#The Dark Interval

[weirdlookindog]

Hector Garrido (1928-2020) - The Dark Interval, 1967

[dk-thrive]

I am very concerned when I imagine how strangled and cut off you currently live, afraid of touching anything that is filled with memories (and what is not filled with memories?). You will freeze in place if you remain this way. You must not, dear. You have to move.

— Rainer Maria Rilke, The Dark Interval: Letters on Loss, Grief, and Transformation (Modern Library, August 14, 2018)

[serahisui]

[bubblebel2]

We must learn to die: That is all of life.

[bookloure]

Rilke's The Dark Interval, and some quiet moments from the past few days.

I'm realizing more and more that I dislike the noise of cities. I want to be closer to nature, just listening to the hum of cicadas and the tweeting of birds.

[bloody-mary-magdalene]

the dark interval by rainer maria rilke

my psychiatrist gave me a book to read. its to help w grief and suicidal ideation, im supposed to pick parts out that spoke to me and this is what i have so far

🪐"i am hoping for a small, old house and an old garden where i may spend a long period by myself with nothing but nature and a few things pulsing with the gentle rhythms of the past"

🪐"death, especially the most felt and experienced death, has never remained an obstacle to life for surviving individual, because it's innermost essence is not contrary to us (as one may occasionally suspect), but it is more knowing about life than we are in our most vital moments"

🪐"don't believe that something that belongs to our pure realities could drop away and simply cease"

🪐"does the person who passes away not leave all the things he had began in hundreds of ways to be continued by those who outlive him, if they had shared any kind of inner bond at all?"

🪐"if people took simple pleasure in reality (which is entirely independent of time) they would never have needed to come up with the idea that they could ever again lose anything with which they had truly bonded"

[nerefee]

when rainer maria rilke said „only those can go away from us whom we never possessed. And we cannot even grieve the fact of never really having possessed this one or that one: We would have neither time nor strength nor justification for doing so.“ I felt that

[why-the-heck-not]

30.09.23, saturday

I am a javascript god (me when i’m delusional and also lying)

things done today:

6h of trying to not suck at javascript (got it to work the way it’s supposed to (i’m hoping))

managed to carve out time to actually chill guilt-free (well,, mainly guilt-free, like 70%)

[post-it-notes7]

look what he's gotten himself into now

[regicidal-defenestration]

The thing about the Bulwer-Lytton Fiction Contest is that they say it awards bad openings, but it is, let's be honest, mostly about making it funny. Yes, the entries have to be a bit florid, have no consistent tone even within one sentence, and you can't describe a character in a way that even approaches "normal", but it has to be bad in a distinctly entertaining way

[jt1674]

[dingbats-dust-n-darkness]

currently thinking that perhaps Gaster is not a skeleton, but a closely related type of monster

[bubblebel2]

And while I am completely engulfed in my sadness, I am happy to sense that you exist, beautiful one. I am happy to have flung myself without fear into your beauty just as a bird flings itself into space. I am happy, dear, to have walked with steady faith on the waters of our uncertainty all the way to that island which is your heart and where pain blossoms. Finally: happy.

[rt-intervals]

RT INVERVALS: Nocide and Dark (Mini-Test comic)

[besnouted]

having to live and exist in one room that includes all of my houseplants truly hindering my circadian rhythm

[re-ikrmso]

not sure but in regards to my main antag of RT INTERVALS, I'm almost afraid to write them with more sympathetic traits. people are free to make interpretations of what they read, that is true and that is always that beauty in seeing something different from the same mirror.

it just happens that said character is (alongside most of the ocs i have) are personal to a degree and parallel some things.

it is probably my mistake to have a story mirror some aspects of me too closely, but as of now it will progress as it is. the characters are supposed to be nuanced, or somewhat complex. both sides are hurting but one side is actively, passively making the decision to hurt the other. no one is the pure good. the closest that would be is c!blue. the darkest on the spectrum would be c!dark, and yet he is not the main antagonist.

i want to make it clear that the antag is not excessively cruel just for the fun of it (they can be) but that a lot of their actions are from grief and some kind of "responsibility". it's piled on with a lot of stuff, but I'm afraid to show that the antag truly cares because then the meaning may be lost. I'm afraid people will take the antag's side, just because they are hurting and pin the main characters for "not doing enough".

there is no catch all solution. there is no talking out, because it falls on deaf ears. there is no holding hands with the enemy. no one has that emotional capacity, that knowledge. it should also not fall on the victim to "fix" their captor, their abuser.

the ending will be weirdly triumphant, yes, almost out of a show. things are still being decided but one thing is for sure. there is no happy ending for ALL, there is no "karma".

c!nameless is not taking c!dark's side, but they're not taking c!nocide's side either. they just want out.