#TRISTAN NOOO

[steve0discusses]

Every event in this sequence of events was more unhinged than the last.

[anxiously-awaiting]

thinks about the double entendre in tristan's bio ("one day, Tristan fell in love with a woman named Iseult. No, he was made to fall in love.") and then starts chewing my hands off

[mako-neexu]

カドぐだ | mystic code.

“...I’m honestly not going to say anything anymore, to be honest.” Kadoc bluntly says after giving Fujimaru a dead-pan stare.

The Master laughs, bringing her sunglasses down to her eyes as the snowstorm only grew stronger. “Suit yourself, Senpai.” She aims at another soldier, gandr sparked and gathered at her fingertip before shooting point-blank at the enemy. “But it’s Arts season and there’s no way I’m missing another chance to strengthen this mystic code.”

Kadoc regrets the fact that he didn’t take a few tablets of painkillers today to deal with his kouhai’s insane bullshit.

Honestly, Hinako- Yu Mei-ren should be dealing with her! Not him!

He clicks his tongue loudly before wrapping an arm around the girl’s waist (don’tlookdown,don’tlookdown,don’tlookdown-!) to fling them away from the explosion of an attack that were aimed at them seconds prior.

Before he could berate Ritsuka further, her smirk turned into a wolfish grin as she brought her communicator up and opened the battle sequence. “Give us an all-out attack, guys!” She shouted over to the Servants before sending her instructions to them.

Xu Fu held down the giant hydra with her arts- Pope Johanna then prayed for her allies-

Then, Ryouma and Oryo finally dealt the finishing blow.

“Yeah, yeah! You guys are the bes-AGHK!?” Kadoc barely had time to react before he covered this stupid Master with his body, shielding her from the impact of the dragon’s blow.

Ghhh---!!! This is the worst! Pressed up against her while she wears nearly next to nothing---!!! He was seriously going to put on that damn collar again if it meant that she avoid doing unpredictable and crazy shit like this again!

Kadoc chalked his blush up to the cold of the environment and looked anywhere but Fujimaru before him.

When everything had finally settled, including the storm that raged earlier, he sighed in relief. Dear god. He would never ever get used to being in constant danger with mythical beasts.

Warmth- a hand cups his cheek.

“Thanks for supporting me back there, Kadoc-kun.”

He saw a smile from the corner of his eyes. Unable to resist, he half-heartedly glared up at Ritsuka. But the pink that spread across his face deepened. He merely rolled his eyes in response before pulling on her cheek with his gloved hand, “You seriously have to learn defensive magic that protects your body after this.”

“Oh? So you won’t tell me to stop using this mystic code instead, hm?” Her cheeky smile combined with the fact that she leaned in close to him, her warm hand now pulling his face closer-

“Wha-!?” Kadoc scrambled to pull away but was stopped by Fujimaru clinging onto him like damn koala-!!!

“Nooo!!! It’s cold! Don’t leave! I want to hide inside your jacket!”

“Then, I’ll take it off for you! Just let go!” He tried to pry her off of him, but she only clung to him tighter and buried her face in his neck.

“I don’t want that either!” She whined. Upon looking down at this stupid kouhai of his, he Kadoc realized his mistake.

He willed all the powers of the Zemlupus family to fucking calm his blush down lest his face turns into the same shade as Tristan’s hair. This idiot below him basically wanted him to hold her on the way back to the Border. Great.

Sighing, he sat them down with Ritsuka on his lap to avoid getting burnt by the cold ground on the snow before unbuttoning his coat. “Wha- What are you doing?” She asked, bewildered.

He cocked an eyebrow at her, “Uh, getting us ready to go back?”

Ritsuka cutely pouted- ugh, he was going to give up on himself as well at this point. 

It didn’t take him long to rid himself of the clothing before draping it aorund the girl’s body. He took his gloves off as well and gave it to her. “Hey, it was just a joke. You don’t have to do this y’know? The mystic code wards off most of the intense temperatures. So I’m not really affected at all.”

Keyword: most.

Years of being a mage forced to play a death game taught him to be perceptive no matter how light or extreme the situation is. And he certainly didn’t miss the slight chatter to her words whenever she spoke.

Kadoc sighed as he closed the jacket around the girl before making sure his gloves were secured around her hands. “I’m doing this because I want to.”

Looking back up to see her be the one to blush has him averting his eyes and clambering for words to follow up on that confession. “A-And that you’re seriously in for a lecture on magic later.”

Her response was a soft smile that made his heart skip a beat. “Okay.”

-

Kadoc dies as soon as they reached the command room when Ritsuka kisses his cheek with a flirty ‘thanks Kadoc-kun’ before running off to skip on class.

[shakertwelve]

“And if I couldn’t put his dick in my mouth, then maybe I could show up by his hospital bed, and I’m still sweaty and satisfied with myself and Nate is pleased.  Except it’d be because I personally kicked that asshole Paris’ ass, caved in his face, and made sure he ended up in Federal prison.”

Violence as a facsimile for a blowjob, Tristan?  Nooo.  Not fucked up at all.

becoming a tristan apologist the longer i have to spend in byron's head

[sagesfandomspot]

OH MYYY SAGE GUESS WHAT??? my friend asked me today what team i was rooting for for rory and ofc without a doubt i said jess and so far from what she’s seen she likes tristan so here’s to hoping the literati brainrot pulls through with her once she actually starts the show and doesn’t just judge based off short clips🤞🤞🤞

NOOO NOT TRISTAN WE DON'T SHIP TRISTAN IN THIS HOUSE. IS YOUR FRIEND OKAY?? Miss please help her and guide her towards literati or at least AWAY from Tristan bc she cannot root for Tristan 😭😖

[clouds-terms]

how do new alters choose their names?

which alter has the weirdest name?

does your system have ageless alters?

who is the oldest alter? how old are they?

does your system have alters who age slide or age regress?

does your system's littles want to be treated like children or adults?

do all alters have similar sexualities?

does your system have more male, female, or nonbinary alters?

do any alters use xenogenders or neopronouns?

which alter has the most gender?

what alter is the strangest species?

do any alters in your system have wings?

does your system have any animal alters?

what is the weirdest part about being a nonhuman alter?

is the majority of your system human or nonhuman?

do you have multiple alters from one source?

are most of your system's introjects connected to their source? disconnected from their source?

what is the weirdest source that an introject in your system has?

are any of your system's introjects in relationships with other introjects?

do any of your system's introjects have non-canon source memories?

what is the funniest piece of system drama?

do you enjoy being part of a system?

what's something you like that no one else in the system likes?

OMG thank you for sending this !!!! baby's first tumblr ask /posi

how do new alters choose their names?

if they aren't an introject, usually a name kinda eventually "fades into view" so to speak. sometimes we search around on name websites if they can't really think of anything! we haven't really had many alters that don't pick a name or refuse to share it.

which alter has the weirdest name?

Galaxaura/Melainassa, or Maellyx.

does your system have ageless alters?

yes! a handful of alters are ageless: Connor, Maellyx, and Noctis.

who is the oldest alter? how old are they?

i guess disregarding the ageless alters, our oldest is Lillia! She's around 1400 human years old.

does your system have alters who age slide or age regress?

yup! i age regress, and we have a few alters who age slide as well. Beau, Yuri, and Zach mostly.

does your system's littles want to be treated like children or adults?

-this depends on the little themself! Lili and Hazel want to be treated as their age, but Beau wants to be treated a little more maturely.

do all alters have similar sexualities?

nooo XD we have a wide variety of orientations in our system!

does your system have more male, female, or nonbinary alters?

hmm well at first I would've said we had more male alters, but we also now have a sizeable number of female alters. a lot of us are non-binary as well. It's a good mix.

do any alters use xenogenders or neopronouns?

oh yes, lots of us.

which alter has the most gender?

i'm not exactly sure what this question is asking but if it's asking who identifies as the most amount of genders, probably me or Max! :P We love our xenogenders

what alter is the strangest species?

Melainassa is an oceanid, Machi is a dullahan, and Lillia is a fawn centaur. so probably one of them :]

do any alters in your system have wings?

Yes! Lucifer has wings, but they aren't often out. Puck likes to be depicted with xer fairy wings, but fae don't have them physically in the headspace.

does your system have any animal alters?

Not that we are aware of. We have some partially animal alters? like dogboy (me), werewolf (Tristan), Inuyasha (half dog-demon), Lillia (fae fawn centaur), and one who wants to remain anonymous but is a snake demon.

what is the weirdest part about being a nonhuman alter?

ooh.. probably the phantom feelings of my ears and tail? and for those who are completely nonhuman, they say the limitations of human body we're in and for some not being able to speak their language.

is the majority of your system human or nonhuman?

majority human, but we do have many non-human alters!

do you have multiple alters from one source?

surprisingly, we don't!

are most of your system's introjects connected to their source? disconnected from their source?

most of them are connected to source :]

what is the weirdest source that an introject in your system has?

that would be me haha! I'm a non-canon introject of a really old VOCALOID fan series called SHION.

are any of your system's introjects in relationships with other introjects?

yesss :3 Yuri is qpps with Sayori, Max is partners with a Sapnap, I'm partners with a Karly, Wilbur, and Revlatt!

do any of your system's introjects have non-canon source memories?

yup. Me, Beau, Bobby, Inuyasha, Reaper, Puck, and Yuri.

what is the funniest piece of system drama?

One time Zach changed Lucifer's pfp to a meme image of him and we all forgot because Luci went a few months without talking, and we all lost our shit jhsdfgjhg

do you enjoy being part of a system?

yeah, for the most part!! they help me deal with things better than I could by myself <:]

what's something you like that no one else in the system likes?

hm... probably coining terms and making the flags and stuff! no one else really likes that kind of graphic design adjacent stuff.

[reyxlight]

𝐍𝐮𝐦𝐛 || Songfic

song cred. ;; @/roomieofficial

words written like this are lyrics from the song

ㅤ ㅤ

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

𝗛𝗘𝗥 𝗕𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗜𝗧𝗖𝗛𝗘𝗗 as she dropped to the ground. Her sobs echoed across the desolated graveyard. In front of her was a tombstone. She didn’t want to believe what was written on it. She couldn’t believe it. Somewhere in her consciousness was the thought that it was a lie. That everyone was lying. It was all some sick prank someone pulled. Yet right below that disbelief was the constant reminder that she was there when it happened. That it was about as real as anything she had been through. She looked at the engraving on the stone as her vision blurred with her tears of pure sorrow. The engraving said as followed : 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ In loving memory of 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ Tristan Emery Carter 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ “Dreams can always

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ come true with the

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ right attitude”

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ 2003 - 2020 

A year. A year had passed and she still felt hollow. Felt as though there was an endless void in her heart that would never be filled. She wanted to give up. To join him. What dreams could be left for her when he was gone. 

Another boy was watching from the entrance. His shoulders dropped at seeing her. He saw her everyday of course, but he hated how broken she was. Hated how he couldn’t do anything to help her. He despised how quickly life seemed to move on and how slowly she was moving, unable to catch up in the race that is life. 

He silently joined her. She didn’t look up. She didn’t question. She could feel him and she knew how he was. Just by his aura. He sat next to her and she crumpled in his arms, her sobs escalating as he held her close. No words were audibly spoken, but it was as though a conversation was happening through the silence. They sat there as the memories flooded their minds. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

Whatever happened to childhood,

Whatever happened to dreams.

Whatever happened to memories, 

Whatever happened to me. 

Junior year. Tristan had just died. She walked along the hallways, ignoring everyone’s pitiful stares. 

“Imogen Heath.” 

Imogen looked up to see the last person she wanted to see. Ms. Kiva. The school’s counsellor. Her counsellor if she ever went to her room in time without her finding Imogen. 

“My office please.” 

Imogen couldn’t remember if she nodded. She couldn’t remember moving. Clearly she had, her new sight was the inside of Ms. Kiva’s office. By the desk, someone was sitting on a chair. Imogen was met with the same gunmetal blue eyes she saw in the mirror every day. 

“Take a seat next to Ezra.” Ms. Kira instructed. Her voice was calm and soft, yet unlike every other kid, Imogen wasn’t relaxed or soothed by her voice. Guess I’m just different. She thought as she did what was asked of her. 

“She found you too huh sis?” Ezra whispered to his younger sister as she plopped into the chair next to him. 

“Oh nooo, I came here on my own will.” She replied, rolling her eyes. He huffed in response. She was never sarcastic. Then again, she had never felt this empty either.  

“Alright you both. Avoiding me won’t help.” 

“Really? Cause it's worked pretty great up until now.” Ezra shrugged, leaning back on the chair. Imogen nodded. While she knew her brother could be an idiot, she had to agree with him.

“No jokes please Mr. Heath. How have you both been feeling?” Kiva asked, sitting on a chair in front of the desk, facing the siblings. 

“Is this woman for real-” Ezra muttered, only audible to his sister. 

“We’ve been feeling slightly better. It’s been hard but we’ve been reflecting. Once our parents come home we talk with our parents and we always talk to each other.” 

The lie came so easily, Ezra almost blew it by questioning it, but a quick warning glance from Imogen stopped him. 

“Imo’s right. We really have been doing better. Like extremely, super duper, words cannot des- ow…we’ve been doing better,” he said rubbing his arm where his sister had just hit him for over-doing it. 

Ms. Kiva looked at them, analysing the siblings before nodding slightly. “Alright, if you need anything, you have my number.” 

They nodded and got up to leave. 

I was supposed to better,

I was supposed to be true.

But I,

I sold out too. 

“Oh and Ms. Heath,” Imogen turned to look at the middle-aged woman. “Take care of yourself. Your grades have been slipping.” 

She nodded and shut the door after leaving. Her grades were dropping horribly. But she had no intention of picking them up yet. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

We said we’d make it together, 

We said we’d never give up.

We gave each other forever, 

But then we had to grow up. 

Young Imogen was giggling as her brother played some magic tricks. Time progressed and soon, freshman year arrived. Imogen waited patiently for her brother to do a trick he always did on the first day of school ever since he learnt it. 

It may have been childish or overused, but it was such a big important part of Imogen’s life, a tradition almost, that she felt incomplete without it. 

That morning she grinned at her brother who was walking down the steps. Ezra gave her a questioning glance. 

“Do you want something from me?” He asked, slinging his backpack across his shoulder. 

“What? No…I just thought you would do the thing.” 

“The thing?”

“You know, that thing you’ve always down where you take a pen from behind my ear and always say ‘Let’s go make this our year.’” 

Ezra thought for a moment before realising what she was talking about. 

“Come on sis, magic tricks are for children. You’re in high school now. Grow up.” He muttered, and started walking to the bus stop. Imogen stood in silence and sighed before running to follow him. 

We were supposed to be stronger,

We were supposed to be true.

But we,

We gave up too.

“Yeah..I was being silly. They are for children.” She replied as she sat next to him at the back of the bus. He nodded in approval, but what he didn’t realise was that with that sentence said out loud, a part of Imogen was lost. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

We all go numb,

We all go numb,

We all go numb.

Distract ourselves,

So we don’t see,

what we’ve become.

People clamouring the halls towards the Heath siblings at the start of junior year after a month's break. Imogen wanted to disappear. She wanted the ground to swallow her whole. She felt scared. Then, a hand pulled her into the classroom. 

“Isla!” She gasped in relief as her best friend locked the door. The brunette gave her a lopsided grin. 

“What would you do without me?” She joked. Isla was the only person other than her brother who knew how badly Tristan’s death actually affected Imogen. 

Imogen laughed at her question and the duo didn’t comment on how hollow and fake it sounded. Despite actually enjoying the joke, Imo couldn’t feel like she could in the past. Nothing felt real enough for her. Nothing felt worth her actual emotions anymore. 

Isla gave her a hug, and she hugged back, her heart feeling as cold as her skin on a winter’s day. Imogen had reached a stage where she couldn’t even cry, she just felt empty. Isla knew this and felt upset that she couldn’t do anything further to help her. 

“I know how much you hate this question, but how are you doing?”

“I don’t know anymore, Isla. Everyday just feels the same at this point.”

“You know I’m here for you right? Forever and ever.” 

Imogen nodded. She didn’t like how standoff-ish she sounded, but she couldn’t do anything about it.

We all go numb,

We all go numb,

We all go numb.

You comprise all you believe in,

Then you’re numb, 

believe in nothing. 

Isla sighed. She helped her sneak back out into the hallways without being spotted by any talkative people, knowing that Imo wouldn’t be up for talking to anyone. 

The past few months cause her to be super introverted. She wouldn’t talk to anybody, she didn’t speak up in class. Most of all, she didn’t chat with her friend groups, just a select few like Isla. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

Whatever happened to true love,

The kind you feel when you’re young.

When she was all you could think of,

I guess those feelings are gone. 

Start of freshman year, she saw him. Tristan Carter, locally loved and appreciated and academically brilliant enough to get scholarships. They went to the same middle school and yet despite having a crush on him, Imogen had probably only talked to him twice. 

He was generally close to her brother however. Through that, she managed to start getting the courage to talk to him. Afterwards, they became pretty close friends. 

Soon enough it was Christmas on campus. Christmas was also the last day of school. People were cheering and teachers sighed knowing that nothing would happen educationally. Imogen scanned the crowds and went to Tristan. 

“Hey Tris.” She said, calling him. He turned to look at her after clearing out his locker. 

“Hey Imo! Merry Christmas!” He said with a grin. She replied with the greeting, matching his grin. 

“By the way, can I ask you something…later? When we aren’t almost squashed by people.” She asked with a laugh and they pressed themselves against the wall since the next wave of high schoolers rushed through the halls. 

“Yeah of course. After school?” He asked and she nodded in agreement. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

Soon, they were both alone in the library. “So, what did you want to ask me?” 

“Well it’s not much of a question, but it’s kinda more of like…a statement…” she said, getting a little awkward as the time went on. 

He nodded encouragingly and she took a deep breath. 

“I..uh..I like you Tris…and I mean…more than just friends.” She mumbled and he stared at her for a second to process what she had said. 

“Oh.”

“Oh…oh I mean, if you wanna just stay friends- I didn’t mean, I just..ughhh.”  She rambled, feeling frustrated with herself.

“No no no!” Tristan said in a slight panic, holding her hand. He stared into her eyes, honey brown meeting the gunmetal blue of hers. “I said ‘oh’ because I was actually gonna ask you if you wanted to be more than friends this evening but you beat me to it.” 

She gasped and then surprised them both by laughing. He joined in the laughs. “The answer is yes by the way.” She said with a shy smile to which he grinned wide. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

My friends have started to settle,

Guess they just want to be two.

And I, 

I’ll settle too. 

But I,

I still want you.

Valentine's Day after his death was the most dreadful day. She would’ve spent the day with Isla and Ezra but they had plans with their own significant others and she didn’t want them to bail. 

She spent her time in her room. Admittedly, she spent the first few hours crying alone. She couldn’t cry in front of people anymore. In fact, around people, she felt emotionless. Like as though someone had put all her emotions on anaesthetics. 

However when she was alone, the anaesthesia wore off and she’s left going through the stages of grief all alone. It wasn’t ideal, but she felt like she couldn’t control what was and wasn’t good for her anymore. Like she was a puppet on someone else’s strings. 

She then scrolled through her phone's album, enjoying the sorrow the pictures gave her. She had this alter ego arise in her. A different side of her who loved seeing her in pain. Who enjoyed the sadness. Who longed for it. She wasn’t even sure if the person she was seeing in the pictures was her anymore. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

We all go numb,

We all go numb,

We all go numb.

Distract ourselves, 

So we don’t see,

what we’ve become.

Senior year. The final high school year. The year she would take single and alone. People stopped asking her how she’s doing. People stopped talking to her in general. 

Teachers asked her one question to make sure she was still there but left her be afterwards. Student general avoided eye contact with her and didn’t start up any conversations. 

Imogen seemed to enjoy this. She hated when everyone faked their pity and asked her how she was, when they didn’t really care. They just wanted to seem ‘nice’. She despised the act. 

She would go the day only talking to her best friend and brother, occasionally talking to a teacher if needed. She didn’t visit Ms. Kiva anymore. She stated she was fine, just needed to be alone. 

If anyone asked her how she was doing, she would lie. She did it so much, it came naturally. No effort was needed and people, as she put it, were pathetic enough to believe her. 

Yet whenever her brother asked her, she complied in telling him the truth. 

“Numb.” She would say. “I feel numb.” 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

We all go numb,

We all go numb,

We all go numb.

You compromise all you believe in,

Then your numb,

Believe in nothing.

Ezra shifted his weight and Imogen looked at him, her eyes puffy and red from the hours of crying in front of the tomb. She was surprised to see a few stray tears from her brother.

“I’m sorry,” he mumbled, “I should’ve realised how bad this is for you.”

“I wasn’t making it very easy for you to know.” She said, her voice cracking slightly. She gave him a small smile and wiped his tears.

“Please tell me the truth when I ask this. How are you?”

“Surprisingly…I feel slightly better. While crying for hours straight wouldn’t be an ideal choice…it lifted some weight off my shoulders. I just wish…I could’ve stopped this from happening.” 

“It was a car accident, Immie. You couldn’t have done anything.” Ezra said, using the nickname he hadn’t said since they were kids.

“Still…” she paused, thinking. “You’re right Ez. I can’t change what happened.” She decided with a nod. 

“But I can still change the future. Tris always wanted to make an art gallery. I can help him do that.” 

Ezra nodded. “I can help you…I’ll find some places while I’m in college. You’re okay with me going?” 

“You’ve got a life bro. I can’t keep you away from it.” 

“It isn’t a bother though.”

“I insist.”

“Fine…but..” he grinned and placed a hand behind her ear, extracting a pen from the back of her ear. 

“Let’s go make this our year.”

Imogen laughed and for the first time in a year, she felt alive. Even Ezra could tell how real and raw her laugh was. He grinned. 

“I should’ve done that so long ago. Now I know how much it meant to you. I was wrong before. Magic isn’t for children. Magic is for anyone with a good enough imagination to believe in it.” He said, his grin fading into more of a sad smile. 

Imogen leaned over and hugged him. Physical affection also being something she had not done in a long time.  

“Thank you Ez. For being there with me. For everything.” 

He hugged back, relieved to see his sister back in normalcy.

“Always sis. Always.”

The Heath siblings stayed there a little while longer. When they left, they left fulfilled and for some, happier than when they came. 

ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ❛ ━━･❪ ❦ ❫ ･━━ ❜

And thus begins my angst fic journey- listen i’m a real angst fic enjoyed so when i first heard this song, I immediately envisioned this story of a ‘death of first love’ kinda troupe. This story is again one of my older ones, from Sept. 2021 but i still really enjoy the way it came out.

Also this is my official account for my stories and edits so ig this is also technically the first story i’m posting here?? mainly cause i’m lazy to transfer the other stuff so it’s all been reblogged from my main.

anyways, hope you guys like this <33 have a great day/night and i’ll see you around :)

[bitchinbarzal]

https://www.tumblr.com/bitchinbarzal/730013969902927872/nooo-stoppp-jude-gets-so-sad-and-he-feels-left-out

Okay but Trevor scolds the twins and tells them they have to be good and kind to their cousin and Tristan says something about how annoying it is to take care of a baby

Mason has had enough

Trevor and Mom Z are taking this very serious though because Mom Z is pregnant with Mila at the time so they kind of need Tristan to be nice.

[engagemythrusters]

Okay ep4 time to roll my eyes

Hhh

Okay I’m bored already. Sabine is saving grace of the show. This is boring

Awww she’s calling for her mom 🥺

God I like this planet but. Overall for this show I hate it. Because the LACK OF COLOUR IS BAD

UM EXCUSE ME?!

You are NOT leaving ezra behind

You can explode thrawn if he gets back. BUT YOU WILL NOT FUCKING ABANDON EZRA.

I miss clone wars Huyang. When ahsoka rebooted him she took all his personality out and trashed it.

Shin Hati ur sooo cute.

Reeeeally hate shins hair tho. So 2020s.That won’t age. That’s going to stay 2020s and when people watch this in 20 years they will rightfully make fun of costuming.

Disney pay people to give a shit about this please

I’m so sick of Ahsoka’s shitty ass lekku and montrals

“Relax” YOU JIST TOLD HER TO ABANDON HER BROTHER

Jumpsca—yep. Knew it. Disney cares about nothing except shock value

SABINE N HER GUNS in her ARMOUR

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR

THIS JS WHAT I WANTED

AAAAAH

okay bored again now.

“Stay together” lines sooo stupid. Rolling my eyes.

I could write better in my sleep.

JACEN MY BABY BOY

Ghost?!

GHOST?!

Rip that guy he doesn’t get paid enough

GHOST

He’s sitting where his brother used to sit where his father used to sit. I’m not okay. I’m truly not.

Where… is the ghosts colour.

Where’s the yellow.

Also why… is that guy around again. Do we NEED mando refs.

AW JACEN PULLED IT

Bored again.

Baylon is interesting tho. I want to know more about him and Shin.

Kay stupid action scene. Bored. Zoning out.

I love cranberries tho I’m having a cranberri orange scone that I made from scratch. So tasty. Burned at the bottom bc my oven doesn’t work right (the airflow is very poor). But the orange glaze j made mostly covers it.

Ooo tree destruction

Okay all that twirly for nothing is so stupid

Oop so Marrok was just. Nightsister magic. I figured as much.

Buff Santa will protect the map

Oh this bitch knew anakin?

Ofc everyone knew anakin he was a bitch that never followed protocol

Buff Santa Baylon is very interesting

WHY DOES SHE HOLD THEM FORWARD

AHSOKA *DOES NOT HOLD HER LIGHTSABERS FORWARD*

IM SO MAD EVERY TIME SHE FIGHTS BC THEY DO IT *WRONG*

If they can’t do it right. DONT DO IT AT ALL.

This should have been animated. This should not have Filoni. This shouldnt be set so far back in the timeline.

Hhh when do we see ezra.

I don’t care about this I want exra

OH FINALLY BACKWARD HOLSING

Nope

Spoke too soon

Sabine putcher helmet back on

Hehe

Kanan and Fenn Rau taught her that 🥰

OH RIP SHIN

Oop buff Santa big mad

Don’t destroy take it

Take it YOU NEED EZRA

is shin really dead tho that would be bad and make the show boring

She’s not like Ahsoka. She’s like Hera. She’s like Kanan. She’s like Ezra. She’s like her family.

Oh no… clan wren…

Oh no…

Tristan…

Oh my god hera and Jacen and chopper and zeb are all she has left. All. No wonder she wants ezra back so so much. Even much more than before.

Stab his hand STAB HIS HAND

nooo sabine WOULDNT

No she would NOT

Oh butt

Sabine wouldn’t do that.

Ghost

Where’s the yellow for the ghost?

Oh my god

Sabine wouldn’t have done that

Well now she’ll be inside the ship tho

She’ll go to ezra

Ezra I miss you so much. I hope we see you soon <3

Gonna run right thru em all except hera bc she’s in the middle

Interesting. But predictable. Did we all expect that? Yes we did!

Crunchy.

Jacen baby you shouldn’t be here

IF THEY END UP NOT OKAH ILL BE SO SAD

Okay good good

“I’ve got a bad feeling” oh he’s like his brother he’s like his father I’m going to cry. I don’t… I can’t…

Wow great shot of Bad Lekku And Montrals

Sparkle water

WORLD BETWEEN WORLDS

Is she dead?!

SHE CAN WALK TO EZRA

..: she man save Kanan…

HELLO SNIPS

How is he full body tho he’s dead

Where’s his scar?

DID THEH CGI HUM UOUNGER

I HATE THAT SO MUCH

OH

The MUSIC

Wow and ofc they cut it off right as it gets interesting

Kay. Bored now.

[joseopher]

HELLO, LADIES, WORMS, HOMOSEXUALS

As we know I check the novacaine tags daily.

NEW. GOD. COMPLEX. UPDATE.

GO READ IT HEEEERREE: god complex

WHY YOU SHOULD READ THIS FIC:

YOU WILL CRY

Spoilers! Spoilers! Spoilers! Spoilers! Spoilers! Spoilers! Spoilers!

"Callum knew it was going to hurt. Perhaps he knew from the beginning. Ever since he let himself get used to Tristan, he knew it would hurt him. Someone like him could never get used to someone. He could never get used to anyone staying in his life. He could hold up the act of royal all he wanted. Pretend that he was a royal because he was born into it. But deep down he’d always know that all of it was fake. And no matter how hard he ignored the headaches and pains now and then. He could kid himself into thinking people liked him, that he was worth appreciating, to begin with. But it would never be true. Nothing would ever be because he was worth it. "

I'M GOING TO CRRRRRYYYYYYY

"Although he hadn’t really figured out how yet. He would not let them down. Not after everything. It wasn’t loyalty per se. It was more of a debt that he had to pay. He did order them around without any actual authority for at least two years. He’d make sure everyone in the palace would be cared for. He’d probably have to steal from the actual royals for it. But nobody could blame him for that. The monarchy was way too wealthy, to begin with."

iT'S NoT LoYaLtY GuYs iT'S A DeBt i sWeAr

THEY ARE YOUR BEST BUDS CALLUM!!!!

"And when you’re someone who can make anyone do anything, someone having agency and still choosing you is the biggest fantasy there could ever be."

TRUE FACTS CALLUM

My poor little meow meow...he wants people so badly....

(THE WRITING IS AMAZING)

"'You know if you wanted me to take you out for lunch you could have just asked, didn’t have to fly this far for that,' Callum teased. He wasn’t prepared for the way Tristan flushed at that. It made something possessive and intense flutter in his chest. He pushed it down as far as it could go."

NOOO CALLUM DON'T PUSH IT DOWN!! NOOO CALLUM!

“Ahh yes. I like it deep,”

*dies* /pos

"Slowly but then with icy clarity, it hit Callum. He felt something for him. More than just physical attraction. As Tristan talked and ordered him a drink, Callum just wished for the moment to last forever. He wished for them to be like this. He wished for Tristan to keep talking to him. Keep touching his leg. He wished for Tristan to kiss him when they weren’t fucking."

YEEESSSSSSSSSSSS

"Callum hated the fact that he liked that. He liked making people afraid. And he hated that he liked it"

Callum: I like making people afraid.

Me: The precious little baby boy he's so sad, why don't you hug him, Tristan?

"Tristan followed her gaze just in time to see Reina run into his arms. She threw his arms around his neck and Callum returned the hug just as eagerly. He pressed his face in the space between her neck just like he’d done to Tristan before."

THEEEEEMMMMM <3

“Ugh. You’re just like Callum. Forgive me for saying nice things.”

“You’re forgiven.”

“Oh fuck off.” 

Me: Guys I swear Callum and Tristan are my favourite duo

Me, when Nico and Tristan are friends:

“With your pace, maybe,”

“Not everyone is constantly rushing, Rhodes.”

“I thought gay people walked faster.”

“I’m not even gay, you know that. Can’t say the same about you, huh?”

“I’m not gay either!”

“Something a gay person would say.”

“I am in fact gay,” 

I LOVE THESE GUYS SO MUCH

"Callum was in love with him. He was in love with him. 

Callum was in love with him and Tristan just let it happen. Just went with it because he thought he was hot. What kind of horrible person does that?"

MY HEART </3

“I can’t leave him,”

“You can,”

“I don’t want to,”

“I know,” Libby replied. Both of them seemed to know that whatever Tristan wanted to didn’t matter."

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME /POS

“Christ, you asexual nightmare. Never delivering on the gossip.”

True facts about asexuals can confirm

“I ask myself the same question every day. I thought maybe it was a phase. Thought it would go away on its own. But then I talked to Parisa. She told me that she had seen you. Told me you were doing well. And I hated her for it. I wanted to be there. I wanted to see how you were doing. I wanted to see your stupid stubborn face.” 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

“You can stay. Let’s start with one night.”

IT'S SO BITTERSWEET??? I LOVE ITTTTTTTT!!

I LOVE IT!

SO AMAZING!!!!!!

MY HEART IS GOING TO BURST!

[cherienymphe]

BABY NOOO 😭😭

I’m team Jess I KNOW I KNOW he was a shit bf but their build up?? Unmatched. Jess in the Yale era was so bf. Logan is a solid choice I think I just resent rich people, Tristan if he had more time would have been the best but Dean is 🤮

As someone who is team Logan 60% of the time and team Jess 40%, as long as we all can agree Dean is the worst we are good 😭

[maljic]

nooo FREE TRISTAN why is he in jail?

[skz-chatbot]

Nova: I don’t think Mum would approve Appa. Plus, someone already beat Zelia to a napping spot on me. Tristan is fast asleep.

Tristan: *face snuggled into Nova’s chest, softly snoring* mmmm nooo va!

Chan: let’s get you three upstairs for a proper nap with eomma and Astrid.

Nova: carry please appa?

Binnie: I’ve got our astronaut, you get Zelia, hyung.

🌊

Yep, c'mon munchkin it's nap time

[valaratminaforaldrar]

remember that scene where tristan's like i want to kill you so badly and kas is like ok do it :) and tristan's like nooo death is too good for you and kas is like lol. well. i just stabbed this guy like a million times and he didn't die for a while so now you know how much injury the human body can sustain. here's a knife you can stab me if you want

[gwilin-stay-winnin]

Gwilin of the Day: "Clear-Cut" Gwilin

Today's Gwilin of the day is brought to you by: Tim008 on ao3!

Journey Through Skyrim [Chapter 27 & 28]

Published: July 31, 2021

Rated: Mature

Length: ~16,000 words

Featuring: Male Dragonborn OC, Fem. OC, Temba, Wilhelm, Lynly

Set in: Eastmarch, Ivarstead

REVIEW

Journey Through Skyrim is this fic's name and, in it, Gwilin is but a humble passerby in that journey the author's OCs are taking. He appears briefly in both chapters, his presence marked simply by his chipper attitude and the general easiness with which all the Gwilins tend to handle their social interactions.

This Gwilin sticks to the script for the most part (literally, the in-game script for Gwilin makes up a good chunk of his dialogue here). He speaks to the author's OC, Tristan, as he's trying to return a ring to Temba, and casts praise on him after his bardly performance at the inn. Later on, he sees him and his companion off when they head up to High Hrothgar, but not without thanking Tristan for whatever he said to Temba that lifted her previously soured spirits.

A nice, clear-cut Gwilin overall, who is quaint and unassuming in the meager space he occupies in this story.

Moment that my mind chose to fixate on: When Gwilin calls after Temba as she leaves the inn. The way he does is so cute. "nooo, miss temba, wait! i'll go with you!!!!" That's the sorta dotiness I love to see.

I. Compellingness

This is an unremarkable Gwilin, which is to be expected given that he is not the focus of the story, only appearing in about 500 of its 147,000 words. 5/10

II. Swagger

The swag levels flatlined here. Very sad. That being said, he could've been more swagless, I suppose. 3/10

III. Talent

Neither feats, nor skills, nor abilities were presented. This is a seemingly talentless Gwilin. I am saddened by this... 1/10

IV. Backstory

None presented, but he has a small a role in this story, so no tally here. __/10

V. Pleasure of Reading

This story has one of the more unusual approaches to prose of those I've reviewed so far. It reads more like a screenplay, or what the captions to a collaborative let's play series would be like. Very heavy in dialogue, and very succinct in its descriptions. I really liked that! It felt easy to read and follow along with.

In some parts, the author's brief or unimaginative descriptions can be detrimental to the flow of the story, or even come off as dry. The dialogue is definitely this story's strong suit. Tropes abound in it, which was sometimes really fun, and sometimes a bit trite. A mixed bag, all in all, though I can't say this story didn't pull a few laughs out of me with its characters' quirks. Temba's outbursts were especially entertaining to read. 7/10

VI. Horniness

No horniness whatsoever, but, again, Gwilin was not the focus of this story, so some leeway is due. 5/10

Final Tally

My

autistic ass

gives this Gwilin a 4/10!

[smorgasbordofobsessions]

liveblog: yugioh! s416-420

ep416

i still love the fact that kaiba didn't help them it's actually funny

yami :(

i hope we DO learn more about yami this season because i'd love ot know more about his past as well

this season seems to be building up to that so hopeuflly they pay out

yami's gonna get wrinkles if he keeps frowning

so i'm about to finish off a bottle of wine, and ... i might have another haha

"how could i have been so selfish!"

he called dark magician girl useless??? yami nooo

to his credit, yami is actually remorseful and regretful of his actions

"i've lost him forever"

n yami you haven't!!!! you'll get yugi back!!!!

once this episode is done i am absolutely getting another bottle of wine

it's open already so i have to drink it anyways

so the train was emptied and split up so now joey and tristan are with rex; and yami and tea are in the oving part, with weevil

time for duels!!

oof weevil's gonna go with the emotional manipulation angle nice

"pheromone wasp" so you already know this is gonna be a problem

ep417

got the other bottle of wine so let's goooooo

ishould make a meal as well

i did now it's time for the episode

keep in mind y'all that if you drink make sure to eat something and drink some water to help mitigate the effects of alcohol

"save it geekasauros. i've got more power in my left nostril than you do"

"this dartz guy must prey on people's weaknesses by promising them power"

-surprised pickachu face-

"are you finished yet? i'm sick of hearing your sob story!"

rexis upset that he doesn't have (fickle) fame like bro

so i wonder if different souls have different values/weights? because if dartz is telling the leviathan to be patient for the pharaoh's soul, and we know the pharaoah's soul is super important, then his would have more "power" to it yes?

ep418

cocooooooon

"what are you, mother goose?"

some backstory on giafried the iron knight nice

yami went to play the eye of tomias and tomias noped out of the battle because of how yami treated his monsters in the last duel (when he was supped up on the power of the seal of orichalcos)

oh wow wevil knows how to save yugi's soul?? but the card is an insect so i thin he's lying

hahahahah yeha he was lying

"you snake"

yami was not into that little "joke"

hahahahhahha yami played "berserk" and even though weevil's already at 0 life points he was still attacking

yami is NOT about playing iwth yugi's soul especially since he realized he fucked up in the last duel

ep419

"without your light to keep me pure"

"you need to be a man for once and face me in a duel now!"

yami is dueling yugi in some weird soul cicle

hm prettysure this spirit!yugi ... yep i was right

this spirit!yugi is just for ami to defeat hie fears

yugi looks so weird with his eyes half-closed

yami has defeated rhe darkness inside his heart

honestly did people have to write puzzle/blindshipping when this shit writes tiself

ep420

hm. wasn't it convenient that yami was able to find this special soul-searching circle in the middle of nowhere after the train derailed in the middle of nowhere?

think i might make yugioh a two month thing because i actually do want to watch the other series; i remember enjoying 5Ds whenever i was able to catch it. but i don't care much for the colors of zexal...

"seems like the pharaoh is in pretty bad shape down there"

"of course. there's still a hole in his heart that has yet to be filled"

he's crying thank you but also this makes me sad as well :(

"mark my words! i won't rest until i get you back!"

this shit literally writes itself wow

i've never really been tempted to read ygo fic but i feel like i might be

yami is stressed and i'm loving the look

rafael, via dratz, summoned a dead soldier

the dead soilder has a duel disk??? wow

okay so this old man knows so much because him and the girl (and the dog) fought in the ancient war 10,000yrs ago

hm so the spirits of the lost souls of atlantis can help yami but he has to summon duel monsters for their assistance

so i'll safely say thiswon't be a typical turn based duel? or maybe it will????

hm so life points still are a factor

this is turning out to be quite intersting way to duel

naruto run!

hm so dartz was around 10,000yrs ago as well

this dude survived 10,000yrs and he died from a direct lightning strike? weak

"chris are you all right?!" she just got hit by direct lightning as well!

"What is it?" bro it's the fucking dragon card you felt unworhty to have what else could it have been???

YAMI HAS ATONED AND IS REMORSEFUL AND IS WORTHY OF TOMIAS!!!

wow with the triumphant music!!