny enough, i never paid much attention to rook in my early twst months. i found him gross actually. and really creepy. CRAZY LOCO INSANE i know because now that im a changed person ill never let him out of my basement arms 💗!!

epel felmier — “awwww.” that was my first mistake because i would’ve gotten my ass beat if he heard me. um. i feel like we all thought epel was a girl right. not just me.. the harveston event maybe sparked a little something in me. maybe. do i have a crush on him ?? u will never know.

idia shroud — SHUT ur mouth i need to speak. IMMEDIATELY i was hooked on idia. this walking bright blue pixie stick of depression yep!!! im the biggest idia kinnie u will ever see btw!!! um from the day i met him i swore to protect his life and his comfort so erm. we’re locked in.

ortho shroud — i can’t really talk about chapter 6, but he didn’t get much screentime OUTSIDE of that so i’ll just say he’s a sweet kindhearted baby and move on.

★ malleus draconia — i gave him a star because he was my first ever twisted wonderland card!! i picked him i think because he had pointy ears and that regal look on his face. nevertheless, i still love how coincidental it was that mally is one of the only characters that actually has a romantic fanbase with the mc (me lol) and he was my first pick. <3 (I LOVE YOUV HORNTOBSJ)

lilia vanrouge — I WNATED TO MARRY HIM SO BAD OMG OMG OMG I DONT. WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS PHASE OF TM LIFE PLEASEEJ JUST SKIP THIS. MY FRIEND STILL CALLS ME A STEPMOM TO THIS DAY IM SICKKKKK

silver — i still have nothing noteworthy to say about him and it’s been a year. idk what to put down. he’s cute when he sleeps ????? i sound like rook ????

sebek — loud mouthed little fishfart. please just stfu. i used to have a crush on him too. embarrassing please don’t ttm about that either..

grim — i kind of just thought he’d be like paimon 💀 twst got me so good with that

[sunny-reis]

b4 i say anything in this mini-rant i wanna clarify: i'm a rational person with the ability to think and comprehend both logic behind and the implications of using ai in general . i'm aware of the shitty things ai is used for and the issue of copyright and plagiarism with things like chatbots [cough cough chatgpt] - obviously, i support orgs like the wga and strikes against the misuse of ai to abuse power and exploit tens of thousands, maybe even millions, of ppl .

i don't know why i feel the need to clarify all that when this is tumblr dot com . i'm a user with like less than 40 followers [no reach, no one's gonna see this or care . am i complaining? no. this blog is my abandoned parking lot and i'm going to scream into the void] and it's not that deep but ykw? that's the beauty of this hellsite it's like my own personal diary that's secure bc i don't care . woohoo

neways rant abt ai incoming, to the three ppl that actually interact with this blog: feel free to add your thoughts if you want [@ that one moot . you know who you are] but please for the love of god don't start a fight for no reason

the phrase ai is thrown around like a buzzword and it makes me SICK ough

there are genuine discussions about the use of ai to be had - the wga strikes were a HUGE step in the right direction, and i believe the us govt opened a platform for ppl to voice their thoughts on it around a month or two ago

my problem with THIS hellsite specifically is that no one gives a shit about actually researching what ai is, the technology and effort behind its creation, or the positive sides of its use . what i DO like is that people are aware of the danger it poses to the workforce as a whole and people's livelihoods and whatnot . that's indescribably better than the tech bros on twt and in every cs class i've ever had the misfortune of being in.

what i really don't like abt discussions abt ai here is the way it's all one-sided. like i just said, i LIKE how we're cautious bc, again, we don't have the institutions in place to regulate its use which corporations (go figure) exploit. but like .. from a tech perspective, it's a huge development. it's a marvel of INSANELY complex algorithms and neural networks (i think - correct me if i'm wrong abt the second part) that really shows how far we've come as tech ppl . minor problem : capitalism 😄

i don't have the mental energy to say everything i wanted to but yeah . there's no room for genuine debate abt ai on this stupid website bc every time you try to even elaborate abt all the possible povs on the matter you get swarmed by ppl that aren't completely educated on the matter. [am i trying to say i'm the supreme lord of knowing everything abt artificial intelligence? no .] i just wish it was possible to have a semblance of a healthy conversation on this stupid stupid website oufhdhddhhbdhdhdhsbbsbsbsbdbdsb

[tigerdrop]

u know u could put out the weirdest most fucked up shit and we would still love it. obviously don't share stuff if it makes u uncomfortable but for every single thing you find embarrassing there's something several times worse

i really hope ur ready to stand by these words b/c im about to tell you about.......showdog dogboy gordon. for five thousand fucking words

look. listen. hear me out. my dear kogo introduced me to an idea and it has not left my mind since: showdog......dogboy......gordon

like.........you know.......its about. dogboy. submitting while benrey dolls him up and makes him look nice. maybe hes been a lot......fuzzier since he got forcibly nintendogged. and maybe benrey cracks a joke about it, maybe the joke gets pulled out a little too far. b/c its the two of them, and thats what they do. its jokes. games. jokes being riffed upon and thinly-veiled dares being issued until gordon freeman finds himself standing awkwardly next to a grooming table in nothing but his underwear while benrey tells him to chill the fuck out. puts that collar on him. after all, he wants to look nice for his friend, right? they say a dog is mans best friend

this definitely would not be the first time a joke or a game went too far and they ended up fucking at the end of it, but this is......this is a whole level beyond. this is definitely, like. theres a Lot going on here. but neither of them are breaking character yet so

and. you know. if youre feeling really insane. like me. if youre feeling just fucking diseased. you can make benrey.......pretty big here. make gordon dogy-sized next to him. not like, tiny, but enough that gordon, ordinarily a Big Guy, feels......small. a little emasculated

and.....yknow. gordon could be collared and chained to the table. like a real dog. not a lot of slack on that thing. and maybe hed be.......muzzled, too. if hes the kind of dogboy that gets snippy at scissors

its really good also for.....benrey being fully clothed and gloved up while gordons almost entirely bare. i know dog groomers dont strictly have to wear gloves. but still. not that it was really going to stop me if he wouldnt actually have a reason to wear gloves. i would make him anyway b/c ive lost all dignity

ITS ABOUT. THE HORNY FUCKING GAME. like they could talk about it if, if they wanted, if they were normal about it, b/c in this scenario they have absolutely fucked it out before (b/c i cant imagine any other fucking way gordon freeman acquiesces to this unless hes Aware that theres gonna be dick touching involved), but they are not normal and they are not going to break kayfabe even if it kills them

and like......i think the muzzle thing is......good. its really really good. b/c benrey can get real fuckin mean and tell him that hes gonna have to be a good boy and keep his teeth to himself if he wants it off so that benrey can make him look less like shit

those new canines of his are awful pointy. is gordon sure he can handle it? can he get a grip on his dogy side for fucking long enough to let benrey take a straight razor to his face? of course he can, he thinks, b/c hes not a fucking dog, okay, hes still a guy, and hes here to prove it and just. behave. while benrey manhandles him and grooms him and brushes out his fur and files his fucking nails. hes not in thrall to his instincts whether they be animalistic or vulgar. and hes definitely not going to cave and ask benrey to touch his fucking dick while he does this

> i enjoy the thought of benrey posing gordon as he pleases but never directly touching him, lifting his leg to get under his upper thigh or stretching the skin of his belly taut as not to nick him. so concentrated on gordon but feigning ignorance to his building arousal, ignoring it

> that art jordan did where gordon is on the table and has the collar on. his chest is shaved into the shape of a heart and that made me so DFUCKING CRAZY I STARTED BARKING AND SNARLING AKLSJAKDJFS

YEAH.....ITS......its shaved into a heart on purpose. and i left that in the first version i posted but nobody said anything about it so i just whistled and walked away

> LIKE. the emasculation of it....the fucking. possesiveness. theres also an undercurrent of like tenderness to it that made me fucking go apeshit

its such a fucking power move too. like. thats not gonna grow out for awhile. every time gordon freeman looks in the mirror for the next few weeks hes gonna be reminded of how fuckin debased he was

just..............consider........the trust hed have to put in benrey for it........benrey holding gordons jaw very firmly in his hand and showing him the straight razor and being like "yo.......uhh......this things sharp. dont wanna make a mess......better, better sit real fuckin still. sit boy. dont move." and sitting rigidly after benrey says something like that while tilting his jaw up to look directly athim is one of the hardest things gordons done in his life. hes sweating and hes making himself dizzy by trying not to breathe too much

he can just......he can see exactly where gordons jugular is fluttering madly under the razor and where gordons adams apple bobs as benrey skims stubble off his throat and rest assured that benrey is getting off on this just as much as gordon is

big......big hands on his face.....turning him every which way.......running his thumb over the clean line of his jaw to feel the results..........i think its just, its a cool scenario. to think about. but instead of this being just a normal "gordon freeman gets shaved" scenario, hes half naked and chained to a table and also has dog ears for some fucking reason

but also this is just like......his face. its the "trimming him everywhere" thats the really fun part

> like...the moving down his body....touching almost clinically by moving part of him around to get everything...yknow....

casual.....clinical.......nervewracking to be on the receiving end of

> thinking about him having to restrain his horny is fun, but it’s especially fun when you think about how he’d spend hours like that, hard and dripping, since friend benrey wants to be so through

> YES CLINICAL, ALMOST INDIFFERENT

fucking. hours. of just laying there anxiously running his mouth and laughing and gasping when benrey moves him like its nothing or touches him somewhere that makes him jump......like.......benrey with something whirring as loudly as those clippers in his hand doesnt exactly inspire confidence......but hes weirdly good at what hes doing and hes got a broad palm flat on gordons stomach to hold him in place/get him to chill out......but it just makes gordon sweat and flush and hes trying so hard to stay still b/c benrey keeps demeaning him when he squirms too much......like, what, is he scared? thinks benreys gonna cut his other arm off with a pair of hair clippers? get real. calm down maybe.

but thats not really the reason why hes acting weirdly ticklish about the whole procedure. (its because of the Scenario, man. gordons trying so hard to be normal in the face of the awareness that this is one of the most insane things hes ever gotten hard for, but we all know how strung out this dude gets at even relatively normal shit. so much so that benrey will just stare at him blankly and ask "uhhh, stop moving please? thank you?" b/c gordons so handsy ordinarily and he keeps trying to move his hands when he talks)

> listen. what if he....absentmindedly like...pet. him. on the stomach. just doing the motion cause it soothes normal dogs so when he feels gordon squirming he strokes heavily down. repetitive...but hes not even focusing on that, hes like intent on getting the part hes trimming just right gordon freezes up and stops breathing for a second to flush all over. benrey’s hand is so hot on his stomach, and he can only focus on how good it feels,

> squirmy because he feels like he’s gonna die if his dick doesn’t get touched and all his instincts are screaming to disobey and hump benrey into the ground (not like he physically can with the restraints but)

eventually benreys gonna have to get down to brass tacks and shave and trim all of him

> and like the whole time. the whole goddamn time gordons just in his boxers absolutely throbbing with it and like. benrey's hand moves to his stomach and like the waistband of  his boxers. yeah. all of him.

can you imagine. gordon freeman desperately trying not to be horny while his best friend kneels between his legs and hooks those fingers in his waistband and starts peeling them off and completely fucking failing at it but hes still gotta try, right. whether hes cis or trans this idiot is so horny that his underwear is just. ruined

> i still cant stopr thinking abt. in the pictures you drew jordan. the way benrey is. delicately touching gordons dick/pussy to get a better angle for shaving

Y. YEAH. ITS POTENT. IMO. gordon having to pretend like hes not fucking horny in the slightest while benrey just kind of clinically moves his dick around and laughs at him when it twitches......ITS A LOT.

> the amount of willpower gordon is exercising not to fuck up into benrey’s palm when he’s loosely holding his dick to shave all the hair around it is honestly impressive

hes trying so fucking hard. hes shaking. look at him. tail thumping weakly against the table

just......like......i was thinkin about benrey getting gordon stripped bare while he stammers and rambles because he is so very fucking turned on right now and hes so embarrassed by this that he just stares firmly at the ceiling and humiliates himself ranting about how its a totally normal response and plenty of guys get erections during prostate exams and benrey has no idea what the fuck hes talking about

> this was th. part. ...benrey ignoring his boner and his rambling like "yeah alright. stay still for this part though for real" and gets to work. gordon absolutely mortified but hes breathing real shallow cause he doest want to get nicked here of all places so. and benrey placing a hand on his thigh to push them open further so that he can get a better angle and gordon's leg shakes. its quiet until benrey says to himself "'youre bein still. 's good." and gordon's dick visibly twitches at that and he shuts his eyes quickly and turns his face away. also i was still thinkin,,,,bout how the little praise straight up goes to gordon's head and his tail might also thump a lil faster on the table.

> would benrey notice? probably. maybe not say anything at first but just let a real evil smirk spread on his face, laughing a little. and then say lowly when hes focused on his work, "really like that huh. lil dogboy. you like being good?" and gordon lets out a harsh breath, stomach jumping. doesnt respond but his tail moves even faster. benrey's wrist brushes the head of his dick and he lets out a small sound, which turns strangled then he actually takes his hand and presses his dick to the side so he can get right below his stomach. its detached, hes just holding it pressed to the crease of his hip, but gordon's dick throbs under his palm and dribbles precome against the gloved fingers

> Okay, so, part of the grooming process is, of course, bathing the dog. And luckily, Benrey has a wonderful tool to help him with this. A hand-held shower hose with a lovely little shower head with very nice settings to help our little showdog get... clean.

> Imagine, if you will: Gordon, on all fours and chained up to keep him upright as Benrey slowly, methodically, wets him down. Lathers him up. Works his hands all over his body, from tail tip to the top of his head. Massaging into his belly. Rubbing inside his thighs. Cleaning every part of him. Every part.

> And the shower head occasionally dips down, pulsing, right to a sweet spot between Gordon’s legs, the closest thing he’s got to attention the entire time they’ve been playing this game. He’s so close, so GODDAMN close to getting what he wants, but every time Benrey realizes he’s getting somewhere... ... He moves it. To spray his back. His head. His chest. Anywhere but where Gordon wants it.

> Gordon is shaking. His legs are trembling, the table is wet and slick. He’s having such a hard time staying up on all fours, he’s panting and begging and losing his footing and EVERY TIME he loses his footing, well, the collar and chain choke him and force him right back up. And Benrey is just watching. Grinning.

> Waits for him to get his composure.

> And does it again.

just......like.......jesus. gordon would be. shaking. his whole body. panting like a dog. trying so hard to stay still. but he keeps trying to spread his legs wider when benrey reaches his thighs and he keeps slipping and accidentally choking himself and hes nearly at the breaking point trying to keep himself together but benrey runs a big, warm hand along his side and makes a passing comment on what a good boy hes being and gordon almost fucking yells from how overwhelmed he gets

i want gordon freeman fucking obliterated. i want him to suffer first from benrey jerking him around and then being made to jerk himself around, trying and failing to keep his shit together.....and when benrey tells him sumn like, hey no, dont lay down........even if your arms and legs are shakin, you gotta stay up bro.......its so fuckin demeaning and gordon just spits out "im trying!" and benrey buries his free hand in gordons hair like hes gonna tug in retaliation, but instead he just scratches gordons scalp in a way that feels really fucking good and asks "you gonna bite? huh? gonna bite me? when im treatin you so nice......jeez, man" and that takes him back from the brink a little

hes just always keeping gordon on his toes. switching settings. dragging it out and making gordon shake from head to toe, sometimes putting on one of those real powerful pulsing jets to overstimulate him and make gordon yelp and just work him up into a trembling mess struggling to stay upright. snarling in ugly frustration when benrey yanks the showerhead away just as gordons starting to Get There. it feels like it must have been hours that hes been being bathed like this and teased from occasional glancing sprays with the waterhead to direct stimulation while benrey chuckles at him and just blandly comments "youre shaking." and gordon stammers out hotly "of course im fucking shaking, you keep fucking with me and i just wanna--" and benrey takes him by the chin and makes gordon look up at him and says, laughing at him under his breath, "dogs dont talk, bro"

ike.......at this point u might think "surely thats enough. throw the guy a bone." and that maybe, now, gordon freeman will get his dick touched like he deserves. you owuld be wrong. benreys not done here. gordons gotta come down from that table, get toweled off. and when benrey unclips that leash from the table, gordon just fucking collapses. his arms and legs cant really hold him up right now......hes being strung out like a violin, drawn to maximum tautness before being let go all at once just before he snaps.

and this is where benrey plays a little nice.......dries him off and blowdries him a little, brushing out his hair and his tail. hes committed to the bit, okay? he said he was gonna make his best bro look nice, so hes gonna make gordon look nice. this whole time hes letting gordon come back down.....and its......its kind of frustrating, if benreys just gonna decide to leave him like this and drag him outta here  and call that the end of the game, but its not the worst thing in the world right now. for the first time in hours hes not being asked to do something. he doesnt even really have to move his own arms and legs.

but No. hes still not done. theres something theyre forgetting........gotta clip your nails, bro. its the last thing on benreys docket, and gordons embarrassed for a different (but taxonomically similar) reason. all the personal attention and the bizarre intimacy of it makes gordons mouth start running, just to get his mind off it. pretend to be normal! surely thats gonna work when the guy who nearly gave him a nervous breakdown from being edged and toyed with beyond belief is now at his feet, filing nails and running curious thumbs over the tendons and muscles. benreys almost more lost in it than gordon is at this specific point. (hes been doing nothing but jerking gordon around and its hard work. he deserves this.)

gordons been good. really fuckin good. didnt even nip his fingers. benreys best friend deserves a treat.

> look. hes been so fucking good the whole time. not moving and not touching himself, not breaking the tension they have with each other, staying so still. i think he deserves something nice. but like gordon doesnt expect it, he expects to just be jerked around and let go. benrey tells him to stay on the table and he complains about it like "im done now. you. you said we were done" but benrey comes back with a fresh pair of gloves and gordon tenses until benrey places a hand on his chest and tells him to calm down. he was good. rubs at his chest and stomach, slowly pushing him down onto the table while gordon squeaks when benrey parts his legs.  hes mostly soft now but he hears benrey doing something and then rubbing a slick finger around his hole and he lets out a little "oh god. oh god. " that turns into a moan when he presses in.

> gordon's calmed down a bit but its goddamn embarrassing how quickly he gets wet again, dick throbbing a little. and i think. hm. i  think it would be very fun to do overstimulation in this way now too since hes been edged so much that hes actually fucking desperate to come

> i think he should be be fingered until he howls and comes like 3-4 times. he's finally finally getting what he wants i dont know if he would know what to do. hes probably embrassed as all fuck from the way he acted that whole time, but when he starts getting fingered all that stuff just blanks from his mind and its so, so hard for him to not just chase that feeling and whore himself out. the opportunities for whoredon dialogue when hes that desperate are like  saying shit hes cant even think about like "god - please f- fuck." and benrey's only got one finger in him but hes so wet already that benrey tries a second and it slips in easily. he crooks his fingers and gordon fucking keens, thighs shaking.

the fuckin. the agony in his voice when hes hoarsely begging benrey "do not stop do not fucking stop i cant take it" and just. slamming his fist into the table and being so fucking loud, oh my god, this guy is loud

> the thought of how loud he would be crazed me im just. just. him laying on the fucking table, eyes shut tight and moaning high and loud while he pulls tightly on his own hair, clenching hard around benrey's fingers

i think it would just be cool if. uhh. the thing that finally breaks gordon. gets him to just Let Go. is benrey catching him trying to choke back his words and his sounds and just laughs at him, like, "this is the easy part man. you wanna be a good dog? better, uhh.....better beg. cmon, boy. beg." and gordons hips jerk and the subsequent praise he gets when he actually does it makes him just.......snap.......Bye

> and what if.......benrey doesnt remove them as gordon comes down from that. he just waits a few seconds while gordons still panting and then scissors them and wrings a strangled sound out of gordon, whos hips move down again. and the heat starts building again in his gut and he cant even get out full sentences anymore, just bits and pieces while he fucks onto benrey's fingers. m. maybe benrey's growling out shit like "thats it, cmon. been good for me all fuckin day. you want more?" and gordon nods his head without even looking but he hears a thump and sees benrey kneeling between his thighs and he. licks up from where his fingers are to his clit and he just seals his mouth on it and sucks and that makes gordon come a second time, thighs clamping shut around benrey's ears.

i just......i lvoe......overstim.......and i think gordon freeman should have his pussy eaten until he cannot fucking take it anymore

maybe......even.......maybe after gordon comes a second time. benrey doesnt stop sucking and licking. at first it seems like benreys just working him thru the orgasm, but then he just keeps going. and gordons sensitive, hes too fucking sensitive, each time benreys tongue swipes over him he jerks and tries to close his legs. frantically gasping that he did it, okay, he got gordon off, voice getting high and broken, but benrey just pulls back and looks at him flatly and then very deliberately. spreads his legs wider in one swift movement. and pins them with his big fucking hands. and just looks him in the eye and says "i know, dude" and puts his mouth right back on gordon anyway. and gordons legs twitch like fucking mad but benreys so strong and he cant move and hes slamming his fist on the table again from how overwhelming it is, tears prickling in the corner of his eyes, howling into the open air how benreys killing him, hes fuckin killing him, why does he like jerking gordon around so much........and benrey glances up and breaks the seal of his mouth around gordons dick and mutters something about how he must not be doin his job if gordons still talking

i want him to howl wordlessly with frustration and grab benreys hair and yank him closer as gordon rounds the corner from "the agony of getting sucked off when hes hyper-sensitive" to "the agony of chasing yet another orgasm". i want this dude to be tonguefucked until he wails!!! I Want Him Ruined. meat: massacred. pussy: destroyed. i think it would be cool if gordon freeman was wailing at him for more, dont stop, benrey, until benreys got two big fingers back in him and is squeezing in a third alongside them and hes so fucking tight from having just come twice in a row, but the groan gordon lets out when its finally inside him is so guttural and low it makes benrey blink and shiver

and i think that for the grand finale benrey should smash that dogboy pussy. thanks for coming to my TED talk

hes been going thru this shit for hours. taking his time to really screw gordon freeman up good. and its been so fuckin worth it just to hear all the fun new sounds gordon made (cuz of him, he reminds himself). benreys been awkwardly adjusting his dick in his pants for way too fucking long, and gordons been watching him do it. staring at it. saliva collecting at the corner of his mouth. he was achingly hard the whole time he was giving gordon a glorified pedicure. and he didnt even ask to shift forward from where he was kneeling to let the arch of gordons foot press against his dick. its been just as hard for benrey to keep control and stick to the rules of the game as it has been gordon, and this dude oughta get to crush mad pussy okay

> the thought of this is kinda making me insane actually so. im just. h. im just thinking about how it would go down like. augh. i think that gordon would be shaking from his third consecutive orgasm but like. he can keep going. and he finally gets a moment to breathe and look at benrey whos just a mess. hair messed up where gordon gripped it, red faced, mouth dripping with his own drool and gordon's slick and hes remembers like. this guys so fucked up over this, god. and hed been thinking about his dick the whole time, even though he thought he wasnt gonna get anything out of it for a while. hes been wanting it. and so like like he doesnt want to play any more games. hes been good he deserves this.

> benrey's still got three fingers in him so he kind of just pushes him back and breaths out "fuck me". benrey's actually absolutely dazed from everythin and has to process it like "huh. wh" but gordons like "just fucking do it, cmon. im not gonna say it again" and benrey finally actually registers it like. "y-yeah. okay." and he barely has any time to think before gordon's hauling him up onto the table. starts fumbling to get his pants and shirt off and gordons practically tearing at his clothes which doesnt fucking help. letting out little growls maybe like "fucking. jerking me around this whole time fuck you. can see how much you wanted it" and they finally manage to get them off and gordon pulls him on top and ruts against him. its finally now clicking for benrey that fuck. this is actually happening and he pushes into him with a low sound and gordon's thighs and tail go still and taut until he bottoms out.  gordon's fucking panting and clenches down on him and they both let out a little sound and benrey starts fucking into him slow. but cmon. this dudes been pent up the whole goddamn time. its barely any time before hes gripping gordon's hips and fucking up into him fast and hard, hips slapping against gordon's at a desperate pace. he probably tries to make it last but he cant, hes been edging himself too long. im going to fucking die see ya everybody

thinking about just how fuckin bad benreys legs would shake from the effort of pushin in reaaalll slow b/c gordons so fucking tight after having gotten off 3 times in a row.......trembling from the effort of trying to hold himself back......and gordons nails digging into the back of his neck and dragging down his back to leave long red furrows behind....... gordons eyes screwed tightly shut while the only thought on repeat in his head is "oh my god hes big hes so fucking big" and he can barely fuckin speak

> like yeah he had three fingers in him but this is so goddamn much. thinking about...gordon's hands clawing into back involuntarily from the stretch, letting out little cut off pants while his legs shake a little from it. i just. like the thought of his tail pointing out stiffly and trembling too. the absolutely wrecked sound he would let out when he bottomed out, all of that tension kind of leaving him in a drawn out deep moan. benrey shifts just a little to get a better grip on gordon's thighs and it causes him to yelp a little cause its so fucking much just from that movement.

> benrey's trying not to move but his hips are twitching from holding himself back and gordons letting out little. sounds that are making him insane. he pulls out just a little and that makes gordon let out a whine. and when he pushes back in gordon lets out breathless "fuck!" like its been punched out of him. even going this slowly is making him fucking shake like a leaf. hes squeezing his eyes shut tight heaving deep breaths, chest rising and falling fast. hes so full be can barely think. and benrey's just fucking stupid with cumbrain and hes saying all kinds of filthy shit like "h - fucking - so fucking good for me. so good. nnh. best. best friend -" and that makes gordon let out a whine. the praise has been getting to him the whole time and just. again with the loaded phrase of best friend. like the possesiveness of that. that combined with the near-overstimulation of getting filled makes him actually kind of lose it. his thighs clamp around benreys hips and his toes curl and pulls benrey's hips forward to make him thrust into him, so he stop going slow. bye. goodbye

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Proud - King and Longing Heart

A/N: Hi, I'm sappy and emotional but I'm sure y'all have figured that out by now lmao. ANYWAYS hi it's Alistair and I's six month wedding anniversary today and uh here's a fic to celebrate 🥺 and that's abt all I have to say on that for once awnwisnehs I may also being posting a poem later if I can work up the courage but. We will see 😔

CW: Like 2 sec mention of alcohol but not even of consumption. Getting undressed but like domestically not sexually and no nudity. Silly banter where we're kind of going back and forth poking fun at each other but it's all flirty and in good fun and just how we talk!! Hint at Al feeling insecure? But not explicitly stated.

Word Count: 871

Tag List: @sacredempressnatlyia @ladynyat @solomates @cosmicselfship (I. Forget who was even on the tag list at this point. I need to post writing more. I should make a tag list post. Y'all just have this and if you would rather not be tagged just lmk no questions asked avatavtaavyaa!!! and if anyone else would like to be tagged/I forgot to tag you also just lmk as per usual <3)

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I fell back onto our bed dramatically as Alistair closed the door behind us, sighing loudly. “If Teagan doesn't start running Redcliffe and stop randomly showing up here to make us have formal dinners with him to discuss policy, I may go insane.”

His chuckle was low, and soothing, “Are you telling me you don't enjoy being grilled about what we intend to do for road infrastructure on the Imperial Highway?"

“After the huge construction effort that was made to re-pave the whole thing just last year? Not particularly, no.”

He laughed more loudly at that, “Can you really blame him for wanting to make sure that people have an easy time traveling to Redcliffe?”

I raised my head enough to look at him and raise an eyebrow in question, “Are you insinuating anyone has ever had a difficult time getting Redcliffe because of infrastructure and not the plethora of other issues that plague the Hinterlands? Because I beg to differ.”

“You've got me there.”

“Does that mean you'll tell Teagan to go home and stay home?”

“Are you insinuating Teagan listens to me? Because I beg to differ.”

“...You've got me there.” I sat up slowly, stretching my arms out, “Feel like helping me get this dress off? Because these laces are hell and I'd love you forever if you undid them so I don't have to.”

He placed a hand over his heart in mock offense as he moved to meet me at the mirror, “Ouch, I didn't know I was still earning your undying love.”

“I’ve gotta keep you on your toes somehow, can't have you getting complacent.”

“Right, because running a kingdom couldn't possibly be enough to keep me sharp.”

“I see we should be prioritizing curbing your ego, then. I'll note that.” I began undoing the necklace I was wearing as he began undoing the laces on my dress that I couldn't reach.

“So are we going to acknowledge that our wedding was six months ago today, or were we just intending to let that slip by?” His eyes met mine in the mirror over my shoulder once he posed the question.

“Ah, you noted that, did you? I didn't know if six months would be a milestone you'd consider.”

He shrugged, “I'm holding onto the really fancy wine until a full year, but half of one isn't something to snub, is it?”

“No, you're right. Quite impressive that we've gone a full six months of being officially joined at the hip and you're still not sick of my antics.”

He pouted softly, “If it makes you feel any better, I would never describe any of your behaviors as ‘antics’.” He finished with the laces and moved his hands to rest them on my shoulders, rubbing them softly.

“Six months and you've already got the whipped husband thing down pat. That really is the most impressive part, I'd say.”

He reached for one of my hands, raising it to his lips to kiss my knuckles softly, “I could've never perfected the mindset without your guidance. Or just my general adoration for you.”

I rolled my eyes, but couldn't stop my smile, “Oh, stop that. What did I say about derailing conversations with compliments?”

His eyes were gentle, and so was his hand on my shoulder. “Have I told you that I love you?” A thousand times, and he knew it.

“Have I told you I’m proud to be your wife?” His expression snapped to shock as he held my gaze in the mirror. A genuine question, and based on the reaction I was receiving, I assumed the answer was ‘no’.

“Well- I-” I was almost embarrassed to say that I found his sputtering endearing. Almost.

“How does it feel, being on the receiving end of the sudden compliment, huh?” My tone was teasing, but my voice was quiet.

His voice was choked with emotion even as he joked back, “Pretty good, actually. I really don't see what you've been complaining about.”

I ran my thumb over his knuckles, softly, “You know I mean it, right?”

“It's still a little hard to believe, if I'm being honest.”

I turned to face him, taking his face in my hands. Our height difference made the position awkward, as I was determined to look into his eyes, but I would make it work.

“You are the best man I have ever known, and I am proud of you. None of your accomplishments have been anything to write off, down to the way you retain your goodness even in spite of everything you've been through. To even be associated with you was one of the few things I wear as a badge of pride, and to now be viewed as your partner is truly all I could ask for. Do you understand?”

His misty eyes told me that he did. He opened his mouth to speak, but promptly shut it again, and settled for leaning down even farther to bury his face in my neck. I settled for bringing my hand up to run it through his hair, silently.

After a few moments, I both heard and felt him murmur, almost silently, “I love you.”

“And I love you, my King.”

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